1. One For the one given to me by the One who I call my
Heavenly Father.
2. Dear Diary, It's been a hard day again. Homework is piling
up, productions getting tedious again. People are treating me
badly, and being happy is getting to be difficult. I question
myself. Why am I holding on? Why am I still doing everything I'm
doing? It's tiring. To be honest, I sometimes want to give up, to
leave everything behind. Maybe if I die or go and bury myself in a
hole, I won't have to feel so tired anymore.
3. But just as I browse through my files in my laptop, deciding
on cleaning up my folders, I came across this picture. And, for
some reason, I found myself stopping for a moment and thinking. Dad
smiles widely in almost every picture I have of him. No matter how
hard life is for him, he smiles - like this. Every single time. And
just like that, I found myself closing my eyes - stopping
everything - and remembering.
4. This man I call my father has taught me so much, and is one
of the biggest parts of my life. He was one half of my first pair
of teachers, the other half being Mom. While she was there to help
me learn to write, he was there to help me in math. While she was
my mock examiner every time an exam comes up, he taught me things I
never thought Ill use and need when I reach this stage in my
life.
5. He taught how me to speak in front of others, even if it was
through poems that seemed way too advanced for my age. He was the
reason why I knew Florante and Laura even when I was not even
three, and why I will always know what comes after "All things
bright and beautiful..." He was the one who first helped me write
speeches, and was the one who I must impress when I step on the
stage in either declamation or public speaking. And most
importantly, he was the first person who made me appreciate
music.
6. So maybe, just maybe, that is why I am where I am right now.
Here - speaking on-air, hosting, and getting messages across to
others. And all the while I am doing it, Im singing.
7. This man I call my father is the one who teaches, and
reminds, me of what it means to be humble despite achievements and
talents - and to never stop learning. It amazes me that knowledge
is such a big part in his life, and yet while he is wise, he does
not boast. He is trusted by people, given a chance to serve his
fellowmen in the community and church, yet he does not put his
position or title on a pedestal. He acts no different from any
normal person, except that he only has some more responsibilities
than others. He never complains.
8. He's human. He gets tired - which is evident in how he gets
caught sleeping a lot of times - but even in his fatigue, he
presses on and gets the job done.
9. He's human. He gets tired - which is evident in how he gets
caught sleeping a lot of times - but even in his fatigue, he
presses on and gets the job done. And even when he does, and so
many opportunities open for him afterwards, he chooses to go the
path of the calm and the humble.
10. He gives all he can to make sure I can study, and that I
can learn. And even when my education comes at a cost, he is more
than willing to pay for it. One day, I hope I can be as wise as he
is, and yet be as down-to-earth. And one day, when I finally wear
the sash that brands me a finisher of education's race... I know
that in some way, I will reflect his efforts for me to learn. And I
will be proud of it.
11. But most importantly, this man I call father is associated
to one thing in my life: love. He might not be too vocal about it,
but every "How are you, my little daughter?", "Let's sleep now?" or
"Kumain ka na ba?" is a subtle nudge to my heart that he cares,
that he worries for me, that all he wants for me is to be well. And
with how much he loves food, he would also never forget to make
sure I eat a little bit more than I would have wanted. He would
give me what little portion he had, especially if it was of the
food I like.
12. Even without words and just a simple move of letting me
watch a movie or Koreanovela with him is enough to remind me that
he wants to spend time with me. And I appreciate it. I may not look
like I do at first, but I think about it in quiet moments like
this, when I'm writing here, or thinking in my room. I think about
it in the times that Ate comes home and we're complete. I think
about it when I see him pray from the congregation while I'm
singing onstage in church. And ultimately, I remember in every
smile he sends even with just a glance from me towards his
way.
13. He loves me, every single one of his family, and most
especially the Lord who created all of us. He is the prime example
of a man holding on to the promises of God, and as Mom exhibits the
way that a woman should always say yes to His call to do what He
asks, he shows me how one must serve Him.
14. I might be tired right now, but seeing him smile is enough
reminder that in my tiredness, there is one man who God gave to me
who wants to ease that away. With or without words, in blatant or
subtle ways, he makes me feel that he is always there for me and
that he cares. The love Dad has for me is just as evident as the
love God has for me, and that is the one thing I will never ever
forget.
15. I might be tired right now, but seeing him smile is enough
reminder that in my tiredness, there is one man who God gave to me
who wants to ease that away. With or without words, in blatant or
subtle ways, he makes me feel that he is always there for me and
that he cares. The love Dad has for me is just as evident as the
love God has for me, and that is the one thing I will never ever
forget. From the past to the present, I never saw anything lacking
from him as a dad. They say that men marry women who resemble their
mothers. I think that in my case, even with the gender swap, the
statement still applies.
16. I can only hope that when God gives me the one who I would
love forever, he is just as wise, caring, funny, and god-fearing as
my Dad. Because for the one who He gave me as a father, I could
have never asked for more.
17. Happy Fathers Day, Daddy. I love you. For the one earthly
father given to a Jeanette May Trinidad by the One who she calls
her Heavenly Father
18. Music used is Brianna Hayness Through the Eyes of My Father
retrieved from Youtube. To God be the glory and thanksgiving for Ed
Trinidads life. -JMSTrinidad 06/21/2015 Pictures are taken from
Facebook (with credits to Kuya Nate Sanchez, Kuya Art Trinidad,
Kuya Dave Trinidad, Kuya Ricky Trinidad, Ate Jest Trinidad, Mommy
Nimfa Trinidad, Kap. Ricky Santos, and Kag. Jade Yupangco), Google
and personal photos of the Trinidad Family.