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Ca cest mon memoire. Cest ma memoire qui c'est revele ici dans sa tentativedsespre de ne disparatra pas.

This is another day and soon I will be in another country. There was no line betweenthere and here. My last night became my rst day without letting me!now............................................................. "et me go.

This is written to and through all o# you. $lways changing. Can we not forget?

GET WHAT YOU NEED OR WHAT YOU THINK YOU NEED. DO NOT THINK TOO

MUCH. YOU CAN NOT GET ANYTHING ELSE THAN WHAT YOU ARE PREPARED

TO RECEIVE.

< this is just a workshop, it will not change your life>

> this is just a r!"!# $i% &

I know no/thing aout any/thing.

the pain is t/here.

deep, silent, ut not still.

work/ing in depth.

nd/ing her way ack soul.

I a"

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I should have

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I should e nurished y

(. le "onde ui "@entoure

. "a propre histoire

3. la langage

7. la ction.

%e sometimes have so di&erent visions o# the same thing. There is no contradictionin here. ne e(perience ta!es the place o# another. There is no vague and clear.

Clear hides the vague and vague hugs the clear. )ome o# you might hear it with the


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voice that gave them birth* some o# you might hear another story* some o# youmight not hear anything. $nyway* you will +ust hear it as you already !now it.

In the last three weeks I was part of a *ife *ong 9urning project. I was eAhiiting inan eAposition while I was visiting it. I was thrown in another society and I got thechance to see how would it e to e an eA.c.e.r.ce aster student in ontpellier. I

could just pretend that I was one of the", as if I always lived there, as if "y trip to9ucharest was just a B"oilityB. In the end, I was leaving ho"e to go ack ho"e.

inter"eDDo

we are still knocking softly at all the doors.

we are not sure we want to e opened.

we knock softly and we leave.

we are uietly announcing

our presence.we all need

to e allowed to e.

idiots.

In the last three weeks I was part of a society which was


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"e"ory of a solo

he will uilt herself a ho"e and if it falls it will not e a ig deal

> this is a 'usti(% &

In the last three weeks I tried to work on "y solo. It felt al"ost i"possile. I wasalways surrounded y (F other persons who were also working on their ownprojects. I was always a resource for the", always on a ne line to eco"ing aperturation. I knew I had a li"ited a"ount of ti"e to e with the" and I wanted touse it. 5t the sa"e ti"e, I needed ti"e alone. I@ve often chosen to isolate "yself,ut I was feeling guilty for "y choice. I was constantly ghting "yself. I wasconstantly douting "y choices and needs. I did not trust to do what I neededecause I was convinced that I needed so"ething else. I worked without stopping,ut I saw no results. I was constantly asking "yself what "eans to work and what Iwant to work on. he hardest thing was to accept that it is what it is. &othing lessand nothing "ore. #ithout si"plifying, without a"plifying. #ithout coloring and

without refusing. &either profound nor stupid. It was only what it was.

"e"ory of a solo

he cannot not e in relationship with the space

he cannot not e in relationship with the audience

> this is a st(r" &

In the last three weeks I often wanted to have a teacher which would tell "e whatto do. I was in a school G I wanted to e thought. I wanted to "eet so"eone who

knew. o"eone I could trust. o"eone who could create a we where I could havethrown "yself into. Instead, we have carefully woven together our own net.

"e"ory of an i"age

6+ asks H 66 answers. 6+ listens carefully. he wants to learn.

> this is %(t )" rh"th) &

In the last three weeks I cheated "yself. I found "yself choosing fa"iliar things. Ifound "yself orrowing "ove"ent vocaulary and writing techniues fro" the

others. &othing rutal, just a super"arket.

> this is *hat it is &

In the last three weeks I "oved, talked, wrote and touched with (F people for hours / day.

> this is a% +!ha%, &


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"e"ory of a lecture

real things touch real people

the way you eAist touches the world

In the last three weeks I was part of an ecosyste". I trained "y ody to think,receive and react. I trained "yself to let it e. I trained "y "ind to work like that inevery activity.

to continue being while receiving. to nd a continuous honest ,ow*

#aith#ul to you and to the relationship you are practicing

> this is a% +-ri%! &

I write as if in the last three weeks I had co"pletely changed "yself. In a way I did.9ecause I could not not change. i"e could not not pass. I could not put "y life on

pause. In the last three weeks I lived an eAperience. I could not avoid that. It waswhat it was and it oviously left traces in "y ody. It activated diEerent parts ofwhat I already was. It let so"e grow and let others fade away.

hank you all for letting "e e.

In the last three weeks I had the opportunity to see how another university works. Isaw that people have the sa"e co"plaints no "atter what they receive. I saw thatpeople have the sa"e prole"s even in a world with less prole"s.

) what is "y prole" with the society?

I think I hate society ecause it does not let you to discover on your own. -ven ifyou choose to follow your own path, to create it naturally on the way, you are still

invaded with "odels and opinions aout everything. Instead of discovering fro" notknowing you rst have to refuse all the alternatives. 5nd there are things that touchyou. o"eti"es you get hit on your way. o"eti"es they put you down. o"eti"esthey convince you. 9ut you don@t want to e neither hit nor convinced. :ou just want

to have ti"e to discover. :ou don@t want to e told.

=lease don@t force "e any"ore. I struggle to e honest. I struggle to shout it outloud when I don@t know. I don@t want to give so"eody else@s answers to the

uestions I did not even have ti"e to put to "yself. I know that I can not elieveanything which I haven@t found out on "y own.

o please, keep your answers to yourself! :ou know it all. 'ood for you!

a) the way I put "yself in relationship to it.

> this is a tra! &


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In the last three weeks I discovered an ovious thing) writing has a for" whichstays.

"e"ory of a solo

:ou can not write an e"pty page.

:ou are already written. :ou can not erase your story.

In the last three weeks I had a lot of uestions aout the i"portance of Aing thingsin dance, life or writing.

"e"ory of a solo

+ands are holding their reath. +ow can I gra the present?

I believe only in shapes born #rom necessity - spontaneous linear mani#estation o#the nonlinear.

I can not believe in a thought that does not leave a trace in your body.

> this is a$(ut r"thi%, a%/ a%"thi%, at a## &

In the last three weeks I had a lot of uestions aout the line etween life andperfor"ance. +ow thin should it e? o eAtend the li"its of the usual, to create fro"the desire of saying and not fro" the desire of doing or to clearly dene the lineetween life and work? o work, to "ove forward, to eco"e acroats or to dare to

e acroats in every aspect of our life?

to always be #ree. to choose #reely #rom the ways o# e(pression and action. always#rom necessity.

9y putting so"ething on stage you are auto"atically giving it i"portance. 9ut whatis the value of this for"s of eAistence in a social environ"ent? aye here the onlyones which can resist are the honest ones. he ones which validate the"selves asnecessary to the eApression of the person, the ones which "ove the space withoutthe space@s approval or desire to e "oved, without the attention of the space.

the space is #ull o# questions and answers

+ow can one just look? +ow can one eco"e an eye? aye I have no interest injust seeing, "aye I want you to "ake "e see. I a" only interested in what I feel. Itis the only thing that I can elieve. I a" totally selsh. I want you to "ake "e feel. Iwant you to put uestions. I like when you give irth to thoughts ut I want you toalways ring "e ack to non thought.

I am hungry. Than! you #eeding me


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+ow "uch do I want to see "ore than what it is? +ow "uch do I add? +ow "uch doI need to add? 6o I force it to e "ore? 6oes this kill its life?

ighting my #antasy... Maybe I am not searching #or the truth.

I want to see "ore than what it is happening) the potential and the essential, the

hidden and the unsaid. aye I search "ore than it is. aye I create. aye I add.I enhance and I brea!. )ometimes I re#use.

I want to have access to the inner i"age which "oves you and not to the i"age youare creating in space. I want to hear you.

I will not surrender to what it is.

she loves the unspoken potentials

she likes to play with the pauses

"y heart knows how to eat

%hat i# #antasy is what it is/

%hat i# my ideals are already written in the potential/

> this is a r!"!# $i% & -5C+ I- #+-& :%1 5$ %-+I&', I I 5*$-56:+-56I&' % +- -&6 > my mind #ormulates un#amiliar things in un#amiliarlanguages 0 my place is where I am 0 my body is now the place o# her research0%hat happened with my music/ Maybe we have created a symphony 1#+5 IJ +-$-*5I%&+I= I 5*$-56: +-$-?> I as! again2 why do I dance/ I'm a#raid I #orgettoo o#ten. my body does not have to always !now


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%& +- 1$J5C-?> 3ou !now more than you thin! you !now

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