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coming of age issue 1
words
The stages of growing up are a profound, important, and beautiful thing. The curiosity and innocence from
childhood flowing into imagination and the exposure of reality all while discovering oneself combine to
form an extraordinary process. Adding pressure from society, school, parents, friends and ones own mind
creates an emotional fluster of anxiety, expression, and rebellion. Being a teenager is being lost in a world
of your own, only having yourself to understand, doing stupid things and learning from the mistakes,
realizing what is important in life your own life, falling in and out of love, not knowing what to do for the
rest of your life, and thinking that the little thing that is bothering you now will affect you forever. But
overall, coming of age is attempting to understand that life comes with both positives and negatives, and
you are not alone on your journey through it.
- nick
Congratulations.
You’ve made it this far and you are in the position to sit, stand, crouch, lean or lay down in whatever
environment you are in, your room, a cafe, a library, a friend's car, and you have been given the
opportunity to read these words. With every step, breath, blink, sigh, mouthful, you are aging, coming to a
point of new age, moving past the past, and you’ve taken this moment to allow your eyes to reflect the light
bouncing off these words on this printed paper and you have translated that reflection into a picture of
letters that you understand as words, as sentences, as a paragraph or two. Congratulations, with every
second you are coming of age.
Sometimes it is like a tap on your shoulder by a breeze, or your own reflection in someone else’s
sunglasses, or the finding of something hidden in your room that brings you back to a moment of
childhood innocence, that reminds you that you have grown older. It is a gentle reminder, a soft one, but
you feel it deep down in a place owned not by your gut, heart, or mind, but your soul, or whatever you’d
like to call it. Perhaps the quiet intake of these words is your reminder. I’d be honoured if that was the
case.
I have never been afraid of getting older, I hope you are not either. It is important to remember that
coming of age does not mean your childhood is over, your innocence forgotten, nor your ignorance
depleted, but rather you’ve gained a newfound sense of the unknown, a new set of steps to climb, acquired
a list of wiser goals to reach. Bask in your new found ignorance, strive for all of the knowledge you can eat,
yearn for all the chances you could possibly hope to take, because you are ready, every second to grow and
come of a new age.
This Issue, like the many more to come, is intended to make you think, inspire you, and allow you a
moment outside of your world where you can appreciate another’s creativity within the grips of your aging
fingertips.
- elaine
We would both like to thank everyone who made this possible, including all of the submitting artists.
artists
audrey french
david granado
emily duvall
jenna silverstone
marco moukhaiber
tayler fraser
tiffany lovett
mary-claire brennan
adam borman
nasra adem
curated by
nicholas redmond
elaine maynard
cover by audrey french featuring zoë kruschke
music
forget you in l.a. by poema
teenage talk by st. vincent
lonely boy goes to a rave by teen suicide
papi pacify by fka twigs
cool kids by screeching weasel
native korean rock by karen o
ponyboy by surf curse
tweaker kidz by the aquadolls
wildflower by beach house
enough said (feat. drake) by aaliyah
running wild by la sera
baby say goodbye by wavves
chosen by blood orange
bloody bandaid by cherry glazerr
palm trees (instrumental) by flatbush zombies
void by naked
9 (feat. sza) by willow
cape cod kwassa kwassa by vampire weekend
mon amie la rose by françoise hardy
almost leaving by 18+
top: audrey french; bottom: tayler fraser
photo: audrey french
Ivory thighs,
cherry lips.
The things I hate myself most for.
A sweet breeze on raw flesh is something
like a whisper, but a screaming, shrieking
whisper, one that pools into my chest but
never leaves my lungs.
Too-cold hands, taking too many baths.
The things my mind obsessively, and
incessantly reminds me of.
Fix yourself,
fix yourself,
fix yourself.
photo: david granado; poem: maryclare brennan
photos: nick redmond
SCARS
Three nights ago, I fell asleep on my bedroom floor
Skin still crawling in regrets, leftover cigarette smoke, lazy unrequited love and every burgundy
battered heart
That’s ever been pinned to my chest, sleeve and tensor bandaged around my knees-
Simply made it hard to get up.
Wings clipped 4 grams and a 2-6 ago
I don’t even think they were mine to begin with
No I don’t think these scars were mine to begin with
But with 2am consciousness comes 2am confessions-
and my mama always told me that pain is contagious.
That if I’m not careful I will begin to bleed blood to thick and dark to be mine- to tread with
caution.
But what she doesn’t know is I’ve already slipped my soles in to your childhood chucks and walked
the streets where you grew up and kissed the girl with the pink top who left you for the boy who
reeked of danger and musk
I wish you’d stop smoking, my lungs can’t take it
And I know we’re all going to die anyways but what is so romantic about this premature parting
Especially since you’ve just replaced your shadow with me
I will follow you into the dark as best I can
Just take my hand.
Run your fingers, calloused with calamity down my forearm
Read your stories through my brown goosebump braille recordings of every drunken soliloquy, all
the coulda beens and shoulda beens
You are a classic tragedy, Shakespeare couldn’t have dreamt you up if he tried
Baby, it is about time you realized I have not belonged to me since your half mumbled “I love you”
leaped from your lips and took refuge in my chest
I have yet to learn how not to drink up other people’s smiles and tears and memories and fears
I guess I hate being empty more than I like being me
The next time I fall asleep on my bedroom floor
I will try my damn near hardest to make sure the nightmares that keep me up
Are really mine to begin with.
poem: nasra adem
mixed media art: emily duvall
o u r
love
has
photo 1: david granado; ‘no rhythm’ project: divot x nick redmond
photos: tayler fraser
“L”
I never knew what the “L” in “love” stood for.
But you taught me what it was in lust and lies and lingering goodbyes
You could write lesson plans on lifting limp spirits living solely to let them loose from the
Himalayas of Layla's and Lisa’s and Laura’s...
I guess I shouldn’t have waved back.
As I watched those porcelain dolls fall from your grip to the foot of that cliff...instead I dusted
them off my shoulders and asked you to show me what you love about the mountains
My tanned skin tour guide-
I should have known better.
Than to let you compare my french tips to Kilimanjaro's very own
And follow you up so high when there wasn’t a single threaded lifeline attaching us
Not a single parachuted back bone belonging to us
That when the blindfold stitched together by your favourite coloured love and pin pricked thumbs
and every flaw known to every man except you...would unravel
We would.
Your vision no longer hindered by such plush fabricated memories
And I guess Father Time disapproved of you before mine had a chance
We both knew we had no chance
The universe laughed at us
2000 miles and crippling winter storms laughed at us
But your te amo’s were louder
Your “baby you’re beautiful”s were louder
My name, foreign honey new and sweeter on your tongue
Technicolor wings brewed windstorms around my core
I became terrified of my insides
So I pulled back my skin in hopes that maybe you could find something worth kissing, something
worth staying for, something worth waiting for
But I guess even then I was not naked enough for you
My exposed flesh and hollow bones were not enough to satisfy your hunger for my innocence-
In a sense, I could empathize with why your eyes diverged at every curved and accessible road
they came across
They could take you places I never would.
But I heard, some men prefer the road less traveled by anyways.
Your tan has faded
And the only sparkle left in your eye is merely the reflection of my smile
Bright and full
With the few cracks you’ve managed to seep through
But broken I am not
And dust off your shoulder
I never shall be.
poem: nasra adem
photos: adam borman
previous page: tiffany lovett; current page: david granado
“run away, question everything, spread positivity”
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