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Without Their Mother ~ Section I

By Carissa

Section I,Next Section

Prologue

Posted on Saturday, 18 August 2001

The snow was becoming thicker and the carriage still had two miles to go. Mrs.

Bennet was quieter than usual. Her husband seated across from her was also quiet but

he rarely had many words for his wife. Mr. Bennet asked the driver how much longer

only to hear "not long sir" followed by a jolt, the screams of driver and horse and the

world going black. Mr. Bennet awoke to see the face of Dr. French. He was in his own

bed back at Longbourn and it was obviously day time. Dr. French told the patient that

he would be fine but for a headache and then left Mr. Bennet to his family. The doctor

did not mention the other occupant of the carriage accident as the result may be too

much for a newly recovered patient.

Mr. Bennet looked at his five daughters as they huddled together in their mourning

black. Jane the eldest is 20 years old, holding close her youngest sister Lydia who is

twelve. Lizzy at 18 years was standing nearby holding the hand of her secondyoungest sister and all were looking at Mary the middle girl who was standing a little

aloof from her sisters. Mr. Bennet looked at them for a while, how was he to bring

these five young girls into society with his wife so recently buried. Lizzie looked to

her father. She is his favourite, he gave her a quick smile of support then led them all

to the carriage for the return to Longbourn with no Mrs. Bennet.

Chapter 1

A year after the death of Mrs. Bennet, Mr. Bennet began to worry about his daughtersand their situation. The Longbourn home was left to him in such a way that it is

entailed away from the female line, so if he were to pass on his daughters would be at

the mercy of their cousin, a Mr. Collins, and would be relying on their uncle and aunt

Gardiner who lived in London. There is little that he could do about this situation but

worry for the future of his daughters who with little money of their own were not

likely to marry particularly well. Although his eldest daughters showed a great deal of

promise, Jane was a beauty and had admirers, and his favourite Lizzy had wit and

education that would endear her to anyone, but as for the youngest daughters, they

were silly and did not care to learn or be influenced by their elder sisters or the

governess that he had introduced to Longbourn shortly after the demise of his wife.
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Thirty months after the death of his wife, returning to the subject of his daughters, Mr.

Bennet's opinions over a year earlier were proved well founded. Lizzie and Jane

continued to improve in manner, appearance and education through the influence of

their governess (although she was primarily for the younger girls) and the assistance of

their father. Mary, although not as attractive as her sisters spent a great deal of time

dedicated to playing and singing and although she became quite competent to listen toher was not pleasing, Lizzie had explained that it is something about taste. As for the

younger two girls, at 17 and 15 years of age they were ungovernable. Although the

governess, who has now left them (a little over two years with Miss Lydia Bennet was

more than sufficient for any governess and when a nice young clergyman proposed

Miss Sharpe was not one to refuse), did all that she could to teach and educate her

charges, Lydia was indulged by her mother and when her mother had left her she was

determined, even at the tender age of twelve years old that nobody would decide what

she would undertake. Kitty followed wherever Lydia led and with other charges to

care for, and Mary claimed a great deal of Miss Sharpe's time, Miss Sharpe was not

able to keep the younger Bennets in check.

One evening Mr. Bennet was sitting watching his eldest two daughters talk and laugh

while they were at their needlework, and their younger sisters were in another room

and he began.

"Well Lizzy, it seems that Netherfield is let and a young man is to take residence,

name of Bingley."

"Yes father, My aunt Phillips told us of this today when we were in Meryton. I am

surprised that Lydia has not asked that you call on him the moment he is out of his

carriage tomorrow."

"Indeed she did. Of course I will call on him as I would any new neighbour but let us

not share that information with your sister, let her continue her cries that I should call

on him."

To this Jane answered "Father how can you be so cruel to her, and encourage her in

this way." This speech is the nearest to comment on the inappropriate behaviour of her

younger sister that Jane would make. Jane was convinced that time would solve all her

sister's wrongs and Lydia Bennet would become as clever and well behaved as her two

eldest sisters. Lizzy however did not restrain herself and often attempted to curb her

younger sister's behaviour and ask her father to do the same.

He moved to his elder daughter, kissed her head, "Jane you are too good to your

sisters, almost a mother to them" smiled at Lizzy and left the room.

"Lizzy, a single young gentleman moving into the neighbourhood. I do so hope that he

will attend the next ball in Meryton, it is in two weeks and a new face would be

pleasant."

"Indeed it would, especially as aunt Phillips said that this new face is a handsome

young man with open manners."


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In due course, Mr. Bingley arrived and was visited by the gentlemen of the

neighbourhood after the appropriate time. This left Mr. Bingley, and the companions

that had now joined him three days to prepare to meet the young ladies of the

neighbourhood at the next Meryton ball.

The gossip in Meryton is that Mr. Bingley is bringing a great party to the ball, butwhen he arrived he was accompanied by only two ladies and two gentlemen. The

ladies are his sisters, one of the gentlemen is Mr. Hurst married to the elder sister, and

the other tall handsome gentleman is Mr. Darcy.

Miss Bingley and Mrs. Hurst were obviously more pleased with themselves than any

other person in the room. Mr. Hurst quickly showed himself to the refreshment area

and a glass of wine and for the whole evening was not seen without one. Mr. Bingley

was eager to dance, and after obtaining an introduction to the eldest two Miss Bennets

he was quickly engaged for the next two dances with the eldest Miss Bennet.

On returning to Longbourn the young ladies of the house had to discuss the ball. Allwere generally happy with the manners of Mr. Bingley. He had danced with all the

Misses Bennet once, and Jane twice giving this honour to no other lady at the

assembly. Mr. Bingleys manners were pleasing and he expressed a wish to repeat his

attendance at the next ball and even hinted at hosting a ball at Netherfield.

His friend Mr. Darcy was another matter. He was universally disliked. Although

handsome and tall, and rumoured to be very rich he was found to be proud and did not

dance with any lady who he did not know and he sought no introduction with any lady

in the room. This meant that a number of ladies sat out dances as gentlemen were

scarce.

While sitting and watching her sister enjoy the company of Mr. Bingley, Lizzy

overheard Sir William Lucas ask Mr. Darcy if he cared to dance. Mr. Darcy declined

to be introduced to any lady in the room and continued to walk about the room. Later,

during a break in the dance, Lizzy heard Mr. Bingley offer to have his partner, Miss

Bennet, introduce him to her sister. Mr. Darcy declined stating "You know that it

would be a torture to stand up with any lady whom he was not intimately acquainted

and he would not give consequence to young ladies slighted by other gentlemen."

Hearing this, Lizzy was far from being offended, even if her pride was a little injured

the behaviour of the gentleman precluded her from being affronted. Lizzy wasdiverted and immediately stood smiling and walked toward Charlotte Lucas, her dear

friend and neighbour, to share this story. To Lizzy, it was far better to laugh than to

regret what she could not and did not wish to change.

Mr. Darcy noticed a sparkle in the eye of the smiling Miss Elizabeth Bennet as she

walked past him. He suspected she had heard his comments to his friend but was not

sure why this bothered him. While Mr. Darcy attempted to make sense of his thoughts

he heard a laugh that was as magic to his ears. He turned to see the young lady and her

friend (Miss Lucas was it?) looking in his direction and laughing. He no longer only

suspected she had heard. He looked away quickly but could not help but notice her

eyes again. A pair of pleasant eyes in the face of a country girl are soon dismissed by


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Mr. Darcy and he even referred to her as having no beauty when he was alone with the

Netherfield party.

In the morning, upon hearing of Lizzy being rejected by Mr. Darcy, no matter how

Lizzy protested that she did not mind as she did not like him, Mr. Bennet was not

pleased with this gentleman, even if he were the richest man in Derbyshire. Lizzythought it best that the subject of the ball not be mentioned to Mr. Bennet again, but

when she was alone with Charlotte and Jane they had a great deal to discuss. Jane was

not only admired by the brother but his sisters even attempted to form an acquaintance

with her. Although Lizzy did not envy the attention of the sisters, she was deeply

happy for her sister for the attentions of the brother.

When they returned to the house, Jane found a note from Miss Bingley. Apparently

Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley could not bare to spend an entire day alone so Jane's

company was requested in order that they would have another companion for dinner.

Mr. Bennet ordered the carriage and Jane returned to Longbourn that evening satisfied

with the manners of her companions, even if they did ask a great many questionsabout her aunts and uncles, especially those in London.

Chapter 2

Over the three weeks since the arrival of Mr. Bingley and his companions, he was not

able to sit down to a dinner at his own home with only the residents of Netherfield.

Mr. Bingley's open and pleasant nature led to many invitations, and in turn many

invitations issued from Netherfield for return visits. His unwillingness to refuse when

invited to dine or drink tea with a family in the region led to many engagements, and

many more than either of his sisters or his friend desired. To Miss Bingley, all of the

company she desired was in the form of Mr. Darcy. It was not a secret to any

intimately acquainted with Miss Bingley that she saw herself as the next Mrs. Darcy of

Pemberley and to share his company with the unbred of Meryton caused a great deal

of distress, especially as the eyes of a certain Miss Bennet were gaining more and

more attention and her wit and lively conversation were becoming pleasing to Mr.

Darcy.

When Miss Bingley attempted to contain the number of engagements her brother

attended, Mr. Bingley simply responded "Caroline, if you wish to remain home youmay, I will be accepting the invitations that come my way and enjoying the company

of the people of this neighbourhood." As Mr. Darcy often accompanied his friend,

especially when the Miss Bennets were to be of the party, so too Miss Bingley

followed where her brother led.

The Miss Bennets were often invited to dine at the houses in the region of their home,

so it often happened that the party from Netherfield was in company with the party of

Longbourn. A preference for the company of the eldest Miss Bennet was obvious to

all who observed Mr. Bingley with the family of Longbourn. This filled Miss

Elizabeth with a great deal of happiness for her sister, for it was obvious to Lizzy that

Mr. Bingley preferred Jane to any other young lady in Meryton. To others, MissBennets feelings were not so obvious.


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One morning after dining at Lucas Lodge, Miss Charlotte Lucas was walking with

Miss Elizabeth and discussing the previous evening.

"Oh Eliza, Mr. Bingley is becoming quite inattentive to all but your sister. I heard

mother speak to him and receive no response at all"

"Indeed. I believe that both are quite on the way to falling in love. Jane is very well

pleased with his company"

"I had noticed. I am not sure however, if others are so sure. If Jane is so well on the

way to love, she should leave Mr. Bingley in no doubt of her regard"

"If I do not doubt, how can he?"

"Lizzy, Mr. Bingley does not know your sister so well as you do, but perhaps you are

correct and Mr. Bingley has recognised her regard. For Jane's sake, we can only hope

that he does."

"Yes, but I don't believe that his friends or sisters are friends of his acquaintance with

Jane."

"Perhaps you are correct about his sisters, but his friend spends little time watching

your sister and devotes a great deal of his time watching her sister"

"Oh Charlotte, you cannot think so. Mr. Darcy would not devote any time watching

any of my sisters."

Charlotte started to laugh, at a look of confusion from her companion, she continued

"You Elizabeth. Mr. Darcy watches you a great deal and listens when you speak"

"I have spoken to him on a few occasions, he seems to speak very little and last night

he and Miss Bingley were speaking about his steadfast opinions and how he is

unlikely to change his opinion as once lost is lost forever. The scarcity of his

comments leads me to believe that his good opinion is not held with regard to myself

or any residents of the region of Meryton. We are not fine enough for him. Remember

he slighted me at the ball in Meryton and never approached me. Our conversations

have been by accident not by any plan I can assure you."

Though Charlotte held her opinions of Mr. Darcys admiration of her friend, she did

not pursue it, it would do no good to raise hopes in the breast of her friend. The young

ladies changed the subject and spoke of gowns and meetings, balls and the weather

until the returned to Longbourn where Charlotte remained for dinner with the family.

Chapter Three

Posted on Thursday, 23 August 2001


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Not Many days after the gathering at Lucas Lodge, Mr. Bennet revealed to his

daughters at breakfast that their family party was to be expanded that evening for a

period of ten days. After suffering the questions of his younger daughters, and the

comments regarding the lack of notice from his elder daughters for fifteen minutes,

Mr. Bennet broke their suspense and told his daughters who he was expecting.

"A fortnight ago I received a letter from my cousin Mr. Collins, my nearest relative on

my fathers side" Jane interrupted at this point

"Does that mean that he will be inheriting Longbourn" she stopped short of saying

"when you die"

"Yes Jane, Mr. Collins is to inherit, but not for a great many years I am sure" He

added the last to comfort his eldest daughter who had begun to look concerned. "I

replied quickly to his letter as it required early attention. I will read some of what he

wrote.

Dear Mr. Bennet,

I have long intended to write in order to mend the breach that existed

between yourself and my father. Since he has passed, and I am now so

fortunate as to have gained the living at Hunsford with the noble

patroness lady Catherine De Bourgh I feel that my current overtures

will not be displeasing.

Though I do not believe that it is possible for any person to do away

with the future problems your daughters may face on your demise sir,

though I believe that this will be a great many years away. I am hoping

to make some amends for their situation. I will say no more of this

now, but rest assured that I do not wish to be the cause of distress to

your fair daughters.

At this Lizzy interrupted. "Are we to suppose that he would severe the entail if it were

in his power?" she asked sarcastically, answering herself she continued "I do not

believe so. He does seem an oddity but no young man, for I believe you said that he is

about five and twenty, would cut his ability to inherit an estate that would make him

independent."

"I believe you a quite correct Lizzy, he does seem quite strange I must admit that I am

curious about how is proposes to prevent your distress at my death, but for now I shall

continue with the letter"

I have been in possession of this valuable family parsonage for a

number of months now and feel that, due to my position in the church

and that I am the cause of injuring your most amiable daughters

through the entail of Longbourn, my current communication would not

be rejected and that you would accept a visit from my humble self on

the afternoon of __________. I would wish impose on your hospitality

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Although his letter continued with his civilities, Mr. Bennet had read it before and his

daughters expressed little desire to hear it so he did not continue to read but only said

"Well girls, we expect your cousin this evening. I expect him to be quite a diversion

for our family party for a short period." With this statement Mr. Bennet rose, kissed

Lizzy on the head as he departed for his library and left his daughters to discuss their

cousin, and the officers in Meryton.

Mr. Collins arrived at the time he had promised and proved to his cousin that he was

exactly as expected. Mr. Collins praised every furnishing and every room that he saw.

He praised the beauty of the daughters of the house, expressed his sympathy that Mrs.

Bennet was not any longer with them so could not greet him.

In conversations with his cousin, Mr. Bennet soon found his cousins manners to be

more than appropriate, his compliments too many and his praises far to unrealistic to

be convincing as sincere. Mr. Bennet soon found himself making sport of the oddities

of his cousin in order to provide entertainment for himself and his elder daughters.

Only Mary seemed to care for the company of her cousin, and while all of her sistersavoided any conversation with their guest whenever possible, Mary sort the company

of Mr. Collins. He was not a great reader, but often felt obliged to join his host in the

library. For years the library had been a place of quiet where only urgent business

would disturb him, even Lizzy did not often enter the library when her father was

there. Mr. Bennet attempted to give his cousin a book to read but Mr. Collins soon

tired of the book and felt it necessary to enter conversation with Mr. Bennet. To Mr.

Collins, conversation was chiefly focused on the good fortune that had found him a

post with such a person as lady Catherine. After one such conversation, Mr. Bennet

was unsure how his patroness could withstand all of Mr. Collins civilities, for the

praise he spoke of lady Catherine and her daughter when they were not present would

be none with comparison to the praise and compliments he would bestow on her

personally.

At every opportunity, Mr. Bennet directed Mr. Collins to his daughters and how they

would be grateful of his company. Half of the time that this suggestion was made, Mr.

Collins found an excuse to remain in the company of Mr. Bennet, but when a reason to

remain eluded him, Mr. Collins did take the opportunity of seeking the company of his

cousins, especially the elder two.

While Mary and Mr. Collins were walking through the shrubbery and Mary was

encouraging a slight attachment in the heart of her companion. Jane, Lizzy, Kitty andLydia walked towards Meryton (without waiting for their cousin to attend them) in

order to visit with their aunt Philips and watch the officers walk by. On entering the

town, Lydia quickly notices some fabric in a shop window and began to point it out to

her sisters as being ugly enough for Mary when Lt. Denny approached accompanied

by another gentleman who, according to Lydia "would be mighty handsome if he were

in regimentals."

With the hushes of her eldest sisters still in the air, Lydia turned in order to be greeted

by Lt. Denny. "Good morning ladies. May I present my friend Mr. Wickham. Mr.

Wickham, meet Miss Bennet, Miss Elizabeth, Miss Kitty and Miss Lydia." Giving a

brief bow to each of the Misses Bennet, Mr. Wickham was addressed by the youngest,but most forward of his company.


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"Mr. Wickham, do you intend to stay long in Meryton?"

"As long as the regiment, I have accepted a commission and will Winter in Meryton"

"See Lydia, he will be in regimentals" Kitty whispered to her sister but Lydia scarcely

heard her as she was not one to resign the attention of a handsome, soon to be officerwhile she had it. With a brief conversation of the common things that would be

appropriate for such a short acquaintance, Lydia quickly moved to inviting Mr.

Wickham to tea at the Phillips' with some other officers. With a very little pressing

Mr. Wickham accepted the invitation.

While Lydia continued her talking at Mr. Wickham his attention was drawn by the

pleasing countenance and obviously lively conversation between the eldest Miss

Bennets. Just as he began to view the young ladies with pleasure and develop the

intention to move toward the elder Miss Bennets when the sound of two horses

slowing on the road drew the attention of all the whole party. Mr. Darcy and Mr.

Bingley dismounted and moved toward the elder two sisters. On catching the eye ofMr. Darcy, Mr. Wickham coloured, recovered himself and briefly touched his hat in

acknowledgment. Mr. Darcy returned the civility, barely and returned to a grave

silence.

Lizzy had seen this pass and was confused and curious but not so much as to not enjoy

the moment of seeing her sister and Mr. Bingley gradually become lost to the rest of

the party. After a brief civil greeting with Lizzy the gentlemen left. Lizzys attention

returned to the two officers as they took their leave and bid farewell until the evening.

Chapter Four

Mr. Bennet did not often go out of an evening with his daughters if propriety allowed,

and as they were attending their aunts home he saw no reason to accompany them. Mr.

Collins and Mary chose to remain at Longbourn with Mr. Bennet, Mr. Collins

preferred to stay with his host and Mary remained to stay with Mr. Collins, while the

others young ladies and the carriage departed for Meryton and the Phillips'. At a time

such as this Mr. Bennet would usually retire to his library, on this occasion however,

his library was occupied by Mr. Collins and Mary. They had been discussing a book

all afternoon and as much as Mr. Bennet found great pleasure in observing the folly ofhis fellow man, of the folly of his cousin, a little pleasure goes a long way. Mr. Bennet

had seen enough absurdity in the previous few days to last many months or even more

so Mr. Bennet left his daughter and Mr. Collins to their discussion and retired to the

sitting room until his other daughters returned.

The Bennet party was in good time in their arrival at their aunts home so they were

able to become comfortable and watch at leisure the arrival of the other guests. Mr.

Phillips had called on a number of the officers over the time that the regiment had

been in Meryton and had invited a number of them for tea this evening. Some of the

Lucas ladies would attend with Sir William making a rather large party.


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On the arrival of Mr. Wickham, the eyes of all ladies turned towards him inviting him

to attend them. After making his greetings to the clear pleasure of all he spoke to, he

stationed himself next to Miss Elizabeth Bennet. The envy in the eyes of her younger

sisters was obvious but soon done away with by the attention offered them by the

other officers.

The conversation between Miss Elizabeth and Mr. Wickham impressed on her the

depth of his manners and polite nature of his address. Conversation ensued regarding

neighbours and family, the room they were in and Meryton in general. This

conversation was pleasing to both and Mr. Wickham changed the subject and

introduced another with

"I do not see Mr. Bingley and his friends here"

"No, I believe that Mr. Bingleys friends would believe this gathering far below their

station."

"You refer to Mr. Darcy" Lizzy expressed a little surprise at this direct response but

indicated that that gentleman was indeed to whom she referred. Mr. Wickham

continued, answering her confused look "You wonder at my knowledge of the

gentleman and our strained greeting earlier today."

"Indeed, I must confess that I did notice that you and Mr. Darcy appeared to know

each other"

"Have you known Mr. Darcy long"

"A couple of weeks. We have met with Mr. Bingley and his sisters a number of times

and on most occasions Mr. Darcy has been in their company. I have no desire to be

further acquainted with him as he has shown himself to be quite proud and haughty."

Lizzy blushed that she could make such a speech to a man so unknown to her but a

look at her companion settled her mind.

"That is an opinion that I believe few would share but myself"

"Not at all, he is not liked at all in Meryton. I hope that his being here does not lead

you to leave"

"It is not for me to avoid him, I have but one reason to dislike his presence, that he has

been the means of creating my current circumstances"

Mr. Wickham continued here to detail his past with Mr. Darcy. His companion

attempted to not show her curiosity and keep her countenance as the story is related.

Mr. Wickham told that he was the son of the late Mr. Darcys steward and lived at

Pemberley all his youth. Mr. Darcy and Mr. Wickham played as children and were

companions for years. Mr. Wickham was a favourite with old Mr. Darcy and a

valuable family living was left to him that he would take orders and be in possession

when it fell vacant. Old Mr. Darcy died before the living was vacant and the son

refused what the father had promised, leaving Mr. Wickham in his present state tomake his way in the world as best he can. The revelations in this story shocked


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Elizabeth and showed Mr. Darcy to be even worse than she had ever imagined. A

silence began to exist between Mr. Wickham and Lizzy and the gentleman chose to

break the silence with "Do not feel sorry for me...."

At this point the tte--tte was interrupted by the approach of Lizzys youngest sister

"Lizzy, why would you feel sorry for Mr. Wickham?" Wickham looked to hiscompanion and then to Lydia and answered

"Because I have not had a dance this three months" At such an invitation as this, Lydia

collected Mr. Wickham by the hand escorting him to the end of the room where a few

young ladies were dancing with some of the officers. It was only three couples in total

but to Lydia a dance was a dance. Lizzy was left with her feelings on what had been

discussed earlier.

The rest of the evening passed pleasantly enough for Lizzy. She spent some time

speaking with Charlotte Lucas and with Jane.

In the carriage on the way back to Longbourn Jane and Lizzy were silently

considering their evening and half listening to the continual talk of dancing and Mr.

Wickham.

It was soon obvious that to Lizzy that she would have a chance to dance with Mr.

Wickham at a ball of a very high standard. The Netherfield ball that had often been

alluded to but never confirmed was set. Mr. Bingley and his younger sister arrived in

person to Longbourn to issue the invitation. It was obvious to all present that both

Miss Bennet and Mr. Bingley took a great deal of pleasure in the visit and the prospect

of a ball where they could dance together. Anticipation of a match on this front was

growing in the neighbourhood. Mothers were still attempting to put their daughters in

the way of Mr. Bingley but the time of most young ladies was spent with officers of

the regiment.

The invitation to the ball was accepted on behalf of all the members of the Longbourn

household, and their guest Mr. Collins. Although Lydia is young to be out, her father

would not refuse her entreaties when she first turned fifteen. He resisted for two

months, but the constant tantrums and other behaviour was more than he could stand.

She would never be out without her sisters and aunt so he saw little harm in her early

presentation into society. Although her older sisters did not approve the decision, they

reasoned that it would be unfair to limit their sisters amusements simply because theyhad not married early.

The days leading to the ball were so wet and dirty that the residents could not venture

to Meryton and the purchase of their decoration and lace was done by proxy. If it was

not for the ball in three days the young ladies, all except Mary who had her music and

Mr. Collins to entertain, would be incredibly bored.

Chapter Five


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The Misses Bennet arrived at the Netherfield ball at the appropriate hour escorted by

their father, Mr. Collins and their aunt Phillips. Before entering the house, Lizzy

noticed Mr. Darcy in an upstairs window watching her approach. She quickly averted

her eyes, laughed at the probability that he was looking to see a blemish and continued

into the entrance hall of Netherfield house.

Miss Bingley and Mrs. Hurst were surprised by the attendance of all the Bennet

daughters and greeted them, their father and their guest with insincere civility. Lizzy

and her father saw this reaction in the ladies, her younger sisters were too occupied

with finding the officers to notice, and Jane felt too deeply any civilities given in her

direction to notice the slight.

Mr. Bennet and Mr. and Mrs. Phillips entered the ball room and retreated quickly to

the room that was set for refreshment, cards and chess. Mr. Collins escorted Miss

Mary Bennet into the ball room (as she was the only one of his cousins willing to

accept him as escort) and did not leave her side as she had agreed to honour him with

the first dance, the other Miss Bennets were required elsewhere whenever Mr. Collinsmentioned dancing. The younger Miss Bennets had quickly found some officers who

engaged them for the first two dances leaving their elder sisters to wander towards the

ball room unaccompanied. This situation was soon rectified by the approach of their

host. Mr. Bingley offered an arm to each of the elder Miss Bennets and escorted them

to the ball. Lizzy soon left Mr. Bingley on the approach of Lt. Denny.

Lt. Denny greeted Lizzy with a formal bow and began "Good evening Miss Bennet. I

have been commissioned to extend to you my friend Wickhams apology that he is

unable to attend this evening, he had business in town that was pressing and needed

immediate attention."

"Good evening Denny, I thank you for ..."

Before she could finish her sentence, Denny continued as his eyes surveyed the room

and his eyes settled on Mr. Darcy "Although I do not believe the business would be so

urgent if it was not for a certain person." Lizzy attempted to indicate that she did not

know to what or who her companion was referring although her eyes had wandered to

Mr. Darcy. Mr. Darcy noticed the attention that he had gained and returned the look at

Miss Bennet with a puzzled look on his face. Lizzy quickly withdrew her eyes from

Mr. Darcy, thanked Lt. Denny for his communication and accepted his request that she

honour him with the first two dances. As the music started up almost instantly, Dennyescorted Lizzy into their place in the set.

The dance was pleasant enough and both Denny and Lizzy were competent dancers,

Lizzy had often been called an elegant and graceful dancer, one of the best in

Meryton, and Denny was capable. They had some conversation on the general topics

of the ball and the other guests and the time passed most suitably for both. On being

released from the dance Lizzy approached her dear friend Charlotte Lucas.

Miss Lucas was a few years older than Lizzy and a near neighbour and particular

friend. Due to the recent cold and dirty weather they had not been able to meet often

so this was their chance to catch up on their gossip and Lizzy to tell her friend abouttheir current houseguest. Mr. Collins' habits and behaviours discussed and laughed


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about it was time for Lizzy to discuss her dislike of a gentleman staying in the house

they now stood in.

Over their meetings, Lizzy had decided that the manners and behaviour of Mr. Darcy

were not only offensive, but when coupled with the behaviour to Mr. Wickham (she

did not give particulars of this as she was not so authorised) Lizzy was quite sure thatMr. Darcy was the worst of men. While she was quite enthusiastically sharing her

opinion of Mr. Darcy with Charlotte, the man himself approached and bowed most

solemnly to Miss Bennet. Charlotte was able to hush her friend, she believed a second

before he could hear. Mr. Darcy began "Miss Bennet, may I have the honour of your

company for the next two dances?"

Her hesitation was obvious to her friend but not so much so to Mr. Darcy "I had

not...... I was not .....Why yes I thank you." Mr. Darcy gave a small bow and left.

Immediately Lizzy began to express her disinclination to dance with a man that did so

little to please her when the music began again and Mr. Darcy approached to claim his

partner.

The music was slow and the dance a rather stately one and while she was being placed

in her place in the set, all that Lizzy could think, is 'why could I not think of a way to

refuse him, an excuse. This is fitting, the most formal of dances with an arrogant and

proud man. At least Jane appears to be enjoying herself with his friend.'

The dance progressed and the couple in question were silent. Lizzy could not help

observe that her partner was a fine dancer, this she had not doubted, and so close he

was handsome, but his pride and obvious belief that he is far above his company made

his countenance less pleasing to Lizzy. Feeling that the silence is of more comfort to

her partner than herself, Lizzy attempted to begin some conversation, commenting on

the dance. She merely had a slight nod in response from her companion. After a few

minutes, Lizzy challenged Mr. Darcy to speak, even giving the topic that could be

discussed.

Their conversation continued in this stunted manner until they were interrupted by Sir

William Lucas. Sir William complimented Mr. Darcy on fine dancing and a fine

partner. Mr. Darcy was barely civil in his responses to Sir William's conversation but

when Sir William made comments of marriage with regard to Miss Bennet and Mr.

Bingley, the colour in his face rose. Mr. Darcy heard no more of Sir William's

compliments or comments and studied his friend until Sir William released them to thedance.

"Of what were we speaking, I cannot remember"

"Of very little Mr. Darcy, we have tried all the common topics and you even suggested

books, but that will not do in a ball room. We seem to have little to say to one another"

"That cannot be so. Do you and your sisters often walk to Meryton"

This is the opening that Lizzy needed. "Yes. When you saw us we had been making a

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"Mr. Wickham has the manners to make friends, whether he can keep them is less

certain"

"He has been so unhappy as to lose your friendship in a way that affects him even

now"

"You take an eager interest in that gentleman's affairs"

"Who that knows his misfortunes cannot"

"Oh Yes, his misfortunes have been heavy indeed" Mr. Darcy resolved to comment no

further on this topic as his voice was growing less steady and rather too loud for their

situation.

No such restraint existed with Lizzy and she kept her voice steady and low as she

answered

"And of your infliction. I have heard that your good opinion once lost is lost forever,

you are careful when creating this resentment"

Although unsure how and where she had heard this opinion, it is what he believed of

himself and he had recently expressed it to Miss Bingley....at Lucas Lodge, perhaps he

was heard.......Mr. Darcy answered "I am"

"And are never influenced by pride"

"I hope not, why do you ask these questions, to what do they tend"

"Merely to the illustration of your character"

"And how do you get along?"

"Not very well, I hear such differing reports"

The music ended so Darcy saw the opportunity to have the last words as he returned

his partner to the edge of the dance floor "Miss Bennet, please do not take my likeness

now, it will do neither of us justice" Mr. Darcy was mistaken believing that his

companion would allow him the parting words.

"If not now I may not have another opportunity" Lizzy replied, Mr. Darcy could not

let her take this control of their conversation, it is not something he would allow. With

all the gallantry he could put into his voice, Mr. Darcy answered.

"I would by no means suspend any pleasure of yours" He quickly bowed and left

before his quick-witted companion could respond. Lizzy was left confused and unsure

of the gentleman who had left her. As she walked towards Charlotte, Lizzy knew that

the dates and facts and events Mr. Wickham had given were true, but how could Mr.

Darcy be so unfeeling of his plight. How could he disguise his behaviour so much as

to be friends with Bingley, a man of apparent judgment and intelligence. Rather thanthink of a man who gave her so little pleasure, even if he did single her out by asking


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her to dance, Lizzy stood beside Charlotte and watched Bingley watch Jane dancing

with the uncoordinated Mr. Collins.

Chapter SixThe morning after the Netherfield ball, Mr. Collins meets with Mr. Bennet in the

Breakfast room before the young ladies of the house arrive. Mr. Collins is to leave

Longbourn in two days and, although not yet sure of the affections of any of the

sisters, for all but Mary seemed to evade his company, he is not dissuaded from his

aim in attending his cousins home, that aim is to secure a wife from himself from

among the daughters of the house. He had long heard of the beauty of his cousins and

was in no way disappointed with this on arriving as all the Misses Bennet were

handsome, the eldest two in particular, followed by the youngest two and then Miss

Mary, although handsome was overshadowed by her sisters.

On a growing acquaintance, Mr. Collins discounted the two youngest Miss Bennets as

the next Mrs. Collins as their behaviour was not at all times what would be required in

a wife for himself, he feared that they would not even be sufficiently in awe of Lady

Catherine to give her the respect that she would require and was entitled. So, due to

her superior beauty and superior claims as the eldest, Mr. Collins had resolved to seek

the hand of Miss Jane Bennet. All feelings of love were imaginary and would easily

transfer to any of the sisters if required, but Mr. Collins thought too well of himself to

not aim at the best prize. He felt that as he was to inherit their home he could not be

refused but he decided, as the opportunity had arisen, that he would seek the advice of

the father in the hopes that he would consent to the arrangement.

While Mr. Collins was planning what compliments he would preface his speech with,

his companion began.

"Well Mr. Collins, it is but two days until you leave us. I trust that your visit has been

all that you expected."

"Yes Yes Mr. Bennet" he paused "Your daughters and yourself have been all that is

pleasing in your treatment of myself. I am much obliged for your hospitality, though I

would like to speak to you on a matter of significance to myself, and I flatter myself,

to your family too."

Suppressing a smile at the stupidity of his guest Mr. Bennet continued, although he did

not much care for the man before him he was curious although he suspected what

could be the cause of this speech. "Pray continue Mr. Collins I am very interested in

what you could say that has such importance to my family"

Mr. Collins was somewhat pleased with this response and continued "I believe that

you must be concerned for the future of your daughters at the unhappy event of you

leaving this world" if Mr. Collins had looked at his companion he would have known

that this conversation was not proving pleasant for Mr. Bennet but he did not look and

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He continued "As I am fortunate enough to be the next master of Longbourn and am

now in possession of a good living, I felt that I should make amends to your amiable

daughters" Here he paused hoping for a word of encouragement but not receiving it,

he interpreted the silence as agreement that he should continue "Of course I am aware

that the offer that I will make will be valued by yourself and your daughters,

especially Miss Bennet as I have become quite attached to her" Here Mr. Bennetsamusement was lost and he felt the need to interrupt. Although Jane was not his

favourite daughter, he knew that she had been forming an attachment with Mr.

Bingley and as this was not publicly acknowledged by both, a preference was clear to

all who saw them and a general expectation that on his return to Netherfield he would

be soon engaged to Miss Bennet.

If Mr. Collins were to pay his addresses to the eldest Miss Bennet, her father feared

that her nature would force her to accept the compliment and the proposal. Mr. Bennet

resolved that his speech must stop any inclination in this direction. Mr. Bennet was

convinced that Mr. Collins wanted a wife and his affections were in no way set so he

must redirect them away from Jane. He further decided that he would not part with hisLizzy to this man, although she would not likely accept him Mr. Bennet would not

have his cousin pay any addresses in that direction and cause Lizzy or Mr. Collins any

pain or discomfort in the refusal.

"Mr. Collins, I understand your feeling and I believe that your wishes are honourable

towards my eldest daughter and her family. I do not however believe that Miss

Bennet's heart is captured by you. I believe that she is quite attached elsewhere and

although I will say no more I am sure that you understand." Mr. Bennet saw in the

reaction of Mr. Collins that his affection was in no way engaged and his thoughts had

moved to the next in beauty and birth. Before Mr. Collins could speak, Mr. Bennet

continued "I have seen symptoms of regard in the behaviour of Miss Mary towards

yourself. Mary has been most attentive and seeks out your company. Perhaps you

would care to sit by her at Breakfast and judge for yourself. Of course I would not

dream of directing your affections, you are after all fortunate enough to enjoy the

patronage of Lady Catherine De Bourgh and be a gentleman of the world yourself"

Lizzy and Jane entered the room in time to hear the comment regarding his patroness

and were pleased to note the civility that Mr. Collins showed in his greeting of them

was less than on previous mornings. They were further amused to see the attention he

directed towards Mary.

Although surprised that her cousin had seated himself by her, Mary received hisattentions with pleasure. She was not so silly as her younger sisters and had quickly

figured that her cousin's means of making amends to her family was to marry one of

the daughters. Not a romantic, Mary needed a comfortable home and to be where she

would not be compared to the beauty of her sisters. With Mr. Collins she would have

an honourable establishment and would be mistress of her current home at some time.

Considering all this, Mary decided that she would forgo her music for the morning and

walk with Mr. Collins in the shrubbery.

The morning of his departure, Mr. Collins decided that, as he was to leave Meryton, it

would be appropriate to offer his hand to his cousin Mary. Mr. Collins had hesitation

and doubt, not in any way related to the possibility of being refused, he was too surethat his situation was far above what this young lady could expect that she must be


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grateful. Mr. Collins' hesitation was related to his ego, although he would not go

against the wishes of the father of the young ladies, he felt that his situation was at

least deserving of the eldest Miss Bennet or the second sister. His situation now and

the expected inheritance of Longbourn were so much in his favour and the

condescension he is honoured with by Lady Catherine de Bourgh and Miss Anne are

circumstances that can only assist his cause. But the father must know his daughtersbest and the company of Miss Mary, although she was not so handsome as her sisters,

was pleasant enough. Yes she is the one who inspired strong affection, he convinced

himself of that just before Mary entered the room.

"Good morning Mr. Collins, I did not expect to find any person in this room, I was to

practice at the pianoforte before breakfast"

"I am here with the intention of gaining an audience with you, my fair cousin" He

cooed in reply.

Mary saw the look in his eyes and his manner enough to realise that he was well into aplanned proposal. Mary further knew that it would be best for her to show a little more

modesty and less enthusiasm than she felt on this occasion, to anticipate his motives

for the interview would not give her favour in his eyes. "Why Mr. Collins of what

could you wish to speak with me about?"

Both sat down on chairs that are in the room and Mr. Collins continued to explain that

he had come to Longbourn with the wish of gaining the favour of one of his cousins so

much that she would agree to be his bride. He explained that it was the wish of his

patroness that he marry, and that he felt a man in possession of a living such as his

should demonstrate the state of matrimony in his parish. After many professions of

affection and his reasons for marrying Mr. Collins concluded his speech "And so Miss

Mary Bennet, I would ask that you accept my proposals, agree to become my wife and

make me the happiest of men"

Mary's lack of experience in the world had not prepared her for the moment, but the

time that Mr. Collins had been devoting his attention to her gave her time to prepare

herself. Mary, in the most modest of ways gave Mr. Collins sufficient encouragement

to believe that his proposal would be accepted. Mary gave her consent to the marriage,

Mr. Collins quickly went to Mr. Bennet and he gave his permission to the newly

engaged couple.

Mr. Collins, after sharing the news of his engagement with any in Meryton who he

could reach, left for Rosings to prepare for his bride. He would return to make the

wedding arrangements in a number of weeks.

In no way did any of her sisters envy Mary marrying a clergyman, especially that

particular one. Lizzy and Jane were sincere in their congratulations, but did not wish

to trade places with their sister. Jane wished Mary all the joy possible in a marriage.

Lizzy did not believe that any could be happy with their cousin but her congratulations

were more sincere than anything that Kitty or Lydia. Kitty attempted to congratulate

her sister, but Lydia merely replied to the news by saying "I could not marry any man

who did not wear a red coat. A man is nothing without regimentals."


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Mary, knowing her sister wished above all things to be married first, for it would be a

good joke, replied "Yes sister, I am sure that you do require a man in regimentals but I

will be married within this year and you will still be chasing any soldier who passes"

This speech made Mary fell better, and affronted Kitty, but Lydia never paid Mary

much head and any affect finished with her sisters speech. Mary stood, thanked her

elder sisters and left the room saying "I must go now and prepare for my upcomingmarriage" Being the least handsome of the family, it was such a triumph to be chosen

as bride. Mary was not usually inclined to sink to the level of petty barbs directed at

her younger sisters but here it was so satisfying as she was in a position of definite

advantage.

Chapter Seven

Posted on Monday, 27 August 2001

The day that saw Mr. Collins leave Longbourn, saw the party of Netherfield leave the

country. Mr. Bingley had left the previous day and the whole party felt it necessary to

follow. Mr. Bingley had told all that he intended to return to Netherfield within the

week, but a letter addressed to Jane from Caroline Bingley changed all that.

My dear Jane,

You will be aware that our party has departed for London. Although

my brother believes that his business will be completed in a few days,

we are sure that this can not be so. A season in London is much desiredand I will not regret anything I leave behind but your company.

Mr. Darcy has been long desirous to see his sister and I must confess

that I too long to see her. Charles always finds great joy in her company

and I believe that it will soon be that I can call her sister. It is not wrong

of me to hope what will bring joy to two families.

I am only sorry that I will be denied your company. Write often.

yoursetc.c

Caroline Bingley

Discussing this letter, Jane and Lizzy had quite different views. While Jane thought it

a letter showing regard and warning her to be on her guard for the brother has views

other than Jane Bennet. Lizzy saw the letter as the note of a woman who wishes her

brother to marry another. Miss Bingley had seen the regard her brother held for Jane

and is working to separate them. Lizzy hoped that Bingley would be back and dining

at Longbourn (he was engaged to dine there on his return to the area) within the week.

Another letter arrived days later confirming that nobody would be returning to

Netherfield for the Winter and the Bingleys were spending a great deal of time withMr. Darcy and his sister. Lizzy was still convinced that Bingley loved Jane, but the


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pressure of his sisters and possibly his friend had diverted his attentions for now.

Lizzy was confident that Bingley would not marry another but would return to reclaim

the affections of Jane.

Not two months after his return to Hunsford, Mr. Collins is again expected toLongbourn. This time, however he will not be returning to his home alone. Mr. Collins

and Miss Mary Bennet are to be married two days after his arrival. With the exception

of Mary, all the inhabitants are not looking forward to the visit. Her younger sisters are

eager to see Mary leave, although a little jealous that she, the plain one, will be the

first Bennet married. Jane and Lizzy are happy for her, though Lizzy does pity Mary

marrying such an odious man but she had her eyes open and is obviously looking

forward to leaving her fathers home to go to that of her husband.

The wedding takes place in Longbourn chapel and the newly married Mr. and Mrs.

Collins spend the wedding night in Longbourn before returning to Hunsford. It is

agreed that Lizzy and her father will travel to visit the newly married couple in theirhome a little before Easter. Although the trip would bring little happiness to either,

Mr. Bennet was convinced by his eldest daughters that it would be a great neglect on

his part not to attend and recognise the couple in their new home. Mr. Bennet agreed

to attend for a week with the condition that Lizzy accompany him. Mr. Bennet would

leave her at Hunsford until after Easter Sunday and return to collect her, he had

business to complete in town and would visit with the Gardiners while Lizzy enjoys

the company of her sister and endures the company of her brother in law.

Chapter EightAs Mr. and Mrs. Collins were married shortly before Christmas, Mr. and Mrs.

Gardiner remain at Longbourn with their nieces for the seasons festivities.

Mrs. Gardiner soon noticed that Jane was out of spirits and, on discussing this with

Lizzy, quickly understood that a broken heart affects Jane very deeply.

"He has been gone for two months Lizzy?"

"Yes aunt, I am sure he would be back but for his sisters and friend but this is of littleconsolation to Jane."

"Yes indeed, do you think that Jane would enjoy a change of scene and society?"

"Indeed aunt, I believe that she would" The glint in Lizzys eyes made her aunt worry.

"No Lizzy, it is very unlikely that Jane would see anything of Mr. Bingley for we

move in such different circles."

"Of course you are correct aunt. The change would be good for her and Jane adores

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"Well I will speak to Jane in a moment, I am sure that your father will agree to the

arrangement. I was meaning to speak to you about a trip though. In June, your uncle

and I were planning to tour the Lake country. Our plans are not yet set, but we would

like to ask you to accompany us, I do so know how much you love the picturesque."

Lizzy was so happy with this proposal. She instantly moved to embrace her aunt andgave her to understand that she agreed to the trip.

Permissions were granted and when the Gardiners left, Jane accompanied them. If it

were not for the regiment in town, Lydia and Kitty would have been noisy with

jealousy for their sisters trip. As it was, the younger sisters were in no way envoys of

Jane, there would not be a regiment of officers near their aunt Gardiners home.

When she arrived in Gracechurch street, Jane penned a note to her friend Caroline

Bingley informing her of her arrival, she had written before leaving Longbourn giving

her intentions. Jane received no reply to either letter for two weeks and when her aunt

had cause to go to the part of town, Jane took the opportunity to call on Miss Bingley.The visit was short as Miss Bingley and her sister were going out, but Miss Bingley

reprimanded Jane for giving no notice of her being in town. Jane thought it strange

that her letters would both go astray but this was possible and she had no reason to

doubt Miss Bingleys assertions.

Expecting the visit would be returned quickly, Jane remained home every morning to

await her friend. At last after two weeks, Miss Bingley arrived. She kept her coat and

bonnet with her, spoke barely a word and remained a little over five minutes, refusing

to take any refreshment. Jane was no longer deceived by Miss Bingley. Jane wrote to

her sister

Dearest Lizzy

I know that you will by no means feel triumph over me, but you were

correct in your assertions regarding Miss Bingley. Today, two weeks

after my visit to her and Mrs. Hurst, Caroline Bingley appeared. She

took no pleasure in the visit, made it clear that her brother was aware of

my being in town, but is, along with herself, much occupied with Mr.

Darcy and his sister. I must conclude that he no longer cares and Miss

Bingleys regard has also left.

Do not feel sorry for me Lizzy, they will soon be forgot (it will be

much easier to forget the brother without seeing the sister) and I will be

as I was before he took Netherfield.

The letter continued to tell Lizzy of the activities that Jane had been undertaking over

the last week (as Jane wrote every week) and what her young cousins were doing.

On reading this letter, Lizzy was happy for her sister finally seeing what she had

always seen in Mr. Bingleys sister, but sorry for what the sister had said of her brother.

Well Lizzy had the comfort of knowing that she would see her sister in a little over a

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The weeks leading to the trip to Hunsford moved quickly for Lizzy. The letters she

received from Jane were showing her cheering slowly, and the sooner that Lizzy visits

the Collins' commences, the sooner she can travel home and begin preparing for her

tour of pleasure.

Mr. Bennet and Lizzy left Mr. and Mrs. Philips at Longbourn, Mrs. Philips was to carefor her nieces while their father was absent, and departed for London.

Arriving at Gracechurch street, Lizzy and her father were met by Jane in the door. A

number of small children were on the stairs, eager to see their uncle and cousin, scared

to venture near the people they had not seen for a number of months. Mr. and Mrs.

Gardiner stepped forward and happily greeted the new guests.

Lizzy found an opportunity of speaking with her aunt about Jane. Mrs. Gardiner was

able to report some improvement in Jane, though not as much as she hoped. She was

also able to confirm the particulars of Miss Bingleys visit, and as Lizzy suspected,

Jane had been too kind in her relation of the facts, Miss Bingleys behaviour was notthat of a civilized guest, she behaved as one who was far superior to her company.

Mr. Bennet and Lizzy continued their trip the following day and arrived at the

parsonage by three o'clock.

On hearing the carriage arrive, Mr. Collins was quickly outside and on the drive and

Mrs. Collins was in the doorway awaiting the arrival of her sister and father.

After giving his compliments to his father in law and sister in law for ten minutes, Mr.

Collins allowed his guests to enter his 'humble abode'. Lizzy was surprised at the

changes in her sister. Mary was genuine in her greetings to her family and almost

cheerful at the prospect of visitors. In this, her home, Mary Collins was not reserved

and superior in her behaviour to her sister.

Mr. Collins, after allowing his wife to offer some refreshment to the travelers, took the

whole party outside to show them his garden and grounds. A short walk was all that

the ladies boots would allow, so Mr. Bennet continued alone with Mr. Collins and his

daughters returned to the house.

Rather houseproud, Mary showed her sister around the home. The parsonage was not

large, but was comfortable and tastefully fitted up. Lizzy attributed the taste tosomeone other than the current residents, but during Mary's tour, Lizzy learnt that a

great deal of the furniture and furnishings had been updated since Mary arrived. A

great deal of advice and direction was offered by lady Catherine who appeared to be

more than attentive to her neighbours. Judging by Mary's comments of the mistress of

Rosings, Lizzy was intrigued to meet the woman who had influenced such a change in

her sisters manner and was the cause of such violent compliments as Mr. Collins gave.

Lizzy was not to be kept waiting long as Mr. Collins returned from Rosings the

following day with an invitation to dinner for the following day. Mr. Bennet was no

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While dressing for dinner, Lizzy was surprised by the knocking at her door and the

calls of Mr. Collins that she should hurry, and not worry about her dress, she should

only wear what she has superior to her other clothing. Lizzy ceased her laughter at this

and the other comments and advice that Mr. Collins was offering her, and descended

the stairs with her father, ready to depart for Rosings.

The meeting with Lady Catherine was a challenge to both Lizzy and her father. While

attempting not to show their amusement at the compliments and thanks Mr. Collins

felt it necessary to give to lady Catherine, they studied her.

Lady Catherine was a large woman with features that may once have been handsome

but were now lost in time. Lady Catherine knew herself to be superior to her company

and Lizzy quickly decided that this lady would not look favourably to any opposition

to her views. It was clear that Mary and Mr. Collins never opposed their hostess in

opinions and she was grateful for the continual flow of compliments directed to herself

and her daughter.

Miss De Bourgh was a slight, pale, sickly young lady who appeared many years

younger than her five and twenty. Lizzys first thoughts of this young lady were how

well she would suit Mr. Darcy. Lizzy took a strange pleasure in imagining him

married to such a creature who is as unaccomplished as any female could be.

When asked if Miss De Bourgh plays or sings her mother replied,

"If her health had permitted her learning, Anne would have been quite the proficient, I

know she is only surpassed in taste by myself in England, I am sure"

The afternoon passed as well as could be expected in such company. As Mr. Collins

had foretold, he was seated at the foot of the table and carved at lady Catherine's

request. Anne was mostly silent throughout the visit, and lady Catherine enquired after

Mary's house concerns with an obviously intimate knowledge of her affairs. This did

not bother Mary and Mr. Collins paid so many compliments that his pleasure in the

company was obvious to all. All the plate that he had told his cousin about was there

and lady Catherine would not hear of them walking home and offered her coach for

their return journey.

Two days later, Mr. Bennet returned to London to visit the Gardiners and complete his

business. Mr. Bennet was glad that he planned to leave Mr. Collins' home for a weekin his cousins presence was sufficient to confirm in his mind that his daughter was

well settled and her husband was just as he remembered him. Lizzy was to remain

until after Easter when her father would return to collect her. The evening after Mr.

Bennets departure was spent at Rosings and lady Catherine felt it important to bring it

upon herself to learn more of Miss Elizabeth Bennet. While her father was there,

Lizzy was confident and did not shrink under the comments of lady Catherine, but

with her father now departed the appropriate level of respect must be displayed, or so

Lady Catherine believed.

"Miss Bennet, do you play and sing as your sister does?"


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Lizzy contained her entertainment at the comparison of her skills to her sisters and

merely answered "A little ma'am"

"Do you draw?"

"No ma'am, not I nor any of my sisters draw but I believe Mary may have been able togive you this information"

A little affronted by this response lady Catherine continued "You are correct, I believe

Mrs. Collins has informed me of this. I believe she told me that all of your sisters are

out, before the eldest are married. For Mr. and Mrs. Collins sake I am glad for it for he

could not have found a better wife." Mary smiled at the compliment and lady

Catherine continued "but to have five daughters out at once."

At this pause, Lizzy saw an opportunity to answer. As soon as she began to speak all

in the room, including lady Catherine looked at Lizzy with shock thinly veiled on their

faces, nobody interrupts lady Catherine. Lizzy continued "lady Catherine, I do notbelieve that it would be fair to prevent younger sisters their share of amusements

simply because the older sisters do not have the inclination or ability to marry early."

"You give your opinions decidedly for a young lady of not one and twenty." Turning

her attention to Mr. Collins who she was confident would not interrupt or question

lady Catherine directed the conversation until the coach was ordered for returning the

party to Hunsford Parsonage.

The next ten days passed quietly for the small party of Hunsford parsonage as much of

the amusement in the neighbourhood was beyond the reach of the Collins'. They dined

or drank tea at Rosings a couple of times a week for the first three weeks of Lizzys

visit but the invitations ceased when lady Catherine had her nephews arrive to stay.

Mr. Darcy and his cousin Col. Fitzwilliam visited the parsonage three days after they

arrived at Rosings. As field sports were finished there was little amusement for them

and the walk to the parsonage was pleasant and the company of one of the inhabitants

was more than pleasant to both gentlemen.

To Lizzy the visits of the gentlemen were confusing. Col. Fitzwilliam was a pleasant

man whose conversation gave a great deal of pleasure, but Mr. Darcy was grave and

silent and spoke only a few words whenever he visited.

Chapter Nine

Although both gentlemen called at the parsonage, it was almost a week after their

arrival before the party was invited to tea at Rosings by lady Catherine. The invitation

was accepted of course and the party departed the Collins' home at the appropriate

time.

The greeting Lady Catherine met Mr. Collins and his two female companions withwas civil, but it was clear, at least to Elizabeth, that they were not the chosen company


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for the evening and she would be satisfied with her nephews, her daughter and Mrs.

Jenkinson (formerly Miss de Bourgh's governess). It was also clear that Col.

Fitzwilliam enjoyed the company of Miss Bennet and the addition to the small party

that would otherwise of been assembled was agreeable.

Wickham had told Lizzy that Miss Anne de Bourgh was destined to be the bride ofMr. Darcy so seeing them together for the first time was a chance to see if Miss

Bingleys hopes of securing Mr. Darcy were at all in danger.

Observing Lady Catherine, it was obvious to all that she wished the match, some

would even say that she expected the match and it was only the time that is not yet

settled. Mr. Darcy paid no attention at all to his cousin and the lady was far to

occupied in her own comforts to give any attention to her intended.

The meeting passed as pleasantly as expected for Elizabeth. The comfort of having

Col. Fitzwilliam to speak with, along with the chance to observe Mr. Darcy in his

family were great diversions and she was almost sorry to leave when the coach wasordered.

The next visit to Rosings was to dine two days after they had been there to drink tea.

Lizzy was pleased at the prospect of a meal with Col. Fitzwilliam for meals with her

sister and Mr. Collins were not to her liking at all. The Colonel had earlier spoken to

Lizzy about the possibility of her performing on the piano forte after dinner. Without

agreeing to the arrangement as a definite engagement, Lizzy had answered in a way to

give her companion a hope that she may play. The Colonel had been told (by Mr.

Darcy who had heard her play and sing in Hertfordshire) that Miss Bennet plays and

sings in a way that is pleasing and he was eager to hear for himself. What Mr. Darcy

did not confide to his cousin was that he was equally looking forward to the

performance.

Dinner passed quietly, as lady Catherine was busy speaking to her nephews who sat on

either side of her. Although both often looked towards Miss Bennet in an attempt to

converse with her, they were quickly called to attention by their aunt. Lady Catherine

had an opinion on every subject and was not allowing any comment, and definately no

contradiction of her statements. Both gentlemen bore her manners well though both

had little pleasure in her conversation.

After the gentlemen joined the ladies in the drawing room, Col. Fitzwilliam placedhimself beside Miss Bennet and began to persuade her to take her place at the piano

forte. Mrs. Collins was not inclined to play as she was speaking with her husband and

attempting to gain a share in lady Catherine's discussions. Lizzy agreed and,

accompanied by the colonel, she walked to the place where some music was laying

beside the piano. She turned over a number of pieces before her companion selected

one. Lizzy agreed to the selection and sat down and began to play. The whole room

turned and listened for a few minutes then lady Catherine turned to her nephew Darcy

and began to speak of her own and Anne's taste and how they would be quite

proficient if they had learned to play. Darcy knew not what to say for he wished to

listen to the performance. When his aunt began to speak to Mr. Collins, Darcy

snatched the chance, stood, and walked towards where his cousin stood beside thepiano.


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The cousins were both enthralled by the performance and remained speechless until

the performer turned to the colonel and began "Does Mr. Darcy mean to frighten me

by moving all this way to hear me play. Though his sister does play well, I will not be

frightened, my courage always rises with every attempt to intimidate me"

Fitzwilliam did not answer immediately as he was aware that his cousin had met MissBennet before and that Darcy had some feelings for this lady was obvious to one who

knows him as well as his cousin does. The pause to think gave Darcy the chance to

answer for himself as he would not forgo the opportunity to speak with Miss Bennet,

especially when she was speaking in such a playful manner.

"I shall not say that you are mistaken as you could not really believe me to entertain

any design of alarming you. I have had the pleasure of your acquaintance long enough

to know that you take great pleasure in professing opinions that are not your own"

Col. Fitzwilliam did not wish to interrupt this. It was now very clear to him that the

two people before him were well acquainted, and though he had suspicions of hiscousins feelings, those of the lady were not clear. It was the lady who continued, again

addressing the colonel.

"Your cousin will teach you not to believe any word I say. I am so unfortunate as to

meet a person so able to expose my character in this part of the world where I was

hoping to pass myself off with some credit. It is very ungenerous of your cousin to say

all that he knew of my in Hertfordshire, and may I say impolitic too, for it is

provoking me to say what he may not wish his relations to hear."

Darcy answered her with a smile "I am not afraid of you"

Now the Colonel was very interested and responded. "Pray Miss Bennet, what do you

have to accuse him of, I do so wish to know how Darcy is among strangers."

"Prepare yourself for something quite shocking then. The first time I saw Mr. Darcy

was at a ball. He danced only four dances, though gentlemen were scarce and to my

certain knowledge a number of ladies were forced to sit down for want of a partner."

Darcy had been regretting that evening for a long time now and could only answer "I

had not the pleasure of knowing any lady in the room beyond my own party"

"And nobody can be introduced in a ball room" Lizzy quickly answered. Col.

Fitzwilliam was quite entertained by this sparring between his cousin and Miss

Bennet. The lady was obviously quite quick witted and would not be scared from her

own opinion by Mr. Darcy. Mr. Darcy was enjoying that Miss Bennet was having such

an animated conversation with himself. "What do I play next, my fingers await your

command Colonel."

"Perhaps" Mr. Darcy continued as his cousin placed some music in front of Miss

Bennet who hardly noticed the action "I should have sought an introduction, but I am

ill qualified to recommend myself to strangers"


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"Do we ask your cousin why he is ill qualified to recommend himself to strangers? A

man of sense and education who has lived in the world."

"No need" Col. Fitzwilliam answered to Darcys distress "I can answer that he will not

give himself the trouble.." Darcy interrupted his cousin.

"I have not the talent which some possess of conversing easily with those I have never

seen before. I cannot appear interested in their concerns as I see often done."

"My fingers do not fly over the keys of this instrument as well as I see other ladies' do.

They have not the same force or speed, and do not produce the same expression. But I

have always supposed it is my own fault as I would not take the trouble of practicing.

It is not that I do not believe my fingers as capable as any other woman's of superior

execution."

Darcy smiled. told her that her time was much better spent and any person who had

heard her play would not think anything missing. In a lower more serious voice hesaid

"We neither of us perform for strangers" Any further comment and conversation was

prevented by shrill voice of lady Catherine demanding to be a part of the conversation

that was occupying her nephews.

Miss Bennet began to play again and the cousins chose to ignore the instructions their

aunt was issuing to the performer. The performer answered all as well as she could

without missing a beat on the keys. She remained at the piano until the carriage was

ordered and the Collins' party departed.

The Collins' and their guests were invited to dine and drink tea at Rosings more

regularly and after each of the meetings Col. Fitzwilliam was more sure that his cousin

was attached quite seriously to Miss Elizabeth Bennet. He was also quickly realising

that she was not interested in Mr. Darcy. Fitzwilliam would be tempted to say that

Miss Bennet did not like Mr. Darcy one bit.

Chapter Ten

Posted on Friday, 31 August 2001

Every day, Lizzy tried to go for a walk alone for the chance to relax free of the

presence of her sister, brother in law or any of the inhabitants of Rosings. Before many

days had passed, Lizzy had found a walk that was sufficiently long for her exercise

and gave a very pleasant view of the country.

Approximately six days after Mr. Darcy had arrived in the country, he happened upon

Miss Bennet while she was walking back towards the parsonage. Mr. Darcy was

happy at the accidental meeting for it gave him an opportunity to speak with the object

of his affections without fear of interruption from any other person. Accordingly, Mr.

Darcy requested that he be allowed to escort Miss Bennet back to the parsonage. Asshe could not think of any reason not to allow her escort, then she consented but would


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not trouble herself with making conversation, she had tried this before and it ended in

a disagreement. Miss Elizabeth Bennet did not like the gentleman walking beside her.

She believed that he had been very instrumental in preventing her sisters happiness

and the prospects of Mr. Wickham forever.

Lizzy did, however, ensure that she pointed out that this was one of her favouritewalks. As she had taken pains to ensure that Mr. Darcy is aware that this was her

favourite walk, it was a surprise that he met her on this walk two further times over the

next week.

Two weeks after the arrival of the gentlemen at Rosings when Lizzy was walking her

favourite walk, she saw the figure of a gentleman approaching. Fearing that it was Mr.

Darcy again she began to strike a different path. From the corner of her eye, the

approaching figure was revealed as Col. Fitzwilliam so she turned and greeted him as

he got closer.

Col. Fitzwilliam was touring the park as he did every year on his visit and on seeing

Miss Bennet decided to offer his services as escort back to the parsonage. The colonel

enjoyed the company of Miss Bennet and if circumstances were different and he were

not a second son, he may even attempt to engage the attentions of the fine lady

walking beside him. As it was, Miss Bennet was pleasant company and a nice person

to walk with.

As they walked they spoke of the picturesque and traveling and family. Lizzy asked

"Are you to remain much longer in Hunsford?"

"We are to leave tomorrow if Darcy does not put it off again."

"I am surprised that he does not marry to secure a person who he may have at his

disposal......but I suppose that his sister would do for that"

"No, he shares the her guardianship with me."

"And is your charge much trouble?" As soon as she spoke Lizzy realised that she had

spoken incorrectly. Col. Fitzwilliam was beginning to look uncomfortable so Lizzy

continued "I have heard no harm of Miss Darcy." The colonel appeared to relax a little

so she changed the subject.

"Do you know Mr. Bingley at all?"

"I only know a little of him."

"Mr. Darcy takes a great deal of care of him"

"Yes I believe that he does. I understand that he recently saved Mr. Bingley from a

most imprudent marriage."

"Why would your cousin presume to interfere. There must have been little affection."


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This conversation continued and though Lizzy knew that her sister must have been the

lady to whom "there were objections", the colonel did not suspect that he spoke to the

sister of the lady his cousin had separated from Mr. Bingley. The conversation became

stressful for Lizzy and upon arriving at the parsonage, she had a headache.

While Mary and Mr. Collins went to Rosings in order to drink tea, Lizzy remained atthe parsonage and chose a pursuit most likely to exaggerate her discomfort, reading

the letters that Jane had sent. Hearing a knock at the door she put her letters away,

fearing lady Catherine had felt it necessary to verify that Miss Bennet was indeed

indisposed. Soon after the door opened, Mr. Darcy entered the room.

Mr. Darcy paced around, sat down for less than a minute and paced again. He finally

settled at the mantelpiece. Lizzy was not going to trouble herself with speaking to the

man before her who she disliked more now than she thought possible.

After some brief inquiries as to her health, which she answered with cold civility, Mr.

Darcy began

"In vain I have struggled, my feelings will not be repressed you must allow me to tell

you how much I admire and love you." He continued to explain that her family

prevented his attachment and that to marry her would be against the wishes of his

family. His manner was conceited. He showed no insecurity and had full expectation

that his proposal of marriage would be accepted.

The responses of his companion were not what he had expected. She expressed no

thanks for his attentions, no sense of obligation to accept his proposals and no desire

to spare his feelings. She informed him that he could in no way have proposed that

would convince her to accept his proposal. Her words were hurtful and spoken directly

from the heart. The most cutting was the accusations. That he had prevented the

happiness of her sister, he did not try to deny and this incensed her further. That he

ruined Mr. Wickham she was sure. She was not specific in her accusation but

obviously felt strongly.

When he left, Mr. Darcy was angry, particularly at her and then at himself. How could

he be so foolish as to open himself to her. As he walked back to Rosings he relived the

scene, his behaviour and hers. By the time he had walked into the house and to his

room, Miss Bennet was in no way wrong in her statements. He paced his room and

realised that his behaviour to the woman he loved was at fault.

Mr. Darcy slept badly and when he awoke before dawn, he resolved to inform Miss

Bennet of the situation with Mr. Wickham and with Miss Jane Bennet and Mr.

Bingley. These were her accusations and he could not bare for Miss Elizabeth Bennet

to be alive in the world and think ill of him.

Chapter Eleven

By writing through breakfast he completed the long letter to Miss Bennet. To imposeon her with a letter when she did not like him, was not engaged to him was highly


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presumptuous and improper so a letter must be subtle and deliver it personally when

others are not likely to notice the exchange. He must also gain the fair ladies trust

enough that she would take and read the letter. He knew now, even more so than last

night, that he loved Miss Elizabeth Bennet and would do anything to have her love

him.

When he did arrive in the breakfast room at Rosings, he was met by Col. Fitzwilliam

alone, the ladies of the house had gone to the village.

"Darcy, as we are to leave today, I am going to call on the parsonage, would you care

to join me?"

"Yes Fitzwilliam, I will"

Both gentlemen arrived and found only Mr. and Mrs. Collins at home. Mr. Darcy paid

his compliments and gave his farewells he left in search of Miss Bennet.

About a half an hour later, Darcy found Lizzy walking on a path that forked away

from her favourite walk. He walked towards her with the letter in front of him. When

she was close and they made their brief greetings, Darcy extended his arm with the

letter and asked that she read it. The dislike was etched in every feature of her face but

she took the letter as he said

"Miss Bennet, please do me the honour of reading this letter." He bowed, looking at

her face for possibly the last time, and struck off on a different path.

Lizzy took the letter not knowing what to expect. She walked a little further and found

a nice tree to sit on and consider reading the letter. As she examined the letter, and

looked at his writing on the front, Lizzy thought to herself 'What could this man

possibly wish to say? Nothing I care to know I am sure....but what could he wish to

say?' Her curious nature won and she began to read.

The letter that he wrote was specific and personal. Mr. Darcy shared information about

his family that would not be voluntarily shared but for this circumstance. There were

two accusations that Miss Bennet had laid at his door. One concerning separating his

friend from her sister after a short acquaintance and the other that he threw off the

companion of his youth, his fathers favourite, and denied him the future that the father

had promised. Of course the idea that he had wronged Mr. Wickham in so severe away was by far the worst crime and to refute it Mr. Darcy outlined all his dealings

with that man.

Mr. Wickhams father was honourable and worked for Mr. Darcy senior as his steward.

Mr. Wickham Jr. delighted old Mr. Darcy and Mr. Darcy supported him at school and

Cambridge. A family living was reserved for him and so provided the son of a steward

with a life that would enable him to marry and support a family in comfort. Mr.

Wickham had grown to a young man whose manners were as engaging as his

behaviour was disadent. As they were the same age, Mr. Darcy Jr. was able to see the

true behaviours of Mr. Wickham Jr. in a way that Mr. Darcy senior could never. Mr.

Darcy died not long after Mr. Wickham. Mr. Wickham Jr. expressed no desire to takeorders and was financially compensated. The living fell vacant a year later and Mr.


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Wickham wrote, asking to be presented and expecting that a positive answer was

assured. Mr. Darcy refused and to Mr. Darcys mind their business was complete and

they would not need to see each other again.

Last summer their paths crossed again and Mr. Darcy would rather not remember this

himself. Georgiana Darcy (Mr. Darcys 16 year old sister) was in Ramsgate and shewas soon greeted by Mr. Wickham. Georgiana was convinced that she was in love and

Mr. Wickham was to take her to Gretna Green where they would be married. Miss

Darcy has a valuable dowry and this was the prize that Mr. Wickham sort. To revenge

himself on Mr. Darcy would have been a secondary motive. If he had succeeded then

his revenge would have been complete.

With regard to Bingley and Jane, Darcy did not apologize. He expressed his belief that

the lady did not love his friend and that her family, though objectionable was not the

sole reason he separated them. He did however compliment Miss Bennet and her elder

sister for avoiding any share of the censure the behaviour of her family earned.

Reading about the history of Mr. Wickham and Mr. Darcy, Lizzy wished to disregard

all that was contained in the letter and continue to believe as she had that Mr.

Wickham was in no way wrong in her judgment of the two gentlemen concerned.

Little things that Mr. Wickham had said came back to her and the

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