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Poems performed David Graham at The Art Bender held at The Lock Up, Newcastle on the 9th of May, 2015.
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© David Graham 2015
FALLING FROM THE
HIGHTOWER
a poetic journey into the mind of David Graham
performed at the Art Bender 9th May 2015 at
The Lock Up
Contents
Part 1 – From the Window of the Garret
(gloaming) 1
Orkney 2
One Penny Black 3
York 4
He wanders listless 5
Going Home 6
Part 2 – The Blurred Lines as I Plummet
The Head of Dionysus 10
The Dreaded Mistrel 11
An Apocalyptic Pitch 12
streaming on the firmament 14
aurora corporealis 16
miniatures 17
Sonnet 1 – Brain Damage 19
Sonnet 2 – Sebastian Goes Shopping 20
Sonnet 3 – You Are 21
Cawk 22
Part 3 – Notes from the Undergroud
A piece will be written and performed
on the 9th of May at the Art Bender
exhibition at the Lock Up, 2015 26
1
Part 1 – From the Window of the Garret
(gloaming)
my life is like an endless gloaming
half-light
weird times
a clipping kaleidoscope
of shifts and geometric patterns
and i swagger
the streets lit by lamps fighting dusk
above and happy
boots scuffing comments
and eyes on tree canopies
church spires
and graffiti
these are the slow times
of careless streets
and evening swarms of birds
the cold comes on slow
and the eyes make bulbous
shapes; intense thick
and always
at the edges
2
Orkney
At the end of our great Northward dash
they come quietly out of the deep
low and humble and open with
a silence that screams from the past
before the clouds sparked and rang with the cries of
metal
where stove-song sang to the space between stars
and the cold gale whispered for quiet
where the people lived mystery and stood vigil
over a tiny world set on a disc of water
a sea that was like a blanket for those sleeping islands
that stand there still – ancient sentinels
clad in the greatness of stone – time clinging to them
like moss before dripping away in the rain
in an endless cycle of green and cold and
lonely for they have all together lost
the gods that made them
they long now for their first summer
when all the world was new
when their fresh hewn bodies sparkled
in the endless evening sun
when they were the gentle rulers
of the land where we all must come
3
One Penny Black
keeping it all together
in the colours of a puddle
red leaves, wet, grow darker
memories of dyed hair and singlet bras
as mournful cars sweep
across the paved road
coffee quickly lukes
the crema moment passes
today their jowls are longer
dragged down by raincoats
as if the damp is catching
& the mud stains black
but sleet only makes the palette richer
& as I write the picture, glass falls like rain
4
York
there are bricks and then
there’s ivy, but that says nothing
about feeling them both with you
at a place where a drunk eye
can be happy with a blue streak sky
with riling clouds
as we drive, the trees perform
a merry-go-round of chance
encounters curtained by boroughs
we have drunk of the river Ouse
and fed on the miller’s leaves
washing our tongues with stones
it is an old way to be
related to the growing of mushrooms
5
He wanders listless
He wanders listless. Away from the town-home
of his bygone path. Now on a beach, whose shore has
long
since left the sea, he is unable to read the shifting
sways of sand shrinking into mirages. He wants for the
long margin
that skirts and divides the endless land. He waits for the
pen-hammer
to smelt the lines into knowing. The smell of flux:
liquid ink-metal flowing.
But in the endless day,
there is no rhythm to guide his footsteps, only the
ceaseless
flat line of static ear-ringing. Bereft of sensation,
footsteps meet footsteps - the endless cycle, formless, a
nowhere
exhausted in sameness.
6
Going Home
Home is not a mansion, but an entire landscape.
A realm of dreams and made-up memories,
half-seen visions at the edges of a
third eye. A home alien familiar:
forgotten senses from childhood, fog
and dew like ancient stone made new. Spider
webs mis-en-abyme in attics on top
of rustic portraits of a dead poet
playing lute-hypodermic. But the
window is open, he’s looking outside.
It is time to leave the fresh earth-burrow
and return to the waving sea of hills.
A land of seasons dry and lush where the
stars will sing throughout the day. At night the
sun burns, but only as a flat disc of
light surrounded by darkness. Here the West
wall crumbles and mirrors shine down allies
brittle with agelessness. Ancestors stare
with frog-like eyes from shady alcoves and
the needless hearth suffocates boiled airs.
Behind the town: graves teeth the hills, old thoughts
left to rot. At the foot is a forest
and a creek that backs onto rust faded
fences. A lovely park for picnics and
fucking on the grassy rocks in dreams that
become untrue. Nearby: the hut of the
river hermit shakes from passing traffic.
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He shivers in the Autumn frosts and bakes
in summer’s haze. His beard is gnarled and propped
with sticks. Deep-set eyes know how to escape.
Salmon in the river are feeding on
primordial insects and gazing at
the hermit on the shore. In his fire
voices message from the misty Other-
world. It comes out his mouth in mumbles and
spittle soaked in fish-oil and sour beer.
Hard wisdom from the old country, cut with
antipodean dryness all upside-
down and doesn’t make sense. School children throw
pebbles at his swearing bramble crowned head.
In the uncleared scrub, see creatures mythic
and untold. A great hawk or eagle walks
brushing its talons on dead bark and twigs.
Its wings are folding, legs are lengthening
then disappears past a tree. Further in,
the bush is almost impenetrable.
Cold, violent eyes stare from a hairy face.
Its carnivorous teeth drip saliva.
A huge body, covered in hair, full of
power, loathing in the darkness, waiting.
Yet, in open meadows dance emerald
clothed women with sunshine hair, whose beauty
inspires lust and love. A kind of Elvish
grace, their eyes like fresh spring water
singing spells of beckoning and warning.
As they move they change, hair goes red and
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dark like sunset, flesh turns brown and then lips
broaden into a beguiling knowing.
Laughter is everywhere. Untouchable.
They return to the betrayed earth sleeping.
On the highest hill silently standing:
a great domed cathedral. Shadows cast upon its
sides carve languid long triangles that flick
when lightning storms wash the surrounding peaks.
Ghouls and skeletons dance on parapets.
In the clouds a skulking demon plays them like
chalk drawn puppets, growling thunder laughing.
As the tempest abides the red bricks dry
slowly draining into the moistened ground.
The holy temple of dreams and influence.
Inside it is a mason’s sanctum, but
with Viking runes and weird Australian
icons. A Lindsayian folly with nymphs
lusting among the wattle, cherubs and
dryads naked in the jacarandas.
A white budda on the alter smiles with
a pot-leaf on his forehead, his thumb and
little finger grasp a tiny wine glass.
Dionysus instructs Orpheus to
break hearts in a Byzantine mosaic. Yet
the marble floors are bare. There are no pews.
In the wings: stained-glass portrait saints. They rein
with serene benevolence: Virgil and
Dante in the darkwood, bearded Milton,
sad eyed Shakespeare, Goethe morose and then the
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Romantics… messiahs and martyrs all.
Lastly, arrayed in a farcical supper,
the Beats line up in a West Coast landscape.
In the copse lay statues of the local
deities. The Keatsian Dransfield and
Yeatsian Robertson, cracked and dusty.
On the roof and dome: spectral colours in
astral patterns dance, reflecting light like
jewels. They change shape as they dazzle and then
explode, coursing across boundaries, splitting
open the fabric, escaping into
the void where in empty soundlessness they
fade, returning to the fresh earth-burrow.
Here the waves make hills that roll and thunder
and the land gives way without mirth and wonder
while lion, leopard and she-wolf wander.
10
Part 2 – The Blurred Lines as I Plummet
The Head of Dionysus
from the realm of reaching minds
to the world of grabbing hands;
by the way a twig grows static
between the fingers of passing traffic:
there is the rise of an ancient face
fresh as polystyrene –
a spinning statue’s head on the dining room table –
blank eyes spring a stream of husky liquid
a Hellenistic drainpipe, fluid running
through its curdled locks and trickling into cups
the break comes only as the thread
of eternal treason runs away to leave
red rings, swallowed by the swirling flow
the hollow vastness at the edge of a pillow
11
The Dreaded Minstrel
Cut me like a dollard
a prince of aftertaste
i take each draft like
it’s not my last and
dregs do not suffice.
Here is the dreaded minstrel
turgid at his worst
riding clouds and folding
like a paper bag
’round a corked bottle
Did you say wine? i’m
never lost for company
with a red and a pen
and a paper. Constant
friend, you’ll only change
when i tell you to.
i talk to you and beat
you; put you through a grinder
and it only makes you sexier
total indulgence with no hope
of outcome
12
An Apocalyptic Pitch
railing, always railing
against a rhythm in binary
for reality reaching
an apocalyptic pitch
in bush or beachhead
in bars and empty boardrooms
an imagined chant shakes doorknobs
cacophonous in the
flailing wind, nascent
and raspy in rheumy evening
but with the air
of barbaric sophistication
it is heard in the lilting sway
of the tree on the hill
the weight of the lonely one-eyed man
bending branches in a tarot card tautology
singing truths trailed in the sun –
a sum total of symbology –
and in that dawning of pencil lines
an instant is nothing but a scribble
or a tipple in a pane of glass
quickly lost down the beer drain
it releases a whale
at the Apocalyptic Pitch
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it is the thought-sound
that rings in testicles
and breaks the best
of science’s test tubes
while the born-again bassoons
are baking in the backroom
or when the eyes and mouth kiss
the tongue licks the eyeball
and two lives freefall into
a spin cycle
brawling and crawling
fawning for a desperate grasp
that intimate forever
that comes too quick
two heart drums quailing
at the Apocalyptic Pitch
railing, always railing
against a rhythm in binary
for reality reaching
an apocalyptic pitch
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streaming on the firmament
the blood aquarium erupted
a very long lime flavoured drink ago
now short sleeves & shorts irresponsibly
trap the last vestige of flesh
monuments to bone gazing
& the spirit of eden
spot the cityscape while gnarled grandpas
quote yesterday
long & loud enough to let the love lower
to a limbering lamp of wet dead leaves
still the sum of a soul can go
streaming on the firmament
coaxed out from the crisp
clean creases of cyber leases
& greased with the grey green
groove of garden gates
relax your retinas and go
gliding at the edges
of drain drops & shoe prints
with the wild ebb of sensation
blasting peripheral visions
there is grinning, then there’s brimming
emotions like curdled milk
sucking on flowers like ice
swimming past footpaths
this style is the shoe clipping of fools
leaving the life of lasers
& living in the mind as wildfire
the body pulses lightning
and sparks electric across the
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technicoloured sky and skims
over the shadows of the star studded statues
of the sun-baked bodies and silicon follies
it’s not too late to go streaming on the firmament
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aurora corporealis
clipping across the northern sky
an aurora corporealis called Carlin
hellspont of inspiration & candid utterance
between café coffee & hard liquor
this rainbow Bukowski spews haiku
while scheming collage conumdrums
& midnight ’zines / i have a memory
from the meadow of the sleeping tram
where the mosquitos suck on poetry all night
while the summer hours cling like dew on the roof
dripping and draining up to the cricket-croak moon
before slipping back to the rhythms of friendly speech
with him smiling mildly through the steam
of green tea infused with the afternoon’s jasmine /
it is warm tonight too & the bats
are crying in the trees for you
they want to be in a Northern sky
with lights & the spectre of Carlin
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miniatures
i
waifing in the static rigid hair
of pretend labels,
the reeking kiwis of plenitude disturbs my austere
reveries
ii
they are alchemists
mystics of haze &
glooping eyebrows
inventors of the swiss
shower hose & the
greek moustache
iii
my bending armchair
cracked a three syll-
able word
yesterday
iv
pubic icicles
choke the valves
beneath by tongue
i wish i could say
never again
but i can’t
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v
tucked shirt
tokyo queen
takes a shower
to get lean
vi
the worm is growling for
a long & dandy
frying pan
vii
windy wine song
devolves to the hunting
of a snark
ballad
breathing for cursive
thoughts
a contract against ill-will
& philanthropy
19
Sonnet 1 – Brain Damage
O to take a sledge hammer
to the fettered thoughts of glassing days.
It would be a turning point
of a pin tight revolution.
I have more spouts than teacups.
It’s a costume conundrum.
Only blank sheets come to my party
and they never change places
Only sort of sway like curtains.
I’ve heard them say “that’s not blood
or sideburns, just red wine flowing out his ears.”
Does blood have a meniscus? Does wine, for that matter?
Try long enough at one and get the answer to both
in the end, it’s just a headache.
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Sonnet 2 – Sebastian goes shopping
Breaking the gap between aisles
an entire ocean opens its manacles,
folding the line between tiles
that sit in rows like teeth in cubicles
and in that endless waste you look ahead
and watch the humans splash and pay.
It’s engrained in them, the crust of bread,
the way they wash themselves and pray.
White lights gleam off bottles green
but inside red seas mix the ocean’s hue.
While religious images flash on screens.
Easter fish eggs beg you to join the queue
Across the waves the island rises to a point.
A synthesis, a landing, a reefs joint.
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Sonnet 3 – You are:
the bright of beach sand,
the cool washing flavour of seas
salt & sweat before a tequila shot
the gentle burn of brittle sheets.
Soldiers march the bridge between our mouths.
Merchants mill at the temple mount.
They throng in angst, against the wasted moments.
The clouds arch and make blue cathedrals
clasped hands that wrench divine fleas from cats
resolving into liquid, a lozenge of contention
a day in the city of catatonia.
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Cawk
in the course of inventing catastrophe
this doctor recommends a steady destabilisation of your
sense of truth
therefore stare into the warped eyes of your reflection in
a metal kettle
stare until you see as the pot sees
watch as the skies sway from side-to-side and the stars
and streetlights are indistinguishable
the windowsill dips and lets the ground come in
carpet and dirt make a dirty carpet
as a doctor i must warn you - in this state
when you go to spout beware
aware that when your tongue gleefully flaps
a seed will sprout underneath it, drawing-in saliva,
growing limbs and leaves
and hopefully a flower that will, in time, become a fruit
and if you are prepared to share this fruit of your mouth
be prepared for someone else to eat it
but if you’ve spent your days staring at computer screens
& newspapers
or worse, newspapers on computer screens
that fruit will come out like an unsavoury brown nut that
not even birds will eat
but maybe, just maybe the warped eyes of a kettle will
produce something interesting
a long red seeded chilli that will sear the tongues of those
game enough to try it
and cause hot gusts of air to exhaust from their nostrils,
their eyes will glow with bloodshot and their intestines
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will recoil & squirm
a frontal attack on the bowels of reason
your mind is a spoon that can & should be bent
hang it up as an ornament and sell it at an art market
it’s better off there than counting dividends or watching
commercials
(no matter how critically)
if anything the more savage you lie the better it would be
for everyone
so spin great big green ones
“if a man fucks a pig you will get pig-babies”
“the cure for most problems is to masturbate more often”
“the labour & liberal party are two different things”
“the most nutritious way to eat mincemeat is raw after
it’s been frozen”
such quips are drips in the pond but large ones fill
bathtubs
it’s like sitting up in the middle of the night & releasing a
thunderous “cawk”
with only the dull thrum of the refrigerator to answer
and as you stare into the darkness of your room you start
to hear its words:
“itsagoodtoeatthesootthatcomesafootyouunderstoodthat
whenyoushookandhadalookan-cut”
neither of you make any sense, no matter
that fridge – is a carbon criminal – and if you follow my
prescriptions
you will be a cawker,
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stand above the rooftops and cawk
freak flag flying, angel haired hipsters dying,
make friends with mosquitos, talk to parking metres
draw a perfect circle, never jump the hurdles
wondering where the days went? thinking ‘bout the
environment?
holy, holy, holy smokes that rots your brains out
holy, holy, holy idols that knock ya teeths out
holy carlin, holy susannah, holy gormley
holy, pete, gina, saidition, cluff daddy
holy bethany reeves
holy elise jarvis
holy mark whitiker
they’ve chalked cawks braver than the toothpick sugar
natzis
and the glamour rung bourgeois hicks hiding behind
razorblade glasses
and the sit-com phonies hosting panels on the benefits of
dry humping classes
they’ve chalked cawks when the heat haze glooped the
sun on the sea
and when the jasmine shot its pollen in the eyes of
magpies and bees
and when the salad tongs played a saxophone tune on top
the analogue tv
they’ve been cawking even though they’ve never heard
the word,
sometimes not even cawking with words, but cawking
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absurd
little posies through prescription milk that comes from
giant birds
cawking in the moonlight of streetlamps, cawking up the
hunter river in a rune trance
cawking in their mother’s silks, cawking cawk cawking
cawking for a hot piece of leg on a warm summer’s day
cawking the vicissitudes of victimhood
cawking for when everything feels really real
for what’s in a cawk?
any other noise will sound as deep
so cawk you will & cawk you must
and in the end in cawk we trust
in the course of inventing catastrophe
this doctor recommends a steady destabilisation of your
sense of truth
but i’m not a doctor
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Part 3 – Notes from the Underground
How to get Bent at the Lock Up – composed at The
Art Bender 9th May, 2015
It starts in a state of cell rot
of carted artworks and Australian forest smells.
An acrid burning reaches me
the burning of lamp light.
The empty stage is set in want
for an audience to climb the barricade
and break this cell where I thought I was manacled.
“Welcome,” I cry. “I welcome you all.”
I scream to maintain your attention
as environmentalists roar like so much static.
And then the hordes come and we banter and play
grooving to each other’s rhythms as the night takes hold.
Art Bender. What the hell are you?
Some kind of devilish pelican soaring across
the Novacastrian sky, disgorging paintings, fillums
and multi-media installations from its bilious beak.
I have recently fallen from a hightower,
relatively unscathed and found myself in a sea of art
dwellers.
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Pig’s breath on my shoulder and Candice smells of a
myriad scents
- mostly good.
& the blue wren appears
& whispers sweet nothing
a floor filler to be sure.
But where’s the substance?
emotions are more complicated than economics
but with a pinch of salt can be
deliciously morbid
something to remind you to
be kind to your mother
unless she was one of those sea faring women
immune to land-lubber methodologies.
it’s getting serious now
people are here and they’re all so lovely
if only the toilet in my room had plumbing.
potato cunt, what’s wrong with you
you are a drunky.
we love your mind and body.
… suffocating and disturbing
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foggy wisps that pass through
lowering the tempo but creating a groove
two words that are actually seven
along a
wire
sparkling
amber
& resulting in
that is the
anomie ^ growing disorder
no more shall the people
cherish the purple
their
minds reeling from that padded cell
into a free form revolution
a Marxist devaluation ultimately boarding the ship of
absurdity
this broken town where we get our coffees in, where we
spend hours
so reknowned in memories
some times forgetting that we often
make something new
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& when we do, we realise that
along the line it’s pretty fucking good.
Contact: David Graham at [email protected]