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A Captain's Table Short Story; Ad Astra Challenge
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Star Trek
HERITAGE _____
But She Said, “I Love You…”
A Captain’s Table Short Story By T.L. Shull
This short story is a fan written work and is not intended to infringe upon the
copyrights of Paramount Pictures, CBS Corporation, or Pocket Books. It is provided
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Corporation.
BUT SHE SAID, “I LOVE YOU…” By T.L. Shull
A CAPTAIN’S TABLE SHORT
Story Notes: Riker pays for his drink...plus some. Written
as a response to the “Now pour me another one … this
time with no ice” Challenge at AdAstraFanFic.com
It was the first time he ever felt uncomfortable at
The Captain’s Table.
While he was accustomed to being recognized
every time he strolled into the legendary bar, he had
always received looks of admiration, welcoming smiles
and loud, friendly greetings. Today however his
presence was met with stoic glances, turned heads,
dropped eyes and deafening silence. No one made eye
contact with him as he moved forward towards the large
mahogany bar…no one that was, except for Cap himself.
Cap, the proprietor of the The Captain’s Table
smiled in his usual friendly way and showed his client to
one of the many empty chairs at the grandiose bar.
“Welcome Captain Riker,” he said calmly.
Captain William T. Riker tried to smile in return
but couldn’t even manage movement at the corners of
his mouth. He merely nodded to his old friend and pulled
up a stool at the far corner of the bar.
In his usual telepathic-like way, Cap already had
the bottle of scotch out and was pouring it before the
words, “Scotch on the rocks,” were uttered by Riker’s
deep and mournful voice.
Cap nodded weakly and set the lowball glass in
front of Riker. Riker lifted the glass with care and rolled
the amber liquid over the crystalline chunks and took in
a long, quiet whiff of the pungent liquor. Riker’s eyes
met Cap’s briefly with some surprise. “Single batch?”
“You need the good stuff today my friend,” Cap
replied and pulled up his own stool on his side of the bar,
“…for the story you need to tell is much different than
the ones you normally tell.”
Riker’s nostrils flared. Cap always knew.
Payment for drinks at The Captain’s Table was a
story, stories to be told by the starship captains who were
allowed in to this mysterious bar, accessible from
anywhere in the universe. Today, Will walked into the
bar from its door in San Francisco’s Tenderloin District.
He had just come out of his third and final day of
interrogation. He had been cleared of any charges, as
were the rest of the family, but now…
…now he just needed to be alone, to think…to
think about where he and Deanna went wrong.
“You didn’t do anything wrong Captain,” Cap
said quietly, as if reading Will’s mind. “She twisted your
lessons to suit her own agenda.”
Will turned his exhausted and devastated eyes
away from the golden elixir and to his bartender’s
understanding face. “I’m not sure I’ll ever believe it
Cap,” He said softly. “She was doing so well…”
“Ranked number one, was she not?”
Riker nodded sullenly, sipped his scotch and took
pleasure in the burn down his throat. “Yeah,” he replied
and set the glass down on the bar. “How could she?
How…” Riker drew his hand up to his eyes and pressed
the rising tears back with a wave of anger and
resentment that overtook him and he growled, slamming
his fists down onto the bar with rage.
“Easy, Will,” Cap said softly.
Riker rolled his eyes to the ceiling, then returned
his gaze to the scotch icing in his glass. He lifted the
glass and took another sip then looked straight into
Cap’s face. “She said she loved me Cap. Why? Why
would she say that and then…this? Why would she say
that she loved me and then put us all into this position?”
“You mean you, don’t you?” Cap said sharply.
“Why did she put you in this position?”
Riker took the stab as best he could. While
Deanna was a professional counselor, Cap never pulled
his punches. Cap and Deanna made a good team –
although they had never met one another. “Maybe I do.
How could she do this…to me?”
“Tell your story, Will.”
“I can’t believe I’m telling it again. It seems like
it’s the only story I’ve been telling for the past three days
in that damned interrogation room.”
Cap didn’t move a muscle; he only stared at the
Captain with a patient expression.
Riker sipped his scotch and inhaled, drew his free
hand down his sharply-trimmed snow-white beard and
then exhaled softly. “Fine.”
__________
I got the call from the Academy five days ago
and pulled myself from the bridge of the Titan to take
the call in the ready room. Administrator J’Nil had Beth
with him in his office and I knew something was wrong.
“Captain,” the Grazerite said in a leading way, “I’m
afraid that I have some troubling news for you.”
My heart started to pound in my chest. Had one
of the girls been injured? Cassidy wasn’t on the screen,
only Beth. Had she been hurt in training…or worse –
dear God, had she been killed? The thoughts were
running through my head so quickly, I couldn’t even
respond to J’Nil’s greeting. My emotions must have shot
off the charts because Deanna bounded into the ready
room with an expression of worry plastered over her face
and I knew she could feel my rising terror.
“What is it Will? What happened?” she asked as
she moved towards my desk. “Is it one of the children?”
I turned back towards to the comm screen on my
desk and looked into the dark, black eyes of my oldest
child, Elizabeth. She looked more confused than
anything. “Beth? What happened?” I was finally able to
verbalize a few words.
“Cassidy left Dad. She quit.”
“I’m sorry,” I said. “What do you mean she
quit?”
“Captain,” J’Nil interrupted, “Cassidy came to
my office first thing this morning and resigned from the
Academy.”
I’m sure it took Deanna just as much time to
process the sentence as it did for me. “Resigned?” I said,
utterly confused. “What? Why?”
“Dad…” Beth growled back in obvious anger.
She had more time to process her sister’s departure and it
was obvious she was infuriated by it. “Cassidy quit and
then left. She packed a small bag and I think she left
with some guy she’s been dating.”
Stupefied.
I was stupefied. There’s no other way to describe
it. My youngest daughter, ranked number one in her
class had just resigned from the Academy to run away
with some guy? What the hell?
We turned the ship around and made a bee-line
towards Earth. It took two days to get there. We must
have talked to Beth and Cassidy’s roommate and friends
a hundred times before the Titan reached Earth and no
one knew where she was. Worse yet, no one had ever
laid eyes on this new boyfriend of hers.
Beth had said that Cassidy had talked about him
for a couple of months and she seemed to be with him
more and more, but Beth herself was rarely around due
to her Red Squad duties. Seems as though no one really
watched over Cassidy…including me.
I didn’t even know my little girl was dating, let
alone spending every waking moment with the guy. Hell,
I hadn’t spoken to Cass in over a month. I didn’t even
know his name until Beth told me when we reached
Earth. We met her in the Administrator’s office.
Every time I lay eyes on Beth, she reminds me
more and more of Deanna. She’s just taller than her
mother. The thick, wavy brown hair and those black
Betazoid eyes, all packaged in the grey and red uniform
of the Red Squad. She always makes me so proud.
Beth told us that Cassidy had met someone the
night of the Ambassador’s ball last January. Since Beth
was so wrapped up in her Red Squad duties, she rarely
saw her sister except for the night before she resigned.
Beth described her sister as being moody and sad at first,
but as the night went on the two had a great time
together. Beth had no clue her sister had anything
planned but Beth did say that Cassidy started off her
conversation by talking about destiny.
Apparently Cassidy told Beth that she thought
her destiny had changed.
If only I had understood how much.
I still don’t believe it.
No one, it seems, had ever met this so-called man
that Cassidy was dating. No one had ever laid eyes on
him. Cassidy simply left campus when she could and
would tell her roommate that she was going out with
him. This had gone on for weeks. While Cassidy had
told her sister his name was Ronan Stewart, no one had
any record of such a man living in or around San
Francisco. I even pulled out my favors to Starfleet
Intelligence to see if they could help.
Nothing.
That’s when I began to really worry. Had
Cassidy been kidnapped? Was she being held against her
will? Did some group force her to resign to hide
something?
Starfleet was losing patience with me and my
search for my daughter. I was summarily ordered back to
our duties on the Titan that night to head for the Neutral
Zone once more.
I needed to be by myself for awhile and Deanna
knew it. She returned to the ship and Beth had returned
to her studies. Bill, my boy…he was still too far away on
a training dig in the Gamma Quadrant. The news of his
sister’s absence hadn’t even reached him yet.
I decided to go for one last long walk along the
Embarcadero before returning to the Titan and resuming
our search from the ship.
The fog was especially thick that evening and it
seemed to seep into every joint in my body. Every time I
took a step I ached with pain.
How does an 18 yr old girl just disappear in
today’s age? Who took her? Did she go on her own?
Why would she leave and not contact me? Where did she
go? Was she alive?
Was she alive?
It was always the question that we dared not
speak to each other although I know we were all asking
it internally.
Out of the corner of my eye I saw a figure in a
dark coat move from the walk along one of the wider
piers down by the Ferry Building at the end of Market
Street.
I would have known that profile anywhere.
My heart almost exploded with joy and I ran after
the figure.
To my surprise she was waiting for me.
My soul filled and I reached out my hands to
place them on her shoulders. I soaked in the pure beauty
of her.
Cassidy’s an extraordinarily striking young
woman, although she’s not very tall. She has long, thin
and straight ink-black hair and the most perfect skin I
think I’ve ever seen. But it’s her eyes that are the first
thing anyone notices about her. They’re bluer than my
own – icy, almost blue-white eyes. I’ve heard people
describe them as piercing. Some have even said they’re
almost frightening; to me they’ve always been her most
beautiful feature.
Well, that’s not true. It’s her smile…when
Cassidy smiles, I always melt a little.
“Cass,” I said, “where have you been, are you all
right? Are you hurt?”
“I’m okay Dad,” She said calmly, almost too
calmly for my liking. “For the first time in my life I
think I’m actually really good.”
Cassidy hadn’t had an easy life on Titan, I knew
that. Her disease had always made her feel a little
separated from her mother and the rest of the family. Her
lack of telepathic abilities was hard enough on her, but it
was the lack of telepathic registry that was the real
problem. Cassidy couldn’t be sensed by her mother or
her siblings.
Fine - I’ll be honest, Cassidy hated living on
Titan. She despised Deanna. Neither of us knew what it
was that had set Cassidy off the year before she entered
the Academy, I only know that it was the year of hell on
board that ship. No one in our family was happy.
Cassidy stopped talking to Dee altogether. Beth and Bill
had gotten into a fight over God-knows-what and they're
still not speaking to each other. Dee and I have sought so
much counseling and we still don’t know what we did
wrong as parents. I just never knew what we had done
would produce…
I’ll get back to where I was.
They say you don’t have favorites as a parent.
It’s true. I love all my children equally. I’m having a
really hard time liking them right now but I do love
them. Go figure. Who knew it was possible for your
children to simultaneously infuriate you and thrill you at
the same time.
But Cassidy is just a little different.
You see...I see a lot of Jean-Luc in Beth. Beth
has a hell-bent-for-leather determination and focus I
know I never had.
Bill? Oh, he is Deanna through and through. He’s
so wise, so thoughtful and so insightful…qualities that I
love in Dee.
But Cass? She was…
She is me.
She’s stubborn, reactionary, fiery, passionate.
While she may not have Beth’s depth of focus, she’s
brilliant. I don’t want to come off sounding egotistical
here, but I’m no slouch in the brain department and
Cassidy had the potential to outshine me and the rest of
the family.
While I never doubt I will one day see Beth as a
CO of a starship and I know Bill will end up being one
of the best and brightest archaeologists the galaxy has
ever seen…I’ve never imagined Cassidy in anything less
than Admiralty bars. I always saw her as exceeding
every expectation I had ever had about her.
Maybe that’s my problem. Maybe I was the one
who pushed her too far…maybe I did make the same
mistakes my father had made. Maybe I was the one who
pushed her away.
Oh God.
I asked too much from her.
It was my fault.
I’ve turned her away…
__________
Riker buried his head in his hands and massaged
the anger in deeper. Cap leaned forward towards his
friend. “What happened at the dock Will? What did she
have to say for herself?”
Riker dropped his hands to either side of his
drink and lifted it to his lips, emptying the contents into
his mouth and down his throat. He then swirled the ice in
the glass and let the memory of the confrontation seep
back in.
__________
She looked so sad. I had never seen her look that
way before. She looked like she was being ripped in two,
right down the center. It wasn’t that she was crying or
even frowning…
…it was those eyes.
Not one tear filled them. They only softened at
their edges.
“If you hated the Academy so much Hop, why
didn’t you just say so? You don’t have to be afraid if you
don’t want to enter Starfleet, you know that. Come home
now and we’ll talk…”
“I’m not going with you,” she said sharply. “I’m
never going back to Titan.”
Confusion took root and anger seeped in, I
couldn’t control myself anymore. “What’s he done to
you?”
“Who?” she said with a slight smirk on her face.
It was that insipid little smirk that she used
whenever she wanted to get a dig in on Deanna and it
pissed me off even more. “You’re giving it all up for a
guy?” I hurled back at her, “I thought you had more
brains than that Cass. So are you moving in with him?”
Cass didn’t smile and she lost her smirk. Once
more that look of bottomless sadness entered back into
her crystal-blue eyes and I dropped my hands from her
shoulders, utterly confused by her reaction.
“No,” she said so softly I barely heard her. “I
have found my place Daddy.” My gut felt kicked in. She
hadn’t called me “Daddy” since she was nine years old,
when she thought it made her sound too babyish.
“What do you mean you’ve found your place?” I
asked. “Your place is at home, with us.”
Cassidy actually snarled. “I told you I’m never
going to back to that hell in a can. I can’t go back and
live with her.”
I tried never to get in between Cass’ and Dee’s
arguments because Dr. Huilan stated they weren’t mine
to fight, but sometimes Cass could draw the ire out of me
faster than anything and I flared at her. “No matter what
you think in that messed up self-pitying little head of
yours Cassidy, your mother loves you.”
Cassidy turned and started to walk away. “I only
wanted to say goodbye. I guess it was a mistake.”
“Goodbye?” I moved into the fog behind her.
“Where are you going Cass?”
“To finally make a difference Dad. To finally do
what’s right.”
She could have been speaking in tongues for all I
knew, she wasn’t making a bit of sense. “Leaving the
Academy? Shacking up with someone who is drawing
you away from your dreams? What’s right about that
Cass?”
That’s when she turned on me. Her eyes were
blazing with sadness and fury. “This is why I have to go!
You’re so dense about everything Dad! You’ve tried and
you’ve tried to make what you think is peace between
Romulus and Remus and not once have you ever tried to
see things through someone else’s eyes! You’ve always
done exactly what the Federation has asked of you and
not once have you ever questioned about whether or not
it was the right thing to do for Remus!”
I stammered, “What? What is this about? Remus?
How is this about Remus?”
“It always has been old friend.” The voice was
low, male and guttural. The adrenaline shot through me
as another very tall and dark figure moved toward me in
the fog.
Cassidy backed away from me to allow for the
towering figure to approach and emerge. I couldn’t
comprehend what I was seeing. As the space between us
cleared I could see the Reman features of a once good
friend and trusted confidant. Reman Senator Pomalek...I
should say Commander Pomalek of the Thraiin
Militia…looked down upon me with a strange and
victorious grin.
“Good evening William,” he said calmly.
I reacted by reaching for my communicator when
I heard a slight high-pitched whir from my side. “Don’t
Dad,” Cassidy said quietly and I noticed she was holding
a Thraiin disrupter in her steady hand. “I will shoot.”
I lowered my hand, more out of disbelief and
shock than anything. “Pomalek?”
“Your daughter didn’t want to leave without
saying goodbye. Such a human trademark I’m afraid.
Myself? I just couldn’t resist being here when you
realized that it would be our cause she would be leaving
you for.”
“What?” I gasped and looked to Cassidy. Her
eyes were still filled with that same stoic sadness.
“Hop?”
“I told you. I found my place now. Remus needs
me. The Thraiin need me to help them maintain Reman
independence. The Federation has interfered for long
enough.”
“Interfered?!” I barked. “We’ve done nothing but
broker peace between Romulus and Remus!”
“Is that what you call it now? Peace?” Pomalek
growled. “You’ve manipulated Federation principles into
every last sentence spewed by the Reman government
since you forced the Klingon Empire into our territory!
What about your Prime Directive? I thought non-
interference meant non-interference, not interfere with
someone else’s government if it doesn’t suit your style.”
I was furious. “What have you done to her? Have
you brain-washed her to believe your Thraiin lies now?”
Cassidy shook her head. “No. Think about it
Dad. Think long and hard. When have I ever approved of
how the UFP treats Remus?”
And like a wave it washed over me.
She never had. She always questioned the UFP’s
tactics. She always grilled me when I got back on the
ship after another treaty session or negotiation with them
and the Romulans. She always seemed to take Remus’
side of any argument. She never vocalized disapproval,
but she always questioned our motives.
“You’re defecting…”
“Yes.”
I couldn’t control my shock or my anger or my
incomprehension any more. “You’re leaving me?”
Her voice actually cracked. “Yes.”
“You’re leaving me and you’re defecting to the
Thraiin.”
“Yes.”
“Why come here to tell me this? Why?” I tried to
hold in my fear, my rage … and my tears.
“Because Captain, as you can plainly see…the
Thraiin want to make this particular defection galaxy-
shattering news. The great Captain Riker, the man who
has done nothing more during his long career but try to
manipulate Romulan and Reman unification can’t even
convince his own brilliant daughter that it’s the right
thing to do. That Captain Riker’s own pride and joy
would rather take up the Thraiin honor blade and die
with them fighting for their independence than live under
the UFP lies anymore…”
“They’re not lies!” I tore back at him. “The
Thraiin are nothing more than a band of terrorists who
are afraid of real peace! They live only for bloodthirsty
revenge against Romulus and those Remans who support
peace!”
Pomalek bared his fangs and I lunged for him
when I heard my daughter bark from the side. “Don’t!”
She threatened with the disrupter once more. “We have
to go now.”
Pomalek bared his fangs again. “You are correct
Commander.” He turned and smiled at her. “She will
make a fine protégé William. You should be proud.”
I turned to look into the eyes of my youngest…
…my baby…
Something burned through me and I will never
know what it was. I felt every joint ache, every muscle
heat through and every internal organ cramp. It felt like
the fog had surrounded me, encompassed me and then
pressed directly into me. The burning gave way to the
deep-seeded cold and I began to shiver from it.
“Don’t,” I begged her.
She moved to stand in front of Pomalek who
moved his hands onto her shoulders like I had done
when I first laid eyes upon her. She didn’t respond
verbally. I shot a hateful glare at Pomalek who returned
his snarl with that victoriously pompous grin of his, I
then returned my gaze to my daughter’s beautiful face.
Pomalek struck a comm pin of some type and
before the shimmering white light transported my little
girl away I saw the words “I love you” form on her lips.
“CASSIDY!!!”
__________
Riker pushed his glass forward and Cap stood
and took it from him. Not knowing what to say to the
long-time customer of his bar.
Riker rubbed his eyes tiredly and glanced around
the room. People were staring at him. Every captain in
the establishment had listened to his tale and none of
them had anything to say. Most shook their heads in
feigned pity and Riker felt a bolt of anger rise from the
pit of his stomach.
“That’s right. Here sits Captain William T. Riker
– father of the most famous Thraiin defector in UFP
history.” He flicked his hand at Cap. “Thanks for
listening. Now, pour me another one…this time with no
ice.”