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The Magazine for Christians In RecoveryThe Magazine for Christians In Recovery

S p r i n g 2 0 1 0 thethe

This issues focus:

GROWTH IN RECOVERY

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Spring time is a Dangerous TimeA thoughtful essay on Spring by Jim Aquila.

You Are a New Creation in ChristKathi Macias thoughts on how we try to grow ourselves

Wings Like a DoveRev. Joe brings a scripture lesson on living life in the midst of tragedy

Forgiving As God Forgives UsIssue wrap-up with an encore article by Jim Aquila!

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Musings by ClaraTGrowth in life, in the program and in faith

GleaningsExcerpts from the Message Boards, Prayer Requests, CIR News

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Planting

TomatoesGrowing up on a farm you learn to do a lot of things simply by

observation. I watched my Mama plant tomatoes and she

always filled the hole with water before putting the little

seedlings in. Thats how my program has been...a process of

watching. Im pretty sure its how yours has been too. I had

never heard the word Serenity used in any way that was

applicable to anyones life much less my own until I entered

the rooms of Recovery. There I learned a lot of stuffmost of it

by observation, by listening and by trying to do what you do.

Faith was something quite unseeable though. I couldnt really

see it in your life I could hear you talk about it. I knew it was

there. But kind of like humility, when we talk about having itsometimes we wonder if we really do or not. Well that said, Ill

tell you the secret of faith. Its just lasting long enough to have

it. Yup thats the oldtimers wisdom. You put water in the

hole to nourish the little seedlings and then you wait. And

wait. In the meantime, you go on about your business trying to

stay sane in a world where everyone else is growing too.

My favorite saying from the rooms is When youre hurting just

be still and try not to bite yourself or anyone else. Seems simple

enough but when Im hurting its not as simple as it seems. KathiMacias article in this issue of The Gabriel talks a lot about me.

How I tried to water my own roots, and clean the weeds from

around my own soil, but its as difficult as it sounds. What has

helped a lot are those people in community that Rev. Joe talks

about that are SO helpful at bringing the water of their lives in

meetings to me and spotting that nasty weed I cant even see.

Thank you all. And Jim, Im not even going to talk about

Forgiveness thats something I had to be bearing a little fruit to

even get a hold of. But once I tasted itwow forgiveness has to be

better than summer watermelon! I hope you enjoy this seasonsGabriel. I designed it with you in mind.

Blessings to all,

ClaraT, Editor

April 2010

MusingsMusings

by ClaraTby ClaraT

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Springtime is a Dangerous Time

Looking back, I believe the reason

I've always rebelled against New

Year's resolutions is because I

wasn't totally dedicated to

them. Thats what I told my

self. Unfortunately, this is what Icall Head Talk. It is a major issue

in those of us with compulsive or

i m p u l s i v e t h i n k i n g .

I a l w a y s f e l t s o m e w h a t

compulsive, like I should do it

because everyone was expected to

at least make one resolution. I had

good intentions, but good

i n t e n t i o n s d i d n ' t e q u a l

commitment. Secretly, I knew that

I would never commit to such a

ridiculous thing. Me, give up my

behavior, not on your life. I can't

recall ever having made a

resolution that I made at the

beginning of the year that was

important enough for me to follow

for a whole year. Yet, I'd find

mysel f making the same

resolutions again and again, just

for the sake of others.

This isn't to say that I haven't

made and stuck with resolutions,

but those were ones based on need

rather than time. For instance,

when my eating disorder

reappeared its head one spring, it

wasn't an question for me to say,

"Well, when the new year arrives,I'll work on this", otherwise keep

your distance. It was something I

had to deal with right then, so I

thought.

DESIRE IS ONE THING

WHATS THE OTHER?

It's true that we should desire a

lifestyle of service to God and

mankind, but these were just words that I was expected to

say. What does it mean to

surrender ourselves to God. You

have to be kidding! This sounds a

little like good works. I heard that

before. At the time I didnt really

know that good works will indeed

flow out of our lives. But good

works themselves can never pay

for our past sins. There isabsolutely nothing within our

human abilities that can ever be a

suitable payment for our wrong

behavior. Christ's provision alone

has brought for us victory over sin

through His shed blood on the

cross. Psalm 103:12.

Spring has arrived, and the world

around us has awakened from itsslumber. The whole earth is

breaking forth in a song of praise

to God. The cheerful chirping of

the birds, I wish they would shut

up, I need the sleep! the evidence

of new life springing forth in the

bright colors of flowers an

budding trees, and the renewed

warmth of the sun are a

reminders that winter's long night

is quickly ebbing. This is a time of

restlessness for the compulsive. It

is a time to kick up your heels and

look for new opportunity. It is this

r e s t l e s s n e s s t h a t i s s o

dangerous. It is a time that wrong

choices are made. Why you ask,

simply because you can!

Even though Springtime is aperiod of awakening, we must be

e s p e c i a l l y a l e r t t o i t s

dangers. Those dangers come

upon us without notice. It is

useless to name all the dangers

that we face because they are

specific to each of us. For

instance, one of my springtime

dangers is that I have had all

winter to think about how I canfix any situation that others may

find difficult. You see, Im

codependent, and I like to fix

people, as if they didnt have

enough to think about, and now I

come along trying to control their

Original article by James Aquila

Then thou shalt see, and flow

together, and thine heart shall

fear, and be enlarged; because

the abundance of the sea shall

be converted unto thee, the

forces of the Gentiles shall

come into thee. Isaiah 60:5.



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very thoughts, trying to make then

totally dependent. Of course those

changes I suggest will be according

to ME!

Acts 20:28 tells us to be

careful. Paul emphasizes that it is a

God-given duty and responsibilityto care for and look after Our own

thoughts and behavior. He says

that "The Holy Spirit has made us

overseers," to guard against

n e g a t i v e b e h a v i o r .

Paul was in full expectation of

trouble, yet resolved to go on with

his journey. Just as we must go on

with our own journey and to handle

all the difficulties that will arise,

especially when we compulsively

make mistakes. It is enough for us

to know that God gives us

sufficient strength to handle the

task at hand. So go read Matthew

5:16. -30

God has a history of solving difficultproblems. That history prompts us

to look to the future, confident in

the Lord's promise that he will be

with us always "to the close of the

age" Matthew 28:20. Time is a

great drama with authored and

directed by God's loving care.

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Walk to the edge and step into

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or....... teach us to fly!

A CIR Member's views on CONFLICT!!

A typical scenario that I have run into in practice isthat conflict establishes a moral dilemma such as My boyfriend is an alcoholic, he cant keep a job,he beats me, and I suspect that there are othergirlfriends! But I love him just the same?

Or, I lived with him for two years, and he chargesme rent? whats with this? The truth of thematter is that she cant seem to pin-point the cause

of her conflict.There is a war going on within an individual thatmakes statements such as the ones above. I saythis because conflict in relationships is totally self-centered. When one is involved in war, he or she isthinking only of self interests, which runs 180degrees counter to God's nature. God's nature isoutgoing. When one is engaged in war, all one isseeking to do is to preserve the self.

Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest ofrighteousness. James 3:18.

Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling andslander, along with every form of malice. 32Be kind and

compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just asin Christ God forgave you. Ephesians 4:31-32.


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What Grandkids Will Say!

After putting her

grandchildren to bed, a grandmother

changed into old slacks and a droopy

blouse and proceeded to wash her hair. As

she heard the children getting more and

more rambunctious, her patience grew

thin. Finally, she threw a towel aroundher head and stormed into their

room, putting them back to bed with

stern warnings.

As she left the room, she heard the

three-year-old say with a trembling voice

"Who was THAT?"

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You are a New Creation in Christ

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ,

he is a new creation;

old things have passed away;

behold, all things have become new

(2 Corinthians 5:17).

I had the joy and privilege of speaking to a

Celebrate Recovery group last night and, as

always, came away blessed. What a group of

Jesus-lovers! I believe one of the main reasons

for that is that they live out the truth of Jesuswords about those who have been forgiven much

also loving much.

These people know about the power of walking in

newness of life. We talk about that a lot in the

church, but do we really understand or practice

it? When I first became a Christian, I was so full

of joyand it showed! No one accused me of

having been baptized in vinegar, I guarantee you!

But as time went on, I found myself gettingcaught up in an ever growing to-do list. You know

the drill: memorize more scripture verses; attend

more Sunday school classes and Bible studies;

volunteer for more ministries; above all, learn

and utilize the language of Christianeze (i.e.,

anointing, unction, rapture, etc.)

Nothing wrong with any of these things, of

course; in fact, I highly recommend them (though

Id go easy on the Christianeze if I were you!).

The problem is that I began to substitute the true

newness of life that had initially given me so

much joy with activities that sapped that joy and

damaged my testimony. Can anyone relate?

When God says that were new creations, He

means it. We dont have to find ways to act

new; we simply have to be who God has already

declared us to be. And that, of course, only

happens in His presence because as new

creations we are now living His eternal life, not

our own temporal ones. We now choose to walk

as He walked, which included lots of time spent

with the Father.

Do you want to be assured that your joy will

remain full to overflowing? Do you want to

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you? Spend time with the Father. Cultivate your

love relationship with Him. Thats the only real

activity that is required of us as new creations.

And remember, when God says that old things

have passed away and all things have become

new, He means it. We dont have to work or strive

to earn newness of lifewe received it when we

received Jesus as Savior. And thats a truth thatenables us to rest and rejoice, no matter what

trials or circumstances come our way.

Kathi Macias, all rights reserved. Used by

permission.

Kathi Macias is a multi-award

winning writer who has

authored 26 books. Her

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Beyond Me. Living a You-first

Life in a Me-first World

Mothers of the Bible Speak

to Mothers of Today

(New Hope Publishers)

The author can be reached at:

http://www.kathimacias.com

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How To Post Images on the CIRHow To Post Images on the CIR

Discussion BoardsDiscussion Boards

Here are step-by-step directions as to how to include an image in your CIR Forum post.

1. You have to have a place (not CIR) online to store your images. Photobucket is a good one. .Create an account

and upload following that site's directions to an album there. Follow the directions there or use any image host

on the internet that will allow you to link directly to the image.

2. Upload your pictures. Jpegs work best and don't let them be too big.

Remember if your screen is 1000 pixels wide a picture of 400 pixels wide is

huge. Then click on the picture you want to post. Copy the url of the

image you want to post.

3. On the CIR forum begin your message. If you don't see the smiley face

icon at the top, then click on "Go to full reply screen". Then it will look

like the image on the right.

4. Almost there! When you're ready to put your image in... click on the 4th

icon from the left that looks like a little picture. (see arrow below).

Choose the float... if you play with this you can see what they do.

5. Paste in the link you copied in step #2 above, It will look like this.

6. Now this is REALLY IMPORTANT! Click PREVIEW POST, not submit to

check to see if your post is okay and the picture is okay. If it isn't you can

change it in the entry box just like normal. If it looks okay, then you can

click SUBMIT and you're all done!

WORD OF CAUTION: Now I've posted a lot of images in this post and I think

Obie MIGHT let me get away with it... BUT remember to conserve ourservers and don't overdo with the use of images in your post. Also, while I

use photobucket, you can use any place to store your images as long as you can get a link to the picture directly.

I can tell you already that the CIR gallery will not work. You need to have an url that looks something like this:

"https://reader010.{domain}/reader010/html5/0529/5b0d5b8c40077/5b0d5b9b2f6bb.jpg"

For more detailed instructions and larger example images see the original post on the Forum at

http://christians-in-recovery.org/members/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=45336#Post45336 .

You can also email me at [email protected] Ill be glad to walk you through your first image!

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One day after visiting the grave

of my brother, I began to stroll

through the cemetery and found

the grave of woman whom I had

grown up with. Not only was

she buried there but also her

teenage son. As I stood there

reflecting on what could of went

wrong in their lives, I noticed as

two car loads of young men

parked and exited their

vehicles. I waited for a few

seconds as the men stood

behind me and then I turned

and ask them Was this

someones mother? One of the

men stepped forward and said

No, her son was our friend.

My response was I see then I

proceeded to share with them

that I had grown up in the same

Santa Ana Ca. neighborhood asthe mother and began to

mention names of her family

members.

This seemed to release a little

tension in the air and then I

asked them Did they die in a

car accident? The spokesman of

the group once again stepped

up and said No, our friend waskilled by the cops, and the

mother? I questioned. She

died two days later of a broken

heart, was his rely. Wow, those

words were thick and powerful

as they entered into my mind to

be deciphered and to be quite

frank, this

revelation very much

grieved my spirit to know that

the once giggling little girl that I

first met in grade school had

died from a state of utter

hopelessness. I thanked them

for allowing me to hear their

story, and I commended them

for their loyalty to their fallen

friend, and then made my exit.

Life for the most part is

beautiful and exciting, but

s o m e t i m e s u n e x p e c t e d

tragedies can bring us to our

knees in despair. There aresituations which can usher a

person into an unfathomable

realm, where misguided

emotions lead its victims deeper

into the storm driven waves of

hopelessness. The great

Psalmist of Israel King David

writes of his own

personal experiences in

Psalms 55 4-7 My heart is in

anguish within me, and the

terrors of death have fallen

upon me. Fear and trembling

come upon me, and horror has

overwhelmed me. I said, Oh,

that I had wings like a

dove! I would fly away and

be at rest.

Fly Away

King David, like most of

mankind was tempted by the

misconception, of thinking that

running away from grief and

pain is a cure all solution. This

idea has proven itself, to be

worthless, devastating, and only

delays the healing process.

History has given us many goodexamples of people who have

endured painful experiences,

with godly character, dignity

and honor (read the Book of

Job), but on the other hand, we

also have witnessed that mans

antidote for relief has not

changed over the ages,, for the

love of money, extra marital

affairs and drugs/alcohol have

ruled over the nations and its

subjects have forsaken all to

come under the influence its

merciless spell. This vain

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attempt to somehow fly away

and experience rest has proven

itself futile, for after the

temporary euphoric rush, we

once again found ourselves

facing reality square in the eye.

Keep Connected to People

One of the most valuable gifts

that God has given us is

community. When God created

Adam in the Garden of Eden, he

stated It is not good for man to

be alone. So he formed Eve

from a rib taken from Adam

(Genesis 32:18,-22). Scriptures

tells us that No temptation

(adversity, affliction, trouble)

has overtaken you such as

is common to man (others have

traveled through that storm,

allow them to show you the way

to get through it - * writers

insert); and God is faithful

(true, sure, to be trusted), who

will not allow you to be tempted

beyond what you are able, but

with temptation will provide the

way of escape also, so that you

will be able (having the means

or power to be or act) to endure

(continue to exist) it (1 Cor.

10:13.

Serving Brings Healing

During one phase of myChristian service, as a Chaplain,

I had the privilege to be allowed

to walk through the death

process of many beautiful

people. We prayed, read Holy

Scripture, talked, laughed and

did a great deal of listening. So

many times it was they that

ministered to me. God

admonishes us to; Bear one

anothers burdens, and thereby

fulfill the law of Christ.

Let us not lose heart in doing

good, for in due time we will

reap (*- a good harvest - writers

insert -) if we do not grow weary

(exhausted in strength,

endurance, vigor, or freshness).

So then, while we have

opportunity (dont miss it! -

writers insert!), let us do good

to all people, and especially to

those who are of the household

of faith (Gal. 6:2, 9-10).

Keep Connected to God

Its been said that one of the

greatest assets that King David

possessed was his ability to fall

forward. By this, I mean in all

his tragic experiences such as

the death of his infant son (2

Sam. 12 15-23), and the

rebellion and death of another

(2 Sam. 15 & 18). He always ranand fell into the arms of his

merciful and loving God. Even

when he suffered big time for

his moral failures (2 Sam. 11:1-

27), he continued to hold onto

the hand of God.

How blessed is the man/

woman whose strength is in

You. In whose are the highways

to Zion! Passing through the

valley of Baca (weeping) they

make it a spring; The early rain

also covers it with blessings.

They go from strength tostrength; Every one of them

appears before God in Zion

(PS.84:5-7).

Come As You Are

Lifes unexpected tragedies are

truly painful and seemingly an

unbearable experience. We are

limited in our sincere attempt

to console others, but there is

One who is all powerful and full

of compassion. Because of His

unlimited love, He (God)

became flesh (man) and dwelt

among mankind (Jn 1:1-5, 14,

Col 2:9), so that you and I could

see the heart beat of Deity as

Jesus wept at the grave of His

beloved friend Lazarus, and the

power of His Word as the King

of Kings proclaims I am the

resurrection and the life

(Jn. 11:25, 35). And for those

who have lost their way in

search of truth and purpose, He

says I am the way, the truth

and the life, and no one comes

to the Father except through

me (John 14: 6).Though wearyand broken, may we Like King

David fall forward into the

healing arms of the Great I AM

and in His Holy presence be

comforted by His beckoning call

of Come unto Me, ALL who

(Continued from page 11)




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are weary and heavy-laden, and I

will give you rest. Take My yoke

upon you and learn from Me, for

I AM gentle and humble in heart,

and you will find rest for your

souls. For My yoke is easy and

My burden is light (Matt. 28-

30).

Soar Towards Your Destiny

The Prophet Isaiah paints a very

eloquent verbal picture of those

who have yielded to Gods

timetable, for healing takes time

and those who learn the value of

patience, have been given the key

that will open up a whole new world and a host of marvelous

experiences. Check it out! Yet

those who wait (hope) for

the Lord will gain new

strength. They will mount

up with wings like eagles.

They will run and not get tired.

They will walk and not become

weary. Isa, 40:31

Hey, If Youre Gonna Fly

Then Fly First Class!

Now, may the Lord bless you in

all you do and thank you for

allowing me to share my

experience, strength and hope

with you all.

Your friend always in the

journey.

Rev. Joe A. Rivera

Pressing on Faith Ministries

Temecula, Ca.

Copyright 2008 by Rev. Joe A. Rivera.

All rights reserved. Used by permission.


Recovery Knowledge & Facts

Alcohol Recovery Update

More than a quarter of drinkers in England who exercise

regularly do so in an attempt to make up for bingeing on

alcohol, according to a survey published on Thursday. Drinkers

exercise to combat binges.

Basic Anxiety, Panic, OCD, PSTD, Social Phobia Info -

National Institute on Mental Health (NIMH)

People with OCD who fear dirt and germs are encouraged to get

their hands dirty and wait increasing amounts of time before

washing them. The therapist helps the person cope with the

anxiety that waiting produces; after the exercise has been

repeated a number of times, the anxiety diminishes.

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Exercise Reduces Death Rate In Prostate Cancer Patients.

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Researchers also are working to define the basic processes of

the disorders, which should help identify better treatments. For

example, is anorexia the result of skewed body image, self

esteem problems, obsessive thoughts, compulsive behavior, or

a combination of these? Can it be predicted or identified as a

risk factor before drastic weight loss occurs, and therefore

avoided?Obese people with binge-eating disorder often have coexisting

psychological illnesses including anxiety, depression, and

personality disorders. In addition, links between obesity and

cardiovascular disease and hypertension are well documented.

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How Do We Grow?

How do we grow...as we grow old?

When we reach the point of no return,

When we find our bridge to youth is burned,

Do we cease to grow, just involute?

Will scenes of sylvan lass and flute

Playing tunes to make us dance

Fill our minds with sweet enchants?

As children prance and skip and skate,

The future kings and queens of state,

Can we absorb the merriment?

Though on a slope of steep descent

Will we, gleeful, treasure signs

That little ones transcend our times?

And then there is the spirit life

Whose age, unmeasured by the years,

Is meted out by leaps and bounds,

The leap of Faith...unbound by fears.

And though the sun on westward path

Presents a twilight shadowy, dim,

Faith still grows and leaps, then bounds

To grasp the Light beyond the rim.

Poem by Roadrunner

April 2010



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Here is a poem written by someone

in prison that was sent to CIR:

can I have a moment of silencefor the addict that will die tonight

for the alcoholic who day after

day is losing the fight

for babies born to our disease that

will fight all of their life

not knowing recovery's possible

and that they have the right

to belong with us in our

fellowship yes part of our alliance

where we come to seek comfort

happiness not to mention

guidance

from one another here everyone is

living in reliance

in our community we have a

voice where others demand

silence

I'm only asking for a moment for

us blessed to discover

even though it's uphill and

winding there is a path to recover

and we're all ascending together

side by side sisters and brothers

progress not perfection when

falling we're there for one another

alone I can't but together we can

rise to top this

I wanna aide my fellow addict

who needs help to stop this

disease spirituality I can help the

atheist and agnostic

I've lived it I've been there, I have

experience on the topic

a moment of silence please for

God's miracles remaining

anonymousone that showed me I lack the

ability to live autonomous

and our fellowship where the

number of us who recover is

monstrous

growing daily thankfully cause the

number dying's preposterous

it's a miracle we have meetings

where we find comfort and

support

that through drugs and alcohol we

have endlessly searched for

it's a miracle I'm alive today in

this life that I have torn

realizing there's nothing worth

leaving or losing family for

what's more I was proud never

stealing from my family

but I never understood I stole

their right to live happily

from everything I tried and denied

life declined rapidly

they were forced to see me living

life missing struck with apathy

a moment of silence for strength

to find hope after dope

hope after all the damage I've

caused for the ability to cope

recovery's tough but the tough are

in recovery and it shows

I'll fall for anything if I'm not

standing for something this I

know

although most of our actions were

usually unintentional

they affected many around us thisdisease is two dimensional

we caused so much pain and

suffering all of it's consequential

through sobriety though it'll get

better life can be special

I need a moment when reliving

the best hug of my life

I'm cuffed and shackled my mom

hugging me tight as she cries

in front of a whole court room

seeing this when I close my eyes

I have to cry telling you I wasn't

blown away would be a lie

every night I thank God for

another day down another day

sober

even though I'm in prison I know

my life is far from over

thank you for meeting my needs

today and that I'm awake

thank you for the knowledge of

your will and the strength to

apply it

with all that said, please join me

in a moment of silence...

Written by Richard McAllister

8/20/09 Double R

"confined entertainment" #54

A Moment ofSilence



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Ever wonder how those big old

oaks got that wayor how that person in your

meeting got 6 months

or 10 or 20 or even 50 years of

abstinent recovery?

This month in the CIR Step Study on Tuesday Night we had Lesson 35 which was our last lesson in the Joe

and Charlie Series. If youve not listened to these Step/Big Book studies we whole-heartedly recommend it.

Even if youre not sure about following the stepsis it the right path for you? Does it really work? What

does it have to do with my Christianity? Listen and then make up your mind. As apropos the last lesson dealt with

Step 12 which says:

Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps we tried to carry this message to

other alcoholics (fill in your addiction or problem here), and to practice these principles in all

our affairs.

Here is an excerpt from Lesson 35 of the Joe and Charlie Study. We hope you find it helpful. [Insertions in brackets

are ours]. ClaraT & Cindy

The 12 step has three pieces in it, very briefly, the first part is the greatest promise in the book:

Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these stepswe tried to carry this message to other

alcoholics (fill in your addiction or problem here), and to practice these principles in all our affairs.

I feel things Ive never felt before. I feel love, patience, tolerance, compassion and good will toward my fellow

man. Before AA I could have cared less about you. Oh yeah you could have some, but I always got mine first. I dont

feel that way anymore.

I believe things Ive never believed before. I believe God is a kind and loving God. I believe He stands ready to

help any human being, anywhere in the world, the instant theyre ready to give up their own self-will and turn to him.

When I came here I thought He was hell-fire and brimstone. I thought he was a God of justice. Thank God Hes not a

god of Justice. If he was I wouldnt be here today would I? Some of you guys wouldnt be here if he was. Surely, surely

He is pure mercy, pure love. I believe that with all my heart.

I can do things I could never do before. By golly I can stay sober. I never could do that before. Because of the

fact that I can stay sober I can do many, many, many things that I never dreamed I could do. Like being here. Going

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kind of spiritual awakening.

Now Im charged though with a responsibility. There really are no free rides. You do have to pay for what you receive. Im

now charged with the responsibility of carrying this message to other alcoholics. Not a message. Not the message. Not

some message. This message. What is this message? Having had a Spiritual awakening as the result of these steps. Im

not like I used to be.

Now if youre in AA [or CIR or OA or whatever your own area of recovery is] today and youre all screwed up and youre

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doing a little drinking [fill-in your own blank here] I know exactly where youre coming from. Thats where I came from

too. I applied these first eleven steps and I had a spiritual awakening and Im not that way anymore. And if you dont want

to be that way anymore, then you apply the first eleven steps and you wont be that way anymore either. Youll have a

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Many of us tend to live in

the pastthinking

about what caused our

present condition, whatever that

may be. Oftenwe continually, and

compulsively, keep trying to find

the cause of something or why

someone or something is

interfering with our life.

Most people understand that a

l i t t le nosta lgia ( feel-good

memories) may be fine, but too

much can be a signal that there is a

problem. Those that have been

abused, either physically or

mentally, may, for reasons of their

own, hold fast to the notion that

the position they are in today, is a

direct result of that trauma.

Baring any physical trauma, such

as a car accident, or falling off a

cliff, or some such thing, I am

talking about the kind of trauma

that is felt as an emotionallypainful experience. This kind of

trauma once experienced is also in

the past.

For example, you may have had

the experience of strongly reacting

to a difficult circumstance - such

as a relationship breakup, or the

way a coworker treats you and

you cannot figure out why you

reacted so strongly. In some

instances, childhood traumas may

be activating and fueling th

current reaction. These symptoms

often follow the individual into

adulthood, creating potentially

and significant emotional,

behavioral, and relationshi

problems.

For example, if a parent is verbally

or physically abusive to their child,

he or she may develop the beliefthat Im not safe. If a parent

ignores their child, he or she may

conclude, Im not lovable. These

are powerful beliefs and these

beliefs are often the underlying


Forgiving as God Forgives Us

Jim Aquila is the Assistant Editor

of the Gabriel and a certified

addiction professional &

relationship coach. He has written

several books including Journey to

Forgiveness and Conflict in

Relationships.

Jim is available for questions and

comments at [email protected].


Original article by James Aquila


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sources of anxiety, depression, and

many other symptoms. Again, the

key to understanding is the fact

that no matter how traumatic the

events may seem to have been,

they are in the past and theindividual cannot undo or alter

that experience.

It is a fact for everyone--We cannot

change one thing about the past.

We can only change what is

happening to us in the present.

This process requires that we

change some of our own beliefs.

Not all of them, but surely we mustchange those that are compulsive

and repetitive. These include all

addictive or compulsive behaviors

focused on alcohol, drugs, food,

sex, gambling, and relationships.

THE FINAL SOLUTION

The final solution requires the

following:

Things do not change: we do

- Henry David Thoreau

If you want deeply rooted change,

you need to apply deep rooted

methods. - J. Goldstein

Changing ones beliefs does not

magically come about; you have to

work at setting your spiritual life in

order. WOW, you mean that I

cant just wish the changes into

existence, and that would be

enough?

HOW IMPORTANT IS IT TO

KNOW GOD?

How important is it to know God?

We cannot ignore this vital

question. It demands an answer!

John has that answer :

And this is life eternal, that they

might know thee the only true

God, and Jesus Christ, whom thouhast sent. John 17:3

As used here, eternal life is defined

as knowing God! John implies an

intimate relationship with God that

matures over a lifetime. Each

party knows each other well. It

also requires that we be always on

the path of obedience. This

intimacy takes time to develop,

especially considering the issues

that addictive behavior generates.

There are those of us who have

spent time in frustration trying to

serve two gods.

John explains, that we should not

love the things of this world

(objects, things and behaviors):

Love not the world, neither the

things that are in the world. If

any man love the world, the love

of the Father is not in him. 1

John 2:15

Now that this is clear in our mind,

we may assume that change comes

about in an orderly fashion--first

God, and then everything will fall

into place. Of course, this is

difficult to understand becausecompulsive behavior demands

immediate fulfillment. The

Addictive Mental Process (AMP) is

ongoing and relentless. It drives us

through varied pleasurable events.

No matter what that event is, the

intended result is always the same

that of achieving complete

satisfaction. Cant be done, no

matter how hard we try.

One more thing to consider in ou

study of the Biblical explanation o

addiction: addictions can be

considered as bondage to the rule

of a substance, activity, or state o

mind, which then becomes the

center of the individuals life. Thi

process will insulate itself from the

truth such that even bad

consequences do not bring abou

repentance. This defensiv

mechanism denial - leads to

further estrangement from God.

ONWARD, HO

If change is to come about in an

orderly manner, the cells of your

body must heal proper

Remember, put God first, then you

can be of assistance. Prope

nutrition is required to heal cel

damage. For healing, God gave u

the plants and herbs of the field fo

food. This form of assistance to

our own healing is simply utilizing

what has been provided by God.

Unfortunately, having grown up in

a society that expects instan


(Continued on page 20


Past Events are in the Past

What in tar-nation can

you do about them?


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results , we have been

programmed to expect the same

thing in our healing. When

taking natural products you

must be patient. After all, you

didnt get to where you are

today, overnight. Using food

products, such as herbs will

provide you with exact portions

of their ingredients for balanced

cell repair. Medicine does not

p r o v i d e t h i s m a s t e r f u l

combination of just the right

elements. NOTE: certain

vitamins, such as the Bvitamins, work better when they

include all the Bs in a

complex mixture. Medical

prescriptions do not always

follow this work-together

principle.

C O M P L I M E N T A R Y

MEDICINE

Complementary methods andalternative approaches heal

naturally, and are useful in

healing from:

past trauma, both physical

and mental.

Healing can also be evidenced

in an individual's coping

mechanisms, which are

generally the source of their

difficulties. However, healing

can not effect what has

happened in the past.

It is how one perceives and

deals with a past event in

present time, now that is

important.

You must also consider genetics,disease, internal energy

imbalance, accidents, or life

experience as potential problem

sources. These can also affect

what treatment options are

applied. In this regard, God has

prepared specific teachings and

words of authority. John 14:2.

We must have a heart that is

ready and willing to forgive and

f o r g e t p a s t m i s t a k e s .

Throughout life, we will make

many mistakes. We will need to

develop a nature that is willing

to encourage and forgive.

MY PAST EXPERIENCES

I have been in the healing

profession for forty plus years,and have seen and treated

thousands of people, with a

variety of physical and

emotional complaints. I think

that the #1 problem is not the

fact that a trauma has occurred,

but rather that the individual

could not forgive a pastgrievance, or for that matter, a

continuing trauma. Forgiveness

is one of the chief characteristics

we must develop if we are to

become children of God.

Notice, I did not say forget. This

is because, past events cannot

be changed or altered.

In this world, it is easy to see

that a major cause of conflict

and trauma is an unwillingness

to extend forgiveness. At home,

the lack of forgiveness causes

family problems to arise over

and over again until divorce or

violence erupts. However, we

can learn from past events. We

can learn to forgive the past

through contemplative prayer.

Be still and know that I am

God -Psalm 46:10

The Centering Prayer centers on

God. This form of meditation

can be traced back to the earliest





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centuries of Christianity.

Centering prayer is a remarkably

simple method that opens one to

Gods gift of contemplative

prayer. Its practice expands ones

receptivity to the presence and

activity of God in ones life. It is a

distillation of the practice of

monastic spirituality into two

relatively short periods of prayer

each day. Here is a way to begin

the process of Centering Prayer in

your daily life.

Choose a sacred word as thesymbol of your intention to

consent to Gods presence and

action within.

Sitting comfortably with eyes

closed, settle briefly and silently

and introduce the sacred word

as the symbol of your consent to

Gods presence and action

within.

When you become aware of

thoughts, return ever so gently

to the sacred word.

At the end of the prayer period,

remain in silence with eyes

closed for a couple of minutes.

I cannot emphasize this enough.

Because of the repetitive nature of

our addictions, we often do nothave time for anything else.

However if you are sincere about

wanting to straighten out your life

you must develop prayer that puts

God in your life. Ephesians 4:22-

24. So get rid of your old self,

which made you live as you used

to -the old self, the past which

was destroying your self by

practicing deceitful desires. Your

hearts and minds must be made

completely new. You must put on

the new self which is being

created in Gods likeness.

SUMMARY

The past events in our life are just

that. We cannot undo what has

happened no matter hard we try. We cannot change anything that

has already happened. However,

we can learn from our activities

and our past behaviors. We can

see that our past life is in a

meltdown state.

This meltdown state closely

resembles Step one through three

of the 12 Steps:

Step one read Romans 7:18.

Step two read Philippians 2:13.

Step three read Romans 12:1.

KNOWING GOD can be a

wonderful experience.

Principal One is that God love

you and offers you a wonderfu

plan for your life. This plan is so

much better than how you have

been living.

Second principal on the road toknowing God is to know that ou

past behaviors have separated u

from an intimate relationship

with Him. Deep down, o

attitude may be one of active

rebellion or passive indifference

toward God and his ways, but its

all evidence of what the Bible calls

sin. The result of sin in our lives is

death; a spiritual separation fromGod. Although we may try to ge

close to God through our own

effort, we inevitably fail.

The Third Principal is to know

that Jesus Christ is Heavenly

Fathers only provision for the

mistakes and behavior we have

made in our past. Just knowing

what Jesus has done for us an

what he is offering us is no

enough. To have a righ

relationship with God, we need to

welcome him into our life.

The Fourth Principal is accepting


(Continued on page 22

Nothing is more beautiful than

the uniqueness that God has

created.

...You don't have to create the

beauty

- youve got the beauty.

...You don't have to create thefreedom

- youve got it.

...You don't have to create the

image of God in you

- you have it.

...You don't have to win over

Gods love

- you have more than you

know what to do with.Thomas Keating,

'Centering Prayer

From Heartfulness:

Transformation in Christ



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Christ in our life by following in

His footsteps, and here is Jesus'

invitation: He said, "I'm standing

at the door and I'm knocking. If

anyone hears my voice and opens

the door, I will come in."

Revelation 3:20-21.

Complimentary Medicine. I think

of the word complimentary as one

method helping another method.

There are herbs available to help

heal damaged tissue. For

instance, compulsive use of

alcohol will result in damage to

the brain, liver, heart, pancreas,

lungs, kidneys, and other organs.

Alcohol infiltrates every organ and

tissue system in the body within

minutes after it passes into the

blood stream. The strength of the

drink has a significant effect on

absorption rates, with higher

concentrations of alcohol resulting

in more rapid absorption. Pure

alcohol is generally absorbed

faster than diluted alcohol, which,

in turn, is absorbed faster than

wine or beer.

But didnt we know all of this? A

note: Sugar in high proportion is

present in all compulsive

behavior. For instance, Tobacco is

cured with sugar. Sugar is the

metabolic product of alcohol, in

other words alcohol is sugar

waiting to happen.

Interestingly, kudzu contains

isoflavones that have weak

estrogenic activity. Kudzu's is

traditionally used to treat

menopausal hot flashes and has

also been found to interact with

the drug methotrexate.

THERE YOU HAVE IT

As simple as it may seem, we who

are compulsive and who do not

always make good choices, have

lots of work ahead of us. If there

any questions, I will be glad to

answer them, as time will allow.

All material contained in this article

is copyrighted by JFA 2009-2010,

and no part of may be used or copied

without permission.


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