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8/3/2019 I Dreamt of Rob Last Night
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I dreamt of Rob last night.
He passed from vibrant and strong
to shade, an essence, barely held within
a shell of what he had been.
He did this in moments,not the years it had taken him in life.
Joy, love, appetite; all trailed off
into a light without heat,
dimly glowing behind tired eyes.
ere in a weakened touch,
carried on the ground-wave of tremor
as toxified nerves and muscles
struggled to maintain.
Some die a soul death, and then rush, their bodies
impatient to catch-up to the fact.
He died differently. He wanted me to know this.
His dying was an act of purification, the erosion
of layers of hurt and anger, impatience and grievance.
ese had kept his essence contained, as in a vessel
of turbulent power, striving and fighting to overcome
the Joy and compassion within.
Did you dream last night? She asked.
No, I said, At least none I remember.
at was true this morning, though the pause between
No and At least held enough space to contain
what has now come to light. As we had agreed,
What is there will come out when it has ripened
e hard part is learning to trust.
For some it is so hard, it takes their life, ebbing away
day by day. Others fight trust until this struggle defeats
them. ey die inside, as we say, while their bodies
veer-off to find their own deaths. Zombies, defeated
Vampires looking for release. e others must be Saints.
e difference in the outcome of their struggles.
I Dreamt of Rob Last Night
8/3/2019 I Dreamt of Rob Last Night
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Is there another way? Should life be
limited to battle? Cannot Joy, love, compassion
simply be chosen? Anger, rage not simply set aside?
What is hard is brittle. Everything is vulnerable. A Gift
hidden in every obstruction.
Gift.
In his life, Rob gave me the Gift of life.
In his death, he gave it to me again.
Gift dissolves the illusion of loss, of scarcity,
of the thrall of panic, and the pursuit of power.
Gift, in an Alchemy of Love,
generates abundance out of loss,
and enough out of hunger.
I dreamt of Rob
last night.
Antonio Dias 11.10.11
I Dreamt of Rob Last Night
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