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Love of a Soldier
IlookintohiseyesBeforeonelastgoodbyeAnotherkissonthelips
Andthat'sit
Nowyou'releavingYou'releaving
Iwon'tseeyouforayearIdon'tevenknowifyou'llcomebackhere
OneyearinIraqAndI'mnotsureyou'llcomeback
NomatterhowmanytimesIwishyouluckIstillmissyousomuch
EverydayIthinkaboutyouAndI'msureyouthinkaboutmetooIfellinlovewithatravellingsoldierAfteryougotherewillbenoother
WillIeverseeyouagain?Willyoucomehomeintheend?EverydayIliveinuncertainty
Despitethatyoutellmenottoworry
WillIhavetocarryyourcoffin?Tothecemetery,tobeburiedandforgotten
You'llbeoneofthemanyButyou'llalwaysbeapartofme
IwillalwaysrememberyouNomatterwhattheworldputsmethrough
YouaremyheroAndIwillalwaysloveyouso
The Secret
IhaveneverseenyourfaceIsitreallyapieceofsuchdisgrace?I'veonlyseenyoufrombehind,Whatisthissecretyoutrytohide?
ButthesecretsthatyouhideseemmorelikeliesbeingcoveredupSuchasthis
KeepingyourmouthshutBecausesomanythingsjustdon'tworkoutwhenyou'renotaroundWedon'tseemtoclicklikeweusedtoandit'sdrivingusfurtherapart
IthurtsmeintheheartRosesarered,violetsareblueIdidmybestatlovingyouThisfilthylittlesecret
Doyoutrustmeenoughtokeepit?YourlifeisabeautifuldenialOnwhichyoushallstandtrialBehindyourbeautifuleyes
Tellme,Whatisthissecretyoutrytohide?
Once Loved
ItmakesmesadtoseeyoulikethisItangersmethatyouhavetodothistoyourself
I'msickandtiredofhavingtowatchyoupassinfrontofthehouseAlmostunabletowalkastraightline
AllIseemtoseearethescarsonyourarmsAndthemarksaroundyourneck
YourdiscolouredlipsYourpalewhiteskin
ItkillsmetoseeyoudothisIdon'twanttoattendyourfuneral
ButitseemslikeI'llbeholdingyourlittlehandinyourcoffinsoonTearscomedownmycheekseverytimeIthinkofyou
I'veseenthemiraclesyoucouldmakeAndnowallIcanseeisallthepainyouhavetotake
ItmakesmesicktoseeyoulikethisYoursmileusedtotellmethatyouweredoingsowell
NowthetrackmarksonyourarmshaveanotherstorytotellIusedtoseeyoureyesshineinthesunlightNowyouneverleavethedarknessHowcouldyougobacktothis?
DestinywascallingyournameYouhadthewholeworldatyourfeet,waitingforyouNowyou'rebacktochasingdelusionswithfishingnets
You'resoclosetobreathingyourlastbreath,
Ican'tseemtoletyougobutourfriendshipwassomethingIwon'tsoonforgetYouweregreat
PleasanttobearoundIhopetheonesontheothersidetakeyouintotheirarms
AndgiveyoualltheloveyoucouldeverhavebeyondthisworldI'msadtoseethatyouhavetoendlikethisButIguessnowthere'snothingmoreIcansay
BecauseIdon'tknowwhenit'sgoingtobeyourlastday
ButuntilthenI'llmakesuretotellthegirlontheothersideofthemirrorThatIoncelovedher
I Hate
Ihateitwhenyou'rehereIhateitwhenyou'regone
IhatethewayIneedyouwhenyou'renotaroundIhatethewayIneedyouwhenIdon'tknowwhereyouare
IhateitwhenyousayyoulovemeIhateitbecauseIknowyoudon'treallymeanitIhateitwhenyousayyou'llalwaysbethereforme
Ihateitbecausewebothknowyou'renot
IhatethatIloveyouIhatethatIdo
IhatethatnomatterwhatIcan'thateyouIhatethewayyoucomfortme
IhatethewayitneverlastsIhatethethingsyousaytome
IhatethewayIcan'thelpbutbelievethemIhatethewayyouhurtme
IhatethewayIhurtmyselfIhatethewaytheblamealwaysendsuponme
IhatethethingsyoudotomeIhatethehappinessthatcomeswiththem
IhatemissingyouIhateitwhenyouignoreme
IhatethatIcan'ttellyouhowIfeelIhatethatyouhavebetterthingstodo
IhatethatI'myourlastpriorityIhatethatIfeelthisway
IhatethatIhavetolivelikethisIhatethatI'llhavetoreplaceyou
Ihatemakingdecisionsbecauseyoucan'tstepupIhatethewayyoumakemesmile
IhatethewayyoualwayshelpmewhenI'mindenial
Ihatethatyouthenhavetogoaway
IhatethatIhavetomissyouIhatethatIhavetoloveyou
IhatethatitfeelslikeyouwereneverhereIjusthateeverything
Ijusthateitall
From Life To Death
MybonestrembleMyheartbeatsfasterIcannotbreathe
Ifeelmytemperaturerise
AcrimeoffateThebreathoflife
LikehandsaroundmyneckThere'snothingIcando
CollapsetothefloorEverythingyouthoughtyouknew
LifeisslippingawayYouarenomore
MyheartfallstopiecesI'moutofbreath
MyeyesfillwithwaterThestruggleisover
DusttodustAshestoashesFromlifetodeathIwillnotforget
Calling All Scumbags
SittinginmydarkplacealoneIwonderwhatwentwrongNooneseemstoknow
Thereasonyouhavenosoul
StickakniferightthroughyourthroatAndletsomeoneelsetakeoathJustmakesureyougettherefirstForwhateverthatit'sworth
CallingallscumbagsBrokenpromisesandfilthylittleliesLetthefireigniteinyoureyesAndyoursicktwistedsmile
I'mcallingallscumbags
YoutookthebreathrightoutofmeYouleftawholewheremyheartshouldbe
I'msickandtiredofbeingangryIwantyoutodrowninmymisery
SadnessandhateTwoemotionsyoucan'treplace
IjustwishIcouldslapyouinthefaceForallthetimesyoufeltwithoutatrace
CallingallscumbagsBrokenpromisesandfilthylittleliesLetthefireigniteinyoureyesAndyoursicktwistedsmile
I'mcallingallscumbags
ToocowardlytoadmititYouworthlesspieceofshitGoandslityourwrist
You'reonescumbagIwillnotmiss
Nowit'sallcomingclearThatIdon'tneedyouhereAndinthisworldaroundmeI'mgladyoudisappeared
CallingallscumbagsBrokenpromisesandfilthylittleliesLetthefireigniteinyoureyesAndyoursicktwistedsmile
I'mcallingallscumbags
RemorseshouldhaveshownButohnoyourheartismadeofstoneBeneaththeteethhearthegroanYoucandieandrotalone
LetthesaltenterthewoundYourendiscomingsoon
Youdon'tknowwhatIcandoNoyoudon'thaveaclue
CallingallscumbagsBrokenpromisesandfilthylittleliesLetthefireigniteinyoureyesAndyoursicktwistedsmile
I'mcallingallscumbags
Nowdon'ttrytohideNowthattheworldismine
WheneverythingyouarefallsbehindIwantyoutochokewhenyouswallowyourpride
LightthefireandwalkawayOnedayyouwillpay
Untilthendon'tmakethepaingoawayNoyouscumbagmakeitstay
CallingallscumbagsBrokenpromisesandfilthylittleliesLetthefireigniteinyoureyesAndyoursicktwistedsmile
I'mcallingallscumbags
Thistimeyouwon'tbeheardYougreedylittlebastard
YouwillgetwhatyoudeserveYougreedylittlebastard
Youwillgetwhatyoudeserve
Murderous Poem
TheonlythingthatwouldmaketodayanyworstWouldbedrivingawayinahearseMyangerboilsdeepinsidemyveins
HowdoIgetitoutwithoutcausingpain?
InsidemybasementIwillhideTomakeupthismindofmine
OnwhetherIshouldputabulletinmygunOrjustforgetaboutthisandrun
MyinnerdemonsIshallseekSomymindcanhavepeaceAtlastyouwillbegoneforeverAndIshallsleepmuch,muchbetter
BesidemybedmyshotgunIwillkeepSoI'msafeatnightwhenIsleepAndifmyhouse,Ifindyouinside
Thecoroner'svanwillbeyournextride
Insanity
InsanityCrawlingintomeIntomyhead
I'mwishingIwasdeadThoughtsfillmybrainDrivingmeinsaneIdeasofsuicideAndwaystodieCorruptingmymindI'mgoinginsane
Ican'tsetthingsstraight
Shackles of Love
SomanythoughtskeepspinningaroundmyheadThegood,thebadandtheunknownThislonelinessandthisdesolation
Istheequivalentofsittinginmyheadallalone
SometimesIwishthatyoucouldjustleaveJustleaveandleavemealone
OthertimesI'dsewoursoulstogether
AllthatisleftofyounowarethescarsonmyheartIswearIwilltearitallapart!Icarvedyournameintomyarm
PromisingyouthatIwouldneverdoyouanyharm
IcarvedyournameintomysoulPromisingyouthatIwouldneverletyougo
Butyou'retheonethatletgoYouweretheonlygoodinme
NowlivingwithmyselfisallIhave.Doyouknowwhatitslike
Tolookatyourself,paralyzed?Thissoulisjustnogood
SoIcanbegyoutosavemeforallthatIam.Orbegyoutosavemeforthefuckofit.
IknowmylifewillendButIwon'tgivethislifeawayagain
Youbrokemytrust,shatteredmyexistence
SoliftupmysleevesandseethepatternofmycutsMyfleshisallIhave.Thislifeisnotenough!
YoucansaythatI'msocleverWhatever
I'mdonewiththesesendeavours
I'mneedingnoone'shelp,
I'mneedingonlyyouSometimesIcanstillfeelyourpresence
Itstilllingershere.SomedaysIgetsolonely
Thatthelonelinesswon'tleavemealoneSometimesithurtssobadthatIcan'tbreatheIcanonlytellmyselfthatyoustillloveme
ButIdon'tbelievemyownliesLikeIbelievedyours
Don'tyoumissthewaywewere?Wepromisedone-anotherthatwe'dloveeachotherforever
Foreverdidn'tlastverylongIguessthatintheenditdidn'treallymatterItdidn'tevenmatternomatterhowhardItriedYouslippedaway,andIdon'tknowwhy
EverytimeItrytolivewithoutyouIfeeldeadButIcan'tbreathewhenI'mwithyouSowhatarewereallydoinghere?
YouhesitatedAndnowIwishthatyouwouldjustgoaway
JustleavemehereforeverinthedarkWasthislovejustawasteoftime?
Iguessyou'llnevergettoseemyfaceagainAllthemiraclesyoutraced
Ican'texplainwhatitslikeTowonderifI'llevercrossyourmind
IlovedyousomuchithurtForwhateverthatitwasworth
Thiscan'tbeheaven,itfeelslikeI'mhellLookingoutthewindowintotheblowingsnowIneverthoughtthathellcouldbesocold
Justanotherhelplessplea,IbegyouIwillloveyou,forever
TheendJustdon'tleavemehereagain
I'veseenmyworldchangeAndhadtowatchitgobacktowhereitcame
IguessIwasjustanalternativeJustanotheroptionuntilthepastcamebackNowI'minsecondplaceforasecondchance
I'mtiredtochasingdelusionsAllIneedissomeonetobelieveinYoubroughtmebacktolife
Onlytoletmedie
Theysaythatthehigheryouare,thefartheryoufallYouseemedtoogoodtobetrueAndIguessyouweretoo
Butwhypullmeupandthentearmedown?IgaveyouallIhad
IgaveyouallIhadtogiveIguessIdiditallfornothingbecausenowthatyou'regoneaway
Youdidn'tevensaygoodbyetomeHopeislost
NowallIcandoisdrownawayinmyownmisery
IkeeptellingmyselfthatonedayyouwillburnThatonedayyouwillgetwhatyoudeserve
SomepeopleneverlearnSometimesIjustwanttomakeyouhurt
LikethewayIhurtIknowitssickbutitmakesmefeelbetter
SometimesIwishIhadneverevermetyouatallButallIcansaynowis
Don'tputyourlifeinsomeone'shandsthatboundtostealitawayWeweresupposedtoburntheworldtogether
ButyouwerethefireAndI'mtheonewhoburned
AllI'veeversaidwasthetruthAndyesIreallylovedyou
YoumustnotforgetthatIhurttooYousaidsuchsweetwordsUnlikeanythingIhadeverheard
ButIguessitwasjustacover-upforcorruptionandshameYouburneddownmyperfectlittleworld.
IneverthoughtIwascrazyUntilyoushowedup
IneverthoughtIcouldlove,neverthoughtIcouldtrust
YouprovedittomeonlytoproveittoyourselfThatyou'realwaysbetterthaneveryoneelse
ThedayscangoonforeverAndIwillneverleaveyourside
NothingcouldeverbringmebacktolifeSosaveyourlastgoodbyes
IusedtofeelsolovedNowI'mjustscrewedup
Youshouldn'tblameyourselfbecauseIguessIdeserveditAlthoughIneverthoughtI'dbelieveit
Thesesmillionsofmemoriesmakeupmymillionsofshattereddreams
IguessthateventhebrightestlightwillfadeawaytoblackIguessmylovejustwasn'tenoughForgivemeifIdonotunderstand
Onedaywe'llbelyingintheearthSidebyside
Butuntiltheendthere'sonlyonethingyoushouldknowJet'aimeraisjusqu'àlafindumonde
Until the End of Time
I'llbelonggoneandrottinginhellBeforeyousay"Iloveyou"tosomeoneelseIpromisedI'dloveyouuntilmydeathAndevenafterthanIwon'tbedoneyet
SoifyoudiebeforeIdoSomebodybettertellthecoronerhe'llhavetwoAroundmyneckI'llwearahangman'snooseBecauseIneverwanttobeawayfromyou
ThemomentIsawyourprettyfaceIknewitwasyouandnooneelse
InthatsamemomentwesealedourfateIpromisedtoneverleaveyoubyyourself
SoboyyoubetternevertellmegoodbyeBecauseIwon'tleaveyouevenwhenIdieIwanttohaveyourbodyburiednexttomineIwanttobewithyouuntiltheendoftime
The Complete Unknown
There'soneplacethatI'llnevercallmyhomeAndthat'stheverybottomofyoursoulInmylifeyouleftanemptyhole
IguesstherearesomethingsI'lljustneverknow
WhoamItotaketheblame?You'retheonewithalltheshameThisisjustlikeaburntoutflameIguessthingswillneverbethesame
IlearnedthethingsyounevershowedmeBecameallthethingsyou'dneverbe
MaybeonedayyouwillseeAllthispainandcatastrophe
Itookthechancesyou'dhaveblownYou'retheonewholeftmeallaloneSomanyofourstorieswillremainuntoldAndyouremainthecompleteunknown
Dear Father
IaddressthislettertomydearfatherThecompleteunknown
Iguessit'sbetterthatyoujustdon'tbotherAllyourtruthswillbeleftalone
I'mthedaughteryoucan'thidePrayforyourlifebeforeyouprayformine
I'mjusttheforgottenchildTheoneyouleftbehind
SomanyyearshavebeenignoredYou'vebeengonewithoutatraceI'mgettingtoknowingthat
You'rejustanamewithoutaface
AfatherwithoutasonIslikeabulletwithoutagun
Butwhataboutafatherwithouthisdaughter?Iguessyoucan'tspellmanslaughterwithoutlaughter
YouweremeantomakeithurtMakeitalldisappearintothedirtAllthethingsIhadtogothroughAndit'sallbecauseofyou
Doyoufeelanyshame?BecauseIfeelalotofpain
TakethetimetotakemybreathIwillendwhereIbegan
Ifyou'reouttheresomewhereIdon'tknowifyoucareItseemslikeyoudon't
Soyouremainthecompleteunknown
Allwehad,goneforeverThingsthatyousaidwouldneverbeLivingwithoutyoudon'tbotherme
The Red
There'snothingthat'sgonnastopmeThere'snothingthat'sgonnastopme
InsanityInsanity
MyblooddripsonthefloorIt'sred
BackwhereIwasbeforeIt'sallinmyheadThoughtsofsuicide
HidingallthetearsIkeepinside
InsanityInsanity
CrawlingintomeIntomyheadAllIseeisred
IjustwishIwasdeadIt'sallredIt'sallredAllIseeisredIt'sallinmyhead
Red
ThecalmBeforethestormThoughtsOfsuicide
SomanywaystodieForgetaboutme
Youdon'tmeananythingtome
InsanityInsanity
CrawlingintomeIntomyheadAllIseeisred
IjustwishIwasdead
It'sallredIt'sallredAllIseeisredIt'sallinmyhead
Red
YourdrivingmeinsaneYourdrivingmeinsaneCorruptingmymindCorruptingmymindLookinside
It'sallredIt'sallred
InsidemyheadYoucan'tstopme
LookattheredComingdownmyarm
AllthescarsAllthescars
Fromwhenyoubrokemyheart
InsanityInsanity
CrawlingintomeIntomyheadAllIseeisred
IjustwishIwasdeadIt'sallredIt'sallredAllIseeisredIt'sallinmyhead
Red
TheredcreepingintomeThered
IsallthatIseeGiveintotheredGiveintotheredGiveintothered
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