a different kind of seasona different kind of season

by cari humeby cari hume

as the seasons blend together, the brisk nights grow warmer,

but I’m numb and you’re still running.

you asked what I wanted the most and I told you I don’t want anything to be the same,

and you brought me into that world that I’d never thought I’d be apart of,

the smoke in the back room, it suffocates the childhood out of them.

you never promised another word, but you have a way of getting what you want,

maybe I could be the exception

or maybe I’m too late.

the start of something new

clouded mind too dazed, once acquired is now lost, close your eyes and sleep.

the junkie

we grow tired and become empty, but your emptiness is filling me,

try to wake my mind and I won’t go to sleep,

I have too many imperfections, I’d like to see all of yours.

slow music, playing in my head, around these noises of adolescence,

but we can only wait, wait a little longer and I can fix my dreams

and you can fix me. imperfections

the winter chill up my spine as I jump from fence to fence; we live by the moon’s light, trying to escape ourselves, running and breaking hearts

with careless glances and useless words.

the moon’s out full tonight, and it feels like we’re the only ones breathing,

the sky is silent with those scattered lights up there,

and the ground is too close

as we look anywhere but down.

two a.m.

dark water

but we're drowning anyway;one last look will do

and i can breathe without a scent and i would never look back

when we've been swimming in dark waterfor far too long now, 

and yet this is ending too soon; you hold a bittersweet taste to life, 

as you fall backinto the bottom 

of our dark water.

blue eyes sting when they're all you can see, 

a taste so sweetand it's everything you wanted 

but it's ending too soon. 

a brisk night, too cold to singyour love is at the window,

left for you to bring, but he took your touch 

and offered something more, small words hurt you

and his gestures pull you away. 

wait for me

stay awakelisten softly open the window

let in the frosty air come out and find mein the winter night

velvet voicesspeak softlydon’t sing

run

singing in the night

whiteblue fades lighter but the sky grows colder,

when the wind blows your heart over, the grey of your eyes turn to ash 

and you fall, fall, 

down and deep into yourself. 

the snow falls lightly and quickly, covering the scars you hide, 

but soon it will melt and so will you, I'll hold you up so you can see 

how much you're hurting me, but when the day grows longer, 

we get warmer, and you melt with the ice, into water, into water that reflects your scars. 

your head exploding and you're disrupting the white silence of the sky, and when your heart bleeds out it stains my shoes, and when i walk towards you, i leave a trail of your scars on the white marble snow. 

you try to stand up and each and every time your eyes fall apartand you crash to the ground, 

you want to leave this place and you run and you run but you're getting too cold to go much farther and you're breaking heavily and i can see you fading gently, so softly, into the winter sky, disappearing from the corner of my eye, you're so silent and you're so soft, you were grey and you faded to white.

night shiftthe window locked in place from the lack of use;I can see the shadow across your face,the light bouncing steadily off the pews,a warm glow of color against your eyes.

a soft hint of rain falls beneath the skies, souls locked in chains, too tight to feel the pain, steady silence fills up your fragile mind, you look up as you can’t escape the lies.

walk to the end of time, don’t try to run, turn around to see what you left behind, a vibrant haze glows in the air like lime, why don’t you look up and see what you find.

dark colors of your mind run together,you tell me you’re gonna live forever.

sonnet

the wall is projectingthe words we won’t say

the white canvas is waiting for the paint that can’t fade.

but we all know that once our light is gone,

our colors flow out from our feet,and into that sky

too far where we can’t reach.

s i l e n c e

the sky scattered with lightsfilling up your dreamsdon’t blame yourself

fragile liesfall downdrown

they leaveyou empty

with scars insidefilling up your mind

look up and learn to love

scattered lights

bruises too much heart break for one season and too little love to last forever,

we wanted to see our reactions when we fell apart all over each other, but you held onto me tight, too tight and now you've left bruises on my back.

 we lost our concentration on what we wanted most, but you keep on saying your little liescause they sound so good right about now, and i'll keep on giving in because that's all i know how. 

those bruises you left on me, they make you hurt me but just like you, they'll soon go away, they'll fade to grey and blend in, just like you, a junkie in your mind, you'll soon fade awaysoon you'll blend right in.

how things changethe snow falling in the morning reminds me of the way you looked at me, and how the cold never bothered me and those fences, they tore my knees

but my heart stayed intact until the end.

things i never told you, they rest inside of me, and i break your heart with my ugly smile and tear you apart with my hard glance, but you turn away when i look over my shoulder, i'll never get the chance to understand you, and you never wanted anything more.

salty promisesthe warm breath of salty wind stings eyes,

and the faint glow of the sky lighting up the world, each and every star, too far, the steady vibrations of the black waves crashing,

reminding you of better days, when the moon would hide and you’d come outside

and you’d never, ever say goodbye.

she saw through you with blurred eyes and you tore her apart without promises

and she’s grateful as you turn away, the wind blows you over with your regrets.

the taste of salt like tears on her face, broken promises in the sky, you never said goodbye.

photo bibliography

slide 01: you’ll read it in a book tonight by amalia chimera at flickr.comslide 02: tree by ground*floor at flickr.com slide 03: snow! by kudar! at flickr.comslide 04: constellation by violetjulia at flickr.com slide 05: mix by ellenphoto at flickr.comslide 06: water by origamibat at flickr.comslide 07: night sun by Caroline Bonarde Ucci at flickr.comslide 08: winter by icarus’ dream at flickr.comslide 09: in licht by icarus’ dream at flickr.comslide 10: unknownslide 11: constantine by meslide 12: I was a landscape in your dream #2 by amalia chimera at flickr.comslide 13: naked in the sky by kudar! at flickr.com slide 14: that night by me slide 15: a door in the floor by amalia chimera at flickr.com