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&*&*CHAPTER 1Reminiscence

Isabella Marie Swan Cullen

It was already dismissal. I could feel the smile lighting up my face. School words often remind me of some of my bossy teachers.. If only they know I'm older thanthem, older than their grandparents in fact. I bet they wont exactly start babbling on about age experience.

I was on the way to my car, wishing I can use my normal speed for once, when suddenly that human boy named Mike Newton beat me to it. Great. Just what I needed.

So, Bella, what about that dinner, huh? he queries and I try my hardest not to make a face.What dinner? I answer innocently.You know.. Me, you, picnic under the stars?

Youve got to hand it to teenagers. I envy them the freedom of their era. If he somehow asked me that in my time, by-passers would have had glared at him in all directions.

Uhm, Mike, let me put it this way, I have a boyfriend waiting for me in Australia

.That was so far from the truth that Im amazed they always believe it, because I am a terrible liar. The thing is that, Ive never had such a thing as a boyfriend andthe last time I was in Australia was when it was World War II.

But Upon looking on my glare, he backed away and mumbled next timeI smile with pursed lips and open the car door.

The drive to my house was a dull one. I sang along to an 80s country song and press down on the accelerator harder as the tone reaches the adlib.Though I hate riding in carriages with fast drivers when I was still human, I love driving as fast as I can now that I'm a... vampire.The word still gives me a deep chill and I sigh noisily, ruining my rhythm with

the song.

Its hard enough being a different one among human beings. Its even harder when youre different from your own kind.Yes, I am a vampire. Contrary to popular belief, garlic, holy water and sunlight does not annihilate me. The cross also doesnt but I can assure you I worship itwith holiness. I am not a sadist. I believe there is a God and I believe he watches over us, too. Yes, I need blood to survive.

But thats where my being Catholic kicks in. Yes, I drink blood, But I would neverstomach killing a human-innocent or not. I survive through the blood of animals.Im a vampire that had never killed.

I am, as far as I know, the only one who does not kill human beings. The golden-eyed one. The only golden eyed one .Like I said, being a human who stands out sucks but being a vampire who stands out even among those who already do sucks more. (pardon the pun)

Immortality has its drawbacks, but also a lot of privileges. I never need food, drink, sleep, even air. As far as I know, blood is all our kind has as a basic need.


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I reminisced as I made my way to my bedroom. Thoughts of the first day I found out what I am. That vampire, a woman I can never remember the complete appearanceof is the one who turned me. All my life Ive tried searching for her to no avail. But I guess what was done is done and I can never ask her the true reason shemade me what I am.

I woke up alone and with the oddest burn on the base of my throat. Hell was theonly thing that can compare. Immediately I grabbed for the glass of water I always place on the night stand before I sleep. But it was not there. The whole house was deserted. The woman, Eleanor, I recall, was the name she told me to call her, isnt here.Eleanor.. I cried, my voice course.

I stood up. I wonder why is it I felt strong, yet weak due to my throat.I run to the kitchen. I swallow a chug of water then spat it out.It tasted fine but my throat somehow refused to take it in.

And then I made a mistake (or a blessing as I would call it later on) of glancing in the window.

A doe was drinking from the stream.My predatory instincts took over. The blood was relief to me. I then followed the doe with her mate, the buck, who somehow remained even after I got her killed.And then I also killed the young buck.

There was only the never ending burn-it consumed me. Rationality, Conscience even disgust evaded my senses. It was only about the never ending thirst.

I was horrified at what I did.I knew then what I turned intoI am my father-the preachers child after all And I was afraid beyond measure. I knew I was a monster.

Vampire. The word that was kept whispered by some semblance of my old self. I looked at my bloody hands, the blood of the deer unsightly against my now paler complexion.

I killed a family. Yes, animals only but I what if they were humans? What if it

was some philosopher up here, researching, instead of a dear? Will I be the cause of grief? Can I forgive myself if I kill a child?

I was disoriented, confused. I wanted to kill myself for what Ive become. I mademy way back to the crumbling old house, the one I woke up in.

And then I saw the note.

Isabella,Someday I hope I can prove I was right to make this decision. When I find you again, I promise I will explain everything. Im sorry for the pain, sorry for all. Please, please, be strong. I know you would and maybe even now hate me, but I sincerely hope you won't once I see you again.

Im so sorry.Eleanor

Until today, I still believe I am a monster, a tool devised to kill; but I try my best not to let it take over me.

Years later I envy the family of deer that was my first hunt.At least they died like that. A family. Whilst I am destined to remain forever a


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lone and in misery.

I throw the bag I bring to school on the table with more force than necessary and lied spread eagle on the bed. It was a day for memories, so I might as well remember the one thing I love the most that I will never have again-my family.

I was 5 and my father Carlisle asked me if I wanted more chocolate on the cakeI was being served. I smile sheepishly and nod. He chuckled then added just a tiny drop, then whispered Dont tell your mama to me. I wink at him and hug him, theneat a mouthful of the delicacy.

And then I was 6 when I came home crying. My school mates were teasing me aboutthe color of my hair. Theirs were long, elegant blonde waves while mine were dark. My father immediately picked me up and soothed me. I told him the problem. Helooked sad on my part. But then he told me I was the most beautiful little girlanyway so it never matters.Who would you believe, them or me? He challenged seriously.You I tell him and hug him tighter.He smiled and told me I can watch him play the piano.

I was 9 when my father left me and my mother to hunt demons. It was part of his duty to our community, as pastor and heir of my grandfathers service. I felt horrified and begged him not to come, but he brushed me off, kissed me on the cheek and told me hed be back to teach me a new song on the piano. Promise? I asked. Promi

e He said then put his jacket on and kissed my mother full on the lips then wavedus both a happy good bye.

And then things went wrong. He never came back. I wasnt worried first, convincingmy young mind that he would be back sooner or later. He promised. A week laterthe policemen gave us his wallet that contained nothing but a picture of me andmy mother. They reasoned that he was stolen from by thieves who then went to kill him when he refused to surrender.

I remember me kicking and screaming, and my mother dissolving to loud sobs.The mayor himself offered us his sympathy, for we were one of the most rich and successful on the town. The whole town referred to us as poor dears, because we wereonce the perfect family, and now the father, the husband is gone.

Enough I tell myself loudly, breaking the eerie silence of my room.Thats enough for one day, I chanted to myself. I might miss my family and curse what I am, but I can never change it back to what it was ever again.

In an effort to change the direction of my thoughts, I grab my dog-eared copy ofPride and Prejudice. This copy is about the same age as me, classic and old. Anold story.I flicked the pages to the parts I like best. I got bored since I have repeatedreading this book more like a thousand times. This is not an exaggeration on mypart. Apparently there's nothing interesting for me to do at night-hell on a being forbidden to sleep.

I decided I will just hunt... After all, a week has passed and my eyes are already getting darker. I have to hunt soon or it will be hard spending some time with my "classmates" and my teachers who are more old-fashioned than I am. Sometimes I wonder why none of them are noticing my eyes specially my best friend (or so she thinks) Jessica, my admirers, Mike, Eric, Tyler and others I dont have theenergy to remember. My face twitched into an evil smile. They will have a heartattack surely if they find out I am older than their grandparent's grandparents.

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heir profession if they just hate it with a passion. Imagine molding the futureof the youth, yet hating the trials youll get? I envy them for that chance. The chance to make a good citizen out of a confused adolescent. Yet they seem oblivious to it.

I myself have been a teacher from different times in the past. It was hard workbut I enjoyed it-and it was bittersweet because I longed to get attached to my students, to communicate with them even after they leave the walls of the school.But I never can. Sooner or later, a father would find me too much of a temptation and I would have to leave or some of my colleagues would then remark that I never seem to age. Its been a while since I was a teacher. Maybe I should do it again once I graduate this next journey of high school.

I took out of my house with a run. I run fast, I thought with a leer.. faster than-well, any vampire I've known of . Don't get me wrong, I've known many vampires but none of them are a single bit like me. As much as I know, no vampire had been like me.They dont care about the humans.They dont care about the family of their victims, something they that they were once part of.They dont care for the little conscience left of them, even if they are already different.They act like Gods, people at their mercy.They don't care about being in heaven when their time comes.

I mean I might be deluding myself, but in my humble opinion there is heaven. Yes. Even for me. I just cant believe there is not every time I watch the sunsets and sunrise (not that I don't get to do it here, here at the rainiest place in the continental U.S. where the sun rarely shines.)

I hope God will know I didn't choose this fate.

It was chosen for me.

&*&*

Another day. The sun was smiling and I groaned. I guess no school for me today.

I sat on the sofa decorating my living room. I grimaced at the TV. The first thing that met my eyes was a movie. In the scene, a child was crying near the window. I looked away. I guess it was another trip to memory road.

It has been 2 years since Daddy left us, I sat beside the window everyday waiting for a sign of him.. his smile, his hair, his emerald eyes, or even his kind voice... but there is just crying. And lots of them. My mom, right in her room again, crying, crying and crying until her eyes will tear no more.

My mother was broken-hearted and sick.

She remarried Peter, a businessman and widower with 3 children. She wanted to give me a family again- a father and siblings. Unfortunately, she chose the wrong

man. They were kind at first while he was courting my mother, but everything changed after the wedding. He started drinking more heavily, brandy, wine, or whatever stroked his fancy. His daughters turned mean and claimed all my toys. My stepfather rarely talked to my mother and broken by despair, she started going toher room and rarely leaving it.I was curious and it broke my heart because the one time I looked into her roomsecretly, she was clutching the photo of my father.

After a time, after many years of suffering, my mother breathed her last...I can still hear her faint voice " I love you dear. Forgive me if I'm leaving yo


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u here now."I tried my best not to let Peter and his children make me more sad than ever, but it was a hard action to do. I felt like I was that girl-Cinderella from fairytales my mother and my aunt I dont remember the name now often supplied me at night when I was 3.

And then it was the last straw. Peter ran out of money from his women, his gambling and his alcohol. He managed to make his daughters marry and when I was the only one alone, he convinced me to no avail to marry the mayors son.

I couldnt do it. Haunted by the happy memories of my mother and father, I knew only love would lead me to the altar. I left and hid, and they tried to search everywhere but nobody found me living on another town-my grandfathers from Carlisles.I was lucky because they gave up easily and announced I was dead to everyone from an illness.

The house was deserted, with torn wall papers and faded paint. But it was livable. I survived alone.

I decided to live my own life

Then I met her. The woman whom I thought was my friend. The woman who made me suffer eternal damnation. She betrayed me, and I will never forget it.

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After I finished the grizzly I was hunting, I smelled a mountain lion nearby. SoI just sprang to it's direction. Letting my instincts get the best of me, I ranto find it's direction.

Then I stopped.I was on a meadow.It was dark, of course, because it is nighttime but due to my perfect vision, Ican see it completely.It was small, perfectly round, and filled with wild flowers- violet, yellow andsoft white. Somewhere nearby I knew a spring was nearby. The sound of water spl

ashing was like music to my ears. The moon was shining overhead, filling the circle with soft light.I walked slowly, awestruck, through the soft grass. Flowers danced to the breeze, silent forest sounds enveloped the scene.It was simply breathtaking.

I lied on the grass, not giving a damn about my clothes.I dont know why or how but I stared at it completely until I was startled by themorning sun. I was in the center of it and the sun was sparkling on me.True, it had been a shocking moment when I first saw my reflection on the sunlight.Because during that time, I couldn't pull myself together. I thought I was a criminal

A bloodthirsty criminal.Annoyed that my thoughts were flicking to my worst memories,I looked at my body. It was sparkling, of course, Why would it not?I was annoyed more that my thoughts were flicking, again to things that could never happen.I just stared and wander at the meadow. It was like it was created for me here.It was like it was designed only for me.

There is sunlight again today. I smiled. I knew a lot of make-up work would keepme busy when the sun finally hides. I cannot go to school for obvious reasons.


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So I stayed, marveling at the breathtaking sight.&*&*

The next day it was another normal day, a normal raining day I mean.I got out of my car and went to my class I hated the most not only because of the subject, Trigonometry, not only because of our teacher, Mr. Thomas, but because this is the class I share with the two witches as I call them, Jessica and Lauren.

Completely bored and irritated by the death glares Lauren keep throwing at me,I was almost jumping for joy when the school bell rang.

I was already pretending to eat the slimy food when I heard the latest news."Have you heard the news Katie? 5 new students are coming next week!"I heard Jessica said cheerfully."Of course I have! It's been all over the town that 5 new students are enrollingat Forks High." Katie (a blonde over-sensitive girl) said, a little shocked bythe question.Because of my hearing senses, I can hear the little conversations at the cafeteria."I bet they'll all look like toads!" Mike said a little bossily."Maybe, maybe they don't have brains." suggested Eric.I hid my laugh with a cough.

Yeah, trust the two morons to come up with something about the new comers.

Then the group around his table was silent, lost in their day dreams about the new students."What did I say?" mumbled Eric."I just hope they have nice attitudes." Angela finished.The bell rang and I was off with Angela, whom I have Biology, my after lunch period, with."Strange isn't it? Five new students moving into a little town, in the middle ofthe school year?" Angela said."Yes indeed, which year are they going in anyway?" I asked her, more out of politeness than interest."According to Jessica .." She queried, then shot me a you-know-her look.

"There are two girls and three boys. A girl and a boy will be juniors," she continued thoughtfully, making me think she was thinking more about this than she will let on."And the rest are all Seniors."I eyed her carefully.

What is it I see from her eyes?".But are they all related? Family perhaps? Its too strange if they aren't all connected, cause Forks rarely get new students." I answered pointedly, wonderingabout the strangeness of it."Yeah Jessica says they're all connected to the new doctor in town."She smiled."You know what's making me smile though?

"What?" I asked, my interest now caught because I consider her a friend in a little way."You all share the same family surname. The doctor's surname is Cullen like you..I don't remember his first name though, Car?-Car?- Carl ..Carlos? No? Yeah I got it,,Carlisle!. Dr. Carlisle Cullen."

I stopped walking. My Biology book slipped.It's just a coincidence. Now calm down before you break down in front of all these humans. But what if it was not?


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"Bella? Bella? you okay?" Angela whispered anxiously after handing me my book.I nodded my head. I rearranged my features and smiled tight lipped.

Angela, I think what I ate didnt agree with me this lunch. Can you tell Mr. BannerIm going to the nurse to check?

She looked concerned then nodded.Sure. Take care, okay? she told me, and I nod. A part of me was touched by her caring attitude, but it wasnt what I will call my biggest priority right now.

Yeah, Bye. I replied. I walked normally while late comers hurried to their rooms.Then when halls were deserted and I knew no one was looking anymore, I ran to the parking lot.

Nice girls do not skip classes.Well tough luck, I stopped being a nice girl a long time ago.

&*&*CHAPTER 2New Beginnings

Carlisle Cullen

I was at the hospital, in my not actually first day as a doctor here.

Forks didn't change much, it is still its usual raining self. It's still green-just like when I, Esme, Edward, Rosalie, and Emmett visited it nearly 90 years ago.

I can feel all eyes-specially the female ones staring at my back, marveling at meI wanted to work alone but as that is not possible in this line of work, I justignored it and pretended it's nothing.I passed the head-doctor smiling, remembering the day he accepted me without hesitation.At last, my shift was finished and I walked out the door with no word , leavingall the eyes behind me.

I arrived at our home and spotted my son playing the piano, my wife next to himwearing a motherly expression.When Edward spotted me, he looked up to me and made a welcoming gesture with hishand. Esme followed his eyes and went to my side quickly using our "usual" speed.Then, she went to give me a short peck on the lips and asked me the usual question."How did it go dear?""Well, the usual." I said as I grinned broadly.She gave me a lovely smile in return. Lovely, even for a vampire.I looked at the room and spotted Rosalie. She was scanning some fashion magazines absentmindedly and was surprised when she heard my question."When will your first day be Rose?"

"Hmm? Ahm I think next week, for sure. I haven't been on the school yet, I haven't accompanied Alice during the registration." She said with a guilty smile."But where are they?" I looked around, expecting to see the tiny pixie smiling at me but she was nowhere of sight."She's hunting, with Em and Jas." Edward said answering my question, no doubt, answering my mind.

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Mary Alice Brandon Cullen


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I was draining the elk slowly, for I'm not particularly thirsty.I was just accompanying my wrestler of a brother Emmett and my mate Jasper.The elk was halfway drained when a vision appeared.There was a girl, a vampire girl. Just like us. She had on clothes more suited for someone 10 years senior to her age, and she had closed eyes.But she was still a real beauty. Her features were the one you expect a porcelain doll wear.Her hair was dark, and I was certain it was a real brunette color.She was in a meadow that looks strangely familiar.

She was then looking straight ahead, and I heard myself gasp.She had golden eyes.

And then it became more mind-boggling.She began crying, a heart-breaking sound no one but a very miserable person canmake.I wanted to be near her, which was foolish of me, I know but I couldnt shake thefeeling off.Her arms were wrapped around herself, and then her knees somewhat gave up and she kneeled on the soft grass.

The vision vanished and another one appeared. She was looking for someone in theforestThe vision shifted again. She was packing her clothes.

And then it twisted yet again. She was with us. She was shopping with Rose, laughing with Emmett, Playing chess with my Jasper and then..She was arms to arms with me we were both laughing so hard like teenage schoolgirls teasing each other.. Then Esme was hugging her while they were both crying hysterically.Then..ThenShe was kicking away from Carlisle while Carlisle was begging to her knees thenit shifted again..They were both hugging each other in a fatherly- daughter way and Shewas asking him.."Why didn't you find me?"

Then it vanished out of sight.Edward. Where is Edward? these are the questions that pops in my head every timeI have a vision...But..Edward was nowhere in itNo...NothingEveryone was there except himI searched for his future but there wasn't anything there. All was normal.. Himtrying to hum out the thoughts , him playing the piano.

But the girl was not there.Nowhere.. Nowhere

Who is this girl. ?And why am I laughing with her?Then a vision mad me hysterically shocked but fulfilled beyond measure.

Edward was in the meadow with her.. They were holding hands...they were talking.

They just looked so good together that I was certain she was the answer to Emmetts teasing Edwards gay.

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I knew that this is the most vital one. Also, this is whats going to determine success.

The Cullen family will have another member. Quite possibly, Edwards mate.

But who is she, and...When Exactly?

I felt so confused, for the first time. The visions were shifting, changing. Confusing me.Which means only one thing.

The girl is more confused than I am.

Edward. He determines everything.

Then I remembered Carlisle.Whats this got to do with him?

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What am I going to do ?Knowing my chances, I knew that there is a chance that its all just a coincidence.But there is a bigger chance that it isn't.I moved from my room, to the kitchen and finally, to my piano.I stopped there.I played one of the songs I play when I remember my father.

DANCE WITH MY FATHER AGAINBack when I was a child, before life removed all the innocenceMy father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and thenSpin me around 'til I fell asleepThen up the stairs he would carry me

And I knew for sure I was lovedIf I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with himI'd play a song that would never, ever endHow I'd love, love, loveTo dance with my father again

When I and my mother would disagreeTo get my way, I would run from her to himHe'd make me laugh just to comfort me, yea yeaThen finally make me do just what my mama saidLater that night when I was asleepHe left a dollar under my sheetNever dreamed that he would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with himI'd play a song that would never, ever end'Cause I'd love, love, loveTo dance with my father againSometimes I'd listen outside her doorAnd I'd hear how my mother cried for himI pray for her even more than meI pray for her even more than meI know I'm praying for much too muchBut could you send back the only man she loved


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I know you don't do it usuallyBut dear Lord she's dyingTo dance with my father againEvery night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream

I cried and cried with no tears escaping and I realized my own feet have taken me to the meadow. This is the reason why I rarely allow myself to reminisce aboutmy father.

What am I supposed to do? Even if my father is like me, a monster..What am I going to do?I cannot just go to that hospital with no reason..And what will I do If it really was all a coincidence?How can I endure that?Now that I allowed myself to hope,Will I be able to repair myself again?And besides.. If it is not a coincidence...

Will he accept me? Judging the fact that there are five new students.. and all of them are "Cullens" like me... they are his new family...Are they like me too? Because all the facts leads straight to that...A rainy little town...Moving students in that...

But both of that will crumble with the last one...Knowing my dad, if he is a vampire, he will take the way I took...be the "good vampire".

So hell be here for years.And I have got no choice but to stay here too, because the authorities have detected me somewhat, because of my vendetta against talking to the right persons, meaning pay.

What if I run to him in town?What if one of them notice that I look like him?And will they accept me?

There were more tearless tears that escaped me...No... Chances are they won't...I would. once again, like I was with Peter, be the black sheep. The outcast.And if I see him, I would never be able to escape the pain.

Why do I even want to meet my father again? He left us, right?He abandoned us when we needed him.

He promised. A promise that was broken with time.He let my mother and me to suffer every night-me emotionally and my mother physically and emotionally.

Why do I even want to meet my father again?

The answer was clear to me but I refuse to accept it.Because I need my father again.

But does he need me?Time must have been kind to him.He has new daughters now,two if I am not mistaken.And three sons. I remembered that he always wanted a son.

He does not need me to ruin his perfect eternity, and I dont have the right to make him choose between me and them.


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So Ill stay out of his picture.

Jealousy, if I am being honest was the real reason behind those words.He replaced us, his true family for another! He never searched for me! He couldhave had spent a century or so searching for any trace of me, right? He could have had gone back to us.He should have had controlled the monster inside him.

And although I knew I wasnt thinking clearly, that I was supposed to run to the hospital and demand him or his address, I did not.

I stayed on the meadow and cried all night, with only my own arms wrapped aroundme and silence in the place of a warm reassurance.

What should I do?

&*&*CHAPTER 3Visions

Edward Anthony Mason Cullen

I heard the presence of another mind. I turned to see my father arriving from hi

s first shift after 90 years from the hospital.He was taking in the sight of Esme and I.I made a welcoming gesture and Esme followed my gaze. She quickly turned to go into him and peck him in the lips.She was.. worrying as usual, about how dad made his first day.I concentrated on the piano after that, I don't want to hear too much out of their conversation. They have their right to privacy.

Where are the others? Carlisle inquired in his mind.I answered him and continued with the piano again.

&*&*

My half-brothers and sisters were finally home.Emmett was thinking about arm-wrestling with Jasper again and Jasper was the same but he was also concentrating on Alice's mood.Alice was grinning from ear to ear but when I peeked at her mind.. I can see shewas concentrating to hide something from me..I raised my eyebrows at her but she continued to concentrate but now, it was harder.

"What are you hiding? You evil pixie?" I asked loudly.The others looked at both of us..very puzzled.

Pixie. Emmett guffawed while Esme mock-glared at me.She shook her head but if it was possible, she concentrated more and smiled more

.

"What the hell is going on again? Last time you did that, You broke Esme's favorite chair and tried to hide it from him- from us?" Rosalie asked, annoyed.

"Nothing." Alice said but she was still working very hard to hide something.But I know better.She was hiding something more important.

"A vision?" I asked her.


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"No. I said nothing ." Her face turned from the big smile to a serious one.I only caught a glimpse of a shadowy vision.It was complicated...It was very hard to understand..A girl .. no, a vampire... a crying one..That's when she concentrated harder. The square root of pi will only get you sofar, I thought nastily."What was that?" I yelled annoyed more now because she made the vision stop andthe numbers were getting to my head.

Should I tell them or not? Okay. Partly.

Can we go to the dining room? Alice said loudly.Edward, please, please listen first. Do not react. Act normally, okay? There ismore to this. Ill tell you later. She was looking straight ahead. I nod conspicuously.When all of us were settled, even Carlisle, who left the library to join us, Alice began her report.

"Well... a new vampire is going to join us... I wanted to secret it and surpriseyou all, but because of that guy there" She gestured with her little hand to me."You all wouldn't be." she finished.

"Huh? When did you see it?" Emmett asked.

"What is she- a girl or boy?" Rosalie said anxiously."Why did you tell us this late?" Carlisle asked."Are you really sure Alice, dear? I don't want to hope." Esme asked in a motherly way."I will answer all of your questions if you will slow down." Alice asked.

Nobody expected me to raise questions. They always think I can read it all anyway, so nobody was surprised I havent asked.

But they are wrong this time.

This time, I am not satisfied with what I am reading.Better yet, what I am being blocked from reading.

What the hell is it?

&*&*


I am still confused.What am I going to do with Edward?I can't let him see her- my future sister...just because of my visions.I don't know why, but I want him to meet her personally first.You know, love at first sight and all that?I weighed the cons and pros as I ran back to the glass house.

I chanted not to let myself give Edward an involuntary peek.

I finally decided to let them all in in the "secret" , but I won't tell them allof the details.

I told them to sit at the dining room, explaining to Edward that well talk later.

" Well... a new vampire is going to join us... I wanted to secret it and surpris


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e you all, but because of that guy there" I gestured with an annoyed- very annoyed look at Edward,

"You all wouldn't be." I finished."Huh? When did you see it?" Emmett asked. Last year. Duh, today."What is she- a girl or boy?" Rosalie asked , excited for a new shopping partner. I definitely understand that!"Why did you tell us late?" Carlisle asked. Don't they remember it's supposed tobe a secret?And why was she---

"Are you really sure Alice, dear? I don't want to hope." Esme asked in a motherly way. Awww so cute.. Yay Mom is gonna have a new daughter- and I, a new sister!Oops. I looked at Edward.

Maybe I gave something away. Luckily, He was still absorbed in his own thoughts."I will answer all of your questions if you will slow down." I told them a little sharply."I saw it just minutes ago, while hunting with you two. Rosalie, I know how youfeel- Shes a girl."I looked at Carlisle but I blocked my thoughts as much as possible.

" I'm definitely sure Esme, dear that She will join us soon."I told her and she began asking me how soon.

"I don't know exactly. It all depends. " I left it hanging. Grin.

To Edward. I finished in my head, wrong move again!

I turned to look at Edward but he seemed concerned about Esme. He doesnt want her to hope.

I wish that you wouldn't be much of a pain Edward, I wanted to surprise you all,but because of your nosy attitude..." I left the sentence hanging.Rosalie was still grinning ear to ear- reflecting me.Edward looked at me.- I know that he was not believing everything I am saying."Is that all Alice?" Edward finally said.I looked at Rosalie concentrating hard- very hard not to think about... Rosalie.

Rosalie only. Rosalie.I turned to take a deep breath."Yes that's all. Now would you go away for a minute Edward? I want to , really,badly- to know exactly when she's going to join us, It won't help to know that amind reader is peeking at everything I 'm going to see."

Later. I promise.He was starting to say something but I interrupted him."And I am going to keep an eye on you if you will listen." I threatened darkly.I mean it."Fine I'll go away for a minute if that's what you want. Maybe I can go to my meadow. It's been a long time since I got there." he made a good-bye gesture to all of us, glared at me and was gone before realization hit me.

Later he mumbled, knowing Id get the hint that it was for me.I don't know whether I will scream or jump for joy because...My soon -to-be-sister: she is also on her and now, their meadow.

And suddenly I feel excited more and more.I nudged Rosalie.

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Ha. If only I can eat popcorn, this is going to be an authentic romantic movie.

Why are you so happy? Jasper asked me with a sheepish look.Because I love you. I told him then kissed him.

Get a room! Emmett yelled. We ignored him.

&*&*CHAPTER 4Emotions


I had finished my broken, tearless sobbing.It was a day blessed with rain again. Just like the tears I was not not able toshed. , I thought dismally at the little drops that fall.

I chose not to attend class today. No, not at this state.I was here again on the meadow. I have taken to calling it mine because so far,I can trace no human or animal have laid claim to it. I don't know why or how but it seemed to me as if I should be here, really be here. Somehow, this meadow lessens my burden.

A strange new scent filled my nose. It was like honey, lilac and sunshine, combined yet not exactly the same. I searched every single direction but I could notfind anything or, anyone. It was just rain.. tiny droplets of rain.

Maybe I finally lost it. Can a vampire be mad?Its probably a flower not discovered yet.

Well, yes maybe, maybe because I am different, and to top it all, I am much moredifferent than the different.

"Why?" I barely heard my own voice. Why did I receive such a hopeless fate? I did not chose this, In fact I think I am better off dead , at least maybe, lying

in a coffin beside my mothers, at least I am together with my family. Together with the people I love the most.Without my knowing, I was crying louder this time, I felt sorry for myself. butthat was it. I, myself am the only one who cares for me. I am alone, on the miserable world, forever and as miserable as it is, always..

The sweet smell was still there but I don't care anymore, it was nothing.I am always alone...I closed my eyes...alone, How melancholy the word sounds!

But thats when I heard something moving.I turned around again, certain I would find nothing.At first I was right.

But then there he was, an angel.Who is he? Why is he here? And... Why is he coming in my direction?I stopped breathing. If my heart could stop beating, I think it might.

He was like me. Exactly like me. My instincts were on guard.He was also a vampire.I felt fury reign in but I struggled to contain it. This is my territory.He was walking to me, and I was frozen in place. I dont know what was winning inthe plethora of emotions coursing through me. Shock, fury, shame, maybe a little


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bit of all.

He was still walking to me! Does he not see me? Why is he still coming in my direction?He finally reached me and snatched my hand which was wrapped around my knees from my earlier crying.

Who is this vampire? Am I imagining things? Why is he holding my hand?"Why are you crying?" I finally heard him murmur, too low.I looked up to his face and was shocked to see the golden orbs, soft and warm.Golden eyes like mine.

What is happening here? Who is this?Why is he holding my hand? Why is he talking to me and why does he have my eyes?

I tried to talk, to answer, or ask him, but I was too amazed and shocked.I felt his gaze on my face and I looked down. Maybe it was silly, but I was ashamed of someone seeing me cry.He squeezed my hand and murmured again."Why are you crying?" I looked up to his face again, shook my head and pressed my lips together.

If God answered my prayer not to be alone anymore, this is too much.

He smiled- I think it was a forced one. One side of it was anxious-almost sad. And one side was simply heartbreaking. He was staring at my lips, and If I couldhave had blush, I swear, I would."I don't think you're telling the truth." He said, catching my eye.Reason ruled over me. I looked at our hands, twined together."What's it to you anyway? and who are you?" My voice broke and I felt humiliated.

"Well, Honestly I don't know too." and the smile turned up again."Who are you? And What are you doing here?" I asked, looking at our hands.

"Who Am I? You'll know soon enough. What I am doing here? This is my favorite place in the world." He answered. Then smiled at me again.

"Well, It's mine too." I replied. making an effort not to make my voice break again.I looked at our entwined hands. I knew I should break them off, and I know I could but some part of me wanted to hold on.

Now Im not alone anymore.

Stop crying. he whispered, and looked straight ahead to the moon.

&*&*


I saw them and seriously, its hard to get the smile off my face.Rosalie muttered "What's wrong with her?" under her mouth.I can almost see Jasper's eyes glaring at her- almost.Emmett is watching TV,Esme is arranging a flower vase but smiling like me, as always.Carlisle was in the study-as predicted. No pun intended.They were talking.. Edward and my next new sister.

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still I caught them Holding hands!Wooh! And for the first meeting, that was not bad!I laughed and this time, Esme seemed to notice.

"What is it, Alice?, dear Can you see her now? Exactly when?" Esme said, a little too excited, and.. for goodness sake, I can tell she's worried. Extremely worried. Hard to be hard on her, though.

"No. But she will join us- soon." I replied."What's so funny, little sis?" Emmett said."Edward." was the only thing I said and a vision appeared again in nowhere, contradicting the words I said earlier, specially the "soon"...

.

How can she? Why did she?I stared at Esme.I stared at everyone else.I told them I have to go away for a while.I ran fast.Trust me. I yelled and began the game plan in my head.

Edward! I shouted as loud as I can in my mind.

We need to talk. Now.&*&*CHAPTER 5Choices


I don't know how long we sat there. I feel like an idiot. I'm alone now again, in my house again.

I didn't know why but I sort of feel that I should be with him.. I, I, No, that's not it.. it can't be. I've only known him for a day, for crying out loud! Somehow, I can't say that I miss him...Right?

"So, Who are you?" The curious stranger asked."That's unfair, and you know it. I will tell you my name when I don't even knowyours?"I shook my head slowly and muttered "Unfair. Unfair.""Well, why do you want to know me?" He said.Gah! He was talking to me and holding my hand and I don't even know his name? What kind of vampire was he born in? maybe hes a new one, just changed. But some part of me knew he was a gentleman. Old. Classic. Like me?"Well if you won't, then I won't too." I said, a little stubborn."Well, fine anyway. I'm Edward. Nice to meet you." He said. He squeezed my hand.Isabella, I replied.A fitting name.

I couldn't describe the feeling I felt after that. I was, you see, kind of hoping he will kiss my hand, Like the way of meeting young ladies for the first timeduring my time. I know, I know, reality is different from dreams. Besides, wasntI a proper young lady? What happened to that girl?How can I think like this when I'm thinking about my father?I was right.A vampire can go mad.Very funny."What's wrong?" Damn. He realized I was grimacing."Nothing."


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"Don't believe you madam.""Then don't." I challenged with narrowed eyes."Fine. Anyway..really, what's bothering you? I saw you crying a little earlier.Broken up with your vampire boyfriend or something?" He was teasing me- and I knew it, but when I looked into his eyes, I see anxiousness there. And if I'm right a little jealousy? No, I'm overlooking things as usual, haha.

No, No, Bella. Stop thinking about that. no, no, Nohe squeezed my hand to sort of remind me I was talking to him.."No. Nothing. I just want to cry a bit-" I mock-glared at him and continued"And I don't have a boyfriend, so stop teasing me about things I don't have timefor." Yeah really, How can I think about things like that when I'm solving waybigger problems? The .. the.. no. You will not cry again. No. Not tonight."Slow down, Guilty or something?"The mock glare turned into a real one. The beautiful smile kept growing bigger.And did I mention he was still holding my hand?We kept talking and talking. Some of it was pointless anyway.Like he asked me what was my favorites, from flowers (the saffron) to books(of course, Jane Austens!) to movies(classics.)"How old are you, madam?""Seventeen. haha.""No, not that, I mean how long have you been-?" I think we both find it hard tosay the word vampire.I didn't know but I was really happy that we have something in common, even a li

ttle fear for a word.I was right! I really did lose my mind."Hmm, 300, more or less,, I don't remember much, time wasn't marked accurately in my time yet.You?""Seventeen and if you mean what i mean by my last question, like you, 300, moreor less too. "It was like we have knew each other for all our lives. Like we were playmates when we were little, and was reunited again, which is, you know, stupid. Well... I'm stupid, so what's the point?

And I knew that for the first time, I was not feeling left out.

And I remembered he had that golden eyes, exactly like mine.And I remembered Why I had been crying, Why we met.Because of my father and his new "family"Is he part of them?How can I let myself be stupid?"Because I am." I muttered. I'm really crazy.Youll be rejected again I tell myself then sigh.

I began throwing clothes in random order at the open luggage.So you have to leave to protect yourself.I grabbed my phone and call the airline.To hell with the authorities. I can always make some of my vampire friends to killthem all.

Halfway I decided to settle for Brazil. Ill have to hibernate. Besides, I have a private island there.Someone knocked on my door.My eyes widened in surprise..Nobody knows where I live.Only vampires can find my home.And a female voice, very excited.."Bella? "


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&*&*

Edward Anthony Mason Cullen

I don't know what happened to me. As if my feet has a mind of it's own, I started moving towards her. I didn't know why or how but I still have the strong urgeto comfort her, only now it's stronger.I finally reached her. She spotted me and was wearing a confusing mix of amazement, suspicion and bewilderment. Still, sadness was clear in her golden eyes andmy emotions were caught from that. I realize that I do not like it as her dominant feeling.

I grabbed her hand. I know, it's not a pleasant way of a first meeting. Why didI do it? To that, I don't know.She was crying, I don't know why but that was the first thing I asked. It makesme uncomfortable.. no sad and want to comfort her. Like I share her feelings. Idon't want to see her cry. No, I don't want her to cry.

"Why are you crying?"She looked up to my eyes and hers widened more.She had an intake of breath and if it was possible, was now more shocked but now, it was a little scared. Even more than sadness, fear was not something I welcomed from her.

She seemed a lost for words. She was about to talk, but not a single word escaped her beautiful lips.I was still examining her when she looked down. I had a desire to lift her facebut I know that's too much. Our hands are enough. For now.

I squeezed our entwined hands and murmured again."Why are you crying?" I said again, she shook her head and pressed her lips.I smiled. Why can't I read this creature's mind? Why? Why is she sad? How can Icomfort her?"I don't think you're telling the truth." I said. I made her look me in the eye.She looked at our hands that I twined together."What's it to you anyway? And who are you?" Her voice broke. I wish I was lessening her sadness.

"Well, Honestly I don't know too." I smiled again."Who are you? And what are you doing here?" she asked again, looking at our hands."Who Am I? You'll know soon enough. What I am doing here? This is my favorite place in the world." I answered. I'm someone.. You'll know me when you join us. Sothis is what Alice was hiding from me. That I would be the first one to be ablemeet her. I was shocked, I was happy seeing her, not like seeing Alice, Jazz, Emmett or Rose for the first time, but I was happier. She was on my meadow, crying. Why though? I have to find out. She's family to me now. And for the first time, I don't know if that's really what I meant.

I smiled again. Knowing I have a lot of chances to get to know my new "family".I love my family..more, I decided. I love her.

Now I knew the meaning of the word in its truest sense.

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She was throwing her clothes in random order inside a suitcase.Theyll reject you. she tells herself.So you have to leave. she mumbled as she grabbed her wallet.


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I can feel my feet hitting the gravel faster than ever. Three minutes tops and Ill be at her doorstep. I just hope her conversation with Edward didnt reveal to her that I can see the future.

I can see that Edward did not receive my mental call because he was grinning like a fool at the meadow still.I grimaced. You see, this is a concrete example of something Emmett once said. Love makes everyone stupid sometimes.

I ran as fast as I can. I know Jasper can overtake me any second due to my shortlegs but I know too that he won't.If I run fast enough, shell be saved from further un packing. Actually, I was tempted to slow down a little just so I can suggest later that she throw the suitcase on the ocean or something.

I arrived.Bella? I called.

&*&*


I opened the door smelled something- a floral scent and then

I saw an excited woman, close to twenties? seventeen maybe?Who is she? Why is she here? Am I imagining things again?Unexpectedly, She hugged me and said " Ohmygosh! You're so pretty, more in person!" It's official... I lost my mind.My eyes reached hers and.. and.. and.. they were also golden! I almost wanted totear my brain up. Is this bipolar or something? a moment ago I was crying and now...

Why do random things keep happening? And also the fact that there is a tiny-whoam I kidding?- huge possibility that somehow, I still have a father somewhere existing- yes and with a new family too.

Tiny. The word applies to her.

I've got to talk... I forced my mouth to say something but I was so shocked nota single word escaped my lips."Don't be shocked Bella dear, Were meant to be best friends and best sis-" She left it hanging, Uhm seriously best friends? Is this girl mad? I don't know her andshe's going to be my friend? and best friend too? I dont know but some tiny part of me loved the idea that I'm going to have a friend and a best friend.. Thatsomehow, someone cares for me..

Friends I can accept ,but best? I mean, I knew a guy (E) that I know nothing ofthat I consider a friend- or more.. stop it!

After all, there's a 99.9% chance these two are connected, maybe they're mates..I got a mean big depression inside me.. Calm down!

And the word sis... let me see, there are only a few letters that can come afterthat .. my suspicion? T.E.R. It can't possibly be scissors, hahahaha, I reallyam losing my mind."I know you're confused, but I'll explain, what are friends for?"She smiled as she said this but it is she was postponing something and somethingimportant. I think I bit my lip.


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The smile was back and I'm surprised because it was lovelier..." I'm Alice, Alice Cullen" I had an intake of breath but she still continued."soul mate of jasper" I was doing a happy dance inside and I didn't know why.."sister of Rosalie, Emmett and.." she looked me directly in the eye."Edward." She was smiling bigger, I felt as though there was some dirt or something on my face.Then she continued, changing my mood...

"step daughter of Esme and you're father, Carlisle." She winked at me...But somehow, I am not sad no, not really...Who are you? Here you are, showing up and telling me things like youre a fortune teller, and Im supposed to follow you? I asked, more annoyed than angry. I can outrun her anyway so what was the point of trying to escape like a fool?

Cmon I need to tell you everything.You wont get rejected darling, in fact youll have open arms!

And so here I sat, with a suitcase on the door, and a vampire to have chitchat with.I am longing and lonely, sad and depressed but somehow I was kind of happy because she said we were going to be friends and I think it meant something deeper and.. the "sis word" ...

Im actually surprised I like Alice and Edward.

Hey, I reminded myself.Theres still someone named Carlisle you havent said hello to yet.

&*&*CHAPTER 6Decisions

Carlisle Cullen

Esme delivered lunch at the hospital today.

Of course the nurses were ashamed for thinking they stood a chance with this woman.Fury was still there for the man who very clearly suggested that shell be better off with him.But then I smiled as I remembered Esme kissing me as reply.

I went home with the most beautiful woman holding my hand, sending electric parks with the soft hands. People stared, some delighted, some as if blinded, but most are just jealous. But who cares about them? Esme squeezed my hand as if to agree and smiled, just like she always does.We drove home; she leaned her head on my shoulder and stroked my arms gently. Ilooked at her and my mind was just asking a simple question How did I deserve her? I am existing perfectly. Heavenly wife, Best children, But I corrected myself,

no not completely perfect, No.A missing piece was still missing on the puzzle of my life. My only real daughterEsme smoothed the crease on my forehead and asked what's wrong. I dint need to answer because I know she knows what anyway. I have to keep this inside myself, Seeing me hurting will her one too, maybe much more.I composed myself and she kissed my cheek,, But worry was still clear on her face, this time I was the one who kissed her.

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I am on my study now, tracing the picture of a little girl that I know would never come back to me.The little emerald eyes like mine was, soft shiny brown hair that has tint of red in the sun, little pink lips , heart-shaped pretty face and the angelic smile.This is the best Alice can sketch for me. She drew this with the little excerpts from my memory that I can remember.Sometimes, I wonder why I didn't look for this little girl- my only little girland my wife when I had the chance.Why?Why?Why?I loved my first family then and still, maybe forever.Was it because of my cowardice? Why did I left them waiting with broken hearts?What did my little girl become to? How did she looked like? Have she forgiven me, her unworthy father? Why?I placed the picture back to where it belongs, on my desk. I traced it absentmindedly thinking about how shameful I am and about the little girl whom I would never see again.&*&*


It's time. I have to tell her that I know, and to admit it to myself that I do.

I know that I know about her and Carlisle . I know that it was no one's fault. Iknow it is certainly not her fault. I know about her loneliness and his and hershame. I know how she might run away from us if she choose the wrong road. I know how her heart would break. And I know how their Family-our Family will be much complete-another daughter, this time a real one for Carlisle and Esmeand a lover to Edward and a sister to me.

Now, back to why I'm here. I've seen in the vision that I'll be the other one tomake her change her mind.(the other one was Edward, but still, I can't sit herewaiting for Edward to figure it out himself!) I've seen in the vision that I'llmake her change what she thinks of us.Really? She thinks we won't accept her? She, who is purer than all of us, who never tasted human blood? She, the true Cullen besides Carlisle? It's just so.. so

.. impossible, so funny! If she isn't staring at me with wide eyes now, I wouldhave been laughing-out loud.

"Don't be shocked Bella dear, Were meant to be best friends and best sis-" I leftit hanging, cursing my running mouth.She still had that petrified look thats funny and sad at the same time. ."I know you're confused, but I'll explain, what are friends for?"I smiled as I say this but the truth was that I was wishing that would be true,hopefully. I know I want to be her friend. But I cant do it if she doesnt.

" I'm Alice, Alice Cullen." I figured it out a while ago. That she was Carlislesdaughter, yadda yadda. It was shocking news, but I know the issues gonna be solved sooner or later. After all, time is fast for us vampires.

"Soul mate of jasper" I continue, noticing a glint of relief? in her eyes."sister of Rosalie, Emmett and.." I watched her eyes carefully."Edward." My white teeth showed from my smile. I can see it in her face, the same dreamy look Edward got in the vision earlier."step daughter of Esme and you're father, Carlisle." I winked at her, forcing myself to make light of the situation.Who are you? Here you are, showing up and telling me things like youre a fortune teller, and Im supposed to follow you? I knew what she was going to say even beforeshe said it so I sighed instead.Cmon I need to tell you everything. You wont get rejected darling, in fact youll ha


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e open arms!

"How, How, did you know, A.. Alice" Her voice was thick with worry."I see the future, you know, Can we sit down? I am perfectly comfortable standing, but sitting on some soft cushion makes me happy" I winked at her. Again. Hah!As if sitting makes a difference to me! I only said that to give her the impression that I will stay long."Oh! You have a talent? I don't have one. "She frowned as she said this, and grabbed my hand and sat us down her soft sofa.

She has a beautiful- very beautiful house.. big, cozy, simple but elegant. I should say, for one who doesn't know how to pick outfits, She picks good designing.I can tell Esme and her will get along well even now, even without my future vision. But, who doesn't get along well with Esme?I was turned back into reality again by Bella, who asked me something."Do you really mean that?""What about?""We're gonna be bestfriends?" in a little tiny voice. How can she ask that?"Silly girl! Of course we will~ I can see it in every vision!" I was kinda shouting now, I was annoyed she didn't trust me, but deep inside, I know it was because there was a chance she wouldn't want to be."Sorry! Then.." This time I had it, no more hanging questions! I used my vision.She will ask me about something about accepting her.

"Ofcourse all of us will accept you? How can we not? You might be surprised someone will..." I left it hanging there, I was also about to say "will make you hisbride" but it wouldn't be fair to Edward if she knows right? He doesn't know heloves her already-yet. He doesn't know it himself. But I know, I always know.Ugh.

Love is Complicated! Good thing I have Jazz.Bella noticed my preoccupation,"Someone will what, make me eat cake?" I know she was joking because she was laughing, although I know that it was kind of forced."No I meant someone will make you change your style, clothes and home, by the way, nice place you got here, but do you really think Carlisle will let his long-lost-only- daughter? I bet he wouldn't take his eyes off you, for century or so.

Hah!"

No he wont. Oh dear. The angry teen is back.Yes he will. I answer with the same stubbornness. I wasnt labeled evil pixie for nothing.I grinned evilly.

She sighed.Its just that.. He promised. She said. The sad girl was there, deep inside her. I wish I could help but I know only Carlisle would be able to.

Bella I want to tell you everything but it isnt my story to tell. I answer sadly. Se bowed her head.

I grab her hand.Ill tell you one thing though.You will be part of our family. Hell, you always were. Carlisle and Esme always accepted you, even before we were all born. I joked.Our laughs were natural, I think it was always destined that we would be sisters, In both from Carlisle and Edward.We continued like that for an hour and so. I explained why she should (and will)join us, I told her it was Carlisle suffering every second she doesn't tell himshe exists. and my vision told me it is in a week, maybe less, she will join us


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.

Theres two more obstacles along the way. Its too soon for me to predict the outcome yet, and I cant solve it alone. I really need to talk to Edward before I proceed.

It took my whole concentration not to laugh when I saw Edwards's face in my vision. Oh! I can't hardly wait! I asked her about her favorites, her fears, thingsshe loveGood thing I know now, because I see Edward asking me opinions on what togive her..etc..And best of all, It's killing me too that it will take only a few months(maybe weeks!) before I plan their wedding.But there were still important matters now, the issue with Carlisle for example,and also me, I dunno still what I'm gonna do to keep the mind reader from reading my mind about things such as gown, flowers and wedding.. And also the concentration it will take me to make myself not to allow him.

&*&*

Edward?Are you listening? If you are, nod your head.He nodded but continued to stare at his piano.I've got something to tell you...You already met Bella, right?

He had a confused face.Oh for goodness sake, I know you did.He tried not to chuckle but I knew he wanted to so badly. Emmett and his quotescomes to mind.She is...He waited.is,,,Carlisles long lost daughter.Edward froze; his reaction to stress.Don't do that! You'll make it obvious to the others!He breathe in slowly and regained his composure.He walked till he reached me, grabbed a piece of paper from the table and a black fancy pen."Are you sure Alice ?" the words were precise as I read inside my head what he w

as going to write.Uhmm.. no. my eyes flashed dangerously.Yes! Do you think I'm going to tell you that if I'm not sure? I thought you weresmart? I yelled inside my head sarcastically."Oh c'mon, Alice there's not time for jokes. Does anybody else know?" he wrote with fast pace.no, you're the only one yet, I'm planning to tell Esme though, before it gets stickier than ever.Fine. Can I go to her?An involuntary smile was in my cheek.Bayang magiliw, Perlas ng Silanganan,,,, I recited the Philippine National Anthem on my head.Edward raised his eyebrows-a sign of pure annoyance and 100% confusion.

Serves him right.Oh. Wake up Alice !the words were written in his fancy handwriting with capitalletters.Huh? Ah Esme? you're gonna go to Esme? I asked...inside my head again ofcourse.He passed me the piece of paper, while I smiled at Jasper as he smiled at Emmettdoing the chicken dance watching that basketball game. I saw that the Lakers will win, so whatever .I turned to the paper." Bella- convince her. The sooner the better."


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&*&*CHAPTER 7Sight


Reading Wuthering Heights, to the part where Edgar and Heathcliff are fighting in words...A new scent came from outside my house, it's a smell I recognize vaguely. It smells.. good -and that's an understatement.

If my heart could jump from my chest, I highly doubt it won't.And then the knock came.What a most unpleasant time to come! I was dressed in a strapless blue top and jeans, And I am a lady! What would my father say if he sees me like this, so, so,revealing instead of conservative. Not my fault, It's a sunny day today, afterall...

And then the second knock came.I have to think fast, Now I'm sure it's Edward. It's the same honey-lilac-sunshine cologne.Oh c'mon Isabella Cullen, Why so conservative? He's going to be your brother! for crying out loud! Crap Crap Crap! I don't know the reason why I thought Crap-ab

out him being my brother or about him being here.Both. I decided dejectedly.But there's no time to hold on to that thought...So I hurried to and opened my nice glass-wooden door.As I open it,I feel like shaking and fainting on the spot, But I know it isn't possible to dothat.Why do I feel that anyway? Why?Beautiful beyond any dream, Glorious beyond all imaginings,There he stood.There was a strange knit in his brows, And his lips were somewhat pouted-like concentrating very hard.."Hello" he said, barely audible in my own ears.

He took in my appearance and I don't know what was funny, but his face changed and he had a smile so beautiful- a crooked smile, that's what I think the smile looks like. That made me smile back in return.I muttered a so silent "Come in" But I know he heard that.I seated him on my white sofa.It seemed weird-inappropriate to see him sit there and not offer anything just like I did when I was visited by suitors in my past life. But forget that- Edwardis to be my future brother. Brother, brother, brother. Oh bother!"What are you grimacing at?" were the words that pulled me into reality again.Oh! Holy crow! Was I grimacing?. So much of an open book, Bella."No, Nothing just remembered something." True. So true."Forget lying beautiful, thats the Italian meaning of Isabella.. you werent lyingabout your name in the forest, right? " I nodded, feeling like blushing only I k

now I am not. And I thank my lucky stars for that."Bella only." I feel an uneasy thing in my chest when he mentioned the forest."Soon, when you meet Jasper, He will be able to tell your mood" He wanted to addmore, but seemed to hesitate."Yeah. I know." I can feel myself grimacing more."You know him?"Yeah, Alice told me-He's her mate right? I asked then gulped. Such a bad subjectto start in.. Of all the things in the world, I start in soul mate?Thankfully, He didn't hang to that subject."So when I met you in the woods, What exactly are you crying about?"


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Nope. Not that. Can't answer that, Dad deserves the first answer to that."Sorry, Can't answer that. I think Dad- I mean Carlisle is supposed to know first.""Oh, okay." I stared into those deep, golden hypnotic eyes. So deep you think you can see his soul.And unexpectedly.. Again, I added. He took in my hand in his (there was an electric current running in my hand) and said, No, I think plead,"Please would you join us?"If it was up to me, Ofcourse I will! How can I not? but it's up to them., If they will accept me."Edward, look I can't really promise anything yet because I haven't talked to myfather yet." But somehow, in that moment, when he plead I think I also promised. A tiny part of me said that I would always be with them, Not just dad, Not just alone, But with all of them.And still the electricity remained."Look. I'm sorry Bella, For bothering you like this it just hurts all of us, Esme specially to see Carlisle suffering. We all love him and..."I stopped him with the words that pierced my heart to say. He found the only leak in my shield.

"My dad is suffering? He is suffering?" My voice broke because of the tears I cant' shed.And somehow, I was on his chest sobbing. I hated myself for it. I felt like a drama queen. He patted my back, pushed away my hair, and hugged me tightly-protect

ively while murmuring soothing words.The electricity was even stronger this time, but I didn't notice, All I can think about was my dad suffering-because of me."No, please Bella, Stop crying. You can save him. Everyday, He blames himself because he lost you, But don't cry, it will be over soon."His voice was still soothing, his face sad and a little guilty for bringing thebad news."Yes, it's in my hands, but he still suffer because of me-because of my existence."I know I had no reason to blame myself, but somehow, I still do.He shook his head and tucked my head in his strong shoulders and he still pats my back."Everything will be okay, I promise love." The last word didn't catch my attenti

on then, It's just a simple word he doesn't mean anything-I think.It continued like that for minutes, hours maybe before I composed myself and said the words to end my, my dad's and maybe Edward's suffering."I will meet him now." He turned my arms to look at me clearly."Are you sure?""Yeah."He nodded and hugged me again, this time I returned it."Everything will be fine, love, Trust me."I nodded curtly and went to the door.

&*&*

Fine. Deep breaths Bella... Deep breaths!

I am walking, running rather with Edward on my side .He just said he thinks we have the same speed!"Yeah right! I run faster than any vampire I know Ed." Stupid big brother name!I said while rolling my darkening eyes. My eyes are still tired looking becauseof my earlier crying."So you've met other vampires?" He smiled crookedly again. Obviously..."Sure.. Egyptian, Amazon.. nomads mostly I never joined one cause we were not the same. they just treat me well... .pleasantly because they are amused with me-thinks I'm special or something.""Oh." I looked into those deep hypnotic eyes that seemed hesitant, almost embarr


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assed to ask something...Then he asked..."And you've never found someone to be your.. you know, soulmate?""Is it that obvious?" I mock-glared at him then added a low chuckle. He joined in.We continued running, or he did rather cause I was just following him. His expression was jubilant and excited you know, the look a nerdy kid has when he/she finds out he/she is part of a grade deliberation-therefore has a chance to be in the honor roll. I dont know why though ...

Can it really be true?That theyll accept me in their family?And at last we were in their magnificent house,The true Cullen house.It was not the same size as mine, it was bigger... with all those glasses and all."Alice prepared all of them. That's Esme in the doorway"What if she hates me? what if she wouldn't like me? But I have to trust Alice...When she saw me... All those worrying stopped. She ran to me and hugged me completely- in a way and manner my mom used to do.She is beautiful. Very beautiful. With caramel brown hair, kind golden eyes anddimpled face, she looks like an she reminds me of someone. But who? I don't remember, but a spark of anger was inside me. I struggled to contain it. She was theone my father replaced my mother with I have to remember later. Later, Later.

I don't know why but I was hugging her back.. I miss this way of communication So much."I'm Esme. Nice to meet you Bella""You too" were the only words that escaped my lips.I can smell unfamiliar scents from the doorway. Esme smelled wonderful, like sweet apples and fresh paper.She patted my back as we entered, while Edward was on our backs following Esme.From my short peripheral view earlier, he seemed concentrating for something.Does he have a talent? I didn't have enough time to think about that.All eyes were on me, but I only held one pair because it's the one I rememberedthe most.The shape, the kindness the warmth..

Alice was on his right side, Jasper on his left.Rosalie and Emmett., I assume was on another loveseat, but like the rest, staring at me.Edward broke the silence first."Uhm guys can we leave Bella and Carlisle alone first?" I broke away from his gaze then because he had an intake of breath and understanding crossed his features, So I looked unto Alice.She smiled and left the door, while she passed me, she held my hand and squeezedit.Rosalie was shocked, but she also smiled a little bit at me when she realized Iwas looking at her.Emmett looked annoyed, but he nodded at me and although he didn't smile yet, I think his eyes had warmth.

When Jasper came near, I felt relaxed then I remember Alice telling me about him. I nodded my head at him and murmured a "thanks"Then at last, we were alone.

Carlisle and me- my father and me.He walked till he reached me and he had a pained expression on his face.. I wantthat gone. I want that to never cross his face again but he spoke first.."Bella? Could it be you? are you my daughter? You look like her... Bella? Are you?" his voice broke. I don't want that too. He held my chin, forcing me to lookin his eyes. The warmth was replaced by pain, the kindness replaced by sadness.


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I can't stand it anymore. I can't hurt him and myself anymore... His eyes were shining of invisible tears... So I answered, in a little scared voice.

Yes. Im her. I said. Anger and disappointment was making its way through my heart, ut love was defeating it.

Then there was silence.I knew he was waiting for my action.I was frustrated, that after all these years hes still waiting on me.But then I made the mistake of looking into his eyes again.

"I missed you so much Dad." And he hugged me. The one he used to do when I was still a little child. The hug I would die for. The hug I missed for eternity.So, I clung to him to my heart's desire. And broke down to tearless tears again"I'm sorry Bella. I'm sorry! I'm sorry for not looking hard enough! I'm sorry for not coming back. I'm so..." He broke of... And he hugged me tighter still.I sobbed even harder, letting all the pain escape me." Dad, Dad, stop.. I understand. Don't blame yourself."Deep down, I know there was a tiny bit of lie there, I don't understand all of it. Why did he never come back? Why wasn't he there while I cried every time I saw my stepfather tucking my stepsisters in bed while I attend to my mother? Why?Why? Why wasn't he there to comfort me while my mother breathed her last? But Ineed him now. I can't go on without him now."No, No Bella It's all my fault. I was scared I might kill you and your mother w

hen I was made a vampire, but now is not the time to discuss it. We need to clear things up with the rest of our family. But I can't believe I have my lost daughter back" This time I need to reassure him..

"I'm here." If this is just a childhood nightmare or dream, Lord do not wake meplease.. I'll die."Sorry Bella, I can't tell you how sorry I am."I clung to him closer.He brushed the stray hair out of my face and said the words I wanted to hear foran eternity, The words I longed for in an eternity."I love you my daughter" And he kissed my forehead.

&*&*

Carlisle Cullen

"Dad what happened to you ?" were my daughter's chosen words."Many things darling." I think my heart would swell by those words, it was an eternity since I used them.She squeezed my hand."First, We searched for you in a hundred years. I found Marie's grave, But I never found yours. Esme and I often visit her. I prayed with all my heart that youare in heaven, happy. I studied medicine, I found Esme then, She joined me. First, We were like siblings but, We fell in love. I don't regret that."I wondered if this hurt Bella there were tears shining in her eyes but she was smiling.

"Mom would be happy to hear that." It wasn't irony. It was the truth."Then, we found Edward in those years. I'm guessing I changed him the time you were also changed, because you look 17.""Yes I was when I was changed." I won't tell her the reason why I changed him. It was because when I found Edward, His attitude and face was the type I would want my daughter to marry. I knew his parents and I knew him in his adolescent years, that's why finding him as a son isn't hard for me.I got to watch my thoughts harder now. He might be listening, but deep inside, Iknow Edward would choose hell rather than listen to my reunion with Bella."I found Rosalie short after.. Err, Bella, I don't want to be the one to tell yo


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u her story. Emmett was found by Rosalie, he was about to be finished off by a bear. They became mates .Alice and Jasper found us and joined us. Alice doesn't know her past yet and Jasper, wellask him."She nodded then hugged me."I can't believe I am with you dad.""Me, too. me too. You don't know how happy I am."I hugged her closer."What happened to you?"She froze then took a breath."You don't have to tell me..""No dad, I have to let go of the past." She said in a determined voice.So, I encouraged her."Go on.""After you left, Mom remarried. She married someone who had children too, but How can I stop her? She was happy with them from the start, if only a bit, with him, So why would I stop her happiness? When mom got married, then immediately caught the disease, everything changed. Peter turned cold. He rejected her and well, supported us financially but left us begging emotionally. Many men courted me and asked for my hand but I was still hoping you would come back. Peter wantedme to say yes to one of them very badly, he forced me to do so, but before theactual wedding day, I left and with the gold I saved, started a new life. They went looking for me like I was a precious diamond. But none of them found me.. One day, I was 17 then. Someone knocked on my door. When I opened it, She was an angel fallen from heaven. She spent a whole day with me. She well, she took care

of me, because I was sick when she knocked on my door. She was sad the whole time and she kept saying sorry for even the slightest things. Then when she was about to leave, She said the last words I heard. "Sorry, I hope you will understandsomeday I know we will meet someday, I know you would hate me for this but thisis the only way..."

"No.. No, you are my only friend why would I hate you?""I hope you will." She smiled sadly and I patted her on the back.Then she said the last word "sorry."Then I was pulled into darkness and pain"

I am such a coward! Why did I let my own daughter go through that?

"Don't blame yourself Dad." She smiled at me and cuddled my face."I don't know if I should say sorry."She made a sad smile.She took a breath again and resumed her story."I woke up in a crumbling house She was nowhere there. I walked around when I reached a big mirror. I gasped at what I saw. I knew what I had become. I cried andwent outside, thirst was killing me. I was sure I would die because Id rather that than kill an innocent human. I was ashamed even of the thought. I was so crazed by thirst that when I saw a deer pass by, I drank it straight. I drank more and more. When I came back after I was satisfied, I noticed a note in the table.She explained how sorry she was and how someday she hopes we will see each otheragain.It signed the name Eleanor.

I realized I could bend my destiny, realized I can make mom and you proud of what I am going to do. I changed what I become. I blend in and resisted the thirstand monster inside me. That time, until I found you, I hate her. I loathe her, then I understood what she meant. That it was all going be worth it. I don't remember her, I just remember golden eyes, pale complexion and soft brown hair. Shelooks like Esme...Esme doesn't remind me of mom dad, she resembles Mom." She smiled and giggled.I can't thank the stranger enough of what she did. She gave me my daughter back.


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"Did you forgive the stranger?""Of course I do. Butjust today. I really wish I can remember and find her, but Idon't. I guess We will find her someday.""Yes, I hope so I can thank her for giving you back to me."

"You don't have to thank her." came a lovely voice from the doorway.

"Sorry." said Esme.

Bella stared wide-eyed at her.

I then remembered one thing.Esmes whole name.

Esmeralda Eleanor Smith.&*&*

CHAPTER 8ConfessionsCarlisle Cullen"You don't have to thank her." came a lovely voice from the doorway.Esmeralda Eleanor Smith.

No. I whispered, in a voice I barely recognized as my own.It wasnt her that changed Bella, was she? Immediately my mind began calculating.She was a nomad when I met her, With near perfect control in her thirst. This meant to me that she could have succeeded in indeed changing a human. Bella was changed around her 17th year The year we got married and made love for the first time... after she left for a few weeks after a huge argument we had, in which we found out we were in love.No. I whispered again. My eyes sought hers. Disbelief echoed in my face, mixed with the pain of betrayal. I tried to deny it again and again, looking without seeing the way her eyes pleaded with mine.Anger reared its ugly head inside me.After all these years, she knew, and she didnt tell me? After all the times she saw me trace my little girls picture she never once informed me that she is alive?

Maybe she laughed after pretending to console me, thinking of how stupid I was.She betrayed me! She never once loved me, because if she did, she would have notwanted to see me spending my life in misery.How could she?Even without my sons powers, I knew what she told me without a word passing between us. Shame. Sadness. Hurt. Let me explain, her eyes begged.And I knew she understood what my own told her.Hurt. MistrustHate. No.It was then that I remembered we were not alone. Bella was still by my side. I broke eye contact with the traitors eyes, mocking the way they whispered sorry.I took in my daughters reaction. She was very easy to read, and I was surprised to see only amazement on her face. No anger and pain. Instead, she was calculatin

g something, from the way her forehead creased a little.

I was shocked. Shouldnt she be shouting obscenities at her right now? She, afterall, cursed her in this way of life. She should be breaking the traitors bones topieces, and frankly at this moment, I would have had joined her and force my authority on my coven to join us.

While I was contemplating this, a little part of my un-beating heart hoped, theremaining of the bits that arent broken, even just for a tiny shred that everything will turn out okay. My brain counted down the seconds it would take the other


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s to join us for this sharing of secrets. A little part of me, always the curious one, wondered why they were taking so long. Maybe Alice.No. This will not turnout okay.

And then something extraordinary happened.Bella ran to her. Whilst I thought she was going to break her neck, she embracedit. Whilst I thought she was being thrown off by the traitor, she was returningthe embrace.

My head clouded in anger. How dare she? Why did Bella do that to her? She was the reason it took so long for me to see my daughter again! Why did Bella went against everything I believed in?

I understand. My daughter whispered.Es- The traitor bowed her head on my daughters shoulder. I fought the urge to growl.Thank you. she whispered. Bella let go of her and turned so she was facing me.

Understanding will only come with listening, Mom, and as much as I dont like to leave you two, I know I should. She tightened her hold on the witchs back and then ran to my side.

Her beautiful golden eyes twinkled with determination as she held my hand.

Remember, Papa. Love. Love is all that matters. Rememberfor the sake of our family. She gripped my hand with more force than necessary. I looked down.

Hear her out. It hurts, I know. But.. I can sympathize with her. I can put myselfin her shoes and say what she did what she thought was best.

Listen. She whispered to me one last time, and with a quick kiss on my cheeks anda gentle squeeze on the traitors arm, she was gone. Leaving us alone.

Esme sat down on the couch.Listen. she echoes in a dead voice.

I looked up, nodded and ran to her, almost quite possible to touch her, but I ke

pt my distance.

I will. I say, staring at the picture frame of me and her wrapped in a tight embrace on our 76th wedding day 3 years ago.

Xx

Isabella Marie Swan

He was there waiting for me when I closed the door.I sigh loudly, my lips puckering up, a habit I developed when I feel like I did my best, but I can only hope what will happen will be for the best.I walked at first, then ran, not even bothering to tell him my intentions as he

could catch up easily.What did Alice say? I ask Edward quietly as the gravel turned to soil and the roads cleared for the forest.What do you want, the game plan before I went to your house or the future of ourparents relationship?I shrugged. Both.

Well Lets just say Alice informed me yesterday that I had to talk you into talkingto Carlisle ASAP because she said, and I quote, she is vital to our familys future And so I did. She told me that I have to make you concentrated on Carlisle on


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top of all things because she saw what will happen, had you been thinking of anything other than that. He stopped.You would have had attacked Esme, you would have been in a state where youd suddenly remember where you remember her from, youll know that she was the one who changed you. After that you would have assumed all the wrong things and our family will be in shreds by nightfall.. So it was my job, to make you..uhm..preoccupiedwith nothing but you missing your father and him, vice versa, so you will be distracted enough not to dwell too much on how and why you remember Esme Thus meeting your father first, telling your story and hearing his. You, of course would then forgive the vampire who changed you in your joy from seeing Dad again. He explained.I shook my head. You guys have the minds of evil geniuses. I muttered. He ignoredthat.You would have been open to everything, feeling like a happy camper after a longtime. You had the desire to see your creator, Esme, because you are thankful for the moment you just shared with your Dad. You understood. His gaze smoldered mine and I nodded.And thats when I put everything together. I replied. A second after I told my story, I glued the puzzles together and came up with Esme.Alice knew. But she also knew what you would do next Tell me, why did you do it? She, after all let him believe you are missing when she knew perfectly that it was you she saved.I bit my lip. I pretended not to notice when I saw his eyes dart towards it.

I guess.. I know some, if not all her reasons. I mean, when I picture her, a lonely vampire like how I was, meeting another lonely vampire and loving him, then finding out he had a daughter that might have ruin their chances of love I sympathized. I also remember her words when I was human. She told me she was not my mother, which, roughly translated, means she wanted to be but never would in the sense of the word. I also remembered that she said she might be, if the lord meansit, which might mean that if their love would survive. I just.. Know. And.. I would have had done it, exactly as she did if I faced that choice. I can also picture her jealousy and doubt if he told him she made me like them. Carlisle wouldhave had devoted all his time to me making up for the years he lost. I saw it in her eyes earlier. It was as if I can see myself and father talking about mother every day, visiting her grave month by month If Dad found me then, he would never have let himself love another woman, thinking about betraying me. She would n

ever have had him. He would have had been trapped in mourning for my mom foreverI finished and closed my lips.

I kicked on the rock that stood innocently placed on the soil. It shattered to pieces. Another sigh escaped my lips.So.. I start.What is the future of their relationship, according to my fortuneteller sister?She says that if you were in Esmes shoes, it would suck on that outfit Alices chirpvoice arrived on the scene. I smile at her tentatively.Fortuneteller? She questioned, while throwing me a dirty look.I snorted. I realized someone, probably that big vampire over there, Emmett, snorted with me.Guru, Whatever. I said while rolling my eyes.

For that I will make you worry, Bella. I wont tell you what will happen to our parents. You have to wait it out. I grimaced.Fine. I said stubbornly. She stuck her tongue out at me.Oh, my manners. Since you havent met my husband and other siblings yet, Ill introduce my husband first. I was sure she had an issue with the word other.Bella, Jasper. The man who made me wait 3 hours in a bar in the year 1913. Oh, bewarned he can tell your moods. The man who I love and loves me. She winked at him and he flashed me a smile.I smiled back, feeling a little less shy. His work, I decided.You have to watch out from her and her shopping trips. He muttered with a look on


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Alice. Good Lord no. But before I hanged on to the dangers of shopping, the blonde one that made me feel like I dont measure up stepped forward.I also gave her a smile, yet I can tell my eyes had that gooey look they say I have when I see my car or something that I admire.Hi. I offered reluctantly.Hello. She replied, and with a shrug she started talking.Im Rosalie, I was changed in the year 1906... I dont have a special ability whatsoeer, Sometimes Im hard to get along with but something tells me well be fine. Anyway Im married to Emmett. Welcome to the family Then she stepped backward and I waited for the last one, Emmett as I remember, introduce himself. He didnt, which puzzled me.Hello. I said, which sounded like a question. He smiled, showing all his pearly whites.Err I began, not knowing what to say. Maybe 10 seconds past.Then metal banged against metal. I then realized Rosalie smacked him, none too gently.Sorry. Was wondering how long shell wait before she does that..Anyway. My eyebrowswent up, and I made that straight face that looks like the exact emoticon.. K Iwaited too. Another bang, this time from Alice.Sheesh, I was just wondering how to start, okay? Chillax. Ill start now. Emmett said with an annoyed voice.Jasper nodded solemnly. Course you will, Em. Course you will. Emmett just made faces at him then turned back to me.

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