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Polite
By
Abby Humphries
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Table of Content
A Way With Words
Photo by: lindsay.dee.bunny
Protein
Photo by: the bridge
Missing
Photo by: markhillary
Routine
Photo by: The webhamster
Beyond Your Years
Photo by: Chill Mimi
Penetration
Photo by: Michael D Beckwith
Schedule
Photo by: Dru Bloomfield – At Home in Scottsdale
Sitting Ducks
Photo by: frozenchipmunk
Popcorn
Photo by: superiphi
History
Photo by: yilmaz ovunc
Subordinate
Photo by: Fort Rucker
Extinguish
Photo by: notacrime
Subjugate
Photo by: Eneas
Stardom
Photo by: Soumyadeep Paul
Painful Process
Photo by: kevin dooley
Icons
Photo by: starrynight_012
Glorious Photo by: whologwhy
Epic Photo by: Just Taken Pics
Giving Up
Photo by: bk2204
Spontaneous
Photo by: Ghayty
My Type
Photo by: halseike
Thanks For The Hug
Photo by: Joris_Louwes
Ulterior Photo by: asw909
Masquerade Photo by: FerdC
Palate
Photo by: Jason Lander
Tuesday Night
Photo by: SleEEpinGBeaUty
Requisite
Photo by: jphintze
Bottled Confessions
Photo by: SergioDJT
Composite
Photo by: Ask A Forensic Artist
Three Words
Photo by: j thorn explains it all
Trapeze
Photo by: peptic_ulcer
I Wonder Why
Photo by: zoetnet
Incurable Insanity
Photo by: Dima Bushkov
I Need To Know
Photo by: F. C. Photography
Expire
Photo by: chrstphre
Far Away
Photo by: thomas riboulet
Brief
Photo by: Gavin Llewellyn
Standards
Photo by: Ron Cogswell
Flow
Photo by: mRio
Close To You
Photo by: degreezero2000
Highway
Photo by: Abby Humphries
Condolences
Photo by: cell105
Ivory
Photo by: Steve Snodgrass
Coiled
Photo by: Furryscaly
Willow
Photo by: Degu Mischief
Evasive
Photo by: Beverly & Pack
Alone
Photo by: cliff1066 TM
Polite
Photo by: perpetualplum
Complicated Photo by: twm1340
Title Page Photo by: shehal
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A Way With Words
You have a way with words
That makes me want to listen
Sometimes I know
What you are going to say
Before you say
SomethingI’ve already spoken with you
Twice today
And I already hope
That you will call again
I feel that I could tell you
Anything
You have so much responsibility
That you put others before yourself
You told me that the time has not come
That you can even think of yourself Everything
We talked about
Sounded eerily familiar
Like I was talking to
Someone who really understands
I wonder what this interaction means
To me
I wonder what this interaction means
To you
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Missing
I can remember where I wasWhen you went missing
I remember what I wore
When you went missing
I can only hope
I am beyond hope!
That you return as you were
So we can return to the way we were
But we’ll never be the way we wereBecause we can never be the way we were
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Beyond Your Years
You have to face your fears
When you are beyond your years
You can’t count on the tears
To get you into the clear
You get left behind
When you are beyond your years
A mature mind
A natural kind
Of girl
The kind
That’s hard to find
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Schedule
Why don’t you fit me in?
Into your schedule
I’m tired of the usual
Routine
Why don’t you give me a call?
And to talk about all
We dream
We still dream
I know you get busy
I get busy, too
When I get the chance
I like to spend time with you
If you want me to
When it’s been a long timeI don’t know what to say
I wish there was an easier way
To say
What we really want to say
To those who should hear
What you have to say
So they know how you really feel
They will know that you’re for real
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Popcorn
I’m not supposed to
Feed the geese at the park
I shouldn’t go there after dark
But I broke the rules
I brought popcorn
LargeStrong birds
Eating from my hand
I thought they’d bite
So I held my hand flat
I never expected that
They’d take it gently
Not to hurt me
Sensitivity
With wingsI felt a bird’s tongue
On my skin
Rough like a cat’s tongue
To clean its feathers
I love
When they fly above
My head
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Subordinate
Subordination
Like discrimination
Why is this isolation
Called for?
A clause that adds much
To a simple touch
A clause that provides
Further explanation
You should provide
A logical explanation
For why I was demoted
For why I am
The subordinate
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Subjugate
I know that I can overcome
What I am running from
I know that I can rise above
Everything I’m afraid of
I know that I can gain control
Over what had control
Over meI know I can because I want to
I want to do
What you never thought
I had the guts to do
I want to do
What I never thought
I had it in me to do
I want to
Prove it to youI want to
Because I have to
I have to get through
This difficult time
I have to get through
I know I can get through
I have developed strength
And developed skills
Because I learn from you
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Painful Process
Changing
Is a painful process
There comes a time
That everything must change
Or end
I wish there was no end
This series
Of necessary stepsTaken to make it better
A better way of life
So difficult and gradual
Everyone has to take their turns to wait
An opportunity to advance
Natural selection process
Twisted metal
Chrome
Forgotten vehiclesOnce reliable
Forms of transportation
Structured bodies of broken glass
Rubber melting in the sun
Melting like wax
Seats torn out
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Glorious
You attract public acclaim
A success story
Right from the beginning
Because you wanted to succeed
You can never get what you want
But you can get what you need
You give me what I needThe need to feel
Something real
You have achieved
Fame and honor
You have won
So much more than praise
Why should I clap my hands?
When I leave my seat for you
I am the one who
Has been there for you
I am the one who
Will always be there for you
So glorious is the golden sun
After the longest days are done
When my inhibitions are gone
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Giving Up
You really should have shame
You are not to blame
You are not the only
One who is lonely
Desperate tendencies
When you’ve had enough
When you want to give up
You can never give up
Even when you’re fed up
When you fall
Get back up
On the horse you fell off
And gallop off
Into the setting sunInto the west
You deserve the best
Life is just a test
And you have to do your best
To eliminate the rest
You have to try your hardest
To get to where you ought to be
I know that we can’t always be
Exactly where we’re supposed to be
Please stay next to me
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My Type
I have been thinking
Of why
That I
Am attracted
To a certain guy
I have been wondering
Why
The characteristicsMeet the criteria
Or do they?
Old fashioned
Morals and values
Gentleman
Even though you don’t think you
can
Live up to
All the expectations put on you
I know that you can
Be a good man
Representative example
Of how a man should beYou say you are a little boy
But you really are a man
You know sorrow
You will meet joy
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Ulterior
I knew you had
An ulterior motive
I was hoping you did not have
An ulterior motive
Something beyond the obvious
Wasn’t admitted
Hidden on purposeSo I wouldn’t know
So you could try to go
Around town
Looking for someone else
To share your feelings with
You used to talk to me
You used to trust me
You used to share so freely
I could not believeHow much you trusted me
I could not believe
That you chose me
All I had to do was wait
Patiently
All I had to do was wait
And you found me
Sadly; you left me!
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Palate
A palate of paint
Or the roof of your mouth
Both could convey
The heat of the south
Foundations
Oral limitation
Palatial Cavity
Deep and high
Natural indentation
Decorative liquid substance
Oil and pigment
Corners of creativity
Corners of my mind
Streetlight of thought
Like a light bulb ideaBright and essential
Gone in a flash
Just as fleeting
As time
And a handful of cash
Urgency
You make the dash
And you are gone in a flash
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Requisite
There will always be
A requisite
Standards to meet
Expectations to live up to
There will always be
A requisite
A record to beatSomething to aspire to
There will always be
A requisite
That’s the only way
We can make changes
To a society afraid of changes
Even positive changes
Afraid of something unknown
Been trying to do it all on my own
I’m not saying that I condone
Of you
Messing up
Messing around
I’m fed up
Of trying to get through to you
When you don’t want to listen to anyone
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Composite
I compare you
To the composite
I can see youMatching the description
I can see you
Being my prescription
Fulfilling you
Instead of refilling my bottle of pills
Tomatoes ripening on window sills
Not knowing of their ills
The poison they sprout from
Seeds can sprout on the inside
Incubating in its internal juices
Dangerous potential
Festering; concealed underneath
the skinComposed of such picturesque
Tiny components
Sun released capsules
Waiting to explode
Waiting to expose
Toxic effects
I can see you
Fruit salad
Smooth fuzzy peach
Waiting on the beach
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Trapeze
You swing on the trapeze
With finesse
With ease
Not even the breeze
Sways you
Changes your mind
Makes you want to come downHigh above the world
You dangle perilously
With no safety net
It is amazing
How quickly
We forget
Stigmatic interval
Static cardinal
Pragmatic carnivalAstronautic capital
Neurotic principal
Erotic withdrawal
Erratic approval
Holistic proposal
Panic disposal
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Incurable Insanity
Incurable Insanity
Has scorn me once again
The places that I found myself
To lose myself within
In hard times; I wonder
If there is a lightAt the end of the tunnel
This theoretical tunnel
Like a speeding train
Diving underground
Paced like a bat out of fire
Faster than the speed of sound
How can you measure?
The speed of sound?
Based on how fast you hear it?
The brain registers slowlyMental processes take time
By the time you understand
By the time you make sense of
What you’ve heard
Time has elapsed
Perpetually living in the past
Everything happensBefore you realize
That it has happened
Before you realize
Why it has happened
Everything happens
Before you know it
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Expire
I bought a carton of milk
The only mistake
I didn't check the expiry date
An open carton of milk
And it's too lateTo bring it back
To get my money back
Why does milk have to expire?
Why does cheese grow mold?
Why do we have to conform?
When we are growing old?
Why does anything expire?
The longer it lasts
The stronger the desire
For the perfect pitch
Across a telephone wire
Your aim towards goals
Gets higher and higher
So do your standards
Impossible to meet
You won't hold my hand
As we walk down the streetThere's always a reason why
You made me cry
There's always a reason why
I thought that I
Wasn't good enough
The truth is that I still cry
Over rotten milk
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Brief
Our conversations
Kept brief
Or conventions
Breed mischief
You are a man of little words
There is no need for words
There is no time for words
I'd rather show you
Than tell youLove beyond belief
I know why you leave me
Before you drink your coffee
Returning to reality
Track back to society
They do not approve of me
Of my irregularity
Of my insecurity
When security does not exist
You are an illusionist
Putting on a show
To let everybody know
That they cannot fool you
When they have reason to
You are my escape from grief
Even if our time is brief For a love beyond belief
Getting into mischief
Time is the worst thief
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Flow
Emotions flow
The way rivers flow
A molecule of water
Never stays in the same place
Precipitation and absorption
Emotions flow
The way tears flowI am lucky because I know
That life will only get
As bad as I let it get
I am lucky because I know
That times will only get
As hard as I let them get
The goals that I have
Are the ones that I set
That I only can have
What I already have
That I'll be the slave
To the money I cannot save
To the crest of the tidal wave
That I will be the slave
If I let myself be a slave
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Highway
Traffic light
Shining bright
Doesn't keep me up at night
When I cannot sleepI pretend to hear
Ocean waves
A seashell to my ear
I live next to the highway
I watch traffic travel
Day after day
All day
If only I could find a way
A way to pay
My respect to society
When society
Goes to great length
To intimidate me
Pull the wool over my eyes
The philosophy of the wise
Money will never make me happy
Money will never seeWhat it does to society
What it does to me
Shoestring like a tightrope
Never enough to cope
Living on luck, living on hope
A highway is a commodity
Tricking society
Into thinking
That it is free
When none of us could ever be
Because we live in
This society
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Ivory
Without a trace
Of lipstick smeared across your face
Of the blood that you taste
When you bite your lip
Booze gone to waste
You let it drip
From the corners of your mouthAs you elaborate
As you migrate
With the birds as they fly south
Fine perfumes so elegant
And many musks, so prominent
Why shoot an elephant?
Just for its tusks?
Why throw out the corn?
Just to keep its husks?
Ivory morning
Ebony night
What gives us the power?
What gives us the right?
Just because we can
Doesn't mean it's right
I believe in love
But not at first sight
Ivory morning
Ebony night
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Willow
Willow
Dear Willow
Why do you weep?
Do you have difficulty
Falling asleep?
Willow
Dear willow
Overgrown fern
Does your heart ache?
Does your soul yearn?
Willow
Dear willow
Are you haunted by memories?
That stealthily seep
Through your tough exterior?Do you feel inferior?
Willow
Dear willow
Why do you weep?
Do you weep for those whose
secrets
You cannot keep?
Or is it something more personal?
Something too deep?
Willow
Dear willow
Let your leaves blow in the breeze
You don't have to please
The other trees
You don't have to weep over
memories
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Alone
When I am alone
The outburst of creativity
Finds it's way
To me
When I am alone
The explosion
Of expression
Enters meWhen I am alone
I feel alive
I feel like a portrait
The oils thicken
Like twists in a plot
The story changes
Each time you read
The image changes
Like role reversal
The universal
Business proposal
When I am alone
Sensors at the tips of nerves
The smooth edges
of bodily curvesof celestial curves
Ancestry serves
To remind us
That everybody
Gets what they deserve
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Complicated
Complicated explanation
For flying machines
A tin can with wings
Soaring through the sky
Above the clouds
Complicated explanations
For the sincerityOf curiosity
You foresee
The extremity
Future fingers
Pointing at me
All of your predictions
Are beyond your time
And beyond comprehension
How can we wrap our minds
Around theoretical notions?When we know more about the moon
Than the bottom of the oceans?
How can a thought become
More than just a thought?
How does a thought go from
A mental conclusion
To beyond an illusion?
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Protein
Eggs and cheese
Am omelet
Western style
Re-establishing energy
Storing propensity
Rise in the east
Set in the west
When you expect it the least
It will be the bestLaundry day
Ketchup stain
Fabric stitches
Wash the debris away
Grain by gritty grain
Nervous twitches
Mechanical glitches
Everything switches
From bad to good
From good to badThe best of the worst luck
That I've ever had
Everything switches
From sad to happy
From happy to sad
You should be glad
That whatever is in fashion
Is just a fad
Even the protein you hadFor breakfast
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Routine
You pour gasoline
Into your bed
You expect fire
Between your sheets
Tonight; all night
Your matchbox is empty
Just like your promise
Just like your eyes
Void of emotion
Void of expression
You want to light your lantern
You want your wick to burn
A candle lit and both ends
Wax dripping down the walls
Love songs fill the halls
Your love left you long ago
She could not find a way
To accept that which you cannot
change
Swallowing lead like a gun range
Where are your silver bullets?
Where is your wooden stake?
How much time do you need?
How much will it take?
Memories haunt you
Like a stalker in the night
Peering through the window
In the shadows; out of sight
What gives society the right?
To infringe upon your right?
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Penetration
You make your grand entrance
Like a first impression
With grace and style
Fashionably late
Just to make them wonder
If you're planning to attend
How could you not go?
To your own celebration?
You make your grand entrance
Like the belle of the ball
Everyone is watching you
They all have their eyes on you
Waiting to see what you will do
You have to keep up appearances
Social obligations
Sliding up the Richter scaleExtreme vibrations
Mobile limitations
The ground splitting open
Exposing magma; plasma
Molten bronze and lava
Steeping, boiling java
You make your entrance
You light up the room
You wait for the penetration
Of the unexpected realization
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Sitting Ducks
Sitting Ducks
The shooting gallery
At the fair
You don't know why
You find yourself there
Maybe deep down you know
You have to find escape
You have to find a place to go
A different landscape
The more you struggle
The harder it is to get out
Your voice barely above a whisper
I can see your lips move
But I can't make the words out
Row by row
Of sitting ducks
Waiting to be popped
Like soap bubbles
Like champagne glasses
Waiting to be topped
Like a speeding train
That cannot be stopped
You shut out all the noise around
you
Tunnel vision
Standing before your target
You could hear it fall
Listening for the pin to be dropped
You only get one shot
That's all you get
Better make it your best shot
Your best shot yet
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History
We have a long
History
Everything we shared
Is history
Because you fell out of loveWith me
I fell out of love
With you
But I'll always have a place
In my heart
For you
That should go
Without saying
I wanted you to knowThat I'm not playing
We cannot throw the years away
We cannot go back to yesterday
Even if there was a way
To prevent ourselves
From going astray
I wish I could tell you
How I really feelBut how can I tell you
What I really feel?
When I can't tell you
That I know what is real
That I know how I feel
Just because we can feel
Doesn't mean we can find the
words
To describe the way we feel
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Extinguish
Distinguish
Lust from love
Which do you dream of?
Which are you in need of?
I melt in attempts
To extinguish
The fire withinIt never goes out
internally, eternally
As bright and scorching
As the August sun
If you feel the burning
You're not the only one
Sex is not a sport
It's not a game
someone could winIf it's not for love
Then it is a sin
Satisfaction
Cannot come from
Self-gratification
Satisfaction
Comes from
Love
The joy of expression
The expressionOf love
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Stardom
Stars don't just fall
Out of the sky
Even in October
When the leaves fall
When I loveTo fall
In love
Just to be in love
With the idea of love
There is no perfect love
Just a practical love
Who gets into the kingdom
Of stardom?
How do you get into the kingdomOf stardom?
Does a star fall
Out of the sky
Just for you?
Remember this;
You can become
Infamous
Just as quickly
As you can become
Famous
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Icons
You told me that James Dean
Is your Idol
You try to achieve his appeal
You will never achieve his appeal
Only he is the real dealI missed his era
He passed away
Before I was born
I wished he could have been my Idol
If only for his confidence
All that I need for self-esteem
He was every girl's dream....
How could James Dean
Really be your Idol?When you didn't know
About Marilyn Monroe?
About that something in their eyes
When they looked at each other
It seems that they knew
Every time I saw themIn photographs
I don't pretend to know
All the details
About Marilyn Monroe
Because you know
How easy it is to be jealous
Of Marilyn Monroe
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Epic
Dolphins flip
Because they were trained
Like animals in the circus
If a dolphin can flip
Why wouldn't it flip?It looks fun
From a dolphin's point of view
I would flip
Wouldn't you?
An epic is a masterpiece
An opus is a symphony
Timing is absolutely
Critically
Required
If a dolphin had butterfly wings
Enlarged and proportionate
Would it decide to flip for you?
Like a coin in the palm of your hand?
Of would it fly away?
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Spontaneous
I call you when I feel
Like getting outside
Out of the house
You have to release me
From my cage
Like an animal
From my cell
Like a prisoner
I call you when I feel
Like talking
About what I should do
With myself, with my life
About what I should do
And how to get it done
I want to stay on course
I always stray of courseBecause of strong impulse
Heart ruling over head
Control and domination
Control over logic
I want to be spontaneous
I want to live my life
I want to do what I want to do
Based on how I feel about it
When I should think about it
How can I live my life?
When I cannot go outside
When I'm stuck on the inside?
How can I live my life
In my cage, in my cell
Like an animal, a prisoner
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Thanks For The Hug
Thanks for the hug
You don't know how much
I needed that hug
I needed your touchJust to feel close
To someone again
Even if you are only
My friend
You are so much
More than just and only
Without you I'd be
Terribly
LonelyIt has been so long
Since I've had a hug
Gave my heart a little tug
Not something I'd sweep under the
rug
Because I could never forget
That hugIt made me feel
Really good inside
It made me feel
Really warm inside
You cannot let your heart
Be the only guide
Your heart and head
Must coincide
That having been saidThanks for the hug
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Masquerade
My life is a masquerade
People pretending to be
Who they want to be
Instead of acting naturally
They are acting childishly
And gradually
They take off their masks
A piece at a timeNever all at once
They still prefer
Concealment
A piece at a time
Time after time
They still prefer
To be hidden away
Like an enormous pumpkin
Hidden in a closed closet
The enormous pumpkin
Was left in an empty apartment
The tenants moved
And left it there
To rot
To be discoveredThe odor of the rotten vegetation
Permeating
The dwelling
Of someone else
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Tuesday Night
Sometimes I think
That this is too good
To be true
That this can’t be real
Something that I’ve waited for
Suddenly out of the blue
Falling from the sky
As though I had commanded it
To fall into the palm
Of my hand
All I could have asked for
And more
That I could never have asked for
That I could only hope forAnd dream of
This time it is so close
Like stepping into a dream
Where everything is perfect
Almost perfect
Because dreams are only fantasies
All I wanted was truth
A piece of Heaven for me
A place I could feel safe
From all that I run from
A place I could fall asleep
Listening to the steady rhythm
Of heavy breathing
Of your heart beating
A place where heat and moisture
Fills the air that we breathe
Fills this room
Mingled with the scentOf a Tuesday night
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Bottled Confessions
Maybe I was trying to bide my time
Until I found the right time
Trying to explain
Why I have to keep certain things
To myself
Why I have to keep certain thoughts
In my head
So that I can use themLike tools
To find the proper way to say
What I need to say
I have to take my time
It is only on your side
Once in a while
The rest of the time
It goes on forever
Like some summer nightsThat you wish would last forever
They only last
Until the sun comes up
And even then
You cannot sleep
Because you are worried
About the secrets I keep
In due time I will confess
It will only make the bond stronger
It will be for the best
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Three Words
I remember when I heard you say
Those three words
I hadn’t heard for a long time
I had wanted to hear for a long time
Even if I know
That words are just words
It still felt goodTo hear it from you
Even though I know
That it is too early
For those words to mean
What they are supposed to mean
How quickly they are at our
disposal
Ready to launch like ammunition
Except this is not what they are forNot for destruction
Or for target practice
Not for the range
Not for bullets made of lead or silver
Just like an arrow
Straight through the heart
The piercing of a larger scope
And when the blood is washed
away
From my wound
I will again remember when Iheard you say
Those three words
And I will remember how good it
felt
When I heard you say
Those three words
Because I really hope to hear you
say
That you love meI will be waiting
Until you mean it
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I Wonder Why
I wonder why
It’s been so easy
To talk to you
To tell you
Anything
And everything
I wonder why
It’s been so easyTo have these feelings
All the time
All day long
As though I was always
Meant to feel like this
As though I am
Walking on clouds
In thin air
High aboveEverything
As though I was always
Looking down
From these heights
As though I was always
Adrift some place
Far away
Far off into the distance
Everything I do feeling as though
It has never been done beforeLike each step I take
Is through an open door
Into open arms
Into your heart
Through my own
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I Need To Know
I need to know
What’s on your mind
The things you think about
And never tell me
I need to tell you
What’s on my mind
The things I think about
And never tell you
For fear they will come out
The wrong way
In the wrong context
At the wrong time
Will there be a time
That we can tradeThoughts for thoughts?
That we can be upfront
And not have to worry
About undesired reactions
Unforeseen responses?
Sometimes I think it’s easier
Not to tell you how I really feel
Because I’m afraid to make this
real
More so than it already is
More so that it has become
Only because once this is real
I will not forget
Once this is real
There is no turning back
Even if I wanted to
Even if you wanted to
Once this is real
It will deepenAnd become much more
Intense
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Far Away
When I drift off
Into the sanctuary
Of my mind
Of my thoughts
I think of you
And how far
You areFrom me
Yet I still wait
Because I believe
That I wait
For something
worth while
For something
That makes me smile
I sit hereWith hope in my heart
And all I have is hope
Maybe you'll always be
So far away
That I could never reach you
So far away
That I will seldom see you
That I will hardly know you
Even though I fear
That my love for you has deepened
That I cannot resolveMy inner turmoil
My anxiety
Because we cannot talk
When we need to communicate
Because I cannot be
Completely
Open with my heart
How can I be?
When you are alwaysSo far away
From me?
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Standards
I know you have
High standards
I know why you have
High Standards
Because you want
The best of the best
Meeting standardsLike passing a test
A way to cancel
All the rest
And keep it all
Close to your chest
I know that I should have
High standards
Nobody can meet
My standards
I can't even meet
My standards
Because I have
High standards
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Close to You
I wish I could be
In your vicinity
I wish you could be
Close to me
The only place I want to be
Asleep peacefullyIn your arms
After the satisfaction
Of a sexual variety
No infringement
On our privacy
Just a propensity
For spirituality
For curiosity
With no proprietyI wish I could be
Close to you
For all
Eternity
Just so I can be
More in love
With you
And hopefully
You will beIn love with me
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Condolences
What does it mean?
To give your condolences
Why do we need
You condolences?
Is it a sign of respect?
In which respect?Does it represent
Sentiment?
Does it fill that empty space?
Put a smile on my face?
No, it cannot
And I want not
Your condolences
I shall not
Receive your condolences
I will not!
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Coiled
I’m wrapped
Around your finger
Like a coiled spring
I’m ready
To leap into action
At a moment’s noticeI’m ready
When you are
Poised to follow
Wherever you may lead
You heart
And I bleed
You want
And I need
To feel aliveAs I once felt
Just for one kiss
To make my heart melt
All I get is another
Low punch
Below the belt
I’m wrapped
Around your finger
Like a string you tie
To always rememberAll that is kept between you and I
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Evasive
Evading me
Endlessly seeking
Loopholes
Looking for love
In all the wrong places
Last chance
To get out of town
Wear your white dress
The one that makes you feel
Like a woman
The one that you keep
For a wedding day
That will never come
For youThe one you keep
For a husband
You will never have
It’s a shame
That you only wear it
When nobody’s watching
It’s a shame
That you only wear it
In the privacy
Of your bedroom
It’s a shame
That you only wear it
To pretend
To have a reason
To save it
To hold onto it
To hold onto a dream
That will never come true
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Polite
Why are you being so polite to me?
When I don’t expect you to be?
Why do you show so much respect
For me?
When I hardly see
Why it’s necessary?
Why do you act so formally?
Is that how you were raised to be?
Casualty meets conformity
I have never known
A guy like youI never expected you to
Offer me affection
In the form of a hug
I climb my way out
A day at a time
I slip and fall as I climb
It’s going to take a long time
To get to the right place
I want to go back
And set the pace
As I try not to fall back
And slip right through the crack
Painted lips parted
Alone and broken heart-edNever know how or why
The whole mess started
I thank you for being so polite