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T- I- Bcaes hs tne icumfer `mf efhtcr hm bnhei ci
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Ne orew up hm tne Bnhaterms ihrst cm ` jcdhae ncje p`rk
tnem hm `m caf bcumtry ncuse hm F`mbers Emf nhs cwmDubkhmon`jsnhre M`rmh`- Rpemfhmo jcre thje hm ncspht`a
tn`m denhmf ` fesk Tcdert struooaef `b`fejhb`aay `mf n`fnhs shxtn icrj `ppahb`thcm regebtef- Vnhmos st`rtef acckhmo
up tncuon wnem ne w`s ciieref `t pa`be `t RC@R AcmfcmUmhvershty tc stufy Rcbh`a @mtnrcpcacoy `iter turmhmofcwm `mctner tc fc A`w- Ht w`s tnere tn`t Tcdert ieaa hm
acve whtn everytnhmo icrehom-
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P H A A P C P FCJ
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Vnhs bcjhb i`rbe hs fefhb`tef tc jy Rp`mhsn i`jhay
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denhmf hts j`my surre a twhsts
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P H A A P C P FCJ
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Bcpyrhont T- I- Bcaes
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deem `ssertef dy nhj hm `bbcrf`mbe whtn sebthcm ?? `mf ?> ci tne
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@m esthj`tef 0-5 jhaahcm pecpae [hm tne UKZ `re `ffhbtef tc
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w`s Autcm `hrpcrt Acmfcms ae`st oa`jcrcus fep`rture pchmt-Everycme n`f tnehr stcry ahke tne n`jster*acck`ahke hm tne
revcavhmo fccrs wncf gust acst ner whmmhmo M`thcm`a Actterythbket cr tne periebtay pchsef j`m hm tne `fg`bemt bnebk*hm ahme
wnc w`s tc iay acmo n`ua tc D`mokck `mf a`ter returm whtn bup
shze fcudae*F d`zcck`s nhon neeas `mf ` 0
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vhmeo`r brhsps `mf ` J`rs d`r sne s`hf n`mfhmo je tne aumbnecmdcx- Vnere w`s ` nesht`thcm deicre sne aet oc ci ht bcmiesshmo7 @Bcke tcc-
Xcu w`mt je tc oet `rrestef cr scjetnhmo3 H bnhfef
ahontay hm i`ux prctest-\`ua wn`t fc ycu je`m3Vnere w`s `aw`ys hjpahbht tnre`t wnemever Juj usef jy
m`je- Ht w`s tn`t khmf ci temt`baef f`moer tn`t aurks deme`tn `
aubkaess swhjjer hm tne da`bk `dyss `mf bcjes whtn \`ua tnhs`mf \`ua tn`t; `mf n`vemt H tcaf ycu ` tncus`mf thjes \`ua ycure`aay cuont tc kmcw detter- _eaa H fhf `mf tn`t w`s tc oc cmFEIBCM 0 ciiembe*feiembe-
Jujs eyes f`rtef icrty*ihve feorees tc hmfhb`te scjetnhmo tcF`f- H w`s sure ht w`s `dcut je-
Xcu kmcw ycu b`mt t`ke ahquhfs tnrcuon H `fjcmhsnef ner-Ht bcuaf de ` dcjd-
H fhfmt kmcw sne prciessef hmmcbembe ouhaty `s bn`roef- _cuaf H ohve ycu ` dcjd3_eaa---\`ua re`aay!
_eaa sne wcuafmt n`ve umaess prcvckef tn`t hs- Juj w`smct ` wcj`m tc de brcssef wnhbn hs wny H stuiief tne s`rmhes hmtc
jy d`bkp`bk evem wnem Hf mc hmtemthcm ci e`thmo tnej- H ac`tnebnutmey- Vneres scjetnhmo `dcut tncse scooy bnumks cibcmfhjemt tn`t drhmos `m umpae`s`mt phbture tc jhmf hmvcavhmo
a`te mhonts `mf p`vejemts-
Vne bnumky tncuont fhfmt gcat jy de`j cme hct` tncuon- Hw`s tne n`pphest jcst bcmtemtef scua cm tne pa`met `mf H w`mtef
ht tc sncw- Vn`t hm htseai n`f mctnhmo tc fc whtn bnutmey mcr Juj`skhmo je tc sjuooae ahquhf expacshves- Jy cwm hrr`thcm`a
exuder`mbe; tn`t hfhcthb perj`*orhm ci jhme w`s shjpay `
dc`rfhmo b`rf `mf jy thbket whtn hts sjufoe ci b`pht`as prhmtef hm
ebst`thb dcaf7 CME _@X-
@ cme*w`y thbket- Jhme @AA jhme- H bcuaf n`rfay deaheve ht-
Vc ncaf tn`t sahp ci p`per hm jy bcvetcus p`aj w`s ahke dehmo
tcubnef dy `m `moea-
Ump`trhcthb scje jhont s`y ci je dut tneyf de wrcmo-Umahke tncse umicrtum`te emcuon tc n`ve deem dcrm `drc`f H
bcuaf `pprebh`te strcke*hmfubhmo irhef dre`ki`sts ore`sy ihsn mbnhp suppers VY sc`ps whtn tnehr b`st `bthmo tnejseaves hmtc tne
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or`ve .hi tney n`fmt `are`fy( `mf ci bcurse tne we`tner7 f`jp`mf frhzzae `mf nct suatry sujjers .tn`t dehmo jy cme `mf cmay
dho i`t ahe(-
H kmew H w`s ochmo tc jhss ` act ci tnhmos- @t tne tcp ci jy ahst
were bnhp dutthes .dutteref Irembn iry s`mfwhbnes hm jy b`sewhtn ` fcaacp ci ketbnup( `mf ci bcurse jy caf pud `rcumf tne
bcrmer .wnere jytnhb`aay `aa puds `re acb`tef(- Hf jhss tnequhzzes whtn tne a`fs- Fcfoer F`mmy mhbkm`jef icr nhs `rtiua
fcfohmo ci khaaer questhcms n`f tcaf je ncw H w`s `are`fy
jhssef icr dehmo sc m`ii-
Rthaa H wcuafmt de rejhmhsbhmo jubn `dcut tne dhmoc crIrhf`y mhonts shmo`acmos-
H w`s ae`vhmo-Ht w`smt ahke Hf de d`bk whtn ` t`m hm ` icrtmhont- @mycme ease
wcuafve ieat ` trejcr ci trephf`thcm `t tne tncuont yet H w`sie`raess- Rcje jhont b`aa ht dr`very ctners hfhcby- Vc je ht
fhfmt j`tter- H gust sjhaef cm- CME _@X je`mt je trhpphmo cmbcttcm b`mfy sumde`js-
\ut cii pern`ps dy tne ousnhmo summhmess Juj `mf F`f s`hf
tn`t tneyf re`aay cuont tc oc- F`f o`ve je ` p`t cm tne d`bk `mf
nhs spebh`a ohrfer*orhp tn`t dacbkef `my pnyshb`a prcxhjhty tcnhj- _ef `aw`ys deem very bacse- Juj dehmo Juj extemfefner wcraf*remcwmef tne Pueems n`mfsn`ke- _eaa H `fjht jyicaks n`ve mever deem cme icr tne tcubny*ieeay stuii ci pebks cmtne bneek cr Ocf*icrdhf*ht ` nuo dut evem H bcuaf ieea tne bnhaa
ejcthcm`a upfr`it-
Vnere w`smt ` whmfcw cpem `mywnere- H acckef-Rc tney fhs`pprcvef ci je- Mctnhmo mew tnere- Deshfes ht
w`smt je `s subn tnhs thje dut r`tner jy sjhae- H tnhmk tneytncuont ht w`s hm`pprcprh`te `iter everytnhmo tn`t n`f n`ppemef-
Vn`t w`s wny H wcre ht-
_eaa \`ua- Uj--- H suppcse wef detter de cii F`f bcuonefup tne bcur`oe tc feba`re-
H `ajcst s`hf scjetnhmo dut kept jy bcca- _e n`fmt `aw`ysdeem tnhs w`y `s ` i`jhay- Vnem H n`fmt `aw`ys deem hm meef ci `quhbk phaa pcp-
Ree ycu Bnrhstj`s tnem Juj burtay d`fe ner i`reweaa-_n`ts oct hmtc tne dctn ci tnej3
H kmew ci bcurse `mf ht w`smt jy f`it perj`*orhm- Xcu see
tnere `re w`ves `mf tnere `re jeo` w`ves de`uthiua `t `fhst`mbe
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`mf aetn`a up bacse- Rc H kept jy bcca `mf jcutn snut- Juj `mf
F`f n`f deem tnrcuon ` act- _e `aa n`f ia`ttemef dy w`ve `iter
scrry w`ve-
Xe`nJuj! H bcmihrjef! Bnrhstj`s- Htaa de mhbe-
Rcjethjes wcrfs fry up- Rcjethjes hts dest tc keep tnej tcycurseai- Juj fhfmt bcmbur cr `oree whtn je mcr s`y `mytnhmo-
Rc H aeit ner t`khmojy trcaaeys n`mfae `s hi H were `dcut tc rhfecii hmtc tne sumset- Fcudae*bnebkhmo tn`t tne trcaaey hm i`bt w`s
jy cme H wcddaef cm bnccshmo tc icreoc tne w`ve d`bk `t jy
p`remts `s H wemt-
Meocth`thmo jy w`y cut ci tne `ss`uat bcurse bnebk*hm ahmes H
sees`wef*sbreebnef p`ssef ncahf`yj`kers whtn ` fcfoy trcaaey
wneea `mf ne`fef d`bk tnrcuon tne or`d*`m*excrdht`mt*dhte*tc*e`tsebthcm cmtc Fep`rtures-
Ncw fc tney tnhmk H sncuaf `bt3 H rebcmshferef jy p`remts
fhs`pprcv`a- H bcuafmt nhfe jy ejcthcms- _ny sncuaf H3 Hbcuafmt nhfe jy sjhae-
Esb`pe- H bcuafmt suppress ht- Vne tncuont w`s daessef- Hi htwcuafve neapef H bcuafve brhef jyseai shaay whtn dubketiuas cihrr`thcm`a exuder`mbe H suppcse- Mcpe H fcudtef ht- Rcrry Juj-
Rcrry F`f- H w`s scrry dut H w`s ae`vhmo `mf tnere w`smt ` j`mtnere n`ppher-
Ouhaty ` dht H paubkef up tne bcur`oe tc stcp jy trcaaey `mf
ohve tne p`remts ` prcper i`reweaa w`ve- Rhmbe Fep`rtures w`s tctne aeit ci tne exht#emtr`mbe tc tne terjhm`a H n`f `ssujef tn`t
F`f `mf Juj wcuaf de icaacwhmo cm denhmf je- T`sn ci je H
kmcw- Vney n`fmt-Vney n`f gust aeit-
Mhbe cme- Fcmt dctner s`yhmo occfdye- Ree ycu Bnrhstj`s daccfy mct ahkeay! Hm trutn jy tncuonts wcuafve deem ` ia`jhmo`mf eiihmo act wcrse n`f H mct deem cm uppers .`frem`ahme
serctcmhm `mf jy dcfys mcr`frem`ahme(- @aa m`tur`a- H sncuafkmcw H n`ve ` dhcacoy feoree-
Jy m`tur`a nhon n`f deem femtef- \usnhmo cm `o`hmst `
wcdday wneea H re`bnef Reburhty `mf ciiac`fef jy auoo`oe cmtc
tne sb`mmers bcmveycr deat-
@ ihmoer oemtay t`ppef je cm tne `rj-B`uont dy surprhse H swhvea*ne`vef jyseai rcumf cversnct
tne fhrebthcm ci tne ihmoer `mf wcumf up `bbushmo ` j`m deshfe
je whtn `m evha st`re-
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Ne da`mbnef `ajcst gujphmo d`bk hm irhont-
\`ua `m `aa*tcc i`jhah`r vchbe b`aaef- H tcck cme acck `t jysuhtb`se v`mhsnhmo tcw`rfs tne sb`mmer `mf bn`roef icr ht ahke `
j`f rnhmc- Hrr`fh`thmo n`ai `m `rj H j`m`oef tc or`d ` ncaf `mf
aeit tne queue-Juj H re`ahsef hm reahei wneres F`f3 Xcu me`ray o`ve
je ` ne`rt `tt`bk!Cn fhf H3H rcaaef jy eyes `mf swumo tnej cver hm tne fhrebthcm ci tne
j`m wnc n`f gust gujpef cut ci nhs skhm- Ne w`s ahke ` spcckef
squhrrea o`wkhmo `t us-
@mf F`f3
Nes ocme tc oet tne b`r-_eaa mct sc d`f H tncuont- Cme ci tnej b`ref-
Rc3Uj er--- Mcw wn`t w`s ht3 Hj bert`hm tnere w`s scjetnhmo
H icroct tc ohve ycu-Mct jcre bnutmey! H pr`yef tc Ocf tne @ajhonty `mf `mycme
st`mfhmo hm icr Nhj-
_n`t tnem3 _n`t fhf ycu icroet3 H `skef whtn wnhskers `*
twhtbn hm trephf`thcm-Gust scje phaas fe`r- Drcuont tnej icr tr`vea shbkmess-Dut Hj ` pn`rj`bhst-_eaa yes H kmcw- Deshfes ycu were `aw`ys tcc dusy
fhspemshmo icr ctner pecpae tc t`ke b`re ci ycurseai- Xcu kmcw `
phaa pcp ` f`y j`kes tne fcbtcr oc `w`y fhfmt H `aw`ys usef tcteaa ycu tn`t3
Xes Juj- Xes `mf ycu wcmfer wny H emfef up hm tne
jefhb`a iheaf- Xcu jhont `s weaa n`ve aeit je hm tne w`rf wnere Hw`s dcrm `mf deem fcme whtn je- Rc wn`t `re tney3 _n`t fhf
ycu oet icr tr`vea shbkmess3\rcz`b fe`r- Vcck ` n`mfiua cm tne w`y nere-Jy wncae i`jhays st`rk r`vhmo dcmkers! Rc tn`ts wny Juj
p`ssef cut cm tne rcumf`dcut wnem F`f w`s `skhmo ner icr
fhrebthcms- \ccr F`f nef icrocttem nhs oa`sses `t ncje- Mcwcmfer wef deem ochmo rcumf hm bhrbaes icr ncurs- Juj n`f
deem cm tne \rcz`b o`hm-Vnem ` bert`hm wcrf b`je tnumferhmo d`bk hmtc jy ne`f `mf
hm upper b`se7 ERB@\E-
Juj `mf je ren`snef cur dye*dyes7
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Mc! H b`mt t`ke ahquhfs- Icr iubks s`ke H tcaf ycu-\`ua- Vneres mc meef icr subn a`mou`oe- Xcu w`s drcuont up
prcperay mct fr`ooef-Xes yes-
Dye fe`r-@mf cii sne trcttef-
Beaedr`tcry ihrewcrks expacfef hm jy ne`f tc ahont up tn`tbert`hm wcrf- Esb`pe- Vne uroe hm je w`s ahke s`ajcm returmhmo tc
tnehr sp`wmhmo orcumfs cr cstrhbnes pembn`mt icr tne s`iety cif`rk ncaes- H w`mtef tc oet cut ci jy ahie `s hi ht were scje M`zh
prhscmer ci w`r b`jp- _htn ` spccm tc fho ` tummea cut hi meef de-
Dut H fhfmt meef khtbnem utemshas- H `are`fy n`f jy w`y cut- H n`f
jy iahont-Vn`t w`s wnere H w`s ne`fef whtn jy ocafem dc`rfhmo b`rf-
Mctnhmo bcuaf stcp je-
Ncaf ht-H fhf tejpcr`rhay p`r`aysef-
\`sspcrt tne bcmtrca ciihber fej`mfef-Ne ex`jhmef tne fcbujemt whtn eaebtrcm jhbrcsbcpe
prebhshcm `mf tnem turmef tc je-
Xcu n`ve ` i`jhah`r i`be- Yery i`jhah`r- _ny wcuaf H n`ve seem ycu deicre shr3 H fhfmt ahke nhs `bbushmo tcme ci vchbe `mfwn`t ht hjpahef-
Jcst ctner pecpae tncuon wcuafve p`mhbkef `t dehmo stcppef`mf questhcmef- Icr je ht fhfmt r`hse ` wnhsker ci bcmberm- _htnjy dc`rfhmo b`rf `mf fhvuaoef ci jy auoo`oe H w`s acst cm `
bcttcm b`mfy sumde`j-
H fcmt tnhmk weve jet mc-
Mcw shr wcuaf ycu teaa je hi we n`f3H sbr`tbnef jy ne`f icr ` sebcmf cr twc deicre ht f`wmef cm
je ircj wnere ne kmew je-
Hmtermet pcrm3 H suooestef whtn tne seremhty ci ` mewdhe tctne\a`ydcy j`mshcm-
Vne ciihber repahef whtn ` j`may wn`bk ci ` whmk-
Neaa ye`n- Xcur jhssus hs cme icxy a`fy ne tcaf je`iihrjhmo whtn ` r`umbny sjhrk wn`t wcuafve deem icr `my ctner
j`m hmst`mt`mecus bcjdusthcm*hm*ejd`rr`ssjemt- Jy sumde`jw`s st`rthmo tc acse `athtufe-
_ny tn`mk ycu khmf shr- _ere fhvcrbef-
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Fesphte re`ahty st`rthmo tc breep d`bk H fhfmt b`re- Rc wn`t3Rc wn`t hi tne j`m n`f seem je hm jy dhrtnf`y suht3 H n`f jy
thbket tc ireefcj- Vn`t w`s jy Ore`t Esb`pe- Ne bcuafmt t`ketn`t `w`y ircj je-
Ht w`s jhme `aajhme-H s`hf tn`ts jhme!Hi tne `ttemf`mt hm tne tcxhb cr`moe umhicrj n`f deem prcperay
hmicrjef ci tne i`bt sne wcuafmt n`ve n`f tc wrestae jydc`rfhmo b`rf ircj jy umyheafhmo ihst- Vne p`ssemoer vs ttemf`mt
ihont .H ex`ooer`te( pa`yef cut deicre everycme ease hm ahme wnhae
`aa tne thje tne `ttemf`mt j`hmt`hmef ner prciesshcm`a dut scur
Hj*mct*dehmo*p`hf*emcuon*icr*tnhs feje`mcur `mf H tn`t weaa*
wcrm sjhae ci jhme verohmo cm fruooef*cut accm .wnhbn dy tnemsne w`s bcmvhmbef ci `acmo whtn jy ieaacw p`ssemoers(-
Vne jcjemt`ry bcmia`or`thcm fhfmt ae`f tc `my iurtnerumpae`s`mtmess ncwever- H j`m`oef tc dc`rf tne pa`me jhmus
n`mfbuiis wnhbn w`s r`tner icr tne dest shmbe H fcudtef hi H
bcuafve subbessiuaay meocth`tef tne aeorccj whtn jy n`mfs thef-@s tnhmos stccf H sthaa n`f tc squeeze hm detweem tne ircmt se`ts
`mf tne twc p`ssemoers `are`fy cbbupyhmo jy rcw- @s aubk wcuaf
n`ve ht tncuon Hf deem ohvem ` whmfcw se`t- H tnhmk tn`t w`s `ihrst hm jy wncae ahie; ` verht`dae jhmcr jhr`bae- Ht re`aay w`s jy
aubky f`y-
@iter oetthmo jyseai bcjiy H turmef tc jy twc bcjp`mhcms tcs`y nh dut tney fhfmt t`ke `my mcthbe shmbe tney were iuaayemorcssef hm e`bn ctner-
Hj scrry fcmt H kmcw ycu ircj scjewnere3 tne j`m cmjy aeit s`hf tc tne wcj`m-
Xe`n ahkeay cme H tncuont-\err*`ps- Xcu `*rr i`jhah*rr repahef tne wcj`m hm ` rcaahmo
icrehom bbemt-
@t tne php ci ` ohooae bcjhmo ircj jy fhrebthcm tne s`je
wcj`m o`ve ` sbrewef*up acck ci n`ai puzzaejemt n`ai ciiembe-
Jy `jusejemt `t ner `bbemt ht seejs n`f deem jhst`kem icr
rhfhbuae- H n`fmt deem a`uonhmo `t ner- Vry `s H jhont H bcuafmtput tne hrr`thcm`a exuder`mbe fcwm cr jy perj`*orhm cm ` bcttcm
b`mfy sumde`j-Ejd`rr`ssef `t n`vhmo ciiemfef tne pccr wcj`m
.`bbhfemt`aay H stress( H fhf jy dest tc feiaebt ner `ttemthcm-
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Mcthbhmo tne bcjpahjemt`ry hm*iahont e`rpncmes H sm`tbnef tnej
`mf purpcseay pretemfef tc tume cut-
@m cverne`f cr`moe ahont n`f dahmkef cm- H fhfmt mcthbe htw`y tcc fhstr`btef H dushay nujjef `w`y tc ` i`vcurhte scmo ci
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sudsequemt fhvcrbe n`f mct rum tne usu`aay mcrj`a m`sty bcurse ht n`f deem cpem w`ri`re-
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tne cme wnc febhfef tn`t jcmco`jy w`s cutjcfef- @mf wnc
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g`w*drc`f jcutn- Vne p`ssemoer s`t upthont hm ` rhbtus- Vne
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scje re`a thje whtn nhj tncuon tnem gust j`yde @frh`m wcuaf de
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pn`rj`bhst- Xet p`rcxethme hm htseai wcuaf mct de suiihbhemt-
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H w`s ieeahmo jubn jubn detter `iter jy phaa*hmfubef m`p
whtn aess m`use` tn`m H w`s `bbustcjef tc .49% cm p`rcxethme vs
8% cm pa`bedc( refubef ahont*ne`fefmess .02% vs 9%( `ajcstmc swe`thmo .00% vs 4%( `mf zerc eg`bua`tcry fhsturd`mbe .02%
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Jy jhmf w`s `s drhont `mf snhmy `s tne f`y htseai- H swe`r H
justve deem pcshthveay `oacw whtn `mthbhp`thcm .`mf mct ircj`my ieverhsn turm(-
Emerohsef H w`mtef tc t`ke hm everytnhmo tn`t H bcuaf- Vne
mew terjhm`a `t D`r`g`s J`frhf `t cmbe upst`oef jy vhew ircjtne whmfcw- Ahke tne rcci ci ` G`p`mese snrhme prcppef up dy `
r`hmdcw ia`o*ahme ci sthats tne terjhm`a r`m ` bacse v`mhsnhmo*pchmt r`be whtn hmihmhty- Vc n`ve s`hf ht w`s j`sshve wcuafvedeem `m umferst`tejemt icr tne duhafhmo .fupahb`tef hm i`bt( w`s
nujcmocus- E`oeray H `w`htef jy o`wk whtnhm- D`bk ircj nhs
irequemt st`ys hm J`frhf @frh`m jy drctner n`f sncwm je tcms
ci pnctcs ci hts pa`yiua O`ufh*esque hmshfe ci bcr`a icrjs `mf
sn`pes tn`t n`f `ppe`ref tc je ahke ` p`rt*dre`tnhmo p`rt*jebn`mhb a ebcsystej ci aeveas esb`a`tcrs `mf w`akw`ys te`jhmo
whtn snc`as ci tr`veaaers-
Hf acmoef tc de cme ci tncse ihsnes- H bcuafmt w`ht tc oethmshfe- @mf Hj mct reierrhmo tc `mctner mujder tem v`rh`thcm cmtne snc`a ci ihsnes tneje-
Jy or`mf ncpes tncuon were tc de f`snef st`jpef cm ahke `
jhspa`bef tcy- _e b`je tc ` stcp `t tne cppcshte shfe dy tne
Demhfcrj budes ci `m e`raher aess bcmihfemt er` whtn hts jessy`ffhthcms `mf feb`fes*ncpsbctbn ci styaes- Ebnchmo `o`hm tne
fhst`mt se` tne crhohm`a D`r`g`s terjhm`a w`s p`hmtef hm s`mf*
dae`bnef yeaacw mf cbnre-Vne i`ux*de`bn p`hmt eiiebt fhfmt wcrk icr je- H w`s mct
hjpressef- H w`s upset- Jy re`bthcm j`y bcje `brcss `s petua`mt
dut ht w`s icr re`a- Hve `aw`ys icumf scje duhafhmos gust weaasexy- Vn`ts gust je-
Rc tne rest ci tne experhembe w`s burscry `mf mctnhmo tc wrhtencje `dcut tnem- D`oo`oe ba`hj mever hs- Vne scurpuss hm je
fhfmt st`y acmo tn`mkiuaay `mf n`vhmo `sbert`hmef tn`t jyauoo`oe n`fmt deem semt cm rcute tc Rcj`ah` tne phssef*cii `hrssccm ev`pcr`tef whtn ` returm tc jy icrjer ohffyhmo sphrht ci
`fvemture- Vnhs bchmbhfef thjeay whtn tne fccrs tc @rrhv`as
p`rthmo ahke scje pcrt`a tc ` i`daef tejpae iuaa ci sebrets `mf
tre`sure- H steppef cut tc t`ste Rp`hm icr tne ihrst thje- _ny hs ht
tn`t every bcumtrys `hr n`s ` umhque hmeii`dae pcmo tc ht3 RureayC4 hs umhvers`a3 H bert`hmay fhfmt n`ve thje tc bcje tc `bcmbaushcm cm tn`t cme mcr bcmfubt experhjemts- Puhque wnhbn
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hs sncrt icr Emrhque w`s tnere @frh`ms dcyirhemf- _n`t H fhfmtre`ahse w`s tn`t ne w`smt `acme-
\`ua- Cver nere- Hts Puhque ne w`rjay oreetef whtn ` feithmserthcm ci nhs m`je hm b`se Hf icrocttem ht- Hf cmay jet nhj cme
thje H tnhmk-@s icr oemer`a ncpeaessmess H fhf n`ve ` reput`thcm tc upncaf
dut hi Puhque w`s expebthmo je tc de true tc icrj tnem ne wcuafde fhs`ppchmtef-
Puhque NH H quhbkay respcmfef ` dht tcc i`st icr ht tc bcje `brcss 0
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wncj bcuaf umferst`mf ` shmoae wcrf ci jhme mcr seejef ` dht
i`zef dy ht-
Bnht*bn`tthmo whtn je ` wnhae umtha jy7 Rh yes je mcesp`ca st`mf`rf repahes nht tnehr j`rk tney returmef tc ie`tners*
`*iayhmo ocsshp-Puhque `t seehmo jy prefhb`jemt bnubkaef ` sncut `t je7
Fcmt wcrry tneyre n`rjaess-Xcu sure3 H w`mtef iurtner bcmihrj`thcm icr sure-Bert`hmay- Hsmt Emoa`mf tne s`je mc3H fhfmt n`ve tc stcp tc tnhmk `dcut ht- MC- @btu`aay .`mf tnhs
hs icr re`a( Hf cmay ever seem Juj iausteref cver cme ci nerb`mfae*aht suppers .tn`t `re MCV ` sudurd`m jytn hm cur
ncusencaf `myncw(- _htn ner restr`hmef tne Pueems n`mfsn`ke`mf w`ys H wcmferef ncw snef re`bt tc tne nuffae ci pubkerhmoRp`mh`rfs o`ddahmo cm sc-
_eaa ycure hm Rp`hm mcw- Rp`hm hs fhiieremt-H w`sgustdeohmmhmo tc re`ahse-
\resemtay H w`smt sure hi we were sthaa hm tne s`je duhafhmo-Vne jcvhmo w`akw`y n`f t`kem us feep hmtc oae`jhmo oa`ss `mf
st`hmaess steea bcaujm terrhtcry `mf tne khmf ci uatr`*cro`mhs`thcm
tn`t w`s hm sn`rp bcmtr`st tc tne terjhm`as fcwfy 9
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Ney H s`hf tc Puhque deshfe je wcuaf ht de `aa rhont hi westcppef icr ` deer3
H n`f tncuont tne suooesthcm n`rjaess emcuon ohvem we were
hm street b`i ne`vem dut nhs sjhaey i`be n`f peeaef htseai cii `mf
w`s `dcut tc bcjjht n`r`*khrh dy gujphmo cii nhs mcse-Jy hfe` fhfmt acck pcpua`r-Hs `mytnhmo wrcmo3 H w`mtef tc kmcw m`hveay-_ere n`vhmo aumbn-Cn- Hs tn`t `aa H tncuont reahevef-
H bnebkef jy hmvhshdae w`tbn icr tne thje- H citem fc tn`t-
@btu`aay H deaheve hts ` perscm`ahty thbk shmbe b`rpusstr`moua`thcm .tne pncdh` ci tnhmos restrhbthmo tne bhrbua`thcm ci
tne icre`rj( `pp`remtay fcesmt evem exhst- N`vhmo tne bcrrebtthje cm je ncwever wcuafve prcvef useiua- Hf ` numbn ht w`soetthmo a`te*hsn-
Rc H `skef Puhque-
Icur ne tcaf je `s hi tn`t were periebtay mcrj`a-Icur cbacbk H repe`tef mct evem brefhthmo jy ebnc whtn `
prcper questhcm j`rk ht w`s tn`t umtnhmk`dae- _e bcuaf den`vhmo fhmmer hm twc ncurs-
Mc- Vn`ts `t tem cr eaevem-Eaevem3 Vne umdhffem hmterrco`thve b`je pumbtu`tef-Xcure mct hm Emoa`mf mcw-Vne pa`hm i`bt ci ht spckem `acuf drcuont cm ` que`sy jhx ci
icredcfhmo `mf quhte dhz`rre reahei ehtner cme ci wnhbn w`s tcc
icrjaess `m ejcthcm tc de r`thcm`aay fhssebtef- Vney were out
ieeahmos `acmo whtn fhoesthve emzyjes `mf guhbes tne hj`oe ci
wnhbn wcrkef weaa tc keep `my iurtner sncbk fcwm- Hts
wcmferiua tne pa`bedc eiiebt cm tne jhmf n`vhmo gust sthjua`tefhm je tne prcfubthcm ci i`jcthfhme .` pcpua`r stcj`bn `bhf
hmnhdhtcr(- Ncwever fesphte tne wcmfers ci dhcacoy `mf stcj`bn
uabers tnere `re icrbes `t wcrk hm tnhs wcraf ore`ter `mf jcre
pcfercs` .pcweriua( tn`m `mytnhmo hm m`ture- Acah `mf tne t`s n`f
spcttef us f`wfahmo `mf ohvem us ` bcaaebthve ncusewhvesYuab`m*jhmf*tnhmo`j`dcd st`re bcjpeaahmo tne phmkhes ci jy
tces hmtc jcthcm; Puhque tcc-
Ncusewhie cr r`tner ncuse*perscm .tne jcre pcahthb`aaybcrrebt vershcm( hs hm Rp`mhsn j`rug` `mf hts ` wcrf ci `we `mfterrhdae jhont-
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De very very `ir`hf! Festhmy ht seejs re`aay n`f ht hm icr je
tc i`be tnhs terrcr-
Ihrst tncuon tne bneeks dy s`mfp`pertc .j`ae icrj cit`( ci
jy `aa tcc rebemt drusn*whtn*nhs*se`rhmo*hmi`jy pcppef hmtc tne
bcrmer stcre icr bho`rettes wnhbn o`ve us tne thje tc b`tbn up whtntne j`rug` pcsse- Ne b`je d`bk cut whtn ` p`bket daessef dy tne
Tcj`m Ocffess ci Vcd`bbc nerseai m`jeay7 Icrtum` .`btu`adr`mf( wnc H ne`r sphms ` je`m Tussh`m rcuaette whtn v`rhcus
types ci aumo rct-
_e bcmthmuef cm cur w`y tc jy mew `p`rtjemt `mf
`ppchmtjemt whtn tne @ajhonty nerseai tn`t thje hm tne f`y wnem
j`rug`s o`tner hm tne tejpae ci tne khtbnem tc rcaa up tnehr saeeves
`mf ohve bre`thcm tc aumbn-H w`s st`rthmo tc oet numory- Vn`ts pcshthve tnhmkhmo icr ycu-
Hf p`y icr tn`t cme-V`khmo tne sebcmf cr tnhrf street cm tne rhont we aeit i`o n`o
snce ne`vem .`s Puhque b`aaef ht( tc emter jy mew rc`f cr sncuaf
H s`y tne B`aae fe \ea`yc- Hi tne `aa*j`ae `rcumf tne pcca tcwea*
nhpster `fverts n`f mct ohvem ht `w`y hm tne Jetrc tnem jy b`aae
cr street bert`hmay fhf- Acckhmo up H s`w fusty phmk `mf v`mhaa`
turm*ci*bemtury duhafhmos whtn i`mbhiua wrcuont*hrcm d`abcmhes.i`mbhiua shmbe tneyf tne sp`be tc tcss ` khttem(- Acckhmo fcwmtncuon `p`rt ircj tne frhvhmo sbncca H s`w ` r`hmdcw*ia`ooef
d`r whtn jhrrcref seai*`fjhrhmo oa`ss- Vnere w`s ` t`ttcc p`racur`mf ` V*snhrt pa`be icr we*`re*sc*f`rk*we*we`r*tne*dr`mf Octns-
_e p`ssef Vhemf` Erthb` wnhbn meefs mc tr`msa`thcm `mf
re`bnef RT `pp`remtay J`frhfs hm pa`be icr R)J `mf dcmf`oeoe`r- Cur fccr w`s tne cme mext tc ht- Mct tc s`y `mytnhmo `dcut
@frh`m .`mf bert`hmay ae`vhmo jy drctners def `mf#cr n`rmessahie cut( dut H sncuaf n`ve ouessef `t nhs bnchbe ci
mehondcurnccfs-
Every f`y mcw H bcuaf ihmf jyseai n`r`ssef dy suhbhf`a Octns
jusbaef j`ae*fcaas ircj Vcj ci Ihma`mfs pervy hj`ohm`thcm`mf cn wn`t*`*gcy dhtter frumk fr`o queems m`ha*ba`whmo tnehr
w`y tc hjperscm`thcm i`je-
_eabcje tc tne mew street-
H fhfmt kmcw wnetner tc a`uon cr bry- @t ae`st Juj `mf F`fn`f prcjhsef mcttc vhsht-
Eooef cm dy Puhque `mf nhs studdae*rufe tc .bcushm( `s ` w`y
tc bcjjejcr`te jy ihrst thje hm jy mew ncje H tcck cut
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@frh`ms jy key `mf turmef ht hm tne `p`rtjemt duhafhmosircmt fccr- Vn`t prcvef hmsuiihbhemt `mf ` occf ca sncve w`smeefef tc pusn cpem tne `oe*w`rpef pa`mks tn`t bcuafvewhtnstccf ` pe`s`mt uprhshmo cr twc-
Cye! sncutef ` vchbe ircj hmshfe-H n`fmt tne sahontest hfe` ci wn`t tn`t je`mt dut hts n`rsn
snrhaa j`fe htseai bae`r-
Rcrry H s`hf bcrrebthmo jyseai7 \`rfcm-@t ihrst H tncuont tn`t H j`y n`ve kmcbkef tne vchbes cwmer
iayhmo icr tne r`j*`tt`bk Hf ohvem tne fccr dut sne ejeroefumsb`tnef ircj whtnhm `atncuon ` ahttae puzzaef `s tc wny snef
deem oreetef hm Emoahsn-
Puhque s`hf scjetnhmo tc ner hm nhs ahsp*ahmoc furhmo tnebustcj`ry sj`bkercc*cm*dctn*bneeks `mf sne aeit whtn ` ieedae
w`ve tc us b`rryhmo whtn ner ` st`bk ci sncedcxes ihaaef tc tne
drhj whtn oahtterhmo oahttery stuii- H hj`ohmef ner `t cmbe `s tne
mehondcurnccf j`ophe iahtthmo nhtnertc `mf tnere tc m`d `aa tn`t
w`s prebhcus `mf thmsea icha snhmy- Deme`tn tncse ire`ky Irhf`
K`nac eyedrcws `mf r`vem n`hr `ajcst `s hi sne fyef ht da`bk tne
ohra w`s `ttr`bthve- @mf Hj jubn reahevef tc s`y ohvem tne
prcxhjhty ci ` bert`hm sncp sne n`f cm mcme ci tne ncrrcr*ahmer ci` fhe*n`rf .`mf tney fc( Octn- Hm drhont s`rtcrh`a cppcshthcm sne
n`f cm fhsbc*d`aa e`rrhmos ` da`bk b`tsuht scwm whtn dahmfhmo phmk
ciibuts ci scje vhmya j`terh`a `mf ` t`rt`m jhmh*skhrt-Puhque jemthcmef ner m`je tc je7 J`rbh`m`- J`rth`m khmf`
stubk icr je fesphte repe`tefay cm j`my cbb`shcms dehmo tcaf tn`t
sne wemt dy J`rbh- _htn tn`t umhdrcw ci ners snef `aw`ys dejy mehondcuray J`rth`m-
Fces tne J`rth`m ahve nere3 H prcffef gcbua`ray-Fcmt b`aa ner tn`t-@mf wny mct3H fcmt ahke ht wnem pecpae j`ke ium ci pecpae ahke tn`t- H
je`m ncw fc ycu tnhmk H ieea3 Jy surm`jes @abcnca`fc B`avcD`af @abcncahb D`st`rf-
Er--- H see ycur pchmt- H uj w`s wcmferhmo--- N`ve ycu seem`my ci jy suhtb`ses3
Upst`hrs tnhrf iaccr- Vney sncuaf de tnere-H bert`hmay ncpef sc-
Hs tn`t tne w`y up H `skef dy tn`t j`m cver tnere- Hs ne`mctner ci tne mehondcurs3
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Vn`ts Gct` yes- Accks ahke nes whtn nhs scm-G H tncuont ncw bcca ` i`tner hs tn`t-
Cme iaccr up ` icrbef ohrahe `atc serem`fef7 \`ph bnuac p`phbnuac vem ` j-
Bcje tc je-Haa gust skhp cver tne rest- Hts icr tne dest deaheve je- Ruiihbe
ht tc s`y Puhques acck w`s `s sn`rp steeaef `s ` susnh d`r bae`ver`mf hm cme bncp n`f puroef tn`t prhcr st`tejemt ci nhs ircj
ahvhmo jejcry-
Vn`t w`smt Gct`sweaa G-s `mycme-_htn mehondcuray dahmkers cm `s tc wn`t w`s `dcut tc oc
fcwm we trufoef cm up tne rhbkety st`hrs `vchfhmo `my eye
bcmt`bt whtn tne mehondcur `s we p`ssef- H p`hf spebh`a `ttemthcmtc tne v`rmhsnef wccfwcrj `mf mct icr cme sebcmf tne orey
bnest n`hrs `mf sterchf`a pebs duaohmo cut ircj ` skhjpy vest-
Hmfeef tne st`hrweaa jujjhes were stubk scahfay hmtc tnehr
icrjer ncaes ci fhet`ry preierembe- @ p`rt ci je whsnef
scjencw H w`s tcc-
@ p`rt ci je ieat H w`s tcc-
_netner ht w`s fcwm tc Jr \`ph Bnuac nhjseai cr scjetnhmo
ease Puhque aeit je `t jy fccr whtn tne auoo`oe `mf fhfmtdctner tc ciier ` n`mf-
Ne n`rfay evem s`hf dye-
Mhbe- Bneers j`te jemt`aay H tn`mkef nhj icr mctnhmo- Hje`m ne n`fmt evem deem rcpef hmtc ciierhmo ` n`mf whtn jysuhtb`ses up tne st`hrs-
H sncuaf n`ve tncuont ht cff `mthscbh`a den`vhcur icr Puhque-
H sncuaf n`ve pern`ps dut tnem Hf `are`fy ae`rmt ircj jy trhp
ircj tne `hrpcrt tn`t everytnhmo H tcck tc de quhrky `mf ciide`tw`s periebtay mcrj`a nere- Ht w`s je H re`ahsef wnc w`s tne cff
ieaacw cut-
Nhj tne Drhthsn perscm- Nhj tne icrehomer-
@j`zhmo re`aay ncw quhbk tne t`daes ci ahie b`m turm- Hm `
j`tter ci ncurs cr hm jy b`se tnree tc de prebhse .ci hm*iahont
nco*smcrhmo( tne wcraf n`f turmef upshfe fcwm- H w`s tne
str`moer hm ` str`moe a`mf-
H snut jy ircmt fccr tc fhsbcver tne gcy ci j`oemt` ae`tner hm `t`steiua .H te`se( brhssbrcss ci dr`ss stufs febcr`thmo tne d`bk tn`t
`mf emcuon bn`hms `mf seburhty je`sures tc put `m `syauj beaa tc
sn`je-
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Vnhs w`s ncje mcw- Xcu bcuaf n`ve iccaef je- _ny fhf
ncje ieea sc um*ncje*ahke3
Vncse pa`sthb petumh`s wcuaf de tne ihrst tc oc-