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Facing Depression in East Central Indiana

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part of The Facing Project + the Louis E. Ingelhart Scholars program (Ball State University Department of Journalism) — debuted April 2015 — contact Dr. Adam J. Kuban (@AdamJKuban)

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table of contentsour supporters.......................................................................................................................................................4

about depression + quick facts..........................................................................................................................5-6

“tough talk”

Lauren Chapman’s story as told to Sophie Gordon...........................................................................................7

“my brother’s story”

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¹��� ���UQTM[�\W�IV�IV[_MZºEthan Johnson’s story as told to Nathan DeYoung.....................................................................................13

“not my mother”

an anonymous story as told to Kaitlin Lange..................................................................................................15

“carli’s story”

Carli Hendershot’s story as told to Alan Hovorka...........................................................................................17

“it’s on me”

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“liturgy”

an anoymous poem as told to Heather Williams..............................................................................................20

¹1�PI^M�LMXZM[[QWV��?Pa�LWM[�Q\�UI\\MZ'ºCassie Grosh’s story as told to Vicki Forcina...................................................................................................25

“it’s not my fault my brain is broken”

Kiah Beeman’s story as told to Chris Bavender..............................................................................................27

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“lending hope”

Amber Bloom’s story as told to Beth Messner.................................................................................................31

“soldiering on”

Becky McDonald’s story as told to Adam Kuban............................................................................................33

“three happy things”

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our supportersFacing Depression in East Central Indiana extends its gratitude to our supporters from both Ball State University as well as the surrounding community. These supporters have furnished storytellers, professional resources, writers, and more. Thank you for your support.

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what is depression?

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quick facts

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he conversation always seems to start out the same way.

Him: “I think I have a problem.”

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Me: “You know. It sounds like what you have is depression. This is

exactly the way my mom has described this before. And it’s okay. There’s

nothing wrong with it. But you need to get help. What you go through on

the everyday basis is not abnormal, but you need help. You can’t just do

this by yourself. You can’t just suck it up and deal with it. You can’t just

rub dirt on it. You have to confront it.”

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Casey Smith is a freshman majoring in journalism and anthropology.

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program. In her free time, she enjoys working for the Ball State Daily

News and Applied Anthropology Laboratory.

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Nathan DeYoung is a freshman at Ball State University. His majors are

telecommunications-news and meteorology. He enjoys working with

the community during his spare time, and he looks forward to giving

even more back one day as a broadcast meteorologist.

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Ethan Johnson’s story

“I explicitly recall the moment when I asked my roommate to take me to the E.R. because the situation I was experiencing was beyond me, like a numbness. When I arrived, I was able to check in, but not able to receive care because I was not, at that point, contemplating suicide. I remember leaving the hospital and thinking, “What do I do now?”

Ethan Johnson

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Alan Hovorka is a sophomore journalism major at Ball State University.

He covers University Administration and works on audience engagement

and social media for The Ball State Daily News. Alan is grateful to tell other

people’s stories, especially this one.

carli’s storyCarli Hendershot’s story

“I wasn’t conscious of what I doing in the moment. I just wanted it to be over.”

Carli Hendershot

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it’s on meMatt Duncan’s story

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Robby General is a freshman journalism and telecommunications

major at Ball State University. In his spare time, he is an active

member of Sigma Alpha Epsilon, the Ball State Daily News and

Newslink Sports. He hopes to some day have his own news show or

to be a sports anchor.

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““It’s hard to explain the feeling when you get diagnosed with something that’s going to last the rest of your life.”

Matt Duncan

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Danielle Grady is a student from Madison, Indiana. She studies

journalism and telecommunications at Ball State University.

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at papers throughout the Midwest, including The Indianapolis

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“I have a purpose, and everybody who is going through what I’ve gone through has a purpose too. They deserve to know that.”

Konner Paxton

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Chris Bavender has more than 20 years experience as a print and

broadcast journalist and is a freelance writer for several regional publica-

tions as well as a freelance reporter for WISH-TV. Chris is a Muncie native

and Ball State University alumna.

it’s not my fault

my brain is brokenKiah Beeman’s story

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Victoria Severyn is a junior at Ball State University studying advertising

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Beth Messner is an associate professor of Communication Studies

at Ball State University. She teaches courses related to persuasion

and rhetoric and also studies the discourse of those whose voices

are traditionally silenced.

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“It hurt just to try to get out of bed that morning. I remember thinking, ‘C’mon, it’s your son’s birthday! Please God—Let me get out of bed and just do what I need to do.’”

Becky McDonald

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Rebecca McNair

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