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About Michelle G.
Michelle G is a Certified Dating and Relationship Specialist (CRS)®
and the author of the #1 best selling book, Relationship SOS: Seven
Lifelines to Rescue Your Emotional Intimacy Now. She is
passionate about helping couples answer the questions "What
does the word LOVE mean to me? and How can I have the
relationships I desire?" Michelle focuses on changing the way
singles and couples approach relationships--including the one we
have with ourselves.
Michelle is frequently featured in media as a relationship expert
and her articles have been featured in local and national
publications.
Prior to becoming a certified relationship expert, Michelle served
in the United States Marine Corps where she managed critical
relationships to maintain US security for 13 years. This five foot
tall dynamo teamed with U.S. agencies including the FBI, DOS,
DOD and others where she led community outreach programs and
acted as liaison with local city governments around the world.
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Hey There,
My hope is for this book to guide you in navigating one of the most
important relationships in your life - your intimate relationship.
It's my passion and purpose to help you decipher the unique
language of relationships and how to relate to one another.
My goal was to put it in a versatile book for you to use as a
standalone guide, readable from cover to cover, or to use in a pick-
and-choose way.
May it enhance your relationship and take it to the next level!
XO,
Michelle G., CRS®
©2015 Relationship SOS
I’ve made it my life’s mission to share with you what we’re going
to be discovering in this book, so I can help you evolve and
understand your relationships and how to maintain and
cultivate them better and achieve long-lasting relationship
health and happiness.
A healthy relationship starts with you: in order for any of your
relationships to be successful, you need to start by taking a look
inside yourself. You’ve probably heard that before, but now for
the hard part: do you know what it is that you’re supposed to be
looking at? What you are looking for?
When you look inside for answers to the events that are
happening in your life, your goal is to explore a number of
things, mostly importantly your feelings and your needs. We are
all aware of the basic human needs: along with food, water and
air, we also need connections, we need certainty and security;
we need love. We long for a great many things, but what many
people do not realize is that, out of all of those needs and
longings, we each have one that is prevalent above all the
others, what I like to call the ‘core driver’.
CHAPTER 1
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N U R T U R E Y O U R S O U L
©2015 Relationship SOS
“A HEALTHY RELAT IONSHIP STARTS WITH YOU:IN ORDER FOR ANY OF YOUR RELAT IONSHIPSTO BE SUCCESSFUL , YOU NEED TO START BY
TAKING A LOOK INS IDE YOURSELF . ”
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Your core driver is the one need you act on above all the others,
the place where you function from in your approach to all
situations and relationships in your life. For example: a person
whose core driver is the need for connections looks for certainty
and acceptance in others, and will often seek to get it at all costs.
Other people have a deep need for security or for control. Each of
these deep needs, these core drivers, causes the people
experiencing them to act in predictable ways as they seek to fulfill
that need within.
We all experience these needs, to some degree. For each of us,
though, there will always be one that we seek fulfillment of more
than the rest; this is the need that drives the decisions we make
about how we interact with people, and that informs how we
create relationships.
“There will always be one that we seek fulfillment of more than the
rest; this is the need that drives the decisions we make about how
we interact with people, and that informs how we create
relationships.”
“There will always be one that we seek fulfillment of morethan the rest; this is the need that drives the decisions wemake about how we interact with people, and that informs
how we create relationships.”
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Your core driver, for example, could affect your life in a similar way
to the way Eloise’s affected hers. Eloise, a client of mine, is a
woman in her 50s, and a successful business owner. She has two
children, and has been divorced twice. She is a powerhouse of a
businesswoman, but a complete mess in her personal life and she
came to me wondering, “Why?”
When we take a step in to really look at what's happening under
the surface, we see that her business may actually not be as highly
functioning as it first appears, and may, in fact, be something of a
mess as well; but there's a difference: she remains successful in her
business because she chooses not to be vulnerable. She chooses to
be completely masculine, to have the attitude that things have to
get done, so they do. She knows the level of risk to take and she is
prepared for the outcome. There are tangibles to measure in
business, which she can assess and use to make decisions and get
things done. In her personal life however, this isn’t the same –
there is nothing to measure, no litmus test – or at least (and here is
the key) this is how she perceives it to be.
Eloise's Story:
Eloise, who is this powerhouse businesswoman, could not
understand why she is so successful in her work yet cannot find
that one person to love and be loved by. When we begin to work
together, identifying the different labels of who she thinks she is
and what she is looking for, we discovered Eloise had no clear
boundaries. Eloise’s lack of boundaries existed because everything
she did was to feed her core driver-validation. She got involved
with men who were emotionally unavailable and in her business it
showed through her competitive nature.
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Through our coaching sessions, I have identified with Eloise that
she relies heavily on the idea of tangibles, which can be measured
in order to make decisions in business, and believes that this is the
only way decisions can be made generally. Because those tangibles
do not exist in her personal life she doesn’t have anything to
measure or assess and she can’t make the same, confident
decisions as she does in the corporate world. Thus we discovered
that her core driver is for her to seek validation from men in order
for her to feel confident and loved. The problem with this is that
she keeps attracting men that are prone to manipulating her and
her need to receive validation from them leaves her vulnerable to
other relationship issues. She deeply desires validation, but she
does not have healthy boundaries in place, or the relationship skills
necessary, to make a relationship work.
So, through our conversations, we identified that Eloise no longer
has the confidence to make her own decisions. She does not trust
the decisions that she makes. The next step was to ask why: why
does she feel unable to make decisions in her personal life? Where
does her lack of confidence in decision-making come from?
Her first husband, who is the father of her children – and to whom
she was married to for a long time – cheated on her, and not just
the one time: he had a long-term, lasting affair – a full relationship
with another woman. When Eloise discovered this she felt
betrayed and stupid for not seeing what was happening right in
front of her. It shattered her confidence and left her confused
about what internal instincts she should trust.
She reacted by doing what she felt needed to be done to move
forward: she picked up her broken pieces, packed her bags, packed
her children, and moved on.
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When she went through the divorce, a lot of people said, "Oh my
God, you're handling it great. Oh, you're doing fine.” And it did
seem as though she was; she’d made all the practical decisions,
using the tangibles she could assess – the affair, the betrayal, her
children’s needs – to make the best decision for the situation in
order for it to be concluded and resolved. However, years later she
still struggles with relationship issues. So what really happened
when everyone else thought she was doing fine?
Her quick, pragmatic approach meant that she never really dealt
with the emotional impact the affair and divorce had on her and so
it continuously returns to haunt her, leaving her with an inability to
make any decisions. Now she doesn't trust herself; she feels that
she should have seen the signs of the affair, seen that there was
trouble in her relationship, and that she should have known not to
marry such a man in the first place. That She feels she failed at all of
this leads her to the unconscious conclusion that she cannot truly
trust her own gut instincts or her decision-making skills.
Though she knows it on the surface, subconsciously she ignores
that her ex-husband did everything in his power to conceal these
things from her and that he was the one who did something wrong;
she was not wrong for taking him at his word. She feels foolish and
as if she should have known better, and those feelings make her
question whether she is making the right decision whenever she is
faced with one.
One of the things Eloise and I discovered was that every action,
decision, and choice that she was making in her life was to fulfill
her need for validation.
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Every man that she sought to form a relationship with since the
breakdown of her marriage was just an attempt to validate her
existence, to fulfill her need to feel accepted and thereby give her a
sense of self-worth. She seeks validation – that is her core driver;
every decision she makes and everything she does stems from that
need.
Her core driver doesn't only manifest itself in her relationships
with men, it is also displayed in the way she parents her children, it
influences the ways she's able to interact with her friends; it forms
the foundation of the methods through which she approaches and
keeps all of her relationships.
She seeks out people who feed it; people who easily and quickly
validate her worth. She does things for her children that she knows
are probably not truly helpful for them – that are probably not
going to aid them in becoming fully rounded, independent
individuals and adults. On some level she knows that she is stifling
her children by the things she does. However, she continues to do
these things because of the reward she gets from doing them; that
reward is the validation that she is a good mom and this feeds her
core need.
So we see that, to the outside world, Eloise appeared to be
handling everything in her life exceptionally well; however, in her
heart she knew that this wasn’t really true and she came to me
wanting to do something about it, to try and find the success in her
relationships and private life that she had professionally. Through
our coaching sessions, I discovered that her personal life is a mess
because, at some time, she made the unconscious decision to
handle all of her challenges in the same masculine way she handles
her business.
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She approaches her personal life from the standpoint of tough
decision-making, of always moving forward, of getting things done.
Everything is a transaction to validate her self-worth. This hard-
nosed kind of attitude served her well in business, and up until this
point in her life there’s been every appearance that this attitude
has worked well for her personally too, however she’s now
reached a stage where it is no longer serving her, especially in her
intimate relationships and is looking for a different outcome.
If we go back to focusing on you for a second, and your own core
driver: when you don't know what your core driver is then you
aren't able to fully understand why it is that you continue to act or
react with the same behavior patterns over and over and over
again. You become stuck in behavior that stems from a need that is
subconscious and one that may actually conflict with your desires.
Often, core drivers protect us from hurt, but they do it without
healthy boundaries. Those healthy boundaries allow us to take
healthy risks to achieve our deep desires while respecting our own
set of unique needs.
To identify your core driver and begin to heal, take a look into your
life and needs and think about what types of behavior patterns you
are allowing to happen, or you are being an active participant in.
What do you think those behavior patterns are trying to fulfill, for
you? What core need do they stem from?
“WHEN YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOUR COREDRIVER I S THEN YOU AREN 'T ABLE TO FULLYUNDERSTAND WHY IT I S THAT YOU CONTINUETO ACT OR REACT WITH THE SAME BEHAVIORPATTERNS OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN . ”
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Another of the things Eloise discovered was that she has no real
boundaries. She has the two basic rules, which stem from her past
hurt, "I'm not going to let anyone step all over me, and I'm not
going to ever be involved with a person who's married.” but those
are about the only two clear boundaries she has, and they do not
serve her well when it comes to pursuing relationships. She doesn't
have healthy boundaries that allow her to nurture a relationship;
she doesn't know how to say, “No,” because her constant need for
validation insists that she always try to please everyone.
Are you also seeking validation?
The feelings that drive your core need can take many different
forms, whether it is the tearing down of your self-worth, the fear
and embarrassment over how you think others perceive you, or
your perceived lack of abilities leading to low self-esteem. At some
point, each of us feels one of these many things much more
strongly than all the other ones and the need to ease that feeling of
discomfort is what pushes our core driver to the surface. It is the
core driver’s job to ensure that we are never again in a position
where those feelings are felt so strongly.
I also discovered that there is a lot of guilt driving everything Eloise
does, which leads me into the second point of this chapter: The
importance of clearing out our emotional baggage. Without
realizing it, in the early stages of her divorce, Eloise felt guilty for
the failure of her marriage, for not being able to make a marriage
work, and for not being able to heal it when it was going south.
Interestingly, as women, we are more likely to repress our
emotional baggage, and stuff it down to a place where we can try
and forget about it.
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What I discovered with Eloise, through her coaching sessions, was
that when you don't clear that emotional baggage away and you do
stuff it down somewhere and repress it, you eventually start
building up resentment. We don't identify it initially as resentment,
we identify it as irritability, as being annoyed or frustrated, but
when you don't clear that emotional baggage and resentment
away, it starts manifesting itself in all of the different parts of your
life, particularly in relationships. The people that we are the closest
to, that surround us day in and day out, are the people that we feel
most comfortable being ourselves around – being irritated, being
angry – because on some level we believe that they are not going
to go anywhere. We have this subconscious thought that they are
going to stay there, that they're going to take whatever we throw
at them, and then later on we can come back like a dog with our tail
between our legs, and say we're sorry. Naively, we subconsciously
believe that this will always work; that it will always erase
whatever hurt we cause in the process of our anger or irritability.
In order for Eloise to nurture her soul, it was important for her to
be able to begin dealing with her emotional baggage – to learn
from the experiences that she had been through in order for her to
heal and move past them.
You see, the experiences never leave us, especially the ones that
nurtured the development of our core driver: they happened, we
cannot get around that fact; they cannot leave, they can
only become a part of us. The thing you must decide is how much
power you want to give to those experiences. Deciding that they
do not deserve all the power that we initially give them is a big part
of clearing out emotional baggage and letting go of resentment.
That decision is the place you begin to grow from.
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Dealing with your emotional baggage is very much like going
through the seven stages of grief: you start with denial; you get
angry; then you have resentment, and so on. The stage people
hardly ever manage to reach is that of acceptance, it's one of the
things that humans struggle with the most. We struggle to look
inside, to get to know ourselves fully and to accept what we find;
we struggle to get to know others fully and to accept them for who
they are.
What often happens – as in the case of Eloise and so many other
people like her – is that people who have had something traumatic
or something that was very difficult happen to them do go through
the stages of grief, in a way, but they become stuck at the guilt
stage. Assuming a linear progression or a linear grieving process, it
is very difficult to go from the guilt stage to acceptance, and so
what happens in the guilt phase is that people create the behaviors
that are going to protect them and continue to repeat those
behaviors, rendering themselves unable to move forward.
Stuck in the guilt stage, a person like Eloise often acts on her
masculine nature – becoming very defensive and appearing to
those around her to be very strong. This is the way many people
act out repressed feelings of guilt without truly understanding
what is happening and why things are crumbling around them.
Healing that part of such a person requires walking them through
some deeper spiritual exploration to help them move into a state
of acceptance. Only once that healing has taken place, and the
acceptance stage has been reached, can the person in question
truly see their lives and relationships thrive and their businesses
succeed, ten times more than they could ever imagine.
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Our childhood environments are immensely influential of our
personalities and experiences in creating relationships with
others. They are really our first exposure to what’s right and what’s
wrong, how to decide what you value and need from others, and
how to go about getting that need fulfilled. The first relationships
we have, while we are still in that vulnerable, sponge-like,
childhood stage, are the foundations on which all later
relationships are built on, they help us define what relationships
are at a very young age.
The assumptions that we make about relationships through the
relationships that we see, through the roles that the people we
grow up around play in our lives, are assumptions that we carry
with us right into adulthood and become expectations of how
others will behave. If we take the most obvious childhood
influential roles: the mother and father, and think about what they
represent to us, we realize that we make assumptions about the
roles of mothers and fathers based on the way our own mothers
and fathers acted when we were children.
This idea is not just relevant to mothers and fathers; it can also be
extended to any person who played a role in your life when you
were growing up. These people influence us because of two things:
how we think, because they teach us how to think, and they teach
us how to challenge thoughts and opinions, to ask questions, and
therefore teach us which questions should be the ones to ask. The
first time we learn to make decisions, the decisions are based on
the environment we are in, and so our adult decision-making
process is irrevocably influenced by that childhood experience.
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Similarly, the needs created in us through our own childhoods –
for example the need for validation created by a family that
seemed to prefer a sibling over you – are needs we take with us
into adulthood and greatly impact the way we form relationships.
Rosa’s Story:
This leads me to another client of mine: Rosa. A beautiful woman,
who has been married for twenty-two years, she has wonderful
children, a great job, and a devoted husband. However, she
experienced some distressing, difficult occurrences in her
childhood: she grew up alongside her brother and although
her family was somewhat nurturing, she was always made to feel
that they favored her brother over her.
Rosa experienced some more traumatic events in her adult life,
and instead of dealing with them and working through her feelings
about them, all she did was stuff, stuff, stuff: pushing the bad
feelings and emotions away so she could carry on without having
to work through the distress. After years of this repressing, when
she came to me, her first complaint was, "I can't connect with my
husband in my relationship. I don't know why, but I feel like I'm
looking for this connection, and I can't achieve it with him.” She did
not make the connection between habitually stuffing all of her
memories and her feelings about past experiences and not being
able to connect emotionally with her husband. One of my first
questions to her was, "Do you have resentment? Do you resent
him in any way?”
After some consideration she admitted, “Well yes I do.”
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So I asked her “Why?” and she explained that, “Well because at
one point in time, he used to slap me around”.
Just like with Eloise, this was not the appearance of happy family
life that Rosa kept up outwardly. “Okay,” I said, “he used to slap you
around. What happened?”
Well,” she answered, “we separated, and when we got back
together, I decided that was a non-negotiable.”
Already you can see that Rosa went straight to telling me about the
way the problem was solved, not about the process that happened
surrounding her husband’s violent behavior. I knew that if I
continued I could help her explore why she ended up in that
situation to begin with, so I asked her, “Why do you think you
allowed it to happen in the first place?”
I wanted to coax her into looking into herself a little more, into
considering what needs might be there that could have caused her
to allow the destructive behavior to continue for the time that it
did.
“Well,” she replied, “because when I was younger, the one time that
I told my parents that someone hurt me, they didn't believe me.”
“So what did that lead you to believe?”
After some hesitation, she stated, “It made me feel like I wasn’t
important enough. As though I am not worthy enough to have
someone protect me. I feel like I have to take care of myself; that I
have to fight for my security because I can’t really count on any
one else to provide it.
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So now, because I can’t trust that he will keep me safe, everything
that my husband does leads me to think that he's going to hurt me
or allow me to be hurt by someone.”
So we see that holding that train of thought in her mind, even
subconsciously, without ever working through the feelings
involved, has actually led her to build resentment towards her
husband Everything that he does bothers her because it makes her
feel threatened.
Now, is this her fault? Well, part of it came about because of the
environment that she grew up in, and shows us how influential the
emotional baggage garnered through our childhood experiences
can be, but that is not all of it, and the other part of it is the more
difficult notion that we have to take responsibility for the things
that happen to us and the decisions that we make as a result of
them, even if we do not understand them.
So what does this mean? How do we take responsibility for
something we don’t even seem to understand? It's essential to sit
down and reflect. We rarely take enough time to reflect on
experiences. When we do reflect on them, it opens up the
opportunity for reaching that elusive stage of acceptance. And
when we finally manage to reach the point of acceptance,
something magical happens: we have this big “Aha!” moment of,
“Oh, now I can connect the dots. This is why that happened. This is
why I am that way. This is why I don't like this.” Then you begin to
question your behavior and your actions, and you can begin
to make changes. Being in the place where you start to question
your behaviors and actions allows you to actually start establishing
healthy boundaries.
©2015 Relationship SOS
“HOW DO WE TAKE RESPONSIB IL ITY FORSOMETHING WE DON’T EVEN SEEM TO
UNDERSTAND?”
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Healthy boundaries are vital as they enable us to nurture our souls.
You need to look within yourself to discover and become
comfortable with what is okay and what is not okay for you;
because when you understand those boundaries in yourself, it's far
easier for you to communicate them to other people, and your
whole behavior: your body language, the ease with which you
connect to others, and your healthy perspective on life all shine
through.
Rosa sets a great example of this. After she separated from her
husband, she discovered that she really was not willing to put up
with him slapping her around anymore, and she came back to the
marriage saying, “This is a non-negotiable for me, because not only
does it hurt me, but I know that, inside, it kills me as a person. It just
eats at me. It makes me just crumble as a person. I can’t be your
partner when you’re over here treating me like I’m your child, or as
if I’m worthless.” When she made that declaration, took that stance
and put the stake in the ground, she acknowledged and asserted
one of her healthy boundaries. It changed her relationship and it
changed how she connected with her partner.
Throughout these stories we see some consistent, interconnecting
threads emerging. We see that a healthy relationship starts with
the self, with being happy in ourselves.
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In order to achieve a healthy, happy relationship you need to
nurture your soul, which involves introspection: discovering and
examining who you are and what makes you happy and how to
communicate that and reach it, and trying to understand the
experiences of your past and the decisions you made as a result of
them. The goal is not necessarily to understand why things
happened to us; many things could have been beyond our control.
The goal is moving past the things that happen. We cannot control
how someone else acts, but we can reflect on the things that
happened, and as adults we can ask, “What can I do to find
significance in these experiences and discover a different meaning
and perspective on what happened?”
You can make the decision to not get stuck in that cycle of being a
victim, or thinking that bad things happened to you because of a
weakness, or a fault in you, or as a result of something that you did.
Understanding that they were not your fault and that you are not a
victim is a big part of nurturing your soul. You can make the
decision to move forward and leave that emotional baggage
behind, because it does not serve you in your current relationships,
and it cannot help you build future ones.
Action Steps:
1. Take some time to think through and identify your core driver
(acceptance, connection, control, growth, safety, validation)
2. Identify the emotional baggage you are holding on to and
observe how it is affecting you. Begin to release through reflection
and acceptance via journaling
3. Establish and implement healthy boundaries
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