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8/13/2019 I'M TOO TIRED TO GO ON ANY LONGER
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IM TOO TIRED
TO GO ON ANY
ANY LONGER
JACK GALMITZ
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In this time all we can do
is wear the mask of a face.
Our features are too monstrous.
Anything would be afraid.
The ancient cities are pockmarked
collapsed where the dead decay.
Dogs sniff them out. Sometimes parts
are found. Small arms and legs
of children whose childhood was destroyed,
dancing boys delighting rich apostate men.
Is that whistling in the dark
a man or a bomb? Or both? hat do you think?
!laces of prayer are dangerous, as are restaurants,
go"ernment buildings and ba#arres.
It is bi#arre. !eople are afraid to go out
on their streets, like prisoners locked indoors.
In this time all we can do is co"er our faces,
or what were faces now melted with acetylene torches.
This is the age of the deformed. It is all the rage.
as wars at home and abroad burn on and on.
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The lake meets itself at the shore.$ocks are smoothed and hard to walk on.
The family has waited its hour after lunch before swimming. The youngerones wear inflated tire tubes to keep afloat. The fathers submerge and appear
face to face with their children who shout in glee and fear in their throats.
They do not speak %nglish. They are happy. The lake does not speak at all.
The floats do not speak %nglish. The hamburgers and hot dogs did not speak
to them in anything but their own tongue. &or did the wine and beans and
plantain at all. The sky's clouds scamper across a language of their own. The
women watch from the lawn. They are there to take care so the children and
men can be what they are. They are ha"ing fun on their one day off. They
dro"e out of the stultifying heat of the city to another state for the first time.
It was e(citing and scary. here they came from such mo"ement was notpermitted. &aturally they were afraid of the enforcers of the law. )ut the
buoyancy of the body, the bobbing tubes on the small tide was a *oy. The
radio played music o"er all their sounds+ guitars, bombos, maracas. It swam
across the lake. It swam inside of them. It was what allowed them to swim.
hen they got home to the torrid heat of the cement streets and their small
apartment walls, they were refreshed after all with ad"enture and music
could be heard all o"er, e"en in the graffiti that co"ered e"ery wall.
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You are the only thing on earth
that I would miss. alling you a thingdoesn't sound right, but I can't think
of another word that co"ers it.
I confess that creating a catalogue
of one who would be missed
is not romantic+ but that's the way
it is and you're it. -ook, you know
you're not e(actly respectful
or sensiti"e of my needs, so let's toss
out true lo"e and do with what is.
Other things+ like clothes, or books,
or treasured sounds, colors, shapes
and pets and praise+ I can li"e without.
They ha"e outli"ed their usefulness
and pro"ed unefficacious. -ook now
woman who *ust got her dentures+
you can't be a temptress when you
don't ha"e your own teeth. The
plates are prosthetics, so gushingwords for you would not be fit.
It's enough for me that you would
be missed. It's true and how many
things can you say of this.
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The flatness of the surface defies
the weight and dimensions of ob*ects.
Instead, it deifies spirit
without space and time.
That is why the hinese ideogram for poem +
shi is a word that needs
no other dimension than a surface of bamboo.
So it is in all ancient and religious
art. /ra"en images remo"ed.
Thus we engage in contemplation of ob*ects
and sub*ects on the page as if it were a temenos.
This is our 0uandary. Although our words are not
things, the creation of sacred space is. !erhaps,
the kabalistic word Da"arim would help.
The term means words, acts, things, and deeds
all in one. 1ow wonderful it is.
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I did not kill god.
I was busy that day,
working at my trade
repairing worn or torn
shoes. I worked the entire
day they made him drag
a cross through the way of pain.
I was nobody. %"en
my wife disobeyed
and my son, well,
he had little use for me.I had enough trouble already2
my own people threatened
to stone me if I didn't keep
the Sabbath day holy.
I had to work mending shoes,
so my family could eat and ha"e
clothes. ommoners were not
guilty of god's death3
lea"e them alone.And bring me some shoes.
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I play Hearts on my computer.
It's nostalgic and brings me backto a simpler time.
hen I played with people I learned
to e(pect repetitious strategies, re"enge and rage.
So I play against the computer to a"oid these things.
-ately, I'm beginning to sense
the three computer players
work together against me.
I'm not the most stable person,
but I'm not so ill as to attribute human
0ualities to machines.I swear these players sometimes
trick me so I ha"e to eat the 0ueen.
I play the ne(t hand "engefully.
I usually lose these games.
I'm wondering if any of you
ha"e e(perienced the same.
If so please let me know+ it would
allow me to feel okay.
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clutter every
where how to
get ridof it or
make something
of
it
it
s fall
ing a
part
a world
onceunder
stood
sensible
parked
a motel'
s neon
sign
in the dark
thatcars pass
off on
their way
somewhere
else
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I'm riddenby the sea
by the mother
lost mere
ly
al
ways
look
ing
for a mooring
will
yu
be
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we spokeof time
as inter"entions
in what
would be
uncompromised
readings of
the heart's
trape#e
the electrocardiographyof hori#ontal
in a richer shade
of green
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marginalia
in most
cases e(cess
periwinkle
sorrel
shoots in filtered
light
successors
or may
shootings
hit 4runs
the inner
cities some
how
appendages
the surplus
that sustains
desire, worth
recognition
of the 0uestionable
presence purity
of the once
original
source
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Phil Ochs where are you now
in the crowd, in the crowd
!hil Ochs for you I shed tears
don't you dare, don't you dare
!hil Ochs I'm scared
I care, I care
!hil Ochs 55 percent despair
I'm aware, I'm aware
!hil Ochs the mo"ement died
I'm not surprised, I'm not surprised
!hil Ochs the obblies mo"ed
it's true, it's true, I should ha"e known sooner
!hil Ochs I don't know what to do
li"e in the world that was made by you
!hil Ochs I li"e and speak with the dead
I know, I took my life with my own hand
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The monochrome turns
out to be the sky
those specks
birds in flight
what is it about the sudden
flight of birds scared up
why do we embrace it
the spread of black wings
the closing up the e"ening
the doom that steps
with our e"ery step
like a child stretching to place
his footprints in footprints
large and pre"iously left
in the snow by a grown up
gone now to warmth or cold
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As a boyI sat in the back seat of the carand looked out the window at occasional cows
and horses gra#ing when we were on a "acation
6sometimes they were mating7and white churches and small towns
or the arrangement of stores
if we were on a neighborhood outing
4 I was silent and ne"er spoke to my parents
up front who were always earnest on the
traffic or the yellow lines gla#ed on black asphalt
this e(plains my current perspecti"e
why I see things framed as in a window
4 paint or write depending on atmospheric pressure
4 why e"erything I place together is pasticheone thing gi"ing way to another
not necessarily related e(cept in spatial
arrangements I relate from memory
4 associations and whate"er fits the occasion
so, I recommend to parents to seat their children
in the back seat of their car whene"er they are able
or, if they want their children to be like them more,
speak to them and sometimes turn and face them
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In unclaimed landa forestI go to rest 4 0uiet
there is an old piano
untuned Owood warped and faded
4 tree branches
encased in ice clatter
a tune that I play
learned on my own
the remaining piano keys
chatter it's cold
sometimes I take a stick
4 strike the stones
in 4 out of the fro#ento add some percussion
or crack some forming ice
as the soprano
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Throw yourselfto the skylike a piece of paper
plane hurled by a delin0uent
boy it is fall so bebe a bowling ball
in the gutter rumbling
or be nothing at all
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In a ird !agea man singing or chanting
people e(changing names
4 sundry soundsin the background
4 foreground the two
can be e(changed
without potlatch
or shame
I recei"e
the world is there
sounds of traffic
different, mean nothing
but action, louder 0uieter,sculpture in space that
remains actions
4 silence as a foray
the sound of trees,
walls, 0uarries, 0uarters,
beggars, night, me,
amplified cacti,
a feather, water walk,
randomly, randomlyrandomly, randomly
on a toy piano
a prepared piano,
so &ew 8ork ity
was really built as
an a"iary and not
a cage
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