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  • Renata Morresi

    Press to(o) close

    2015

  • Throughout my recovery.

    Go on.

  • Will this also stop.

    A result of the increased use of.

  • Relief.

    Out of rudeness.

  • Out of kindness.

    Damp.

  • A perfect one.

    That I have to kill the desire inside me.

  • Is not a perfect one.

    The past two years.

  • When I was 10.

    Two hours every day.

  • A few weeks ago.

    Damp, still.

  • Have given me more of a sense of belonging.

    Stroke again.

  • I remember the pain of addiction.

    More peace and serenity than I ever thought possible.

  • Living sanely means.

    Articulate breaking.

  • To proceed to a new destination.

    I grew up.

  • Stopping.

    Started admitting.

  • Add starting.

    Crave for.

  • Stopping.

    More.

  • Void.

    Program was like having a ton of bricks lifted off my chest.

  • A random trigger.

    What a relief it was not to be alone anymore and to finally turn on my.

  • A spectacle and nothing.

    Different order.

  • Compare the.

    At last I was able to let go of the burden of resentment.

  • A time.

    Right there, right there.

  • One person.

    I would never ex.

  • Change.

    Ob.

  • Filth.

    Debris.

  • Rocks.

    Fill me with yours.

  • The honest imperfections.

    Of my life today.

  • Of lies.

    Take hold of.

  • Lying.

    Strike.

  • Stroke.

    Slowly, Im learning that I dont need to be dont need.

  • To reject intimacy in an effort to protect dont need.

    Increasing frequency of.

  • Dont need.

    And long enough.

  • My goal today is the same as it has been throughout my recovery.

    To merge.

  • Generate.

    A small sac.

  • Even my worst day.

    I remember the pain of addiction.

  • Will this also stop.

    I hated and thought.

  • In.

    Smooth.

  • Thick.

    Untick.

  • I remember remember the pain of addiction.

    When you select restart or shut down.

  • When you select its like.

    When you you.

  • Open it wide.

    Sooth it down.

  • Quit and re-open.

    Exhaust.

  • A box.

    Fill.

  • Quit and re-correct.

    You fuck, correct.

  • Open.

    In a box.

  • Admit powerlessness.

    Unmanage.

  • Come and uncome.

    Came to believe in.

  • On me.

    The reward circuitry compels me.

  • I remember the pain of addiction.

    Compels you to do things that further your inventory of selves.

  • Super-es.

    Back, in the back.

  • Natural repetition.

    I worry if I stop too long.

  • I'll lose my feel good feelings.

    Push along, I say.

  • I'm so tempted to just hit.

    To beg for.

  • With multiple tabs open and clicking for hours, you can.

    Yes, yes, yes.

  • The best way to reboot is to give your brain a rest.

    From recovery.

  • As I get older the more apparent the side effects of this addiction.

    Will this also.