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8/4/2019 In Search of a Song Volume 761
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Grace
Vella
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A Waterways Project
Publication
Richard Spiegel
Barbara Fisher
codirectors
Thomas Perry
administrative assistant
Chris Lehmann and Joe Trancelliti
Teachers
Beacon High School
Steve Stoll
Principal
Richard Organisciak
Superintendent
Alternative, Adult and Continuing Education
Schools & Programs
2000 Ten Penny Players
with funding support from
the NY State Council on the Arts
GraceVella
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Alone though together we are still farapart
Look and seeUse your eyes for some good
You are you and I am meYou feel one thing and do I
We are not connected
We are not meant to be,We are not controlled by destiny
I am my own and you are yours tooIf we should be together
That is something good and newBut you must know that although together we are still
Far apart
And through all thisI still have a heart
I am sorry if I hurt youI am sorry if you felt painI am sorry for everything
But it's not all a game
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You have to knowThat all I go though
All the emotion
Well, it is different then yoursIt's all a commotion.
So now that I have made my point clearWe will see where it leads
And find out how to fight all out our fears
My Own Eyes
When I look though my eyes
I can see not the would
But my world
And my life I think my own thoughtsI feel my own feelings
Each person looks through their own eyes
Each person hears and sees different things
But we can relate
Since we want people to feel the same as we do
But no one feels exactly the sameIts all in your own eyes
And in your own head
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By the Sea
It was a many and a many a year agoIn a kingdom by the seaAll just became quiet for little old me
But there was a still fear flowing down like streams
I felt the hurt and the quiet in my soul
If only I would just let it all goI felt the pain and I can remember it clearAll I could think of was me and my dear
But he had gone away with the seaHe had gone away and left lil old me
So here I sit by the dark blue waterAnd hope and pray for me and my daughter
I remember it all; it is all so clearWhen you left my heart with nothing my dear
But it was a many and a many years ago
In a kingdom by the sea
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Dark as Night
Even though it's not dark, inside it feels dark as night
I can feel it in me, the rageBut hopefully one day everything will get bright
I am all alone and there is nothing but quietIt's like I am stuck in a cage
Even though it's not dark inside feels dark as night
Everything is so sad I am looking my sightI have to act and pretend am on stage
But hopefully one day everything will get bright
If only everything could just go rightif only I could turn back my age
even though it's not dark inside feels dark as nigh
It's too hard; I can not fightI can not fight off my rage
But hopefully one day everything will get bright
It's so dark there is no light
Do I have to be a sageeven though it's not dark, inside feels dark as night,but hopefully one day everything will get bright
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Dont Hold Me Down!
Dont hold me down
Dont hold me downDamn it, you dont hold me down
Why do you do this?I need my spaceI need to breathI need my space
With you here, well you hold me downWith you here, I cant breath
With you near, I cant seeGive me space let me breath
Let me goLet me free
Dont hold me downI need my space
Cant you let me be?Can you let me breath?
Can you just leave me alone?Why do you do this?
Why do you do this to me?
Just let me goAnd let me be
Who I want to be
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Dreams
Looking out
What do I see?I can see so muchBut what is real
And is fact?What can be changed?I can change so much
But I dont know howI dont see howI dont feel howIt is my dream
My lifeMy world
I can change anythingBut do I have the power?Do I believe I have the power?
Do I want that powerTo shape everything that happens in my life?
My dream?I dont know
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Good-bye
I felt all the pain
And I didnt say anythingI felt all the pain
And I just kept coming backI felt the painHit after hit
After hit after hit
It numbed my heartAnd my soul
And now I must let you go
I stood there
Just waitingHoping you would changeBut you didnt
I stood there hoping you would careBut you didnt
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In Her Mind
Thoughts Feelings no one will ever understand.
Feelings emotions she doesn't want people to understandPeople will never know,
She doesnt want them to know
Covering it all up,Something she is good at
Yet few see through itThey can see the pain in her eyes when she laughs or smiles
People tell her they careSay they want to help
They want to know
What if she tells themWill they understandCan they understand??
Nothing makes senseToo many feelingsToo many emotions
Too many thoughtsToo many things that will never happen
That will always be the same
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Always aloneNo one there to care
No one there to bother
And even if they were thereThey wouldn't care
Would they??
Alone she stands; alone she fallsAnd alone she plans to stay
Maybe it's better that wayNo one really understands any oneSo why do they try to understand her?
She just wants to be left aloneIn the quiet of herself
The quiet of where she feels safeIn the quiet where she wants to be
Alone to thinkAlone with her thoughts
All her thoughts mean somethingEvery thought opens up another corner of her feelings
Of her emotionsOf her life
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When will she relieve herself of all her sadness?What will help her make sense of her life?
What should she do?
What can she do?Day by day everything goes on
Everything repeats itselfSlowly everything turns in circles
Every second decides the nextEvery feeling decides the next
Every thought decides the feelingEverything turns in circles
So many thoughts and nothing connectsIf she can not make sense out of them
How can anything else?
How can she explain any of it?
But life goes onSecond by second
Life goes onShe can't stop time
She can't take anything back
So she lets it passHoping the next minute
Will be better then the lastUntil one day makes sense of it all
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But for now she will stay the sameAnd hide everything and leave it to other people
To look at her in different waysSince he is trying to figure out herself.
Stand Alone
Stand alone, that is what I do,Alone no one is here to care
Everything is so painfulAnd not give a
Why does it have to be this way?Why dont you care?
I am all alone in this wordAll alone and scared
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Pretending Who You Are
Stand up straight
Dont do thatDont be thatTalk like this
But is that who you truly are?Is that who you want to be?
Eat these things
Dress this wayBut is that who you truly are?
Is that the way you want to live?The way you talkThe way you act
Should not be judged
Should not be changedOr modified according to what other people wantSo why do we change?
Why do we stay to please other peopleWhen it makes us sad?
There is no pointThere is not reason
So just be yourself
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Ringing
Ringing
The feelings ring in my headI can feel it all in me
I cant stop the ringingI cant stop the pain the soundsThe loud sounds makes me deaf
Makes me blind
I try to stop itTry not to listenBut it is too loud
Too painfulToo much for me
How should I stop?Can I stop it?Can I make it lower?
Can I?Can I?
No one can hear it but me
No one can feel it but meHow do I stop it?
I dont know
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Stop
Stop the pain
Stop the hurtTake my soul
You can feel the burnIf only it could be better
If only I could smileBut that will not happen
Not for a little while
You hurt me so badAnd you make me cryYou can hurt my soul
But I will always be here
And you will always see my faceI want you to see what you are you doing to me
If only you could feelAll that you are doing me
If only you could seeAll the pain I have inside of me
We are two different peopleWith different feelings
As you can seeBut you have the power to hurt me
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I am sorry if I have hurt you in anywayI am hope that I didnt but you know that
You have done the same to meSo hopeful one dayWe can live in a way
That we well both be happy
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Tears
Every drop that falls out of my eye
Roles down my faceEach one has it own meaning
One by oneDrip by drip
Pain flowing downLike water
Like rainYou can feel the pain as it goes downYou can see the pain as it flows down
So many thoughtsSo many feelingsAll I can do is cry
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Was It Worth It???Cause I Miss You.
When you finally did it,When you pulled up the gutsWhen you pulled that trigger
Was it all worth it???
Do you wish you were here?
Do you wish you could have stayed?Seeing the world to this very day?
How was it like?Did it hurt?It hurt me.
Do you wish that you could take everything back?Or was it worth it in the end?Cause it hurt me.
Well, whatever it my be,Whatever the reason wasI hope you can hear me.
All I wanted to tell you was that I miss youAn wish you were hereStanding next to me
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Like you used to be.Its different without you
And I wish you would come back
Cause I miss you.
You havent been gone for longBut it feels like forever.
I would follow youBut I know that is not what
You want me to doSo for now I want you to knowThat I love you
I miss youAnd I will never forget you
And I will not let anyone else.
I miss you.
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What Do I Do?
All my thoughts
What should I believe?What should I think
Should I follow what makes senseOr what I hope?
Should I follow what may makes senseOr what may make me happy?
I am confused,Dont know what I to do
I have a feeling, a hope, thatWhat I will do next
Will effect the rest of my lifeWill determine what happens
In the rest of my life
So now what do I doWhat do I believeWhat do I say??
How do I make the next moveIn my life?
In the way I live my life?What do I do?Which one??
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In Search of a SongVolume 761
A Waterways Project Publication1999-2000