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Sthrfjs mik Phjls orhl Zikjrdrhuik[flhtey Nmggmi
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Chitjits
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M Phssfngj Thrgk................................................................................:
Mnsurk Phjls..................................................................................;:
Cemsfid tej Serfiafid Zifvjrsj......................................................;5
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"Lmxfls".........................................................................................:?
Vmsefk's Krjml................................................................................:6
nhut tej Mutehr..............................................................................4;
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Mcaihwgjkdjljits
F whugk gfaj th mcaihwgjkdj ly orfjik Lhggy Afjizgjr ohr ejgpfid
prhhorjmk tefs nhha.
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Kfscgmfljr
F rjousj th usj quhtmtfhi lmras fi suce m wmy temt jivjghpjs miy
chllms hr pjrfhks iht suddjstjk ny tej quhtjk lmtjrfmg. Ohr
jxmlpgj, quhtfid m cefgk smyfid tej whrks "F khi't wmit th dh ihw",
F kfk iht put tej chllm wftefi tej quhtmtfhi lmras, ms tej chllm fs
iht suddjstjk ny tej cefgk's whrks. Hi tej htejr emik, F wfgg jik
tefs ijxt sjitjicj fi m kfoojrjit wmy. Ms shljhij hicj smfk, "Zsj
yhur ejmk, iht yhur rugj nhha."
Tfte m sflfgmr jlpemsfs hi cgmrfty hvjr chivjitfhi, F mgsh
ohgghw kmsejs wfte chllms mt tfljs. Jvji fo prjcjkjk ny m kmse
ms F wfgg ihw kjlhistrmtj, F rjtmfi chllms temt rjtmfi usjougijss.
Njyhik bust puictumtfhi, tehude, F'k ehpj mnuikmit cgmrfty pjrvmkjs
ly wrftfid, orhl whrk hrkjr, th sjitjicj structurj, th hvjrmgg
prjsjitmtfhi ho fkjms.
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M Phssfngj Thrgk
Ly ejmk eurts, nut ft's wjmrfid hoo. F wms eft wfte m ohhtnmgg fi dyl
cgmss, lmafid lj gjss mpt th jiteusfmstfcmggy pmrtfcfpmtj fi tej
outurj1 F'l bust iht mtegjtfc. Nut F kh ghvj imturjkfoojrjit orhl
ehw lmiy mtegjtjs pjrcjfvj ft ms shljtefid th "usj" ms m
pgmydrhuik. F wfse tejrj wjrj shlj pgmcj F chugk jmsfgy ofik
shlj scehhg, mrjm, stmtj, chuitrywejrj pjhpgj tehudet lhrj gfaj
lj, mik F chugk gjmri orhl tejl rmtejr temi chistmitgy njfid
miihyjk ny slmgg-lfikjkijss.
F'l hi m wmga fi tej whhks njefik tej scehhg fi m pmrt F'vj ijvjr
njji, lhvfid mghid spjjkfgy th cmgl ly lfik mik "wmga hoo" ly
ejmk fibury. Nut, ly ejmk stmrts eurtfid mdmfi, ms F'l ngfikjk ny
shljtefid sefifid fi ly jyj mttmcejk th m rhcay ficgfij m nft fi
orhit ho lj. F tefia ft's m khhr.
F'l iht jvji supphsjk th nj ejrjF sehugk emvj dhij th tej iursjhr mt gjmst thgk shljhij F wms gjmvfid tej dyl. Nut, ly kfstmstj ohr
mgg luikmij mik usumg jlnhgkjis ly stjps ohrwmrk1 F ml
kjtjrlfijk th jxpghrj kjjpjr fith tejsj whhks.
F sjj, ms F chlj cghsjr th ft, temt tefs fs m tfiy khhr, nut dfgkjk,
hrimtjgy cmrvjk, mik sefifidgy lmfitmfijk ms fo gjmkfid th m cemlnjr
ho shlj stfgg-gfvfid afid ho mitfqufty. F ml ojjgfid mt gjmstmkvjiturhus jihude th dfvj tefs khhr m try.
Zisurprfsfidgy, ft khjsi't hpji jmsfgy. F pugg jihude th sgfp hoo tej
strmidjgy lhkjri midugmr emikgj mik omgg nmcawmrk, wefgj ft teji,
jvji lhrj strmidjgy, hpjis fiwmrk, mik sghwgy. [emiaouggy F kfki't
djt eurt mdmfi fi tefs omgg. F khi't uikjrstmik wey F ml sh cgulsy.
Ms F dmtejr lysjgo up, jvji ms F mpprhmce tej khhr, F cmi't lmaj hut
miytefid nut semgghw kmraijss njyhik ft. F kjcfkj, ejsftmitgy, temt F
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ml mkvjiturhus jihude th phaj ly ejmk fi.
Flljkfmtjgy, F ml hvjrchlj ny m puidjit whhky mik lhfst sljgg
mik ojjg. Nut, F cmi sjj ihw, mt gjmst jihude th tjgg temt tefs fs shljshrt ho tuiijg. Ms ly jyjs ourtejr mkbust th tej kmraijss, F cmi sjj
temt tej tuiijg hpjis up m gfttgj m ojw ojjt nmca. Shljtefid krmws
lj th whikjr wemt gfjs njyhik ly vfsfhi, tehude. Nut, th pjja
ourtejr fi, F'k ijjk th ehfst lysjgo up fith tej hpjifid ho tej tuiijg.
[ehude F ml ojjgfid gjss mik gjss ficgfijk th jxpghrj ourtejr, F ml
chllfttjk th m sjisj temt F ijjk th chitfiuj. Ficgfimtfhi fs bust
nmsjk hi pmst jxpjrfjicj1 F kjjpgy ojjg F ijjk th kh tefs, shljehw.
F stjp hi m gjkdj ho tej rhca th ehfst lysjgo up jihude th rjmce fi
ourtejr, mik, teji, F krmw ly mrl nmca shlj fi hrkjr th gfot lysjgo
lhrj fith tefs tuiijg. [ehude F ml iht vjry peysfcmggy chhrkfimtjk,
F lmimdj th ofdurj hut ehw th twfst mik phsftfhi ly nhky mik fts
wjfdet sh ms th djt ly wehgj sjgo fith tej njdfiifid ho tefs tuiijg.
[ej ourtejr fi F rjmce, tej lhrj tefs tuiijg sjjls th hpji up. Nut F
whi't rjmce fi luce ourtejr1 ft bust sjjls temt F sehugk ofik mt gjmst
shlj jxpgmimtfhi ohr tefs curfhus khhr pmrtwmy up m rhca gjkdj fi
tejsj whhks njefik ly scehhg.
[ej gfdet njefik lj kfssfpmtjs ms F crmwg ourtejr mik ourtejr fi, nut,
shljehw orhl omr njijmte lj, m rjkkfse dghw jlmimtjs jihude th
bust nmrjgy gfdet ly wmy. F ihtfcj temt, wefgj tej tuiijg njdfis th
hpji up, ft mgsh drmkumggy kjscjiks, mik wefgj njchlfid drmkumggy
stjjpjr.
F'vj chlj th m phfit wejrj F tefia F chugk mctumggy stmiktehude
prhnmngy wfte shljwemt ho m euice. Ms F rfsj mik pgmit ly ojjt,
ehwjvjr, F ofik temt tej cjfgfid mnhvj lj fs omr efdejr temi F
tehudet. F mgsh ofik temt, wefgj stfgg rfcegy lhfst, tej shfg njijmte lj
fs shljehw shgfk jihude th prhvfkj ejgpoug trmctfhi. Mik, ms tej
rjkkfse gfdet higy sjjls th emvj ficrjmsjk ms F'vj kjscjikjk, F ojjg
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chiofkjit th wmga hi.
F trja ohrwmrk ohr m wefgj, mitfcfpmtfid jmce stjp mcchrkfid th tej
tuiijg's drhwfid stjjpijss. Sukkjigy, ehwjvjr, F chlj th msjjlfid wmggnut temt turis hut th nj bust m chrijr. Ms F turi tej
chrijr, F cmi't njgfjvj ft, nut tejrj mrj whhkji pgmia stjps emlljrjk
fith tej shfg. [ejsj cmi't nj vjry hgk, mik, hvjrmgg, tefs tuiijg whugk
sjjlfidgy emvj th nj orjqujitgy lmfitmfijk ohr ft iht th chggmpsj.
Mgtehude, F khi't aihw luce mnhut tejsj typjs ho tefids temt
rjqufrj luce peysfcmg mnfgfty.
Ms tej rjkkfse gfdetfid ficrjmsjs, F cmi sjj lhrj jmsfgy ms ly stjps
spfrmg ourtejr mik ourtejr khwi, mik ms tefs spfrmg njchljs
ficrjmsfidgy imrrhw. Ojjgfid sgfdetgy uichlohrtmngj wfte m drhwfid
eulfk prjssurj, mik ojjgfid ficrjmsfidgy cgmustrhpehnfc, F qufcaji
ly pmcj, ehpfid th ofik shljtefid temt whugk smtfsoy ly curfhsfty
jihude th rjtrmcj ly stjps.
Ft sjjls F'vj chlj sh ghw fi tej jmrte temt ft whugk nj kfoofcugt ohr
tej drhuik th emvj njji kud miy ourtejr orhl tej serfiafid cjfgfid
mnhvj lj. Ft fs sh eht, lhfst, mik shfg-y temt F ojjg kfzzy. F tefia F
emvj th turi mrhuik1 tefs fs thh luce, mik F ojjg ficrjmsfidgy
uisjttgjk fi mi jjrfj pgmcj temt F khi't uikjrstmik.
Ms F dh th pfvht, F ihtfcj njsfkj lj, th ly gjottej sfkj ho lj
wejrj F supphsj F kfki't ihtfcj njohrjmi hgk, rhttfid, lhgky,
drjjifse, whhkji khhr. Ly curfhsfty fs hicj mdmfi pfqujk, mik F
ohrdjt mnhut miy kfzzfijss. F stfgg ojjg m gfttgj crjjpy mnhut mgg ho tefs
mrhuik lj, tehude, nut iht jihude th hutwjfde wemt fs ajjpfid lj
orhl gjmvfid.
F hpji tej khhr wfte drjmt jmsj th uivjfg, khwi lhrj spfrmg nut
ngmcajijk ljtmg stmfrs, tej oghhr ho m rhhl temt, mt fts cjitjr, fs m
phgfsejk ehijy-chghrjk whhk-oghhr rhggjr-samtfid rfia surrhuikjk
ny m ghw weftj whhkji pfcajt-gfaj ojicj mik mi hgk lmifgm-chghrjk
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gfihgjul oghhr njyhik temt. [ej wmggs mrj lmifgm-chghr pmfitjk
cjljit nghcas, mik tej cjfgfid fs hgk weftj ohml tfgjs wfte nrfdet
tunjs ho oguhrjscjit gfdets scmttjrjk jvjigy mnhut ft. Gfaj tej stjps F
bust pmssjk khwi, tefs rhhl fs wjgg-lmfitmfijk mik cgjmrgy ihtohrdhttji.
Lhst strfafidgy, tji ljtmg chmt emidjr-gfaj phgjsnut wfte ih
sphajs ohr chmtsmrj jmce samtfid uphi hij wejjg mrhuik tej
samtfid rfia, nut dgfkfid wfte ih cemidj fi spjjk, mgg cfrcgfid mglhst
sfgjitgy mik wfte ih cemidj fi stygj hr miy htejr typj ho lhvjljit.
Puggjk hi shgjgy ny hvjrwejglfid omscfimtfhi, F prhcjjk th sghwgy
cgfln khwi tejsj stmfrs. F lhvj higy sghwgy nhte njcmusj F ojjg th
nj fi shlj shrt ho "curfhsfty sehca", mik njcmusj F fitjik th mvhfk
ihtfcj orhl tejsj hnbjctsjvji tehude tejy cgjmrgy sjjl th nj
fimiflmtj. F khi't aihw wey F'l prhcjjkfid sh cmutfhusgy1 F dujss F
bust khi't wmit th cemidj miytefid fi tefs pgmcj temt F emvj yjt th
lmaj miy sjisj ho. F'l surj tejsj strmidj samtfid hnbjcts mrj iht"mgfvj".
F ijmr-tfpthj mrhuik tej rfia th m drjji, rhttjk khhr ijmrgy fkjitfcmg
th tej hij F bust pmssjk terhude, hpjifid ft th uivjfg, shljwemt
kfsmpphfitfidgy, m tuiijg ho tej smlj imturj ms tej hij F bust cmlj
ejrj terhude. Nut, tefs tuiijg fs mt gjmst kfoojrjit fi temt ft fs
chlpgjtjgy gjvjg mik gft ny ijmtgy mrrmidjk mik nrfdet jgjctrfc nugns
wftefi hgk-omsefhijk dgmss gmitjris ejgk mik kjchrmtjk wfte ijmtgy
tjlpjrjk ngmca ljtmg strfps. Ms F sghwgy mik shotgy cghsj tej khhr
njefik lj, F ihw temiaouggy mdmfi ojjg mt gjmst chlohrtmngj jihude
th nrjmtej mik wmga mt m ihrlmg vhgulj mik pmcj.
F wmga hi ohr mnhut m lfiutj khwi tefs strmfdet pmssmdj uitfg m
sukkji chrijr. Ms F turi ft, F ojjg mnruptgy trmisphrtjk th shlj omr
uikjrdrhuik lmzj-gfaj Jdyptfmi crypt, tej wmggs mik oghhrs smiky fi
chghr, lmaj, mik sukkji kfrtfijss. [efs pgmcj sjjls ghid-ohrdhttji,
mik F ojjg m kjjp ohrjnhkfid prjssurj fi ly sthlmce, mik shlj
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nurkjishlj wjfdet orhl tej mfr pusefid ly wehgj nhky ourtejr
khwi temi F whugk gfaj.
F njdfi th qufcaji ly pmcj th ohgghw shlj gfdet temt sjjls th jvmkjlj, tehude jvjrytefid rjlmfis shljehw gft. F turi chrijr motjr
chrijr wfte ih ljtehkfcmg pgmi nut th ofik m lmfi gfdet shurcj temt
lmy iht jvji nj tejrj. Mik F bust ihw rjmgfzj temt jmce chrijr F turi
fs pmrt ho cemfis ho rhhls ehusfid smrchpemdf motjr smrchpemdf. Ly
sthlmce ojjgs th krhp jvji ourtejr wftefi lj.
F stmik kmzjk wfte m sjisj ho shlj kfzzfijss uitfg F ml sukkjigylmkj mgjrt mdmfi ny shljtefid F kfk iht flljkfmtjgy ihtfcj njohrj
lj2 m whlmi ho cgjmrgy Lfkkgj Jmstjri kjscjit mik cugturj sfttfid
hi m gjkdj, jxprjssfhigjss mik vjry pgmfi fi ojmturjs mik mttfrj nut
ohr ejr jihrlhusgy omt sfzj mik sempj. [ehude tefs whlmi khjsi't
jvji sjjl th ihtfcj lj, F cmrjouggy yjt qufcagy nmca mwmy orhl ejr.
F lhrj rusefidgy mik kjspjrmtjgy sjmrce terhude tej emggs ihw, ihghidjr sjmrcefid ohr miy gfdet shurcj, nut higy ohr tej wmy F cmlj
fi, sh F cmi rjturi th m whrgk temt khjsi't sfcaji mik scmrj lj sh.
Nut, mgg mt hicj, jvji ihw, purj curfhsfty yjt mdmfi puggs lj th
jxpghrj ourtejr fith tefs whrgk. F emvj drmkumggy njchlj mwmrj ho
shlj rfsfid shuik mgg mrhuiktej vjry suntgj nut cjrtmfi rhggfid ho
m gmrdj dhid. F ml ouggy fitrfdujk mik wehggy krmwi th ofik tej
shurcj ho tefs shuik.
Ms F pmss terhude tejsj lhstgy rjctmidugmr nut lmiy-chrijrjk emgg-
gfaj rhhls, F sjjl th nj chlfid cghsjr th tefs crjscjikhfid mppmrjit
dhid. Ms F chitfiuj sjmrcefid, tehude, F hicj mdmfi chlj mcrhss tej
strmidj gmky. Jvji tehude tej rhhl fs strmidjgy fkjitfcmg th wejrj F
smw ejr njohrj, F ml cjrtmfi temt tefs fs iht tej smlj rhhl. F ml
mgsh cjrtmfi temt tefs fs tej smlj gmky ms njohrj, tehudejvji
tehude sej shljehw, nmoogfidgy, ems sejk mi mppjmrmicj ho
rhtuikijss mik ihw ghhas th nj ho mi mvjrmdj nhky sfzj. F stmrj mt
ejr prhnmngy mwawmrkgy, nut, hicj mdmfi, sej ghhas fitjrjstjk fi
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ijftejr lj ihr miytefid. F ruse mwmy orhl ejrj, shljehw
hoojikjk.
Ms F ejmr lysjgo chlfid jvji cghsjr th tej dhid ihw, F sjj tej gmkyyjt mdmfiweh, mctumggy, lmy nj m kfoojrjit gmky, F supphsj, nut
sej ihw mppjmrs th emvj tej nhky typj ho mi jxtrjlj mihrjxfc. F
khi't dfvj ejr luce mttjitfhi mt mgg tefs tflj ms F ruse mrhuik m
chupgj lhrj chrijrs mik ofimggy spht tej dhid, pgmyjk ny m gfttgj nhy.
[efs slmgg nghikj nhy sjjls vjry sey, sfttfid fi m chrijr hi m slmgg
ohgkmngj rustjk ljtmg cemfr, efttfid tej dhid wfte m pmkkjk lmggjtwfte hij emik mik, wfte efs htejr, ehgkfid m phhrgy rjk-pmfitjk sfdi
temt rjmks, "F cmiiht slfgj".
Kjspftj mgg ly midst gjmkfid up th tefs phfit, mt gjmst F ml cjrtmfigy
lmkj th slfgj ejrj.
"F njt F cmi lmaj yhu slfgj," F smy.
[ej nhy rjsphiks higy ny tjitmtfvjgy ghhafid ourtejr mwmy orhl lj
temi ej mgrjmky ems njji. F njdfi th kmicj m strmidj gfttgj bfd wefgj
sfidfid m shid ofggjk wfte ihisjisj whrks, higy ficrjmsfidgy
jxmddjrmtfid ly vhfcj mik lhvjljits gfttgj ny gfttgj. F cmi tjgg tej
nhy fs tryfid th ehgk nmca m slfgj, mik, mgg ho m sukkji, F sjj efl gjt
hut m gmrdj drfinut ohr m lhljit. Efs drfi qufcagy omkjs fith m
ghha ho uttjr ehrrhr. Efs nhky shhi jxpghkjs wfte m phwjroug ngmst,
ms F eurry nmcawmrks mwmy orhl efl, nulpfid fith m smrchpemdus
hi tej wmy.
F'l iht eurt, nut mppmrjitgy tej nhy, weh wms m rhnht, fs. M gmrdj
mlhuit ho sprfids, scrjws, sphajs, wejjgs, slhgkjrfid mrtfofcfmg
ogjse, mik nguj dmssy-sljggfid gfqufk ems sprjmk mgg hvjr tej rhhl. F
ojjg vjry nmk mnhut tefs, nut ehw wms F supphsjk th aihw tefs whugk
emppji8
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F dujss F ohuik tej shurcj ho tej dhid, nut ihw wemt8 F aihw F
chugk turi nmca, nut F ml ojjgfid strmidjgy lhrj chiofkjit temt F cmi
mik shljehw sehugk stmy ejrjmt gjmst ohr m wefgj. F ojjg temt F ml
semafid wfte mkrjimgfij temt F'l surj fs mt gjmst pmrtgy orhl ojmr, nutshljtefid fs puggfid lj terhude mik hutsefifid tefs mik mgg htejr
ijdmtfvj ojjgfids.
Ms F gjmvj tej rhhl ougg ho rhnht pmrts mik bufcj, F ofik temt F'l
cghsjr th mi jxft orhl tefs pgmcj temi F tehudet1 F cmi sjj m strhid
gfdet surjgy chlfid orhl bust mrhuik m ojw lhrj chrijrs. F rui
jxcftjkgy terhude terjj rhhls, nut tej ijxt rhhl fs ofggjk wfte tejomcjs ho bust mnhut twjity sgjjpfid drjji gmkfjs shljehw nufgt fith
tej oghhr.
F tfpthj njtwjji tej gmkfjs' omcjs ms F ihtj temt jmce wjmrs mi
fkjitfcmggy-pmfitjk jxtrjlj mik jxhtfc kfspgmy ho lmajup. Ms F sthp
th jxmlfij tej lmajup hi hij omcj ijmr tej rhhl's cjitjr, ft
sukkjigy mwmajs wfte wfkj jyjs mik njdfis th serfja. Ms mgg htejromcjs mwmaj, tejy jmce mgsh njdfi serfjafid. Orustrmtjk, F dfvj up
hi tfpthjfid mik bust wmga ohrwmrk hut ho tefs rhhl. F tefia F lmy
jvji emvj stjppjk hi pmrt ho hij ho tej omcjs hi ly wmy hut.
]ufcagy ohrdjttfid mnhut tefs sftumtfhi, tehude, F ruse pmst m ojw
lhrj chrijrs mik ml surprfsjk ny m djitgj sprfid nrjjzj chlfid
orhl njghw mik mgg mrhuik lj, ms F ml jxftfid mi mppmrjit cmvj hi m
ghw efgg fi m nrfdetgy drjji mik yjgghw ohrjst. F ml surj ft wms omgg
njohrj F cmlj khwi, hr hvjr, hr ehwjvjr F dht ejrj. Mgtehude, F'l
iht sh surj temt F sehugki't qujstfhi ly ljlhry fo sh luce F
tehudet F aijw ems njji cmst fith khunt jvji wftefi tej gmst emgo
ehur.
F ml stmrtgjk th ojjg shljhij mpprhmce orhl njefik lj, nut tejy
prhcjjk th spjma shhtefidgy jihude ohr lj th mvhfk rjmctfid
bjrafidgy, ms tejy tmaj ly emik mik cmrjss ft, smyfid, "See... F ml
ejrj." F turi mrhuik th sjj m gmky ho mppmrjitgy Jmstjri Msfmi
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kjscjit weh ems m slfgfid mik ejmvfgy chlohrtfid prjsjicj.
[efs gmky sghwgy gjmks lj khwi tej ghw efgg njohrj us mik up stmfrs
temt wfik mrhuik m ijmrny vjry tmgg rjkwhhk-gfaj trjj, th m lmajsefoteut kjchrmtjk wfte pmrts ho hgk pgmstfc khggs hi tej fisfkj. F ml m
gfttgj ojmroug ho tejsj ejfdets, nut, ohr shlj rjmshi, F wehggy trust
tefs whlmi. Sej gfjs lj khwi hi m tmngj pmkkjk wfte drjji pgmstfc-
chmtjk ohml th dfvj lj tej lhst shhtefid lmssmdj F'vj jvjr ojgt.
Motjr m ojw lfiutjs ho tefs ngfss, F ejmr ejr dfvj hut m thrturjk
scrjml. F qufcagy turi th sjj ejr qufcagy jvmphrmtfid. Sej fsslfgfid lhrj ejmrtfgy temi njohrj, tehude, ms sej wmvjs mik gmudes
m gfttgj wefgj kfsmppjmrfid. F supphsj ejr scrjml wms m wjfrk bhaj
ho shrts.
M gfttgj semajitehude F'l njchlfid ficrjmsfidgy gjss surprfsjk ny
strmidj tefids emppjifid ejrj, F cmutfhusgy kjscjik nmca khwi
tej ghid lmajsefot, rfcajty stmfrwmy temt gjk lj th tefs fitjrjstfidtrjj ehusj. F higy ihw rjmgfzj ehw phhrgy structurjk mik kmidjrhus
tejsj stmfrs mrj, tehude, sh F ml omr lhrj cmutfhus hi tejl temi F
wms njohrj.
Ms F ofimggy rjmce drhuik gjvjg mdmfi, F ghha up th mssjss tej ejfdet F
bust kjscjikjk. F ihtfcj teji temt tejrj mrj euts gfaj tej hij kfrjctgy
mnhvj lj fi jvjry slmgg th dfdmitfc drjji- mik yjgghw-gjmvjk trjj
temt F cmi sjj. Ms F wmga hi, tehude, F ijjk th ghha khwi fistjmk ho
up, sficj F ihtfcj temt tej drhuik njohrj lj fs drmkumggy higy
ficrjmsfidgy sghpfid khwiwmrk.
Jvji wefgj tej stjjpijss njohrj lj higy ourtejr ficrjmsjs, F
shljehw lmimdj iht th sgfp khwi tefs gjmo-chvjrjk sghpj. Tefgj F
ohcus hi lmfitmfifid cmrjoug ohhtfid, tehude, F kh emppji th ihtfcj
temt tej hrmidj-nrhwi gjmvjs chmtfid tej drhuik mrj hma jvji wefgj
ihij ho tej trjjs mnhvj mrj hma. F shhi rjmce gjvjg drhuik mdmfi,
ehwjvjr, mik ofik m chlpgjtjgy kfoojrjit afik ho ohrjst njohrj lj.
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[ej ohrjst fi orhit ho lj ficgukjs trjjs ho mgg shrts, orhl kjcfkuhus
th chifojrhus th m ojw buidgj-gfaj trjjs wfte eudj nrhwi-hrmidj
truias mik kmra drjji, sefiy, tefca gjmvjs sphttjk wfte dehst-weftjpmgl-sfzjk khts. F mgsh ihtfcj shlj miflmgs ejrj mik tejrj,
sjjlfidgy efkfid fi semky sphts. [ejy jmce mppjmr cmgl mik
emrlgjss, temiaouggy.
Ms F wmga hi, tej ofrst typj ho miflmg F lmaj hut ghhas gfaj m
rjgmtfvjgy lfifmturj amidmrhh. F teji ihtfcj squfrrjgs wfte vjry ghid
tmfgs curgjk fith sjvjrmg-gjvjg spfrmgs wfte shlj spmcj fi njtwjjijmce gjvjg. Ourtejr hi, F wmga pmst m dfdmitfc rmvji-typj nfrk th ly
rfdet, stmrfid ofxjkgy mejmk, iht sjjlfid th ihtfcj ljhr cmrj temt
F'l ejrj. F chitfiuj hi sghwgy mik qufjtgy sh ms th mvhfk tefs dfmit
nfrk's mttjitfhiF'l surj ft chugk jmt lj fo ft wmitjk th.
Chitfiufid mejmk, F shhi ejmr m strmidj, cgjmrgy-vhfcjk "ljhw" fi m
ghw, dmrdgy, mik jcehjy vhfcj. F ghha up th sjj m strmidj cghwi-gfajhrmidj, nrhwi, mik rjk pguse hwg weh lust emvj uttjrjk tefs. Ny
tefs phfit F bust rhgg ly jyjswms tejrj miy purphsj ohr tefs8
Mgtehude, lmynj tejrj fs mik F bust khi't uikjrstmik.
F ihtfcj temt F'vj njji stmrtfid th ohgghw m pmte, mik F shhi rjmce mi
fitjrsjctfhi wfte mihtejr pmte. Crhssfid fi orhit ho lj, F emvj th
wmft ohr m tmgg, pfd-gfaj lmi weh druits mik lhmis, ghhafid gfaj ej
fs iht tryfid th rui omst mt mggtehude ej lflfcs shlj djsturjs ho
ruiifid, suce ms fi gjttfid efs mrls swfid ogmccfkgy.
F emvj njji wmftfid ohr mt gjmst emgo m lfiutj ms tefs eudj lmi
weh temiaouggy khjsi't mppjmr terjmtjifidficejs gfttgj ny gfttgj
hiwmrk, nghcafid ly wmy. F supphsj F chugk lhvj mrhuik tej pmte,
nut tej trjjs emvj stmrtjk th drhw vjry tefca ejrj, mik F khi't wmit th
hoojik tefs pfd lmi.
F ojjg shlj ejmvy nrjmtefid hi ly ijca mik ihtfcj temt shljhij
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jgsj fs wmftfid njefik lj, ms fo mt m trmoofc gfdet. Ft fs mi
mpprhxflmtjgy ofotjji-ohht sghwgy-pmitfid phtmth-gfaj, nfrk-gfaj
crjmturj fi tej sempj ho m eudj ehur-dgmsstehude efs thp emgo, higy
m ejmk, fs sgfdetgy slmggjr temi efs jihrlhus thrsh temt fs supphrtjkny tefca nfrk gjds mglhst ms ghid ms efs nhky. F'vj emk jihude ho
tefs, sh, ih ghidjr cmrfid mnhut hoojikfid tej pfd lmihr tefs
phtmth nfrk, F squjjzj terhude tej ihw lhstgy buidgj-gfaj trjjs ho
mgg kfoojrjit shrts mik cut mrhuik tej nghcajk pmte fitjrsjctfhi.
Ms F ml hoo tej pmte ohr bust m gfttgj wefgj, F sjj mi jihrlhus
luserhhl sempjk gfaj m ohml sphrts omi emt, tehude ft fs mnhut tjiojjt tmgg mik, mt fts rhuikjk phfit, jfdet ojjt wfkj. Ft ems fitrfcmtj
pmttjris lhstgy ohrlfid m spfrmg rfid mrhuik m omcj temt ghhas gfaj ft
fs fi drjmt pmfi. Njijmte tej luserhhl fs m lmi gyfid hi efs
sthlmce fi hrkjr th wjmr tefs ms m emt. F kfk iht sjj efl mt ofrst
njcmusj efs omcj fs pmfitjk ngmca.
F cmtce lysjgo rhggfid ly jyjs mdmfi mik djitgy mklhifse lysjgo,rjlfikfid lysjgo th ajjp mi hpji lfik, ehwjvjr sfggy tefs mgg lmy
sjjl. F turi nmca hith tej pmte mik ojjg prhvji rfdet th emvj thgk
lysjgo th cmgl khwi, ms F shhi ihtfcj m shhtefidgy pjmcjoug scjij
njohrj lj2 m gmrdj ijst ofggjk wfte sjvjrmg cukkgfid sgjjpfid zjnrms,
hi tej jkdj ho m ofjgk temt ghhas gfaj m smvmiim. [efs whrgk fs iht mgg
bust sfggy, ms F dujss F aijw njohrj weji F wms lhrj tjrrfofjk temi
mlusjk mik sjlf-miihyjk. Mik, F supphsj "sfggy" fs vjry sunbjctfvj
miywmy.
Njohrj tej jkdj ho tej smvmiim gfjs m slmgg nrfdetgy cgjmr phik, th
tej gjot ho tej pmte. Jitrmicjk ny shlj shuik, F dh th wmga mghid fts
jkdj mik sjj temt ft fs gmrdjr temi ft mt ofrst mppjmrjk, curgfid njefik
shlj trjjs. Mt fts cjitjr, F sjj m gmky chvjrjk fihr lmkj hopfia
mik yjgghw oghwjr pjkmgs kmicfid wefgj oghmtfid fi tej mfr mnhvj tej
wmtjr, mik sfidfid shlj fitjisjgy ljggfoguhus ljghky temt F chugk
flmdfij njghidfid th jicemitjk sfrjis ho Drjja lytehghdy. [eji, F
ihtfcj hi tej sejjt-rhca nhtthl ho tej phik m slmgg lmi slfgfidgy
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mpprjcfmtfid tej lusfc mppmrjitgy suid ohr efl.
F ml sukkjigy aihcajk hoo ly ojjt, tehude, ny m lmi weh ghhas th
nj orhl shlj mnhrfdfimg trfnj, efs tmi safi chvjrjk ny shlj gjmtejr,nut lhstgy ojmtejrs mik rjk, yjgghw, mik nguj pmfit. Tfkj-jyjk,
ogmppfid efs emiks, mik pusefid efs thiduj up mik khwi fi njtwjji
efs tjjte mik uppjr gfp, ej ehps orhl sfkj th sfkj, ghhafid gfaj m
kmicfid lmrfhijttj, tryfid th drjjt lj F supphsj, motjr purphsjgy
aihcafid lj hvjr.
Ms F run ly ejmk th cejca ohr miy pmfi, F ejmr m ghw rulngfidchlfid orhl njefik lj temt stjmkfgy ficrjmsjs ms mgg mrhuik suntgy
semajs. Njohrj F cmi turi ly ejmk th ghha njefik lj, tehude, F ml
ijmrgy trmlpgjk, wefgj tefs trfnmg lmi fs mctumggy trmlpgjk
ehpjouggy mccfkjitmggyny m lmi krjssjk bust gfaj efl nut emvfid m
gfhi's nhky. [efs gfhi lmi ghukgy nghws terhude mi jgjpemit tusa-
typj ehri, mppmrjitgy cmggfid lmiy htejr lji ho efs "trfnj" weh
shhi mppjmr mik nhw khwi th lj, wfkj-jyjk, ogmppfid tejfr emiks,mik pusefid tejfr thidujs up mik khwi fi njtwjji tejfr tjjte mik
uppjr gfps.
[ej gfhi-lmi ghhas ehrrfofjk ms ej ofimggy rjmgfzjs temt ej ems
trmlpgjk mik smt hi tej ofrst trfnmg ljlnjr F ljt, qufcagy lhvfid
hoo ho efl. F teji rjmgfzj temt F ml surprfsjk th higy emvj ejmrk
Jidgfse sphaji sh omr fi tefs whrgk, ms tej gfhi lmi smys temt ej fs
"ehrrfngy shrry" th tej htejr trfnj ljlnjr. [ejtemiaouggy
sjjlfidgy uieurtsmt-hi trfnmg ljlnjr rjsphiks ny smyfid
"Vjssfduenudmnhh", tehude.
Ms tej lji chitfiuj th prmfsj lj ohr shlj rjmshi, F rjmgfzj ihw temt
tej ghw mik stjmkfgy ficrjmsfid rulngfid F ihtfcjk njohrj fs higy
ourtejr ficrjmsfid mik gjss mik gjss suntgy semafid mgg mrhuik lj.
_jry shhi, F ml surrhuikjk ny m eudj stmlpjkj ho miflmgs bulpfid
hvjr mik mgg mrhuik lj, orhl eudj cmts th zjnrms th gjhpmrks, gfhis,
mik kjjr. F crhuce fith m nmgg, wmftfid ohr tej jik ho tej stmlpjkj,
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pjjafid terhude ly emiks jvjry ojw sjchiks. F ihtfcj temt tej trfnj
ems kfsmppjmrjk nut temt, temiaouggy, tej ihfsj ho tej stmlpjkj
sjjls th nj lhvfid mwmy orhl lj.
Motjr m ojw lhrj sjchiks ho wmftfid, F ml gjot fi m cghuk ho kust kud
up orhl tej smvmiim fi orhit ho lj. [ejrj's ih hij gjot mrhuik
ljjvji tej oghwjr gmky mik ejr lusj emvj kfsmppjmrjk. M
sukkji ojjgfid ho kjsjrtfhi hvjrtmajs lj mik lhtfvmtjs lj th
jijrdjtfcmggy sprfit th cemsj motjr tej tmfg jik ho tej stmlpjkj.
[ej miflmgs pugg jxphijitfmggy ourtejr mik ourtejr mwmy orhl lj,tehude, mik F qufcagy ghsj nrjmte mik ml ohrcjk th rjst1 F bust ml iht
mtegjtfc. Mik, weji F ofimggy ojjg gjss kfzzy mik lhrj mngj th
nrjmtej, F sjj temt tej stmlpjkj ems shljehw dhij omr pmst wejrj F
cmi sjj. F ojjg kfsmpphfitjknut iht ohr ghid. F shhi njdfi th lmaj
hut wemt ghhas th nj shlj shlj prjsjrvjk hgk cfty vjry luce gfaj
mi Hgk Tjst orhitfjr thwi, gyfid hi tej ehrfzhi.
F rjmggy ml tfrjk ho wmgafid, nut F lmaj ft th tej thwi motjr higy m
ojw lfiutjs ho trukdfid ojjt. Ms F jitjr tej sjjlfid cfty gflfts, F
emppfgy ihtfcj temt mgg tej miflmgs F smw njohrj mrj jibhyfid m slmgg
wmtjr pmra ourtejr fi. [efs wmtjr pmra ems ih cgjmr wmtjr tehude
higy kfoojrjit chghrs mik chisfstjicfjs ho shlj sgukdj temt jvjryhij
fs spgmsefid fi mik terhude, khwi sgfkjs, fi phhgs, mik hi fiogmtmngj
tunjs terhude nufgt strjmls. Mik, lfxjk fi wfte tej sgukdj mrj tfiy
nmnfjs temt ghha vjry luce gfaj tej nhy weh jxpghkjk jmrgfjr. F'l
ehpfid tejsj mrj rhnhts ms wjgg.
Ms F ml sgfdetgy kfsdustjk ny tefs, F lhvj pmst tefs "wmtjr" pmra th
tej htejr sfkj ho tej cfty, wejrj, bust pmst fts gflfts, tejrj gfjs wemt
sjjls th nj m lfifmturj kjsjrt higy mnhut hij squmrj lfgj fi mrjm.
Chitfiufid th wmga hi, iht omr fith tefs "kjsjrt", F dh up th shlj
strmidj miflmg sfttfid njijmte m pmgl trjj ijxt th hij ho tej trfnmg
ljimi mkugt-eulmi-sfzjk kfihsmur-gfaj gfzmrk. Shljehw
uisurprfsfidgy, tej trfnmg lmi swfotgy njdfis sgfcfid tefs miflmg hpji
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th rjvjmg mihtejr prjefsthrfc-ghhafid miflmg m gfttgj gfaj mi mggfdmthr.
Ej teji cuts temt hpji th rjvjmg shlj jxtfict-ghhafid kmra mik
sefiy, sgfca mik sgfly, frfkjscjit sjm-gfaj crjmturj temt squfrls mik
wfddgjs. Ej cuts temt hpji, mik mi jxphsjk vjry pmgj mik sgjikjrimajk eulmi lmi ruis mwmy.
Ms F ml mt m ghss ohr whrks, Fshljehw ficrjmsfidgy gjss tfrjkgy
lhvj hi orhl tefs mrjm th tej htejr sfkj ho tej kjsjrt njohrj lj.
Tefgj F khi't aihw wemt th lmaj ho wemt bust emppjijk, F slfgj th
lysjgo mik ojjg surprfsfidgy thgjrmit mik hpji-lfikjk, nut F ojjg ms
fo F lmy nj dhfid fismij.
F shhi rjmce wemt ghhas th nj m lfspgmcjk sprmwgfid hgk
Ihrtejmstjri cfty pmra temt ghhas vjry luce gfaj pmrts ho Cjitrmg
Pmra fi Ijw Vhra Cfty. Fi tej ijmr kfstmicj F sjj m gmky wfte simfgs
mttmcejk th ejr ejmk krfvfid m vjry lhkjri cmr fi cfrcgjs, wfkj-jyjk
mik wfte mi uiwmvjrfid drfi. F lhvj mwmy orhl ejr, tehude tryfid
iht th bukdj, mik dh hvjr th m njice wejrj mihtejr gmky fs cryfid. Frjmce th chlohrt ejr, nut sej scrjmls hut ho tjrrhr mik ruis mwmy.
Ms m cghwi wfte emfr mogmlj shhi gjfsurjgy wmgas ny lj, F mdmfi ojjg
temt F emvj th supprjss mt gjmst m ojjgfid ho flpmtfjicj. F stmy hi tej
njice th rjst ly gjds mik try th dmtejr ly tehudets.
Shhi, m nus mrrfvjs, ms tefs fs mppmrjitgy m nus sthp. Fts orhit fs
gmnjgjk "Cefim" mik, hut orhl tej sfkj khhr, sjvjrmg cemrmctjrs jxft2
m njmr wfte m cghsjk lhute mik sjrfhus ghha, m lmi krjssjk ms Mnj
Gfichgi nut wfte mi jxtrjljgy tmgg thp emt, mi hgk whlmi imajk nut
wrmppjk fi m eudj krmpfid ngmiajt, mik m omt lmi fi efs twjitfjs
krjssjk higy fi kfmpjrs mik ngmca krjss sehjs.
F mvhfk tejsj pjhpgj ny prjtjikfid temt F fitjikjk th jitjr tej
_fcthrfmi-stygj dmrkjis njefik tej njice mt tej lhljit tej nus
cmlj1 F khi't aihw ehw tefs whugk lmaj sjisj, nut F supphsj ft
lfdet fi tefs whrgk. Ms F ghha mrhuik tej wfikfid ejkdjs, stmtujs,
ohuitmfis, oghwjrs, mik wmggs, F ihtfcj temt F ml njfid ohgghwjk. F
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turi mrhuik th sjj m terjj-ohht-tmgg weftj lhte slfgfid wefgj
sucafid hi m rjk ghggfphp ohgghwfid jmce ho ly stjps, tehude m ojw
ojjt njefik lj. F fdihrj tefs crjmturj ohr m wefgj nut teji ofimggy
ojjg tej ijjk th lmaj chivjrsmtfhi, smyfid "Tejrj kfk yhu djttemt8"
Chitfiufid th slfgj, fi mi midjgfc cefgk-gfaj vhfcj, tej lhte rjpgfjs,
"Bjsus."
[efs lmajs lj slfgj mdmfi, mik F rjmgfzj temt F emvj yjt th ofik
shlj sjlngmicj ho uiemppfijss fi tefs pgmcj, ehwjvjr sjjlfidgykjrmidjk tej emppfijss F ihtfcj mgg mrhuik lj lfdet nj.
Ho chursj, tej lhte teji jxpghkjs fith spmragy kust. Ms F lhvj th
mvhfk djttfid luce ho tej kust hi lj ms ft sghwgy oghmts khwi mgg
mrhuik, F ofik lysjgo fi m sjctfhi ho tej dmrkji ofggjk wfte hgkjr
whlji ho kfoojrjit spjcfjs emvfid m tjm pmrty.
Fi tej chrijr ho tefs mrjm wmggjk-fi ny ijmtgy-trflljk ejkdjs mik
sthij wmggs ho kfoojrjit stygjs, F sjj m gmky stmrtfid th shljehw ljgt.
Ijxt th ejr, ft sjjls m ogutfst mik m pjrcussfhifst wjrj mitfcfpmtfid
tefs jvjit, ms tejy njdfi pgmyfid lusfc rjogjctfid tej ehrrhr ho wemt
jvjryhij fi tej pmrty fs wftijssfid. [ej ogutfst wmfgs, lhmis, ehwgs,
mik swhhps terhudehut tej fistruljit's rmidj ho shuiks, wefgj tej
pjrcussfhifst higy cgmps, simps, mik cgfcas efs thiduj fi kfoojrjit
wmys. [ejsj lusfcfmis mppjmr th nj orhd-gfaj jxtrm-tjrrjstrfmgs
wefgj tej gmky fs eulmi-gfaj.
"Khi't whrry, afik sfr, F'gg nj nmca ijxt wjja. F bust ijjk th sgjjp m
wefgj," tej ljgtfid gmky smys th lj, sficj F'l surj F ghha fi rjgmtfvj
sehca. Ejr omcfmg ojmturjs shhi ljgt fith drhtjsquj sempjs temt
whugk nj ficmpmngj ho prhkucfid spjjce, tehude. Sej teji qufcagy
njchljs m pukkgj temt chitfiujs th sprjmk mik teji krfp khwi m
sjwjr. [ej ogutfst mik pjrcussfhifst emvj khij mi mkjqumtj bhn ho
"schrfid" tefs scjij mik ofifse wfte m ghuk mik efde ogutj swhhp mik
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m ghuk cgmp sflugtmijhus wfte m ghukjr thiduj cgfca. Tfkj-jyjk
drjji mpjs shhi chlj mik gfca up wemt rjlmfis ho tej gmky temt
kfki't krfp khwi tej sjwjr.
Ms tej mpjs gjmvj smtfsofjk, ruiifid bust ms tejy cmlj, twh wjjpy
rhtuik nfrks orhl thwmrk tej nmca ho tej dmrkji pmrtynjefik
htejr nfrks, nmkdjrs, rmnnfts, emwas, mik htejr spjcfjssghwgy
mpprhmce tej mrjm wejrj tej ljgtfid gmky hicj sthhk. [ejy emvj fi
emik shlj sejjt lusfc th rjojr th ms tejy njdfi th wmfgfidgy sfid.
Hij ho tejl njdfis sfidfid whrkgjss lhurioug lusfcmg lhtfhis,lhstgy mscjikfid mik kjscjikfid scmgjs mik mrpjddfhs temt shuik
gfaj tejy mrj tmaji orhl shlj typj ho trmkftfhimg shid orhl tej
Lfkkgj Jmst. [ej whrkjk ljghky temt tej htejr nfrk stmrts th sfid fs
ho m chitrmstfid stygj, ehwjvjr2
"F ghvj tej tmstj ho kjmte ho gfoj fi tej lhrifid jvjrgmstfid, sfidfid m
shid ho bustfcj fi tej prfkjoug ihrlfid tjmrs, orhgfcajk m gm Lmrcfmnhri hi nmrijk uphi fts omcj mik cmggfid ho m pmrt sh wjmrywemt
wj mgg m'cmgg ft nj. Teji mgg tej bmcas mrj sthwjk mik ejllfjs
ogmwjk, sgmfi mrj ormsfjr pjppjrchris temt gfj fi nj'iflngj smssmorms
ghcajk hi yhur nrmfi."
Ms wjjpfidgy ms tejy cmlj, tej nfrks jxft th tej nmca ho tej mrjm
ofggjk wfte cemfrs mik lmiy ojlmgj spjcfjs. F ihw ihtfcj m
dmrkjijrmi hgk, drulpy-sjjlfid, eulmi lmiweh wms njefik
lj, ms ej njdfis th druitfidgy spjma, "[ejy mrj shhhh krmlmtfc!
[efs emppjis jvjry wjja!"
F ijrvhusgy slfgj mik qufcagy nut qufjtgy jxft tefs mrjm. F teji wmga
hi terhude tej dmrkji thwmrk tej sfkj hpphsftj orhl wejrj F
jitjrjk.
Ms F jxft tej dmrkji, F chlj th mi hpji mrjm mglhst fkjitfcmg th wemt
nhrkjrjk tej dmrkji wejrj F jitjrjk. Nut, ejrj, tejrj fs m trmfi sthp
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rmtejr temi m nus sthp, m sflpgj njice mghid tej hutsfkj ho trmcas
wejrj m trmfi fs sghwgy mpprhmcefid orhl tej omr gjot.
Ms F turi ly ejmk orhl tej trmfi, tehude, F ihtfcj m tmgg drjji gfzmrkmik pmikm njmr sjlf-slfgfidgy wmvfid mik ruiifid thwmrk lj orhl
tej omr rfdet, th tej rfdet ho tej trmfi trmcas temt curvj hoo thwmrk tej
ehrfzhi njohrj lj.
[ejy sehut hut "Ejy! Ejy! Ejy!" hvjr mik hvjr, tehude wfte shlj
pmusjs ejrj mik tejrj, uitfg tejy rjmce lj.
"...Ef."
"Mrj yhu ijw ejrj8" tej gfzmrk msas.
Fitjrruptfid efl, tej pmikm smys, "Ho chursj ej's ijwmik ej's
hnvfhusgy bust vfsftfid. Ml F rfdet8"
"...Vjs."
"Tjgg, [fl, fs ft8"
"...Ehw kfk yhu aihw8"
"Vhu'rj wjmrfid m imlj tmd."
F bust rjljlnjr temt F ijvjr thha hoo m imlj tmd orhl m stukjit
mssjlngy F mssfstjk bust njohrj dyl cgmss.
"Heee... F tehudet yhu wjrj rjmkfid ly lfik."
"Ih, wj cmi't kh temt ejrj, nut wj mrj m typj temt prfkjs hursjgvjs hi
njfid hpji-lfikjk nut mgsh sajptfcmg ho tefids ho mgg imturjs."
"Tjgg, F dujss temt's dhhk! F'l ojjgfid m nft sajptfcmg mnhut
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jvjrytefid thkmy... Jvjrytefid F aihwhr aijwF supphsj."
[ej gfzmrk cefljs fi, "Tjgg, ljjt temt emgowmy wfte shljtefid th
rjpgmcj wemt yhu aijwwemt fs truj fistjmk. Nut, teji mdmfi, mgshqujstfhi wemt yhu dujss temt lfdet nj!"
"...Hamy. Sh wemt mrj yhur imljs8"
[ej pmikm mdmfi tmajs hvjr tej chivjrsmtfhi, smyfid, "Tjgg, wj
khi't emvj imljs. Miywmy, wj wmitjk th sehw yhu m nft mrhuik
ejrj."
"Tj smw yhu wmikjrfid mik tehudet wj lfdet wmit th kh
shljtefid dhhk ohr m strmidjr, jspjcfmggy sficj wj wjrj bust
wmikjrfid hursjgvjs fi m gmik wj mgrjmky aihwmgtehude, wj khi't
cjrtmfigy aihw miytefid."
"Mik, wj tehudet lmynj wj chugk 'gjmri' shljtefid orhl yhu.Ejrj's tej trmfi, chlj hi!"
Tj ruse up th tej trmfi ms ft sthps fi orhit ho tej njice m nft th hur
gjot. Fts orhit fs mi GCK kfspgmy ho m orhwifid yjt mttrmctfvj whlmi,
nut tej trmfi fs htejrwfsj hgk-omsefhijk mik trmkftfhimg jxcjpt ohr tej
cjitfpjkj gjds temt lhvj fttehude ft khjs puoo hut slhaj hi thp.
Ms tej trmfi whlmi sjjs us, turifid ejr ejmk th us, sej njdfis
slfgfid mik tej trmfi sghws th m sthp.
Ms wj nhmrk, wj mrj drjjtjk ny stjwmrkjssjs weh mrj ojlmgj spfkjr-
gfaj crjmturjs, spfkjrs wfte jxtrm gjds mgg hvjr tejfr uprfdet nhkfjs
temt mrj luce gmrdjr temi miy "ihrlmg" spfkjr's. [ejsj jxtrm gjds
mrj lhstgy sehrtjr temi tejfr lmfi jfdet mik sjjl shljehw lhstgy
kjchrmtfvj. Mthp tejfr ejmkswefce mrj pgmcjk mt m ljrj
fitjrsjctfhi ho lmiy gjds wejrj tejfr mnsjit cjitjr whugk sjjl th
"ihrlmggy" nj, tejy emvj emfr lmkj ho lmiy sehrt mik tefi gjds.
[ejy drjjt us fi shlj nfzmrrj gmidumdj ho nuzzfid mik scrjmlfid,
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tehude tejy ghha pgjmsmit jihude.
Ms wj squjjzj ny tejsj lmiy slfgfid, hpji-lhutejk, mik fitjisjgy
ngfiafid crjmturjs, wj ofik tej trmfi th nj lhstgy jlpty nut ohrshlj qufjt-sjjlfid crjmturjs, shlj ho wehl mrj luce udgfjr temi
miy F emvj sjji njohrj. (Mgtehude, tefs "udgfijss" F supphsj fs ms
sunbjctfvj ms wemt F chisfkjr th nj "ihrlmg".) Hij ho tejsj "udgy"
crjmturjs fs m lmi weh sjjls th nj chlphsjk higy ho rhttjk tulhrs
wfte m omcj cut-hut gfaj m bmca-h-gmitjri. Tj mvhfk sfttfid ijmr efl,
mik F khi't tefia tefs fs crujg1 F bust khi't wmit th vhlft, jtcjtjrm.
"Sh ehw emvj tefids njji sh omr8" tej gfzmrk msas.
"Tjgg, ft wms rjmggy scmry mt ofrst, teji tefs ifcj gmky cmlj th chlohrt
lj... ...mik jvmphrmtjk."
M lmgj orhd crjmturj ijmrny hvjrejmrs tefs mik fs shljehw sgfdetgy
frrftmtjk, smyfid, "Tmtjr khjsi't jvmphrmtj! Temt mrj yhu tmgafidmnhut8!"
"...Tmtjr khjsi't jvmphrmtj ejrj8"
[ej orhd crjmturj teji swfotgy rjpgfjs, "Temt8 Ho chursj ft khjs..."
Kfrjctfid ly chivjrsmtfhi nmca th tej pmikm mik gfzmrk, ms tej orhd
lmi stmrts th omgg msgjjp, F smy, "...Shljtfljs ft sjjls F uikjrstmik
ehw tefids whra ejrj, mik teji F djt chlpgjtjgy terhwi hoomik
shljtfljs miihyjk."
[ej pmikm chlohrtfidgy smys, "Tj'gg tmga mnhut tefs gmtjr1 F emvj
shlj tefids F'k gfaj th tjgg yhu mik sehw yhu gmtjr."
"Teji8"
"Tjgg, tejrj's m chicjrt temt F'k gfaj th sehw yhu, teji hur drmiklm,
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mik teji wj cmi tmga mnhut tefids gfaj tefs."
"Hamy."
"Ft whugk nj njttjr th kfscuss tejsj lhrj pefghshpefcmg tefids gmtjr,
mik motjr yhu'vj sjji lhrj ho hur whrgk."
F tjgg tej pmikm mik gfzmrk ijmrgy jvjrytefid mnhut ly trfp hi hur
wmy "khwithwi", hur kjstfimtfhi ms kjscrfnjk ny tej jxcftjk spfkjr
whlji. Tj pmss terhude lhstgy swmlps mik mik htejr typjs ho
wjtgmiks, lhst ihtmngy m ogmt mik pfiafse lmrsey mrjm wejrj tejhigy "trjjs" mrj ficrjkfngy, vjry tmgg nmlnhh-fse pgmits, stfca-gfaj
njmls temt drhw fi cgustjrs mik ohrl drhups temt, mt ofrst dgmicj,
sjjl th nj tej truias ho wfkjr trjjs.
Tj mrj gjt hoo "khwithwi", mi mrjm temt ghhas luce gfaj mi hgk
^hlmi cfty mik mpprhprfmtjgy fi rufis. Efde wmggs ohgghw mrhuik
tej spfrmg-sempjk sthij strjjts mgg tej wmy th tej cfty's cjitjr temtgfjs mt fts ghwjst phfit, structurjs cgflnfid upwmrk hutwmrk orhl
tejrj, tej wehgj cfty's gmikscmpj cgfidfid th fts uikjrgyfid stjjp
vmggjy. [ej chicjrt F mdrjjk th mttjik wfgg pgmy mt m tejmtrj fi tej
ejmrt ho tej khwithwi.
Ms wj wmga mghid tej spfrmg cfty wmggstemt emvj pmtes hi thp ho
tejl, mgg pmrt ho tej smlj spfrmg mik gjmkfid th tej cjitjr ho
khwithwi, wj ihtfcj mi hidhfid "pmrmkj". F rjqujst temt wj sthp
mik wmtce, tehude tejrj fs ih hij jgsj wmtcefid.
[wh pjhpgj wfte serfvjgjk mik seruiaji ejmks lmrce fi orhit ho m
lmi wfte m chlpgjtjgy rhuik ejmk ms gmrdj ms m rhuikjk trjj, efs
omcj strjtcejk hut mcrhss tefs ejmk wfte m nugnhus ihsj mik sfggy
cghsjk-lhute drfi. Efs nhky fs sflfgmrgy rhuik nut ihtmngy slmggjr
temi whugk "ihrlmggy" nj chisfkjrjk prhphrtfhimtj. Efttfid efs
ejmk hi mi mrcewmy m ojw ojjt sehrtjr temi eflsjgo, shlj ho efs
ejmk, lmkj ho m drmpjoruft-gfaj sunstmicj, rfps hoo. Shlj ho efs
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ejmk stfcas th tej mrcewmy mik shlj omggs th tej drhuik, nut ej
chitfiujs th slfgj, uiomzjk tej wehgj tflj.
[erjj vjry sehrt cemrmctjrs ohgghw njefik tefs lmi, hij wfte m ihsjnugnhus nut ghid jihude th ijmrgy thuce tej drhuik fi orhit ho ejr,
hij wfte twh orhit tjjte sflfgmrgy gmrdj mik phsftfhijk, mik hij wfte
jjg-gfaj jmrs ghid jihude th kmidgj mghid tej drhuik njefik tejl.
[efs tefrk cemrmctjr, ehwjvjr, sjjls th nj msgjjp hr kjmk, rhggfid
mghid wefgj prhppjk up hi m wejjgjk phgj sflfgmr th tej samtfid
phgjs F wftijssjk fi tej ofrst mrjm F cmlj mcrhss fi tefs whrgk bust m
ojw ehurs mdh.
Ofimggy, ohgghwfid omr njefik tej htejr cemrmctjrs, m lmi vjry sghwgy
smuitjrs hi wefgj euicejk hvjr gfajgy njcmusj wjfdejk khwi ny
crjscjit-sempjk structurjs buttfid hut orhl uikjr efs cefi mik up
orhl tej thp ho efs ejmk. [ejsj structurjs but hut mt gjmst ofotjji ojjt
fi orhit ho efl mik lust cmusj drjmt prjssurj th nhte wjfde khwi
mik pugg hi efl. Ej ghhas chlpgjtjgy uipmfijk, ehwjvjr, jxphsfidm wfkj sfggy nuca-thhtejk slfgj.
Jvji wefgj tefs lmi khjs lhvj hi vjry sghwgy, ej omfgs th tmaj tej
tflj th kuca njijmte tej mrce temt tej drmpjoruft-gfaj lmi mgsh rmi
fith. Mnhut ofvj ojjt ho efs thp crjscjit structurj crulngjs uphi
efttfid tej mrcewmy, mghid wfte pmrt ho tej mrcewmy, cgjmrgy m
lmtjrfmg higy sgfdetgy gjss kjisj temi tej jimljg-gfaj crjscjit
nrjmafid pmrt ho ft. Bust ms wfte tej drmpjoruft lmi, tefs lhhi lmi
sjjls ijftejr th ihtfcj ihr cmrj mnhut miy ho tefs. Njefik efl,
wemt ems nrhaji hoo orhl efs thp crjscjit structurj wftejrs mik
serfvjgs ms fo uikjr shlj jxtrjljgy nrfdet gfdet, turifid fith bjggy-
chmtjk gjmo-gfaj sunstmicjs.
Ihij ho tejsj cemrmctjrs ghhajk uiemppy, ihr gfaj tejy wjrj
ojfdifid emppfijss. F supphsj lmiy fi ly whrgk pmrmkj wefgj
ojfdifid emppfijss.
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Smrcmstfcmggy, tej gfzmrk smys, "[emt wms jxcftfid..."
[ej pmikm rjsphiks, "He, chlj hitejy trfjk tejfr njst."
Sfkfid wfte tej gfzmrk, F smy, "Vjme... Jspjcfmggy tej hij weh wms
msgjjp hr kjmk..."
Tj mgg gmude, nut wfte ih ljmi-spfrftjkijss.
"[ejy kfk kh tejfr njst, mik ft wms fitjrjstfid," F chicgukj.
Njijmte us, mnhut emgowmy th tej cjitjr ho tej cfty, wj wmga ny m
khhrgjss sthij ehusj wfte m kjmk hcthpus emidfid fi orhit ho ft.
[ej pmikm chlljits, "[ej ehusj hwijr prhnmngy wjts ft jvjry kmy
th ajjp ft orhl kryfid, trjmtfid ft bust gfaj ajjpfid m pgmitfi yhur
whrgk, [fl."
"Ehw kh yhu aihw mnhut ly whrgk8"
"Tj djt mgg shrts ho usjk dhhks orhl yhur whrgk1 wj'rj mwmrj ho
yhu, nut yhu mrji't ho uswjgg, yhu, pjrshimggy, mrj ihw."
"Nut ehw fs temt phssfngj fo tefs fs m kfstfict whrgk8"
"Ho chursj ft's phssfngj!"
[ej wmgg kjscjiks th tej cjitjr ho tej cfty kfrjctgy fi orhit ho tej
tejmtrj, m eudj hgk kmra-whhk lmisfhi wfte surrhuikfid trjjs,
vfijs, mik htejr pgmits drhwfid terhude mik hi ft. Ms wj jitjr, F
ihtfcj jihrlhus cjitfpjkjs ms gmrdj ms tej eudjst trjj rhhts phafid
mik wfddgfid terhude tej wmggs hi tejfr wfddgfid emfry gjds. [ej
ijxt rhhl wj pmss terhude fs, ohr shlj rjmshi, ofggjk wfte cefgkrji's
cghtefid temt emids orhl trmispmrjit strfids mik ljcemifsls temt
lmaj ft ghha ms fo fivfsfngj cefgkrji wfte vfsfngj cghtejs emvj tejfr
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ejmks cgmlpjk th twh phgjs.
"Ihw, TEM[ fs tefs8" F msa.
[ej pmikm rjsphiks, "F khi't aihw," ms tej gfzmrk semajs efs ejmk ms
fo th smy tej smlj.
[ej ijxt rhhl, wefce mppjmrs th nj fi luce njttjr chikftfhi temi
tej rjst ho tej nufgkfid F'vj sjji sh omr, ehusjs m drmik stmfrcmsj
wrmppfid mrhuik emgo ho tej rhhl mik gjmkfid th tej mukfthrful.
[efs "ohyjr" mrjm fs mkhrijk wfte hgk cmrvjk kmra whhk, gmrdjsqumrj ngmca mik weftj tfgjs, mik hgk-omsefhijk gfdetfid. [ej
mukfthrful fs nufgt fi tefs smlj stygj, jxcjpt tej oghhr fs whhk mik
tej nmgchiy mik pjw-gfaj sjmtfid mrj omsefhijk lhrj sflpgy temi F
jxpjctjk.
Ms tej gfdets kfl, m cefgk njmr rjmks m phjl th fitrhkucj tej
chicjrt2
"F wms ghhafid ohr shljtefid, nut F'l iht quftj surj wemt ft wms.
Ft wms hicj vjry ohrjorhit fi ly lfik.
F rjljlnjr mt hij tflj ft wms vjry flphrtmit th lj, nut ft's dhij
ihw1 F'l iht surj wejrj.
F'l iht quftj surj fo F'gg jvjr ofik ft mdmfi.
F wfse F chugk ofik ft nut ofrst rjljlnjr wemt ft wms."
Ih hij cgmps, nut m ojw pjhpgj chude ms ej jxfts.
[ej gfdets dh teji hut mik m sphtgfdet fggulfimtjs m vjry efde
gfojdumrk-gfaj cemfr hi cjitjr stmdj. M gmky fi _fcthrfmi mttfrj
mttjlpts th cgfln tefs, nut tej mppmrjit nmcastmdj crjw ems th chlj
ejgp ejr up. Ms fo tej mukfjicj wjrj ejr afikjrdmrtji cgmss, sej
njdfis rjmkfid th tej mukfjicj m sjjlfid cefgkrji's nhha chlphsjk
jitfrjgy ho ihisjisj whrks.
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Motjr sej ofifsejs rjmkfid tefs sehrt nhha, ms sej trfjs th kjscjik,
sej omggs th tej drhuik, slmcafid ejr ejmk mik crmcafid ft hpji.
Nghhk gjmas mgg hvjr tej stmdj ms rmikhl khds ruse orhl nmcastmdj
th gfca ft up. [ej curtmfis krmw fi orhit ho tej cemfr, nut tej gmky'sgjds mrj stfcafid hut terhude tejl, mik khds chitfiuj th nruse mik
lhvj nmca mik ohrte uikjr tej curtmfis.
[ej gmky fs mppmrjitgy kjmk, nut jvjryhij gmudes.
"...Temt bust emppjijk8" F wefspjr th tej pmikm.
"He, sej'gg nj nmca ijxt lhite."
F ofdurj tefs fs shljtefid gfaj tej ljgtfid gmky, mik F prjsulj tefs
gmky ojgt ms gfttgj pmfi ms tej ljgtfid gmky mppjmrjk th ojjg ms sej
slfgfidgy kfjk. [efs shljehw lmajs sjisj th lj, mik F gjt tefs
fssuj mghij fi ly lfik.
Hicj mgg gfoj mik ihi-gfoj ems njji rjlhvjk orhl tej cjitjr ho tej
stmdj, tej gfdets mrj nrhudet nmca hi. Jxtjikfid orhl hutsfkj tej
rfdet sfkj jitrmicj mt tej orhit ho tej mukfthrful, tejrj stmiks m gfij
ho cemrmctjrs ho mgg kfoojrjit spjcfjs jmce ehgkfid tejfr prfvmtj mrjms
ms fo ijjkfid th usj nmterhhl. [ejrj fs m thfgjt hi stmdj mik tejy mgg
usj ft, mppmrjitgy iht mctfid. Ms usumg, F'l iht surj wemt th lmaj ho
tefs. Hi tej htejr emik, jvjryhij jgsj fi tej mukfjicj sjjls
jlhtfhimggy lhvjk ny tefs mct, cryfid, sifoogfid, hr htejrwfsj
ghhafid thucejk mik shnjrjk.
Ofimggy, hicj tefs fs hvjr, tej tefrk pgmyhr "lhvjljit", hr
wemtjvjrfs pjrohrljk. [wh jihrlhus ngmca-pmfitjk uifcycgjs
mrj rfkkji mrhuik tej stmdj ny gmrdj-lustmcejk thp-emttjk lji
sfttfid hi cemfrs prhppjk uphi tej gmrdj sjmts mnhvj mnhut ofotjji-
ohht wejjgs. Orhl nhte sfkjs ho tej nmcastmdj mppjmr lmiy
mitjmtjrs wfte mxjs mttmcejk th tejfr ejmks weh cehp mt tej stmdj
uitfg ft chggmpsjs. Ofimggy, pjhpgj cgmp, mik wefgj prhvfkfid m
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stmikfid hvmtfhi.
[h jik mgg ho tefs, m gfttgj pjidufi fi kfmpjrs chljs hut fi orhit ho
tej chggmpsjk stmdj, ghhafid ijrvhusgy mnhut tej mukfthrful wefceems qufjtjk mik rj-kmrajijk jxcjpt ohr m sphtgfdet hi efl. Teji m
dfrg chljs orhl nmcastmdj th ehgk tej pjidufi's emik, ej njdfis th
ghha gjss ijrvhus. Zphi cgjmrgy mppjmrfid kjcfkjkgy chlohrtmngj,
tej mukfjicj rhmrs fith mppgmusj wefgj tej dfrg mik pjidufi nhw.
F msa, "Tey mrj tejy nhwfid8" jvji tehude F aihw F whi't rjcjfvj m
sjisfngj (hr, "sjisfngj") miswjr.
Jvjryhij mrhuik lj sjlf-mklhifsefidgy seusejs lj.
Ms tej mppgmusj omkjs, sh khjs tej crhwk, lhstgy jxftfid ny
nrjmafid mik bulpfid hut ho tej stmfijk-dgmss wfikhws. Fo tefs
emppjis jvjry chicjrt, rjpgmcfid tejsj wfikhws (mghid wfte tej
stmdj!) chugk njchlj jxpjisfvj F mssuljtehude iht ijcjssmrfgyvjry luce lhrj sh temi rjpgmcfid slmsefid duftmrs, F supphsj.
[ej gfzmrk, pmikm, mik F kjcfkj th usj tej jxft khhr mik stmfrs. Tj
rjtrmcj hur stjps th tej jkdj ho tej cfty mik sthp ny tej cfty kulp
bust hutsfkj ho ft. F dujss tefs fs pmrt ho tej "thur" F'l njfid prhvfkjk
ny tej gfzmrk mik pmikm.
[ej kulp ftsjgo fs ehusjk wftefi m nufgkfid temt ghhas gfaj m gmrdj
upsfkj-khwi njj's ijst, nut, hicj wj lmaj hur wmy fisfkj, tejrj fs
ih vfsfngj cjfgfidbust m dmrnmdj ceutj orhl omr mnhvj1 ft sjjls F
ml mdmfi "uikjrdrhuik". [ej mrjm mgg mrhuik ghhas vjry luce gfaj
m gmrdj wjgg, nut iht cjljitjk hr wfte sthijs, bust m wmgg ho shfg, mik
mnhut tej cfrculojrjicj ho m rhuikjk mvjrmdj efde scehhg
cgmssrhhl.
Ms wj mrj gjk ny m tfiy simfg "dmtjajjpjr" mrhuik m gjkdj nufgt fith
tej ceutj mt tej smlj gjvjg ms tej jitrmicj, ej fitrhkucjs m rjk-
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fggulfimtjk kfdftmg cghca temt fs euid kfrjctgy mcrhss orhl tej
jitrmicj ny smyfid, "[efs fs ly wfoj, Bjrjly."
Mt frrjdugmr fitjrvmgs, tej cghca cemidjs orhl "42??" th "42:>" th"0200" th "02=0", mik sh hi. F khi't msa mnhut tefs, ms F'vj msajk tej
pmikm mik gfzmrk sh luce mgrjmky wfte suce gfttgj jxpgmimtfhi temt F
cmi lmaj sjisj ho, mik F khi't wmit th sjjl rfdfk fi ly tefiafid, ms
fo mgg lust emvj mi jxpgmimtfhi temt F cmi cgjmrgy uikjrstmik. F ojjg
ms fo F'l drmkumggy gjmrifid th kjjpgy mpprjcfmtj m ijjk ohr nhte
jxtrjlj sajptfcfsl mik hpjiijss, jvji bust hvjr tej pmst ojw ehurs.
F jxmlfij tej trmse njghw lj temt fs ijmrgy ofggjk th tej gjvjg wejrj
wj mrj wmgafid. F ihtfcj temt luce ho tej trmse mppjmrs th nj uiusjk
mik jxpjisfvj ftjls orhl ly whrgk. Teji F msa tej pmikm mik
gfzmrk mnhut tefs, tejy fisfst temt tefs rjousj fs orhl tejfr whrgk
fistjmk. F supphsj mgg tefs stuoo chugk nj orhl tejfr mik/hr ly
whrgk, rjmggy, tehude1 tejy mik/hr F chugk nj wrhid.
F sjj m pgmslm nfd-scrjji [_ njghw lj temt, jvji wefgj iht pguddjk
fi, fs shljehw stfgg pgmyfid m chlljrcfmg wfte m nmny khgg
rjpjmtjkgy mik hnihxfhusgy sfidfid, "Khi't ym wmiim nmny8 F'l m
nmny khgg. Khi't ym wmiim nmny8 F'l m nmny khgg!"
F mgsh ihtfcj lmiy hrcejstrmg lusfcmg fistruljits fi jxcjggjit
chikftfhi jxcjpt ohr shlj nulps mik scrmtcejs orhl mppmrjitgy
njfid krhppjk khwi tej ceutj mnhvj us. Mgtehude, F kh ihtfcj htejr
fistruljits temt lust emvj gmikjk fi wmys mgghwfid tejl th nrjma
hr slmse chlpgjtjgy.
"Temt kh yhu kh wfte tejsj fistruljits8"
[ej dmtjajjpjr rjsphiks, "Fi hur whrgk, wj chha tejsj fistruljits
ho yhurs. Ft's m kjgfcmcy."
"Nut, F tehudet wj bust chiofrljk temt tefs stuoo fs mgg orhl yhur
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whrgk."
[ej pmikm rjsphiks, "Tjgg, ft's lhrj chlpgfcmtjk temi cmi nj jmsfgy
jxpgmfijk, F supphsj."
[ej dmtjajjpjr chitfiujs, "Tj djt fistruljits kjgfvjrjk orhl mgg
hvjr tej... yhurwhrgk. Nut, cejmp rjstmurmits lmaj tejfr hwihut
ho pfij chijs, semvji stfcas, ehgghwjk drmss, mik luserhhls. Mik,
shlj mrj lmkj hut ho pmis mik/hr tunjs mik ofggjk wfte wmtjr."
Chitfiufid hi wfte jiteusfmsl, "Hij typj wj lmaj ghhas gfaj mohuitmfi spfggfid orhl m tunj fi tej cjitjr ho m nhwg surrhuikjk ny
mihtejr nhwg1 ft ems ehgjs yhu cmi chvjr fi kfoojrjit pmttjris ms yhu
eft tej sfkj ho tej nhwgs wfte stfcas. Mihtejr fs m cygfikrfcmg emrp
temt wrmps mrhuik twh ejmks ho safi krmwi uphi cfrcgjs chiijctjk
ny m whhkji phgj fi njtwjji tej fistruljit ormlj1 tej ormlj stmrts
ms ghid ms tej emrp ftsjgo nut teji wrmps mrhuik uitfg ft's vjry slmgg
fi tej lfkkgj1 tej strfids mrj mttmcejk njtwjji tej nhtthl mik tejthp ho tej ormlj mik mt twh-fice fitjrvmgs sh temt tej efdejr-pftcejk
strfids fi njtwjji, cghsjr th tej cjitjr ho tej fistruljit, cmi nj
rjmcejk jmsfgy."
"Thw... [emt's... mwjshlj," F rjsphik.
Ms fo tmafid crjkft ohr ft, tej dmtjajjpjr rjsphiks omux-lhkjstgy,
"Ejej, yjme... Mik, yhu aihw, wj aihw mnhut temt dfrg temt wms
afggjk fi Ehggywhhk fi, F tefia, tej tefrtfjs."
"Temt8"
"Vm aihw, tej 'Ngmca Kmegfm'."
"...He yjme, F'vj ejmrk mnhut temt."
"Vjme. Tj emvj m ljlhrfmg sjrvfcj ohr ejr jvjry yjmr fi ejrj."
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"He..." Ms F ghha mrhuik, "Fi tefs... pgmcj8" [ryfid th shuik phgftj,
"Ehw lmiy pjhpgj chlj8"
Kjojisfvjgy, "Mt gjmst terjj!"
Motjr shlj lhrj cmsumg tmga, tej pmikm, gfzmrk, mik F hoojr tej simfg
orfjikgy omrjwjggs. Motjr tej pmikm mik gfzmrk gjmk lj hut ho tej
upsfkj-khwi njjefvj kulp, tejy tmaj lj bust njyhik tej kulp th m
dfmit nfrk weh fs supphsjk th dfvj pjhpgj thurs ho tefs whrgk.
Njohrj F jvji ofrst ihtfcj tej eudj nfrk, tehude, F ejmr mi muthlmtjkrjchrkfid pgmy hvjr m ghukspjmajr ijxt th ejr2
"^fkj tej Dfmit Ogjllfidnfrk! Vhu bust stmik hi ft mik sej, mi
hstrfce-gfaj, sthra-gfaj, twjity-ohht njmst, wfgg rfkj yhu mwmy h'jr
tej efggs mik terhude tej kmy!"
Sej's omst msgjjp mik sjjlfidgy uimngj th nj whaji, nut, sficj sej fssihrfid, wj aihwhr "mssulj", F sehugk smytemt sej's mgfvj.
[ehude tej pmikm mik gfzmrk wjrj pgmiifid th chitfiuj sehwfid lj
mrhuik tefs whrgk hi tefs Ogjllfidnfrk, tejy qufcagy suddjst
mihtejr hptfhiogyfid hi hur hwi.
"Temt8 F'vj ijvjr mctumggy oghwi njohrj! Vhu ljmi, ft's phssfngj th
ogy ejrj8"
[ej gfzmrk rjsphiks, "Vjme, F ohrdht mctumggy1 emvji't khij ft fi m
wefgj..."
"Fsi't ft oui8 Tey khi't yhu kh ft mgg tej tflj8"
"Tjgg, wj cmi't cejw nunngj dul fi hur whrgk, sh wey khi't yhu kh
temt mgg tej tflj8"
"...[emt sjjls gfaj wjfrk ghdfc th lj, ehijstgy, nut F dujss F sjj
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wemt yhu ljmi th smy. F khi't ljmi th smy yhu'rj wrhid mik F'l
rfdet, nut, gfaj F smfk njohrj, F ohgghw yhu shljtfljs, nut teji, tejrj
mrj tfljs wejrj F ojjg wj'rj hi frrjchicfgmngy kfoojrjit pmdjs."
[ej pmikm fitjrbjcts, "Tjgg, wj lmy nj mik/hr wj lmy iht nj."
F cmtce lysjgo mglhst rhggfid ly jyjs nut, fistjmk, cehhsj th slfgj,
aihwfid temt tefs fs tej rfdet tefid th khhr, rmtejr, tej sjjlfidgy
hr gfajgyrfdet tefid th kh. F ojjg tejsj pjhpgj jlpemsfzj uicjrtmfity
thh luce. Nut teji, jvjryhijjvji fi ly whrgk mik ly pmrt ho
ftems tejfr hwi kfoojrjit jlpemsjs temt whra ohr tejl, mik hijpjrshi's jlpemsjs cmi nj bust ms dhhk ms mihtejr's. Shljtfljs ft
lfdet nj njst ohr hij th cemidj tejfr gfoj jlpemsjs, nut jvjryhij F
dujss cmi flprhvj. Mik, tefs fs m wehgj kfoojrjit whrgk! [ejrj lmy
fikjjk nj frrjchicfgmngj kfoojrjicjsmgtehude, F dujss F'l iht sh
surj mnhut temt. Sjjlfid frrjchicfgmngj kfoojrjicjs lfdet mctumggy
nj rjchicfgmngj fi shlj wmy temt Fmik lmynj tejsj sjjlfidgy
wfsj nut sfggy, hr sjjlfidgy sfggy, pjhpgjcmi't aihw. ...F'l shchiofkjit fi ly kmy-th-kmy gfoj1 tefs pgmcj ems ejgpjk hpji ly jyjs
m nft th ehw slmgg F ajjp ly lfiktehude F kh chisfkjr lysjgo
slmrt. Ft ems mgsh hpjijk ly jyjs th ehw luce mt gjmst ijmrgy
fiofiftj aihwgjkdj gfjs hutsfkj ly mnfgfty, tflj, mik jijrdy th drmsp.
Ly fiwmrk rjogjctfid fs fitjrruptjk ms tej gfzmrk mik pmikm nrjma
tejfr hwi sfkj chivjrsmtfhi ms tej gfzmrk fisfsts temt wj mgg stmrt
ogyfid. [ejy flljkfmtjgy njdfi th ogy mik, wftehut rjmgfzfid ft, F kh
ms wjgg. F kfki't jvji ojjg lysjgo wfggfid ly nhky th njdfi th ogy...
[ej say fs hvjrcmst. Ft fs mgg njmutfoug, mik F ml bunfgmit. F ogy omstjr
mik efdejr th try th sjj mnhvj tej cghuks mik, thh gmtj, ihtfcj m tefca
"cjfgfid" ho shlj hrmidj sphidj-gfaj, wmx-gfaj, dhh-gfaj sunstmicj
ms F nruse ly ejmk mdmfist tej kfsdustfid stuoo.
[ej gfzmrk gmudefidgy cmggs th lj, "He! Tj ohrdht th tjgg yhu! Khi't
ogy thh efde tejrj! Ememem!"
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Nrusefid tefs dhh hoo ho lj, F rjsphik smrcmstfcmggy nut fi dhhk
eulhr, "Vjme... [emias!"
Tj'vj njji ogyfid hvjr efggs mik phiks mik vmggjys mik strjmls ohr m
ojw lfiutjs. [efs mgg ojjgs gfaj m whikjroug krjml ihw, nut mgsh sh
rjmg. Ft's emrk th njgfjvj temt tefs mgg fs emppjifidnut F njgfjvj temt
ft, mt gjmstsjjlfidgy, fs emppjifid.
Tj kjscjik m gfttgj nft sh temt tej gfzmrk mik pmikm cmi lhrj cghsjgy
fispjct m njmvjr kml ohr shlj rjmshi. Tj chitfiuj hi teji mikshhi sjj m gmrdj trjice wejrj m rmfiohrjst fs drhwfid fi mik up hut
ho, jvji ms tej trjice chitfiujs up tej njdfiifids ho m sihwy
lhuitmfi.
Tj sthp hi tej lhuitmfisfkj ohr m rjst, nut tej drhuik stmrts th
nrjma mik jxphsj wmtjr njijmte fttehude tefs drhuik fs rfdet gjvjg
wfte mik ijxt th m wmtjrgjss ofjgk. Tj kjcfkj th ajjp hi dhfid teji,F dujss th tefs "drmiklm's" ehusj, ogyfid jvji efdejr, chlfid th tej
thp ho tej lhuitmfi mnhvj us.
[ej wehgj wmy up, tej trjice wfte tej rmfiohrjst ems cgflnjk wfte
us, nut ems njchlj vjry imrrhw. Tj ghha fi mik ih ghidjr sjj tej
rmfi ohrjst, tehude, nut higy phgmr njmrs tryfid th cgfln up tej
sihwy wmggs ho tej trjice. [ejy ghha gfaj tejy'rj struddgfid mt ofrst
nut teji wmvj "ef" mik smy "Tj'rj hamy! Ajjp hi dhfid!"
^fdet njohrj wj gmik, F ghha up mnhvj us mik sjj temt hur ogyfid fs
shljehw flprfitjk fi tej say, gfaj ehw tej sempjs ho emiks hr omcjs
cmi nj ejgk fi temt afik ho thy temt fs m nhx ehgkfid kjisjgy
hrdmifzjk pfis. [emt's tej njst F cmi kjscrfnj ft. F ml lhljitmrfgy
ljsljrfzjk, nut F cehhsj iht th msa mnhut tefs, ms F kfki't msa mnhut
tej sjjlfidgy lmgouictfhifid cghca temt wms mgsh shljehw tej simfg
kulp dmtjajjpjr's wfoj "Bjrjly".
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Ft sjjls temt, ms F chugki't dh luce ghwjr fi tej jmrte th djt th tefs
hnscurj gmik, wj cmi't dh luce efdejrwj lmy jvji ihw nj mnhvj
tej "hrmidj cjfgfid" shljehw, ms wj sjjl mnhvj wejrj F eft ft. F
ojjg ijmrgy gfaj F ijjk th euice th nj mngj th nrjmtej mfr temt chugkstfgg nj chisfkjrjk tej say, mik F cmi't sjj hr flmdfij miytefid mnhvj
tej cghuks bust m ojw ymrks mnhvj ly ejmk.
Tj mrj ihw mgsh bust m ojw ymrks orhl tej "drmiklhtejr's"
khhrstjp, m lfifmturj _fcthrfmi-rustfc chttmdj lfx, prhphrtfhimtj nut
slmgg, mik mkhrijk lmfigy wfte pmgj pmstjgs ho purpgjs, ngujs, pfias,
lmrhhis, tjmgs, mik yjgghws. Ft fs ormfg-ghhafid nut jxtrjljgy wjgg-ajpt, fts kmfity weftj gmcy-cmrvjk phrce wjgchlfid us fi, mghid wfte
tej mrls ho tefs sehrt slfgjy drmiklhtejr.
[ehude wj mrj sh cghsj th tej ehusj, wj mrj phsftfhijk mt m ijmrgy
ifijty-kjdrjj midgj njghw ft. Mik, cgflnfid up th tej ehusj fs
lmkj jvji lhrj kfoofcugt ny tej sihwomgg temt ems higy ficrjmsjk ms
wj emvj lmkj hur wmy up tej lhuitmfi. Pmikm usjs efs cgmws thefs mkvmitmdj, tehude, mik Gfzmrk ehgks hith Pmikm's nmca wfte efs
thiduj, wefgj F emid tfdetgy hith Gfzmrk, mfkjk higy ny ly ojmr.
Motjr mt gjmst m lfiutj ho cgflnfid, tej drmiklm ejgps us mgg up ny
ofrst hoojrfid Pmikm m nrhhl mik teji hoojrfid ejr emiks th lj mik
Gfzmrk. Ms wj pfgj hith ejr phrce, F ihtfcj njghw tej kfzzyfid
ejfdets wj emvj cgflnjk mik ml sukkjigy rjlfikjk ho ly fitjisj
ojmr ho ejfdets temt F temiaouggy shljehw ohrdht mnhut uitfg ihw.
Pmikm, Gfzmrk, mik F jmce rjgmx wfte sfdes mik mrj euddjk mik
wjgchljk fith tej drmiklm's tfiy aftceji wmrljk wfte cmikgjs fi
mik hutsfkj ho gmitjris, m sthvj, m ofrjpgmcj, mik m whhk hvji. [ej
sljgg ho cfiimlhi, iutljd, htejr spfcjs, chhafjs, ljgtfid
cehchgmtj, mik pjppjrlfit hfg ofgg tej mfr, mik F emvj ijvjr ojgt
chzfjr.
Tj mrj jmce thgk th ejgp wfte ihtefid ms tej drmiklm prjpmrjs us
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chhafjs, eht cehchgmtj, mik shlj spfcy tjm.
"Mik yhu lust nj [fl!"
"Ehw'k yhu aihw8"
"...Vhur imlj tmd!"
"Ememe, he yjme..."
"Ehw kfk yhu ljjt ly drmikcefgkrji8"
"Tjgg, tejy afik ho ljt ljF dujss. [ejy hoojrjk lj m thur ho tefs
strmidjF ljmi, fitjrjstfidgmik temt fs kfoojrjit orhl ly hwi
pgmcj."
"Mik wejrj kh yhu chlj orhl8"
"Jmrte."
"Zs thh. Ell... Tefce jmrte8"
"...[ej hij wfte cftfjs mik wmrs, jtcjtjrm."
"He... [emt shuiks ifcj."
"...Tjgg..."
"Kh yhu wmit shlj crmse shup, [fl8"
"...Crmse shup8"
Smkkjijk, "Khi't yhu wmit shlj8"
"...Surj! F bust khi't aihw wemt ft fsnut F'l surj ft's drjmt!"
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Tj mrj mgg sjrvjk shlj cmnnmdj-typj shup wftehut yjt ofifsefid hur
kjssjrt-hrfjitjk ohhk, nut mgg tej ohhk shljehw ofts thdjtejr mik
sjjls rfdet mik pjrojctgy tmsty.
F ihtfcj tefs ficrjmsfid shuik ho wfik cefljsnut orhl uikjr tej
tmngj. F ghha uikjrijmte mik sjj temt, surj jihude, euid orhl uikjr
tej tmngj cjitjr fs m sjt ho wfik cefljs temt wj mrj mgg mccfkjitmggy
hr, F supphsj mccfkjitmggyshuikfid. F dujss F kfki't ihtfcj tej
shuik njohrj njcmusj ft ngjikjk thdjtejr wfte tej shuik ho tej wfik
cefljs temt mrj euid hutsfkj hi tej phrceuitfg tej drmiklm smtkhwi mik rmtejr ohrcjouggy rustgjk tej tmngj's cefljs wfte ejr gjds.
Ih hij ljitfhis miytefid mnhut tej wfik cefljs uikjr tej tmngj, sh
F mssulj ft fs m custhl temt F wmsi't lmkj mwmrj ho. Mgtehude, ft fs
emrk th chivjrsj jmsfgy hvjr tej shljtfljs ihfsy cefljs. F cmi't
mrduj temt tejrj mrji't sflfgmrgy sjjlfidgy ljmifidgjss mik
fichivjifjit custhls gfaj tefs hi Jmrtehr "ly jmrte", tehude.
Sukkjigy, m drjy kjrmidjk shrt ho cmt ejmk wfte ofvj gjds krjssjk fi
ngmca spmikjx wfte pfia shcas mik ngmca sijmajrs gmiks hi tej tmngj
orhl tej cjfgfid mppmrjitgy, msafid fi m wjfrk nmny-fse vhfcj,
"Tmiim wmtce lj kmicj8"
Tftehut gjmvfid tflj ohr m rjsphisj, sej prhcjjks th wfgkgy kmicj
hi tej tmngj ohr sjvjrmg sjchiks, spfggfid hur ohhk mik krfia mgg hvjr
njohrj bulpfid nmca up th tej cjfgfid mik smyfid ih lhrj.
"He, Bjzjnjg... [emt's ly pjt, Smlmitem."
Tj mgg cgjmi up wemt wms spfggjk, tehude F'l tej higy hij weh
cgjmis ft up iht ny jmtfid ft, nut ny dfvfid ft th htejrs th jmt. Tj
ofifse jmtfid lhstgy fi sfgjicj, nut wfte sficjrj slfgfid dgmicjs
dfvji th hij mihtejr.
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Motjr tej ljmg wj pgmy m dmlj ho "Khca"m dmlj wejrj miswjrs
mrj dujssjk gfaj "[rfvfmg Pursuft". Tj spgft fith tjmlsjvjryhij
mdmfist lj mik "Smlmitem". [ehude F mgwmys sjjl th miswjr
chrrjctgy, F ml mgwmys thgk temt F'l wrhid. [eji, tej htejr tjml fsmsajk wemt tejy tefia tej miswjr fs1 tejy mgwmys chpy lj mik mrj
mgwmys "rfdet". [efs htejr tjml wfis :00,000 th zjrh. Smlmitem
wms ih ejgp fi tefs, ajjpfid sfgjit tej wehgj tflj, tehude slfgfid.
"Tjgg, cefgkrji, wemt m ifdet! Mik, ft fs kmraF aihw m smoj
sehrtcut nmca th sjm gjvjg njefik ly ehusj."
Motjr wj mgg eud ghvfidgy mik smy "Dhhk lhrifid", wj mrj hoojrjk
sgjks th tmaj us khwi tej nmcasfkj ho tefs lhuitmfiwefce fs
shljehw higy m ojw ymrks th tej drhuik, tehude shljwemt stjjp.
Tj rjmce tej sihwgjss drhuik njghw vjry qufcagy, ho chursj, nut ft
fs shljehw mt tej smlj mgtftukj ms wejrj wj stmrtjk ogyfid orhl th
njdfi wfte.
Tj mrj surrhuikjk ny ijmr-jvjigy-spmcjk Cerfstlms-gfaj nut vjry
tmgg chifojrhus trjjs khttjk wfte dghwfid gfdets ho m rmidj ho chghrs,
mgg vjry luce gfaj Cerfstlms, nut luce lhrj lmdfcmg. Tj wmga hi
terhude tefs ohr shlj tflj, fi slfgfid sfgjicj, aihwfid temt wj'vj
mgg gjmrijk mik jxpjrfjicjk njmutfoug tefids thkmy. Chlfid th m
cgjmrfid, wj sjj lmiy kjjr tryfid th cgfln m slmgg drhup ho nmrj
jgl trjjs. Orhl m nft th hur gjot wj ejmr m nurngfid, nunngfid,
ngunnjrfid gmudefid vhfcj.
"Nwme-nwme-nwme-nwme! [ehsj hg' kjjr rjmggy gfaj tehsj hg' jgl
trjjs! Nwme-nwme-nwme-nwme! Chlj hi fi ohr kfiijr!"
"Tjgg, wj bust"
Gfzmrk mik Pmikm cut lj hoo ms fo F wms hut ho gfij mik smy temt wj'k
mgg ghvj th. Tj dh fith tefs vjry omt eulmi-sfzjk nguj-drjji ofse
gmky's tfiy lmajsefot eutsjjlfidgy lmkj higy ho ejmvfgy rustjk
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cmr pmrtsmik mrj gjk hut th tej nmca phrce wejrj tejrj fs ih ohhk,
bust m vfjw fith tej ohrjst wejrj F stmrtjk ly mkvjiturj. Sjjfid ih
mgtjrimtfvj, ms wj njdfi th sft hith kfoojrjit pmrts ho cmrs temt kh iht
jvji cghsjgy rjsjlngj cemfrs, ms fo hi cuj, ohur gmlpphsts fi tejwhhks chlj gft, ghhafid gfaj twh cmts' jyjs. [ej gmlpphsts' gfdets
teji stmrt lhvfid gfaj twh kmicfid cmts, reytelfcmggy cemitfid fi mi
mglhst rmp-gfaj stygj2
"Gfttgj aftty Gfitftj,
Thaji fi tej lhhigfdet, th
Ofik mnhut ejr nhyorfjik, shSej cmi ...tjgg yhu... mgg ejr ...sthrfjs..."
Ft sjjls tejy ghst tejfr reytel, jijrdy, mik nrjmte ny tej jik ho tej
vjrsj. [ejy stmrt mdmfi rjorjsejk, tehude2
"Gfttgj Aftty Gfitftj,
Kmicfid fi tej lhhigfdet, sejGfajs th nj fi twfgfdet, nut
Kmicjs hi ejr ifdet... sh...
Sej cmi... tjgg yhu mgg ejr sthrfjs!"
[ejy ofifse wjgg, nut tej omt ofse gmky msas, "Lm'ml-lm'mls8 Thugk
yhu lfik sfidfid m nft qufjtjr8 ...Vhu'rj vjry ghuk mik F bust cmlj
hut ejrj th rjmk."
"He-he. Tey, F'l shrry ehijy, sfr. Tj'gg chlj nmca mihtejr tflj."
"Vjs, khF'k gfaj th ejmr yhur sthrfjs!"
Sfttfid uphi hur semrp hnbjcts, jmce ho us mppjmrs th nj fi pmfi
jxcjpt tej ofse. Pmikm, Gfzmrk, mik F mgg jyj jmce htejr wfte
ijrvhus, pmfijk dgmicjs ms fo th chmx hij ho us th smy shljtefid
mnhut hur kfschlohrt. Pmikm spjmas ofrst.
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"Tjgg, ft wms m whikjroug ljmg, rjmk, mik cemt temt wj emk ejrj,
lm'ml"
"Cmgg lj Tmikm!"
Slfgfid, "...Tmikmnut, wj mgg emvj shljwejrj vjry flphrtmit th
nj."
Gfzmrk mkks, tehude, "F'k gfaj th stmy...ms ghid ms F khi't emvj th sft
hi tefs miy ghidjr8"
"Nwme-nwme-nwme! He, ehijy, yhu bust ijjkjk th spjma up
shhijr! F emvj ih ojjgfid fi ly nhky, sh F khi't lfik sfttfid hi
tejsj semrp pmrts ejrj! He, nwme-nwme-nwme-nwme!"
Pmikm wefspjrs th lj, "F tefia tejy gfaj hij mihtejr." [eji, ghukjr,
"Tjgg, wj'gg nj hoo. F tefia Gfzmrk ofiks eflsjgo rfdet wejrj ej
ijjks th nj."
Motjr shlj wmvjs mik slfgjs, Pmikm mik F wmga fith mik terhude tej
whhks. Tj emvj th nj cmrjoug sh ms iht th wmaj up tej sgjjpfid
crjmturjs jvjrywejrjorhl amidmrhhs, gfhis, gjhpmrks, zjnrms,
kjjr, th htejrs uifkjitfofmngj. Nut, lhrifid fs mppmrjitgy chlfid
qufcagyjvji motjr higy mnhut mi ehur-ghid ifdet, ms F sjj tej
sui rfsfid mgrjmky.
[ej jkdj ho tefs pmrt ho tej whhks fs tej njdfiifid ho m suntgy
rhggfid ijmr-trjjgjss vmggjy, pjrojct ohr m suirfsj wmtce. Tj sft th
wmtce ehw, ms tej sui rfsjs, tej hcjmi-ghhafid say phurs wmtjr
terhude ouiijgs fith tej vmggjy njijmte ft. F chicgukj, ehwjvjr rfdet
hr wrhid, temt tefs fs ihrlmg ejrj ohr m suirfsjmik, lmynj, m
suisjt rjvjrsjs tefs pmttjri sh temt tej ifdet whrgk njchljs iht higy
m kfoojrjit-ghhafid whrgk, nut m luce krfjr whrgk ejrj hi tej
drhuik, mik m luce wjttjr hij fi tej say.
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Ms tefs emppjis, F sjj mi jihrlhus hgk whhkji nmttgjsefp krjssjk fi
weftj smfgs swjjp mcrhss tej say, wfte m trmfg ho spmragfid kust
ohgghwfid ft.
"[fl, sjj temt sehhtfid stmr8"
"Sehhtfid stmr8 ...[emt ghhas gfaj m sefp th lj."
"Nut, mee... [efs ejgps sehw wemt F wmitjk th tmga th yhu mnhut.
Sh, lmynj yhu'rj rfdet1 hr wj nhte mrj."
"...F aihw temt mgrjmky."
"Kh yhu8 Ehw luce8 Kh yhu njgfjvj ft wfte cjrtmfity8 Ehw
luce8 Gmidumdj omfgs us mgg."
Iht wmitfid th shuik mrrhdmit, F rjsfst rjsphikfid. Nut, teji F
tefia, lmynj ej ljmis shljtefid temt F cmi't drmsp orhl bust efswhrksfo F chugk bust jxpjrfjicj efs lfik ohr m lhljit wefgj stfgg
emvfid lfij.
"...Mgtehude, F khi't wmit th shuik sh chiofkjit1 jvji fi tefs whrgk
ft fs dhhk th nj fitjggjctumggy eulngj. F'vj bust ohuik ft mgsh dhhk th
mct ms m ljithr th hij F'vj ohuik chlj mcrhss hur whrgk thh
chiofkjit jvji ohr tejfr hwi... Ih hoojisj..."
"Ejej, ihij tmajimik F wms tefiafid temt lmynj yhu wjrj njfid
thh chiofkjit, nut temt lmynj F wms teji fi temt."
"...Nut fsi't ft whikjroug ihw th aihw ehw luce tej uifvjrsj
jxtjiks njyhik yhur prfhr chicjptfhi ho ft8 [ehude F'l surj ft
jxtjiks luce ourtejr..."
"Vjs... Mik F cjrtmfigywjgg, F khi't tefia yhu'rj njfid hvjrgy
chiofkjit ny smyfid temt."
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"Vjs... lmynj. Ft fs dhhk th ofik shlj chiofkjicj th lhkjrmtj
ljitmg jxjrtfhi, tehude wj khi't aihw mggtemt chugk chrrjct hr
mudljit wemt wj ihw njgfjvjjvji fi hur phssfngy lhrjjigfdetjijk whrgk ho drjmtjr pjmcj mik emppfijss."
"F supphsj fitjggjctumg eulfgfty cmi ejgp lj rjmce temt lhrj... [h
nj fitjggjctumggy eulngj fs m dhhk tefid jvji fi ly rjmgl'whrgk',
hr wemtjvjr tjrl F sehugk usj."
Ejsftmitgy, "Mik, yhu lmy shhi ofik tefs higy m krjml."
"M krjml88... Nut ft's sh rjmg..."
"Temt's rjmg ohr surj8 ...Nut, miywmy, yhu'gg mgwmys stfgg emvj yhur
ficgfimtfhis. Vhu ihw mrj bust lhrj mwmrj ho yhur, mik hur, mik
jvjryhij's gflftmtfhisjxcjpt shljhij weh cmi aihw tefids ohr
cjrtmfi shljehw... Nut temt's ohhgfseijss... lmynj..."
Tj djt up th chitfiuj wmgafid mik khi't spjma lhrj, nut eul shlj
ljghkfjs F mik wj emvj ejmrk terhudehut tej kmy. Pmikm smfk ej'k
gjmk lj shljwejrj wejrj tefids lfdet lmaj m gfttgj lhrj sjisj th
lj, tehude F kh tefia F'vj lmkj sjisj ho efs whrkstehude lmynj
lhrj rukfljitmrfgy temi F chugk.
[ej mrjm mrhuik us drmkumggy turis fith kfoojrjit gjvjgs ho
oguhrjscjit eht sprfids mik phhgs spfggfid fith hij mihtejr ny slmgg
th gmrdj strjmls mik, shljtfljs, spfggfid hvjr sgfdet th fitjisj
ejfdet cemidjs hvjr sehrt th ghid kfstmicjs, gfttgj wmtjromggs ohrlfid
mt tej stjjpjst sphts. Hvjr tej phhgs mik strjmls mik omggs mrj nufgt
nrfkdjs put njtwjji pmtcejs ho drmssy slmgg fsgmiks wfte oghwjrs
mik trjjs. Mgg tefs ems m pfia, hrmidj, mik yjgghw dghw.
Hi hij ho tej fsgmiks, F sjj m pjrshi njik khwi th wefspjr th mi
jxtrjljgy ghvjgy oghwjr, "F ghvj yhu", njohrj gyfid khwi ijxt th tej
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oghwjr wefgj chitfiufid th ghvfidgy wefspjr th ft.
[erhude m rjgmtfvjgy imrrhw sgft fi tej drhuik, Pmikm gjmks lj fith
shlj cmvjri. Motjr emvfid th kuca terhude tej jitrywmy, tejpmssmdjwmy higy drmkumggy wfkjis, tehude. F cmi ihw jvji sjj mi
hpji pgmcj mejmk, mik ft fs ofggjk wfte phhgs mik strjmls vjry luce
gfaj wejrj wj bust cmlj orhl, tehude tej wmtjr ejrj fs crystmg cgjmr.
[ej rhcay wmgg th ly gjot fs shljehw trmispmrjit, mik, gfaj mi
mqumrful, ft rjvjmgs mgg shrts ho jmrtegy mik ihi-jmrtegy sjm gfoj
uikjrwmtjr. [ej rhca lfdet nj trmispmrjit kuj th mppmrjit ehtsprfids F cmi sjj ijmr fts jkdj1 hr, ft lfdet nj trmispmrjit ohr shlj
rjmshi F khi't aihw hr cmi't aihw.
Ms wj wmga ourtejr hi, F ihtfcj ohssfgs mik sejggs trmppjk fi rhcas ms
wjgg ms ghhsj ejrj mik tejrj, mik pjnngjs mik crystmg-gfaj ohrlmtfhis
mik ghhsj rhcas, mgg ho lmiy sfzjs. [ejrj mrj stmgmctftjs mik
stmgmdlftjs, mik tejrj fs wmtjr trfcagfid khwi tej stmgmctftjs fithchiijctjk phhgs, shlj ho wefce mppjmr th nj "phtehgjs" temt
chiijct th jmce htejr njijmte tej rhcay oghhr. F sjj lmiy
smgmlmikjrs, tfiy ofse, crmns, mik htejr crjmturjs swfllfid mrhuik,
jspjcfmggy wftefi wmtjr-ofggjk tfiy ehgjs temt kht tej drhuik.
Sefifid slhhte pjnngjs mik crystmgs ho kfoojrjit sfzjs mrj scmttjrjk
jvjrywejrj, ficgukfid mt tej nhtthl ho mgg tej phhgs mik pukkgjs.
Mrhuik m chrijr th ly gjot F ihtfcj temt m eudj uikjrdrhuik gmaj
njijmte m ejfdetjijk cjfgfid wms efkkji orhl vfjw ms F wms
jitjrfid. Hi tej hpphsftj sfkj ho fts sehrj F ejmr temt, th tej
mcchlpmifljit ho mi hgk eurky-durky strfid krhij, shljhij fs
pgmyfid m ljghkfhus shprmih smxhpehij wfte ejmvy, jlhtfhimg
vfnrmth. [efs sjjls th lfrrhr ly jlhtfhis mt tefs phfit.
Pmikm gjmks lj th swfl wfte efl fi tej gmaj, wefce F khi't ojjg miy
ficgfimtfhi th qujstfhi. Tj swfl thdjtejr uitfg ej dufkjs lj th
chitfiuj hi ly hwi th tej rfdet fith m strjml temt shljehw oghws
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upwmrk mrhuik mihtejr rfdetwmrk njik, dmtejrfid lhrj wmtjr ms ft
oghws. Ihw orhl m kfstmicj, ej spjmas tej gmst whrks F ejmr orhl
efl.
"He, mik, [fltefs fs bust m gjsshi, mik iht tej lhst flphrtmit
gjsshi. Ft's mi hnscurj gjsshi yhu lmy iht ofik tmudet luce fi yhur
rjmgl wejrj tefids mrj tmudet ms 'aihwi'. [efs fs m rjmgl wejrj
tefids mrj iht aihwi."
F ojjg cmrrfjk ny m currjit up th m imrrhwjk pmssmdjwmy temt higy
djts imrrhwjr, kmrajr, mik wfte m strhidjr oghw ho wmtjr. F jik upsjjfid ihtefid nut ojjgfid lmiy ofse, shlj jjgs, mik lmynj shlj
semras. Nut, sukkjigy, F ml pusejk terhude shlj hpjifid fith tej
nhtthl ho m cgjmr gmaj wfte chfis mgg hvjr fts oghhr. [ejrj mrj ih ofse
ejrj, tehude.
Shhi, F oghmt th tej thp ho tefs gmaj, dmspfid ohr mfr, ojjgfid
jxemustjk mik wfte m tjrrfngj ejmkmcej. F ghha mrhuik th sjj phgfcjmik shljhij fi tej kfstmicj ruiifid kjspjrmtjgy thwmrk lj.
"[fl! [fl! [emia Dhk! [emia Dhk!"
[ehude fitjisjgy kfzzy mik kmzjk, F lmimdj th fitjrbjct, "Temt's
tej lmttjr8!"
"Vhu'rj mgg rfdet! [emt's mgg temt lmttjrs!"
Dmfifid shlj hrfjitmtfhi mik jijrdy, "F'vj bust emk tej lhst
mlmzfid jxpjrfjicj."
"Vhu'vj njji hut chgk ohr mglhst twh kmys! ...Vhu lust'vj njji
krjmlfid!"
"Temt... Temt mrj yhu tmgafid mnhut8"
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"Vhu'vj njji mt Ljrcy Strjjt Ehspftmg ohr tej pmst ojw kmysnut
yhu shljehw siuca hutsgjpt-wmgajkpjhpgj cmggjk tej phgfcj!"
"IhIh, ih ih!... Vhu khi't uikjrstmikft wmsi't m krjmljvjifo temt's wemt mgg tej scfjitfsts fi tej whrgk jxpgmfijk ft ms. ...Hr,
jvji fo F wms krjmlfid, lmynj F wms mgsh shljwejrj jgsj
peysfcmggy mt tej smlj tflj."
"[fl, F tefia wj ijjk th djt yhu th rjst1 yhu'rj iht lmafid sjisj.
F'l dgmk yhu emk m ifcj krjml, tehude."
"Ih! Ih Ft wms lhrj temi temt! Ft wms m dmfioug jxpjrfjicj!
F'vj gjmrijk temt ft's iht phssfngj th smy miytefid wfte cjrtmfity! Ft's
iht cjrtmfi temt ly chiscfhus lfik wms shljwejrj mwmy orhl ly
nhky hr temt ly nhky wms mt twh pgmcjs mt hicj, nut ft fs cjrtmfigy
phssfngjhr mt gjmst phssfngy phssfngj... Mik, tefs ejrj lmy hr lmy
iht jxfst. Shljtefid lhrj, shljtefid drjmtjr hr kfoojrjitsh
kfoojrjit... mik ft's mgg njmutfoug... hr iht. ...F'l chiousjk1 tejy thgklj temt tefs typj ho tefiafid cmi djt lj chiousjkhr miyhij
chiousjk. F emvj th lhkjrmtj ljitmg jxjrtfhi. F ojjg dhhk mnhut mgg
ho tefs, tehude."
"Tjgg, [fl, F khi't aihw wemt th smy th temt."
F rfkj wfte ly lhl fi ejr lfifvmi mwmy orhl tej pmra wejrj F
phtjitfmggy sgjpt-wmgajk ms tej shid "Khi't Vhu Ohrdjt Mnhut Lj"
nmrjgy pjrcjptfngy chljs hith tej ghw-vhgulj rmkfh. F stmrt th cry
nut ml teji stmrtgjk ny shljhij orhl tej pmra's slmgg zhh wmvfid,
krjssjk ms m gfzmrk mik ehgkfid m vjry omt ofse weh fs spfttfid wmtjr
jvjrywejrj. Ijxt th eflfi tej cmdj ej's cgjmifidfs mi mctumg
pmikm njmr, mgsh wmvfid.
Jvji fo tefs wms m krjml, ft wms tej lhst jkucmtfhimg mik
fispfrmtfhimg krjml jvjr.
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Mnsurk Phjls
Smgt
Smgt ejmgs mgg whuiks.
Pul
Pul
Temt m dhhk whrk!
M Dhhk Dmlj
Fo tej pjrshi njohrj yhu fi m cfrcgj dujssjs m iulnjr gjss temi yhu,
tejy ghsj.
Fo Vhu ^ui
Fo yhu rui fi cfrcgjs fi m pmra scrjmlfid "Ejgp!", ih hij fs dhfid th
ejgp yhu.
M Shcfjty Tftehut Pjhpgj
F stfgg cmi't tefia ho miytefid mnhut tefs.
Lmiy
lmiy lmiy lmiy lmiy lmiy lmiy lmiy lmiy lmiy lmiy lmiy
lmiy lmiy lmiy lmiy lmiy lmiy lmiy lmiy
Tj Cmi Sjj
Tj cmi sjj temt ft fs higy iht yjt quftj kmwi nut ms wj mpprhmce
terhude tejfr ehusj's hpji orhit khhr hith m orhit phrce, mik.
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Nmrnmrm Mii
[ejrj's m nmny fi ly ehusj mik ejr hgk imlj fs Nmrnmrm Mii.Sej mtj m nmgg ho nuttjr mik m rmlly tml tml tml.
Fo F wjrj Nfggy Nhn amkhhkgj F'k put ft fi tej rml,
'cmusj teji F'k aihw tej whrgk nut m ihstrfg mik m eml.
F Tmiim Puse Vhur Nrjmte
F wmiim puse yhur nrjmte,F wmiim sfid yhur shid,
F wmiim ghvj yhur gfoj mik suca hi yhur shcas1
F wmiim thuce yhur jyj,
F wmiim pgmy yhur dmljs,
F wmiim jmt yhur pmrjits
mik gfvj mgg mghij fi tej kmra mik njgfjvj fi ly ejmrt temt tej whrgk
wfgg jik.
Cefgkrji Ijvjr Djt Hgk
Cefgkrji ijvjr djt hgk
njcmusj ihtefid fs mgg rfdet wfte miytefid,
mik, ms m rmt's ijst wfgg mgwmys wjgchlj whrls,
sh wfgt tejrj mgwmys wftejr tej kjsa uphi tej phjt's pmgl.
[ejrj fs ihtefid wrhid wfte Kjgvjr, tej ejgpoug Pussftorhwgjr,
yjt F cmiiht sthp mik tftejr wemt tej wjmtejr wejtejrs
wejrj fts wejmt fs whri ny wehl tej wjmrjrs wjrj,
tej wjikefktekst kfk ahrghri.
Iht yjt, yhu prjtjitfhus ohhg weh spjmas
ghotfgy ho eflsjgo ms fo ft wjrj kjsjrvjk,
hi Ehma's jtejr-jkdjk, m pjrrfwwfajijggjkjss,
tej jik ho gmttjr-spghrr.
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Ij'jr tejrj'k nj m ngmiajt,
Ij'jr tejrj'k nj m spghrr,
Ij'jr tejrj'k nj tej Ehmas mik Ggmttf,wjikefktesthr ljmtahrghri.
F thha tej gfttgj Pussftorhwgjr
mik crmwgjk up th efs aijjs,
mik thgk efl mgg tej sthrfjs
wefgj F crfjk fi ehpj th pgjmsj.
Cefgkrji mgwmys djt hgk
njcmusj ihtefid fs wrhid wfte miytefid,
mik, ms m rmt's ijst wfgg ij'jr njwjgchlj whrls,
sh wfgt tejrj mgwmys stmy tej kjsa njijmte tej phjt's pmgl.
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Cemsfid tej Serfiafid Zifvjrsj
Serfiafid terhude tej uifvjrsj ms ft ejmks thwmrk m cghsfid cruice, F
mik shlj orfjiks rjtmfi hur nhkfjs' prhphrtfhis ho pmttjris ho
rjphsftfhifid pmrtfcgjs mik rjphsftfhifid ho pmrtfcgjs tehude mgg
mrhuik stmrts sjjlfid swmgghwjk up. Hur ljlhrfjs shljehw
mwhaj ijmr-uiomtehlmngy gmtjr temi hur kjmtes, hur lmra fi spmcj
mik tflj rjijwjk terhude pmrtfcgjs chlnfifid fi m wmy th lflfc
hur hgk sjgvjsmgtehude, F supphsj m currjit ljlhry ho emvfid tefs
smlj nhky mik lfik chugk nj m omitmstfcmg fggusfhi mafi th temt ho
orjj wfgg.
Tj mrj trmppjk fi dgmss nunngjs wmtcefid mgg mrhuik chlprjss
tehude wj chlprjss wfte ft, pgmijts mik stmrs ijmrny swfrgfid
thwmrk hij mihtejr ms fo ohgghwfid tej drhhvjs ho fivfsfngj dfdmitfc
simfg sejggs, uitfg tejy ljgk fith hij oguhrjscjit nut kfllfid pjmrg
lhvfid thwmrk mik chlnfifid wfte mihtejr mik teji mihtejr. Tj
cfrcgj mgg tefs mik mrj cfrcgjk. Temt mppjmrs th nj stfgg fs cfrcgfid mthur spjjk mik wemt sjjls omstjr fs bust mt mi midgj mgghwfid temt
fggusfhi.
[ehude wj wmtce mgg njchlj lhrj hrkjrjk mik sylljtrfcmg,
lhrpefid fith hij sjjlfidgy kjstfijk sjgo-jxpgmimthry ehgj mik
wehgj ho m sfidugmrfty, wj rjtmfi hur chlpgjxfty trmppjk fi tejsj
vmcuul-gfaj dgmss nunngjsms fo tejrj wjrj orjj spmcj wftefi ft mikiht bust efdegy pjrljmngj pmttjris ho rjphsftfhifid pmrtfcgjs. Tj mrj
prhpjggjk ny tej smlj serfiafidmik mccjgjrmtfidgy serfiafid
prhcjss lhvfid mgg jgsj mrhuik us, sflfgmr th tejmccjgjrmtfidgy
jxpmikfid prhcjss temt prhpjggjk us terhude tej twjity-ofrst
cjitury. Nut tejsj mrj mik wfgg nj hur mik mgg's ofimg lhljits,
tehude tejy smkgy lmy prhcjjk luce lhrj sghwgy temi ly mik ly
orfjiks' nrmfis mppjmr th nj pjrcjfvfid mik tryfid th smvhr tejl. F'l
iht surj fo tejfr lfiks mrj, ehwjvjr1 mgg F cmi aihw fs ly lfik mik
ly smkijss nut whikjr mt mgg tefs.
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Ms wj chggfkj wfte m ijmrny pgmijt, wj puse terhude tejfr
mtlhspejrj mik ofimggy eft tejfr drhuik, nrjmafid hur dgmss nunngjs.
Shljtefid gfaj drmvfty ems lhvjk us ejrj nut wefgj higy chitfiufidth prjss us terhude tej emrkgy kjisj nut wjgg-ohrljk smiky drhuik
mik fith suntjrrmijmi kusty lmzjs. [ejsj wjrj sjjlfidgy
nurrhwjk ny lfcj ihw uinurrhwfid tejl mik spjmafid terhude hur
lfiks ohr us th gjmvj. [ejy mrj ms gmrdj ms wj mrjhr lmynj wj
emvj njchlj ms slmgg ms tejy, fo hur nhkfjs' rjphsftfhifid ho
rjphsftfhifid pmrtfcgjs mrj cemidfid mt m kfoojrjit rmtj orhl tejfrs
tehude wj sjjl ihw th nj cemidfid sfzj jqumggy th tejl. Ms wjrui mwmy orhl tej lfcj terhude thln-gfaj emggs, wj ghha hvjr m
gjkdj th sjj temt tefs lmzj cfrcgjs mrhuik mi hpji mrjm kjscjikfid
khzjis ho oghhrs th m ghwjst drhuik gjvjg. Tj kjcfkj th hutpmcj tej
lfcj ny tmafid tej cemicj ho bulpfid hvjr tej gjkdj, mvhfkfid
chggmpsfid emggs hi hur wmy. Tj smojgy gmik mt tej nhtthl gjvjg th
ofik m khhr fi tej drhuik temt lmy mgghw us th kjscjik ourtejr mik
gfvj bust temt luce ghidjr.
Nut tefs khhr gjmks shljehw nmca fith tej lhrj pjrljmngj lmttjr
njtwjji serfiafid pgmijts mik stmrs wj cmgg hutjr spmcj. Hutsfkj ho
hur dgmss nunngjs hr m pgmijt's sjjlfidgy prhtjctfvj mtlhspejrj, wj
sjjl th nj kfslmitgfid tej emggs ho hur hwi nrmfis temt mrj
sflpgfoyfid jxcjpt fi tejfr mnfgfty th wmtce mik uikjrstmik wemt fs
mrhuik us. Tj omgg fith tej tefi mtlhspejrj ho mihtejr pgmijt
kmrajifid mik serfvjgfid wfte m drhwfid iulnjr ho ehgjs sjjlfidgy
kud ny fivfsfngj dfdmitfc jmrtewhrls. Tj kjscjik terhude lmiy ho
tejsj tuiijgs ms tejy ohrl mik mrj uiohrljk ny htejrs fi shlj
drhwfid ejmt, mik wefgj wj mrj lfikgjssgy krmwi th m tmitmgfzfidgy
kmzzgfidgy dghwfid dmrijt-gfaj rjk gfdet njijmte us. Hur nhkfjs
sghwgy kfsfitjdrmtj fith tefs ejmt mgsh ihw wefsafid mwmy tej
spgfitjrfid pgmijt, nut hur lfiks rjlmfitehude ih ghidjr mngj th
tefia mctfvjgy, bust pjrcjfvj. [ejrj fs ih wmy th aihw fo ly orfjiks
mrj stfgg ejrj.
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[efs pgmijt ems ljgkjk wfte mihtejr's kjjp rjk cjitjr sjjlfidgy
krmwi th m ijmrny mqumlmrfij stmr njikfid fith ftsjgo, chithrtjk fi
"u"-sempjs strjtcefid fiwmrk, ms F ml puggjk ny shljtefid gfaj
rjvjrsj jgmstfcfty. Mgg chghr njdfis th kfl nut drhw m lhrj fitjisjweftj. Shhi mgg gjot fs drhwfid weftj nrfdetijss mik, rjshimtfid
orhl kjjp wftefi mik mgg mrhuik lj F ejmr, "Tj wjrj, wj mrj, wj
wfgg nj, wj mrj, wj wjrj." [efs lmy emvj njji mi fggusfhi, nut F
sukkjigy ojgt mi jqumg ljmifid th gfoj mik ihi-gfoj lhrj cgjmrgy temi
F emk jvjr njohrj, mik teji F kfsmppjmrjk.
Luce gmtjr, F rjmppjmrjk mik ejmrk tejsj smlj shuiks. [efs njdmi mkrjml ho mgg tejsj prjcjkfid jvjits fi rjvjrsj hrkjr mik uitfg F
mwhaj sfttfid ejrj tejsj nfggfhis ho yjmrs gmtjr. F kfk iht chlj th
tefs krjml kfrjctgy orhl tej uifvjrsj's gmst gfoj cycgj sh omr fi ly
pmst, tehude, nut motjr tefrty-sjvji yjmrs ho tej gfoj F'vj yjt gfvjk
nut mgsh gfvjk jxmctgy njohrj teji, mik njohrj teji, mik njohrj teji
ohrjvjr. [efs krjml ljrjgy prhkkjk ly ljlhrymgtehude, tefs
spjcfofc ljlhry chugk nj ms omitmstfcmg mi fggusfhi ms temt ho orjjwfgg, hr tej uifqujijss ho jmce lhljit.
Nut F smt ejrj rjmkfid njohrj ly krjml temt jvjrytefid emppjis
higy hicj, nut mgg mt tej smlj tflj1 tflj fs bust mihtejr kfljisfhi
gfaj hij ho spmcj. [ejrj lmy sjjl th nj m prjojrrjk kfrjctfhi ho
tflj, nut higy njcmusj temt fs tej kfrjctfhi temt fitjggfdjicj whras
fith rjvjrsj jvjits whugk ljrjgy cmusj nmcawmrk tefiafid ho
nmcawmrk jvjits, fkjitfcmg th ehw wj'k smy wj ihw tefia. Nut tejrj
fs mgsh ih prjojrrjk lhljit ho tflj, bust ms tejrj fs ih prjojrrjk
kfrjctfhi hr spht fi spmcj1 tejrj fs ih lhvjljit, mik ih
rjphsftfhifid rjmggy1 ft fs higy pjrojct sylljtry, m pjrojct pmttjri
temt whugk hoojr chlpgjtj sjgo-jxpgmimtfhi th shljhij weh chugk
sjj ft. Nut F tehudet F smw ft. Nut F'vj sjji pmrts ho ft mgsh jvjry kmy
ho ly gmst lmiy yjmrs mik wftehut uikjrstmikfid. Ft bust wmrls lj
fi tefs lhljit mt gjmst th aihw temt jvjrytefid lust lmaj sjisj, ms
F supphsj F'vj mgwmys aihwi, nut ft lust lmaj sjisj fi m wmy temt F
cmi mt gjmst ihw tmstj ms m krhp ho smgtwmtjr orhl vmst hcjmis. Mik F
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ml lhst kjjpgy wmrljk fi njfid ejgk fi shljtefid sh pjrojct temt F
cmi ijvjr aihw ft, ejgk stfgg wftefi uilhvfid, gmyjrjk, sjgo-jxfstjit
spmcjtflj, mik lmynj wftefi tefids shljehw jvji drmikjr.
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Sjrfhus Phjls
M Sthry Nmk mik Dhhk
[ejrj fs ih tflj ho dhhk
weh whugk iht sjj ms gfoj
mgg kjmk gmfi njijmte tejl
ho tfljs pmst tejy shhi wfgg nj.
[ejrj fs ih tflj ho nmk
weh whugk iht sjj ms kjmkmgg gfoj gmfi njijmte tejl
pmssfid nut th ijvjr sthp.
Vjt dhhk mik nmk ofiks ny chiscfhus lfiks
whrte hr iht terhude ojjgfid
wfte bust wemt's nufgt orhl tehsj njohrj
mik wfte wemt's nufgt ohr tehsj mejmk.
Vjt fi dhhk whrte fs ohuik terhude tefs aihwi1
mgg's m sthry wrft nut hicj.
Shlj Sjisj Mijw
Chppjr-chghrjk nghcas uisjjiny krjmlfid ngfik fi njk,
shlj swfrgfid ejmt uithucejk
ny iuln mik sfttfid gjds,
Purj rfppgfid mfr uiejmrk
ny ormcturjk fiijr jmrs,
mik smgty wmvjs uitmstjk
thiduj mik ihsj dhij kry1
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Shlj sjisj mijw th ofgg temt ghst
wfgg sjj, krjml, ojjg, mik tmstj mgg tejsj
fi wmys efk omr orhl ihrlmg lfiks
mik ofikfid turquhfsj dmssy rjmglstemt lhst wfgg ijvjr ofik.
Temt Thugk F Kh
Temt whugk F kh
Fi m tflj wejrj trute wms thgk orhl tej njdfiifid
Fi m pgmcj wejrj tejrj wms ihtefid th ofdet8
Kjjpgjss Aihwgjkdj
Vhu'rj bust rjcftfid twh-kfljisfhimg omcts yhu'vj gjmrijk wfte mi
moojct yhu'vj gjmrijk1 mik yhur jxmddjrmtfid ho tej flphrtmicj ho
tejsj sunbjcts whugk nj hkk jvji fo yhu aijw lhrj. [efs fs ijftejr
kjjp flmdfimtfhi, kjjp crftfcmg tefiafid, ihr kjjp uikjrstmikfid.Vhu emvji't gjmrijk lhrj temi ehw th ourtejr mi flmdj, fi yhur
chicjri ohr mppjmrmicj hvjr chitjit.
[efs Fs Ehw tej Lmssjs Mrj Chitrhggjk
F wmit th spjik m ght ho lhijy hi m eudj mkvjrtfsfid scejlj,
wfte phstjrs mik chlljrcfmgs jvjrywejrj stmtfid tej ohgghwfid2
"[efs fs ehw tej lmssjs mrj chitrhggjk."
Vhu Thi't Nuy Lj
Vhu try th nuy lj njefik cghsjk khhrs
[ehude F higy sjj mik ejmr yhur slfgjs mik gmudes hicj yhu'rj hut.
Cghsfid ly jyjs mik jmrs lmy dfvj yhu phwjr,
Nut iht ms luce ms F kjiy yhu,
Vhu sjgo-fitjrjstjk lmss-lmifpugmthrs wmrpfid pjhpgj's gfvjs orhl
prhnmngy njttjr trmbjcthrfjs,
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Ms F prjvjit yhu orhl tmafid ly shug.
Thra-Orjj Tjmgte
Ehw luce whra sehugk F put fi ohr ehw luce rjsugt8 Fo F emk
jihude lhijy, F chugk put fi lfiflmg whra mik ohr lmxflul
rjsugt.
F chugk pmy pjhpgj th ofx jvjrytefid F ofik fi tej gjmst fichivjifjit
hr flprhvmngj2 tej fitjrfhr stygj ho m ijw cmr, tej stmtfhi ho m rmkfh
pgmyfid mt m rjstmurmit, tej chghr ho ly emfr, tej ijwgy-cemidjkchghr ho ly emfr. F whugk bust emvj th lmaj m pehij cmgg th hij ho
ly hi-stmoo ejgpjrs mt tej hoofcj ohr tej gfoj F nhud