Thank God My Husband Left MePregnant and an Employee

Molested My Children

By: DR. SHAKTI DEVI KAHEALANIKAWAIOLAMANALOA SATCHITANANDA

Presented By: Jeff Sohler

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INTRODUCTION

by John Castagnini

IMPORTANT...Please Do Not Skip This Section!

Why this ebook? What makes it so different? Not onlyare these answers important, they are integral to yourunderstanding of the story presented here. Please donot skip over this brief introduction in your eagernessto get to the meat of the ebook itself.

When I first thought to include Thank God I WasRaped as one of the stories for Thank God I...™ Volume1, the concept sent chills through my spine. Couldanyone who’s endured this brutal, horrifying experiencereally embrace these words? Over the years, I’veconsulted with countless women during their raperecovery. I chose the title after witnessing whattranspires for them when they come to this conclusionof gratitude. What became quite apparent over acourse of thousands upon thousands of conversationsis that we only evolve past the mental traum a fromsuch a happening when we can hold “the love for it inour hearts”

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What is meant by “God”?

God — Certainly, the biggest three-letter word evercreated. Grand Organized Designer best describes theGod referred to in the Thank God I...™ books, websiteeducational material and seminars.

The thousands of people sharing their stories in thisseries all perceive God in their own light. Thank GodI...™ is about this network of people, willing to movebeyond having the right “name” for God.

Even the word “God” itself cannot finite the infinite.Rather, God refers to a system governing the brillianceof what is, and is not.

What this book series is not supposed to be.

This series does not condone or promote any of theacts the writers have experienced, nor do we suggestin any way that anyone should either commit any ofthese acts or subject themselves to any of these acts.This series also does not promote or label any specifickind of behavior as “right” or “wrong”, nor were the storieswritten or the book published for the purpose ofsuggesting that anyone rationalize their actions orbehavior.

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In addition, the Thank God I...™ series does not promoteor deny any religion. Rather, it honors the existence ofreligion and all things as part of a perfect creation.

What is Thank God I...™ about?

Our intention with this series is to convey this one keyprinciple: Perfection permeates everything. Each timewe fail to recognize this principle, the next lesson tocome our way will once again offer us the opportunityto see the perfection and break through into freedom.In fact, finding perfection in the pain and pleasure ofour own personal tribulations is the only way we willever liberate ourselves from the bondage of patterns.Whether it comes in a day, a year, or a lifetime away,situations will come into our lives that will force us tobecome thankful for “what was,” and to whole-heartedlyexperience “what is.”

What is meant by “Thanking God”?

During the creation phase of this series, we werefortunate to have as our ever-efficient assistant,Cassandra Gatzow, a beautiful twenty-three-year-oldwriter and poet. Just prior to coming to work with us,Cassandra was diagnosed with cervical cancer. A littleover a year and a half later, the cancer spread and sheleft this world before the first book launched.

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After Cassandra passed, my heart was struck by thewords she put to the page as she endured thisexperience. She wrote of her earth angels and herexplorations as she left her body to “dance with herangels.” She did not write about her passing, she wroteabout Thank God I...™ living as she moved through herlife’s greatest test, and her life’s ending. She viewedeach person, each moment as precious. How fortunateshe was, to see God in the now.

Imagine — this is what she wrote about her cancer:

“Tears fill my eyes daily with gratitude for every momentand every breath. It has allowed me to go after mydreams, to live from my heart, and to be truly free. Ithank God for my cancer and for allowing me to reacha place in me that I don’t think would have beenpossible without this experience. I am now twenty-three and feel that I have stepped into my skin proudly.I have felt an inner peace that many don’t find until laterin life. I am truly grateful for all my earth angels andwant to thank them for sharing with me this wonderfuljourney”

...Cassandra

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Thank God I...™ was conceived in the first place.

Thanking God is about the above. Not just what isabove this sentence; it is about what is above, guidingus at every moment. Beyond the pain, chaos, andconfusion of our circumstance exists true perfection.Thanking God is about finding this perfection. Thisplace of thanking God might seem nearly impossible tofind, but it is the only place we will find ourselves.

Thank God I...™ is true “gratitude”.

Sure, we all hear about the “good things” that people aregrateful for in their lives. But, is this gratitude? ThankGod I...™ gratitude is about a state of being. It is about astate of inspiration, non-judgment, and presence.Thank God I...™ gratitude is beyond the illusion ofpositive or negative. It is beyond the lies of “good” and“evil”. Thank God I...™ . gratitude is about finding God inevery word, thought, and deed. In spirit, we are beyondthe illusion of pain or pleasure and we are present withspirit. Thank God I...™ gratitude is about equal love forall that is, as it is, was, or ever shall become. Gratitudeis loving what we don’t “like” as much as loving what wedo “like”.

The diversity of authors and experiences

The intention of this series is to reach all of humanity,

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every single unique creation. We did not base theselection of contributions to this series upon any faithor religious orientation. Each selected author took aformer challenge into their heart. The diversity ofauthors spans religions, countries, professions, age,race, nationality, and definitely experiences. Theyrange from strippers to doctors, from politicians to stay-at-home moms, and whoever they are, gratitude rules.From alcoholism to molestation or rape, the law ofgratitude prevails with each of our authors.Thankfulness for whatever is, or is not, ultimately rulesevery one of our kingdoms.

The vision of Thank God I...™

Little did I imagine how lightning-fast Thank God I...™would circle the world. This network includesthousands of contributors, reaching millions of people,sharing not only their stories, but also their answers!Beyond the books, and the online community, we offerworldwide conference calls, workshops, and seminars!The vision of this series will provide everyone withinspecific communities information in order to evolvepast the emotions that are holding them back. Thepeople and the project are revolutionary.

“All things in nature proceed from certain necessity andwith the utmost perfection.”

...Baruch Spinoza

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Thank God

My Husband Left Me Pregnant and

an Employee Molested My Children

DR. SHAKTI DEVI KAHEALANIKAWAIOLAMANALOA SATCHITANANDA

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He was my soul mate of many lifetimes, whom I lovedmore than life itself. We were the perfect couple,equally matched in personality and intelligence. Hewas a Beverly Hills attorney, and I was a Beverly Hillsdentist. We were both good looking, and each had achild from a previous marriage, a year apart in age. Weloved God and together studied The Secret, the Law ofAttraction, and the Truth. Our whole relationship wasbuilt around longing to know the truth and walking thespiritual path. Our life was truly a divine celebrationwhere the devoted met their divine destiny.

On a romantic Caribbean cruise, he asked thequestion, What are you doing for the rest of your life?After a silence, he continued, Well

I said, Well, what?

Well, will you marry me?My heart throbbed as I said, Yes.

Another surprise came when he replied Good, it's setfor tomorrow at 2:30 p.m.. I was speechless, and thewalk down to the restaurant was like walking in aperfect dream. Along the way, he invited everyone wemet on the ship to attend the wedding.

We went shopping for my dress and ring in Curacao,and my fiance wore the ship captain's uniform. He was

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majestic in all white with stunning gold braids.Everything fell into its perfect place, and as I looked outat the ocean, I felt the very presence of the Divine. Iintuitively knew that God had truly answered my heart'sdesire.

We became the perfect church couple, Doctor andAttorney. We were blessed with another beautiful babygirl, who was the sweet fruit of our ecstatic love forGod and our love for each other. We learned the Lawof Attraction well and manifested abundantly.Everything our hands and hearts touched turned togold.

Both of our professional practices thrived as wecontinued our study to become spiritual practitionersand ministers. We could speak the word and make ithappen. God was truly giving us everything!

We felt unstoppable! In a matter of months, he hadwon three quarter-million-dollar settlements in a row.We had both worked incredibly hard, and as a reward,we decided to go to Hawaii. We stayed at the five-starHale Kulani and made passionate love for three days.

On the fourth day, I laughingly told my husband, Baby,we'd better go to the beach and get a tan, or nobody isgoing to believe that we came to Hawaii! He laughedand agreed. Once down at the beach, my husband

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wanted us to go into the aqua water together. I had noobjection, it was so beautiful, but I also wanted acouple of minutes to lie in the warm sand andcommune with God... to thank the Universe for givingus such an amazing opportunity. Baby, give me fiveminutes, I told him.

All of a sudden, without warning or pause, my husbandangrily blew up in my face! Hostility and rage seethedfrom within him. He screamed at me. I tried to calm himdown, but he didn't want to hear it. I offered to go intothe water with him, but that would no longer pleasehim. I pleaded with him, I cried, but nothing could reachhim through his rage and the barrage of painfulaccusations he threw at me.

Back at the hotel room, I called my spiritual practitionerfor counseling. I tried to talk with my husband. Nothingworked. He refused to speak to me for the next sixdays. How did this happen? This couldn't possibly bethe result of asking for five minutes of personal time!The shock of the entire event had left me in a daze,and I had no idea how to fix it. At that time, I didn'thave enough self-love and took this very personally.

I had him on a pedestal. He was my hero, my soulmate, my confidante, and as a result, his actions hurtme more deeply than I can express.

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When we got back home, I found out that I hadconceived a child during those romantic three days ofperfection. That week my husband left me. I wasemotionally devastated. The next nine months were anightmare -- as painful as our loving romance hadbeen sweet. My husband's anger continued tomushroom, and his intense rage directed at me. Heaccused me of being the cause of everything that wentwrong in his life. After some extensive counseling, ourminister advised me to prepare to be a single womanagain.

I never knew such pain existed. I had a baby in mywomb, I was breast-feeding another, and my teenagedaughter, who was accustomed to seeing herpowerful mother take on the world, was terrified as ourlives buckled beneath us.

Not long after my baby was born, I received a phonecall from a friend that made things a bit clearer. Myclassy, gorgeous, brilliant husband, who had broughtme back to God, was in a really bad place. Although Ihad a better idea of what had happened to mymarriage, life didn't get much easier. I decided to takematernity leave from my practice in order to breastfeed my new baby and emotionally heal from all thathad happened. I hired an accountant to watch over mypractice and another dentist to see my patients. Beforethe smoke even had a chance to clear, a new

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employee chose to embezzle my dental practice, andmy insurance policy reneged on payment, forcing meto leave my home with my babies in my arms.

The biggest blow came when I found out that mydaughters, the true loves of my life, were beingmolested by the employee I had hired.

I felt like I had been assaulted in the most violent way.

My life slipped through my fingers, and now myprecious babies had suffered something I couldn't evenimagine. I fired the employee and hired a new woman,who we all adored.

But this new woman started an affair with themaintenance man, letting him into our home, whereanother molestation happened all over again. This timeI was dumbfounded, and frightened. How many timescould this happen to us? Two years later, a differentemployee stopped showing up for work. My boyfriendat the time volunteered to watch the girls while I wentto the office. His own son had been molested andmurdered a year before, making me think he couldidentify with our fragile situation. I was wrong. Out ofthe pain of losing his own son, he molested mydaughters. I couldn't understand it. How had my lifecome to this place of such utter turmoil and pain?

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And more importantly, how could I change it?

This takes me to the next part of my gratitude story.... Iwas driving down a beautiful tree-lined street one dayafter work, anxiously contemplating the painfulchallenges in my life, when all of a sudden somethingquite extraordinary happened! A Voice spoke veryclearly inside me. It was authoritative and powerful,asking, Do you be-lieve in Me? I knew deep inside thatGod was speaking to me, so I replied with a sheepishYes. But... what about my husband, my children, myoffice? Why would these things happen to me if Godwere truly on my side?

I would eventually come to find out that God does nothear the buts in our lives. It is not in him to dwell uponour imperfections, or our lack of devotion. All Godheard from me that day was the Yes, and with that, hereplied, Then know that everything is all right! It was sopowerful that I later shared it with my church counselor.This was God's divine intervention, in which He wasestablishing divine protection over my life.

From that moment on, I began to have some of themost powerful, tangible, direct spiritual experienceswith the Divine.

It was a courtship with the irresistible, loving kindnessof God, the bliss and mercy of God, the divine

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guidance, and the presence of an all-powerful Godeverywhere. God began to instruct me one-on-one,heart-to-heart. He granted me understanding of my lifeand taught me that I was the common denominator inall of my painful situations: with my husband, theembezzlements, the molesters, my office, everything.He taught me that all of my life challenges actuallyexisted within me, being a direct result of my choices,my attitude, my thoughts, and my harmonic vibration.

I had a corresponding wound, a projection, andprogram that had attracted each of thosecircumstances. There was no longer any place forblame, because when you point one finger, three pointback at you. When you look at the three pointing backat you, you then have the ability to make correctionswithin, thereby becoming aligned with the Divine andthe teachings of truth.

He taught me to take full response-ability for the entirecreation of my life. He taught me that in some way, Ihad something to do with all that had happened. Now,that is real power... the ability to respond and notinternally react to anything outside of yourself.

Never giving your power away by seeing yourself as avictim, and learning to live in a constant state of love,aloha, and inner contentment -- this is the peace thatpasseth all understanding! I began to feel some

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mastery over my life again. I had done all of thisprofound inner healing work with God, and things werefalling back into place for my daughters and me.

However, my true test came a couple of years later. Afriend invited my daughters and me up to swim in hispool. The girls were having fun playing with two youngboys from next door. I needed to run an errand, andthe kids were having such a good time that theywanted to stay and swim. Our friend agreed to watchthe kids while I ran home. Just as I was leaving, theboys father showed up and went out to the Jacuzzi.The man and I were introduced, and I dashed off to runmy errand. I was gone less than an hour. When Ireturned, my daughter explained that something hadhappened to her. I knew the test when I heard it.

Because of my internal healing process and spiritualgrowth, I felt completely buffered and protected. I hadno knee-jerk reaction of victim consciousness. My minddidn't run away with reactionary programs of the past. Ihad no self-righteous judgments or condemnations. Mymind was in silence, and the peace that passeth allunderstanding. I humbly asked, Okay, God, it hashappened again. What am I to do? From that bufferedstate of calmness, I heard the divine guidance of God.He told me exactly what to do.

I went next door to speak with the father. I looked him

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directly in the eyes, and I saw God there. I intuitivelyknew that he and I were one without separation.

I knew that my Lord lived inside of his heart and mine.He was God's child just as I was. I understood that hewas acting under the influence of wounds and mentallyaddictive programs; he was acting through his ownpain, and as a result had slipped and made a not goodchoice. I had to realize that even I sometimes fall underthe hypnotic influence of subconscious wounds andmental programs, and that all of us make not goodchoices in different areas. Speaking to him with love, Itold him that his action was incorrect and hadconsequences. I asked, as I was divinely guided toask, for him to pay for a full year of therapy for mydaughter, as well as a year of therapy and AlcoholicsAnonymous for himself, a win-win soul-ution.

Because of my connection with the oneness of God,and my ability to speak to him with peace and love inmy heart, he had no defense. He surrendered intotears and made a commitment to his healing. I alsonoticed that because I was in that state of oneness andtrue awareness, I was in the most beneficial healingconsciousness possible for my daughter. I was fullypresent with her and for her. I wasn't adding my ownwounds, resistance, judgments, and projections intothe situation. Because of this, I could really hear herand help her heal.

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My daughter later told me a story about what she hadexperienced, saying, Mommy, my Great Me told methat this was going to happen, but my Little Me didn'tknow what it was talking about, so I dropped my guard,and then the man came....

When I heard this, I knew that there were no accidentsin life and that God had taught my daughter a valuablelesson that most of us never learn... to never mentallyoverride your inner guidance. The experience was aprofound and spiritual one, a healing for us all. Deepwithin, I knew that I had finally passed the test of innermastery and would never have to look into the face ofanother molester again.

Baba Muktananda once said, Anything that occurs inyour life that turns you within, seeking God, is GreatFortune! In this case, my life was filled with GreatFortune! I was taught to spiritually see the higher,deeper truths of life and find the answers about truehealing. I learned that honor, love, compassion, andknowing that we are one are the true secrets to life.There is never anyone outside of ourselves to blame,only a situation that can be transformed into greaterlove. I have come to understand that there is nothing tofear, nothing to resist, nothing to judge, nothing tobecome at odds against.

There is only something to be true to, something to

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trust, the divine love and subtle sacred secrets of alohawithin the heart. My daughters and I were so blessedthat we were able to walk together, awaken together,and learn that we are spiritual beings here for a humanexperience, not human beings here for a spiritualexperience. I thank God for the many painful situationsthat I experienced that gave me the motivation tochange, to grow, and to apply the conscious wisdomthat I learned along the way.

During my life, it might be said that I've encountereddisproportionate odds and tragedies. But I say thankGod that my husband and soul mate left me pregnant.Thank God my children were molested. Thank God mydental practice was embezzled. Thank God I wasabused. Thank God I was diagnosed with Lupus,praying to live through Christmas. Thank God I losteverything and had to leave my home. Thank God Iwas knocked to my knees, lost my faith, and prayed forreconnection. Thank God, thank God, thank God!

I have been enriched by every seemingly negativecircumstance in my life.

Because my daughters and I have learned the innermastery and wealth of such powerful transforminglessons in life, we each revel daily in constant gratitudefor the sacred relationship we enjoy with God, and thelove that flows from within. It has empowered us as

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women to walk in beauty and grace, with fearless,peaceful, contented hearts. We are committed tomanifesting our highest visions, and know our abilitiesto conquer crisis, overcome challenges, and change byconscious choice! We are so grateful for our entirewalk, and pray that our experience will allow us toempower all those wanting to successfully navigate upthe mountain of life! We love to share the wisdom ofthe walk. Aloha ia okoa pa ulo. When we meet inlove... we shall be whole! Thank you, God!

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Dr. Kahealani Satchitananda is the founding CEO andspiritual director of HighVisions of Satchitananda, acounseling, coaching, and consulting company forindividuals and businesses wanting to live their bestlife,.

She is a founding member of Agape InternationalSpiritual Center and one of the pioneers in HolisticDentistry and Yogic Psychology. Dr. Satchitanandaand her daughters, Jaime M. Sisson and Sisily C.Sisson, perform Hawaiian weddings, vow renewals,rites of passage, and blessings, accept keynotespeaking engagements, and offer counseling andLiving Life in Paradise Retreats and 7-Day SacredCeremony Transformational Cruises in the HawaiianIslands. The dynamic trio also facilitates a Course in

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Conscious Enlightenment 2012, a personal plan fortransformation, and sacred relationships trainings. Dr.Satchitananda is a Hawaiian Hooponoponopractitioner. She is accepting new clients and offersphone sessions and teleconferences for clients aroundthe world. For more information, pleasevisit:http://www.myspace.com/LivingLifeInParadise andHighVisions@aol.com.

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