My Hostel Life

Finally I’ve started writing after a lot of confusion that how should I start it. Really whenever I think to start writing, my mind becomes empty & keeps thinking what I should write about. Just like when the blank Google page appeared in front of mine I just used to forget everything and started thinking that why I’ve opened that page. Many times I’ve tried to start writing dairy but unfortunately every time I’m unsuccessful. And how should I? Cause I’m one of the most irregular student till the date. So, whatever I should get back to my track.

Oh! The track, the journey of our college life is really so adventurous & memorable too. I can remember those days when we first came to the college with too much hopes and dreams but now just look at us, we’re nothing but a hopeless, frustrated, careless, shameless people. Sometimes I think really how much we grown up in those days. I remember my first introduction, I remember the first day of my college, I remember my first cru … oh leave that. And also I’ve seen the worst college fest for the first time. First time I’ve realised the importance of giving fine, first time I’ve jumped over the boundary wall at midnight. Also got my first laptop, lots of downloading, late night chatting. Oh! I still remember those days when we used to gather at our balcony and spent the whole night on a stupid topic and next day again college bunk. And as a result I got lots of reappear in semester, which I also experienced for the first time. There was lot of fun I had like bringing non-veg food, alcohols that was like nothing but a big stealth mission. And also getting caught in the action was the best part of that. The last night

study before the examination also I’ve learned that from my college life. And also learned a thing that when the result comes out we keep asking others “how much do you have”? I mean reappear in exam but once we used to ask about the marks. Look what a lesson we’ve learned from our university. One more thing which I’ll never forget that is our LAN gaming. And also we’ve participated in inter college gaming competition for the first time. And one thing I’m going to miss forever that is how we used to celebrate our birthday party, the way we got beaten felt like never before and the fun we had that will never ever come back. Really someday we’ve to die for these days.

That’s how our days go on & on, that’s how we’re reaching bit by bit near to our destination. That means we’re going to be apart again, again we’re going to be lost among the strange world. No matter what the problems are going to come & no matter where we’re going to be but till now we die for each other, till now we fight for each other, till now we die for a cigarette at midnight, till now we used to drink together to keep out the frustration, till now we used to study together before the exam, till now we used to smile together, till now we used to cry together, and that’s the real friendship & that’s the definition of real life I’ve learnt from my hostel life. May be I’m really a little bit drunk up that I’m telling too much about the friendship and everything else but really I’m confessing it from bottom of my heart. And you should also know that these blank pages are the best friend I’ve ever had in my life because they’re a good listener and they’re the only one who can understand your feelings without opposing a single word. All these years were like a silver lining that I’ll keep finding forever all over my life and those days will never ever going to come back and all I’ve to

do is that living with those memories. Whatever, I think it’s getting more emotional so leave that matter.

At last every story deserves a happy ending that the readers can give a good review but really my story don’t deserve that because it doesn’t have any happy ending and really I’m living these days like I’m dying every day every moment. Some stories are successful about their teenage dream and all that stuff but my story, my crush…don’t even think about that. And I’m just breathing with this faith that someone believes in simplicity and someday she’ll realise this simple thing that there’s someone who really dies for her & cares for her but who can never tell her.

Every day I live, every day I die

I’ve lost myself just don’t know why

Everything I try, every time I cry

I’ve failed myself just don’t know why

Everyone I love, everyone I die for

I don’t want to lose as much I can try

Everyone I need everyone I care about

Just let you know that I’ll never say good bye!!

Sourav Sinha