I had to seclude myself from all the moribund intricate idiosynchratic society in order to pursue the true meaning of self. You cannot find you in other's people's mind, you yourself had to create it for yourself. Everything always comes from the will, anything else is just for a glimpse of inspiration and contemplation. You could look inside or outside, either way its still the same thing that you will see.We may have been conditioned by the kind of environment that we've been brought upon but still it this will that we have inside that dictates how things should be. We may find ourselves lost in the wilderness of our mind or laser-focused on one single goal that will change the course of our life but still its the same thing as not having anything at all. Everything always hangs in the balance, reduce the weight on the other side and you will have to compensate for the imbalance yourself.