MEMORI E Sof the

AFTERLIFE

Life Between LivesStories of Personal Transformation

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MICHAELNEWTON, PH.D.

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with case studiesby members of the

NEWTON INSTITUTE

TableofContentsPraiseTitlePageCopyrightPageDedicationAcknowledgementsEpigraphIntroductionChapter1-LOVEasaCATALYSTFORCHANGEChapter2-HEADtoHEARTChapter3-WHENCHILDRENTEACHfromtheGRAVEChapter4-COMPLETINGtheJIGSAWPUZZLEChapter5-LIFECHOICESandMOVINGONChapter6-INSIGHTintotheCOUNCILOFELDERSChapter7-LOTHARtheBARBARIANChapter8-AshatteredHEARTChapter9-THEwhiteGOOSEChapter10-THEWellsFargoGUARDChapter11-LIFEontheWINGChapter12-SMALLisBEAUTIFULChapter13-AmysticREBORNChapter14-THEweatherWHISPERERChapter15-TWOSUICIDESChapter16-SPREADINGUNIVERSALENERGYthroughMUSICChapter17-AVOLUNTEERforMURDERChapter18-MANIPULATINGENERGYforHEALINGChapter19-ArenegotiatedSOULCONTRACTChapter20-THEdownloadingSPIRITGUIDEChapter21-JINGLEBELLSChapter22-THEreluctantSOULMATEChapter23-FINDINGTHEcourageTOCHANGEChapter24-ANemergingSPIRITUALHEALERChapter25-EVOLUTIONofaSPIRITUALPARTNERSHIPChapter26-UNBLOCKINGaSPIRITUALGOALChapter27-AJOURNEYtowardFREEDOMChapter28-IamHOMEChapter29-IKNOWIamGOINGTOHELLChapter30-IHAVEjustaCOUPLEQUESTIONS...Chapter31-ASOULMATErelationshipBACKONTRACKChapter32-FINDINGLAURA:recoveringaLOSTIDENTITYToWritetotheAuthor

praiseforMICHAELNEWTON’Swork

JourneyofSoulsAmust-readforanyoneinterestedinafterlifeexperiences…highlyrecommended.—Dr.HanzHolzer,authorofLifeBeyondThisremarkable,fast-movingbookuncoverssomeofthemysteriesoflifeinthespiritworld.—NAPRATradeJournalJourneyofSoulsandDestinyofSoulsaretwoofthemostfascinatingbooksIhaveeverread.—ShirleyMacLaine,actressandauthorDestinyofSoulsArichvolume,chock-fullofinterviewsandfascinatingfirst-personnarratives…—PublishersWeeklyMetaphysicalresearchatitsmostexcellent.—NAPRAReViewNewton’s offering is among the handful that deserve to be called not just books of the year butgerminal,trueculturechangers…—TheMonthlyAspectarianLifeBetweenLivesNewton’sexplanationsareoutstanding.Foraspiringspiritualregressionists,thedetailedstep-by-stepformatofthislucidbookwillbetremendouslyhelpful.—NewAgeRetailer

Life-Between-LivesStoriesofPersonalTransformation

MICHAELDUFFNEWTON,PhD, is the founderof theMichaelNewton Institute forLifeBetweenLivesHypnotherapy.Heisoneoftheprimaryeditorsofthiscollectionofthirty-twostorieswrittenbymembersoftheinstitute.Theseauthorsallpracticetheartofhelpingpeopleaccesstheirmemoriesof theafterlife, anexperienceofpersonal transformation that, through thisbook,maynowbenefitboththeoriginalclientsandyou,thereader.Dr.Newtonhasbeenahypnotherapistforoverforty-fiveyearsandaLBLtherapistforoverthirty

years.Heisconsideredapioneerinuncoveringthemysteriesaboutlifeafterdeaththroughtheuseofspiritualregression.Hisownbookshavesoldnearlyamillioncopiesandhavebeentranslatedintooverthirtylanguages.Dr.Newtonhasappearedonnumerousradioandtelevisionshowsandisanactivespeakeronthe

lecturecircuit,explaininghisdiscoveriesandbeliefsaboutourimmortallifeinthespiritworld.Heisnowretiredfromactivecounselingpracticeanddevoteshistimetolecturingandtraining.

DedicationThisbookisdedicatedtoitsthirty-twoauthors,practitionersofadifficultcraftwithintheNewton

Institute,fortheexpressiveandheartfeltmannerinwhicheachoftheirstoriesispresented.Aspecialacknowledgment also goes to those generous clients of these LBL facilitators who gave uspermissiontousetheirpersonalstoriesforthebenefitofthepublic.

Acknowledgments

With sincere appreciation to the two exceptional co-editors of these cases, Angela Noon(international) and Trish Casimira (American), for their ability, tenacity, and commitment in thisworthwhileendeavor.Withoutthem,thisbookwouldneverhaveseenthelightofday.Finally, Iwould like toexpressdeepappreciation tomypublisher,LlewellynWorldwide,and its

staff for the unfailing support they have given my work over many years. As the largestmetaphysical/NewAgebookpublisherintheworld,Llewellyn’sinfluencehasbeeninspiringintermsof fostering public awareness about soul discovery and the afterlife through hypnotherapy. Theownersofthispublishinghouse,CarlandSandraWeschcke,havebeenmysteadfastpartnersfromthebeginning,andwithouttheirinsightandeffort,itislikelythatreadersaroundtheworldmightneverhaveknownaboutthespiritualmessageIwantedtoconveywithmybooks.Theyhavemyenduringgratitude.And,asalways,tomywife,Peggy,whoseassistance,love,andunderstandingmadeitallpossible.

IholdthatwhenapersondiesHissoulreturnsagaintoearth;Arrayedinsomenewflesh-disguiseAnothermothergiveshimbirth.WithsturdierlimbsandbrighterbrainTheoldsoultakestheroadsagain.

—JOHNMASEFIELD

INTRODUCTION

EARLYINTHEfourthcenturyAD,theGreekphilosopherIamblichuswrote:“Amanwhocanunlockhissoulissetfree.”Asaresultoftheforcesofreincarnation,weareallproductsofourpastphysicallivesonEarthas

wellasourspiritualsoulexperiencesbetweenlives.Thesoulofeverypersononthisplanetretainsall former karmic influences of cause and effect frommany sources, and these forces impact ourcurrent feelings and behavior. Thus, while people may appear to be functioning normally on theoutside, we can have deep-seated metaphysical provocations of distress that are masked fromtraditionalmedicaldoctors,mentalhealthprofessionals,andevenfromourselves.Therearedifficultepisodes in our current lives when we don’t comprehend what is driving us in ways that seemirrational.Theunderlyingreasonsforthesestrangesensationsaretypicallyobscure,lyingfarbelowthesurfaceofourconsciousness.Mostpeoplewilldoanythingtoexposetheirinternaldemons,butwhereshouldtheylook?Thisbookisabouttheself-discoveryofhiddenknowledgecontainedwithintheunconsciousmind

andwhatunlocking this sacred information throughhypnosishasmeant forpeople therapeutically.From the hypnosis subjectswhose cases are detailed here, wewill see how revelations from pastincarnations and the afterlife have positively affected their conscious minds, providing keys ofunderstanding to a variety of psychological problems. These recovered spiritual memories havebroughtgreatermeaningandempowermentintotheirlives.Thisbookismeanttoinspireandbringnewhopetopeopleeverywherewhowishtoseedesignandorderintheirexistence.ThecasesofferedinMemoriesoftheAfterlifeinvolveclientswhocametoaspecializedgroupof

life-between-lives (LBL) hypnotherapists for spiritual regression. Quite often, the typical clientschedulesanappointmentsimplytoexploremattersrelatingto theirsoulpurposein life.However,the stories in this book involve more disturbing core conflicts requiring specific resolution. Theauthorsofthesepoignantstorieshaveemployedauniquehypnotherapyprocesswiththeirhypnosissubjectsthatinvolvesadeeptrancestategenerallylastingfromthreetofourhours.Thescopeofthisbookisdistinctiveintheapproachthathasbeentakentodocumentthefollow-upstudiesdevotedtothelife-transformingbenefitsofLBLhypnotherapy.ItshouldalsobementionedthatthestoriesinthisbookarejustasmallsamplefromthelargenumberofcasesreportedandreviewedonlineeachyearbytheNewtonInstitute’sgeneralmembership.Eachofourauthorshaspresentedanactualclientcasehistory.Pseudonymsareusedtopreserve

client anonymity,with the client’s permission. These stories begin by presenting the client’s statedproblemandhowthatissuewasuncoveredandthenresolvedthroughspiritualregression.Theyendwithpost-sessioncommunicationswiththeclientaboutthebenefitsoftheirLBLexperience.TheguidancebyLBLfacilitators in these individualcases isextremelycomprehensive,although

condensedherebyourrequirementsoflimitedstorylength.Therapeuticinquiryisconductedwithaviewtothehistoryofrelevantincarnationsbythesoulandparticularlythesoul’sexistencebetweenlivesinthespiritworld.Itisherewherekarmiclessonsareformulatedforthenextlife.Thus,currentproblems theclientmaybehavingonEarthare analyzedwithin theperspectiveofbothaphysical(human)andspiritual(soul)element.Foreffectiveprogressionintothespiritworld,itisofprimeimportancethatpotentialclientsfinda

highlytrainedLBLhypnotherapisttoworkwiththem.Whilethereareamultitudeofreasonswherefacilitatorexperiencewiththespiritrealmwillproveinvaluabletotheclient,Iwouldliketociteonearea of concern as an example. On very rare occasions, a client could report a spirit world

visualization thatmight initially seem threatening to them.Typically, such a disturbing reportwillmeanone of two things to the skilled andproperly trainedLBL facilitator.Conscious interferencecausedbypreconditioning,suchasareligiousbeliefinhellandevilspiritsthatdonotactuallyexistintheafterlife,isoneaspect.Thisinvolvesearthlysuperstitions.Allofourresearchwiththousandsofcasesclearlyshowstheafterlifetobearealmoflove,compassion,forgiveness,andjustice.Amorecustomaryandsubtlechallengearevisualizationsthatsymbolizekarmicformsofcosmic

accountancysignificanttotheclient’ssoulself.Here,theexperienced,well-trainedpractitionerwillrecognizemetaphoricscenariosthatmightwellbedesignedasteachinglessons,oftenbythesubject’sspiritguideandmasterteachersonthespiritualplane.Theclient,however,maybecomeconfusedandnot be able to interpret such teachingmanifestations forwhat they actually are at first. Consciousinterferenceherebythesubjectcouldbeattemptstocopewithnewrevelationsthattheyhavenotyetprocessedinthesession.While theLBLhypnotherapistmayhavehisorherowndiagnosis insuchcases,thisisnotallowedtointerferewithclientself-discovery.Tobesure,thepropermeasureofcomfortisalwaysofferedwithreportsconfusingtotheclient,

but subjects are encouraged tomake the effort to answer their ownquestions based upon spiritualmessagesthatcometothemduringthedeepertrancestates.Giventimeandmovingattheirownpace,most clients ultimately see that their existence is truly a rite of passage—a transition to eventualenlightenment as souls. This process is both emotional and drainingwork for both facilitator andclient,but therewardsofevenoneLBLsessionareenormousintermsofacquiredself-knowledgeandpersonalrevelationsofadivineplan.The authors are all certified members of the Michael Newton Institute for Life Between Lives

Hypnotherapy (TNI).Besides theAmericas, theypractice their craft inEurope,Asia,SouthAfrica,and Australia. The training model for our school was an outgrowth of a methodology systemdevelopedinmyLosAngelespracticeduringmanyyearsfromanextensivevolumeofcases,overahundredofwhichhavebeendetailedinmypreviouslypublishedbooks.Therearenumerousschoolsfor traditional hypnosis and some for past life (PL) regression.Our organizationwas the first toexclusivelyofferaweeklong,intensivelife-between-livestrainingagenda,anditistheonlyhypnosistrainingprogramwegivetoprofessionals.Studentscomefromallovertheworldtolearnhands-ontechniques from skilledLBL facilitators. The course practicum involves learning how tomentallyregresseachotherintopastlivesandtoaformerexistenceinthespiritworldbetweentheselives.Thework is both demanding and uplifting to the LBL student, because they are exposed to their ownspiritualinsightsduringtraining.Since theauthors in thisbookwerealready trainedhypnotherapistswithexperience in theirown

rightbeforeImetthemintheclassroom,itisunderstandablethataftergraduationandcertification,theyhavegoneontoutilizetheirowntalentsandtechniquesinpracticingspiritualregression.WhiletheyalluseourLBLmethodologymodel,eachregressiontherapistfeaturedinthisbookisdifferentfromoneanotherinthewaytheyassistpeopleinuncoveringmemoriesaboutlifeafterdeath.Inmyview, TNI graduateswho consistently replicate the findings of thosewho have gone before them,whileaddingnewtruthstoourspiritualparadigm,bringvaliditytothewholeprocess.Thus,youwillsee a commonality of memory recall about the afterlife that is woven through all the LBL casespresentedhere.SomebackgroundPLinformationrelevanttothecasewillalsobeincludedinthesestories.TheseauthorsandmanyothercertifiedLBLpractitionerswithintheinternationalnetworkofourorganizationcanbereachedthroughourreferralwebsiteatwww.newtoninstitute.org.Whilepeopleseekusoutfrombasiccuriosityabouttheirspirituallife,manyothershaveacutely

personal reasons—trying to understand the loss of a child, emotional or behavioral concerns,relationship issues, or a fear of dying—that they cannot resolve through traditional therapeuticmeans.Peoplecometousfromallwalksoflife,withmanybeliefsystems,rangingfromatheismtoa

fundamentalistreligiouspersuasion,andyet,onceindeephypnosis,theyallrecountmemoriesofanafterlife that is strangely uniform in concept and perception. The grandeur of this transcendentaldesign is what brings meaning to our work, because it demonstrates order and purpose in theuniverse.Ithasbeenmyimpressionovermanyyearsofpublicappearancesthatincreasinglylargergroups

ofpeople inallculturesaresearchingforanewkindofspirituality that ismorepersonal to them.Spiritualdiscoveriesthatcomefromtheinnermindallowfortheexposureofpersonaltruthsthatnooutsidereligiousintermediaryorinstitutionalaffiliationcanduplicate.Peoplewhohavethiskindofspiritual experience see a universal consciousness that is not indifferent to the actions and fates ofhumanbeings.Recognizingtheirownpersonalspiritguidespecificallyassignedtothem,aswellasinteractingwithsoulmatesandcompanionsintheirsoulgroupduringtheLBLexperience,addstothisconviction.Theknowledgegainedfromsuchaninternalrevelationoftenleadstolife-changingalterations thatease the troubledmindsof theaveragepersonstruggling tounderstand reasons fortheirexistenceonEarth.Thisiswhatthecasespresentedherereflect.I believe the forces of intelligent creation go far beyond the religious concept of an

anthropomorphicgod.Thesespiritualforces,encounteredbypeople inadeeptrancestate, indicatethatcreationofintelligentenergyissovastinouruniverseastobeincomprehensibletothehumanmind.However, theeternal soulmind seesconnections toa seriesofhigherbeings in theafterlifewho are not gods but rather more advanced souls who have completed their own physicalincarnations and are available to serve others who have not finished their karmic work. Theseevolvedteachersarepartofthelinkofahigherconsciousnessthatbringselementsofagranddesigninto thehumanbrain from the soulmind. I call those facilitatorswhoassist in the art of uniting aconscioushumanbrainwiththeunconsciousimmortalsoul“spiritualintegrationists.”Eachofushasthismentaldualisminournature,whichmaybeconfusingtopeopleinafullyconsciousstate.ThispotentialproblemiswhatLBLhypnotherapyendeavors toresolvewithpeoplewhocometousforhelp. Through the integration of mind and spirit, we seek to assist them with self-revelationsconcerningtheage-oldquestionsofwhoamI,wheredoIcomefrom,whyamIhere,andwhereamIgoing?TheLBLpractitionerfacilitatestheirhypnosissubjectonaspiritualjourneytounravelthesepersonalmysteriesandbringgreaterawarenessandmeaningtotheirlifebyfosteringunderstandingaboutwho they really are as a person. Learning how one’s immortal soul character uniteswith atemporaryhumanbraintoproduceonepersonalityforonelifetimeisratherlikeacosmicexperiencefor people.Once this unconscious duality of self is uncovered and the true identity of the soul isexposed, itbecomesso liberating thatoftenclientsemerge fromanLBLsessionwithnewserenityandspiritualtranscendence.Inmylectures,writings,andradioshows,IhaveoftenexplainedtothepublicthatIwasoriginally

resistant to the New Age movement. By training, I was a traditional therapist who specialized inhypnotherapy.Initially,Iwasnotevenparticularlymetaphysicalinmyapproachtoclientdifficultiesinvolvingtheneedforbehaviormodification.Thisoutlookbegantochangeaftermyinitialpast-lifediscovery, followed some time later bymy first life-between-life case in 1968,which is describedbelow.However,itwouldtakeyearsofresearchbeforeIhadenoughdatatoproperlymapthespiritworld and develop a sequential methodology for asking questions. By 1980, I realized I shouldpreparetowriteabookonmyfindings,andthereforeIkeptmoredetailedrecords;thus,manyofthecasesinmybooksstemfromthe1980sand1990s.Also,myskilllevelasanLBLhypnotherapistandmyknowledgeofthespiritworldwasmuchgreaterinthesedecadesthanintheearlieryears.Aswithsomanyothersignificanteventsovertheyears,myearlyrevelationsaboutanafterlifein

the spirit world seemed to arrive on my doorstep rather by accident. I now realize there are noaccidentsintheschemeofthings,especiallyformajorevents;thisiswhatthepeoplewhosecasesare

discussedinthisbookhavecometoknowaswell.Mysmallcasecontributionisnotascomplexasmanyofthecasesyouareabouttoread.BecauseitwasmyfirstLBLcase,itwillalwaysbeembeddedinmymemoryas thebeginningof fulfillingmypurpose in this life: toofferanew,verypersonalspiritualbeliefsystemwithouttheneedforinstitutionsorintermediaries.Iwouldtitlethefollowingcondensedstory“themissingfriends.”Amiddle-agedwomanwhose namewasUna came tomewith problems that centered around herfeelingsofisolationandakindofdissociationwithhumanity.Thisladytoldmethatshefeltaterribleyearningtobewithher“oldfriends,”whomshecouldnotclearlydefine.Unamentionedthatshehadseen someevidenceof them indreams,but at this stage inmycareer I didnotunderstand the fullimplicationsofthatstatement.Atourfirstmeeting,duringintake,Ifeltthatwhiletherewasevidenceofsadnesscoupledwithlackofenergyandmotivation,Unawasnotsomeonesufferingfrommentalillness,norwassheonantidepressantmedication.Myassessmentwasthatdespitebeingchronicallylonely,Unawas not antisocial and even appeared to evidence peer engagement in her life.After Iquestioned Una further, I determined she was manifestly depressed over what she stated was “theabsenceofameaningfulconnectionwithanyonewhorecognizesmyrealidentityasaperson.”Isawthat Una was grieving but quite functional. Yet there was an aspect to her discomfort that wasclinicallyrathervague.Duringtheearlystagesofhersession,Iasked,“Arethesemissingfriendspeopleyouknewatany

time inyouradult life?”Unaansweredno.We thenbeganhypnosis,and inashallowalphastate, Iasked her, “Are youmissing any childhood playmates who are no longer with you?” Again, heranswerwasno.AsItookUnadeeperintothemiddleandupperlevelsofthealphastate,webegantoexplorehermostrecentpastlifeandevenacoupleofearlierpastlives.Onlyafewfriendsdeartoherbegantocropup,althoughthesesoulswerenotvisualizedbyUnaasconnected,becauseshewasnotyetmentallyinthespiritworld.However,shewasvisiblybrighteningasthesessionprogressed.Unathentoldmethatshewantedtoseeallherfriendstogether,interactingwithher,andthiswaswhyshefeltsoisolatedandlonelyinhercurrentlife.Atthetime,Ithoughtthiscommentratherodd.At this point in the session, due tomy inexperience in spiritualmatters, Iwasgetting somewhat

frustrated.Moreimportantly,whatIdidnotfullyrealizewasthefactthatthishighlyreceptivewomanwastakinghertrancephaseintothedeeperhypnoticthetastateinordertohelpbothofus.IdidnotknowthatUnawasgettingaheadofmeandactuallypushingherselffromasubconsciousmodeintowhat we call today a superconsciousmental state, which allows a subject in hypnosis tomentallyreachthespiritworldbetweenlives.Finally,inmybafflement,IaskedUna,“Wasthereeveratimeinyourexistencewhenyouwerenot

lonelybecauseyouwerewithagroupoffriends?”Suddenly,shecriedoutinexcitementandsaidyes.I immediately commanded, “Go there!”What I did not realize at the time was the fact that I hadinadvertentlyusedatriggerword:group.Tosomeoneindeephypnosisvisualizingtheafterlife,thismeansaspiritgroupofconnectedsoulswhoareespeciallyactive togetherbetween livesandoftenincarnate together. Una was now crying with happiness, and with her eyes still closed, she waspointing tomy officewall. “Oh, I see them now,” she said. I askedwhere. She answered, “Inmyhome.”Myconfused responsewas,“Youmeanathome inoneofyourpast lives?”“No,no,”Unarepliedeagerly,“I’minbetween—don’tyousee—inthespiritworld.Thisismyrealhome,andmysoulgroupisallHERE!”Shethensaid,tearfully,“Oh,Imissthemsomuch.”Iwasdumbfoundedbywhathadhappenedtobothofusandstilldidnotfullycomprehendwhatwe

hadfoundtogether.Withmorequestioning,I learnedthatnoprimarysoulmateorsupportingsoulcompanionswere inUna’s current life, because shehadbeen toodependentupon themduringherpastincarnationsonEarth.Thiswasakarmiclearninglessoninvolvingapriorspiritualcontractfor

hercurrentlife.BynotphysicallybeingwithUnainherlifetoday,membersofhersoulgroupgaveher the space to grow stronger through the challenges of being alone. Once Una understood thissituationinherlifewasbyadvancemutualagreementwithhersoulgroupandspiritualadvisors,shebegantorelax,andhersenseoflossdiminished.Overthenextyear,Unawouldcontactmeregularlywithupdatestosaythatlifeforhernowhad

newmeaning, and she was living it to the fullest because she finally comprehended her purpose,involvinganeedforcourageandindependenceindecisionmaking.Shederivedgreatcomfortfromknowing her immortal soul companions would be waiting for her on the other side. Una’s newfeelingsoffulfillment,asanoutgrowthofherfirstLBLsession,causedhertorealizethatlifewasnotgovernedbyfate,ordeterminism,orsomesortofdivinepunishmentsurroundingherloneliness,butrather by her own free will. This does not mean that I offer Una’s LBL case as a panacea fordepression;rather,itshowsanotheravenuefortheexplorationofanunsettledmind.IwouldliketoquoteUna’slastlettertome,sentyearsafterhersessionandjustbeforeherdeath:

Michael,Iamnolongerasolitarybeingwithinmyself.Ratherthanexistingsolelyinmyprivateworldasbefore,InowfindthatIcoexisteasilywithothersbecauseIamattunedtothefactweallliveinasharedworldwherenoneofusneedtobelimitedbyboundaries.ThesedaysIfindmyselfencouragingpeopleindistresstoacceptlifeandwhotheyareandenjoywhatisgoodandintendedinourworld.Thankyouforthisgift.

Una’s session with me had sent cold chills down my spine with its profound, far-reaching

implications.Aftersheleft,Ispentconsiderabletimereviewinghertaperecording.Hercasemarkedthebeginningofmyinvestigationsintotheafterlife,orinnerlife,assomecallthisspiritualrealm.Iwas now in uncharted territory. At the time, therewere no books that I could find about spiritualregression methodology. The conventional wisdom among most past-life researchers during thisperiod,andindeedforyearsafterward,wasthatmemoryrecalloflifebetweenlivesonlyinvolvedanonproductivegrayishlimboofnoconsequence.Perhapsthisattitudewasinfluencedbythemillionsofadherents toanEasternphilosophicalconcept involving theabsenceofapermanent soul self inhumanbeingswhotransmigratefromlifetolifewithoutaspiritualessenceofeverlastingpersonalidentity.As for myself, I felt a compulsion to discover everything possible about our life after death

throughspiritualrecall.ThistaskwouldtakeyearsofquietstudyasIworkedwithhypnosissubjects,designingamethodologythatincludedanentryandexitstrategytotheafterlife.Whilemappingthespiritworldfromagreatmanycasehistories,amagnificenttruthbecameevidenttome.Ifoundthatwithinthemindofeverypersonliestheanswertothemysteryoftheirlife.Finally,in1994,myfirstwork,JourneyofSouls,waspublishedbyLlewellyn,followedbyDestiny

ofSoulsin2000.Thesetwobooksprovideafoundationofunderstandingaboutlifeinthespiritworldand reincarnation. In2004, a thirdbook,LifeBetweenLivesHypnotherapy, offeredboth thepublicand private hypnosis professional a functional step-by-step guide to spiritual regressionmethodology.Representingsomethirty-fiveyearsofresearch,thistextshowsinterestedreadershowinformationwasobtainedforMemoriesoftheAfterlifebydetailingthehypnosisprocessusedwithallthecasespresentedhere.I should like to offer a further word about these books in connection with endnotes. In this

collectionofcases,theauthorsmaybrieflyalludetocertainaspectsofLBLmethodologyrelatingtotheircasethattheyareunabletodescribecompletelywithoutspoilingthepaceoftheirshortstories.InthosecaseswhereIfeltmoredetailedinformationwouldprovidethecuriousreaderwithgreaterunderstandingaboutaparticularaspectoftheafterlife,Iofferendnoteswithfurthercommentaryand

referencestomybooks,withpagenumbersonspecifictopics.JourneyofSoulsisabbreviatedasJS,Destinyof Souls asDS, andLifeBetweenLivesHypnotherapy is listed asLBLH.As therapists,wehonorthebeliefsandperceptionsofourclientsduringtheirLBLsessions.Theendnotinginthisbookisnotintendedtodetractfromanyinquirybythefacilitatororclientstatement,butrathertooffertheinterested reader additional detail on the same topic as described bymany other hypnosis subjectsreportingabouttheirspirituallife.Whilethereissomerepetitionwithendnotingandpagereferencesbetween cases, Iwanted each story to have the benefit of notes that applied directly to the subjectunderdiscussionandtostandonitsownforeaseofreaderappraisal.Although intensely powerful, life-between-lives hypnotherapy is still a relatively new field. The

authorsofthisbookwillattesttothefactthatwhentheirhypnosissubjectsfindtheyhaveadefinitepurpose in life and do not lose their real personhood at physical death, this knowledge bringsoverwhelmingjoy.Eachauthorhaschosenacasefromtheirfilesthatbestreflectsaparticularthemeof special interest to them. In our editing, we have tried to select stories that offer a variety ofpersonal situations for broad reader identification. It is our hope and expectation that these storiesinvolvingtheconsciousilluminationofthesoulwilldemonstrateatherapeuticformofhealingthatone daywill be in general use everywhere among traditional therapists. I trust youwill enjoy thecasesthatfollow;maytheybringyouanawarenessofwhatispossibleinyourownlife.MichaelNewtonFOUNDEROFTHENEWTONINSTITUTE

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INTERNATIONALINSTRUCTOR,AUTHOR,ANDAWARD-WINNINGMASTERHYPNOTHERAPIST.

Manyseeklife-between-liveshypnotherapylongingtoknowiftheywillevermeettheirsoulmates.Thisisastoryofayoungwomanwhohasrecentlymethersoulmate.Butthistime,ratherthantobetogether,hehascomeintoherlifeasacatalystforchange.Asthesessionprogresses,wefindthisisactuallyhissecondattempttowakeherupandhelpherlearnthesoullessonsshehasbeenstrugglingwithforlifetimes.

SASHA ISA thirty-two-year-oldwomanborn innorthernEurope.After a twelve-year relationshipwithMark, the first and onlyman in her life, plans weremade for their fairy-tale wedding. Twoweeksbeforethewedding,Sasha’ssoulmate,Raul,showedupandrockedherworld.Notknowingwhattodo,SashafollowedthroughwithherweddingplansandmarriedMark.Despitekeepinghercommitment toMark, shewas tornand foundherselfpushinghimaway.Shewasneverable tobereally intimatewithhim, and a fewmonths later, shemoved away fromMark to live andwork inPortugal.Theyhavebeenapartforalmostsixmonths.Duringtheirtimeapart,SashacrossedpathswithRaul

again.Theybecameloversforabrieftime,andthenRaulmovedon.Sashawasdevastated.Shecameintooursessionfeelingterriblyguiltyandconfused.Sashawondersifsheistobewith

hersoulmate,Raul,orifsheshouldstaymarriedandgobacktoherhusband,Mark.Sheisseekingadvicefromherguidesanddirectionforhersoul.DuringanLBLsession,wenormallydirectaclientbacktothemostrecentpastlife.Onoccasion,

whenthereisanearlierlifetimeofgreatsignificance,aclientwillgotothatlifetimeratherthanthemostrecentone.Thatiswhatdevelopedinthiscase.TheopeningsceneinSasha’spastlifeisofanEgyptiantemple.SheisapriestessnamedSharoon

engagedinspiritualstudies.Ourconversationaboutthislifeunfoldsasfollows:

SASHA:Iamlearningaboutspirituality,butIamalsopracticingmanipulatingpeoplewhodon’tworkinthetemple.Iamabletoinfluencethemspirituallyandenergetically.PAUL:Helpmeunderstandhowyoumanipulatethem.S:Imanipulatethemtobeobedient—tobelievewhatIwantthemtobelieve.Idoitthroughcreatingandsendingimages.IcreateamentalimageofwhatIwantthemtodo,andIsendit.Theycanseeitandfeelit.Itisverypowerful!Itiseasytoinfluencethem.P:Moveforwardinthatlifeofspiritualstudiesandmanipulation.Whathappens?

S:Iamkilled.Yes,killed.P:Andhowdoesthathappen?S:Thereareenemyinvaders.Theyareenteringthetemple,andtheyarekillingeverybody.Theykillmetoo.P:Whathappenstoyou?Whereareyouinrelationtoyourbodynow?S:Outside,veryquickly.Iamjustobserving.Iwatchasmorepeopleenterthetemple.ButIdon’tfeelsad;Ifeelpeaceful.Iamaccepting.P:Wheredoyougoandwhatdoyoudo?S:Upandup,lookingbackonthescene.Iseelight,upandtotheleft.Iamgoingtowardit.Imovetowarditwithoutanyeffort.Itisverypeaceful.P:Whathappensasyoureachthislight?S:(surprised)Iamnotveryreligious,butIseeanimageofaholypersonwithhisarmswideopen,welcomingme.Iknowthisisasymboloflovingbliss.Icanseenow,itismyguidewhoisthere.Ifeelsafe.ItismyguideAraton.Hetellsmeeverythingisfine.Iamdoingverywell.Heacceptsme,supportsme,andlovesme.Hejustmeltedintome;weareone.Thisissoincredible!It’sawayofexperiencinghisvibrations.Heisverywiseandjoyful,sobrightandsopure.P:Whydoesyourguidemergewithyouinthisway?S:Sothatlateron,Iwillknowhisvibrations,sothatwhenIneedhishelpandwhenImeditate,Iwillknowheiswithme.Iwillfeelhispeaceandjoy.P:Andwheredoesheguideyounext?S:Weareinabeautifulrosegarden,sittingonabench.Therearepedestrianwalkways.Attheendofthepaththereisabuilding.Itiswhite.AsIlookatit,IrealizeIcangotheretoaskquestions,butIamafraidtodothat.P:AndhowdoesAratonrespondtoyourbeingafraidtoaskquestions?S:HesaysIdon’thavetoaskquestionsifIamnotcomfortablenow.HesaysIcandoitlateron.Wearegoingtodosomehealing.Iamtofollowhim.Itisstrange.Iknowheisradiatinglove,

butIcannotfeelit.Hesayswecanfixit.NowIaminahealingchamber.Fromthetop,itislikeamachineproducingdifferentcolored

raysoflight.(Sashashakesinthechair.)IcanfeelthatIamvibrating.Idon’thavetodoanything.Itisjusthappening.Iamfeelingverypeaceful.Thereisasoftbutpenetratingpinklightcleansingmybodyinsideandout.(1)P:Whatisitthatisbeingcleansedfromyou?S:ThereisstillsomekindoffearthatIamholdinginmy(ethereal)abdomenthatshouldbecleansedthatisconnectedtolove.ItiswhyIhadtroublefeelingAraton’slove.P:Wheredoesthisfearassociatedwithloveoriginate?S:Frommanylifetimes.

Thishealingandvibratinggoesonforsometime,thenSashareportsitiscomplete.

P:Withthishealingcomplete,ifweweretoholdupafull-lengthmirror,howwouldyouappear?S:Clean.Abluecolorwithsomepinkishtints.P:Weknowyourguide’snameisAraton,butwhatisyourimmortalspiritualname?S:(longpause)IhearsomethinglikeKiya,butIamnotsure.P:Perhapsyoucanaskyourguide?S:Hesaysthisisanamefromapastlife.MyimmortalspiritualnamesoundssomethinglikeKashyapeya.

P:Andnowthatthishealingiscomplete,wheredoesyourguidetakeyou?S:Iaminfrontofagroupofbeings;therearefiveofthem.Weareinaroundroom.Ifeelsosafe!Aratoniswithme.Heisstandingtomysideandslightlybehindme.Atfirst,theyallappearinthesamebrowncolor,butnowtheoneinthemiddleiswhite,andoneoftheotheronesisareddishcolor.P:Whathappenshere?S:Iamjustwaiting.Nowtheyarewelcomingme.Theywanttohelpmelivemylifefully.

Myclientisnowengagedwiththisgroupofbeings,whoareonhercouncil,oftencalledtheelders,orwiseones.ThereisalongpauseherewhileSashacollectsherthoughtsandvisualizesthecouncilmemberspreparingtoworkwithher.

P:Whataretheycommunicatingtoyou?S:Itislikeawallontheright-handsideoftheroom.Itissortofascreen.Iseethreescenes.Inone,itlookslikemegivingbirth,andthereissomeonenexttome—amanIdon’trecognize.Idon’twanttoseethis.P:Whatisyourhesitation?S:ThismaninthescenewhereIamgivingbirthisnotmyhusbandorRaul.Idon’tlikethat.IwantittobeRaul.Theyareshowingmethreescenes.ThereisonescenewiththemanIdon’trecognize.Inthis

sceneIamhavingababy.ThereisoneinthemiddlewhereIamwithRaul,andthissceneisverybright,althoughthisisnotthemostprobableorbestone.SomehowIknowthisistrue,butIdon’tunderstandwhyitisbrighterthantheothertwochoices.Iamscared.(2)Thescenetothefarrightismewithmyhusband,Mark.Oh,Isee.TheyareshowingmeIhaveachoice!Icanchoosetobewithmyhusbandorthe

otherman.IcanevenchoosetobewithRaul.Thatisstrange.Ihavethreechoices.P:Doyouwanttoaskthemwhichchoicewouldbeofthehighestgoodforyoursoul?S:(longpause)Ihaveasked,buttheyarenotgoingtotellme.TheysayImustmakemyowndecision,withouttheirinfluence.

HerethecouncilishavingKashyapeya,whoinherpastlifeasSharooninfluencedandmanipulatedmanypeople,experiencehowimportantitisforonetobefreetomakechoicesinlife.Andasisoftenthecase,theyteachherthisbytalkingtoheraboutitbutalsobygivinghertheexperienceofchoicefreefromeventheirinfluence.

P:(IposeoneofthequestionsthatSashahasbroughttomebeforeoursessionbegan.)PerhapsyouwanttoaskthemwhyRaulcameintoyourlifeashedid.S:Toshowmehowtorelaxandfeeljoy.Hecametoopenmeup—tohelpmeopentootherpeople.MyclosestfriendhasalwaysbeenMark.Wewerealwaystogetherandhadnooutsidefriends.Wewereinasortofshellorcocoon,closedandseparatefromothers,inourownlittleworld.Raulhascomeintomylifetowakemeupandbreakthatshellopen.Hecameasacatalystforchange!Hecametohelpmelearnhowtolove.That’swhyInowhavemanyfriendsandamtravelingtheworldforbusiness.Thatiswhathasbroughtmehere.(3)P:(IaskanotherofSasha’spre-sessionquestions.)DoyouwanttotellthemhowguiltyyoufeelaboutyourrelationshipwithRaul?S:Theysayitisokay.Itwillbewashedaway.Italreadyis.Theysaythereisnothingtobeguiltyabout.TheysayitwasnecessarytoshakemethatmuchsothatIwouldmakesomedecisionsand

makesomechangesinhowIlive.P:(IposeanotherofSasha’squestions.)Dotheyadviseyoutogobacktothemarriage?S:No.Theydon’tadvisemetogoback.Theysayitismychoice.Ihavefreedomofchoice.P:Perhapsyouwanttoaskthemwhatthebestthingisnowforyoursoulgrowth.S:Itisverystrange.NowIfeelsadandafraid.(Afterapause,Sashacontinues.)Acceptanceandlettinggoofthings—toletthingshappen.Toacceptlifeandletgo.Toletthingshappenandnottocontrolthem.Tonotmanipulatethingsorpeople,justtoobserve,toseewhathappens.Thisrelatestomylifetimeasthepriestessandmanipulating.Thisisscary.Idon’tknowifIwillbeabletobewithRaul.IknowIwanttobewithhim,buthe

hashisfreewilltoo!Idon’tknowifhewantstobetogether.TheyshowmeonthescreenhowlifewithRaulcouldbe.Itwouldbenice.Spiritualandcalm.

Icanseetwochildren.Iamnotsurewhichcountryitis.Itisaverypeacefulandhappylife,buthehastowantittoo.P:Youmightaskthemwhatthepossibilityofthatisinthislife.S:It’sonlyaboutatwentyorthirtypercentpossibility.Twentypercent.Iamscareditwillnothappen.ThepointisthatIwantit,andhedoesnot.Hehashisfreewill

too,andIamnotsupposedtomanipulateit.Hehastowantittoo.Oh,thisishard!

Soullessonssuchastheseareoftenastruggletoget,andKashyapeyaisreallystrugglinghere.Sheissosetonhavingherwaythatitisalmostimpossibleforhertoevenlookatthedifferentpossibilitiesforherlife,letalonetakeinthedeepersoullessonhercouncilispresentingherwith.Itcantakelifetimestoresolvecertaintendencieswecarryinoursouls,andthisseemstobeapivotallifetimeforKashyapeya.

S:Theyaretalkingtomeaboutchoicesagain.Youhavethefreedomofchoice.Thatinvolvesothers’choicestoo.Idon’tlikeit;Idon’tknowwhy.Idon’twantthistohappen.Iamscared,really.P:Byshowingyouthesechoices,whatisittheyaretryingtocommunicatetoyou?

Longpause,stillstrugglingwithwhattheyareshowingher.

S:Alltheselives(incurrenttimesimulation)meetatthesamepointintheend,buttheyaredifferent(paths).P:(IaskanotherofSasha’spre-sessionquestions.)Doyouwanttoaskthemifanyofthesethreementheyareshowingyouaresoulmates?S:(longpause)Idon’tknow,Iamsoscaredtosee.

Kashyapeyaishavingsomuchdifficultyacceptingwhathercouncilisteachingherthatherguide,Araton,stepsin.HesuggestsweleavethecouncilmeetingforthetimebeingwhilereassuringKashyapeyathatshewillbeabletoreturnifshewishes.Aratontakesherimmediatelytohersoulgroup.(4)

S:Wearealreadyhere!Icanseemymom,Raul,andothers.Iseeeightpeoplestandingintwogroups,fourontheleftandfourontheright.Mymomisinthemiddleofthegroupontheleft.AndinthegroupontherightareRaul,Mark,andAndy(anewandclosefriend).P:Andwhocomesforwardfirst?S:Mymomcomesforwardtogreetmeandthenstepsback.ThenRaulcomesforward.Heismakingjokeswithme.Heteasesme.Idon’tknowwhatheistalkingabout,butheisveryfunny

andreallyjoyful.Heisn’tthatjoyfulinreallife.Heisoftenverydistantandevencold,buthereheisverywarmandfunny.(5)Hesays,“Takeiteasy.Don’tpush.Followyourheart.Allowyourselftofollowtheguidance.”Iamsoscared.IamtellinghimIwanttobewithhim.Ifeelthepain.“Maybe.Maybe,baby,”hejokes.Iamsoangry.P:Askhimwhyhecameintoyourlifenow.S:Thiswasthelastopportunitytochangemylife—toopenmeupandtoshowmetherearemanyotherpossibilities.Iwasclosedandshutdown,andhehasopenedmeup.Hetriedtodothisformebefore,inanotherlife.Iwasquitereservedandcouldn’topenuptohim.Ididn’tstaywithhim.Thatwasverypainfulforhim.Thisisonereasonheisquitereluctanttobewithmethistime.HeisafraidIwillleavehim,andhewillbealoneagain.Hesayshecouldn’tbearthatagain.P:Whatdidyoutwoagreetoinadvanceofthiscurrentlife?S:Sometimeswearetogether,andsometimeswearenot.Inthislifetime,therearetimeswearetogetherandtimeswearenot.Therewillbeaperiodwithoutbeingtogether,andtheremaybeanotherperiodaftersometimewhenwewillbetogether,butheischeckingotherpossibilitiestoo.Imustwaitforhimtodecide.Icannotcontrolit.Hehastochoose.ItellhimthatIlovehim.(cries,longpause)Weembrace.Now,Markcomesforward.BothMarkandRaulareinmysoulgroup.HeishappythatIam

here,butheissadthatwehavebeenapart.Itooamsadaboutthis.ItellhimIamsorryifIhavehurthim.ItellhimIlovehim.P:Andwhatistheagreementthatyouandhehave?S:Tobetogether.Toloveandsupporteachother.Tolearnasmuchaswecanfromeachother.Tobefriends.Wearehugging.Iamconfused.Iamfeelingthissadnessandfearagain.MymomandmyfriendAndyare

there,juststanding,lookingatme.Ifeeltheirloveandsupport.Iwanttomoveon,butthereinthegroupontherightisthatguyfromoneofthethreepossibilitiesshowntomebymycouncil.ButIdon’twanttotalktohim.Heisclosetome,butitishardformetoseehim.Iamsoscaredheisnotrightforme.MyguideAratonissayinghecansupportme,andheiswonderingifIwanttotalk.HesayswhoeverIamwithwillbefine.Mylifewillbefulfilled.Thisisdifficultformetohear,butAratonistellingmeIneedtoworkonacceptance.HeissayingIhavefreewillandtherearedifferentpossibilities,butIamnotsurewhichIshouldchoose.Idon’tgetthis.HeistellingmeIneedtogobacktothecouncilforthis.(pause)Wearenowthere.Theyareaskingmewhatmyquestionis.

Afterherinitialmeetingwithhercouncilandhersoulgroupintervention,Kashyapeyaisnowfarmorereadytohearthedeepermessagethatthecounciliscommunicatingtoher.

S:Itisallaboutacceptance.Allthebestformeishappening.Istilldon’tunderstand.ShouldIfollowwhatishappening,orshouldIcreatemylife?Idon’tunderstand.ShouldImakechoices,orshouldIjustallowchoicestobemade?Sometimestheycanbemade,andsometimestheyhavetobeallowedtobemade.Inthisparticularsituation,Icanmakethechoice.IcanleaveMark.IcanchoosetobewithRaul,butIdon’tknowhowtodoitifhedoesn’twantto.Nomatterwhat,IhavetorespectthechoicesofothersandnotmanipulatethemtogetwhatIwant.P:(IaskanotherofSasha’spre-sessionquestions.)Whatdoyouneedtodoatthistimeinyourlife?S:Meditateandcalmmyselfdown.Sendlove.Accepthis(Raul’s)freewill.Iamaskingthecounciliftheycanprojectsomeimagesaboutourfuturelifetogether.See

possibilitiesandopenmyselftothepossibilitiesbutbeemotionallydetachedandnotprojectthemtootherstoinfluencethings.TheyaresayingthatIhaveatendencytowardstubbornness,andthatIneedtomaketheeffort

tomoveonandnotstaystuck.Ishouldmoveonwithmylifeandfollowmyintuition.TheysayIalreadyknowwhattodo.Nooneisgoingtotellmewhattodo.Ineedtogivefreechoicetoothersandnotmanipulatethem.TheysayIcanaskquestionsifIhaveany.IcanhaveeverythingIwant.Iamverycreative.Ishouldrespectthefreewillofothers.Thereisabalancebetweencreatingandmanipulating.Ishouldcreatewithloveandacceptance.SoonIwillhaveanswersaboutwheretoliveandwhattodo.TheyareshowingmeIcan,ifIwish,movefromPortugaltoanothercountry—acolderplacesomewhereinEurope.Iwillbefine.Iwillhaveagoodjob,andIwillhavechildren.

Interestingly enough, sixmonths after this session,while Iwas transcribing the recording for thischapter,Sashacontactedmeandgavemeawonderfulupdateonhersituation.Sashaandherhusband,Mark,havereunited.SheispackingtomovebacktonorthernEurope.Sashatoldme:

IsetRaulfree.Ihaveacceptedthislessonandhavestoppedtryingtocontrolthings,andmiraculousthingsarehappening.Ifinallyunderstandwhattheyweretellingme.Iamlearningtoletgo.MarkandIhavereunitedinmorelovingandsupportivewaysthaneverbefore.IammovingbacktonorthernEurope.Ihavesuccessfullystartedmyownbusiness,andIfeelstrongernow.IalwaysthoughtthatIhadnofreewill—thatsomebodywouldgivemeinstructionsforlifeortellmewhattodo.ButIhavethepowertochoose,andInowgiveothersthefreedomtochoosetoo.Ihavechosentoletgo.

Clients seem to know the right time in their lives to schedule anLBL hypnosis session into the

afterlife.Usually,aforkintheroadoflifeprecipitatesthisaction.Itisimportanttonotethatwhenweareworkingonthesedeepersoullessons,oncethesessionisover,itcantakeweeks,evenmonths,tofully process and understand everything that comes to us in an LBL session. There is clearly atransitiontimebetweenreceivingtheinformation,comingtoanunderstandingofit,takingitintooursoul, and integrating it intoour life.Sasha’s life isnowmoving in apositivedirection, and she isfocusingonherlifepurpose:toletgoandenjoylife.

(1)Typically,orientationwithourguidesrightafterphysicaldeathincludesvisualizationsofquiet,peacefulareas.Thisdeprogrammingisdesignedasamoderatemeasureindealingwithsoulcontaminationratherthanseveresoulrejuvenation,whichrequiresmoredrasticaction.Thespiritualgarden-typesceneasdescribedinthiscasemayalsoincludewhatmanycallacleansingshowerofhealing.Thesymbolismofflowingenergyforpurificationisoftenevokedbytheclientrelivingsuchscenes.SeeJS54-55.

(2)Thereareanumberof“I’mscared”expressionsinthisstorybySasha,theclient,thatdemonstrateuncertaintywithherspiritualvisions.ThissortofemotionalfeardoesnotactuallycomefromKashyapeya,hersoul,eventhoughSashaisinadeepthetatrancestate.Inapurediscarnatestate,soulsmaybeuneasyaboutalovedonestillonEarthwhoisintrouble,orperhapsjustbeforetheyappearbeforetheircouncil,butemotionalfearfromthecentralnervoussysteminaphysicalbodydoesnotexistforsoulsinthespiritworld.Formoreinformationon

soulemotion,seeDS43,44,and290.WhatwehaveherewithSasha’svisualreactionstohercouncilpresentationofthreealternate

currentlifescenesisanuncertainwomanreactingtowhatsheisseeing.Sheisengagedinacurrentlifereviewwithinthenow-timeofthespiritworld,wherepast,present,andfutureareallrolledintoonetimelineinterview.Thisrepresentsa“whatif”exercisefortheexaminationofpossibilitiesandprobabilities.WithLBLtherapy,theclientmaybringconsciousmindtransmissionsintotheirunconscious,wherethehumanegobecomesintegratedintorecollectionsofasoulego.SeeLBLtherapy,LBLH190-194;lifepossibilities,DS359-365andLBLH177;andcouncilcompositionandtherapy,DS212-214,256.(3)ThecurrentlifereviewSashaisreceivingfromhercouncildemonstratestheconflictwemayfeelbyhavingmorethanonelovepartnerinourlife,eventhoughprearranged.Noticethedynamicsbetweenhertwolovestoday.SashadiscoversitisMarkwhoisherprimarysoulmateoverthousandsofyearsoflives(“Wewerealwaystogether”).Raulhascomeintohercurrentlife,ashehasfromtimetotimeinotherlives,asacompanionsoulmate,alsofromthesamesoulgroup.HehascomeasacatalystforchangeforSashabecauseinthislifeandinhercurrentbody,sheisamanipulatorofloveandmustcometotermswithwhatloveisallabout.Seesoulgroups,JS88-90,andsoulmates,JS250-251,DS259-265.(4)InLBLtherapy,duringperiodsofthesessioninvolvingdifficultscenesfortheclient,facilitatorsoftencallonthesubject’spersonalspiritguidetoassist.Thisisespeciallytruewithclientblocks.Inthiscase,theclientwasguidedtomentallyshiftfromacouncilscenetothatofhersoulgroup,anditwasverytherapeuticbecauseshebegantorelax.(5)Asoul’simmortalcharactermaybeinoppositionwiththebrainandtheemotionaltemperamentoftheirhumanhost.Seedualityofego,LBLH80-82,183-187.

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HEADtoHEART

JanelleMarie(PLEASANTHILL,CALIFORNIA)

ALCHEMYINSTITUTEANDNEWTONINSTITUTE,HEALINGARTSANDREGRESSIONPRACTITIONER,

NDESPIRITUALCONSULTATIONS.

Thisisastoryofanexecutive/musictherapist’sstrugglewithpersonalissuesthathaveaffectedhisfamilyrelationshipsandalsoappearindifferentformsinhisbusinessenvironment.Hisprimaryissuesaredeep-seatedfeelingsofaggressionandbeingtooheadstrong,alongwithanunderlyinglifetimepatternoffeelingrejectedanddevalued.AsaresultofhisLBLexperience,hehaslearnedthatleadingfromhisspiritualheartcenter

ratherthanfromhisanalyticalmindisabetterwaytolive.Hewasabletoreleasehisstrong,fixedmentalpatternofwhatisrightandwhatiswrong.Herememberedtheexistenceandtheimportanceoftheuniversalconnectionofallsouls,whichismusicalinsound.Andfromhisspiritguides,hereceivedtoolsforworkingwithhisaggressionandarrogancethat,overtime,helpedtoequalizehisinteractionswithothers.

MR.B,ANexecutivewhomIhaveknownforseveralyearsprior tohis life-between-livessession,has struggled with personal issues that have affected his family relationships and that appear indifferent forms in his business environment. This highly respected executive, who is also aninnovativemusic therapist specializing in autistic children, had deep-seated feelings of aggressionthat“makeitdifficultformywifeandchildrentoapproachmeandfeelsafe.”Theirongoingconcerniswhenwillheblowup.IntheinitialdiscussionwithMr.B,Idelvedeeplytoprovideclarityforthequestionsthatwillbe

posed during the session.Alongwith this outward expression of aggression, he indicates, “I can’tbear feeling insulted. Perfection must be maintained at all costs.” He explains this by citing thefollowingexample:“WhenIarrivehomefromworkandseethedishesinthesink,Ifeelinsulted,asifmywifeandoldestsontreatmelikethedishwasher.Thedishesarenotdone;therefore,thehouseisnotperfect.”Mr.Bsumsitupwhenhetellsme,“Iftheexternaldoesnotfitormeetwithmylevelofexpectationofperfection,Itakeitpersonallyanddropintomylifetimepatternoffeelingrejection,andtherefore,Ifeeldevalued.”Duringhissession,therewerethreestopswhereMr.Bwasprovidedkeytoolstointegrateintohis

dailylifestyle.Thesearerelevanttohiscurrentquestionsforthissessionandhisunresolvedpatternof aggression.The first place of importance occurred inMr.B’s past life,where he finds himselfstandingoutsideinfrontofacaveentrancescolding,inaheartfeltmanner,twentyorsopeople.Thefollowingexcerptisfromthispast-lifesegment:

JANELLEMARIE:Whatisyourpositioninthevillage?MR.B:Iamateacher/guru/hermit—theguypeoplegotowhentheyseekadviceorneed

teaching.J:Howaretheyreceivingthisinformation—thisscoldingtodobetter?B:Theyarecontriteandquiet.Iamreallyveryawareofmychest—sortofaspiritualheartIamcarryingthere.ThatiswhereIamcomingfromwhenIspeak—thespiritualheartplace—teachingfromtheheart.J:Istheremoretodescribeaboutthisspiritualheartplace?B:Iampowerful,butitisokay,becauseIhaveabalancebetweenbeingpowerfulandnotmakinganythingoutofitformyself.Thespiritualheartistheplacewherethepowerandegoarebalancedout.

HereMr.Bhasconnectedwitha forgottenpartofhimself.He isbeginning to receiveclarificationandnewawarenessabout teachingand leadingfromhisspiritualheart,whereheneeds tobegin tolivewithinhimself.Uptonow,hewasrelatingtoothersinananalyticalmanner,andhestates,“Iwasrelatingfrommyhead,andIhadaverystrongfixedpatternofwhatwasrightandwhatwaswrong.”Furtheralonginhissession,Mr.Bsays,“Iaminmybubblewithmysoulgroup.”OneofMr.B’s

important questions for his soul group is related to sacred contracts and is revealed in this nextsegmentofcasedialog:

J:Howareyoufeelinginthisgroup?B:I’mreallygladtoseethemagain.AndIhaveaspecialconnectiontoasoulnamedAhrr,becauseIknowhimwellinthislife,andsoIamalittlebitastonished.J:Canyoutellmealittlemoreaboutthis?B:Well,it’sbecauseAhrrisaverydearfriendwhoisveryimportanttomeinmyliferightnow,andnowIdiscoverheisalsoaveryimportantsoulmate.Asasoul,heispatient,consistent,steady,andveryperceptive.(1)J:Oneofyourquestionsconcernssacredcontracts—let’sexplorethepurposeofyourcontractwithAhrr.B:Inmycurrentlife,histaskistosetmebackontrack,becauseIamonthevergeofgoingfromthejokestertogettingfocusedonmyspirit.(2)WithAhrr,whetherIseehiminthislifeorinoursoulgroup,wheneverwetalk,itisabouthisspiritormyspirit.There’snothingelsewetalkabout.He’sgotthisknack,bothinthesoulgroupandinthislifenow,where,whateverhappens,evenifitisatypoinanemail,hemakesitintoaspiritualthing.Andhe’salwaysdead-on;he’sgotthisknack.Andheisteachingmethattalkingaboutspiritdoesn’thavetobedry.Itcanbealotoffun,anditcanbefunnytoo.J:Sohisconnectionwithyouistiedtokeepingyouontrack.Isthispartofthesacredcontractaswetalkedabout—foryourvocationandalsoforcharacterbuilding?B:Yes,he’sshowingmethat.IhaveknownAhrrsinceweweretwentyandIwasfloundering.Heisremindingmethat,evenattwenty,Ireallywantedtostudythepsyche,theconnectionbetweenspiritandpsyche,andeverythingtodowiththat.AhrrissayingIhavethisspecialgiftwithsoundfrequency.Ihaveaspiritualcapacitytounderstandsoundandthemeaningofsound,andhe’stellingmetousethatinconjunctionwithhealing.(3)HeistellingmeIamontherighttrackwithmyassumptionsofwhataretherightfrequenciesforhealing,andIneedtostopbuyingCDs,lookingfortherightfrequency.HeistellingmeIneedtoproducethesoundmyself.AhrrispointingoutthefrequenciesIhavebeenresearching—anythingbetweenfirst-particlefrequenciesdowntocellfrequenciesdowntothesoundsofmusic—thistrackIhavestartedestablishing,Ishouldcontinuedevelopingandthenpublish.Thispublicationhassomethingtodowithpsychology.I’mnotcertainhowrightnow,butIwillbeabletoincorporatethisstudyof

soundfrequenciesintomyfield.J:Whatisyourfeelingaboutwhatyouhavereceived?B:HavingAhrrinasoulgroupisonething,butknowingheisaclosesoulmateinmyphysicallifeisabig,bighelpandgivesmesupport.

Inthenextsegmentofhissoulgroupmeeting,Mr.BdescribesanothersoulnamedGhor:“Heissortof the leaderof thegroup, and I admirehim.He is the fighter for thegroupand forour spiritualadvancement.”TheconversationwithGhorhasanimportantfocusandprovidesMr.Bwithakeytoolforbecomingverypresentandshiftinghisaggression.Thenarrativepicksuphere:

B:GhoristellingmewhenIhavefeelingsofrejectionanddonotfeelvalued,itisasifIamlookingintoamirrormaze,likeinacircusfunhouse.Idon’tknowwhetherIamlookingatmyselforatthepeoplewhodevalueme.Itisatrap,andIamlostinthere.IaskGhorhowdoIgetout?Hesaysbyfocusingawayfromthosewhodevalueyou.Focuseitheronmyspirit,spiritguide,ortherealmofheaven.I’mtoodistractedbythephysical.Heisremindingmetolookinside,becauseoutside,forsure,youwon’tgetyoursatisfaction.OnceIconnectinside,thenIaminthepresent.J:Doesheofferyouatoolfordoingthis?B:Firsttotouchmyforeheadtobringmyattentionthere.Also,Ghorisencouragingmetopickupswordfightingagain.IdidthatwhenIwasyoung.J:Doeshemeanliterallyorsymbolically?B:Both.Literally,swordfightingalignsthephysicalwiththespiritual.Symbolically,usingthespiritualswordwillkeepmefocusedonwhatisrelevantandessential—tostaysimpleandnotloadmyselfupwithallkindsofdistractions.(4)Andinparticular,heissayingIneedtodropappointmentswithallkindsofpeoplewhostirmeup.J:Istheremoretodescribehere?B:Yes.Thefearofbeingrejectedisactuallyagreat,greattool.HeispointingoutthatwhenIaminthemirrormaze,Iamwiththewrongpeople,andIamwastingmytime.Sothisisactuallyasignalandaflag.Itisareallycoolspiritualtool,thefearofbeingrejected.

Another specific and very real-world toolwas offered toMr.B for keeping his aggression undercontrol.Duringanimportantspirit-worldstop,hemetwithhiscouncil.ThefollowingisthesessiondialogwherethecouncilinteractswithMr.Babouthisarroganceinhiscurrentlife:

B:I’mbeingtoldIshouldn’tbesoarrogant.Idon’tquiteunderstand.J:Isthereatoolforyouaboutthearrogance,perhapsaspecificplaceinyourbodyoranattitudetheycandescribetoyousothatyouhaveagreaterunderstanding?B:Ah,yeah.Iknowitall.IalwayspullmyenergyupintomyheadbecauseIfeelIhavetoknowitall.IthinkIcancontrolmyenvironmentthisway,but,ofcourse,that’snotpossible.Theyaretellingmethat’sarrogantorthat’sthecoredefinitionofarrogance.Thinkingthiswaykeepsmeinmyheadallofthetime.Ihavetodropthat.J:Isthereawaytheycanguideyouintodroppingormovingoutofarrogance?B:Yes.Theyhaveaverygoodway.TheyjustsuggestedIcleanthekitchenflooronmyhandsandknees.Theenergywillcirculatethroughmybodyinsteadofgettingstuckinmyhead.(laughs)Allright—thatbringstheheaddownforsure!J:Dotheysuggesthowoften?B:Onceaweek,twiceaweek.(laughs)Theynailedme.IthoughtIwouldgetoutofthisone.

Theyarereallyseriousaboutthis.Ireallyhavetodothis.J:Anythingmore?B:Thisissofunny—reallyfunny.Iambeingdirectedtodokitchenwork.MostofthetimeIshouldbecleaningthekitchen.Theyaretellingmetokeepthekitchenspiffyclean.Ifit’sspiffyclean,thenIdon’tneedtoworryaboutmyprettylittlehead.Theydon’tthinkitwasasfunnyasItriedtomakeitouttobe.AndIseemywayofbeingfunnyaboutitwasmywayoftryingtogetoutofit.Butit’snotpossible.Theyarereallyseriousaboutthisone.J:Istheremoreaboutthistool?B:Yes.Ineedtoteachmysontodothesamething—howtocleanthekitchenandthebath.

Oursessionendedshortlyafterthisdialog.Mr.Bhadalottoprocess.InthemonthsthatfollowedhisLBL,Mr.Bhadtheforesighttoactonthetoolsofferedinthesoul

group.Herehedescribestheenrichingeffectswordfightinghadonhisrelationshipwithhissonandhowitassistshiminshiftingoutoffeelingsofaggressionandintobeingpresent:

Iengageinswordfightingwithmyten-year-oldsononourbackporch.Inusingsword-fightingtoolswithmyson,hehaslearnedtoexpresshisaggressionwithoutfearofme.Webothnowallowourselvestoexpressaggressioninarelationship-buildingmanner.Facingmyaggressionissueandintegratingswordfightinginordertobetterdealwithithashelpedourrelationship,whichisveryimportantanddeartome.Asecondresultanteffectisexpressedinmyworkasanexecutive.Inmeetings,fellow

executivesexpressaratherhighamountofaggression,ofwhichIamoftenonthereceivingend.Inswordfighting,Ilearnedtosplittheoncomingenergyinhalfwiththesword;theaggressioncomingatmeissplitinhalfandpassesmeby.Ofteninthesemeetings,Ivisualizeaswordandamremindedofthisconcept.Sinceinitiatingthispracticeregularly,otherexecutiveshavecommentedthatIamsomuchcalmerinmeetings.Ialsolearnedbytouchingmyforehead,Icansplitmyownaggression.Thistouchingtakes

meinside,anditdirectsmyenergytofeelpresent.Asaresultoffollowingthecouncil’sseriousadvice,Mr.Btellsmelater:

IbecameawareIwantedsomespecializedtherapeuticsupportfortheaggressionandfeelingsofrejection.Alongwiththis,Ifollowedthecouncil’ssuggestiontoscrubthekitchenflooreveryweekandfoundIlearnedtobehumble,aqualitythatcannotbetaught,onlyacquiredandmaintained.Bydoingthisweekly,IrealizedIhadbeengivenasacredtoolforkeepingmyaggressionin

control.Afteroneyearofscrubbingthefloor,Mrs.Bsaidtome,“I’mimpressed.Youarekeepingyourangerincontrol.”

Oneyear later,Mr.Bsays therehavebeenreal-lifebenefits inmaintainingmonthlycontactwith

Ahrrasawayofhonoringthissacredcontracthediscoveredinhissoulgroup.Hedescribesitinthefollowingmanner:

Afterseveralmonthlyconversations,IrealizedAhrrhadacontractwithmeinthislifetomakefunofme.Bydoingthis,heshiftsmeoutofmyperfectionistattitudeandmyfeelingsofrejectionanddevaluation.IhadtheenlighteningrealizationthatheistheonlyoneIwouldallowtomakefunofmyattitude,andthisisanimportantaspectofoursacredcontract.Also,webothcametotheawarenessthatallofus,assoulslivingonthephysicalplanenow,

areconnecteduniversally.Thereisafrequencytothisconnection,anditismusicalinsound.Ahrr,inhistypicalform,challengedmetoresearchthisfrequency,teachit,andpublishitinEuropeduetotheirlong-standingacceptanceofanthroposophy.

Mr.Bnowusesthisfrequencydatawithautisticchildrenandtheirparents.Hehasfoundthissound

frequency activates neuroprocessing language and enables some of the children to say basicsentences,whentheywerepreviouslyunabletodoso.Also,hehastaughtadultsabouttheuseofthesesoundsforvariousphysicalillnessessuchasmultiplesclerosis,fibromyalgia,andsleepapnea.Mr.Bsays this special knowledge of harmonics helps to keep him humble. He now invokes existingharmonicpatterns,andthisallowshimtotrulyteachandsupporthisclientsintheirlifegoals.Henolongerfeelshehastopretendtobeapowerfulhealer.Asanexecutiveanddepartmenthead,therewereshiftsinorganizationaldynamicsrealizedbyMr.

B.Hehassuccessfullyintegratedandutilizedaroundtableformat,presentedinhissoulgroup,asthemodel for his departmental organization chart and team meetings. The result of duplicating thisconversationmodelcausedequalizationinhisdepartmentpositionwiththatofhisemployees,therebyproviding a safe environment for them to speak freely and to state opinions without fear ofconsequence. In staff meetings, he simply raises an issue and listens to staff input until a naturalconsensus emerges.Byduplicating thisproductive and soothingdynamic,managersno longer seehimasathreatandsomeonetoobey.Moreprojectsaredeliveredontimeandonbudget,andthereisagenuineupbeatfeelinginhisofficeenvironment.We see in this discussion of Mr. B’s session that the in-depth, basic, precious information he

received,when taken toheartandactedupon,hasanappreciable impact inhisday-to-day lifestyle.The data also points toward a positive domino effect on the lives of those connected to him bothpersonallyandinbusiness.Mr.B’sfinalcommentsumsupthebottom-lineeffectofhissouljourney:

Livingfrommyheartversusmyheadhasenrichedmylife.Ithasputmeonajourneytoequalizemyinteractionswithpeople.I’vestoppedviewingmyselfasmoreimportantthanothers.

Asafacilitatorforlife-between-livesspiritualregression,Ineverknowwhereaparticularclient’s

soul journey will lead us, where the client will end up in life, or how the presenting issues andquestionswillberesolved.However,whatisconsistentaresimilarreportsofuniqueandnoteworthyscenarios reflecting the positive, insightful, empowering, and fascinating data received in theirrespectivesouljourneys.Itappearsthereisanabilitytouseandintegratesimilarlifestyletoolseasilyand effectively as a result of a deepened connection to the client’s personal soul life. I find thespiritualrealmtobefriendly,joyful,faithful,andbeneficenttowardthosewhoarewillingtoembarkonandembracethisdeep,profoundsouljourneyinward.

(1)Ihavefoundthepublicmayhavethemisconceptionthatallsoulsinasoulclustergroupareprimarysoulmates.Thisisnottrue.Typically,wehavejustonememberofasoulgroupwhoisaneternal,deeplybondedpartnerinourlives.However,theymaynotbewithusineverylife.Theothermembersofthegroupareconsideredsoulcompanions,andtheyoftentakesupportingrolesinourlives.Ifasoulfromanothergroupisworkingwithusduringaparticularincarnation,theyarecalledanaffiliatedsoul.SeeDS264-265andLBLH100,120,131-133.

(2)WhileIhavementioneddifferentcharactertypesbetweensoulsinclustergroupsbefore,thiscasegivesusadifferentslant.Everysoulgroup,especiallyinlevelsIandII,hasarangeof

immortalcharactertraitsthatcomplementeachother.Mr.B,theclientinthiscase,statesthatheisthejokesterinthesoulgroup.Ahrrhasthereputationofbeingsteadyandperceptive,whileGhoristhecourageousfighter.Presumably,othersinthegrouparemorequietandthoughtful,orflamboyantrisktakers.However,noticethatMr.Binhiscurrentlifehasanaggressive,obsessivehumanmindthatisquitedifferentfroma

laid-backjokester.Hereisanexcellentexampleofabrainthatisnottemperamentallyinconjunctionbutratherinoppositiontothecharacterofthesoul.Seecharactertypesinsoulgroups,JS142;body-soulpartnerships,DS384-394;andconnectionsbetweenbodyandsoul,LBLH181-184.(3)Musicisveryrelevanttothisstory,andmusicdoesplayasignificantpartofwhatsoulsexperienceinthespiritworldwithvibrational,resonatingsoundsthataremanifestationsofspiritualenergyintermsofexpression,communication,andhealing.SeeJS21-22,43-44,96andDS304-308.(4)Havingbeenafencer,IcansaythatwhileMr.Bappearstobeactingoutaggressivebehaviorwithswordplayinthelaterscenewithhisyoungson,thereismoregoingonhere.Fencingisahighlyfocusedphysicalexpressionofthemindcontrollingrapidbodymovements,anditisaformofmentalenergycleansing,asthestoryindicates.Historically,theswordhasbeencalledaninstrumentofspiritualself-purification.InJapan,forexample,thebladeiscentraltoritualsofexorcismandthoughtsofperfection.

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BrynBlankinship(WILMINGTON,NORTHCAROLINA)

DIRECTOROFMEMBERSHIPANDLEADTRAINERFORTHENEWTONINSTITUTE,CERTIFIEDHYPNOSISINSTRUCTORSPECIALIZINGINTRANSPERSONALHYPNOSISREGRESSION.

CandacecameforanLBLsessionfollowingthedeathofhertwoyounggrandchildren.Shewasseekingunderstandingandpeaceregardingthetragicevent.Shealreadyknewthatweareeternalbeings,butbybeingabletoconnectinsuchaprofoundwaywithhergrandchildren,shewasabletofeeltheeternalnatureofourrelationships,whichforherhelpedlessenthepain.Knowingthattheirconnectiontooneanothertranscendstimeandspacebringshealingtoherachingheart.

ASIGREETEDCandaceinthelobbyofmyofficebuilding,shesmiledandshookmyhand.Ifeltasense of quiet strength and determination from her, which immediately caught my attention. Herbeautifulhazeleyeslookedatmethroughaveilofsadnessthathersmilecouldnotcompletelyhide.Aswemadeourwaytomyoffice,Candacedidn’twastetimewithsmalltalk.Shehadcometoday

seeking understanding and comfort following the death of her two young grandchildren in a carcrashfourmonthsprior.A thirdgrandchildsurvived.Danielwas tenyearsoldandEmmawas justsevenat thetimeof theirpassing.Candacewasadevotedgrandmotherwhofoundherself lostwiththemgone.Shemissedholdingthem,playingwiththem,andtouchingthem.Danielhadshortblondhair,awarmsmile,andfriendlyeyes.Likemostboyshisage,hewasinto

sports, and his strong athletic build allowed him to excel at them. Candace and Daniel had beenespeciallyclose.Shedescribedhimasthekindofchildwhocouldsensethatyouweresadandfindways tomake you smile.An incredibly loving and sensitive soul,Danielwaswise beyond his tenshortyearsonthisplanet.EmmawasDaniel’soppositeinmanyways.Withlongblackhairoutliningthepale,petitefeatures

of her face, little Emma’s bodywas slight and tiny compared toDaniel’s. She had amischievoustwinkleinhereyeandcouldattimesbedescribedasanaughtylittlepixie.Whenshewouldgetcaughtpurposelyhittingherolderbrother,she’djustlaugh,claimingitwasanaccident.Shelaughedalot,buttherewassomethinginconsolablysadabouther.Itseemedtogetworseasthetimeoftheirdeathdrewnearer.Candace’s expression could notmask the pain she felt as she sharedwithme how they enjoyed

spending time together biking, swimming, visiting the zoo, and watching movies. It really didn’tmatterwhattheydid,aslongassheandthechildrendidittogether.AsCandacespoke,hereyesdrewmein.Hereyesarethoseofanoldsoul,possessingdepthand

wisdom. Dealing with her grief showed an obvious heaviness that was gracefully carried by herfightingspirit.Shewantedtounderstandandlearnfromit—tonotbeconsumedbythedeepsadness

thatcausedhertoreachforaglassofwinemoreoftenthanshewouldprefer.Sheknewthiswasn’ttheanswer.Thenightswerethehardest;theygrewdarkerandthepainworsened.Webeganthepast-liferegressioninpreparationfortheLBLsessionthatwouldtakeplaceinafew

days.Candaceeasilyregressedtoapastlifeasanativehunterwithbeautifulblackhair,wearingonlyleather skins anda strapwith aholder forhis arrows. In this lifetime,Candacewas amalenamedSequana,meaningblessed.Sequana spent his days andnights in the forest in a time “beforemachines, boats, and thewhite

people.”Hewasgiftedwiththeabilitytogetsoclosetotheanimalsthattheydidn’tevenseehim.Heremarked, “I don’t eat the animals but ratherwalkwith them and get close to the doe to feel herbeauty. Food is easy, it’s just there—leaves, berries, water, fruits in trees, fish… bears show ushoney.”Preferring the seclusionofhis cavelikeplace,hismedicinewas to live away from the tribe and

amongtheanimalsintheforest.“Myteachersarethespirits,”heexplained.“Iwalk.Ifeelthetrees,plants—wetalk.Andtheanimals,wetalk…Ishiftmybeingtobecomethemandlearntheirsecrets,learntheirmedicine.”QuicklythejourneycarriedustoalatertimeinSequana’slife.“Iamoldnow,butnotancient…

myhairnotsoblack,mybodynotsostrong…Ihavethemagicandthemedicine…Ilovetheheatfromthefireandsitbyitandsmellthesmoke.Womenhavecometomeformystrengthtogivethemchildren, but not to stay; my children are precious, desired, but I stay alone.” Upon reflection,Sequanaadmittedthatitwashismistakebeingalonebecausetherewasnowhereforhislearningtogo,noonetopassitonto.ThewomenofthetribewouldcometoSequanawhentheyneededhimtohealandforstrength,buttherewasnootherrelationshipbetweenthem.Manyindividuals,whomSequanarecognizes,alsoplaysignificantrolesinCandace’scurrentlife.

Hisfather,Jenaqua,whohasenormousenergy,hadbeenthetriballeader.JenaquataughtSequanaandhis twinbrotherhowtoworkwith theenergyand tocarry it for the tribe.He isnowincarnatedasCandace’sfather.Hisspiritnowcomestohertoholdherhandandoffercomfort.Sequana’stwinbrother,olderbyjustafewminutes,servesashislinktothepeopleandshareshis

same powers.As children, they played togetherwith the nature spirits, the sun, themoon, and theclouds.Heenjoysbeingaroundpeople,whileSequanapreferssolitude.ThistwinbrotherisagainabrotherwhoisinstrumentalinCandace’slifetoday,offeringlove,support,andstrength.Hehelpsherto hold the energy for the family during this difficult and tragic time.We discover “holding theenergy”isaskillthatCandacealsopossessesandisimportanttobedrawnuponnow.AsSequana’slifemovestoanend,heisveryold.“Ineedtorest;it’shardertobreathetoo.They

haveallgone.It’smytimenow.”Sequanaslipsintodeathandfindshisspiritstandingoutsideofhisbody.“Ijustshakefreefrommybody.Ihavemystrengthagain.IknowwhereIamgoing.”At thecrossover into the spiritworld,Sequana—asCandace inhermost immediatepast life—is

greetedbylovedones(bothhumanandanimal).Heisenvelopedinabluelight“radiatingfromtheheart of centered darkness… this light is a deep, strong color like a gem that gets brighter andbrighter;itmovesandhassound,texture,andweight.Itislikeasolidlight.”It“washesoffallofthestickyparts,”rejuvenatinghisspiritbodyfromtheheavinessofhisearthlybody.ThisnativelifegaveSequanatheopportunitytorefillthecup,sotospeak,becauseitallowedfor

spiritualgrowthwhilehavinghisbasicsurvivalneedsmet.Itwasaboutfeelingtheearthandknowingitssouls,andtojustfeelthejoyoftheheatofthesunandthecooloftherain—balance.Learningtobeoftheearthgavehimtheknowledgeoftheplantsandthemedicinesforlater,whenhewouldbeahealer.“IhavealistofthingsIneedtobe,sothiswaslikeclassforthenextlives.Imadethechoicetobealonethislifebutamlearningthateverychoiceisnottherightchoice.Iwilldoitdifferentlythenexttime.”

RevisitingthislifegaveCandaceaccesstothisdormantreservoirofstrengthsonecessarytocarryher through thiscrucial time.Following thedeathofhergrandchildren, itwasessential to find thebalance that she so desperately needed now.Clarity and unity of purposewould keep her energiesfrombeingscattered.Before the sessioncame toaclose,Candacewasadvisedbyherguides that therewas toomuch

energyinherbody,anditneededtobeutilizedinabetterway.Thiswaswhyshewashavingtroublesleeping.Shewastoldtoutilizethedreamtimeandtoeliminatethewine.Relyingonwinetookherfurtherawayfromherpurposeinexperiencingtheseevents.Shewasremindedoftheimportanceoffullystayinginthebody,spirit,andenergyofall that is life;shemustcomeall thewayintoitandexperiencethewholeofit.Candacewasgivenalottodigestonthisday.Assheleftmyoffice,Inoticedtherewaslightnessto

herpresence.Sheseemedintrospectiveyetrelaxedafterthisintensesession.IwouldseeheragaininafewdaysfortheLBL.WhenCandacearrivedforherlife-between-livessession,wewastednotimeingettingstarted.She

easilyregressedtochildhoodandinto thewomb.Inhersoulstate,Candacedescribedthewombas“kindof likeawaitingroom;I’mfeelingpartsofmesliding into theedges, I’mupsidedown,canhearmymother ’sheartbeatthatfeelslikeapulseandthenripplesandflows…“Ijoinedupwiththefetusatsevenmonthsandamgettingusedtobeinginthebody.Istayinsidebut

Igooutandlookaroundsometimes.(1)Myemotionscontrolthisbrain.Thisbodyisfemale.Ilikeincarnatingasamale,butIneedtotryandbesofter,yetstrong.Inmycurrentlife,IknewIwasgoingtobeadifferentkindoffemale.Thisoneisfullofchallenge…Ineedtheemotions;challengesareobstaclesthatmakeithardtostayoncourse…nothingeasyhere.”Crossing into the spiritworldafterherpast life,myclient reports, “Therearehugecolumnsof

light.Oneofthecolumnsisme,butitseemstohavenoboundaries.IhaveaseparateawarenessbutnotaseparatebeingnowasImergewiththislightandjointoit.Iamthislight.”She is greeted by her spirit guides Gabrielle andMichael, who call her I-la. This is Candace’s

immortal soul name. Gabrielle is a pure gold color surrounded by rich purples, pulsating andflowingwithpurelove.Michael,herseniorguide,hasdarkandglowingcolorswiththedeepestofviolets, displayinga contrastbothof light andof solidity. I-ladescribesherself ashavingabluishtone,notasdeepasMichael’s.I-la moves to a huge temple with stone floors, then into a large library with many levels. She

informsmethatsheneedstoregisterthatshe’sherebeforebeginningthereviewofmeaningfulpast-lifeexperiences.Asshestopstodothis,sheexplains,“Whatwebuildontheearthisapaleimitationofwhatwerememberfromhere…Iputallofthepiecesinthebigbinder.”(2)Thereviewbegins.Herguidesemphasizetoherthevalueofspendingtimenotonlytouchingthe

earth but interactingwith others. I-la, it seems, had experienced other past lives that also involvedisolationandatendencyforhertoseeksolitude.I-laexplainsthat“althoughIknewmyplants,trees,animals, andbirds from these lives, Ineeded to learnabout individuals—theirnames—and to starthavingrelationshipswiththem.”ItwasnotedthatalthoughI-lalikedliveswhereshewasdevotedtotheland,shedidnotslowdown

enough to takenoticeofpeopleanddetails.Thedetails areneeded toconnectwithothers toknowthemasindividuals.Theyaretheentrancetopeople.Eachbodyhasitsstoryanditsego—“ThisIamstilllearning,”I-lacomments.I-latendstobetoomuchinsideherself.“Idon’tstudyhererightnow,”I-lamentions,“I’mjustdepositinginformationthatIlearned(fora

futuretimeinthelibrary).It’slikechargingmyselfbyfillinguponthedetailsofmyotherlives.Withsomebodiesit’smoredifficulttomaintainsoulidentity,andthereareotherearthlylifetimesthatareeasierwhere I come to relax a bit.” I-la explains that in recent lives, she has not brought a lot of

energy into her bodies, but as Candace, she brought almost all of her energy, knowingwhat waspotentiallyinstore.After finishing the review in this spiritual library, I-la moves through the courtyard to a large

bouquet of energy where her soul group has gathered. She explains that “they are all gatheredtogether.SinceIamtheelderinoursoulfamily,whenIcomehomeweallspreadout.”Steppingintotheenergy, she recognizesvarious familymembers. “There are linesof connectivitywith the soulgroupthatwindfromeachoneofustoeachother…sometimesthelinesarelitandsometimesnot.”(3)SoIaskedI-latofindthelinethatledtohergrandchildrenDanielandEmma.Shedoes,andthey

comeforward;Emmafirst,followedbyDaniel.Emmadidn’thavemuchtosay.WearetoldEmmawasnotpart ofCandace’smain soulgroup, therefore she is not a companion soul likeDaniel butrather from an affiliated group. This was the reason the line to Emma was not as brightly lit asDaniel’s.ShelovedEmmabuttheconnectiontoDanielwasmuchstronger.NextDanielappears.Hisenergyisbigandloving.HeembracesI-la/Candacewithhispresence.DanielinformsCandacethathedidn’tmeantohurtherbyleaving,andhelikesknowingtheimportancehebearsinherheart.Sheiscomforted knowing he is happy now in his eternal home.He is learning too, and plans are beingmadeforhisnextlife.Assouls,bothDanielandEmmavolunteeredinadvanceofthisincarnationtoteachthevariousfamilymembersthroughtheirleavingsoearlyinlife.Bothsoulsapparentlyjoinedtheirhumanbodiesknowingtherewasahighprobabilityofviolentdeathsatayoungage.Candacealsojoinedwiththesamehumanfamilytoexperiencethegriefthatfollowed.(4)ForCandace,sheiskarmicallyovercomingher tendencies toward isolationandsolitude inpast lives (ashadhappenedwithSequana, forwhomitcouldbeargued thathedevaluedfamily in favorofself-absorption). Inthislife,shemustbestrongandhelpherfamilypulltogethertoworkthroughtheemotionsoflosingthechildren.After a series of lifetimes of living in isolation (by choice or by circumstance), the departed

childrenareteachingCandacetocomeoutofhersolitudeandtobringforthskillsshe’sdevelopedfrompreviouslivesthatwillhelphernowtounifyherfamily.Tragedycanuniteoritcandivide.Shecanusewhatshe’slearnedtohelpthefamilyheal.Byrememberingthechildrenthroughstoriesandpictures,shecanletthemknowit’sokaytofeellossbutalsoremindthemthatonedaytheywillallbetogetheragain.Childrenarethehopeforourfuture.Whenalifeiscutshort,thereisastrongimpactonthosewho

loved the child.Those left behind are given an opportunity for spiritual growth.Despite their tinybodies,childrenarepowerfulhealers.AlthoughDaniel’searthlybodywasthatofachild,hisspiritualbody is no longer restricted by the physical body. He is a very big and powerful soul. Candacebelieved that we are eternal, but losing her grandchildren had tested her beliefs. ExperiencingDaniel’s big energy now helps her to know that Daniel’s (and Emma’s) spirit goes on. Daniel isteachingCandacetokeepherheartopen.Lifemustgoon,andshemustbestrongforherremaininggrandchild,theirsurvivingsister,whoreallyneedshernow.(5)TheeffectofthetremendousexchangeofhealingenergybetweenCandaceandherlovedoneswas

visibleonherface.Palpableandtransformative,itfilledtheroom.Itshealingpropertiesrestoredherachingheart.Candace’sfacebrightenedas tearsof joystreamedfromhereyes.Myeyeswelleduptoo, touchedbywhat Ihadwitnessed.Thepowerofspiritual regression inunderstandingkarma inourlivesisenormous.Surprisingly,wedidn’t spendagreatdealof time talkingwith the twograndchildrenduring the

session.Thepowerfulexchangewentonforawhileasitslovingvibrationliftedtheheavinessfromherbeing.Thiswasmorebeneficialthananywordscouldeverbe.Herguidesinstructedhertotaketimeathometositquietlyto“followthebreathingintothatquietspace…visualizethelightscoming,

erasingthedarknessandliftingthepain.”ItwasthentimeforI-latogobeforeherCouncilofElders.Theseall-knowingbeingsarehugeand

luminescent.“Thesearetheoneswhosendmetoincarnate,”sheinformedme.“Theyarethe‘lightcarriers’andareheretobringenlightenment.”Therearesevenofthem.Climbingupamountain,shewasledtoabeautifulcrystalbuildingsurroundedbyadeeppoolof

emeraldgreenwater. I-lawent inside thegates towherehercouncilawaitedherarrival.Shestoodbeforethemastheycomplimentedheronherprogressthroughthehardshipsofhercurrentlife.Theydiscussedhowthelessonofsadnesshasheldherback,tellinghertogobeyondthe“sad”andtoseethetruthaboutbabiespassing.Thiswouldhelpherandhergrievingfamily.The elders reassure I-la that it is understandable to have despair sometimes, but shemustmove

beyond it.Working through theenergyandconnectingwith the lightwill liftherand thosearoundher,makingthingsdifferent.Theyinstructherthatmeditationandbeingindreamtimefeedsthesoul.Balanceisneededbetweenworkandemotion.Shemustlearnnottogetlostinemotionorworkinordertostayontrack.ThistooispartofthelessonforCandace.Alana,onememberofthecouncilwhohasbeenwithI-laformanylifetimes,informsCandacethat

thepurposeofDanielandEmmaleavinghelddifferentlessonsforeachfamilymember.Candace’srole is that of carrying the light and as comforter.The loss she has experiencedwill act to createmoredepthinrelationships—asortofcrashcourseinlearningaboutpeopleandpersonalities.Thequalitiesofgentlenessandkindnessthatshe’sdevelopedthroughlifetimesoflivingwiththeanimalsandinnaturebearsignificancenow.Sheistoputoutremindersofthechildrentothefamilytoshowthemthatalthoughthechildrenare

notinabody,theyarenotreallygone.Justasherfather ’sspiritisabletocometoher,theycometoo.Daniel’sspiritoftencomeswithreminderstohelpthemgrowfromhispassing.AstheLBLsessionconcluded,apathwasopenedforCandacetoreturntothespiritworldtovisit

thecouncilwheneversheneeded.Theyinstructedthatshemustremembertocome,andthatshecandothisonherownnow.Our session ended there.When Candace arose from the timeless elasticity of the between-lives

state,itwaslateintheafternoon.Whathadfeltlikeafewminutesforherhadactuallybeenseveralhours,aswehadstartedearly thatmorning. Iwashonored tohavebeenpartofsuchan incredibleexperience.Somethinghadshifted—forherandforme.What,onlytimewouldtell.In themonthssinceherLBLsession,Candacehasfoundrelief fromthe tightgripofcontinuous

painthathadheldher.WhenImetwithhertowritethisstory,shelookedgood.Shewassmilingandhappy,without thesadness inhereyes the first timewemet.Sheshared,“After thechildrendied, Ifoundmyself lost, without the ability to connect with my understanding of the universe, with mycenter,my soul,myheart.My time inLBL reestablished that connection. I found a sense of joy—momentaryand transient,butpeaceand joyagain—aftermysession. Itwasnot that Ineeded toberemindedofoureternalexistence,but that Ineeded tofeelandexperience it—tobreak throughtheveilofpainthathidmysoulfromme.”Candacehashadcontactwiththespiritsofhergrandchildrensincetheydied,evenbeforetheLBL.

She explained that the difference now is that “we continue our relationship in a better way. Myunderstandingoftheeternalnatureofourrelationshipshaslessenedthepainofbeingwithoutthem.”Sheisabletohealthroughitratherthanberestrictedbyit.Andhermeditationsaredeepernow;itiseasiergettingintothemandstayingthere.Shealsocommented thatpictures takenofDanielandEmmaduring the last fewmonthsof their

livesshowed“adistantlookintheireyes.It’sasiftheyknewtheywouldbesayinggoodbyesoon.”Herheartisstillmending,butCandacecannowaccessthatplaceinherheartandsoulwherepain

isunderstoodandmodified—wherehealingbegins.“Iknowwewilldancetogetheragain,”shesays.“Thishelpsmakeatragicsituationmorebearable.”

(1)Soulsareperfectlycapableofleavingsleepingbabies,adults,orpatientsinacomaforawhiletoroamaround,perhapsvisitingoldhauntsbeforereturning.However,theyalwaysleaveaportionoftheirenergybehindforemergencies.SeeDS79.

(2)Typically,soulsfindtheirpermanentrecordsofpast-lifeaccomplishmentsandshortcomingsstoredinplacesresemblingearthlylibraries.Formoreinformationandadiagramonthespirituallibrariescontaininglifebooks,seeDS150-152.

(3)WhilewehavemagneticgridlinesonEarth,clustergroupsofsoulsalsohavespecificvibrationalconcentrationsofenergyratherlikehomingbeaconlocators;seeDS116.Transitiontoasoulgroup,JS73-86.Linesofconnectivitywithindividualsoulgroupmembers,DS276,figure10.Also,comparewithsoulgroupplacement,JS176,figure7.

(4)Thepossibilitiesandprobabilitiesofeventshappeninginourlivesduetokarmicinfluencesmaybedifficulttounravel,becausethelawsofkarmaseemtofavorelementsofdeterminisminourexistenceonEarthtothedetrimentoffreewill.YetthisconclusionisnotborneoutbyLBLresearch.Whilesoulsvolunteerforkarmicassignmentsinthelifeselectionroombeforethenextlife,thereisalwaysroomforfreewillchoicesandevenachangeindirectionwithupcomingeventsinlife.Inthiscase,therewasevidentlyahighpotentialofbothchildrendyinginacarcrashatagivenmomentintime.However,therecanbevariablesinthisscenario.Ifthecrashhadnotbeenquitesosevere,oneorbothchildrenmighthavesurvived.Perhapstheirparentscouldhavearrivedatthestreetjunctionjustbeforeorjustafterthecrash,ortheymighthavedecidedatthelastminutenottogetintothecaratall.Seefreewill,JScase26,226-230andDS370-373.Astoreasonswhyasoulwouldchoosea“fillerlife”ofonlyafewyears,thismustbe

determinedbyanexaminationofkarmahereandtheneedsoftheparents,especiallythemother.Soulsprovidecomfortandsupportduringtheirtimeinthefetusandasyoungchildrenwhostandahighprobabilityofdyingyoung.WearetoldinthisstorythatthechildrenmadeCandace“blissful”withtheirpresence,howeverbrief.Itwouldseemtherearefewmajoraccidentsinlife,butthesemaycontainanumberofalternatives.Formoreonthissubject,seeDS235,359-363,371-373,383-384andLBLH177-178.

(5)TheauthorofthisstorylateradvisedmethatCandacesatforamonthwiththesurvivingchildasthelittlegirl’sconditionwentfromcriticaltostable.Whenshewasfinallytoldthatherbrotherandsisterhadbeenkilled,sheinsisted,“No,they’restandingrightthere,”andpointedtothefootofherhospitalbed.Shewasabletoseeandcommunicatewiththemlongafterthecrash,astheyprovidedcomfortforher.Itisbelievedthatshecontinuestodosoevennowbutjustdoesnottalkaboutitanymoretotheadultsinherlifebecauseitistoopainfulforthem.Theabilityofchildrentoseeandtalktoentitiesfromtheothersideisquiteremarkable.

4

COMPLETINGtheJIGSAWPUZZLE

MartinRichardson(OXFORDSHIRE,ENGLAND)

SPECIALISTINHYPNOTICREGRESSION,HYPNOTHERAPYRESEARCH,ANDIN

HELPINGCLIENTSCHANGETHEMSELVES.

Whencompilingajigsawpuzzle,twoelementsarerequired:alltherelevantpiecesincombinationwiththeabilitytobringthemtogetherandcompletethepicture.DanicametoexperienceLBLseekingabetterunderstandingofherselfandherplaceinthe

grandschemeoflife.Shewishedtoidentifythemajorplayersinhersoulgroup,thenatureoftheworktheydotogether,andtorecognizeandgettoknowherspiritguide,theteacherofthissoulgroup.Herthirstforunderstandingincludedthedesiretocheckherprogressonhersoulpath,toestablishherdirection,andtodiscoveranythingsheshouldbedoingtoimproveherlearning.Thepreparatorypast-life-regression(PLR)sessionscreated,inDani’sownwords,“thepieces

ofthejigsaw.”Twoensuinglife-between-lives(LBL)sessionsallowedthatjigsawtobecompletedandansweredmanyofDani’squestions.

THISSTORYISallaboutDaniandherjigsaw-puzzlebuilding.Inthefollowingaccount,thenamesinparenthesesarethoseofthesoulsinDani’scurrentlife.Dani’spast-lifeexperiencesrevealedthatkeysouls are indeed interacting throughdifferent roles, and this key learning element forms a crucialpartofhersouldevelopment.First,Daniwasregressedback toWales in the latenineteenthcenturyasSarah.Thesoulsofher

father, husband, and children in this lifewere found to bemembers ofDani’s soul cluster group,whoseincarnatedlivesareintertwinedwithherown.Forinstance,Sarah’sdaughterFloraishersisterLaratoday.Whileitwasahardlife,SarahhadprofoundfamilyrelationshipsthatresultedinDani’sfirstjigsawpiece—thatofherdiscoveryofthemainlessonfromthatlife:loveandpatience.The next incarnation took place soon afterwards inEngland as a girl named Joy, and againwe

learnedabouttheactiveroleofDani’ssoulgroupmembers.Herprimarysoulmatewasherhusbandthenaswellastoday(Kevin).Joydiedratheryoung—attheageoffifty—ofaheartattack,butfromherfamilyshelearnedtrustandthathappinesscanbeacquiredfromsimplicity.Thispast-lifelessonprovidedDaniwithhernextjigsawpiece.Danithenregressedtotheveryfirst lifeshehadexperiencedwiththesoulofJeremiah,afamily

friendwithwhomshehasacloseaffinity today.She returned to the timeof theRomanEmpire. InRome,DaniwasamancalledManaswhomadeandsoldclaypotsforstorage.Attheageoftwenty-five,ManaslivedjustoutsidethecitywithLeah,theloveofhislife(familyfriendJeremiahtoday).AsManasmovedforwardtothenextsignificanteventinthislifetime,hefoundhimselfholdingLeah,whowasdistraughtatthelossoftheirchild.Movingforwardagain,theynowhadtwochildren,oneofthemDani’scurrentsister(Lara).

Forwardagaintothenextmemory:anencounterwithalargecrowd,shoutingandjeeringasslavesweregiven their freedom.Here, therewas a healer calledSamson (her aunt in this life)whousedherbstoheal.During the next significantmemory,Manas experienced the time his soul left his body.Hewas

aged fifty-nine, alone, thin, sad, and had just fallen in the street, with no one offering him anyassistance.Manas had long since left Leah and the children in poverty, and he did notwant to diewithoutlettingLeahknowhowsorryhewasforherpoortreatment.Jigsawpiecenumber three:DanidiscoveredthatasManas,shewas tooselfish,didn’tcareabout

people,andlivedpurelyforpleasure.Thelessonwasself-awareness,toshowtruefeelings,andalsotherealizationoftheneedtoshareoneself.AsherLBLfacilitator,IfeltitimportantthatDaniexperiencethenextlifeshehadsharedwiththis

significantsoul,knowntodayasJeremiah.ShewentbackagaintofindherselfasafemalenamedLitalivinginGreece.Inthislife,Jeremiahwasherbrother,Alta,andduringthefirstmemory,Litawasagedtwenty-two,pregnantandhidingfromsoldiers.Shewasinundatedwithflashingmetal(fromthesoldiers’breastplates),helmetswithfeatherplumes,andlotsofnoise.Sherecalledbeingtoldto“waithere.”The soldiers eventually departed, forcefully takingwith themher husband and leavingLita,Alta (current friend Jeremiah), and hermother (close friend Nikki today) to flee to the island ofRhodes.Moving forward in time, she recalled living ina simplehomewithadaughterof just twoyearsof age (sonGeorge today).Altawas, in truth,herbrother,butnoneof their communitywasawareofthis;AltaandLeahwereacceptedasacoupleandlivedahappylifeontheirruralproperty.MovingforwardintimeagaintoLita’slatethirties,thenextscenerevealedanotherchild,clearlypartof the family but not her own. The child (her aunt in this life) had a burned, disfigured face andwalkedwithalimp;herparentshaddied,andinLita’smemory,“noonebutuswouldhaveher.”Aswemovedforwardintimeoncemore,LitareportedthatAltacouldnotbreatheandwasfeeling

“aweightonhischest.”Caringforhim,Litashedmanytearsasheslippedawayfromheranddied.Lita’sownlifeendedwhenshetookafallandfoundherselfreadytodieandtobewithherbelovedAlta(Jeremiahtoday)oncemore.Anotherjigsawpiece:thelessonoflove.LitalovedAlta,andshelovedbothhergirlsequally.She

alsolearnedcompassion,forshewasabletoforgivethesoldiers.This seriesofpast-life experiences illustrates that groupsof souls incarnate together repeatedly,

playing different roles in order to achieve important life objectives and to help each other. Forexample,DanisensesthisstronglyinherclosesoulconnectionwithJeremiah,whotodayisadearfriendsherarelyseesbutwhohasinpastlivesplayedverydifferentrolesasherpartner,brother,andlover.With this overview,Daniwas able tomake comparisonswith and understandings about herrelationships in her current life.But, shewondered, howdo these souls relate to eachother in thespirit world between lives—and have the lessons learned from past lives been recognized andabsorbedintohercurrentlife?DaniturnedtoLBLtherapytoseektheanswers,andwebeganthefirstoftwosuchsessions.(1)Theentryintohypnosiswasslow,andDanireachedadeeplevel—wehadworkedtogethermany

timesbefore,andIalreadyknewhertobeanexcellenthypnosissubject.Inthepastlifethatprecededentryintothespiritworld,shewasagenineteen,livingnearCanterbury,England,andabouttomarryTerrance(husbandKevintoday).Movingforwardtotheendofthat life,shewasagefifty-fourandalone,strugglingforbreathanddyingjustasherhusbandfoundher.Thiswasnotaveryhardlife;however,itslessonsweresignificant,aswediscoverwithDaniassheentersthebetweenlivesstate…Sheismetbyherguide,Tian,whofeaturesbothmaleandfemalesides,sternandcompassionate

respectively. She has little choice; she has to visitwhat she calls her “panel” first (also frequentlycalled theCouncilofElders).Ontheway,Tianasks ifshefeelsshehasputenougheffort into that

life;sheremembersshehadbeenexpectedtoputmorein,butshedidn’t—shejust“coasted.”Inher visualizations,Dani is standingoutsidehugewoodendoors and finds thesewill not open

untilthereisasensethatshehashadenoughtimetoconsiderheractionsinherlastlifeinordertobetterunderstandit.Whenshedoesenter,herpanelappearstobestrangelyunfamiliaratfirst.Daniwouldlearnthatwecanbetheco-creatorsofuncertaintywithourfirstvisualspiritualimagesofnewscenes.AsDani,shemustlearntoseebeyondwhatsheinitiallyfears.Artificialillusions—asmasks—mayberemovedbycourageforgreaterclarity.Shefindsherselfinfrontofthepanel,butlower;lookingup,sheknowsthattheentitiesarenotwhattheyappeartobe.Inquiringofherguide,sheistold“youwillseewhatyouexpecttosee;ifyouexpecttoseesomethingfearful,thenyouwill.”Sheisaskedtobestillandtotrust;soon,thepanelappearsasitnormallydoes,withsevenmembersintotal.(2)Duringthetelepathiccommunicationwithherpanel,shereports,“IfeelthatIwastedtimeandwas

tooquicktojudgeothers;Ididn’tusethelifeinthewayinwhichitcouldhavebeenused—Ididn’tmake it what it could have been.” She continues, “I didn’t really understand how I couldmake itdifferent; I was lazy, I just took what came my way. I could have been a force for good in mycommunity, but I didn’t join in, I stood separate; the potential for healingwithinmedidn’t have achancetoshowitself,evenwithmyownchildren…Icouldhavesharedmyinnerknowledgewiththem.”Sheconcludes, “Ididn’tuse the life as I couldhavedone; it couldhavebeenmeaningful, and it

doesn’tmatterhowlong life is…makingmeaningfulconnectionswithotherpeoplemultipliesonitself.”Dani’sjigsawpuzzlewasnowgrowingandwasdisplayedtoherwithconsiderablerelevancetoher

current life.Thepast lives she rememberedhadgivenher incredible resources,which shehadnotusedordevelopedinherlastlife,buteachonealsoboresignificanceinrelationtohercurrentlife.As thisbetween-livesvisit progressed, herpanel symbolically showedher a flower—abeautiful

rose opening up one petal at a time. Dani reported, “I’m opening up bit by bit—beginning tounderstand,beginningtoshowmybeautylikearipeningflower.Iamonthatjourney,beginningtounderstand and to glimpse what the flower could look like—what I could be. I am being givenimpressionsofwhatIcantrulybe.Iftheflowerreceivesthesunandwateritneeds,itwillblossomaccordingly—ithas tobe fedappropriately, too, just as Ihave to focusonwhat Ineed inorder toachievethatunderstanding.”Danithenreportedonthediscussionandfeedbackrelatingtohercurrentlife.“Ihavetobemore

focusedthistimearound;Iambeingtoldthatjust‘tryingtobe’isnotgoodenough—Iactuallyhaveto ‘do’ and not just ‘try to do.’ I am kinda sloppy in how I do things; I nowknow I have to giveeverythingonehundredpercentofmyselfandtodoeverythingwithintent.IfIfixmyintention,Ihavetofollowitthrough—thisrelatestohealing,mainlytohealing.ItisagiftIhave—Ihavetobuildonthatandnotjustfallbackonit;theintuitionisthefirststep,butthereasonIhaveabrainistotakethisfurther. It is not just about what I am being taught; it’s about what I can apply myself using thatteaching.”Havingmadethisdiscovery,Daniventuredtohersoulgroupandmetthekeyplayersinherpast

andpresent lives;Jeremiahwasthefirst towelcomeher.Sherealizedthathersoulgroup’soverallpurposeisto“wakepeopleup—wearemakingadifferencetothosearoundus,”andthispurposeisenhanced by the group’s ability to see beyond what most people can see. One of her own soulactivitiesistoincreasehersoul’shealingenergy.Danidescribedworkingwithtwomembersofhersoulgroup—hercurrentsisterLaraandgoodfriendAntoinette—workingwith“aballofenergyinmyhands,butitdoesn’ttouchmyhands(itlooksalittlelikeaplasmaball).Thishealingenergyisthen throwndown like snowballs so that it can balance the negative energy created onEarth.This

workisenjoyable,fun—dealingwithallthatpowerful,positiveenergyisalmostinfectiousandthereismuchlaughter.Itisafocusingofintention,abitlikedoingReiki—that’swhatReikiisonEarth!”After this firstLBL,Dani reported that in a fully awake state, she received a huge download of

information;itseemedasifshewasbeinggivenalltheresourcesnecessarytocatchup.Sixmonthslater,shecameforhersecondLBL.Sheregressed toachallenging lifeasMary,whosebrutalhusbandabusedher.Shewasasimple

womanwithnaturalgiftsofherbalhealing;however,shefoundthatshecouldnotcopewithalltheabuse and gave up trying to live. This life was packed full of learning about how to be “on thereceivingend,”forinthelifebeforethisone,sherememberedshehadbeenacruelmalesoldier.Her second LBL proved to be a wonderful confirmation of the first. Dani viewed her Akashic

Records in the library (3); the records initially appeared as a battered old book and then revealedmultidimensional layersofmeaning, throughwhichsheexperiencedahuge revelation:“I’vecomebacktowhereI’msupposedtobeviaadifferentroute—afterabigdeviationwhenIwasseventeen…”Therewerefurtherdiscoveriesintheplaceoflifeselection,inwhichsheexperiencedconfirmation

thathercurrentlifeasDanihaseverythingtodowithhealing:“I’mabitbehindwhereIneedtobe—Icouldhavereachedthispointsooner,butI’monthecorrectpath.Myenthusiasmisagift,atooltohelppeople.”AttheendofhersecondLBL,apadlockwasremovedfromthecenterofherheart,andshereportedthisas“ahugerelease.”Dani’sjigsawpuzzlewasfinallycomingtogether,creatingacohesive,focusedpicture.Ourinitial

PLRworkprovidedtheimpetusforDanitodevelopherselffurther.HerfirstLBLprovidedherwithconfirmation, direction, and resources.The secondLBL session highlighted to her that everythingwasnowbackontrackinthislife.Inherownwords,“IcouldsensethatIhadfinallytakenaleapofftheedgeoftheprecipice.Icouldflyorfall—butIdidn’tknowwhereIwasheaded.”Asthesessionsprogressed,sodidherunderstandingandresolve,andnowthejigsawpuzzleiscomplete.Danihasundergone intensive training to become a qualified cognitive therapist and now has a full-timepracticesothatshecanmakehercontributioninlife.

(1)Thedynamicsofsoulgroupinteractionandtheassumptionofvarioussupportingrolesinthephysicallivesbetweengroupmembersisavitalpartofspiritualregressiontherapy.Foraclienttryingtounderstandthemeaningoftheircurrentlifeandthelessonstobelearned,itisveryrevealingtodiscoverthesoulsofyourfriendsandrelativesinmanybodieswhohaveincarnatedtogetherwithyouforsuchlongspansoftimeonEarth.SeeDS128-129,142-143andLBLH138-142.

(2)IsuspectthatDani’sinitialvisualizationofhercouncilmembersappearingasanimalswasbydesign.Thereisasymbolicovertoneofnegativetransmigrationhere.Indeed,wearetoldthat“ifyouexpecttoseesomethingfearful,youwill.”ThereseemstobeanexpectationbyDaniofsomesortofpunishmentthatfeedsintoIndianmythologicaldogmaofreductioninranktolowerformsoflifeinfutureincarnationsbecauseshedidnotliveuptoherpotentialinthelastlife.However,readersshouldbeawarethatoftenorientationbyapersonalspiritguidewillinitiallyaddressthesoul’sprimaryconcernsofthelifejustlivedafterre-entryintothespiritworld.Seeorientation,JS69,andtransmigration,DS52,203.

(3)AkashicinSanskritmeans“space,”andIndianphilosophyusesthistermtodescribeaspacerepresentingauniversalfilingsystemthatrecordseverythought,word,andactioninour

lifetime.Whilepeopleintrancemaybeinfluencedbyaconsciousmemoryofthiswell-knownkarmicterm,moreoftenthannotinhypnosis,LBLsubjectsrecallingspirituallibrariesthinkoftheserecordsastheirlifebooks,diaries,orasrepresentingakindofcelestialtelevisionsetfortheirutilization.VisualizingthespirituallibraryisaprofoundexperienceinhigherconsciousnessinanLBLsession.SeeDS150-152.

5

LIFECHOICESandMOVINGON

SophiaKramer(NEWYORKCITYANDKIEL,GERMANY)

INTERNATIONALINSTRUCTORANDAUTHORSPECIALIZINGINHYPNOTHERAPY,REGRESSION,

FAMILYSYSTEMS,TRAUMA,ANDRECONCILIATION.

InmyLBLwork,Ioftenworkwithpeoplewhoaregrievingthepassingofalovedone.Theyfrequentlywishtomakecontactwiththeirdeceasedlovedonesinspiritandseekanswersonhowtheyfeelaftertheirphysicaldeath.Theywilloftenfeelanurgetohaveanexchangewiththeminordertobeabletomoveonintheirownlives.Thiscanbeaveryhealingexperiencethatbringsclosureandacceptance,oftenpairedwithablessingfromthepersoninspiritfortheonehereonEarth,whostillhastoconquerthechallengesoflife.ThentherearepeoplewhocomeforanLBLsessionbecausetheywonderiftheyareontherightpathandwhowanttoknowtheirlife’spurposeorgaininsightintospecificquestionsabouttheircareer,theirfamily,orimportantlifechanges.HereIwillsharewithyoumyexperienceofanLBLsessionIconductedinSouthAfricathat

exemplifiesthepositivechangesthathappenwhenwefollowoursoul’spurpose.IAMONmywaytoJohannesburg,whereIhavebeeninvitedtoconductLBLsessions.SouthAfricaisacountryofbreathtakingbeauty,fullofrichculture, traditions,andoriginality.Thecountrystillstruggleswith itschangesandadjustmentsafterapartheid’s injusticeand imbalance. I feel thatwithmybackgroundinsystemictherapyandregressionwork,especiallythelife-between-livesregressionworkandmypassionforit,Icanassisthereandtherewiththehealingofindividualsandthecoreofthisamazingcountry.AndrewisaSouthAfricanmaninhismid-thirties.Wehadaphoneconsultationinwhichhestated

thathe’dhadsomeexperiencewithhypnosis,butthiswasmanyyearsago.Meetingwithhiminmycolleague’soffice,IseeAndrewasastraightforwardandextrovertedmanwhodescribeshimselfasa“go-getter”andissuccessful inhisworkandfocusedonachievementsandmaterialcomfort.Heismarried and has a small son. He doesn’t observe any spiritual or religious practice and doesn’tdescribehimself as particularly spiritual.But he is openminded andbelieves that our sessionwillshedlightonhisquestions.AndrewandhiswifeareconcernedaboutthefutureinSouthAfrica,especiallyaboutthesafetyof

theirsonandtheirsecondchild,whoisabouttoarrive.Eventhoughtheyarefinanciallysettledandhave a large extended family andmany friends, they consider leaving the country. SouthAfrica’sfutureisthebiggestconcernforAndrew,asidefromaninquiryabouthislifepurposeandquestionsaboutsomefearsoffailureandrejection.Andrewrespondsverywelltotheinductionandtotherelaxation.Hisbodyreactsfinetoimagesof

safetyandtoaffirmationsofsecurity.Hegetssodeepandrelaxedthathisvoiceisverysoft,sothatI

have to be very mindful in understanding his responses. Regressed to childhood, experiencing ablissfulmomentasbabyAndrew,he feelsas ifhe is really there—he is the littlebaby, respondingwithababyvoice,bubblylaughter,andbodymovementsthatreflectthismoment.It is alwaysanastounding feeling towitness theprocessofmyclients—to sitwith them in their

experienceandtotuneinwiththemoment—ononehand,tositinmyplaceasafacilitatorfortheirexperience,andontheothertositbacktoletthemfullyexperienceitfromwithin.BabyAndrewisabletorecallmanydetailsofhissurroundings,whichtheadultAndrewwouldnothavebeenabletorecollectwithhiseveryday,rationalmind.Thisisespeciallyniceforhim,sincehestatedissueswithhismominour initial interviewandhere,asababy,he isable torecallconstructiverecollections,whichIanchorforhimasaresourceforthefuture.Inhismother ’swomb,Andrew isable toanswermanyquestions regardinghisbodychoice,his

soul,andintegrationwiththebody.Herealizesthathisspiritualcharacterislighter,lessserious,andmorecarefree. I askhim ifhewould like topull in someof thiscarefreeenergy intohisphysicalbody,andheagrees.Thensomethingastoundinghappens:Andrewstarts tobreatheheavily,pullingtheenergydownintohisbody,huffingandpuffing,turningredandviolet.Itellhisbodytoacceptit,tointegrateitintoeachandeverycellofhisbeing.Thenherelaxeswithaglowonhisface,feelingveryhappy.AfterAndrewcompleteshis“download”ofcarefreeand joyful soulenergy, thenext stepwould

havebeentoguidehimtoapastlife,preferablyhismostrecentpastlife.ButAndrew’ssouliseagerto go right away into the spirit realm.He rises up, seeing some stretches of land below him, andexperiencesastrongpullfromabove.Heperceivesatubeoflight,ispulledhigherandhigher,andtrusts his divine help while leaving the heavy physical residue behind him. This light feels verycomfortableas thespacearoundhimgetsbrighterandbrighter.Following thispull into thebrightlight, his face becomes very happy, the sensation grows stronger and stronger, and then suddenlyAndrewbecomesverypeaceful,veryquiet,andtearsstarttorundownhischeeks.(1)Andrewstatesthathecanseealightbeingwhogreetshimwithanembrace,envelopinghimwith

loving energy. “He is here forme, he is like a bigbrother…he ismyguide,”Andrewexclaims.AndrewconnectstoZecho,whosenamehecanrecallandspelloutforme.Heisabletorecognizehisguide’senergy,realizingthathehadindeedfeltitbefore.WethenfindoutthatZechocallsAndrewbyhisimmortalnameofEstrell.“Zecho is always with me,” Andrew states with conviction. “We communicate with telepathic

feelings.”And then ithappensagain:Andrew/Estrell starts todownloadhisguide’senergy intohisphysicalbody, thisonebeingevenmoredramatic than the first download. Iwitnesshimbreathingheavily,pumpinghisbodyupwiththatloving,powerfulforce,hisskincolorturningredandvioletagain,andhisbodyswellingup,tearsrunningdownhisface,beforebecomingquietandblissfuloncemore.ZechocommunicateswithAndrew/Estrell, tellinghimhowpleasedheiswithhisperformancein

this life and that his greatest achievement in this life is “being kind, honest, and simply beinghimself.”ZechostatesthathehasbeenwithAndrew/Estrellforalongtime,throughoutmanydifficultlives,andthatheisproudofhowwellAndrew/Estrellisdoingincomparisontootherpastlives.Overandoverinmywork,Iseethat thereisnojudgmentinthespiritworld.We, inourhuman

condition,critiqueourselvesandothers,butourguidesandcouncilneverjudgeus.Andrewisamanwhoisoftenhardonhimself.Heexperiencedastrictmotherandoftenfeelshedoesn’taccomplishenough.Hestruggleswithself-esteemissues,andhereinthespiritworld,hisguideassureshimthatitisenoughtojustbehimself.Herealizesthatheishishardestjudge,andthatwereceivecompassionandunderstandinginthespiritworld.Estrellmovesevenhigher.“Iamstandinginaroom,itislikeasemicircle…lotsoflight…there

areotherbeings, theyarealldressedlikeZecho,withbrownrobes…thereisalotoflove…andhumor.”Estrellcancount fivecouncilmembers,andZecho is right therewithhim,standing in thebackground. (2)“Nowtheyareallsittingdownon thefloor,and it isgettingdark. Iseearoundedroof…theyaskmetositwiththem…theyarefacingme…itishumblingformetositwiththem.”Ibeginaskingafewquestionsdirectedtohiscouncilmembers,butEstrellstates,“Theyarehunchedover, they are getting very serious… ohhh.” Suddenly he starts crying heavily. “They show meAfrica’sstagetoday…theyshowmeapictureofit…Ifeelthedeeppainofit.”IcouldseethiswasveryagonizingforAndrew,andthenhecontinued,“TheytellmeIcanleaveSouthAfricaifIwant…easy…itwouldbeveryeasy.” IaskAndrew ifhewould feelguilty ifhedecided togoawayandleaveothersbehindinSouthAfrica,andheresponds,“No!Notatall, theymustdotheirdestinyasmuchasImustdomine.Idon’thavefear.Weallchooseourownfate.”Heisstillbreathingheavilyandisdeeplymovedbythis.Withhisheartwideopen,AndrewsendshealingfromthishighsourcetoSouthAfrica.Heembraceshisownpathandsendsloveandhealingtoallthehumanbeings,animals,plants,andcreaturesinSouthAfrica.Zechoisalsostandinginthecirclenow,smilingathim.Andrewtellsme,“Hewantedtoshowme

this lesson.”Thenoneof themembers in themiddleof thecirclecommunicates telepathicallywithAndrew/Estrell.“Youcanleaveitbehindcomfortably.Butgowithgratitude;thereislotsofgoodinSouthAfrica.Be amessenger for the goodof this countrywhenyou go out into the newworld.”Andrew/EstrellseestheplanetEarthfromabove.Iaskifhecantellwherehisnewhomewillbe.Heresponds, “All I can see is Australia.” My client is zooming in, exploring more details aboutAustralia,andhiscouncilcontinuestogivehimimagesandmessages.Andrew/Estrellstillneedstocryandgrieve,buthestartstofocusmoreonwhathereceivesfromhiscouncil.Duringthisperiod,the impressionof his council starts to shift.Andrewexplains that “these are the samebeings, alsoZecho is here, but they are not wearing the dark robes anymore… it is very bright… they arewearinglong,goldenrobes…itisstillasemicirclebutbrightandthereisapodium…ontheleftarethemoreimportantones,theoneinthemiddleisthemostsignificantone…eventhepodiumisveryradiant,itisoutofglass,orratheroutofcrystal…theceilingisalsooutofcrystal…Zechoiswithme,behindme…itislikeauniversitybutamoreformalsetting,similartoacourtroom…withlightbeingsonthepodium,theyfeellikewisejudgestome.”(3)Hefeelsintunewiththejudges.“Itisnotbadatall,it’salmostfun…Theyareeagertoshare;they

say: do not procrastinate, do it, go! The door of opportunity is open now! Itwill not always stayopen.”Helooksattheirfaces;theysmilewarmlyandagaingivehimapictureofAustralia.Itlooksbrightandpositive,thentheygivehimapictureofSouthAfrica.Itlookslikeitiscoveredwithagrayveil.Atthispoint,IaskAndrewafewmorequestionsregardingthislifechange,andhecontinuestoreceivemessages in the formofvisualpictures, kinesthetic sensations, and sentences. “Peoplewillcometohelpyouandgiveyouguidance.Justtrustit.Itwilldevelop.”(4)ThenAndrew/Estrell’scouncilmembersgivehimadeepteaching.Theyconfronthimwithhisfear

ofrejectionandfailure.Hesuddenlyfeelshimselftransportedbackinthewombofhismother,whilecontinuingtohavetheconnectiontoabovewithhiscouncil.Theyshowhimthatitwashischoicetoconquerthisthemeinthislifetime.Herealizesthathismotheralsofeltrejectedbyhermother,andthat she was the perfect mom for giving him the chance to overcome his issues of failure andrejection.Heisabletofeelforgivenessandcompassionforhismom.“Shedidn’tknow…shemademistakesinlife…sheandIhadthesameproblem.Forgiveness…thatistheonlyway.”Hiscouncilmakeshimfeelandseethecircumstancesinhislife.Andrewrealizesthatalreadyasa

fetus in the womb, it was apparent that this was one of his lessons his eternal soul wanted toaccomplish.There isno such thingas rejection;Andrewsays, “It isnot aboutyou…don’t take itpersonally.Iftheotherpeoplecan’tbeinmyspace,itisaboutthem,notaboutme.Iamsupposedto

bemoreME.AndIhavetolightenup,Iamtooserious.Ineedtobemoreofmytrueself.NoonewillrejectmySELF!Myselfisconnectedtomyeternalme…Thisisreallydifficulttocomprehend.”Consideringthathehasalreadypulledtheenergyofhisteachingsintohisphysicalbodytwice,I

ask him if hewants to do that again.Andyes, before I even finishedmyquestion, onemore timeAndrewreceivesadownloadofhisnewlyrecoupedinformation.Afterthis,it isevidentthatthesessioniscomingtoanend.InLBLwork,it isreallyremarkable.

Youfeel—youknow—whenitisdone;theenergyshifts,andthesessioncomestoanend.Andrew has onemore glimpse of his council with Zecho present and feels a deep healing and

rejuvenationinhisbody.Hetakesthatinforawhile,beforeIbringhimbacktothepresentmoment.Thissessionshowsseveralthingsbeautifully.First,apersonwhoisnotanobserverofareligious

orspiritualpractice,whodoesn’tmeditateordosomethingsimilar,cangoverydeepandreceivelotsofinformationinvisual,kinesthetic,andauditoryways.Sometimesthesemessagesarealottotakein,andtheycomeindownloads.Sincetheinformation

is a lot to process for the mind and body, the download gives the human body and mind theinformationintheformofatimerelease.Thiscanbeeasierforsometotolerate.Itisalsointerestinghow the council can assist uswithmajor life choices and learning.Herewe sawhow the council,throughgraphicimaging,broughtoutthebiggermessageaboutthenationofSouthAfrica.Twomonthslater,IheardfromAndrew.He,hiswife,andhissonwereinBrisbane,Australia.Theytooksixweekstotravelextensively,toreceiveguidanceandinformation.Hewasexcitedtoreportthatthey’dalreadyfoundtheneighborhoodtheyhaddecidedtomoveto!

Abouttwoweeksafterthat,weplannedtomeetforlunchinSydney,sinceIwasalsothereforworkpurposes.Allofthemwereveryhappyabouttheexperiencesthey’dhadduringtheirtravelsthroughAustralia.Andrew shared that he felt such a shift since hisLBL session that he is able to trust themessageshereceivedandfollowsthroughwithalltheplansthatwereestablishedwiththehelpofhisguideandcouncil.Hesaidtome,“Iamamazedathoweasilyeverythingfallsintoplace.SincemyLBLsession,things

seemtorunperfectly,asifIamguidedalltheway.Manydoorshaveopened!I’vemadenewfriendswhoareabletoconnectmewithpeoplewhoarecompetenttohelpmeprofessionally.Throughthis,IalreadyhaveseveralnewopportunitiesandamlookingatdifferentoptionsformyownbusinesshereinAustralia! It isamazing tomehowlifechangeswhenyoufollowyoursoul’spurpose.”PerhapsthisisalsoduetoAndrew’smorepositiveattitudetowardlife.Hiswifestateshowsafetheenvironmentisfortheirchildrenandhowmanypossibilitiestheywill

have with the educational system there. “It will be much better for our family life and for ourchildren,”shesays.EventhoughtheyseesomanypossibilitiesinAustralia,Andrewiscommittedtohis task, which he received in his LBL. “I will tell the people about all the good and incrediblybeautifulthingsSouthAfricahastooffer.IwillcontinuetobeamessengerofourcountryandbringthebestofSouthAfricatoournewhome.ImadeacommitmenttoZechothatIwoulddothis,andwithfulfillingthispromise,Ifollowmysoul’spurpose.”

(1)Theportalthroughwhichsoulspassintothegatewayofthespiritworldiscommonlycalledthetunneleffect.Brightlightsareusuallyanaccompanyingmanifestation.SeeJS17-25andDS52.

(2)Placementatthesemeetingsmaygiveusanindicationofasoul’sdevelopmentalstage.Formoredetailsaboutthepositionsofsouls,guides,andeldersatcouncilgatherings,seecouncil

settings,DS204-207.(3)Evenunderhypnosis,thehumanmindtriestomakesenseofwhatisbeingseen/remembered,usinginformationalreadyavailablethroughexperienceandpriorknowledge.Asubjectmayattachthosereferencestotheimagestheyseeatfirstbeforetheyallowthetruermeaningtocomeintotheirmind.Withthecommencingofacouncilmeeting,theformalityofthesettingcansometimeslead

certainsoulsintomisinterpretingwhatisinstoreforthem.Onewouldthinkthememoriesofpreviouscouncilhearings(afterotherlives)wouldkickinimmediately,buttherearesoulsforwhomthisisnotalwaystrue.BecauseoftheirconsciouspreconditioningonEarth,someLBLclientsinitiallythinktheyseeacourtroomandjudgeswaitingforthemastheyenterthechamber.Forthousandsofyears,religiousdogmaandsuperstitionaroundtheworldhaspredictedwearedueforpunishmentandretributionforoursinsatthetimeofdeath.Thisisallfalse.Thespiritworldisaspaceofloveandforgiveness.Thefirstthingsoulsseeinthechamberaretheelderswaitingforthem,usuallysittingona

daisandperhapsinasemicircle.Thesepositionscanvary,butatfirstthisscenecangiveonethesenseofacourtroomwithauthorityfigures.Inthiscase,Andrewrecoversratherquicklyandrealizestheeldersarenotwearingdarkrobes.Healsostatestheyaresmilingathim.Incouncilmeetings,theeldersmaybesmilingorhaveamoreseriouslooktothesoulappearinginfrontofthem,butitisnotlongbeforeallsoulsknowthemeetingisdesignedtohelpthemevaluatethepastandplanforthefuture.Foramoredetailedanalysisofthistheme,seehumanfearofjudgmentandpunishment,CouncilofElders,DS201-204.(4)Inthiscase,bothsensoryandvisualimagesofSouthAfricaandAustraliawerecreatedbyAndrew’scounciland“downloaded”intohismind.ThiswasdoneduringadeepLBLtrancestatetoprovidehimwithcurrentinformationandtoassistAndrewwithmakingchoicesinpresent,linearEarthtime.BynomeansshouldthereaderconcludethatthissortofcouncilcoachingwithcurrentdecisionmakingwilloccurwitheveryonehavinganLBLsession,butavarietyofothercluesareoftenavailableforourconsideration.Thiscasedoes,however,illustrateanimportantspiritualphenomenoninthatwealsohavethecapacityassoulsintheafterlifetoviewpastandevenpotentialfutureeventsintermsofourparticipation.Thisreviewprocessisdesignedforgrowth.Itseemstomethatthescienceofquantummechanicsisonlynowcatchingupwithwhatour

LBLhypnosissubjectshavebeenreportingforyears.Scientistsarelearningthatsubatomicparticles,actingundertheinfluenceofvibrationalenergywaves,bothrecordandstoreallimages,animateandinanimate,onEarth.Eventsrepresentpatternsofpurevibrationalenergysothatnohumanexperienceiseverlostthatcannotberecoveredforanalysisinthetimelessafterlife.Apparently,weleavefingerprint-likeimpressionsofourownenergyinallgeographiclocationswhereourpresencehasbeenpermanentlyrecorded.Theseenergywavesalsohavethecapacitytocreateamultitudeofalternativepatternsforpossiblefutureeventsinourlives.ThecouncilchosenottoshowAndrewwhathemightexpectinthefuturefortworeasons:thefutureisnotsetinstone,andalsotoeventouchonwhatmighthappeninthefutureduringAndrew’scurrentlifewouldpreemptbothfreewillandself-discovery.Evenso,asweseewithothercasesinthisbook,past,present,andfutureexistinonecontinuumofnow-timeinthespiritworld.Seequantumapplication,JS160,195,212,221;pasttimelines,DS168-169;futuretimelinesandlifeselection,DS360-365andLBLH175-178.

6

INSIGHTintotheCOUNCILOFELDERS

DeborahBromley(BEDFORD,ENGLAND)

EFT(EMOTIONALFREEDOMTECHNIQUES)PRACTITIONERANDTRAINERSPECIALIZING

INWOMEN’SISSUES,PASTLIVES,ANDLIFE-BETWEEN-LIVESHYPNOTHERAPY.

Peoplewhocomeforlife-between-livesregressionareusuallyveryfamiliarwiththebookswrittenbyDr.MichaelNewton.It’snotsurprisingthatreadingsuchinspiringstoriesabouttheafterlifeawakensadeepdesiretoseektheexperienceforoneself.AtthetimeofherLBL,HelenhadnoknowledgeofNewton’sbooksorideasaboutthestructureofthespiritworld,sowhatmakesthisLBLfascinatingformeisnotonlythefreshnessofHelen’sspiritualjourneybutalsothefirsthandvalidationofthematerialinthebooks.Sometimesthemindcanconstructdoubtsandexpectationssothatclientsmaycomewithaset

ofpreconceivedideasabouttheirlifeasasoulbetweenincarnations.Fortunately,theguideshaveotherideas,andtheygentlydirecttheactionandtheenergytoensurethesessionisbothrevealingandfulfillingsotheclientreceivesthespiritualjourneythatmeetstheirneeds.

IT ISN’TPOSSIBLE todescribe the experienceofLBLon thewrittenpage—itdefies explanation.Yourfocusmaybeonyourburning“thislife”questions,butassoonasyouareconnectedwiththememoryofyourlifeasasoul,youareabletorecallthelimitlesslovethatexistsforyouinthisplace—love that holds you and supports you through your incarnations, the love of your guide, thewisdomofyourcouncil,thedeepconnectionwithyoursoulfriends—anditisoverwhelming.Onceyouhavebeenimmersedinthislove,youcannotfeelaloneorindoubt.Itislikehavingyour

connection to the spiritual Internet opened: by recalling your LBL, you can reexperience andreconnectwithyoursoulintelligence.Thenlife’severydaystrugglespaleintoinsignificance,becauseyoucanputthemintoaproperperspective.Meetingwith theCouncilofElders isoneof themost importantevents fora soul toexperience

betweenlives.Thus,whenclientsinhypnosisrecallappearingbeforethesewisebeingsbetweenlives,itisverymeaningfultothem.Usually,weareaccompaniedbyourpersonalguides,whoserveasourmentors,whiletheeldersinquireaboutourprogressandevaluatetheresults.Forthestill-incarnatingsoul, this forumappears tobeas close to seeingdivinebeingsasweget in the spiritworld.Whatmakesthiscasesouniqueinmyexperienceisthefactthatbeforehercurrentlife,Helenwasactuallyinvited by the elders to participate in the highest formof soul evaluationweknowof in the spiritworld.Sincethesehigherbeings,whomwecalltheelders,havelongagofinishedtheirownincarnations,

wecannotplacetheminhypnosisonEarthtolearntheirsecrets.Thecompellingaspectofthishighly

unusualnarrativeisthatHelenisprobablybeinggroomedtoenterthespiritualvocationofajuniorguide herself in the near future. It is possible that she was offered a brief indoctrination into themysteriesofacouncilmeetingasameansofpreparation.Atthetimethiscasefellintomylap,IwasstillinmyfirstyearofpracticingLBLtherapy.Today,IwouldhaveaskedmanymorequestionsofHelen.However,eventhen,IrealizedthatwhatHelenwasdescribingtomewasagreathonorforher.Inthespiritworld,anelderisaboveevenaseniorguideindevelopment.Thiscaseillustrateswhat

amountedtoatrainingexperienceinadvancedguidancecounselingforalevelIVorVsoulwhoisreadytotakeonmoremanagementresponsibilities,forlackofabetterterm.Theessenceofasoul’sexistence involvesproblemsolvingduring theirphysical incarnations.Bothguidesandelderswhoserveascounselorsforsoulsunder their jurisdictionare in thebusinessofstimulating thegradualdevelopmentofasoul’sabilitytoimproveontheirdecisionstowardmakingbetterchoicesineachnew life. This story reflects the impressions of someonewho brieflywent behind the scenes in acouncil chamber meeting to actually engage in the process of evaluating others at a level notnormallyexperiencedbyastill-incarnatingsoul.TheinsightwegainabouttheeldersfromHelen’sdepictionofherminorroleinsoulassessmentisilluminating,yetatthesametime,sheisapparentlystilltoouninitiatedasacouncilparticipanttoknowhowindulgenttheelderswereintheirtreatmentofherofferings.Connecting with the spirit world while on Earth is called channeling by some; it’s like tuning

yourselfintotherightradiostationsoyoucanlistentodifferentmusic.Channelingisaskillthatcanbe learned with dedication and practice, and it is through channeling classes that Helen came toexperienceherlife-between-livesregression,withtheexpresspurposeofmakingastrongconnectiontoherownspiritguidetoimproveherchanneling.Buthersessionrevealedfarmoreaboutherownsoullifethanshecouldhaveanticipated.The background toHelen’s life is that shewas born ofmixed-race parentage and adopted soon

afterbirthbyaWelsh family.Shehada lovingand secureupbringingbuthadalways experiencedproblemswithherweight.Therefollowedclasheswithheradoptedmotherandassociatedfeelingsthatshewasbeingjudgedforherappearance,althoughsheknewdeepdownthatthiswasnotreallyimportant toher.She is apersonwho stronglybelieves it is your inner self-worth thatmakesyouhappyandfulfilled.Shehadbeenmarriedbutwasnowdivorced,andshehadonechild,towhomshewas devoted.However, relationships—her perceived lack of successwith them and her subsequentfailuretofindsomeonetospendherlifewith—wereasourceofcontinuingdisappointment.Shehada background in personnel management and training but also had spent many years successfullyworkingwithdisadvantagedchildren.HelenrelaxeseasilyintoherLBLsessionandsoongetsconnectedtoherpast-lifememories,whichwillactasaspringboardintothelife-between-livesstate.Shefindsherselfinafieldoftallgrassinthesunshine.SheisayounggirlaroundtwentyyearsofagenamedShakira.Sheseesherselfwashingclothesinastreamwithlotsofotherwomen;theyarefriends,theytalkabouttheirdailylives,andtheatmosphereishappy,fullofcompanionshipandlaughter.Shelivesupstairsinasmallwoodenhutonstiltsandhasahusbandandasmallson,Jacob.

Helenrecalls:

Myhusbandistallwithshaggyhair,abeard,andhisteetharedirty.Heisnotaniceperson.Idon’tknowwhyI’mmarriedtohim.Heshoutsanddrinksalot.Jacobisfrightenedofhim.Ireallywanttogetawayfromhim.Weareataparty,everyoneisdancing.Thereisloudmusicbutweareinahorrible

smellystreet,it’slikeamarketsquare.Myhusbandisoffdrinkingsomewhere,andJacobisplayingwithhisfriendsnearby.I’mcarryingsomefruit—pomegranates,Ithink—andtalkingtoafriend,tellingherIwanttogetaway.Myhusbandisreallyangry,though,becausehesuspectsIwanttoleavehim.Iseehim,he’scomingforme,havingagoatme,shoutingandhurtingme.He’syelling

thatIwastedmoneyonthefruit.I’mrunningandcrying,hidinginthecornerofoneofthebuildings.JacobandIareholdingeachotherandcrying—Ihavetotellhimitwillbeallright.Butitisn’t—hehasfoundus,andhe’spullingmeawaytogivemeabeating—Jacobiswatchinghim.He’shurtingmereallybadlynow,chokingme.ItellJacobtorun.I’mfinishednow;IfeellikeI’mfloatingbackwards,therearecolors,floatycolors.It’s

sucharelief.DEBBIE:Anyregretsasyouthinkaboutyourlifeandhowitended?HELEN:Ishouldn’thaveacceptedwhatwasgoingon,Ishouldhavemovedaway,followedmyintuition,butIstayed.Icared,andIdon’tliketoletpeopledown.Myhusbandhurtme,becausehethoughtnobodylovedhim.I’minspiritformnowandmovingfast.Somepeoplearecomingtogreetme—it’sMelanie

(daughtertoday),SamandEllie(closefriendstoday).Oh!Mum’s(mothertoday)comingtoo—she’spuffing,runninglateasusual.That’sjustlikeher.Theyareclappingandlaughing,theyareallstandingup—“Youdonewell,girl.”Ifeelsohappyandlight—it’ssucharelief.NowIhavetogotoaplaceofrestoration—that’s

whatIcallit.Igoandrelaxinthisotherlight.It’syellow/orangecolored,anditjustcomesupandmakesyouglow,itfillsyouup.(1)D:Whatisthisfor?H:Well,itfeelslikeputtingyourfingersinasocket.It’samazing.Itrechargesyouafteryouhavebeenaway—IonlyneedalittlebitbecauseIwasyoung,butIdidn’tenjoythatlastlife,itwashard,sothisenergyisdoingmegood.D:Whathappenstoyouafteryouhaverechargedyourenergy?H:I’mgoingintothishugespace,likeafloatingcoliseum—thereareloadsofspiritshere.It’slikeweareallwaitingforsomethingtostart,forsomeonetocome.It’slikeaseminarorconference.Understandinglifepurposes,that’swhatit’sabout.Mygroupisovertheretotheside.Igoandjointhem.(2)

Helenseesfamiliarsoulswhomshecallsbythenamestheyhaveinherlifenow-Melanie,herbeloveddaughter;hermum,andmanyfriends.Gradually,shestartstodescribethemmoreinsoultermsbytheirenergyqualities.Sheknowstheirsoulnamestoo,andwhenIaskher,shesayssheiscalledSimene.

H:IcanseeMum,Jason,andMelanie,thesearetheonesIworkwiththemost.Mum—shehasbalance;Melaniehascompassion;Jason—hehasstrength;me(Simene)—Iunderstandunconditionallove.(3)Weliketomeetandtalkinoutdoorsettings.Iseeusinafield.Thereisafeelingoffreshness.

Wecanbefreeheretolaughandsayexactlywhatwefeel.Icanseethatweareplanningastrategy,puttingagameplaninplace.Wehavetodothistogether,becausewhenwegooffandhavelivesonEarth,wemightbesplitup.Sowhenwearetogetherinthespiritworld,weplanmanylivesahead.Thatishowweaccomplishourgoals.Icanseeussittingaroundasquarestonetable,andinthecenterisalittlebowlofgolden

nuggets—that’swhatwecallthem.Goldenthingslikepeanuts.D:Whataretheyfor?H:Well,weeatthembutwedon’t,ifyouknowwhatImean.They’retohelpuswhenwearebackonEarth—togiveusrecognition.Wetakeinthelittlegoldennuggetsatkeypointsinourplan;thenwhenweareonEarthwegetafeelingofrecognitionatthatkeypoint.Ittellsusweareontherighttrackorhavemettherightperson.Itmakessurewemeetwhowearemeanttomeet—tokeeptabsontheplan.(4)D:Likethefeelingofdéjàvu?H:Yes,that’sit.Itmakesyoustopforamomentandrealizesomethingimportantishappening.D:Whathappensnext?H:I’minanothernicefieldnow.Therearetwoofthem—myguides,thatis.Sirus—heisclosetome,heisyoungandgoodlooking,darkskinned.(laughs)Isenseheisamorejuniorguide.He’sgotalovelysmileanddeepbluetwinklyeyes,hecanbeabitnaughtysometimes—wedolaughalot.Inthedistance,Iseeanolderfemaleinafloatyfrock—sheissenior—Opasishername.She

appearstomelikeanorangelightoverSirus’sshoulder.Ifeelsoathome,theyknowmesowell.Ineedtofeelthelaughterbutkeepmyselfontrack;

that’swhatOpasisfor.SheknowsallmyweaknessesandremindsSirusnottoletmegettoocarriedaway.That’smytrouble,I’malwayslookingforthelove—theunconditionallove,it’smymainattribute—Idon’tseethebadstuffcomingforme.Likemyhusbandinthatlastlife.Itgotmeintotrouble.Thefeelingofbeingboundbytheircareandknowledgeofme—it’samazing.SoIgetalittle

warningifI’mgoingtoofar,likeanorangelightinmymindremindingmethatIshouldtakecare.Sirushasbeentoldhemustbestricterwithme.Hewinks,though.Heisshowingmesomethingimportantnow—somethingthat’sgoingtohappentome.D:Inthislife?H:Yes,it’sgoingtohappentoHelen.Heshowsmewherewearegoingtolive,mybusiness,myworkandhowitwillcontinue—Iamdefinitelyontherighttrack.AchildwillcomeandtellmeI’vemadeadifferencetothem.Becauseofthat—Iget

recognition,somethinglikeanaward—anOBE?(5)Igetanapologyandrespect.It’salongtimebeforeitcomes,butI’mdoingalltherightthingsnow.Theorangelightinthebackgroundshowsmethereisanewguideformetoworkwith,becauseI’mstartingafasterpaceinthislifeasHelen.(6)D:Wheredoyougonext?H:Iseemyselfinthislightspace.It’slikemarblebutit’snot,it’stransparent.Ah!IseeIamonacouncil,that’sit—Iampartofit,advisingonthecouncilforothers.(7)D:Whatdoesthisinvolve?H:It’slikebeingonaboardofdirectors.I’mjustoneofthosepeoplewhoareonitatthemoment.Ishowunconditionallove—that’spartofmycharacter.Whenwearediscussingdifferentpersons(souls)thataresayingthisandsayingthat,puttingacrosslotsofdifferentviewsonthatpersonandwhattheyneed,howwecanadvisethemwithoutactuallytellingthemwhattodo,Ifindmyselfsaying,“Cantheylearnthislessoninadifferentway?”Yousee,thiscouncilisabitkeenontoughlessons.Ifthesoulshavetogothroughprobing

questioning,Iwantthemtohaveanalternativewaytolearnwhattheyneedtolearn.Iwantthemtohavemorelove;that’showIseemyrole,ifyoulike.D:Tellmehowitworks.H:Well,therearenineofus.I’monthefarright-handside.I’mabrightgolden-yellowcolor.(8)

Ican’treallyseeovertotheothersideexceptwhentheyarespeaking,that’swhentheenergycolororfeelingofthespeakersortoflightsup.Iputinmyviewifthingsgetabitheated.D:Ican’timaginesoulsgettingheated.H:Perhapsheatedisabitsimplistic.Theretendstobeacollectivefeelingofagreementabouttakingafirmstancewithcertainsouls.Ihearandfeeltheenergygrowing—that’swhenIhavetochimeinwithmyoppositeview(tobefullyengagedbyrecommendingasofterstanceandforgiveness).Thentheenergysortofsubsidesandquestionsitself(areviewandsummation).Igetcommendedformyview.Ihavetoshowalternativescenes(ofasoul’slife),likepassingdiagramsordrawingstothechairman—heisinthecenter.(9)Ipassthesetabletsofstonewithswirlygoldenwritingonthem,andeveryoneexaminesthemastheyarepassedaround.(10)Whenwemeetbeforeasoulcomesin,wealwaysdiscusseverythingthathashappenedinthe

soul’slifeingreatdetail.Wereviewhowouradvice(beforethelastpastlife)hasbeenheededandnotehoweachsoulhasreactedtoouradvice.Sometimesitisveryhardwhensoulshaveseveretroubles,whichisevidencetheyhavenotrememberedorheededourwords.Atfirst,myimpressionisthattheeldersarealwaysratherstern-lookingwithsuchsoulswhocomebeforethem.Itistemptingtoputmypointstothecouncilinfavorofcompassionandlove,andeventhoughIamrightontheoutside(oftheforum),Ihavetomakemyselfheard(telepathically).IamnowbeingrecognizedmorefullyaboutthewayIthinkisbest.IfeelIamprovidingbalanceandmakingadifference.It’sallaquestionofgettingtherightbalanceforeachindividualcase(betweenfirmnessandgentleness).Thatiswhywespendsomuchtimereviewingalltheevidence(thecouncildrawsoutabouteachsoul).Ihavetospeakupinfavorofcompassionandlove,eventhoughIamnotplacedclosetothechairman.IthinkIamnowbeingrecognizedmorefully,andmyviewcarriesweight.Theleader(chairman)isaverystrongsoulwithanimposingenergy.(11)

Helenthenindicatessheismovingawayfromthisscene.Shegoesbacktothefieldwithherguides.

H:Theyaretheretogethernow,tellingmewhatIneedtoconcentrateon.Theysay,“Younearlygotit;you’vegotmoretolearn,though.”

AsHelenhasconnectedagainwithherguides,Iaskthemiftheywillanswerthequestionsshehasbroughtwithheraboutherlifenow.Sometimesit’snotinthesoul’sbestinteresttohaveeasyanswers,butinthiscase,theyagree.Helenisabletoseeandhearwhattheysayandreportbacktome.Iaskherpersonalquestionsaboutherlife,herwork,herdaughter,andrelationships.Shegivestheseanswers:

H:Ineedtoactmoreonmyintuition.Ifsomethingiswrong,Imustacceptitandactonit.Imusthavemorefaithinmyself,inthethingsIcan’tseeortouch.ImustrememberI’mnotonmyown,andtheyarethereforme.IthoughtIhadtolearntotrustpeoplemore(shehasbeenverymistrustingofmeninthislife),

butthatisnotso.Ihavetolearntohavefaithandnotbemistrusting.Havefaithandtrustpeopleuntilprovenotherwise.Imustnotbesuspicious.IcanseenowthatIhavegonetoofartheotherwayinthislife,anditisstoppingmefromgettingclosetopeople.Noteveryoneisouttogetme!Ishouldnowconnectmorewiththem(myguides)inmyeverydaylife.IfIhaveaquestion,I

canjustputitoutthereandtheywillreply,sowhenIgetafeelingoridea,Imustgowithit.IfIgetathoughtaboutwhatdo,howtosortsomethingout,Ishouldgowithitinsteadof

analyzingthingsandpushingthatoriginalthoughtoutofmyhead.That’sbecauseifIgowrong,he(Sirus)onlyhastocomeandgetmeanyway,usuallybymakingsomethingbiggerorworsehappen.IfIlistenwithmyheart,theneverythingwillbeokay.

HelenconsidershertemporaryexposuretotheCouncilofEldersandeventuallysaysgoodbyetoherguides.Thereisaquiettimewiththemwhenshedoesn’tspeak,andIknowsheishavingaverydeepandprofoundexperienceastheypreparetoleave.I remind her about keeping their images close in her mind and how they have advised her to

connectwiththem.Thiswashergoalforourregression—toknowherguides,tobeabletovisualizetheminhermind,toknowhowtocallthemandfeeltheirenergy.Byhavingthisexperience,shewillbeabletolocktheconnectioninhermindandrecallitwhenevershewantstohavetheirsupportandreassurance. Her unique associationwith the elders has provided firsthand knowledge of spiritualcounselingatthehighestlevel.Shewasveryhappywithhersessionandasaresultisnowabletofulfillherobjective—tohavea

channelofcommunication,bothforherselfandtogainadviceandwisdomforothers,mainlyfriendsandfamily.Theknowledgeofherguides,theiruniquepersonalities,thewaytheyusetheirskillstohelpherandhowthisisperfectlymatchedwithherownneedshasallowedhertodevelopandgrowtowardalifethatismoreinlinewithhertruepurpose.Inoticedshequicklymadechangestopartsofherlife(career,businessinterests,andcolleagues)withoutanyregrets,andshemadeherdaughterthefocusofherenergy.Asthat timeiscomingtoanendandherdaughter isgoingtouniversity,nowHelen is to realize a personal dream and relocate back to her nativeWales. In doing so, she haslistenedtoherheartandhadthecouragetofollowtheadviceshehearswithoutabackwardglance.

(1)Healingenergyforthereturningsoul—seeJS53-55.Alsoenergyrestorationforseverelydamagedsouls,DS93-109.

(2)Soulstudygroups—seeDS190-200.Assemblyareas,DS140-144.Guestspeakers,DS290,373.(3)Interactionwithinsoulgroupsinvolvespeersupportbetweencompanionsouls.Thereisabalanceofeachsoul’sstrengthsandweaknessessowhentheyareworkingtogetherduringincarnations,theentiregroupcomplementseachother.Seesoulgroups,formation,charactertraitsandpurposeinJS87-90,128-129,and142.(4)Formoreinformationconcerningspiritualrecognitionclassespriortoournextincarnation,seepreparationforembarkationinJS249-262andDS274.(5)OBE:OrderoftheBritishEmpire.(6)SoulsmovinguptolevelIIIattheintermediatelevelsofadvancementareusuallyassignedtoadifferentspecializedsoulgroupandareassignedtoanewteacherwithparticularskillsintheirareaofstudy.However,weneverloseouroriginalpersonalseniorguidewhohasbeenwithussincecreation.Movementtointermediatelevels,DS320-323.(7)Placementinthecouncilchamber—seeDS201-207.

(8)Brilliant,glitteringgoldenergycolorsasopposedtoaflatorlessvividyellow—seeLBLH126.(9)Itisnotunusualforclientstoseetheirchairpersononthecouncilasbeinglargerandbrighterthanothercouncilmembers.Ithasbeensuggestedthatthisencouragesthesoulappearingbeforethepaneltopaycloseattentiontothechairman.Positionanddescriptionofacouncilchairman—seeDS214andLBLH151.Takingclientsbeforetheircouncil,LBLH145-155.(10)Theclient(Helen)wasnotaskedwhatinformationshewantedtoconveytotheeldersaboutthetabletsshepresented.Onemightassumetheyrelatedtoherownadviceaboutloveandcompassioninsomeway.Wedohaveinformationaboutsignsandsymbolsthatareusedatcouncilproceedingsthatrepresentaninterpretationofideas;seeDS224-242.(11)Whilethereisnoquestionthattheclientinthisunusualcasehasmadesomeambitiousstatementsaboutthepartsheplayedwithbeingsonamuchhigherspirituallevelthanherself,certainstatementsmightwellhavebeenchallengedbythefacilitator,astheauthorsuggests.ThiswouldincludeHelen/Simenelecturingthecouncilabouttheirlackofcompassionandlovetowardacasebeforethem.ThefactHelensaidthattheeldersweresternorsevereindemeanorissubjecttoawiderinterpretationinthecontextofthiscaseasanindicationofsomeonewhohasmisjudgedthenormalpracticeofelderbehavior.Theauthorhasshownusthattheelder ’sindulgenceofHelen/Simeneisquiteremarkable.Itisclearwearereceivinganarrowperspectivebyatemporaryvisitorwhohasnotachievedguidestatusherself.Evenso,inourworkonemustkeepanopenmind,becauseanythingispossibleintheafterlife.

7

LOTHARtheBARBARIAN

DavidM.Pierce(PARADISE,CALIFORNIA)

RETIREDFIREFIGHTERANDPARAMEDICWHOPROVIDESPATIENTSUPPORTATALOCALCANCERCENTER.

Whenfacingadifficultorpainfulsituation,thedegreeofsufferingoneexperiencesmaybesignificantlydiminishedwhenonefindsmeaningorpurposetotheexperience—evenwhenthesituationitselfisnotaltered.Whatfollowsisthestoryofamanchronicallyplaguedbyalackofenergy.Unabletodiscoveramedicalcauseforhiscondition,hebegantoexplorethespiritualsideofthequestion.Asinglelife-between-livessessionlaidbaretherootandreasonforhisstate.Eventhoughhestillexperienceslowenergylevels,withthisknowledgehewasfreedofthesufferingthatusedtoaccompanyit,andhehasevencometoregarditasapalpablereminderofhisgrowthasasoul.

PERHAPSWHATSTRIKESoneuponmeetingMarkforthefirsttimeishisapparentordinariness—an average guy, slightly shorter than average, whoworks full-time at an average job. Likemanypeoplepastmiddleage,Markhasagrowinginterestinthingsofaspiritualnature.Formostofhislife, however,Mark would tire easily, and he had to be verymindful about how hemanaged hisenergy.Ofthis,Marksays,“I’vealwayshadatendencytowanttoliearoundmorethanmostpeople.I’d

feel like I had tomanagemy energy in away thatmy friends didn’t. It seems like the amount ofenergy I have is very limited, and I have to husband it very carefully. I’d been feeling kind ofvictimized by my own body—betrayed or something. I don’t have chronic fatigue syndrome oranythinglikethat.I’mabletoholddownafull-timejobandprettymuchkeepupwithmostpeople.SoIdon’thaveabnormallylowenergy,itjustdoesn’tfeellikewhatIoughttohave.”AfterreadingDr.MichaelNewton’sworkinJourneyofSouls,Markdecidedtofindapractitioner

of this typeof hypnotherapy. “I hadnever donehypnotherapybefore and thought thismight be anopportunitytoexploreonadeeperlevelandgainmoreknowledgefromahighersource.”SearchingundertheNewtonInstituteontheWorldWideWeb,hefoundseveralpractitionersand

selectedtheonehefeltdrawntomoststrongly,eventhoughitmeantseveralhoursofdrivingtogetto my office. Since Mark had no experience with formal hypnotherapy, let alone a past-liferegression, Iwas hesitant about undertaking anLBL sessionwith him right away.After email andphoneconversations,weagreed tosee justhowfarwecouldget,andhewascomfortablewith theideaofreturningforadditionalsessionsifnecessary.OnasunnymorninginearlyNovember,MarkarrivedatmyofficeinnorthernCaliforniacladina

T-shirt, faded jeans, and well-worn sneakers. While he sat on the small sofa next to my desk, Iinquiredaboutanynewquestionshemayhaveandspentalittletimerecappingsomeofthequestions

and answers from his intake form and earlier conversations. Once I had finished outlining thepotentialcourseoftoday’ssession,MarktransferredhimselffromthesofatoasmallleatherreclinerI’veaffectionatelydubbedmy“hypnochair.”Over the next thirty to forty-fiveminutes, I workedwithMark in the preliminary phase of our

session.Graduallytakinghimdeeperanddeeperintotrance,Iprovidedhimwithopportunitiestotestand gauge his depth of trance and engaged in a series of hypnotic warm-up exercises aimed atvivifying his internal experience through various sensory modes—visual, auditory, kinesthetic,olfactory,andtactile.Thisinitialphaseofhypnoticworkculminatedwithanageregression.Countingbackwardsfromhispresentage,wemovedfurtheranddeeperintoMark’spast,superficiallyatfirst,andthenpausingatagestwelve,seven,andthreetoexaminemundanedetailsmoreclosely.Mark seemed tobebringingupdetailed childhoodexperiences as if hewere experiencing them

directlyratherthansimplyrecallingthem.Thiswasaverygoodsignindeed.Iactivatedmysound-recordingequipmentandregressedMarkbacktopre-birth,wherehefelthimselfwithinhismother ’swomb.Almostimmediatelywehitpaydirt.

DAVID:Tellmewhatyou’reexperiencing.MARK:Ijustfeelveryfloaty.I’mjustmebutalotmoreprimitive.D:Feelyourenergythroughthisprimitiveme,thisprimitiveself.Doesthisseemlikeagoodfitforyourenergy?M:Itdoesn’tfeelparticularlygood,no.D:Tellmeaboutthat.Whatdoyounotice?M:It’snotwhatI’musedto.D:Tellmewhatyou’reusedto.M:I’musedtobeingkindofabig,rambunctiousguywithlotsofphysicalenergyandstrength:arealstrongkindofguy,kindofawarriorandwomanizer.ThebodyIhavenowistooweak,puny.

Mark later points to this revelation as “a life-changingmoment for me. That was such a great

questionbecauseIhadneverlookedatitinthatwaybefore.”Curious to learnmoreabout thisrambunctiousandenergeticcharacter, IguidedMarkoutof the

wombandintoalifepriortohiscurrentincarnation.

D:Noticethatrightoverthere,thepassagewayisopeningupandthestreamoftimeisstillflowingback.Inamoment,it’sgoingtocarryyouthroughthatopening,backintoanotherlife.Now,itmaybeoneofthosebig,strong,toughguys,womanizingandreallyphysical,ormaybeadifferentlife,Ican’tpossiblyknow,butit’sgoingtobevery,veryinteresting.Areyouready?M:Uh-huh.D:Okay,let’sgo.

Mark’sdemeanorshifts,andhisfacialexpressionschange.D:Whatareyouexperiencingnow?M:AVikingwarrior.D:Isitdaytimeornighttime?M:It’sdaytime.D:What’sgoingon?M:Alotoflootingandpillaging.

D:Someofyourfavoritethings.M:Yes.Oh,I’mhavingagreattime.Stealsomewomen,breakthings.Steal,takehomethegoodstuff.Victory,alwaysvictory.Wealwayswin.D:Whyisthat?M:Becausewe’resmarter,we’retougher,andwe’remoreruthless.Noonecandefeatus.BecausewearetheVikings!Andwearekingsofourrealm.Andwedon’tputupwithanythingfromanybody.We’rethetoughestandthebaddest.Welovetoterrifypeople,andwedoitonaregularbasis.D:Whatdoyouparticularlyenjoyaboutthat?M:Itmakesmefeelverypowerful.Ilovetofeelpowerful.Itmakesmefeelreallygood.AndIthinkIliveforit,Ijustreallywantitmore.EverytimeIkillsomebodyorrapeawomanorstealsometreasure,Ifeeljustbetterandbetter.It’slikeahigh.D:Howoldareyou?M:Aboutthirty.D:Soyou’vebeendoingthisforawhile.M:I’vebeendoingthisforawhile,yeah.It’sareallyfantasticlifestyle.There’snolimitsonme,Ilikethatalot.It’sgreat.

Whilethisinformationmayhavebeeninteresting,entertainingeven,itstilldidnotshedmuchlightonwhathadtranspiredthatresultedinMark’scurrentexperienceoflowenergy.Whathadledtosuchadifferentchoiceoflifeexperiencepresently?Weneededthebroaderperspectiveavailableonlyinthatspacebetweenlives.Buttogetthere,wehadtomovetotheendofthisVikingleader’slife.IinstructedMarktomoveforwardinthatlifetothetimewhenhedied.Hefoundhimselfinacaveabouttenyearslater.Battle-scarredandnolongerasrobust,hewasattackedbyafactionofhisownbandthatsoughttowrestcontrolfromhim.Threemen,armedwithswords,closein.HeisdeterminedtogodownlikeaVikingwarrior

andintendstokillthemall,butheistooslownow.Anopponent’sswordcatcheshiminthestomach,andinthenextinstanthefeelsabladebiteintohisneck.

M:Ifeelextremefear.Abladeisslicingthrough.It’sallhappeninginslowmotion.Ican’tbelieveit.I’mshocked.AfterallthebattlesI’vewon,toloseoneisjustbeyondmycomprehension…TheshockIfeel,andIthoughtitwouldbemoreglorious.It’snotglorious.D:What’shappeningnow?M:Well,it’slikethebladeishalfwaythrough.Althoughithappensinaninstant,itseemsverysloweddown.D:Areyoustillinyourbody?M:Yes.Okay,theheadisseparatedfromthebody,andnowI’mgettingoutofthebodybackwards.Thebodyisnolongeracompleteunit,andthereforeIcannotstayinit.Iseemtobepulledoutinarathersharpfashion,pulledoutthroughtheback.Iseemybodyleaving,goingdown,andI’mstandingoutside.Istilllovethisbodyalot.AndI’mjustwatchingitall.Allthewarriorsarecelebratingtheirvictoryofkillingme.(1)D:What’shappeningnow?M:I’mjustthere.I’mstillthereinsomekindofadisembodiedstate.Ifeelveryaloneandverydevastated,andIdon’tknowwhattodo.D:Howlongdoyoustayherebeforeyoumoveon?M:Itseemslikeaperiodofhours.I’mjustthere.Idon’tknowwhattodo.

AstheVikingstartstoconsiderthelifehewassuddenlytornoutof,hebeginstoseethingsdifferentlyfromthisstartlingnewperspective.

M:Well,itseemsthatallthethingsIloved,myvictoriesandmytreasures,theymeannothingnow.D:Whatisimportant?M:Well,Idon’tknow.

Stillconfusedanddisoriented,Markbecomesawareofthepresenceofapairofbeingsthathavejoinedhim.Thebeingsappeartobealmostentirelymadeoflight,withthesuggestionofahumanform.

M:Theyaregentlytakingmebackwards.IdonotseewhereI’mgoing.Theyareaverycomfortingpresence,butI’msomehownotinterestedinbeingcomforted.I’mstillverymuchfeelingliketheVikingwarrior.Idon’tacceptcomfort.Iamlikeagodtomyself.ButI’mgoingwiththembecausetheredoesn’tseemtobeanyplaceelsetogo.Andtheyaretakingmesomewhere.AndI’mtryingnottobeafraid,butIamafraid.Idon’tknowwhereI’mgoing.Thenitgetsverydarkforatime.It’salmostlikeIpassoutorloseconsciousness.I’mgoingthroughsomesortoftransition.(2)D:Okay.Pauseandallowthetransition—justletyourselfgraduallyunfoldintothattransitioninaverysafeway.You’vealreadyexperiencedsomereallydramatic,startlingthings,soitprobablywon’tsurpriseyouthatwhateverthisexperienceis,howeverdifferentitmaybe,itisalsounfolding.Now,allowthingstoproceed.What’sgoingonnow?M:IseemtohavelostmyVikingbody.I’vebecomeaballoflight.D:Howdoyoufeel?M:It’sallalittlestrange.I’mnotreallygroundedinthisplaceyet.Itfeelsverynewtomeandnotatallfamiliarorcomfortable.D:Aretheothertwolightbeingsstillwithyouornearby?M:Theyarerealcloseby.Theyareguidingme.Let’ssee,theyaretakingmetosomekindofaclassroom.Andtheyare…theyaredoingsomethingtomyenergy.IamstillveryidentifiedasaViking.AndIfeelverymuchanaggressiveenergy.AndI’msortofangry.Idon’tlikewhat’shappening.Ijustwanttofightwithsomebody.Sotheyaretakingmetowhattheycalltheadjustmentroom,wherethereareotherpeopletherethatcandealwithmyaggressiveenergy.Theyarebeingverycalmingtome,buttheyaretellingmethatIamperfectlyokay,eventhoughthewayIamfeelingseemsveryoutofplaceforwhereIam.ButI’msosteepedinaggressiveenergythatIneedsomeadjustment.Icannotbeinregularsociety.(laughs)I’vebeentakenalmosttoremedialeducationorsomething.(3)D:Aspecialplaceforpeoplelikeyou?M:Exactly—tostartover.D:Howaretheyadjustingtheenergy?M:It’sliketheygivemesortofplasticswordsandsaygotoit,juststartbeatingupthings.It’slikewhatyoudowithanangrychild.Theyjustgivemelotsofspaceandlotsoftimetojustbeatthings,tobeatandkillandbeaggressiveandjustactout.ButI’mfeelingveryweepybecauseI’mfeelingallthislove.(4)NomatterhowangryandthreateningandaggressiveIam,everybodylovesmestill.Andit’s

okay.It’sokay,Ican’tseemto…I’mnotreallythreateningtothem.Theydon’treacttomethesameaspeopledidinmyoldlife.Peoplewouldbeafraidofmeandgoaway.Thesepeopleare

notafraid,theyjustlovemeunconditionally.Andgradually,graduallytheyopenmyheart.Allthetime,theyjustsitwithmeandletmethrowmytantrumsandwhateverIdo.(weeps)Theyarejustthereformetotally.D:Arethesametwolightsthatbroughtyoutothisplacestillwithyou?M:Theyarestillaround,buttheyhaveturnedmeovertomorespecializedcounselorswhospecializeinpeoplelikeme.I’mjustoverwhelmedbythelove!D:Itisoverwhelming,isn’tit?M:Oh,somuch!I’msooverwhelmedbythelove!Igraduallycalmdown,butittakesalongtime.Ittakesmealongtimeto…topassthroughthisenergy,becausethere’sapartofmethatlovesthataggressiveenergy.D:Ofcourse.M:Itjustfeelssofreeandsopowerful.AndIloveitsomuch,Idon’twanttogiveitup.ButIhavetogiveitup,becauseotherwiseI’llremaininisolationforever.Theysaythatmyloveofviolenceissointensethattheyalmosthadtoretoolme,orsendmebacktothesource.Butaftermuchdiscussion,theydecidedtoseeitthrough.(weeps)MaybeI’mlikeoneoftheworstcasesthathaveevercomebackthisway.D:Whatmadethemdecidetohangintherewithyou?M:Well,I’mtoldthatmyloveofviolencehas,inaway,createdsomethinggoodinmealso.It’sauniqueexperiencethatcanbeturnedinadifferentdirection.Itgivesmeanextraordinarypowerandstrengththatcouldbeusedforgoodeventually.Butithastobehonedandsentintoadifferentdirection.Buttheydon’twanttodestroyit,theydon’twanttowasteit.It’svery,veryvaluabletothecollective.AnditiswithgreatjoythatIunderstandthis—thatthereisnothingwrongwithme,thatIamjustutterlyunique.Ihaveaneedforintenseexperience.Andthatmyabilitytobeviolentcanalsobeanintenseexperiencetolove.Icanloveintenselyalso.Thisiswhatmymainlessonis.Thisiswhytheydidn’twanttoreprogramme.BecauseIhavesomethinguniquetooffer.BecauseIwentsodeeplyintoviolencethatIactuallyturnedthatintolove.Ilovedviolence—Iloveditsomuchthatitbecamelove.Andso,it’slikeI’mkindofauniquesubjectbecauseofmyabilitytoturnviolenceintolove.Ihaveauniqueunderstandingofviolenceforthatreason,andthatgivesmesomethingvaluabletouselateron.

MarkreportsthathissenseoftimespentinthisisolationfeltlikethepassingofthirtyyearsonEarth.

D:Atanytimeduringthatthirtyyearsdidyouencounteryourprimaryguides?Didtheyevercheckinonyou?M:That’sagreatquestion.No.WhenIsayisolation,I’mtalkingisolation!Nobodycomesaroundotherthanthespecializedguidesthatarehelpingmethroughthis,thistransition.TheonesI’mdealingwithareveryoldsouls,veryexperienced,andverypowerful;theyareabletocontrolmewithaglance,withasmile.Theyhaveincredibleabilitywhentheywanttobecommanding.EvenIagreewiththem.TheyaresortofliketheHindugodsyouseethatlooklikedevilsorsomething.Theycanturnfrombeatificintohorrificinaninstant.It’sevenscaryforme.(5)D:Itseemstheycanmirrorwhatfrightensyouthemost.Isitthattheychangethemselvesintoyourownfear?M:Yes,theyseemtohaveauniqueabilitytodothat.Igetthefeelingtheyareprettyhigh-upbeings.Theyareprettyevolved.(6)

Eventually,hisperiodofisolationandadjustmentcompleted,Markmeetswithhisprimaryguide.

D:Doyouhavemorethanoneprimaryguide?M:IseemtohaveonethatIseerightnow,andthereareothersinthebackground.I’mseeingaman.He’slikeanoldmanwithawhitebeardandverywise,kindoflikeawizard.VerymuchlikesortofaGandalftype,althoughnotexactly—nopointyhatsoranything.He’slikeawizard,analchemist,averywisemanthat’sbeenthroughmany,manyprofoundexperiencesandlivedmanyincrediblelives.D:Inthisrealm,whatdoeshecallyou?M:Wow,that’satoughone.(pause)I’mgettingLothar.D:AndLothar,whatdoyoucallthisalchemist,wizard.Whatdoyoucallyourguidewhenyouaddresshim?M:Kamon.Kaymoon…yeah,that’sright.Kaymoon,yes.

MarkwentontodescribehiseducationunderthetutelageofKaymoon.Thisincludedincarnations(“fieldtrips,”Markcalledthem)onotherplanets,manyonEarth.MostofMark’searthlyliveswerespentasonesortofwarriororanother.ThenitwastimetoexamineMark’spresentlife.

D:Whataboutyourcurrentbody?M:I’mrunningintoagreatdealofresistancewiththisquestion,butIwanttodiscussit.D:Okay.Inamoment,I’mgoingtocountfromthreedowntoone,andtouchyouonthisshoulder(touchesMarkonrightshoulder).ThenexttimeItouchyouonthisshoulder,justallowKaymoontospeakthroughMark’sbodysothatIcanhearhimtoo.Andifthisisacceptabletobothofyou,justnod,andI’llknowwe’rereadytocontinue.(Afterapause,Marknods.)

Kaymoon,theonethatIknowasMarkseemstohavesomeresistancetothesituationabouthiscurrentbody.Tellmeaboutthat.

M:(inadifferentvoice,asKaymoon)Well,hehasgreatpride.Hehasaverypridefulsoul,andhehasgreatresistancetogoingintothislife.D:Whichlifeisthis?M(ASKAYMOON):Thiswouldbehispresentlife(asMark).Heneedstogointoadifferentkindofbodynow.Anddiscover—(pause)D:Inwhatway?Imeanhecertainlyseemedtokickassinthelastlife.K:Yes,buthisass-kickingdaysareover.Whatheneededtodevelopfromtheass-kickingliveshasbeendone.Todomorewouldjustbeanindulgence.Soheneedstogointoadifferentkindofbodynowanddiscoverwhatitisliketobeanormalperson,arealhumanbeingwithfeelingsandamind.Buthedoesn’treallywanttodothat.Hereallymuchenjoysbeingtheother.D:SodoesthataccountforMark’sexperienceofthislowenergy?Isitjustthathe’sbeengivenabodythathe’snotgoingtobeabletogoberserkin?K:Yes,exactly,hisenergywascutdowntotheminimum.Hewasonlygivenabout49percentofwhathecouldhavehad.Andthiswasonpurpose,topreventanyundueaggressiveactivity.Hehasbeenpurposelyweakened.

NoticethatKaymoonindicatesthat,intermsofenergy,Markbringstothislifeabouthalfofwhathecouldhavehad.Thisdoesnotmeanhalfofhistotalsoulenergy.Asmuch(notmost)

ofourenergyremainsinthespiritworldduringanygivenincarnation,49percentofwhathecouldhavehadrepresentsprobablylessthan25percentofthetotalityofthesoulenergythattodayexpressesitselfasMark.(7)

K:He’shavingtolearnalessonhere.Sowe’resendinghiminwithlessenergyonpurpose,sothathehastodealwiththerealitiesofhavingabodyandcannotjustrunrampantasthoughhewereagodincarnate.Andit’sbeenverysuccessful.D:Soheseemstobelearningwellfromtheseexperiences.K:Yes,butit’sverydifficultforhim.Ithascausedhimtodoagreatdealofsoulsearching,whichisagoodthing.

Although Mark still experiences a low level of energy, he is at peace with the experience,understandingitaspartoftheevolutionofhissoul.SaysMark,“ItjustexplainssomuchaboutwhatI’vebeenexperiencingallmylifeintermsofmyenergyandtheincredibledisconnectbetweentheenergyIfeelinternallyandtheenergyIhave.Ithadalwaysbeensomethingdifficultformetodealwith.This(life-between-lives)experiencehasmadeitsomucheasierformetoacceptmysituationnowand todealwith it.Now I cangetpast the frustration.Now Iunderstand, and it has justmadedealingwithitawholeloteasierintermsofmanagingmyenergy.It(LBLhypnotherapy)wastrulyhuge—really,reallyclarifyingforme.”(8)

(1)Therearenewlydiscarnatedsouls,usuallyatlevelsIandII,whoaredisturbedbyaphysicallifejustended.Theymaywishtoremainaroundthesceneoftheirdeathawhilebecauseofunfinishedbusiness.Perhapstheyweremurdered,oralovedoneleftbehindisintrouble,ortheycouldfeelnostalgiaaboutthelifetheywerenotreadytoleave,andsoforth.Foranumberofreasons,theymightnotbereadytogointothelightoftheafterliferightaway.Seeadjustmentofsoulsrightafterdeath,DS43-44,56;discontentedsouls,JS45;LBLH69-70,andsoulswhohavehurtothersonEarth,JS,case10,50-51.

(2)Itisnotusualfornonincarnatingrestorationhealers(thetwolights)toarriveeitheratornearthedeathsceneofanewlyreleasedsoul.Despitetheseverityofbodydamageandsoulenergy,soulsaretypicallyabletoreleasefromtheirdeadphysicalbodiesandmakesomeprogressthemselvestowardthegatewaybeforebeingmetbyguides.Noticetheskillfulmannerthatthefacilitatorusesbyguidingwithoutappearingtoleadhisconfusedsubjectintotheadjustmentroomwiththehelpofthetwolights.(3)Formoreinformationonrestorationareasaswellasremodelingorreshapingsoulenergydependinguponthedegreeofsouldamage,seespiritualenergyrestoration,DS85-109,LBLH107.(4)Thisisaformofspiritualdeprogramming.(5)Forsolitudeandisolationareas,seeDS3,7,67-69,292;LBLH105-106,170.(6)Soulsreturningtothespiritworldafteradestructivephysicallifecanbeshowntheerroroftheirwaysthroughavarietyofspiritualapproaches:(a)Theymaybereturnedtoalibrarysettingforgraphicself-analysisoftheirmistakes(seeDScase30,164);(b)Often,ourownsoul

clustergrouptakesahandinreviewingwhatneedsimprovementfrompast-lifeshortcomings(seeJS,case21,129);and(c)Ourspiritguidesmaywanttoteachusalessonaboutmisbehaviorinthelifejustlivedbyshockingtheincomingsoul.NoticeinthiscasehowMarkdescribeshisbriefconfrontationwithfalsedemonicspecters.Foranotherexampleofthisuncommontypeofspiritualshocktherapyinvolvingasceneofdemonicpretense,seeDScase18,80.ItcanbeseenfromMark’scasethatnotjustourguidesandcouncileldersassistuswithpost-

liferehabilitation.Therearealsospiritualspecialistswhorehabilitatesoulsbyharmonizingdamagedenergyfromsoulscontaminatedbycertainphysicalbodies;seerestorationmasters,DS85-124.(7)Theauthor ’snoteaboutdelineationofsoulenergyismostrelevantinthecaseofMark.Theaveragesoulbringsinabout50-70percentoftheirtotalenergy,aswehavementionedinotherstories.Buthere,bysayinghalfofwhathecouldhavebrought,Mark’sguideisindicatinghalfoftheusual50percent,oraverylow25percent,astheauthorhasexplained.Ishouldaddthatanadvanced,highlydevelopedsoulmighthandlethislowenergylevelwell,butMarkisnotinthatcategory.Thus,weseethatinMark’slife,hisenergylevelisbydesignandnotoverconfidenceonthepartofhissoulthatcanhappenwithsomesoulschoosinganewbody.SeeLBLH101,135-137.(8)Someonethousandyearsago,theVikingshadquiteatimeofabusingothercultureswiththeirmagnificentbodiesandaggressivebehavior.Evenso,personalkarmarequiressomeradicaladjustmentsinfuturebodychoicesdownthelinetocompensateforthesecombativelives,suchasinMark’scase.ThesoulinoneofmyownVikingcaseschosealifehundredsofyearslaterasawomanwithouttheuseofherlegs.SeeJScase26,224.

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AshatteredHEART

TrishCasimira(GREENFIELD,MASSACHUSETTS)

EDITORANDHYPNOTHERAPISTWHOTRAINEDWITHMICHAELNEWTONANDSPECIALIZESINREGRESSIONTHERAPY.

Peopleoftenseekpast-liferegressiontounderstandthepatternofwhytheirrelationshipsgobad.Life-between-livesregressionrevealsthatrelationshipswithmembersinoursoulgroupfulfillacontractthatwasagreedtopriortoincarnation.Atbirth,weagreetoforgetthatarrangementsothatwecanhavetheexperiencewithoutanyinfluenceofmemory.Evenso,amnesicblockscanberemovedthroughhypnoticregression.Commonquestionsare:WhatamIsupposedtolearnfromallthis?HowcanIidentifythe

biggerpicture?Sooften,theclient’smotivationtoexperienceaLBLsessionisborneoftheneedtogainunderstandingand,perhaps,thealleviationofsometimesunbearableemotionalpain.Oftentimestheresultingdiscoveriesareunexpected,andreliefisofferedinavarietyofwaysthatcanbesurprising.Thefollowingdeeplymovingaccountclearlydemonstrateshowsuchunderstanding,whencombinedwiththepowerofforgiveness,cantransformalifeofsufferingintooneofserenity.

WHENSAMANTHAWALKEDintomyoffice,hershouldersdroopedandshefeignedapolitesmile.It was clear that her reasons for coming were affecting her deeply. As soon as she sank into therecliner,hereyeswelledwithtears.“Youaremylasthope,”shewhispered.Clearlyshewasaveryproudwomanandseemedtofeelhertearswereabetrayal.Shebeganher

storywithanapology:

Iamsorrytobesoemotional,butmylifeisinruins,andIhavegivenup.OrdinarilyIamverystrong,butmylifehasbeendevastated,andIamheretofindoutwhatthehellhappened.Iwascontentthreeyearsago,livingaloneinalovelyapartment.Ihadathrivingpracticeasan

energyworker.Myclientswerefaithfulandsentpeopletomeregularly.MyrelationshipwithSpiritwastight,devoted,andquitecertainlythereasonmyhealingworkwassopowerful.(1)Afteralongsabbatical,Idecidedtodateagain.Afriendsetmeupwithamanshethoughtmightinterestme.Imethiminalocalcafé.AsIapproachedhim,Iheardoneofmyspiritguidessaytome,“Youaretobewiththisman.”Asheturnedtogreetme,Isaidtomyguide,“Youhavetobekiddingme!Hedoesn’tevencomeclosetomytype;he’snottall,dark,andcommanding,heisshort,pale,andreserved.”Bewithhimwastheresoundingmessageinmyhead.Wehadcoffeeandsharedapieceofpie.Hewasverypoliteandwittybuthadnoconceptofthe

kindofspiritualpathIwalked.Noway,Ithoughttomyself,Icannotdatesomeonewhoisaspiritualnovice!SoIlistenedtohimchat,formulatingmyNothanks,wedon’thaveenoughin

common…speechinmyhead.Hespokesomesoulfulwisdomthatledmetothinkhewasanoldersoulthanherealized.Iwascuriousbutcertainlycouldnotseemyselfdatinghim.AsIstoodtoleave,myno-thanksspeechready,Spiritsaidagain,“Youaretobewiththisman.”Ialwaystrustedguidancethatcamethroughthatstrong,soIgavehimmynumberandagreedtogotodinner.Onthewayhome,IarguedoutloudwithSpirit,yellingthatthiswasnotfunny,notpartofmy

plan,andwhyonearthshouldIbewithamanwhowasmyspiritualjunior?Therewasnoattraction,nospiritualmeetingground;howonearthwasthissupposedtowork?ButnomatterhowgoodacaseImade,IwasquietlyassuredthatIshouldbewithhim.SoIgaveupanddatedhim.Withinamonth,weweredeeplyinlove,andinsixmonths,wewerediscussingmarriage.Hewasfascinatedwithmyspiritualnatureandabsorbedmyteachingslikeasponge.Hebegantotalktocrystals,althoughhe’dlaughandshrughisshouldersindoubt.Ninemonthsintotherelationship,wewerehousehunting,makingourplansforafuture.AndthenonelovelyIndiansummerday,heannouncedhenolongerlovedmeandwouldnotseemeanymore.Iwascrushedwithdisbelief,andwhenIaskedhimwhy,hecouldnotsayspecifically;hejust

knewhecouldn’tcontinueanddidnotwanttoleadmeon.Tears fell onto Samantha’s silken blouse, but she refusedmy offer of a tissue. She had to keep

pushingthrough,hopingtoreleasethisburdenthroughherstory.

Ispentmonthsinprayer,tryingtounderstand.Buttherewasnounderstandingtobehad.Myheartwasshattered,mydreamsdestroyed,mywholeworldhadcrasheddownaroundme,andmyintegritywasindeepperil.IwascertainthatSpiritwantedustogether,sohowcouldthishappen?I’dlistenedwhentheytoldmetobewithhim.I’dhelpedhimtodevelopaspiritualunderstanding;I’devencompromisedmyspiritualneedsforthesakeoftherelationship.Yethesimplywalkedaway.Igraduallysankintoaseveredepression.Ilostclientsandlostmyabilitytointuittheirneeds.

IfI’dbeensowronginterpretingwhatIthoughtSpirittoldme,howcouldIbetrustedtoseewhatmyclientsneeded?MyangertowardSpiritturnedtoapathy,andIgaveuponevencaring.Iclosedmypractice,movedtoanewcity,andtriedtostartover.Buthonestly,ithasbeentwoyearsnow,andIstillcryeverynight.Ihavenojoy,nointerestinanything.Icannotpray.Ifeelcompletelybetrayedbymyguides.Ifmyguidesareall-knowing,howcouldtheyhavesetmeupforthis?SoIneedtousethislife-between-livessessiontofindoutwhathappened.Ifheismysoul

mate,asIthoughtmyguidessaid,whatwentwrong?MostlyIneedtoknowwhymyguidesallowedthisandwhatIwassupposedtolearn.FromwhereIsitnow,Ihavenofaith;itdidnothingbutdevastateeveryspiritualboneinmybody.

Samantha went quickly into a deep trance and easily recalled her memories before birth. She

gatheredhelpfulinformationinthewombaboutherrelationshipwithhermother.Shecontinuedtheregressionbacktohermostrecentpastlife.ShesawherselfasanIndianscoutwhowasambushedbysoldiersandremarkedthatitfeltstunninglyfamiliar.Wemovedtoherdeathexperience.Shefoundthatherspiritleftthebodymomentsbeforethedeathandsodidnotexperiencethepainofdeath.Assheroseintothespiritworld,shefeltamomentofgrace—amomentoffreedomthatwasobviousasshe relaxeddeeper.Sheknewwhereshewasgoingandhadnoneed foraguide toescorther.Sherememberedheragendaandwentstraighttohersoulgroup.Thereweretwelvesoulsinhergroup,andtheyallhadblueauras.Shewasnotsurprisedthatthey

wereanadvancedgroupof souls.She firstmetwithherex-husbandandweptas she recalled theiragreements and why their relationship had to end. They had come together mainly to bring thechildrenintotheworld;therewasnoagreementaboutlove.Sheforgavehimandherselfforalltheyears of trying to make the marriage work. She exclaimed, “No wonder we had a love/haterelationship!”assherealizedthathewasthesoldierwhohadkilledherinthelastlife.She met another former lover and understood their contract was to raise each other ’s

consciousness.Shemetherdearestfriendandseveralotherpeoplewhohadbeeninstrumentalinherlife and recalled their agreements.She saw twopeople in her groupwithout faces; her best friendlaughedandsaid,“Oh,wehaven’tmetthemyet;itisasurpriseyettobe!”Shelookedaroundhergroup,butshecouldnotfindthemanwhohadbrokenherheart.Shelooked

atthegroupsnexttohers,buthewasnotthereeither.(2)Shedecidedtostepoutsidehergroupandlook around.Way off in the distance, she sawhim—hewaswaving his arms above his head as ifsignallingforarescueplane.Shewalkedover,andtheymetinacloudlikespacewithnodefinition.“Whathappened?”sheasked,withdesperationinhervoice.Hetookherhand.“Don’tyouremember?”hesaidquitelovingly.“Iaminagroupofveryyoung

souls.Noone inmygroup is ready towakeup. Iwas looking for someone tohelpme,because Ithought Iwas ready to give consciousness a try.When Iwaved and called out, you heardme andsteppedoutofyourgrouptomeetwithme.”“Oh,that’sright;Iremembernow,”shesaid.Hecontinued,“Yousaidthatyouweregoingtobealightworkerthistimeandthatitwouldserve

yourpurposetoassistme.IsaidIneededassistance,soitwasaperfectmatch.”“But what happened?” she said. “I thought we were in love—I thought we would grow old

together.”“Sweetie,”hesaidashesqueezedherhand,“thatwasnotpartofouragreement.IsaidIwasready

totrytowakeup.IneveragreedIwouldactuallydoit;Ionlyagreedtotry.YouknewthepossibilityexistedthatIwouldnotfollowthrough.Yousaidyouwereokaywiththat.”“Oh,my,”shesaidinasoftvoice,“Iremembernow.Iagreedtohelpyou.Andthiswasyourfirst

attempttowakeup,soyouneededsomeonetoguideyou.Mypurposeistohelppeopletounderstandtheirdivineself,sohelpingyouseemedlikeitwasinlinewithmysoulpurpose—aperfectmatch,asyousaid.”Herbrowwrinkledasshecontinued,“Ihave to tellyou thatmylife is inchaos. Idon’t trustmy

guidesormyselfanymore.They toldme tobewithyou,andI listened. Iwassosure thatweweresupposed tobe ina relationship that I letmyself fall in lovewithyou, thinking therewasagreaterplanthatIjustwasnotseeing.Iwasabsolutelydevastatedwhenyouleft.Ihadchangedmywholelifetobewithyou.Howcouldyoujustturnyouremotionsofflikethat?Weweretalkingmarriage,forgod’ssake;whathappened?”“Thinkback,”hesaid.“Whatexactlydidyourguidestellyouwhenyoumetme?”“‘Bewithhim,’theysaid;‘bewithhim.’”Herfacesoftenedassheworkedtoremember.“Theydid

notsayforhowlong.AndnowthatIthinkofit,theydidnotevendefinewhatthatmeant.MyheartwaslonelywhenImetyou,soIassumeditmeantaloverelationship.Butweneveragreedtofallinlove.Iseenowthatwasmyhumanselfwantingloveandsecurity.”“Yes,”hesaid.“Ididloveyou,butitwasinthemoment—wewereclearaboutthat.Marriagewas

somethingwethoughtweweresupposedtodowiththefeelingswewerehaving.Butthatisnotwhyweweretogether.Youwereshowingmehowtowakeup,butIwasnotready.Andfrankly,evenifIhadbeensuccessfulinawakening,IthinkIwouldhavemovedon.Youweremyteacher,myhelper,notmysoulmate.PleaseknowthatInevermeanttohurtyou.IthoughtIwasreadytowakeup,butIgotscared.Spiritualenlightenmentwouldhaverequiredmetodrasticallychangemywholelife,and

mysoulisjustnotthatevolved.IguessIwillhavetowaituntilthenextlifeandtryitagain.Pleaseforgivemeforanypainmychoicecausedyou.”Theyembracedasbeingsoflightdo,andinthatembraceSamanthaallowedherpaintodissolve

andherhurttobereplacedbytheunderstandingoftheircontract.Tearsfellfromherfaceasshesaidtohim,“Iforgiveyou,andIwishyouhappiness.”Samantha thenvisitedherCouncil ofElders.Sheentered throughahall of light; thewallswere

transparentandextendedupintoforever;thefloorwasapathoflight.Pillarsmarkedtheentrancetotheinnerchamber.(3)Her guides wore robes of white, and white and blue color streamed up from inside the robes,

illuminatingtheirheads.(4)Therewerethreeelders,andsheknewtheyallthoughtasone.Theelderinthecenterbegantospeaktohertelepathically.“Youhavedonewelltoforgive.Thisisoneofthekeysinyoursoulevolution.”She felt as ifherheartweremoreopen than she’deverexperienced.Theenergyof forgiveness

swirledthroughhermind,andsherealizeditwasamajorpartofherlifepurpose.Sherecalledthetimesshehadsucceededandfailedatforgiveness.Shesawthatthislatestexperiencewasperhapsthehardest.The elder spoke. “Your agreement states that you chose to be of service. Forgiveness is a

requirement,anditisanecessarystepintheevolutionofyourconsciousness.Youfeelasifweledyoudownapaththathurtyou,butdoyouseenowthatitwasnecessarytoletyougothere?Youhadchoicestomakeastohowyouwouldwalkthatpath.Youcouldhaveremainedtheteacherandsimplyserved.Instead,youchosetolistentoyourheart,whichwaslonely.Inyourloneliness,youfabricatedafuturewiththatsoulyouwereserving—afuturethatwasnotpartoftheagreement.Weknewyoumightmakethischoice;weknewyoumightgetangrywithus.Butwealsoknewthatyouhadtobefreetomakethischoice.Weknewyouwouldnotrestuntilyouunderstoodthedeepermeaningofthischoice.“Youarequitedetermined.Thatisthenatureofyoursoul,foraslongaswehaveworkedwithyou.

Youwereallowedtowalkdownthatpathinordertotestyourownconsciousnessevolution.Doyouthinkyoufailed?Youdidnot.Byallowingyourhearttobebroken,youlearnedmorethanyoucouldhave learned in any otherway.And it served your purpose—to grow and to be of service. In thisexchange,youwereofservicetoyourselfaswellastohim.Youlearnedmuch.Wewerewillingtotaketheblameforatime,foreventhatwasnecessaryforthisgrowth.Inordertoforgive,youfirstmustblame,accuse,orfeelwronged.Inthisexperience,youhavemanifestedallof those.Wegaveyousomethingtopushagainst—tofacethechoiceofjudgmentversusforgiveness.“And so now you have yet another choice: to judge and hold on to the density of that lower

vibrationortoforgivehimforjiltingyou,toforgiveusforwhatyouthoughtwasmisleadingyou,andtoforgiveyourselffornotseeingthehigherpathfromtheverystart.“Youhaveagreedthatyouarewillingtofeelwhateverisnecessaryforyourgrowth.Weallowyou

tocreatethatinveryintenseways.Yourheartseemstoneedapathofintenselessons,sowesupportyouasyoulearn.Therewasnorightorwrongchoice.Eachchoiceyouhavemadehasledyoutothesamecritical crossroad: theopportunity to forgive.So tell us, howdoyou thinkyoudidwith thischoice?Areyouinneedofmoreunderstanding?”Samanthasmiledandtoldthemsheunderstoodcompletely.Theybowedtoherandencouragedher

torememberherstrength.Shethankedthemfortheirgrace,realizingthathersoulworkrequiredhertousealltheresourcesavailable.Whatbetterwaytolearntoforgivethantoputyourheartoutthereto be broken? When she looked at this lesson with the understanding of her immortal soul, sherealizedhowbrillianttheplanwas,andevenmorepainmeltedfromher.Hersessionwascomplete;shehadreceivedtheanswersshesought.

Theforgiveness that tookplaceduring thatsessionwasremarkable.Ayear later,Samanthareportsthatherpracticeisthrivingagain,andherworkisbetterthanever.Hersenseofjudgmentandblamehasbeenaltereddrastically.Shenolongerreactstotheemotionsofthemomentinthesameway;shenowlooksforthegoldthatisnotobvious.Sheisabletohelpothersseethatblamekeepsthemfromseeingtheirlessonsandthattheirheartsaretryingtogrowawayfromjudgment.Byremovingjudgmentfromhermind,sheisnowabletoclearlyseethateachpersonisfollowing

adivineplan,andsheisnowinservicetohelpothersbeopentoseeingthatplanforthemselves.Herheartremainsopen,andshenowwelcomesopportunitiestounderstandthatforgivenessisalovingteacher.Shehasbegundatingagain,nolongerattachedtothehappily-ever-afterfairytalethatalwaysgot in herway. Samantha now lives in themoment.Happiness is a choice, and forgiveness is herchariot.

(1)WhenSpiritisusedinthisway,itreferstothesubject’spersonalspiritguide.Notethatasthisstoryprogresses,thesubjectrefersto“guides”intheplural.Thisdenotesaninclusionoftheeldersofhercouncilaswell,becausetheywereinvolvedinheradvancedecision-makingandcurrenttherapy.

(2)Communitydynamicswithinandbetweensoulgroupsisasignificantaspectoftheafterlifeexperience.Inthiscase,Samanthahasconnectedwithasoulfromanother,muchyoungerclustergrouptoworkonamutualcontractforonelife.Seeprimarysoulgroupplacement,JS87-106;secondarygroups,DS138-142;andinteractionbetweensoulgroups,DS287-290.(3)Regardingcouncilsettings,readersmaywonderwhyearthlystructuressuchaslibraries,classrooms,temples,etc.,appearinspiritualvisualizationsoftheafterlife.ThisisbecausesoulsfromEarthassociatethefunctionofsuchetherealspaceswithearthlybuildingsthatseemtothemtohaveroughlythesamepurpose.Thesimilaritybetweensuchclientdescriptionsisuncanny.Thus,acouncilchamberisratherlikeaholytempleinthemindsofmanyclients,withreferencestodomedceilings,marblefloors,multicoloredlightilluminations,andsoforth,thatareassociatedwithfeelingsofaweasthesoulentersthisspacefortheirevaluations.SeeDS204-207.(4)Regardingcolorsoftheelders,therobesofthesewisebeingscanbeofvariedcolors,dependingontheirhighlevelofadvancementandexpertiseincertainareasofsouldevelopment.Soulsoftenseewhite,darkblue,andespeciallypurple,thecolorofdeepwisdom.SeeDS218.

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THEwhiteGOOSE

UrsulaDemarmels(SALZBURG,AUSTRIA)

AUTHOR,WELL-KNOWNTVAUTHORITYONREGRESSION,ANDUNIVERSITYLECTURERWHOENVISIONSAHARMONIOUSSOCIETY

RESPECTINGANIMALSANDNATURE.

Thischapterdescribesveryclearlytherapid,positiveprogressthatcanbetriggeredwhenaclientisguidedwithsensitivityintothebetween-livesstate.Thiscaseremindsusthatweareallsouls—immortalbeingsoflightandlove—andthatthroughLBLtherapywecanrediscoverthesoulstate,inwhichourfeelingsandexperiencesareofamuchhigherqualitythanthoseretainedwithinthehumanmind.

WHEN SANDRA, A pretty woman in her early thirties, first entered my Austrian practice, sheappearedtobecheerful,confident,andslightlyarrogant.Ifoundthisalittlesurprising,becausewhenshe originallywrote tome, she showedvery little courage to face life andhad already repeatedlythoughtofsuicide.Shesufferedincreasinglyfromsuddencardiacpainandfeelingsofanxiety,butnophysical causehadbeen found.Eveneighteenmonthsof intensivepsychotherapydidnothelp.Shetoldmethatshewasneverabletocry,eventhougheverythingappearedtoherasextremelydrearyandsenseless.Asauniversitygraduatewithprofessionalexperienceinvariousdifferentareas,Sandrawasvery

successfulbutjoyless.Shefeltemptyandhadnofriends.Shehadaffairswithafrequentlychangingarrayofmen,whichleftherfeelinghumiliatedandused.Shedescribedherparentsas“friendlyandcaring people” but now avoided any contact with them because she felt ashamed of their simpleprofessions.Whenguidingmyclientsintoapastlife,Iusuallygobackwiththemtodifferentstageswithintheir

currentlifeandalsointotheirmother ’swomb.ButSandraaskedmetostrictlyavoidthat.Shewantedme to guide her directly into a past life. She said that she had always felt shewas a very specialperson, one who wants to do something of great impact. However, she had no idea what this“something”couldbe.Inhercurrent life,Sandranevercaredaboutspiritualmatters.Whenshe,bychance,readinamagazineaboutmybookonthepositiveeffectsofspiritualpast-liferegression,shebecamecurious,readthebook,andwasnowheretoexperiencespiritualregressionherself.It tooka long time toguideSandra intodeep trance, as she suddenlybecame tense andafraid. I

helped her by using an imaginative journey induction, visualizing a beautiful flowermeadow.Shethengraduallyrelaxed.Iaskedhersoulguidetochooseaformerlifeforthissessionthatwouldbestassisther,andthenIregressedherintothatpastlife.Myclientexperiencedherselflyingcomfortablyonherbackforalongperiodoftime,floatingon

awhitecloudthroughabluesky.Duringthis,hertrancedepthgraduallyimproved.Finally,Iasked

hertoturnoverandlookdowntoEarth.Underneathher,shesawasoftgreenlandscapewithgrassandtrees.IexplainedtoherthatIwouldnowcounttothree,andshewouldthenhavearrivedatthesituationinoneofherformerlivesthatwouldbemostimportantforhercurrentlife.

URSULA:Whatdoyousee?SANDRA:(suddenlytremblingandintermittentlygaspingoutthroughabarelyopenedmouth)It’samorass…Thehorsescan’tmoveanymore…firmlystuck…dirtuptotheknees…Ican’tmoveanymore.(screaming)Everythingisgray,onlygray!Thismustbehowhellappears!(whimpering)…Imustcontinue…mustcontinue!U:Turnyourself.Whatisgoingon?S:(heavilybreathing)Ihavetothrowawaythebackpackandthegun.Nopoweranymore…Ohgod,theyareshooting!Theyshoot!Thosedamnedbastards!(whining)Ican’tanymore.ButIneedmygun…They’vehitahorse.(loudly)Ha,theydidn’thitme,notyet!Butwhy?Thismessshouldendnow!

SandrahadfoundherselfinRussiaduringWorldWarII,inthebodyofadesperateGermansoldiernamedRainer.Thesituationwashopeless.Theadvancingcross-countryvehicleswerenolongerabletodrivethroughtheintenserain.Instead,horse-drawncarriageswereused,andeventhesewerenowstuckinthemud.Inthenextscene,SandrasawherselfasayoungerRainer:ayoungmaninuniform,just

beforethestartofthewar,togetherwithhisfiancée,Judith,inhisparents’beautifulhouse.Hisparentswererichfarmers.

U:Howdoyoufeelthere?S:Judithwantstoseparatefromme.U:Why?S:BecauseIwenttothemilitary.(proudly)Iwillmakeacareer!(laughs)Notjustcowsandpigs!…SheisJewish.Thatdoesnotfitwithme,notwiththeGermannation.U:HowdoyoufeelaboutJudith?S:Sheisverybeautifulandelegant…nowshecries.Idon’tlikethat…yes,we’dbetterseparate.

Twoyearslater,RainerisincommandofagroupofsoldierscontrollingtheSwiss-Germanborder.TheyhadcaughtagroupofJewishrefugees;Judithwasamongthem.

S:Sheappearsscruffy,nolongerpretty.Dirty.Shestaresatmestrangely…frightened…nowshelooksaway.U:Howisthatforyou?S:Don’tknow.Imoveawayabit.Havetomakeadecision…Jewishrefugeeshavetoberigorouslypunished.(longpause)U:Now!What’syourdecision?S:(shouting)I’llhavethemallshot!U:Whatdoyoufeel?S:(defiantly)Ithastobe!Itisthelaw!Iowehernothing!U:Areyoupresentwhenshegetsshot?S:Yes.Theyallstandinonerowwiththeirbackstous,infrontofaditch,theirhandsbehindtheirheads.U:Didtheylineupthatwaybythemselves?Lookatthiscarefully!

S:No,mysoldiershadtobullythem.Somecry,begformercy…onemanbreaksdown,hewhimpers.Womenoftenarethestrongerones.U:AndwhataboutJudith?S:Shedoesnotcry.Sheholdsalittlechildbythehand.U:Isthisherchild?S:Ithinkitbelongstothemanwhojustwhimpered.U:Andhowoldisthischild?Isitaboyoragirl?S:Agirl.Maybefouryearsold.U:Whatdoyoufeel?S:Don’tknow…whatIalwaysfeelinsuchasituation…akindofemptiness.U:Somethingelse?S:(slowly)Anger…dreariness…yes,andalsoagitation.U:Feelthesefeelingscarefully!S:Yes,thatpowerexcitesme.U:Whathappensnext?S:Mysoldiersshoot…theyallfallintotheditch…nowit’sover.

Soonafter,Rainerstartsincreasinglytoexperienceterriblepangsofremorseandnightmares.Suddencardiacpainalsoappears.Hevolunteerstofightatthefront.Hehopestodie,butinsteadhewascapturedbytheRussians.

S:Iaminfrontofthebarracks,meagre…everythingisgrayanddirty…thereishardlyanythingtoeat,notevenfortheRussians.Havetorebuildhouses.Useless…theyshootagain,thoseidiots!U:Who?S:Ours(theGermans).Everythingisalreadysmashed…lotsofGermanprisoners...

Anairplanedroppedabomb.Rainerwashitbytheshockwaveandcatapultedaway.Hewasinjuredonhisleftshoulder.Ashebobbedupagain,hesawawhitegoosesittingbesidehim,anditsleftwingwasinjured.

S:(astonishedandfullofawe)Thiswhitegoose…itisthepurestandmostbeautifulthingI’veseenforeons!(longpause)U:Whatisgoingoninsideyou?S:(slowly)That’showIoncewas,orcouldhavebeen…should…

Russiansoldierscameandcaughtthegoose.Oneofthemchokedit.Rainercriedoutandranagainstthem.AsoldierbeatthebuttofhisgunagainstRainer’shead.Rainercollapsedandimmediatelydied.Somethingpulledhissouloutfromhisbody;then,foralongtime,hissoulwasimmersedinblackness.Itfeltlonelyandlost.(1)

U:Howdoyouappearnow?S:Likefog.Nohumanshape.

Finally,itbecamealittlebrighterinthedistance,andawhitegooseflewin.S:(suddenlyexcited)ThisoneisevenmorebeautifulthanthegooseinRussia!Itshines,anditisverybig!

Hissoulwasallowedtoliedownonthebackofthewhitegoose,andthenthegooseflewthembothaway.Underneath,Rainer/Sandrasawagraylandscapeshowingthedestructionofwar.Sandratoldmeshefeltverysmall,heavy,andtired.Adeepsadnessfilledher,andsuddenlytearsrandownherface.Asasoul,Sandraallowedherselftosinkdeeplyintothewhitefeathers,andshecriedlongandintensely.

S:(sobbing)Ifeellikedissolvingintoinfinitetears,sprinklingthewholecountry.U:(aftertheclientcalmeddownalittle)Howdoyoufeelnow?S:Lighter,andoh,thelandsbeneathmehavebecomegreen!Thehorriblegrayofdeathisgone!Everythingisfertileagain!U:Whereisthewhitegoose?S:Nexttome.Butnowitistransformingintoanelongatedbluishlight.(astonished)Mysoulguide!(2)

Inretrospect,withthehelpofhersoulguide,itbecameclearfortheclientwhatshehadtolearnfromherformerlifethatwouldhelpherasSandratoday.

S:IwantedtobesomeonespecialinmylifetodaybutIhadforgottenthemostimportantthing:myheart!Toactfromcompassion.U:Howiscompassioninvolvedinyourcurrentlife?S:TodayIamverydifferentfromwhatIinitiallywantedtobe.Iamtreatedratherbadly,andIamalone!U:Whatisyoursoulguide’sopiniononthat?S:Heshakeshishead…(surprised)Heshowsscenesofmycurrentlifetome.Myparents…IfeelashamedbecauseIdon’tspendtimewiththem.Nowheshowsmeawoman.Iknowherfromwork.She’ssappy…(slowly)Hmm,Iseemtohavesomethingtocriticizeineveryoneandeverything.Ishouldletthatgoandinsteadbefriendly,modest,andcaring…butI’msotired!

Thesoulguidethenbroughttheclient’ssoultoaplaceofrestandcleansinginthespiritworld.Underneath,shesawasmall,lightbluelake.Shefloateddownanddippedintothewater.Itfeltwarmandsoftandfloodedthroughher.

S:IfeellikeIamgettingmoreandmoretransparent,andlighter.Icannotsayexactlywheremybodyendsandwherethewaterbegins.(comfortablysighing)I’dliketostayhereforever!

Afteralongtime,thesoulguidecomestofetchSandra’ssoul.S:Henowwearsabluish,shiny,longdress.Icannotseetheface,but…it’sashe!U:Andhowdoyoulooknow?S:Likeanelongatedyellowfog.Ihavelonghoney-blondhair,andIamalsofemale.U:What’syourname?S:Tria.U:Beautiful.Andwhat’sthenameofyoursoulguide?S:Tisana.Shetakesmyhand,andwefloatupevenhigher…(happilysurprised)Oh,there’smysoulgroup!Theysayhellotome!(laughing)It’sfunny,eachofthemwantstobewithmefirst.Therearefivesouls.Theylooklikeglowing,yellowballs.Allofthemembraceme.(happy)NowI’mhome!U:Enjoyit!(pause)DoyouknowoneormoreofthosesoulsinyourcurrentlifeasSandra?

S:(sadly)No.I’mallaloneonEarth.U:AskTisanaforthereason.S:Anothersoulapproaches.(horrified)Oh,no!It’sJudith...shecomesstraighttome!

Sweatrunsfrommyclient’sforehead,andshebucklesonthecouch.Ittakesmesometimetocalmheragain.

S:(surprised)Thatcan’tbetrue.Idon’tdeservethat.Shesmilesandtakesmyhand!…Ihurthersomuch,andshe’snotangrywithme!U:Hassheforgivenyou?S:(verytouched)Yes.U:Feelthat,andtakeitdeepintoyourself.Takeadeepbreath!Doyoualsoforgiveyourself?S:(sighsdeeply)Iwouldliketo.(longpause)Doesn’twork…itwouldn’tbeappropriate.U:WhatisTisana’sopinionofthat?S:Shelooksveryseriouslyandpointstomysoulgroup.Theyallappearsoshiny!U:Likeyou?S:(sadly)No,Idonotlookthatlight.Myyellowissomewhatdirty.U:Whatdoesthatmean?S:(hesitantly)ItisbecauseIamnotasfastinmyprogressastheothersare…it’sanoldproblem.U:Whichproblem?S:(longerpause)OnEarth,Iforget…aboutwhathasbeensoperfectlyplanned…evenmysoulgrouphelpsme…andthen,asahumanbeing…Ialwayswanttoaccelerate,tobesomeoneveryspecial…norespect…U:LikeinyourpastlifeasRainer.LookagainatyourJewishgirlfriend,Judith.Doyouknowthissoulinyourcurrentlife?S:No!Shesurelydoesnotwanttobewithmeanymore!(suddenlysobbing)Butyes,sheishereagain.Sheismyworkcolleague!

Itturnsoutthatthissoulbelongstotheclient’sprimarysoulgroupandhasregularlyincarnatedwithher,tryingtoassistherinherpathofdevelopment.Inhercurrentlife,sheisSandra’sworkcolleague,whohasrepeatedlytriedtoinitiateafriendshipwithher.Shewantstocarryoutahumanitarian,highlypromisingprojectwithSandra.

U:Whatdoesyoursoulguidethinkofthatproject?S:Sheshowsmeascenefrommychildhood.Iamalittlegirl,aboutsixyearsold,visitingpeoplewhoknowmyparents.Theyarereconstructingtheirhouse,andduringthathavecompletelyforgottenabouttheirpetrabbits.Theircageispartlybroken.It’sfullofdustanddirt—andtherabbitshavenothingtoeat!Ibringthemwaterandgrassfromthegarden,althoughImakemyshortdressdirtywhiledoingthat.(pause)IthinkIshoulddoit—thosehumanitarianprojectswithmycolleague.U:Howdoesthatfeeltoyou?S:Somewhatstrange.(longpause)Butalsodelightful…yes,that’sit!U:Isitokayformetotrytohelpyoudissolveyourheartpainsandyourfeelingsofanxiety?S:(longerpause)No,notyet...Idon’tthinkso.U:Gointocommunicationwithyoursoulguide.WhatdoesTisanasay?S:Shenodsherhead.Shesaysthattheheartpainsarelikeasignposttoremindmetolistento

myheart…tolearn,todogood.After Sandra returned from trance, she first appeared to be very relaxed and more friendly. Butinitially,shehadseriousconcernsthatshewouldnotmanagetobringtheknowledgefromthesessionintoherdailylife.Sixmonthslater,sheinformedmethatsheandhercolleaguehad,together,actuallyundertakenthe

first steps tobring their ideaofaworkingproject into reality—helpingpeople tohelp themselves.The ideawas to teach and support farmers how to change frommass animal farming to breedingconditionswith a focus on animalwelfare, and to change frommass plant production to organicagriculture.Theirtargetwasawin-winsituationforallbeingsinvolved.However, Sandra’s health problems had not really improved. I suggested to her that she should

consciouslycontacther soulguideeveryday forat least fifteenminutes. It tookanotheroneandahalf years until I heard from her again. She now appeared to be very happy and enthusiastic. Theproject had a surprisingly good start, and for the first time in her life, she was in a lovingrelationship. She had also followed my suggestion to contact her soul guide on a regular basis.Sometimeshersoulguide,Tisana,comestoheragainasawhitegoose,allowingSandra’ssoultoflythroughtheskyonitsback.WhenIaskedSandraaboutherfeelingsofanxietyandheartpains,Sandrathoughtfullysaid,“Wow,Ihadcompletelyforgottenaboutthem.Theygraduallydisappeared!”Spiritualregressionintoaformerlife,andmostimportantlyintothelifebetweenourearthlylives,

can be understood as spiritual therapy, integrating divine wisdom into our worldly experiences.Sandra’s case is a good example as to how profoundly and thoroughly salutary the consciousconnectionwiththespiritworldcanwork.Inmyexperience,therapytargetingspiritualgrowthandbodily and psychic healing is impossible without connecting to our divine soul. As a spiritualregression therapist, Iknowfromcountless sessions thata simple regression intoapast life isnotenough.It isofcrucial importancetoguideclientsintotheirbetween-livesexperiencetoobtaintheinformation necessary for real progress. Professional experience is one important factor forsuccessfully conducting spiritually oriented regressions. The other most important factor is theconsciouscontactofthetherapistwithhigherbeingsinthespiritworldbeforeandduringthesession.Duringanyregression,Ikeeponintenselycommunicatingwiththespiritworld,andonlybydoingthatisitpossibleformetoofferadequateassistanceandsupporttomyclients.We are guests in thisworld, andwemust remember thatwe are souls creating experiences in a

humanbodyandaimingtobringsoulconsciousnessintoamaterialform.Assoonaswestart,withtrust,tocommittoahigherdivineguidance,wecanobtainallthehelpthatisnecessaryforspiritualgrowth.In ourminds, we know a lot. However, the quality of our existence is enhanced by connecting

directlywithoursoulmindandlearningthatweareimmortalbeingsoflightandlove.Experiencingtherapid,positiveprogresstriggeredbyspiritualbetween-liferegression,Ialwaysfeelthankfulnessandgrace,andIamdeeplytouched.Duringeachspiritualregressionsession,Iaccompanytheclient,andduringthatprocess,Ialsogrowinawarenessofouroneness.Thedeepertruthisthatthereisnoseparation.Everything—humanbeings,animals,nature,Earth,andthewholeuniverse—allmaterialandnonmaterialformsandthespiritworldarepartof“allthatis”:theeternal,divinesource.

(1)Readersofpast-lifecasesoftencommentaboutthedisproportionatenumberofpeopleinourtimewhosemostimmediatepast-lifeincarnationwasinWorldWarII.Thisisnoaccident.Therearetwoprimaryreasonsatworkhere.TheSecondWorldWarwasthedeadliestmilitaryconflictinhumanhistory.Totalprematuredeathsasadirectresultofthewarhavebeenestimatedbetween60and70millionsouls,bothmilitaryandciviliancasualties.SixmillionJewsdiedin

thedeathcamps.Ifaperson’slifeiscutshortprematurely,theirsouloftenreturnstothenextincarnationwithinashorttimeperiod—saybetweenfiveandtenyears—tocompleteanormallifespanandattendtothethingstheydidn’tachieveearlier.ManysoulsfromWWIIfallintothiscategory.Thesecondfactoristhesoul’sneedtobalancethekarmicforcesthatleadtoaviolent,untimelydeathinthewar,suchasinthecaseofRainer/Sandra,particularlywithRainer ’streatmentofJewishrefugees.AsanotherexampleofkarmicbalancingfromnegativeWWIIactivities,seeLBLH61.

(2)Shapeshiftingenergyintodifferentformsisapracticeusedbysoulsofalladvancementlevelsbutparticularlyamongstpersonalspiritguideswhowishtoachievespecificendswiththeirstudents.Usually,ifthisisgoingtohappenwithanewlydiscarnatesoul,ittakesplacesoonafterdeath,justbefore,orjustafterpassingthroughthespiritualgateway(DScase4,20).Tolearnhowsoulspracticethisskill,seethespaceoftransformation,DS302.Inthiscase,thewhitegooseisalmostmythologicalinpresentationbyarescuingguide

appearinginatraumaticdeathscene.Sandra’sguide,Tisana,wasmodelingasananimalvictimandrecipientofviolencefromthesortofabhorrentbehaviorexhibitedbyRainer ’spreviousconductasasoldieragainstinnocentJewishrefugeesinWorldWarII.TheintentionherewastoshowRainertheeffectsofcrueltyinflictedoninnocentlivingcreatures.ThesuccessionofincreasinginjuriesinflictedonthebirdinthiscasemirroredwhatRainerwasgoingthroughhimselfinthelastminutesofhisowndeathsceneinthewar.First,therewasthephysicaldamagetothebird’swingandRainer ’sarmandshoulder,andfinallythefatalchokingofthewhitegoosematchedtheblowtoRainer ’sheadbythesoldierswhokilledhim.Throughthissymbolicvision,Rainerwasmadetoseetheconsequencesofhislackofcompassionasasoldierhimself.AshewasleavingEarth’sastralplane,Rainerwascarriedawaybyawhole,uninjuredbirdthatwasemblematicofliberation.Thewhitegooseisalsosymbolicofpurity,beauty,andpeace,clearlyrepresenting

Rainer/Sandra’ssoulalter-ego—thatis,goodnessandwantingtodotherightthingversusdestructivebehaviorinthelifejustlived.Sandraseesthatinherowndisturbedlifetoday,shemustactfromgentlecompassion,astheauthorofthisstorymakesclear.Whenherguide,Tisana,assumestheformofawhitegoosetoflySandraintothesky,thisvisuallessonrepresentsameldingofpastandpresenttimelinestorepresentblissandthefreedomtofacelifeandtofostercourage.ItwouldappearthatunlikeRainerneartheendofhislife(Sandra’spastlife),Sandrahasfoundhappinessthroughheracceptanceoflovebythespiritualforceswatchingoverher.

10

THEWellsFargoGUARD

JimmyE.Quast(EASTERNSHORE,MARYLAND)HYPNOTHERAPISTSINCE1993.

COORDINATORFORLBLCERTIFICATIONANDLEADTRAINERFORTHENEWTONINSTITUTE.

Thisisthestoryofafairlyadvancedsoul(1)whohasalreadyarrivedatalevelofcompetenceinthespiritworldthatallowshertoworkwithanamazingdegreeofindependenceasateacherofveryinexperiencedand,inherownwords,tenderyoungsouls.However,itisclearlynothernaturetorestandbesatisfiedwithpastaccomplishments.Sheisstillstrivingtoperfectwithinherselfthelessonsofsensitivityandcompassionforotherswhomaybevulnerableandinneedofencouragementtofindtheirowninnerstrengths.Therefore,sheisworkinginspecificwaystofine-tuneherselflessness,patience,andhumility,bothinherspiritworldendeavorsandinherrecentincarnationsonEarth.Asyouwillsee,thiskindofsoulworkdoesnothavetobeboring.Infact,hermostrecentpast

incarnationcouldprobablybeusedasthescriptforarollickinggoodmovie.THEFOLLOWINGLBLsessionwasconductedafewyearsago.Thefemaleclient,Anna,wasforty-fouryearsoldatthetime.Whenwemet,itwasobviousthatAnnawasunhappywithherlife,buttheinformationonherintakeformcouldnotbegintoconveythefullextentofhermisery.Afteraboutanhourofconversationwithher,Iwascertainlymoreawareofthedepthofherphysicalandemotionalissues.However,neitherofuswouldbeabletoappreciatetheprofounddegreetowhichherlifewasabouttochangeuntilthesessionwasover.Infact,thepositivechangeswouldcontinuetoaccumulateforweeksandmonthsafterward.Anna’sproblemswerenotextremelyunusual,buttherewerejustsomanyofthem.Allofherlife,

she had felt that too many people were trying to take advantage of her. Referring to herself aseveryone’sdoormat,shenowseemedtoberunningoutofenergy,bothphysicallyandmentally.Shefeared and distrusted nearly everyone. She was losing weight and had dropped from 140 to 116pounds within a single year, and found herself powerless to gain any of it back. She had beendiagnosedwithpooradrenalfunction,haddevelopedaninsatiablecravingforsugaryfoods,andhadbecome lactose intolerant. She told me she felt she had lost about 90 percent of her formerpersonalityandthat,unlesssomethingchangedsoon,“Ifeeldonewithmylife.”Asifthiswasn’tenough,Annawasalsohavingwhatshecalled“toomanyspiritualexperiences”!

Shewashavingconsistentdreamsaboutamasculinefiguretryingtoreachher,andshewouldwakeup feeling a large presence in her house that seemed to be trying to get her attention. (2) Thesespiritualexperiencesdidnotfrightenhersomuchastheycausedhertowonderwhothisbeingwasandwhathispurposewas.ThesemysticalexperienceseventuallyledAnnatolookforanswersinDr.MichaelNewton’sbooks,whichsubsequentlyledhertome.

BeforeIdoanLBLsessionwithanewclient,Iusuallyprefertohaveasessionortwowiththem,working at amore basic therapeutic level.Myprocesswas somewhat foreshortenedwithAnna, inpart because she was traveling a significant distance to seeme and in part becausemy telephoneconferencewithhergavemeconfidencethatshealreadypossessedanaturalopennesstotranscendentspiritual experiences. Iwasalso reassuredby the information thatherdoctorshad foundher tobementallystable,andshewasnotundertheinfluenceofanyprescriptionmedicationsofthetypethatcansometimesinterferewithaperson’sabilitytoenterthehypnoticstate.Therefore, itwas no surprise tome thatAnna entered hypnosis very easily and very deeply by

usingoneofherfavoriteplacesinnatureasacomfortingmentalimage.OnceIwassatisfiedthatshehadreachedasufficientdepth, I suggestedsheallowherself tobeguidedback tooneofhermorerecentpast lives.Annabegan to tellme thather feetwerehurting.Then,before I could figureoutwhatthatmeant,shesaid,“Itookthesebootsfromadeadman,andthey’retoodamnedtight.”SinceAnnawasnotwearingboots,Irealizedshewasvividlyexperiencingadifferentreality.SoIbegantoaskquestions.

JIMMY:(hidingmyamusement)That’sashameaboutyourboots.Canyoutellmemoreaboutyourself?Howareyoudressed?Whatdoyoulooklike?ANNA:Well,I’mwearingapuffy,white,long-sleeveshirtandleatherpantsthatbuttonuponthesides.Ihaveagrayhatthat’sroundontopwithanarrowlip.I’mshort,fat,andscruffy.Don’tshaveveryoften—maybeonceeveryfourmonthsorso.Andmyhairisturninggrayinplaces.J:Okay,I’mstartingtogetthepicture.Obviouslyyou’reaman.Tellmemore.A:That’sright.Andnobodymesseswithme.Idon’tcrossanyone,butyoubetternotcrossme!Idon’tputupwithnothin’.J:Iunderstand.Sowhatdofolkscallyou?What’syourname?A:MynameisWren.SomecallmeWrenny.Mypartner ’snameisMax.He’snew.Letmetellya,Ilostmorepartnersbecausetheyjustwouldn’tlistentome.Theyhesitated,andhesitatingwillgetyoukilled…andthat’swhattheydid.

I soon learned that Wren was in his forties and worked for the Wells Fargo Company as a

stagecoach guard in the southwestern United States during theWildWest era. His responsibilitiesincludedprotectingthelivesofthecoachpassengersandthecontentsofthestrongboxthatheandhisdriver, Max, transported through some very lawless regions between the six to eight towns theyserved.Wrenwouldn’ttouchwhiskey,evenwhenhewasoff-duty,becausehealwayswantedtostayalert. He rarely was able to relax. Even after delivering the heavy, iron-bound strongbox to itsdestination,usuallyabank,hetoldme,“Idon’tfeelsafe.Peoplearewatchingus,andtheydon’tknowthereisn’tsomethingelsevaluableinthecoach.Wegottagetoutofhere.”WrenandMaxfeltmostvulnerablewhen theywere leaving a town, so they tended to clear out suddenly,without notice, athighspeed,andpreferablywithsixfreshhorses.Addingtotheirparanoia,thereseemstohavebeenapoxepidemicatthattime,soiftheydidn’thavepassengersorvaluables,theywouldalwaysprefertospendthenightsomeplaceoffthetrail,sleepingonthegroundinadefensiblelocation.Wrenalwayshad a sawed-off double-barrelmuzzle loader acrosshis lap and fourmore loaded

gunsbehindhis legsunder theseatof thecoach.Herepeatedly toldme,“I’msmallandI’mgettin’old,butIdon’tputupwithnothin’.”Hisgunswerealwayswelloiled,polished,andloaded.WrenhadafemalehorsenamedButtercup.Hesaidhealwayspreferredasmallerhorse,becausehe

wassoshorthimselfanditwaseasiertoclimbup.HetoldmeButtercupwastheloveofhislife.Heneverhadtotieherup,becauseshealwaysstayedclose,evenatnight,andcamewheneverhecalledher.Wrensaid,“Buttercup is theonlyfemalewhowillcomenearme. Imean, just lookatme. I’m

ugly, uneducated, and I smell. I’m amess, but not toButtercup!”However,Wren did tellme howsometimeshemight take a liking to anoccasional femalepassengeron the stagecoach—even flirtwiththemabit.Hesaid,“Icouldonlygetawaywiththatbecausetheirlivesareinourhands.”Itneverledtoanythingserious,andhedidn’tseemtowantthatanyway.Inspiteoftheconstantchallenges,orperhapsbecauseofthem,Wrenlovedhiswayoflife.During

hiscareer,hehadindeedshotandkilledafewbadguyswhohadtriedtoambushthestagecoach.“IfIamchallengedinabadway,Ikillonthespot—nohesitation.Ourreputationisstrong.Thepeopleinourtownsrespectusandprayforoursafereturn.Theydependonus.”IaskedWrentomovethroughtimetothelastdayinhislife.Withinafewmoments,hebeganto

speak.

WREN:I’minabed.It’sdark,butthere’sanoillampnexttomewithlaceunderit.J:Areyousickorhurtorjustwornout?W:Igotshot.Theygotmerighthere.(Annapointedtoherrightsideandsaid,“ThatexplainswhyIfeelpainheresometimes.”)J:Issomeonetakingcareofyou,orareyoualone?W:Mysister,Clarisa,iswithme.She’syoungerthanme…she’ssogoodtome,butshedoesn’tlikemywayoflife.NowIseeshe’srinsingoutthebloodyrags…I’mbleedingprettybad.

Atthispoint,Annabrieflyshiftedherperspectivebacktothepresenttotellmethatsherecognized

ClarisaashersisterKimberlyinherpresentlife,andIcouldseethatshewasenjoyingasudden,deepfeelingofrenewedclosenessandloveforhersister.Aswonderfulasthatrevelationwasforher,withinafewmoments,Annajustwantedtogetbackto

Wren’spredicament. In amatter of seconds, IwasprobingWrenwithquestions abouthowhehadgottenshot.Washeonthecoachwhenithappened?Didheknowwhoshothim?Hisresponseswereallveryvague.Itseemedtomethathejustdidn’twanttotalkaboutthesematters.Healsodidn’twantto give up on living. He remained true to his tough, invincible nature right down to his last fewbreaths.Attheend,hewasnotinpainbutsimplycouldnotbreathe.Finally,inhiswords,“Therewasnothin’IcoulddobutLETGO.”IaskedWrentoexplainwhat,ifanything,hewasexperiencingafterlettinggoofhisphysicalbody,

andhetoldme,“I’mnotthereanymore…I’msurroundedbycloudsnow.”Hecouldn’tseeintothedistancebecauseoftheclouds,butheknewhewasawayfromEarth.“There’snothingherebutpeace,justpeace.Themiseryisgone.I’msafenow.Youdon’thavetodoanythinghere.”Afteraminuteortwo,thecloudshadgone,andhecouldseesomethingfarawaythatwasshaped“likeashoehornwithalightinit.Butit’snotashoehorn,andI’mmovingtowardit.”Ashedrewcloser,hesaid,“Thisisaplace—aniceplace—anditfeelslikeEarth,butit’snotEarth.IthastreesandflowersandgrasslikeEarth,butthecolorsarebrighter.I’vebeenherebefore.Thisplaceisjustforme…Idon’thavetoworry about anything here. I can rest here… this is MY place, where I rejuvenate. I can feel ithappening…Iambeingfilled.Everythinginmeisbeinghealed.Idon’tneedanythingelse.”Wrenbecamesilent,soIaskedwhetherornothecouldtellme,intermsofEarthtime,howlonghe

usuallyremainsinthisplaceofsolitudeandrejuvenation.Hisanswerwas“somewherebetweenabout100and200years.”AftermanyLBLsessions,Ihavecometounderstandthattheclient,atthispoint,isoperatinginnonlineartime.Therefore,onecannotdirectlycomparelinearEarthtimetowhattheyareexperiencing.Thisallowedmetouseaveryinterestingandhandytechnique.IsimplytoldWren,“Let’shonorthis100to200yearsbyremaininginsilencefortwofullminutesofEarthtime,duringwhichyoucanexperiencethepassageofasmuchtimeasyouneedinthisplaceofsolitudeinordertofullyrejuvenateyourenergy.”(3)Aftertwominutesofsilence,IsoftlyaskedWrenifhefelthewas

finished and ready to move on from this place. He told me he was done, that he could feel adifference:itwasafeelingofwholeness.IcouldtellthatWrenwasnowquitechanged.BaseduponmypastexperienceswithLBLregressions,IunderstoodthatWrenwasnowbecomingbetterorientedtothislargerreality,regaininghisawarenessofhimselfasanimmortalsoul.I learned that this soul’s immortalname isKaraa (pronouncedcare-AHH—emphasis on the last

syllable).Karaadescribesherself as feminine, very tall, slender, andgraceful. (4)This is about asdifferentfromWrenasanyonecouldimagine.Shecurrentlyhasretained85percentofherenergy,meaningthatAnnaonlytook15percentwhensheincarnated.ThecombineddatafromthousandsofLBLsessionsconductedbyDr.Newtonandothershaveindicatedthattheaveragequantityofenergybroughtbysouls into theirphysical incarnations typically isbetween40and60percent.BygivingAnnaarelativelysmallamountofenergy,Karaahasaccomplishedtwoimportantthings.First,Karaahasretainedenoughenergytocontinuedoingsomespecialworkinthespiritworldthatsheisverypassionateabout.Second,asKaraapointsout,Anna’srelativelyloweramountofenergycauseshertohaveafeelingoflongingfortheotherside,hertruehomeinthespiritworld.ThismakesitpossibleforAnnatobemoreopentoreceivingassistancefromhome,eventhoughitcanalsocauseher,asahumanbeing,tofeelweakandintimidatedonsomeoccasions.KaraadoeshaveaguidenamedSariel(pronouncedsah-ree-EL,emphasisonthelastsyllable).He

has a more masculine energy but does not come around as often as he once did. He is alwaysavailabletoKaraawhenneeded,butshesayssherarelyneedstocallonhim.Thecolorofasoul’senergyisalwaysofgreatinterestbecauseitrevealssomuchaboutasoul’s

levelofachievement.Tome,Karaa’senergyisextremelyinterestingandratherunusualinitscolorarrangement. She has a great deal of blue energy, which indicates she has a very high level ofexperience,butsheusuallypreferstohideheradmirableaccomplishmentsbycoveringherselfwiththedullgrayishwhitecoloringofamuchyoungerandinexperiencedsoul.Icouldn’tunderstandthisuntil she tookme to theplacewhere shedoesherwork. Itwasacrystallinebuildingperchedonacrystallinepedestal,whereonemustcarefullyadjustoneselfbeforeentering.

KARAA:Thisplaceisveryold.Butit’snotjustaplace—it’salive!J:Doyoumeanit’salivethesamewayyouarealive?K:(emphatically)Betterthanme!Youmusthaverespectforthis—tremendousrespect—beforeyoucanenter.Youalwaysstayhumble…mustn’tshowpride…that’snotgoodforthemifIshowpride.Iteachthemhowtobemorethantheyare,butIhavetobeverygentlewiththem.J:Soyouareateacher?K:Yes,that’sright.ButIhavetobeverycarefulwiththem.Icannotshowoff(thisisareferencetoherblueenergycolor),becausetheylookuptome.Theyaresoyoung—faintwhitelights.Theywanttolearn,butthey’reverytimid.You’vegottobecareful,becausetheyhavetotaltrust.J:Doesthismeanthatyoutonedownyourownenergywhenyouarehere?Howdoyouappeartothem?K:That’sright.I’masoothinggrayishwhitecolor.Mygownhascreases,orfolds,andIonlyallowmylightbluecolortoshowasstreaksintheshadowsofthosefolds.J:Thatactuallysoundsrathereleganttome.K:(withasecretivebutemphatictone)Itis!J:Sohowareyoudifferentwhenyou’reawayfromthisplace?K:I’mbrighter,andIletmoreofmyblueenergyshowsometimes,butthatcouldbeintimidatingtothelittleones.I’mreallynotthatadvanced(soulsatthislevelofadvancementtendtobeincrediblyselfless,sothisstatementactuallyhelpstoconfirmherachievements),Ijustknowhowtodothisjob—preparingnewsoulstomoveontothenextlevel.Idoitreallywell,andI

lovedoingit.FurtherquestionsrevealthatKaraaworksquiteautonomouslywithsixtoeightstudentsatatime,

withafairlyconstantturnover.Sheoccasionallytakessometimeforsocializingwithothersoulsatherownlevel,butactuallydoesvery littleof that.Asoursessionwenton, this relativelyadvancedsouldidnottakemetoanyoftheothercommonsitesthatwefrequentlyencounterinthespiritworldduringLBLsessions.EventhoughIprobedandquestioned,therewasnotmuchelseshewouldreveal.KaraadidpointoutthatthegoalofherincarnationasAnnaisprimarilytwofold.Shemuststandup

once again for herself and others the wayWren had done, but this time in a small female body,withoutthehelpof“anarsenalofsawed-offshotguns.”Also,shehastotakeontheroleofnurturer.Initially,Wrendoesnot appear tohavemany redeemingqualities, but further exploration revealedthatWren’sattitude towardthe lifewasnotascold,uncaring,andmurderousashiswordssuggest.According toAnna,hewasadmired inmanywestern townsasacourageousprotectorofpeople’slives and property. The message for Anna is that while Wren was physically vulnerable in thebadlandswithhisjob,thisdidnotdeternordiminishhiscapacitytoactwhennecessary.Thestrong,masculinefigureinAnna’sdreamsthatledhertomewasapparentlyintendedtoshowanembodimentofherrealselfinWren.RecallingthelifeofWreninsessiondemonstratedhertruecapacityasasoultoovercomeadversitywithstrengthandindependence.IwasexpectingthesessiontocontinueabitlongerwhenKaraasuddenlyannouncedthatitwastime

to wrap up this visit. That was a surprise, because very few LBL sessions are ended with such adismissal.Sowefollowedhersuggestionandendedthevisit.WhenIbroughtAnnaoutofhertrance,IfeltIhadnotobtainedasmuchspirit-worldinformation

forherasIwouldhaveliked.ButIgotoverthatquicklywhensheopenedhereyesandshouted,“Ohmygod, thatwoman is so strong.She’samazing! It felt sogood tobeheragain! It’s so importantwhatshe’sdoingtoencouragethelittleones!AndthatWren…amazing!Heshowedmewhatit’sliketobeaman.Iunderstandnowwhymenactthewaytheydo…Wow!Wasallofthatstuffreal?”Following this session,Anna’s life began to improve rapidly.Her energy returned immediately.

She began to have an unexplainable craving for healthy food—and gained ten pounds within sixweeks!Shewasbothpleasedandpuzzledtofindshehadlostalldesireforsugaryfoods.Andcanyouimagine Anna’s surprise when she discovered she was no longer lactose intolerant? Apparently,Anna’sdigestivesystemwasthemostvulnerablepartofherphysiologyinregardtoherlong-termself-esteemissues.Whatwefeelemotionallyandourstateofhealtharenotseparate.Byrecoveringhermemoryofwhosheisasanimmortalsoul,Annahasbeenempoweredtobelieveinherselfandpursueherdreams.Atthetimeofthiswriting,ithasbeeneightmonthssinceAnnacameforherLBLsession,andshe

tellsmethatshenowfeelsasenseofdeterminationandpurposeinherlife.Peoplenolongerfrightenher.Shesays,“I’mcomfortablenowwithsomepeoplewhousedtomakemeuncomfortable.Equallyimportant,IhavebecomeuncomfortablewithafewpeoplethatIhavereallybeenneedingtogetawayfrom, but I couldn’t face it before. I’m not a doormat anymore—I don’t have to put upwith thatanymore.” (Sounds like somethingWrenwould say!) Other remarkable changes: Anna no longerfearsdeathandhasacquiredtheabilityofperceivingetherealthingsthatarenotavailabletotheusualfivesenses.Anna recently toldme thata fewmonthsafterour session, shewasvisitinga fleamarketwhere

therewereanumberofantiquegunsforsale.Shehasnorealinterestinguns,butshewasattractedtoonegunbecauseitlookedjustliketheoneWrenalwayscarriedonhislap.Whileshewaslookingatit,amanapproachedandaskedifshehadaninterestinoldguns.Shesaidshewasonlyintriguedwiththisparticularone,andbeforeshecouldfigureouthowtoexplainherself,hesaid,“Thattypeofgun

wasusedbytheoldWellsFargostagecoachguards.”Shetoldmethatthepricewasalittletoohighforherbudgetbutthatshenowregretsherdecisionnottopurchaseit.Anna’s work continues in her present incarnation, and judging by the very positive mental,

emotional, and physical changes that have occurred in her life following this LBL session, she ismakinggratifyingheadwaytowardrealizinghersoul’sgoals.Furthermore,nowsheknowsit.Anna’scaseisanexampleofarelativelyadvancedsoulwhoisattemptingtoperfectselflessness

and sensitivity toward others. Karaa’s approach to her work as a teacher demonstrates how veryfocusedsheisonmasteringthiskindofcompassion.Therefore,inhermostrecentincarnations,byexperiencingthefinepointsoffeelingvulnerableherself,sheissteadilyrefininghercompassionforotherswhofeelvulnerable.AsAnna,sheistrulyfine-tuningthisexperiencebyfacingitwithoutmostoftheprotectionsthatwereavailabletoWren.ThemostimmediateresultisthatAnnahasnowbeenenergizedbythisnewperspectiveandhasundergonemorehealingandreliefthansheeverexpectedwaspossible.(5)

(1)Forcasecomparisonsbetweenbeginner,intermediate,andadvancedsouls,seeJS123-200.

(2)Archetypicalimagesindreamsanddreamrecognition:DS24,28.(3)Weseemanycaseexamplesinthisbookoftimenotbeinglinearorabsoluteinthespiritworld.Inthiscaseillustration,100yearsonEarthmayseemasthoughonly100minuteshavepassedforasoulintheafterlife.DeliberatetimedistortionsbyexperiencedLBLfacilitators,asinthiscase,canbeaneffectivetherapeutictoolinmanyspiritualsettingsforslowingdown,freezing,orspeedinguptimelineactionduringanLBLsession;seeLBLH161.(4)Whilesoulsarepureformsoflightenergy,theycanassumeanyshapethatpleasesthemintheafterlife.(5)Whenexaminingthestagesofdevelopmentforanysoul,progressmaygoforwardorbackwardduringmanyincarnations,dependingonthekarmicchallenges.Eachbodyoccupiedbythesamesoulindifferentlifetimeshasitsownbrain,centralnervoussystem,emotionaltemperament,andsoforth.Asidefromgenderdifferenceshere,whileAnnaandWrenmayappeartobecompleteopposites,nonethelesstheydohavethesamesoul.TheimmortalsoulcharacterofKaraaissimplycopingwithanewsetofcircumstancesindifferentenvironments.Thesoul’staskistoovercomesuchobstaclesineachlifebyseekingthebestsolutionsinordertoachieveproductivelives.Thesoulgrowsprogressivelystrongerbythisprocess;thisisthesecretofincarnation.

11

LIFEontheWING

RifaHodgson(VANCOUVER,CANADA)

BORNINMOSCOW,SHECOMBINESDEEPINNERSPIRITUALWORKWITHASENSEOFADVENTURE.

Amongthemanyfascinatingdiscoveriesrevealedduringyearsoflife-between-liveshypnosisregressionistheexistenceofhybridsouls.(1)InDestinyofSouls,Dr.MichaelNewtondescribeshybridsoulsasthoseof“mixedincarnationorigins”who“havememoriesofactuallyincarnatingonalienworldsbeforetheycametoEarth.”Oftengentle,sensitive,andoldersouls,hybridscanhavedifficultiesadaptingtothisplanetandmayhavechosentoincarnateonEarthinordertoexperienceadifficultchallenge;theycanfeelisolated,different,andexperienceproblemsincreatingrelationships.Thefollowingaccountisaboutsuchasoul.Lindsayhadexperiencedseverehealthproblems

duringhercurrentlife,togetherwithasometimes-painfulsensitivitytoherenvironmentandthepeoplearoundher.ThroughLBLtherapy,shegainedclarityandunderstanding.Sincehersession,shehasbeenabletocontinueherlifewithrenewedpurposeandinconsiderablyincreasedcomfort.

WHENLINDSAY,AGEfifty-one,contactedmeaboutpast-lifeandLBLsessions,shewasconcernedwhether her current extreme fatiguewould allowher to participate fully. I discovered that she hadexperiencedseverebirthtraumaandhadbeenbattlingwithillhealthallherlife.She’dhadachesinthe areaof her spleen for as long as she could remember, and she constantly avoided crowds andnoisyplacesbecause theymadeher feeloverwhelmedandphysicallysick.Lindsayhadneverbeenabletocreateadeepconnectionwithanyonebecauseshefeltdifferentandsomewhatisolated.Ialsofoundoutthateightyearsbefore,whileworkinginAfricaonaninternationaldevelopmentproject,she’dbeenbittenbyaninsectcarryingfiveviruses.Eventuallythevirusesclearedup,butshewasleftwithanexceptionallybadpost-viralcondition:chronicfatiguesyndrome.Eightyearslater,withtheuseofconventionalandholistictherapies,Lindsay’shealthhadimproved

considerably.Shehadalsobeguntoworkonherselfandotherswithhealingenergy,butshewasstillexperiencing stubborn and debilitating insomnia, which proved resistant to both conventional andalternativeremedies.DuringLindsay’s firstpast-life regressionsession,weexploredseveral lives.Noneof thesewas

directlyrelatedtoinsomnia,butasshereceivedthelessonsofthoselivesduringthehypnoticstate,Lindsayfoundparallelswithhercurrentlife.Sheobserved:

Ihadn’tcompletedthingsinthoselivestomysatisfaction…Inthiscurrentlife,thereissomuchworkIhavetodo,yetIcan’tdoit.Icannotbesickanddothework;mybodyjustcan’thandleit…transferringallthatenergy.Iamveryawareoftime…thefactthattimeisgoingby.It’sbeenhardtorelaxandallowthehealingprocesstobecompleted.Itmakesmefeelsad,somewhat

aimless,helpless,anddisconnected.IaskedLindsaytogodirectlytotheoriginsoffeelingsad,aimless,helpless,andunabletodothe

work.Shebecameveryemotionalandtearfulas,haltingly,sherecounted:

Ihavewings…Iamasortofayellow/goldencolorwithwings,gliding,notflapping,gliding…andatail…kindoflikeaninsect,verylarge…it’sshapedlikeawasporlizard,butmyheadisverystrange.Icametothisplanettodosomeenergywork,andIcan’t!It’sdifficult…it’sbeyondmyabilitiesatthispoint…it’stoohardatask…Itrytomanipulatetheenergy,butIcan’t,Idon’thavetheskills.Iamreachingbeyondmyskillslevel…Iwanttodotoomuch,toosoon.Weareallveryeagertotransformtheplanet…weorbitaroundandwork,thenwerest.Wedon’tneedmuchsleephere.

Iasked,“Ifyoutakearestrightnow,whathappens?”Afteralongpause,shereplied,“It’sfunny…

Ijustdrift,allowingtheplanettoevolveonitsown,anditcomesalongjustfine…Idon’tneedtopushsohard.”Asthismemoryfilledher,Lindsayrealizedthattherewasnoneedtopushsohardinhercurrent

life.Shemustfocusonherworkasahealerandfirsthealherself.Immediatelyafterthesession,Lindsaydrewapictureofherselfasthisflyingbeing,andacouple

ofdayslater,shewrotemealetterdescribingtheflyingbodyshehadexperiencedinherPLRsession.

Irememberbeingofasoftyellow/goldencolor,withtwowings,ahead,andsortofatail.Myheadhadbumpyfeatureswherethefacewouldbe,buttherewerenoeyes,ears,ormouth.Instead,therewerefourantennae—roughlythelengthofmyheadandneckcombined—extendingoutthetopofmyhead.Theantennaemovedindependentlyofeachotherandwereflattenedintoasortofovalshape,ratherthanbeinground(likethedifferencebetweenlinguiniandspaghetti).Myskin(therewerenofeathers)hadasortofsmooth,rubbery,gel-liketexture.Thewings,ontheleadingedge,wereroughlysimilartoagullwing,angledbackatthehalfwaypoint;thebackedgeofthewingwasn’tsmooth,butratherhadsomethinglikeunevenblobsextendingabitfromthebodyofthewing.Mybodyshapewaslooselysimilartothatofacuttlefish,excepttherewasnolongfinaroundtheperimeter;instead,thereweremoreoftheunevenblobssimilartothebackedgesofthewings(althoughthesewerefewerthanonthewings).Alongwithanumberofotherslikeme,Iwasorbitingaroundaverysmallplanetinitsearly

stageofformation.Itconsistedofanorangeandredswirlingmassofaheavygas,whichmovedlikeliquid.Wewereworkingtoevolvethisplanetquickly.Myantennaewereusedtopickuptheresultsofthechangeswewereattemptingtoeffect,andwiththatinformation,wecontinuallymodifiedtheenergyweweresendingtotheplanet.Irememberhavingdifficultywiththiswork;Iwasfocusingtoohard,andIwasgettinginmyownwayabit.Byrelaxingandcoastinginorbitforawhile,Ifoundthatthevariouselementsoftheplanetbegantoslowdownandcoalesceintomoreevolvedstates,withprimitivelandmassesbeginningtoform.ThisconceptofrelaxedintentionissomethingI’mcontinuallyworkingoninthislifetime,aswell.(2)

I’veneverseenanyonesoeageranddeterminedtostartalife-between-livessession!Atall,quietly

strikingwoman,Lindsayarrivedatmyofficehalfanhourearlierthanouragreedtime,beamingwithanticipation.Shebroughtwithherasenseofurgency;therewasnomoretimetowaste.DuringLBL,Lindsayreceivedtheanswerstoallherburningquestionsanddiscoveredmuch,much

more.ShefoundoutthatsheisamaturehybridsoulincarnatingtotheplanetEarthwiththespecificmissiontocarryoutplanetarywork.Thisbecamequiteobviousright in thewomb,for inorder topreparethegroundworkforthis important job,hersouljoinedthefetusataveryearlystage.Withgrowingunderstanding,shegavemethereasonsforthis:

LINDSAY:Hardwork,novacationtime…thereisalottodointhislife.Wehavetomakelotsofconnections…withthemind.Therelationshiphastobeveryfinelytuned…withalltheworkwehavetodo.Wanttoreachthepatternsearlier…I…we…doalotofunusualworkwiththismind.RIFA:Likewhat?Yousaid“unusual.”L:Oh,it’slikewhen,insteadofdrivinganoldstationwagon,youdriveahigh-performancesportscar;thewiringwillbelotstrickierandhardertomaintain,butIwillbeabletodomuchmore.Ihavetodoalotofenergyworkforthisplanet.Ineedtobeabletobemorecreative…mybodyhastobereceptiveto…almost“playing”withtheenergy…bewillingtoexperimentonwaysofworkingwithenergy…She(Lindsay)isworkingwithenergyshehasneverbeforeencountered.Before,therewasnoonetheretoteach(thisisLindsay’ssoultalking).Therealizationscamewithincreasingconfidence.Shehastobeabletolistentometobeabletodothis.It’strickywork,becauseweareworkingwithahighvoltageand…wecanharmthebody,andtherearenoteachers…Itcouldberisky,sowehavetobewellattunedandlistencloselytoeachothertodothework…it’sateameffort,soIhavetofirsthealthebodyandreleaseallthebaggagefromotherlifetimes…thendoitintime…sothatIcandothe“planetwork”…soIhavetoaccomplishonebeforedoingtheother…soit’sgoingbetight.Ihavewaitedalongtimeforthis.R:Howdidyourbirthtraumacontributetothelessonyouneedtolearnduringthislife?Whywasthisbirthtraumaneeded?L:Soit(thebody)wascompelledtoworkwithenergy,becauseitwastheonlythingthatwouldhelphealit,andthatwillraisetheinterestlevelenough…tokeepworkingandworkingwithit…andsothatIcouldgettodotheplanetwork.R:Doyouhaveanyexperienceofworkingwithplanets?Thisisn’tyourfirstincarnationofdoingthis?L:No,Ilovethis,Iloveworkingwiththeplanets,weworkontheplanets’elements…it’slike…likeapoetry…it’slikeadance…it’ssobeautiful,combiningalltheenergywiththeelements.It’slikecreatingacosmic…likeasoup;andmakingaplanetthatpeoplecanactuallyliveon.It’ssobeautiful,andevenif…they…won’t…it’ssuchalovelyplaceinthesky.(3)R:You’vedonethisbefore,numeroustimes,haven’tyou?L:Yeah,thisiswhatIdo.R:Wheredoyoudoyourplanetarywork?L:Thisisn’tthefirsttimewithplanetEarth.Imissedit…Imisseddoingitsomuch.Andhereyougettodothis…yougotomyplanet,youaredoingitfromadistance,youare…nottouching,buthereyougettotoucheverythingand…R:“Here”meansonEarth?L:Yeah,youhavetobeinit…it’slike…it’slikemakingasoupandeatingittoo…youhavetoexperienceitatthesametime;it’swonderfullyfulfillingthisway.

Aftertheseinsightsandduringavisittohercouncil,towhomshereferredmoreascolleagues,Lindsayreceivedanexplanationaboutherinsomnia.

R:DuringthelifeasLindsay,whatdoesinsomniateachyou—whatdoesitremindyouof?L:(immediately)Ah…!(an“a-ha”moment;shesmiles)R:You’vegotit!L:Thisissogood…(laughing)Ah…oh…it’smultiplethings—oneisthatit’steachingmethatthingsaregettingtobealittlecriticalherenow…IdoneedtorelaxmoreaboutitanddoasmuchasIcan,because,ah…aplanetismeanttoevolve,allIcando…isthebestIcan…withthetimeIhave…andthatrelaxingwillallowmetofollowittodeepsleep…also,intheotherincarnation…inmyhomedimension,youdon’tsleepso…it’sabitoftrick,it’sallowingmeto…nowthink…thatIamwastingmytimesleepinghere.R:So,onasubconsciouslevel,yougetveryupsetthatyouarewastingyourtimeduringyoursleep?L:Yeah…becauseIdon’thaveanysleep,Iusethetimeonsomethingelse.Ineedtorememberthis…thatsleepispartofbeingahuman.Itisaveryproductivepart,allowingthesoultorestwhenthebodyissleepingandthebody…tohealalso;there’ssomethingelse…itwillcome,theysay—youareontherighttrack…withthethingsIamdoingandwiththesleepissueresolved.R:WhatwasthesignificanceofbeingbittenbytheinsectinAfrica?L:Beingbitten?Oh,thatwasreallyhelpful…Iwasbittenbythatbugabout…eightyearsago.Twelveyearsago,I’dstarteddoing…receivingenergyworkandlearninghowtodoitbothonmyselfandothers.Imadealotofprogress,healingmyselfwiththeenergyworkforthefirstfouryears,thenI

sortofleveledoff;Iwasn’tabletodigdowndeeper.HadIneededthisbodyjustforgettingfrompointAtopointB,itwouldhavebeenfine,butIneededittobeabletodotheplanetwork,otherwisetheenergieswouldchange,so…Ineededtocompletelydisassembleeverything,repairand…putitbacktogetheragain.Theonlywaytodothatwastogetvery,veryill…andthat’swherethebugcamefrom.

Duringtheextendedhealingsessionthatfollowed,Lindsayfoundouttheoriginofherchronicspleenissue.

L:Yeah,It’salwaysbeenanareaofsadness…Ithinkit’s…IwantedtocometothisdimensiontolearnaboutEarth,andithasbeenrewarding;thepeoplehavebeensohelpful…Ididmissmyowngroup…Idid,ithasbeenahomesickness…thespleenareaiswhereIcarrythesadnessofbeingawayfromhome.

WecreatedadirectconnectionbetweenLindsay’sspleenandheroriginaldimensionsothatsimplybybreathingintothespleen,shewouldbeabletoconnecttoherhome.Asthesessionprogressed,IaskedLindsaywhyshewasdrawntoexperienceLBLatthis

time.

L:She(Lindsay)wasstuckonsomelevel,andwiththesleepthing,wasbackedupagainstawall;shewassosleepdeprived,shecouldn’tfunctionandprogress,andthisprovedtobeahurdle.Shehadtogetoveritinordertoachieveanything,becausenothingelsewasworkinganymore,absolutelynothing;ah,andsomanyotherdecisionshingingon…tobeabletosleepandtobelucidenoughtoactonthem…andshejustneededareminder…ithasbeendifficultforhertoacknowledge…thekindofworkshedoesandthedirectionsheisgoingwithit…

Then,asunderstandingdeepened:

Itsoundssostrange,andshereallyknowsveryfewpeoplewhohaveacluewhatsheis…

hardlyanyone…she’smuch…lessabletodiscussitwithanyone…socreatingthissenseofunderstandingwithinherself…atthispoint…isimportant…inorderforhertomoveonwiththiswork,becauseit’stimetomoveforwardmuchmorequickly,somanyotherthings…puzzleswereinplace,andsheneededthishelptogetthroughthe“stuck”part.

At the end of the session, Lindsay was totally exhausted but very pleased. LBL had given her anunderstanding ofwho she is. It clarified her purpose and gave her the encouragement that she is,indeed,ontherightpath.TheLBLsessiongaveheranexplanationoftheflyingdreamsshecouldremembereversinceher

childhood.ItseemedthatLindsaywasn’tsurprisedatall;infact,sheidentifiedwiththeincarnationinherflyingbodymuchmorethanherincarnationinhumanform.(4)It explained so many other things too: why she had always felt extremely uncomfortable and

overwhelmedwhen in a crowd, hearing the voices of people around her like a constant, intrusivenoiseandfeelingalmostasthoughshehadbeensuckinginallthepainanddespairaroundher.Shecouldalsonowunderstandwhyshehadneverbeenabletoconnectwithanyoneonadeeperlevel.PerhapsthestrongestimpactofherLBLwasthatLindsaywasnowabletoconnectwithherhistory.

Shediscoveredherownorigins, theoriginsofheruniqueabilities,andalso that therewereotherswithsimilarabilitiesmakingsimilar,mutualefforts.Lindsayobserved,“KnowingthatIbelong‘somewhere’makesmefeelthatIbelongmore‘here.’

WhenIownwhoIam,it’sprojectedforward,andpeoplerelatetomedifferentlythaneverbefore.”Now,ayear later,her spleenarea is feelinggreat, andher sleeppattern isgradually improving.

Lindsayisnowcarryingoutintensiveenergywork,releasingherownbaggageandhealingherselfaswellasothers.Shelearnedandisputtingintoeffectthisimportantlesson:shemustfirsthealherselfbefore she can finally do the work she came to do here on Earth. This, in her own words, shedescribesas“theplanetwork.”AttheendoftheLBLsession,Lindsaywastotallyexhaustedbutverypleased.Shehaddiscovered

anexplanationofherflyingdreamsthatshehadrememberedsinceshewasachild.Actually,shefeltmore related to the incarnation in her “flying body” than her incarnation in human form. Herexperienceindeephypnosisgaveherexplanationsofmanyother things,suchasfeelingextremelyuncomfortableandoverwhelmedinacrowd,whereshesucksinallthenegativeenergyofpainanddespair around her, and why she has never been able to connect with anyone on a deeper level.Lindsaytoldmeinsessionthathercouncilsaidtheremaybesomeupcomingchangeinherpersonallife—aspecialmanfromherhomedimensionmayjoinherwithinayearortwo.“HowwouldIknowthatthisis‘theone’?”sheaskedofhercouncil.“Oh,it’seasy,”theysaid,encouragingher.“Hewillhavethekindesteyesandmostbeautifulsmile,aswellasgoofy,sillyshoes;youwillknow.”WhileIwaswritingherstory,Lindsaycalledmetoreportthataspecialmanhadindeedcomeinto

herlife,justasthecouncilhadpredicted.(5)

(1)Hybridsoulsareratherrareinhumansociety,andtypicallyanLBLfacilitatormighthavelessthan5percentoftheiryearlycaseloadwhoarehybrids,originallyfromalienworlds.DuringtheirfirstincarnationsonEarthafterexperiencinglifeonanotherplanet,hybridsoulsoftenhavedifficulties,butiftheycansurvivetheseearlylives,greatcontributionstooursocietymayfollow.SeeDS100,154andLBLH165-166.

(2)HybridsoulsnowonEarthasformeraliencreatures.SeeJS192-193.(3)Planetaryhealersinvolvetwomajorspiritworldprofessionsofadvancedsouls:(a)healersoftheenvironment,orecologicalenergyspecialists(DS113-115),and(b)harmonizersoulswhobalancetheenergyofplanetaryeventsandhumanrelationships(DS330-331).ItwouldappearLindsayisintrainingforthesecondclassofspecialists.Highlyadvancedsoulsnotintrainingforspecializationsdonotseemtoincarnate.(4)Humandreamsaboutflyingwithalienplanetaryorigins—DS348.(5)Inthespiritworld,beforeweenterournewphysicalbodiesforthenextincarnation,certaintriggersofrecognitionmaybeprovidedtohelpusconnectwithsignificantpeoplewhowillimpactournextlifeinsomeway.ThefactthatLindsaywasadvisedaboutamanshewouldmeetbythecouncilisnottypical.Normally,thisinformationcomestothesoulinarecognitionclass,orpreparationclass,justbeforeembarkationintoanewincarnation.Ourpersonalspiritguideisinvolved,butoftenthisworkishandledbyguides/prompterstoreinforcewhatwemighthavebeentoldearlierbetweenlives.SeeJS249-262.

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SMALLisBEAUTIFUL

AngelaNoon(EASTGRINSTEAD,ENGLAND)

LBLTRAININGASSISTANTANDEDITORFORTHENEWTONINSTITUTEANDREGISTEREDHYPNOTHERAPIST.

Inuteroregression,theprocessoftakingclientsbacktojustbeforethetimeoftheirbirthinthecurrentlife,isoneofthemanyfascinatingstagesoftheLBLprocess.Here,clientscanbecomereacquaintedwiththeirsoulconsciousness,sometimesforthefirsttimesincebirth,andrememberhowtheywereabletothinkasimmortalsoulswhiletheymadethenecessaryadaptationsinpreparationforhumanexistence.Experiencedsoulsoftengainprofoundinsightsthatarethenexpandedonduringthevisittotheinterlife.ThefollowingstorydescribestheLBLexperienceofsuchasoul.

JESSICAWASA joy tomeet and toworkwith. Itwas clear that she simplywanted todiscover asmuch as possible through her LBL session. Before she came to experience LBL, she had alreadymadeanumberoffar-reachinglifechanges,includingacourageouscareermovethattookherawayfrom a demanding corporate environment and into the development of her own business as a lifecoach.Herewasaninquisitive,intelligent,fun-lovingwomanwithrefreshingenergyandaseeminglyinsatiable thirst for knowledge. At just five feet in height, Jessica’s physical appearance is ultrafeminineandpetite,butherpersonalpresenceintheroomfeelshuge.MarriedtoSamandthemotherand stepmother of five children, she and her husband share a deep love of the naturalworld, andJessica lovesanimals,particularlydogsandhorses.SheandSamhavea strongsense that theyaresoulmates.Jessicaandeachmemberofherbirthfamily(parents,abrother,andthreesisters)havedemonstrated strong personalities, but Jessica’s keen interest in all things spiritual is quite uniquewithinthisfamilygroup.Achievingadeepleveloftrancequitequickly,Jessicaeasilyaccessedsomeearly,happychildhood

memories. Although her childhood had its issues, years of subsequent personal development hadensuredherviewofthedifficultieswasnowclearanduncomplicated.Thensheregressedtothetimeinhermother ’swomb,notlongbeforeherbirth.Herfirstreactionwassurprisethatshecouldhearher mother ’s heartbeat and that it sounded “strange.” Soon, the strength of the emotions she wasfeelingfromhermotherbecameoverwhelming,andwehadourfirstinklingofthiscompassionatesoul’sdesiretohelpandhealothers.Throughtears,shetoldmethathermotherneededanenormousamount of love and support, and she provided this by sending hermother healing in the form ofgoldenlight,explaining,“Ijustthinkitandshefindscomfort.”AtthisstageofherLBLsession,shealsodiscoveredthatherjourneytospiritualenlightenmentwouldnotbetakenalongsideanyofhersiblings.Andthensheobserved:

Mybodyisgoingtobesmallinthislife.Inotherlives,Ihavebeentaller,morepredominant,

usuallyaleader.It’sgoingtobeinterestingworkinginthisbodybecauseIknowsomuch.MysmallbodymeansIwillhavetopacemyselfandleadfromadifferentperspective.IwillhavetoshowpeoplewhatIknow,sotheywilllistentothecontentandnotjustbepredominantlyawareofmyphysicalpresence.Whenyouaresmall,youhavetomakeyourpresencefeltinadifferentway.ThisbodyisexactlywhatIneednow:bubbly,soulful,andfulloffun.(1)Itwilltakemequiteawhiletounderstandmyrolethistime,andIchosethislifechallengebecauseIthoughtitwouldbefun.

ThisisborneoutinmyknowledgeofJessica’slifeexperience;forexample,shecreatedherhuge

careerchangeduringherearlyforties.Thencamefurther importantrevelations.Notonlyweretheentry into this body and integrationwith the brain and its circuitry “simple and exciting,” but she“couldalsosee thegreatpotentialof thisparticularcombination.”WhenIquestionedherabout thenatureofsuchpotential,sherepliedinstantly,“Iamateacher,andthiswillpresentmewithentirelynewfacetsonhowtoteach.”IwillspendverylittletimeonJessica’ssubsequentpast-liferegressionotherthantodescribethat,

ultimately,itwasareassuringexperience.Hermostrecentpastlifeprovedtobeoneofrestandease.Sheknewthatmanypreviousliveshadbeendifficultandchallenging—inlarge,dominatingbodiesandinvolvingchallengesbothphysicalandmental—butthisparticularlifeprovidedherwithavitallyimportantinsight:that“lifedoesnothavetobeastruggle.”Hersoulleftherbodywithnoeffortandwithnoregrets,andheroverridingfeelingwas“cominghome…I’mhereagain.”Jessicameetsherguide,whoshesayshasappearedinmanydreamsinrepeatedincarnationsasOldFatherTime.Shereports that they have no need to name her soul or his—they just know each other—but for thepurposeofthisLBLexperience,shecallshimTime.Inhercurrentlifeasaninquisitive,learningsoul,Jessicaisakeenreader—itisnoexaggerationto

writethatshedevoursthewrittenword.Therefore,IwasnotatallsurprisedwhenTimefirsttookhertothelibrary,inwhichshecouldreviewthisandotherlives.(2)Standingbehindherandtoherleft,hegently toldher to “relax and enjoy; there is nohurry.”She takesher time anddiscoversmuch.“From the book, I somehow get images and senses, not pictures. The life I have just come fromindicates tome that I shouldnotpushagainst life,because Ihavealready learned somuch. Idon’thavetostruggletoteachothers—justcarryondoingwhatIamdoingnowandallowotherstomaketheirowndecisions.”Gently,Timeremindsherthatsheisnotresponsiblefortheirdecisions,tellingher“thesewillcomeintheirtime,notyourtime.”Jessicadiscoversablankpageinherbook.“Thisistoremindme.Ihavebeenincarnatingforsuch

alongtime,it’storemindmethatIhaveachoice.IfIwanttogobackafterthisphysicallife,Ihaveachoice—IcanmoveontothenextstageifIchoose.Thisissomehowlinkedwiththereminderthatthereisnoneedtostruggle.Iampartofthechange—theincrediblechangethroughouttheworld.It’simportantthatwhatIamdoingisnotformebutfortheworld.Rewardsforhumanitywillbehugebecauseofallwearedoing.”Priortothissession,JessicahadnotreadanyoftheLBLbooksbyDr.MichaelNewton,preferring

to wait until afterward to compare her own experience with that of others. Her guide leads heronward,andshedescribesavaultedcorridorleadingtoanenormousspecialroom.Sherecognizeswheresheisgoing:“Ah,yes,thisisthecouncil.”Jessica thencommencesanenlighteningvisit toherCouncilofElders.Oneof themembers isa

femaledressedingreen.Withdelightedrecognition,Jessicarealizesthatthisbeinghelpsandguidesherwhen she iswith the clients she coaches and strengthens her “knowing” as she carries out herwork.Anothermember,who also radiates feminine energy, is dressed in a natural linen robe andanswersJessica’senquiryastowhyshefeelssostronglyaboutfemininewisdomasopposedtomale-

dominated religious dogma. Jessica learns that the world is changing, and the feminine age isreturning; theworldhasbeen so immersed in strongmale energy that it has forgotten its balance.“Sheisheretorepresentallweareabout—Earth—therewillbeasignificantchange,that’swhyIfeelsostrongly,itwillbeinmylifetime.Herlinenrobeistoremindmetoprotectmyselfusingnaturalthings—noartifice,justnaturalprocesses.HermessageistoremindmethatIknowthebeginning.Irecognizebalance.”After this information-filled visit to herCouncil ofElders, Jessica asks to visit her soul group.

HereshediscoversSam,herhusbandinhercurrentlife.“Heishuggingme—it’sareliefanditfeelswonderful.Wehavesomuchlearningtogether.Wearechoosingtheliveswewant—thereisnodoubtthatwe’llkeepfindingeachother(inthislife,SamisJessica’ssecondhusband).He’stellingmethatheknowswhatheneedstolearnandhe’slearningit.He’sevenputonmuddybootstoshowmethatheisdowntoearthandfullygrounded!”(ThisisaparticularacknowledgementofJessicaandSam’sloveofthenaturalworldandofgrowingnaturalproduce.)Intheircurrentincarnationtogether,SamishelpingJessicatoremembersheneedstobeinthenaturalworldandtobegrounded,perhapstobalanceherinclinationtospendmoretimeinthespiritualplane.Musicisastrong,sharedfocusofattentionforthemboth,andatthispoint,Samtransmitstoheraparticularsongthatremindsheroftheirsharedgoal;thechoiceofmusicisprivate,soIdonotpressforitsidentification.Meanwhile,Jessicahasmovedon.ShediscoversthatsheandSamarepartofaverysmallgroupof

souls.Shetellsme“theyarequiet,Idonotrecognizeanyofthemfrommycurrentlife,butIknowthem.Wearedevelopingasagroup.IgetthesensethatSamandIareexclusive,andthesesoulshaverecently joinedus.Theyare translucent incolor;Sam isyellowwithmuddyboots, and I amolivegreen with a tinge of yellow.” According to Michael Newton’s research, a clear yellow colorindicatescourageandperseverance,andtheappearanceofgreeninJessica’scorecolorindicatesherhealing abilities. (3) Enjoying a sudden clarification, Jessica realizes that she and Sam are thisgroup’steachers,andtheirtranslucencemaybeanindicatorthattheseareyoungsouls.SheandSamareinanewrole,andthegroupisnew,sothisisagroupoflearning.Asyet,sheisunawareofthefull scopeof their duties; she simplyknows it is all about energy.Then, thanks to her ownguide,Time,sherememberssheislearningtobeajuniorguide.TimegivesJessicaasignpostwithwhichshecanrecognizehispresenceinherlife.Inthiscurrent

incarnation,sheneverwearsawristwatch.Hewillshowheravisionofawatchonachain,andifsheseesthiswhensheisexperiencingdoubtaboutwhetherornottoact,shewillknowheispromptinghertotakeaction.IexpectedthatJessicamightwishtovisittheplaceoflifeselectioninordertodiscovermoreabout

herdiminutivesizeinthislife,butshedeclined.“Thisisnowcomplete.Icancomebacktofindoutmore,andIwillbelearningfrommydreams.”Jessicaand Ihave remained inclosecontactduring the twoyears sinceherLBLexperience.We

sharemany interests,and Ihavewitnessed firsthandherhealingand teachingabilities. Immediatelyafter the session, she told me that her first, overriding impression was of the complete andunconditionallovethatexistsinherSoulHome.Shewasdelightedwiththeunderstandingsshegainedabouthersiblings,andparticularlyherrelationshipwithherhusbandandsoulmate,Sam.ShegainedinsightsintohowshecanhelpSaminthislife,andsheconfirmedherdeepinnersensethatshewillneverneedtodoubthim.Duringher return to full awareness in the reintegrationprocess, shewas reluctant tocomeback

fromher expanded consciousness and resumeher current body’s limitations, and itwas especiallyhard forher tomoveaway fromanenvironment inwhich communication ispurely telepathic. (4)Thisisclearlyherpreferredchoiceasanexperiencedsoul.ButshefeltthatherLBLhadtaughthernottoworrysomuchaboutphysicalthings.And,indeed,inhercurrentincarnationshehasembraced

agreatdealofwhatshelearnedinoursession.Atthetimeofwriting,itistwoyearsandfourmonthssinceherLBL.Duringthattime,shehassoughtattunementtothedifferentlevelsofReikihealingandis now a Reiki Master, thus combining the healing and teaching of her soul’s path. Her intuitiveabilities,assistedbyher“greenguide”whowalkswithherwhensheexerciseshermuch-loveddogeach day, have expanded greatly. She was delighted to discover that her Reiki healing abilitiesextendedtoanimalhealing,andshehassetupacanineandequinehealingserviceuniqueinherarea.Jessica’s life-coachingpracticehasdeveloped intoan intuitivehealingandguidancepractice; foralong time, she has been intuitively interested in crystal healing and has now formalized this bystudyingtogainaninternationallyacceptedqualificationasacrystalhealer.Jessicahasfoundedtwoself-developmentgroupsinwhichherdevelopingteachingabilitiesaremuchappreciated.Sheis inno way hindered by her small physical size and is learning that her students will listen to andappreciatethecontentofherteaching;shedoesn’tneedto“push.”Itwasindeedagreatprivilegetoworkwiththisenlightenedsouland,mostimportantly,towitness

and share her subsequent development. Jessica’sLBL experience provided herwithmany valuableinsights,tools,andsignposts;mostimportant,perhaps,isthatshecontinuestoapplythesetoherdailylife.

(1)LifeandbodyselectionsareanimportantaspectofLBLhypnotherapy,becausethesevisualizationsprovidetherapeuticanswerstosomanyclientquestionsaboutwhytheyarewhotheyareinthislife.SeeDS355-381andLBLH175-180.Alsoseesoulsjoiningafetus,DS384-394andLBLH49-51.

(2)Spirituallibrariesnotonlycontainallourlife-bookrecordsbutarealsospacesdesignedtoreviewhowthesoulhasprogressedorregressed.Therelivingofpasteventsthroughliveactionisalsoprovidedtothesoul;seeDS150-164andLBLH163-168.(3)Wheregreendoesexist,atotalgreencorecoloroftenbeginsthelevelIVstageofsouldevelopment;seeLBLH126.BecauseJessicahasnotyetreachedthedeepbluestageofdevelopment,shemaynotrealizethatitisabitearlytothinkaboutendingherincarnations.ShemayalsobeslightlyaheadofSamindevelopment,butthetwoofthemcouldhavebeenassigned—orareabouttobeassigned—totheirownspecializedtraininggroupoflike-mindedadvancedsouls.Asthecaseindicates,beingassignedtotrainyoungersoulsisthefirststeptowardjuniorguidestatus.Seesoulmovementintospecializedclustergroups,DS320-323.(4)Communicationbytelepathyisthespiritworldnormandissocomprehensive,asfarastotalperceptionisconcerned,thatclientsoftenwanttostayintrancewiththeirspiritualexistenceratherthanreturntoafullconsciousnessstate,whereverbalcommunicationoftenleadstomisunderstandingsinhumanform.

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AmysticREBORN

StephenPoplin(ANAMERICANINGERMANY)

METAPHYSICALCOUNSELOR,TEACHER,WRITER,PRACTICALMYSTIC,EXPERIENCED

COACHANDGUIDE,PHOTOGRAPHER,ANDADVENTURETRAVELER.

Most,ifnotall,successfulLBLsessionscreateinspiringconnectionswithoursouls,andthustothespiritworld.Althoughrelativelyfewhaveblossomedintoclassicmysticalexperiencesasdescribedbyspiritualadepts,saints,psychics,andmystics,thefollowingstoryillustratesthatitcananddoeshappen.

ASANARTIST,Anneprobablyhadmanyinspiredmomentswhiledrawingandpainting,butshehadleft the financial insecurity of the artist’s world for a lucrative but demanding job with a largecorporation. Her present existence was one of team projects, long hours, and deadlines—not theclassicarenaforpoetsandmuses.Annewasapleasuretoworkwith,partlybecauseshewaspersonallymotivatedandproactive.She

was interested inastrologyand felt attracted towhat shecalled“acelestial artof theheavens” thatinfluences our planet.We began our initial spiritual regression session some four years ago, andthroughout our association, an ongoing interest for Anne has been how to better understand andfulfillher life’spurpose.Shewantedtoknowmoreaboutherselfandhowtoexpressherself in thevariousrolesweallplay—co-worker,partner,friend,investor,andhomeowner.Shewasespeciallyconcernedabouthowshecouldbuildabridgebacktoherworkasavisualartist.Annewroteupherownperceptionsandmemoriesofourhypnosissessionstogether,andIpresent

themherewithlittleediting.Notethedetailsthatavisualartistwouldappreciate:

Thesessionoccurredinmyhome,withmelyingonthecouchwithablanketandStephensittinginanadjacentchair.Hetookmethroughtheinitialstepsofrelaxation,breathing,andcountingbackwards.Ashesuggested,Ifeltmyself,Anne(ormoreprecisely,theconsciousanalyticalmind),shiftofftotheside,whereshecouldobservewithoutinterfering.Stephenofferedquestionsandcommentsthroughouttoguidethesession.Iwon’tmentionall

ofthese.Rather,I’llfocusontheeventsofthejourneythatoccurred.ThefirstthingIseeisagianteye.Iknowthatit’sagod.(1)Then,asifIhadsteppedbacktoviewthewholebeing,IseeitisaMichaelangeloesquegod,

thefatherbeing,withlong,whiteflowinghair,beard,andawhiterobe.It’sasifwe’reinthecloudslookingoveralandscapeofmountains.Heispointing,andIunderstandI’mbeingdirectedwheretogo.Ilookdown,andIseethatI’mwearingexquisitelyluxuriousshoesmadeofsoft,silky

materialembroideredwithflowersandinsetwithjewels.I’mwearingaRenaissance-stylegown,andI’msittingintheprivateinteriorcourtyardandgardenofanaristocratichome.Atfirst,Ifeellikethebeloveddaughterofthishome,ayoungwoman,butthenmyperceptionshifts,andmychild,alittlegirl,istherewithme.Iunderstandtheplacetobethehomeofmymarriage.Thereismuchhappinessandbeautyhere.Ilovemylittlegirl;sheisadorable,mischievous,aboutfiveyearsoldandrunningaroundthegarden,playing.Shehasaremarkableheadofblackcurlyhair,whichiswhyIcallher“mylittlestorm.”

In her present life, Anne is childless, but this causes her no regrets. I have noticed that many

advanced soulswhohavehadchildren inpast livesareeitherneutral about thewish in this lifeoropen toFatebringingachild.Theyareoftenverygooduncles,aunts,andgodparents. (Ofcourse,manyadvancedsoulsmaychoosetohavechildren,whichisaspiritualcontractandanhonor.)AsAnnecontinueshernarrative,noticehersurprisingrealizationofwhoorwhatshereallyisin

thisvignette!

Thesceneshifts,andIseemtobeatthetopofacastlelookout,likethebalconyofaturret.I’mlookingdown,andbelowIseeadark-hairedyoungwomanridingherhorseoffintothedistance.Iamverysadtoseeherleaving.IrealizelaterIamthesamewomanasbeforebutI’mnowdead,andmyspiritislookingdownattheyoungwoman,whoismylittlecurlyhairedgirlnowgrownup.Iwaskilledduringsomeformofwarfareorinvasion.Shehasvowedtoavengemydeath,andsheisridingawaytojoinabattle.

Annewaspleasantlysurprisedtolearnthatthisdark-haireddaughterispresentlyacolleagueand

friendatworknamedSarah.Theyhavejokedthattheywereprobablytogetherinsomepastlife…and indeed they were! Although the presence of others in our lives often provides a rich andmeaningful focus in these sessions, here I wish to presentAnne’s clear and colorful past-life andbetween-livesmemoriesandhowsheintegratedtheseexperiencestoperceiveherpresent life inanexpandedandprofoundmanner.As Anne continues her soul journey, the age-old idea that we will get our rewards in heaven

actuallybecomesclear…butnot in thetraditionalsense.Wenowaccompanythissoulupwards,athomeinspirit:

Fromthere,thevortex,IarriveataplaceIknowatonceishome.WhenStephenasks,Itellhimitisthepearlplace,theplaceIgotowhenImakeart,andagainIweep,tellingStephenthatI’mveryhomesicktogoback.Itisnotme,Anne,experiencingandtellingthis;itisanotherbeingnow,onewhoknowsthe

pearlplaceintimately.Itisverybeautifulhere-everythingseemstobemadeofcrystalandlightandpearlyradianthuesyetatthesametimeiskindofformless.Thereisagroupofpeoplesittingnearby,alittlebelowwhereIam.Theyareallshiningandmadeoflight,andIknowthattheyareallartistsofoneformoranother…writers,poets,painters,dancers,actors,andsoon.Furtherinthedistance,Icanseemoreshimmeringshapesofpeoplecomingandgoing,asifthey,likeme,areleavingandreturninghere.Someofthemlooklikekingsandqueens,butIknowtheyareactorsinShakespeareanplays,wearingtheircostumes.WhenIlookbackattheothergroupofpeoplewhoweresittingcloser,IamsurprisedtoseemyfriendSarahlookingupatme.(2)WhatIseeisnotquitethehumanSarahIknow,though;itisthehighest,purestaspectofherbeing,andI’mverymovedtoseehowbeautifulsheis.Stephenasksaboutthepearlplaceanditspeople,andItellhimweareasphericalwayof

being.WhenIsaythis,Iseethepearlplaceasiffromadistance;itisaspheremadeupofallourspiritsjoinedtogether.Inthepearlplace,eventhoughwehaveourindividualspirits,weareequallyjoinedandpartoftheshiningsphere.(3)ItellStephenthisinaverymatter-of-factway,asabeingwhosimplyknowsthis.ThenIseethegodfromthebeginningofthejourneylookingdownonus.ItellStephenheis

notfromthepearlplace,notlikeus.Wearelikethegrasshoppersfromthefableabouttheantsandgrasshoppers—welovetoplayandlaughandmakebeautifulthings,andhere,unlikethefable,thereisnopunishment.ItellStephenthegodmadeusbecausewemakehimhappy.Hehasmanyresponsibilities,andhecomeshereforrelief.ThenIseemychannelopeninginthecrystal,andIstartwalkingthroughit.Stephenaskswhatthismeans,andItellhimweeachhaveaplace,likethis,wherewegoalone.Thechannelopensintoakindofarenaorvalleysurroundedbycrystalrockcliffsoneitherside.Sometimestheyappearlikecrystal(4),andsometimestheyarelikerocks.Iaminthecenter,andI’mholdingarockoracrystalinmyhand.ItellStephenthisiswherewecometolearnthingsandthen,whenwe’reready,wemoveintothebellyofawoman.Icansee,orIknow,thatfromabove,thechannelandthearenalooklikeawombandavaginalpassage.

One can tell fromAnne’s description howmoved shewas. There were tears in her eyes and a

beatific smile on her lips. She was in ecstasy. In this in-between place between the Earth and thecosmicpearlsphere,sheimaginedthatItouchedherhand,butmysenseisthatthiswasanassociation—andatouch—fromalifelongago.

I’mspellboundbytheplaceandkindofdriftpeacefullythere.BecausehethinksImightfallasleep,Stephenliftsmyarm.Theinstanthedoesso,IbecomeFatherWilliamwalking,handonstaff,uparockymountainpathwithinalandscapethatopensuptowardthebackareaofthepearlplace.I’minamonk’sgarb,andIfeelthesandalsonhisfeet,allcoveredwithdustfromwalkingmanymilesonhistravels.Imustbeinadeeptranceatthispoint,becauseFatherWilliamismorevividlypresentinmybodythananythingthathappenedbefore;myvoicechanges,andhisvoicespeaksthroughme,conversingwithStephen.HelivesnearSiena,inItaly,livinglikeahermitmonkinalittlehutinthewoods.Thelocalpeoplebringhimfood.Hehasmanymanuscriptsinthehut,someofwhichhereadsandsomeinwhichhewrites.Heisanoldmannowandveryweary.HetellsStephenhowhegaveupallthepleasuresoflove,family,andfriendstoserveGod;howhelearnedmanylanguages,studiedmanyteachings,andhowhetraveledtospreadGod’steachingstothepeople.StephenasksaboutFatherWilliam’steachings,wonderingifhisgodistheCatholicgod.FatherWilliamlaughsandsaysGod’sloveisforthepeople,andheismerelyaninstrumentthroughwhichthatlovecanflow.IfeelthatFatherWilliamisaverywise,compassionatesoul,pureinheartandmotive.StephenasksifFatherWilliamregretsleavingfamily,friends,andthepossibilityofmarriagebehind.Hegivesasoftsmileandpointsupward,saying,“Whatgreaterloveistherethanthis?”(meaningGod’slove)Thenhesays,“Besides,Ihavethebirdtokeepmecompany.”NowIcanseeatreebranchoutsidethewindowofthehut,andperchedonitisarainbow-

coloredbirdwhosingsbeautifulsongsforFatherWilliam.ThebirdtransformsintoanimageofChristwearingblueandwhiterobesandpointingtotheflamingsacredheart.FatherWilliamhasacceptedmuchhardshipgladlytofollowthepathofservinghisgod.Still,Icanfeelwithinhimagreatweariness.Stephenaskshowthislifeends,andIseeFatherWilliamsettingoutonhistravelsthroughthe

woods.Fortheveryfirsttime,insteadofforgingonward,hestopstorestbyastream,toenjoy

thepeaceandbeautythere.Andhediespeacefullywhilesittingtherebythestream,slumpingoverontothegrass.StephenasksmewhatsignificanceFatherWilliam’slifehasforme,andIbegintoweepagain,

saying,“Itcan’tbelikethat,itwastoohard,toohard.”AndthenIseethegod,backinthepearlplace,whotakesmeintohisarms,saying,“It’sallright,you’renotmeanttobethefatherthistime,you’remeanttobethechild…thebirdwhosingsthesongsofthesacredheart.”

This was such a beautiful and poignant experience, and I felt a deep gratitude to witness this

journey.InmyEarth-time,manyhourshadpassed.Iknew,however,thattoAnne,inthisstateofbliss,thiswasnot longatall.Shewasoutside time, ina lovelyplaceofserenity.Surelyanadvantageofdoingahousecall(somethingIrarelydo)istoallowthereclinedsojournertofloatintheecstasyandtosavorthemanymemoriesandfeelingsforaslongaspossible.Annewasfullofheartandspirit,andIsawthatthesegrandfeelingscouldcontinue.Itwastimeformetogobutnottimeforthecurtaintofallandtheplaytoend.Iresetthestage,suggestingthatsheremainlyingdownwhileIquietlyleft.

ThenStephenreadiesmetoendthesession.Wetalkalittle,thenheleaves.Butaftertheseremarkableexperiences,Iremaininaheightenedstateofawarenessforseveraldays.Duringtheeveningofthesession,Ioncemoreexperience,amongstotherthings,thegodcomfortingmeandtakingmeonanelevator,descendingdowntoafloor,whereIgetout.Iaskhim,“WhatamIsupposedtodonow?”Hegivesmetwosuitcases;Itakeoneineachhand,andhesays,“Youhaveeverythingyouneedinyourtwohands.”

LittledidAnneknowthatthesuitcasesweremorethansymbolic.Inthenextfewmonths,sheheard

aninnercallingtomovefurthersouth,toawarmerplacethatFatherWilliamwouldhaveenjoyed.Annefloatedonairfordays!Thesoulhadawakened—orperhaps,moreprecisely,thesoulhada

cleareraccesstotheeverydayconsciousmind.Thecorporateworldwasnownotsointeresting.Notice howAnne proactively engagedwith thememories and revelations as she concludes her

narrative:

Otherremarkablethingsoccurred.AlthoughIknewIcouldreturnto“normal”reality,Icontinuedtoallowtheexperiencestowashoverme.Itwasasthoughacurtainhadopenedandrevealedanotherreality,literallythetangibleexperienceofaspiritualreality,andIwantedtostayinitsflow.Acoupleofdayslater,IvisitedStephen’sofficeforanothersession,inparttohelpmeprocesstheremarkablethingsthathappened.Itookthesubwayandwalkedseveralblocks.Allthewhile,itwasasifIwasfloatinginanothermysticalreality.Iwasabletocrossbusystreetswithoutlookingatthecarsortrafficlights—somethingI’mnormallyverycautiousabout.ManypeopleturnedtheirheadsasIpassedandsmiled,asifsensingthepresenceinwhichIwasimmersed.AftertalkingwithStephen,wedidanotherregressionsession.Thistime,Iwasawhitebirdflyingsouthtoanislandinthemiddleoftheocean.Ifindamountainontheisland,andthegodfromtheprevioussessionisatthetop,waitingforme.Isitwithinhisarmslikeachildwithitsfather,feelingthebeautyofdivinelove.Then,asthewhitebird,Iflybacknorth.BelowmeIseetheUSA,specificallyFlorida,andIseethebirdlandthere.AlthoughinthepastIhadthoughtaboutmovingtoFlorida,Inowfullyunderstandit’saplaceI’mmeanttobe.Iwouldhavetowritemuchmoretofullydescribethesignificanceofthesesessionsand

follow-upeventsforme,butitwasakintotheCaravaggiopainting“TheConversionofSt.Paul,”inwhich,havinghadanexperienceofGod,St.Paulliterallyfallsoffhishorse.Sincethenmylifehasbeenanattempttocometotermswiththeexperience.Subsequentreadingshave

affirmedtomethatwhathappenedwasakintothefirststageofawakening—oracalltothemysticpath.

AnnemovedfromthecolderclimateandboughtanapartmentneartheoceaninFlorida.Shefound

manyways to relaxand toenjoy life, includinggettingapuppy toaccompanyheronbeachwalks.Sincethesession,shehastakenaveryprofoundturninherrelationshipwithherbodyandherhealth.Ilearnedaboutthepositivechangesthroughlatercorrespondence:

I’mconsciousofwantingmybodytobestrongerfor,andmoreinvitingto,spiritualexperienceslikethis.Prayer,meditations,andself-hypnosishelpedmetofinallyquitsmokingand,moreimportantly,completelysurrenderthedesiretosmoke.I’malsomoreconsciousthatmyfoodiscomprisedoflifeforms,andthatIwishtoeat,forsurewithpleasurebutalsowiththankfulnessandinmoderation.InsimilarwaysIseektobeawareofmyownnegativeenergiesandhabits,andinagentle,self-forgivingway,transformthemintomorepositivepractices.

IwasespeciallyimpressedwithAnne’sprofoundprofessionalchanges.Sheisplanningongoing

part-timewithhercorporatejobandhasalreadydownsizedherpossessionsandpressures.Hernewattitudeatworkisnothinglessthanamazing.Simplicityandserenityarehercompanionsnow.I knew that our spiritual sessions, especially the life-between-lives integration sessions,were of

profoundvaluetoAnne,butwhenIaskedhertosharemoreofherjourneyforthisbook,Iwasverymovedandhumbledtolearntheextenttowhichshewaspositivelyaffected.Mysenseisthatshehadalways been ready and willing; now the time was right, and I had the tools to offer her at theappointedtime.Therestwasmagicanddivinegrace.Anne is looking intoways to aid others in and out of theworkplace and to artistically express

herself again, be that through painting or singing the song of the sacred bird. The attunement isreached,andthemysticisreborn.Theartistisagainconnectedtothemuse—consciously.Threeandahalfyearsafterourfirsthypnoticsession,Annesharedthefollowingwithme:

Mydailylifehaschangeddramatically.AlthoughIhadgraduallyreturnedtoalessheightenedstate,Inonethelessstillfeltthecallofthedivine,andIsawandcontinuetoseetheindescribableloveIhadfeltineverylivingbeing.Istriveinallmyactionstobeattunedtothisspiritualrealm,tobeascloseasIcancometotheperfectloveandunionthatwasrevealedtome.Intheclassicterminologyusedbymystics,Iamnowonapathtoseektheunitivestate,aonenesswithGod.Inowseemydesiretoeventuallyreturntoart-makingassomethingIwoulddotoservethisgreaterrealmofspirit.Before,IwalkedinoneworldontheEarthplane.Now,Iamconsciouslylearninghowtolive

andwalkbetweentwoworlds:theEarthplaneandthedifferentaspectsofthespiritualplane.Iaminterestedinallspiritualtraditionsandpractices,andstudysubjectsIhadnoparticularinterestinbefore:shamanism,Buddhism,Taoism,Christianmysticism,psychicdevelopment,tarot,transpersonalhypnosis…IneverythingIdo,IseekasbestIcantobeachannelforthedivinelovefromthespiritplane.AsIreflectuponallthesechanges,Iwouldhavetosaytheopeningtothedivinethroughthis

sessionwasprobablythesinglemostimportanteventofmylife.

(1)ThesubjectinthiscaseusesanumberofreligioussymbolstodescribeherfeelingsaboutthedivineexperiencesheishavinginherLBLsession.Someinvolvearchetypessuchasarobedholyfigurewithlongwhitehairormetaphoricvisualizationswithanall-seeingeyeormore

traditionalChristiandeclarations.Foranoverviewofdeifiedentitiesreportedbylargenumbersofhypnosissubjects,seereferencestothePresenceinDS243-251andGodinJS122.

(2)Firstencountersoffriendlyspirits:JS27.(3)Sphericalvisionsduringthesoul’stransitionphasehome:JS73.(4)Visualizingcrystalenclosures,stones,etc.arecommonwithLBLclients.Theyappeartorepresentthebalancingofvibrationalenergythatenhancesthoughtandfostersrejuvenationofthereturningsoul.Seemeaningofspiritualsettingsinvolvingcrystal,DS91,134andLBLH106.

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THEweatherWHISPERER

SusanWisehart(CHICAGO,ILLINOIS)

HOLISTICPSYCHOTHERAPIST,LICENSEDMARRIAGEANDFAMILYTHERAPIST,AND

AUTHOROFSOULVISIONING.

Elaine’sstoryillustratestheeffectivenessofLBLhypnotherapyinhelpingaclienttogainclarityanddirectionconcerningrelationships,issuesneedingresolution,andthepurposeshecametofulfillinhercurrentlifetime.Amotheroftwoandformerprofessionalinthecorporateworld,ElainehadbeenincouplescounselingpriortocomingtomeforanLBLregression.Hermarriagewasverytroubled,andshefeltdisempowered.“IwasgivingmypowerawaytothepointwhereIwasnolongertakingcareofmyselforenjoyingmylife,”sheexplained.AfterElaine’ssession,Ifollowedupwithinterviewsafteroneyearandagainaftertwoyearsto

determinethelong-termbenefitsthatLBLbroughttoherlife.Thefollowingisaneditedsummaryofthoseinterviews.Elaine’spathhasalreadybeguntotakeanintriguingdirectiontowardamostunusualmodeofservicetohumanityandourenvironment.

INMYROLEas a holistic psychotherapist and amarriage and family therapist, I oftenworkwithpeoplewhowantinsightconcerningtheirpurposeasasoul,theirpurposewithintheirprimarysoulgroup, and the lessons that they incarnated to learn through their relationships. I look at allrelationshipsfromtheperspectiveofthesoul.Whatsoulcontractsweremadepriortothislifetime?Whatdoeseachrelationshipandlifesituationhavetoteachus?Whatpatternspersistfrompreviousincarnationsthatarestillaffectingourrelationships?I have found that life-between-lives regression facilitates a deeperunderstandingof howwecan

clear the unconscious barriers that interfere with our ability to create a joyful, soul-inspired life.Whenwebecomeawareofoursoulcontractswithpeopleinourpresentlifetime,withthosewehaveknowninotherlives,andwiththoseinourprimarysoulgroup,wemaystepoutofthevictimroleandappreciatethatwehavechosenourexperiencesasourclassroom.DuringElaine’sLBLsession,sheeasilyregressedbacktosomeofherhappychildhoodmemories,

thenintothecomfortofhermother ’swomb,eagerlyanticipatingherbirthintothislifetime.WhenItransitioned her from the womb into her immediate past life, Elaine remembered a significantlifetimeasanAfrican-Americanmotherworkinginatanningfactory:

Iwassurprisedtofindmyselfasawomanwhohadbeenraisedinalow-incomeenvironmentinNewYorkCity.Iwasverypoorandhadbeautifulchildren.IwasbeateninthatlifebecauseIwasblack.Thebeatingswereontheleftsideofmybody.Interestingly,allofthemedicalailmentsthathaveplaguedmeinmycurrentlifehavebeenonmyleftside—abrokenlegandarm,stitchesonmyleftsidefrombirthingmychildren,anepiduralthatworkedonmyrightsidebutnottheleft,andinjuriestomyleftsidefromadogattack.WhenIrun,Idragmyleftleg.Iam

workingtobalancethatout,allowingthatlefthalfofmybodytobejustascelebratedasmyrightside.

It is revealing tonote that the left sideof thebody isconsidered the feminineside,andmanyof

Elaine’spastliveswereexperiencedasawomaninasubservientrole.Forexample,inanotherpast-life regression,Elaine discovered that as a small child inChina, shewas immobilized in a box topreventherfromstrugglingasherfeetwerebound,andshelosthersenseoffreedom.Tothisday,Elainehasclaustrophobicfeelingsinanyclosequarters.DuringherLBLsherecognizedthatherex-husband,whomshedescribesashavingpoweroverher in thisandother lifetimes,was thevillagefoot-binder in thatChinese incarnation.Herpresent-daysoulmatewasa friend in thatChinese lifewhousedtounbindherfeetandtakeherforridesonhisback.

Inmycurrentlife,Ihavebeenathleticwithapredominantlymasculineside.Inthecorporateworld,Iwasviewedasaverystrong-mindedperson.Thatstrengthwasneveracceptedreadilyfromawoman.SoIambalancingthoseissuesthroughmymotheringrole.Iteachmychildrenthatwomencanbestrong,notonlyemotionallybutalsophysically.MydeathintheAfrican-Americanlifetimecamewhenmylungsfailed;Ihadworkedfora

glovemanufacturer,breathinginthetanningchemicalstheywereusing.Irememberhavingalotofdifficultybreathingatmydeath.

ItransitionedElainethroughthedeathsceneintothespiritrealm,whereshewaswarmlyreceived

byherguides:

Thebetweenstatewasthisamazingplaceoflove,energy,andacceptance.Myspiritguideswerenotinhumanform.Theyweremorelikelightbeings,sowhenIneededtorecognizethem,theyshowedmevariouspartsofahumanformorsymbolsformetoidentifythemby.Iwasstandinginthecenter,andeveryonewasmovingaroundme.Theyweresohappytohavemethere.IrealizedthatIamneveralone,andthelovethatthesespiritssharedformewasunconditional.Ifelttearsofjoyrollingdownmyfacetheentiretime.

Elainewaswelcomedwithgreatcelebrationbyherprimarysoulgroupofpeopleimportantinher

life.Her soulmate in her current lifetime greeted her and took her to the library,where shewasshownimportantinformationaboutherlifepurpose.

ELAINE:Oneindividualinmyprimarygroup,whomIlaterrecognizedasmysoulmate,walkedmeovertothisbook(partofavastlibrary).AlthoughIdidn’tfeelintimidated,Ididn’tknowwhathewantedfromme.IwastoldthatIneededtokeeplearning.Thefourwordsinthebook—awareness,discipline,education,andfortitude—havebecomeveryimportantreminderssincethen,guidingmeaboutwhatIneedtodevelopinmylife.MorewasrevealedtomeatmymeetingwiththeCouncilofEldersaboutwhatthesewordsmeant.SUSAN:Whoelsedidyourecognizeinyoursoulgroup?E:Mydeceasedgrandfatherwasthere.Ibeganseeingaurasasachild,andhenotonlyhelpedmefeelunderstoodbutacceptedmeforthescattered,wildchildthatIwas.Irecognizedmyfather(whoisalivetoday),oneofmysisters,ahigh-schoolteacherofminewhohadcommittedsuicide,andawomanwhocallsherselfMalena.Malenaisnotincarnatednowbuthasalwaysbeenanall-knowing,maternalfigureinmylife.IhaveknownherinmyheartandsensedheraroundmesinceIwasalittlegirl.Itwaswonderfultorecognizetheonesoulwhomostunderstoodme,whowasthemost

nurturing.Heismycurrentpartnerinthislife.Irealizedthatmyrelationshipwithhimneedstobenurturedinthislifetime,andthatitismydestinytobewithhim.S:Howdidthatdestinyunfoldforyou?E:Ifinallyhadthecouragetodowhatmysoulknewwasrightforme.Iunderstoodmymarriagewasoverbutdidn’tleavemyhusbandrightawaybecauseIfeltitwasmydutytolethimknowaboutmygrowingawarenessofthespiritworld.Wehadconversationsaboutthat,butIrealizedthathewasjustgoingthroughthemotionsoflistening,andthatdeepdown,hedidnotrespectmyspiritualpath.Itwasdifficultformetosay,“Ineedtoleavenow.”Hewasangryatfirst,buteventuallyIwasabletomoveon.Hehasalsomovedonandremarried.Wesharetheparentingofourdaughters.

Elaine’srelationshipwithherhusbandwasmateriallybased.Onceagain,sherealized,shehadsteppedintoasubservientroleandhadlostherself.Shedidnotfeelsupportedorunderstoodforherspiritualgrowthandpassionforlife.Elaineeventuallyconfrontedherfearsofleaving.Sheknewthatinthislifetime,sheneededtoleavebehindtheroleofemotionallyabusedvictim.(1)

S:Whatelsedidyoulearninthatrelationship?E:Tostaytruetomyself,Ihadtolearncourageandfortitude.Ihavetoremainbalancedandfocusedinmyrelationshipwithmyex-husbandandnotgivemypoweraway.IalsolearnedintheLBLthatImustembracethehumanexperienceasbeingimperfect.That’sabigoneforme.I’mnotaperfectionist,butIamhardonmyself.Ialwayshadtobenumberoneintherace,Ialwayshadtobethebest,butIhavelearnedfromtheLBLthatimperfectionisperfection.

AsherLBLcontinued,ElaineexperiencedameetingwithherCouncilofElders,whereshewasfurtherinstructedaboutherlifepurpose.

S:Whatwasyourmeetingwiththecouncillike?E:Itwaslighthearted.Iwasstandinginaroomwithwhitemarblefloorsandasemicirculartable,andtherewerethreelightbeingsofindigoandgoldcolors.Theirmessagetomewastolightenup:“Youhavealotofworktodo,butyoucanenjoydoingit.”Theyrepeatedtheimportanceofdevelopingawareness,discipline,education,andfortitude,becausethesewerethequalitiesIneededtodevelopinmycurrentlifetimetofulfillmypurpose.Partofthatpurposeistoremembermywholenessasaspiritualbeingandtoexpressthat

knowinginmylife’swork.ThereissomethingsignificantthatIneedtodotohelpEarth’shealthandawareness,somepurposerelatedtoweatherandgeologicchanges.WhenIaminameditativestate,Ibecomemoreattunedtoweatherpatternsandseismicactivity.Icantellwhattheweatherisgoingtobelikebeforeithappens.IsensedanearthquakethathappenedinJapanacoupleofweeksago.

Elaine’sweather-relatedpurposebecamemuchclearertohermanymonthsafterthesession,assheexplainsbelow.

E:TheLBLtaughtmethatIneedtobecomemoreconscious(aware)ofmyinnerguidance,throughwhichIcanreceivetheinstruction(education)fordevelopingmytalents.Also,IrealizedthatIneedtodevelopthestrength(fortitude)anddisciplinetostayfocusedonmyspiritualpath.MymeetingwiththeCouncilofEldersandtheentirepositiveLBLexperiencegavemethe

confidencetomoveforwardandmakemajorlifechanges.AfterIleftanemotionallyabusivemarriage,inwhichmyspiritualinterestswereridiculed,Imetmysoulmate,andhesupportsalllevelsofmybeing.IamthehappiestIhaveeverbeen,andIamdevelopingmytalentstobeofservicetothisplanet.(2)

AboutayearafterherLBLsession,IspokewithElainetofindouthowherlifehadchanged.Shehadalreadybenefitedgreatlyfromtheexperience.Itgavehertheinsightandcouragetobetruetoherself.Guidedby the recollectionofher soul’spurpose, shewasable to leavea relationship thatwasnotworkingforherandtobewithhersoulmate.Thiswasanimportantstep,tobeabletobeherselfinalovingrelationship that fostershergrowth.Shebrokeamulti-incarnationalpatternofsubservienceandvaluedherselfenoughtofollowhersoul’sguidanceandpurposeforherlife.Elaine and her new partner were clearly happy and well suited to one another, and shared a

common purpose to be of service to others. The children were benefiting by seeing a loving,respectful,balancedrelationshipbetweenthesetwopeople.Theywerenegotiatingthechallengesofablendedfamilywithloveandmaturity.Elainehadgainedself-confidenceandwasmoreintouchwithherintuitivecapacities.Shecontinuedtoapplyawareness,discipline,education,andfortitudetoeveryareaofherlife.TwoyearsafterherLBLsession,IagaincontactedElainetodiscoverwhatfurtherdevelopmentshadoccurredinherlife.Sheisnowhappilymarriedtohersoulmate.Theirblendedfamilyisworkingouttheadjustmentsthatcomewiththetransitionsofanewfamilyconstellation.Hercurrenthusbandhasdonehisownpast-lifeandLBLwork,discoveringthepatternsandlessonsthathecarriedintothislifetime.Elainecontinuestogrowinherspiritualpursuitsandstudies.Shesharedanincrediblestoryabout

howherlifepurposeisunfolding,whichistohelpfacilitatethisplanet’shealingandtofindabalancebetweenhumanity’sneedsandEarth’senvironment.

MynewhusbandandIfeltdrawntotraveltoPeru,stronglysensingthatwewouldmeetthepeoplethatweneededtomeet.Becauseoneofourflightswascancelled,wehadtotakea6½-hourtaxiridethroughtheAndeanmountainstoourdestinationnearLakeTiticaca.At1AM,werandomlypickedahosteltostayin.Tooursurprise,itwasoneblockfromthehomeoftheauthorofabookthatwehadrecentlyread.Healsorunsatourbusinessthere.Whenwevisited,hisnephewofferedtoconductatailor-madetourofthesacredislandsonLakeTiticaca.Afterwetoldhimourstoryandinterests,heofferedtotakeustolittle-knownplacesandperformsomeofthespiritualritualsthataren’tnormallysharedwithtourists.Oneoftheislandshetookustohastwotemples—oneforMotherEarthandanotherfor

FatherEarth.Hearrangedforustostaywithanindigenousfamilyonthisisland.Ourhostesstoldusabitabouttheirlifeandhowdifficultithadbeen.WewerethereinNovember,andithadn’trainedsinceJune.Theywereveryworried,asalmosteverythingthattheyeatcomesfromtheirbackyard.Wedidaritualtoaskpermissiontogotothe13,000-footsummitoftheisland.Atthetopof

thissacredplaceisacircletemplemadeofrocks.Ourguidesharedabeautifulceremonyinhisnativelanguageandthensaid,“Wehaveaboutfifteenminutestodowhateveryoufeelyouneedtobedoing,becauseitisstartingtogetdark.”Intuitivelyknowingexactlywheretogo,Iwalkedtoacliffthatoverlookedthelake,andImeditatedwiththeintentofbringingraintothisparchedsoil.Withmyeyesopen,Isawbeforemeagrid.Iwasphysicallyshaking,feelingintenseheatandenergy.Istartedtodoubtmyself:WhoamItothinkthatIcanbringraintothisplacethat

hasn’thadraininfivemonths?ButthenIfeltIwasn’talone.Therewereotherenergiesfacilitatingthis,andIneededtostandfast.Rightbehindme,Isensedanamazinglystrongsourceofloveandacceptance.Istayedforanotherfiveminutes,thenIfeltmyworkwascomplete.Aswetookourfirststepdowntowardthetrail,thefirstraindropfell.Itpouredalldayandall

nightlong.Thewomanwithwhomwewerestayingwaselatedandgrateful,exclaiming,“Nowyouhavetostay!”

Elaine’sapparentability tomanipulateweatherpatterns isconsistentwithmanyNativeAmerican

andshamanistictraditionsthatacknowledgepeoplewhoareknownasrainmakers.Althoughitmayonlyhavebeenacoincidence that rainoccurred justafterherexperience,and theremightbeotherexplanations,toElaineitwasapowerfulvalidationthatsheisontherightpath.Herconfidenceinherabilitieshasgrown tremendouslyafter this amazingdemonstration.Elaine is committed toher lifepurposeofhelpingtheplanetwithweather-relatedissues.Elaine’s story demonstrates what can happen when a person is ready to change their life and

reclaimtheirtrueself.HerLBLsessionhelpedElainetoknowthatsheisneverreallyalone.ThelasttimeIsawElaineandherhusband,theywereradiantandhappyinfulfillingtheirmutualpurposeofservice.IlookforwardtofollowingElaine’scontinuingprogressandachievements.

(1)Weoftenseearepetitionofthesamekarmiclessonoveranumberoflives.Theimmortalcharacterofthesoul,whichchangesslowlyovertime,doesplayaroleherewhenyouconsiderthattheindividualhumantemperamentandemotionalchemistryofeachbodyisdifferent.Thenotionthatweroutinelycleanupallourpastkarmiclessonsattheendofeachlifeisnotreallyaccurateinmostcases.Ourworkonvariousissuesoftentakeslonger.Also,formoreanalysisabouttheassumptionofbeingpartneredwiththe“wrong”personinlife,seeLBLH131-132.

(2)Ishouldstressthefactthatratherthanappearingbeforeapanelofjudgesinfrontofourcouncil,clientsquicklyrealizetheyarefacingagroupofwiseguidancecounselorswhoaretypicallygentleintheirquestions.Inmostmeetingswiththesoul,regardlessofourpastmistakes,theeldersdonottelluswhatweshoulddoinourfuturebutratherallowustofindourselvesthroughanindulgentSocraticapproach.SeeDS210-212.

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TWOSUICIDES

JoelleMcGonagle(PORTLAND,OREGON)

NGH-CERTIFIEDHYPNOTHERAPISTANDREGISTEREDCOUNSELORSPECIALIZINGINMIND/BODY/SPIRITREGRESSIONTHERAPY.

Thisstoryillustrateshowlifeeventsarepartofagreaterplanandhowcontractswithoursoulmatesarecarefullyarrangedtobeapartofthatplan.Griefisahardlesson,butinthiscase,weseehowRosanneisabletounderstandwhytheexperiencesofhertormentedlifearemeanttohelphergrow.

ROSANNECAMETOmebecauseshewassufferinggreatlyfromthelingeringgriefandinnerpainresulting from the loss of two of her closest andmost cherished familymembers. They had bothcommittedsuicide.Overtheyears,shehadtriedmanythingstoheal—conventionaltherapy,traveling,stayinghome,

andburyingherselfinherwork,aswellasspendingsignificanttimeoffofwork.Sinceshelovesart,shealsotriedart therapy,aswellasexpressingherself inseveralartmediumsto try toreleaseherdeep,lingeringgrief.Nothingseemedtohelp.Ofthisperiodinherlife,shetoldme,“Mylifehadbeenshattered.There

wasahugeblackholeinside.Ijustcouldn’trecover.”Shealsocomplainedofexperiencingrecurringnightmares,ofhavingsuicidalfantasiesherself,andofcripplinglowself-esteem.Rosanne grew up in a dysfunctional and emotionally cold home. Estranged from her verbally

abusivemothersinceearlychildhood,herolderbrother,Ben,hadbeenheronlyallyandtheonlyoneinherfamilyshefeltshecouldtrust.Hewashersurrogatemother,herprotector,andherbestfriend.Herfatherwasseldomathomeandwasemotionallydistantwhenhewasthere.Sheandherbrotherwereextremelycloseallthroughherchildhood.Shefelthewastheonlyonewhoreallylovedher,andheronlypositivechildhoodmemorieswereofthetwoofthemplayinghappilytogether.When he was just seventeen years old, Ben committed suicide. Although her family tried to

convinceRosanneitwasanaccidentaldeath,sheknewthetruth.Hehadoverdosedontheirmother ’slargeselectionofprescriptiondrugs.Rosannewasdevastatedandwouldremainsoformanyyearstocomewhileshestruggledwithher

guiltandself-blame,shame,anger,abandonment,loneliness,andself-esteemissues.Eventoday,shefelttheremusthavebeensomethingsheshouldhaveorcouldhavedonetochangethings—thatifshehadsomehowbeendifferent,Benwouldstillbeherewithhertoday.Foryears,hermindreplayedthedaysbeforehisdeath,overandoveragain.Itisatestamentofherinnerstrength,aswellasofthedysfunctionofherfamily,thatshewasthe

onewhoendedupmakingallofthearrangementsforherbrother ’sfuneral,casket,andburial.Shewasonlyfifteenyearsold.

Shegrewuptobeastruggling,middle-agedsinglemotheroftwoadolescentsons.Heryoungestson,Andrew,wasdiagnosedasbipolar.Duringhisadolescence,shewatchedhelplesslyashebegantodevelopthesymptomsofschizophrenia.Afterseveralrockyandagonizingteenageyearsofroller-coastingemotionallyandphysically,hetoocommittedsuicide.Hewasalsoonlyseventeenyearsold.Rosannewasnowcompletelyandutterlydevastated.Convincedthatifshehadjustbeentherefor

him more—been more loving, more understanding, more something—this never would havehappened.Shenowbelieved thatshemusthavebeenaverybadparentaswell,andherself-esteemwasatrockbottom:

Whenmysonfirstdied,Iwenttoatherapist.Wedidalotofworktogether,andIfinallywasabletogobacktowork,butmysoulwasgone.Iwasjusttoobrokentopullittogetheranymore.Iwasonmedicationfordepression,buttheinnerpainwassobad.IthoughtIdeservedmypain.

Perhapsthemostdamagingbeliefshewascarryingwasthatshenolongerdeservedanyhappiness

orgoodthingstocomeintoherlife.Shebelievedthatsincetheseterribleeventshadhappenedtoher,the inability toprevent the twosuicidesprovedthatshewasnotworthyofanyadditional love, joy,success,orhappiness inher future.Shebegan tohavemoregraphicsuicidal fantasies,envisioningherselfjumpingoffacliffinabeautifulwhitedress,atlastnolongerfeelingheremotionalpain.Thisistheroadmyclienthadbeendownwhenshecametoseemeovertwoyearsago.Ifeltwe

neededtodosomepreliminaryhypnosistherapysessionstoprepareherfortheintenseandin-depthexperienceofspiritualregression.Webeganbydoingsomeconventionalhypnosissessions:usingsuggestionsandimagerytohelp

herfeelmorerelaxedandatpeace.Wethendidsomechildhoodandpast-liferegressionsessionsaswell.Theseinitialsessionshelpedher toreleasesomeof thegriefandemotionalpainthatshewascarrying, and begin to identify and untangle someof the distorted beliefs that she had acquired inotherlivesandacceptedastrueinhercurrentlife.Weexploredafewrelatedpastlivesinwhichshestruggledtosurvive,oftenhungry,scramblingto

getenoughfooddayafterday.Oneofherbeliefsthatweuncoveredinthesesessionswasthatlifehastobehard.Someoftheotherbeliefsandthemeswefoundintheseliveswerethatnoonereallycares;there’snotalotofjoyinlife,onlymomentsofnotbeingafraid;andchildrendieoften.Theselivesallcontributedtohercurrentbeliefthatlifehastobearduous.Thereweremanypastliveswheresheexperienceddemandingwork.Intheselives,sheexperienced

a variety of limitations and restrictions. She said, “I don’t have a choice. I don’t have enough ofanything,notfoodorclothes.I’mcoldandhungrymostofthetime.Therewerelivesofunfairnessandinequityaswell;asaserf,aslave,andapoorfarmer.Myheadwaschoppedoffinoneoftheselives.”Atthispoint,IdecideditwouldbebesttopostponeRosanne’simmediatepast-lifereviewuntilwewerereadytoenterthespiritworld.(1)Aswemoveddeeperintotherelationshipbetweentheseformerlifeissuesandherchallenginglife

today,shehadthemomentousrealizationthatallofthesedifficultliveshadhelpedhertounderstandandexplorethemanyfacesofpowerlessness.Tobalancethisexploration,wealsoreviewedafewofherhappy,loving,andpeacefullivesasa

way to strengthenRosanne’spresenthumanegoby integratingher soul’spast experienceofbeingsafeandloved.Ourchildhoodregressionsessionsfocusedonhelpinghertoresolvethestill-troubledrelationship

withhercurrentmother.Stillself-centered,unhappy,andunabletogetoutsideofherownneeds,hermother was unaware of the pain she had caused her daughter. And remembering all this in ourchildhoodregressionsessions,Rosannestillfelt likehervictim:“Ifeelsocheated.Somuchwould

havebeendifferentifIhadbeennurtured,”shetoldmesadly.Aftertheseinitialsessions,myclientbegantofeelmoreatpeaceandcenteredinherlife.Shewas

lessdepressedaswell.Itwasnowtimetodothelife-between-livessession.Theresultswerespectacular!Rosannewasabletoconnectdeeplyinhersessionwiththesoulsof

both her brother and her son, seeing and knowing them to be glowingly happy and at peace. Sheremembered and at last understood clearly that the three of them had lovingly planned this lifetogethertochallengeRosanne’scourage.Duringthebeginningofherlife-between-livessession,aswemoveintoherprenatalexperiencein

thewombofhermother,Rosannerealizesthathermother ’scoolnessbeganhere.“Shedoesn’twanttobepregnantwithanotherchild.It’slikeI’mnothuman.Shedoesn’twantme.”Rosannefeelsherselfarmoringherselfagainsttherejectionsheknowswillcome.Aswecontinuewithoursession,Iregressmyclientintohermostrecentpastlife.Shefindsherself

asa frailyoungwomanofeighteen, livingwithher family ina smallvillage.She remembershercozyhome,herbusy,happyfamily,andtheyoungerbrothershelovesdeeplyandoftencaresfor.Caught in the crossfire of a battle inWorldWar II, shedies alone in themudnear her family’s

small thatched-roofhome.“Wecan’toutrun the tanks.Theground isvibrating. I’mdisoriented:onmyhandsandknees,Ican’tgetup.Ican’tstaywithmyfamily.I’mterrified.Idon’tunderstandwhat’shappening. It looks and smells like hell. I never get off that hill.”And finally, “I’m high up now,lookingdown.”Sherealizesthateveninherimmediatepastlife,shewasawareoffeelingthatifshehadjustbeen

strongerandfaster,shemighthavebeenabletosaveherbrotherandherself.Thisthemewastobecontinuedevenmorestronglyinherpresentlife.Asshefloatsaway,it’sverybrightallaroundher.“Ithinkthis(thebrightness)isjusttomakeme

feelgood.Ilovethewayitfeels.”Eightpurple lights then surroundher.Her first thought is that theyare spiritualguardsof some

sort.“Theywanttotalktome,tomakesurethere’snothingleftoverfromEarth.Theyknowifyou’recarryingsomethingtraumaticback.”Theyfadeaway,andsherealizestheywereloving,rejuvenatingsoulbeingswhoweretheretohelphercomehome.(2)She then says, “I’m not alone anymore. A friend is helping me now. It’s the light that was

surroundingme, lettingmeknowhe’shere. I think it’smy spirit guide, Jason.He’s a clear, brightlight.I’masimpleshapenow—ayellow-orangelight.“NowI’mrollingonagrassyhill.It’spurejoy,sohealing,it’slikebeingakidagain.It’shealing

mefromthat life.Mylittlebrother(fromthelife just leftbehind) is there too.We’re like twolittlepuppy dogs, rolling down the hill. There’s no judgment here. I could be any age.The grass is sogreenandsoft.Thehillisjustperfect.Allthecolorsaresobright.”Then she is aware of a whitemarble bench where she and Jason go to talk about her recently

completedlife.(3)ButRosannewantstomeetrightawaywiththe“oldwisesouls,”asshecallsthem,anddoesn’twanttostayonthebenchorjoinhersoulgroup.AswearriveatthespaceoftheCouncilofElders,shefindsherselfinaGreeksettingwherethere

arewhitemarblepillars.Sheisjoinedtherebysix“wisewhite-hairedbeingsinwhiterobes”aroundatablethatsheexperiencesasbeingalittleaboveher.(4)Shecommentsthattheyseemlargertoherthan she is.Theywait quietly until she is ready to begin.The twobeings in the center begin theirmeeting.Theycommunicatelovinglytoher,helpinghertorememberthatthekeyfocusofhercurrentlife

has been courage. Her main goal in this life has been to be stronger and more courageous bydemonstratingtoherselfhowstrongshecanbeinthefaceofintensepainandadversity.She remembers clearly now that her immortal soul self has orchestrated in great detail the

adversityofherdifficult,lonelychildhoodandthechallengesofherlifeasasinglemother.Eventhetwoawfulsuicidesthataffectedherlifesodeeplywerecarefullyplannedinordertochallengeandbolsterhercourageandinnerstrength.Sheunderstandsthatthislifeisonlyoneinawholeseriesoflivesplannedtohelphergainthestrengthandcouragethathersoulisseeking.Thedifficultpastliveswehadexploredweresomeexamplesofthislesson.Theelderswanthertoknowthatherson,Andrew,isanoldsoulwhohaddonejustwhathehad

agreedtodotohelphertogrow,andthatshehadhelpedhimdownhispathaswell.Adifficultandheadstrongchild,shehadbeenabletogivehimthefreedomtobehimself,keeping

him safe without judging him. Because of her support and love, he had a full life during thoseseventeen years in spite of his mental illness. Letting go of him after his death was part of herchallengeinthislifeaswell,sherealizes.Andsheknewthatshehadfulfilledherpartofthebargain.In addition to shedding light on a variety of other questions that Rosanne had about important

events in her life today, the wise ones also remind her of her need to differentiate between herstrength and her stubbornness. She realizes that while stubbornness is sometimes considered anoffshootofstrength,courageandstubbornnessareverydifferentqualities.Theeldersalsocommunicatetoherthattheywanthertorejuvenateherselfmoreoften.Theytell

hersheneedstoprotectherselfmorefromherownguiltandself-blame—thatshehasbeentoohardonherself.“Ineedmoreself-love.It’sallOK.”SherealizeswithcertaintythatithasneverbeenherfaultorlackoftenacitythathascreatedthesechallengesinherlifebutratherthecarefulplanningandagreementofseveralsoulstohelpRosanne’ssoulbecomeevenstronger.Attheendofhertimewiththeelders,theyremindhertotakeresponsibilityforherpsychicgifts,

somethingshe’dhadahardtimeacknowledginguntilthen.Rosanne sees her son Andrew outside of the council chamber, and she goes to meet him. He

appearstohernowasshewasneverabletoseehiminthislife:mature,wise,bright,andstrong,anolderman.“HethanksmeforthestrengthandcourageIhaddemonstratedwhenhewasgrowingup.He’saskingmetokeepbeingstrongforhisstill-livingbrother.He’ssorryhehadtoputmethroughsomuchpain.”HerdearbrotherBenis theretoo.“He’sbeingagoofball.Hewantsmetobehappy, tolaugh, to

findjoy.Helovesme.”Sheaskshimwhyhelefther.“He’sshowingmenowthathispathwasclosedoff early in this life, and that his death was also a part of the bigger plan. We both needed toexperiencehisdeathforourgrowth.Ineededtofindthestrengthandcouragetomovebeyondit.”Asoursessioncontinues,thepowerfuleventsofherlifearenowshownintheirtruelight.Rosanne

nowfullyunderstands that rather thanbeinga testimony towhat shedoesnotdeserve,her lifehasbeenacarefullyplannedwayforher toexerciseandfortifyhersoul’s innerstrength,wisdom,andcourage.“I’mbeinggiventhechancetoredosomethings.Iseethatnow.”Shealsorealizesthathervariousphysicalailmentsarecausedbybeingsohardonherself.“Ineed

tolightenup.Nomatterhowyouprepare,thingshappen.”Sheisalsotoldthatshecangetridofherconstantphysicalpainbynotbeingsostubborn.“Ineedtolearnthedifferencebetweenstubbornnessandinnerstrength,andlearntoletsomethingsgo,becauseIcan’tcontroleverything.”Sheisgratefulasthesessionends.Today,twoyearslater,withthesepowerfulandlife-changinginsights,Rosannehasbeenabletogofrombeing a victim to consciously connectingwith the inner empowerment she has so long beenseeking.Asthepiecesofherlifefallintoplaceforher,Rosannecontinuestoleaveheridentityasavictimbehind.Sheunderstandsnowthat“Mothersetmeupfornothavingcourage—bygivingmenofoundation

andnogrounding.ShemademebelieveIwasweakifIaskedforhelp.Thatmademeseekoutmany

waystotakecareofmyself,whichultimatelyhelpedtocreatetheinnerstrengthIwasseeking.Allthiswasbydesign.”As she continues to shift her perspective from victim to empowered, Rosanne has been able to

identifymanyinstancesofherowncourageandstrength.Thishasgreatlyhelpedhertofindpeaceinherlifetoday.Sheseesthecourageittooktogoonafterherbelovedbrotherdied.Sheunderstandsthatshemadeaconsciouschoicetobebraveafterhersondiedsothathisteenagefriendswouldbebetterabletogoonwiththeirlivestoo.Andshecontinuestohaveinsightsdaily.TheunderstandingandknowledgeshegainedinherLBLsessionhasbeenabsolutelylife-changing

forher.Shehasbeenabletomoveforwardinherlifeatlast,leavingbehindhersenseofhorrorandnever-healing wounds that the suicides had created. And knowing that these two close familymembersaredoingjustfineandareexactlywheretheyaremeant tobehasgivenher thepeaceofmindthatshewassearchingsodesperatelyforinlife.Sheknowsclearlynowthatsheistogoonwithherlifewithjoyandhappiness.“I’mlearningto

relaxandenjoylife.Thingsaren’tblackorwhiteanymore.Loveiseverywhere.Theywantmetoseetherainbows.”

(1)Deathscenesintheclient’smostimmediatepastlifeareusuallythemosteffectivewaytobringtheLBLclientthroughthegatewayintothespiritworld.Thisisbecausethatliferepresentsthemostrecententryintotheafterlife,sotheirmemoriesaremorevivid.SeeLBLH65-73.

(2)Apparently,thisclient’ssoulentrydidnotrequireimmediaterestorationofenergyatthegateway.SeeDS90-92.(3)Oneoftenfindstheseidyllicscenesasapreludetoorientation.SeeJS53-70,DS90-92,andLBLH109.(4)Becauseofhumanstereotypes,theeldersareoftenportrayedinthemindsofhypnosissubjectsasold,white-hairedbeings—mostlymen.Thissortofvisualizationdenotesbeingsofwisdominthehumanmind,sothecharacterizationisappliedtospiritualcouncilsettings.Themoreadvancedsoulsusuallyreporttheeldersasbeinggenderless.Also,weoftenhearaboutaraiseddais,ortable,fortheeldersabovethesoulbeforethem.Thisvisualizationtoodenotesauthorityinthehumanmind.SeeDS212andLBLH148-150.

16

SPREADINGUNIVERSALENERGYthroughMUSIC

PeterSmith(MELBOURNE,AUSTRALIA)

DIRECTOROFOPERATIONSANDINSTRUCTORFORTHENEWTONINSTITUTE;PRACTICES

ANDTEACHESHYPNOTHERAPY.

Thisisastoryaboutenergy.Atthecoreofoursoulbeingliesanamazingenergythatwecanintegrateintoourlivesinsomanywaystofeelbetteraboutourselves.ThisisJeremy’scase,anditgivesinsightintohowtheenergyfieldsofindividualscaninteractforacollectivepurpose.Oncetheseaspectsofenergyarebroughttoconsciousawareness,ourthoughtschange,ouroutlooktransforms,and,mostimportantly,wecansharethiswisdomwithothers.&

JEREMYBEGANMUSICat theageof sevenandwasplayingprofessionallywhile still in school.Todayheperformsallovertheworld.AsJeremymatured,hewasdrawnmoretoexploringwithin,andlife-between-liveshypnotherapy

becamethenextstepafterthebookJourneyofSoulswasgiventohimbyafriend.In2005,hewasoneofthefirstinAustraliatoundertakethisamazingjourney.As hewent deeper and deeper into the relaxed state, Jeremy traveled back in time to the life of

FlightLieutenantFrankNorbert.FrankwasbornintheCotswolds,centralEngland,in1906.BeforeWorldWar11,hehadbeenacivilianpilot,andin1943,atthirty-sevenyearsofage,hefoundhimselfinaLancasterbomberoverHamburg,flyingbombingraidsfortheRoyalAirForce.

PETER:Whereareyounow?Describetomewhatishappeningaroundyou.JEREMY:I’msittinginourplane.WecallherSassySally.I’vehandedherovertothebombardier,andwe’vejustdroppedourload.Shegoesbetterwithouttheload,thewheelfeelsgood.Thereisabitoftwinewoundaroundthewheel,wearealittlesuperstitious,bettertoleaveit.Twenty-sevenmissions,andwearestillhere.P:Moveforwardintime,Frank,tothenexteventofsignificance.Whatishappeningnow?J:WearebackoverBelgium…beingattacked…onlytimeI’veeverwantedtoflyafighter.IloveSally,butwearesittingducks…canheartheshellshittingtheplane…LOUD…Ineverthoughtyou’dbeabletohearthem…chaosontheintercom…shouldhavethoughtaboutgettingout…

Frank’splaneplummetstotheearth.Hissoullefthisbodyonthewaydownandfollowedtheplanetotheground.(1)AllthecrewwasabletobailoutexceptFrankandoneother.AsFrankfloatedinasoulstate,surveyingthewreckageoftheplane,henoticedapresencenearby.

P:Whoistherewithyou?

J:It’smyguide,Phineus—heislaughingatmystubbornness.Heiswearingacoatandahood,andnowhehaschosenagnomeform.(2)IstillfeelIshouldhavebeenabletoflytheplane.Phineusissayingyoucan’tflyaplanewithonewing.IkeepthinkingIcandosomethingnooneelsecando.P:Bywhatnamedoeshecallyou?J:Ismuth.P:WhatdoesyourguidehavetosayaboutthelifeofFrank?J:Ilearnedcourage…tobebravefortheothers—oneofthemwasonlyeighteen.Imadethembrave.Nowhe’slaughingatme,asIalwayswanttobeperfect.I’vedonethisalot.Itispossibletoflyaplanewithonewing;youcanevenflyaplanewithnowingsifyouknowhow.

PhineustakesIsmuthtoaquietplacesotheycandebriefthelifeofFrankanddistillthelessonslearned.

J:He’stellingmeIwasabitabruptwithpeopleandisgivingmeexamples.Ididn’tmeantobeunkind…althoughIwasgoodatpushingpeopleawaytogetthejobdone.NowIunderstandfrommyguidehowIcouldhavedonemoreinthelifetimeasFranktohelppeoplefeelbetteraboutthemselves.Tousemyenergyinabetterway…P:Doyouknowalotaboutenergy,Ismuth?J:Yes.P:Whydoyouknowsomuchaboutenergy?J:It’swhatIdo…Iuseit…Icanputsomehere,putsomethere,leavesomewithsomebodyorputitalltogetherandreallymakesomethinghappen.P:Youmeanleaveyourenergy,ratherlikeanimprintoftherapportandwarmthyouwanttoconveytopeople?Leavethemaresidualecho—abriefsenseofyourpresence?J:Yes.P:DidyoudothisasFrank,thebomberpilot?J:No.P:Areyouanenergyspecialist,Ismuth?J:Everybodyusesenergy,thoughsomefindithardtoholdit.Theycan’tholditanduseitwell.P:Whatdoyoudothatotherscan’t?J:Keeppeoplewarm(comforted).

Thedefinitionofwarmingpeople reflects Jeremy’sability touseenergy tohelppeople feelbetterabout themselves, which is certainly what he is doing today as a musician. Sometimes, in certainbodies,soulsgetsocaughtupinthemindsetofthatbodyandthetensionsofitsenvironmentthattheirnaturaltalentsareinhibitedandtheydon’tdothegoodworktheyarecapableofinaparticularlife.As our session continued, Jeremy, as the soul Ismuth, spoke ofGanymede, the third of the largermoonsofJupiter,wherehelearnsandpracticestheartoflightandenergy.(3)Hecanalsoworkindifferentdimensionsfromourphysicalexistence.HeleftaportionofhisenergytheretocontinuehisstudieswhilehecamebacktothelifeofJeremytobringnewskillstoEarth.An amusing reflection came from Ismuth. Jeremy buysmany batteries and takes themwith him

whenhetravels—farmore,infact,thanhewilleveruse.Thisishowtheconceptof“takingenergywithhim”playsoutinthephysicalrealm.IsmuthgaveanotherexampleofhowJeremyusesenergy inday-to-day life.Hespokeofa time

whenadoorwaslockedandotherstriedtoopenitwithoutsuccess.Jeremythenwalkspasttheothersandputshisenergyintothelock.Forhimitopens,muchtoeveryone’sbewilderment.

Ismuthgoesontoexplainmoreaboutenergy:

ISMUTH:Theenergyisnotonething,therearemanytinybits.Thetrickistobegentleandgetthemallworkingtogether.Youdirectyourenergyandthenworkwithotherstodirectitasalargergroup.P:Ismuth,whatshouldJeremydonextwiththisenergy?I:Heshouldcombinehisenergywithotherswhoalsodothistypeofwork.That’swhyhehastogetready,soeveryonecanusetheirenergyatonce,soeveryonecanfeelthewarmth(benefits).Icanseehowtheenergylooksifwegetitright.

Ismuth described how everyone has the ability to use vibrational energy and how it is far morepowerfulwhenwealluseittogether.InthelifeofJeremy,Ismuthhaschosenmusicasthewaytosendenergy.Ismuthdescribedhowthephysicalexistencesometimesgetsinthewayoftheenergy.Musicoffersawaytobypassthisandbringharmonytotheworld(4):

WhenIplay,it’sme.Musicisthewindowtoseeintothecalm…whenIplay,itisforeverybody.It’slikethetiderunstheotherway.Igetpastthebodyandsendenergystraighttothesoul.

ThisisanimportantlifetimeforIsmuth,forapatternisbeingbroken.Overmanylifetimes,Ismuth

hasbeenattemptingnottogetcaughtupinthephysicalaspectsofhumanform.AreviewoverlifetimesshowedIsmuthasaVikingnamedKantor,whoinhisearlyyearswasvery

physical.However,towardtheendofhislife,hefeltdifferently;hefoundhisswordbroughthimnopleasure,andhecravedpeace.A second life was also viewed—this one as Captain Morgan, a British Navy captain who was

deliveredintothehandsoftheSpanishinthe1800s.He’dbeenambushedafterhewasbetrayedbyawoman,whohadpasseddetailsofthefleet’smovementstotheenemy.Morganhimselfsurvived,buthewasforcedtosecretlycarryforwardintosubsequentcommandstheguiltofthatbetrayalandthelossofmostofhiscrew.ThisisanotherreasonwhyasFrank,thebomberpilot,hefoughtsohardtosavehisaircrew.ThroughhisawarenessofIsmuthandfromhisownstudies,Jeremyisbringinghisnewlyacquiredenergy skills to planet Earth by greater conscious awareness. He is also changing old patterns ofbeingexclusivelycaughtupinthephysicalexistenceofearthlylives.Thesedays,Jeremytravelstheworld playing his music. Having explored his purpose through LBL, he uses energy moreconsciously.Forexample,therehavebeentimesduringconcertsetupswhenhehasaskedformoreaisles to be created in the seating area to enable themusic to flow better to the audience.On oneoccasion,heplayedatoneofthemostprestigiousconcertvenuesinEurope,inwhichMozarthimselfhadperformed.Thepianohadsatinaparticularplaceonstagefordecades,butJeremyfeltitwasinthewrongplace.Againstallexpectation,hefoundhewasabletohavethestaffmovethepianotoanewposition.Eventhesomewhataustereconductoradmittedhefeltthiswasmuch,muchbetteranddecidedtoleaveittherepermanently.Onceagain,Jeremyhadleftthemallfeelingwarmer…ForJeremy,bodyselectionandalsogeographicallocationhadbeenimportant.AlifeasaTibetan

monkandanAmericanpoliticianhadbeenrejectedinfavorofthelifeasJeremy,livinginAustraliaasamusician.Ismuthputitthisway:

PeopleneedtoidentifywithyoumoreasJeremy.Australiaisagoodchoice...youcanquietly

getreadythere.(5)Isensethat“gettingready”referstopreparationforpendingEarthchanges.SinceAustraliaisnot

torn by strife, famine, andwar, I feel this is probably the reason Jeremy chose to live in the land“downunder.”TwoyearsaftertheLBLexperience,JeremyandIcaughtupatacaféintheeasternsuburbsofSydneytotalkabouthowhissessionhadmadeadifferenceinhislife.Jeremyhadrecentlybeentellinghisteenagesonaboutlifepurposeandplanning—evenaboutsoul

connectionsthathehadunderstoodfromhisownsession.Hissonwasabletoparaphrasethelessonwell:“So,Dad,thisgirlIlike.Ifsheismysoulmate,thenwewilllikelybetogetheranyway.Ifwedon’t

gettogether,chancesarewearen’tsupposedtobe.Soeitherway,Ireallyshouldn’tworrytoomuchaboutit,right?”JeremyusedananalogytosummarizehisviewonlifefollowinghisLBLexperience.Thebeautiful

cityofPerth ison thewestcoastofAustraliaand is separated from theeastcoastby thousandsofmilesofdesert,calledtheNullarborPlain.

LBLgivesyouadifferentperspective.LifeisnowlikeyouaredrivingacrosstheNullarboratnight.Youcanseeaboutahundredmetersahead,asthatisallyourheadlightsreveal.However,it’slikeyouhavevisitedPerthonavirtualtourontheInternet.Youhavedoneyourresearchandknowhowbeautifulitis.Asyousitinthecarandtravelacrossthedesert,youknowthatsomethingamazingwaitsforyouattheendofit.Itmakesyouthinkandfeeldifferentlyduringthetrip.

SothereissomethingabouttwoperspectivesinparallelthatbecomepartoftheoutcomesofLBL

hypnotherapy.Aswemaintainourdualexistence,partimmortalandpartphysicalbeing,wemuststaygroundedandintegrated.Jeremy’swayofdoingthatisverypractical,ashestates:

SoIbelieveI’mheretoworkonevolvingglobalconsciousness,whichreallysoundsveryimportant…butthenisn’tthatwhyeveryone’shereanyway?Itsoundsveryordinaryaswell.

ThisexpandedviewoflifeistypicalofthosewhoundertaketheLBLexploration.Jeremy’sstoryis

notuncommon,thoughtherealpoweroftheseexplorationscomesfromthatnewperspectivebackinday-to-day life. It’s the shifting belief systems and the ability to live life with greater energy andpurposethatmaketheoutcomeofLBLreallyprofound.AsJeremyandIleftthecaféandwentourseparateways,Irealizedsomething:Iwaswarmerthan

whenIhadarrived...

(1)Soulsoftenleavetheirbodiesjustbeforetheimpactofadramaticterminationoflife;seeJS10.

(2)Spiritualbeingscanassumeanyshapetheywish,andourguidesmaychoosetoappearinsomeformthatrelatestoasoul’slatestlifeorthecircumstancessurroundingitsdeath.PerhapsPhineusassumedthesmallfigureofagnomebecauseoftheirearthlyreputationsforsecretknowledgecombinedwithdryhumor.

(3)Weoftenhearabouthowsoulspracticetheuseofenergyinthespiritworld,inotherdimensions,andonbothmentalandphysicalworlds.ThisisthefirsttimeIhaveheardabouttheuseofGanymede,thelargestsatelliteinoursolarsystemat3,800milesindiameter.ItisexoticthatthismoonofJupiter,whosesurfaceislikeawashboardoficeandrockinvolvingcomplexsystemsofplatetectonics,shouldbementionedbythesoul,Ismuth,asaplacewherehecanmanipulatelightandenergy.Ofcourse,Jupiteritself,ourlargestplanet,doestakeinamassiveamountofelectricallychargedparticlesfromthesunintoitspowerfulmagneticwhirlpoolofenergy.Seegalacticenergy,DS339,andinterdimensionalexploration,DS344-345.(4)OnEarth,musicsoothesthemind,andassuchisavehicleforpeace,harmony,andcomfort.Intheafterlife,therearemanyreferencesbysoulstoauniversalharmonicresonanceandmusicalvibrationalenergy;seeJS21-22,43-44andDS99,307.(5)Foranexampleofasoulwhodeliberatelychoseabodywithpotentialmusicaltalentinaparticulargeographiclocation,seeJScase25,214-217.

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AVOLUNTEERforMURDER

LynnMcGonagill(SARASOTA,FLORIDA)

WORKSTOBRINGPEOPLE’SLIVESINTOALIGNMENTWITHTHEIRSOULINTENTIONS.

Memoriesfromchildhoodillustratewonderfullyhowourearlyyearsgroomusforouradultchallenges.Manypeopleseemtofeeltheirchildhoodwasdifficultandevenpainful.Whentheyrealizewechooseourparents,siblings,andearthlyenvironment,theyexclaim,“Oh,no!Notme!Iwouldneverhavechosenthatformyself.”Yet,whenplacedintothecontextoftheirlife’swork—theirsoul’splanfortheirlife—eachperson’suniquechildhoodistheperfectpreparationforthatwork.SoitisforKia,whoisbeingpreparedforthecentralpurposeofherlife:fordoingwhat’sright

regardlessofcriticism.ShediscoversduringherLBLhowitalsopreparedherforthedeathofherson.

KIA,ALOVINGgrandmotherandkindergartenteacher,cametomeroughlyoneyearafterhersonEvan’sdeath.Evan,atwenty-six-year-oldtaxidriverintheTampaBayarea,wasbrutallymurderedbyatotalstranger,apassengerinhiscab.Almostimmediatelyafterhispassing,Kiafelthispresencearoundher,confirmingthathewasokay.Althoughshewasmostgratefulforthesevisits,theydidn’tfullysatisfyher.Shewasstilldeeplygrievingandhavingdifficultyacceptinghisbody’sdeath.Asitisforeveryone,Kia’sguidesdirectedmuchofhersoulexperienceduringthelife-between-

lives(LBL)process.Theeventshersuperconsciousnessminddeliveredforherreviewwereperfectlyselected to heal her deep wounds. Even in the beginning phase of regression, in which the clientrevisitseventsfromtheircurrentlife’schildhood,onefindsthestartofthehealingprocess.ThefirstglimpseofKia’schildhoodatagefourteentargetstheveryheartofKia’spain.Shereceivesinsightthatshemustfindsourcesofcomfort inotherpeopleandotherplaces,exactlywhatwemustdotosurvivethedeathofalovedone.Weneedtofindsolaceineverydayoccurrencestoovercomesuchalife-changingevent.Here,attheverystartoftheprocess,hersoulisalreadyopeninguptohealing.

KIA(AGE14):Iamwithmysister.Weareinthewoods,anditlookslikewearecarvingonatree.Iamfeelinganxious.LYNN:Whatisitthatismakingyoufeelanxiousrightnow?K:Ourparentsarefightingagain.L:Areyouinthewoodsbecauseyourparentsarefightingoristhereanotherreason?K:Igotothewoodsforsolitude.L:Doesithelpyougetpeacefultobeinthewoods?K:Yes.L:Whatisimportantforustounderstandaboutthismomentrightnow?K:Tofindsourcesofcomfortinotherpeopleandotherplaces.

L:Isthisthetimeinyourlifewhenyouarelearninghowtodothis—atagefourteen—learninghowtofindsourcesofcomfortwheretheyshowthemselves,oristhisaskillyoualreadyknowquitewell?K:Iamalreadylearningit.L:Learningandpracticing,isthatit?K:Yes.

Let’sgoabitfurtherbackintimewithKiaforanotherexample:

KIA(AGE5):Iaminclass,talkingwiththeteacher.L:Andhowareyoufeeling:happy,sad,orsomeotherway?K:Therearekidswhobreaktherules.Iwanttoseewhatit’sliketobreaktherules,becauseIwon’tbreaktherules.L:Yes.Andwhatisyourteachersayingaboutthis—aboutbreakingtherules?K:Thatyoushouldn’tbreaktherules.Shesaysstandinthecornertoseehowitfeels,butIdidn’tbreaktherules.L:Areyouseeinghowitfeels?K:Yes.Thebadboyismakingfunofme.Itismakingmemad,becauseIdidn’tdoanything,andheisstillmakingfunofme,andhebreaksalltherules.L:Yes.Whatisimportanttounderstandaboutthis?K:Peoplewillsaystuffaboutyouevenifyoudowhat’sright.

Only later in theprocessofKia’s life-between-livesvisualizationdowediscoverhowrelevant thismessageis:Kia’selderstellherwhathersoul’smissionis,andhowEvan’sdeathplaysacrucialroleinherlifeplan.Theytellhershewillhavetoovercomeherfears,andthatshewillhavetoovercomerejectionandcriticism.Here,atthisveryearlystageoftheexperience,theygiveherapreviewofthatcentralmessage.Atagefive,Kiawasalreadybeginningtounderstandthatpeoplewillformtheirownopinionsandjudgeyouevenifyouhaven’tdoneanythingwrong.Justasourchildhoodsprepareusforourmainpurpose,weprepareourselvesovermanylifetimes.

Andjustasoursoulsshowusapplicableglimpsesintochildhood,theyshowusrelevantsnippetsofotherlivesduringtheLBLexperience.Kiapreparesforthechallengeofamurderedsoninatleastthreeotherlifetimes,whichsheviewsduringourworktogether.First,KiareviewsapastlifeasSara,who left a comfortable, pampered life in Europe to immigrate with her new husband to the NewWorld.Shehasalreadyseenthatherlifeinthecolonieshaslonelinessandsomedisappointmentinit.

KIA/SARA:Iamtired.IhavetodoalotofthingsthatIdidnothavetodobefore.Washing,cooking,sewing,cleaning…L:Whatelseisimportantforustounderstandaboutthisperiodinyourlife,Sara?K/S:Imissmyfamilyandfriends.It’sverylonely.L:MoveforwardtothemostimportanteventinthislifeasSara,themostsignificanteventinSara’slifetime.Howareyoufeelingnow?K/S:Iamfullofjoy…IlearnedtomakethebestofwhatIhadandbehappy.Wechoosetobehappyornotinlife.L:Thatisbeautiful—happinessisourchoice,isthatit?K/S:Yes.L:Andhaveyoumadethechoice,Sara,tobehappy?K/S:Yes.

L:Isthisthemostsignificanteventofyourlife—havingmadethechoicetobehappy?K/S:Yes!

This illustrates something else that is often seen when working with insightful clients: the mostsignificantevent ina lifetime isn’tnecessarilyanexternaloccurrence. It canbe, as itwas forSaralongago,achoice,aninternalhappening:achoicetobehappyregardlessofcircumstance.ThismessageandpreparationforEvan’spassinginKia’scurrentlifeisechoedinthemannerof

Sara’sdeath.Inthispastlife,shediesasayoungmother,leavingbehindfourchildrenandahusbandwho lovesherdeeply.Onherdeathbed,shehasanotherepiphany, this timeabout thepeopleshe isleavingbehind:

K/S:Iamvery,verysickandinbed.Iamexhaustedandweak.L:Whatdoyouthinkisgoingtohappen?K/S:Iamgoingtogoon(todie).L:Howareyoufeelingaboutthat?K/S:Idon’twanttoleavemychildren,andIampregnant.L:Oh,Iamsorry.Doyouhaveanyawarenessofwhatissignificantaboutthis,otherthanyourhealthsituation?K/S:Theywillallneedtochoosetobehappy,won’tthey.Deathishard,nomatterwhenorhowitcomes,forthepeopleleftbehind.

Thisis trueforallofus.Wecanchoosetobehappyinbadtraffic,whenwedon’tgettheraisewewant, or when our husband leaves us. And it is certainly true for Kia in her current life: she canchoosetobehappyeventhoughheronlysonwasmurdered.HowhealingitisforKiatoreceivethisvitalreminderduringherLBL:tochoosetobehappy.Still later in the session, Kia reviews an earlier lifetime as Elizabeth, in which she herself is

murdered.Here she is given an entirely different viewpoint. The story begins asKia admires herreflection:

KIA/ELIZABETH:IthinkImustbevain;IamenjoyinghowattractiveIthinkIlook.Ihaveverythick,longgoldenhair,wavyattheends,veryslender,very,verybeautifulinthisprettydress.L:Whereareyou?K/E:Itislikeabigemptycastlewiththisincrediblestreamoflightandonlyme…Therewasafight.Itwashereatthecastle.(surprised)IthinkIamalreadydead!L:Anddoyouknowthatyouaredead,orareyouconfusedaboutit?K/E:IthinkIwasconfused.Thecastleisempty.Ithinkitmusthavebeenalittlewhile(sincethefight).IthinkIwascarryingonlikenothinghappenedbutitdid.IthinkIdiedasaresultofthefighting.Iwasrapedandstabbed.L:I’msorry.Howlonghasitbeensincethen?K/E:Two,maybethreeyears.Manydiedthatday,andthosewhowereleftsaidthecastlewashaunted.Thereusedtobeothers(whohaddied)too,butIamtheonlyoneleft.L:Whatareyourplansnow,Elizabeth?K/E:Well,IthinkmaybeIshouldseeaboutthislight.

Interestingly, thedeepest insightabout this lifetimewasnotexperiencedasweworkedtogether,butinsteaditcametoKiafourandahalfmonthslaterinanepisodeofspontaneousrecall.Kiawroteitdownatthetimeandshareditwithmerecently:

Isensedtherealimportanceofthislifewasformetorealizethemannerofdeathwasinsignificant,thatthoughIhadbeenrapedandmurdered,IfeltnothingandwasunscathedwhenIreturnedhome(tothespiritworld).ItwasimportantformetorealizethatthiswassoforEvantoo;thatdespitehowhorrifichiswholedeathscenewas,hedidnotfeelitandreturnedtoheavenunscathed,wholeandclean.Itdidnotmatter.

This beautiful and significant insight that came to Kia months after her official LBL session

illustratesawonderfulfacetofexperiencingtheLBLstate.Thereissomethingabouttheprocessitselfthatopensdoorsbetweenthehigherselfandtheincarnatedpersonality.Thesedoorstendtostayopenafterward, so deeper messages can continue to be received months and years later. Some clientsdescribethemselvesashavingamuchhigherdegreeofpsychicorintuitiveawarenessfollowingtheirLBLjourney.Asaresult,theyfeelmoreintunewiththeirlife’spurposeandthattheirlifeexperienceshavemeaning.Stillindeeptrance,Kia’sinsightsgrowmoreprofoundafterthemurderedElizabethgoesintothe

light.By following the light, the soul ofKia/ Elizabethmoves into the spiritworld. There, she isdrawnatthespeedofthoughtintoaroomwherealltimeisinstopaction.

K:It’sround,andtherearethreepeople,elders.Iseepurple,everywherepurple.(1)L:CanyouaskthemwhatisimportantforKiatoknow?Whyisitimportantforhertobehereinthissituationwiththem?K:Theoneinthemiddle(2)saysImuststopdoubtingwhatIgetintuitively—toacceptitastruth—tonotletothersdiminishwhatIhear—whatIsee—whatIknowinmysoulisreal.Theoneontherightsaysmyhigherpurposeherehasnotbeenaccomplishedyet—thatittiesinwithEvansomehow,withEvanbeingtakenfromme.L:Yes,goon.K:Ithastodowithspiritualpursuitsandhelpingothers,beliefsthatareunorthodoxcomparedtohowIwasraised.It’sgoingtoraiseeyebrowswhereIam,youknow…(startscrying)TheybroughtEvanin…Icanhughimforreal!Ifeelsogood.Imisshimsomuch.Icanfeelhim,andIhearhim(inmynormallife),butthisisbetter!(longpauseandsniffles)Theoneontheleftsaysthisisforstrengthandcourage.L:TohelpyoutobuildstrengthandcouragebyhavingthisvisitwithEvan,isthatit?K:Yes.L:IsthereanythingthatEvanwantstosay?K:Thathelovesme,thatheishelpingme,thatweagreedtothisalongtimeago,thatit’simportant…He’sstillhere,butIknewthat.Theyareshowingmehowitwasallarranged.Evanwentinsomeoneelse’splace;someoneelsewasgoingtodiethatday.L:Evantookthatspot?(3)K:Yes,becauseitwouldservedualpurposes.Itwasn’texactlyaswehadtalkedaboutbeforeweincarnated,butbytakingsomeoneelse’splace,hesavedfivepeople.(4)L:Doesthatbringabalancetothesituationsomehow?WhatwasEvan’smotivation?K:Evanhasasenseofhumor;hesays,“Browniepointsinheaven!”Youhavetoknowhim;he’sawiseguy.L:Doeshehaveanythingelsetosayaboutthisoraboutanyotheraspectofthislife?K:Hesaysheissorryhewassuchadifficultteenager.Sillyboy.L:Anythingelse?K:Thattodayisonlyforreassurance.(laughs)Hesays,“Tuneinnextweekfortherestoftheadventure.”Itoldyouhe’sawiseguy.Andheissingingacommercial—“Afterthesemessages,

we’llberightback!”L:Sothisbriefvisitwithhimisforreassurance,andthenexttimewecometothehigherplanes,therewillbemore.Isthatwhathemeans?K:Yes.L:Doyoufeelthatistrue?K:Yes.

This beautiful exchange between a loving mother and son is a great example of how real theseinteractionsfeel.Inanemailtomeyearslater,KiaexpressedthathermeetingwithEvan,standinginfrontoftheelders,wasmorerealthanbeinginmyoffice.Shewentontosay,“Ifeltthesensationofphysicalembrace,eventhoughwewerebothinspiritualform.Thefeelingofall-encompassingloveistrulyonethatwordscannotadequatelyconvey.Itwasblissandpeaceandjoyandhopeandrenewalandunderstandingallinafractionofasecond.Itwasawesome.”InKia’ssecondvisittothebetween-livesstatethefollowingweek,sheonceagainfindsherselfin

frontofthethreeelders.SheasksthemwhatthetruepurposeofEvan’smurderwasandwhyshehadtogothroughsuchpainfromlosinghim.

K:Theysayitwasameanstobecomemorespiritual.L:Whatisyourpurposeinthefuture?K:Thatavenues(ofpsychicawareness)areopeningformesinceEvandied.TheelderssayIshouldgetoutthewordtotheworldthatlifedoesn’tendatdeath.Notonlylife,butalsopersonality.Thatwedon’tneedtofearit(death)…Peopleneedtoknowit’snotharpsandangels;it’sdifferentthanwhatthechurchteaches.Wedon’tceasetoexist.There’scomfortinknowingthatyouarestillyou.Notanewmessage,ofcourse,butmanystilldon’tlisten.L:Andyouroverallpsychicdevelopment:howdoesthatfitintotheprocess?K:Theoneinthemiddlesaysit’salwaysbeentherebutIdidn’tuseit,andnowit’snecessarytouseit.L:Wouldthatoneinthemiddlesaythatmostifnotallpeoplehavelatentpsychicpower,latentpsychicpotential?K:Absolutely…Theoneontherightwantsmetoknowthatonepersoncanmakeadifference,andweallownthatpower.L:Dotheyhaveanythingelsetheyfeelitwouldbeimportantorhelpfulforyoutoknowrightnow?K:Theoneinthemiddlesaysashardasitistoacknowledge,Evan’sdeathtrulywasagift.Andthatwithoutthatgift,IwouldnotbeabletodowhatIcametodo.L:Doesthatfeeltruetoyou?K:Yes,butIstilldon’tlikeit.L:Dowehavetolikeit?K:No,standingherewiththemitmakessense,butsometimesstandingatthecemeteryitdoesn’tmakesense.L:Iunderstandthissituation.Isthereanythingtheycandotohelpwiththat?K:Bybeingmorespiritual.

Itisduringthemostpainfulandchallengingpartsofourlivesthatwetendtoquestionwhattheplanforourlifeis,andifthereisaplan.Itissohard,inthosemomentsofpain,tomakesenseofevents,to findmeaning inside theanguish.Andyet it isoften theagony thatdrivesus to fulfill thecentralpurposeofourlife.Manypeoplelookingbackontheeffectsoftragedyintheirlivesconcludethat

therewas nothing else thatwould have been a strong enoughmotivation to change—that themostextremesufferingwasneededtodrivethemtowardtheirsoul’smission.ThisisespeciallysoforKiaandforotherswhohavelostthepersonmostdeartothem.AfterKia’smeetingwith her elders, she is left alonewith her personal spirit guide,Miguel.He

continuestheprocessofsupportinghermovementintoacceptanceoftheunacceptable.

L:WhatdoesMiguelhavetosayrightnow—whatishisimportantmessagetoyounow?KIA/MIGUEL:Don’tbeafraidofwhat’stocome.L:Doyouunderstandwhatheisreferringto?K:Ithinkso.L:Canheclarifyitsoyouhavenodoubtwhatsoever?K/M:Therearegoingtobechangescoming,changesincareer,changesinoutlook,changesinpriorities,andsomepeoplearenotgoingtolikeit,somepeoplearegoingtocriticize,andsomepeoplewillturnandwalkawaybecauseitdoesn’tfitwiththeirbeliefsandwhattheythoughtinthislifetime.L:Howareyoutodealwiththat?K/M:Don’tbeafraid.

Threeyearslater,Kiatellsmethatshefeltcompleteunderstandingwhenshewaswiththeelders,eventhoughshecouldn’tfullyputitintowordsatthetime.Shereportsthatalthoughshecouldnotbringthat full level of realization backwith her to the physical plane,much of it did staywith her. SheexplainsthatbeforeherLBLsessions,shehadfeltcompelledtovisitEvan’sgravetwotothreetimesaweek.Afterwards,sheknewhewasn’tthereinhisgrave.Shestillvisitsonceortwiceamonth,justto make sure the grave is tidy and well-maintained, but the quality of the experiences are muchdifferent,lesspainfulandmorepeaceful.Duringourworktogether,Kiawasabletofindmuchsatisfactionandanswerstothequestionsthat

hadbeenhauntinghersinceEvan’spassing.Hereldersandguidetelepathicallyexplainedmuch,allinkindandlovingtones.Shecouldfeeltheloveandcompassiontheydirectedtoher.Shewasallowedtoreviewherlifeselection,herplanforhercurrentlife.Bestofall,shewasabletovisitwithEvanfor real in the spiritworld.The entire process brought her peace ofmind that still remains, threeyearslater.

(1)Purpleisthecolormostoftenseenaroundhighlyadvancedbeingswhohavecompletedtheirincarnations;seeLBLH126.

(2)Frequentlyduringacouncilmeeting,theelderinthemiddleisvisualizedasthemoderator,orchairman,directingthemeeting;seeDS214andLBLH151.(3)Noticethesimilarityheretothecaseinchapter3intermsofuntimelydeath.Inchoosingalifewheretheprobabilityforanearlydeathinthenextlife’sbodyishigh,soulsmustconsidercarefullyiftheywanttoattachtosuchabody.Thekarmicpatternsforlearninginthiscasebridgemorethanonesoulexperienceandmay,asKiastates,“servedualpurposes.”Also,considerthatEvantellsusthatheisgoingtoget“browniepointsinheaven”fortakingsuchashort-termassignment.AsIhavesaid,somesoulscallthisa“fillerlife,”whichisconsideredintheafterlifetobeaveryunselfish,generousact.Furtherreferencesherecanbefoundunderkarmicdebt,JS70;karmicchoices,JS228;probabilityofdyingyoung,JS235,359,372-373;

fillerlives,JS220,DS384;andtimelinesinbodyselection,LBLH176-177.(4)ThesavingoffivepeoplethroughEvan’sactionsthatcosthimhislifewasbroughtaboutbyEvansensingthatamalepassengerinhiscarhadevilintent.Thismanwasonhiswaytomurderastorekeeperandhiswifeandthreeyoungchildrenoveranearlieraltercation.Bystalling,Evandidnottakethekillertohisdestination,andanintensefightensuedwhereEvanwasstabbedandhiscabsetonfire.Thepolicesubsequentlyarrestedthemurderer.Thus,wecanseethatnotonlywasacourageoussoul(JS142)chosenforthisassignment,butastrongandtenacioushumanbodywasworkinginconcertwiththesoulaswell.Whileitistruethatmuchevilintheworldisnotpreventedinthisway,thekarmicinfluencesofourmisdeedsdofollowusinoneformoranother.

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MANIPULATINGENERGYforHEALING

LaurenPohn(DELAVAN,WISCONSIN,ANDCHICAGO,ILLINOIS)MASTERHYPNOTHERAPIST,REIKIMASTER,NLPTRAINER,YOGA/MEDITATIONINSTRUCTOR,ANDPASTREGISTRARFORTNITRAINING.

MyclientSavana,agethirty-four,wasalovelyyoungwomanwhoseemedtohaveitallinlifeyetwasconfusedaboutherselfinmanyways.ShecametomeforanLBLsessionbecauseshefeltherspiritguidehadsenthermentalmessagestogetintouchwithherinnerself.Thetopthreethingsshewantedfromthesessionwere:WhoamIheretohelpthemost,whatarethemajorlessonsIamheretolearninthislife,andwhoismysoulmate?

INOURDISCUSSIONleadingintothesession,Savanarevealedthatshehadalotofexcessmentalenergy.Thereweretimeswhensheactuallywonderedifshewasmentallyill.Shehadagreatdealofpent-up extra energy and had to run four to sixmiles a day to even sleep at night! She rated theseverityof thisexcessmentalenergyasanineoutof tenandrememberedhavingitherentire life,evenasalittlegirl.Sheneversawadoctoraboutthis,asshethoughtthattherewasnothingshecoulddo about it.Exercisewas a stopgapmeasure, and she tried a littlemeditation from time to time. Itbecameclearthatherexcessmentalenergyoverlaidotherissues.Savanarelatedthatafewtimesinherlife,situationswouldariseinwhichshebelievedshecould

helpsomeone,andwhenshedid, itmadeherwonder ifshehadagift.Shewouldfocusonagoodoutcomeforthesituationandmeditateonittoassistinproblemsolving.Savanagavemeanexampleof one of these situations. Her boyfriend had a golf outing scheduled with his boss, and it wasimportant for him to do well. An hour before the outing, Savana focused and meditated, andvisualizedherboyfriendhittingstraightdownthefairwayoneachandeveryhole,thensinkingeachputteffortlessly.Thatday,herboyfriend,Trevor,playedthebestroundofgolfhehadevershotinhisentirelife.AswebegantheLBLsession,itwasevidentthatSavanawascomfortablewithhypnosis.Sheeasily

movedbackthroughtime.Duringhertimeinhermother ’swomb,thefirst interestingcluearose.Iquestionedherfromhersoul’sperspective.Shewasveryresponsive,soIaskedhermanyquestions.SheaffirmedthatbothherbodyandbraininSavana’slifewereeasytointegratewithhersoul,andthatSavanahadaverysharpmind.Shesaidshebrought80percentofherenergyintothislife,whichisratheronthehighside.

SAVANA:IthinkIneededtheenergytoaccomplishthethingsIwanttodo,butoftentimesit’swaytoomuch.LAUREN:Isthereawayyoucouldhelpthisbodydealwiththisexcessenergywhenit’snotbusyaccomplishingthings?S:Throughmeditation…learningtofocusmyenergymore.Throughmeditation,Icanhelp

otherpeople.Itwillacceleratemygrowth…butIdon’tdoitenough.L:Isthereanythingyoucandotohelpaccomplishthis?S:Togetbetteratmeditating…todoitmoreoften.Tospendlesstimewithrandomthinking…justpickonethoughtandfocusonthat.

Herpast-liferegressionwasclearanddistinct.SavanawasanAfrican-Americanman,BrianCurtis,with a largenose,mustache, very tall and awkward. Itwas1924 inDetroit.Brianwaspoor, inhisfifties, inmoney trouble, andnear the endofhis life.Whenhewas fifty-eight,Brianwaswalkingalongthelakeside,wasshot,andfellin.SavanamovedveryquicklyoutofBrian’sbodywithmuchrelief.

S:I’mmovingup…prettyfast…IknowwhereI’mgoing…towardalightlikethesun.L:Canyoudescribewhatyouareseeingandexperiencing?S:Onespirit…energy…Celeste.

Celeste’saurabecomesredandtakesSavana’shandandistakinghersomeplace.L:IsCelesteyourguide?S:No,Idon’tthinkso…Ifeellikeit’safriendthatmetme.L:Askyourguidetocomeforward.S:It’safemale,Orida…thereareamultitudeofsoulsbehindher.Shehasadarkblueaura.Shereachesouttome,andwejoinhands.Ifeelcomfortanddeeppeace.

Orida then takesSavana to the place of rejuvenation to heal the violence of dying of a gunshot

woundasBrianinthelifejustended.Atthispoint,Savanarevealsherimmortalspiritualname:Gret.Gret’sauraisredwithsomegreen.

Orida is helping her process her last life and then leads Gret to a school building with bookseverywhere.(1)Gretopensabookinanotherlanguage,whichdoesn’tmakesensetoher,thoughsheseems to understand what it means. When questioned further, Gret says “It’s about souls, fromdifferent countries and cultures. It’s away to study people and their energy.” She then notices thatthereisagroupoftensoulswithher,alsostudying.Sheagreesthatthisisherworkinggroup,andshefeelsgoodaboutthem.Whenaskedfurtherabouttheworktheydo,Gretreplies,“It’shardwork.”Shefinds itdifficult todescribe.“It’s likestudyingpeople in theirmind tohelp them...soyoucanbetter communicatewith them through yourmind.You can do it on Earth, butmost people don’tknowhowtodoit…communicatewithout language.All Icansayis ithelpspeople throughyourmind—pushingenergyaround,Iguess.”Askedifshe’sbeenatitforalongtime,Gretreplies,“Averylongtime,actually.It’shardwork!

I’msupposedtolearntodoitwhileI’mincarnated(onEarth),andit’sveryhard.Somesoulsinthisgrouparereallygood,andIwanttobelikethem.Somearen’tsogoodeither.”Thegroupsendsherthemessagetolightenup.Lookingaround,GretseesTrevor.TrevorturnsouttobeCeleste,thesoulwho greeted her at the gate to the spirit world. He is also red. It’s a totally red group. (2)Trevor/Celesteturnsouttobeherprimarysoulmate.IaskGrettoexpoundabitmoreonhergroup’swork.Shehasmuchhesitancyandgropesforthe

rightwords to describe it. “Adjust energy to align them (incarnate beings)with spirit energy ... tomakethemfaster...tomaketheirenergyfaster.Becausewhentheyvibratemoreintensely,theyfeelbetter.Theybecomeopentomoreknowledgeto learnmore.Ithelps themmoveforwardasbothahuman and as a soul. It brings soul energy into human form.” At one point, Gret feels a lot of

concentratedenergyinherheadthat isbeyondwordsandexplanations.Iaskhertofocusonitandbreathewithit.ThenIaskifthisisoneofthosemomentswhensheisreceivingashiftinenergy—thishighervibration.(3)Withlaughter,“Ithinkso...it’skindofcool.”Ithensuggestthatshereallyfocusonitandtonotice

thatit intensifiesinadelightfulway.SavanabecomesveryalertandawareoftheseshiftsinenergythatGretisexperiencing,asasignandsignalsothatsheunderstandswhatshe’sdoingandhowtouseit.ThefollowingdialogdemonstratesatherapeuticspiritualcommunicationbetweenSavana’shumanegoandthatofhersoulmind,Gret:

S(ASGRET):Savanagetsscared…afraidofwhatothersmaythink,it’skindofstrange.(laughing)Soshe’salwayshesitanttotalkaboutthingslikethiswithpeople.L:What’susefultodowiththeintensificationoftheenergyinherhead?S(ASGRET):IthinkthisisasignthatI’montherighttrack…itfreaksmeout!Savanaistryingtogetintheact,butsheistensingupandclosingtheenergydown.L:So,Gret,takeabreath...andIwantyou,asSavana’shighersoulself,tocommunicatewithheranddirectSavanainawaywhereshecanstayopenandlistensoshecanutilizeherenergyinapositivemanner.(pause)WhatareyoucommunicatingwithSavanaatthismoment?S(ASGRET):Stayfocused.L:Andthemeaning?S(ASGRET):SavanahastoomuchonherplateforhercurrentbraintostayfocusedanddotheworkIneedtodothroughherbyhermeditation.L:Canyouelaborate?S(ASGRET):ForSavana,havingtoomuchonherplateisawayoftryingtohelppeopleinwaysthatmaynotbeasconduciveaswhatIcandowithmy(soul)mind.Savananeedstomeditateeverysingleday…thiswilltakemanyyears.She’llhavetolearnmore,too,soshecancontinuetoworkandhelppeopleforlongerperiods.(4)L:Andwhatdoesyourguide,Orida,sayaboutallthis?S:OridasaysIwillbebetterabletohelppeopleandtheirspiritssomeday,butIhavetogothroughthistrainingfirst.It’sjustalotofdemandingwork!L:Gret,whatcanSavanadoonEarthtohelpTrevor,herpartner?S(RESPONDINGASGRET):He’sveryprotectiveofhismind,soitisgoodforSavanatolearnpatienceincommunicatingwithhim.Youcan’tmakechangesovernight;ittakesalongtime.

Ihavealsolearnedfromthisdialogwithmyclient’simmortalsoulthatGrethastheopportunityto

eventuallybecomeajuniorguideintrainingwithspiritsofherowntohelpandguide.However,shemustgetthroughherowntrainingfirstintheuseofenergycommunicationandbecomemuchbetterat it. In closing with the topic of Savana’s soul mate, Trevor/Celeste, Gret has the followinginformationtosharewithme:

Ihavetolearnthateverybodyisdifferent.Eachhastheirownwayofusingtheirmentalenergy,andthemoretimeIspendwithTrevor,themoreIwilllearnabouthowhismindworksinthislife.Hereinthespiritworld,he’saskingmetogettoknowhimbettermentallyandtakeitstepbystepandnotslamhimwithtoomuchinformationatonce.HewantsmetobemoregentleandnurturingofhismentalneedsbeforeIstarttoteachhim.Bepatient,slowdown.Gettoknowhimbetter,andstickwithit.

Asweneartheendofthistheme,IseethatgreaterspiritualunderstandingishelpingSavanalearn

thatsheisnotmentallyill.Sheisabletotellme,“I’mnotcrazy.I’mabletousemymindsomuchandtodosomanythings...andIseetheresultsofwhatIdo,andIsometimesthinkthatI’mtheonlyonethatcandothis,andit’sgoodtoknowthatit’spartofabiggerplan.”Gretisnowfinishedwithherworkinggroup,andItouchherforeheadandsuggestshefindherself

inanotheraspectofthespiritworld.Iaskhertotellmewheresheis.

I’mnearaflowingriver…ariverofenergy.It’sabigopenspacewithcoloredenergyflowingbyme.Youcanreachyourhandout,touchit,andfeelitgointoyou.Youcanlearnhowtomanipulatetheenergybytouchingitasitgoesby.Therivercontainstheemotionsofsouls…othersouls’energy.Theirenergyflowsintome.I’mnotsurehowtheygotitintoariver.It’saboutwaisthigh.Youputyourhandsinthis,andyoucancontrolhowmuchenergycomesintoyou,andthenyoucanfeelthechangewithin.Ifyouputyourhandinforalongtime,yougetanoverwhelmingsenseofit.(5)WhenyouareinaroomwithpeopleonEarth,energycomesintoyou,andyoucaneitherletitoverwhelmyouoryoujustcantakeitforwhatitis…tofigureoutthat’swhotheyare.IthinkwhenIdothisriverthingthatIampracticinghowtoorganizetheirenergyinapositivewayandgiveitbacktothem.

IenlistthehelpofOridaandGretsoSavanacandothisinacrowdedroomcomfortablyandnot

getoverwhelmedbythevarietyofhumanenergy.ThisconversationisenhancedbytheintegrationofSavana’shumanandsoulegos.(6)Iaskifthisprocessofenergymanipulationaccelerateswithtouch.Absolutely,thesehigherspirits

tellme:“Savanahastobemindfulaboutthoseshechoosestotouch.Actually,it’smoreaboutbeinginsomeone’sspace.”Ibringuptheconceptofpeoplewhosuckyourenergyandwhethersheshouldavoidthem.“They

areachallenge.You learnhowtochannel thatenergy, tocleanseandheal it ...butonly if theyarereceptive.Itcanbeverydifficulttodo,becauseyoucan’tdoitallforthem.”InconversationwithGret,weaskforasignalsoSavanawillknowwhentodoherenergywork

andwhentomoveaway.“WhenSavanafeelsatightnessonherrightside(sheoftenthinkssheissickwhen she feels that, but she’s not), it signals that the incoming energy is toomuch ... that there’snothingthatshecandoatthattime…shehastoletitgo.Savanawillbebetterabletohandlethisintime,withpractice.Learningthissignalispartofthereasonshecameforoursession.”Gret thenmoveson to“agroupofolder soulswithhigherenergies.”OridaandTrevor/Celeste

accompany Savana/Gret. From an LBL perspective, this would be her Council of Wise Elders.“They’re teaching us how tomake everyone on Earthmore connected.When you get an idea ofwhere things are going on Earth andwhere theywill go in the future, itmakes yourworkmoreenjoyableandmoreworthwhile.Whatthey’retellingCelesteandmeisthatyouhavetohavefaiththatconnectioncanchangeeveryone,thatitwillhelpgenerationsinthefuture.That’sgood,becauseoneofthemainissuesSavanahasisthatit’ssooverwhelming,youcan’tfixeverythingovernight.Trust!”WhenthegroupofoldersoulstriestotakeGretsomewhereelse,Savanaasksmeifsheshouldgo.

“Of course, remember trust!”We both laugh. She is taken to the place of the current life’s bodyselection.Inthisplace,therearebigmoviescreens.Withmillionsandmillionsofpeopletochoosefrom,GretwascertainshehadmadetherightchoicetodothisenergyworkasSavana.Shealsosawbigcitiesandcommentedthatpeoplecompactedtightlywouldhavealotmorestressthanpeoplewholiveinthecountryside.It’simportanttodoherworkinbigcities,whereit’smoreneeded.GretnowreturnstoherCouncilofWiseElders,andtherearefourmembersseatedatalongtable.

Shesays,“IamtoldalittleabouthowIselectthebodiesIamofferedbeforeeachlifeandhowtotakebetter care of them.” Then a councilmember shows her a locket with a picture of hermother in

Savana’s current life. The message was to use her work to help her mother. Gret likes this idea,becauseSavana’smother is receptive, andSavanacanget instant results.They say there’s time forplay,fun,andjoy,butalsotimeforquietandmeditation.Gretrecallsherfirstincarnationandremembers,“Itwasonamucheasierplanet.Itwasallmental.

We justallunderstoodeachother.Thiswasamucheasierplace thanEarth. Itmakessense.SavanagetsfrustratedathowhardEarthis.IthinkI’musingskillsthatIlearnedonanotherplanet.”(7)At this point, Gret felt complete with her session, and I brought her back to consciousness as

Savana.WhenIcontactedSavanaeightmonthslater,IaskedherhowthisLBLsessionhadchangedherlife.Hereisasynopsisofherexperience:

WhathashelpedmethemostwaslearningwhatworkIhavebeensenttodointhislifetime.EvenbeforemyLBLsession,IknewIwasskilledatmanipulatingmentalenergy,thoughIcouldn’tputmyfingerexactlyonwhatIwasdoing.VisitingmysoulgroupleftsuchastrongimpressiononmethatIcontinuetothinkaboutitconstantly—especiallyabouttheriverofmental,coloredenergyofrealsouls.Wewouldpracticeputtingourhandsinandtrytoidentifytheenergy—suchasconfused,happy,sad,guilty—thentounderstandandlearnaboutit.Thebiggestchallengewastohealitinawaythatwouldnotaffectthetruemakeupandcharacterofthesoulorchangeitinanyway.Wewouldhavetobebothquickandsubtleastheenergycontinuedtoflowdowntheriver.InmylifeonEarth,IusetheseskillswhenIaminthepresenceofsomeonewhosenegativeenergyIfeel.Itallowsmetosendthemhealingenergythatharmonizestheirbeingwithoutoverwhelmingthem.Iamgladtousemyskillstohelphumanity,evenifinsmallways.MyLBLsessionhaschangedmylife.Inowmeditateaminimumofthirtyminutesadayand

practicesendinghealingenergytohelpothersandmyself.IfeellikeI’mjustgettingstartedwiththisandwillgetbetteroveryearsofpractice.Meditatinghasallowedmetobemorefocusedatworkandwheninteractingwithfriendsandfamily.Meditationisamentaloutletforme.ThemoreImeditate,thebetterIsleepatnight.I’vealsobecomeahospicevolunteerandleadbereavementsupportgroupsaswell.Iamable

toverysubtlyhealpeople’sgrievingminds.Ibelievethisisacontinuationofmysoulwork.Iusedtofeelpulledtodosomethingandwasn’tclearonhowitwouldhelpothers.SincemyLBLsession,Iambetterabletotrustmyinstincts.Iknowthattherearemoreintelligentbeingswhohaveconfidenceinmeandareleadingmeintherightdirection.Ialsoknowthattherearemoreadvancedsoulswhoareguidingandteachingmehowtohelpothers.ThinkingaboutmyLBLsessiononaregularbasisdefinitelykeepsmemotivatedtocontinuetheworkIamsupposedtobedoinginthislifetime.Itwasanunforgettableexperience!

(1)Thespirituallibraryoflifebooks.SeeDS150-152andLBLH105,119.

(2)TheauthortellsusthatbothTrevor/CelesteandSavana/Gretaresoulmateswhodisplayacorecolorofred.Normally,thismeanstheyaremostlikelylevelIIsoulsindevelopmentwithavibrationalenergycharacterrepresentationindicatingintensityandpassion.Gret,Savana’ssoul,alsohasacolortintofgreen,whichindicatesasoulwithdevelopinghealingcapabilities.Herspiritguide,Orida,displaysthedeepblueofanadvancedsoulwithknowledgeandexperience.SeeDS170-174andLBLH126.

(3)Areasofsoulspecializationtraininginthespiritworlddependupontalent,interest,motivation,andexperience.Thesoul,Gret,inthisstoryastheclientSavana,appearstobepreparingoverthelongtermtobeaharmonizersoul.ThesesoulsareessentiallycommunicatorswhobalancetheenergyofbothhumanrelationshipsandeventsonEarth.SeeDS330-334.(4)Noticehowthefacilitatorallowstheclienttorespondtoquestionsasherownsoul.WhenwedisengagefromourhumanegointhisfashionduringLBLtherapy,soulresponsesbecomemoreenlightenedandallowforincreasedcognitionfromtheinneregoofourminds.SeethedualrolesofobserverandparticipantundertherapeuticopportunitiesforclientsinLBLH156.(5)Theimageryhereregardingariverofenergyinthespiritworldisatrainingprocedureunderthedirectionoftheclient’sguide,Orida.Indicationsherearethatthisisaspaceoftransformationwheresoulslearntointegratetheirenergywithanimateandinanimateobjects.Riversandpoolsofwaterareverysymbolicofliquidenergythatcanbemanipulatedbysoulsintraining;seeJS168,218andDS302-304.(6)Formoreelaborationinvolvingthespiritualintegrationofthedualegoseachofushasbetweenthesoulandourhumanbrain,seeLBLH80-81,163,181-189.(7)HybridsoulsonEarthwithpriorexperienceonotherplanetsoftenbringskillslearnedtheretoEarthinoneformoranother.SeeDS100andLBLH22.

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ArenegotiatedSOULCONTRACT

AndyTomlinson(CORFEMULLEN,DORSET,ENGLAND)

PSYCHOTHERAPIST,AUTHOROFARTICLESANDBOOKSONLBL,ANDTRAININGDIRECTORFORPASTLIFEREGRESSIONACADEMY.

Thischapterillustratesquiteclearlythatthroughtheexperiencesofpast-lifeandlife-between-livesregressions,clientscanexperiencemanylevelsofhealinganddeepunderstanding.Thisstorydemonstratesthatitispossibletogainfreedomfromphysicalpainandfearassoullessonsarerecognizedandaccepted.Italsounderlineshowwecanlearntocompareandcontrasttheperspectivesofthehumanmindandtheimmortalsoul.

WHENIFIRSTmetDean,Iwasimpressedwithhisbright,cheerfulnatureandbroadsmile.Hewasasenior marketing manager for an international bank and had just joined one of my past-life-regressiontherapytrainingworkshopstodiscovermoreaboutthesubject.Heexplainedthathefirststartedexperiencingapaininhislefttesticle,groin,andlowerabdomenearlyin1998,shortlyafterstartinganextramaritalaffair.Inhiswords:

Thepainwasstrongtoexcruciating,andIwouldexperienceitforonetotwoweeks,thenitwoulddisappearforafewmonths.During2000,thepainbecameconstantandwouldattimeshavemedoubledover.Onetesticleshrankinsize,andthisiswhatfinallymademeseethedoctor.IwasreferredtoanurologistandunderwentanMRI,twoCTscans,anIVP(intravenouspyelogram),andthreeultrasoundsoverthecourseoftheyear.Theycouldn’tfindanythingwrongwithmeandtoldmetotakeAdvil(medicationforpainrelief)forthirtydays.Thepaininmygroinandtesticlecameandwent,butgenerallytherehasbeenalowlevelofdiscomfortwiththeoccasionalflare-up.Idescribedittomywifeasbeinglikesomeonedrivinganailthroughmytesticle.Thesepastcoupleofyears,ithasbeenmuchmoremanageablebutelevatedtotheextremeforsomeminutesastheworkshopdrewcloser.Onthedaysoftheworkshop,itwasverypainful.

Duringtheworkshop,Deanaskedforaregressiontodiscoverifapastlifewascontributingtohis

pain.HeregressedquicklyintothelifeofaRomancenturionduringthetimeofacivilwar,andafterthesession,thisishowhedescribedwhathappened:

Ienteredthepastlifeatthepointofdeath,whereIwasbeinghelddownbyafewofmymen.Onehadhisfootonmyneck,anotherafootonmyrightarm,andonewasstandingovermeandhadjustplungedaswordintomygroin.Previously,theonewiththeswordhadcutoffmygenitalsandheldthemuptomeandhadsaid,“Youcan’tdomuchwithoutthese,canyou?”Hethrewthemtothegroundandstampedonthem.

Duringthehealingprocesswithintheregression,Iexperiencedbodytherapyfromyou(DeanisreferringtoAndy,thefacilitator)sothatIcouldusemyhandstoexperiencepullingouttheswordandbringmybodypiecesbacktogether.(1)Doingthisfeltwonderful,asifmybodywasbeingmadewholeagain.Later,Iexperiencedmeetingmyspiritguide,whoexplainedthatinthatlife,Ihadrapedandpillaged.ThosewoundshadbeencarriedoverintothislifeandhadbeenactivatedbytheenergyIwasputtingintomysexlifeoutsidemarriage.ItalsoactedasareminderofwhenI’mdoingthingsthattakeawholelotofmytimeandfocusawayfromachievingmylifepurpose.

Understandably,Deanwasquick tobookapersonalLBLsession todiscoverhis lifepurpose. In

deephypnosis,hefirstregressedintoapastlife,thatofanineteenth-centurymerchantwhohadjustreceived disastrous news of the loss of his ship in Africa. Previously, he had signed a businesscontract,andthisnewsmeantthathisfamilybusinesswouldbetakenfromhim.Drinkingheavilyinatavern toconsolehimself, themerchantwassetuponby four thugsandkilled in theensuing fight.TheLBLregressionispickedupatthepointatwhichhefirstmeetshisspiritguide:

DEAN:He’saskingmeifIamreadytolearn.ANDY:Andwhatdoyousay?D:Isayyes,becauseIdon’tunderstand.HesaysthatIamherebecausethisiswhereIammeanttobe,andwhilethingsmaynotmakesense,Iwillonedayhaveunderstanding.Thislifewastolearnthathardworkdoesnotalwayshaveareward—thatyouarenotalwaysrewardedforthethingsyoudo,andwhatmayseemunfairisjustaperception.He’saskingmetothinkaboutthatstatement,becausehesensesIstilldon’tunderstand.A:Askhowyougetthatunderstanding.D:He’stellingmetolookatthatlifeandthethingsthathappened…He’sshowingmemylife…A:Inwhatsortofwayisthisbeingshowntoyou?D:Theviewisalivingroom,butIamnotinmybody.Iamwatchingmyselfsittingatthetablewiththecontract,andhe’saskingmetoisolateasinglepointofthateveningwhenIoriginallysignedthebusinesscontract,whichshowedwheregoodintentwasrewardedorhadagoodoutcome.A:Andwhatdoyousay?D:I’mstartingtounderstand.Atthetime,Iwasyoungandlookingtoplease.Iwaspleasedtosignthepieceofpaperandtakepossessionofaperson.Myfather-in-lawwasquitehappytobargainforhisdaughter.Eachstepalongthewayandeachmomentduringthatevening—thewordseemsharsh,but“atrocities”werecommitted.A:Canyouexplainwhat“atrocities”means?D:Inthecontextofmyfather-in-lawtradinghisdaughterforwhatheperceivedwasafinancialgainthroughamanipulativecontract.Itgavehimcertaincontrolsatcertainpointsintimeovermyfamily’scompany,andultimatelytheirfortuneandhardwork.Theatrocityisthatahumanlifecouldbebargainedforthat—theatrocitiesthatIcommitted.Iwaspreparedtowalkinandenterthatcontract,togetherwiththepossessionofahumanlife,andnotreallyknowtheextentofthepotentialdamageIcoulddotomyfamily,tomyself,tothepeoplearoundme.AlsothefamilythatIwasgoingtocreateandIhadn’teventhoughtaboutatthetime.Butnowmysigningthatpapermademychildren’slifeconditional.Itmademyfamily’sindependencecutinhalf.Itsignedawaypeople’swork,people’slivelihoods,andpeople’slives,andIhadnoauthoritytodoso.Iunderstand.Iunderstandthemessagenow.

Thispast-lifereviewillustrateshowweareourownjudgeandjuryofourlives’events.Theroleofapersonal spirit guide is to help us understand the events andwhat happenswhen things gowrong,becausethisformsthebasisoffuturelifeplanning.It’s worth considering the statement of the spirit guide that hard work and good intent are not

alwaysrewarded.Fromourearthlyperspective,thismaybeasurprise.Fromasoulperspective,ourearthlydecisionsandtheconsequencesareseenaslearning.(2)WenowmovetothepointwhenDean,accompaniedbyhisspiritguide,isabouttomeethissoul

group,whomhecallshiscouncilinggroup:

D:I’msensingalargeroom.A:Describethisroom.D:Ithasnowalls,noceiling,andhasatablethatiscarvedintothebottom.Ithaschairslineduponeithersideofthetable,andattheheadisalargerchairandalsoattheotherend.Thechairsarepulledbackquiteadistancefromthetable,exceptforthetwoateitherend.A:Doyouknowwhatthisplaceis?D:Acounselingroom.(3)A:Areyoubyyourself?D:No,Iamsittinginthesmallchair,andmyspiritguideisatthetallchair.A:Andwhatelseishappening?D:Iamexperiencingfear(thisconcerniscomingfromDean’smind)(4)…Thisisthepointthatwehavebeenwaitingfor.Myspiritguideiscommunicatingwithmetelepathically,verypatiently,andsayingthatIamtheonethatmustmakethefirstcall.Itistimeformetobringtheplanin.A:What’sthisplanyourspiritguidehasreferredto?D:Thisismycurrentlifeplan.IamaskingwhyIamfeelingthisfear.A:Andwhatareyoutold?D:ThisisthefearIhavefeltforsolongandIhavefeltformanylives…IcansensethismischievousnaturethatIhavesensedbefore.I’vebroughtfearintothisrealm…becausethisisthefearthatIhavekeptonexperiencingandusingasacrutchandavoidingitatallcosts.Ibroughtitintoshowhowsillyitis.A:Isanyoneelsewithyou?D:Mymother…myson…oh,there’safriend,sheisGlorianow…it’smyfather,ohgod,that’smywife,that’smywife’sex-boyfriend.That’sonesideofthetablecomplete.A:Andtheotherside?D:Mygrandmother,twoofmyaunts,there’sanex-colleagueofmine—it’sMaurice,andtherearethreethatIjustdon’trecognize.A:Tellmewhathappens.D:Theyareallsmiling.Thereistheincreasingsenseofthemischievoustowardsme.Isay,“Whycan’tIcatchup?”Mymother ’ssaying,“Wehaveallbeenverypatient,andyoucantakeaslongasyoulike.Whileyouarelearningtotakethisstep,weareoffdoingotherthings.Itisofnoconsequence,butwewillhavetomoveon.Thisistheplanthatyousaidwouldbebestsuitedtobringusallclosetoyou.Youwantedusalltobetheretotouchyou,tobeclosetoyourlife,andinthatwayyouwouldbeabletodoit.”Theyreallyarelaughingatme…SheisreferringtothefactthatsomanyofmycurrentsoulgrouparecloserelationssothattheywouldbetheretopopinandpopoutofmylifeasIgrew…Myauntjuststoodupandsaid,“Eachofushasgivenyouamessageinthislife.Youseemtounderstandeachofthesemessages,yetyoulookatthemessage(Deannodshisheadinagreement)andyouinsistonmore.”ShesaysIamnotgoingto

getanymoremessages.A:Dotheyremindyouwhatthosemessagesare?D:Theylaughatmeagain.Myspiritguidesays,“Youknowthemessages—whygothroughthis?”A:Whathappensnext?D:OneofthesoulsthatIamnotfamiliarwithispushingacrossajigsawthatiscompletedandsays,“Solvethepuzzle.”A:Whatdoesthismean?D:Theycontinuetomakefunofme.Thepuzzleissolved—therearenomissingpieces…MyspiritguidehastoldmetomakesurethatIamwellentrenchedinmyearthlybody,asIamnotadvancing.Everyoneatthetablehereisreadytomoveonwithoutme.A:Andistheresomethingthatyouhavetodo?D:Itismywriting,andparticularlyitisthemethodthatIintendtowritebookstheyarecalling“abackdoorintothesubconscious.”A:Tellmealittlemoreaboutthem.D:Ihaveallthestorieswithin,andIhavetheskilltobringthestoriesout…Mygoalistoassistintheincreasingofawareness,becausealotofenergyonEarthisgettingstuck—justasIam,bycontinuallylookingfortheeasywayforeverything…Thereisnooneshiftinawarenessthatisgoingtohappen.Itisagradualprocess,andIneedtowritestoriesforthepeopletopickuptheawareness.

SonowDeanunderstandshislifepurposeanditsimportance.Itisinterestingtonotethatthissessionswitchedfromthesoulmemoriesoftheeventsbetweenlivestoareal-timeinteractivereviewofhiscurrentlifeandhisdifficultyinengaginghislifepurpose.ThisisoneofthepowerfulwaysinwhichLBL regression can help clients. Rather than waiting until the end of the life to have this sort ofreview,itcantakeplaceinthemiddleofalife.Doingsocanbringsoulawarenesstotheconsciousmind and accelerate the possibility of soul advancement. For Dean, this was an opportunity tounderstand the fear that had its origins in the merchant past life and was diverting him from hiscurrentlifeplan.Asthesessioncontinueswithhisspiritguide,wewillseethatsomeoftheobstaclestoachievinghislifeplanarediscussed:

A:Howareyougoingtobeabletorecognizeyoursoulgroup?D:Therewillbeaneventualawareness.Itwilltakemealongtime;that’swhytheypopinandoutofmylife,andthat’swhytheyarepartofmyfamily.IwillrecognizethemassymbolicoftheissuesIseeatdifferenttimesofmylife…There’smybrother—hewillshowmeveryclearlyatonepointthatalackofmoneydoesn’tmeanalackofcontentmentoralackofpurpose—thathefindsawayregardless.Myson—hewillshowmetheunmistakableimageofthelovethatIseek.A:Isthereanythingmorethatisdiscussedatthispoint?D:Myearthlyobligationstomyfamily—keepingthemclothed,fed,educated,andhousedinamannerthatIdreamedofissomethingImustconsider.ItmayormaynothappenthewayIplanned.MyspiritguideisawarethatmyconsciousmindhasdifficultyprocessingwhatIcanperceivenowasanabandonmentofmyobligationstomyfamily.Icanseefromahigherawarenesswithinmethatachievingmypurposeinlifecangetinthewayofmyprimaryobligations…Iunderstand,Iunderstand,Iunderstand…A:Andisanythingdiscussedatallaboutwhathappensifyouaren’tabletofollowyourpurpose?D:Yeah,Iknow.Someoneelsewilldoit.Iwillbeleftbehindwithanotherspiritgroup,andonce

again,thatreallyisofnoconsequence,thoughIdohaveastrongurgencytocatchup…Myspiritguideissayingthereisabenefittometoassociatesomeearthboundemotionwithnotstayingwiththisgroup.Apparently,it’spartofmyrelativelylowlevelofspiritualadvancementthatIwanttocontinuewiththisgroup,anditisconveyedtomeviamyEarthemotions(fear)andmissingout.Idon’treallygetit.(5)Hangon,itseemsthereisatimelimitonEarthforthemessagetogetout,andhesayscollectively,rightnow,therearemanyindividualswhoareseekingtoformawebacrosstheplanet,anditispeoplelikemewhowanttobepartofthatweb,totouchasmanysoulsaspossiblebeforethenextwave.A:Perhapsaskyourspiritguideaboutthesepainsinvariousbodilyparts.Aretheseanyformofreminderforyou?D:Yes,butthereminderisgoingtoberemoved.I’mnotgoingtobegivenareminderanymore.It’sallinmyhands;it’smydecisionnow.

This is an immensely important point about the physical pain in his testicles and groin beingremoved.Recall that thiswasoriginallyareminderof theenergyDeanwasmisplacingawayfromhis life purpose through sexual pursuits outside marriage. (6) It had its origins in the Romancenturionpast life.Thepast-life-regression transformationwork removed the symptoms,butDeanneededtointegratethislearningintohiscurrentlifeforapermanentresult.ItappearsthatwithDean’sdeeper understanding of his life plan from the LBL regression, the need for this physical painreminderhasbeentakenaway,whateverDeanchoosestodo.ThisissoulpurposereplanningwiththeconsentofDean’sspiritualandconsciousself.However,thefearatsomelevelwillremainuntilDeanmakesthedecisiontoleavehiscurrentcareerandwritethespiritualbooksinhisplan.Theotherinterestinginsightwasthespiritguide’scommentsaboutearthlyobligations.Ofcourse

weallhaveresponsibilitiestoothers,particularlyourfamily,butattimestheycangetinthewayofour life purpose. We are being reminded that all souls know each other ’s life purpose beforeincarnation, so when we make difficult decisions not to follow our life purpose, the earthlyconsequencesarenotaconcernfromasoulperspective.ThisiswhatDeanhadtosayabouthisLBLregressionandchangeinhislife:

ThemostsurprisingthingabouttheLBLsessionwastheclarityoftheinformationIreceived.IwasleftwithnodoubtofwhatmypurposehereisandwhatlessonsImustlearninordertoachieveit.TheinsightIreceivedaboutobligationshelpedgivemethecouragetopreparefortheverydifficultstepthatIneededtotake.IhaveprogressivelydiscussedmyintentionswithmyfamilyandotherstowhomIfeltobligated,andwhileIwasn’tparticularlyseekingsupportfromanyoneexceptmywife,theyoffereditencouragingly.SinceItendedmyresignationfromthebank,thingsjustseemtobefallingnicelyintoplace.Thepaininmygroinhassubsided,andIhaveastrongsenseitwillnotbeback.TheunderstandingIhavegainedfromspendingtimewithmysoulgrouphasbroughtasenseofcalm.Ihavereachedaturningpointinmylife,andIhavechosentherightdirection.

(1)Thisauthorbelievesthattransformationalbodymovementinapast-liferegressionisusefulbysometherapiststoassisthealing,becausemovementoftengoesdeeperthanwordsorvisualizationsandisveryempoweringforaclient.Thistechniquemaybeusedwhentraumaorrecurringunexplainablepainoccurs.

(2)Theremightbesomeconfusionwithreadersovertheuseofgood“intent”inthiscase.Whiletakingaman’sdaughterinabarterarrangementforbusinessadvantagesisnotgoodintentonDean’spartinapastlife,theauthorexplainsthattryingtomakeone’sbusinessandpersonallifesuccessfulisgoodintentfromDean’sviewpoint.Thelargerissuementionedhereisthat“hardworkandgoodintentarenotalwaysrewarded”inthelifeofanyone.This,ofcourse,istruebecauseonemustconsiderkarmicinfluencesfromourdeedsovermultiplepastlivesandnotjustourcurrentone.(3)NottobeconfusedwithaCouncilofEldersmeetingroom,inadifferent,nonthreateningsettinginthespiritworld,inwhichsoulevaluationbyagroupofhighlyadvancedwisebeingstakesplace.Inthecaseofthisclient,whatwehaveherecouldbedescribedasaninterventiongroupofDean’ssoulcompanionsbroughtspontaneouslyintoacurrenttimelinetodiscussDean’slifecontract.Thisisaveryeffectivetechniquesometimesusedbyeldersorspiritguidesinlife-between-livesregressionstogiveamoreprofoundunderstanding.Readersshouldbeadvisedthatwhileguidesandeldersareverybenevolentintheirrelationswithincarnatingsouls,oursoulgroupcompanionsarenotaboveteasingandcriticizingourshortcomingswhilealsopraisingusforagoodperformanceinlife;seesoulgroupsystems,DS190-194.(4)Inapuresoulstateoflightenergy,wedon’tseethesortofemotiongeneratedbythecentralnervoussystemofthehumanbody.Thus,whenahypnosisclientsuchasDeanisvisualizingbeinginasoulstateandexpressesstrongemotionsuchasfear,thisisaninterpretationbasedonhumanfeelingoftheactionandinvolveshumanemotionaltransference.Allofourresearchindicatesthatsuchnegativesensationsasfeardonottrulyexistintheafterlife.(5)Deanistoldthereis“anearthboundemotion”(fear)connectedwithhisconcernaboutnotstayingwithhissoulgroupbecauseofslowdevelopment.Dean’scommentthatbeingleftbehindis“ofnoconsequence”demonstratesabitofbravadoonhispart.Whileitistruethatthebetterlearnersinabasicsoulclustergroupdoacceleratemorequicklyintonew,specializedsoulgroupsofsimilarinterests,motivation,andtalentattheintermediatelevels,allourevidenceinvolvingthousandsofcasessuggeststhattheslowersoulsarenotshiftedelsewhere.Deanmayfearthisonaconsciouslevel,butthestoryindicateshedoesnotreallybelieveit.Thisisbecausetheformationofnewclustergroupsaftercreationarenotrandomlydesigned.Oneseesacommondenominatorofgoalsineverysoulgroup,andtheyspendeonshelpingeachother.Atthesametime,wemustalwaysbeawareinourworkthatanomaliesmayoccurinourspiritualconclusions.Seeplacement,JS105;soulgroupintegrity,JS88;andformationofsoulgroups,LBLH139-142.(6)Withthemultitudeofhostbodiessoulshavehadduringmanyincarnations,somehaveinvolvedpainfulinjuries,mutilations,andmurderousdeathblows.Wedoseecasesofapast-lifebodyimprintincurrentbodies.Inthiscase,Dean’sgroinpainwasareminderofpasttransgressionsagainstwomenlinkedtohiscurrentinfidelity.SeeJS223-229;DS136,267,272;andLBLH167-168.

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THEdownloadingSPIRITGUIDE

ChristinePearson(SURREY,ENGLAND)

LBLFACILITATOR,ACCREDITEDPSYCHOTHERAPISTANDHYPNOTHERAPIST.

TherearenoguaranteesinLBLregression.Whileitispossibletohaveprofound,life-changingcontactwithourownsoulsandthesoulsoflovedones,itcouldbethatourguidesblockthiscontactbecausethetimeisnotrightforustoaccessthisinformation.Thefollowingcaseturnedouttobeanexperiencethatwentwaybeyondtheexpectationsofbothclientandtherapist.

THEFIRSTCONTACTIhadwithMarcustookplaceninemonthsafterI’dtrainedwithDr.MichaelNewtonandhis team.My first impression: herewas avery intelligent, articulate, confidentpersonworking in the logical, factual world of computers. He might not have developed any interest inspiritualmattershadheandhiswifenotspentsome time living inahauntedhouse.Thisgavehimdirectexperienceof“weird”goings-onthatdidn’tfitintothestandardmodelofarational,materialworld.Marcusgavemewonderfullydetailedbackgroundinformationonthemainpeopleinhislifeand

clearlyhadthoughtdeeplyaboutthemanyquestionstowhichhewantedtofindanswersaspartofhisLBLsession.Thesequestionscoveredbroadissuessuchasthemeaningoflifeandtheworkingsofthevariousplanesofexistence,aswellaspersonalissuesrelatingtohisownlifepurposeandhowbettertogethishumanpersonalityworkingharmoniouslywithhissoul.We spoke on the phone and communicated by email several times before we met. Marcus had

previouslyreadtheLBLbooksbyDr.Newton,sohehadabasicunderstandingofwhatmighthappen.At first, I found itdifficult toguideMarcus into trance.The left sideofhisbodywasextremely

relaxed, but the right side felt tense. I concluded from this that the right hemisphere of his brain,which controls the left side of the body,was happy to go into trance, but the left hemispherewasreluctant.Iinvitedthetwohemispherestohaveadialogandairtheirconcerns.Marcustoldmethathissoul,whichwasoperatingtherighthemisphere,wasexcitedandenthusiasticaboutthisjourney,butthathishumanego,whichwasoperatingthelefthemisphere,didn’twanttocooperatebecauseitknew this would mean confronting the reality of its mortality. (1) This dialog had a successfuloutcome,andMarcuswentfullyintotrance.Hewentbacktoapastlifeinthenineteenthcentury,inwhichhewascheatedbyabusinesspartner.

Inthescenewevisited,Marcuswasextremelyangryandforcefullyaccusingtheman,buthispartnerwouldn’t apologize and refused to accept responsibility.He recognized thisman as someone he’dalsohaddifficultieswithduringhiscurrent life.From thesoulperspective,he saw that thekarmiclessonwasinlearningtoletgoandforgive.Hemoved very rapidly through the death scene, rising up and away fromEarth at breathtaking

speed.He sawa tunnel andmoved toward it and into it.The speedof themovement and themanycolorsthatsurroundedhim,plusthecompletelydifferentwayofthinkinghere,weremind-blowing.

Insteadoftheexpectedlightness,itwaswarmandthick,almostlikealiquid,butitwaspurelove.Asheexperiencedthis,hecommented:“Timeisn’tlinearhere.It’ssothickaroundyou.There’sashieldaroundtime.Outside,youexperiencelineartime;inside,everythingisaccessibleallatonce.”(2)Hespentafewmomentsexperimentingbymovinghimselfinandout,whollyinandthenhalfout

of thisamazingspace, inorder toexperienceandunderstand thedifferent realities.Hecommentedthatitfeltlikehalfofhisbodywasinthespiritworld,whiletheotherhalfremainedinthephysical:

Thesourceissopowerfulyoucan’tjoinuntilyou’reready,otherwiseyou’dbeblownapart.I’mnotclosetothesource,butIfeelveryconnected.Asasoul,I’vebeenherebefore.IthinktherearethingsIgenerallyhavetoattendtobeforemeetingmyguide.Thespeedisincredible.Therearenolimits.Ifyouhavetheawareness,thereisnolimit,butit’seasytogetlost.Youlearn.Theyoungeroneshavetobewatched.Theyaresuchchildren;mischievous,likelittlemonkeys!Theygetlostandfrightenedifthey’renotcareful,andsomeonehastogoandfetchthemback.(3)Iamanoldsoul—Idon’tknowhowold.Ikeepaneyeonthem.Icangoveryfast;itfeelsfantastic.There’snotime.Youhavewonderfulcontroloveryourenvironmentandyourabilitytomovearoundinit.

Afterspendingsometimewithhisyoungcharges,Marcuswasreadytomeethisguide,Peter.He

madeastrongtelepathicconnection,imaginingabeamoflightgoingfromhishearttoPeter ’sheart,andthenheaskedtobegiveninformationonestageabovethelevelforwhichPeterthoughthewasready.Peteraskedifhewassure,andMarcusreplied,“Yes,giveittome.”Whathappenednextwasashocktobothofus.Marcusjoltedviolentlyinhisrecliningchair.Therethenfollowedloudexclamationsof“Ohmy

god! Ohmy god!” This went on for someminutes.Marcus had received amassive download ofinformation from his guide, resulting in a change to his energy body around the heart and solarplexuschakras.Hegasped:

Mygod!There’ssomuchgoingon!Ican’tputitintowords.Communicationisphenomenallyfast.I’vejustbeentold10millionthings.Here’sx,y,zforyoutoconsume.Itwilltakemealongtime,maybeyears,toprocessthis.Toprocessthisinformation,Ihavetolearntomeditate.Ilovephysicalsensationandpassion,butIhavetolearntoswitchoffthehumanmindandmeditate.

Intheweeksfollowingthissession,Marcusdidmeditateregularly.Hewasnowabletoseeenergy

aroundhim,toheartones,andgenerallybemoreopenandreceptivetoenergiesaroundhim.Alongwith this, however, came some unwelcome activity in the house. There would be loud bangs andknocks,andMarcuswouldseespiritsinhisenergyfield.HewasworriedabouttheeffectthiscouldbehavingonhissonandthereforedecidedtoreducethemeditationandconcentrateonfindingoutmorebyreadingwidelyonspiritualresearchandattendingtheCollegeofPsychicStudiesinLondon.Wehadasecondsessionthefollowingyearthatinvolved,amongstotherthings,ameetingwithhis

soulgroupandhiscouncil,andanexplorationintothevariousplanesofexistenceinwhichenergyvibratesatdifferent frequencies. Inaddition,Marcusconnected tohissoulenergystill in residencewithinthespiritworld,hishigherself(4),resultinginaclearerunderstandingofhowkarmaoperatesinrelationtopositiveandnegativeenergy.Wewerequitekeentolearntodiscriminatebetweenthevariousenergiesthatapproachedhim—toknowiftheymightbebenignormalign.Hisguidesaidhewould be recognizable because he would touch the back of Marcus’s neck when he wanted tocommunicatewith him, and beyond that, he should trust his gut feelings.However, apart from thedownload,Peterhasprovedtobequiteahands-offguide,whodoesn’tget involvedinmuchdirect

communication.(5)Whenhedoescommunicate,however,hecanbequiteblunt,makingcommentssuchas“Don’tbedaft,youdon’tneedmyhelpforthat!”WeaskedthemeaningofagreenlightthatMarcussometimessees;andweweretoldthatitsimplymeans“go.”Heoftenseesakindofenergystaticaroundhim,alittlelikethetransportereffectinStarTrekasit’sbeamingupCaptainKirk.Hewas told that his guide had switched off some of the filters in his brain in order to expand hisperception,sohecannowbegintoseemoreofthemanydimensionsthatexisthere:

Thehumanbrainisactuallyasimpleorganatabasiclevel,andithasdifficultycopingwithdifferenttypesofinformation,orcommunicationstreams.Thereareloadsoffiltersinplace.Ifyouhadafullyopendoorwaybackhome,yourhumanbrainwouldn’tbeabletotakeit.Thelevelofenergyoverloadwoulddriveyouinsane.Forexample,peoplewhopracticeworkingwithkundalini(6)withoutknowingwhatthey’redoingarepotentiallyplayingwithfire,becausethey’reopeningup,aligningtheirenergyandremovingfilters.Itcanleadtoinsanity.Theyseedemonswherenoneexist.Therearesomanydifferenttypesoffiltersthatperformsomanyfunctions.Autisticchildren—somechildren’sfiltersaredamaged.Butotherfiltersarechangedsothattheyareveryhighfunctioning.Somanyfiltersperformingsomanythings,soweuseasmallamountofbrainpower.Thesefiltersarebeingswitchedonandoff.That’sbeingchanged,openingupjustalittlebitmore.

It’s two years later, and the changes inMarcus’s life that have resulted from his LBL session areprofound.Hehasmethisguide,hissoulgroup,andhiscouncil.Hehasdirectlyexperienceddifferentplanesofexistenceandhasexpandedhisconsciousness.Healingenergyistransmittedspontaneouslythroughhishands.Hehasn’tbeenhandedallthisknowledgeonaplate,though.Hisabilitytoperceivehasbeengreatlyenhanced,buttosomedegreeheisstillexploringunchartedterritory,andthistakescourage.Therehavebeentimeswhenhehasblockedoutperceptionsforfearoflosinghissanity.Atone time, duringmeditation, he became aware of a spirit scanning his body. Another time, againduringameditation,anapparentlyangryspiritbegantotearattheenergyaroundhisheartcenter,andherapidlyshookhimselfbacktofullalertness.(7)Despite this,however, thechangeshavebeenoverwhelminglypositive.Hisguidehasshownhim

various images duringmeditations—for instance, the birth of his own soul. This was a beautiful,profound witnessing of himself as a fragment of energy breaking away from the source amid akaleidoscope of colors and an intense feeling of love. In addition, he has seen inside his physicalbody,watcheditemithighlevelsoflightenergy,andwitnessedthehealingpowerofthelightfromabove.Marcus is a teacher soul, and part of his purpose during this lifetime is tomake enlightenment

availabletoothers—toofferinsightsintotherealityofourspiritualexistence.Alongsidehisdayjob,hehasbeencarryingouthealingandcharityworkinsheltersforthehomeless.Heplanstoofferhelpinhospices,toeasethepassingofthosewhoarefrightenedofdeathsimplybecausetheydon’tknowthat they aremore than their human personality.One of his best discoveries, though, is simply toknowatadeeplevelwhoheis:amultidimensionalsoul,interconnectedwithallthatis.Marcus is planning towrite a film script depicting the spiritworld and the various activities in

whichsoulsparticipate—again,inordertoplayhispartinmakingtheknowledgeofthesespiritualrealitiesavailabletoasmanypeopleaspossible.Thisisaverycapable,dynamicpersonwithgreatpassion and great talent, and I look forward to his plans becoming reality. Itwas a real joy and aprivilegeformetobeabletoworkwithhim.

(1)Itisnotstandardpracticeforthesoultooperatesolelyfromtherighthemisphereofthe

brain,althoughthatisourcreative,intuitiveside.Itisjustwhatwasreportedinthisinstance.Foranaccountofasoul’sbalancedentryandengagementwiththeentirebrain,seeDS386.Forhumanhemisphericimbalancesthataffectsouls,seeDS,case37,208-209.

(2)Spiritualversuslineartime:seeJS212,DS164,andLBLH161.(3)Whitelightcharacteristicsofchildsouls:seeLBLH97.Teachersofchildsouls:LBLH143.(4)Souldivision:seeDS62,108,116-119andLBLH135-137.(5)Withourfirstassignmenttoanewlyformedsoulclustergroupaftercreation,anadvancednonincarnatingpersonalguideischosenforusandothermembersofourgroup.Thisisnotahaphazardappointment.Whiletheimmortalcharacterofeveryteacherguideisdifferent,ithasbeenapparentlydeterminedbyevenhigherbeingsthatspecificqualitiesofcharacterandexperienceinguidesarematchedwithourownsoulcharactertoproducethebestresultsforouradvancement.Seeguideassignmentstosouls,JS110-111,andteachingcharacteristicsofspiritguides,JS118.(6)Kundaliniisaconcentratedformofuniversallifeforceinvolvingbothyogaandmeditativedisciplinetocreatecommunicationbetweenthespiritualandphysicalplanes.(7)WearetoldthatMarcushashadto“blockoutperceptions”forfearoflosinghissanity.Psychologically,thisstatementisveryrevealinginlightofwhatfollowsintermsofmeditations,longafterhissessions,wherethisclientwasfrightenedby“angryspirits”whowerereadytotakeoverhisbody.Therearepeoplewhoareterrifiedoftheideathatmeditation,hypnosis,sleep,beinginacoma,etc.,letdownthementalbarriersoftheconsciousmindandleaveusopentodemonicspirits.Awholecottageindustryhasemergedinrecentyearsoverthisfalsebeliefsystem.Themisuseof“energycleansing”therapyinsomequartersunderthetitleof“spiritualattachmentrelease”isagoodexample.Thissmacksofexorcismandattractspeopleincertainreligiouscircles.Everyconceptinourconsciousmindhasitsownpsychicassociationsthatvaryinintensitydependingonlifecircumstancesandbeliefsystems.Thenotionthatevilspiritsarewaitingtoattachthemselvestooursoulcreatesunnecessaryfearwithsusceptiblepeoplewhoareattractedtomedievalsuperstition,becausemanyfeeltheydeservetobepunishedfortheirtransgressionsonEarth.Whiletherearediscarnatedsoulswhoarenotreadytogointothelightafterdeath,andeven

extraterrestrialsouls(soulswhohaveneverbeenincarnatedinhumanform),orsimplycuriousormischievoussouls,therearenot“darkforces”involvingevilordemonicentitiesreadytoattachorstealthesoulsoftheincarnated.Why?Becauseevildoesnotexistinthespiritworld—asphereoflove,compassion,andkindness.Theideaofdangerousspiritsreadytoinhabitthehumanmindisnotsomethingthehighlyadvanced,benevolentbeingsofthespiritworldwouldpermit.Manyofusworkinginthefieldofspiritualintegrationinvolvingthesoulandhumanbrainbelievethatthenotionofspiritattachmentsarefragmentsofone’sownselfthatrequirehealing.Suppressingaspectsoftheselfmaycreateaphenomenonthatresemblespossessionasanaspectoftheunintregatedself.Psychologically,suchnegativeenergyinfearfulpeopleofteninvolvesfeelingsofguilt,unworthiness,personalinadequacy,andavarietyofunresolvedissuesinlife.

ItisrelevantforreaderstoknowthatifMarcushadexperiencedatroublesomeandunaccountedspiritduringhissession,theLBLfacilitatorinthisstorywouldhavedealtwithitpromptly.Suchdisturbingvisualizationsarerareinourwork,buttheydooccur.Asanexample,thetherapistinthiscaseworkedwithaladywhovisualizedsomethingsimilartoMarcus,andthefacilitatorimmediatelycalledonthiswoman’spersonalspiritguideforassistance.Theguideexplainedthatthedark,sinisterfigurewhocame“tosteal”thishypnosissubject’ssoulwasactuallyamemberofherownsoulgrouponamissiontoshakeheroutofherdepressionandlearntovalueherlifemore.Notallspiritsareadvancedorskillfulenoughtoengagethehumanmindsmoothlyduringthefirsttry.Seecommunicationskillsofsouls,DS37;displacedsouls,JS45-47;clientbeliefsystems,LBLH3-6;andspiritattachment,LBLH70-71.

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JINGLEBELLS

NancyHajek(NASHVILLE,TENNESSEE)

CASE-STUDYREVIEWERFORTNICERTIFICATIONCOMMITTEE;PERFORMSCLINICALHYPNOSIS,PAST-LIFEANDBETWEEN-LIVESREGRESSION.

Thiscaseillustrateshowpeoplemayplaysimilarrolesinbothourpastandcurrentlives,andhowpresentrelationshipscanbecoloredbythenatureofthesepastassociations.Italsorevealsadirectcorrelationbetweenphysicalsymptomsmanifestinginthecurrentlifeandthecircumstancesofdeathintheformerlife,linkedbyfeelingsofguiltandhelplessness.Jameslearnsthathisfeelingsofangerandself-loathing,carriedoverfromthepast,are

causingablocktohisevolution.Uponretrievinghisbetween-livesmemories,helearnsthatitisuptohimtoletgoofthewoundsofthepastinordertofulfillhislife’spurpose.Thiscasealsodemonstrateshowourguidesuseimagesthatareimportanttousasmetaphors

inillustratingourstrengthsandweaknesses.JAMESCAMETOmyofficeamanonamission.Apsychotherapist,hedevotedhimselftohelpingothersburdenedwithanxietyanddepressionwhilesufferingprivatelywiththeverysameconditions.He explained that on the outside, his life appeared idyllic: a beautiful family, nice home, and anambitiouscareerwithathrivingpractice.Butatforty-five,hehadalreadyexperiencedalonghistoryof inner turmoil, escalating intomigraines, paralyzing panic attacks, and agoraphobia.Medicationand traditional therapy hadmediated his unease for short periods, but an undercurrent of anxietycontinuedtosurface,andthedamagetohisfamilylife,career,andownself-imagewasincreasing.Jamestoldmethathe’dhadenough;heintendedtogettothesourceofhiscondition,healhimself,andlivefreeoffearandmedication.Asachild, James livedwithhismomandgrandparents,neverknowinghis father.Whenhewas

fouryearsold,hismotherintroducedhimtoBill,amanshewasdating.“No,nothim!”wastheboy’sfirst response.AsBillbecameapermanent fixture, sodidhisemotionalandverbalabuse. James’sattachment tohismom turned intoaconstant fearof losingher, andhisdislikeofBill turned intoangerandresentment.Thedayhegraduatedfromhighschool,hecamehometofindhisstepfatherviolentlyshakinghismother.Jamespunchedhimintheface,andBillwentdown.Thatnight,Jameswastoldtoleave.Webeganour investigationwithpast-liferegression, looking toa lifetimesignificant toJames’s

anxiety.Herecalledbeingablackslave,Albert, intheAmericanSouth—1800sGeorgia.Duetohispositionasoverseerofthefieldslaves,hewascallouslywhippedandhumiliatedbyhismaster,andforcedtowhiphisownpeoplewheninstructed.Albertgrewtohatehismasterbutheldhisangerinchecktostayalive.Hiswifewasoftenrapedandbeatenbythemaster,andsuccumbedtowoundsandabrokenspirit,dyingearlyinlife.Albertlivedtheremainderofhislifeangry,resentful,andlonely.

As he died, he felt his soul shoot upward, coming to rest in the presence of a vibrant being. Hereported thathisbodybegan toshiverup thespinewithexcitement.Herecognizes thebeingashisguideandcallshimGeorge.

NANCY:HowdoesGeorgegreetyou?JAMES:HetellsmeitwasmylackoffaithinmyselfthatmademelonelyasAlbert.Andnow,heasks,whydoIworry?Everythingwillbetakencareof;ifIhadmorefaith,Iwouldknowthisandnothavetheanxiety.WhenIwaver,hehastobringmeback;hegrowstiredofit.N:Ishetrulytiredofworkingwithyouinthismanner?J:(hesitating)No,notreally...hejustsaysthatforeffect...hewaitspatientlyformetocomebacktofaith...totrustinhispresence.He’stellingmehe’sproudofme...Inevergotthatfromanyoneinthislife.AndIseenowthatmywifeinthepastismymothertoday,andtheslavemasteristhesamesoulasthatofmystepfather,Bill.N:WillweworkwithGeorgeinthespiritworldduringournextsession?J:(chuckle)Hesaysifyoumust...Ithinkhesaysthattomeoften.Hesaysthatwhenhewantstoimplythereisamoredirectroute,ifIwouldhavefaithandconnectwithhiminternally.SometimesIgoaboutthingsinaparticularway...circuitously.Hesaysitwillcomeoutthesameintheend...he’spatient...andamused.

A few weeks passed, and James was back for his life-between-lives regression; he felt he had

becomemorerelaxedafterhislastvisitandwaslookingforwardtofurtherrevelations.Recountinghis life asAlbert hadbrought great insight into thedynamics betweenhimself andhismother andstepfather. The baffling panic he often felt before going to work became comprehensible. HeconfessedhewassoexcitedabouthisLBL thathe felt like therewasaSantaClaus,and todaywasgoingtobelikeopeninguppresentsonChristmasmorning.Hisobjectivewastofindreliefforhisheadachesandcontinuedefusinghisanxiety,particularly theanxiety thatoriginated inhisstomach.Webeganthejourneybygoingtomyclient’smostrecentpastlifeasaGermansoldierinWorldWarII.Thesceneopensinthecoldwoods;myclientfindshimselfasKlaus,preparingfornightwatch.He

inventorieshisweapons:rifleinrighthand,ammunitionboxonleft,pistolonright,canteenonleft,grenades in back, all attached to a big belt, “like a SantaClaus belt,” he explains.He’s lonely; hethinksofhiswifeandchildren.Hedoesnotwanttobehere;heneverwantedtocome.Hesayshewasforcedtocome;theNazisthreatenedhisfamily.Thenextday,theenemyisengaged.Hesaystensely:

I’matthefrontofthepack,behindadirtbank.I’mstationedasasniper...Ishootthemwhentheymoveforpositionbetweenthetrees.Ishootforthehead,asI’mtold...wehavetheadvantage...wekillthemall.Idon’tfeelgoodaboutit.Wemarchforward,deadAmericanseverywhere,itmakesmesick.Later,theotherscelebrate,drink.Iseparatemyself...Iwanttothrowup.I’mtornupinside.Iliketobethebest...Ilikethepraisefrommycommander...butIhatemyselfforthekilling.

Anotherbattle follows.Klaus ismovingacrossanopenfieldwhenhe isshot in thestomach.He

feels thehot,burningpainashedrifts inandoutofconsciousness.Heslips fromhisbody, seesalightinthedistance,andfeelspeace.Movingcloser,heseesthelightisatunnel.Heenters,andasheglidesthroughthetunnel,theearthlypaingraduallydisappears.Georgeisbehindhim;theyexitthetunnelandmovethroughlayersoffog:

N:Whatisthepurposeofthefog?J:Contemplation…Iprocessthepastlife…myguidehashishandonthesmallofmyback,calmingme,allowingmetodothis.N:Bywhatnamedoeshecallyou?J:Theos.

Afterawarmwelcomebyfamiliarsouls,Theosistakentoasmallenclosurehecallsa4x8-footroomtothink.(1)

N:Whatdoyouthinkaboutinthisplace?J:(sadly)I’mthinkingabouttheemotionsIfeltasKlaus—theregretIhavenow…thepainIcaused…thefearofthoseIkilled…thelosstotheirfamilies…theburningoftheirgunshotwounds.N:Wheredoyoufeeltheburning?J:Inmyhead…Iaimedforthehead.N:Isthisrelatedtothemigrainesexperiencedinthepresenttime?J:Yes…directly.N:Isthesenseofanxietyinthestomachrelatedtothesepastevents?J:Yes…tomyfatalwound.N:Whattriggersthesesymptomstomanifestinthecurrenttime?J:(Theosisabsorbedinstrongfeelingsofdisappointmentinhimself,andthenheanswersthequestion.)Iamcondemningmyselfmorethananyonearoundmeis…butIamresponsibleforalotofmisery…beingthebestmeantkillingmany…whycouldn’tIhavebeenmorelikeJesus…helethimselfbekilledbeforehewouldharmanother…itiswrongtokill…Iamnotproudofmyself.N:Isyourguideabletohelpyouworkthroughthesefeelings?J:(pause)Yes…butitseemsthatthereareothersaswell…sendingthoughtsintothisspace.It’sverypeacefulinthissmallroom.N:Whoaretheseothers?J:(searching)I’mnotsure…N:WillthosewhoarehelpingyousuggesthowtoremedytheheadacheandanxietyinyourlifeasJames?(2)J:(quietly)Iholdthisagainsttheself…Ineedtoreleasetheself-loathinginordertotrulyloveothers…forgivemyselfsothatIcanforgiveothers.

Asmyclienttentativelypondersthisadvice,anotherbeingappears;JamessaysitisJesusandissomewhatunnerved,butashelooksmoreclosely,hereportsthefigurechangesinappearance,nowwearinggoldtrackshoesandatoga!

N:Whoisthisbeing?J:(abitrelieved)Oh,it’sDonovan.Hehelpsmeaswell,moreofajuniorguideworkingunderGeorge.HeappearedasJesustogetmyattention…itworked!(3)N:WhywouldheappearasJesustogetyourattention?J:InmylifeasAlbert,ItriedhardtofollowJesus’sexample…Iwastaughttoread.TheonebookIhadwasabible.Iseemyselfclingingtohiswordswhenthingswerehardtobear.N:DoesDonovanremindyouofthisforareason?J:HewantsmetorememberhowwellIusedthis…howIcouldhavelashedoutinangermany

timesbutinsteadcontrolledmyselfinthewakeofgreatprovocation.N:IsthisknowledgeimportantinyourlifeasJames?J:(reflective)Yes…Donovanisshowingmeacommontheme.AsAlbert,Ihatedbeingafraid,humiliated…thefearturnedintoanger…Iwasangryatbeingpowerless…Ievenenviedthemaster ’sposition.WhileIdidwelltocontrolimpulsiveacts,focusingonthemessageofJesus…Ididnottakeitintomyheart.ThefeelingsreturntomenowasJames…angeratbeingdisrespected,fearwhenIamnotontopoftheheap.Theanxietycomesfromthis…andisasignalthatI’mgoingoff-message…IwantedtoresolveallthisasJames.Donovanshowsmehowthesefeelingssurfacedrecently…hewasstimulatingthem…heknewIwantedtofacethemandwashelpingme.

DonovanescortsTheos toagroupofsoulshecollaborateswith,both in thespiritworldandon

Earth.Hesaystheyworkonasharedlesson:toexpressgreatamountsoflovewhenfacedwithgreatchallengeonEarth.Heisremindedthatbothhisneedforrecognitionandtheself-condemnationwhenhe pursues recognition pose a block to his mission. Interestingly, the group members positionthemselvesintheshapeofatriangle—oneofseveraltrianglespresentedtoTheosduringhisjourneythroughthespiritworld.Herehefindshimselfinthecenteroftheformation:

N:Whythetriangles,Theos?Whatistheimportanceofthisshape?J:TheyareusingthisshapetodescribetheimportanceIplaceonreachingtheapex…myneedtobeontop…thatIfeelIhavetobethebest.N:Whydotheyplaceyouinthecenter?J:Theysurroundmewiththeirlove…itfeelsgood…theywantmetoknowtheloveIcanfeelbybeinginthecenterofthetriangle…Idon’thavetobeatthetoptobeloved.

Later,Theosisescortedintowhatappearstobeacourtroomandfindshimselfstandingbeforea

council of elder beings. Their configuration is created by a raised platform, highest in the centerwhiledescendinginstepsoneitherside,givingthepresentationofatriangle.Theospeersintenselyatthefigures,tryingtoanswermyinquiries.Frustrated,hesaystheyarewhitestatues;thehighestone,inthemiddle,lookslikeawhiteSantaClausstatue.

N:(afterdeepening)I’dlikeyoutorelaxyourgazeandglancesoftlytowardthecenterfigure.J:(excitedly)Hebecomesanimated…likeajollySaintNick…redandgreencometolifeinhisclothes…hewearsanecklacewitharoundpendant…thepeacesign.(4)N:Andthesignificanceofthissymbol?J:(pause)Peacewithinmyself…peacewithwhatI’vedone…peacewiththeanxiety…it’severythingthatIyearnfor…Iputoutmyhand…helaughs…ho-ho-ho…Igetthemessage…I’llprospermoreifIattainitformyself.

Theos describes the other figures; each time he strains to see them clearly, they becomewhite

statues.WhenIaskTheostodiscernthepurposeofthiseffect,hediscoversitdemonstratestheeffectofstraining.Heseesthisisgeneratedwhenhebecomesfearfulandforcesthingstohappen,renderinghisaspirationslifelessandbeyondreach.Theeldersconveythathisgoalswillcomeeasierifhewillrelaxhisgripandhavefaithintheinnerworkingsofhis life.Theytellhimtolightenupandhavesome fun along theway and enjoy life.The councilmembers continue to display the attitudes thatrevivifyfearsofthepastandgenerateanxietyinthepresent:

J:AnotheroftheeldersisdressedasRameses(anEgyptianpharaoh)…hisextravagantgold

headdressimpliesfancynothingness…Ishouldnotbepreoccupiedwithbeingheadman…thewordsofJesuscome:“Thefirstshallbelast,thelastshallbefirst.”Nexttohimisanother…acrowsitsonhisrightshoulder.Beingcriticalcomestomind.Thecrowimpliesmyimpulsetopickatthings…IbecomeconsumedincriticalthoughtwhenIfearfailure.Heshowsmeabirdsittingquietly…Idon’thavetogetridofit,simplytameit…relymoreonmyintuition.WhenIforgetthis,theanxietycomesinmystomach…whenIgetitright,Ifeeltheshiverupmyspine.N:Yourcouncilmembersseemlikeanimaginativebunch.Dotheyalwaysappearasthesecharacters?J:(laughs)No,theyusewhateversuitsthelessonbest…andmystateofmind.TheyknewtheSantawouldgetmyattentiontoday…veryclever.IfeelnowtheyweretheonessendingthoughtsintotheboxwhenIfirstarrived,helpingmetostartfiguringthingsoutformyself.N:Theos,itseemsyouhavelearnedmuchabouttheoriginsofyourdesireforesteemandposition,andtheanxietythatcomeswhenyoufearlosingthese.TheconnectionbetweenyourlivesasAlbertandJamesisbecomingclearer,buthowdoesyourlifeasKlausfitintotheplan?Weknowthatperiodleftyoudeeplyconflictedandforlorn.J:(pensive)Iseenow…itwasanambitiousidea,butIwantedit.JustcomingoutofmytimeasAlbert,itwouldbeverytemptingtochoosethepathofferedtoKlaus…beingimportant…praiseformymarksmanship,respectfromothers…Ireallymessedup.Ihadintendedtoresisttheoffer,togowithmyheart,staywithmyfamily.InsteadIfellforit.IseewhyIcouldnotstomachthekilling…Iwasnotthereinanysenseofserviceormoralconviction…itwasallaboutpersonalrecognition.Donovan,thecouncil…theyknewitwouldbechallenging…theyfiguredinseveralwaysoutofthispath,butIwassohungryforacclaim,Imissedthemall.N:Howdoesitfeeltobeawareoftheseintentsandchoices?J:Oh,veryhelpful…IknowwhatIneedtodo…IwanttogetahandleonthisandachievewhatIintended…ratherthanseekrankandpower(asinhisGermanlife)toremedymywounds,IwanttorespectmyselffortheloveandforgivenessIcanoffer.

IntheyearfollowinghisLBL,Jamestooktohearttheadviceofhisguideandelders,andcameupwithanewwaytoexcel.Helearnedtoquiethimself,listentoinnercounsel,totrusthisintuitionandtheshiversuphisspine.Amaninspired,Jamessaysitbest:

Thisexperiencehaschangedmyentireworldview,myperspective.Knowingofthelifeofmysoul,Iknowthislifeisn’tfinal—it’saprocess.Thegoalsofmydailylifehavechanged;myself-esteemhadbeendeterminedbymymaterialaccomplishments.NowIamsmellingtherosesforthefirsttimeinmylife,andIfeelemotionallyconnectedtolifeagain.Myworkethicisback,andmyanxietyiscompletelygone.MyeldestsonisshowingsignsofbeingjustlikeIwas…angry,frustrated,anxious…hewasafellowslaveinmytimeasAlbert…nowIcanshowhimthethingsthatareimportantandthosethatarenot.Ialsofeelmorenormal…whenIdidnotunderstandmyselfsowell,Ifeltoddforhavingthesethoughtsandfeelingsinside.Nowitjustseemsreasonable!Thingsjustpopoutintomyconsciousnessnow…realizationsaboutwhatIrecalledinsessionandsometimestotallynewinformation.IfeelIcancommunicatewithmyguideswheneverIchoose.IthinkwhatIholdmostdearisthehumor,playfulness,patientdemeanor,andcreativityofmyguidesandelders;Ibelievetheyhaverubbedoffonme.

Being human,we blanket ourselves from our greater purpose and prior intention.Our lives on

Earthtendtoseparateusfromthebodyofourworkassoulsandleaveusgrapplingnotonlywiththeangstofthemomentbutwithitsresonantmumblingfromthepast.SometimesIthinkitremarkable

that we glean as much as we do from a lifetime! For James, recalling his immortality was likeshakingoffsleep,andwith it theblunders thatcancomewithdrowsiness.Hissenseofhimselfhasshifted;heisnowawareofhiscourageouslyinventivesoulandathomeinauniversesupportedbywisdom,suffusedwithlight,andsurroundedbylove.

(1)Itmayappeartothereaderthatthissoulhasbeendelegatedtosolitaryconfinementfortransgressionsinlifeasakindofpurgatory.Actually,nothingofthesortishappeninghere.Soulsoftenrequireaplaceofsolitudeandreflectionrightafteraphysicallife,beforerejoiningtheirspiritgroup.Thesesmallspaceshavebeendescribedasenclosuresofhighenergyvibrationstofacilitatethoughtandsometimesareportrayedascrystallinecavesinnature.Seesoulsinseclusion,DS67-68,105,andsoulsolitudebeforereturningtoclustergroups,LBLH106.

(2)Whileitseemsasthoughthehypnotherapisthereis“leadingtheclient”intheirexchanges,Iwanttostressthatwhenwritersofdialoginpast-lifeandafterlifecasesconstructtheirstoriesforbooks,wehaveadilemmaduetothespacecondensationsthatthissortofwritingrequires.Ifwewroteaboutallthenuancesconnectingouropen-endedquestions,theaveragecasewouldbedoubleinlengthonthewrittenpage.Forexample,thewriterinthissectionprobablybeganherinquirywithsomethinglike,“Whatcanyoutellmeaboutthosearoundyou?”Typically,therewouldbeanumberofquestionsbefore“Whoishelpingyouwithhowtoremedytheheadacheandanxietyinyourlife?”Wedon’thavethespaceforallthequestionsleadinguptotheoneontheprintedpage.However,havingsaidthat,Ishouldalsoaddthatthereareclientswhooccasionallywill

requirealeading,ordirective,questionbythehypnosisfacilitatortojoltthemintoaresponse.Thereareclientswhoaresoinaweoftheafterlifethattheydon’twanttospeakofthedivinerevelationsthattheyarevisualizingandhearing.Theexperienceisalmostsacredtothem,andtheymustalmostbegivenpermissiontoaffirmwhattheyalreadyknoworarelearningaboutduringthesession.Thisiswhatmakesourworksochallenging.Seephrasingquestions,LBLH74-78andalsoencouragingverbalresponsesfromclients,LBLH146.(3)DuringtheearlieralphastagesofhypnosisinLBLsessions,therearesubjectswhomaymentionknownhistoricalreligiousfiguresonEarthwhomtheyrelatetoonaconsciouslevel.Thisiswhatisknownaspreconditionedconsciousinterference.Butoncethedeeperthetastateofhypnosisisachieved,usuallyaftermentallycrossingintothespiritworld,symbolicreligiousfiguresdisappearinfavoroftherecognitionofapersonalspiritguide.SeeLBLH4,5,and108.(4)Signsandsymbolsareoftenpresentedinoneformoranothertosoulsappearingbeforeacouncil.Theyaredesignedtohavespecificmeaningtothedevelopingsoul.Medallionswornbytheeldersaddtoasoul’slearningabouteventsandactionsintheirphysicallives.SeeDS224-242.

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THEreluctantSOULMATE

DavidAllen(TONBRIDGE,ENGLAND)

AREGISTEREDHYPNOTHERAPIST,LBLTHERAPIST,ANDEMOTIONALFREEDOMTECHNIQUES(EFT)TRAINERSPECIALIZINGINSPIRITUAL

INTEGRATIONANDALCOHOLDEPENDENCYISSUES.

InJacqueline’sstory,thetimelydiscoveryofDr.MichaelNewton’sbookDestinyofSoulsandonelengthyphonecallprecededtheLBLexperiencethatwouldleadtothelifechangesandunderstandingshesodesperatelysought.Anhonest,trustworthy,hardworkingindividualwhohatedherbodyandherself,Jacquelinecouldn’tbegintoformtherelationshipshesodesperatelywanted,hadissueswithjealousy,commitment,andtrust,andjustfeltherlifewasgoingnowhere.HerrevelationsinLBLledhertothediscoveryofhersoulmateandawholenewperspectiveonherlifeanditspurpose.

THIS FASCINATINGSTORYbegan one quiet afternoonwhen, from out of the blue, I received atelephone call that was almost panicky in nature. The caller was a forty-nine-year-old woman,Jacqueline,inthemidstofanexperienceshedidn’tunderstand,andshewasclearlyconcernedabouthowitwasaffectingherlifeandhersanity.We spent over an hour on the telephone, in part so I could help her anxiety subside, but also

becauseIfoundmyselflisteningwithmountinginterestandexcitement.Therewassomethingmissingfromherstory—andIhadtheoverwhelmingsensationthatIknewwhatitmightbe.Icouldn’tknowthedetails,ofcourse,butIknewhowwemightfillthatgap.Iofferedpossibleexplanations,answeredsomequestions,andlistenedalot,andfinallyweagreedthattheLBLprocesscouldbeawaytobringherlifeandafterlifeintoperspective.Jacqueline’slifehashaditsshareofdifficulties,bothfinancialandemotional,withaparticularly

lowpointexactlyoneyearbefore,symbolizedbythenow-fadedlinesonherrightforearm,theresultofadesperate sawingactionwithakitchenknife.She toldme thatover timeandwithahistoryofunsatisfactory relationships, it was just getting harder and harder for her to trust and commit toanyone.Whatshesaidshewantedjustseemedtobemoreandmoredifficulttoachieve:

FormuchofmyadultlifeI’vebeensingle.EvenintherelationshipsI’vehad,Ihaveoftenfeltsingle.Onetwelve-yearcommitmenttothefatherofmydaughtersperhapswasthehighlight.Thatendedbecausehejustdidn’tcareanymore,andIcouldn’tunderstandwhy.Ireallywantanadult,lovingrelationship.IlikesexandIlovepeopleandIworkhardinmyjobandathome.Itisn’teasyspendingmostofyourlifeasasingleparent,andmyparents,blessthem,havebeenonmanyrescuemissionsduringthattimetotheirpoor,underachievingsingledaughter.

Whilethingshaven’tgoneparticularlywellforher,shefreelyacknowledgesthatthereareotherswhohave it farharder,andshe is frequentlyself-deprecatingforwantingmorefromherownlife.Sheiscourageousandcanmakerationaldecisionsforpracticalpurposes.Intheabsenceofalovingsexualrelationshipandtheemotionalstabilitytoformone,apracticalapproachistoperhapspursuethe sexual aspect alone. Because her emotional barriers are firmly in place, they have to besuppressedwithalcoholforhertobeabletoengageinshort-termsexualcongress.Buttobecapableofsuchanapproachdoesdemonstratetherational,practicaledgethatissomuchapartofJacquelineandherlifeexperiencestodate.Sixmonthsbeforeshefelttheurgetocallme,JacquelinehadmadecontactwithPaulonadating

website.Thishadasignificantimpact;shesaid,“WhenIsawhispictureforthefirsttime,myentirechesttingledwithexcitement.Hewassobeautiful.”Paul and Jacqueline began a relationship within a dimension involving distance of which few

peoplearecapable.Theircommunications,bothverbalandcognitive,wereandstillarespiritualandtelepathic.Theyhavenevermet inperson, and theonly “real” contact theyhaveexperienced isbyphone.

PaulandIhavespokenonlyfourtimesonthephoneandexchangedafewtextsbuthavenevermetphysicallyinperson.Inthemetaphysicalworld,wehavespentmanynightstogether,spokenatlengthinthelanguageofthemind;I’vefelthisbodysexuallyandlovingly,cuddlinginthoseearlyhoursjustbeforeIhavetogowork;hehastakenmeonwondrousjourneystomanyplacesandistrulymysoulmateandguide,yetamongstallthis,wecannotmeetandcannotfulfillthosemostnecessaryofadulthumanneeds.Hecannotcomeintomylife,becauseheisdamagedandwilldamageme,butheisthere.

Theirinterdimensionalclosenessoccurredatalllevelsandfelttoherasrealaslife.Hetookherto

wondrousplacesandsupportedherwhentheneedarose:

Paulshowedmewhohewas.Atfirst,IsawanIndianmedicinemanstandinginfrontofhistepeeandlookingoverhispeople.Hewasagoodmanandaproudmanandinreturn,hewaswell-respectedandloved.Thentherewasawomannexttohim,andshewassoproudtobethere.Shelovedherman;hemighthavebeenthemedicineman,butshewasthestrengthbehindhim.Thatwomanwasme.

JacquelineandPaul’srelationshipstartedwellbutbegantounravelinadisturbingway.

Theclosenessandlovingalltoooftenwerefollowedbyperiodswhenhebecamespitefulandhurtful.Forsomereason,hepushedmeawaywithaggression,andbythistime,hispresencehadbecomeanintrusioninmylifethatIcouldn’tstop.ItwasinthisclimateandatthistimethatIopenedandbegantoreadDestinyofSouls.AsIturnedthepages,IcouldhardlybelievewhatIwasreading.Herewassomeoneexplaining

indetailthingsthatwerehappeningtome—inblackandwhite,itdescribedexactlywhatwashappeningtome,andIcouldn’tevenbegintounderstandhowanyoneelsecouldknowthat.Ihadbeentoacrystalrecoverycenter,experiencedahealingshower,andsawthatmyspiritualhomeisabeautifulgarden,asdescribedinthebookwherenewlyarrivedsoulsareoriented.Thesediscoverieshauntedme,becausetheyalsoraisedquestionsthatseeminglycouldn’tbe

answered.IspentsomedayswonderingwhattodoandlookeduptheauthorofthisbookandtheNewtonInstitutewebsiteandmadethatlife-changingtelephonecall.

Spiritualmemoriesarediscoveredduringdeephypnosis.Thewaytoachievethenecessarylevelof

tranceisintwostages,inductionanddeepening.Inessence,Ihavetoestablishatrancestateandthenimproveonituntilthisdeeplevelisreached.Inductionscanbeofvaryinglength,dependingontheclient,butmypreferenceis“slowlydoesit.”Thisstageusuallytakesaroundhalfanhour.AbouttenminutesintoJacqueline’sinduction,thefollowinghappened:

Ohgodthisfeelingoflove,I’vegotthisfeelingofsittinginthesunshine.Ohthisheatandlove.Therearesomepeopleinthedistance,I’mgettingabitnervousandtheyhavebackedoffabit,I’mgoingtotryandcalmmyselfdown.Ohmygod.It’s,it’s…theyarethere,thesepeople.I’minalmostlikeaplaygroundand

there’sallthesepeopleandthey’resohappytoseeme,ohI’mgoingtocry,oh,theemotionisjustoverwhelming,theyaresohappytoseeme.It’ssophysical,I’minaplaygroundwithphysicalpeople,theyarestillstandingbackbuttheyarethere,theyaregettingcloser,theyarestandingbehindabarrier,abarriercominguptotheirknees,thishappenedlastnightaswellandthismorning…thentheywereinmyroom,god,I’veneverfeltsuchemotionfromsomanypeople,whoarethesepeople?Theyarealldifferentages,I’vegotonewomanwithgrayhairandglasses…that’smynan,

there’safewpeoplehuddledinagroupaboutfivefeetawaybutsheismygreatnan,Idon’tknowhername,sheissmiling.Shewantsmetocomeforwardsothatshecanhugme.There’salittleboyaboutnineyearsoldnearher,andIdon’tknowwhoheis,Idon’t

recognizehim…heisjuststandingtheresmiling,he’ssmallforhisage,mynanhasjustgotholdofhishand.I’vegonetosomeoneelse,she’spushingherwaythroughthecrowdandIdon’tknowwho

sheis,sheisaboutthirtyandabittallerthanme,veryconfident,she’sgotholdofmyhandandit’slikeshe’sknownmeallofherlifebutIdon’tknowwhosheis.Oh,it’smygranddad,ohmygod,it’sBill.Billwasnevermygranddad,hewasmynan’s

secondhusband,andIabsolutelylovedhim,reallylovedhim.Ohmygod,he’shere,it’sveryemotional,this,I’mjustgoingtocryagain.They’vegonenowwithlove,sorry,sorry.(1)

Afterthisjumping-aheadinterlude,wecontinuedataslowerprogression.Jacquelinewenttoapast

lifeasawomannamedBethwhohadanunhappy,unfulfilledlifewithamiserablemarriage.Onthelastdayofherlife,shewassotired,anditjustseemedtobeanappropriateandordinaryend:

MyspiritualnameisSanu,andI’mnowhomeinmygarden.Thegrassisasgreenasitcouldbe,thoughitdoesneedcutting.WhenIbreathein,Icanbreathethecolorsoftheflowersandtakeontheenergythatthegardencangiveme.Ihavetostayhereforawhile,foratthemoment,I’mnotreadytomoveon.

SanuasksmeifIwouldlikeatourofherhouse,andshedescribestomethedécorandornaments

untilshefeelstiredagain.Wehavetowaituntilherenergyhasbeenrestoredfully.Thereisapauseinproceedings,andshetakesashowertocleanseherofthelastlife.IaskSanuifshewouldliketomeetherguide,butevenbeforeIhadutteredallthewords,shesays:

Heishere,anditisPaul,Ididn’texpectthat;oh,whyamIsurprised?Heislovelyandsobeautiful.HisspiritnameisTreymar.HeisreallyhappytoseemeandpresentshimselfasIseehimonEarthsothatIcanrecognizehim.It’salittleoddbecauseI’mnotasIamhere.Heisalso

inmygarden,holdingmyhand,andhehugsme.Jacquelinegoesontodescribeanintenseconnectionshecanactuallyfeelinherphysicalbody.She

is telling Paul to behave himself because she doesn’t want to be embarrassed. This physicalconnectionissexualaswellasloving,andsheisasoverwhelmedbyhisbeautyinspiritassheiswithhisearthlyincarnation.Heishersoulmateandherguide,andaneternallovebindsthemtogether.Her guide and her soul mate exist in two places. The energy of this being is divided into two

approximately equal parts, one part pure and complete and the other entwined and linkedwith thephysicalhumanbeingwho isPaul.The spiritual energywithinPaul isno longerpure; it hasbeendamagedbyhislifeexperiencesandisstrangelyseparatefromthepurityofTreymar.Becauseofthechangetotheenergy,itisnolongerthesame,andthathaspracticalramifications.Theenergycannotberejoinedasitstands,andtobecomeasoneagain,thepartthatisinPaulwillneedtoberepairedwhenhislifeisended.Althoughthisisonespiritualenergyentity,itsaspectsarenotabletoconnectin any meaningful way while Paul’s physical body and brain has possession. If Paul’s energy isinsufficient to cope, nothing canbedone.Treymar is awarebut is effectively just anonlooker; hecannotalterorsupplementthepartofhisenergythatisinuse,andhecannotinfluencePaul’sactionsanddecisions.Oncetheenergyhasbeenallocatedandinstalled,asitwere,theresultantbeing—whichcouldbeyouormeoranyoneelse—liveswithindependence,andhowwefareinthisexistencecandramaticallyalterthestructureofthespiritualenergy.(2)Jacqueline is now dating but not clinging. She has developed an entirely new perspective on

herself,physicallyandemotionally.Herdaughtershaveobservedandcommentedon thechange inherdemeanorandconfidence.Itseemsthattheinnerpersonhasfinallyarisen.Jacquelinesumsuphernewperspectivewithclarityandunderstanding:

I’vemetmysoulmateandguideintruespiritualform.Iunderstandnowsomuchofwhatscaredme,andtheknowledgeandexperienceofmyeverlastingroleintheuniverseandknowinglybeinglovedsocompletelybysomanyhaschangedmyentireperspectiveaboutmyownbeingonthisearth,mylife,andmyexpectations.Iamtrulyatonenowwithmybodyandsoul.

(1)Inaspiritualregressionsession,thehypnosissubjectwillusuallymovefromanalphastatepast-lifedeathscenetoadeeperthetastateastheyreachthespiritualgatewayandeventuallytheirsoulgroup.WhathashappenedhereisthatJacquelinehasmovedpastthepaceofthefacilitatorandmorerapidlyregressedherselfinordertoseehersoulcompanions.Followingthisscenewithhersoulgroup,thefacilitatortakesthissubjectbacktofinishthepast-liferecallsohecanmoveJacquelineforwardagaininamoreorderlymannerfortheinteractionwithhersoulcompanions.ForamoretypicalLBLprogression,seehomecoming,JS27-44.Fordiagramsofsoulgrouppositionsatthegreetingtimeforincomingsouls,seeDSfigures2and3,page143.

(2)Inthespiritworld,thereareseniorandsometimejuniorguidesassignedtosouls.Thejunior(lessdeveloped)guidesmaystillchoosetoincarnateonvaryrareoccasionstocompletesomeunfinishedbusinessintheirownkarmicpaththatinvolvesastill-incarnatingsoul.Tohaveasoulevenofjunior-guidestatusinyourlifeisquiteextraordinary;seeguides,JS107-122.Insuchcaseswhereaclientstatesthatsomeoneintheirlifewhoisclosetothemisactuallyaspiritguide,Iinitiallysuspectconsciousinterferenceandwishfulthinkingisatworkonthepartoftheclient.InJacqueline’scase,forajuniorguidesuchasPaultohavedamagedenergyfromany

physicalsourceindicateseitheraverytentativenewguideoramisstatementbytheclientfromalackoftrueperception.Inmyexperience,allguidesaretooadvancedtobewalkingaroundwithdamagedenergy.Forareviewofenergydamageandrestoration,seeDS85-95.

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FINDINGTHEcourageTOCHANGE

CatherinaSeverin(SCOTTSDALE,ARIZONA)

CERTIFIEDCLINICALHYPNOTHERAPISTSPECIALIZINGINREGRESSIONANDSELF-HELP

TECHNIQUES;REIKITEACHERANDTHOUGHTFIELDTHERAPIST.

Whenpeoplerealizethattheyareunhappywiththeirlives,theysearchforanswers.InthisLBLsession,weseehowanswersandadviceforchangeisgiven.Ourguidescanhelpustorememberthingswedidnotevenknowwereimportant,thusmakingourpurposeinlifeevenmorefulfilling.Here,Howarddiscoversfarmorethanhewaslookingfor,whichultimatelyleadstoahealthylifechange.

HOWARD,ASUCCESSFULbusinessmaninhisfifties,scheduledhislife-between-livessessionforalate summerday.Thoughhewasnot familiarwith the literature about spiritual regression, hehadgreatinterestinspiritualityandworkingwithaspectsofhealing.Hewashappilymarried,thefatherof two grown daughters, and working in a very well-paid senior management job. However, hisprestigious job brought about unwanted negative emotions.Anger and frustrationwould regularlyovertakeanykindofreasonedapproachtoaproblem,andonecolleagueinparticularmadeHowardflyoffthehandleregularly.Meanwhile,hiswife’sjobwasstressinghertothepointofexhaustion.Afurther complication for Howard and his wife was the geographic location of their home, whichinhibitedregularsailingontheirsailboat,abelovedhobbyforthemboth.Hisownlackoffulfillmentandthehighlevelofstresshiswifewasexperiencingpromptedhimtotakeactionandseekanswers.SothemostimportantquestiononHoward’slistwashowtoresolvetheseincreasinglychallengingissues.Healsowantedtoknowabouthismission,hisevolution,hisguides,hiskarmicrelationshipwithhiswife,andhowtomakethebestofhislife.ShortlyintotheLBLsession,Howardeasilywentintoadeeptrancestateandsoonfoundhimself

goingthroughhismostimmediatepastlifeasaGermanJewin1933.Hewasamanoftwenty-fiveyearswhenhegotlaidoffbecauseofbeingJewish,andshortlyafterwards,hewaskilledinthestreetsforthesamereason.Heleftthatlifetimewithoutunderstandingthereasonforthisexperience.Fromthemomentofdeathinthatlife,hemadeaneasyandswifttransitionintothespiritworld:

HOWARD:Iammovingslowly,anditisgettinglighterandlighter,it’sasifIamcomingoutoftheclouds,andsomeoneinlight-coloredclothingiswelcomingme.ItissowhiteandlightthatIcanhardlysee.ButIcantellitisamale,biggerthanme,andheissmiling.HetellsmetoforgetwhatjusthappenedbecausenowIamsomewhereelse.CATHERINA:Whoisthis?Isitsomeoneyourecognize?H:Heistheonewhowelcomesme.HebringsmetoaplaceIknowfrommycurrentlifetime—it

isbyacreek.Thisisapeacefulplace.Fromhere,heleadsmethroughthewoodstothebeach.Iamsurprised.Hewantstoshowmesomethingpeacefulfromthislifetime.C:Whathappensnext?H:HeasksmeifIwanttomeetothers…Iseemyfather,thoughheseemstoshowhimselfinayoungerversion,andheasksmetocomewithhim,tojointhem.ButIwouldrathergowiththewelcomingspirit.Iampulledindifferentdirections.

Howardchoosestogowiththewelcomingspiritandreportsthattogethertheymoveintoalight.

C:Whoisthiswelcomingspirit?Whatishisrole?H:Idon’tknowhim.ButhetellsmehisnameisHerman,andheistheonetoshowmearound.HesaysifIwanttofindmyfriends,Ihavetodosomyself.(1)

Afterapause,Howardhasfoundhisgroup.

H:Therearemanyothersgatheredhere,butIcannotclearlyseethem,theyareonlyshadowsinthelight.(pause)Afterawhile,thefirstonecomesforwardtogreetme…Oh,itismywife(inhiscurrentlife),Jane.(pause)Sheisholdingme.C:Haveyouhadmanyincarnationstogether?H:Yes,somanysheislaughingatthequestion.Wehaveincarnatedtogetherallalong,eversincetheStoneAge.Iseestoneaxes.C:Isthereaspecifickarmicrelationbetweenthetwoofyou?H:Weliketobemanandwife,andtogetherourmissionistofindworkwithallaspectsoflove.

TheotherstocomeforwardfromHoward’ssoulgroupincludehisbrotherinthislifetime,whose

condemningbehavioristoteachHowardbymakinghimawareofhownottobe.Howardalsomeetshistwodaughtersandfindshisroleis tobeteachingthemindependenceandgivingthemfreedom.ThisratherseriousspiritgroupseemstobeheadedbyHowardandJane.(2)From here, Howardmoves on to another area to discover his and Jane’s specialty in the spirit

world.Itturnsouttheyareteachers.Throughstory-telling,theyteachagroupoftwelvetofourteensouls about incarnating for spiritual advancement. The emphasis is on issues of happiness,enthusiasm,and love,qualitiesandunderstandings theyneedfor theirnext incarnation.FindingoutaboutbeingateacherishumblingtoHoward,andfromthisexperiencehediscoversthathehascomequitefarinhisowndevelopmentasaspirit.

C:Areyourownincarnationsprimarilyforthepurposeofteachingothers?H:No,inthatcaseitwouldbeawastetoincarnate.Istillneedtolearnmyself.Ihavehadonehundredormoreincarnations.(3)MypreviouslifeasaJewinGermanywastolearntolerance,butnotforthesakeofteachingaboutit.Iambeingtaughtmyselfhereinthespiritworldaspreparationforthenextincarnation.C:WhatwereyoutaughtbeforethislifetimeasHoward?H:Ihavetolearnaboutangerbybeingangry.Angerandemotionaltemperamentareaspectsofthislifetime.C:Whatareyoulearning,then?H:ThatImustn’trestraintheseemotionsbydamagingmyself.ThatiswhatIamdoingnowatwork—notsayingwhatImean.Ican’tkeepdoingthat.Itisbettertogivemyopinion.Ifthatisn’tpossible,Imusttaketheconsequencesandfindanotherjobsomewhereelse.Themainmessage

hereisthatImustn’tforgetmyself.C:Areyoubeingtaughtanythingelse?H:Thereisawiseman,oneoftheoneswhodoesn’tincarnateanymore.Heisateacherinthespiritworldandknowsaboutkarma.HetellsmethelastthingIneedtolearnisnottospreadbadkarma,andthatIwillneedmoreincarnationstodothat.Hesaysweneedtocomebackaslongaswecreatebadkarma.Itisverycomplicated,anditisnotinthislifetimethatIwilllearnhowtoovercomethisparticularkarma.Iamlearningaboutangerandtemperament.Thatismymissioninthislifetime.

Aftervisitingtheareaoftheguides,HowardmeetsAron.Aronisasuperiorguidewhohasalways

been with Howard. Aron also emphasizes the importance of taming anger and a high-strungtemperamentwithoutforgettinghimself.HereferstotheJewishlifetime,saying,“Youlearneditthehardway.Andnowyouhaveyourbrothertoremindyoutobetolerantinyourcurrentincarnation.Andremembernottobearrogantandproud.Youhavedonewell.”Howard’ssessioncametoanend,andhefelthehadachievedtheanswershewas lookingfor. It

wasinterestinghowtheJewishpastlifewasrelatedtounderstandingtolerance,andthatthislifetimeasHowardwas dedicated to anger and temperamental outburstswithout any vital karmic issues toresolve.Howardwasclearlyonamissiontogetinsightsonapersonalemotionallevel.Mostofhisquestionswereansweredwithoutprompting,andtheanswersseemedquitenaturaland

obvioustohim.ThemeetingwiththeguidesandAronheldagreatconfirmationforhim,andashereportedlater,thismeetingwouldturnouttobeofgreatimportance.Oneyearlater,Howardsharedtheoutcomeofhisexperiencewithme:

Asyoumayremember,Iwasinthequagmireofaverywell-paidjobwhichboredmetremendously,andmywifehadanextremelystressfuljobwhichwasliterallykillingher.AftermyLBLsession,wemadeaplan:inordertogettoaplacewherewecouldrelaxandsailourboat,Ineededtofindajobinadifferentareaofthecountry.Wewouldthensellourhouseandfindaspotfortheboatandahouseinthevicinity.Thenmywifewouldquitherjobandpackourbelongingsandlookforanotherjob.Thiswasthewayweenvisagedourtransformationtoworkout,andwemadeithappen.Allinall,wehaveamuchbetterlifenowthanbefore,andmyLBLsessionplayedavery

importantroleinfindingthecouragetomakethechange.TheLBLsessionhasbeenimportantinbringingmefurtherinmypresentincarnation.ThegreatestimpactwasthatnotonlydidIgetconfirmationthatitwasadvisableforustochangeourlife,butitwasnecessary.Wehadalreadyconsideredthepossibilityofmajorchangesinordertogetontherighttrack,buttheactualconfirmationwasveryimportant.Thewayeverythinghasunfoldedprovestomethatourguideswerewithusalltheway.Despitemakingdrasticandfastchanges,everythingfellintoplacebeautifully.And,Imightadd,byfollowingtheadviceIwasgiven,theissuesofangerandtemperamenthavedissolved.Thegrandestemotionalexperienceintheregressionwas,however,inanotherarea:Iwas

overwhelmed,happy,andhumbledbytheroleJaneandIhaveinspirit,wherewehelpothersbyteachingthemtogetthebestoutoftheirincarnations.(4)

(1)Forasoulreenteringthespiritworldafteralifetobetoldtheymustfindtheirsoulcompanionsthemselvesishighlyuncommon.Normally,joyfulreunionsarestagedbyourfriends,usuallywithguidesnearby.Newlyarrivedsoulstypicallyareusheredintotheseevents

fromthegatewayorafterorientation.However,itshouldbesaidthateveryguidehastheirowncharactertraits,andtheydon’tallfollowthesamestandardprocedures.Formoreperspectiveonthisaspectofthespiritworld,seehomecoming,JS27-44,andLBLH100-101.

(2)Wehaveseenthedualcapacityofsoulstodividetheirenergybeforewithothercasesinthisbook.Asoulneverbringsin100percentoftheirenergyintoanysinglephysicalbodyonEarthbecausethehumanbraincouldnottoleratethishighconcentrationofenergy.Whatisleftbehindinthespiritworldisanexactduplicateofidentityastheincarnatedportion,althoughlesspotent,tobesure.Therearetwowaysinwhichasubjectindeephypnosiscanseerelativesandfriendsfromtheirlives.A)Asinthiscase,withHowardseeinghiswife,brother,andtwodaughterswhoarestilllivinginhiscurrentlifetime.Wedothisthroughnow-timetechniquesthathavebeenpreviouslyillustratedwithcouncilmeetingdiscussionsaboutcurrentproblemsinthesubject’slife.B)Contactwithone’ssoulgroupmembersandotherimportantsouls,suchasparents,whohavediedincurrenttimeandmayormaynothavemovedintoanewincarnation.Thisisbecauseaportionoftheirsoulhasnotleftthespiritworld.Awordofwarning:inourLBLwork,therearenoguaranteesthatahypnosissubjectwillsee

anyparticularsoulincategoryAorB.Theclientmaynothavereachedapointofdevelopmentintheircurrentlifewheretheyshouldseethem.Certainkarmiccrossroadsmightnothavebeenreachedyet,ortherecouldbeotherkarmicreasonsthataparticularbeingmaynotwishtoappear,ortheymightsimplybeengagedsomewhereelseinanotherspiritualspace.Seesouldivision,DS2,45,62,116-120,andLBLH101,135-137.(3)Thefigureofahundredlivesisprobablyquitelowforanestimateintermsoftotalincarnations.Clientsrecallingtheirpastlivesbasicallyrememberonlythemostsignificantones.(4)Thiscaseillustrateshoweachofourlivesinvolveschoices.Theforksintheroadofteninvolvetheopportunitiesforpositivechangeintermsofimprovementandpositivechange,bothinthislifeandfromthekarmiccarryoversinformerlives.Confrontingourkarmicinfluencesgivesustheopportunitytoprogress,butitisnotfatalisticorpredetermined,becauseourlifedecisionsmustinvolvefreewill.Karmainvolvesthesumofourdeedsfromallourpastlives,notjustthelastone.Freewilliscaughtintheeventsofcauseandeffect.Whatwestrivetobeisasimportantaswhoweareatthemoment.SeeLBLH141.

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ANemergingSPIRITUALHEALER

MadelineStringer(DUBLIN,IRELAND)

HOMEOPATH,AUTHOR,HYPNOSISREGRESSIONTHERAPIST,ANDMEMBEROFTHENATIONAL

SOCIETYOFPROFESSIONALHYPNOTHERAPISTS.

WhenMargueritefirstvisitedherLBLtherapist,shewasfifty-fouryearsofage,atallwomanwithacheerysmile,whohadgreatunderstandingofwhatmadehertick.But,shesaid,shestillfeltstuck.ShehadspenttenyearsofheryouthinaCatholicreligiousorder,butleftaftershefeltshenolongerbelievedinthechurch’sperceivedwisdom.Shehadbeensentasamissionarytoadevelopingcountryandwhiletherehadbeenaskedwiseandsearchingquestionsbythelocalpeopleshewasteaching.Intheend,theirquestionstaughtMargueritethattherewereotherwaysoflookingatthings,andshestartedhersearch.Margueritereturnedhomeandovertheyearstrainedintheologyandpsychotherapy.She

retainedagreatinterestinspiritualityinitswidestsenseandconsideredsettingdownherideasinabookbutwasfindingitverydifficulttogetstarted.Somethingwasblockingher.Thefollowingaccountshowsclearlyhowpast-lifeandLBLsessionsenabledhertoremoveherblocksandgainfreedomandclarity.

BEFORE DOING THE life-between-lives session, we started with a past-life regression to getMargueriteusedtobeingunderhypnosisandtoallowanyissuesfromthepast tosurface.Shesawtwolives:onefromprehistorictimes,whichshowedwhatwasperhapsherfirstexperienceoflivinginacommunity,onthisoccasionavillage;andtheothershowingher,atsometimebetween500and1BC,livinginacommunitywithshamanicpractices,joininginwithenergyworkandhealing.BoththeselivesresonatedwithMargueriteintermsofhealing.Shestillrememberswithpleasurelivinginthereligiouscommunity.Butneitherpast lifegaveheranyanswers toherqueryas towhyshefeltstuck.We started the journey into the life-between-lives statewith another past-life visit, this time to a

pioneer life inAustralia,wheremyclientwaspregnantwithher sixthchild.Married toanabusivehusband,Peter,shediedyounginthislife.Sheimmediatelyliftedoutofherbodyandwasmetbythepart of her husband’s soul that had not gone to Earth. He hugged her with a pleasant energy andencouragedher tomoveon.MargueriteknowsPeterasAdabba in thespiritworld,wherehehasadifferentenergytothatwhichhehadintheAustralianlife,eventhoughheisstilldealingwithissuesof anger. (1) They had taken the life together for mutual support and learning. Adabba broughtMarguerite tomeet her soul group (2),where she recognized about seven people, none ofwhomweresignificantinhercurrentlife.Butduringthevisitwiththisgroupofsouls,shebecameawareofabigger,darkblue/purplesoul,whoshefeltwashelpinghertogodeeperintotheexperience.This

spiritwastotallytrustworthy,andbecauseitwassobig,itfeltmoremalethanfemaleinnature.Theystayedquietlytogetherforawhile,untilheputoutahand,whichMargueritetook.IttookherawhiletorecognizehimasherguideBanonda,evenafterhe“puton”afacetohelpher.ButsherememberedhimandrealizedthathedoesnotcometoEarthanymore.Hehasbeencloselyrelatingtoheroverthepast fiveorsix lifetimesonly,sinceshe ismoving toamoreadvancedgroupwherehe is the leadguide.Banonda’smainroleforMargueriteistohelpherletgoofsomerelationships.Hetoldherthatit

was time for her to let go of this soul group,withwhom she has beenworking for forty to fiftylifetimes.Margueritehasprogressedalittlefasterthanhergroupandneedsthestimulusofagroupoffriendsmoreatherownlevel.Inotherwords,sheistomoveupagrade!(3)BanondabroughtMargueritetoherothergroup.Whenshearrivedwiththem,sherememberedthat

shehadalreadymetandworkedwiththem.Therewereaboutsixmembersofthisgroup,whichisaspecializedadvancedstudygroupratherthanaprimarysoulclustergroup.Sherecognizedseveralofthesesoulsaspeoplesheknows inpresent-dayIreland,withwhomshehaswork incommon.Thisgroup’s area of study is about “the articulation of the divine.”Marguerite said that her groupwasparticularly involved indisseminating imagesof thedivineandworkingwithseveralothergroupswho “birthed” the images and ideas. Her group was helping people to notice the divine withinthemselves and to let go of old images that did not help them.Marguerite noticed the differencebetween her work on Earth, which is about healing, and her spirit work, which is simply aboutnoticingthedivineandlettinggoofoldfearsthatpreventsuchawareness.MargueritefoundthathelpingpeopleinthiswayisherprimaryreasontobeonEarthinthislife,

anditgaveherencouragementtomakeanotherattempttowriteherbook.Sheisalsomeanttocontactlike-mindedpeople,butshewassadtorealizethathavingapersonalrelationshipinherpresentlifeisofsecondaryimportance.Therelationshipofthesoulsinthestudygroupwasveryclose;almost,attimes,likeamind-merge,andtheyallhadaverydeepsenseofthedivine.Theyalsoenjoyedplayingwithlight,throwingbeamsaroundthemselvesandcreatinglightshowsabitliketheauroraborealis.(4)Banonda then encouragedMarguerite to visit herCouncil of Elders. She felt her consciousness

greatlyexpandingasshemetwithsixandrogynousbeingswhosatonchaiselonguesinasemicircle.Margueritewasonlyalittleapartfromthem,andBanondawastooneside.Asthevisitprogressed,Marguerite feltmoreandmoreasoneof them.Theywerevery supportiveandsaid shehadmadegood choices andwason the right track for this life.Therewas a discussion about her sadness athaving tomake thebreakfromhersoulgroupandhowhardher lifewas,asher lackofapartnercauses a sense of aloneness. The council members nodded—that is not what this life is about.Marguerite felt a bit overwhelmed at realizing her primary purpose but also a sense of joy at theintensesynergybetweenherselfandhercouncil.Withherguide,Margueritewasthenabletoreviewallherpastlives.Herfirstincarnationswere

100,000yearsago,sometimesinplacesotherthanEarth,wherematterwaslessdense.SheaddedthatshelikesthecolorshereonEarth!Hersoulenergyhasusuallywonthroughduringherincarnations,andshehascarried“asenseofpresence”withherfromlifetolife.Manybutnotallherliveshavebeenspent in“pursuitof thedivine,” thoughshehashad todevelopother skills too.Shehas spentabout 20 percent of her lives inEurope, the rest divided betweenAfrica andAsia, and hasmostlytakenmalebodiesasabalancetohersoul’senergy,whichisquitefemale.(5)After lookingatherpastlives,shewentquicklybacktothecounciltoexpressherthanks,becausesherealizedshelikesthislife,assheisontheedgeofsomethingnew.Asabreakfromtheirworkaboutthedivine,sheandhergroupspentleisuretimeinwateractivities

such as canoeing anddiving.They find thewater refreshing, as dealingwith divine energy all the

timeisverytaxing;it’snotaneasyenergytohold.Whenshelookedatwhyshehadchosentotakethislife,Margueriterealizedthatshehadbeenvery

keento incarnate,eventhoughsheknewherearlyyearswouldbedifficultbutshewantedtoavoid“fallingbackintomyselfandhavingvictimenergy.”Hersenseofisolationbyworkingalonewastobalancetheneedtobeeithervictimoraggressor.(6)When Marguerite finished her session, she was pleased to have confirmed that her instinct to

become involved in disseminating information about the divinewas the correct one, although shewouldhavepreferredtodiscoverthatshewasgoingtofindalifepartnerthenextday!Shetoldmethat she would now be able to start writing her book, and she left quite content and even a littleexcited.Threemonthslater,Margueritephonedmerequestinganotherpast-lifesession.Whenshearrived,

sheexplainedthatshehadbeenunabletogetstartedonherwriting,asitmadeheranxiouseachtimeshetried.Shehadbeendiscussingthingswithherpsychotherapistandwantedtolookintoissuesofpersonalpower.She quickly found herself in Roman times, maybe even in Rome itself, as a senator called

Stentorius. She and anothermanwere going to ameeting, to discuss “a clash between the gods.”Thereweremany factions amongst the people. Stentoriuswas in favor of a rational approach, asMargueritesaid,“tothewholegodsbusiness.”Hefeltthattheoldgodsweretoowhimsical,flighty,andunpredictable.He thought there shouldbe somewayof looking at thegods so that thepeoplewouldbe less fearfuland lesseasilymanipulatedbysomeunscrupulouspriests.Hemadea speechadvocatingmoreclarityandthat theauguriesshouldbedownplayed.Thepriestswereunhappy,butotherleadersagreedthattherepublicshouldnotbeatthemercyofirrationalgods.Arabble-rouserpriestthenspokeandputtheblameforarecentearthquakeontheothersidefor

inadequatelycommunicatingwiththegods.Thecrowdbecameveryupset,andsomeoftheleaders,includingStentorius,werechasedthroughthetownbeforesoldiersrestoredorder.Stentoriusthenlivedaprecariousexistencewithabodyguard,butpriestsbribedoneofhisservants

toputpoisoninhisfood,sohediedapainfuldeath.Lookingbackat this life fromjustafter itsend,Margueriteexpressed frustrationathavingbeen

intimidatedbythepriests.Shecouldnotseewhatshecouldhavedonedifferently,exceptnotspeakoutatall,orspeakoutonlyinsomewaythatwasnotapublicchallengetothepriests,eventhoughtheyweremakingitdifficultfor therepublictofunction.Shewasupset thatshehadthecouragetospeak out and had died as a result, even though she had gained a new sense of the divine. In hermodernpersona,shetoldmeshefeltsomepeoplewerestillbehavingliketheancientpriests,andshestill felt victimized by that. So I suggested we look at another past life to see if we could get adifferentangleonthings.WhenMargueritefoundherselfasahealerinancientWestAfrica,shewasinitiallydelighted.“At

last,”she thought,“Iamworkingwith thedivineandgettingrecognitionfor it.”Shewasawomanwearingfeathersandaraffiaskirtandwavingaflywhisk.Shewastreatinghersister,whohadjustcome throughadifficult childbirth,buther treatmentwas ineffective,andher sisterdied.Thiswasdevastating,nottheleastbecauseitwasrareforherpatientstodie,andshebegantoworryabouttheefficacy of her approach. Marguerite (we never discovered her African name) had learned thetechniquesfromahealerafewvillagesaway,whereshehadbeentoldthathumansarenotincontrolofthespirits.However,Margueritebecamecynicalaboutthevagariesofthespiritsandthefacttheywere not biddable, and shewanted to find away to be in control and provide an effectiveway ofmakingthingshappen.Shebecameinvolvedwithdarkerpractices.Ayoungchildfromanothervillagewaskidnappedand

sacrificed. Marguerite did not admit immediately who had carried out the sacrifice. After seeing

severallivesinwhichshehadbeenthevictim,itwassuchashocktobecomeawarethatthistime,sheherself had nothing to be proud of, for it was Marguerite’s ancient African embodiment whoperformedthechildsacrifice.Inthisway,shethoughtshegainedthechild’slifeforceandthereforemorepowerintheeyesof thevillagers,particularlywithherskillagainstdisease.Shedidbecomemoreeffectiveandbecamemuchmorerespected.Asapowerfulspirithealer,lifewentverywellfora while. But eventually she began to feel fearful within herself, presumably because she hadoversteppedtheboundaries,andatlast,shekilledherselfwithaknifetoherownthroat.(7)Aftershediedandreturnedtothespiritworld,Margueritelookedbackoverthelifeandrealized

thatwantingtobeeffectivehadgottentotallyoutofhand,asshehadbeenunabletorealizeoracceptthathersister ’slifewasunfoldingasitshould.Sherealizedshewasrightthatherissueswereaboutpersonalpowerandtheneedtomakethingshappen:“It’shardtowatchpeoplesuffer,butIhavetobepatientwiththehealingprocess.”Then Marguerite talked again to her guide, Banonda. He told her that in this session she had

resolvedmanyimbalances.Itwasnowtimetomanifestanonmanipulative,noninterfering,nonviolentpersonalpowerand toexperimentwithbeingeffectiveandbeingheard.Banondawasencouragingandwasenjoyingtheconversation.HetoldMargueritetoovercomeherownfear,aspeopleneedtohearherthistimeandthat“itisappropriatenow.”Hetoldhertoletthingsunfoldattheirownpace—“it’s all about timing.” He said that if things go off-track, he will give a warning sign so thatMargueritecanslowthepace.Ifsheisontherighttrack,therewillbeapositiveresponse.Healsotoldherthatshedoesnothavetofightthebattlewiththeoppositionthistime—thatotherswilldoit.Margueriteleftafterthissessionfeelingmuchmoreupbeatandalsomuchcalmerandlessworried

abouttheoutcome.Atthetimeofthiswriting,shehasalmostfinishedherbookaboutherowntakeonspiritualityandhastaughthermaterialtomanyinterestedpeople.I feel that sheneeded to seeherself ina“bad” lightas theperpetratorofacrime, inaddition to

experiencingherselfasthevictim,inordertobreakherinnerfearaboutfacingopposition.Whenwerealizethatweourselvescanchoosetoacteitherforgoodorforbad,thisreducesthepowerofanyopposition.Webecomeaware that thepeopleon theopposingsidemayhold theiropinions justashonestlyasweholdourown,andthatmostlytheyarenotinherentlyevil.Itisoftendifficulttoallowoneselftheunpleasantexperienceof“beingthevillain.”Wecanbecome

accustomedtoseeingourselvesasvictimsinmanyaspectsofourlives,assumingeveryonefromthetrafficcoptothetaxmanisout togetus!ItwaseasierforMargueritetoseeherself ina“wicked”roleonceshehadvisitedthespiritworld,inwhichweallseeourselvesasequalandgainaclearerunderstandingoftheswingsandroundaboutsofkarma—thatitisallplannedandchosen,andthatwearegenerallyontherightpath.

(1)TheimmortalcharacterofthatportionofasoulremaininginthespiritworldinapurestateisnotalteredbythemeldingoftheotherportionwithahumanbeingonEarth.However,theEarthportionofthisenergycanbecontaminatedbyadisturbedhumanbraincombinedwithaharshlifeoftrauma.Inthissense,fortheperiodofincarnation,thetwopartsofthesoulmayindeedbenotquitethesameasweseebetweenPeterandAdabba.Seesoulcontamination,LBLH107,182.Also,inthiscase,itwouldseemthatAdabbaisnotacompanionsoulfromMarguerite’sprimarygroupbutanaffiliatedsoulfromasecondaryspiritgroupselectedtoworkouthisangerissuesintheAustralianlifewithher.SeeDS265.

(2)Adabbaappearstobeanaffiliatedsoulfromasecondarygroupratherthantheclient’sownprimarysoulgroup.AdabbaalsoisquiteactiveconductingMargueritearoundwithonlypartof

hissoulenergysincePeterhasthebalanceonEarth.Readersshouldknowthattheamountofactivityasoulengagesinwithinthespiritworldduringthoseperiodswhenpartofitsenergyisincarnatingdependsuponthevolumeleftbehind.Naturally,asoulinapureenergystateoperatingintheafterlifewithonly25percentorlessisnotgoingtobeasactiveasasoulwith50percentormoreofpureenergy.Ashasbeensaid,atypicalsoulbrings50-70percentofitsentireenergyintothenewhumanbody.However,thesoul’sstateofadvancementisanothervariabletoconsider.AdvancedsoulsatlevelIIIandabovecanbemoreactiveinthespiritworldwithlessenergy.(3)Foradetailedanalysisabouttheadvancementofindividualcompanionsoulstohigherlevels,seeDS265,320-323.(4)Fordescriptionsofspiritualgamesusingenergybolts,seeDS310-311.Forothertypesofspiritualrecreationintheafterlife,seeDS304-315.(5)Typically,incarnatingsoulsadvancingtotheintermediatelevelswillchooseonegenderoveranotherabout75percentormoretimesintheirlivesonEarth.OneoftheindicatorsofreachinglevelIIIisthatgenderchoicesaremorebalanced;seeDS263.(6)Thedifferencesbetweenasoulmateversusourassociationswithcompanionandaffiliatedsoulsinourexistencearecomplexinhumansociety.Insomelives,wemayhavelittleornoassociationwithourtruesoulmateforspecifickarmicreasons.Seecommunitydynamics,DS259-266.Forinformationastowhywemighthavethe“wrong”mateinlifewhoisnotasoulmate,specificallyseeDS261andLBLH129-132.(7)Somepeoplehavethemistakenimpressionthatweadvanceforwardineverylifewithourkarmicdevelopment.Sometimeslearninginvolvesourslippingbackwardsfromonelifetothenext.Foragraphicexampleoflong-termslippageinonearea,seeDS215-216andcase38,216-218.

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EVOLUTIONofaSPIRITUALPARTNERSHIP

JonathanYorks(BOSTON,MASSACHUSETTS)

PSYCHOTHERAPIST,LBLTRAININGASSISTANTFORTNI,SOULSELFPSYCHOLOGY,ANDCLINICALANDSPIRITUALREGRESSIONHYPNOSISTHERAPY.

ThisstoryshowshowseeminglyoppositepersonalitiesonEarthcanreallybecomplementarysoulswhohaveconnectionsinthesamesoulgroupinthespiritworldwiththesamelessons.RonandSharonfindthattheyhavebeenhelpingeachothermeettheirownpersonalgoalsthroughpastlifetimesandspiritualtimetogether,andthattheyhavesignificanteffectstodayastheyassisteachothertowardunderstandingtheirlifepurpose.Whilethiscouplemusttakeresponsibilityfortheirownproblemsindividuallytoavoidself-defeatingbehavior,byworkingtogetherasacouplethesetasksbecomelessburdensomeandmoreproductive.Outwardgoalsmustsatisfyinternalneedsasanessentialelementforlivingandlong-termgrowth.Fromthiscase,wewillseethebeautyofhavingacompassionaterelationshipinthespiritworldbeforephysicallifebeginsbetweentwosoulsworkinginunison,andwhynontraditionaltherapeuticmethodsofexposingthisfactcanbeofgreatvalueincouplescounselingonEarth.

WHENRONANDSharoncametome,theyknewtheyhadmeteachotherforareason,butitwasnotspecific,andtheyfeltstuckin their relationship.Theyhadmet late in their lives,Roninhisfifties,Sharoninherearlyforties,bothaftersecondmarriages.RonwasworkingasaCEOofasmallhealthcare organization and Sharon as contracted help. They wondered about the direction of theirrelationship.What came out of their LBL experiencewas a deepened understanding of how soulsevolvethroughspiritualpartnership.Ronadmittedfeelingmostcomfortableinpositionswherehehaspoweroversituationsandpeople.

We found the resonance for this characteristic inhismost recent incarnationas awomanwhohaddied tragically inYugoslavia afterbeing rapedand shotbyGerman soldiersduringWorldWar II.Sharon was not in this life with Ron, and indeed we will see that their past lives together areintermittent.Apparently,thispracticeallowsbothtogrowindividuallybeforecomingtogetheragaininotherlives.Allsoulswithinsoulgroupshavetheirownformulasforworkingtogetherorapartintheirincarnationstoachievegoals.Ron left this past life with a feeling of helplessness and powerlessness that he counterbalances

todaybydoinghisbesttobeinpositionsofauthorityinbothhisprofessionalandpersonallives.Heillustrates this in his relationship with Sharon when he becomes highly agitated, inflexible, andargumentativeduringdisagreements.Sharonisaself-describedsoftsoulwithopenlylovingenergywho complies to avoid power struggles and keep the peace, and yet I sensed elements of passiveaggressioninSharon’srelationshipwithRonthatwascausingherconflict.ItookSharonfirstintoherpast-lifeandafterlifeexperiences.Enteringthespiritualgatewaymight

notalwaysbefromanimmediatepastlifeifweareworkingwithotherpastlivesinsession.Inthiscase,generallyIliketheclienttochoosethepastlifetheywantinexperiencingadeathsceneinordertoavoidaverytraumaticone.SharonfoundtherewasanearlierpastlifewithRonasgeneralstoreownersontheAmericanplainsinthelastcentury.Here,theirgenderroleswerereversedfromtoday.Sharondescribedalifefilledwithfrustrationasahusbandunabletoplacatethedissatisfactionsofawife(Ron)whoresentedbeingahomemakerraisingchildren.Today,SharonnowtendstoacquiescewhenchallengedwithRon’sdissatisfactions.WewouldlaterfindoutthatSharonandRonhadasoulagreementtohelpeachotherintermittentlyoverlongtimeperiodstoadvancetheirunderstandingoftheuseoffreewillintermsofbeingthemselveswhilestilladvancingtogether.Sharonwasalso the first togo through the life-between-livesprocess.Shebecameawareofher

journeyintheuseoffreewillonherfirststopinthespiritworld,whilemeetingwithherCouncilofElders.HerspiritualnameisIoplex—Plexforshort.Shesawherselfasmorefeminineinherenergy,having a medium-blue core with a pink edge. (1) This was useful information for Sharon. Shedescribed her soul’s character as stubborn, sensitive, brave, and the one who strives for eternalbalancedwisdom.TherearetwoguidesinthesoulgroupwhereSharonandRonaremembers.TheguidethatworkschieflywithSharoniscalledRyo,whoisdeepblueincolorthroughouthisform.Ryowaswaitingforheratthecouncilmeeting.Shecalledhimawisementorandfriend.Plexalsoreportedthathercouncilwasmadeupoffourmembers,chairedbyadeeppurplelightbeingcalledIla, who had a very businesslike approach. I will pick up on our dialog at this point in the LBLsession.

JONATHAN:Plex,whatcanIlatellusaboutwhatyouareworkingonasasoul?SHARON:ShesaysIhavebeentryingtounderstandtheuseoffreewillasitrelatestoauthorityoverothers.J:Howareyoudoingwiththis?S:Istrugglewithit.Ihavehadmanylivesinleadershippositions,butIwouldoverpower(doingthisinordertoovercompensateforthissoul’smorenaturaldisposition).IfinallycametounderstandmyuseoffreewillwithinaroleofauthorityinmylifeinAfrica.J:Whatcanyoutellmeaboutthatlife?S:MynamewasTirtha.Iwasatribalprincessaround1000BC.Itwasalifethatalsoinvolvedcompassion.Isetupwhatwouldbeconsiderededucationalprogramsaboutfoodandshelterforwomeninthetribewhohadlosttheirhusbandstobattle.J:Tellmesomethingaboutwhyyouwouldgoaboutdoingthat?S:Inthistribe,themenwereresponsibleforfoodandshelter.Therewasabigbattlewitharivaltribe,andmanymenwerekilled.Womenandchildrenwereleftontheirownafterthisbattle,andIdidsomethingaboutit.(Sharonobviouslyfeltgoodrelatingthisaspectofherstory.)

By experiencing empathy in the life as Tirtha, where she was more comfortable in the use of

compassion over power, Plex was able to develop her understanding of free will in positions ofauthoritysoherownnaturalinclinationswouldsurface.Ron,wewouldlaterdiscover,hadratherthesamelessontolearnhimself.TherewasalsoaninterestinglessonforPlexaboutthechoiceoflifebodies.UptotheincarnationofTirtha,Plexhadchosenmostlymaleliveswithstrongbodiesbecauseofthebeliefitwouldincreasethelikelihoodofsurvivingthehardshipsofhumanlife,includingthedominationofwomen thenprevalent onEarth.When she finally chose a lifewith a strong femaleform, she discovered an emotional system that she feltwasmore advanced than humanmales andbettersuitedtohernaturalimmortalcharacterasasoul.(2)While Sharon evidently had associationswithRon in other cultural areas of theworld, such as

ChinaandEgypt,shereportedinhertrancestateabouthermostrecentpastlifewithRon,whichhadoccurredinEnglandinthelatenineteenthcentury.ThiswasalifewithRonaftertheirearlierpastlifetogetherontheWesternplains.ShedescribedbeingawomannamedAmeliamarriedtoamannamedStanley (Ron) with money and power. Stanley had died running into a burning stable to save hisprizedhorses.Sheadmittedinourpre-sessiondiscussionthatinherpresentlife,whensheandRonwouldargue,shewouldexperienceanoverwhelmingfeelingofdreadthathewouldsuddenlyleaveher and not return. Because of this past-life imprint on her current body, during contentiousargumentsSharonwouldsubsequentlybackdown.Yet, itwasnotuntil sheencounteredRon inhersoulgroupduringoursessionthatshebegantounderstandtheopportunity theirrelationshiptodayofferedherforthegrowthofhersoul.Afterthecouncil,Plexmetwithhersoulgroup.Ronwasthefirsttocomeforward,andshecalled

himRahia.Hisenergywasmale,withagreencorecolorandalavenderhaloratherlikeherownhalotone.Shedescribedhissoulcharacterasfilledwithcompassion.ItisthisqualityofRahia’scharacterthat Plex now likes to be in a relationship with since her life as the African princess, where shelearnedmuchaboutherself,althoughshewasnotwithRahia in that life.Duringoursession, therewasapointwhenPlexandRahiaexchangedanembracewithintheirsoulgroup,emanatingafeelingofdeeplovebetweenthem.Ithenasked:

J:AsyouandRahiaembrace,tellme—wastherealifeofrealsignificancethatmightgiveusinsightintoyourcurrentrelationshiptogether?S:Yes.J:Whichlifewasit?S:ItwasourlastlifetogetherinEngland—mylifeasAmelia.J:HowdoesthatlifegiveusinsightintoyourrelationshipwithRontoday?S:Ihadchosenaroleofsubmissivenessduringacultureofoppression,wheremencontrolledwomenlikeproperty.J:(continuingtopresstheclient)AndhowdoesthisgiveusinsightintoSharonandRon’srelationship?S:IhavechosentocontinuethelessonswhichImustlearnasPlexinourcurrentlifetogether.Iworkforhim,andheismyboss.IamworkingthroughthefeelingsofoppositionIhadwithhiminmylifeasAmelia,andRahiaisworkingthroughhisimpulsivityandneedtodominateothers.J:Whatissignificantaboutthis?S:Thisissomethingwealsoworkonasacouple.Theroleswehaveinourworkrelationshiparenecessarysowecanmaneuverthroughitinourpersonalrelationship.Wearebothexploringtheuseoffreewill,andthishelpsusinourindividualwayoflearningaboutit.J:Inwhatway?S:Because,asSharon,Ihaveatendencytosubmittoaggressiveenergy,andRahia(Ron’ssoul)isworkingthroughnotcontrollingothers(butsofarhasbeenunsuccessfulinthislife).Weunconsciouslydrawoutfromeachothertheissuesweareworkingon.J:Whatissueareyoubothworkingonspecifically?S:Iamtryingtounderstandtheuseoffreewillasitispairedwithfeelingsofoppression,andRahiaistryingtounderstandhowtobeinpositionsofpowerwithouttheneedtocontrol.IamagoodpairingforRahia,becauseIhavealreadygonethroughthisunderstanding(withthesameissues).Icanbecompassionatewithhisstruggles,remindinghimofhisspiritualnatureandalsoasahealing,compassionatesoul.

Sharon left her session with a deepened awareness of her relationship with Ron that she was

committedtofulfill.NowitwastimeforRontoexplorehispast-lifeandLBLexperiences.Ron first became aware of his journey with free will issues in his past-life regression, not in

Englandbut rather inwesternChina’sSunChi province in the eighteenth century as amannamedMachii.WorkingwithcouplesinLBL,onefindsthat,althoughtheirsoulsweretogetherinanumberofpastlives,certainsignificantlessonlearningmaynottakeplaceinthesamelifetogether.Partlyitisthehumanbodytheyoccupy,andpartlyitiswhatisgoingonenvironmentallyinthelife.Eachsoulisimpactedinadifferentway,dependinguponavarietyofconditions.ThesoulofRahia,inthebodyofMachii, livedasa fieldworkeronafeudal lord’s landwhotookmuchandgave littleback, justenoughtosurvive.Machii angrily struggled with his feelings of mistreatment and subjugation until he married a

loving and compassionate woman, Xian (Sharon), to whom he could dedicate his life. Her kinddedicationignitedinhimapeacethathecouldnotprovideforhimself.Afterhiswifedied,hebecameangryonceagainandeventuallywilledhimselftodeath.Ron’sexperienceofoppressionwasmeantto advance his understanding of the use of free will in relation to powerlessness. This past-life-regressionsessionwouldbeawonderfulprecursortohisLBLsessionthatfollowed.Uponcrossingintotheafterlife,Ronwasgreetedbyhisspiritguide,Gypsum,apurplelightbeing

withmasculineenergy.HeisapparentlyaseniorguidetoRyo,whoisworkingwithSharonintheirspiritgroup.AsRahia,RondescribedGypsumaspatient,nurturing,andsomewhatoverprotective—areal hands-on guide. (Keep in mind that our guides are assigned to us for specific reasons ofimmortalcharacterassociations.)Amongotherthings,GypsumremindedRahiaofaveryearlylifeinancientEgyptwherehewasaslave.Whiletreatedwellbyhismaster,Rahiafoundhissocialroledifficult, and it was here that he began his current lesson. We found that Rahia was meant tointernalizethemessagethatpowerlessnessdidnotequatetolossofself.IhadthefeelingthatSharonwasinlaterEgyptianliveswithRon,butnotinthisveryearlylife.WefoundthatRonandSharonhadsharedlovinglifetimeswitheachotheronlytoloseoneanotherearlyintheirrelationshipsonEarth.Oneorbothwoulddie ratheryoung. Iwonderedwhatwewould find in the life selection room intermsofRon’sbodychoices.Rondescribedthelifeselectionarea,anenvironmentwherehewouldreviewpotentiallifebodies,

asaplacethatprojectedlife-sizedholographicimagesallaroundhim.Thisholographicfieldwouldalteritsformdependingonthelifeshown.Thisenvironmentwasattendedbytwosilverlightbeingswhosepurposewas toassist in theselectionprocess. (3)HisguideGypsumwas thereaswell.Ronwasshownthreepotentialbodiesforhiscurrentlife:awomaninmodernPakistan,anAsianmanwholivedintheOrient,andaCaucasianmanlivingintheUnitedStates.HerejectedthelifebodyofthewomanandalsotheAsianbecausehedidnotwanttoliveanotherlifeofsocialoppression,especiallyin that part of theworld. In viewing the life ofRon,Rahiawould come to find a good fit for hispurpose.Iwillpickuponourdialogatthisstageofthesession,whilewearestilllinkedtothelifeselectionarea:

J:Whydidyouchoosethislife?R:ItwasanopportunitytofulfillwhatIhavenotyetfullyaccomplishedinmyotherlives.J:Whatisitthatyouareseekingtoaccomplish?R:Tobringcompassionintoaframeworkofunconditionallove,togenuinelyconnectwithpeople.J:Ifthisoccurs,howwillitaffectyou?R:Itopensme,releasingmyego-centeredsenseofselfthatinterfereswithmyabilitytoconnectwithothers.Ihaveatendencytopersonalizethings.J:Whatisitaboutconnectionwithothersthatyouareuncomfortablewith?

R:HowtobeanindividualandyetbepartofagroupwithoutrequiringotherstothinkasIdo.Italsohastodowithdefinitionsofself—howonedefinestheirselfinrelationtoanenvironmentofinterdependenceforcollectivewell-being.It’sverytricky.J:Whatisespeciallytrickyaboutitforyou?R:BecauseIidentifywiththeharmonyandselflessnessofgroupconsciousness.Istrugglewithbeinganindividualwithinagroup,butI’mgettingbetteratit.J:Areyoushownanythingthatmighthelpinyourcurrentlifeselectionthataddressesthis?R:Yes,IcanseethattherewillbeopportunitiesbothpersonallyandprofessionallywhereIwillbechallengedtoconnectwithgroupsinacompassionateway,wheremysenseofselfwillbethreatened.J:Isthereanythingmorethatisspecificaboutwhatyouarebeingshown?R:IseeaseriesofjobswhereIseektoconnectinstitutionstopeople,anddependingonmysenseofself,Iwilleitherusemyfreewilltotryandcontrolthemorfindtheuniquenesswithinthemandbringthatforward.J:So,freewillisatestforyouhere.Whathappensifyoutrytocontrolthem?R:Ifracturethebonds(energetically)thatnurtureconnection.J:Areyougivenasignalorimpressionwhenyouareinalignmentwithselfandothers,whenyoubringtheiruniquenessforward?R:Iamgivenafeeling.Itisafeelingofharmony(withhiscompassionatenatureasasoul),aninternalsenseofpeace.J:Whatmusttakeplaceforthistooccur?R:Whenegosarerespectedbutnotemphasized—forthefulfillmentofall,notjusttheagendaofone.J:AsyoulookatthislifeasRonintheUnitedStates,areyoushownanyoneelsewhomaybepartofthisjourney?R:(pauseandtheninatoneofastonishment)Someoneofsignificanceisenteringmylife….it’s…it’sSharon!Iknowit’sher!J:Whatgivesyouthatimpression?R:It’sthefeelingIhaveforherinmylifeasRon.Itjustcametome.(pause)IthinkIgetit.J:Whatareyougetting?R:Shewillbeacatalysttohelpmereleasemyegoanddothingsoutsideofmyownneeds.IhavethetendencytotakeontoomuchandpersonalizethingsandthenforceotherstogoalongwithwhatIwant.Shewillteachmepatienceandbalance.Shewillsoftenme;wearepartners.

Icansaywithpleasure that thiscouplebothshowedthe immediatebenefitsfromtheirrespective

LBLsessionsbecausetheydiscoveredtheirspiritualpartnership.Thismayormaynothappenrightawaywithclients.RonandSharonhavesinceleftmyareaforanotherstate,wheretheyworktogetherin a remote,wooded place in their ownholistic center. Inmy last correspondencewith them, theydescribebeingintheireighthmonthofbusinesstogetherandsaytheirrelationshipisfilledwithlove,compassion,balance,andpeace.

(1)Withspiritual(nothuman)auras,theprimarycore,ormainbody,ofasoul’scolorrepresentsthestageofdevelopment,whilethehaloeffectaroundtheedgesdemonstratesattitudes,beliefs,andaspirations.SeeDS170-176andLBLH125-127.

(2)Theimmortalcharacterofasoulmaybeinoppositionto,orconjunctionwith,thebiological

mindofahumanbeing.Formoredetailsaboutegodualityinourbody,seeLBLH184.(3)Thelifeselectionroomissometimesalsocalled“thering”byclientstoindicateaspheresurroundedbyscreens.ThisiswhatRoncalledtheholographiceffect.Duringtheexperienceofchoosingournextbody,ourguideisofteninattendance,ashewaswithRon.However,alwaysthereareotherhighlyadvancedspecializedbeingsinchargeofthisspiritualarea,whomayappearonlyasshadowfigures.SomehavecalledthesespecializedbeingsTimemasters(DS355-370)orPlanners(DS387-388).

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UNBLOCKINGaSPIRITUALGOAL

DorotheaFuckert(GERMANY)

MEDICALTEAM,STIFTUNGAUSWEGE;DIRECTOR,AKADEMIEFUERHEILUNG;WILHELMREICHINSTITUT;HOLISTICPSYCHOTHERAPIST.

Benjaministhesubjectofthisremarkablestory.Heisatall,thin,paleandseeminglyphysicallyweakman.Shy,withdrawn,andlackingdrive,nonethelessheisgentle,kind,andveryintelligent.Benjamin’sLBLsessionenabledhisprofound,transformingreleasefromlife-restrainingphysicalblockagesinthehead.Thereisachronicandpainfulblockageofenergyinhissinusesandinthebrowregionofhisthirdeye,thejunctionofhisopticnerveandtheareaofhispituitary.Whatwashiddenbehindtheseblocks,andwherewouldremovingthemlead?

BENJAMIN’S EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS led to a generally reserved demeanor; he was evenemotionallyandsexuallyrestrainedtowardhiswife.Atthecoreofhissufferingwastheunfulfilledsearchforhislifepurpose.ForaperiodoffouryearsIworkedwithhimintermittentlyandthenfortwomore years I saw him for regular psychotherapy, using various skills including talk therapy,hypnotherapy, and regressions into several past lives. Therewas a focus on his severe childhoodtraumas, and over time these sessions provided deep healing, but it was an astounding discoveryduring his life-between-lives session that finally dissolved his blocks and set himonto a fulfillingnewlifepath.Benjaminisnowthirtyyearsold.WhenIfirstmethim,Inoticedtheextraordinaryexpressionin

hiseyes;inmythirtyyearsinthisprofession,Ihadneverbeforeseenaclientwithsuchdark,deep,soulfuleyes.Iwasremindedofartists’portraitsoftheeyesofJesusChrist.Inevertoldhimthis,butlaterinthischapter,youwillreadabouthisownChristexperience.Benjaminstudiedfilmathisuniversity.Frustratedbyacademiclifeanddisorientedingeneral,he

cameforpsychotherapy.Havingmadesomeprogress,Benjaminwas inspired tobecomeahealingpractitioner;hewenttocollegetolearnosteopathyandnaturopathy.However,eventherehecouldn’tfindhisprofessionalniche.Despiteachievinghiscertification,he

didn’tbeginworkinahealingprofessionbut insteadworkedasadriver,deliveringhealthfoods.Ifoundithardtounderstandandacceptthis,especiallyasbynowhewasmarriedandhadtwosmallchildren.Hewas responsible for his growing family, but hewas blocked, stuck. Eight years aftercompletingregulartherapy,BenjaminmadeanappointmenttoexperienceLBL.Benjaminbroughtmany important questions to theLBL session:Whichpart ofme restrainsme

frommyowndestiny?Whatblocksmefromfocusingmyenergiesuponmygoals?Whatistherootcauseofmyfeartouseallmyskillsandenergyformyselfandothers?WhatcanIdotoreachthiscoreunderstandingandtoovercomemyblocks?HowcanIcommunicatewiththeearthinordertounderstand what’s going on here? Is there a specific task for my family in our rapidly changing

world?WhycanInotfullyfeelandexpresslovetowardmywifeandothers?Benjamin went into deep trance easily and quickly. Despite his early severe traumas, he could

remember pleasant childhood experiences. In the womb, he felt his body as physically weak butenduring.Hissoul“slippedintohisbody”duringthesecondmonthofpregnancybecause,inhisownwords, “my body needed me for survival.” (1) He had chosen his body as a good channellinginstrumentforconnectionwiththespiritualworld;therewasa“fascinationwithsensuousperceptionandthebeautyoftheearth.”Themomentofincarnation—whenhissoulenteredhistinybody—wasverypainfulforhisextremelysensitivebrainandnervoussystem,especiallyatthenapeoftheneck,thebaseoftheskullandbrain.Whenhismotherwasstressedduringthepregnancy,hehelpedherbysending out light, expanding his strong soul. He received insight that he had come into thisincarnationwith85percentofhissoulenergyandtherearetimeswhenhefeelsheisnotutilizingallofitproperly.(2)Iguidedhimintoapast lifewhereherecognizedhimselfasayoungmancalledAgathos living

withina temple community in anearlyMediterraneanculture.Hecoulddesignateneither timenorregion,butheknewthatmanypeoplemadeapilgrimagetothistemple,seekingcuresandknowledge.Hisworkfocusedontechniquesforcreatingexpandedawarenessinothers;histaskwastoenhancetherapeutic effects simply by concentrating his thoughts.He reexperienced andwas touched by thehappinessofcommunitylifeandhisloveforhiswifeandchildren.Hewasamazedatalltheeventswithinthetemple,andhewasjoyfulasheparticipatedinthepreciousknowledgethatallowedhimtodosomuchgoodforsomanypeople.Inhisownsimplewords:“It’sablessing.”Suddenly,hesawasceneofhorror:Romansoldiersattackingthetemple,killingpeople.Virtually

the whole community was murdered, including his family. Though frightened and shocked, heescaped. He carried a papyrus scroll with him—something precious that he was able to save. Histranceconsciousnesscouldnotrememberitsexactcontents,onlythatitdealtwithsacredknowledgeforhumankind.Duringhisescape,hefearedthescrollcouldgetintothehandsofthewrongpeople,so,reluctantly,hehidit inamountaincave.Thenhemovedontothenorth,eventuallysettlinginasmallvillagewherehetriedtopreserveandpassontoselectedpeopletheknowledgehe’dlearnedfromhis temple life.However,he felt lonely, sorrowful,and fearful.Later,hewascapturedbyhisenemiesandthentortured,finallydyinginprison.Hecouldnotremembertheexactevents,justthathedidnotrevealthesecretofthescroll.Allthesememoriescamefromdeepwithin,andheobservedtheagonizingexperiencesfromasecuredistance,asifinamovie.Thenhissoullefthisbody,andwejoinhimashebeginshisLBLjourney.He sees innumerable hovering light beings around him, each of different shapes, sizes, and

qualities.Heperceivesthemas“angelic”beings.(3)Thereisamemorythatinformertimeshewasoneofthem,andhefeelstheirancientandintensivebond.TheytakecareofthebalanceofpowerintheuniverseandeveninterveneifsomeoneonEarthcallsonthemforhelp.Thebeingnexttohimislightblue-violet,pulsating in form;hisunpronounceablenamemeans“welcomewithbubbly joy”!Anotherbeingappearsasamasculine-lookinggiantofpurereddishenergy.Heespeciallysensestheupper body and that this is an aspect of the archangel Uriel, who criticizes Benjamin kindly butsternly.Despite all of Uriel’s efforts—over many incarnations—to send him energy, Benjamin is still

refusingtoacceptandusethatenergy.Itishightimeforthistochange,foritisagift.Alongtimeago, this wonderful being had placed a switch behind Benjamin’s third eye, which had becomejammedinthe“off”position.(4)Superficially,thisjamminghadbeentriggeredbyanexperienceinhispresentlife,duringwhichBenjaminhadfixedanaggressiveboywitha“hatefullook”poweredbyhisthirdeyeafterreceivingharassmentfromtheyoungster.Frightenedsilly,thelittlebullyranaway,havingcertainlyglimpsed inBenjamin’seyes thepowerofhis spiritualenergy.Scaredofhisown

power, however,Benjamin had decided hewould no longer use it in this life.Howoften haveweheardthephrase“becarefulwhatyouwishfor,foryouwillsurelygetit”?But was this the whole story? The revelations continue as we rejoin Benjamin in his LBL

experience.Heperceiveshisownsoulas light, formingadrop-shapeandcontaining thecolorsviolet,blue,

silver, and gold. (5) He feels truly exhausted, old, and scarred by his human incarnations. As hebecomesawareof this,he immediately receives revitalizationwithinabathof liquidwhite light, atreatmentfromateamwhosemembersresemblebeardedGreekphilosophers.Thisteamthenurgeshim to look closely at a particular experience in-depth.During an incarnation ages ago as awisewoman,sheandotherlike-mindedpeopleexperimented,withthebestofintentions,topreserveourplanetfrombeingvandalizedbydestructivepeople.Thisgrouptriedtofocustheirmentalpowerinunison,butapparentlytheexperimentback-fired.Thetelekineticenergyimplodedandsettledbehindtheirthirdeyesandatthebasesoftheirbrains,resultinginmentalbreakdowns.Benjamin’sdeepfearofbecomingmentallynonfunctionaljammedhisownswitchinthe“off”position.Thisspecificfearhad already appeared countless times during psychotherapy, and at last, amazing as it sounds, thecausewasnowuncovered.Benjamin then receives instruction from his “treatment team” for the removal of his blockage.

They advise him to train his third eye; to consciously cultivate contact with his spirit guide,maintaininghisspiritualpowerataproductivelevelandenablinghimtoreceiveregularinstructions.It is time to open his heart and, above all, to forgive himself—to give and to accept love.At thismoment, he catches sight of a brightly lit formwith loving eyes, an image he perceives as JesusChrist—or, perhaps, a projection of his own Christ aspect. (6) His instructions continue: he mustregularly put a rock crystal onto his third eye and drink crystal-infused water. Moreover, it isbeneficialforhimtolinkwithnatureusingthe“sensoryperceptionofthemoment.”Hecantuneinbysingingaspecifictone,andhereceivesarecipeforanherbalointmenttoputonhisneck,lips,thirdeye,andheartchakra.Thehealingteamtellshimthathistaskinlifeistousehiseyestodetectthecausesofhispatients’

diseases—toremovenegativepathologicalenergywithhis lefthandandto transferhealingenergyonto the sick body with his right hand. From now on, he will receive healing recipes from hisspiritualguide.Hemust leavebehindhisfearofEarth’sdestructionandshoulddevelopmoreself-confidence and trust in the spiritual world. From this focus and trust, helpful forces may assisthumankind.Mostimportantly,hewillbeabletoputallthisintoactionrightafterthesession.Thencame thepromiseof avisit toSouthAmerican shamans, anetworkof like-mindedpeople

who,asaresultofhisconnectionwiththem,willspreadtheirhealingwork.Themissionofhissoulistoenrichtheuniversewithhisthirstforknowledge,inquisitiveness,learning,andintegration.Heandhisfamilyarelightsinthedark,andhissoulname,Azurol(orAzorel),linkswiththelightblue,silverywaterelement.Heisthengivenaglimpseofhisveryfirstincarnationandexperiencesrocksinadifferentsolarsystemoutsideourgalaxy.Heincarnatedtheretoexperiencetheconsciousnessofdensematter,andhegainedgreatpleasurefromtheawarenessthathewasunitedwiththewhole.Hisfirstearthly incarnationasahumanbeingwas in theearlyStoneAge,andheexperiencedadivinesparkinthecenterofhisbody.Thus,thisamazingandcosmicLBLsessiondrewtoitsclose.Benjamintoldme:

Somedaysafterthesession,Iparticipatedinaparent-teachermeeting.Duringthismeeting,Icouldsee,quitedistinctly,anangelicfigurestandinginthecorner.ThephenomenonwassoclearandunequivocalthatIalmosthadtheimpressionthatIcouldtouchhim,asifhewereamaterialentity.Afterawhile,thisbeingrevealedthereasonforhisappearanceinthisgroup;he

toldmehewantedtoensuretheevening’ssuccessinordertostrengthentheharmonyandcommunityoftheschool.Inaddition,hewantedtheattendeestobeconsciouslyawareoftheloveofchildren.Thiseventreinforcedwithinmeanacceptanceoftheomnipresenceofspirits.Inowknowweareneverreallyaloneorisolatedinlife.Ifeelwavesofjoyaboutthepossibilityofinterdimensionalcommunicationopeningupforme.NowIknowwheremylifetaskisleadingme.IfIcanovercomemyfearoftheverystrong

Urielenergyofmysoulguideandletitflowfreelythroughmyphysicalbody,thisenergywillactdirectlyonmyownbodyandonthebodiesofthoseIamtreating.Withtheenergiesfrommyhands,Iwillstarttoshiftmyclients’blockedfeelings.Aboveall,Iwillreceiveinformationthatwillmeasureandsupportthetreatments,resultinginanimmediateimprovementofsymptomsandconditions.

ItseemedthatBenjaminwasultimatelyledtohismissionasseerandhealerbytheblockageinhis

thirdeye.Theeyehasgraduallyopened,andhenowexperiencesenhancedpsychicperceptionandhealing abilities.At times, he has experienced rational doubts about all this, but eventually he hascome to accept his “seeing” talents as a healing gift. The painful, built-up energy in his head hassoftenedandgraduallydissolved.Since his LBL session, upon awakening each morning Benjamin receives healing energy and

naturopathic prescriptions fromUriel and other spiritual guides. They obviously act for him, hisfamilymembers,andforclientsheistreating.Hewrotetotellmethatit isnoteasyforhimtogetusedtothepowerfulUrielenergy—thathehadtolearntoletitflowthroughhim.Benjaminiswellonhiswayinhisbusinessandpracticeasanosteopath.Fromhispasthistory,IknowthatBenjaminhadlittletodowithangelsorwiththespiritualworld,

andthathewasneverreligious.WhenImethimagain,monthsafteroursession,hehadamorelivelyandopenpersonalityand,ingreatcontrasttohisearlierdemeanor,hecouldlaughheartily.Henowexperiencesacloseconnectionwithnature.Thisstoryshows,onmanydifferentlevels,boththecausesandtheresultsofasingle,unresolved

spiritual trauma—namely, in thiscase, theunfathomablebacklashof focusedpersonalpower.Deephealingwasaccomplishedthroughoutthephysicalbody,theemotionalandmentalfields,andontheenergetic, karmic, and spiritual planes. Benjamin became aware of the emotional backdrop of hispresentlife—thepowerofplayingaroundwithdestructivethoughtforcesandtheresultantfeelingsofguilt. He remembered past-life imprints of violence, which led to an unconscious, physicallyrepressed fear of using his power in his current life task to aid, heal, learn, and enlighten. In thespiritualworld,Benjaminaccessedtheprobablekarmicbackgroundofhisblockage:hisheadstrongandimmatureexperimentationwithcreativepower,albeitwithgoodintentions,thatwasfollowedbyadisastrousimplosionandmentalbreakdown.Onthephysicalplane,inhisbrainandnervoussystem,thisthemeappearedasanintoleranceorreluctancetoaccepthisownstrongsoulenergy(quitehighat 85 percent). Energetically, the blockage had manifested in the area of his third eye as a deepemotionalfear—afearofbeingoverwhelmedbyhisownpsychicpower,whichcouldbeusedtoruinhimself.It’snosurprisethatoriginally,histhird-eyevisionspurredhimintostudyingfilm,butnowhehasothervisions.Iimaginehimworkingwithhispatientsastheylookintothosedeep,dark,soulfuleyes.

Westillknowverylittleabouthowunresolvedancientissuesaretransferredintootherincarnations.Inanycase,Benjaminrevealed,inasingleLBLsession,completeinsightandspiritualhelptosolvehiscentralblockage.Thefactorscontributingtohisremarkablehealingwereopenness,knowledge,understanding, integration,self-forgiveness, love,andblessingofandfromthespiritualworld.All

thesefactorscametogetherandformedahealingcrescendointhissinglesession.Iwasgiventhepleasureandinnersatisfactionofhelpingthisyoungmantofindhislifetask—to

accepthisgiftsandattunetothepowerofhissoulenergy,andtouseitforthebenefitofothers.OnemightarguethatthechangesIhavedescribedwouldhaveoccurredanyway,asanafter-effectoflong-standingpsychotherapyorevenspontaneously.However,thereisanunequivocalchronologicalandcontextualconnectionbetweentheLBLsessionandBenjamin’sensuingchangestwoyearsafter theend of the regular psychotherapeutic sessions and right after the single session. One could evenconclude that the LBL session acted as an ignition spark forBenjamin’s accumulated insights andbreakthroughs.Afterall,transformationandhealingarerarelythelinearresultsofonesinglecause;theydependon complex interactions aswell as grace.And certainlynot everyLBL sessionwouldleadtosuchmajorchangesanddevelopment.Benjamin’sbreakthroughexperiencewasdefinitelyaneye-openeronmanylevels,butprimarilytogetherwehadremovedtheblockstohisspiritualgoal.

(1)Typically,soulsjointhefetusbetweenthefourthandninthmonth,becauseapparentlyinthefirsttrimesterthereisnotenoughbraintissueforsoulintegrationwithahumanbrain;seeDS382-386.Toappreciatethehighlycomplexmannerofasouljoiningwithahostbrainofadevelopingfetus,seeLBLH51.

(2)Formoreinformationonsoulenergytransfer,seeLBLH135-136.(3)Manypeoplebelieveinthereligiousmythologyofangels.Thus,consciousinterferencefromapriorbeliefsystemisalwaysaconsiderationwhenaclientintranceexclaimstheyseeangels,usuallyatthegatewayintothespiritworldafterdeath.Jungbelievedthatcomfortingmythswereexpressionsofthebasicneedsofhumankind.Ifeelthatfromourearliestbeginnings,humanbeingshavehadayearningforspiritualguardianstoprovideself-protectioninadifficultandoftencruelworld.Mybeliefisthattheconceptofangelsasreligioussymbolsevolvedintoamentalarchetypeforwhatisactuallypersonalspiritguides.Intheearlystagesofourmentalcrossingintotheafterlife,spiritguidesaresometimesvisuallymisinterpretedatfirstasangelswithwingsbecausetheyfloatandhaveradiantlightaroundanetherealheadandshouldersastheycometowardthenewlydiscarnatesoul;seeDS38-39.(4)Somesubjectsintheunconsciousstatedocarryconsciousmemories,ideas,andconceptsintotheearlystagesoftheirspiritualregression.Thethirdeyechakraissymbolicallyconsideredbybelieverstobethegatethatleadstotheinnerspiritualrealmsthroughahigherconsciousness.(5)ThemeaningofsoulcolorsisdescribedinJSandDS,butIwouldstartwiththecolor(souls)entryintheindexofLBLH,219,andalsoseethediagramintheappendix,216.(6)Consciousfeedbackinthiscaseindicatesenlightenmentfromadivinespiritthatismoremetaphysicallyspiritualthanreligious.

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AJOURNEYtowardFREEDOM

ClareAlbinson(FRODSHAM,CHESHIRE,ENGLAND)

LAWYER,ARTIST,AUTHOR,ANDREIKIMASTERSPECIALIZINGINTHERAPEUTICREGRESSION.

Jodie’slifewasataverylowebb.Hisbeginninghadbeenlessthanauspicious.Hewasmildlyautisticandsufferedfromaconditioncallednystagmus,whichcauseduncontrolledmovementinhiseyes.Later,hewasfoundtobedyslexic.Thenaherniaoperationlefthimingrievouspainandgreatlydepletedhispreviouslyhighenergylevels.Thepainandlackofenergycauseddetrimentalchangesinhislife,andthisledtoseveredepression.Heattemptedsuicide.Despitehisautismanddyslexia,Jodiewashighlyintelligentinmanyspheresoflife,mostparticularlyinmusicandart,butbecauseofhisproblemshewasperceivedbyotherstobethick,orstupid.Heevenfeltthathisownmotherwasembarrassedandashamedofhim,andhisconditionsandhisgrandfather’scruelattitudetowardhimhadaddedtotheupsetandhumiliationthatshehadalreadyfelt.Hewasconfused,unhappy,andoftenfrustratedwithlife,thecontrastbetweenwhatwasgoingoninhisbrainandwhathewasabletoexpresswasasourceofconstantfrustrationtohim.

JODIE’STWOLBL regression sessions allowedhim to find the acceptance that heneeded forhisbody’slimitations.Itallowedhimthefreedomtobehappy.Jodie’slifesofarhadbeenchallenging.Thehardestparthadbeentheresentmentthathefeltforhis

own body and the many ways in which it had let him down. He could find no acceptance of thelimitations that his body and itsmany disabilities had placed on him. This lack of acceptance hadprobablybeencompoundedorperhapsevencreatedbytheshamethathismotherhadfeltabouthiscondition.Notsurprisingly,hisself-esteemwasverylow,andhewantedtochangethis.Heneededtounderstandhimselfandwantedtoknowwhathislifepurposewaswithinthisseeminglyuselessbody.Hewantedreleasefromhisdreadfuldepression.Hewantedtobehappy.Duringregressioninhypnosis,Jodierelaxedeasilyandsoonbegantovisualizepicturesofapretty

nineteen-year-oldgirlwho, he said,was “full of confidence and tarty (sexuallyprovocative).”Shewas making a mess of her life through prostitution and low-life connections and had becomepregnant, with nowhere to go and no one to turn to. Finally, he watched her commit suicide bywalkingintothesea.Heheardhimselfsayingtoher,“Don’tdoit!Don’tdoit!”—butshedid.Thoughhewaswatchingtheaction,itseemsverylikelythathewas,infact,watchinghimselfinapastlife,anditisinterestingtonotethat,inthislife,Jodiehadhimselffeltdesperateenoughtoattemptsuicide,justasthisgirlhad.Veryoftenwhensomeonegetsitwronginonelife,suchascommittingsuicide,thesoulseeksanothersimilarsituationinafurtherlifetotestitselfagain.So,Jodiewasbeingtestedagain—andinhissuicideattempt,gettingitwrongagain—buttheattempthadbeenunsuccessful;hehadgivenhimselfanotherchance.Havinggone through thedeathprocess to the lifebeyond,hewenton tobewithhisownguide,

Galcien. Because of his very low energy levels, his guide was asked, through Jodie, if he hadincarnatedwithenoughenergyforthetaskshewastoaccomplishinthislife.Theanswerwasno,hehadn’t,soitwasagreedthathecouldbrieflyreceivemore.Forthenextfiveorsominutes,Jodiewasthereceiverofanincredibleflowofenergy.Duringthis,hesaidthatitfeltasifhewerepluggedintoasizeableelectricity supply, leavinghimgreatlyenergized. Itwaseasy to see from lookingatandlisteningtohimthatthechangehadbeensubstantial.Suchenergyboostscanonlybetemporary,butitmusthaveremainedwithhimlongenoughforhisneeds,becauseJodiereportedthathehadfourdaysoffeelingfantastic.(1)Shortlyafterourfirstsession,abombshellhitwhenhewasarrestedonsuspicionofrape.Hewas

heldinthecells,questioned,andchargedbypolice.Afterhisrelease,hewasforcedtoleavehishouseand live away from his home area. His worldwas turned upside down. Thewomanwhowas hisaccusernotonlydeniedherconsent to thesexualact,shealsodeniedtheirpreviousrelationship.ItwasaharrowingtimeforJodie,buthetoldmethat thanksto theregressionandtemporaryenergyboost,hehadthecouragetocopewithit,emergingstrongerthathewouldeverhaveexpected.Theworkhehaddonehelpedhimtounderstandhisaccuserwasasickladyforwhomhewasabletofeelpity.Shewouldhave to livewithherconscience,whilehiswasclear.Jodiewouldhave towait formanymonthsfortheopportunitytoprovehisinnocence,andthatwaitingwasanordealforhim.It was during this time of high uncertainty that Jodie experienced a formal life-between-lives

regressionasafollow-upfromthetherapeuticsessionthathadprecededit.HehadnoknowledgeofDr. Newton’s books, but despite this, he encountered much that had been experienced by others,lending a powerful authenticity to the process.Time and again during regression, Jodie expressedextremedissatisfactionwithhisbody.Hisless-than-perfectphysicalitywasatthecoreofeverythingthat was wrong with his life. He went back to being a child, where he remembered sitting in hishighchair,unabletospeakclearlyeventhoughhisautismwasamildform.Hedescribedthefeelingoffrustrationbecausethewordswereformedinhismindbutwouldn’tcomeout.Itfelttohimasifhehadbeengagged.Thenhewentback even further to the timebeforehisbirth,whenhewas in thewomb.Here,itwasevenworseforhimbecausehefelttrapped,uncomfortable,andcramped.Hewasfrustratedwithhisbody, feeling that itwasn’t theone thathehadchosen,and inhis frustration,hekickedsohardthathebrokehismother ’scoccyx.Hehadnodoubtthathisbodywasn’tagoodmatchforhissoulanddidn’tlikeitatall.Itdidn’tworkthewayhewanteditto,andeverythingaboutitfeltstiff.Henever feltproperly integratedwith it,andeverythingwasastruggle forhim.Overcomingthisdisdainthathefeltforhisbodywasgoingtobedifficultforhim,butuntilhedid,hewouldbetrappedforeverinhisunhappiness.Wethenvisitedanotherpastlifewhereagainhewasunhappywithhisbody.Afterhisdeathinthatlife,hismostimmediatepastlife,hefoundhimselflookingdownathisbodyandfeelingindifferenttoit,asifit, too,didn’tfeellikeithadbeentherightone.Bynow,though,hewasdeadandfreeoftheheavinessandtirednessofthatlife;hefeltfine.Here,again,therewasastrongevidenceofkarmicplanningbecauseofthegreatdisappointmentfeltwithhisbodyinbothlives.Leavingthatpreviousbody,hewaspulledforwardbyhighlycondensed,magneticenergy.Hesawalightahead,whichbecamestrongerashenearedit.Alife-forceenergypulledhimcloser,allowinghis initial fearof theunknowntosuccumbtoa lovingenergy, liftinghismood tooneofbliss.Hewasnowelevatedtoaplacewherehewouldhavetheopportunitytoovercomethenegativeemotionsbroughtaboutbyhismalfunctioningbody,thoughevenhereitwouldbehard.Hisguide,Galcien,awarmandconfidentcharacter,appearedtohimasanandrogynousbeingof

purelove.Hegavehimhighmarksforhisperformanceinhislastlifeandtoldhimthathisrateofdevelopment in thecurrentonewithphysicalchallengeshadbeen tremendous,which iswhy ithadbeensuchastruggle.Jodie,whosesoulnamewasYos,hadoftenknownhisguidetobewithhimandreckoned that he’d saved him from death numerous times. When he visited his soul group, he

describedthemas“jollityandlaughter,”allofthemoperatingonaharmoniouswavelength.Nexthemetwithhisbeardedseniors(oftencalledtheCouncilofEldersbyLBLclients)inasmallchapelthatseemedmorelikeaschoolroomwithchairsanddesks,withhisguidesittingbehindhim.Theygavehimadviceabouthisaccuseroftheso-calledrape,sayingthatshewasprovidinghimwithyetanotheropportunityforadvancement.(2)Afterleavinghismeetingwiththecouncil,Yosmadeadecisiontomeetthesoulwhohadbeenhis

grandfather. Jodie had hated himwhen hewas alive because of his arrogance and cruelty, and hecalledhim“abastard”forupsettingandembarrassinghismotheraboutJodie’sdisabilities.Yetagainhewasdrawnbacktothisthemeofhisdisappointmentwithhisbody.Hetookafewmomentsofquietcontemplation,afterwhichheannouncedthathecouldnowallowhimselftofeeldifferentlyaboutthismanwhohadcausedhimsomuchhurt.Theybecamefriends,andJodietoldhimthathelovedhimandwassorryhehadhatedhim,becausehehadnowgainedasenseoftheman’sloveandhumility.Jodie’smaingoalinhisLBLwastodiscoveraroutetohappiness,soIsuggestedheaskhisguide

forhelpwiththis.Galcientoldhimhehadbeenputtingtoomuchenergyintopersonalrelationshipsand thiswaswrong for him, because thatwas not his plan.His purposewas to travel and to helpothers.ThentherewasanothermomentofinnertransformationwhenJodieannouncedthatifhesawthings globally, the fact that he came inwith body infirmities didn’tmatter. However, he still feltdissatisfied that he would never achieve his human goals. Along with letting go of some of hisdissatisfactionwithhisbody, therewerestillhurdlesforhimtoovercome.At thenextpoint inourworktogether,Jodiesawhimselfinamirror:

Iseemyselfinthemirror.I’mgoingintothemirror.(3)There’sabrightlightthere,asifI’vegonebeyondmeandI’mthelight.It’sbeautiful,comforting.Myheartiscrying…It’sasifI’mnotallowedthefruitsofit—thewarmthandlove.I’mtheretoobserve…ItfeelslikeIhavetobedeadtobethere…Ihavetogothroughthistothetrialforrape,andthenIcanmoveon…there’sacontentmenttoknowthatthere’ssomethingmorewithinmetoconnectto,eventhoughitishard.

Intheplaceoflifeselection,herealizedthathehadchosenhisparentsmorethanhisbody.Hewas

abletotryoutthebody,butonlywhenitwasstatic.(4)Thenhefeltconfidentaboutitanditfeltallright,butwhenitwastoolate—whenhehadincarnatedintohisbody,whenhestartedtomove—hefeltpain.Hestillhaddifficultyinacceptingthathehadagreedtotakeiton:“ItwasalmostasifIwastricked intoaccepting it.”After taking time to reflect, inanalmostmiraculouschangeofmind,hedecidedthat,afterall,hewasquitehappywithhisbody,realizingthatwhateverhisincarnatedform,hecanstilllearnvaluablelessons.(5)During regression, Jodie became aware of a negative emotion in his body. The effect of this

negativeemotionwasafeelingofheaviness,andthisheaviness,hebelieved,wasself-punishmentforhisguiltatbeingadifficultteenagerandfornothelpinghisparentsasmuchashecould.HisparentsthenjoinedJodie,andhisfatherhadhisarmsstretchedouttohim.Theyhuggedeachother,andJodiesaidhewassorrytohismother,whotoldhimitwasokay.Despitetheirforgiveness,Jodiestillfeltguilty,sayingthatasateenager,hewasrebellingagainsttheworldandwasconfused.Thisledhimtofeelmoroseanddejected,theexperiencetakinghimtowardmorepainratherthanawayfromit.Then,againafteranotherfewmoments’reflection,heexperiencedyetanothermiraculouschangeofheart.Soundingsohappy,heannounced:“Theychoseme!Ifeelsomuchbetter.Ialmostwanttocry.Thankyou,MumandDad,thankyouforhavingme,forbeingmyparents…Itfeelswonderfulsayingthat.”NowIknewtherewasadeephealingtakingplace.Hehadacceptedthatbeinghimwasokaydespite

its limitations.Henowhadabetterunderstandingofhimself;“Ifeelmorecomplete,andthere’san

innerfeelingofknowingthateverythingisgoingtobeokay.”Acoupleofdayslater,JodietoldmethattheLBLhad“healedhisheart.”Unfortunately,despitemuchemotionalandfinancialcost,Jodiewasunabletoprovehisinnocence

in court, resulting in his imprisonment in one of Her Majesty’s prisons. This was a dreadfullydifficult time for him, firstly being unable to prove his innocence and most particularly beingsurroundedbymenofaviolentanddisturbednature.Despite theterrorof thisconfinement,hehastoldmethathehasbeenabletocometotermswithwhathappenedandacceptitinawaythathewouldneverhavebeenabletohaditnotbeenforhisregressionsandthestrengthhegainedduringhislife-between-livesexperiences.Hewasalsosure that if ithadn’tbeenfor thiswork,hewouldhavehadgreat difficulty in resisting the desire to end his life.He has now left jail and is in the process ofrebuildinghislife.IrecentlyheardfromJodiewhenhewrotetheseheartwarmingwordstome:

Inowfeelmorecompleteinmyself…mypilotlightislit;awarm,glowinglightwhichwillneverleavemenow,warmingmyheartandmind.Myjourneyhasn’tfinishedyet.Allthathashappenedtomewillbecomeclearinmynextepisode,whichI’mnotshunningawayfrom.

Asyoucan imagine, facilitatingJodie’s life-between-livesexperiencehasbeenmyprivilegeand

pleasure.

(1)Soulenergyishomogenous,sotheportionthatisleftbehindinthespiritworldduringanincarnationisnodifferentincompositionfromwhatwebringtoEarth.Thedifferencesareinenergyvolume.Whatisimportanttoknowhereisthatwecannotreceivemoreonapermanentbasisduringalife.Jodie’sboostwastemporary.Thedecisiontobringacertainamountofenergyismadeinthespiritworldbasedonanumberofdecisionsbythesoul,primarilythetypeofbodythathasbeenselectedasthehostinthenextlife.Thereasonanenergyboostcanonlybetemporaryisthatwhenwejointhehumanbraininthefetalstate,itisadelicateoperationofmelding,andintheprocessthebrainhasadapteditselftoagivenamountofenergy.Toincreaseitveryhightemporarilyorincreaseitatallpermanentlywould,asoneclienttoldme,“blowthecircuits.”Itwoulddisruptandevendamagebraintissue.However,wemayreceiveabrief,temporaryboosteitherbyourselvesorwiththehelpofa

guideduringperiodsoftraumasuchasacaraccident,beinginacoma,duringsleep,orinanemotionalcrisis.Somepeoplearecapableoftappingintotheirownstoredimmortalenergyinthespiritworld,butpersonalguidesoftendothisforusoftheirownvolitionwhileweareprayingfortemporarysustenance,duringphysicalexercisesuchasyoga,orindeepmeditation.Seeenergyrestoration,DS107-108,116-120.

(2)OneofthemostpowerfultherapeutictoolsinLBLtherapyistheabilityofthefacilitatortosuspendtimeandengageinthenow-timeofthespiritworldinordertobetterrecognizeclientproblems.Theopenmindofthesoulinasuperconsciousstatehasmoreconceptualdifferentiation,withlessrigidhumanboundariesthanwhenweareinaconsciousstate.WearealsonotlockedintolineartimeduringanLBLsession.Althoughwemaytakeaclientintothecouncilchamberafterapastlife,askillfulfacilitatorisquitecapableofreviewingcurrentlifetraumainfrontoftheelderstogainanswerstoclientquestions,asourothercaseshavedemonstrated.Muchpositivetherapyisachievedwithbothguidesandeldersparticipatingincurrenthumanreality.Seetherapeuticopportunitiesduringcouncilvisitations,LBLH161.

(3)ThemirrorisprobablysymbolicofJodie’smentallypassingintothespiritworld.(4)Inthespaceoflifeselection,soulsmaytakeaparticipatingroleinvolvingliveactionorthatofanobserversimplywatchingscenesunfoldinthelifetocome.Occasionally,wehear,asinthisclient’scase,ofanobserverwhoseesfuturebodiestheymightoccupyonlyasstatic,inert,orsuspendedhumanforms.SeeJS216,DS164,andLBLH175.(5)Bodymatchesbetweentheimmortalcharacterofasoulcombinedwiththetemperamentofatemporaryhumanbraintoproduceonepersonalityforonelifetimeishighlycomplex.Wehaveonlyscratchedthesurfaceofthisprocedure.Understandingtheprocessofhowourspiritualplannersselectcertainbodiesforparticularlivesinthefutureduringthekarmicdevelopmentofthesoulseemstobebeyondthecomprehensionofastill-incarnatingsoul.Seechoosinganewbody,JS221-248;lifeandbodyselection,DS385-394,andLBLH50,175-189.Forthecharacterizationofa“poorquality”body,seeDS387.

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IamHOME

ScottDeTamble(CLAREMONT,CALIFORNIA)

PLANDLBLHYPNOTHERAPIST,TRAININGASSISTANTANDCASEREVIEWERFOR

THENEWTONINSTITUTE.

Castoutintothecold,nakedandalone…Somesoulsfeelthissenseofbanishmentuponenteringtheearthlyplanefromthecommunalhearthofthespiritrealm.Yettheirexileisself-imposed,assoulscometorealizetheymustventureforthintothephysicaltofindthemeatthatbringssustenanceandgrowth.Therearemanychallengesintheworld.InMonique’scase,fiercehumanemotionswerethe

wildanimalsthatnearlychasedherbackintothewarmembraceofspiritbeforeherordealwasaccomplished.

ONANOVERCASTAprilmorning,Moniquesentmeanemail:

Ihaveahistoryofclinicaldepression,withtwofailedsuicideattemptsbydrugoverdose.Ihavereceivedpsychiatrictreatment,whichincludedtheuseofProzac.Ihaveattendedpsychologicalcounseling.I’vealsoparticipatedinself-helpgroupsandreadmanyself-helpbooks.Theseexperienceshavegivenmesurvivalskills,butnotoneofthemhastaughtmehowtoenjoyliving.Mydepressivethoughtsandfeelingsarebestsummarizedasbeing“homesick.”Ilongformy

etherealcosmichome.YoumightimaginehowdelightedIwastoreadabout“home”inMichaelNewton’sbooks.It’stimeformetohavemyownlife-between-livesrevelation.Iwanttoavoidanotherclinicaldepressiveepisodethatisloomingovermyhead.

Moniquewassinkingintodarkness,desperatelyreachingoutforthegoldenrayofatranscendent

experience.Ifeltseriousconcernaboutthegravityofhersituationyetinstinctivelyfeltwewouldbeguided.Wespokebytelephone,andMoniquetoldmethatyes,shewashomesickforspirit,butbothofher

suicideattemptshadactuallybeenprecipitatedbyturbulentandbrokenrelationshipswithmen.Aswesetadateforourmeeting,thereemergedfromhervoiceahopefulnote.Soon,shesentmeanotheremail:“Ihavebegunmyhomeworkassignmentforthesession.Myshortlistofquestionsisnotsoshort!Ultimately,I’vedecidedtobringallofmyquestionsandtokeepanopenmind.”Our session progressed smoothly. While Monique’s soul may have felt some reluctance to

incarnate,shecouldnotconcealayouthfulcuriosityandexcitementattheprospectofanewbodyandnewadventure.

SCOTT:Whatareyousensingorfeelingthereinthewomb?

MONIQUE:Well-being,verysafe.S:Whendidyoufirstjointhefetus?M:Momentsafterconception.Ineededtoverifythatitwasindeedhappening.Icanseecellssplitting.I’msatisfied.S:Wow!Asyourbodydevelops—astimegoesby—doyoumoveinandout,ordoyoustayput?M:Idon’treturnuntilthebeginningofthesecondtrimester.(1)S:Whatdoyoufindatthattime?M:Icanfeeltheroundnessofmyfingers,attachmenttoMother,theumbilicalcord…Ibegintosuckmythumb.Itcomfortsme,reassuring.S:Doesyoursoulmindfeelthisbodyisagoodmatchforyouornot?M:Yes,agoodmatch.Itwillhavefluidmotion,likethefreenessofmysoul.S:Isthatwhyyouchosethisbody,orarethereotherreasons?M:IneedafemalebodytohavechildrenandtobemarriedtoThomas.Also,beingfemale…Iwillfeelvulnerable.

Moniqueconnectedwithhersoulconsciousnessinthewombportionof thesession, tellingofsoulagreementsaswifeandmotherandaneedtobevulnerableinherpresentincarnation.Thepast-lifeexperience that formed thenextpartofher session introducedanother rangeofemotional lessons.Monique’sminddriftedback,nottohermostimmediatepastlifebuttoamuchearlierlifetimewhereshewasayoungwomanwithinabandofnomadichunterswhostalkedgamehighintheAlps.(2)

S:Areyousitting,standing,orlyingdowninthispastlifewe’reexploring?M:I’mkneeling.S:Areyoualoneorwithsomeone?M:I’mwithJomor,who’sdying.S:What’shappening?M:Idon’tknowwhathappened.Hewasinjured—apuncturewound,aknife?Idon’tknowwhattodoforhim.S:Andyou’rekneeling?Whereishe?M:He’sontheground,lyingdownonhisside.S:Whereisthewound,doyouknow?M:Ican’tseeatfirst,there’ssomuchblood.Ithinkit’sonhisside.S:Areyouinacityoroutinthecountryside?M:We’rehighinthemountains.It’scold,butit’snotsnowingrightnow.There’saclearingofdirt.Thetreeshavesnowonthem…therockshavesnowonthem.S:CanyouseeJomor ’sface?M:IrollhimontohisbackandIcan.He’sinanguish,hehurts.NowIcanseethewoundisinhisrightside,intheribs.He’sdying,andheknows.He’snotabletospeak;toomuchbloodinhismouth.Icanseehe’sdying.I’vecometoolate.S:WhatwasyourrelationshipwithJomor?M:Nothissister,butlovehimlikeasister.Hemadeuslaughatlife.S:Allrightnow,letthatfade,andlet’smovetothelastdayofyourownlifeinthismountainlife.Bethere:lastday.Describewhat’shappening.M:I’minablizzard.I’mlost.Mypeoplecan’tfindme,Ican’tfindthem.Thecoldness,I’vegonebeyondthecoldness;itwasverypainful,butnowit’snumb.I’mverytired,andI’mjustgoingtogotosleep.IknowI’mnotgoingtowakeup.There’snostruggleleft.S:Howoldareyouonthislastdayofyourlife?

M:Twenty-one,ayoungwoman.S:Whatdoyouthinkaboutthislifeyou’vejustlived?M:Itwascurioustobedependentonlandandanimals.I’dnotexperiencedthat—tolivelikeoneoftheanimals,tounderstandthem.S:It’stimetomovetothemomentjustafterdeath,andyoucanrisefromyourbody,andyou’llbeabletocontinuetotalktome.Feelyourselfexpandingtothehighestlevels…whereareyouinrelationtoyourbody?M:I’mveryclosetomyguide.Icanstillseemybody.Iregretthatit’stimetobeleavingit.It’ssixweeksbeforetheyfindmybodyandbringitbacktothevillage.Alongtime,butthebodywaspreservedbecauseofthesnow.Therewassomenibblingonmylegfromtheanimals.S:Istherearitualforburial?M:Theywrapmeinleathers,andtheycremateme.MyguideandIwatch.S:Doesyourguidecommunicatewithyouwhileyou’rewatchingthis?M:No,it’sjustasilentreverence.Weleavewithmybodyburning.

Inthispastlifeoflongago,afterbecominglostinastorm,Moniquewenttosleeptoescapethepainofliving.Yet,itwasimportantduringthissessiontoremindherofthesadregretshefeltatleavingayoung,healthybodyintheprimeoflife.Soon,herspiritguidespoke,tellingherwhenandwhyheactedinthepastlifeto

stimulatehertofeelparticularemotions.S:Isthereatimewhenyourguidecommunicateswithyou?Whatpassesbetweenyou?M:HeassuresmethatJomoriswellandfine.Hehasarrivedhome.S:Tellmeaboutyourguide.M:IcallhimZion.He’stall,withasternexpression,sternposture.Hewearsablackrobeandhood.S:Whatdoeshetellyounext?Whatdoeshesayaboutyourspiritualprogress?M:HeasksmewhatIthinkaboutmyownprogress,andI’mkindofindifferenttoit.Idon’treallycareifImadeprogressornot;that’swhyheissternwithme.Ididn’tperformaswellasIcould,butheshouldbehappythatIagreedtobebornatall!Ha,he’sevensternwiththatanswerofmine!HethinksIshouldbemoreseriousaboutallofthis.S:Howdoeshefeelaboutyourperformanceinthatlifetime?M:HesaidthatIcertainlydidlearnhowtheanimalslive,andIdidverylittletounderstandthefeelingsofmypeopleinmyvillage.TheonlytrueconcernIshowedwasthedeathofJomor.Therewereotherdeaths.Myparents,Ifeltnothingwhentheydied.He’saskingmewhymyanswerissoflippant.IsaybecauseIknowtheygottogohome.Buthewantsmetofeelmorecompassion.S:Doeshegiveyouanyadviceaboutthis?M:Yes.HemanipulatedmetofindJomor,andheasksme,“HowdidyoufeelwhenyoufoundJomor?”AndIwassadwhenIfoundhim,Iwasupsetatseeinghisblood,Iwassadthathislifewasended.Thathewouldnotbeabletohunt.Itwasamomentofcompassion.AndthisiswhatZionwantsfromme,thisfeeling.S:Doeshetellyouanythingelseaboutthat?M:Iactuallygointoacourseofstudyonemotions,feelings.Alotoftimeisspentwatchingpeople,watchingmypeers.S:DoyoumeanwatchingpeopleonEarth?M:No,watchingmypeersinspirit.Seeingwhentheylaughorthefrustrationwhensomeoneis

strugglingtounderstandanewconcept.I’mgivenalotoftimetowatchsothatIcanidentifytheirfeelingsonsight.S:Sothiscourseofstudytakesplaceinthespiritualrealm?M:Yes.(3)S:DoesyourguideZionhelpyouonthiscourse,orarethereotherinstructors?M:Thereareotherpeople,likehelpersortutors.Andtheysay,“Lookandsee,seewhyhe’sfrustrated,doyouseewhathe’sreachingfor,doyouseewhyhecan’treachhisgoal?Doyouseewhyyouneedtoknowthis?”S:Whydoyouneedtoknowthis?M:Ziontellsmeyoucannotbeahealerifyoucannotidentifywhathurts.

Inapurestateofenergy,soulsdonothaveacentralnervoussystemasintheirhumanform,buttheyare capable of study, either by themselves or in a classroom situation, about the complex humanreactions to stimulus that causes love, hate, fear, anger, and so forth. Souls acquire this sensitivityduringtheirincarnationsandcarrythisexperiencetothespiritworldbetweenlives.Imightdescribethisprocessasa formofsympatheticawareness toward thehumanstateofcapabilityabouthavingfeelingsandwhatthoseemotionsmeanintermsofreactiontoevents.For Monique, a clear pattern emerges about her need to understand the importance of human

emotions.InhertribalhunterlifetimeintheAlps,Moniquewassomewhatindifferent,evencallous,althoughher guide began to induce feelings in her; then, in spirit between lives, she focusedon acourseofstudyinemotion;andfinally,inthepresent,shechoseabodythatismuchmoresensitiveandvulnerable.Shewalksatightropeinthepresentlifetime.Sheneedstofeel,buttheintenseemotionalstruggles

ofherromanticrelationshipsunbalanceherandthreatentotipherovertheedge.Theheartbreakofher fractured marriage with Thomas and a recent tempestuous love affair with Jeremy wereparticularlydifficult.Shewroteofthislateststormyrelationship:

Iknowthatloveiseternal.WithJeremy,hesmilesatme,andIknowwhoheisandIlovehimfiercely,ferociously.Butsomehowmyrelationshipwithhimhasbeenfullofhurtfeelings,anger,andfrustration.Weturntowardeachotheruntilhurtfeelingsandangerleadtoabandonmentagain.

Inthesoulgroupmeeting,welearnhowMonique’slessonsarerelatedtothesoulsoftwoofher

greatloves.Wealsofindtheultimatereasonforherstudiesinemotion.

S:Youmentionedyoursoulgroup;wouldyouliketocheckinwiththem?M:It’sashortdistance;Icanseeitfromhere.S:Describetheplaceforme.M:It’scircular.It’slikelightenergy,domed.Itprovidesaboundary.(4)S:Betherenow.Isthereanythingmeaningfulgoingonrightnowbetweenyouandyourgroup?M:Yes.ThomasandJeremy(whowasJomor)andIareinstudiesoftheemotions.OnournextEarthvisit,thisvisit,thisincarnation,we’lldothis.S:Thisisaplanyouthreehave?Isthereagoaltothesestudies?M:Compassion,theyrelatetocompassion.S:Soyouthreearegoingtocomeandlearnaboutemotion,liveit,studyit,reallyimmerseyourselves?M:Yes.We’regonnatakeitoutoneachother!Actitout,sounditout,layitout.

S:Doyouhaveaprimaryaspiration?M:Yes.TocareforthosewhocomebackfromEarth.S:Icanseewhycompassionmightbeimportant.

TheachesandpainsofMonique’sromanticentanglementsinthepresentdayarenotrandomevents.Hersufferingsarenottheresultofbadkarma,noraretheypunishmentfromaspitefulcreator.Thesecircumstanceswereself-chosenandmappedoutinconcertwithtwodearsoulgroupcompanionsaspartofagrandstudyofhumanemotion.All threehaveagreedtoincarnateandinteractinordertoexplore the intensityofhumanfeelings. InMonique’scase, theseexperienceswillserve toadvanceempathyandcompassioninpreparationforherfutureworkasacaretakerofsoulsreturningfromEarth.Piecesofthepuzzlecometogether;thelargerpicturebeginstotakeshape.Deeperunderstandings

ofher emotional lessons aregainedasMonique’s spirit guidenow leadsher to appearbeforeherCouncilofElders.

S:Tellmewhereyougonow.M:Itappearsverymuchlikeatemple.Iseeusmovingthrougharchways;theeldersaresittingstraightacrossinarow,inthronelikechairs.Thereareseven.S:Good.Whatpositiondoyoutakeupinrelationtothesewiseones?M:Inthecenter,Istand.IwanttostandbehindmyguideZion;Idon’twanttobeinfrontofthem.Zion’snexttome,butIwanttobebehindhim,likeachildwouldhidebehindyourleg.S:Doyousenseanysortoffeelingoremanationfromthecouncilmemberstomakeyoufeelthatway?M:Yes,andit’sreallyweird.Theyareindifferent.It’snotreallyindifference,it’snotacceptance,it’snotdissatisfaction…Ican’ttellwhattheyexpectfromme.S:Dotheyofferanycriticismorencouragement?M:Theygivemeunderstandingofmydefianceandmyfeelingofdisappointmentandhesitationinfacingthem.Thatinitselfisamessagetome.S:Howdoyoudecipherthat?Whatdoesitmeantoyou?M:Itmeansthatyoucan’tscoldsomeoneintolearningsomething.Theeldersdonotscold.Instead,theygavemeunderstanding,andIwasabletocomprehendthelessonandseethenecessityforprogress.S:WhatmessageisbeinggiventoyouthatcanbeusefulinyourcurrentlifeasMonique?M:TodayI’velearnedcompassion,butIneedtolearnforgiveness.S:Sothecompassionismorefromapastlife,butforgivenessisthepresentlifelesson?M:Yes.S:Whatistrueforgiveness?M:Itisunderstandingthateachcreationhastheirownmethodoflearningandproducing,andthey’reentitledtomistakes,asIam.Thegrowthprocessisn’tperfect,andyoumustunderstandthatsoyoudon’talwaysrememberpeopleforthehurtyouimaginedfromtheminthepast.S:“Thehurtyouimaginedfromthem”—sothisissomethingyoucreateforyourself,thishurt?M:Sometimes.Soulsarenotalwaysontrackwiththeirpurpose.Butyouhaveachoice.S:Youhaveachoicetoprotectyourselffromgettinghurt?M:Well,youcan,butthenyoudon’tbenefitfullyfromyourlesson.Youdon’thavethescenariotohaveanimaginedhurttoforgive!S:Itseemslikeakindofgame.M:Itis.Theseareparametersthatweputupfromwhichtolearn.

InLBLtrance,awisefriendoncespoketomeofEarthasatestingground:

Thespiritworld’sarestingplace.Youlearn,youteach,youreevaluate,butthenyouhavetotestwhatyou’velearned.Youtestyourselfthroughlivingdifferentlivestoseeifit’sreally,trulybecomepartofyouressence.It’slike…whenyou’vebeenhurt,doyouhaveitdeepwithinyoutoforgive?Doyouhaveitdeepwithinyoutoshowcompassion?Doyouhaveunconditionallovewithoutdemands?Allofthesethingsaretestedinalife.That’slikeseparatingthewheatfromthechaff.

Monique’ssessionwaswindingdown:

S:Iwouldlikeyoutoaskthecouncilsomeofyourpersonalquestions.Whatwasthepurposetobegainedfromyourpastpossessiverelationships?M:Morescenariosforforgiveness.S:WhatlessonareyoutolearnfromyourinteractionwithJeremyinthisincarnation?M:Hmm.Whatitfeelslikenottobeforgiven.It’stheshoeontheotherfoot!Jeremyisaveryclosesoulmate.Notmyprimarysoulmate,butveryclose.S:ArethereanysuggestionsfromthecouncilorZionaboutwhatyoucanactuallydonowinyourlifetoprogress?M:I’vebeengivenearstohear,tolisten,topayattention.S:Arethereanyactionsyoucantake?M:Iwillbeguidedinactions,asIhavebeenguidedheretoyou.Asthesessionclosed,Moniquewasgrantedapartinggift:S:Takealastlookaroundandseeifthere’sanythingwemighthavemissed.M:I’mreceivinganenergyadjustmentoffeelinglesshomesickness.They’realigningmethatsoIwon’tbeaffectedbythatsomuch.S:Whoisdoingthis?M:Twohealerworkers.Theyarenotstrangerstome,butIdonotfeelthemasintimatelyasIdomysoulcluster.ThisisgiventometoencouragemyprogresstowardtheverykindofworkthatIaspiretodomyself.S:Whatdoesthatfeellike?M:Ifeelitinthesolarplexus,righthere.Thehomesicknessisanextremedesiretojustbeathome.Like“I’vehadaharddayatwork,Iwannagohomeandgetinbed”kindofafeeling.OnlyIcan’treallygohomeandgetinbedfromEarthtothespiritualhome.S:Whatdoesthishavetodowithyoursuicideattempts?M:Itisthenatureofthisspirittopreferhome.S:Sotheydosomethingtoyou,makingyoufeelhow?M:Icanseethemactuallymovingtheenergyofmyauraaround.They’remixingpinkintomywhiteandlightblue,creatingpalelavender.Icanfeelthelesseningoftheneedtobehomeastheydothat.(5)S:Whatablessing.Relax,breathe,takeallthetimeyouneed.Justtellmewhenyou’rereadytomoveon.M:I’mreadyalready!

Threeyears after her session,Monique is stillwith us, living,working, growing.She struggles attimesbutnolongerfeelscold,naked,oralone.Sheisexcitedabouthernewroleasagrandmother.

Shecontinuestolistenandtopracticeforgivenessasbestshecan.Here,shewritesaboutsomeoftheinsightsthatshegainedfromherlife-between-livesexperience:

Iguessyoucouldcallthedespairthatgavemetwosuicideattempts,andthoughtsofyetanotherattempt,“homesickness”—sickandneedingtogohome.ButmyLBLsessionhasshownmethatIamhome.Earthisreal,butit’sonlyanextensionoftheheavenlyclassroom.There’snopassorfail;it’ssimplyhavinganexperience.Livingisn’toverwhelminganymore.Infact,mythoughtsofsuicidehavetakenachange.I’m

nowthinkingthatitmightbewisertolivetobeninetyyearsold,soIcangettwolifetimesoutofone.

(1)Soulspermanentlyjointhefetusoftheirhumanhostsbetweenthefourthandninthmonth.Whilethesoulmightvisitthemotherduringthefirstthreemonths,apparentlyduringthisearlyperiodthereistoolittlebraintissueforasuccessfulmergerwiththedevelopingfetus;DS382-384.(2)OurLBLfacilitatorsoftenaskclientssomethingontheorderof“gobackintimetothepastlifethatmostsignificantlyrelatestoyourcurrentproblem.”Itisremarkablehowquicklyasubjectindeephypnosiscansortthroughtheirspiritualmemorybanksandlockontotheappropriatelifetodiscuss.Aclientmightevenoverrideacommandbythefacilitatortogototheirimmediatepastlifeinordertoreachthelifetheymostneedtoreviewintermsoftheirkarmicissuestoday.Apparently,thisiswhathappenedwithMonique.Forreaderswhowishmoredetailsregardingtheinitialquestionsaskedwhenahypnosissubjectvisualizestheirfirstpast-lifescene,seeLBLH56.(3)Whiletheauthorhasexplainedaboutsoulcapacityforstudyinghumanemotionsfromthespiritworld,Ishouldaddthatthereisalsoaspiritualplaceforfurtherstudyinprivateoringroups.Ihavementionedthisteachingtoolbeforeinconnectionwithothercases.ThisareahasbeencalledtheSpaceofTransformation,whereatimelessenergyfieldexiststhatallowssoulenergytoblendintothefieldandbecomeamorphous,totallyintegratingintoaparticularhumanfeelingoremotiontosharpentheirsensitivitytobeingsonEarth.Soulscancapturetheessenceandassimilatetheenergyfrombothlivingandnon-livingthingswithinbeltsofconcentratedenergy.Thisspacehasotherteachingcapabilitiesforsouls,suchasworkingwithsubstancesonotherphysicalandmentalworlds.SeeJS168,218andDS302.(4)Withsomesouls,especiallytheyoungerones,thereisasenseofspiritualenclosuresorboundariesseparatingtheirownsoulgroupfromothersintheafterlife.SeeJS83-84,96.(5)ThereceivingofanenergyadjustmenthereisinterestingbecausethereisnoactualinfusionofnewenergytoupsetthebalanceofvolumeinitiallybroughtintoMonique’sbody.Rather,theexistingvibrationalfrequencyisalteredinMonique’shumanauraformtoadvancethepinkenergytonesofpassionwithclarityofthoughtinwhiteblendedtothewisdomofthecolorblue.AnewlavenderaurafromthismixisdesignedtoassistMoniqueinherhumanemotionlesson-learning.Aurasforsoulsactuallyinthespiritworldarefarmoreconsistentandslowtochangeovertimethanhumanauras.Peopleconfusethesetwoauras,thinkingtheyarethesame,whentheyarenot.SeeDS170-179,LBLH97,126.

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IKNOWIamGOINGTOHELL

TinaZion(FORTWAYNE,INDIANA)

CERTIFIEDHYPNOTHERAPIST,INTERNATIONALLYKNOWNAUTHOR,COUNSELOR,ANDINTUITIVE.

Thiscasestudyillustrateshowareligiousteachingcanaffectone’sbeliefsaboutlifeanddeath.Whatwearetaughtaschildrenstayswithus.Fear-basedbeliefscanbebecomeadebilitatingburden.Amycarriedaburdenofdamnationthroughlifethathadsevereeffectsonher.Thefearofhelliscommonforpeoplebroughtupinsomereligiousstructuresandevenforthosewhowerenot.Asthiscasewillshow,hellisaconstructofearthlyteachings,notanexperiencefoundinthespiritworld.

AMYSPOKEINasoftvoiceasshesatdownforthefirsttimeinmyoffice.“IknowthatIamgoingtohell.”Iwassurprised tohear this statement fromher. Inspiteof thisdeclaration,Amyhadnospecific

goals for an LBL, only a curiosity aboutwhatmight happen. Shewas somatter-of-fact about herimminentdamnationtohellthatIrealizedshehadalreadysubmittedtoherfate.Amystatedthatsheknewdeepwithinherheartthatshewouldhaveaneternallifeinhell.Since childhood,Amy’s family had attended a small, independent fundamentalChristian church.

Now twenty-six-yearsold,Amy’sminister and familyhadconvincedher that shewasa sinnerandwasgoingtohell.Whileexplainingherchurchlife,sheadmittedtomethatshewasnotyetbaptizedin her own church because she had failed as a Christian and was not worthy of baptism. Amycontinuedtoexplainthatonherweddingday,herownministerrefusedtomarrythem.Shehadtohireaministerfromadifferentchurch.WhenIquestionedheraboutthisarrangement,Amyquietlysaidthat she is not a Christian because she has not been baptized. Amy cannot see any hope of evermeetingthestandardsofherchurchandministerinthefuture.Thisyoungwomancontinueddescribingtheheavyburdenofguilt,shame,andresponsibilitythat

shecarriedwithher:

Iagonizeoveracoupleofpeoplebecausetheywenttohellbecauseofme.IhaveguiltbecauseIdidnotreadtheBibletothemanddidn’tdomyparttoleadthemtoChristbeforetheydied.IhavealwaysbeentoldthatitismydutytotellpeopleabouttheBibleandtoteachthem.Youareobligatedtodothisforothers.

WhenIaskedhertoexplainthistome,Amycontinued:

Theministerusedmeasanexampleinourchurchonetime.Hepointedmeouttoeveryoneinthechurch.WhenIwasfourteenyearsold,mycousinandIspenttimewithaboy.Hewascool,twenty-threeyearsold,anddroveamotorcycle.Sowehungoutwithhim.Hediedsuddenly.The

ministertoldthecongregationthatIshouldhavespentthetimetellinghimaboutChristandreadingtheBibletohim.Hesaidthatweonlyhavethisonetimeinlifetomakeitright.Wehavenosecondchances.Iranoutofthechurchcrying.Iknewthatitwasmyfaultthatthisfriendofminewasnotgoingtoheaven,becauseIdidnottakethetimetotellhimaboutJesus.

At home, Amy’s mother supported their minister ’s viewpoint and reinforced this debilitating

burdenofshameandguiltforcausingtheeternaldamnationofanothersoul.TherewasnowayforAmytoresolveorrepairhermistake.Shewastoldsheonlyhadonechancetodoright,andshe’dcompletelyfailed.Shecontinuedtoexplaintomethatnotonlydidshefailthisman,butthatshehasfailedeverypersonshehasevermetinherlifebecauseshehasnotledthemtoJesus.Thisfourteen-year-oldgirlcarriedthisresponsibilityforthenexttwelveyearsofherlife.Afterthesessionbegan,shearrivedathermemoryofbeinginhermother ’swomb.AsAmywent

deeperintohypnosis,sheseemedhesitantandfearful.Hervoiceoftenseemedchildlike.Shehadlittleawarenessofbodychoiceorlifeplan.“Idon’tlikethefeelofmybody.”WhenIquestionedheraboutthecompatibilityofthisbodyandbrain,shereplied,“Ithinkitisangrytoo.Itisfightingit.”Shewasnotawareofanythingelseinthewomb.Amycontinuedbackintoapast-lifememory,butitwasdifficultforhertoreexperience.Attwelve

years old, she foundherself in a dress of brown rags, her hair filthy, starving to death alone in aswampoutsideofasmallAmericanvillage.Shehadbeenbanished:

IjustfeellikeIcan’tgobacktothetown.Istarveouthere.Iamalone.Thislifeisjusthardandlonely,andthereweren’tanygoodpeoplethere.Idonotlikethattown,thereisnothinggoodthere.Idon’tfeelanythinggood.Idon’tfeellikeitdidanythingforme.Icanleaveit.

Wemovedontoherdeathexperience.Duringthedeathtransition,shecontinued,“Iaminthesky,

butIamlookingatmybody.Iamstillbymyself,butIamlookingdown.Iaminthetrees.Iammad.Iamstillmad.”Iaskedher,“Whatdoyouthinkaboutyourdeath?”Shereplied,“Well,itmakesmemad,too.”Amybecamemoreuncertainandhesitant.Transitioningintothespiritrealmseemednewtoher.I

encouragedhertonoticeanythingthatcameintoherawareness.

AsImovedaway,everythingwentblack.Somethingiswhiteandflickering.Itisrealwhite.Itisdancingaroundanditiscomingtome.ItiswayupaheadandIcan’tmakeitout.Itlookslikeithaswings.ItfeelslikeIamkindofbeingpulled.IcouldfightitbutIdon’tknowwheretogo.Thewhitelightengulfsmeandthenmovesback.Itisaperson.Iambeingpulledtoouterspace.(longpause)Ican’tgoanyfarther.

After long, longsilences,Amyrealized thatshecouldnotgoanyfarther.Shemustgobackand

revisit her past life. She resisted andwas angry. I helped guide her through her resistance.As shequietlyhoveredoverher twelve-year-oldbody again, she finally stated, “I guess I need to forgivepeople.Idon’tknowwhy.Ididn’tdoanything.Theywerejustcruel,uglypeople.Ican’tforgivethem.(longpause)Thisisalesson.I’mlearninghowdestructivecrueltyandthelackoflovecanbe.Idon’tneedtolookatmybodyanymore.”Amy immediately felt a senseof freedomand liftedquicklyaway fromEarthand into the spirit

world:“Myguidesurroundsmeandfillsmewithloveandcontentment.”Releasedfromthatpainfultime, she immediatelydiscoveredher soulgroup.Hercurrentbrotherappearedaswhite lightwith

somehintsofblue.Sheneverrecognizedtheothers,whoremainwhitelikeherself.Whenaskedabouthergroup,shestated,

Wehavethesameproblemswithpeopleandforgiveness.Theyaredoingaboutthesame.Ithinkwehaveawaystogoinouradvancement.Iamfeelingsomecontentment,butitseemslikewehavemoretolearn.Theyarefun.Weclownaround.Mygroupjustfliesaroundspace.WearenotonEarthbutweareinourwoods.Itisjustlikebeingaliveagain.Therearefourwhitelights,andtheyarelaughing.Idon’tknowwhotheyare.(1)

I asked her if the group had any goals for themselves. She quickly replied, “The big one.” She

seemedtothinkthatsaiditall.Whenaskedtoclarify,Amysaid:

It’sallaboutloveofpeopleandlikingthem.Wearenotdoingrealwellwiththatgoal.IfeellikeIcannotgoanyfurther.IamnotabletogoanyfurtherwithmyguidebecauseIamnotreadyforit.Itfeelslikethereissomethingbigger.AnytimeIleavethelightsofmygroup,Iamjustinspace.Ifeelthepulltobebackwiththegroup.Iamhappythere.Theyarefamiliarpeople.

Amy’svoicebecameclearerandmoreconfidentaboutissuesregardinghercurrentlife:

AMY:Ihavetoworkatit.IhavehardshipsbutnotmorethanIcanhandle.Idonotlikehumans.IwouldbecontenttostaywhereIam.No,Idon’trememberchoices.Idon’trememberwantingthishardshiponEartheither.Iamtryingtoacceptfemales,tryingforfairnessandtogetitright.Ihavealwaysbeenfemale.TINA:Areyoulivingthislifeaccordingtoyourgoals?A:Iamnotdoingenoughwithpeople.Ineedtoinvolvemyselfwithpeople.Iisolatemyself.T:Whatareyoutodo?A:WhatIdreadthemost.Iamsupposedtoopenmyarmstopeopleandembracethemandgetinwiththem.Imustlearntoloveandunderstandpeople.T:Whatisthepurposeofthisparticularlifeyouarecurrentlyliving?A:Tolearntoloveall.Iamverylovingbutnarrow.Ineedtobemoreacceptingandlovingofall.T:Checkwithyourguidetoseehowtoattendtothis.A:Theheart…justtheheart.T:Howdoesthechurchorreligionfitinwiththislifepurpose—ordoesit?A:Yes,itdoes.Notreligion,butGod’schurch.Godfitsin.Thecreator…allforthereasonsIdonotunderstand.Thecreatoroftheearthandhumanbeingsso…it’sjustaboutlove,thatisallIcanget.T:Iwantyoutocheckintotheexistenceofhell.(2)A:(longpause)Hmmm…Igotachillandflashesoffaces.(longpause)Hmmm…ButIthinktheyaresoulsintorment.(evenalongerpause)Hmmm…ButIthinknowitistheirowndoing,theirowncreation.He(Amy’sguide)wasshowingmeitisdarkandcold.(3)T:Whatareyoutoknowaboutthis?A:(longpause)Hmmm…Itistheirowncreation.Justlikeme.Iamnotstuck.Itistheirowncreation.Itisalackofunderstanding.Theyjustdon’tgetthesimplicity!Theyjustdon’tgetit!Theyjustaresupposedtoseekanswers!T:Atwhatstageisyouradvancementcomparedtothis?A:Iamfarawayfromthem.

T:Howdoyoufeelaboutallthatyouhavelearned?A:Ifeelgood.Ican’texplainit.Isaystuck,butIamnotstuck.Itisaboutunderstanding,butIcan’tseeit.Itisperfect,andthereismore.Ican’texplainit.T:Isthereanythingelsethatyourguidewantsyoutoknow?A:Love,love,love—that’sallthereis…

Itisnowfiveyearslater.Amyisthirty-oneyearsold.Inaconversationwithme,sherecollectsherpast-lifeexperienceinthelate1700swhereshediedofstarvationasayounggirl.

A:Itwasbad.Iwastormentedbyeveryone.Similarthingsarestillhappeninginthislife.T:WhatdidyoulikemostabouttheLBLexperience?A:WhatIlikedmostwasseeingtheotherpeoplethere.Isawenoughtomakemeabeliever.Thereisareasonwearehere.Inowhavepeaceofmind.Theideasofheavenandhellaremessingpeopleup.Itisarelieftoknowthatthereismorethanonechancetogetitright.T:WhatthoughtsdidyouhaveasyoulistenedtotherecordingofyourLBL?A:IhadforgottenthatmuchofthisexperiencewasbetweentheliveshereonEarthandalsoseeingthepeoplebetweenthelives.Forexample,IwaswithmylittlebrotherduringtheLBL.Heisstillalivewithmeinthislife,butIrememberreadinginDr.Newton’sbookJourneyofSoulsthatonlypartofourenergyishereinthislifeandsomeofourenergyremainsinthespiritworld.Iamclosertohimthananyone.HeistheonlypersonthatIevenrecognizedduringtheLBL.ItbothersmethatIdidnotevenseemyownhusband.T:Whatimpact,ifany,didyourLBLhaveonyourcurrentlife?A:Ittookaloadoffanditmadesense.Ilikedit,anditgaveareasonforusalltobehere.T:Whatwouldyousayabouthellnow?A:Isawpeopleinpainandanguish.Theywereinadarkplace,anditwascold.Faceskeptcominguptome.Ididnotknowanyone.Igottheimpressionthattheycouldhavefollowedthelight.Nothingwastormentingthem.Theyjustdidnotfollowthelight.Theyseemedmorelostthananything.Theyjustweren’ttryingtoseethelight.Theyjustdidnotknow.Isawadark,cold,blackplace.WhenIrealizedthatIwasinthemidstofthisdarkplace,Isteppedback.Ididnotrecognizethefaces.Ijustmovedforward,andImovedoutofit,intothebrightnessandwarmth.NowIrealizethattheexpressionsonthefaceswerenotinagonyorpain.Theywerejustconfusedandlost.Theyjustdidn’tknowwheretheywereorwhattodo.(4)T:Whenpeoplereadyourstoryhere,whatdoyoureallywantthemtounderstandfromyourexperience?A:Ijustgottheimpressionthatitissomuchsimpler.Thereissomuchfightingandkillingandguiltyfeelingsforthosewhohavedied.Youmakethechoice.Itisallsosimple.Ifeelbetterabouteverything.T:DoyouhaveanythingelsetotellmeaboutyourLBLexperience?A:Itwassopositive.Ittookawayguiltandrelievedmyconscience.IstillbelieveinJesusChrist,butnotinhell.Inowbelievewehavemorethanonetimetolearnandimprove.Wehavemorethanonechance.

Thisyoungwomanhadbeenconditionedherentirelifetoexpecttheinevitable:ahorrifying,hellishlifeafterdeath.Inspiteofherlifelongprogramming,Amyfoundsomethingelse.Shewascomfortedbyalovingguideandsupportedbyherfun-seekingsoulgroup.Sheexperiencedforgivenessandthenfreedomfromanguish.Shedidnotfindhellwheresoulsarecondemnedtoagonyandpunishmentfor

eternity,but ratheraplacewhereconfused soulsweremaking theirownchoices.Notonlydid shediscoverfun,simplicity,andunderstanding,Amyfoundmorethanonechancetolearnandimprove.

(1)Recognitionofsoulgroupcolors,LBLH125-127.Alsoseeananalysisofwhitelightenergyandbeginnersouls,LBLH96-97and143.

(2)InthethousandsofLBLcasesIhaveconducted,addedtomanythousandsmorebyfacilitatorsinTNI,wehavefoundnoevidenceoftheexistenceofapurgatoryorhellintheafterlife.Theseareoutdatedhumanconceptionsdesignedtofrightensusceptiblepeopleintoreligiousinterpretationsofproperconductinlife.InAmy’scase,herinitialvisionsofthespiritualgatewaybeingclutteredwith“tormentedsouls”wasapreconditionedcarry-overthathellmustexistontheotherside.Thisindicatesthatshewasnothypnoticallydeepenoughinthethetastateaswell.Onthelargerissueofthehumanfearofpunishmentassociatedwiththeconceptofhell,we

havelearnedmanythingsinthisregardthroughhypnosis.Ifasoulhasbeeninahostbodyengagedinevilactsthathavecausedsufferingtoothers,thereareopportunitiesforsolitaryreflectionandcounselingbyoursoulcompanions,guides,andmastersaftersuchalife.Nohumanbeingisbornevil,butsoulscanbecomecontaminatedbyimperfectionsandmentaldamagetotheirhostbodies,especiallytotheless-advancedsoul.Therearemeansforspiritualcontritionforpeoplewhohaveseverelyhurtothersduringalifetime,butgoingtopurgatoryorhellisnotoneofthem.Karmicadjustmentsforpastbehaviorwilloccurinourfuturelives,usuallychosenbytheoffendingsoulsthemselveswho,withhelp,willselectcertainbodiestolearnspecificlessons.Foradditionalinterpretationsabouttheexistenceofpurgatory,hell,evil,etc.,seeJS49and

DS3,67,and75.(3)Darknessandcoldarerelativetermshumansassociatewiththeirpreconceptionsabouthell.IntheearlystagesoftheirLBLsessions,someclientsexhibitconsciousinterferencewiththeirbeliefsystemsconcerningreligiousdogma.Thesebeliefsmaybeconfusedwithactualvisualizationswhentheydescribezonesofself-imposedseparationandseclusionfromothersoulsinthespiritworldforreasonsotherthanpunishmentfromavengefulgod.(4)Formoreexplanationsabouttherarephenomenonofdisorientedspirits,seeLBLH70-71.Therearenotruly“lost”soulsbutratherspiritswhowon’tgointothelightrightafteralifebecauseofunfinishedbusinessonEarth.Formoreexplanationsabouttherarephenomenonofdisorientedspirits,seeDS72-73andLBLH70-71.

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IHAVEjustaCOUPLEQUESTIONS...

TeohHooi-Meng(KUALALUMPUR,MALAYSIA)

HYPNOSISTRAINERANDLBLPRACTITIONERWITHTHENEWTONINSTITUTE.

Quiteoften,thepreparatoryworkforalife-between-livessessioncanbelengthy.Clientsoftenhavemanyquestions;rapportbetweenclientandfacilitatorisall-important,andtheLBLpractitionerwillwanttobeascertainaspossiblethateachclientisabsolutelyreadytomakethebetween-livesjourney.Thelife-changingbenefitsderivedfromthefollowingsessionclearlydemonstratetheimportanceofsuchpreparation.

ELSIEISINherlatefortiesandishappilymarriedwithtwochildren.Sheisahighlypaidexecutiveinamultinationalorganizationlocatedinasmalltownabouttwohours’drivefrommyofficeinKualaLumpur,andsheappeared tohavemuch inher life thatotherswouldenvy.ShehadreadallofDr.Newton’sbooksandhad“justacouplequestions”aboutspiritual regression thatshehopedIcouldanswer.Whenwespoke,shetoldmeshehadbeenfeelingratherdownoflate;furthermore,shehadalways

feltapartofherwasmissing.Her jobcreatesopportunities forextensive travel,andshe’dhad theprivilege of securing the services of a couple of past-life-regression therapists while travelingabroad.Unfortunately,thesessionsdidnotseemtohavehelpedhermuch,soshewasturningtomeandtheprocessofLBLspiritualregression.Initially,ourcorrespondencespanneda fewmonthsofemailingbackandforth.Onemorning in

September, after a final pre-session telephone conversation, I met up with Elsie at last. On firstimpression,sheappearedtobeademanding,confident,andoutspokenexecutivewhowouldnotleaveany stone unturned in order to findher answers.The first thirtyminutes proved to bemore of aninterrogationofme,whereIthoroughlyexplainedtheconceptoflifebetweenlivesandtheworkofDr.MichaelNewton.Elsieclarifiedallherdoubtsandqueries,andasIdescribedsomeofmyotherclients’discoveries,Ireassuredherofmyexperienceasalife-between-livestherapist.Anumberofquestionshadbeenconstantlybotheringher,andshehopedtofindanswersthrough

theLBLprocess. She sought clarification of her current lifemission.Thoughts of death had beenuppermostinhermind,andshewonderedifthiscouldmeanthatshewouldsoonbemeetingherowndeath.Elsiewasalsointriguedtofindoutwhyshehadbeensoattractedtometaphysicalsubjectsinrecentyears;she’dbeenbuyingandreadingalotofbooksaboutenergyhealing,Reiki,andpast-liferegression,andshedidnotunderstandthereasonforsuchashiftinherinterest.Althoughhappilymarried, shehadbecomeawareofuncharacteristic and seeminglyunorthodox

feelings towardoneof hermetaphysical teachers, and sheyearned to discover the source of thesefeelings.Andeverynowand then, since thedemiseofherbelovedmotherwhenshewas tenyearsold, she’d had a sense of hermother ’s advisory, protective presence.At times, this awareness hadextendedtoherdreams.Elsiewasconfused;didtheseexperiencesreallysignifythepresenceofher

mother, or were they just her ownwishful thinking? She wondered how she could becomemorecloselyattunedtoherspiritualselfandwaskeentodiscovertheidentitiesofhersoulmateandspiritguide.ThesessionwasconductedinthemannersuggestedbyDr.Newton,commencingwiththerecovery

of happy or neutral childhoodmemories and flowing naturally into regression to Elsie’s earliestcurrent-life experiences before returning to her mother ’s womb. Nothing spectacular happenedduring these times, but itwas encouraging that Elsie displayed a great ability to recall her earliermemories.The passage to her most recent past life was reported as “bumpy,” which seemed to signify a

lifetimefullofchallenges.Trueenough,shesawherselfasa lonely travelergoingbythenameofKamalandlivinginaMiddleEasterncountry.Kamalfoundhimselfwalkingaroundthecountrysideinsearchofmedicinalherbs.Hewasrobbed,beaten,andeventorturedduringthisparticularlifetime,and at certain junctures, this soul seemed to be attracted to reexperiencing traumatic events.Asidefromthekarmiclessonshere,akeyaspectofourworkistoenterthespiritworldfromadeathsceneinaformerlife.ThisprovidesanaturaltransitiontoourultimatedestinationinLBL.Onthelastdayof the life, just before Kamal’s death, he reported the presence of three loyal “disciples” at hisbedside.Notbloodrelations,thesethreepeoplehadadmiredhisdevotiontoherbalmedicinesandhadpatiently studied with him for a long time. He died of old age with no regrets; he felt he hadaccomplishedhismissioninthislifeandwasnowreadyto“gohome.”

MENG:Kamal,howdoyouknowthatthisisthedayyouaregoingtodie?ELSIE:Ifeelmybodyisaching,andmentally,Iamsotired.Thethreeofthemarestandingbymyside.Theydonotutteranywords,buttheirfacialexpressionstellmeImustbeverysick.M:Whathappensnext?E:Ooh,whyIamfloatingintheair?Whyaretheycryingsoloud?Ah,Iamdead!ButIfeelsolight…floating.Ifeelfree…M:Isthereanythingyouwishtoaccomplishasyet?Areyouabletocommunicatewithanyoneofthem?E:No,IknowIhavedonewhatIamsupposedtodointhislife.Ihavenoregretswhatsoever.Yeah,IforgottotellthemthereisalittlebookthatIhavewrittencontainingmylifetimeresearch.IthinkthattheyoungestguyamongstthemshouldbegiventhisbooktospreadmyteachingafterIamgone.Itrusthimmost.M:Howdoyouintendtodothat?E:IthinkIwillgointohisdreamtonightandtellhimso.Hewillbesosadandtiredaftermypassingon,andIknowthatwouldbethemostappropriatetimetocontacthim.(1)

Iencouragemyclienttodothisandtoletmeknowwhenherefforthasbeenaccomplished.Shewassilentforaminuteortwoand,asIwaitedforhersignaltoproceed,sheshiftedherbodyandsaid,“Iamdonenow!”Thesessioncontinued:

M:Doyounoticeanysensationsnow?E:(hesitatesforawhile)Oh,Iamfloatinghigherandhighernow.Iamfloatingoutofmyhouse,higher;Icanseemyhousebelow,mytown,mystate,mycountry…theearthseemstobebelowme,andIamascendinghigherintotheskynow.Iamwithinthegalaxy,withstarsaroundme.Wait,Iambeenguidedbysomeenergy,thisfeelsreallygood…Ihaveneverfeltsogoodbeforeinmylife…itisjustlikegoinghomenow.Idonotseemtohaveaphysicalbody,but

lightdescribesmybodyshape.IamtransparentandIfeellight.

Atthispoint,Elsieappearedtobeveryemotional,withtearsflowingfromhereyes.M:Whatdoyounoticenow?E:Iseemtostop.Allaroundmearestars—beautiful,flickering,colorfulstarsdancingeverywhere.Strange;IhaveafeelingthatIhavebeenherebefore.Nowthedancingstops,andsix—no,five—stars,whichappeartobebrighterthantherest,starttocometowardme.Theyallfeelverywelcomingandencouraging.Now,theoneontheright-handside(3o’clock)comesforwardandgreetsme.(2)Nowordscanbeheard,butIknowthestaristellingmeWelcomehome,myfriend.Itisjustlikeamessagerunningthroughmymind.M:Tocontinuewithourexplorationtogether,canyouorareyouabletotellmewhatnameyouarecalledinthisplace?E:Wait—Ithinkitisasound.SoundslikeHummee.Yes,mysoulnameisHummee.(3)M:Good,Hummee.Iamgladyouknowthat.Now,mayIaskwhetheryoucanhelpmetoassistElsietoreceivetheanswerstoanumberofquestionsthathavebeenbuggingherallthistime?(4)E(ASHUMMEE):Sure,Iamgladto!M:Whatishappeningnow?E/H:Thebrighteststarisleadingmethroughthegatewaynow.Ha,IfeellikeI’mfloatingorflyingintheair.Thisjourneyfeelssolightandeasy.Thejourneyissimplyawesome,asIamweightless.M:Howdoyoulookinthisstate?Doyouhaveabody,color,orrace?E/H:No,Ihavenobody,everythingIsenseaboutmyselfisjustlightandenergy.M:Whereareyouheadednow?E/H:Idonotknow.M:Pleasereporttomewhatisinfrontofyourightnow.E/H:Iambeingledtoaspacebythelight.Thisspacelookslikeahugeroomwithnoboundary,justawallthatseemstobeexpandingwheneverIapproachit.Ifeelwarmthandasenseofbelonginghere.Inoticeastronglightcomingtowardmewhilethelightthatisguidingmeretreatstomyback.Iamnowsurroundedbydifferentcoloredlights.Theyarewelcomingmeback.Weareofthesamecategory—itismyowngroup.(5)M:Doyoufeelorsenseanyoneyouknowhere?E/H:Wait,letmethink.Well,thelightlocatedat11o’clockissofulloflove,unselfishlove.Itiscomingtowardmenowandencompassesmewithitscolor.Itfeelssofamiliar.M:Lookrightthroughandbeyondthelight;doesitremindyouofanyone?E/H:Oh,sheismymom!(withemotion)Imissedyousomuch!WhydidyouleavemesosuddenlywhenIwasstillunabletofullyappreciateyourlove?(Clientthenreportshermother ’sreply:Itwassimplytimeformetogohome.Youneedtolearntobeonyourown,itisallintheplan.However,allthistimeIhavebeenbesideyouandprotectingyoufromwhereIam.Infact,toprovethattoyou,haveyounoticedmestrokingyourhairatnight?)E:AndIthoughtIwashavinghallucinationsallthistime.…So,youneverleftme,Mom.Ifeelsomuchmoreateaseknowingthatyouarealwayswithme.M:Hummee,canyouhelpElsietounderstandwhyshehassuchatendencytowardunusualfeelingsaboutherreligiousteacher?

Here,myclient’svoicechangesnoticeably,assumingacalmer,steadierpace.Hummee

replies:E/H:Elsiemustbeawarethatthismanisactuallyfromhersoulgroup.Hisroleistohelpherachievegreaterinsightintoherspiritualdevelopment.Itisnocoincidencethat,afterfirstencounteringthisreligiousteacher,ElsiehasbeenmoreintunewithNewAgeteachings.Elsieshouldconcentrateonsynergizingtheirenergies.Theywillcomplementeachotherintheirmutualquestforhigherunderstanding.

Here,Elsiemurmurstoherself,“Thankgoodness!NowIknowheisactuallymysoulmate.”M:Elsiealsowishestoknowwhoherspiritguideis.Hummee,couldthisbetheveryfirstlightthatcametowelcomeyoujustnow?E/H:Elsie’sspiritguideisnotinphysicalform.Herspiritguideisrepresentedbythegutfeelingandinstinctsthatshehasbeenexperiencingallthistime.M:Verygood.Let’scontinue.E:Iambeginningtoleavethisspace,andIamzoomingoffinanotherdirection.Thelightisguidingme.Wearestoppingnowinfrontofastrangestructurewithagreen-coloreddoorandalarge,higharchabovethedoorway.Iambeingusheredinbymyguidinglight.M:Whathappensnext?Pleasereporttome.E:Icanseearound-shapedtablewithsomepatchesoftranslucentlightbehindit.M:Howmanyofthesepatchesoftranslucentlightdoyounotice?E:Letmecount.Therearefive…mostlyblueandpurplelights.

Hummee,asElsie’ssoul,describestometheindividualcolortonesofwhatisclearlyherCouncilofElderssittinginasemi-circlearoundher.Becauseoftheiradvisory,guidingnature,IcontinuetoaskquestionsinordertoencourageHummee/Elsieandderivemaximumbenefitfromthismeeting.

M:Hummee,mayIknowwhyyouhavebeenledtothisplace?Isthisadayofgreatlearningorsomekindofjudgment?E:Iamheretocommunicatewiththesefivesoulswhoareresponsibleforguidingmyownevolutionasasoul.Theyareheretoprovideanswersbutnottopassjudgment—Iknowthat.Ihavebeenthroughthissameprocessmanytimesbefore,andIdonotfeelanyanxietyasIfacethem;infact,Ifeeltotallycalm.M:Thatisgood,Hummee.Elsiehasaskedmetofindouttheanswerstothefollowingquestions:

1.Whatishermissioninthiscurrentlife?2.Howcanshebemoreattunedtoherspiritualself?3.Shehasbeenfeelingthepresenceofdeathrecently.Doesitmeanthathertimeisnear?

Canyouaskthecouncilaboutthis?E:Toanswerthefirstquestion,anelderisstandingupandsendingthefollowingmessagetomymind:

“Withlove,assistance,andhumilityinlearning,youwillbecomeahealer.Takecareinwhateveryouaredoingrightnow.Wearealwaysheretoprovidewhateverresourcesyouneedinordertoaccomplishyourgoalinlife.”Toaddressquestiontwo,theteacherassumestheroleofprovidingtheanswer:“Be

humble,andseekyourlearningasifyouwerealittlegirl.Trustthatthelittlegirl,orthe

littlevoicewithinyou,willguideyoutowardadeeperattunementtothespiritualrealm.”Athirdelderwhoappearsasanimposinggoddesslikefigureanswersthethirdquestion.

Shestatesthat“thereisnodeath,exceptontheconsciouslevel.Thetransitionbetweentheconsciousandunconsciouslevelmarkstheconceptofdeath.Assouls,wedonotdiebutmerelyshedthebodilyform.Thethoughtsofdeathareactuallyone’sownperceptionfromearthlyenergy.Beatpeacewithyoursurroundings,Elsie,andyouwillbehappy.”

TwomonthsaftertheLBLsession,averydifferent-soundingElsiephonedmeandthankedmefortheassistanceIhadprovided.Thisiswhatshereportedtome:Sheisnowveryhappyandatpeacewithherself.Shehastakenupacourseinenergymedicineand

hasvowed touseher learning tohelpothers.Sheevencomments that it feelsas if shewasalwaysdestined to learn, for she understands the energyworkmuch better than anyone else in her studygroup.Shecannowfacehermetaphysical teacherwithclearerunderstanding.Sheknowshe ishersoul

mateandthattheyneedeachothertoseethegreaterlight.Perhaps most importantly, she no longer experiences any dreams about her mother. Her LBL

experiencehascomfortedherandclarifiedherunderstanding.Sheremembersclearlythemessagesfromthesoulthatwashermother,andalsofromthecouncilmemberwhoentreatedhertounderstandthatdeathisaconsciousperceptionandthatthenatureofthesouliseternalindeed.

(1)Somesoulsaremoreskillfulthanotherswithimplantingmessagesforpeopleinadreamstate.SeedreamsandDreammasters,DS22-31,288-289.

(2)Idevelopedthe“clocktechnique”asausefulmeansforbothclientandfacilitatortosortoutandidentifycircularsoulpositionsinagroupuponre-entryofthesoultothespiritworldinLBLtherapy.Fordescriptivemethodologyofthistechnique,seeDS143,279-280.(3)Thelanguageofsoundintheafterlifeiscomplex,andnowhereisthismoreevidentinLBLtherapythaninthepronunciationofspiritualnames.Somesubjectshaveaneasiertimethanothers,butaskingclientstospellouttheirsoulnameseemsmosteffective.SeeDS188-190andLBLH102,128.(4)LBLfacilitatorsmayuseatherapeuticapproachutilizingoursoul/brainduality.Here,thesoulselfisaskedtoassistthetemporaryhumanegoinproblem-solving.Theuseofanimmortalsoulnamehelpsgroundthesubjectinthespiritworld.SeeJS93andLBLH183-184.(5)Duringtheinitialwelcomeofareturningsoul,ourguidesoftenretreattothebackgroundtosustainprivacy;seehomecoming,JS27.Thesamepracticebyourguidesisalsousedwhensoulsfirstreturntotheirspiritgroupafteralife;seeDScase47,280.Forsoulgroupcolors,seeDS170-176.

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ASOULMATErelationshipBACKONTRACK

CeliaKakoschke(BENDIGO,AUSTRALIA)

SPECIALIZESINCLIENTSRELEASINGTHEPASTTOLIVEINTHENOW

THROUGHSPIRITUALINTEGRATION.

Cassieisamarriedthirty-six-year-oldwomanwithnochildren.Thereasonshecameforalife-between-livessessionwastogainmoreclarityandunderstandingofherlife,bothprofessionallyandpersonally.Cassieexplainedthatshehadbeenmarriedtohersoulmate,James,forthreeandahalfyears,andalthoughsheknewhewastherightpersonforher,theirrelationshiphadissues.ThefollowinghistorycontainsalotofpersonaldetailsthattheauthorfeelsarenecessarytohighlighttheimpactCassie’sLBLsessionhadonherlife.

CASSIETOLDMEthatseveralmonthsaftermeeting,sheandJameshadmovedawayfromthecityto a large country town, where a year later theymarried. Initially out of work andwith no localfriends,issuesarosearoundJames’sloneliness.Inthebeginning,hewouldspendhourseachdayonthe computer, exchanging emails in chat rooms, which, while Cassie was out of town studying,eventuallyescalatedtohismeetinganonlinefemalefriend.Cassiefoundoutaboutthismeetingwhen,fivemonthsaftertheirmove,sheretrievedadocumentfromthetrashonthecomputerandfoundarecordofanonlineconversation.Theconversationimpliedthatnotonlyhadtheymet,butthatithadbeenasexualencounter.WhenJameswasconfronted,Cassiecouldseeguiltinhiseyes,buthedeniedanythinghadhappened.Cassie’s prior relationships had included amanwho cheatedonher, and as a strong, intelligent

woman,shevowedthiswouldneverhappenagain.Reinforcedbyacloserelativetellingherseveraltimeswhen shewasayounggirl thatmencouldnotbe trusted, she found this tobea challengingsituation.ShehonestlyfeltthatJameswashersoulmate,yetthisdeep-seatedfearthatshewasbeingcheatedonandbeingmadeafoolofwouldnotsubside.Itwas around this time thatCassie and James’s sexual relationship becamevery intermittent.As

both were now busy working, this aspect of their marriage was ignored, as they were still anaffectionatecouple,alwayskissing,hugging,andlaughing,andCassiefeltthiswasmoreimportantthanintercourseitself.Cassie also toldme that once amonth, Jameswould go to a friend’s house and get drunk. She

didn’t like this, but she felt that she was being demanding by putting conditions on his drinking.Followingsomeofthesebinges,shewouldaskwhetherhewasunhappywithhislifeinanyaspect,asshe felt that drinking in thiswayoftenmeant thedrinkerwas escaping reality.He said that hewashappyandnothingwasworryinghim.Cassiehadworkedonmostofherownchildhood issues, but Jameshadnot.His childhoodwas

verytraumaticandchallenging,andwhenissuesarose,heavoideddealingwiththemthroughfearof

whatwouldbeuncovered.HehadsaidbeforethatifCassiewerenotinhislife,itwouldnotbeworthliving,andhadthreatenedsuicide,whichCassietookseriously.Jameshadbeenthefirstmanshehadevertrulyloved.Itwasloveatfirstsight;sheliterallytooka

stepbackwhenshefirstlookedinhiseyes.Noonehadeveropenedherheartthewayhedid,madeherlaughuntilshecriedthewayhedid,orgaveherthefreedomtoreallyexpressherself.Butinthequiet times,her lifewas in turmoil.Shefoundherselfdoubtingwhoshewas,whatshe thoughtsheknew,theirrelationship,everything.Hershameat“notbeingenough”forhim,guiltofnotbelievingJameswhenhesaidhewouldchange,mistrustinganythinghesaid,andtheembarrassmentofbeing“madethefool”werealltoorealforher.Manytimes,shethoughtitwouldbealoteasiertoleaveandfindsomeoneelse,butthenshewouldhearthatcounteractivevoicesaying,“Butyouknowhe’stheoneforyou.”ItwasnowtimeforCassie’sLBLsession.Cassieisahighlykinestheticpersonwhoissensitiveand

emotional.Shearrivedforhersessionexcitedandlookingforwardtowhatwewoulduncover.Herjourneybacktohermostrecentpastlifewasashort,emotionalexperience—hersoulconsciousnessexperienceditsincarnationasamalefetus,Tom,whohadmiscarriedattwenty-sixweeks’gestation.The mother was Joy, Cassie’s maternal grandmother in her current life. Tom joined the fetus inCassie’smostrecentpastlifetohelpJoy’sgrowthasayoungwomanthen.Tomexplained:“ThiswassomethingJoy’ssoulhadaskedmetodoinordertogivehertheescalatedlearningshehadrequestedfromlosingachild.”EventhoughheknewthiswaswhatJoywanted,itwasaverysadexperience;heexpressedthedepthofhisloveforhismother,andheneededafewmomentstocomfortherbecauseTomandCassiearethesamesoul.Then,afterthatbriefpastlifeinafetus,hissoul,whoIwillnowcallCSfor“Cassie’ssoul,”flewupintothespiritualrealm.CSwasgreetedbyherguide,andtheemotionswereoverwhelming.Cassiesattherewithherhand

onherheart,riversoftearsflowingdownhercheekswiththeloveshefeltwhilebeingembracedbyherguide.SeveraltimesshetoldmetowaitorshushedmewhenItriedtoaskwhatwashappening.ItwasobviousthatCassiejustwantedtoenjoybeinginthemoment,soIallowedherthatfreedom.(1)Attimes,Iputmyhandonherarmtoreassureherandwasabletofeelthosestrongfeelingsoflovemyself.Aftershewasgreetedbyherguide,James’ssoulcameforward.Heisherprimarysoulmate,and

she described their current life as their “celebration life,” inwhich all fourmembers of her soulgroup are coming together in the same family.One of the soulswas that of Joy—Tom’smother,Cassie’s maternal grandmother—and the other was Cassie’s nephew Chas, with whom she has astrongaffinity.JoyhaddiedwhenCassiewasachild,andCSreceivedconfirmationthatJoy’ssoulwouldreturn,thistimeasadaughtertoCassieandJames.PartofCS’s“reward”forcomingasTomwasthattheywouldeventuallyincarnateasafamilygroup.Thelasttimetheyallincarnatedtogetherinaclosefamilygroupwasfarbackintime.Althoughsoulmates,thesoulsofCassieandJameshadnot been together in life recently, because their growth requiredworking in separate areas. Theirsharedspirituallove,however,remainedconstant.Thiswasaveryemotional reunionwithher threesoulgroupmembers.CSreiterated that James

andCassie’scurrentincarnationisacelebrationoftheirpastlifetimesofindividualhardwork.SheexplainedthatbothCassieandJameshaddifficultstartsintheircurrentlivestogivethemtheskillsandexperiencestheyneeded,butoncethatlearningwasinplace,itwouldallbegood.Weexperiencedseveralstopsinthespiritrealm,includingaplacelikealaboratoryinwhichCS

works with energy. The energy work involves combining emotional energy for healing in anequationofsorts—“Thecombinationof loveandlaughterhealsmostpeople,butdifferent typesofloveanddifferentqualitiesofhumorprovidedifferenthealingresults.”ThissuitedCassie’scurrentpersonality perfectly—that, and the fact that her group was all about fun, laughter, and having

pleasurewhileworkinginthelabondifferentprojects.Duringthisperiodinthespiritrealm,CSexperiencedtheplaceofbodyandlifeselectionandtwo

visits to herCouncil of Elders. Each council visit allowed us to explore the reasons behindmanydevelopmentsinhercurrent life.Cassiewasreassuredbyhercouncilduringnow-timetherapythatsheisdoingwell,thateverythingisasitshouldbe,andthatloveandtrustareallsheneeds.WhenIaskedifanyofthecouncildisplayedanitemofanysignificance,shesaidthatoneworeamedallionshowingacougarbaringitsclawsandroaring.WhenIaskedwhatthatmeant,shereplied:“Itstandsforcourage...Ineedtobetough,tobestrongandreadytofightifIneedto;tofightforwhoIam.”This cougar symbol has inspired and representedCS during a number of incarnations inwhich atoughfightandtheneedtostandupforherselfandherbeliefshasbeennecessary.(2)Intheplaceofbodyandlifeselection,CSsaidthatshechoseCassie’sbody,withitshighintellect

andahighemotionalstate, tohelpher learnbalancebetweenmindandbody.Thiswastheheaviestbodyshehadeverchosen in termsofsize,and thechoicewasmade tohelpher remainphysicallygroundedwhilelearningemotionalandintellectualbalance.Cassiefinallyunderstoodthereasonshewasexperiencingtheseextremesofcalmnessandoverexcitement.Cassie came out of the session highly charged, full of life, love, positivity, and that wonderful

knowingthataccompaniesthesoultruththatisLBL.AsIlookedintohereyes,Isawthatabouthershehadarealsenseofpeaceandcalm,anexperienceshesaidshehasneverfeltbefore.CShadobviouslydecidedthat,onceCassiehadexperiencedherLBL,itwastimeforafast-track

lifechange,mainlyonapersonallevel,whichCassiereportedtomefourmonthsafterhersession.SinceconfirmingthatJameswashersoulmate,thattheirrelationshipwas“supposedtobe,”andthatthiswasa“celebrationlife,”sherelaxedandbegantotrustmore.Sheletgoofthepast,ofthethingshehaddone, andbegan to look forward to the future. It all seemedperfect…but therewasmorelearninginstore,allofwhichwasmadepossiblefromexperiencinghersoulperspective.TwoandahalfmonthsafterherLBLsession,Cassiediscoveredyetmoreapparentinfidelitieson

James’spartandagainhadtodealwithhisoverindulgencewithalcohol.Herreactionthistimewastocalmly remove herself from the situation and the environment they shared. Although the concernremained that he would try to kill himself, she felt a strong, overwhelming sense of calm andcomfort, reassured that“allwasas itwas.”Despite repeated fearsover the followingdays that shewasbeingtoocruel, these thoughtswerealwaysinstantlyreplacedbyaninnersenseofcalmandadeep-seatedtrustandconfidenceintheprocess.Thiscamewithasenseofbeinggrounded,andCassiewas constantly reminded that shehad chosen this particular body toperformexactly that role.Sherefused an initial attempt by James at reconciliation, and this surprised her because she found shecoulddothiswith loveandpeace,noangerorhurt feelingsatall. It felt likedirect inputfromhersoul.However,CassiedidfeelasenseofconfusionbasedonthefactthatshehadbeentoldinherLBL

thatthiswassupposedtobeacelebrationlifeforthem...anditdidn’tseemverycelebratoryatthistime!Cassiehad takenoffherwedding ring,and forall intentsandpurposeswas lookingata lifewithoutJamesasherpartner.After a while, Cassie felt strong enough to write James a detailed letter, encouraging him to

explorehisownchildhoodexperiencesandoutliningherownstrictboundariesfortheirrelationship.Sheexpressedthatifhedidn’twanttofacehisissuesandwantedtostaythesame,thatwasokay,butthenhecouldnotbeinarelationshipwithher.TheymetupandtalkedaboutCassie’srelationshipboundaries,andJamesaddedsomeofhisown.

Hewantedtofaceuptothefactthathehadbeensexuallymolestedasachild,andalsotostopbingedrinking.When Cassie expressed her fear that he would try to kill himself when she had left, hedescribedhowhehadactuallyalmostdied.Thenighthehadattemptedreconciliation,hewasinthe

citystayingwithhisfamily,whohavesubstancedependencyissues.Hedidn’twant tostay there,asthatwasapartof the lifeheno longerwanted, sohe leftwithoutanywhere togo. Itwasa stormynight,andheparkedundera tree.Ashort time later,he lookedup,and the treewaswobbling.Hisinstincts told him tomove the car,whichhedid, and as he looked in his rearmirror, the tree fellwherehiscarhadbeen.Withtheenhancedunderstandinggivenbyhervisittothespiritrealm,Cassiefeltthisdemonstrated

thatbothJamesandhissoulweremakingachoice:hehadthechoicetostaythereanddie,ortomoveandgoonwithlife.Hehadmadethechoicetolive,andwiththatwasthechoicetogobackintothetraumaofhispastandworkthroughit.Cassiefeltthatsuicidewasnolongeranoptionforhim—ifhehadwantedanout,hewouldhave taken it.Sheexpressedherbelief that thiswas thechoicehehadmade,andthatifhedidn’tworkthroughhisissuesnow,shebelievedhewouldcomebackinanotherlifeandhavesuicideissuesagain.Cassiealsocametotherealizationthateventhoughthiswassupposedtobetheircelebrationlife,

freewillalwaysplaysapart.Jameshadachoicewhetherornothewoulddealwithhispastissues.Ifhechose tonotdo theworknecessary togethimto theircelebration time,Cassieknewshewouldfindsomeoneelse toshareher lifewith.Cassiealsointuitivelyknewthat if theywerenot together,theirdaughter(soulgroupcompanionJoy)wouldnotbeborntoeitherofthem—thatshewasonlycoming because it was their celebration life together. Cassie’s soul gave her the reassurance andcouragetoknowthatitwouldallbeokay,andthatultimatelytheywouldbothbefine,nomatterwhatchoicestheymade.ThecougarmedallionbecameawonderfulreminderforCassietobetoughandstrongandtruetoherself.Cassiespenttimemeditating,connectingwithhersoul,andtrustingtheanswersshereceived.She

recognized that the timingforeverythinghadbeenperfect—theywere lookingatstartingafamily,andthiswasanissuethatwouldhavetoberesolvedbeforetheybroughtachildintotheworld.Also,sheknewthatitwasbecauseJamesfeltsafeandsecurewithherthattheseissueshadcomeupnow.Until theymet, he did not have security or love, and this relationshipwith her had given him theopportunitytolookintohisconfusionabouthissexuality.Thefeelingsthatcameupwhentheywereintimate (the pleasure of orgasm linkedwith guilt and shame fromwhen hewasmolested)wouldhavesubconsciouslyledhimtoavoidintimacy.Cassie’sdirectaccess tohersoulgavehernotonlyadeepsenseofcalmandcomfortbutalsoa

deepknowingthatallwasasitwasforareason,andshewasatpeace.Ithelpedherasshewasalmostabletodissociatefromherhumanpainandfloataboveitwhilestilllookingattheworldthroughherowneyesandstayinggrounded.Shewassurprisedattheinnerstrengthandconfidenceshe’dfeltatatime that for most people would have been devastating. Prior to experiencing her LBL, CassiebelievesthatshewouldhaveleftJames,runaway,andstartedafresh—definitelyaneasieroption.Thedoubt,mistrust,andhurtwouldhavesurpassedanyhopetheyhadforthefuture.However,shefoundthattheknowledgeshereceivedthroughherLBLsessionthatthiswastheircelebrationlife,aswellasthedirectaccesstohersoul,gaveCassiethestrengthtoovercomeherfragilehumanemotionswithsuchloveandcalmness.Ittrulywasablessing.James moved back with Cassie while undergoing counseling with specialists in sexual assault.

Theirrelationshipcontinuestoslowlygrow,andCassieseesmoreandmoreofthemanthatisJamesemerging.Theircelebrationlifehasbegun…

(1)Whenworkingwithhypnosissubjectswhoarevisualizingspiritualeventsintheafterlife,LBLfacilitatorsmustproceedwithcaution.Pacing,tempo,andcadenceareimportantformanyreasons,includingallowingtheclienttimetofinishreportingonwhattheyareseeingbeforemovingontothenextquestion.NewstudentsofLBLfacilitationdonotrealizethatoften,clients

seemorethantheyreportaboutthespiritworld.Formanyinthetrancestate,theafterlifeisasacredexistencefortheirsoul.SeeLBLH42-43,68,74-78.

(2)Spiritualsigns,symbols,andemblemsthataredisplayedbyCouncilofElderstothesoulswhoappearbeforethemcarryveryspecialmeaningsandmessages;seeDS224-242.

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FINDINGLAURA:recoveringaLOSTIDENTITY

GeorginaCannon(TORONTO,CANADA)

INTERNATIONALTRAINER,AUTHOR,SCHOOLCLINICDIRECTOR,ANDMIND/BODY/SPIRITCLINICIANUSINGHYPNOSIS

ANDREGRESSIONTHERAPIES.

Formostofus,memoriesofpriorlivesarehiddenawaydeepwithinthesubconscious.Yet,withaskilledfacilitatorusinghypnotictrance,theycanemergesothatpreviouslydiffuseandhiddenmemoriesmaycrystallizeandresurface,bringingwisdomandunderstandingtothiscurrentlifetime.Manyfolksjourneyfromlifetolifewithnoconsciousknowledgeofthepreviouslifeorthe

persontheyusedtobe.Andyetwelivefull,mostlycompleteliveswithoutthatknowledge.Imagine,though,whatitwouldbeliketobeinthislifetimehavingshiftedfromoneidentityto

thenextwithouttheconsciousmemoryofwhoyouareandhowyoulivedthefirstpartofyourlife.Thischapterdescribesjustsuchanincredibleexperience,andhowpast-lifeandbetween-livesregressionstrulyhelpedoneparticularyoungwoman.

THISISTHEextraordinarystoryofLaura,whoatageseventeenfoundherselfwanderingthestreetsofTorontowithnoknowledgeofwhoshewasorhowshehadcometobethere.Fortunately,ayoungwomanfromQuebecwhowaswaitingatabusstopsawLauracryingandalone.Thewomanaskedifshecouldhelp,andonhearingthestory,shetookLaurahomeforsometea,somethingtoeat,andaphonecalltothepolice,toseeiftherehadbeenanyaccidentsorpeoplereportedmissing.Nothing,noone.ThiswonderfulyoungwomangiftedLaurawithatemporaryhomeinwhichshestayedforafew

months, livingunderanassumedidentityandfrightenedaboutherpast.Shewonderedwhoshehadbeenandwhatterriblethingshehaddonethatneededtobetotallyblockedfromherconsciousness.Shescannedthepapersdailyforreportsofmissingpersons,butnonematchedherdescription.Fromthattimeuntilshecametoseememorethanfortyyearslater,Lauraremainedincompleteignoranceofhertrueidentity.Afewmonthsintohernew,mysteriouslife,Laurametherfuturehusband,Don.Shehadbecomea

ballroomdancingteacher,andhewasanewstudent.Theyfeltaninstantconnection,asthoughtheyhadknownoneanotherinapreviouslife.Throughdecadesof theirmarriage,Donwasa rock,supportiveanddetermined tohelphiswife

discover her true identity. They explored all avenues for identification discovery, includingfingerprinting,Interpol,thepolice,theRoyalCanadianMountedPolice,detectives,lawyers,andtheInternet. “At least I knew I didn’t have a criminal record,” she joked.They couldn’t travel beyondCanadianborders,though,asLaurahadnocitizenshipdocumentationorhealthhistory.

Theyboughtahouseinthesuburbs,dancedtheirwaythroughtheeveningsatthelocalnightclubs,andspentweekendsandholidaysoncanoetrips,campingoutdeepinthewildernesstothesoundsofhowlingwolves.Formorethanadecade,theylivedtheGrizzlyAdamslifestyle,buildingtheirownhouseinheavily

forested crown land threemiles away from the nearest trapper neighbor, canning vegetables on awood-burningstove,fishingforbassandsnaringrabbits.Oftentheywouldskihomewithacoupleofrabbitsforthestewpot.Theylivedahappy,fulfillinglifetogetherforthirty-fiveyears.Finally,Donconfidedthesecrettoalawyerfriend,whosuggestedhypnoticregression.Outoffear

forwhatshemightfind,Laurawaitedanothernineyearsbeforeconsideringhypnotherapy.Aroundthattime,achiropractorfriendtoldthemaboutalectureIhadgivenonpast-life-regressiontherapy.Doncalledmeimmediately.Laurawassixtywhenshefirstcametoseeme.LauraandDoncameintotheclinicfortheirfirst

meetingandhypnosis session. Inherownwords, shewanted toknow“WhoamI, andwhereamIfrom?”Shewasconcernedaboutwhatshemighthavedoneandwantedtoknowwhethershehadafamily

orwhethershe’dhurtsomeone.Shealsoconsideredthatitmightbesignificantthatshewasterrifiedofridingincars.IsaidIcouldn’tpromiseanything,butthatIhadsuccessinthepasthelpingpeopletorecoverlost

memories. However, we couldn’t get started right away. She was prone to occasional epilepticseizures andhighbloodpressure, so I asked thatwehave a letter fromhermedicaldoctorbeforedoing any hypnosis. Although there was no formal hypnosis at that first meeting, I gave her ahypertension releaseCD because I felt itmight allow her to practice relaxing to the sound ofmyvoice.Twoweeks later, Laura came to the clinicwith the doctor ’s letter, ready to experience past-life

regression.MaybeshewouldfindoutmoreaboutherselfthatwayandwhethershehadknownDoninapreviouslifetime.Itseemedagoodidea,asonthe“wayback”wecouldexplorethere-entryintothislifeandmaybegetsomechildhoodclues.Butalthoughsheexperiencedtwoverydetailedlives,therewasnoinformationabouthercurrentlifetime.Amonth later,Laura came into the officeworried and scared.Scheduled for an angiogramand

echocardiogram,shewasfrightenedshemightdiewithoutknowingwhoshewas.Wetalkedaboutitbeingmuchtoosoonforhertodie—“youhavelotsofdanceteachinglefttodo”—andsheagreed.Ifacilitatedaregularhypnosissessionusingmind/bodyhealing techniquesandfuturepacingso thatshecouldseeandexperienceherselfcelebratingChristmas.Iconnectedheragainwithherguidesandaskedthemtostaywithherduringtheprocedures.ItwasalmostayearlaterbeforeLaurareturnedtotheclinic.Itturnedoutthatshehadneededopen

heartsurgery.Shetoldme:“I’mreadytofindoutnow.”Iaskedandreceivedpermissionto“dosomethingdifferent.”Ifacilitatedherbackdirectlyintothe

womband thenbeyond into the interlife,where she literallyzoomedup to thegates: “It looks likewhitemist, but friendly, not frightening, and there’s peoplemoving around in themist ...movingtowardme.Ifeelthisoverwhelminglove,andit’sstrangehowlightandfreeIfeel.”There were four beings—“I can feel them as well as see them, they’re surroundingme with a

feeling that it’shard toexplain.Beautifulbluecolors,andgoldandpink.There’sacolor Ihaven’tseenbefore,Idon’tknowwhattocallit...IfeellikeI’mbuzzing,likeI’mvibrating,andIrealizeI’mliketheyare.I’mfree!”Laurastartedtolaughandbecameveryanimated.Iwasconcernedshewouldbringherselfoutofhypnosis,butthelaughterturnedtogentletearsasshekeptrepeating,“It’sallsobeautiful...sogentleandbeautiful.”ThiswasaprofoundandemotionaltimeforLaura.Releasedfromherphysicalbody,sherealized

shewasmorethanjustthat.Reluctanttomoveawayfromthatspaceandfromthisgroup,shelingeredfor a long time at the gatewaywith her greeters,who appeared to be both her soul circle andher“wisdomelders,”asshecalledthem.Asweaskedthepurposeofthislifestruggle,shediscoveredshehadchosenthislifetimetolearnpatienceandforgivenessandwasstronglyurgedtojoinparentswhowerefrightenedwhentheyknewtheywerepregnant.Asweprobedmore,itbecameveryclearthathergroupwasintentongivingherthepeacefulsoul

connectionshehadlostovertheyears,andconsideredeverythingelsesecondaryornotimportantatthat time.Every timewe tried tomove forward,wewere told“notyet.”Wecouldn’tgetanymoreinformationfromthegroupabouthercurrentlife;theyweremoreinterestedinlettingherreconnectwithher trueself.Somuchso, thatwhenweaskedafterawhile if itwas time tomoveforward toanotherstationintheinterlife,weweretoldthat“yourlearningfornowiscomplete.”I was concerned that although Laura had this powerful experience, it still hadn’t given her the

informationsheneeded.Asweslowlyjourneyedbackfromtheinterlifetoreenterthewomb,therewasasuddenjoltashervibrationlowered,andsheencounteredhermomentofconception.Sheheardvoicesfightingandfelttheenergyofdiscordfromthatmoment.Thebeautyandpeaceinherfaceandaura had disappeared, and her energy became fractured as she watched and felt herself growingtowardbirthing—andrememberinghercurrentearlylife.Thosefirstyearswereuneventful;herselfandhermother,andatagetwosherecalledababysister.

“I’mthebiggirl.Ihaveanewbabysister.”Bytheageoften,Laurarecalledababybrother,and“WeliveinaplacecalledGeorgia.Mydad’snameisBarryWatson(nothisrealname)…Idon’tknowhim.”Atthispoint,Laurabecameexcitedandbroughtherselfoutofhypnosis.Isuggestedthatsherelax

backintohypnosisandcontinuethejourneysothatwecouldfindoutmore—whichshedid.Atfourteenyearsold,Lauraabreacted,sobbingandshaking:“Idon’tlikebeingfourteen,Idon’t

wanttobefourteen.”Weregressedbackayear.Thirteen-year-old Laura talked about moving to Detroit,Michigan, and being “in a house with

mom, sister, and brother.We have to move. She has to find a job ... so tired ... so tired.Mom isworried.Weneedmoremoney.IwishIwasoldenoughtohelp.Allweeatarebeansandpotatoes.I’msotired.”Again,Itriedtomoveforwardbutwasrejected.Fourteen-year-oldLauradidn’twanttoremember.

(1)After a gentle healing from her guides, Laura emerged from hypnosis, full of excitement, and

jumpedup from thechairand ranout into reception:“Don, Iknowmyfather ’sname!”Theywerebothsoexcited.Afteraquickhug,theyrushedoutofthedoortogohomeandgetontheInternet.Inthepast,DonhadregularlysearchedtheInternetforcluestoLaura’sidentity.Weekly,helooked

throughallthemissingpersonswebsitesfornewlypostedphotographsanddescriptionsinthehopeof finding something about Laura as a child. Now that he had names, he could start searchinggenealogywebsites.OnGencircles, he found a Barry HaroldWatson born in a small town in Georgia. This Barry

Harold Watson listed children with the same first names! Don kept checking. He found BarryWatson’sobituary,whichlistedthesamenamesforhischildren.Excitedbutcautious,hewantedtobesureitwastherightfamily.Concentratingon thebrother, asheguessed that the sisterswouldbemarriedandhavedifferent

surnames,heworked throughphonenumbersof listedBarryWatsonsacross theUnitedStatesandstartedmakingphonecalls,butnoluck.Finally,hetriedalongshotandpostedanoticeontheCousinConnectwebsite.UnexpectedlyandtoLauraandDon’selation,amonthlater,aresponsewasposted:“Hi,Iamthe

sisterwhoLauraisseeking.Myhomephonenumberis…”ItwasdeeplymovingtothemtoknowthatafamilymemberhadbeensearchingforLaura.After

manyyearsofwondering,worrying,andspeculating,Laurawouldat lastbe reunitedwithher lostselfandlostfamily.Itwasanexhilarating,wonderfulmoment.Aftertheinitialexcitingphonecalls,DNAtestsprovedthatLaurahadindeedfoundhersisterand

family.Lauraisadamantaboutstayinginthenow.Shedoesn’twanttodelveintothetimeofthelostyears

butratherrelishwhatshehasdiscoveredfortodayandtomorrow.MysteryisnotanissueforLaura.Herlifehasbeenpositivelytransformed.Shenowhasapassport,afamily,andanidentity,withdualcitizenshipintheUnitedStatesandCanada.ShehastraveledtotheUnitedStatestomeetherfamily(sheisoneofsix!).ShenowtravelstoEuropeandliterallyanywhereshewantsto!Sheissogratefulthat every time she obtains another piece of documentation, like her United States’ citizenship,Canadianimmigrant’spapers,oratravelvisa,shephonesmeinexcitementtosaythankyou.AlthoughIregularlyfacilitatepast livesandinterlifeor life-between-livessessions, thisonewill

alwayshaveaspecialplaceinmyheart.Itisatestimonytothepoweroflove—fromthekindstrangerwhooriginallygavelostseventeen-year-oldLauraahome,tothededicationandsupportofLaura’shusband,Don,andthenever-flinchingloyaltyofhersister,whoinoverfortyyearsnevergaveupthesearchtofindherbigsister.(2)

(1)Undernormalcircumstances,itmightseemthatLaurawouldbeaperfectcandidatefordesensitizationofthetraumaticeventthatoccurredtoherbetweenages14to17.Afterall,thisevidentlyinducedheramnesia.Assumptionscouldbemadethatthisclientsufferedseverephysicalandemotionalpainduringthisperiod,causinghermindtoshutdowntoallmemoriesofherpastasameansofself-preservation.SomepsychotherapistsmightarguethatLaurawillneverbewholeuntilshecognitivelycomestotermswiththisdamagingfour-yearperiodinherlife.However,Laurahadaperfectrighttorefusesuchspecifictherapy.TheauthorofthisstoryhastoldmethatLaurafeltherfuturehappinessdependedonhernotunblockingtheseteenageyears.Certainly,shelearnedagreatdealabouthercurrentidentitybytheskillfulapplicationofhypnosis,butwhatismoreimportanthereisthatthroughadditionalspiritualregression,Lauradiscoveredandthenconnectedwithhertruesoulself.Itshouldbenotedthatallthekarmicimplicationsofthetraumashehassufferedinthislifewillberevealedtoherintheafterlife.LBLH66-67.

(2)Onaconsciouslevel,therearealimitednumberofpeoplewhomayovercomeamnesiaoftheirpast-lifeexistencewithouthypnosis.Thisabilityisknownasspontaneousrecall,andwhilesomeonemightbeabletoaccomplishcertainremembrancesoftheirpastlives,itisfarmoredifficultwithlife-between-livesmemories.Forthissortofsoulrecovery,oneneedsaskilledLBLfacilitator.Thatbeingsaid,Laura’scasewasamoreclassicformofamnesiawithcompleteblockageofallmemoriesofhercurrentlife.Forthatreason,thisheart-warmingstoryisquiteunusualintermsofboththebroadtherapeuticapproachusedtouncoverthecoreofherexistenceandthenthefinalbenefitsLaurareceivedinrecoveringmuchofhercurrentidentity.Theuseofhypnotherapyisacommandingtoolinovercomingmanyformsofamnesicblocks

byreachingintotheunconsciousmind.However,thisdoesopenupalargerphilosophicalissueaboutrecoveringourspiritualmemoriesasasoul.Ourworkhasbeenchallengedbysomepeoplewiththefollowingquestion:ifamnesiaexistsatbirthtoblockoursoullifeonaconsciouslevel,arewenottamperingwitha

divineethicalplanbyusinghypnosistobreaktheseblocks?Myansweristhatifhypnosiscanopenupthebeautyofourafterlife(orinnerlife)experiences,thendoesn’tthisgiveusanincentivetosearchforthetruthaboutwhowereallyareandwherewecamefrom?Ifwewerenotsupposedtoknowaboutthesetruths,noamountofhypnosis,meditation,channeling,etc.,couldremovetheseblocks.

Inmyview,eachpersoninadeepalteredstateofconsciousnessseeswhattheyaresupposedtoseeas determined by their personal guides. Somepeople aremore blocked than others, depending onsuch factors as age, state of development, karmic challenges in this life, and so forth. Finally, Ibelievethereisanotherfactoratworkhere.Whyareamnesicblocksaboutourafterlifelesseninginthetwenty-firstcenturyfromtheuseofadvancedmethodologicaldiscoveriesinhypnosis?Weliveina world more overpopulated today than ever before, resulting in a diminished identity of theindividual.Add to this thegreatestprevalenceofchemicaldependencyofall time.Drugscloud theprogressof thesoul.Perhapsthis is thereasonourguidesandspiritualmastersareallowingmoreinformationtobereleasedaboutourspiritualpastthaneverbeforeinhumanhistory.SeeJS66-68,213,248,276.

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