SONNY NATALY’ S LIFE · Please Love, won’ t you save me from all that surrounds me tonight? Take me away to a place of calm. Away, from all the anger and loneliness, that faces

SONNY NATALY’ S

THE MZ.KONSEPCION OF LIFE FIVE TALES OF LOVE & HEARTACHE Hold me not to how I write, for there is meaning in my flaws. WRITTEN BETWEEN 2000 & 2001

the mz.konsepcion of life: five tales of love & heartache | conception

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UnI It’ s your fragile beauty, as it turns me into stone. It’ s your fragile beauty, that keeps me going on and on. Through the rain you make, my sun shines so bright. With all that I do wrong, you don’ t laugh or turn away. You leave me to be a fool, following your every step and listening to all that you say. I ’ ve left myself. . . Sunken, into the never-ending warmth that you have brought on, in this winter‘ s night, to my soul. I search my mind for answers to all that it is you deny, day, once more, turns to night. I am set in a trance, as I drive through the night. In between the fading in and out of lights overhead, thoughts clear like the past evening’ s fog. I am left with no doubts, so tell me why, this isn’ t right? . . .Because I can’ t fight myself for the reasons you’ ve made wrong, from all that was you and I .


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Wrong | Right I ’ d walk through to Eden, and if I was alone even then, I ’ d be the only one who’ d weaken and crawl away, instead of taking a stand; for you so magnificently have captured me in your web. Tangled, l ike the fate which brought me to your feet on the coldest day. On the coldest day, I was a toy that brought warmth; that was until, I became run down. You handed me down for a prize much greater. A prize that shined like the tears, that crawled down my face, l ike rain. Like rain, streaming down a window and drying in the warmth of day; you’ ve left a trail of hurt and discontent, to which I relentlessly hold, in hopes of appeasement. Yet, this ache grows without satisfaction, and I ’ m beginning to feel so numb. . . .Not knowing, my place in life. . . .Not knowing, if my love for you, is so very wrong or just right.


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Naked She was naked, making headline news. I turned away, and saw that I was of no use. She turned away, and left me to take on my abuse. We were both naked in our thoughts, sometimes, that was worse than not. For it tended to be our naked thoughts, that kept leaving the same bad taste, in both of our mouths. One by one, the hours faded away like my life. It was then that I was caught staring, past what she was wearing. There was no denying, I was forsaking that which was not mine. We were both naked in our thoughts, seems like that was worse than not. For it ended up being our naked thoughts, that left us, just as we did us. Admittedly, walking alone through the night, only left me questioning, all that I ’ d wondered and all that I ’ d asked of this woman before; only to be told in the end, of where it was that I belonged in her life. What was, will be. Memories shed, l ike cloth to skin.


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Free Me: Tonight Free me tonight, for the sky is high as the sea is deep. The road is narrow, as this wall is steep. Send me sailing, your oceans in disarray; searching your heart for warmth, only to be left afloat with nothing but time. Time alone cannot mend the wings of a dove. A dove that without love, is defeated by the pain that it is left to bear. So let the bees sting me, as I stand frozen in fear. Let the butterflies pass me by, with only a glance and not an unending stare, brought by the turn of the head. Gently, I will float away like the days that have passed, since when I sat as King, upon the throne; of which I pictured you as my Queen. Free me tonight. Bring me comfort in the darkness, a stairway to your highness. For I know you to be, the other half that makes me whole.


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Broken Hearted Soldier Looking back at you, I can see time freeze. Broken down, buried under the ground. In this state of trust, I have become so numb. A broken hearted soldier under the spell of love, cast by tenderness and beauty. Never escaping, I am but a prisoner with my hands in the air, willing to fall at your feet. No matter the time of day, whenever I looked at her, I saw a world of peaceful rage in her eyes of fire. How mesmerizingly they burned with the passion of the sun, and at the same time, the sensuality of the moon. Even now, as the light beams down on her beauty, all I can say is that I surrender. A broken hearted soldier, here, for you, forever. Patiently waiting at your side. A broken hearted soldier, at your beck and call, to do all that you ask.


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At Your Feet (Déjà Vu) Is there nothing that can be done, to stop the sands of time? I ’ ve been here waiting for you, but now, I ’ ve come to realize that when you look at me, you only see past me. If I could break through to be seen by only you, I ’ d go to the ends of the world, and fall into space this night. Am I a fool to be in love with you? The thought of you by my side, is too hard to let go. Tonight, there’ s nothing left for me, except to wait patiently. I know no one will see me cry. There’ s no one left to shoulder my heart; the one that I so boldly wore on my sleeve, only ‘ cause I wished to be a man in your eyes and not a ghost; slowly drifting like the waves at your feet. All I am now, is the fragile ground that you scar with your every step. All I am now is the fragile ground. Not a whisper Darling, no, I won’ t make a sound. All I hold is the hope, that you will come round to see the present me, and not turn to a future without.


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Left Behind Left to walk alone. Left to run from home. Left to trust in all those, who you’ ve left behind. With every thought, I fall to myself l ike a heart seen bleeding. . . .A stained silhouette. Who will hear my calls this night? I lay awaken. I lay numb. I lay alone, searching the sky for an answer to my life. Is there no end, is there no beginning, from where I was to where I am? Don’ t leave me alone here, there’ s just room enough for us. Don’ t turn back the hands of time, this world is ours alone. This world is ours.


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For You So close, yet so far away. Every sigh of mine, you break. Every breath of mine, you take. You’ ll be my last wish in death. Nothing more I want, than to see you complete me. This wish I cast upon the stars; from this day through to eternity, I will wait patiently to receive your love and attention. From now and for forever on; I will l ive only for that day when you come back to me, so that we can spend the rest of this life. Until then, I will bleed and be in strife for you. . . .My being weakened beyond expression. For as long as I can say all I feel without having anything to conceal; not even the fear of all that I bring upon myself, by doing everything I could possibly do, could ever break my will. ‘ Cause even then, if it isn’ t enough for you, I ’ ll instinctively do even more.


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I’ll Be Come alone, away from the crowd, and into the night, where no shadows roam. I am too far gone, to become unknown, yet, still I am captured in the grip of our give and take I don’ t know where it is you stand, so I reach out with both my hands in the hope that you will do the same, and hold on, to the racing of time. I ’ ll be waiting here until then, just like the sun as it waits to break night. I ’ ll be aching here to see you again. Wanting nothing more than to be trapped in a calmness like no other, but that which only you bring to me. I ’ ve got to see you before you go. I have to know that you know, before you forget, who I am and was. I ’ ll remember you, as if I ’ ve known you all of my life. Right now though, as my heart pounds away, the weight grows heavier, each second that I spend in my thoughts of you. I feel as if I ’ m about to fold under the pressure of losing you. . . . It ’ s worse than losing life itself.


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Let Be Our Love My every thought, falls on you. Love, lift me up, with all your might. Take a chance, on a life with, rather than not. It’ s worth the wait, knowing one day you’ ll see, the truth of you and me flourish beyond our control. Until that day, I am stuck in this moment of thought, within which I am cast away, with you, in our youthful unity. So let be our love, don’ t turn away. Let be our love, don’ t turn away. There’ s something taking over me. It’ s you and the way we get through. Know that the rain will fall, long after the sun has set. Yet we will still l ive, long after the sun rises and the rain dries, alone, until the end of our lives. So let be our love, don’ t turn away. Let be our love, don’ t turn away.


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Fall: Into Space Is there nothing that can be done, to stop the sands of time from falling? Although I ’ ve been here waiting for you, I realize now, that you only see a ghost when you look at me. Know that I ’ d go to the ends of the earth and fall into space this night, if it would be the means by which I would be able toª • break through and be seen by only you. There’ s nothing left for me, except to wait patiently. For I am a fool to be in love with you, yet the thought of you by my side, is too hard to let go of in this life. I know no one will see me cry. No one is left to shoulder my faint heart; the one that I so boldly wore on my sleeve, as I shared it unconditionally with you. So if I could ask, I ’ d ask of you to let me find you, and bring you back to necessity. Let me strip away the chains that tie you to a past, that will never leave your thoughts. Feelings left in fear of time and space, have all but left me to find my way home, alone in disarray. I am left to fall into memories, once vibrant, now distant and cold. I am left to fall into the space, between the reality of today and the history of our past.


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Just As I Am So you let me go so easily on my way. Not a call or a wish for me to stay, just as I am. . . . I am a whisper, brought on by the wind, softly blowing past you. Ignored, as if to be a sin, you leave me to be, just as I am. . . . I am a yell, brought on by the storm, roughly blowing past you. Heard, as if to be fate, you take hold of me, just as I am. . . . I am a child, selfish and na ïve, holding onto you like a priceless possession. But you let me go, just as I am. . . . I am broken.


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Of She It’ s been awhile since he’ s been a part of the crowd. Forever since he’ s worn the crown. He’ s watched men struggle with the weight upon their shoulders, while he would throw his off, l ike a feather. He washes away the empty sky of the blueness in his eyes. Yet, a man turned child cries within, as he tries to drown out the sight of the emptiness in which he confides. Within the loneliness he is surrounded by, he wishes to have nothing in life, but the woman who he sees in every moment of his living. From a King to a beggar, he is left wanting nothing but the breath of she. Of she who completes he. And so, as the night hangs above him, suspended around him becomes life; as a longing for nothing but all her love, consumes his every memory. Her existence has blurred and faded within his horrid struggle. He tries to hold on, but his state of mind has worn thin like the icy lake upon which he slipped, moments before.. .


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Waves . . .Struggling with the waves of life. I came across the aging sea, and became all that was lost in the tide. As the stars scattered across the ageless sky, in their search for everything that wasn’ t me. All that I saw, all that I believed, had finally come and turned its back undeniably on me. There was nowhere left for me to go, and no one left to be my lifeline. How could this have happened? How can this be happening again? I held onto everything so tightly, not realizing that in that moment, everything had let go of me. Hushed, were the whispers that parted these lips. Long nights spent under the moon, searching for a view of only you to guide me to an eternal calm. Yet I kept falling, through and through, forever wanting to hold on to you. And though I knew that our lines were breached, I never understood why, no matter how far I reached, it was never enough to reach you.


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Better Apart If there’ s a night when I ’ m alone, I realize then that it’ s better, better than being home. For the hurt you bring, pains me more than the cut of my flesh, the twisting of my bones, and the discarding of marrow, which holds me up and keeps me whole. For the hurt you bring, shoots straight to my soul like a bullet with precision aim. It’ s better now, that we’ re apart. As I slowly die at night, there’ s no coldness, just visions that haunt. With the morning light, I awaken with no memory of the menacing confusion, that you so easily brought upon me. Images of you singing a lullaby, flashed through my mind, as I was building this Kingdom for you, above the very stars, which you kissed at night. It left me with only one thought; It’ s better now that we’ re apart. No coldness, just visions that haunt.


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Breathe: Your Warmth I ’ ve got to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart. Get it back together and get back to where I was. In a place, at a time, where I was fragile and blind. Unheard and untouched, I had yet to breathe your warmth. . . .Though this is my place. Though this is my time.. . Still I shall retreat into my soul, a home that I built with love. In the coldness that surrounded me, I searched for you to find my freedom, but instead found myself chained, battered, and bruised, like night does the day. Struggling to stand up, I was caught in an eventuality that kept ending up with me being knocked down and trampled upon like the soldiers of love, l iving in silence. Cupid reigns, misfiring his arrows at a crowd overcome by hurt. In the trauma brought by this drama, I was not more than a breath, blowing like the wind through your tangled web of beauty and calmness, just so I could breathe your warmth.


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Lucky I ’ m lucky, lucky to be alive. After all that I tried, I ’ m lucky, to have her by my side. I ’ m lucky to be alive. Wanting to just die, to fade away like night. Wanting her to want me, with all of my might. I ’ m lucky to have you. Here, when I ’ m alone, my comfort from the cold. A little bit of happiness, to bring warmth to my soul. I ’ m lucky to have you. Some kind of beautiful to look at, day and night. In my life of darkness, you’ re a shining star. I ’ m lucky to have had her. A dream that I chased, which helped me understand how love can be misplaced. I ’ m lucky to have had her. Thankful for the lessons learned. Hope you think of me, every now and then, because you’ re the constant thought that makes my heart beat.


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My Thoughts of You Memories etched to the mind. Photographs taken through time. These visions of love and loss, lead to bear reflection. In fall winds, barren become the trees. In spring rains, sprouts life once again. In the time in-between, is where I found myself trapped like a tree; in that, I was forced to let go, even though I wasn’ t ready to move on. No matter how short or long the day, in it, I was left feeling the same; Consumed by the hurt and weakened to hesitation, of what I once would confidently say. In the sky above, clouds take shape and move across with haste. Leaving questions lingering about life’ s insignificant failures, and only faint memories of its wonders. These are my thoughts of you, with time I ’ ve come to realize that you will be there.

the mz.konsepcion of life: five tales of love & heartache | womb

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00 As She Falls Away 01 Circus Of Everything 02 We: Tangled As You 03 Your Misery: Me 04 This Ache

05 Fade Away 06 My Divine Love: Lost 07 In Light 08 My Fragile Seduction 09 Together 10 Should I Could

11 In Love Of You 12 Called My Name 13 Stay 14 Fragile Star 15 Romantique: Fatale 16 Weakened To My Death

17 Endless Demise 18 With You 19 She Has Fallen Away

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Don’ t leave me, don’ t leave me alone in the restless night. You used to be my parachute when I’ d fall. You used to bring me softly to the ground. Now, now you let me crash, you don’ t even try to break my fall. You say there’ s so much I need to learn, but you’ re the one, crawling like a child barely born. All you had to give was love, but you took that and more. Now, now you’ re leaving me to be. Don’ t leave me, don’ t leave me be. I wish I had more to give to you, but all I have is who I am. Take it if you want to, but don’ t make me hold on, when you have nothing but hurt to give to me.


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As She Falls Away The horizon crashes, as she passes by. The sun becomes blinded like a deer in headlights, as she falls away from everything that surrounds her beauty in the light. As she takes on life, she leaves me mesmerized. All I can feel is my own life, drifting into the air. She has taken control of me. She’ ll bring me down from this late night high, in which I look into her soul and come to realize, there is so much left in her. So young a woman, nothing can stop her from reaching her dreams. As she falls away, will she let me help, or leave me out like the past? So much I’ ve got in me, that I want to share with her. There’ s nothing more that I want, than to help her reach the dreams and become all that she was meant to be. Happiness is all I want for her. To bring a little bit of joy, to her without question, as she falls away.


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Circus of Everything Although I take this dream of mine, and bring it to light like water across the sea. You still sail alone, and I am but a wave pushing you forward. Will you give me a chance, or is it true what they say; you’ ve frozen your heart to me, and are too blind to the thought to see. It matters not, for I’ ll go over until you reach under, to the love that calls your name; ‘ cause you left me waiting then, just as I am left to now. Yes, I’ m still waiting for your reply, and in this, I’ ve got to be the circus of everything. I know that’ s why you say, I’ m too young to say, I’ ll never understand. But with confidence, I say with God we will be, forever and then. For I will be the circus of everything, you care not to mend. The tears of a clown and cannon fodder, the only visible remains from when you shot me out the big tent. Never to be seen or heard again.


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We: Tangled As You I opened myself to you, when I first looked into your eyes. That was the moment when I knew, I had lost my soul for forever to yours. From that moment on, I gave my everything just to care for you. To show you, whether you needed someone or not, I would be there for you, but through it all, you saw nothing of me. Now there’ s not much for me to say, except that I’ ve set you free, just as you wished of me. Here is what I know, and this is why I say. Come the day I die, I’ ll be waiting for you. Sincerely, your Heaven sent angel. The soul you stole, will in the end, guide your heart to mine. For the love I showed it, was not mine, but of spirits and the soul.. In time, the love you hid from us, will come into the light and remain undying through the storm. Now that I’ ve said, what only the soul comprehends. I say to you without regret, my love for you will be forever eternal. May love come to you and show you everything it should be. A love that few come to know of. So as we cease to be flesh and blood, in the end, all that was to be realized by us, is this; This void will not separate you and I. For time is spaceless, and space is the distance between us. Ever-widening our souls, as they ‘ come tangled forever, united together, as one.


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Your Misery: Me So you’ ve left me feeling empty and lost in doubt of myself. Gave to you my heart and soul, you left me with a cold. Now, this fever is rising. Burning through me are all the thoughts of us. Thoughts, as they were, they will be until the day I see you and your misery. So now you know, I was the one building your throne. Now you’ ve come to realize, that I was the one who’ d be there sharing your sweet demise. With time, all the wounds will heal, even the scars on my heart and aches of a body old. So I let myself drown in your cruelty, with the hope that I’ ll float out to sea and see that I meant absolutely nothing to you and your misery. So I drift into the black of your eyes, ‘ til those days which have passed return to me, for then once again, I’ ll be the fool waiting for you.


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This Ache She is the sunshine in the night. Her smile, ageless like a moment in which I want to stay forever. With her, there is no fear of the night, just a calmness that defies time, and lifts me up into space, a place without pressure. ...And she makes me weep, as I wait impatiently for mine; a chance to hold her hand, to complete this fatefully forever, that will forever end this ache. Eternally, break this ache, which was created the day she stole my soul, and misled my wandering spirit to hers. For her, I’ ll wait through the night, until my breaths of warmth, turn and become tears of the lonely. She takes me so high. So high, only to drop me down, without a thought. Yet I still look to her, for warmth and comfort. This ache, will never go away. This ache, is forever here to stay, filling the void of her being.


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Fade Away I set you free, and now you’ ve faded away. But I still see you in my dreams, and in my hopes released. All throughout, I am just a prisoner of you, never to be free. I set you free, and now you’ ve faded away. But I still hear you in my thoughts, and in my fears fulfilled. All throughout, I am just a prisoner of you, forever yours to be. So you’ ve left me to fade away into black, even though I was the one, who gave you all the colours that you asked for. No less or no reason more, this is why I set you free. For I love you, in spite of you. For I love you, despite the truth.


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My Divine Love: Lost I went searching the world for love. Found your number in the pages of the directory. Gutted myself to believe, that you were my call, but you hung up and left me high, on the line to dry. Now, with every day that passes me, I think of us. Only find myself lost in the circus. For I could never be what you need, because you want everything I can’ t control. A number on paper. Can’ t you see me for who I am, and what I see in this love of mine? For you, I was sent. Realize that I had no control of my heart, once it was given to you to hold. But you let go, and left it behind like you left our fate. Lost like the streets of our youth. Too familiar to see past, through to the truth.


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In Light Difference is beauty. Imperfections complete the distinctions that guide us, instinctively to follow each other through day. In the dryness that is, we’ ll be thunderclouds letting the rain fall on the children, cleansing them of shame. My tears, left forever falling in awe of your caring joy, and the warmth of your smile. Within this moment, I fall to my knees in wonder of your heart. For knowing that I used to know you, until the moment in which I fell through, into the endlessness of your eyes; only keeps me reaching out from this love’ s demise. For this love, which was once mutual, has become nonexistent; leaving me to only hope that you’ ll turn to me and agree, that we could make this so right. So give up the fight, Love, with you, I’ d rather be alive, than a ghost in light. let’ s live, love, and enjoy this life.


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My Fragile Seduction There was a love I once knew, I gave it all that I could, but it was never enough, never enough for you. I live with this in faintness, but I know it was wrong, wrong of you to tell me that I was controlling fate. I did walk a thinning line, maybe it was fine, but still, I gave into temptation; a risk I saw and felt taking. Know that I’ d marry you still, just close your eyes to feel the thrill of something unreal; something concealed in the stars. Know that, even though the future holds you to be my demise. I’ d fall through and give in at the sight of you, my fragile seduction. For you are my lowest common denominator, Someday, we’ ll be atomic particles, chasing each other into he large hadron collider. One day, we’ ll come crashing into one another and become the God particle, from where it all began.


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Together I find myself, aimlessly flying into your eyes and surrendering to the warmth of all the love, that your touch brings to my life. ...Only to feel it turn cold, every time I say, “ I love you” . I will never hide from you, yet you have turned away, leaving me to be a stranger. ...Never heard of and never seen; always left to wonder, where is it that you are, and where is it that you’ ve been. Lost in the sunrise of mornings past, where I’ d wake and watch you sleep with a smile on your face. Those days have long since passed, and these days never seem to commence. My hope now is that I would have a chance, but I’ ve nothing left to give, that I haven’ t given to you before. Just my hand in love until death. For I believe, with love, we will be together as we were meant, from the cradle to the grave; Beyond the physical and through to eternity.


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Should I Could She left me alone. Feelings for her, they will never leave me, until I have her for myself. Like the stars that once again reside over her love, won’ t you send her back to me, as you did me to her? Can’ t you bring her back, like you did before she left me with scars on my heart? You know, when she left, she took my soul with her like luggage, duct-taped from the years of use. As time passed by, in the memories of our moments, I found myself balancing temptation with my expectations. Now call her, should I could, if I would. Now call me, should she could, if she would.


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In Love Of You Simplicity has overtaken me. I want to be right next to you through everything, but you’ ll sail away though I don’ t want you to. You’ ll leave me here in wait of you, but I want to come with you, to all the places you go; from the days full of life, through to the nights full of silence. You’ ll hush my thoughts, but they’ ll be written like these words, everywhere that you look; on the walls and in the books. I’ ll be with fate, in love of you. Waiting to be taken to all the places you go; from the days full of life, to the nights full of warmth. ...And they will be sung, by those unknown to you. On the radio, aching hearts are cutting the silence, coming through your living room stereo. But you’ ll be too lost in the hypnotic rhythm, to hear the words that are being sung. For all I want you to know is how I love you, so hear the words past the rhythm, to understand the meaning of the message. In need of you, in fear of you, in love of you


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Called My Name Where have you left me? Here alone in the melting sand. Here is where I stand alone, without love to play out this life like a poker hand. Love, with time, you called my name. Love, in time, you made me whole again. But as the days would end, it was you who left me alone without a hand to hold. Like a friend to a foe, you were the one who became so cold; shattering my heart with every word of love I spoke. Love, in time, you called my name. Love, with time, you made me whole again. And as I knocked at your door, there was an answer unknown. Silent like the morning’ s begin, in which I wandered across the island shore to find you; uncomprehendable beauty, which became my unending ache.


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Stay To this very day, you say to me, you never loved me. But now that you know that I’ m here to stay, will you walk away just to come back again, or will you turn your head and see just my face? In my heart of hearts, I know that you’ d rather watch me fall from grace. As I walk alone everywhere that I used to walk with you; as I sit alone in the place where we’ d go to get away, before I’ d take you home. There’ s an emptiness in which I find myself lost with you. Alone, standing out on our cliff, with thoughts falling like the rope of an untied anchor. Once you were my rescuer, now you won’ t even come to peace with me. All this for no other reason, other than to watch me fall and fade away from your life.


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A Fragile Star This hunger can’ t be fed. I’ ve got to starve it to death. Becoming ever so restless and lost. In your prophecies and contradictions, I’ ve begun to lose my grip. It won’ t be long until I slip and fall to the end of life. They will find me unconscious, lying on the beach, waiting to be breached. And they will sell you tomorrow, but the truth will not arrive, because purity isn’ t hidden in a world that is shrouded in all that is wrong. I ask how could you be so young, and live to be so old in the mind? So I say farewell. It was so long ago that you comforted me, and could be found at arm’ s length. I am so afraid of being free, but I won’ t let time enslave me like it has done of you. I will be forever a fragile smile from a distant star.


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Romantique: Fatale This race against time, has left me without hope. Fate is my final call; a whisper to the blind, and a shadow to the deaf. This is a profession many times misunderstood. This is a confession, there is strength in the hurt. A romantique fatale. For your heart beats in harmony with mine. I will return someday to the arms of God. I will become so numb. For from my wrists will flow, the warmth and love of what was yours to bear. As I disappear like the clouds, you will come to realize, I had but my heart and soul to offer. For you though, that was just not enough. So these breaths slow to a stop, while these eyes envision you, in their demise.


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Weakened To My Death We’ ve traveled with time, across the world in a day. But all the years between you and I, keep us apart this night. So I sit alone in my rocking chair thinking why, why is it that I made you cry. Thinking why, why is it that I’ m waiting for you. I’ ve been in situations and I’ ve run, just like I’ m thinking of running tonight, because I don’ t want to make you cry. ...But greed is of the man who’ s weak, and fate has overtaken me. As you talk on the telephone, I listen to your voice, and not a word you say to me. I wish I wasn’ t feeling this way, but you have cast a spell on me. ...So if nothing else, know that I’ d care for you through the years and centuries to come.


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Endless Demise Looking into your eyes of haze, I’ ve become lost in your grace. I see you, I see beauty, staring back at me. Love, I’ m slipping into you. Please, bring me back into the light, from the darkness and mystery, that I find myself crawling along, with you, in time, as history. Love, let’ s slow our fast paced lives. We live here on our own, alone and unified. In calmness, two hearts beating as one. For ours are just, lusciously glowing takers of wings. We are but angels, living in skin. So just give into temptation, and you’ ll know what I mean, when you see me and these tears as they stream from my eyes. Life has so much to give, if you could only see. These eyes which have ventured back from an endless demise; Only to see your beauty, rise over all that is hidden.


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With You With the blood that runs from the cuts of open wounds, on the wrists of hands you touched; I float in the tub, naked and paling, against the contrasting and ever-deepening red-tinged water, drowning out your hurt. My heart’ s precious loss. ...These burns from the pain you caused. With time losing gravity, I begin fading out as my eyes become diluted. A soothing numbness overtakes, as the spirit escapes. My heart’ s precious loss. ...Curses fill the night, with all the time we’ ve lost. I see the eyes of only you in mine, and I hear the whispers of only you in my ears. Against the backdrop of a Universe hushed, I fade away into the darkness, where there is only frozen light. ...And in this, I find myself awakened, naked in skin, and frozen to the touch, with you.


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She Has Fallen Away The gray clouds hung in anticipation, as she passed by like day after night. I watched her vanish, as if she were a magician’ s greatest act. She has fallen away from my wants and needs. Her love, once hidden in the depths of her being, with patience and sincerity, I’ ve captured and released. She took me through to her, and I took her nowhere except drifting away from here. With time, she has left me wounded like those who’ ve wounded her. Yet I have forgiven her for the hurt, but not forgotten her for disappointment. Incapable to realize what it was, that was us; In this, you are thus us. She has fallen away. Now, I can only pray for her to receive comfort and warmth in the acknowledgement of her dreams, from the one who will take her hand in love, until the day she reaches her physical end and falls away, back into us.

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Love Is Love is timeless. It occurs when time becomes frozen. The seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, and years. become just numbers. Love is ageless. It is of an attraction for another. Created by the physical, mental, spiritual, through the heart, soul, mind, and body, as they connect. You see, love is ancient, it is of God. Love sees no time, constraints, or boundaries. It has like the Supreme, outlasted time. The keepers of love are the soul and the spirit. They are forever eternal, and are a gift of grace, from God to every living being here on earth. For this, the soul and the spirit are ignorant to time. Love is not learnt, but felt, and in this, can be ignored. It is created through many different compositions; Spiritually, through the affection of the soul. Physically, through the warmth of touch. Mentally, through the thoughts of the mind. Love outlasts physical attributes, material attributes, time, space, and hurt. Love is forever eternal. It is manifested by the will of two hearts, and sewn together by two souls.


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Presence I became driven by the throes of passion, as they held me captive; A hostage who with time, began to worship her every emotion. In my mind, I often questioned why, why she didn’t see purpose in our innocence. Only leaving me with time to rush away from her, and to cross the border from clarity to confusion. In time, I’ll be her everything in this life, but for now, I have found my place on the other side of silence. So I wait there for her to come to an awakening. For in everything I contradict, my every move that is, is her every movement in fate, that was mine first. Blurred are the shadows, that are made of her and me. Breaking the silence, together we reach an unknown fading. We begin to lose all sense of presence, as we slip into each other’s warmth; surrendering, like the hours do until dawn.


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Live Live in the space, and melt like the flame. You’re beauty unparalleled, unmatched and unmistakable. Is it any wonder why you are adored, by those who fumble to you like the stars? As the day comes alive, we lose ourselves in the nervous night. With time, we all turn to tomorrow. When what you seek, isn’t what you find, and the answers you receive, leave more unanswered. In that moment, I will be there next to you, watching in awe as you walk upon the shore, under the midnight sun. Reflecting on reflections of the past, that are underlining the surface of the age; with the hopes of our future, boldly coming forth, in awe of all that is you, an anchor on the shore of my mind. For this, I love you like darkness. And in this, I love you, your beauty and grace.


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Us Being One In the raging storm, there is a childlike hunger which reaches out to those, who suffer with pain. There is freedom in the light. There is life in the sun. Capture yourself and run course. For patience and time will bring you, what it is that makes you feel incomplete in your surroundings. Keep your eyes open and head held high. You’ll find your place, because it’s those who take it slow, that last until long after the end. In loneliness, you will find yourself slipping back into your soul; where the answers seek are hidden, just waiting to be found by the mind. So hold time and set to freeze. You will see your world deconstruct, to the beginnings of all who are, and why it was I came to love only you. There is warmth in the light. There is love in us being one.


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Yes I’ll say yes, you don’t have to put me, under duress. I’ll take your abuse, and all the hurt, it brings to me. In love with you, I will forever be. I want to be the luckiest man, but I need you to be warming my soul. It’s your call, for on deafened ears, have fallen my pleas. It’s your heart. Though I’ve brought to it life, I am hard-pressed to find a pulse. So take this love or leave it, it’s your call. Know that I’ll be here, carrying on; waiting for you, to let me know, I can’t run from this feeling. I don’t want to play those games. I have nothing to hide from you. so here it is, this is just how I feel. I love you. I do and will. ...Do as you say.


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Warmth In The Cold There used to be only pills to take, but you so positively brighten the unending day; making it seem as if everything is ok. Something about your swing and sway, has left you in my mind. Through the hours, after which you have left me for rest. In this night’s sky, I see so many stars shining and shimmering, so brightly down on me. But it is you for who they shine, frozen and stilled by your sight. This moment presents us with a small reminder, as a cosmic tear shoots past our eyes. ...The presence of your beauty, brought life to the lifelessness of our surroundings, on an otherwise cold day. As I looked at you, I was left with one thought... Immaculate, you are for which I am.


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Only By He Go through to the end. Don’t give up on love, because this is infinite. We’ll go on forever, before the sun falls. We’ll move through with the world as our pulse. A harmony unheld, we will create a melody; unrestricted, created with everything that is you and I. The teachings of the wiser, passed down to a follower. A lover without love to receive, only love to give to she, who has captivated he, who has fallen at her feet. Listening to her softening tones of grace. Fighting to become a part of she, but finding no entry into her heart. Just a coldness, that’s left he to seek, acceptance elsewhere in suffering. A warming hurt, felt only by he. At a quarter past four in the morning. After his confessions of love, spilt to her in tears and bouts of faintness; A weakened soul moves on, struggling to figure his wrongs, in her rights. A passage broken. A struggle he wishes, never to have taken.


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Of The Fool So long as you listen to your soul, you’ll be alive without the worries of the fool. The fool who has given his life to you. Loneliness will be his joy, for he will wait until he reaches his place with you. In love and in trust. In warmth and in hope. In peace and in fate. In gain with faith. In self, one as us, he sees this to be the divine love given. But you shed and move on, away from him. Forever closing your eyes to him. Although he asks once more for you to come without thought. For once to open yourself to him and give the soul a voice, in which to guide these directionless hopes and fears.


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Abandoned Retreat Such a long time ago, fate brought me you. Warmth in the winter’s cold, some wonderful to awe, that was once, too far away to hold. Now, I want to go with you, everywhere, that I’ve been alone. Let’s share the days and the nights, until we find ourselves, an abandoned retreat, where we can yet again be. Stripping away mystery and cold reservations; becoming one, just as we should be. Forever slipping away from our separate paths, and letting our hearts beat as one, unchained.


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Left Me I fall through, to the end of you. I crawl to reach the beginning of you. I am born, in everything that passes. I am burned, in everything that flashes before our eyes. I will breathe, long after the air has thinned. I will cry, long after the sun, has burned my eyes dry. I will walk, long after the ground, has left me without balance, and the truth begins to rise to the surface. For every man who has walked through the storm knows, there comes calmness in the eyes of compassion and in the bitter sweetness of defeat, at the hands of whom you receive, loving warmth. A man will endlessly search through this city, until he bleeds like the sun and aches like the thunder of a dark cloud, for an undying trust of fate to overtake those who have fallen from the arms of God. ...And in this, I’m left in tears. For I have been lifted to his throne, and now, I am on my knees begging for my self to be given you. Time has brought me everything I’ve wanted, and it will keep bringing me everything I want. But until time comes to an end, I know I won’t have you, the one I want more than all else.

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Fade Back In You will fade with time, but know this, I want to scream at you. For you leave me so very, very, emotionally sensitive and broken. Don’t leave me to fall. Why did you let me go, into the confusion outside? Was it so you could see me bleeding into lifelessness? Love, you keep moving further and further away, like the days that have already passed by. What once shined as ageless silver and timeless gold, has faded like the sun as it sets alone. This love at its apex, left me searching for more. But as the darkness became my resolve, I faced the truth of our love, head on. Time looked me in the eye, as it conspired to keep me away from you. But with time, it would be time that would miserably fail, winding itself to its own death. I realized then that all is not lost, when it comes to matters of the heart. So I plead for you to fade back in.


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Like They Said God’s given me a name, yet I still search for the luxuries of fortune and fame. ...And in my search, the world has become so much like they said it would be. A place without control. A place lost without soul. ...And as I step across the boundaries where time can have no hold, I find a fading reminder of your true self. I remember there was a time when you were alone, and could achieve anything. These days, these days you fall to reliance; stopping only to watch the waves of time, as they fill your heart with unconditional love. The thickening of blood, drowns the soul in waves. In this fleeting moment, I find myself restrained, lost, and becoming insane.


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Only Your Love She whispers in the ear of the world. I listen to the hymns of love, as they play through her open window. With serenity, my constant state, the saving grace in me, was she. For all that I had felt in her warmth, her coldness left me numbed and pale. She has come late to me, but still, I’ll show her that for me to be fooled, was easiest through her self and sin. As we sat alone in the night’s home, there was so much I felt for her; the one who had become my heart’s race. For the beauty she showed to me, left me out of place and without pace. A state in which distinction was lost on me. Well, night returns as usual; the only difference being that she has left me alone, to burn in light, for only her love.


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Superstar She is my superstar; Too far to reach her, too far to say hello. ...And all I want is a moment alone, away from her fame. So please, take me away, before this night turns to day. ...A star, to be my light; To guide me home with honesty and recognition. Just tell me this, where is it you stand, and why is it you left me love? ...Like a siren to the song, you colour the empty sky, and darken day to night. Oh my sweet flower, you’ll shower warmth and joy, as I unknowingly become love-prey, devoured.


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Play With Fate So, where�d you learn to hide the feelings, you told me you felt; when you told me, I should slow my pace and enjoy my life? Oh my spirit stealer. You used to be my soul healer. Now you�re the one, who is moving faster than the speed of light. Yet you tell me, not to play with fate. Oh my heart breaker. You used to be my mind reader. But you were the one, who was quick to not let this love run its course with us. Oh my love denier. You used to be my body acher. You turned yourself away from intuition and fate. I left me falling into you, but you didn�t see me. I didn�t want your kiss. Just wanted you to take a chance and feel. To take a chance on us


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Childlike Grace You have the life of youth. Don’t give in to the pressures, just keep pushing the line and let fate be the leader. As you show your childlike grace, in a crowd of theatrics; playing the life of the fool, who follows the trends of those around her, so as to not look misplaced. In this...we could be together. ...But with the thoughts of those who surround you, I have become a shadow of the man you seek. Don’t let this be a game of hide and seek. Please let this love for you shine and be seen, as I wait for you, through and through. To one day become a part of me for good, without question or concern, be free. ...And let me be the man you seek. In your childlike grace I will pass to you, a smile unphased.


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All I Gained: From Her Lord, give me a voice, because for the first time, I want to be heard, across the divinity of precious loss. From distinct nature, the wisdom that I gained from her, is too great for me to lose. Try to move me now. A mountain I stand, but with fate I fell and sank into her. ...So deep inside, it has become a struggle for me to release myself, and become free once again. But the wisdom that I gained from her, will forever stay with me. Because she showed me how to be free, and discover who it is, that I am. ...That no matter how old I am, I am a man, and not just a shadow, that is cast.


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Call Me Take your time, in the life that you live. Find your soul. Calmness in a mate that will save you with grace, and take you away from it all. Away to a stateless place, where with an eternity of calm, we’ll fall in light and I’ll run away, off into the future of your dreams. I’ll walk away, off into the distant sky. I’ll hang around, off over the edge of you. So call me like love. So call me anytime. I’ll be here. Waiting on the line, for you, the one, who I love. The one who’s thought, consumes me in everyway.


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Reality: A Dream The warmth of your touch, and the endlessness of your life. My spirit flew away with your kindness today, as you gave me shelter from the empty night. This desert’s cold and dry, still I live for you this day. For there was a time I used to fall alone, but you keep showing me that there is unquestionably, a better way to be. So I will run off over the sunset, and jump to reach the galaxy that holds the key to your heart. So when will you take me, when will you show me, and when will you give me all that is you, in reality a dream? For I am left wondering, what is it that you’ll whisper across the room, when we sit silently in the cold. An ear for an ear. An eye for an eye. It’s only as time passes by, that we come to terms with the compounding of what we fear.


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Reach Your Love I want to keep you to myself. Love, you’re too good to let the world know of. You know just how to make me feel alive. I was once searching for someone like you, I finally found someone I could never believe to be true. Sitting with you on the pier; looking out at all we could be, just floating out to the sea. In this moment, I realize, there’s no chance for what it was, that I once saw in you; that which I thought could complete me. I know, you know how it feels, that is why there will be no regret. Even as I tell you of my love for only you, over and over, through the day and in to the night. In failure, I will search for another way to reach your love, again and again.

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Thoughts about you fill me with warmth. ...So what’s this about you saying that I, I should learn to let go and not hold on

to everything that you made me feel? Like the rain and thunder of your anger,

or the warmth of your love, much like that of the Sun. It isn’t so easy to forget, but I do forgive you;

for leaving me, without breaking my fall. Now that I’m down here, I’m learning how,

learning how to crawl through these visions of you. Those visions of you and your beauty by my side.

Sometimes I feel like calling you, even though I wouldn’t be able to say a word to you.

I’d be silent like the night you stole from me. My innocence turned naïve like ignorance,

when you told me, “boy, I can’t be with you”, and then you, you walked out of here, like a ghost I can still see.

01 Nothing Else 02 Drowning 03 Then On 04 So Patiently 05 Awake 06 Someone 07 When First We Met 08 At Your Will 09 Forever Eternity 10 The Truest Love Waits 11 She’s My Call 12 Is There Nothing 13 Got To Get Together 14 Take On Forever

15 Love Of My Life 16 That Girl 17 My Heart 18 These Arms

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Nothing Else With nothing left to give to you, I lost myself along the way. . . .Became a helpless s lave to your unbound chains. Shrouded by a curtain, you stand watching me. Prey to the fox. Prey to your game of loss . I crawl to reach my l ifel ine, but you cut it long before I had learned to crawl. Like a hunter to the game, with the years , your wisdom judged the future of us. Prey to the fox. Prey to your game of loss . Now I just want to love you, what else is there to say? I just want to love you, what else is there to do? So help me out of this trap, heal my wounds; take me in your arms of warmth, and let me be nothing less .


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Drowning With your scent, so evident, to my heart l ike a mother’s cal l ; I ’ve sunken deeper in love with you, than I ever could in any sea. Drowning, drowning to feel no pain. Drowning, drowning to feel your love. Can you come and rescue me, show me that it ’s you I need? Can you leave me and watch, as I show you, that it ’s you I want? I know you now, l ike I know myself , for even when we are at a distance, I can feel you move through me, l ike a whisper to a yel l Even in si lence, I hear you in me, l ike a child to a mother; I watch you, in awe of al l that you are, and in the hush, I feel myself drifting to the shore in nakedness. I ’ve drowned out al l that I once believed. I ’ve drowned out al l sense of direction, so that I could be led from emptiness to you. All to catch you, the one who’d fal l


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Then On Rest awaken in the whispers of the breeze, as calmness aches at a glass heart shattered. The pieces left scattered under the feet , of a woman who couldn’t feel the pain, of the soul she left in the lonely night; to walk off his never ending ache. Restless and awake, he feels his heart fal l to the lowest depths of the sea; only to break l ike china, as it fal ls to concrete. Yet si lence is the only noise heard, against the faint fal l ing of teardrops, that brings calmness to an uneasy soul , that screams for freedom and warmth; even when it is at peace with you. And though he wishes to f ind a place in your heart , a l l he f inds is a vacant parking lot; in which he roams endlessly to see, al l the beauty that you possess . So don’t leave me here al l alone. I want you to be here with me, and not somewhere you can’t be seen. You’re leaving me. You’re leaving me, to l ive al l alone with this ache, that you brought on. That’s alright, it ’ l l remind me of you, from morn’ to s leep, and then on.


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So Patiently “Take your time and find out how.. .” they say. . . .To reach the stars in the night, f irst , you must reach yourself ; f ind out what you are made of . Character is built on one’s own. I wil l walk a thousand miles , just to reach your comfort, even though on the warmest day, it is colder than a winter’s night. Happiness is the key to victory. As we strip away the chains, that tie us to the ground; Love, s low down, ground the heart , so we can reach necessity. The feelings left in fear of t ime, have al l but left me to f ind my way home, alone in disarray. All I want is for you to take the time, and join me on this journey. I ’ve room for you in my heart , a home. Don’t be a stranger, come on in. I ’ l l be waiting patiently for your love, so patiently, that I ’ve lost track of t ime.


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Awake Wide-awake, I l ie alone this night, l ike every other, in fright of losing you. The one who haunts my dreams, except for in those dreams, where I ’d be with you until the sun brought si lence, s i lence to our screams. Yet I ’d remain in the sky for you to dictate my l ife , l ike an enslaved kite. There you’d be, tugging on me, teasing me, as i f you’re letting go. Only to pull me in so close, as to breathe the breaths of me. And as we looked into each other’s eyes, to pass the calmness of our l ives; I could only hope that you wouldn’t cut the l ine on our time together. I ’m right here for you. So come to realize that you are, al l that my eyes want to see, and where you are, is where I want to be, al l through my days.


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Someone In the desert , the cold is enough to freeze the moon in its place. And yet he arrives, disorientated, struggling to f ind his footing in the frozen sand of an empty jungle. An empty jungle that feels as hard as aging concrete, under foot. He hears his every thought, cracking l ike skin; Once as soft as a mother’s hands, his abil ity to feel , now hidden under age’s cal luses . He is but a ghost in f lesh, struggling to reach himself , he casts no shadow, only an aura of orange and red, a caution, for fear and reprisal , are his retreats . Asking of those who l isten, to comfort him. He pleads, won’t anyone warm my soul; free my mind, show me love? I ’ve been broken apart, now I search, for only joy and kindness. Somewhere on this earth, someone, someone is searching for someone, to comfort and warm, if you are that someone, know that I have been endlessly searching, high and low.. . for you too. And as distance shortens, I wil l fal l to you.


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When First We Met For al l the times s ince when first we met, that I have seen you; I never have had such a calm, come and overtake me. as it did that day. As we sat after supper, I looked up at you, s itting across from me with your hair tossed, and glasses placed on your head. Into your eyes, my soul wandered, never to return. In the moments which followed, I saw my l ife with you. Forever eternally, al l I wanted was to be with you. To care for you and to be the one by you, through thick and thin. In the days that came, I received what I had sought, and made of it the most I could. I ’ve loved you. Know that this is true, s ince when first we met.


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At Your Will The day could set on us, with the whispers cast . The forest stands l ike a giant, sheltering us from the evening’s rain. Through it al l , I ‘ve found warmth in your arms. There is nothing that could come and separate me from you. With al l that’s been said, am I wrong to say, I ’m not alone? At your wil l , I shall be. At your wil l , I am. A kiss upon your l ips to break the si lence. To hear your voice above the noise. There’s not much that I haven’t said. With you caught in my eyes, fal l ing l ike the sands of t ime. You, I can’t l ive without this l i fe . You, I wonder about al l day and night. Stay here in my arms. All I want is for you to stay here in my arms, until the break of dawn. I ’m here on command. Out here al l alone at your wil l . I ’ l l let go, i f you ask of me. Out here al l alone at your wil l . I ’ l l be al l you ask of me, just ask of me.


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Forever Eternity Come to me without a thought in mind. Don’t lull in the emptiness of l i fe , for al l of this together, wil l be the l ife of you and me. Forever. . . The night moves s low, so don’t race away and erase us from your days, or from your memories of the times we spent. Until eternity. . . From day through to night, these thoughts of you leave me hanging on, to the sight of you etched l ike nothing else before or after . From forever to eternity, I miss you and me.


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The Truest Love Waits The truest love waits , so don’t hesitate, because I ’ l l be patient and hope for you to realize what it was, that I left to fate. Time and time again, I ’ve pushed you away, to see if ever you would fal l away from me. Like the constant that is , the pushing of t ime and age; the truest love waits , against the backdrop of coldness and rage. A part of me is you, and a part of me is torn between what is wanted, and what is settled for. Patience is a virtue to me. for it is t ime, that casts me away from all else , who you’ve met in l ife . The truest love waits , for al l which is r ight.


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She’s My Call She’s my call . She’s my wall . Too high to cl imb. Too strong to break. She’s my rock of gold. I ’ l l crawl up next to her, just to l isten to her make sense of the si lence, for as the sky fal ls , it fal ls on her alone. In this moment, we’re caught watching the stars , drift above our heads. For as the moon shines on her, a crystal clear vision of love and happiness , consumes me and my feelings. Feelings which twist and turn l ike the waves, until the pain fully washes away. She’s my call . She’s my rhythm. Keeps me near calmness, as my heart races on. To her, I pass my love l ike the passing of day. For her only, I pray to reach al l she is to be.


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Is There Nothing Is there nothing that compares, to the sight of you at night? Is there nothing that creates , warmth in the moonlight? I watch you walk down the f l ight of stairs , to where my heart l ies . Protectionless l ike the knight, who stands without armour. You’ve got me, anytime that you want me, I ’ l l be there for you. I ’m just a child, in search of al l that one could want in l ife . Yet it had to be you, who I ’d f ind it in; the one who was always there to hear my call , but too far away to see me fal l . Is there nothing that compares, to the sight of you in the l ight? Is there nothing that creates , happiness in the sunshine? Love, i f you don’t know, nothing does more than you do, and that is why I want you. That is why I love you. Love you more than l ife .


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Get Together You’d be so good for me. As the day turns to night, I ’d be with you, and you, you would be so close to me as to know my every want; as i f you were a part of me that would always be satisfied. No matter how alone I am, I can always count on you to raise my heart from calm, to a racing thump. The beat so rhythmic, it would form a melody of you and me, and for that reason, I say to you. . . That we have to get together tonight. We have to get together, and make it r ight tonight. So come take my hand, take my hand and come with me. Past al l the history of our wrongs, so we can make right tonight.


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Take on Forever So the day has once again, turned to night. And once again, you and I , are left to settle under its l ight. Darling, we’re on the same road, but you walk alone. Too blind to see, the man within this child. You know I won’t grow up, I ’ve got to get through. Darling, it ’s you, who has captured my heart , and sent it soaring to unknown heights. I ’ve found my calm, it ’s within you. Know that I want you more than the breath I waste, just so I can be by you, through everything you face. Even if it ’s just for a second, even if it makes the day seem warmer than the night in which I die. In my dreams, you come alive, and bring to me, an eternal love. Take me away and let me be your breath, Love, I want to f ind you tonight, ‘cause there’s s implicity in the way we reach each other. Can’t you see the magnificence of it? Come on Love, we’ve got to get together, we’ve got everything we need, right here. This love is something, no one else can feel , so open your hands and let me in. We can take on forever, as long as we never surrender to time. For time was once the difference in us.


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Love of My Life You’re the love of my l ife . When I awaken at night, I wake up with you, stuck in my sightlines. You’re the love of my l ife . When I think during the day, my every thought is of you, and how we get through. You know I won’t leave because I need you, l ike honey does a bee. I want the time to slow, when I ’m with you. Calmness settles l ike the sun, as it sets on the horizon. If I could, I ’d give you the world. If I could, I ’d take your dreams and bring them to l ife , l ike the morning, as it f irst appears at your sight, when you wake. You’re the love of my l ife . When I close my eyes, I see you, clearer than l ife , s leeping at my side


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That Girl Barefoot upon glass , she leads me, naked through a path of thorns. How can I get within her love? So far away, I ’ve strayed today, and tomorrow’s just a thought away. That girl , that girl , she knows just how to turn me on. That girl , that girl , lets me catch her at her most vulnerable. Fall ing freely, without a parachute. Sinking slowly, without a l i fel ine. But in time, my love of her l i fe wil l reach me, and give me ground upon which to build her Kingdom. That girl , that girl , she sees the trouble with me. That girl , that girl , knows just what it is I need. She won’t let me kneel at her feet . Keeps me close, from day to night. With her, I ’ve found my place in the Heavens. With her, the one who brings me calm. Like a photograph, this moment wil l last , long after our l ives .


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My Heart You were roaming with the angels , while the elephants were protecting me. Shining l ike a star in my eyes, I wished upon you to be mine. Yet only in these dreams at night, do I see you, s leeping next to me. Your beauty fragile and at peace, a dove hidden in the f lames of a phoenix searching for a home. I watch as you sleep away restlessness . Wishing never to wake up this night, for I cannot bear to lose the sight of you Darling, know this much is true, I love you. As I stand to surrender my every breath to you. As I stand to remember my every tear fal len for you. Your sweetness sets me afire l ike a burning star, sai l ing across the universe at night. As a thousand stars shower to the ground, l ighting an eternal path to my heart , for you.


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These Arms When I saw you fal l from the never-ending sky, I knew you were Heaven sent. Wishing my one wish that you would wish, for me to wish for you. Darling, come loosen up the threads, that keep us from nakedness; ‘Cause I ’m lost in your seas . These arms. These arms, want to hold on, As the night fal ls to s leep, under the dry desert ’s skin. As the wind moves across , l i ft ing the waves of our love, as i f they were the waves of t ime, spreading over you and I l ike love lost in the labyrinth of this bliss , That keeps us from each other. These arms. These arms, want to hold on as w9e. . .

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SONNY NATALY’ S LIFE · Please Love, won’ t you save me from all that surrounds me tonight? Take me away to a place of calm. Away, from all the anger and loneliness, that faces