Where I amHeadedBy Melissa Joy B. Feliciano

To know Gods infinite love is to know the full worth of a man.(The Worth of a Man, Dave Dravecky)Infinite endless, forever, boundless, unfathomable. That is how Gods love is described, In the same manner, we should accept the fact that our worth as men works the same way and that is constant. It never changes. As how Dave puts it, our worth is defined by what God has done for and in us. However, it is a common mistake to misunderstand our real worth from how we sense it. Thus, we get down to identity crisis and worse, end up burned out and depressed like a hypocrite. Knowing the difference between the two had made a huge knock not just on my head but in my brain. Let me share you that big secret that only one man has dared to tell me.Oursense of worthmay come from numerous resources like achievements in various areas which may come in trophies and certificates, successful family life, triumphant business and healthy relationships with friends and colleagues, etc. Those are good things to have, are they not? Thats why we keep on reaching for such things and when we fail to do so, we feel like were failures. We feel that we are nothing in Gods eyes. We tell ourselves that we have no value like theres no more reason to live. Simply put, we feel worthless. Without us noticing, that happens because we let such things rule our lives. At some point, we reach the worlds peak and as how they call it, the unattainable but when the winds of fortune shift, a mans worth has got to come from something deeper. Something I found.I found what the real meaning of what our worth is. As I have mentioned earlier,our(to make it more personal and feel its intimacy)real worthis constant and already defined as early as we are born in this world. We are already worthy for two basic universal reasons. First,we are made in Gods image. Who else other than humans are? Am I right? What would you feel if you are made in your idols image? It would surely feel good, right? Now, how about being made after our Creator, the Most High? Next,Jesus precious blood was shed for us.Though sinners, God finds us worthy in his eyes thats why He chose to let His son to die as a ransom for our sins. Arent those enough reasons to sense our worth in some other ways? I know, I know. Those reasons wont always be enough especially when times are tough yet thinking of these stuffs would surely help you bring yourself back to sanity when the pessimist in you clouds it. HihiOur worth from Gods viewpoint is totally different from how people sees it. As how many people did, for so long, I lived to please the people around me through reaching their expectations on me. I look up to other people just because they also look up to me. Ironic, right? I always tell others to do everything for Gods glory and yet I always put my best foot forward to make other people happy. I reached the point where I sacrificed my own happiness for others just because I dont want them to get disappointed. Because of that misconception, I end up hurting myself. I thought I always need to be good just because I started as one. I thought I always need to be strong for them and to accept that Im weak is a total crap. Thats totally wrong. What I was actually thinking is already the crap itself. I am, indeed, a very good procrastinator. I have been there for so long and I badly want to get out of that cage. As expected, it is always easier said than done. Accepting the reality(which was the exact opposite of what I have always known and grown up to) and making changes in accordhas beenthe hardest thing to do.To put off the mask and accept what I really am is a daily struggle. Of course it will be. Thats a simple fact for all of us butthe important thing is we know what we are aiming for.Why am I sharing these? Because I messed up my whole life just because I stumbled knowing what my worth is. Unlike me, I hope you would not waste your time craving for other peoples love because God already loves you. Always keep that in mind. Another thing, stumbling does not make His love for you any less. Thats what I learned after being rescued from the deepest pitfall that I had been. I want to be like what Hollywood creations has always been reminding us: that we are all leaving behind a legacy.It is within our power to either to bless our loved ones with the encouragement to become all they can be, or to withhold that blessing.Each of us is on a journey, an uncertain journey called life. God never said it was going to be easy, but it can surely be worthwhile. As to where I am headed, wherever it may be, I now dare to accept the responsibility for changing the conditions of life rather than accepting them as they exist because I am now a woman who has a better vision on as to how I will take the roller-coaster ride of life.How about you?