My Heartbreak (DONE)

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My Heartbreak (Rejections Series #1)

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Synopsis

Ellie Martin had been abused and harassed since the age of 13. She was oncethe child that always smiled always laughed and always had fun. She was thechild that could make anyone like her, could make an angry man smile and agirl that could make a room shine and the people within laugh. Now she's thegirl that cowers in the corner, stays out of sight in order to avoid getting hurt,she a girl that is terrified of anything and everything. She's now the girl thatdoesn't have fun anymore, doesn't smile whenever and is depressed all thetime. Her mom doesn't know anything as she believes that she's still depressedover her father's death. It's not like she pays attention though, she's lost in herown world as well. The soon to be alpha, Aiden is the ring master of all her

misery. He's smart enough to keep it hidden from the rest of the adults in thepack. But what happens when her mate turns out to be the Aiden himself.

No this isn't the story where the Alpha rejects her and she runs off, joinsanother pack and comes back reformed. This story is where Aiden regretseverything and accepts her, but Ellie, his own mate is terrified by him. Andbecause of that she rejects him before he has the chance to say anything. Thisis the story where Aiden tries to regain Ellie's trust. This is the story whereAiden tries to make his mate the girl she once was, even though he'sheartbroken everyday when he sees his mate. His story where he's heartbroken

every time he is reminded that he had caused his mate this pain. This is thestory of Aiden's heartbreak.


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Chapter One

Aiden

It was all the same, everyone doing their everyday routines. Being lazy, foolingaround, playing with pups, making out with either their mates or the packsluts.

I scoff, wait till they meet their mates, and if they're from this pack then they'llknow about their whoring history. How they were wolves who jumped from she-wolf to she-wolf or a she-wolf who'd spread their legs for about anyone. I, on

the other hand remain fresh as snow. Nonetheless, as an Alpha male, my wolfcontains the urge to release every so often, but I shut him up with the samethreat.

What will our mate think of us? When we find her and she discovers that wedidn't wait for her?

Whenever, Caiden, my wolf had the urge that would be my reply. I had many

offers, and many rumours have spread about my so called 'quickies'. But as Isaid they're just rumours.

I now looked down at the pack runt. Well I wouldn't call her a runt; she'sactually the old third in commands daughter. She posses dominant bloodwithin her, and at one point I called her my best friend.

However, everything changed when her father passed away 3 years ago. Since

then Ellie Martin has been picked on and harassed.

As Ellie lives in the pack house with the rest of the teenagers, and the adultslive in the pack neighbourhood; many don't know the lifestyle she lives, hermother included.


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I concentrate back on Ellie as she cowers on the floor, for some reason thiswhole week I felt disgusted and uneasy with myself whenever I'd hit her. That'sright, as the so called runt, she's responsible for everything; from cleaning tocooking to doing our homework. If something was to upset one of us, we'd lashour anger out on her. I honestly have no idea as to why it has gotten so far, and

why I don't stop it. The wolves living in the pack house would look up at me,whenever I was to abuse her; I felt a feel of accomplishment sore through me.However, as sadistic is sounds and disgusting; it was a form of revenge thattake upon her, and for something that I know she never had any power tochange. The thought of putting her in her place was feeling I had begun toenjoy since that night.

But throughout the week, I wasn't getting that feeling anymore I was gettingthe feeling of disgust for myself. Anger when someone else was to abuse her. Iguess it's all nerves as my eighteenth birthday is coming up tomorrow and that

means I would find my mate.

Snapping back to reality I looked down at Ellie and put on my best 'I'm going tohurt you' face.

"Do you have any idea what you have done?" I asked my voice full of fakevenom.

"I- s-s-sorry A-a-alpha" That's right I was to be Alpha tomorrow, and I hadmade sure that everyone was starting to call me that already.

"Sorry doesn't cut it freak. But I'm feeling generous at the moment so I'll let itslide. But next time you better watch your ugly ass, don't even think of spillingthe goddamn food on me."

I was lying when I called her ugly; Ellie was actually one of the most beautifulwomen I've seen. She isn't fake; she doesn't wear any make up nor does shewear any revealing clothes or heels. Although she's abused, we give her thefreedom to wear whatever, and do whatever. It isn't our fault she doesn't havetime to go shopping. It's her fault she doesn't finish her chores on time. Herwardrobe contained of sweats, t-shirts and one pair of converse. I turned andwalked away, grabbing my book bag and decided to head to school early. I


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jumped into my red 2008 Chrysler Sebring.

As I drove to school I couldn't help but think about Ellie, unfortunately she wasa year younger than me and we only had lunch together. Not like we sit

together, I'm surrounded by people, being the future alpha means that I'mpopular at school as well; since I attend an all werewolf school. On the otherhand Ellie always home, funny thing is I never see her in the halls either. She'swell hidden at school. I sighed, must be the nerves again, I guess the pressureof being an alpha is making me go soft and making me think of the lowly runtin my pack. I guess this will all be over tomorrow. Once I'm Alpha and once Ifind my mate I would stop thinking about Ellie. And be back to normal.


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Chapter Two

Ellie

I slowly stood up from the ground and started to clean up the mess that wascreated. I felt tears roll down my face, I hated when Aiden was to abuse me. Iturned sixteen two weeks ago and found out that he was my mate. But sincewe hadn't kissed he had no clue till his eighteenth birthday, which wastomorrow.

I could understand as to why this past week he hasn't been hurting me as

much, it's his wolf trying to show a sign, but that didn't stop him. Sure itreduced a teeny tiny bit but it didn't stop. I felt my wolf whimper, but she wasstrong, she wasn't dying as a usual wolf would. She was waiting for her mate torealize that his mate is right in front of them. I heard she-wolves brag abouttheir time with him, it hurt like salt rubbing into my deep wounds.

It was worse than anything. Worse than what I felt when my dad died, or thefact that my mom turned a blind eye on me when she turned depressed overthe death of her mate. Worse than the experience from that night. I sighed; it

was all about to get worse tomorrow. When he would discover I was his mate,he would reject me. I was expecting it after all. Who would want me; I am afterall reminded of my flaws each and every day. And allow me to tell you there aremany.

Aiden being my number one tormentor would never ruin his reputation for me;he would reject me and then throw it in my face all the reasons why the fatesand Great Luna made the mistake of creating me for him. He'll then brag aboutit to everyone and choose himself a mate for who fits his standards. I ran to myroom as the tears started to fall down uncontrollably. My wolf was curled in a

ball crying as well. She couldn't shift, as the soon to be alpha, Aiden had forbidof us to. It was difficult at first but we managed.

I was proud of my wolf, for being so strong and waiting for him, being able toforgive and overlook everything he did. Not losing any hope and more


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importantly staying by my side and not dying.

As I entered my tiny room I looked around examining it. I did this every time, Ilooked at the room located under the stairs; it was the size of a walking closet.

No bed, a small basket in where my clothes were folded in, my only converse onmy feet. A picture of me and my family before my dad died beside my makeshift bed on the ground, the small attached bathroom with only a toilet, sinkand a small shower. I sighed and laid down on my 'bed' and sobbed.

I sobbed till I fell asleep. I wasn't allowed to go to school since the age offourteen. I only had received education till the 8th grade. I'm supposed to be a Junior this year. I let out another sob as I thought about it. Laying my head onthe small pillow, I looked up at the ceiling thinking. I felt my eyes get heavy as

time slipped by, I needed some rest.

Lunch and dinner was finished and was only required to be heated. I wouldwake up when the pack teens come home.

o-o-o-o

It's his birthday today. Oh god oh god. I woke early today and set the table and

then rushed back into my room. Not wanting to come face to face with him. Iwas panicking and my wolf trying to get out there wasn't helping.

"FATASS" I heard someone screech.

Shit.

I slowly got up and took my time to get to the kitchen where everyone wasgathered, including him. I took a deep breath, ending up taking a whiff of hiswonderful scent, something spicy and burnt wood. I kept my gaze on theground. I answered in a mumble.


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"You called?"

"Yes, I did. And I also specifically asked you to make chocolate cake for Aiden'sbirthday but what did you make? Vanilla, that's what!" I recognized the voice

that belonged to our pack slut and a common slut that had her go with Aiden,Brittany.

I knew I was gaining to get punished for making Vanilla, but I knew for a factthat Aiden's favourite was Vanilla and he hated anything chocolate flavouredother than chocolate itself.

"But, it's the Alpha's favourite" I mumbled in response, before I could stop

myself. Oh no.

"Oh, really? So you're telling me that you know more about Aiden than I do?"

YES! I wanted to scream out.

I heard Aiden growl.

"Well clearly she does Brittany. Cause she's right" Intervened Aiden.

I made the mistake of looking up and met with his gaze. Instantly everythingdisappeared and it was only him and me. Looking into those hazel eyes thatcan be mistaken for a pale green, I see regret and sorrow. Regret for what? Andsorrow for what? I didn't want to find out, no I know it will only hurt me more.

As I was getting more and more lost into his eyes, I barely noticed him taking acouple steps towards me. Key word barely.

Shit, no no no no no this wasn't supposed to happen.


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I did the one thing I could think of, knowing it was also the stupidest as well.

I ran.

Straight out the door and into the depths of always green forest.

o-o-o-oAiden

I could smell her beautiful scent, fresh snow, and white rose petals with a hintof vanilla cupcakes. It was intoxicating but I couldn't locate it; it was too faint. I

was standing in the kitchen with a delicious looking vanilla cake in front of me. There were she-wolves in every corner and I had made eye contact witheveryone of them and still couldn't find her.

I knew for a fact that she was here as I could smell her faint scent, maybe sheleft already? But there is one thing I know for a fact is that she knew she wasmy mate. My wolf had informed me that he sensed that she had turned sixteenabout two weeks ago and knew that she was my mate but didn't let me know.

I'd be getting an explanation for that later on once I found her. I sighed andconcentrated then on the cake as I couldn't find her yet. I flinched when Iheard someone yell, Fatass... Brittany, our pack slut and the main gossiper ofmy so called 'fun times' with her. My wolf growled at that. I had to agree withhim, especially now that I know my mate lives here and probably heard allthose rumours.

Snapping out of my thought, her scent started getting stronger and my wolf

perked up, I searched around the room while the runt came in.

"You called?" I heard her mumble barely audible, but still be able to sendshivers down my back. I looked towards her, she was wearing a red t-shirt withold looking sweats with her signature black converse. She had her head down,her hair creating a veil.


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I took a deep breath, and my mate's scent was strong and it was coming off ofher. No! Shit what have I done? Ellie Martin is my mate...I abused EllieMartin...I harassed Ellie Martin....I rubbed it in her face about how her dad'sdead, her mom doesn't care for her...I hurt Ellie Martin...I hurt my mate. Myheart felt like someone had put a tight silver wire around it and as I recalled all

the things I did and said to her, the wire only got tighter. I felt my wolf whimperas he remembered what he had done as well.

The intensity I felt from the bond between us was overwhelming, and theknowledge of me doing such disgusting and shameful acts made me nearlydrop to my knees. A werewolf's mate is the most precious and sensitive part ofthe male's existence. Even a strand of hair being harmed on her head cancause the male to go on a rampage. She was the light for the male, the onlybeing that can calm and restrain the beast within us. And we were herprotector, her best friend, her support and the one being she can always rely

and trust upon.

Looking back to our past, I see the level of disappointment I've been towardsher, I've taken the bond between us and tarnished it.

Not anymore though. Nope, from now on things change.

"Yes, I did. And I also specifically asked you to make chocolate cake for Aiden'sbirthday but what did you make? Vanilla, that's what!" I growled snapping outof my thoughts. No one talked to my mate like that.

"But, it's the Alpha's favourite,” My mate mumbled in response. Her voice soangelic. I think back at this week and now understand why it was moredifficult to abuse her this past week. I winced at the word abuse.

"Oh, really? So you're telling me that you know more about Aiden than I do?" Igrowl once again. She did know more. 'Cause she was right and she was mymate.

"Well clearly she does Brittany. 'Cause she's right" I intervened, not being ableto contain the anger I felt as she talked to her that way. Instantly as she heard


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my voice she looked up and was met with my eyes. Everything disappeared andit was only her and me. I looked into her soft honey brown eyes as I tried mybest to display my regret and sorrow in my own.

I took a step closer to her, not breaking eye contact. Her scent alluring mecloser to her and the need to touch soft looking skin amplifying as each secondpasted.

Touch was a major necessarily for wolves. It brought reassurance for manyemotions; safety, love, protection, support.

Taking another step towards her without breaking eye contact, I tried to think

of ways to try and apologize for my behaviour.

In a blink of an eye she was gone. No! She ran, I started to run after her butwas stopped when I felt Brittany's hand on my arm. Her skin to skin contactmade my skin crawl. I didn't want another's touch, just my mates, and mybody knew that just too well.

"Let her be, babe. Let's just eat so we can then announce to the pack how we're

mates." She made sure she was loud enough for everyone to hear, and my packof 78 wolves were here. A regular sized pack would have up to the most 30

pack member, we were twice the size and twice as powerful.

"Sorry slut, but my mate isn't as lowly as you are. I wouldn't even think of youbeing my mate. Thank god the moon goddess agrees with me and my mate isn'tanything like you. My mate isn't you...it's Ellie Martin. Ellie Martin is my mateand the Luna of Midnight Blue pack. She's the Luna to the biggest, andstrongest pack 'cause she is capable of leading it. Unlike you." I growled out.

I heard gasps and congrats from every corner but at the moment all I wanted todo was get to my mate, I ran out using her scent as a tracker for me to find her.

I ran until I was in the middle of the dense forest. The trees stood tall and thegrass bright green, there was a small patch where the sun shone the brightest


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and there she sat.

I noticed as her shoulders tense obviously catching my scent. She slowly stoodup and turned around. I flinched as I saw her face, the hurt evident all over it.

She had dry tears on her cheeks and her eyes were puffy red. But never theless she still looked absolutely beautiful to me. Noticing my flinch she scowled.

"I know I'm ugly, you reminded me many times already" I flinched at her words,they sank in. She thought I flinched cause she thought she was ugly.

"I am so sorry for..." But before I could apologize for all the harsh words anddoings I've done to her she cut me off.

"You don't need to apologize... my wolf and I were expecting this. So to make iteasier on you and so you won't be as guilty I'll just say it." I was confused ather words, and when I figured out what she meant I was too late as she hadalready utter those horrid words that will scar me for my entire life.

"I, Ellie Kaya Martin reject you Alpha Aiden James West as my mate."

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Ellie

The minute those words had left my mouth Aiden's face had morphed into oneof pain, agony, loss and anger. I knew that he would feel the pain of the bondbreaking off at one end but i was positive he would also be delighted at the

end. He always reminded me how no one would ever want me. He once told methat I would be the first wolf to be rejected in history. It wasn't common at allfor a mate to be rejected.

Mates were considered priceless gifts, there was a direct intense attraction anddeep love that grows instantly for their other half. However, being told mostlyeveryday for years that no amount of love can help love a creature like me, and


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no amount of attraction can have a fool being attracted to a beast like myself.

I knew that I made the right choice. I did it for him, no matter how much painhe had put me through, I loved him. I loved him since we were pups and our

parents forced us as playmates. I loved him today even after suffering throughall the abuse and suffering he put me through and I will love him tomorroweven after the pain of the separation and the reality of his feelings towards me.

With those thoughts in mind I looked at his beautiful face one more time.

"I did it for you love, I hope you are now happy" I whispered with the upmostmount of sincerity in my voice. And with that I turned and ran back to the

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Chapter Three

Aiden

It's been three days since the rejection and I’ve trapped myself in my room. Ihad my Beta and a close friend of mine, Jace look after the pack for the timebeing, I was in no shape to look over pack issues. I needed to first sort out myown. I had absolutely no idea on how I was to do this. But I wasn’t in the moodto care. I didn’t feel the need to eat and the only thoughts and concerns on my

mind were of Ellie.

I thought of how beautiful she was and how much of a jackass I was to evenconsider of committing such acts. It made me a terrible person, it made me aterrible Alpha and most painfully it made me a terrible mate.

My thoughts were interrupted by a knock at the door, I didn't bother scentingout whoever was at the door, because the one person I wanted it to be wouldnever even think of coming here, not after what I had done to her.

Letting out a deadly growl attempting to frighten my intruder away. But theyknocked again. I shot up, enraged, ready to holler at who dared to come upwhen I made specific instructions for no one to.

Opening the door I let a gruesome snarl escape and looked down at the petitefemale I realized my mistake for not scenting out the intruder. There, in front ofme stood the person who had occupied my dreams, who I only thought of, whoI desperately wanted to hold and cherish; there stood my entire existence, mymate.

"E-Ellie...W-what are you doing here?" Dear Fates! She had me stuttering now.An Alpha never showed absolutely any weakness, and stuttering was a sign ofweakness. However, from what I have heard, true mates brought out a side of


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each other that no mere wolf would have the privilege to witness. I guess that justified my moment of weakness.

Ellie looked really nervous herself. She had a tray of food in her hands and it

was shaking a tad bit.

“Uh, Beta Jace told me to come here and give you this." She indicated at thetray. I made a mental note to thank Jace later. He knew I wouldn't eat with theknowledge that my mate was no where near my side, where she belonged.

I smiled small and moved aside. Indicating for her to come inside.

She seemed hesitant at first but compelled after a few seconds. I could smellthe fear off of her. It made my heart ache knowing that she was afraid of me. Itook a deep breath and let it out slowly. Reminding myself to be patient, thiswould take a while.

“Uh A-alpha, Beta Jace said not to leave until you are finished. I could leave if you want though" She mumbled as she kept her eyes to the ground and herchin to the side, displaying her neck in submission.

I let out a fierce growl, hating my mate treating herself lower than myself. Shewas my equal, she would look me in the eyes and speak loud. And she wouldnever address me so formally and would absolutely never ever even think that Iwould want her to leave my side even for a second.

Seeing her flinch at my growl, seemed to have brought me back to my senses. Ineeded to learn to control my temper and my wolf. I had to take this slow and

needed to understand that she still feared me. Letting out a deep calmingbreath and soaking up every ounce of patience I had in me.

"First, please don't call me Alpha, please just call me by my name, same with Jace, you are more dominate than him. And please don't think for a secondthat I would want you to leave, please just, just don't leave me." The last bit


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had came out as a soft whisper filled with desperation and need. But as everymale mate I did not care for my pride, this is Ellie, my mate I would bare myselfto her in every way and form.

She nodded and just stood there. Her face filled with awe and disbelief.

Lightly shaking her head she headed for the sitting area within my suite. Sheplaced the tray on the coffee table and stepped back. I made my way over to thearea and purposely brushed lightly against her, filling my lungs with her scentand sat on the small couch. I noticed a slight shiver that ran down her body atthe close contact.

"Come sit down Ellie" I told her as softly as I could.

I noticed her shiver when I said her name. I smiled, though she rejected thebond, it still had an effect on her, I still had an effect on her.

"Yes Alph- I mean Aiden"

Now it was my turn to shiver when she spook my name. It felt so right comingoff of her. She slowly came and sat on the one person sofa beside me.

My wolf growled at the act of disrespect and rejection, I was seated on a loveseat, meant for two and she ignored the empty spot right beside me and sat afarther away. I took a deep breath. Patience Aiden, Patience.

"May you feed me?" I asked, I really wanted her close. Not only me but my wolfas well. She froze. She looked at me as if I had grown another head.

"Please?" I begged. She nodded slowly and hesitantly stood from her spot andsat beside me on the love seat. She took the fork and stabbed some pasta on toits end and brought it to my lips. My wolf was literally purring at the fact of our


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mate feeding us.

However as she feed me she kept her eyes on the ground.

I sighed, she was still uncomfortable with me. I couldn't really blame anyoneother than myself.

Looking at her, she still looked very weak and needed food herself. Gently, Igrabbed the fork from her hand, and stabbed some pasta on it. Looking back ather, she had her head down. With my other hand I tenderly grabbed ahold ofher chin and tugged it up so she was looking straight into my eyes. Theamount of hurt in them shattered my heart. She misunderstood.

"I didn't take the fork because I didn't enjoy you feeding me love, I took itbecause I'd like you to enjoy it as well, I'd like to feed you. May I?"

Her eyes widen and she opened her mouth to protest.

"Please?" I asked her again.

Giving in she gave me a small nod, and slowly yet hesitantly opened hermouth. I smiled and placed the fork in her mouth.

For the next few minutes we continued to feed each other, and I was content inour comfortable and soothing silence.

"Why are you doing this?"

I looked at her confusingly, not knowing what she meant. She had obviouslynoticed my confused look before elaborating on what she said.


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"This..." She waved her arms around, but my attention was shifted elsewherewhen I noticed some bruises on her arms, my wolf took over immediatelybefore she could continue.

"Who did this mate? They look fresh, not a day old." He asked growling lowly. Inoticed her flinch and looked up into her eyes, that were filled with fear. Myhard eyes softened and my eyes changed back to it's normal hazel eyes and Igain control again.

"I'm sorry my Luna, I didn't mean to scare you" I assured her softy. I reallydidn't, I had no intention to do so. I just wanted to know who caused herdamage, even after I announced that she was the Luna of this pack and mymate.

"This is what I mean. Why are you so nice to me? Why is everyone notexpecting me to do anything, not hitting me anymore, not cussing at me? Whyare everyone but Brittany treating me like a normal pack member?"

Her words hurt. They stung really painfully. She had been so used to beingtreated lowly that being treated right is foreign to her. But I caught on what shesaid about everyone treating her right except Brittany. I made a mental note to

discipline her on her actions later on. Right now I focused on my mate.

"It's because you're this pack's Luna and my mate. I guess I really don't haveanything to say to explain my behaviour towards you for the past 3 years -" Idid have an explanation but I knew that it will only cause her to hate me more,and right now I couldn't afford that "-But I do want to apologize. Please mate, Iknow that I hurt you and I know that I am in no position to ask you to forgiveme but I will. I am really really really sorry"

My eyes were filled with unshed tears and one rebellious one had fallen downmy right cheek by the time I was done speaking. Ellie just looked at me though,her face showed confusion. But before she could ask whatever she was goingto, I continued and asked the question that had been bugging me all day.


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"Why did you reject me?" I asked in a pained voice, it was uncommon for matesto be reject, hardly anyone rejected their true mate; the pull was too strong.

"I thought you didn't want me, you have been telling me for the past three

years that I'm worthless, disgusting, ugly, a waste of space, low life..."

I winced at every word she said, I interrupted her before she could continue,not wanting to hear anymore.

"Please stop" I whispered letting out a small whimper.

She nodded. We sat in silence for a few minutes before she spoke up again.

"I can't trust you, nor forgive you yet." She started, and that alone was like astab in the gut. If someone was to drop me in boiling oil it wouldn't hurt asmuch as this.

"But please do me a favor?" She asked. I jumped to the opportunity. Althoughshe said that she couldn't trust nor forgive me, she did say the word yet. Whichmeant I had to do everything in my power to make her comfortable around meand then I might have the chance for the trust and forgiveness to come in?

"Anything my Luna. Just say the words" I said too quickly, which caused alittle chuckle to come out of her beautiful mouth.

She has an amazing laugh commented my wolf and I couldn't help but agree. Throughout the entire conversation my wolf had been whimpering, but hearingthat small laugh had him rumbling in joy.

She immediately put her hand over her lips the second she laughed. I softlytook her hand, and felt the pleasurable sparks and tingles shoot through myarm and moved it away from her soft pink lips. I didn't let go though, I enjoyed


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holding her hand.

"Please don't hide your laugh from me love, it’s too addicting" I let out a bark oflaughter as her cheeks started to stain with a bright red blush, she then

ducked her head trying to hide her face. I put two fingers under her chin andlifted her head up to meet her mesmerizing brown eyes.

"Not even your face when you blush" I whispered with a smirk on my face, Iinhaled her scent, causing my wolf to howl in delight.

A ghost of a smile appeared on her face. I decided to tease her a little, trying toact casual to make her more comfortable.

"Is that a smile I see?" I asked in a teasing tone, she gave me a playful glare. Iguess she didn't realize what she was doing 'cause nearly thirty seconds later,she sat up straight and cleared her throat. I sighed, at least we're gettingsomewhere my wolf encouraged.

"So uh the favour?" I asked trying to calm the tense atmosphere that suddenlyappeared.

“Uh yea uh could you please go back to your Alpha duties, and go out a bit. The pack was getting a little worried. And eat as well, oh and please doshower." She said looking down.

"Are you trying to tell me that I stink?" I asked in a teasing tone.

“Oh no I didn't mean that uh you actually smell good. No! Uh I mean that youknow" She was getting flustered and I found this quite amusing.

"Don't worry love, I think you smell amazing as well. You smell like fresh snow,and white rose petals with a hint of vanilla cupcakes. And you know how muchI love vanilla cakes?" I said referring to the birthday cake she had made for me,


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it was delicious. It was one of the few things I ate as I knew that my mate hadmade it specially for me.

"What do I smell like?" I honestly wanted to know.

"Something spicy and burnt wood" She mumbled softly, the blush still on herface.

As I raised my hand out to cup her cheek she whimpered and flinched back. Alook of hurt crossed my face. She's still afraid of me.

She immediately stood up.

"Please do me the favour Alpha. I'll take your leave sir." She mumbled, bowedslightly and practically made a run for it.

I felt my wolf whimper, he didn't like it as much as I did at the mere fact of hercalling us alpha or sir. She spoke to us like any other pack member of a lowstatus would, not one that was supposed to be close to us, someone who wasour equal. I felt the tears prick on the corners of my eyes.

I roughly rubbed my eyes.

No! We have to be strong; we need to win her, her trust and her love. If thatmeans it'll take my entire lifetime then so be it.

And to start out I'll show her that even the smallest things she asks for will betaken seriously, including this favour.

With a new found confidence I went to shower with a smile on my face.


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Chapter Four

Ellie

To say that was awkward, refreshing, amazing, confusing, painful and blissfulall at the same time would be spot on.

When I rejected Alpha Aiden I thought he would be happy. Honest. I never

expected him to be so depressed that he wouldn't leave his room, neverthought that he would care so much, and never thought that he would wantme.

Now the only thing stopping me from accepting him is fear.

I'm afraid...no terrified of my Alpha, my mate.

I know what he is capable of, in both human and wolf form. Not only am Iscared, my wolf is too. She's afraid to communicate, to call out to him. She'snot afraid of rejection, she's afraid of what he will do to her, say to her if shewere to say something wrong.

During the conversation, I managed to drop my walls twice. TWICE! I hadlearnt the hard way never to let anyone let down your guards, not even onesclose to you.

I let down my guards around mom, and where did that get me. Nothing I tell you. And I mean literally nothing. I was ignored whenever I was to talk to her.Her only responses were a mere nod of a head or a yes or no. Nothing more. Iwas practically a stranger, not a daughter to her, a stranger.


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I had no one in this world, and that is what made me build my walls. Andtoday I had managed to forget about them twice.

I sighed and went back to work, though everyone was much nicer and didn't

order me around. I knew what they needed me and their daily routine. Like;every pack member living at the pack house need a cup of coffee or tea in themorning. And let me tell you being the largest pack, there are many wolves, butmore than 50% live in the pack house. That alone took an hour or so andwinded me out.

Being the one of the only omega was difficult, and tiring.

And I was weaker since I wasn't allowed to shift. When I turned sixteen, whichwas now around three weeks ago the Alpha Aiden himself had order me neverto shift till he were to take back the order himself.

Being a new shifter and not being allowed to shift was painful and on top ofthat meeting your mate, even more. But as I said my wolf was strong, she heldhope and she wasn't going anywhere, she was as strong as she was when shecame out, it was only me being the weak one, as she feed off of my energy tosurvive.

And that was tortuous, being an omega doing work, and feeding almost half ofmy energy to my wolf. By the end of the day I was practically exhausted.

I shook my head, and jumped back into reality as I went over to grab all thelaundry from the dryer and started folding them. I heard shouting, and usedmy wolf hearing to hear what the commotion was.

"I WANT EVERY PACK MEMBER IN THE BACK SO WE CAN START TRAINING"I heard Aiden shout. I smiled, he listened. He was now going back to Alphaduties which included training the pack.


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With a sigh of happiness I went back to folding the laundry. Since I was theomega I wasn't treated like a pack member, which meant I wasn't allowed inthe training sessions. I was only allowed when they finished so I could cleanthe yard and wash their clothes.

Not ten minutes later a boy ran into the laundry room. He looked aroundfourteen or so.

"Luna, you need to be present during training. I was instructed to bring youthere" I looked at him confused.

"Please don't call me Luna, I'm the omega. And why am I to go train?" I made

sure to keep my eyes down and not look him in the eye since I was below himand everyone else.

"You're the Luna and Alpha instructed us to call you Luna and since you're thepack's Luna you must train. The Alpha won't start without you"

I huffed, I knew from experience when to let go of an argument.

I nodded and followed him out. Once we reached the clearing in the backeveryone bowed in respect. Wasn't I supposed to bow not them? I looked over atAiden with a confused look. He must have understood since he explained.

"You're the Luna, they're bowing in respect."

"But I'm the omega not-" I was cut off by Aiden growling. Scared I immediatelywent and apologized.

"I'm sorry Alpha I meant no disrespect" I said shakily with my head boweddown and eyes on my shoes.


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I heard growling again. By now I was shaking with fear.

"For today's training Beta Jace will lead." I heard Aiden shout at the pack. Iheard a murmur of 'yes Alpha'.

I felt someone grab my elbow and out of reflex I flinched back. I looked up andsaw that it was Aiden. He had a look of hurt and pain. He then gestured hishand indicating for me to follow him.

I quietly obeyed. Not wanting to anger him anymore, not knowing what hewould do to me if I did.

Nearly after a ten minute walk we reached a small pond. He turned around andfaced me. I kept my eyes on the ground in respect and fear.

"Look at me please" I heard him plead, but still afraid I didn't.

"Please look up" He was practically begging now, which caused my wolf towhimper. I still didn't make a move though.

"Ellie look up, please just look up I'm not going to hurt you" I could hear thepain in his voice and that sent my wolf and me to finally meet his gaze. Hisvibrate hazel eyes, which held unshed tears. For an Alpha to cry was rare as itwas for him to stutter, which I managed to see both in one day.

"We'll talk about what happened back there afterwards. Right now we will train.I need to see your wolf to see how strong she is"

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Chapter Five

Ellie

"We'll talk about what happened back there afterwards. Right now we willtrain. I need to see your wolf to see how strong she is"

Me? Shift? Had he forgotten that he was the one who commanded me not toever shift? And test my strength? I had no strength, half my strength went tothe chores and the other half to my wolf's survival.

I just stood there looking at him like an idiot. I knew couldn't shift, literally.But also because I was terrified, knowing that if I were to shift so would AlphaAiden and the last time I had an encounter with him in his wolf form wasn't

pretty.

~*~*~*~flashback~*~*~*~

It was one of those days when I got to see how a high school looked like. One ofthe pack members had forgotten their project at home and ordered me to bringit to them. Leaving practically a half mopped house I ran to get the poster andran to the school. If I were to be late then I knew I was to receive yet another

beating.

I was now on my way back. The town we lived in was all werewolves and waspractically surrounded by trees.


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As I walked on the empty sidewalk I heard a loud growl, one that could onlybelong to a wolf with either Alpha or Beta genes in them. I hesitantly sloweddown completely afraid.

But I knew better. I knew that growl was meant for me and if I tried to run thenthe outcome would be much worse.

I slowly turned around and was meet with glowing amber eyes. One of anAlpha, our newly shifted sixteen year old soon to be Alpha Aiden West to beprecise.

For the past year, it was him who was responsible for my omega status. The

first few months I rebelled. After all, how could they do such a thing, I was thedaughter of the Third in command. I mean Late Third in command.

Thinking about dad brought tears in my eyes. But I had learnt just a littlewhile ago that showing emotions can make it worse for you. I wiped my tearsaway. And waited for what was to happen to me today.

But what happened, was crossing of the limits. Even for an Alpha, I still am a

pack member aren't I?

I was dragged by my right arm into the depths of forest with Aiden's razorsharp teeth. Thrown across into a tress, pawed at, He ripped half my stomachopen, head budded me in a not so friendly way.

And let me tell you, him being an Alpha meant him being twice as large and hisattacks twice as deadly.

~*~*~*~flashback~*~*~*~

Thinking back to it I was hospitalized for two weeks. I had broken ribs, acracked skull, multiple bruise and scratches, I was required twenty nine


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stitches and my right arm was covered in wolf bites.

If I were human I would have never survived, luckily my wolf genes kicked inbut took nine weeks for me to heal and for a week I was still weak.

By now I was shaking in fear, something which was common for me. My eyesstarted to water, just thinking about that incident. I didn't want to be that hurtagain, it was the worse yet.

I felt my bottom lip start to tremble and I heard Aiden curse in the distancethrough my thoughts which were consumed back to that night when ithappened.

I heard Aiden make his way over to me and I snapped out of my train ofthought, by now my cheeks had trails of tears. I looked up to see himapproaching me. I immediately out of reflex took a step back.

"Please don't hurt me, please don't hurt me, please not again" I chanted overand over again.

Aiden had a look of hurt and pain on his face, God all of today I've seen thatexpression way too many times. Did that make me a bad person?

"Ellie, what's wrong? Please I'm not going to hurt you I promise" He was patientI'll give him that.

I was then snapped back to reality. My eyes widened. What am I doing? I couldget into serious trouble for behaving like this. Shit shit shit shit shit shit....

I immediately straightened myself, roughly wiped my tears away and pushedall my emotions away.


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"I'm s-s-sorry for wasting your time like this Alpha...it w-won't happen againsir. Please forgive me for disrespecting you" I said in a small shaky voice. God you could practically hear the fear in my voice.

I made sure to keep my eyes on the ground while I spoke.

"I apologize o-once again s-s-sir, but I can't shift into my wolf."

o-o-o-o

Aiden

She kept her gaze on the ground, just waiting. Not speaking, making sure notto let any of her tears fall, not to break down right here and not to show anyfear though I could smell the fear off of her, in massive waves.

"W-what," I cleared his throat. "What do you mean that you can't shift?"

I knew she shifted into her wolf for the first time not too long ago, and her notbeing able to shift would be painful.

"I was ordered on my first shift by you, Alpha sir. I wasn't allowed to andnobody was to revoke the order other than you sir"

I took a step back. I order her. Her first shift was probably two to three weeksago. For almost three weeks she was in pain, craving for a run. Add the fact

that she was on the brink of exhaustion from all the work. Then knowing hermate was me for a week and still received abuse from her mate.

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Her wolf was either dead by now from not having the time to be set free and nothaving her mate near and instead have him abuse her, or she was feeding off ofEllie's energy.

I knew that her wolf was still healthy other than the fact that she was craving agood run since my wolf was communicating with her.

That meant the she was feeding off of Ellie's energy.

Oh god what kind of mate am I? What kind of Alpha am I? How could I let thishappen, more importantly how could I be responsible for this?

"I'm, I'm s-so s-sorr-sorry E-llie. I did this? Oh god, how could I let thishappen?"

I fell to the ground on my knees with my head in my hands, I had tears downmy face, and I was sobbing. But I didn't care if I was the Alpha or not, or thatthis showed weakness or not.

I failed as an Alpha, and especially as a mate.

I felt small hands grab my hands and lowered them. I looked up and saw Ellie,even after everything I did, she was comforting me.

She gently wiped my tears away; I grabbed her by the waist and pulled her tome putting my face in the croak of her neck.

After a few minutes I finally let go. I smiled at her she finally accepted me asher mate; why else would she do something like this. She had forgiven me forthe pain I put her through. It had to be.


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"I'm sorry sir, my wolf stepped out of line. She felt the need to comfort her mateand stepped in. It won't happen again Alpha nor will anyone find out." She kepther eyes on the ground as she stepped out my embrace.

My face fell. My heart beat was pounding so loud in my ears, my palms startedto sweat. No! This was the complete opposite of what I had thought.

We need to be patient Aiden, she's broken. At least Alice, her wolf accepts usenough to want to comfort us. My wolf Caiden assured. For now revoke theorder and apologize; I want to play with our mate.

I sighed this is more difficult than I expected. But I had no one to blame other

than myself. I brought this on top of myself and I was the one who brought somuch pain to not only myself but to Ellie as well.

"As Alpha, I Aiden James West revoke my Alpha order on which you wereunable to shift freely. I give back your wolf's freedom to shift and run."

With those words said, Ellie instantly let out a blood curling scream. I knewthat she was about to shift and that this time it would be more painful than

her first.

I rushed towards her and knelt down beside her as she clutched her sides withher eyes shut, tears escaping.

I gently made a move to grab her but I was rewarded with a flinch backwards.Got to say it hurt. It hurt like f*cking hell. But I still continued, I gentlygrabbed her by the waist and pulled her towards my chest.

I whispered soft soothing words while softly rubbing her back. She keptscreaming and tears kept falling.


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And the only thought I had was that it was my entire fault. All because of myselfish mistakes did this happen. All because of me.

Chapter Six

Ellie

Pain

That's what I was feeling at the moment.

Lots and lots of pain.

Other than that, I'm confused; why had he given my wolf's freedom back?Scared; knowing now that I can shift, will lead to many sorts of beatings fromother stronger wolves. Happy; My wolf can finally be free. Hopeful; Now I knowthat everything will be easier, since half my energy won't be lost for my wolf'ssurvival.

As I felt my bones break and relocate into new positions as I shifted from amere weak human to a low ranked wolf.

From my memory of my first shift, this killed. It pained ten times as much. Itwas much worse.

I felt someone's presence slowly approaching me, though it had a calm and

refreshing aura, I couldn't help but flinch out of habit.

But that didn't stop it from coming.


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I felt strong arms engulf me in a warm comforting embrace. A soothing handcaressed my back as I heard a male speaking comforting word into my ear.

I couldn't recognize who he was; I was too blinded by the tears in my eyes and

to deaf by the pounding that belonged to my heart.

I suddenly saw black spots and started feeling faint. Knowing these symptomsway too well, I let myself engulf into the darkness as I slumped into thecomforting arms of my temporarily well wisher.

o-o-o-o

I slowly fluttered my eyes open to be met with a blinding light. I blinked acouple of times before letting out a groan.

Which sound too much like a wolf whine.

I lifted my hand, reaching for my head; but was greeted with a paw.

That sent me over the ledge. I immediately jumped up, and sure enough I wasin wolf form.

I tried hard to remember what happened to which would have lead me to thisconclusion; because if I remember correctly I was banned from every shiftingsince the day of my first shift.

I felt a soft nudge on my side and as I turned to look, I immediately flinchedback.

There stood a huge black Alpha male wolf. And not just any wolf, The Wolf.


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The wolf that attacked and hurt me.

The wolf that hospitalized me for weeks.

The wolf that haunted my nightmares.

The wolf that was responsible for when I woke up screaming most nights.

The wolf that scarred me enough to never even think about going into theforest willingly.

And this wolf also happened to be my Alpha and my mate.

So I did what I thought was best at the moment.

I ran.

I was scared, terrified more like it. I didn't want to go through that situationagain and I most defiantly didn't want Alice, my wolf to experience it. And itwasn't only me that was scared at the moment it was also Alice.

She was scared, upset, tensed, and on the edge knowing that, that couldhappen to her.

But at the same time she was feeling safe, happy, relaxed and at bay knowingthat her mate was near.

If that made sense.


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I loved the feeling of the forest floor underneath my paws, I forgot how muchfun and how relaxing my first shift was.

I felt at peace running like this. No worries, no chores, no beatings, no hatred,

nothing. Just me and my wolf running in a quiet and peaceful environment.

I was knocked out of my peaceful environment when I was knocked down tothe ground. I immediately let out a whimper, and submitted. Hoping andpraying that I wouldn't have to go through that god awful beating again.

I felt tears in my wolf eyes, as I stared down not wanting to meet his gaze. I feltthe weight above me disappear and when I looked up a few minutes later, I saw

that my alpha, my mate stood there in all his glory in only a pair of basketballshorts.

He handed me a t-shirt and nodded his head towards al large tree, telling me togo and shift.

When I walked back out, I made sure my eyes were on the ground.

"Why'd you run?" He simply asked, but no matter how simple the question wasthere was a lot of emotion hidden in it.

"My wolf and I were afraid" I softly answered.

"Why?" His voice sounded too distraught, so heartbroken I couldn't help butlook up at him. He looked as if he was in pain, hurt. I couldn't help but scoffand that. He was hurt by that only, what did he know on how I felt all those years.

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"Why? You're asking me why? Answer this, why wouldn't I be scared, terrifiedto the bones...hmmm? For three years, my mom has ignored me turned a blindeye on me; I try and start a conversation with her I get silence if I were to tellher what happens to me I would still get silence. For three years this pack hasbeen reminding me that my father, my best friend, my hero is dead; that he

was weak. Was he though? He died saving me and my mother during thatrogue-attack. He gave up his life for us. For three years I have been abused,beaten to unconsciousness. My skin has never been clean nor soft; alwaysblack or blue from bruises, or red from the scratches. For three years I had towork till the point of exhaustion. And for the past 4 weeks half my energywould go to my wolf so she could survive. Do you have any idea how brokenshe is. She wasn't allowed to shift, and had to live with the knowledge that hermate, her mate caused her this and her human much more? And you're askingme why I'm scared. Do you remember that day, you first shifted and in yourwolf form you beat me. I was hospitalized for nine weeks. NINE weeks! I hadbroken ribs, a cracked skull, multiple bruise and scratches, I was required

twenty nine stitches and my right arm was covered in wolf bites. Then the day Iwas discharged I was to be on bed rest, but instead I was commanded to work.I've never been to school for the past three years, my room is probably the sizeof your walk in closet. I have no bed, just a pillow with newspapers in it, asmall bathroom with only a toilet, a sink and a tiny shower. I ask myself everyday, what I did to deserve this. I wish every single night that my dad was aliveand that, that day that rogue killed me instead."

I don't know what had gotten into me, but I needed to let that off my chest.How I got the courage to say everything I don't know, but it felt good. Like aweight had lifted off my chest.

"Before you act like a mate towards me Alpha, become an Alpha first, and try toprevent whatever happened to me in your pack. The day when you do, maybe you'll be the mate I dreamt of" I whispered.

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Chapter Seven

Ellie

I silently shifted back and grabbed a set of clothes that were laid down in thebasket near the tree line. Our pack had these baskets everywhere around ourterritory; being werewolves we spent an awful lot on clothes.

As I walked back to laundry room to finish folding the clothes, I couldn't helpbut think that my behaviour back there was awful. I had no right to step out ofline like that. To say such things, being the omega I am. It would have beenoverlooked as a warning if I were still the third in command's daughter; but I'mnot anymore. My status, my rank here now is an omega, I'm positive I'm goingbe eating my words soon.

I heard my wolf growl at that. Wait what? My wolf never growls at me, we had areally close relationship since we were each other's only supports.

How can you be so dense Ells? My wolf, Alice said using my nickname.

What do you mean?

Did you not see him out there, have you not seen his behaviour for the past few

days so far? The last thing our mate would want is to hurt us. Your rank is nolonger an omega , it's a Luna . You did not step out of line; you just gave him areality check. Alice scolded.

I thought you hated him, feared him? Why are you defending him? To say I wasconfused would be an understatement, not ten minutes ago was she


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whimpering in fear.

I still fear him but I don't hate him. After all he is my mate. I just don't love himyet . I'm not defending him either, well in a way I am. But you need to

understand that he would never think of such things anymore. I'm not telling youto jump in his arms. Just give him some slack and some credit.

Wow when did you become so wise? I asked sarcastically.

Please, I was always the one who that held the logic. I don't know what you'd dowithout me. She replied. I sighed, I miss our little conversations. For the pastfew days she was pretty quiet. She was the only one I was comfortable around,

the only one who understood me and the only one who I can act normal andfree around.

I missed you too. She whispered before disappearing into the corner of mymind.

As I reached the laundry room I sat down and continued folding the clothes forthe next hour or so.

o-o-o-o

Two hours and a half later...

Finally done. I slowly stood up and put the baskets of clothes on the cart, therewas at least more than a hundred, and made my way around the pack housedelivering them. I was pretty drained and I'm one hundred percent sure youcould tell just by looking at me. I was walking rather slowly and once in a whiletripping over my own two feet. My eyes would hardly stay open but I knew Ihad to finish my chores. I still had to broom and mop, make lunch and dinner,snack for the pups, baby food for the newborn, replace all the towels, cleaneach room, dust, clean the twelve chandeliers, mow the lawns, water thegardens, clean the backyard...and the list goes on.


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I sighed. How was I to do all of this on my own. Today was not my best day.

As I made my way to the rooms located on the first floor I accidentally bumpedthe cart into two couples.

Shit.

"I'm so sorry, I didn't see you there" I exclaimed as the couple turned around.

"It's alright Luna" One of the men said.

"Are you alright Luna you look pretty pale?” The blonde girl who stood besidethe man who just spoke said.

"I'm fine, just tired. If you'll excuse me" I mumbled as I tried to make my wayaround them. I wasn't used to people asking me if I was alright or not.

"No Luna, you go rest me and Elise can take care of this." The other girl said.

"Yeah just tell us what to do" Elise exclaimed. She looked pretty excited. Huhwait until you hear what to do.

I was about to protest when my wolf spoke up inside me.

Let them Ells...I know you're tired you'll probably last a few more minutes beforeyou collapse.

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"Ok you just need to take all of these clothes and deliver them to whoever theybelong to.” I said

"How do we know who they belong to?" Elise asked.

“Uh I don't know, I've been doing this a long time I kinda have all of itmemorized." I mumbled.

"Whoa, but that's a lot" The brunette mumbled in awe.

"Uh how 'bout I'll just do this" I said trying to make my way around themagain.

"No Luna, how 'bout you do this later and give us something else, I'm prettysure the boys won't mind helping us" They all nodded in agreement. See this ishow my week as been. Most people helping me here and there. Acting nice. It'skinda weird if you ask me.

“Ok uh you can do either of these I guess. Well I had to broom and mop theentire house, make lunch and dinner which included snacks for the pups,baby food for the newborn. Replace all the towels, clean each room, dust, cleanthe twelve chandeliers, mow the lawns, water the outdoor gardens, clean thebackyard, there's a toilet to fix on the fourth floor, uh the prisoners need to befed. The silverware needs to be polished, the dishes need to be done, I'm prettysure the three kitchen need to be cleaned again, all fifty six cars need to bewashed from the inside and out. The tables need to be cleaned and set forlunch and then again for dinner, after delivering all these clothes the dirtyclothes need to be collected, each basket in the woods need to be restocked. The game rooms need to be cleaned, the toys need to be picked up, you can

water the plants inside, wipe all the windows and mirrors spotless, you can getthe groceries and put them away, vacuum every carpet, the trash needs to betaken out, the window sills need to be wiped, the bathrooms need to becleaned, the furniture needs to be wiped or vacuumed depending if its leatheror fabric. All the kitchen's need to be restocked with food. Uh that's all I canthink of the rest is on the list." I finished, and the four looked at me with wideeyes.


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All of a sudden I'm engulfed in a hug, I couldn't help but wince a little out ofhabit. As the two girls pulled away they all have a grim look on their faces, andI think Alice even had some tears in her eyes.

"Oh my god, Luna how can you mange that all on your own and on top of thatthe beatings you took. Oh my god, we're so sorry." Elise choked out. I justshrugged.

"I'm used to it." I mumble.

"The alpha was right, you are capable of leading this pack. You've been takingcare of it for all these years. You know everything about everyone; what

breakfast they like, which clothes belong to who. We don't know what we'd dowithout you. Even everything you went through you seem to be standing herecalmly not even looking or sounding mad at the pack for what you wentthrough. Thank the moon goddess that you turned out to be our Luna."

I didn't know what to say. I stood there shocked. Whoa. When I learned that Iwas Aiden's mate. I figured he'd reject me, I thought the pack would hate memore, I thought I wasn't capable. But here everything turned out the completeopposite.

"Thank you" I whispered softly.

"Our pleasure Luna, here let me escort you to your room while Josh, Elise andMary get other pack members to help with the chores." I nodded slowly.

As we made our way to my tiny room I looked up at the man.

"What's your name?" I asked, I learned that the blonde girl's name was Elise,the man beside her Josh and the brunette Mary.


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"Jonathan, Mary's mate." He stated with a smile.

"Ellie" I said in return.

"Oh I know Luna" I nodded in response as a blush appeared on my face.

We had reached my room and Jonathan had a look of confusion on his face.

"I never knew there was a room here."

I shrugged not many people knew. As we entered his face turned one of disgustand guilt.

"You've been living here for the past few years?" He asked in a small voice. Ilook up to him and I could see that grim look returning. I nodded slowly.

"You truly are strong Luna, you've been through so much." He whispered I

shrugged in response. I looked back at him and he seems to be concentratingon something. It looked as if he were mind linking someone.

"Allow me to help gather your things Luna I informed the Alpha and at hiscommand I am take you to his room." He said.

I knew better than to protest as he was under command. I'll just talk to Aidenlater.

Once everything was packed which wasn't a lot and set in Alpha Aiden's room Jonathan left to help with the chores, I slowly went and laid on the bed andslipped into the darkness.


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And for once in three years I never woke up crying, I slept peacefully in one ofthe most comfortable beds which had the scent of my mate everywhere. Me andmy wolf for the time being were in bliss.

Chapter Eight

Aiden

"Before you act like a mate towards me Alpha, become an Alpha first, and try toprevent whatever happened to me in your pack. That day when you do, maybe you'll be the mate I dreamt of" Ellie whispered, she shifted and then ran offtowards the pack house.

I collapsed on my knees; I was so frustrated with myself. So angry at myself. Sodisappointed at myself. I had no idea what to do. Who to talk to.

I could feel the familiar wetness of tears rolling down my cheek as I thoughtback to Ellie's speech.

She was absolutely right, she had every right to be afraid, every right to bemad, every emotion she was going through she had the complete f*cking rightover. I f***ked up, I deserved the pain, my wolf deserved the pain.

He was whimpering in my mind, playing over that dreadful night when we firstshifted and attacked our mate. He called out to his mate, who I could feel wastoo hesitant, too afraid to comfort him. Which caused him to whimper somemore. Alice, Ellie's wolf eventually did come and comfort Caiden but was stillhesitant.

At least my wolf gets a mate's comfort, even if it isn't at its fullest.

I need some advice, some help. I was so confused on what to do, I needsomeone to slap me, tell me I'm a disappointment, I wanted someone to hug me


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telling me that'll it'll turn out okay in the end.

I slowly stood up, wiped my tears and shifted. And made my way towards myparent's house. I felt a pang in my chest. I could at least go to the comfort of

my mom and dad, but Ellie? She had no one, she's completely alone.

Once I made it to the Alpha house I shifted back and grabbed a pair ofbasketball shorts that were in the basket. Another pang in the heart. One ofEllie's job was to restock every basket on our territory, and that was a lot. Justthe thought of her running around exhausted in the woods, not being able toshift where everyone abuses her hurt. It hurt like a b*tch.

I heard the front door open and my mom step out, she probably scented me. The minute she saw my defeated face, with dry tears fresh ones on the way,puffy lifeless eyes; she ran over and engulfed me in a hug.

I needed this comfort, I really did. I embraced her back and broke down. I hadtears falling and I was sobbing like a child. My mom knew it was serious,because an Alpha won't cry for any reason even if it's in front of his mother.

We slowly walked back and sat down on the couch, my sobbing had sloweddown and I was calm enough to speak.

"What's wrong dear?" My mom gently asked. I didn't have the guts to say it outloud, to be honest I was scared shitless of my mom's reaction. And I don't thinkI would make it through without breaking down again.

I decided to show her it through mind link.

"Can you call dad first, I want to show to you both together." I said in a smallvoice. You could practically hear the nervousness in it. Mom nodded her headslowly. I knew she was worried, and scared what the matter was about.


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My dad entered the room a couple minutes later and with one look he could tellsomething was wrong. His glowing happy face turned into a concerned andworried look. One that held both a father and an Alpha.

I didn't remember much to what the pack and I did to Ellie all together, so Idecided to show them everything that happened since my birthday and thatdreadful night.

I slowly saw their faces turn to disgust, disappointment, anger, sympathy,worry, happiness, sad, shame, grief, guilt, despair. It was all written on theirfaces.

Once done I slowly hung my head in shame. No one talked for a few minutes; itwas a loud silence that killed me.

I suddenly felt a throbbing on my cheek; I looked up to see my mom looking atme with anger in her eyes. She slapped me, and I knew I deserved it.

"We never raised you like this. Why?" She asked simply and that sentencealone felt like it weighed millions of pounds.

I hung my head in shame, having no answer.

"I don't know ma, I don't know. All I know is that I regret it and I can't evenremember half the things that I did to her, or what I allowed the pack to do toher. I don't think I want to know." I choked out, while fresh tears made theirway down my face.

There was a moment of silence before Dad spoke up.

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Confused at what he said I looked up, he must have saw my confused lookbefore continuing.

"When mates meet, the first time they sleep together; and I'm not saying mate

together I'm saying sleep in each other's arms for an entire night. They get twoglimpse of their past. One where they were the happiest and one where theywere in the most pain. So son, you really don't have a choice you'll be livingthrough whatever she lived through the minute you both decide to sleep in thesame bed.

My face was pale; I knew that I felt the colour drain from my face. I don't knowif I have the courage, the guts to go through that. I really don't, but I knew it'llbe a while before it happens. Ellie's still scared of me, she won't even think of

entering my room on free will let alone sleep there with me.

“Aiden, have you ever thought that maybe that night wasn’t what you thoughtit was?” My mom asked, her voice was soft but you could hear the anger in it.

She knew exactly what I had discovered the minute I learnt Ellie was my mate.

“I know ma, I know the truth now. But you have to believe me, that night, thatnight whatever I thought it made sense. Anyone would have thought it.Especially since my feelings for her were already so strong” I pleaded to my

parents, hoping they would understand my point of view.

“I know dear, I saw it. Though this is your fault son, most of it is Fates. It wasalready written that you two had to endure such struggles. I just hope that theFates know what they’re doing. Because from what I can see, she owns you”

Damn right she does. She owns everything of mine. I love her like a love thatcan be dangerous, and my love only increases as time passes.

Alpha, Take a look at this .My thoughts were interrupted when Jonathan, apack warrior mind linked me. He had sent me a picture of disgusting room, Ifeel sorry for whoever lived there.

Who's room is that of and why are you showing me?


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That's our Luna's room, Alpha.

If I was pale before I probably look like a f*cking bloodsucker now. Ellie livedthere, my mate lived there.

My room is probably the size of your walk in closet. I have no bed, just a pillowwith newspapers in it, a small bathroom with only a toilet, a sink and a tinyshower.

Suddenly Ellie's words from before came to me. She wasn't kidding when shesaid the room is the size of my walk in closet, Hell my closet might be biggerthan that. And that thought sent those sharp knives stabbing at my heart.

Pack her things and put them in my room make sure she stays and sleeps there. I commanded him.

Guess I spoke to soon. Ellie's going to be in my room, sleeping quicker than Ithought and knowing me I'll be experiencing those dreams real soon.


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Chapter Nine

Aiden

An hour after talking with my parents I made my way to the pack house. I wasnervous any wolf in a mile radius could practically smell it off me, I swear I wasconsidering the thought of sleeping in the guest room. But being mates, it wasinstinct, I mean who would pass up the opportunity to sleep beside their soulmate for the entire night, hold her in your arms, smell her intoxicating smellover and over again without her complaining, not to mention if your said soulmate were to be terrified to the bones of you, would you really give up this

chance?

Yeah I thought so.

As I made my way across through the pack house towards the stairs, packmembers bowed their head in respect. As I walked by the living room I felt ahand stop me. It sent shivers down my spine, but not the desirable ones I getfrom Ellie, the ones that felt like ants crawling. A shiver of disgust.

I turned to see Brittany, why am not I surprised?

"What do you want Brittany?" I sneered at her. Not in the mood to talk, actuallyI'm never in the mood to talk to her.

“Babe it's been so long. Don't you miss me?" She wined in a high pitch voicethat made my sensitive ears bleed. Her so called pout looked like she haddrastically swollen lips. Not cute!

"No, I don't. Look the only relationship we had, have and will always have is-"She cut me off though.


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"Of mates silly, look I know you want to be a better alpha and shit butseriously do you really need to do it acting like that fatass is your mate?"

I grabbed her by the neck and pushed her against the wall.

"Don't ever call my mate any foul name again. Let's get some things straightshall we. One, the only relationship between us is one that an alpha and itspack member shares. Two, Ellie is one hundred percent my mate and yourLuna. Three, yes I am trying to become a better Alpha but not by pretending tobe Ellie's mate, but because I am Ellie's mate. And lastly don't ever even thinkthat we are mates again. There’s someone out there for you and it's not me"

I said through my teeth, this chick is really starting to piss me off.

I let go of her and quickly make my way to my bedroom. I needed Ellie hereright now to calm me.

As I entered my room I was engulfed in my scent mixed with hers, I sighed,that’s an amazing combination.

I look towards the bed to see her sound asleep.

She looks like an angel, my angel. Her face was so natural looking, not a pieceof make up on it. It's what I loved most about her. She was real.

I slowly make my way to the bed and took a deep breath.

"Ok Aiden it's now or never" I mumbled to myself as I took off my shirt andclimbed under the covers.


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I hesitantly put my arms around her waist and like a moth to a light sheautomatically snuggled closer.

This felt right, it felt like heaven on earth, the best feeling ever. Nothing toped

this.

I breathed in her scent, it was so addicting. I silently watched her for a fewminutes before closing my own eyes and falling asleep.

o-o-o-o

Ellie

Feeling a warmth on my closed eyelids I was awoken from my peaceful sleep. Iopened my eyes slowly to only see that I was face to face with a toned chest.

Confused I looked up, meet with Aiden’s beautiful sleeping face I felt my wallsgo down for a minute.

My Mate I heard my wolf purr.

“Our mate” I subconsciously whispered. Without even realizing, I was pushingaway from strands of rebellious hair from his forehead.

“Yours” He mumbled back. Which broke my spell, what am I doing?

Softly pushing him away, I tried to get out of his arms, put they only tightened.

“Stop that babe, I’m trying to sleep” His husky voice sent shivers of pleasuredown my spine and for another second I hesitated. I deserve one time, one nap,

one snuggle with my mate.

Before I could change my mind, I closed my eyes again and snuggled into him.Breathing in his scent and relishing the warmth he shared.


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I was at peace and my wolf was purring. We weren’t afraid right now, at thismoment I wasn’t Ellie and he wasn’t Aiden. We were just mates, both seekingcomfort.


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Chapter Ten

Aiden

The brightness from the hot soothing sun was breaking my sleeping state.Groaning, I peeked an eye open before closing it again. Why did I forget to closethe curtains last night?

Breathing in deeply, I caught the strong scent of my mate which caused me toopen my eyes. The blinding light shocking me I flinched before readjusting my

focus.

But the sight in front of my caused me to flinch once again. I was looking intothe hurt eyes on my beautiful mate.

She started to push away, but I held on tight. I don't know why she's upset,but I plan on finding out. That look is killing me and will forever haunt me, justlike the rest.

“What’s wrong?” I asked.

She just shook her head, looking anywhere but me. I looked down at herclosely, she was bitting her lower lip. On any other occasions that would haveturned me on, but right now I could see it wobbling as if she were about toburst out crying.

“No, there’s something wrong. Please, love, tell me” I spoke to her softly.

“N-nothing A-alpha” Her mumble so quietly that I barely heard it. But it held so

much emotion and hurt in it as well. I tried to ignore the stab in my heartwhen she called me alpha, but it was really hard.

“Please Ellie, call me Aiden. Please.” I softly pushed her shoulders back so shelaid on her back. I rolled onto of her, but made sure not to put any weight onher.


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Her cheeks were red, which caused my heart to leap, but her eyes were stillcasted down.

“Look at me, My Luna” I gently tugged her chin up, and her eyes snapped upand looked right into my own.

They were filled with unshed tears and hurt.

“Te rog, sufletul meu pereche frumoasa. Spune-mi ce sa întâmplat. Cel caredetine inima mea, m" omori cu ochii r"nit !i trist. Ei au nevoie s" fie umplut cufericire !i nu iubesc triste"e !i r"nit. Te rog, iubirea mea, spune-mi ce sa

întâmplat, a!a c" am putea repara.” I spoke in one of our few native languages.(Please, my beautiful mate. Tell me what's wrong. One who holds myheart, you're killing me with those hurt and sad eyes. They need to befilled with happiness and love not sadness and hurt. Please, my love, tell

me what's wrong so I can fix it.)

“You flinched” She spoke suddenly. Her eyes casted downwards immediatelyand I knew exactly where I had gone wrong.

I sat up and grabbed her gently by the waist. I noticed her eyes go wide withthe sudden motion as I placed her on my lap; her legs straddling my waist as Ileaned against the headboard.

I gently grab the sides of her face and bring her close. Looking directly into hereyes and our lips just a few millimetres away. But my eyes stayed trained onhers.

“I flinched because of the sun hitting my eyes and then again because I saw thehurt and pain in yours. I didn't flinch for the reasons you are thinking baby,never again.” I said softly, our eyes burning into each others.

“Oh” Was all she said.

A small smile played on my lips, I leaned in to her and placed a tiny kiss on thecorner of her lips. And another on the other corner of her lips. Then another onher nose, and a last kiss on her forehead.

Moving my lips to her head and keeping my lips them there, I laid down, withher still on top of me and closed my eyes.


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“Uh A-aiden? What are you-”

“Shh Love, go to sleep” I mummered against her hair, she smelt so nice it wasaddicting.

“But I’m on top-”

“Shh”

And a few minutes later I felt her breathing even out and knew she fell backasleep.

o-o-o-o

Groaning as I woke up, I searched around for my little mate, unable to find herI sat up abruptly.

Eyes wide open, I looked around our room; she wasn't here.

Taking in a deep breath, I searched for her scent, she was here, two hours ago.Where was she now? And what was she doing for the past two hours?

Jumping out of bed, I followed her scent. Racing down the stairs, I got to the

ground floor. What was she doing here? It was 8:00am on a Sunday, nearlyevery pack member was asleep, no one was down here. Was she in trouble? The though only made my strides bigger.

I entered through the kitchen doors and froze. While I was sleeping peacefullyfor two bloody hours, while the pack members slept through without anyworry, my mate, our Luna was down here scrubbing the kitchen floors clean.

Catching a bunch of scents, I lifted my eyes and looked to my right. Not onlywas she cleaning she was making the pack brunch. The entire table was

stacked with food, there was probably enough for each member to haveseconds, if not thirds.

“Love, what are you doing?” She does a small jump, unaware of my presence. That wasn't right. She was a wolf, she should have scented me, or at leastsensed my presence,


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“Alpha!” She lets out in a high pitch surprised screech. She immediately standsup and pats down her clothes, as if tidying herself. Giving me a small bow andtilting her head in submission, she started talking again.

“I’m sorry sir, I didn't hear or smell you come in.” I was getting more and more

pissed. Not at my mate, I was more so upset at her actions. She was up thisearly clean?! And now she was calling me alpha and sir again? What hadhappened?

I let out a angry growl.

“Why didn't you hear me? Moreover, why couldn't you smell me come in? And Iwant the truth, do not hold back.”

“I’m ssss-so sor-sorry sir. I was just so t-tired and h-hungry. I was-sconcentrating r-really hard ‘cause I w-wanted to f-finish quickly. I r-reallywanted to g-go back in bed and h-have a b-bit of f-food. But not a lot sir! Ipromise I only take a little bit, just an apple and yogurt! I-I’m so sorry.” Shewas whimpering through the entire time.

I suddenly regretted the way I approached the situation. I completely forgotthat she was still scared of me.

I took a step towards her, hesitating when she flinched back, but I continued.Gently grabbing her chin I lift her head and looked directly in her eyes.

“I’m sorry Love, that came out really, really wrong. I was just really worriedwhen I woke up and you weren't there. You shouldn't be doing this Sweetheart.No baby, you should be in bed right now, snuggled into my side. You shouldn'tbe here cleaning and preparing so much food, especially when you get so little.We are changing that by the way, but thats a matter to discuss later. Right nowwe are going back in bed for another two hours, and I know you're tired. Sodon't you dare deny it” I said to her softly.

Placing a feather kiss on her forehead, I put an arm around her waist and heldone of her hands leading her back to our room.

Feeling her put her head against my shoulder as we walked made me smile.And when I looked down at her, she too had a smile on her face with her eyesclosed.


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I swear I was drowning, and I was completely okay with that. Because if fallingso deeply, wholly, completely and madly in love with your mate felt likedrowning, then I can say with confidence that I loved drowning for my Ellie.


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Chapter Eleven

Ellie

I didn’t know what I was doing. I honestly didn’t. When I had spoken thosewords of rejection to my mate, I thought he would appreciate it. I tainted myown soul with the sin so he didn't have to. But now? His actions are confusingme. I wasn't sure anymore that I had done what was right. It was as if hewanted me? I know that I wanted him, more than ever. I always dreamt of amate, more so dreamt of being loved. I didn't care who it was. But what I did

know was that I couldn't let it off so easy, he made many mistakes. Sure herepents them and is attempting to remedy the results of his past mistakes, butI shouldn't be so easy. Those mistakes, those actions they ruined me. I wasn'tthe confident she wolf anymore, no I was an insecure and weak one. I stillneeded time to heal.

But I couldn't help it, the mate bond was getting stronger as the hours pass,and the feeling of love and adoration that I get, it just feels right. It’s been awhile since I had that.

I needed something to distract myself with right now. It was too much. All thisthinking was giving me a headache. I made my way up the stairs as I headtowards Aiden and my room. I had official moved in and it was yet another oneof those things that I was beginning to overthink about.

Yesterday, Aiden had taken me shopping for clothes. It was a weird experience. Throughout the beginning, I was very hesitant about everything, and I madesure to keep my distance from him. The other day in the kitchen when I waspractically melting in his arms was very overwhelming. I made sure that wehad limited contact, however I wasn't sure if that affected him. He was smilingthroughout our entire conversations, we talked a lot. Nearly about nothing and

everything, it was as if we never ran out of topics to talk about. It wascomfortable and it felt nice.

This was too exhausting, I really needed to clear my head. As I walked into thevast green woods that surrounded the house. Taking off on a mild jog, I put allmy attention on the feeling of the ground under my feet.


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Nearly twenty minutes later of just jogging in my human form I leaped andshift midair. Landing swiftly on my paws, I took off in a fast run.

Sighing contently I let my wolf take over, it was her turn to relax. Frequentruns were now a habit of our ever since we were granted the freedom. And we

couldn't be more happy.

An hour of running later, my wolf suddenly turned directions towards thesouthern border.

What are you doing? I asked frantically. If we passed the border or were evenclose by we would get in trouble. Sure, Aiden was softening up to us but I wasstill Omega. I needed to stay in my limits.

Never getting an answer, I decided to trust my wolf hoping she knew what shewas doing.

Stopping near the edge of the border, my wolf began pacing back and forthgrowling at woods that pass our border. She wouldn't pass it, but acted as ifshe needed to and wanted to so badly.

Aiden! Please come quick! I’m at the South East border and my wolf feels as ifsomething is wrong on the other side. Please! Bring warriors too. I have a bad

feeling. Please Alpha!

I sent out a plead to Aiden, I didn't know what but I was beginning to feel thatsame dread and terror that my wolf was feeling. Something wasn’t right and itwas happening on the other side. We weren’t permitted to leave, Fates! Why amI an omega? I need to get to the other side.

We are on my way, don’t you dare think about it mate! I hear your thoughts, youaren't an omega. You are a Luna, but you will not pass that border. That’s anorder from your Alpha. Aiden’s frantic voice in my head.

My wolf smirked, she had caught on what I had also. He called us his mate, hisLuna. Making us his equal for the time. His command meant nothing, but hisdeclaration let us cross.

No! Stop Ellie! I heard Aiden scream, I could hear the worry and fear in hisvoice. But I paid no attention to it, I needed to get to whatever was there.Blocking our mental bond for the time being, I sprinted off.


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Not even a ten minute sprint later did I find what was causing my dread.

There lay two dead bodies, two mates. Holding hands, looking into each otherseyes, their bodies torn apart. And between lay a young teenage girl and a smallboy sobbing, clutching onto the bodies.

Shifting immediately and not caring that I was naked, I ran towards the two young children.

I lightly tapped on the girl’s shoulder, acting as cautious as possible. Jumpingaway from my touch, she clutched onto the young boy with her life; her eyeswide and terrified, yet holding a protectiveness gleam for the boy.

Lifting my hands in the air, in the form of surrender I softly spoke. “It’s okay.

I’m not here to hurt you, I promise.” I took a small step closer to her, but shemoved away frantically.

“Okay, I won’t move. I’ll be right back ok? I promise” I spoke to her in a softtone.

Turning around I took off in a sprint, running to the closest basket of clothingthat I knew wasn't far away.

Running back, fully clothed now I saw the girl sitting against a tree trunk. The

boy between her legs, hugging her fearfully, his face buried into her body.

As I walked into view, her eyes snapped to mine, widening she clutched ontothe boy tighter.

Stopping in my tracks, I put my hands in the air again.

“I’m here to help, not here to harm you two beauties. I promise.” I sat down,crossing my legs in indian style.

Looking over at the two dead bodies, I felt tears in my eyes.

“Were they your parents?” I asked softly. Hesitantly the girl nodded her head.

“I lost my dad too, I watched a rogue rip him apart. My mother saw it too. Hewas fighting with the rest of my pack, and I

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