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Enjoy this sneak peek at THE LANGUAGE INSIDE by Holly Thompson, on shelves May 14th! Emma Karas was raised in Japan; it's the country she calls home. But when her mother is diagnosed with breast cancer, Emma's family moves to a town outside Lowell, Massachusetts, to stay with Emma's grandmother while her mom undergoes treatment.Emma feels out of place in the United States. She begins to have migraines, and longs to be back in Japan. At her grandmother's urging, she volunteers in a long-term care center to help Zena, a patient with locked-in syndrome, write down her poems. There, Emma meets Samnang, another volunteer, who assists elderly Cambodian refugees. Weekly visits to the care center, Zena's poems, dance, and noodle soup bring Emma and Samnang closer, until Emma must make a painful choice: stay in Massachusetts, or return home early to Japan.
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HOLLY THOMPSONauthor of Orchards
CHAPTER SAMPLER
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Delacorte Press
languageinsidethe
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Chapter 1
AuraAura
third time it happensI’m crossing the bridgeover a brown-green race of water that slides through townon my way to a long-term care centerto start volunteering
pausing to get my courage up
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peering over a rail
by a Tow Zone No Stopping on Bridge signglimpsing shadows below the river’s surface . . .
but when I look upthe sign is halved—one side blankthe other saying Zone pping idge
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I glance back at the waterthat my grandma YiaYia says used to power this town’s mills which are now closed or reborn as outlet malls, doctors’ officesdance and art studios, clinics and care centers like the oneI’m headed toto work with a woman who can’t move her legsher armsher headand can’t even talk
but the water has a spot of darkness and my blindness grows to a black hole and I begin to panic
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should I find this guy Samthe other volunteer from my high schoolwho’ll introduce meto the recreational therapy director?
should I return to the bus stopand try to get to YiaYia’s house?
I haven’t lived here longI don’t have a cell phone yetI don’t know if there’s a busto my grandmother’s neighborhoodand I have just twenty minutesbefore my speech and thoughts shatter
I go for Sam
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I cross the bridgeturn right then left walk up the paved pathway to the Newall Center for Long Term Carewhere standing by the entrance is a guy whose face looks half there who saysI’m Sam Nang—you Emma?
I turn my headpan his face with the halfof my vision that remains— Asian, I realize Japanese, I dare hope though I know that’s doubtful here in Massachusetts
I tell him yeah, but I’m sick
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when he gets that I mean ithe says the lobby . . . and leads me inside to a waiting areawhere I drop onto a chair
I feel in my bagpull pills from a plastic case and swallow two caplets with the last swig of waterfrom my bottle
along the edge of my blindness flickers a crescent of tiny triangles— white edged by cuts of blue black yellow
my stomach turns I close my eyestry to slow my breathingand feel the thud of Sam sitting down beside me
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I squint my eyes openshade them with my handagainst too-bright lightsand tell himmy headI can’t seeI need to go home
zigzags of light seem to bolt from his jaw
I tell him YiaYia’s address and phone numberI tell him to tell hermigraine
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he tries calling but there’s no answer
now I’m breathing too fastand as the numbness starts creeping up my arm I can’t help crying
okay, okay Sam saysI’ll call Chrishe’ll drive you home
I unwrap the scarf from around my neckdrape it over my head to hide in the dimnesswishing my grandmother had a cell phone she actually usedwishing my mother or father could come get mewishing we’d never left Japan
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under the scarf I let myself crymissing my friends from Kamakura Madoka, Kako, Kenji, Shinfrom Yokohama Min, Grace, Yuta, Sophiawhispering their names like a prayerto get me out of herea prayer to get me back there where I know people where I know my way aroundwhere I know what to expectwhere my body didn’t do this
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Sam speaks softly into his phonestows it then goes offand has a conversation I can’t quite hear with a person I can’t quite see
when he comes back he’s silentjust the lobby noise surrounds us
after a while I feel him risereturn and press a tissue into my hand
I wipe my eyestry to keep calmtry to keep the light outjust breathing through the weave of the scarfas we wait
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finally Sam tugs my jackettakes my armand leads me outside to a car parked near the entrance
he speaks to the driver pain slams my headI can hear words catch words
grandmother ride back leap sock close here
but I can’t connect the wordsto make meaning
I start to get in the carget outthrow up in some busheswipe my mouth with another tissue from Samget in the carlie down on the backseatmy head covered with my scarf and a towel the driver hands me
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then I close my eyes and let myself be driven offto who knows whereby two guys— one I’ve just met one I don’t know at all
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when the car stops doors open close openclose
the crescent of triangles pulses pulses pulsesmy arm’s numbhalf my face, toomy head bowling-ball heavy
I hear talkoutside the windowhear the driver say sleepthen it’s quiet
and I do
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Chapter 2
The AfterwardsThe Afterwards
when I wakeit’s dusk
I lie not movingon the car seatturn onto my backand wait
sit up
wait
testing my headmy vision
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The Afterwards
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the car has been pulled into YiaYia’s drivewayher back porch light is on
when I’m sure the worstis really overI get out walk gingerly to the housetaking soft unjarring steps
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from the porch I can see my grandmother, the man and Samall seated in the living room around the coffee table with emptied glassesand a plate of rice cracker packetsthat my father brought for Toby and mehis last visit from New York
at the kitchen sinkI rinse my mouth wash my face with paper towelsthen join them easing slowly into one of YiaYia’s armchairs
I’m Emma I sayresting my head solidly on the chairbacknice to meet you
and everyone laughs
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the man, ChrisSam Nang’s unclestands, says his wifegets migraines, too
you taking anything for them? he asksand I tell him the name of the pillsYiaYia’s doctor gave me forwhenever the blindness hits
same as Beth he says
but I threw them up I say
that you did he saysand he and Sam smile
talk to Beth sometime Chris saysshe’ll tell you ways to avoid attacks—sleep patterns, exercise . . . it’s good you sleptthat’s best
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soon they’re leavingbut I can’t rise from where I’m curled in the armchairmy head all aching and fuzzyand full of the afterwards
but now that I’m not half blindI can see that Chris’s clothes arespattered with paint and stainand I can see that Sam is lean muscled and Asianbut Chris is not
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I’m curious but say nothingremembering those girls in the first meeting for Model UNhow when I asked anyone here speak Japanese?one rolled her eyes and said Asian doesn’t mean Japanese, you knowand when I tried to say of course not, I know that I’m from Japan, is all . . . another girl looked me up and down and said yeah, sure, white girlthen a guy across the room whispered Japan—I thought she was glowing! and everyone laughed
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YiaYia walks Chris and Sam to the doorthanks them, returns, sayswell, never a dull moment!as she lays a fleece blanket over me
I come home to drop the groceries offbefore going to the Newall Center to pick you upand I find those two lounging on the porch steps—I thought they’d broken in! turns out they’d been sitting there over an hour
they seem nice I say
yes she saysdefinitely your angels for todayI think I saw the boy at the Newall Center once or twice when I was there for your Papou
I askhave you heard from Mom and Dad?did Mom call?
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YiaYia eyes meI try to read her face but I don’t knowthis grandmother well
we usually stay in Vermontwith Mom’s mother and fathernear our cousins up therewhen we come back summersnot here with Dad’s mother
YiaYia sizes up my statecurled in the armchairfuzzy-headedrecovering
then she picks up the empty glasses
did she call? I ask again
YiaYia puts down the glasses comes to sit on the chair arm leans close to meand whispers no, but I imagine she’s doing just fineso don’t stress about it
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I’m not stressing! I saywhere’s Toby?
she rises and arranges a basket of patchwork coasters
at a friend’s for dinner
which doesn’t seem fairbecause right now post-migraineI just want someonefrom my lived-in-Japan family
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not YiaYia
who seems to think migraines can be controlledjust by flicking a brain switch some thoughts on some thoughts off
who wants me to be active and involved
who was the one to introduce me to the Newall Center where my Papou spent two years before he died
who when she heard they needed a new volunteer poetry helper piped right up withmy granddaughter writes poems! meaning those verse scribbles I’d write on her birthday cards
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she thinks everything will be fineif I just join groups
she thinks everything will be fineif I just meet more Americans
and she thinks everything will be fine in Japan that it’s better we’re not there nowduring the recovery
and she thinkseverything will be finein our family
but I thinkshe has a strange idea of what’s fine
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I think she doesn’t know how much it hurt to leavehow much it felt like abandoning Japan
and I think she doesn’t know how strange it is to livewithout our father
and I think she doesn’tknow what my mother is feeling about having her breast lopped off
and I think she doesn’t know what it’s like to be the daughter wondering do I carry those genes, too?
my migraines startedthree days after our move
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my mother says I need a strict routine
YiaYia sews me a lavender pillowand says to avoid chocolate
my father emails me articlesone of an exhibit of paintings by migraine sufferers that show the dark hole of blindness and the crescent
of zigzagging triangles
just like mine
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Toby doesn’t say anything after my migrainesjust asks if I want a bathto feel like I’m home in Japan
but Toby’s not here nowso in the armchair I pull the scarf over my headand hide inside
YiaYia sighspats my armpicks up the glassesand goes into the kitchen
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This is a work of fi ction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fi ctitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.
Text copyright © 2013 by Holly ThompsonFront jacket photograph copyright © 2013 by Mark Owen/Trevillion ImagesBack jacket and chapter opener photograph copyright © 2013 by Jules Kitano
All rights reserved. Published in the United States by Delacorte Press, an imprint of Random House Children’s Books, a division of Random House, Inc., New York.
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication DataThompson, Holly. The language inside / Holly Thompson. — 1st ed. p. cm. Summary: Raised in Japan, American-born tenth-grader Emma is disconcerted by a move to Massachusetts for her mother’s breast cancer treatment, because half of Emma’s heart remains with her friends recovering from the tsunami. ISBN 978-0-385-73979-5 (hc) — ISBN 978-0-375-89835-8 (ebook) [1. Novels in verse. 2. Moving, Household—Fiction. 3. Interpersonal relations—Fiction. 4. Breast cancer—Fiction. 5. Family life—Massachusetts—Fiction. 6. Tsunamis—Fiction. 7. Massachusetts—Fiction. 8. Japan—Fiction.] I. Title. PZ7.5.T45Lan2013 [Fic]—dc23
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