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Letter 9: to Cynthia, April 1962

Star Club39 Grosse Freiheit

Altona HamburgDear Cyn,I love love love you and I’m missing you like mad.Where are you mylittle

I wonder why all the newspapers wrote about Stu – especially thePeople – and how the hell did they find out, who could have told them, asI wrote that I suddenly remembered there’s a fellow at the ‘Jacaranda’who’s a freelance journalist. Could have been him because AllanWilliamshas been helping Mrs Sutcliffe or something. I haven’t seen Astrid sincethe day we arrived. I’ve thought of going to see her but I would be soawkward – and probably the others would come as well and it would beeven worse. I won’t write any more about it ’cause it’s not much fun. Ilove you – I don’t like the idea of Dot moving in permanently with you’cause we could never be alone really – I mean when I come home –can’t she have the other room or find another flat – imagine having herthere all the time when we were in bed – and imagine Paul coming allthe time – and especially when I wasn’t there. I’d hate the idea. I love youCyn.

The club is massive and we only play 3hrs one night and 4 the next –and we play an hour – then an hour break so it doesn’t seem long at allreally.The boss of this place is a good skin – we’re off tomorrow ’causeit’s Good Friday and they can’t have music so the boss – (Manfred) istaking us and the other group out for the day in his car and all the rest ofthem like Horst are coming, so it will be a big mob in our 5 cars.We’regoing somewhere healthy like the Ost Sea (Stuart again).

God, I’m knackered it’s 6 o’clock in the morning and I want you. (I’vejust found out that there’s no post tomorrow so I will pack in goodnight. I love you, boo! hoo! I hate this place).

That was Thursday night now its Sunday afternoon. I’ve just wakenedup and there’s no post today or tomorrow (Easter Monday, I think)anyway happy Easter Cyn. I love you.We went out, but all we did waseat and eat and eat (Good Friday) it was all free so it was okay.We drovesomewhere about 80 miles away and ate.

My voice has been gone since I got here (it was gone before I came if Iremember rightly). I can’t seem to find it – ah well! I love you CynPowell and I wish I was on the way to your flat with the Sunday papersand choccies and a throbber! OhYes! I forgot to tell you I’ve got a GEARsuede overcoat with a belt so I’ll look just like you now! Paul’s leaping

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about on my head (he’s in a bunk on top of me and he’s snoring!) I canhardly get in a position to write it’s so cramped below stairs, captain.Shurrup McCartney! Grunt grunt.

I can’t wait to see your new room it will be great seeing it for the firsttime and having chips and all and a ciggie (don’t let me come home toa regular smoker please Miss Powell). Hmm I can just seeYOU and Dotpuffing away. I suppose that’s the least of my worries. I love you, Cyn, I missmiss miss you miss powell – I keep remembering all the parts of Hamburgthat we went to together. In fact I can’t get away from you – especially onthe way, and inside the Seaman’s Mission boo! hoo! I love love love you. x

Did I tell you that we have a good bathroom with a shower, did I? Did Itell you?Well, I’ve had ONE whole shower, aren’t I a clean little raker? Hee!Hee! I love you. I haven’t written to Mimi yet but I know how to send hermoney so it gets there in 2hrs. xxx

I can’t think what to write now so I will pack in and write sometomorrow seeing as how like I can’t POST IT anyway so good afternoonCyn, I love you.Yum yum.Will you send me the words to ‘A SHOT OFRHYTHM AND BLUES’ please? There’s not many.

It’s Monday night and we finished playing about 3/4 hours ago (its 2o’clock). I’m dead beat my sweet, so I hope you won’t mind if I finishnow and have lovely sleep (without you but it’ll still be lovely – don’t behurt – but I’m so, so tired). I love you Cyn – I hope you realize why thisletter took so long lovey but there has been no post Fri, Sat, Sun, Mon –and this one will go by the early morning Tuesday post ’cause I will nipdownstairs and post it any minute (handy isn’t it?) I love you, I love youplease wait for me and don’t be sad and work hard and be a clever littleCyn Powell. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I loveyou, write soon ooh it’s a naughty old Hamburg we’re living in!!

All my Love for Ever and everFromJohnXXXXXXXXXXXX

PS They’re leather PANTIES not pants (just in case y’know!)I love youGoodnight

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