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My Epic
Regression in Time and Space
On a fresh pageLet me set the stageA fretful fear, hereThe fear of sexA cursed hexFear of societyAnd the mightyHate of powerAnd clock and hourFear and angerThirst and hungerThe past and painA stubborn stainWho to blameWho to nameLiving abroadFaith in GodAtheist CountryLone Misery
Great ExpectationMassive FrustrationIncensed Inferiority Rejected Minority
Alone in the coldTrying to be boldDesire, FireOn funeral pyre
She: Beauty, StupidityHe: Magnanimity
In wine drenchedCompletely frenched
Language and colorAre some other
Attitude, Ego
Fear's placebo
Inferiority's cureKill the pure
Sex gratificationImpurification
Fear of ManHate of WomanHate of AuthorityLove of Anarchy
To sleepSo deepIn a tranceIn Belle FranceA wonderTorn asunderIn jailNo bailBroken Heart Good StartHate of SuicideInsults prideLife's a lieSo don't cryPlease, pleaseAppease
On the HillThe Old ManWho canChange All thisWhich is his
A yearningA burningFor loveFemale loveA home ShalomA warm bedAnd headBeing frankNot a crank
Life is longMr FongBraverConfronting dangerThan withoutNever shoutNever grow oldBe boldGrow not oldDie youngUnsungAs only a ManAlone can
Woman is sexFear of sexFear of Man's ireNow on the pyreThe End: burning
Hate of immaturityLove of purityCriticism hardens mePlease let me beFiche moi la paixSo that I mayLive in peaceIn Ancient GreeceLove of DivineAnd not wineSeeking wisdomGod's KingdomCourage and FaithSans mateAnd old fear Live here
Later...
A new understandingLunar landingA pinch of saltA pint of maltA little smileHundred miles
So easySqueeze meTake a jokeDon't croakLaugh a bitSpit the gritLove lifeBury knifeGladnessNo madnessA smileOn the NileO so shortAnd so hotSo singIt bringsBeautyIngenuityTo the mind
Another day
Sitting hereOld fearHope StirringVision blurringStrange worryMind slurryFaith, sans hateOf my fateMeditationImaginationFreedomWisdomBut how ?And now ?Go slowerIt will comeLike aged rumLet it matureSlow, yet surePatience, manJust as you ranNow wait
The baitLet it biteThen fightAnd not beforeJungle LoreBurns in me
At nightIn frightThe soundsThe houndsThe packWhen it attacksThe soundsIn my mind pound
Many eons later...
French so rudeBach preludeTime flyingHeart dyingEyes cryingMan lying
Cards fallingPapa brawlingBaby bawlingSon ashamedMan untamedFamily defamedAll derangedWho's blamed
Workedfor workFruits staleBitter aleLife wasSatan's jawsLove, Hope:Divine DopeFlying CourageBoiled Cabbage
Skies darkenSpirits harkenBlood simmersEyes glimmerShadows danceSurreal trance
Surrealistic realitySchizophrenic dualityMadness callsPoet fallsPhlegm and BileStupid Smile
Made ManMad Man
Culture CringeColonial Tinge
Story so finePickled in brineCast before swineDulled by wine Left long behindMatter over mind
Problem magnifiedFate defiedLaws trampledIdols trampledMan mummifiedAlive Snake Eyes
It goes on...
Time diesEarth criesGod liesWind flies
Heart bleedsMan's greedSin's need
Soul's weedSatan's need
Eyes weepOceans deepMountains steepA Giant LeapA Massive FallIn the GaulA bloody brawlIn the barNow so so farSo far awayNow, a new dayHeaven sendsTime bendsSkies rumbleTemples crumbleEyes burnLips spurnHearts hardenMinds sharpen
Innocence goneVenom born
Red bloodAngry floodBlack eyeDevil's dyeBurning skinFilthy binFear, dreadSpinning headCherry topWent pop
Sirens singingBells ringingClocks tickingNeedles prickingCherry topWent popWent deadHot leadBlaze of fire
Going HigherSpirits callingCards fallingYour drewI blewYou wroteI quote
And now...after all that is passing
And on it goesIn Misery's throesIt was so hotMy best shotNot enoughRebuffedStill at itBlood and spitBad to worseAnd then hearseFuel for the fireOf funeral pyreSad bardSlapped hardHeart bleedingYet not weeping
Great ExpectationsMassive FrustrationRejected Minority Incensed Inferiority
Gone by, The HourRum's gone sourStill workingStill burningFor a TomorrowSans sorrowA dream, a hopeHang on a ropeBurn to improveMove ! move !!MeditationPrecipitationOf Divine Grace
To win this raceAnd to thinkOf the Past's Link
The End ?
Dog bites ManShit hits fanMan bites DogPrince turns Frog
Blood curdlesWeathers hurdles
Love, HopeDivine Dope
Loss:GainPleasure:PainCause: EffectMan: God's defect ?
Human AnimalFather CannibalNever got paidNever got laid
Love unfulfilledHooch swilled
Madness, DeathCrystal Meth
Kafka, DostoevskyPauline Medvezky
Death spurns Life burns
Skin flayedDog spayedSo you seeDog was me
Man-Dog cries
Man-God liesAll is vainAs is pain
The God who failedWho was jailedWho inhaled
Bag of bileIn political exile
Drug addledAss saddledArse paddledJoy grappled
Madness callsPoet fallsDark halls
Phlegm and BileStupid, Stupid Smile
NeurosisPsychosisHalitosis
Laughter, DeathCrystal Meth Piss dripsMind trips Ears trick meFears frisk me Blood bled whiteBrain dead Knight Man hurtingWords blurtingSperm squirting Madness callsPoet fallsCurtain fallsEnd of Act
Demon's PactSuicide PlanEnter HangmanSo you see Hangman was MeThug was Me
Fight, flight, nightYon lonely sprite
Terror and FrightBrave foolish Knight
Blood Bled WhiteBrain Dead Knight
Spirit percolatedMan emasculated
Fleeting IllusionLingering Delusion
Slumbers deepEyes weepTroubled dreamsBleaching creamsPsycho kinesisPneuma genesis
Mind stilledSpirit distilled
Drank the HemlockCocked the Flintlock
Mineral ManWater and SandDivine Hand
Wide Awake in a Surreal Dream
Good bye Norma JeanYou have been The one for meNow set me freeFrom my miseryFrom Man's apathy
I endureWhat I can't cure
A wonderA blunderTorn asunderScattered ShatteredTo the four windsIn distant HindI have sinnedIn the dust binMy heart drums a din:"You are the better man, Gunga Din !"ExistenceSubstanceMayaSaayaFood for the fireOf Funeral PyreSomeone diedNo one criedIt was meHear my pleaAnd set me free
The Shifting Sands of the Hourglass of Time
Strange turnsLove spurnedIdiot MoronJust sail onStairway of ExistenceWithering PersistenceMad Sad CadUnsung BalladPoor BardSlapped hardHigh strungPile of dungStrung highEyes don't cryLips don't lieBody does not dieSoul does dieMany many times
Sour stale limeBitter bileIn the smileRan a mileIn denialPass me the vialI can end itFor I can't mend itPoor bardBroken shardsOf withered heartYet looks so smart
Love spurned meDeath spurned meI write in vainOf the painThat I endureAnd cannot cureRealms apartShattered glass heartBig huge fart
Walking on broken glassMy feet bleedMy eyes weepThe rooted weedsIn my soul seepOceans deepMy eyes weepWhen I sleepWhen I slumber deep
Cut the cordI am boredVoice unheardVision blurredSpeech slurred
Future untold Past grown oldAlone in the coldTrying to be boldHeaven sendsMind bendsAs I scream
In a dreamWithin a dream
Bonhomie turned AnomieFascination turned AlienationPassion turned DepressionRepression turned SuppressionMythos turned Logos
Many lives became oneOne death became many
Patience is a virtueI don't want to hurt youLive for another dayAnd I'll show you the wayThere's always anotherSo be brave, my brotherSo myself I may saveWho to you I gaveUnderstand meAnd don't damn me
A lone flightA lone frightIn the cold dark nightWalk alone, run aloneIn search of a boneThat does not existIn the icy mistsOf my persistent existent selfPlease. Someone help
A lone voice from afarCalls my nameYet deaf, I can't hear
Heaven SentMan bentForce spentSpirit rentNo comment
Fretful painLife inaneSpirit insane
Man vainIncurred painGoing insaneAll over againAnd in pain
Who can tellIn what pit of hellI sank and fell
Depths of DespairBroken beyond repairDown too farSo below the bar
Brave the next dayAnd find another wayWhat can I say?What else can I say?Life blisters my feetDeceit and conceitNow what remainsBut self-disdainAnd this painBled in vainDriven insaneAnd one day goneJust goneThe dust has flownThe wind has blownAnd then remains noneNot even God, the SonGone, just gone
Absurdity, InsanityCold hard realityAnd what remainsIs just the painThe fretful dividendThe lonely endOf a luck-seeded gambleBegun as a lottery in a bramble
Soul burningEyes yearningIce freezing
Chest wheezingA wonderA blunder- What mattersAll torn asunderEyes weepOceans deepA hundred milesAll so futileBells tollExistential voidPsychic schizoid
In wine drenchedCompletely FrenchedA bloody brawlIn distant GaulSo far, far awayNow a new dayAnd on the morrowHope, and sorrow
Stone coldGrown oldGrown boldFallen out of the foldA tale untoldGlowing as gold
Lo ! and behold Ben Adhem's nameLed all the restWhom love of GodHath blest
Afterword
"Ah, Mr Donkey Bong KongI will have to inform Mr FongAbout this outrageous songFor it has been too longAs the clock says ding dongAnd my marbles go bing bongBut nothing's gone wrongAnd out comes the fungun: BANG BONG !"
"So long Mr Fong,Cuz I ain't done no wrong."