Life as We Never Knew It

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Life as we never knew it

It was a dusty and windy afternoon when I met a close death experience. I realized

what life is that day. I found out something amazing, something that has waited so

long within me to explode and come out, reveal itself to the world on its own. That

day I figured out what was so important to me in my life. In the split seconds of thataccident, I could see all mine life that I lived or may I say expended till date. Then I

came to realize that “why did I live a life if there is nothing in life that I wish to die

for?” This only means the motivation to get in the extra efforts to get what you want

something so powerful that you can sacrifice your life just to feel you acquired or at

least tried to acquire what you want from life. That day I almost died and turning

back and feeling that day makes me feel like that particular day I learned to live life

by loving what I have and not worrying much on what I should have had or what I

could have.

What do we live for? We are born with a purpose but what is mine purpose, mine

destination. Is it the Big house, Money, fame, society or something else. That’sbugging me these days. Even a spoilt brat is earning money be it by hardship or

cheating, but he is making money out of something, Then I question is that it? Has

he lived? I find this one line interesting in “BHAGWAT GEETA” what have you

brought with you that you intend to keep; you are returning back leaving everything

behind. Everything I was ever proud of me wasn’t mine. Even the loved ones that I

felt were mine were never mine; they were just with me alongside taking care of

me. They were born too for a purpose. Having said that we are not all Krishna’s or

Arjuna’s or Rama’s like in ancient times that has some serious motives to be in

Earth. Moreover we have our motives and we will get that the day we are supposed

to. Then I came to read about Taoism. It said do not force upon an issue, you will

get what you are supposed to like the water in the ground. It finds its destiny and it

never forces the issue to move ahead it just does, its nature.

Life is all about acceptance and wonder, contentment and excitement. The

acceptance of the fact that if we look at the things in a right perspective, we can

see just how wonderful everything is, that we see all around. All I feel, hear and

read about is the complication, difficult, I cannot do this and that; I hate to be there,

hate to do that and so much more. There is so much negative energy everywhere

today. And no one is exception not even me. What do you have in you that you will

loose? What you brought that you fear of loosing? And even though we fear of

loosing something we never had. We try to alter the future thinking we can. I readin Taoism “Nature is the superior of all”. It knows what’s good or bad in her like the

YING YANG, the two shades of life. She will find her way. Let her be on her own.

We are always occupied in bulk of our life in becoming something we are not to do

something we totally do not desire being close to everyone and far far away from

oneself and not looking at the angels that follow us to see at the far objective that

we follow. I know how it feels. I felt the objective so strong all mine life, I had this



dream to be an engineer; out of ego but I acquired it. But I know feel it was mine

objective but not mine destination at all. I just ran away in mine life to fulfill mine

objective and here I am sitting pretty and I feel like I have nothing I have achieved

nothing but a paper that says you have this much grade. It’s just another quest

conquered in life like so many other. At this stage of mine life I am standing at the

point where I was standing probably 10 years back. I have carried a lot of wisdomwith me but I know no one is going to understand. Because they have their set of

objective that they needed to follow, like I did.

Sometime in Life we come across different circumstances that are difficult. We have

to choose between what we believe is ours and what is ours. Most of the time we go

on and chose what we believe can be ours, not what is ours own. I made mine

choice and I know this because on acquiring this I feel like I made compromises. But

deep down I do realize that I had to make a compromise someday. As Krishna says

in Geeta, We have come alone and we need to go alone. All we can get and give is

the wisdom, love and care. And believe it or not that is something we run away from

all our life. One doesn’t need to be some drastic idiotic sadhus and leave their

houses. Actually we can start by our family. We are ignorant enough to take their

wishes and desires for granted. All mine life I was so consumed about the objective

of becoming an Engineer that I forgot what I needed to look for from life. I realize

that now. There are signs everywhere. There are people everywhere telling you

what should be done and what shouldn’t be, I always made the right decision as

everyone says. But Now I feel I made right decision when I could have made Good

decisions. They Seemed so right at that point and looking back I embarrass myself

not that I regret anything But I could have made the good decision. I was always

worried about the outcome of the decision and in the process I was always leaving

behind something. I was carrying behind the baggage of everything that led me tothe objective I always had and left behind a kid that was me. I brought along all the

people that could be there with me when I reach there and forget myself the same

place. And I feel lost now. I am trying to find my little soul behind and in turning

back I see people differently now. All those I left behind were there standing and

making sure they be there to help me if I fall.

In mine turning back I see someone. I felt her strong. Something I never felt. I was

lost myself and couldn’t carry her. So I left her. I was sorry for myself. I apologized

with myself “I am sorry I loved her”. All of a sudden this comes by and I have found

all new energy in life. I have no sense of objective now. I am here to live and give

back to the nature not GOD what she gave me life and love filled in it. I feel like Iknow why I was born now. I know mine destiny. I am so sure. I am a mere general

Person I have no large Goals to achieve but love all around. I know I was done with

all the materialistic in the nature. It’s hard to say no, I know. Still something I find it

difficult. I am no Sadhu, I am no Philosopher, and I am no God’s reincarnation. I am

just a simple and general people like we all are. I have needs wants from life. But I

learnt to say no to LUST. I have been in control of what I need to do. One person, a



true love can make you realize what you need in life. I now know that she is the one

in me.

That day in the accident I saw her. All the pictures I ever saw were hers’. I was not

concerned about dying I was more concerned about loosing her. I looked for a

reason why I was saw her. I said this to so many included her but never quite feltthe same reaction. May be they all are chasing the objective for the life. I have lost

so much that I now intend to loose no more. I have seen people loosing people they

love, I have seen people loosing someone they say they love; I felt mine was

different, I lost myself. No one can still feel it I guarantee that. But I know they will

at some point of time. I listen to myself and my head still feels what you are

thinking you are the great one and you have achieved so many things. I know even

he doesn’t know what have I lost. No one can see it but me, my soul. I watched this

movie earlier, it was this stupid love story but one thing touched me so thick in the

movie, “we the Generation Y have lost it; out heart. We think for everything in our

life. We decide for every Lust of life and every guarantee that one can secure. And

at last we decide upon we need to love.” We forgot to born with heart we have

become more practical . We always set new heights in life. We spend almost half of

our life trying hard to become what we feel is our objective to acquire something in

life. We spend the one half of the remaining life in trying to sustain what we have

become and remaining other half thinking about how great should it had been if we

had become ourselves and not like the other. Most of the time we don’t care for

others but we today do what everyone would praise on us.

There are people who are free yet being chained. They live free but in they are

captivated by the objective that the people around them set. Thinking about

everything but ourselves has been something very common these days. We are

developed intellectually, technically and mentally but we are developed by heart

even not same as the child. The child sees all the dreams in the world, he sits above

the stick between his legs and pretends he is riding a horse. He plays in the mud

even without noticing it is dusty and not healthy. He speaks his mind no

manipulations. He doesn’t try to please anyone. He waves bye to the airplane and

even a thought doesn’t cross his mind that they aren’t seeing. That’s what I see life

is now. We think too much. We forgot to feel what we should and inact the way

everyone would expect us to be. We have options, so many options but for the one

thing in the life that is life itself. We have spent so many moments in search of the

perfect moment. We forgot to live the moment to make every moment special. We

fight, argue and disrespect each other even when we could have easily avoidedthat. Lets live life with the best possible way. Lets Love all our life and be content.

Lets work hard and not expect anything Big in return. Lets love the things they are

and not force an issue to change them.

Lets live life like there is no tomorrow. Lets not regret on what we could have done.

Lets spread love all along. Lets not waste our tears on what we could have become.

Lets just love and be loved expecting absolutely nothing. We have read several



philosophies, several Vedas, several religious. We have had enough reading and

appreciating them; lets try to be what we read. I have chosen a path now of love

and life. Lets choose our way. We do not need to change everything we see in the

world that we don’t like, there is somebody who likes that better and if there is

nobody nature is above all. Change is good only when it is accepted from deep

down the heart. Life is beautiful only when quit running and live for today and stopworrying the future. A line from Bhagwat Geeta that talks about change and how

common it is -- "O son of Kunti, the nonpermanent appearance of happiness and

distress, and their disappearance in due course, are like the appearance and

disappearance of winter and summer seasons. They arise from sense perception, O

scion of Bharata, and one must learn to tolerate them without being disturbed."

This perfectly makes sense to me. Life is about having the perception you depend

upon. And a line from Taoism- “Life is the sunny and shady sides of a hill....it is

associated with the masculine and the feminine, the firm and the yielding, the

strong and the weak, the light and the dark, the rising and the falling, heaven and

earth”. There is a bit of both in all so accept it and live life freely. Like the Ying Yang

of swirls.

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