Blueprints: Bringing Poetry Into Communities

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xhcd`mrx rfmifrx mai dycfrx ja rfxwdaxf yd ycf Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda‚x fdryx

yd mxxfxx ycf affix d ycf wdfyrz hdnnvajyz ja wrfwmrmyjda dr bfyyjab ycfJaxyjyvyf vw mai rvaajab! Ycf rfxwdaxfx hmnf rdn mrdvai ycf hdvayrz

mai rdn hdnnvajyjfx `mrbf mai xnm`` mlvfay mai xyrvbb`jab!

Ofjab m wdfy mai ycfrfdrf wfrcmwx amyvrm``z xvxwjhjdvx d fdryx yd

favnfrmyf mazycjab modvy dr mrdvai ycf mry J mwwrdmhcfi ycfxf }vfxyjda.

amjrfx my rxy jyc xdnf cfxjymyjda! Ovy J mx xyrvhk odyc oz ycf dwfacfmry.

fiafxx wmxxjda mai cdwf rflfhyfi ja ycf rfxwdaxfx mai oz ycf mz hfrymja

jnwdrymay ycfnfx kfwy fnfrbjab ja ycfn! Wfdw`f cd mrf m`rfmiz wmxxjda.

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rjhcafxx mai w`fmxvrf ycmy adodiz xcdvì of jycdvy mai ycfrfdrf ycmy

wdfyrz xcdvì of rfmij`z mai jif`z m|mj`mo`f yd f|frzdaf!



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Rcjhc mx nmaz d dvr rfxwdaifayx rjbcy`z wdjay dvy jy jx ady! Hfr.

ymja`z mx ycfz rfhdbajuf ycfrf mrf xvhhfxxv` wdfyrz wrdbrmnx ofjab rva

mhrdxx ycf hdvayrz mai mrdvai ycf drì oz hdnnjyyfi wfdw`f my f|frz

`f|f` rdn ycf fsyrfnf`z `dhm` yd ycf amyjdam` yd ycf jayframyjdam`! Nmazmrf yd xdnf fsyfay cmwwz jyc ycf j|f`jafxx d ycfjr da wdfyrz hdnnvaj.

yjfx! Ovy ycfz m`xd xff’mai mrf wmjafi yd mhkad`fibf’ycmy ycfz mrf

m`ndxy oz ifajyjda mndab ycf dryvamyf f! Nmaz d ycfn mrf wdfyx

yfmhcfrx dr xhcd`mrx `j|jab ja mhmifnjh hdnnvajyjfx; m`` mrf ja xdnf mz ja

ydvhc jyc ycf Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda mai jyx wrdbrmnx mai mrf mmrf d mai

nmkjab vxf d dycfr fshf``fay wrdbrmnx mx f`` odyc ja mai ofzdai ycfjr

da hdnnvajyjfx! Ycfz mrf m`xd mhvyf`z xfaxjyj|f yd ycf mhy ycmy cmy wrd.

brmnx ycfz cm|f mhhfxx yd mrf dyfa wrfhmrjdvx ifwfaijab da ycf hdnnjy.nfay xdnfyjnfx d m xjab`f ifijhmyfi wfrxda mai vaifrx cd ycfnxf`|fx

mrf faimabfrfi oz cmri fhdadnjh rfm`jyjfx!

Mx dvr rfxwdaifayx doxfr|f ycfxf fshf``fay wrdbrmnx yfai yd fsjxy ja

wdhkfyx; ycfrf mrf xyj`` mr ydd nmaz bmwx ja cmy f njbcy jyc ydabvfx ja

hcffkx hm`` wdfyrz.rf`myfi xfr|jhfx! J ycfz nmz xffn ijhv`y yd `` dr

drijamrz Mnfrjhma wdfyrz `d|frx cd wfrhfj|f ycmy xdnfycjab |jym` jx njxx.

jab rdn ycfjr afjbcodrcddix jy xcdvìa‚y xvrwrjxf vx ycmy ycfxf bmwx ff`

jnwdxxjo`f yd d|frhdnf ja ycf mr hdrafrx d ycf Am|med Amyjda dr dr mji

drkfrx ja Xdnm`jma rfvbff hmnwx! Ja xwjyf d ycf vrbfahz d ycf affi

nmaz d vx wfrhfj|f mai ja xwjyf d ycf nmaz |frz af wrdbrmnx dvy ycfrf

wfdw`f yfai yd ff` ycmy jy jx m`ndxy d|frcf`njab`z ijhv`y yd bfy bddi

wrdbrmnx vw mai rvaajab fxwfhjm``z ja hdnnvajyjfx ycmy mrf bfdbrmwcj.

hm``z dr fhdadnjhm``z jxd`myfi dr dycfrjxf ijxmi|maymbfi! Wfdw`f kad

ycmy rfxdvrhfx mai fswfryjxf fsjxy ovy ycfz mrf ady xvrf cd yd bmja mhhfxx

yd ycfn! Ycfz wfrhfj|f odyc ma moxfahf d ffhyj|f afydrkjab mndabwdfyrz wrdbrmnnfrx mai m `mhk d wrmhyjhm` xvwwdry! Ycfz vaifrxymai ycmy

ycfrf jx kad`fibf dvy ycfrf yd xcmrf ovy ycfz id ady ycjak ycfz cm|f ycf

moj`jyz yd mhhfxx dr `f|frmbf kad`fibf mai rfxdvrhfx jycja mai mhrdxx

hdnnvajyjfx mai wrdbrmnx!

Ycjx jx ycf hmxf f|fa ycdvbc f|frz bfafrmyjda d wdfyx mai wdfyrz `d|.

frx cd xff bmwx ja wdfyrz dfrjabx ja ycfjr hdnnvajyjfx mhfx fxxfayjm``z

ycf xmnf xfy d }vfxyjdax ycf rxy ofjab xjnw`z ‐Cd mai cfrf id J xymry4„

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‐f`xfcfrf„ jx vw ycf o`dhk dr da ycf dycfr xjif d ycf hdvayrz!



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nmyf`z ja|d`|fi jyc ycf mryx’cd cm|f idaf jnwdrymay drk orjabjab

wdfyrz jayd hdnnvajyjfx d ijfrfay xjufx mai kjaix dfr amrrmyj|fx maijaxjbcyx modvy ycfjr fswfrjfahfx! Ycfjr nmaimyf mx yd jifayjz jnwdrymay

ndnfayx’d jajyjmyjda d hrjxjx d brdyc’ja ycf if|f`dwnfay d ycfjr

wrdefhyx dr drbmajumyjdax ycfa yf`` vx cd ycfz nfy ycdxf ndnfayx! Ja wmr.

yjhv`mr f mxkfi ycfn yd yf`` vx cd ycfjr ifhjxjdax mrdxf dvy d ycf |m`vfx

ycmy ird|f ycfn yd hrfmyf mai nmjaymja ycfjr wrdbrmnx ja ycf rxy w`mhf!

Ycfxf fxxmzx nmkf vw ycf cfmry d ycf oddk mai mrf nfmay yd wrd|jif

odyc jaxwjrmyjda mai bvjimahf! Fmhc daf hdaafhyx ycf cmri drk d wdfyrz

wrdbrmnnjab jyc ycf ndnfayx d wmxxjda rf|f`myjda mai jaxwjrmyjda ycmynmkf ycf drk d wrdbrmnnjab dryccj`f! Mai fmhc cmx xdnfycjab yd

xmz modvy cz mai cd wdfyrz ofhdnfx jnwdrymay yd hdnnvajyjfx d |mr.

jdvx kjaix oz hdaafhyjab hdnnvajyz nfnofrx jyc daf madycfr jyc

ycfjr w`mhfx mai jyc ycfnxf`|fx!

Ycf xfhdai cm` d ycf oddk M Ydd`kjy dr Wdfyrz Wrdbrmnnfrx wrd.

|jifx xzxyfnmyjh cmaix.da wrmhyjhm` mi|jhf mai rfxdvrhfx dr ycdxf drkjab

yd dvai af wrdbrmnx dr yd xvxymja dr yrmaxdrn fsjxyjab wrdbrmnx! Ida‚y

kad cd yd ofhdnf m adawrdy4 Ycf Ydd`kjy wrd|jifx foxjyfx mai dycfr

rfxdvrhfx ycmy j`` cf`w zdv! Ida‚y kad cmy m odmri jx dr cd yd bfy daf

bdjab4 Mbmja odyc mi|jhf mai rfxdvrhfx mrf cfrf! Ldrbdyyfa cz zdv f|fr

mayfi yd id ycjx dyfa ycmak`fxx drk ja ycf rxy w`mhf4 Ycf Ydd`kjy wrd.

|jifx mi|jhf dr rfnmjajab hdaafhyfi yd zdvr da |m`vfx mai jaxwjrmyjda

dr aijab zdvr mz omhk yd ycdxf ndnfayx mai fswfrjfahfx ycmy rxy hda.

|jahfi zdv ycmy ycf wdfr d wdfyrz fsjxyx ady da`z dr ycf xd`jymrz rfmifr

vaifr ycf `mnw ovy dr ycdxf cd hdnf ydbfycfr yd rfmi jy cfmr jy rfhjyf jyxyviz mai rjyf jy mai ijxhvxx jy ydbfycfr ja hdnnvajyz!

J hdnf yd ycjx wrdefhy jyc nz da xfaxf d cmy m hdnnvajyz mai

ycfrfdrf jaij|jivm`x njbcy of njxxjab cfa wdfyrz jx moxfay! Rcfa J mx

ma vaifrbrmivmyf xyvizjab rxy yd of ma mhydr mai m wdfy mai ycfa am``z

evxy yd of m wdfy J dvì xwfmk jyc nz wmrfayx f|frz Xvaimz! Mai f|frz

Xvaimz dr m `dab yjnf nz ndycfr xmji yd nf ‐Zdv kad jy‚x ady ydd `myf

yd of ma fabjaffr!„ J da‚y bd jayd ycf rfmxdax cz dr m dab yjnf’nmzof

m`` nz `jf’jy cmi offa ydd `myf dr ycmy! Xcf nvxy cm|f bvrfi ycjx dvy!Rcfa J mxkfi cfr cz xcf‚i xydwwfi xvbbfxyjab m hcmabf ja ijrfhyjda xcf

xmji ‐Zdvr mycfr mai J rfm`jufi zdv hma nmkf m `j|jab mjyjab ymo`fx j zdv



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affi yd!„ #Ycjx mx m hdnw`jnfay5 mjyjab ymo`fx cmi `dab offa mhkad`.

fibfi ja nz mnj`z mx ijhv`y xkj``fi drk rf}vjrjab ndrf dryjyvif ycma

ndxy d vx cm|f hfrymja`z ndrf ycma J cm|f ja drifr yd id jy dr m `jfyjnf!*

‐Mai„ xcf fay da ‐f‚|f hdnf yd rfm`juf ycmy ycfrf mrf xyj`` `j|jab wdfyx!„Nz wmrfayx odyc d ycfn xhjfayjxyx mrf afjycfr amä|f adr vahv`yvrfi!

Ycfz yddk nf jyc ycfjr xfmxda yjhkfyx yd ycf ycfmyfr ycf om``fy ycf dwfrm

ycf xznwcdaz f|fa yd ndifra imahf hdahfryx dahf Xm`y @mkf Hjyz am``z

cmi m hdnwmaz ofbjaajab ja =:<<! Mai J hmnf yd nz `d|f d `mabvmbf mai

rfmijab ycrdvbc nz mnj`z! Rcfa xcf mxa‚y rvaajab rj|frx dr h`jnojab cjbc

wfmkx nz ndycfr vxvm``z cmi cfr adxf ovrjfi ja m oddk mai ady m`mzx ij.

frfayjm` f}vmyjdax ycdvbc xcf rfmi ycdxf dr w`fmxvrf ydd! Cfr da ndycfr

cmi mayfi yd of m wdfy mai fswdxfi cfr hcjìrfa yd ycf wdfyx d cfr imz mxnz ndycfr fswdxfi vx yd m`` kjaix d `jyfrmyvrf wfrnjyyjab vx yd rfmi maz

oddk ja ycf cdvxf my maz mbf f xyvno`fi vwda jy! Nz wmrfayx xyj`` cm|f

wdfnx J rdyf mx zdvab mx xf|fa cfa J maadvahfi nz mnojyjda yd ofhdnf

m wdfy mai m rfnma ycfrf ofjab ja =:<< ad ‐rfbcyfrx„’zfy!

Mai ad `j|jab wdfyx mx mr mx maz d vx kaf! Ycjx mx m ijfrfay frm

odyc rdn nz brmaindycfr‚x yjnf mai rdn dvr da! _dofry Lrdxy ijfi ja

=:<8 cfa J mx ycrff zfmrx dì! Ad wdfy rfmi my Edcaxda‚x jamvbvrmyjda

dr my Ajsda‚x Ldri‚x dr Hmryfr‚x mx Lrdxy cmi my Kfaafiz‚x! Ycdvbc nz

wmrfayx frf mhmifnjhx ycf fsw`dxjda d wdfyrz ja ycf mhmifnz cmi zfy yd

ofbja’jy dvì of ofbjaajab `vhkj`z dr nf mx J mx yrzjab yd ifhjif

cfrf yd bd yd hd``fbf’mai ycfz ijia‚y kad wdfyx wfrxdam``z! J ida‚y

of`jf|f ycmy mndab ycf xhjfayjxyx #dr dr ycmy nmyyfr ycf Fab`jxc wrdfxxdrx*

ycfz xdhjm`jufi jyc hdayfnwdrmrz wdfyrz mx nvhc ym`kfi modvy dr f|fa

rfmi mai ycfrf frfa‚y nmaz #nmzof ady maz* wvo`jh rfmijabx ja Xm`y @mkf

Hjyz! Do|jdvx`z j ycfrf frf `j|jab wdfyx my m`` ycfz frf cmri`z my ycfhfayfr d Mnfrjhma hv`yvrm` `jf my `fmxy ady ja ycf hdvayrz‚x jif njii`f

Jdm Hjyz mai nmzof Hcjhmbd fshfwyfi! Xd ycrdvbc evajdr cjbc mai

nvhc d cjbc xhcdd` J rfmi Ijhkjaxda Xcmkfxwfmrf Ordajab #odyc d

ycfn* _dxxfyyj Nj``mz! Lrdxy d hdvrxf! Ldr yd zfmrx J rdyf m xdaafy

f|frz imz vamo`f yd jnmbjaf maz dycfr yrmjajab ycmy njbcy wrfwmrf nf dr

ycf drk J mayfi yd id!

Ycfa J da m `jyfrmrz mmri my nz cjbc xhcdd` mai ycf yfmhcfr’o`fxx.

jabx vwda zdv Cf`fa Nvìfr’hcdxf mx ycf wrjuf Emnfx Ymyf‚x af`zrfwrjayfi rxy oddk Ycf @dxy Wj`dy ! M ifhmif myfr jy rxy da ycf Zm`f

Zdvabfr Wdfyx Wrjuf jy f`y ormai.af yd nf f`y mx j jy xwdkf ady yd xd

nvhc mx ycrdvbc nf! Ycf wdfn ‐L`jbcy„ fxwfhjm``z rffamhyfi cjnxjhm``z ja



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wdfyrz‚x daf.f``.xddwfiafxx nz da mhcf dr fxhmwf mai nmz cm|f bj|fa

nf m xfrjdvx hcjì m rxy jak`jab ycmy nz ifxjrfx njbcy ofxy of yrfmyfi

`jbcy`z! My ycf fai d ycf wdfn‚x edvrafz ycf xwfmkfr mkfx cjx hdnwmajda

x`ffwjab ofxjif cjn ja ycf hmr yd xmz ‐M`rfmiz f mrf ja Jimcd!„ Emnfx Ymyfkaf adycjab d nf d hdvrxf ovy Jimcd mx cfrf nz cjbc xhcdd` xffy.

cfmry `j|fi mai ‐L`jbcy„ hmrrjfi nf ja nz jnmbjamyjda d|fr mnj`jmr rdmix

yrmaxdrnfi nmif af mai wrdnjxjab! Lrdn ycf ndnfay J rfmi jy J cmi yd

xydw yf``jab wfdw`f J mx bdjab yd of Mnfrjhm‚x da`z `j|jab wdfy ovy ycjx

yrmif.d mx f`` dryccj`f!

Xyj`` Ymyf mx mx mr mx J kaf ycf da`z dycfr daf mai J hdaxvnfi cjn

wrj|myf`z da`z da ycf wmbf! J ijia‚y fahdvayfr m wdfy ja ycf lfxc vayj` J mx

ja hd``fbf ja Xfmyy`f cfrf Rj``jmn Nmyycfx mrrj|fi ycf zfmr myfr J ijicjrfi yd rf|j|jz ycf hrfmyj|f rjyjab hdnnvajyz Ycfdidrf _dfyckf cmi

nmif `fbfaimrz ja ycf ‚97x mai ‚67x #`jkf Lrdxy cf ijfi ja =:<8* mai ycmy

Af`xda Ofay`fz mai Im|ji Rmbdafr cmi cfrdjhm``z kfwy da `jf xvwwdry! Ldr

ycf rxy yjnf J mx ja ycf wczxjhm` wrfxfahf d wdfyx rxy ja h`mxxrddnx mai

ycfa ja |mrjdvx hmnwvx mvijydrjvnx! J rfnfnofr ycdxf fmr`z rfmijabx |j|.

ji`z5 ycf xfaxmyjda d ycfn d ycf wrfxfahf d wdfyrz hdnjab my nf ycrdvbc

ycf odiz d ycf wdfy! @jkf Emnfx Ymyf nz yfmhcfrx mai ycf wfdw`f ycfz

xf`fhyfi yd rfmi yd nf’mx j ycfz frf bj|jab nf wfrxdam``z m cmai.hcd.

xfa bjy’|djhfi ady da`z ycfjr da `j|fx ovy m`xd njaf mai ja |djhjab nz

`jf ycfz nmif jy `mrbfr ndrf hmwmhjdvx ndrf dwfa yd jnmbjamyjda mai

rf|jxjda! _jhcmri Cvbd! Hcmr`fx Rrjbcy! Xyfwcfa Ivaa! Xyma`fz W`vn`z! H!

K! Rj``jmnx! F|fayvm``z f|fa m f dnfa! Emaf Xcdrf Nmsjaf Kvnja! J

ofhmnf ycf orjf jayjnmyf mai wfrwfyvm` xyvifay d ycfn m``! Ycfz rfyvrafi

yd nf xdnf jaafr |djhf dr jalfhyjda J ijia‚y kad mx ycfrf! Ycfz nmif

nf `mrbfr jaxjif!M f zfmrx `myfr myfr J nd|fi omhk yd Vymc yd bfy nz WcI nz wmr.

fayx ofbma yd hdnf yd wdfyrz rfmijabx! Ycf rxy mx nz da dr ycf Xm`y

@mkf Hjyz Mryx Hdvahj`! J cmi hcdxfa yd rfmi m wdfn hm``fi ‐Lmycfr„ cjhc

jnmbjafx nz imi ja m nvhc ndrf b`mndrdvx `jf ycma ycf daf cf hcdxf ycf

daf ycmy nmif nf wdxxjo`f! J cmi yd rfmi jy! J kaf jy mx nz ofxy wdfn my

ycf yjnf mai J cmi f fadvbc d ycfn ovy jy iji dhhvr yd nf yd daifr

cd nz ndycfr cd cmi yvrafi ida m edo my AMXM ivrjab ycf xwmhf

rmhf yd xymz ja Xm`y @mkf Hjyz jyc cfr mnj`z mx bdjab yd fswfrjfahf ycfwdfn! Myfrmri xcf xmji ‐Zdv kad J m`mzx f`y evxy ycf xmnf mz modvy

cjn!„ Ja ycmy ndnfay cfa xcf mx J mn xvrf xffjab nf maf J xm cfr

maf mx f``!



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Ldr nz wmrfayx myyfaijab ycmy rxy rfmijab mx ycfjr mz d xvwwdryjab

nf mai nz wfhv`jmr ifhjxjdax’m`xd J bvfxx d xmyjxzjab ycfjr hvrjdxjyz! Ovy

jy mxa‚y `dab ofdrf ycfz frf bdjab yd rfmijabx dr ycf xcffr w`fmxvrf mai

daifr d ofjab rfmi yd d ofjab xwdkfa yd ja ycf jayjnmyf mai wrddvaimz ycmy jx vaj}vf yd wdfyrz ycmy cf`wx nmkf |jxjo`f ycf `jnjam` yfrrjydrz

ofyffa ma jaij|jivm` jaafr `jf mai ycf drì dvyxjif mai xd yf``x vx f|fa

mhrdxx |mxy yjnf mai ijxymahf ‐ja xd nmaz drix„ mx Nmrk Xyrmai xmzx

‐cmy f mrf bdjab ycrdvbc!„= Ycjx jx ycf bjy d wdfyrz ycf ycjab ycdxf d

vx cd `d|f jy kffw hdnjab omhk dr wdfn myfr wdfn oddk myfr oddk

rfmijab myfr rfmijab! Nmaz d vx mrf hdayfay yd rfmi mai `jxyfa yd `fy dvr.

xf`|fx of xwdkfa yd oz madycfr mai xd fa`mrbfi! Dycfrx nz wmrfayx mndab

ycfn ai ycfjr da |djhfx hm``fi dryc oz ycf wdfnx mai hmaady rfxjxyxwfmkjab omhk! Ycfz cm|f odyc bdaf da yd rjyf mai wvo`jxc’nz ndycfr

wdfnx nz mycfr fxxmzx! Ycdvbc ycfz rfnmja mnmyfvrx xd ycfz h`mjn ycfz

cm|f offa irma jayd ycmy `mrbf hda|frxmyjda! Ycfz m`xd ad |d`vayffr dr

drbmajumyjdax ycmy cf`w orjab wdfyrz yd dvr `dhm` hdnnvajyz!

Cdf|fr mx m`` ycf fxxmzjxyx bmycfrfi cfrf ijxhd|frfi my xdnf wdjay

yrmjajab mx m wdfy hma nd|f m wfrxda da`z xd mr ydmri m `jf ycma jah`vifx

wdfyrz wrdbrmnnjab! Ldr daf ycjab jy yjfx ycf edz d nmkjab xyrjhy`z yd ycf

rjyjab d wdfyrz; jy wrd|jifx f hcmahfx dr vx yd `fmra ycmy ycfrf mrf

dycfr kjaix d nmkjab yd cjhc f hma mww`z ycf xmnf jnmbjamyj|f xkj``x!

Wfrcmwx ycfxf mrf `fxxdax f hma `fmra da`z ja ycf `mrbfr drì!

Rcj`f J mx drkjab da nz WcI my ycf Vaj|frxjyz d Vymc J xvww`f.

nfayfi nz nfmbfr f``dxcjw mx m wmry.yjnfr my ycf Rmkjab D` Oddk.

xydrf ma fxymo`jxcnfay rva oz Wmyrjhk if Lrfjymx cd J xvxwfhy fnomrkfi

da ycf cd`f fayfrwrjxf `mrbf`z xd cf hdvì of rfbv`mr`z rfmi m`dvi yd! Orjy.

jxc ym`` mai `makz jyc m `jyy`f Bfdrbf Rmxcjabyda wdazymj` Wmyrjhk jx dafd ycdxf rmrf wfdw`f m`` rjyfrx `d|f cd rfmix f|frzycjab wdfyrz jah`vifi

jyc ad mnojyjda yd ofhdnf m rjyfr cjnxf`! Cjx xydrf cfì rfmijabx oz

wdfyx mai rjyfrx mndvx mai jamndvx jif`z wvo`jxcfi mai evxy xymryjab

dvy! J rfnfnofr cjn cfa m`` ycf dìjab hcmjrx frf ymkfa oz hvxydnfrx

xjyyjab da ycf lddr cjx omhk mbmjaxy m xcf` d oddkx cjx fzfx h`dxfi cj`f

cf `jxyfafi m xj``z `jyy`f xnj`f #o`jxx J ycjak* da cjx ndvyc! Ycf xydrf bm|f

nf nz da rxy fswdxvrf yd ycf drk d orjabjab `jyfrmyvrf yd m hdnnv.

ajyz yd ycf ifymj`x mai mrrmabfnfayx ycmy affifi xffjab yd rdn bfyyjaboddkx ja yd bfyyjab lzfrx dvy yd xffjab ycmy rjyfrx bdy fadvbc jaf ovy

ady ydd nvhc ofdrf ycfz fay da! Jy mx nz edo yd kad cjhc wdfyx bdy

xd afr|dvx ycmy ycfz rdvyjaf`z ycrf vw ofdrf rfmijab cjhc dafx cmi yd



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fmy rxy mai cjhc myfr! Mryx minjajxyrmyjda jy yvrax dvy hma of xvrwrjx.

jab`z jayjnmyf drk!

F|fayvm``z J mxkfi Wmyrjhk j J hdvì xfy vw m xfrjfx xcdhmxjab ycf Fab.

`jxc ifwmrynfay‚x brmivmyf xyvifayx mai ycdvbc f xyvifayx ndxy`z cmi adoddkx yd xf`` cf ady da`z mxxfayfi ovy m`xd myyfaifi ycdxf rfmijabx rf`j.

bjdvx`z! Ja ycf drì d ycf cmai.xdì oddk xnm`` jaifwfaifay xydrfx hrfmyf

ycfjr da hdnnvajyjfx mrdvai ycf hd``fhyj|f `d|f d ycf dri! Xviifa`z f

lfib`jab wdfyx mai hyjda rjyfrx cmi mhhfxx yd ma m`rfmiz.fxymo`jxcfi mvij.

fahf d wfdw`f hdnnjyyfi yd ycmy `d|f mai yd xwrfmijab jy cd rfhfj|fi vx

jyc m bfafrdxjyz d xwjrjy J cm|f yrdvo`f of`jf|jab f|fa ad!

Jy mx my ycfxf rfmijabx ycmy J rxy nfy B! Omrafx cd f|fayvm``z ordvbcy

nf da mx ma jayfra mai ycfa m wmji mxxjxymay ja ycf Vymc Mryx Hdvahj`‚x#VMH* @jyfrmyvrf Wrdbrmn #ad mo`z rva oz Bvz @fofim dhjm` rmab`fr

d ycf wdfy `mvrfmyf d Vymc*! Ldr m`ndxy ycrff zfmrx J yrm|f`fi ycf xymyf jyc

cjn orjabjab wdfyrz mai wrdxf yd `mrbf ydax mai hd ydax yd hd``fbfx

mai mry bm``frjfx mai omrofhvfx mai wrjnmrz mai xfhdaimrz xhcdd`x! Xvxma

Odxkd ad ycf ijrfhydr d ycf Af|mim Mryx Hdvahj` mai m nfnofr d ycjx

oddk‚x Ydd`kjy brdvw mx ycfa ijrfhyjab ycf hdvahj`‚x Wfrdrnjab Mryx Ydvr;

xcf mx jaxyrvnfaym` ja jyx #yd nf |jxjdamrz* nd|f yd jah`vif wdfyx mai rjy.

frx da ycf rdxyfr m`dab jyc nvxjhjmax mai dycfr kjaix d wfrdrnfrx!

Rcmy J ycjak J nfma yd yf`` zdv jx ycmy dahf zdv bfy xymryfi da ycjx kjai

d drk zdv ida‚y xydw my `fmxy ady vayj` jy cmx hcffi zdv vw mai xwjy zdv

dvy cjhc jy cmxa‚y nf ady zfy #ycdvbc my yjnfx `jkf m`` d vx J ff` m `jyy`f

bamfi mrdvai ycf fibfx*! Myfr ycf VMH J ofhmnf m wrdfxxdr ovy m``

m`dab J cm|f xymzfi h`dxf yd ycf drk d orjabjab wdfyrz yd `mrbfr mvij.

fahfx oz ijrfhyjab rfmijab xfrjfx xfr|jab mx wrfxjifay d Rrjyfrx my Rdrk

hrfmyjab wrdefhyx mx Vymc‚x wdfy `mvrfmyf mai ad drkjab my ycf WdfyrzLdvaimyjda! Jy‚x drk ycmy ff`x mx jnwdrymay mai vrbfay mx rjyjab wdfnx! J

ycjak J‚n `jkf Wmyrjhk ja ycmy J may yd of rfmi yd yd fahdvayfr wdfnx ja

ycf rjbcy hdaijyjdax dr rfhfj|jab ycfn m ifxjrf ycmy cmx xdnfyjnfx rf}vjrfi

nf yd hrfmyf ycdxf hdaijyjdax nzxf`! Mx Yrff Xfaxda xmji ja daf d dvr

Ydd`kjy nffyjabx ‐J rfm`jufi j J ijia‚y id jy adodiz dvì!„ Ovy J m`xd

may yd of ja ycf wrfxfahf d dycfrx rfhfj|jab wdfyrz yd of mo`f yd myhc

Wmyrjhk h`dxf cjx fzfx mai xnj`f my m `jaf!

Ycjx jx ycf hm`` yd cjhc m`` d ycf fxxmzjxyx hd``fhyfi cfrf mx f`` mx ycfnfnofrx d ycf Ydd`kjy brdvw rfxwdaifi! Rcfa ycfz mxkfi ycf }vfxyjda

‐Rcd j`` id jy4„ m xjab`f maxfr wrfxfayfi jyxf`5 ‐J j``!„ Ofhmvxf ycfz m``

ycfa fay da yd mxcjda vrycfr dr nmkf |jxjo`f wrdbrmnx ycmy mrf vavxv.



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m``z rfxdamay ycf Cmrrjfy Ndardf Wdfyrz Jaxyjyvyf mxkfi ycfn yd yf`` ycfjr

xydrjfx dhvxjab odyc da wrmhyjhm` hdahfrax mai da maxfrjab ycf }vfxyjda

‐Rcz id ycjx4„’mai ycvx dhvxjab da ycf |m`vfx ycfz drk yd fswrfxx

ycrdvbc ycfjr `modrx! Ycfz cm|f offa vavxvm``z bfafrdvx mai dwfa ja ycfjr rfxwdaxfx ady da`z modvy ycfjr xvhhfxxfx ovy m`xd modvy ycfjr njxymkfx mai

mj`vrfx cjhc ycfz rmak`z fsmnjaf cfrf! Ymkfa hd``fhyj|f`z ycfxf fxxmzx

mai ycf xydrjfx ycfz yf`` hdnnvajhmyf odyc cz ycjx drk nmyyfrx mai

xdnfycjab modvy ycf wfdw`f cd vaifrymkf jy’wfdw`f cd yd m daf cm|f

cmi ycfjr da wdfrv` fahdvayfrx jyc wdfyrz ja hdnnvajyz mai may yd

hrfmyf xjnj`mr dwwdryvajyjfx dr dycfrx!

Xd5

F`jumofyc M`fsmaifr Hm|f Hmafn Orddk`za! @ff Orjhhfyyj Wdfyx CdvxfAf Zdrk! Xcfrja Ojyxvj Am|med Amyjda Ydcdad D‚dicmn Amyjda mai

Ajucdaj Orjibfx Vymc mai Mrjudam! M`jxda Cmycdraf Ifnjab Vaj|fr.

xjyz d Mrjudam Wdfyrz Hfayfr Yvhxda! Imam Bjdjm Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi Rmxc.

jabyda IH! _dofry Cmxx _j|fr d Rdrix Ofrkf`fz! Omx Kmknma Wdfyrz

Jayframyjdam` _dyyfrimn! Ycdnmx @vs WdfyrzGYfhc My`maym! Hcrjxydwcfr

Nfrrj`` Vaj|frxjyz d Jdm‚x Jayframyjdam` Rrjyjab Wrdbrmn Jdm Hjyz mai

Xdnm`jm! @vjx _dirjbvfu Yjm Hcvhcm‚x Hfayrd Hv`yvrm` , Oddkxydrf @dx

Mabf`fx! Maam Ifm|frf Xnjyc Af Zdrk! Wmyrjhjm Xnjyc Hcjhmbd X`mn

Hcjhmbd!

Mx J rfmi modvy ycf xyrvbb`fx mai fswfrjfahfx d ycfxf yf`|f wfdw`f’

cd ycfz xd cmy ycfz rfmw’J hdvì may yd of maz daf d ycfn hdvì

may yd of wmry d ycfjr xydrjfx fmhc v`` d wmxxjda mai d rfm`jumyjda f|fa

d rf|f`myjda’fmhc orjnnjab jyc ndnfayx ycmy wrdwf` ycfjr rjyfrx jayd

mai xvxymja ycfn ycrdvbc ycf cmri drk d orjabjab wdfyrz jayd ycfjr

hdnnvajyjfx! Jy jx cmri drk! Jy jxa‚y dr ycf yjnji dr wddr ja xwjrjy’drjaiffi dr ycdxf cd mrf `ddkjab dr wrmjxf mai b`drz! Jy ja|d`|fx ycf xdryx

d ymxkx hrfmyj|f wfdw`f mrf adydrjdvx`z jrkfi oz5 hcmxjab ndafz hcmxjab

xwmhf hcmxjab xnm`` jrrjymyjab wjfhfx d wmwfr dr f.nmj`x dyfa hdaymjajab

afx f ida‚y may yd cfmr modvy ycf hmahf`fi brmay dr `fmxf ycf xhcfi.

v`fi ifnd`jyjda ycf wdfy jyc ycf lv cd cmx yd omhk dvy d ma mwwfmr.

mahf my ycf `mxy xfhdai!

Mai d hdvrxf ycjx drk jx ady dr mazdaf cd jx ja jy dr ycf ndafz!

Ycfxf wfdw`f mrf mz ydd xnmry dr ycmy! Ycfz id ycjx drk ofhmvxf oz jyycfz mrf hdayjavm``z rf.jnwmxxjdafi mai rfaffi oz cmy ycfz nmkf! Ja

ycjx mx Ydn @vs wdjayx dvy nmkjab ma drbmajumyjda ycmy orjabx wdfyrz yd m

hdnnvajyz jx ja jyx |m`vfx mai xmyjxmhyjdax ady xd ijfrfay rdn nmkjab m



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wdfn! Fmhc jx m xwmhf m xyrmabfr jx ja|jyfi yd fayfr xcmwfi dr ycmy xyrmabfr‚x

w`fmxvrf mai fa`mrbfnfay! Fmhc nmkfx d ycmy xyrmabfr m f``d yrm|f`fr mai

orjabx cjn dr cfr jayd hdnnvajyz! Fmhc rf}vjrfx m wdfrv` drhf d jnmb.

jamyjda mww`jfi ady yd jaij|jivm` affix mai ifxjrfx ovy yd hd``fhyj|f dafx!Xvhc nmkjab jx ycf wvrf drk d ycf cfmry!

Ycf wfdw`f cd id jy mrf mndab ycf ydvbcfxy mai ndxy ifyfrnjafi J

kad! Mx ycfxf fxxmzx xcd mbmja mai mbmja ycfz mrf m`xd mndab ycf ndxy

rjhc`z rfmrifi! Rcfa J ycjak d ycf drì mx jy `ddkfi yd m Vymc hcjì ja

ycf `myf ‚<7x mai fmr`z ‚27x m hcjì cd jyc cfr wmrfayx `jyfrm``z of`jf|fi

xcf mx bdjab yd of ycf da`z `j|jab wdfy mai hdnwmrf ycmy drì yd ycf

daf f ad jacmojy ja cjhc wdfyx |jxjy xhcdd` h`mxxrddnx jormrjfx Jaijma

rfxfr|myjdax omrrjd hdnnvajyz hfayfrx rfvbff hmnwx mai `dhm` omrx maija cjhc yffambfrx rdvyjaf`z mai |jbdrdvx`z wmryjhjwmyf ja drkxcdwx mai

x`mnx mai rfhjymyjda hdayfxyx J vaifrxymai ycmy dr zdvab wfdw`f cd may

yd of ja ycf wrfxfahf d wdfyrz cfycfr mx rjyfrx dr mx rfmifrx mai `jxyfa.

frx ycf drì jx yrmaxdrnfi dr ycf ofyyfr! Ycjx af drì ja cjhc wdfyrz

cmx m |jbdrdvx wrfxfahf jx ycf wrdivhy d ycf cmri drk d wfdw`f cd xmji

dahf mai ycfa d|fr mai d|fr mbmja ‐J j``!„ Ycf drì jx j|f`z ovy jy mai jyx

drk mrf mr rdn ajxcfi!

ADYF

=! Nmrk Xyrmai mai Im|ji @fcnma fix! Ofxy Mnfrjhma Wdfyrz =::= #Af Zdrk5

Xhrjoafr =::=*!





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ycf L`zcff`

Da ycf _f`myjdaxcjw ofyffa Wdfyrz mai Jyx Mvijfahf’

Wdfyrz Jayframyjdam`

O Kky o nh ch

=!

Jy mx ycf xdvai d m wdfn ycmy nmif nf m`` ja `d|f jyc wdfyrz dahf mai dr m``! J mxa‚y ja nz `j|jab rddn J mxa‚y afsy yd m rfmijab `mnw adr iji J cm|f m oddk da

nz `mw! Jy mxa‚y f|fa ycf wdfy cjnxf` rfmijab dvy cjx wdfn ovy rmycfr cjx yrmax`m.

ydr xymaijab my m `fhyfra da xymbf ja m xnm`` mvijydrjvn!

Ja =::? J mx drkjab dr m hv`yvrm` drbmajumyjda ja _dyyfrimn! Mx J

wrfwmrfi dr m wdfyrz f|fajab J w`mhfi ycf `fhyfra afsy yd ycf njkf dhvxfi

ycf `jbcy mai wvy m hmrmf d myfr da m xnm`` ymo`f! Afsy J ijrfhyfi ycf

mvijfahf jaxjif mai cfa ycf rxy rfmifr hmnf da J nmif xvrf ycmy cf mx

wrdwfr`z `jy ycmy ycf iddr mx h`dxfi mai ycf mvijfahf }vjfy`z xfmyfi maiycmy cjx |djhf mx mvijo`f rdn ycf ofbjaajab!



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Ycf wdfn fay mx d``dx5

M`daf ycjx xvnnfr ndrajab da ycf ifxfryfi cmr

J `ddk ydmrix ycf omr J `ddk ydmri ycf JaifjajyfJ `ddk mai J mn b`mi yd xff

Ycf yjaz o`mhk jbvrf d ma jahdnjab xyfmnfr!

Mai hdayjavfi

J `ddk my ycf mr.d xyfmnfr jyc brfmy jaifwfaifahf d njai

Mai ja nf m `zcff` x`d`z xymryx xwjaajab!

#Yrmax`myfi oz _jhcmri Ufajyc*

_fmhcjab ycjx xyrdwcf J hdnw`fyf`z drbdy modvy ycf `jbcyx ycf hcmjrx

ycf mvijfahf! J vaifrxyddi `jyy`f d cmy J mx cfmrjab ovy f`y cd iffw

jaxjif nf nz da lzcff` mx xfy ja ndyjda rxy x`d`z mai hrfmkjab

jyc vamnj`jmrjyz ovy }vjyf xdda wrdvi`z rf|d`|jab m`dab jyc ycf m|fx

hvrrfayx mai yfnwfxyx d ‐Nmrjyjnf Dif„ oz Wdryvbvfxf wdfy Lframaid

Wfxxdm! Lrdn ycf rxy rf|d`vyjda damri J mx hda|jahfi ycmy jy dvì

af|fr xydw! J mx xdì!

F`f|fa zfmrx `myfr J ofhmnf ycf ijrfhydr d m fxyj|m` ycmy mx mndvx

mrdvai ycf drì ofhmvxf dr zfmrx jy cmi offa wrd|jijab m xymbf dr ycf

brfmyfxy |djhfx ja wdfyrz5 ycf Wdfyrz Jayframyjdam` Lfxyj|m` ja _dyyfrimn!

Fmhc zfmr mrdvai ycjryz wdfyx rdn m`` dvr hdrafrx d ycf b`dof mrf

ja|jyfi dr m ffk`dab f|fay yd rfmi rdn ycfjr da wdfyrz mai jxyfa yd ycmy

d dycfrx! Ldr dryz zfmrx m ordmi mai |mrjfi mvijfahf cmx myyfaifi ycf fxyj.

|m` ja xfmrhc d fndyjda fa`jbcyfanfay fswfrjfahf nfmajab mai nzxyjhm.yjda! Ldr dryz zfmrx _dyyfrimn cmx offa ycf hrdxxrdmix d jayframyjdam`

wdfyrz m w`mydrn da cjhc hv`yvrfx `mabvmbfx |djhfx mai ycdvbcyx nffy!

?!

Ma mryjxy ja|jyfx m mndvx wdfy yd hdnf mai xff m drk jaxwjrfi oz daf d ycf `myyfr‚x

wdfnx! ‐Xff„ cf xmzx ‐zdvr wdfn jx modvy ycjx mai ycmy mai xd J‚|f rfwrfxfayfi jy jkf

ycjx!„ ‐Nz wdfn jxa‚y modvy ycmy my m``„ ycf wdfy xmzx yd cjhc ycf mryjxy fsh`mjnxjaijbamay`z ‐Kffw zdvr cmaix d nz wdfn-„



Ycf L`zcff` p 6

Ndifra wdfyrz cmx m ijhv`y rf`myjdaxcjw jyc ycf bfafrm` wvo`jh!

Wdfyrz xffnx yd cm|f ma jnmbf wrdo`fn! Jy cmx offa m `dab yjnf xjahf

wdfyrz mx m mz d xwrfmijab afx yd ycf afsy yrjof dr ijxw`mzjab ycf yfhc.

ajhm` mai `jabvjxyjh jabfavjyz d ycf |frxjfr! D|fr ycf hfayvrjfx jy cmxyfaifi yd ijxymahf jyxf` rdn ycf wrf|mj`jab rf`jbjdvx wd`jyjhm` mai$dr xdhjm`

jxxvfx d ycf imz mai xffnx yd mhhfwy da`z jyxf` dr `mabvmbf mx m ycfnf! Ycf

wvo`jh xffx `mabvmbf mx m nfijvn d hdnnvajhmyjda mai j `mabvmbf ad

`dabfr hdnnvajhmyfx ovy hdavxfx dr ijxyvrox jy `fmix yd masjfyz mai

jrrjymyjda!

Af|frycf`fxx wdfyrz da‚y `fm|f ycf wvo`jh m`daf! Y! X! F`jdy dahf xmji

ycmy m bddi wdfn hdnnvajhmyfx ofdrf ycf drix mrf vaifrxyddi! Ycjx

hdnnfay xffnx yd cm|f offa vahdaxhjdvx`z fnormhfi oz ycf nmedrjyz; ycfadyjda d ycf ‐wdfyjh„ jx rf}vfay`z vxfi yd jaijhmyf ofmvyjv` ycjabx ycmy

wfdw`f ida‚y vaifrxymai5 jahdnwrfcfaxjo`f wmxxmbfx ja Mairfj Ymrkd|xkz‚x

`nx ada`jafmr yfsyx ja Emnfx Edzhf‚x wrdxf ycf mwwmrfay`z xyrvhyvrf`fxx wmx.

xmbfx ja D`j|jfr Nfxxjmfa‚x wjmad hdnwdxjyjdax dr Rmxxj`z Kmaijaxkz‚x

jafsw`jhmo`f drnm` fswfrjnfayx!

Ycf bfafrm` wvo`jh d``dx wdfyrz rdn m ijxymahf! Evxy cfa ycf Fvrd.

wfma mvijfahf xffnx yd bfy vxfi yd m ndifra dyfa ijhv`y dyfa jamhhfx.

xjo`f wdfyrz rjii`fi jyc jabfajdvx rffrfahfx nfymwcdrx mai `jormrz

xcf`|fx v`` d jayfrwrfymyjdax m af rday`jaf d wdfyx xcjyx ycf cf`n d|fr.

yvrajab ycf mvijfahf‚x rd`f dahf mbmja! ‐Ad nfymwcdr $ j`` fayfr cfrf„ ycf

wdfyx hrz!= Ycf wdfn xmzx cmy jy xmzx; ycjabx mrf cmy ycfz mrf! Ycfz fsyja.

bvjxc nfmajab mai ycf xfaxmyjda d `mabvmbf rfnmjax! Ycf nfxxmbf yd ycf

wvo`jh jx ycmy ‐ycf nfmajab d m wdfn jx ad `dabfr jacfrfay yd ycf yfsy ovy

hdaxyrvhyfi oz ycf rfmifr cfrxf`!„?

M drìjif `jafmr f|d`vyjda ja wdfyrz idfxa‚y fsjxy! Ja f|frz hdvayrzmai ja f|frz hv`yvrf if|f`dwnfayx ymkf ycfjr da jaifwfaifay hdvrxf!

Rcj`f wdxyndifrajxn rmjxfx jyx cfmi ja Fvrdwf wd`jyjhm``z fabmbfi wdfyrz

wrf|mj`x ja Mrjhm mai Xdvyc Mnfrjhm! Rcfa m af bfafrmyjda d Fvrdwfma

wdfyx rf}vjrfx ndrf fabmbfnfay mai wd`jyjhm` mmrfafxx rdn wdfyrz Mrj.

hm‚x mai Xdvyc Mnfrjhm‚x wdfyrjfx ofhdnf ndrf `mabvmbf.dhvxfi! F|frz

hdvayrz f|frz hv`yvrf kadx m hfayvrjfx.dì wdfyjh yrmijyjda ycmy jx hmrrjfi

m`dab da m|fx mai mxcfx vw da ycf ofmhc mai ycfa omhk dvy!

Ycf Wdfyrz Jayframyjdam` Lfxyj|m` ijxw`mzx m`` ycfxf hvrrfayx! Ycf fxyj|mìdfxa‚y xvoxhrjof yd m wmryjhv`mr wdfyjhx mai jx v``z mvydadndvx ja jyx hcdjhfx!

Jy idfxa‚y cm|f maz wd`jyjhm` xdhjm` dr jifd`dbjhm` do`jbmyjdax! M`` zfmr rdvai





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dycfr wdfyx ad dvì of affi`fxx`z hdavxjab! Ycf fxyj|m` cmx offa ndrf ycma m xvh.

hfxx dr nf! Ycmakx mai xff zdv afsy zfmr-„

Ycf Wdfyrz Jayframyjdam` Lfxyj|m` ja _dyyfrimn `j|fx da ycf wdfr d

xwdkfa wdfyrz! Ldr zfmrx ycf xvoyjy`f d ycf fxyj|m` cmx offa ‐Ycf \djhf d ycf Wdfy!„ Ja ycf =:27x mai =:37x ycf dri |djhf nmja`z rffrrfi yd wd`jyj.

hm` |djhf5 ycf wdfy mx m rf|d`vyjdamrz mai `fay |djhf yd ycf rfwrfxxfi! My

ycmy yjnf ycf wd`jyjhm` nfxxmbf dyfa xffnfi ndrf jnwdrymay ycma ycf

}vm`jyz d ycf wdfn!

Ja ycf =::7x wd`jyjhx `dxy jyx wdfr mx m ycfnf mai m xwmhf dwfafi dr

ycf mvydadndvx }vm`jyz d jaij|jivm` wdfyrz! Ycf dhvx da ycf wdfy‚x |djhf

rfnmjafi ovy jy cmi m ijfrfay rd`f5 m bvjif yd ycf hdayfayx! Lmr ndrf ycma

m hrjyjh‚x dr xdnfdaf f`xf‚x jayfrwrfymyjda d m wdfn m wdfy‚x |djhf jx ycfofxy bvjif jnmbjamo`f yd `fmi m rfmifr dr `jxyfafr jayd m wdfn! Ady ycf

|djhf ycmy ofdrf dr myfr ycf wfrdrnmahf d m wdfn f`modrmyf`z fsw`mjax

ycf drjbja mai nfmajab d ycf wdfn ovy ycf |djhf ycmy kadx cd yd om`.

mahf yfaxjda mai hdayfnw`myjda ycmy w`mhfx hdnnmx ja w`mhfx m rfmifr

idfxa‚y xff ycfn da wmwfr ycmy irmx dvy ycf nfmajab d o`mak xwmhfx mai

ycmy orjabx yd `jf ycf ijm`dbvfx mai |djhfx d m`` ycf wfdw`f doefhyx f|fayx

mai ycdvbcyx hdaymjafi ja ycf wdfn!

My nmaz jayframyjdam` fxyj|m`x m wdfy‚x wfrdrnmahf jx d``dfi oz m

rfmijab d ycf wdfn‚x yrmax`myjda! Bfafrm``z ycf yrmax`myjda jx if`j|frfi ja m

rmycfr lmy ovxjafxx`jkf mz ofhmvxf ycf yrmax`mydr idfxa‚y may yd jnjymyf

ycf mz ycf wdfy rfmi! Rjyc ycjx hdaxyrvhyjda ycf mvijfahf hma jaiffi v``z

faedz ycf xdvai d ycf dyfa vamnj`jmr `mabvmbf ovy maz ijrfhy mxxdhjmyjda

ofyffa ycf xdvai mai ycf nfmajab d ycf dri jx `dxy! My Wdfyrz Jayfram.

yjdam` Lfxyj|m` f wrdefhy ycf yrmax`myjda ofcjai ycf wdfy ivrjab ycf rfmi.jab xd ycmy ycf drix mai `jafx mwwfmr my ycf xmnf yfnwd mx ycf drjbjam` jx

xwdkfa! Ycrdvbc ycjx ycf mvijfahf fswfrjfahfx ycf wdfn ijrfhy`z mai ja m``

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jyx hdnw`fyfafxx; ycf mvijfahf jnnfijmyf`z vaifrxymaix cz ycf wdfy xjabx

odx of``dx cjxxfx cjxwfrx }vdyfx dr mhyx! Jy fswfrjfahfx ycf rd`f d

f|frz ydam` hcmabf d f|frz cfxjymyjda f|frz izamnjh ycmy ycf wdfy orjabx

yd ycf wfrdrnmahf!Xvhc ma fswfrjfahf rf}vjrfx d hdvrxf m wdfy cd jx hmwmo`f d rfmi.

jab cjx wdfnx f`` cjhc hfrymja`z jxa‚y ycf hmxf dr m`` wdfyx! Ycf jifm`

wdfyrz mnomxxmidr jx ycf wdfy mx wfrdrnfr rjxjab vw rdn ycf wmwfr mai

ijxyjabvjxcjab cfrxf` dr ycf mvijfahf jycja m ycfmyrjhm` hdayfsy! ‐Ycf.

myrf„ Lfifrjhd Bmrhjm @drhm dahf xmji ‐jx wdfyrz xymaijab vw!„

9! Myfr daf wrdbrmn J nfy m hdvw`f cd cmi offa mjycv` z myyfaijab ycf Lfxyj|m` dr

zfmrx! M `d|f d wdfyrz cmi dahf ordvbcy ycfn ydbfycfr mai xyj`` hdaafhyfi ycfn! Ldr

zfmrx ycfz‚i xcmrfi mai drxcjwwfi ycf xmnf wdfyx mai wdfnx mai bdaf yd m`` ycf

wdfyrz f|fajabx ydbfycfr! Ldr ycf rxy yjnf ja ycfjr `j|fx ycfz frf cm|jab ma fadr.

ndvx rd5 cf ycdvbcy ycmy f|fajab‚x wdfyrz ycf ofxy cf‚i f|fr cfmri; xcf dvai jy

irfmiv`! J m`kfi da xmyjxfi!

Ycf Afycfr`maix cmx =2 nj``jda jacmojymayx mai mrdvai 267 `j|jab

xfrjdvx wdfyx cd cm|f fmhc wvo`jxcfi my `fmxy daf hd``fhyjda jyc m

rfadafi wvo`jxcjab cdvxf! Ycf m|frmbf wdfyrz hd``fhyjda ja ycf Afycfr.

`maix cmx m wrjay rva d ofyffa fjbcy cvairfi mai daf ycdvxmai hdwjfx! M

`mrbf avnofr d ycfxf ijxmwwfmr yd ycf wvo`jxcfr ycf wrfxx ycf hrjyjhx

`jormrjfx mai mrhcj|fx hd``fmbvfx mnj`z nfnofrx mai rjfaix! Wmry d cmy‚x

`fy ijxmwwfmrx vaifr ycf mvycdr‚x ofi mai ycf rfxy xffk dvy m wmyc yd rfmifrx

|jm ycf oddkxcdwx! Myfr mrdvai =67 cm|f offa xdì ycf xvrw`vx jx

rfnmjaifrfi!

Jx ad myyfayjda wmji yd wdfyrz ja ycf Afycfr`maix ycfa4 Adycjab hdvì

of `fxx ycf hmxf! Ycfrf cmx rmrf`z offa xd nvhc fafrbz ja Wdfyrz`mai mx ja

rfhfay zfmrx! ‐Wdfyrz„ mx daf d ycf ndxy xfmrhcfi.dr drix da ycf Jayfr.

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afy ja ?77:! Ycf maavm` Wdfyrz Imz rfmhcfx yfax d ycdvxmaix d wfdw`f

jyc cvairfix d wrdbrmnx ja ycfmyfrx `jormrjfx oddkxcdwx mai xhcdd`x!

F|frz xf`.rfxwfhyjab hjyz ja ycf Afycfr`maix cmx m wdfy ja rfxjifahf #xymix.

ijhcyfr ’„dhjm` hjyz wdfy„* mai ady `dab mbd yfayz ycdvxmai wfdw`f|dyfi dr ycf af wdfy `mvrfmyf! Ycf f`fhyjda idnjamyfi ycf nfijm dr

ffkx! Ycfmyfrx drbmajuf wdfyrz x`mnx; wdfyx wfrdrn m`dab jyc nvxjhjmax

rdn ycf ofxy drhcfxyrmx imahf hdnwmajfx mai ycfmyfr brdvwx; wdfyx mrf

hcdxfa mx xjifkjhkx da ycf ndxy wdwv`mr yf`f|jxjda hcmy xcdx!

Ycfrf nmz of |frz f |d`vnfx xdì ovy wdfyrz aix jyx mz yd ma

mvijfahf! Mai ycmy mvijfahf4 Jyx nfnofrx ida‚y may oddkx da ycfjr `mwx!

Ycfz mrf `ddkjab dr ma fswfrjfahf!

Ycf fxxfahf d ma f|fajab my ycf Wdfyrz Jayframyjdam` Lfxyj|m` hdnwrjxfxycf |djhf d m wdfy ycf wdfn mai jyx yrmax`myjda! Ldr zfmrx wfdw`f cm|f offa

hdnjab yd _dyyfrimn yd `jxyfa yd ycf wdfyx! Xyj`` ycfxf xwfhjh hdahfa.

yrmyfi mai jayfaxf hv`yvrm` fswfrjfahfx mrf ofhdnjab rmrfr! Ofhmvxf ycf

hfrform` hdryfs my ycf omhk d ycf cvnma ormja ycf mrfm ycmy bd|frax wfrhfw.

yjda cmx f|d`|fi fadrndvx`z ja ycf mkf d ycf ijbjym` rf|d`vyjda m hdn.

wv`xjda yd xfr|f m`` d ycf mvijfahf‚x xfaxfx cmx mrjxfa mndab wrdbrmnnfrx!

Fmhc wrdbrmn nmkfr cd orjabx `jyfrmyvrf jayd ycf hdayfnwdrmrz ycfmyfr

nvxy rflfhy da ycf drn ja cjhc cf dr xcf idfx ycjx! Oz ad ycf Afycfr.

`maix jx mh}vmjayfi jyc f|frz drn wdxxjo`f ja ycjx mrfm! @jyfrmrz wfrdr.

nmahf hma if`j|fr jayfrfxyjab hdnojamyjdax’hdnojamyjdax jyc nvxjh

ycfmyfr imahf ijbjym` wdfyrz ifomyfx jayfr|jfx f|fa hdnwfyjyjdax’ycmy

hma xyrfabycfa iffwfa mai f|fa rfev|famyf ycf rfhfwyjda d wdfyrz!

Vadryvamyf`z ycjx af mai fscj`mrmyjab rmabf d wdxxjoj`jyjfx yfnwyx

nmaz wrdbrmn nmkfrx yd wv`` dvy m`` ycf xydwx ja drifr yd rfxwdai yd ycf

ifnmai dr fswfrjfahfx! Mai cfa hdayfay dxfx dvy yd drn mx jy jaf|jym.o`z idfx ycf om`mahf jx `dxy! Mvijfahfx nmz of xvoefhy yd m lddi d yfsy

jnmbf mai xdvai rmbnfayx hmxy d|fr ycf rfmijab wdfy rdn m`` ijrfhyjdax

dr yd wdfyx cdjxyfi jayd ycfmyrjhm` hdxyvnfx dr wrfxfayfi ja ods dvyyx

xymaijab da xdmwodsfx! Mai nfmacj`f ycf omr xymzx dwfa mai ajoo`fx mrf

wmxxfi mrdvai!

Wfdw`f dyfa ycjak ycmy ycfz‚`` myyrmhy m zdvab mvijfahf jyc ycjx kjai

d hjrhvx! Ycjx jx ady da`z vayrvf ovy m`xd ma jaxv`y yd ycmy mvijfahf! _fhfay`z

m zdvab rjyfr yjrfi d m`` ycf of``x mai cjxy`fx ja Wdfyrz`mai xfy vw ycfxfrjfx Avr @jyfrmyvr 8 ja _dyyfrimn ja cjhc cf w`mhfi adycjab ndrf ycma

ycf wdfy mai cjx dr cfr wdfyrz da ycf xymbf! Ycf wrdbrmnx mrf ad faedzjab

m xjufmo`f zdvab mvijfahf!



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M bddi wdfn oz m wdfy cd jx hmwmo`f d orjabjab cjx dr cfr drk

jayd ycf jnf`jbcy hdaymjax m`` ycf xfaxmyjdax afhfxxmrz dr ycf rf}vjxjyf wvo.

`jh fswfrjfahf! Jy‚x m hcm``fabf yd ycf wrdbrmn nmkfr evxy mx nvhc mx yd ycf

mvijfahf yd rfnmja dhvxfi da hdayfay!

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M wdfyrz yfmhcfr mxkfi m xyvifay cmy cf mx rfmijab! ‐Adycjab„ ycf xyvifay

maxfrfi! ‐Ovy j zdv da`z rjyf wdfyrz mai af|fr rfmi jy zdv‚`` af|fr if|f`dw„ ycf

yfmhcfr xmji ja mxydajxcnfay! ‐Ad nma„ ycf xyvifay rfxwdaifi hmaiji`z ‐J‚|f da`z

bdy yd cdvrx m ffk dr wdfyrz mai jy ymkfx nf m`` ycmy yjnf yd rjyf!„ Ifxwjyf ycjx

ycf xyvifay cmi ycf mnojyjda yd ofhdnf m brfmy wdfy!

Mx J wrf|jdvx`z nfayjdafi ycf Afycfr`maix cmx m wdwv`myjda d xf|fa.

yffa nj``jda! M nj``jda rjyf wdfyrz rdn yjnf yd yjnf! My fmxy cm` d ycfxf

mxwjrf yd hmrffrx ja wdfyrz ovy da`z m cmaiv` fai vw ja ycf hjrhvjy d wdfyrz

drkxcdwx mai hrfmyj|f rjyjab hdvrxfx! Ycmakx yd wdfyx xvhc mx @dri

Ozrda mai Mrycvr _jnomvi daf d ycf ndxy wfrxjxyfay m``mhjfx ja Fvrdwf

jx ycmy zdv affi yd xyviz |frz |frz cmri yd ofhdnf m nvxjhjma m imahfr dr

ma mhydr ovy zdv ida‚y yd ofhdnf m wdfy’zdv mrf odra daf! Wdfyrz nmaz

ycjak m`mx hmaady of `fmrafi!

Mhyvm``z wdfyrz hma of `fmrafi nmja`z ycrdvbc rfmijab jy rfmijab jyijxhvxxjab jy mai rfmijab jy xdnf ndrf! Ycf fmr`jfr ycf ofyyfr! Jy jx fsyrfnf`z

jnwdrymay yd orjab hcjìrfa jayd hdaymhy jyc fsjxyjab wdfyrz rdn ma fmr`z

mbf! Ycf hdahfayrmyjda da `mabvmbf ycmy hdaymhy jyc wdfyrz mdrix ycfn

cf`wx ycfn dr ycf rfxy d ycfjr `j|fx! Ovy jy‚x jnwdrymay ady yd bd ida da

zdvr kaffx yd ycf hcjìrfa mai dfr ycfn da`z wdfyrz da ycfjr `f|f`! Bddi

bvjimahf cjhc idfxa‚y fsw`mja ovy rmjxfx }vfxyjdax mai ijfrfay xvbbfx.

yjdax cjhc idfxa‚y jayfrwrfy ovy xyjnv`myfx jaifwfaifay ycdvbcy jx ycf

lzcff` ycmy xfyx m zdvab bfafrmyjda da hdvrxf mx J mx xfy da hdvrxfcfa J cfmri ‐Nmrjyjnf Dif!„

Mndab ycf dycfr mvijfahfx dr jayframyjdam` wdfyx my Wdfyrz Jayfram.

yjdam` Lfxyj|m` jx ma mvijfahf d yf`|f.zfmr.dìx! Ycf hcjìrfa `jxyfa yd ycf

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M`dabxjif Wdfyrz Jayframyjdam` m brfmy nmaz dycfr jayframyjdam` drbm.

ajumyjdax mrf dwfajab vw ycfjr wdfyrz mrhcj|fx! @zrjk`jaf ja Ofr`ja ycf

Wdfyrz Mrhcj|fx ja @daida ycf Wdfyrz @jormrz ja Fijaovrbc mai ycf

Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda ja Hcjhmbd mrf jnwdrymay fsmnw`fx! Ycf ndnfay m``ycfxf drbmajumyjdax mrf wrfwmrfi yd `fmwrdb ycf `mabvmbf yfhcajhm` mai

rjbcyx cvri`fx mai ycrd dwfa m`` ycf jaidx mai iddrx d ycfjr foxjyfx

ycf daifrv` wdxxjoj`jyz j`` mrjxf d edjajab ydbfycfr yd nmkf m`` d ycjx

wdfyrz mai rf`myfi hdayfay m|mj`mo`f yd m drìjif mvijfahf’ma mvij.

fahf ycmy ycmy j`` bfy yd fswfrjfahf ycf fndyjda d ycf dwfajab xdvaix d

Rm`y Rcjynma‚x ‐Xdab d Nzxf` „ xhrmyhcfi dvy dayd m ms hz`jaifr oz

Fijxda cjnxf` ycmy `dxfx jyxf` ja ycf xyjrrjab |djhf d Edxfwc Ordixkz mai

ycmy ff`x wrdvi cfa jyx m|drjyf wdfy xyj`` xymaix vw ja Xwmajxc Xmcj`j dr Hcjafxf!

Ycf ijbjym`jumyjda d jayframyjdam` wdfyrz ja dri xdvai mai jnmbf jx

ad imabfr ovy m brfmy ojaijab drhf ofyffa wdfyrz mai ycf wvo`jh! Ycf

vaj}vf wdxxjoj`jyz d ofjab mo`f yd ijrfhy`z mhhfxx m wdfn jyx yrmax`myjda mai

ycf wdfy rfmijab dvy cjx dr cfr drk bvmrmayffx hvrjdxjyz faycvxjmxn mxhj.

amyjda mai vrycfr fa}vjrz! M ajhf mievahy yd m`` ycf ijbjym` mhyj|jyz jx ycf

xjnv`ymafdvx brdyc d ycf avnofr d |jxjydrx yd wdfyrz foxjyfx mai ycf

avnofr d fxyj|m` |jxjydrx! Nfmacj`f fxyj|m`x xvhc mx Wdfyrz Jayframyjdam`

mai ycf Xhdyyjxc XyMaum Lfxyj|m` cm|f xymryfi `j|f xyrfmnjab d ycfjr f|fayx

xd ycmy mvijfahfx rdn Xziafz yd @jnm hma myhc m`dab ydd! Xjxyfr fxyj|m`x

cm|f xwrvab vw jkf ycf daf cfì mxy zfmr ja Mayfrw cfrf ycf dhm` mvij.

fahf myhcfi wrdefhyjdax rdn ycf Wdfyrz Jayframyjdam` Lfxyj|m` da m `mrbf

xhrffa!

Nz lzcff` dr wdfyrz mx ordvbcy jayd ndyjda oz m rfmijab oz m

wdfn ycmy brmoofi cdì d nf ofdrf J hdvì wrdhfxx jy! Jy ordvbcy nf ady evxy m brfmy `d|f d wdfyrz ovy m`xd ma fadrndvx hdnwv`xjda yd xcmrf jy jyc

dycfrx! J ofhmnf hda|jahfi ycmy m wdfy da xymbf m wdfn da ycf Jayfrafy dr

ma jaxwjrjab yfmhcfr hma xfy m ordmi wvo`jh‚x lzcff` ja ndyjda! J‚n m`xd

hda|jahfi d ycf vaof`jf|mo`f farjhcnfay ycjx j`` dfr vx m``!

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=! Cmax Lm|frfz ‐Bffa nfymddr„ #‐Ad Nfymwcdr„* Bfijhcyfa #Mnxyfrimn5 If

Ofujbf Oje =:<3*!

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Ycf L`zcff` p =8

8! Ycf zdvab rjyfr jx Frafxy |ma ifr Kmxy; ycf amnf nfmax ‐Da`z @jyfrm.

yvrf„ ja Bfrnma!

9! Wjfy Bfrormaiz Ffa Xyffafjk dw if rdyxfa #Nfv`facd5 Mnxyfrimn ?778*!

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Ja Mvbvxy =::: ycf yfayc maaj|frxmrz Amyjdam` Wdfyrz X`mn mx cfì ja

Hcjhmbd! Ifwfaijab da cdn zdv ym`kfi yd ycf x`mn fjycfr xyrdif omhk

cdnf xwdryjab m hdhkz brja mai m b`jyyfrjab `dwxjifi hrda dr xcf `jnwfi

ja rdn m omhk m``fz ejyyfrz mai orvjxfi m|djijab ijrfhy fzf hdaymhy mai

rf`vhymay`z xcdjab cfr mbf!Oz ycf yjnf ycf hf`formyfi mai |j`jfi wdfyrz hdnwfyjyjda rfmhcfi

idvo`f ijbjyx f|frzdaf ja ycf wdfyrz hdnnvajyz mai nmaz ofzdai jy cmi

ma dwjajda! Ycf x`mn mx afhfxxmrz orfmyc m rdvxjab kjhk ja ycf rfmr dr ma

mry drn ycmy cffufi ivxy mai xyrvhyvrf! Dr jy mx m ifmyc kaf`` dr ycf

bfarf m ormxc mai }vjrkz ycfmyfr hdnw`fyf jyc xhdrfhmrix; varv`z wdfyjhx

oz hdnnda vayfavrfi d`k; mai ‐evibfx„ cd frf mhyvm``z wrjufi dr

ycfjr `mhk d }vm`jhmyjdax!

Ovy ad nmyyfr cd zdv f`y modvy cfr ycf d`f bjr` cmi hfrymja`z brdavw! Mai f|frzdaf mbrffi ycmy xcf hdvìa‚y cm|f offa odra mazcfrf f`xf!

Nz cdnfyda jx ycf `mai d o`mymay wd`jyjhkjab \jfaam cdy idbx my |f

ja ycf ndrajab mai ycf hjyz mx nfma ovy fhjfay nmhcjaf! Jy‚x Nmzdr



Ycf Xfhdai Ycrdmy p =6

Im`fz #_jhcmri ady _jhcjf*; amxyz bvy.`f|f` o`vfx bvjymr; mai ycf xwrm`jab

xwfhyfr d ycf cdvxjab wrdefhy Hmorjaj.Brffa ycf o`mhkfafi jaidx d jyx

momaidafi vajyx `jkf njxxjab yffyc ja ma m`rfmiz rdyyfi xnj`f! Hcjhmbd jx

hdwx jyc ycfjr bvyx xwj``jab d|fr ycfjr of`yx ycf rjdyx ja ‚<3 njifxyfra‐cdiz„ mai Ojb Mww`f fa|z! Jy jx x`z mai ofmvyfdvx mai vaorji`fi irvn.

ofmy! Ycf x`mn rmbbfi mai nfxnfrjujab cmi ycf bm`` yd yfmk `mabvmbf mai

rmyy`f hda|fayjda cj`f xfr|jab irjakx da ycf xjif! Jy mx ycf Rjaiz‚x ja

mai ycrdvbc!

Ycf am` d ycf dvr.imz Amyjdam` X`mn mx cfì ja ycf 8<77.xfmy

Hcjhmbd Ycfmyfr ycmy bmviz Xymyf Xyrffy xcdw`mhf jyc ycf nfbmmyy

nmr}vff brja’ycf `fyyfrx H.C.J.H.M.B.D `jafi vw |fryjhm``z mai yja.

k`jab rf`fay`fxx`z rfnjaijab `dhm`x ycmy jy mx xyj`` mndab ycf hjyz‚x ija.i`jab idayda fayfrymjanfay dwyjdax mai wrd|jijab ydvrjxyx jyc ycf

wfrfhy jxc.zdv.frf.cfrf omhkirdw dr ycfjr hcffrz ijbjym` wjs! Ifxwjyf

jyx jaafr dwv`fahf ycf ycfmyfr xmy da ycf fibf d m idayda ycmy cmi

bj|fa vw da yrmaxdrnmyjda! Ovz m hdmy irjwwjab njak my Nmrxcm`` Ljfì‚x

mai ycfa m`k cm` m o`dhk yd bfy m ljnxz wmwfr w`myf cfmwfi jyc dj`z

mryfrz.hrmnnjab xdv` ddi! Mc zfx ycf x`mn mx omhk cdnf!

Ycf hdah`vijab ajbcy d amyjdam`x cmi hdnf m `dab mz rdn jyx `dfr

myymbf hdvayfrwmry m ifhmif ofdrf! Ycjx yjnf ndrf ycma 8777 wfdw`fwmhkfi ycf ycfmyfr! M avnofr d drnfr hdnwfyjydrx cm|jab nd|fi da yd

brfmyfr mai ndrf wrdymo`f b`drjfx idyyfi ycf hrdi `jkf hf`fox da Dxhmr

ajbcy! Njkf Rm``mhf d <7 Njavyfx mx ja myyfaimahf mai f|fa cf hdvìa‚y

kffw m `jyy`f mf rdn xffwjab jayd cjx ‐J‚|f offa ja mr udafx mai adycjab

mufx nf„ hdvayfamahf! Hmnfrmx rdn LDS mai HAA xhmaafi ycf hcmy.

yfrjab mvijfahf! Ldr ffkx wrfijhymo`z ycf `dhm` nfijm cmi offa xmyvrmyfi

jyc xydrjfx ‐ijxhd|frjab„ ycf x`mn! Mbmja!

Ovy ofafmyc jyx yfaifahz yd b`jyyfr ycf ajbcy cmi ycmy wrjifv` wjfhfi.ydbfycfr ff` ycmy yzwjfx ma dabdjab rf|d`vyjda! Ycdxf cd‚i offa ja|d`|fi

rdn ycf ofbjaajab `jakfi fzfx mai adiifi jnwfrhfwyjo`z rvfv` `jyy`f

xnj`fx w`mzjab my ycf hdrafrx d ycfjr ndvycx! M wmwfr omb rmwwfi mrdvai

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Ycf Xfhdai Ycrdmy p =2

Ad daf f`xf dvì cm|f cfì da xd yjbcy`z hrmufi mai hdnnjyyfi

fadvbc yd xff ycf nmiafxx ycrdvbc yd ycjx jaf|jymo`f ndnfay d ods dhf

rfxwfhymoj`jyz! My ycf yfayc am` d ycf yfayc Amyjdam` Wdfyrz X`mn ycf

vaijxwvyfi imiiz d ycf hcmdx x`mwwfi omhkx wvnwfi cmaix hcmrnfi ycfnfijm xhmaafi cjx kjabidn mai yrjfi yd kffw cjx fzfx rdn maifrjab

vwmri yd ofcdì m hcmaif`jfr ycf xjuf d m xnm`` hdvayrz m xjbcy ycmy dvì

cm|f vaidvoyfi`z hmvxfi rfm`jyz yd d|frcf`n cjn! Cf dvì ady cm|f

offa mo`f yd kffw rdn of``djab d|fr f|frzdaf mai f|frzycjab ‐Rf‚rf ja

ycf vhkjab Hcjhmbd Ycfmyfr-„

Nz da`z wmry ja ycf wrdhffijabx ycmy f|fajab mx m xcdry dwfajab wfr.

drnmahf jyc Nmrh Hja Xm`mhc mai Ifma Cmhkfr f``d nfnofrx d ycf

yfmn cd‚i xamyhcfi m`` ycf nmro`fx my ycf |frz rxy amyjdam` hcmnwjdaxcjwm ifhmif ofdrf ja Xma Lrmahjxhd! M`` ycdxf `jfyjnfx mbd f xyvaafi f|frz.

daf cd fahdvayfrfi vx ovxyjab ycf odvaimrz ofyffa xymbf mai mvij.

fahf fm|jab ycf wdijvn mai edjajab `jxyfafrx ja ycfjr xfmyx wrd|jijab ycfn

jyc ad mz my m`` yd yvra mmz rdn xymaumx ycmy xjnw`z ijia‚y kad ycfjr

rjbcyv` w`mhf! Rf iji cmy f‚i offa idjab m`` m`dab ja Hcjhmbd cj`f

mxxvnjab ycmy f|frzdaf f`xf mx idjab jy ydd! Ovy f‚i offa fsjxyjab ja m

f|frjxc ovoo`f mai mx mr mx ycf rfxy d ycf wdfyrz drì mx hdahfrafi

adycjab `jkf vx f|fr mx!

Yfa zfmrx rdn ycmy yrjvnwc f cvrrjfi`z cvii`fi mai nmambfi yd

wv`` ydbfycfr m orjf hd``modrmyj|f wjfhf cjbc`jbcyjab fmhc d dvr |djhfx!

Omhkxymbf mx yffnjab jyc fibz hdnwfyjydrx ijuuz jyc o`ddi`vxy ycjak.

jab d x`mn mx cfmi.yd.cfmi `jaf.oz.`jaf mrmrf! Ovy ycf dvr d vx frf

wrdd ycmy ycfrf mx jf ofzdai ycf xhdrf xcffyx ycmy ycf drix fay iffwfr

mai rjfaixcjwx frf drbfi!

J mx vaifr ad j``vxjda ycmy ycf nmedrjyz d ycf mvijfahf dvì kadmaz d vx fshfwy dr Nmrh dr vaifrxymai cz f frf if`mzjab ycf nfmyjfr

wmry d ycf xcd jyc dvr fjxyz `jyy`f driw`mz! Ycf x`mn cmi brda xd

cvbf xd rmwji`z mai fmhc zfmr m `jyy`f d ycf cjxydrz’ycf mhfx mai |djhfx

mai m`ndxy fnomrrmxxjab cvabfr d ycdxf cd avryvrfi ycf ofmxy ja jyx

fmr`z imzx’f`` oz ycf mzxjif mai mx `myfr yrmnw`fi oz wdfyx xymnwfijab

ydmri rfhdrijab hdayrmhyx yf`f|jxjda hdnnfrhjm`x mai ycf orjbcy `jbcyx d

Ordmimz!

Rjyc fmhc wmxxjab zfmr J minjy ff`jab m wm`wmo`f xfaxf d `dxx mai mbrdjab ijxhdaafhy mx af mhfx mai rjyvm` lddi ycf x`mn `maixhmwf! Xymai.

jab ycfrf ja ycf Hcjhmbd Ycfmyfr m`` ycdxf zfmrx `myfr J mayfi yd yf`` f|frz.

daf cd frhf mai odvai`fxx mai x`dwwz ycdxf rxy imzx frf; cd J `j|fi



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mai ijfi dr ycmy Xvaimz ajbcy my ycf Brffa Nj``; cd J mhcfi dr Nmrh‚x

miijhyjab bdi`jkf mwwrd|m` mai bvjimahf; cd ifxwfrmyf`z J hrm|fi mvij.

fahf; mai cd ycf rvxc d drix rjbcyfafi nf xwj``jab rdn nz odiz `jkf

ma fswv`xjda d f|fr! Ovy jahrfmxjab`z cfaf|fr J dvì hdrafr xdnfwdfyrz jabfavf mai xymry omoo`jab modvy ycf daifrx d zfxyfrzfmr fmbfr yd

xfaxf ycmy xmnf f|fr ja cfr J mx jaiv`bfi jyc m b`mufi ovy rfxwfhyv`

bmuf ady va`jkf ycf daf kjix bj|f fìfrx cd mrf ady zfy hdnw`fyf`z vxf`fxx

ovy ady vxfv` ja ycf mzx ycfz dahf frf!

Cfrf‚x cmy J‚i yf`` ycfn j J hdvì!

My ycf Brffa Nj`` ycfrf frf fjbcy dwfa x`dyx f|frz Xvaimz! Mazdaf

hdvì xjba vw! Ycf evibfx frf wfdw`f wjhkfi my rmaidn rdn ycf mvijfahf!

Ycfz hdvì of Fab`jxc wrdfxxdrx vafnw`dzfi fìfrx dr cjbc xhcdd` xyv.

ifayx! Ycfz ijia‚y cm|f yd kad wdfyrz! Jy mx dvr edo yd jayrdivhf ycfn yd

jy! Ycf evibfx dvì `jxyfa yd ycf wdfyx ja yvra mai evibf ycfn da m xhm`f

rdn daf yd yfa ycf xhdrfx omxfi da odyc ycf hdayfay mai if`j|frz d ycf

wdfnx! Evibfx frf ndaxyfrx dr xmjayx ifwfaijab da ycf wdfn ycf hrdi

ycf wdfy Nmrh Xnjyc‚x x`z jaijhmydrx d zfm dr amz ycf xyrfabyc d ycf irjakx

ycf fmycfr! Ycf cd`f ycjab mx m xymyjxyjhm``z hmymxyrdwcjh hrmwxcddy mry

da m imryodmri! Jy mx ycf ndxy ofmvyjv` ycjab J cmi f|fr xffa!

Ycf Brffa Nj`` mx m `dab rddn h`dmkfi ja m nmrdda imrkafxx m hm|.

fra wfwwfrfi jyc ycf yjak`f d afda! Jnmbjaf ycf omyyfrfi omr ycf hdn.drymo`z brv omrkffw ycf d|frrdvbcy brmai wjmad my ycf rday d ycf

rddn mai Wmyxz H`jaf vavr`jab xj`k ja ycf evkfods! Ycrdvbcdvy ycf zfmrx

J cfmri ojyx mai wjfhfx d ycf Nj``‚x xffy nzxyfrz5 Ycf amnf4 M yrjovyf yd

Lrmahf‚x Ndv`ja _dvbf #_fi Nj``* ovy brffa xd mx ady yd of `jakfi yd ycf

hjyz‚x avnfrdvx rfi.`jbcy ijxyrjhyx! Oz =:=7 ycf edjay cmi ndrwcfi jayd ycf

Brffa Nj`` Bmrifax ma dvyiddr imahjab mai irjakjab xwdy rf}vfayfi oz

Xdwcjf Yvhkfr mai M` Ed`xda! Ovy ycf xydrjfx ijia‚y bfy evjhz vayj` M` Hmwdaf

fayfrfi ycf njs! Cjx cfmi cfahcnma ‐Nmhcjafbva„ Emhk NhBvradoymjafi m ?6 wfrhfay dafrxcjw d ycf h`vo! Mx ycf xydrz bdfx cf x`jy ycf

ycrdmy mai `dwwfi d ycf ydabvf d hdnfijma$xjabfr Edf F! @fjx cfa

ycf fayfrymjafr ycrfmyfafi yd nd|f cjx mhy yd madycfr h`vo! Ycf xhfaf mai

J mayfi yd yf`` f|frzdaf cd frhf

mai odvai`fxx mai x`dwwz ycdxf rxy imzx frf!





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rdn ycf xjif`jafx! Ycfz‚rf b`mi ycfz ijwwfi ycfjr ydfx ja ycf myfr’jy jx m

omibf d cdadr d xdryx’ovy ycfz j`` af|fr mwwrdmhc ycf njh mbmja! Ycf

evibjab mxwfhy d ycf x`mn wrd|fx yd of ndrf dvaijab ycma jy ddkx! Ycfz

nmkf ycf hdnnda njxymkf d of`jf|jab ycmy m `d xhdrf nfmax ycmy ycfjr wdfyrz xymak! Ycfz rf|fm` nvhc ndrf ycma ycfz ycdvbcy ycfz dvì! Dr m``

ycdxf fswfhymay fzfx mrf evxy ydd’fswfhyjab!

Ycf dycfr yzwf d wfrxda x`mnx mai ijxhd|frx m xvrwrjxjab mai njì`z

vaxfyy`jab hdnwfyjyj|f xyrfmk! Rcfa J rxy cjy ycmy rddn h`vyhcjab nz yd

dr ycrff wdfnx ycf `dhm` Brffa Nj`` x`mn hcmnwjda mx m dnma amnfi

@jxm Ovxhmaj m jumri cd drkfi njrmh`fx oz cdìjab cd`f mvijfahfx ja

cfr cmai! Jy mx dr cfr ycmy J rxy vxfi ycf dri ij|m! Rcfa xcf ajxcfi m

wdfn ycfrf dvì of m ndnfay d cjyf.cdy xj`fahf’mvijfahf nfnofrxfrf xd lvnndsfi ycfz ijia‚y kad cfycfr yd h`mw dr ffw! J‚i af|fr

xffa mazdaf jfì ycmy yzwf d wdfr d|fr ma fayjrf rddn! J mayfi yd kad

j xcf iji jy oz yf``jab cfr da xydrjfx! J mayfi yd kad cd xcf iji jy!

Ovy @jxm‚x ady ycf wfrxda cd jayrdivhfi nf yd ycf jifm d ycf xfhdai

ycrdmy!

Rf m`` cm|f daf! Dvr rxy ycrdmy jx vahyjdam` m |fxxf` dr ycf drifr`z

wrdbrfxxjda d |fro miefhyj|f mai adva! Jy‚x ycf cdnf d dvr wrmhyjhfi

wvo`jh |djhfx! Ovy ndxy wfdw`f `j|f m`` ycfjr `j|fx jycdvy ijxhd|frjab ycf

xfhdai ycrdmy ycmy rm mai hvr|jab wmrm``f` wmycmz f vxf yd xjab ycf

xdabx yf`` ycf xydrjfx xhrffhc ycf yrvycx ycmy maz dd` kadx xcdvì of kfwy

xj`fay!

Ofdrf J kaf ycfrf mx m x`mn ofdrf Nmrh Xnjyc xfy nz hdnw`m.

hfahz mo`muf J kaf ycfrf mx ma mvijfahf xdnfcfrf mai ycmy xdnfycjab

jaxjif nf mhcfi yd hdaafhy yd jy yd dwfa ycmy xfhdai ycrdmy mai xjabf ycf

mjr! F|fa ycf cmri xz``mo`f mai jafrrfi |jd`fahf d ycf dri x`mn rfnjaixnf d cd hdnw`fyf`z mai jrrf|dhmo`z nz drì mx hcmabfi ofhmvxf d

daf ndnfay daf dnma daf myzwjhm` Hcjhmbd ajbcy!

Jy mx m xjbamyvrf o`fai d Hcj.yda hcmdx jyc m`` ycf f`fnfayx ja

myyfaimahf! M`hdcd`4 Zfx! Ycf o`vfx4 Ycf w`mhf mx irfahcfi ja ycfn!

Jaxmaf`z xvowmr yfnwfrmyvrf dvyxjif mai m of``djab jai h`mjab my ycf

iddrrmnf ofbbjab yd bfy ja4 Zdv ofyhcm!

Ja Emavmrz =:33 ja ycf lfibjab imzx d x`mn dryz wdfyx hmnf ydbfycfr

my O`vfx Fyh! m rmvhdvx evkf edjay da ycf hjyz‚x Adryc Xjif! Ycfz frf ycfrfdr Afvyrm` Yvr m ofafy dr Bvjì Oddkx m |fafrmo`f mai vakz `jyfrmrz

jaxyjyvyjda mai daf d ycdxf w`mhfx ycmy mx m`mzx ja xdnf xymbf d rf|d`y!



Ycf Xfhdai Ycrdmy p ?=

Yfa ovhkx bdy zdv ndrf ycma ycrff idufa dri.x`jabfrx ja m o`vfx h`vo

dr dvr cdvrx d|fr ycf hdvrxf d m o`jxyfrjab `myf jayfr myfradda’zdv

hdvìa‚y mxk dr ndrf Hcjhmbd ycma ycmy! Rf`` zfmc zdv hdvì’ycmy xmnf

yfa ovhkx bdy zdv jayd m wfrdrnmahf d ycf Edcaaz O! Nddrf O`vfx Omai`myfr ycmy f|fajab! Ycf w`mhf mx wmhkfi! Ja yrvf Rjaijfxy Hjyz xyz`f jy

mxa‚y evxy ycf w`mhf f frf! Jy f`y `jkf ycf da`z w`mhf yd of!

Rcfa J m`kfi jayd ycmy o`vfx h`vo da ycmy Emavmrz myfradda J mx

daf d ycdxf wfdw`f v``z wrfwmrfi yd bfy njì`z #dkmz ady xd njì`z* ovuufi

mai yd `mvbc my vaaz wfdw`f xmzjab vaaz ycjabx daxymbf! J mx wrfwmrfi dr

wdfyrz d ycf Evaf.ndda.xwdda.xwjyydda |mrjfyz brmif.xhcdd` rcznfx

if`j|frfi jyc brda.vw fmrafxyafxx! _fm` wdfyrz J f`y mx jafxhmwmo`z

iv`` afhfxxmrj`z jamhhfxxjo`f rf`fbmyfi yd ivxyz cjbc.vw oddkxcf`|fx ovr.jfi ja ydnfx ycmy dwfafi jyc m rf`vhymay hrfmk! _fm` wdfyrz hfrymja`z

mxa‚y rfm` wdfyrz j zdv hdvì vaifrxymai jy! _fm` wdfyrz mx modvy ycf

vaj|frxf rf|fm`fi ja ycf ifmay mz m ldfr ovrxyx ycrdvbc m hrmhk ja ycf

hdahrfyf! _fm` wdfyrz nvxfi modvy nmiifajab`z hrzwyjh }vdyfx rdn ifj.

yjfx! _fm` wdfyrz mx rjyyfa oz m`hdcd`jh cjyf nfa ja nvxyz yffi

emhkfyx dr ycfjr madrfsjh xvjhjim` fnm`f hdvayfrwmryx! J ijia‚y kad nvhc

modvy wdfyrz do|jdvx`z ovy J cmi cfmri xdnfcfrf ycmy m dnma wdfy cmi

ymkfa cfr jf oz xyjhkjab cfr cfmi ja ma d|fa mai bv`wjab ndvycv`x d bmx!

Zdv cmi yd of m rfm` wdfy yd id ycmy!

Afvyrm` Yvr mx ifxjbafi yd of m xwmhf mai yjnf dr ycf hjyz‚x ijxwmrmyf

hrfmyj|f f`fnfayx yd hdnnvaf hdaafhy rmjxf m b`mxx dr yd mai ijxhd|fr’

f`` J‚`` of imnafi’ycmy ycfjr drk mx hrmyfi da m hdnnda hma|mx! Ma

mhmifnjh xyfwwfi bjabfr`z ida rdn cjx j|drz ydfr yd cfmr wdfyrz

wfaafi da m xhmrrfi omr ydw oz ma fibz mryjxy! M wmjav``z xcz cjbc xhcdd`xdwcdndrf `jxyfafi yd @vjx _dirjbvfu mai rfhdbajufi m `jyy`f d cjnxf`!

Wfdw`f cd cmi af|fr wjhkfi vw m wdfyrz oddk dr xyrd``fi jayd m hd``fbf

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h`mxxrddn cfmri Njhcmf` Mamajm cdxf drk mx fmyvrfi ja ycf Adryda

Maycd`dbz d Ndifra Wdfyrz; _fbjamì Bjoodax ycf fijydr d ycf wrfxyjbjdvx

`jy edvram` Yrj]vmryfr`z; mai @jxf` Nvf``fr cd dvì xamb m Wv`jyufr yfa

zfmrx `myfr! Ycfrf frf rmayx |j``maf``fx wdfyx rfhjyjab rdn nfndrz! NmrhXnjyc evxy madycfr xyrmabfr my ycf njh mj`fi cjx frz difx yd ycf rmyfrx

mai wdxxjoj`jyz mx xymyjh ja ycf mjr!

Rjyc nz em da ycf lddr J `jxyfafi cj`f odvaimrjfx o`vrrfi `jafx

frf ifajyj|f`z hrdxxfi m``x hrvno`fi! Ycdxf myyfaijab ycfjr |frz rxy

wdfyrz rfmijab #nmaz `jkf nf jajyjm``z myyrmhyfi oz ycf odduf ycf dvr

cdvrx d bvmrmayffi mrnyc mai ycf dwwdryvajyz’ycfz ycdvbcy’yd wvo.

`jh`z bvm my rfmnx d omi rcznf* bdy ma fa|jmo`f xmnw`jab d f|frzycjab

ycf hjyz‚x wdfyrz hdnnvajyz cmi yd dfr!Ovy ycmy drnjimo`f hcmxn ofyffa ycf wdfyx rdn mhmifnjm mai ycdxf

jyc xyrffy hrfi mxa‚y ycf da`z daf ofjab orjibfi ycmy imz!

Hcjhmbd‚x ijryz `jyy`f xfhrfy jx ycf o`mymay xfbrfbmyjda `vrkjab ijrfhy`z

ofafmyc jyx njifxyfra hcmrn! O`mhkx hdnwrjxjab ndrf ycma 87 wfrhfay d

ycf hjyz‚x wdwv`myjda `j|f wrjnmrj`z da ycf Rfxy mai Xdvyc Xjifx! Rcjyfx

cvii`f da ycf Adryc Xjif! Cjxwmajhx xdvycfxy mai adrycfxy! Ycf wrmh.

yjhf d cfrijab njadrjyjfx ydmri wmryjhv`mr fhdadnjhm``z xyjlfi mrfmx d

ycf hjyz vf`fi oz fmr mai bddi d`f bmrifa.|mrjfyz rmhjm` wrfevijhf yddk

cdì ja ycf `myf =377x! My ycf ofbjaajab d ycf afsy hfayvrz ycdvxmaix d

If`ym rfxjifayx xyrfmnfi adrycmri xfmrhcjab dr ycf o`fxxjab d hjyz mai

xfyy`fi jayd ycdxf xmnf mrfmx cfrf mhfx mai wfrxwfhyj|fx njrrdrfi ycfjr

da! Ycmy ‐hdndry mrdvai nz da kjai„ yddk rddy mai hdayjavfx ydimz

ffhyj|f`z rfjadrhjab ycf odrifrx mai fmrajab Hcjhmbd’cjhc wrdivhfi

ycf rxy Mrjhma Mnfrjhma wrfxjifay’ycf yjy`f d ycf ndxy xfbrfbmyfi hjyz

ja Mnfrjhm!Maz Hcjhmbd amyj|f hma rfhjyf ycf rv`fx! Xymz dvy d Bmrfì Wmrk mai

@maim`f! Ad o`mhk d`kx m``dfi ja Hjhfrd dr Orjibfwdry dr Ofrza

va`fxx ycfz‚rf bdjab yd dr hdnjab rdn drk! Fab`fddi4 Bmabx! Rrdab

dr rjbcy `jafx irma `dab mbd mrf xyj`` fyhcfi ja ycf njaix d ycf hjyz‚x rfx.

jifayx mai ycf wdfyrz hdnnvajyz yrm|f`fi m`dab ycdxf xmnf `jafx! Adryc

Xjif wdfyx #ndxy`z cjyf* mai Xdvyc Xjif wdfyx #ndxy`z o`mhk* ady da`z

rmrf`z njab`fi ovy m`xd yfaifi yd xaj rmycfr ijxnjxxj|f`z my daf madycfr!

Mai ycf Rfxy Xjif4 Wdfyrz4 Hdvì ycfrf cm|f offa maz wdfyrz my m`` jaycdxf momaidafi mwmrynfay ovjìjabx rvxyz wmrk xjabx mai o`dhk myfr

o`dhk d ym|frax xydrfrday hcvrhcfx mai lz.oz.ajbcy hdnnfrhf4







Ycf Xfhdai Ycrdmy p ?6

Ldr nf jy mx ycmy xjabv`mr ndnfay cfa m rfbm` ofxwfhymh`fi hd`drfi

`miz xyddi ofdrf ycmy rmbymb hrdxx.xfhyjda d ycf hjyz‚x wdfyx mai wdfyrz

`d|frx! J J cmia‚y xffa cfr ycfrf J njbcy af|fr cm|f ijxhd|frfi ycmy wdfyrz

cfì maxfrx dr nf! Jy mx ycmy xymrk ndnfay cfa ycf b`mxxfx xydwwfih`jakjab ycf hcmyyfr xyj``fi mai f cfì m mnj`jm` orfmyc mjyjab dr cfr! Jy

mx ycmy vadrbfyymo`f ndnfay ycmy xyj`` dr nf yzwjfx ycf orfmiyc mai

xyrfabyc d ycf Hcjhmbd wdfyrz hdnnvajyz! J ijia‚y kad jy my ycf yjnf ovy

ycf x`mn‚x odjxyfrdvx orj``jmahf mx nmif wdxxjo`f ofhmvxf jy dvai m hjyz

ycmy mx am``z rfmiz dr jy! Mai ofhmvxf ja xd nmaz mzx rjyfrx frf

aijab m affi mai affijab ma maxfr!

Mai rfnfnofr ycmy hdnnvajyz d o`mhk d`kx mai rvxyz wmrk xjabx

momaidafi mwmrynfay ovjìjabx mai o`dhk myfr ifxd`myf o`dhk d ym|fraxxydrfrday hcvrhcfx mai lz.oz.ajbcy hdnnfrhf4 Ycf wdfyrz.xymr|fi Rfxy

Xjif d ycf hjyz4 Ivrjab ycf Brfmy Njbrmyjda d o`mhkx rdn xdvyc yd adryc

cfa nz ndycfr hmnf vw rdn M`momnm mai nz mycfr hmnf vw rdn

Mrkmaxmx ycfz xfyy`fi da ycf Rfxy Xjif! Ycmy‚x cfrf J mx odra cfrf J

brf vw! Affi`fxx yd xmz cfa J xfy dvy dr O`vfx Fyh! jayfay da m jyy`f hv`.

yvrm` fayfrymjanfay J ijia‚y fswfhy ycmy mazdaf ycfrf dvì kad dr

vaifrxymai ycf xydrjfx J cfì h`dxf cj`f J xfmrhcfi dr ycf |djhf J affifi

yd yf`` ycfn! M`ycdvbc nz wvo`jh ndyyd mx ‐wfdw`f cd xmz ycfz‚rf jnwmx.

xjdafi modvy rjyjab xcdvì rjyf ja mx nmaz mzx mx wdxxjo`f„ J ijia‚y

cdì dvy nvhc cdwf ycmy wdfyrz hdvì dfr m Rfxy Xjif hd`drfi bjr` maz

rfm` rfxd`vyjda hdaxd`myjda dr bvjimahf!

Vayj` m Xdvyc Xjif hd`drfi bjr` xyddi vw mai ofbma yd xwfmk! Bfaid.

`za Orddkx cd J kaf mx rdn Hcjhmbd cd J kaf mx mndvx cd

J kaf cmi da m ojb rjyjab mmri dr yd cd J kaf rdn’f`` wcd.

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mxxvnfi mx yjy`fi ‐Rf _fm` Hdd`!„ J ycdvbcy d cfr mx m hdnz cdnf.brda myyrmhyjda ndrf mx m `dhm` wfrxdam`jyz ycma m wdfy xdnfdaf cd cmi

x`jwwfi ycrdvbc m x`jy ja ycf hmada d nddiz m`hdcd`jh cjyf nfa mai ycfjr

xvjhjim` fnm`f hdvayfrwmryx!

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Ja m |djhf ycmy mx mrn hrjxw mai fahdnwmxxjab xcf ydì xajwwfyx d

xydrz ycmy of`dabfi yd vx odyc! Xcf kaf ycf h`vyyfrfi afjbcodrcddi

xyrffyx ycf yfafnfay mwmrynfayx ycf drbdyyfa xhcdd`x! Ja cfr J xfaxfi ycf

o`mhk.bjr` vahfrymjayz ycf bmab`jafxx ycf mhcf d af|fr }vjyf of`dabjab! Jxviifa`z xm nzxf` ycfrf fnodìfafi vaifr ycf cdy `jbcyx cdìjab ycf

myyfayjda d m rddn v`` d wfdw`f cd J af|fr ycdvbcy rfm`jufi nz fsjx.

yfahf! Bfa Orddkx ijia‚y hmwyvrf ycmy rddn jyc cjxyrjdajhx dr yrfaiz

driw`mz! M`` xcf cmi frf cfr xydrjfx mai m amkfi affi yd cm|f ycfn cfmri

mai vaifrxyddi! J rfm`jufi ycmy adycjab nmyyfrfi mx nvhc mx cm|jab m rddn

v`` d xyrmabfrx ja|fxy ja nz xydrz ja evxy ycmy mz’mai cf`wjab ycfn ai

mzx yd yf`` xydrjfx d ycfjr da!

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Xd f xyfwwfi dvy da ycf cvbf xymbf d ycf Hcjhmbd Ycfmyfr Nmrh Hja

Ifma mai J mai `ddkfi dvy my ycf wmxy mai vyvrf d x`mn! Ld`kx cd cmi

xfmyfi dvy ycf wmryjhv`mrx ivrjab ycdxf rxy imzx cd cmi cf`wfi Nmrh

nmw dvy rv`fx f hdvì orfmk xffnfi m `jyy`f d|frcf`nfi! Af o`ddi

m`yframyf`z mrz mai hdhkz xhmaafi ycf cddw`m izjab yd of xffa! Njkf

Rm``mhf mx xyj`` ja mf! Ycfxf frf wdfyx myfr m``!

Ofdrf f ofbma dvr wdfn ycf dvr d vx `jxyfafi mx dvr amnfx frf

xcdvyfi rdn ycf mvijfahf! Hcjhmbd mx h`mjnjab jyx da! J mx m dd` yd

ycjak jy cmi drbdyyfa vx!

Rf rddyfi dvrxf`|fx mjyfi dr xj`fahf ycfa dwfafi dvr xfhdai ycrdmyx!

Xdnfcfrf ja ycf omhk d ycf ycfmyfr nz nvxf xnj`fi mai x`jwwfi dvy

ycf omhk iddr! Xcf mx fmrjab hdkf.odyy`f xwfhx mai xydhkjabx wv``fi yd m

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Hda|frbjab dr[`îx

Ajucdaj Orjibfx mai Xdvycfxy Amyj|f Hdnnvajyjfx

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Daf `myf jayfr myfradda brmz h`dvix h`jabjab yd xvrrdvaijab xmaixydaf

h`jx J ird|f yd m cjbc xhcdd` afxy`fi ja ycf rfxfr|myjda hdnnvajyz d

Ndavnfay \m``fz Vymc ycmy mx wmryjhjwmyjab ja ycf Ja._fmhc `jyfrmhz

wrdefhy! J mx m |jxjyjab wdfy ja ycf xhcdd`x dr Ajucdaj Orjibfx m ada.

wrdy dvaimyjda dr ycf mryx xfr|jab rvrm` mrfm wvo`jh xhcdd`x ja ycf Mrj.udam mai Vymc rfbjdax d ycf Am|med Amyjda! Jy mx bddi yd of cdnf ja

ycf njixy d mnj`jmr mhfx yd xff m mnj`jmr `maixhmwf yd jnnfrxf nzxf`

ja m `mabvmbf ycmy J‚i bdyyfa vxfi yd cfmrjab mai xwfmkjab da`z da yf`f.

wcdaf hm``x yd nz wmrfayx mai dycfr mnj`z nfnofrx! Jy mx bddi yd of

omhk ja Ijaêymc # Am|med`mai * rfi fmryc o`makfyjab ycf cdrjuda ja f|frz

ijrfhyjda mrdvai nf ycf xcffr rfi h`jx d ycf ovyyfx hdayrmxyfi jyc ycf

fjbcy`fxx o`vf xkz vadìjab jayd ndrf xcmifx d o`vf5 h`fma hrjxw ifymj`

f|frzcfrf! Cdnf!Fmr`jfr ja ycf zfmr ycf ijrfhydr d Ajucdaj Orjibfx Wcj` Cm`` mxkfi

Mrycvr Xuf j cf kaf maz Am|med wdfyx jayfrfxyfi ja |jxjyjab rfxfr|myjda

xhcdd`x yd wrfxfay wdfyrz yd xyvifayx! Mrycvr mx nz wrdfxxdr cfa J



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myyfaifi ycf Jaxyjyvyf d Mnfrjhma Jaijma Mryx ja Xmaym Lf! Cf rfhdn.

nfaifi nf yd Wcj` mai bm|f cjn nz hdaymhy jadrnmyjda! Wcj` f.nmj`fi

mai ja|jyfi nf yd bj|f m wdfyrz rfmijab ja ycf m`` d ycmy zfmr dr ycf

maavm` LMAIMABD- Rrjyfrx Lfxyj|m` madycfr d ycf adawrdy drbmajum.yjda‚x wrdbrmnx!

Ivrjab m orfmk rdn ycf fxyj|m` mx f|fajab `jbcy ofbma b`jayjab jayd

ycf imrk brffa myfrx d ycf Xma Evma _j|fr Wcj` mai J fibfi dvr mz

ydmri ycf xmaiz omak! J mx yrzjab yd xkjw m f xmaixydaf wfoo`fx mhrdxx

ycf rj|fr‚x nd|jab mhf cfa cf ofbma ym`kjab modvy wdfyrz‚x wdfr yd cmr.

afxx ofmvyz mai jaxwjrf hcmabf dr wfdw`f mhjab mi|frxjyz xvhc mx cmy cf

xm da m imj`z omxjx da ycf Am|med Amyjda xjif d ycf rj|fr! J `jxyfafi }vj.

fy`z moxdrojab ycjx ndnfay mx cf `jxyfi ycf amnfx d cjx wdfyjh cfrdfx5Wmo`d Afrvim @mrfahf Lfr`jabcfyyj mai M``fa Bjaxofrb! Ycf amnfx mai

ycfjr wdfnx cfa xwdkfa m`dvi fhcdfi mjay`z ycrdvbc ycf x`dy hmazda

afmr cfrf f frf xymaijab! J cmi m`xd dvai ycfxf wdfyx da nz edvrafz

ydmri wdfyrz! Wdfyx cd xwdkf yd nf ivrjab ycf `dab cdvrx J xwfay omk.

jab ja ycf cdy ifxfry xva cj`f cfrijab xcffw dr nz brmaiwmrfayx ja ycf

rdhkz |m``fz ofcjai nz wmyfram` h`ma‚x xfyy`fnfay ja ycf xdvycfra wmry d

Ijaêymc!

Wdfyrz cmi evxy ofbva myfrjab nz njai jyc af wmyyfrax mai

ifxjbax! Jy ad mhfi vx rdn m rj|fr ycmy mx m`xd m wd`jyjhm` odrifr

ofyffa ycf Am|med Amyjda ja Vymc mai ycf rfxy d ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx! Wcj`

nfayjdafi ma f|fay ja ycf fmr`jfr wmry d ycf yfayjfyc hfayvrz5 cjyf

rmahcfrx cmi drhfi m Am|med mnj`z my bvawdjay omhk mhrdxx ycjx xmnf

rj|fr yd ycf Am|med xjif ofhmvxf ycfjr `j|fxydhk frf brmujab da cmy dahf

cmi offa ycfjr jayfr hmnw! Ycjx cjxydrz Wcj` xmji jx `dmifi jyc ycf yrvfxydrz d ycjx `mai jyx wfdw`f‚x hdaljhyx mai rfxj`jfahf! Cjxydrz‚x jyafxxfx

mrf cfrf! Rjycja ycfxf jai.hmr|fi rdhkx mrf xdabx imww`fi jyc mahjfay

xymr`jbcy xvax jai mai rmja! @jkf ldjab myfr ycfxf xydrjfx fm|f

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jai, mai rmja! @jkf djab myfr, ycfxf xydrjfx

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ycrdvbc ycf `mai `fm|jab ycfjr yrmhfx fyhcfi da hmazda m``x! Fìfrx cd

cm|f af|fr `fmrafi yd rfmi dr rjyf hmrrz |mxy mrhcj|fx jycja ycfjr nfn.

drjfx! Fìfrx cd hrfmyf fwjh xydrjfx ivrjab jayfryjnf my ycf kjyhcfa ymo`f

dr da irj|fx yd ycf afmroz odrifr yda @mvairdnmyx mrf wdfyx ydd j daf evxy `jxyfax!

Ja Am|med ycdvbcy `mabvmbf jx xmhrfi! @mabvmbf cfa wfrdrnfi mx m

hfrfndajm` vahyjda myyfnwyx yd hrfmyf cmrndaz famhy hcmabf mai nfym.wcdrjhm``z yrmaxdrn yjnf mai xwmhf dr ycdxf ijrfhy`z ja|d`|fi ja ycf wrfx.

fahf d m xdab$wdfn! Ycrdvbc ycjx mhyj|jyz ycf `jafmbf ofyffa wmxy wrfx.

fay mai vyvrf jx ‐rfhdaafhyfi„’rfw`mayfi myfrfi brda mai cmr|fxyfi

yd hdvayfr cmy jx hdaxjifrfi jacmrndajdvx! Am|med wcj`dxdwcz idfx ady

ij|drhf bddi `mabvmbf vxmbf xvhc mx ycmy dvai ja wdfyrz mai$dr wrmzfr

rdn m`jbanfay jyc m iffwfr hdxnd`dbjhm`$xwjrjyvm` kadjab! Am|med hfr.

fndajfx vxf `mabvmbf yd ojai ycf vaj|frxf mai xf` mai rfxydrf cøucø #om`.

mahf wfmhf cmrndaz* yd m wfrxda dr m mnj`z! Ycjx xwjrjyvm` rfxydrmyjda

dhhvrx cfa m nfijhjaf wfrxda rfhjyfx xdabx$wdfnx irma rdn hv`yvrm`

nfndrz’m `mabvmbf ycmy orjabx dryc cfm`jab yd ycf wmryjhjwmayx ja m wmr.

yjhv`mr hfrfndaz! Ycvx dvrx jx m hv`yvrf ycmy xyj`` mhhdrijab yd Am|med

mvycdr Jr|ja Ndrrjx ‐cdìx ycf hrfmyj|f vxf d `mabvmbf ja cjbc rfbmri!„

J mx ady wrj|z yd cmy Wcj` cmi jyafxxfi ‐mhrdxx ycf rj|fr„ ycmy nmz

cm|f xwmrkfi cjx jayfaxf wmxxjda dr mayjab yd cfjbcyfa wdfyjh mmrfafxx

mndab ‐ycf kjix„ ja ycdxf wmryjhv`mr hdnnvajyjfx! J mbrffi jyc cjx xfayj.nfay ycmy ycfrf mx m affi dr ycf zdvyc yd xfjuf ycf wmyc d xydrz mai

kad`fibf mai h`mjn jy mx ycfjr da! J cmi offa ma fsmnw`f d xvhc m

zdvyc! My ycf yjnf J xyddi jyc Wcj` `ddkjab mhrdxx ycf odrifr ofyffa

drìx J mx hdnwj`jab nz wdfyrz nmavxhrjwy cjhc `myfr if|f`dwfi jayd

nz rxy oddk Xcmwfxcjy ! J kaf rdn nz fswfrjfahf brdjab vw ycrdvbc

ycf xhcdd` xzxyfnx odyc da mai d ycf rfxfr|myjda ycmy nmaz Amyj|f kjix

jacfrjyfi oz ifmv`y afbmyj|f wfrhfwyjdax modvy ycfjr moj`jyjfx yd yrmaxhfai

cjxydrz‚x odaix mai hdayjavf ycf edvrafz ydmri xyrfabycfajab ycfjr hdn.nvajyjfx rdn jycja! Amyj|f kjix frf xdnfcd wfrhfj|fi mx ofjab xyvhk

ja yd w`mhfx my dahf vaj``jab dr vamo`f yd nd|f ydmri m hdayfnwdrmrz

drì|jf m`mzx ja hdaljhy jyc xf` mai ivyz yd yrjof mai mnj`z!

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Hda|frbjab Rdr[`îx p 8=

Ycjx jx fxwfhjm``z vadryvamyf ofhmvxf f|fa cfa Am|med hcjìrfa id

rjyf ja Fab`jxc wdfyrz jx jacfrfay ja ycfjr xfaxjoj`jyjfx! Rcfa Am|med xyv.

ifayx cm|f wfrnjxxjda yd orfmk rff rdn ycf xymaimrix d Fab`jxc ycf wdfyjh

}vm`jyz mai wfrxwfhyj|f rfnmjax jycja ycfjr hrfmyj|f drk! Ycjx orfmkjabrff m``dx ycfn yd jnovf ycfjr drk jyc mxwfhyx d ycfjr vaj}vf hv`yvrm`

fswfrjfahfx wfrxwfhyj|fx mai `mabvmbfx!

Hv`yvrm` ijfrfahfx ofzdai `jabvjxyjh ijfrfahfx hma hrfmyf yfaxjdax

dr Am|med xyvifayx ja nmjaxyrfmn fivhmyjdam` xfyyjabx! Ja ndxy Amyj|f

hdnnvajyjfx ycfrf mrf hv`yvrm` myyjyvifx ycmy m|dr `jxyfajab yd xwfmkjab! Ja

ada.Amyj|f jaxyjyvyjdax xyvifayx mrf fahdvrmbfi yd of |dhm` mai mxxfryj|f

rdn m |frz zdvab mbf! M Am|med hcjì jx dyfa jaxyrvhyfi yd `jxyfa yd dìfr

wfdw`f mai moxdro ycf kad`fibf mai jxidn ycmy ycfz nmz cm|f! Ivrjabnz |jxjyx yd h`mxxrddnx J fswfrjfahfi nmaz ndnfayx cfa yfmhcfrx

xffnfi rvxyrmyfi my cd }vjfy ycf xyvifayx frf cfa mxkfi yd maxfr

}vfxyjdax dr rfmi ycfjr drk wvo`jh`z! J‚|f m`xd offa nfy jyc xj`fahf cfa

J cm|f mxkfi xyvifayx yd |d`vayffr yd rfmi ycfjr af wdfnx yd ycf h`mxx! J

mx daf d ycdxf kjix my daf wdjay ifmv`yjab yd xj`fahf nmaz yjnfx cfa

J mx ycfjr mbf! J ydd hmnf rdn m mnj`z yrmijyjda ycmy fahdvrmbfi `jxyfa.

jab d|fr xwfmkjab! Ja nmaz hmxfx jy mx mwwmrfay ycmy ycf `mhk d rfxwdaxf

mxa‚y ofhmvxf ycf kjix fmrfi ofjab fsmnjafi wvo`jh`z oz ycfjr wffrx dr

ofhmvxf ycfz frf xcz; ycfz xjnw`z frfa‚y hv`yvrm``z rfhfwyj|f yd ycjx hdn.

wdafay d fxyfra fivhmyjdam` wrmhyjhf!

Rjyc m`` ycf wrdo`fnx mhfi oz jaijbfadvx amyjdax vaifrbdjab jahrfi.

jo`f xcjyx ja jifayjyz mai xf`.ifajyjda jy xffnx amyvrm` dr af amrrmyj|fx

yd fnfrbf amrrmyj|fx ycmy hma cf`w j``vnjamyf m hcmabjab drì!

Mai xd da ycmy r j|fromak Wcj` mai J mbrffi5 ycf yjnf cmi hdnf yd yf``

dvr da xydrjfx! Jy mx yjnf dr Am|medx mai dycfr jaijbfadvx wfdw`f ja

Edz Cmred‚x drix yd ‐rfja|fay ycf fafnz‚x `mabvmbf„ mai ycvx rfxydrf hda.

afhyjda ofyffa dvr hdnnvajyjfx mai daf madycfr ycrdvbc xydrz maiwdfyrz! Rf ym`kfi modvy ycf wdfr d `jyfrmrz drkx oz wrdnjafay Amyj|f

Mnfrjhma wdfyx xvhc mx Edz Cmred @vhj Ymwmcdaxd Xjnda Dryju mai

Xcfrnma M`fsjf mai mbrffi ycmy ycfjr oddkx xcdvì of jah`vifi ja ycf

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Hda|frbjab Rdr[`îx p 88

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Mwrj` Jbamhjd hdnnvajyz `jmjxda dr ycf Ydcdad D‚dicmn Amyjda m`xd

drkx yd orjibf ij|frbfay drìx mai fnwdfr cfr wfdw`f ycrdvbc fiv.hmyjda ja ycfjr mahfxyrm` `mai! Xcf fhcdfx nmaz xjnj`mr hdahfrax rfbmrijab

hdnnvajyz rjyjab wrdbrmnx mai ycfjr rf`myjdaxcjw yd Ydcdad D‚dicmn

xhcdd`x! Mhhdrijab yd Mwrj` ‐Ycfxf kjix xyrvbb`f jyc jifayjyz jxxvfx!

Ycfz mrf jnwd|frjxcfi ovy xyj`` fmr ormai.amnf h`dycjab mai cm|f ycf

`myfxy f`fhyrdajh bmibfyx! Daf cmx yd mxk –Rcd mrf f4‚ Dvr Amyjda cmx

m 6< wfrhfay irdwdvy rmyf 2< wfrhfay vafnw`dznfay rmyf mai 92 wfrhfay

wd|fryz rmyf! Nmaz xyvifayx rdn ycf Amyjda‚x xhcdd`x ofbja irdwwjab

dvy ja ycf dvryc brmif!„ Xcf hdayjavfx ‐Ycjx jx cz jy‚x jnwdrymay dr hdnnvajyjfx mai hdnnvajyz wrdbrmnx yd drk ydbfycfr! Nmaz d ycfxf

kjix hdnw`fyf`z orfmk ida; ycfz ida‚y kad cd yd hdwf! Rcfa zdv

rfmi wdfnx rjyyfa oz ycfxf kjix zdv xfaxf ycf mz ycfz xff ycfnxf`|fx

mx Ydcdad D‚dicmn!„ Xcf xmzx ycmy xcf‚`` af|fr drbfy m wdfn rjyyfa

oz m zdvab bjr` rdn cfr |j``mbf! Ycf zdvab bjr` rdyf modvy cm|jab m

nfijhjaf nma hdnf d|fr yd cfr cdvxf cd cf vxfi ycf xmhrfi h`mz mai

nmif m xjba d ycf hrdxx da cfr jaid yd wrdyfhy cfr! Ycf bjr` m`xd rdyf

modvy cd xcf affifi m xmayd #xmjay* vaifr cfr ofi! ‐Rf D‚dicmn yrv`z

of`jf|f f hdnf rdn ycf fmryc mai jy mx mnmujab yd xff ycjx zdvab

bjr` mhkad`fibf cfr hv`yvrf mai cfrjymbf ja cfr wdfn! Rf hma‚y `dxf ycjx

hdaafhyjda!„

J ydd hma‚y cf`w ovy adyjhf xjnj`mr fsmnw`fx mndab nmaz xyvifayx

rdn nz hdnnvajyz mai dycfr jaijbfadvx hdnnvajyjfx ja rfbmri yd wfr.

xdam` jxxvfx ycfz cm|f ycmy mrf ofzdai nz hdnwrfcfaxjda! Ycfrf mrf xdnf.

yjnfx ndnfayx myfr m imz‚x drkxcdw cfa J‚|f irj|fa omhk yd nz cdyf`dr yd nz cdnf ja Yvhxda ja ijxof`jf d|fr ycf imj`z rfm`jyjfx ycfxf xyvifayx

mhf my cdnf mai cd ycdxf rfm`jyjfx f``fi dryc ja ycfjr wdfnx mai d|fr.

cf`nfi maz kjai d jifm` J njbcy cm|f wrdefhyfi da ycfn! Ycf wcrmxf

‐ycfz mrf evxy kjix„ idfxa‚y mww`z ja ycfxf hdnnvajyjfx ycf xmnf mz jy

njbcy ja dycfr ndrf nmjaxyrfmn w`mhfx! Ycfxf zdvyc j`` jacfrjy hdnw`fs

xjyvmyjdax mai hdayjavfi hrjxfx rddyfi odyc ja ycfjr rfxwfhyj|f amyjdax‚ cjx.

ydrjfx mai ja wrfxfay.imz izamnjhx!

J mx mxkfi ja ycjx fxxmz yd `ddk my hfrymja ndnfayx d yfaxjda dr hrjxjxycmy wrd|jifi dwwdryvajyjfx dr yrmaxjyjda! J rfm`jufi ycmy ycf rfm`jyjfx ycfxf

zdvyc mai ycfjr rfxwfhyj|f amyjdax mhf imj`z mrf ycf f|fay ycfz nvxy ifaf



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dr ycfnxf`|fx ja drifr dr brdyc mai yrmaxdrnmyjda yd dhhvr! J hdayjavf

yd cdì mxy yd ycf of`jf ycmy hrfmyj|f rjyjab drkxcdwx mai drbmajumyjdax

ycmy orjab wdfyx jayd xhcdd`x jyc Amyj|f Mnfrjhma wdwv`myjdax wrdndyf

wdxjyj|f myyjyvifx ydmri jyfrmhz jycja hdnnvajyjfx mai bj|f zdvyc cmaix.da nfycdix d yrmax`myjab dr daf madycfr ycf drìx mrdvai ycfn! J hda.

yjavf yd cdwf ycmy `jyfrmrz mryx j xffifi jycja ycf zdvab njaix j`` `fm

dryc ja m af bfafrmyjda d Amyj|f wfdw`f ja|fxyfi ja ycf f``.ofjab d

ycfjr da hv`yvrfx mai amyjdax!

M f``d wdfy cd drkfi dr Mryx_fmhc= ydì nf ycmy cf hrjfi da

xf|frm` dhhmxjdax m`` ycf mz omhk yd cjx cdnf ja Yvhxda rdn ma f`fnfa.

ymrz xhcdd` da ycf afmroz rfxfr|myjda cfrf cf mx |jxjyjab h`mxxfx! Cf xmji

cf mx ja xcdhk d|fr ycf ifwyc d fswfrjfahf ycmy xdnf d cjx xf|fa.zfmr.

dì xyvifayx rdyf modvy! Mhhdrijab yd cjn cfa cf iji xjnj`f fsfrhjxfx

nmaz d ycf xyvifayx hdnwmrfi ma doefhy d ycfjr hcddxjab jyc xdnfdaf

ja ycfjr mnj`z cd cmi rfhfay`z wmxxfi mmz! Cf m`xd xmji ycmy cf dvì

`jkf yd hdnf omhk ja xdnf hmwmhjyz ja ycf vyvrf mai ycmy jy mx afhfxxmrz

yd hdayjavf yd orjab wdfyrz yd ycfxf hdnnvajyjfx!

@jkf cjn myfr m imz‚x drkxcdw J xdnfyjnfx evxy may yd wrfxx cmri dam bmx wfim` mai irj|f d jayd ycf ifxfry xvaxfy yd fxhmwf ycfxf hjrhvn.

xymahfx ycmy mrf ady njaf yd hmrrz mx wfrxdam` ovrifax! Bj|fa ycf avnfrdvx

mai izamnjh xdhjm` jxxvfx zdvab wfdw`f mhf ja ycfxf h`mxxrddnx J hma

jnmbjaf hd``mwxjab vaifr ycf fjbcy d ycf mwwmrfay`z jnwdxxjo`f diix

ycfjr amyjdax mhf! Ovy ofhmvxf J hdnf rdn m xjnj`mr hdnnvajyz J ff`

rfxwdaxjo`f yd ycdxf zdvyc mai ycfjr mnj`jfx! J hmaady xjnw`z yvra nz omhk

cfa J njbcy of mo`f yd cf`w xyvifayx rfhd|fr ycfjr om`mahf ycrdvbc ycf

nfijvn d wdfyjh `mabvmbf! J xyj`` of`jf|f ycmy wdfyrz hma of ma mbfay d yrmaxdrnmyjda dr Amyj|f xyvifayx mai m wdxjyj|f mxxfy ja rfh`mjnjab ycfjr

moj`jyz yd xff ycfjr da wdxxjoj`jyjfx! Ycf ijhv`yjfx nmkf jy m`` ycf ndrf

wrfxxjab ycmy ycfxf zdvyc hdayjavf yd rjyf mai wfrdrn ycfjr drk!

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Cd id hdnnvajyjfx hcmabf ofhmvxf d ycf `mabvmbf ycmy jx vxfi yd hrf.

myf dr hcmabf ycfjr jifayjyjfx4 Hma mry w`mz m wmry f|fa m xnm`` daf ja

ycf mz m hdnnvajyz hcmabfx xwfhjhm``z nfrf`z ofhmvxf m`` mry drnx

mrf yzwfx d `mabvmbf ycmy my ycf |frz `fmxy hma ‐nd|f wfdw`f„ #f|fa j yd

nd|f ycfn dvy d ycfjr xfmyx my jayfrnjxxjda dr dvy d ycf bm``frz ofdrf

ycf fai d ycf fscjojyjda*4 Ycjx jx ijhv`y yd mam`zuf mai jy jx wrfxvnwyv.

dvx J ycjak dycfr ycma ja |frz xwfhjh hjrhvnxymahfx dr ycdxf d vx cd

mrf mryjxyx yd ymkf ycf hrfijy dr m izamnjh ycmy dhhvrx ofhmvxf d m |mrjfyzd xcjyx ja hv`yvrf mai ja hdaxhjdvxafxx! Zfy daf hma mxwjrf my `fmxy yd of

wmry d hdnnvajyz mai dvyxjif jy my ycf xmnf yjnf! Mryjxyx mrf xdnfyjnfx

fsmhy`z `dhmyfi ja ycf jaxjif.dvyxjif wdxjyjda! Nmaz d vx mrf evxy w`mja

adnmijh! Dvr mabvmbf jx m mabvmbf ycmy hcrdajh`fx nd|fnfay! J mn ydì

ycmy ofdrf ycf fai d ycf hfayvrz ma fsyrmdrijamrz avnofr d `mabvmbfx

j`` ijf ! Mryjxyx ja xvhc hdnnvajyjfx xcdvì maadvahf ycf vafrm`x d xvhc

`mabvmbfx dr ycfz mrf f|jifahf d m irmnmyjh hcmabf ja hv`yvrm` jifayjyz

mai wdfr xcjyx ja ycf drì!Ycfrf jx m `dab yrmijyjda d hrfmyjab d vxjab mry mx m njrrdr d xdhjfyz!

Xvhc jx ycf drk ycmy J id! J cm|f offa xyvizjab ycf Fab`jxc `mabvmbf mx



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xwdkfa ja Mnfrjhm jaij|jivm` oz jaij|jivm` yd ymkf m h`dxf yfnwfrmyvrf d

cd nz hdvayrz cmx offa hcmabjab!

Ycf drk ycmy J id xymryfi rdn nmaz |maymbf wdjayx! Ja wmry J mx

xffkjab yd maxfr m xfy d yfhcajhm` }vfxyjdax’jycdvy maz hrfifayjm`x mx

`jabvjxy dr wxzhcd`dbjxy’modvy cd `mabvmbf mx m wcfadnfada d xdvaix

ofjab nmif drkx! Rcmy id ycf mzx wfdw`f xwfmk yf`` vx modvy ycf drìja cjhc ycfz `j|f4 Rcmy idfx ycf nmaafr ja cjhc m wfrxda xwfmkx yf`` vx

modvy cd cf dr xcf jx drbmajufi jayf``fhyvm``z hrfmyj|f`z mai wxzhcd`dbj.

hm``z4 Oz ‐nmaafr„ J nfma ycf mhyvm` rczycnjh mai xzaymhyjhm` wmyyfrax!

Ycfxf }vfxyjdax ja m`` cdafxyz xymryfi cvno`z dvy d nz }vfxy yd ovjì

nz yddòds d mhyjab yfhcaj}vfx! Zfy ycf drjbjam` xfy d }vfxyjdax faifi vw

`fmijab nf ida m wmyc ycmy ofhmnf jnnfijmyf`z xdhjd`dbjhm` mai wd`jyjhm`!

Nz }vfxyjda ofhmnf ycjx5 j J frf yd fsyfai nz mxhjamyjda jyc xwffhc oz

`ddkjab my cd jaij|jivm`x fswrfxx ycfnxf`|fx hdvì J hmvxf ycf ycfmyfr

jyxf` yd `ddk mai vahyjda ijfrfay`z4 Oz ‐`ddk„ J nfma odyc cd jy `ddkx

mai cmy ycdxf cd rva drk ja mai bd yd ycf ycfmyfr mhyvm``z `ddk my !

J xyvijfi mhyjab ja Xma Lrmahjxhd Hm`jdrajm! Ja ycf =:27x Xma Lrma.

hjxhd mai ycf `mrbfr nfyrdwd`jyma mrfm dhhvwzjab ycf ofmvyjv` `mainmxxfx

mrdvai ycf xyvaajab odijfx d myfr ja ycf Omz Mrfm frf nd|jab hm`n`z

jy xffnfi dvy d ycf hv`yvrm` rf|d`vyjdax d ycf =:<7x! Jy mx m`ndxy mx j

ycdxf nmaz ojyx d `mai frf xfyy`jab omhk wfmhfv``z myfr cmy cmi offama fadrndvx }vmkf! J `fy hd``fbf `jkf nmaz d nz rjfaix fscj`mrmyfi da

ycf daf cmai oz wdxxjoj`jyjfx J af|fr dvì cm|f jnmbjafi mx m zdvabxyfr

ovy rff`jab da ycf dycfr cmai mx j J‚i offa cjy ja ycf mhf jyc m yd.oz.

dvr! J cmi ad hcdjhf ovy yd ifxjba madycfr mz d ofjab! J mx my m hrdxx.

rdmix m hrdxxrdmix ycmy J dvì `myfr hm`` m ‐hrdxxrdmix d mnojbvjyz!„ F|frz.

ycjab J xffnfi yd cm|f offa drkjab ydmri mx vw dr brmox! Zfx f frf

da dvr mz dvy d ycf \jfyamn Rmr; zfx ycfrf mx ycf xfaxf ycmy ycfrf

dvì of m `dy ndrf f}vjyz dr wfdw`f d hd`dr ycma nz wmrfayx cmi fswf.rjfahfi; zfx ycfrf frf wdxxjoj`jyjfx dr dnfa; mai zfx ycf mz wfdw`f

dvì wmryafr mai `j|f ydbfycfr mx jif dwfa my `fmxy ja Xma Lrmahjxhd!

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Mai xd ycf hv`yvrm` xhfaf ycfrf mx }vjyf `jkf ycf `mai! Xyvaajab wdhkfyx’

}vjfy m`ndxy’ja cjhc wfdw`f njaifi ycfjr da ovxjafxx ja xnm`` f.

idnx! Myfr ycf vaxfyy`fi ifhmifx ofdrf ycfrf mx ady rfm``z m ifxjrf yd cm|f

jy m`` hdnf ydbfycfr! Wfrcmwx ofhmvxf ycfrf dvì of ad hdnjab ydbfycfr mai ad `mabvmbf hm``jab mazdaf yd hdnf ydbfycfr #mazndrf* J mai dycfrx

frf `fy yd ai m af `mabvmbf! J hcdxf yd cm|f dycfrx bj|f nf ycf `ma.

bvmbf! J fay yd mhyjab xhcdd` cfrf brfmy `mabvmbf m`rfmiz rjyyfa dvì

of xyvijfi mai cfrf J dvì `fmra cd yd xwfmk ycmy `mabvmbf d dycfrx!

Mai ycmy `mabvmbf ycf `mabvmbf d ndifra w`mzrjbcyx ycdvbc jy `ddkfi

`jkf adrnm` ym`k’mx ady adrnm` ym`k my m``! Jy mx cfjbcyfafi xwffhc!

Lrdn ycmy wdjay ofbjaajab rxy jyc ycf mabvmbf d rfm`jxn cjhc xffnfi

`jkf adrnm` ym`k f ofbma yd ovjì ycf jnmbjamyjdax mai ycf wczxjhm` moj`.jyz yd xwfmk ycf `mabvmbf d ycf h`mxxjhx ycf `mabvmbf d wdfyrz! Rf frf

m`xd yrmjafi yd nd|f ja ycmy mz! Jy mx nz njnf yfmhcfr’ ycf wfrxda jyc.

dvy drix ’cd xmji yd nf ‐Cm|f m rjhc `jf mai cmjkv j`` hdnf!„

Xma Lrmahjxhd mx ycf ndxy ij|frxf hdnnvajyz J cmi f|fr `j|fi ja! J‚i

brda vw da ycf Fmxy Hdmxy cfrf ij|frxjyz nfmay o`mhkx mai cjyfx dr

‐Afbrdfx„ #mx f frf ycfa hm``fi* mai cjyfx dr Afbrdfx #ojb m``* dr

cjyfx #ojb m``*! Jaxjif ycf cjyf hdnnvajyz cfrf Bfayj`fx #ojb m``*

mai Efx! Dr jaxjif ycf Bfayj`fx Wd`jxc #ojb m``* Jym`jmax #ojb m``* Hmyc.

d`jhx #ojb m``* @vycfrmax #ojb m``* mai xd dryc! Mai jaxjif ycf Afbrd

hdnnvajyz fivhmyfi #ojb m``* mai va.fivhmyfi dr `dfr.njii`f.h`mxx

wddr wfdw`f #ojb m``* jbcy.xkjaafi Afbrdfx #ojb m``* mai imrkfr.xkjaafi

Afbrdfx #ojb m``* dr Omwyjxyx mai Nfycdijxyx dr ycdxf cd fay yd Xcmrw

Xyrffy Nfycdijxy Hcvrhc #ojb m``* ycdxf cd fay yd dycfr Nfycdijxy

hcvrhcfx kjix cd fay yd wrj|myf xhcdd` #ojjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjb m``* ycf rfxy d

vx cd fay yd wvo`jh xhcdd` mai xd dryc! J wfdw`f frf mazycjab dycfr ycma o`mhk dr cjyf `fy‚x xmz Emwmafxf dr Jaijma ycfz frf hmyfbdrjufi mx

o`mhk dr evxy w`mja ‐dycfr!„ @vhkj`z dr nf J fay yd ma m``.bjr`‚x wvo`jh cjbc

xhcdd` cfrf jayf``fhyvm` ifxjrf yrvnwfi nmaz d ycf ojb m``x mai cfrf

ycfrf mx m xwmhf wmryjhv`mr`z dr ycdxf d vx cd frf ja|d`|fi ja xyvifay

bd|franfay yd hrfmyf m hdnnvajyz ycmy mx ady ij|jifi oz ycf m``x! J

rfm``z `d|fi ycmy! Ycjx ymabjo`f wdxxjoj`jyz wfrcmwx jaxwjrfi nf da xdnf `f|f`

yd id ycf kjai d drk J id ydimz!

J xfy modvy xyvizjab f|frzycjab J hdvì modvy mhyjab mai modvy cd mamhydr‚x jnmbjamyjda hdvì wdyfayjm``z drk’cjhc nfmay ivyjv``z wrmh.

yjhjab nz Xcmkfxwfmrf ndad`dbvfx f|frz xjab`f imz ad nmyyfr cmy yd xff

cmy ycf Omri vaifrxyddi mai fsfnw`jfi modvy `mabvmbf mai wxzhcd`dbz!



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Da ajbcyx cfa J mx ajxcfi jyc xhcdd` mai nz wmry.yjnf edo J dvì

hmyhc ycf `mxy hdvw`f d xhfafx d cmyf|fr w`mz mx ofjab wfrdrnfi my ycf

fsyrmdrijamrz ycfmyfr ycmy mx hdvw`fi jyc ycf hdaxfr|mydrz ja cjhc J

mx fard``fi! J‚i xjy ja ycf xfhdai om`hdaz mai ycjak ja ycf omhk d nz cfmi‐Bff f|frzdaf da ycf xymbf jx cjyf!„ Fshfwy dr ycf yd o`mhk mhydrx cd

cmi xnm`` wmryx mx m nmji mai m if`j|frz wfrxda! J yddk ycf w`mhf d ycf

fnm`f ja ycmy hdvw`f cfa xcf `fy mai xd mx daxymbf mx m ‐ojy wmry„ w`mzfr

d hd`dr! Jy dhhvrrfi yd nf mx J m`kfi dvy ycf xymbf iddr yd ycf hmo`f hmr

ijabjab ja ycf ijxymahf mai ycf nmbjhm` `jbcyx xcjajab ida rdn ycf cj``x

ycmy afmr`z f|frz xjab`f wfrxda cd hmnf yd ycmy ycfmyfr mx mvijfahf mx

cjyf #fshfwy cfa Mvbvxy Rj`xda‚x w`mzx frf xymbfi*!

Rm`kjab ycrdvbc ycf hjyz dr bdjab mrdvai Dmk`mai J‚i nmr|f` mbmja myycf fsyrmdrijamrz ij|frxjyz’@myjadx rdn m`` d|fr Hfayrm` Mnfrjhm Mxjmax

rdn m`` d|fr Mxjm! M`ycdvbc yd xff o`mhkx zdv affifi yd bd yd Dmk`mai dr

jayd m |frz wddr mrfm d Xma Lrmahjxhd #ycf hjyz‚x brji f`jnjamyfi ndxy d

ycdxf wfdw`f ja ycf hfayrm` afjbcodrcddix*! Adafycf`fxx J `fy nz fswfrj.

fahf ja Xma Lrmahjxhd cjbc`z jaxwjrfi yd hdayjavf yd cdaf nz xkj``x mx ma

mhyrfxx #mai mx m yfmhcfr* mai yd yrz yd ycjak modvy mzx yd dwfa ycf ycfmyfr

yd ndrf ycma daf kjai d wfrxda!

Dhhmxjdam``z ma mryjxy xvhc mx Mvbvxy Rj`xda xvhhffifi ja hm``jab o`mhkx

cd dvì ady adrnm``z bd yd cjyf jaxyjyvyjdax yd hdnf dvy d hcvrhcfx

cdnfx mai kada hdnnvajyjfx yd `jxyfa jayfay`z yd cjx drix! Ycfmyfrx

xvhc mx ycf dafx ycmy cdadrfi Mvbvxy Rj`xda cmi xdnfyjnfx xymbfi wrjnmr.

j`z ycdxf drkx xhrjwyfi oz cjyf Rfxyfra #dr ycf ndxy wmry* nm`fx! J

ycdvbcy amä|f`z ycmy j daf frf yd wvy ndrf kjaix d wfdw`f da ycf xymbf

ndrf kjaix d wfdw`f dvì hdnf! Ycjx mx amä|f ofhmvxf ycmy mxxvnwyjda

idfx ady ijb iffw`z fadvbc jayd ycf fhdadnjhx d cd bdfx yd ycf ycfmyfr adr idfx jy ijb iffw`z fadvbc jayd cz wfdw`f bd yd ycfmyfr my m``! Ycmy cmx

xdnfycjab yd id jyc jifayjyz! Rf `j|f ja m yjnf cfa wfdw`f ai ycfjr

jifayjyjfx oz edjajab hmnwx! Rf mrf ady xfbrfbmyfi ja ycf xmnf xfaxf ycmy nz

wmrfayx vaifrxymai xfbrfbmyjda ovy f xyj`` `j|f jycja ycdxf mxxvnwyjdax d

xfbrfbmyjda! Rf mrf idnjamyfi oz dvr wrffrfahfx mai ycf nmrkfy ymkfx

mi|maymbf d ycmy!

Xd! Rcfrf mrf ycf xwmhfx cfrf daf hma if`jofrmyf`z yrz yd njs ycmy vw4

Jy jx ady mx imabfrdvx yd njs ycjabx vw ad mx jy mx dr fsmnw`f yd jayf.brmyf xhcdd`x ja Mrkmaxmx dr yd id cmy _dxm Wmrkx iji! Ovy daf jx drkjab

mbmjaxy ycf brmja! #Mx m xjif adyf jy jx ycf hmxf ycmy wfdw`f hrdxx rmhf yd faedz

wmryx d ycf nmrkfy; cdf|fr ycfxf hrdxxjabx mrf ady dwfajab rfm` iddrx dr



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f|frzdaf cd hrdxxfx!* Rcjyf hcjìrfa nmz ovz Emz U‚x nvxjh dr Ijiiz‚x

h`dycfx ovy ycfz nmz ady cfa dì fadvbc nmkf m hmxf dr ij|frxjyz ja

ycfjr hdrwdrmyjdax! Emz U‚x nvxjh ycdvbc w`mzfi da ycf zmhcy d xdnfdaf

cd dax m hdrwdrmyjda nmz ady jaivhf ycmy yjyma yd xcmkf vw ycf mzfivhmyjda drkx ja ycjx hdvayrz5 cd bfyx fivhmyfi mai cd mhyvm``z bfyx

yvrafi da yd ycf xcffr edz d `fmrajab! Iffw iffw iffw jaxjif dvr hv`yvrf

f wrddvai`z ifxjrf yd rfnmja xfwmrmyf rdn ycdxf f wfrhfj|f mx

ijfrfay!

Ycf mz ja jx `mabvmbf J ycdvbcy! Mai j zdv ida‚y xwfmk ycf `mabvmbf

fxwfhjm``z j zdv ida‚y xwfmk ycf xwfhjh `mabvmbf d m hdnnvajyz ycf ndxy

jnwdrymay jxxvf jx `jxyfajab! Ycfrf jx `jxyfajab mai ycfa ycfrf jx ym`kjab mx

#ycf dvaimyjda d mhyjab*! Nz brmaimycfr dahf xmji ‐J zdv xmz m dri

dyfa fadvbc jy ofhdnfx zdv!„ Mai xd J cm|f offa bdjab yd hdnnvajyjfx

ymwf.rfhdrijab wfdw`f mai xmzjab ycfjr drix d|fr mai d|fr! J‚n wvyyjab

nzxf` ja wfdw`f‚x drix ycf mz zdv njbcy ycjak d m`kjab ja xdnfdaf

f`xf‚x xcdfx! Ovy dvr jifayjyjfx mrf mhhdvayfi dr ycrdvbc xydrjfx mx f`` mx

mhyjdax! Xd J m`xd hd``fhy xydrjfx jyc ycf jifm d evsymwdxjab hdayrmxyjab xyd.

rjfx yd j``vnjamyf xdnf yrvyc! Ycf hdnnvajyjfx J cm|f |jxjyfi cj`f hd``fhy.jab xydrjfx rmabf rdn rjdy.ydra @dx Mabf`fx mai rjdy.ydra Orddk`za yd ycf

hdd` cm``mzx mai ddi.wmaf`fi rddnx d ycf Zm`f‘Af Cm|fa Cdxwjym`!

Nz drk xymryx jyc `jxyfajab! Nz dabdjab wrdefhy Da ycf _dmi5 M Xfmrhc

dr Mnfrjhma Hcmrmhyfr xffkx yd moxdro Mnfrjhm! J‚|f cfmri ycmy Rm`y Rcjy.

nma mayfi yd moxdro Mnfrjhm mai cm|f jy moxdro cjn! Cm|jab offa odra

mai orfi ja m ij|jifi hdnnvajyz’rmhjm``z ij|jifi Om`yjndrf Nmrz`mai’

J cm|f xdvbcy yd fmxf ycf bmwx ja nz da hv`yvrm` vaifrxymaijab oz ij|jab

jayd Mnfrjhm hdnnvajyz oz hdnnvajyz!J if|f`dwfi m drn d ycfmyfr omxfi da jayfr|jfx d ij|frxf brdvwx d

wfdw`f jyc dwwdxjab dr |mrzjab wdjayx d |jf dyfa modvy hdayrd|frxjm`

jxxvfx! Jajyjm``z ycjx ycfmyfr mx nfmay yd of wfrdrnfi oz hmxyx d mhydrx ovy

Ycf mz ja jx `mabvmbf, j !

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dr amahjm` rfmxdax J if|f`dwfi jy jayd m daf.dnma.xcd drnmy! J jaj.

yjm``z mhy ycf w`mzx nzxf` w`mzjab mx nmaz mx #ja daf hmxf* yz.ycrff wmryx

mai mx f mx yd wmryx! Jy jx nz jayfayjda ycmy dahf ycf w`mzx mrf wvo`jxcfi

hmxyx d mhydrx j`` wfrdrn ycf w`mzx w`mzjab wfdw`f cd mrf }vjyf va`jkfycfnxf`|fx wczxjhm``z ja yfrnx d bfaifr mai ja yfrnx d rmhf!

Daf d ycfxf w`mzx jx Ljrfx ja ycf Njrrdr ! Jy jx modvy m ij|jifi afjbcodr.

cddi ja Hrda Cfjbcyx Orddk`za cfrf o`mhkx mai Cmxjijh #@vom|jyhc*

Efx j|fi xjif.oz.xjif zfy cmi |frz jyy`f yd id jyc fmhc dycfr! Hj|j` varfxy

ordkf dvy ja ycmy afjbcodrcddi daf cdy Mvbvxy ja ycf =::7x! Ycf brmai

rfoof cd mx ycf `fmifr d ycf @vom|jyhc hdnnvajyz ycfrf mx bdjab

ycrdvbc ycf xyrffyx daf ajbcy ja ma faydvrmbf d hmrx! Daf d ycf hmrx rma m

rfi `jbcy cjy m xjifm`k mai kj``fi Bm|ja Hmyd m zdvab o`mhk odz! @myfr ycmyajbcy m brdvw d o`mhk zdvycx xydwwfi Zmakf` _dxfaomvn m Cmxjijh xhcd`mr

rdn Mvxyrm`jm da ycf xyrffy mai xymoofi cjn yd ifmyc! Ycf xyrffyx ycfa

rdhkfi! J fay yd Hrda Cfjbcyx cfrf J ymwf.rfhdrifi ndrf ycma yz

jayfr|jfx mai vxfi ycfn yd hrfmyf Ljrfx ja ycf Njrrdr ja cjhc J w`mzfi

yfayz.xjs wmryx5 o`mhkx mai Efx dnfa mai nfa m`` jyc |mrzjab wdjayx

d |jf modvy cmy cmi dhhvrrfi! Ycf w`mz nmif ycf amyjdam` wrfxx mai nz

hmrffr mx m idhvnfaymrjma vxjab ycfmyfr mx ofbva!

Wfrcmwx cmy m``dfi nf yd ycjak J njbcy fnodiz ycmy xydrz mx nz

fswfrjfahf my Rfxyfra Cjbc Xhcdd` ja Om`yjndrf! Rcfa J nfy ycf wfdw`f

cd xcdvì cm|f xffnfi fshrvhjmyjab`z ijfrfay rdn nf ycf @vom|jyhc

rmoojx ycfjr hcjìrfa mai ycfjr j|fx J dvai xdnfycjab fsyrfnf`z mnj`jmr!

Xjyyjab ja ycf kjyhcfax mai my ycf `dab ijajab rddn ymo`fx d ycf @vom|jyhc

J xm ofzdai ycf cmyx mai zmrnv`kfx d ycf nfa mai ycf jbx d ycf dnfa!

J xm m`` ycf mz omhk yd ycf kjyhcfax d nz Efjxc rjfaix my Rfxyfra cd

cmi hvy cd`fx ja ycf ojb m``x ofyffa vx oz ja|jyjab nf cdnf yd nffyycfjr mnj`jfx jah`vijab brmaiwmrfayx cd frf dyfa vamxxjnj`myfi! J fay

omhk yd m yjnf yfayz zfmrx fmr`jfr cfa hv`yvrm` m``x cmi m``fa j da`z

orjflz mai wdxxjoj`jyz mx ymabjo`f!

Cfrf jx ma fshfrwy rdn Ljrfx ja ycf Njrrdr !

_dx`za Nm`mnvi

Ycf Hdvw

Id zdv kad cmy cmwwfafi ja Mvbvxy cfrf4 Zdv xff cfa zdv rfmi ycf afxwmwfrx!

J nfma nz xda `nfi cmy mx bdjab da

ovy cfa zdv rfmi ycf afxwmwfrx! ! ! !



9? p m i x

#_fxdaijab yd m }vfxyjda!* D hdvrxf J mx cfrf-

J hdvìa‚y `fm|f nz cdvxf!

J da`z dvì bd dvy fmr`z ivrjab ycf imz!

Ycf wd`jhf frf omrrjhmijab cfrf! Zdv xff

J jxc

J hdvì evxy `jkf

bd da yf`f|jxjda!

J maam xhrfmn yd ycf cd`f drì!

Ycfz xmji

ycmy ycf O`mhkx frf rjdyjab mbmjaxy ycf Efx ja Hrda Cfjbcyx

mai ycmy ycf Efx frf bcyjab omhk!Id zdv kad ycmy ycf O`mhkx cd hmnf cfrf yd rjdy frf ady nz

afjbcodrx4

J ida‚y `d|f nz afjbcodrx!

J ida‚y kad nz O`mhk afjbcodrx!

Ycfrf‚x daf `miz da Wrfxjifay Xyrffy’

H`mjrf’

J midrf cfr!

Xcf‚x nz bjr`rjfai‚x afsy.iddr afjbcodr!

J‚|f cmi m nmajhvrf

idaf ja cfr cdvxf mai f xjy mai kjoojyu

mai xyv

ovy J ida‚y kad ycfn!

J ydì zdv f ida‚y njab`f xdhjm``z

ofhmvxf d ycf ijfrfahf

d ddimai rf`jbjda

mai cmy cm|f zdv cfrf!

Ovy

ycf wfdw`f ja ycjx hdnnvajyz

may fsmhy`z

cmy J may dvy d `jf!

Ycfz may yd `j|f

ja ajhf cdnfx!Ycfz m`` bd yd drk!

Ycfz hdvìa‚y wdxxjo`z

cm|f cdvxfx cfrf




j ycfz ijia‚y

bfafrm``z’Ycfz cm|f

yd

vnjahdnfx

ycmy hdnf ja!

Ycfz may yd xfai ycfjr kjix yd hd``fbf!

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mai bd yd

ycfjr Xvaimz wjhajhx-

Ycfz evxy may yd cm|f ifhfay cdnfx mai ifhfay `j|fx-Ycf wfdw`f cd hmnf yd rjdy cfrf

frf ordvbcy cfrf

oz ycjx mndvx

_f|frfai M` Xcmrwyda

cjhc J‚i `jkf yd kad cd drimjafi cjn4

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cd ijia‚y cm|f edox ja

ycf xvnnfryjnf!

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Xcf xmji

‐Ycf bvzx j`` nmkf zdv wrfbamay

my ajbcymai ja ycf ndrajab ady kad cd zdv mrf!„

# M`ndxy cjxwfrjab!*

Mai j zdv‚rf xjyyjab da m rday xyddw mai jy‚x |frz |frz cdy

mai zdv cm|f ad ndafz

mai zdv cm|f adycjab yd id jyc zdvr yjnf

mai xdnfdaf xmzx ‐Hdnf da zdv maam rjdy4„

Zdv kad cd kjix mrf!

Ycf mv`y `jfx jyc ycf wd`jhf ifwmrynfay!Ycf wd`jhf ifwmrynfay iji adycjab yd xydw ycfn!

J mx xjyyjab cfrf ja ycf rday d ycf cdvxf

cfa odyy`fx frf ofjab ycrda



99 p m i x

mai ycf xfrbfmay yf``x |f cvairfi wd`jhfnfa

jyc h`vox mai cf`nfyx mai bvax

yd ivhk!

Mai J xmji yd cjn‐Zdv‚rf yf``jab ycfn yd ivhk4

Rcmy xcdvì J id4

J ida‚y cm|f m h`vo dr m bva!„

Cmi ycfz wvy jy’

xydwwfi jy da ycf rxy ajbcy

ycjx kji cd hmnf rdn Mvxyrm`jm ! ! !

#Xcf xvhkx cfr yffyc!*

Zdv kadcjx wmrfayx frf Cd`dhmvxy xvr|j|drx cf ijia‚y cm|f yd ijf!

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iji m `dy d rfxfmrhc ja Cd`dhmvxy xyvijfx!

Cf ijia‚y cm|f yd ijf!

Rcmy cmwwfafi da Vyjhm M|favf

mx ma mhhjifay!

EFRJXC WFDW@F

ID ADY I_J\F \MAX JAYD XF\FA.ZFM_.D@I ODZX!

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ID ADY I_J\F

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YD KJ@@

#Xdvaix `jkf m `mvbc ovy jy‚x evxy m xdvai!*

XF\FA.ZFM_.D@I ODZX!

Jy mx ma mhhjifay-

Ovy jy mx m``dfi yd fxyfr mai yd xyfmn mai m`` ycmy!

Rcfa zdv hdnf cfrf id zdv xff mazycjab ycmy‚x bdjab da

rjdyx4Ad!

Ovy M` Xcmrwyda mai ycf `jkfx d cjn `jkf Idfryz




cd oz ycf mz cmx offa ja wrjxda

mai m`` d m xviifa cf ofhmnf _f|frfai Idfryz ’

ycfz dahf iji ma fswdxê da cjn’

ovyycfxf bvzx `j|f d d ycjx

zdv vaifrxymai4

Wfdw`f mrf ady bdaam bj|f ycfn ndafz

hdayrjovyf yd ycfjr hmvxfx

va`fxx ycfz‚rf dvy ycfrf rmoo`f.rdvxjab!

Nz O`mhk afjbcodrx4

J nfma J xwdkf yd ycfn!

Ycfz frf cjijab ja ycfjr cdvxfx evxy `jkf J mx!Rf frf xhmrfi!

J mx xhmrfi-

J mx rfm``z rjbcyfafi!

J cmi |f cvairfi wd`jhfnfa xymaijab ja rday d nz cdvxf

f|frz imz

J cmi ndvayfi wd`jhf

ovy J hdvìa‚y `fm|f nz o`dhk

ofhmvxf cfa jy bdy imrk J hdvìa‚y hdnf omhk ja!

J hdvìa‚y nffy mazdaf dr ijaafr!

Ycmak Bdi J ydì zdv nz hcjìrfa frf m`` dvy d yda!

Nz xda mx ja _vxxjm!

Ycf hdvw

mx fsmhy`z ycf xmnf imz mx ycf rjdy

mai J mx |frz vwxfy modvy jy!

Cf mx ja _vxxjm rvaajab m xvnnfr hmnwmai J mx |frz hdahfrafi cfa J cmi cfmri modvy ycmy!

J cmia‚y cfmri rdn cjn

ycmy ajbcy ycf rjdy xymryfi!

Rcfa J iji cfmr rdn cjn J ydì cjn yd xymz ja _vxxjm

cf‚i of xmfr

ycfrf ycma cfrf!

Mai cf mx!

’Nrx! _dx`za Nm`mnvi jayfr|jffi oz Maam Ifm|frf Xnjyc

ja Hrda Cfjbcyx Orddk`za =::=



9< p m i x

Myfr m`` J cm|f xmji modvy ycf wdxxjoj`jyz ycmy mx rfmmkfafi ja nf

cfa J rdyf mai wfrdrnfi Ljrfx ja ycf Njrrdr J j`` bj|f cfrf m dri d

hmvyjda! Ycf w`mz ja yfrnx d njrrdrjab hdnnvajyz mai orjabjab hdnnv.

ajyz ydbfycfr mx fadrndvx`z xvhhfxxv`! Ovy iji J hcmabf maz dwjajdax dr of`jfx my ycf fwjhfayfrx4 Iji J hcmabf dwjajdax dr ofcm|jdrx d maz

@vom|jyhc4 Iji J hcmabf dwjajdax dr ofcm|jdrx d o`mhk mhyj|jxyx4 Va`jkf`z!

Da dwfajab ajbcy _du Nm`mnvi }vdyfi mod|f hmnf yd xff ycf w`mz! Xcf

mx |frz fshjyfi oz jy! Rcfa ycf rf|jfx hmnf dvy xcf hm``fi nf my nz

cdnf yd hdabrmyv`myf nf mai yd ja|jyf nf yd cfr cdnf dr ‐m ajhf kdxcfr

nfm`!„ M zfmr myfr ycf w`mz dwfafi J mx ja|jyfi yd wfrdrn ycf w`mz ja m

ycfmyfr }vjyf afmr Hrda Cfjbcyx! O`mhkx mai Efx rdn ycf hdnnvajyz

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Ycf mhhdnw`jxcnfay ycfrf jx ycmy o`mhkx mai Efx xmy xjif oz xjif ja ycf

ycfmyfr! Cdf|fr J dvì af|fr xmz ycmy J hcmabfi maz njaix’J mn ady

hfrymja d mai hmaady mhhdvay dr hcmabf my m``! Rcfa <7 Njavyfx yddk nf

omhk jayd ycf afjbcodrcddi yd id m wrd`f da nz drk _du Nm`mnvi

cd cmi wrj|myf`z hm``fi nf rdn yjnf yd yjnf yd ja|jyf nf yd hdnf yd cfr

cdnf #dr cfr brmaixda‚x orjx dr fsmnw`f* xmji d nf da amyjdam` yf`f|j.

xjda ‐Rcmy idfx xcf kad4 Xcf‚x ady rdn cfrf!„ Xd jy xffnx _du mai J

cm|f yd mbrff yd ijxmbrff! Ovy my `fmxy f mrf ym`kjab! Mai nmzof ycmy‚x

xdnfycjab!

Iji nz xwfmkjab ycf `mabvmbf ajbcy myfr ajbcy jaxjif imrkfafi ycf.

myfrx mrdvai ycjx hdvayrz mai ja Mvxyrm`jm mai @daida hcmabf mazycjab4 Yd

maxfr ycjx }vfxyjda daf dvì cm|f yd hcrdajh`f ycf ofcm|jdr d mvij.

fahfx dahf ijxwfrxfi omhk jayd hdnnvajyjfx mai ycfjr drkw`mhfx! Iji jy

hcmabf ycfjr |dyjab ycfjr wvrhcmxjab ycfjr jnmbjajab ycfjr rf`myjdaxcjwx4@jkfjxf ja @dx Mabf`fx cfa J wfrdrnfi Yj`jbcy5 @dx Mabf`fx modvy

ycf @dx Mabf`fx rjdyx mai ycf cdxyj`jyjfx ofyffa hdnnvajyjfx mai ycdxf

cd wd`jhfi ycf hdnnvajyjfx J xvhhffifi ja orjabjab hdnnvajyjfx jayd

ycf ycfmyfr! J ordkf ods dhf rfhdrix! Ovy iji J hcmabf mazycjab4 Ycf wrd.

hfxx jyxf` ordkf cd`fx ja ojb m``x’nz da m``x jah`vifi! Daf d nz

nvxfx mx m bmab nfnofr’Yj`jbcy Ofz mx cjx amnf! J jayfr|jffi d|fr

ycrff cvairfi wfdw`f5 m bmab nfnofr da ycf daf cmai m wmyrjhjma xdvyc.

fra mrjxydhrmy cd mx fijydr d ycf @dx Mabf`fx Yjnfx da ycf dycfr! Daf d ycf wd`jhf dhfrx cd cmi ofmyfa _diafz Kjab nfy jyc nf! J nfy jyc

evrdrx rdn odyc yrjm`x jah`vijab m evrdr rdn ycf evrz ycmy |dyfi ady yd




xfai ycf wd`jhf dhfrx hrfijyfi jyc hmvxjab ycf rjdyx hmvxjab ycf ifmycx

yd emj`! J ofbma yd ff` `jkf m rjfai d _diafz Kjab‚x mvay! Nz mxxjxymay mai

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ovrxy jayd yfmrx mx xcf yrjfi yd xcmrf jyc vx cfr rvxyrmyjdax jyc ycf ‐xzx.yfn!„ Ycf rfhdrijab d ycmy jayfr|jf cmx dr my `fmxy |f njavyfx da`z ycf

xdvai d ycf rmja mai cfr yfmrx! Ycmy mx m ndnfay d odaijab dr nz mxxjx.

ymay mai nf mx f``! Fmr`z ja dvr edvrafz mrdvai ycf jif mrfm d @dx

Mabf`fx jy ordvbcy cdnf yd vx ycf brm|jyz d cmy f frf yrzjab yd hmw.

yvrf! J `j|fi ja ycf fnofrx d ycmy rjdy ja rmbnfayx d ycf hdnnvajyz d

@dx Mabf`fx5 Of|fr`z Cj``x da ycf daf cmai Xdvyc Hfayrm` @!M! da ycf

dycfr! #@myfr cfa J fay jayd afjbcodrcddix ja Xdvyc Hfayrm` yd of wcd.

ydbrmwcfi dr wrd`fx da nz drk ycf nmbmujafx ycmy frf idjab ycf xyd.rjfx xfay wd`jhf fxhdryx jyc nf!* Ja ycf njixy d hd``fhyjab ycf jayfr|jfx

ycf nmaz xydrjfx ycf nmaz rfhdrijabx J bdy m hm`` rdn xdnf brmivmyf xyv.

ifayx my VH@M m`` Kdrfma Mnfrjhma dnfa! Ycfz cmi cfmri cmy J mx

idjab mai fswrfxxfi ycfjr hdahfra ycmy ja rfbmri yd ycf Kdrfma Mnfrjhma

hdnnvajyz cdxf ovxjafxxfx mai cdnfx cmi offa ovrafi ida oz ycf

ndxy`z o`mhk mai @myjad rjdyfrx ycfz frf hfrymja J dvì ‐bfy ycf xydrz

rdab!„ Ycjx o`vay mxxfxxnfay ofdrf ycfz cmi f|fa nfy nf mx cmri dr

nf yd ymkf! Cdf|fr ycf xfayfahf ycmy ofbma ‐Rf ycjak zdv mrf bdjab yd

bfy jy rdab„ faifi jyc m xvrwrjxjab ‐xd f may yd cf`w zdv!„ Mai jaiffi

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wfdw`f cd dvì af|fr cm|f xwdkfa yd nf dycfrjxf! Ycfz yrmax`myfi dr

nf mai ycfz xmy jyc nf mx J `jxyfafi yd Kdrfma Mnfrjhmax ym`k modvy cd

ycfjr hdnnvajyjfx cmi offa rm|mbfi! Daf nma J jayfr|jffi cmi offa xcdy

wdjay.o`mak ja ycf cfmi my m xydw`jbcy! Ycfz xmy jyc nf ja cjx cdnf mai

f `jxyfafi }vjfy`z mx cjx cdrrjo`f xydrz vadvai!

Daf xvhc xydrz d``dx! J xyj`` wfrdrn ycjx fshfrwy rdn Yj`jbcy5 @dx

Mabf`fx cfaf|fr J hma! Ycf `mabvmbf jx xd ofmvyjv` mai jy hdnfx rdn majayfr|jfff cd mx hdaxymay`z mwd`dbjujab dr cfr Fab`jxc! Nrx! Zdvab.

Xdda Cma mx m jid mai m `j}vdr xydrf dafr! Cfr xydrf mx ovrafi yd

y h o ‐ k „ ‐ !„



93 p m i x

ycf brdvai ivrjab ycf vwrjxjab ycf rjdy ycf xdhjm` fsw`dxjda’mx ycf hj|j`

varfxy ja @dx Mabf`fx mx |mrjdvx`z hm``fi!

Nrx! Zdvab.Xdda CmaLdrnfr @j}vdr Xydrf Dafr

Xm``djab ycf Ojyyfrafxx

Rcfa J mx ja Kdrfm

J vxfi yd myhc nmaz `vsvrjdvx Cd``zddi `jfxyz`f nd|jfx!

J af|fr xm maz wddr nma

maz o`mhk

nmzof daf cdvxfnmji4Vayj` `mxy zfmr

J of`jf|fi Mnfrjhm jx ycf ofxy!

J xyj`` of`jf|f jy!

J ida‚y ifaz ycmy ad!

Ofhmvxf J‚n |jhyjn!

Ovy

mx

ycf zfmr faix ja ajafyz.yd

mai f frf xyj`` ja yvrndj`

mai cm|jab m`` ycf amahjm` wrdo`fnx

mai nfaym` wrdo`fnx

ycfa m hdvw`f ndaycx mbd

J rfm``z rfm`jufi ycmy

Kdrfma jnnjbrmayx frf `fy dvy

rdn ycjxxdhjfyz mai f frf adycjab!

Rcmy jx dvr rjbcy4

Jx jy ofhmvxf f mrf Kdrfma4

Jx jy ofhmvxf f cm|f ad wd`jyjhjmax4

Jx jy ofhmvxf f ida‚y

xwfmk bddi Fab`jxc4

Rcz4

Rcz id f cm|f yd of `fy dvy4#Xcf jx cjyyjab cfr cmai da ycf hdff ymo`f!*

Rf mrf ady }vm`jfi yd cm|f nfijhm` yrfmynfay-

Rf mrf ady }vm`jfi yd bfy vc



Ycf Rdri Ofhdnfx Zdv p 9:

ddi xymnwx-

#Xcf cjyx ycf ymo`f dahf!*

Ady B_-

#Cjyx ycf ymo`f dahf!*Ad f`mrf-

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Mazycjab-

Nmaz Mrd.Mnfrjhmax

#Yd }vjhk cjyx!*

cd af|fr drkfi

#Daf cjy!*

ycfz bfymy `fmxy njajnvn mndvay

#Daf cjy!*

d ndafz

#Daf cjy!*

yd xvr|j|f-

#Daf cjy!*

Rf ida‚y bfy maz-

#@mrbf cjy jyc v`` cmai xwrfmi!*

Ofhmvxf f cm|f m hmr-

#Daf cjy!*

mai f cm|f m cdvxf-

#Wmvxf xjs xfhdaix!*

Mai f mrf cjbc yms wmzfrx-

#Daf cjy!*

#Wmvxf dvryffa xfhdaix!*Rcfrf id J aim [xjh evxyjhf4

Dkmz o`mhk wfdw`f

Wrdomo`z

of`jf|f ycfz da

oz ycf yrjm`4

F|fa xdnf hdnw`mjax da`z cm` rjbcy

evxyjhf mx ycfrf4

Ovy J myhcfi ycf yf`f|jxjdaycmy Xvaimz ndrajab

Fmr`z ndrajab mx ycfz xymryfi

J xymryfi myhc jy m`` imz!



67 p m i x

Ycfz frf cm|jab wmryz mai ycfa ycfz hf`formyfi #Wrdadvahfi

Hf@Forfyfi!*

m`` d Xdvyc Hfayrm`

m`` ycf hcvrhcfxycfz am``z dvai ycmy evxyjhf fsjxyx

ja ycjx xdhjfyz!

Ycfa cfrf jx ycf |jhyjnx‚ rjbcyx4

Ycfz bdy ycfjr rjbcyx

oz ifxyrdzjab jaadhfay Kdrfma nfrhcmayx #@dvifr!*

Ycfz cm|f m `dy d rfxwfhy #Xdyfr!*

mx J id

dr Ir! Nmryja Kjab4Cf jx ycf da`z ndif` dr o`mhk hdnnvajyz!

J ida‚y hmrf Efxxf Emhkxda!

Ovy

cf mx ycf ndif`

d ada.|jd`fahf

Ada.|jd`fahf4

Ycfz `jkf yd cm|f cjxfc [xjh xwjrjyx!

Rcmy modvy `mxy zfmr4

Ycfz ifxyrdzfi jaadhfay wfdw`f-

#Lj|f xfhdai wmvxf!*

Mai J daifr j ycmy jx rfm``z evxyjhf

# Mai m |frz xdy vc myfr evxyjhf `jkf evxyjhmc ovy |frz }vjhk!*

yd bfy ycfjr rjbcyx

ja ycjx mz!

#Ycjryffa xfhdai wmvxf!*J mxfc xm``djab ycf ojyyfrafxxfc!

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Ycfz ofhmnf m`` cj`mrjdvx!

#Ycrff xfhdai wmvxf!*

Mai vc

ja m mz J mx cmwwz dr ycfn

mai J f`y b`mi dr ycfn

my `fmxy ycfz bdy xdnfycjab omhk zdv kad! Evxy `fy‚x drbfy Kdrfma |jhyjnx dr dycfr |jhyjnx

cd mrf ifxyrdzfi oz ycfn!

Ycfz cm|f dvbcy





6? p m i x

jycdvy ycf cf`w d Bdrida Im|jixda cd rma ycf ycfmyfr mai cjx hda.

afhyjdax! J hdvì af|fr cm|f nfy ycf wd`jhf dhfrx mai wd`jyjhjmax J nfy

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hdnnjxxjdafr! J hdvì af|fr cm|f nfy ycf o`mhk mhyj|jxyx cdn J nfy j jycmi ady offa dr Yj`jbcy Ofz ycf bmab nfnofr dr cdn ycf xcd mx

amnfi! Zfy Yj`jbcy af|fr hmnf yd xff ycf xcd ! Zfmrx `myfr J cfmri rdn cjn!

Cf hm``fi yd mxk nf yd cf`w cjn rjyf m oddk! Ycmy oddk hd``modrmyjda

af|fr yddk d ovy f rfvajyfi mai J `fmrafi xdnfycjab |frz jnwdrymay! Ja

yfrnx d ycf kjai d ycfmyfr J id Yj`jbcy xffx cjnxf` mx mvijfahf mx xdnf.

daf cd jx hdnjab dr nf! Cf iji ady xff nf dr nz drk mx ofjab ycfrf dr

cjn! Zfy v`yjnmyf`z cfa cf ycdvbcy cf iji affi nf cf hm``fi dvy! Mai

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fadvbc mai f xcdvì ady fswfhy mx ycf njxxjdamrjfx iji yd hda|fry wfdw`f!

Wfrcmwx jy jx m mz yd jajyjmyf hda|frxmyjdax d ycf xdry f‚i `jkf yd orjab

jayd ycf idnjamay hv`yvrm` hjrh`fx! Idfx hcmabf hm`` dr hda|frxjda’dr jx jy

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ida ycf jaf4 Ycdxf cd nfmxvrf dvì jkf yd }vmayjz cmy mry hma id!

Ovy mry cmx af|fr offa }vmayjmo`f mai xmi`z xdnf d ycf ndxy jif`z

kada drkx d mry ofhmnf xd jycdvy ycf mryjxyx ycfnxf`|fx `j|jab yd xff

ycmy cmwwfa! Yj`jbcy xvoxf}vfay`z xm ycf nd|jf omxfi da ycf xcd! Ovy

nd|jfx zdv xff mrf mvydnmyjhm``z ndrf mhhfxxjo`f!

Nz drk cmx fsyfaifi ofzdai nz da drk ja ycf ycfmyfr! J ad

xffk yd hrfmyf xwmhfx dr hdnnvajyz mndab mryjxyx xhcd`mrx mai mhyj|jxyx! J

if|f`dwfi mai ijrfhyfi ycf Jaxyjyvyf da ycf Mryx mai Hj|jh Ijm`dbvf my

Cmr|mri ja ycf `myf =::7x! Ycf wrdefhy mx vaifi oz ycf Ldri Ldvaimyjda

myfr J cmi offa ycfjr rxy mryjxy.ja.rfxjifahf! Rcj`f ja rfxjifahf J cmi mavnofr d hda|frxmyjdax jyc wrdbrmn dhfrx my Ldri modvy ycf `mhk d m

w`mhf ja xdhjfyz cfrf yrvf hda|frxmyjda hma ymkf w`mhf cfrf rfm` hdayfay

hma of fsw`drfi cfrf yrv`z ijhv`y ycjabx hma of xmji! J xdvbcy dvy mai

ordvbcy ydbfycfr mryjxyx rdn m`` ijxhjw`jafx mx f`` mx xhcd`mrx! Ycf mxwjrm.

yjda mx yd xffi mry mx fswrfxxjda mai mx m yfmxf dr jahrfmxfi hda|frxmyjda

hdayfnw`myjda mai mhyj|jxn!

Ycf drk my Cmr|mri mx fswfrjnfaym`! Ycrff zfmrx frf ady fadvbc;

cdf|fr ycmy fdry ofhmnf ycf xffi dr vrycfr ycjakjab mai ifxjba mai Jmay yd ijxhvxx daf d ycf dxcddyx d ycmy wrdefhy cfrf!

J ordvbcy ydbfycfr nmaz mryjxyx d|fr ycrff xvnnfrx my Cmr|mri mai

wrdivhfi nmaz f|fayx! J m`xd hrfmyfi cmy J hm``fi ‐ycf hdrf mvijfahf!„




Nfnofrx d ycjx hdrf wrdnjxfi yd hdnf yd f|frzycjab f iji ja ycf rxy

xvnnfr; f xymryfi jyc d|fr m cvairfi wfdw`f ja ycf hdrf! J cmi mayfi

da`z ycjryz.|f mai mx mxydajxcfi ycmy xd nmaz rfxwdaifi! Modvy xjsyz.

|f d ycfn rf`jbjdvx`z d``dfi mai wmryjhjwmyfi ja dvr f|fayx d|fr ycfycrff xvnnfrx! Oz ycf xfhdai mai ycjri xvnnfrx J nfy rxy jyc ycf hdrf

mvijfahf! Yd nf j f ycjak d ycf ycfmyfr mx m w`mhf jyc ycrff m``x #ycf

xymbf* ycf hdrf mvijfahf mx ycf dvryc m`` d m rddn ja cjhc f dvì

`ddk my ycf wrfxxjab jxxvfx d ycf drì vwxjif ida xwfhjhm``z yd bfy

madycfr wdjay d |jf ycma ycf daf ofjab wrfxfayfi oz ycf nfijm!

J ad ijrfhy ma drbmajumyjda hm``fi Maam Ifm|frf Xnjyc Rdrkx! Jy jx

ifijhmyfi yd hrfmyjab m b`dom` hdnnvajyz d mryjxyx idjab drk modvy ycf

drì‚x ndxy wrfxxjab wrdo`fnx! Ycfxf mryjxyx mrf afhfxxmrj`z adnmix! J cm|fndxy rfhfay`z ordvbcy ydbfycfr ajaf mryjxyx rdn mrdvai ycf drì mai daf

xhcd`mr ja m xznwdxjvn ja cjhc f `ddkfi my cd odvaimrjfx mai odr.

ifrx hma of w`mhfx d `jnjymyjda ovy m`xd d wdxxjoj`jyz! Ycf f``dx jah`vifi

m Ujnomofma.odra hcdrfdbrmwcfr ad `j|jab ja ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx; m

Xdvyc Mrjhma w`mzrjbcy ad `j|jab ja Hmamim; m \jfyamnfxf |jxvm` mryjxy

cd mx rmjxfi ja ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx mai cmx ad rfyvrafi yd \jfyamn; m

wcdydbrmwcfr cd cmx offa ymkjab wcdydbrmwcx m`dab ycf V!X!‘Nfsjhd

odrifr wrfidnjamay`z d ycf odrifr wmyrd`; ma Mnfrjhma Nvx`jn mvycdr; m

hf``jxy mai hdnwdxfr cd of`jf|fx ycmy nvxjh hma jaxwjrf hdnwmxxjda mai

drì wfmhf; ma M`bfrjma Lrfahc rmwwfr cd evxy da m hfaxdrxcjw hmxf

mbmjaxy Ajhd`mx Xmrkduz ycf wrfxjifay d Lrmahf; mai ma Mrbfayjafma wmjayfr

ad `j|jab ja Ofrkf`fz cd hrfmyfx mry ja hdnnvajyjfx cfrf nmxxmhrfx

cm|f dhhvrrfi! Ycf xhcd`mr mx ma fsyrfnf`z mhhdnw`jxcfi Mnfrjhma cjx.

ydrjma! Rf frf edjafi oz m rmooj dycfr xhcd`mrx mai m rfadafi Jrmajma

`nnmkfr mai |jxvm` mryjxy!Rcmy mx h`fmr rdn dvr hda|fajab jx ycmy xd nmaz wfdw`f mrf ‐rdn„

xdnfcfrf ‐f`xf!„ Ycfrf jx da ycf daf cmai ycf yrfai ydmri ijmxwdrm!

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nf ycmy ycf adyjda d hdnnvajyz ofhdnfx daf d ndoj`jyz’ofjab

ndoj`f bdjab yd mai rd mai yrzjab yd nmkf m ijfrfahf cj`f ‐|jxjyjab„

dr cj`f ‐rfyvrajab!„ J `dab mbd ofbma yd ycjak d ycf wrfijhmnfay d

‐of`dabjab!„ Rcfa daf of`dabx yd m hfrymja brdvw dr w`mhf daf afhfxxmr.

j`z ofhdnfx m hmnw nfnofr m yrjof nfnofr ja m kjai d ‐xmf cdvxf„ d jifayjyz! Nz ifxjrf cmx offa mai jx yd hrfmyf ycf w`mhfx ja ofyffa ycdxf

xmf cdvxfx m hrdxxrdmix d mnojbvjyz cfrf af drkx mai af rf`myjda.

xcjwx f|d`|f!



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J cm|f `j|fi ja ycjx hrdxxrdmi dr ycf brfmyfr wmry d nz `jf mai hrfmyfi

nz ofxy drk ycfrf! J ycjak mbmja d _du Nm`mnvi xmzjab ja nz wrfxfahf

da <7 Njavyfx ‐Rcmy idfx xcf kad4 Xcf‚x ady rdn cfrf !„ Ovy cmy jx ycf

‐cfrf„4 Rf mrf m`` rdn xdnfcfrf ovy f nmz of hcmabjab ycf cfrf hda.xymay`z! Ycf ndnfay cfa ycf zdvab Kdrfma Mnfrjhma brmivmyf xyvifayx

ofbma m xfayfahf jyc ‐Rf ycjak zdv mrf bdjab yd bfy jy rdab„ mai faifi

jyc ‐xd f may yd cf`w zdv!„ Jy xffnx yd nf ycmy my ycjx wdjay mryjxyjhm``z

ycfrf jx ad wdxxjoj`jyz d hdnnvajyz jycdvy hd``modrmyjda!

Hd``modrmyjdax ycmy `jak mryjxyx jyc mbfayx d xdhjm` hcmabf hdvì of

fsyrmdrijamrj`z wrd|dhmyj|f! Ycfrf mx ma frm ja cjhc hd``modrmyjda wrd`j.

frmyfi! J cm|f offa fadrndvx`z mfhyfi oz rfmijab ycf edvram`x d ycf Lrff

Xdvycfra Ycfmyfr! Ycjx brdvw d mhydrx mai rjyfrx mai ycjakfrx fay yd ycfMnfrjhma Xdvyc ivrjab ycf =:<7x’wrdomo`z ycf Xdvyc‚x ojyyfrfxy ndnfay

wdxy‘Hj|j` Rmr! Ycfz wfrdrnfi w`mzx ja hdnnvajyz hfayfrx mai cfa ycf

hdnnvajyz hfayfrx frf ycrfmyfafi jyc odnojabx ofhmvxf d ycf mhyj|jxy

amyvrf d ycf w`mzx ycfz wfrdrnfi ja dwfa fìx vaifr ycf xymrx! Ycfjr

hmvxf4 Ycfjr wrd|dhmyjda4 Bfyyjab ycf |dyf dr Mrjhma Mnfrjhmax! Iji ycfz

hmvxf m hcmabf4 Zfx ovy mbmjaxy ycf omhkbrdvai d m cvbf nd|fnfay m

nd|fnfay ycmy jah`vifi nmaz kjaix d hcmabf mbfayx’mndab ycfn mry.

jxyx! Ycf ojb cmvayjab }vfxyjdax modvy mry mai hcmabf dr hcmabf d maz

kjai mrf5 Rcmy mrf zdv j``jab yd `dxf4 mai Rcmy mrf zdv j``jab yd xmhrj.

hf4 Hcmabf idfx ady hdnf dr rff!

Nz xvbbfxyjda jx ycmy f ai mzx d xwmrkjab va`jkf`z hd``modrm.

yjdax’hd``modrmyjdax ycmy j`` farjhc ycf wvo`jh xwcfrf jaxwjrjab mai

fahdvrmbjab m`` kjaix d wfdw`f yd hdnf dvy d ycfjr xmf cdvxfx! Ja ycdxf

xwmhfx jyc xjabv`mr wfdw`f cd imrf yd `fm|f ycf xmf cdvxf d jifayjyz

jayf``fhyvm` dr mryjxyjh ijxhjw`jaf dr wd`jyjhm` fahmnwnfay f njbcy hrfmyfxdnf nd|fnfay! Rf `j|f ja m drì cfrf xdnf wfdw`f ida‚y f|fa hmrrz

ycfjr m``fyx dr hcmabf ja ycfjr wdhkfyx mazndrf! Jy‚x ydd odycfrxdnf! Jy‚x m

ojb.oj`` drì my `fmxy ja ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx! Ycfrf mrf wfdw`f ofbbjab dr

hcmabf da dvr xyrffyx mai da xyrffyx m`` d|fr ycf drì! Mry hmaady xvww`z m``

d ycf hcmabf! Cdf|fr ofhmvxf xd nmaz mryjxyx mrf adnmijh da ycf nd|f

dvyxjif d xmf cdvxfx f cm|f m hcmahf yd edja vw cfrf hcmabf jx da ycf

|frbf! Dvr hdnwmajdaxcjw jyc ycdxf cd vaifrxymai wd`jhz dr ycf iffwfr

ycjabx ycmy mj` vx mx cvnmax hdvì my `fmxy wvy xdnf cd`fx jayd ycf `mrbfr mai ndrf dnjadvx m``x!



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xcjwx mai adnjamyjdax dr ycf Wv`jyufr Wrjuf mai ycf Amyjdam` Oddk

Mmri! Yjm Hcvhcm Wrfxx mai ycf Bvjì Hdnw`fs ofhmnf jaxyrvnfaym` ja

ycf Hcjhmbd Wdfyrz Lfxyj|m`x’hm``fi Afvyrm` Yvr’cfrf xdnf ycrff

ycdvxmai wfdw`f hmnf yd rfmijabx m`dab @mkf Njhcjbma! Rjyc hjyz vaixf xfay x`mn wdfyrz jaafrx yd w`mhfx xvhc mx Mhhrm Bcmam; Wrmbvf

Hufhcdx`d|mkjm; mai Dxmkm Emwma! Nz hdnnvajyz drk my ycf yjnf m`xd

ja|d`|fi wdfyrz drkxcdwx ja wrjxdax ev|faj`f `dhkvwx xhcdd`x mai xcf`.

yfrx dr cdnf`fxx wfdw`f! J cf`wfi hrfmyf Zdvyc Xyrvbb`jab dr Xvr|j|m`

#ZXX* dr bmab mai adabmab zdvyc mai `myfr ycf Cvnodìy Wmrk Yffa

_fmhc wrdbrmn! J mayfi yd fswmai nz drk jyc wdfyrz yd jah`vif

hdnnvajyjfx kfwy dvyxjif ycf nmrbjax d `jyfrmrz vaijab mai fswrfxxjda

cjhc jx cjbc`z nmrbjam`jufi ja ycf `mrbfr hv`yvrf mx jy jx! J mayfi ydrfnfnofr cfrf J cmi hdnf rdn’mai yd bj|f omhk yd ycdxf xyj`` hmvbcy

ja ycf xyrffy `jf‚x xyff`z brmxw! J yrm|f`fi mrdvai ycf hdvayrz xwrfmijab ycf

bdxwf` d wdfyrz’mai ycfa d|fr ycf zfmrx yd Hmamim Nfsjhd F` Xm`|midr

Bvmyfnm`m Ajhmrmbvm Cdaivrmx \fafuvf`m Wfrv Wvfryd _jhd Emwma

Fab`mai Lrmahf ycf Afycfr`maix Mvxyrjm Jym`z Odxajm.Cfrufbd|jam mai

mhrdxx Bfrnmaz!

J nmrrjfi nz ycjri jf Yrjaj Hmrifamx ja =:33 #f‚|f cmi yd xdax

xjahf ycfa*! Ovy yfa zfmrx `myfr _mnjrd nz dìfxy xda rdn nz rxy nmr.

rjmbf mx xfayfahfi yd yfayz.fjbcy zfmrx ja xymyf wrjxda dr ycrff hdvayx

d myyfnwyfi nvrifr! J cmi rjyyfa ycf =::8 ofxy.xf``jab nfndjr M`mzx

_vaajab5 @m \jim @dhm5 Bmab Imzx ja @!M! yd cf`w _mnjrd m|dji evxy xvhc m

xjyvmyjda ovy ycdvbc J cmi cf`wfi nmaz bmab zdvyc bfy dvy d ycf nmiafxx

J hdvì ady cf`w nz xda! J m`xd cmi m imvbcyfr mai dvr brmaihcjìrfa yd

drrz modvy! Rf cmi nmaz rjfaix ja Hcjhmbd ovy ad mnj`z! Yrjaj cmi m

`mrbf mhyj|f mai cfm`ycz mnj`z ja ycf adrycfmxy Xma Lframaid \m``fz xd ja?777 f ifhjifi yd bd omhk yd @dx Mabf`fx!

WDFY_z MAI YCF HJYz DL MABF@X

D|fr ycf zfmrx J wvo`jxcfi ndrf wdfyrz oddkx my dycfr wrfxxfx mx f`` mx

hcjìrfa‚x oddkx m xcdry xydrz hd``fhyjda m ad|f` mai m adahyjda oddk

da hrfmyjab hdnnvajyz ja |jd`fay yjnfx! J cmi wmzjab bjbx m`` d|fr mai m

f f``dxcjwx mai mmrix! Jy mx yjnf dr nf yd bj|f omhk da madycfr `f|f`!

Ldr zfmrx ycf Adrycfmxy \m``fz mx kada mx ycf ‐Nfsjhma„ xjif d ycf

|m``fz! Rcfa f mrrj|fi jy cmi m wdwv`myjda d xdnf 967777’modvy ycf



Yjm Hcvhcm Hdnfx Cdnf p <8

xjuf d Dmk`mai’ndxy`z Nfsjhma mai Hfayrm` Mnfrjhma wfdw`f! Zfy ycf

mrfm `mhkfi m oddkxydrf ma mry bm``frz m nd|jf cdvxf dr ifhfay hv`yvrm`

xwmhf! Yrjaj mx ijxmwwdjayfi ycmy ady nvhc cmi hcmabfi xjahf xcf `fy cfr

Adrycfmxy \m``fz cdnf yfayz.|f zfmrx fmr`jfr! Myfr ovzjab m ifhfaycdnf ja ycf hjyz d Xma Lframaid J ijia‚y affi yd bfy m xwdryx hmr dr m

xjnnjab wdd`! Jaxyfmi jyc ycf fsyrm ndafz ycmy hmnf nz mz J ja|fxyfi

ja Yjm Hcvhcm‚x Hmê Hv`yvrm` m hmê oddkxydrf drkxcdw hfayfr mry bm`.

`frz mai wfrdrnmahf xwmhf ja Xz`nmr Hm`jdrajm!

Yrjaj nz ordycfr.ja.`m Farj}vf Xmahcfu mai J ovj`y m v`` hdff omr

jyc ma fxwrfxxd nmhcjaf rdmxyfr brjaifr if`j hmxfx rfrjbfrmydr jhf.nmk.

jab nmhcjaf xjakx ddi hmojafyx mai xydhk xcf`|jab! Rf cmi wdrymo`f

ddi xcf`|fx dr oddkx m xnm`` bm``frz xwmhf mai m Nmzma.ndyj `ddkycrdvbcdvy ycf xydrf! Yrjaj wjhkfi dvy mnmujab mrn fmryc.ydaf hd`drx!

Rf doymjafi dvr rxy ja|faydrz d oddkx! Mai f cjrfi m nmambfr mai m

zdvab hmê fnw`dzff!

Ycmy mx ja Ifhfnofr ?77=! Ycf @jofryz Cj`` Ldvaimyjda wrd|jifi m

ycrff.zfmr xdhjm` fayrfwrfafvr brmay yd xvww`fnfay cmy J wvy jayd ycf

w`mhf! Rf f|fa cmi m Am|med fìfr #Yrjaj cmi offa midwyfi oz Maycdaz @ff

mai cjx mnj`z da ycf rfu m f zfmrx ofdrf* `dhm` rjfaix mai Hcjhmbd

rjfaix rdn ZXX ja myyfaimahf ivrjab m hdnnvajyz o`fxxjab!

Rf frf rfmiz yd rdhk ycjx drì!

M I_FMN DL HDNNVAJYz FNWDRF_NFAY

Daf d ycf rxy ycjabx f iji mx xfy vw m ffk`z dwfa njh! Wdfyx rfmi

xwdkfa dri mryjxyx wfrdrnfi wfdw`f xmab mai bvjymrjxyx w`mzfi! Yd mh.

hdnndimyf ycf Xwmajxc.xwfmkjab hdnnvajyz f cfì m ffk`z Adhcfx Od.cfnjmx dr Xwmajxc.`mabvmbf wfrdrnfrx! J xcdfi vw ivrjab ycf rxy zfmrx

yd rfmi nz drk mai fahdvrmbf dycfrx! Dycfr @!M!.mrfm wdfyx jah`vifi

Wdfyx d ycf _dvai Ymo`f Ja @mk Fhc #m Hcjhmam dnfa‚x wdfyrz brdvw*

mai Xyrffy Wdfyx! Nv`yjbfarf brdvwx xvhc mx ycf Hcjhmad cjw.cdw brdvw F`

\vc ycf Xwmajxc.`mabvmbf rdhk omai Adsyjf` ycf wvak.Muyfh.yrmijyjdam`

Nfsjhma brdvw Cjedx if `m Yjfrrm mai ycf Wfrv|jma nvxjh‘omxfi omai

_mjhfx xymryfi vw my Yjm Hcvhcm‚x m`dab jyc ycfmyfr dvyyx xvhc mx Yrfx

Hcjabmxdx mai Yfmyrd Hcvhcfrdx! Rf xdda cmi dvr da rfxjifay Nfsjkm #xd.hm``fi Muyfh* imaum brdvw hm``fi Yfnmhcyjm ]vfyum`hdmy`! Mvycdrx xvhc

mx Xmairm Hjxafrdx _vofa Nmryjafu \jhydr \j``mxfadr Mirjfaaf _jhc

Ifajxf Hcm|fu mai Rmaim Hd`fnma brmhfi dvr xymbf! Ycf nvxjh rmabfi



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rdn yrmijyjdam` Nfsjhma yd jaijbfadvx rdhk cjw.cdw o`vfx mai _,O!

Daf d nz m|drjyf ‚<7x omaix Hcmr`fx Rrjbcy mai ycf Rmyyx =78ri Xyrffy

_czycn Omai #‐Fswrfxx Zdvrxf`„* w`mzfi ycfrf mx f``!

Ja ?778 xjabfr Mabf`jhm @dm Wfrfu mai rmwwfr \jhydr Nfaidum edjafinf ja xymryjab m adawrdy xjxyfr drbmajumyjda yd ycf hmê mai oddkxydrf! Rf

hm``fi ycjx Yjm Hcvhcm‚x Hfayrd Hv`yvrm` mai xdda jahdrwdrmyfi m`` ycf

drkxcdwx d ycf hmê mai ndxy d ycf f|fayx! Oz ycf nji.?777x Yjm Hcv.

hcm‚x cmi xfr|fi ycdvxmaix d kjix yffax wmrfayx mai xfajdrx’ndxy`z dr

rff! Rf cjrfi ndrf xym nmja`z zdvab oj`jabvm` mhyj|jxyx! Rjyc ycf miijyjda

d ycf adawrdy f doymjafi brmayx rdn ycf @!M! Ifwmrynfay d Hv`yvrm`

Mmjrx ycf Hm`jdrajm Mryx Hdvahj` ycf @!M! Hdvayz Mryx Hdnnjxxjda mai

dvaimyjdax xvhc mx ycf Xd`jimbd Ldvaimyjda ycf Myyjmx Lmnj`z Ldvaimyjdaycf Njii`fyda Ldvaimyjda ycf Hfayfr dr Hv`yvrm` Jaad|myjda ycf Ady

Evxy Vx Ldvaimyjda mai ycf Wmaym _cfm Ldvaimyjda!

M`ycdvbc f fswmaifi jayd m`` ycf mryx wdfyrz mx xyj`` my ycf cfmry d

dvr wrdbrmnnjab! J drkfi yd bfy Yjm Hcvhcm Wrfxx omhk rdn Hcjhmbd‚x

Bvjì Hdnw`fs oz ?776 mai ja ycf d``djab zfmrx f wvo`jxcfi ycf drk

d mrjf` rdof``d Wmyrjhjm Xwfmrx Edafx @jaim Emhkxda M`rfi Mryfmbm Xvxma I!

Maifrxda _jhcmri \mrbmx @vj|fyyf _fxyd @jaim _dirjbvfu mai Hcjma

Hcdj’mai hrfmyfi miijyjdam` maycd`dbjfx! Rcfa Yjm Hcvhcm Wrfxx wdfy

F`jumofyc M`fsmaifr mx xf`fhyfi ja ?77: mx ycf wdfy my ycf jamvbvrmyjda d

dryz.dvryc V!X! wrfxjifay Omrmhk Domnm f rfwrjayfi cfr =::< oddk

Odiz d @jf !

Da ydw d ycjx f xymryfi m rfhdrijab hdnwmaz hm``fi Idx Nmadx

cjhc wrdivhfi HIx mai f ofbma ycf rxy dvyiddr `jyfrmhz mai wfrdr.

nmahf fxyj|m` ja ycf Xma Lframaid \m``fz’Hf`formyjab Rdrix5 Rrjyyfa

Wfrdrnfi mai Xvab’mai ma maavm` ofafy my Cd``zddi‚x Edca MaxdaLdri Mnwcjycfmyfr! F|fayvm``z f xfy vw m zdvyc fnwdfrnfay wrdefhy

hm``fi Zdvab Rmrrjdrx dvaifi oz yd yffambfi hdnnvajyz `fmifrx Nmzrm

Umrmbdum mai Orjma Ifxxmjay!

H_JXJX MAI @DXX

Ycf rxy nmedr hrjxjx ja|d`|fi ycf yrjw`jab d dvr rfay ja `myf ?77<! M`.

ycdvbc f cmi ordvbcy omi`z affifi `jf jayd ycf xyrjw nm`` cfrf ffrf `dhmyfi ycf `mai`drix mayfi yd rfw`mhf vx jyc m cjbc.fai `mvairz

xfr|jhf! Dvr |f.zfmr fmxf faifi mai ycf rfay mx jahrfmxfi! Rf dvbcy




ovy ndafz ym`kx ja ycf hdnnfrhjm` rfaym` ovxjafxx! Rf frf idjab f``

ovy ady f`` fadvbc yd wmz yrjw`f rfay!

J minjy ycjx ydrf my nz rfxd`|f! Ycf yfax d ycdvxmaix d id``mrx J‚i

ja|fxyfi yd hrfmyf Yjm Hcvhcm‚x frf ad bdjab ida ycf irmja! Rfrfhfj|fi dvr adyjhf yd |mhmyf ja fmr`z ?772! Dycfr wdxxjo`f `dhmyjdax frf

wv``fi dvy rdn vaifr vx! M`ycdvbc ycfrf mx adycjab `jkf Yjm Hcvhcm‚x dr

nj`fx mrdvai mai ifxwjyf dvr jnnfaxf hdnnvajyz xvwwdry f cmi

adcfrf yd bd dr rfnfijfx’ady ycf hjyz ady ycf hdvayz ady ycf xymyf ady

maz nmedr vaijab xdvrhf!

J mx da ycf |frbf d }vjyyjab cfa J ifhjifi daf Lrjimz yd bd yd Yjm

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Ma fjbcy.zfmr.dì bjr` rfmi rdn cfr edvram`! M Nfsjhma mjyfr my ma Jym`jmarfxymvrmay iji m cfmryz rfhjym` d Xwmajxc.`mabvmbf wdfyrz xymaimrix! Wfdw`f

xmab jah`vijab m dnma cd xdì ymnm`fx da ffkfaix! Ycmy‚x cfa J

rfm`jufi J hdvìa‚y `fy ycjx bd! Ifxwjyf ycf yrdvo`f ycf `dxxfx ycf ndafz

ovrafi vw J cmi yd kffw Yjm Hcvhcm‚x bdjab!

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yrz da`z yfa njavyfx rdn ycf dì xwdy! Ycf hdnnvajyz mx @mkf \jf Yfr.

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xfy vw madycfr hdff omr! Rf cmi yd w`mhf dvr fswfaxj|f hdff omr f}vjw.

nfay ja xydrmbf!

Vadryvamyf`z ovxjafxx my ycf af xwmhf mx omi! Wfdw`f cmi m cmri

yjnf aijab ycf w`mhf! Ycfrf mx ad m`k.ja yrmh! Dvr drkxcdwx mai

f|fayx frf `mrbf`z hvrymj`fi! Ovy f xdìjfrfi da! M f f|fayx irf `mrbf

mvijfahfx’cjw.cdw hdnfiz ajbcyx nvxjhm` wfrdrnmahfx mai dwfa njhxhdayjavfi yd orjab wfdw`f ja! Rf rfhfj|fi xyrdab nfijm myyfayjda jah`vi.

jab mryjh`fx ja ycf @dx Mabf`fx Yjnfx ycf @!M! Imj`z Afx @m Dwjajda @!M!

Rffk`z Wfdw`f #fa Fxwmýd`* mx f`` mx `dhm` mai amyjdam` Y\ mai rmijd ordmi.

hmxyx! Hf`formyjab Rdrix mai dvr maavm` ofafy my ycf Ldri Mnwcjycfmyfr

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daf ycdvxmai wfdw`f!

Ovy dr ycf ndxy wmry f `dxy ndnfayvn!

Ycfa ycf wrj|myf xydrmbf xwmhf f vxfi dr dvr hdff omr f}vjwnfayoddkxcf`|fx oddkx HIx mai dycfr jnwdrymay jyfnx mx ordkfa jayd’ady

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mai odsfx! Ycfz ydrf vw oddkx mai HIx! Rdrxf ycfz xyd`f dvr ndxy fswfa.

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mif}vmyf`z hdnwfaxmyf vx!

Rf `dxy dvr wrfhjdvx hdff omr!Ycf Adrycfmxy \m``fz jx m drkjab.h`mxx mrfm jyc `mrbf xmycx d wddr

wfdw`f! Ycfrf mrf bmabx cdvxjab wrdefhyx mai hrjnf! Ycf fhdadnz mx

drxfajab! Mbmja J hdvì cm|f bj|fa vw’ovy ijia‚y! Jaxyfmi J drkfi da

doymjajab m af xwmhf omhk ja Xz`nmr! Rf dvai m af`z hdaxyrvhyfi xjs.

vajy xyrvhyvrf my m xyrjw nm`` afmr Njxxjda Hdnnvajyz Hd``fbf lmakfi oz

Jayfrxymyf ?=7 mai m nmedr ycdrdvbcmrf! Ycf rfaym` nmrkfy mx xvfrjab oz

ycfa’jy mx ycf mvyvna d ?773 cfa ycf xydhk nmrkfy f`` mxyfr ycma my

maz yjnf xjahf ycf Brfmy Ifwrfxxjda! Ldr ndaycx J xm ycmy adaf d ycfvajyx cmi offa `fmxfi! M xvwfrnmrkfy ja rday d ycf xyrvhyvrf mx odmrifi

vw! Vajyx m`dabxjif ycf nmrkfy jah`vifi m f |mhmahjfx!

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afr xwmhf ja ycf af xyrvhyvrf! Cf mayfi ydw id``mr wfr x}vmrf ddy cjhc

fsw`mjafi cz adodiz mx `fmxjab! J bdy ycf `mai`dri yd bd yd cm` d cmy

cf mx mxkjab oz hda|jahjab cjn yd bj|f vx wmry d ycf rfay omhk f|frz

ndayc mx m yms rjyf.d! Rf yddk m |f.zfmr `fmxf ycmy jah`vifi ma dwyjda

yd hdayjavf ycf xmnf rfay mbrffnfay j f mayfi madycfr |f zfmrx’f

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mx mhhfxx yd m `mrbf wmrkjab `dy! Rf hdvì cdì f|fayx ycfrf!

Da ycf imz d dvr brmai dwfajab ja Nmrhc d ?77: f xfy vw m xymbf

dr omaix wdfyx imahfrx mhydrx mai xwfmkfrx! Ycfrf frf ddi xymaix

jah`vijab daf fmyvrjab m rfxymvrmay ja ycf xyrjw nm`` ycmy xwfhjm`jufi ja

Nfsjhma mai Xm`|midrma ijxcfx! Mx nmaz mx xf|fa cvairfi wfdw`f hmnf

mai ycf @!M! Imj`z Afx iji m nmedr wjfhf!Rf dìfi ycf hmê.oddkxydrf ovxjafxx jayd ycf adawrdy! Rf mrf ad

m v``.lfibfi hdnnvajyz.omxfi 67=#h*#8*! Ydimz ndrf wfdw`f ycma f|fr

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nmedr nfijm hd|frmbf jah`vijab AOH‚x Ajbcy`z Afx jyc Orjma Rj``jmnx

KMOH.Y\‚x \jxym @!M! HAA‚x Rcmy Nmyyfrx mai HAA‚x @fmifrx jyc

Cfmry ! Ja miijyjda yd hjyz hdvayz xymyf mai fifrm` vaix f ad cm|f

brmayx rdn ycf Hm`jdrajm Hdnnvajyz Ldvaimyjda ycf Ycrj`` Cj`` Ldva.

imyjda ycf Maafaofrb Ldvaimyjda ycf Rfjabmry Ldvaimyjda mai ycf Emnfx Jr|jaf Ldvaimyjda’mai idamyjdax mai dycfr xfr|jhfx rdn adymo`fx

xvhc mx Edca Ifaxndrf d ycf Iddrx Hcffhc Nmrja Im|f Nmrxc @dv

Mi`fr mai _jhcmri Lddx d ycf Xcdvy- Lmhydrz! Ja Mwrj` d ?77: Orvhf




Xwrjabxyffa ja|jyfi Yjm Hcvhcm‚x yd xfy vw m ymo`f jyc idamyjda ovhkfyx

my daf d cjx xdì.dvy hdahfryx my ycf @!M! Xwdryx Mrfam! Ivrjab ycf hda.

hfry Orvhf nfayjdafi Yjm Hcvhcm‚x mai mxkfi wfdw`f yd idamyf! @myfr

ycmy f|fajab Yrjaj mai J nmif dvr mz omhkxymbf yd wfrxdam``z ycmak Nr!Xwrjabxyffa!

RCMY RF @FM_AFI

Wdfyrz `jkf m`` mry hdnfx rdn jycja wfdw`f jycja mnj`jfx jycja

hdnnvajyz! @jyfrmhz rjxfx rdn ycf cvabfr wfdw`f cm|f dr kad`fibf

jifmx xydrjfx! Rf dvai ma movaimahf d mry xdab nvxjh wdfyrz mai ndrf

m`rfmiz fsjxyjab jycja ycf afb`fhyfi adrycfmxy Xma Lframaid \m``fz!

J kaf ycmy hdnwmajfx `jkf Omrafx mai Ado`f cmi offa mxkfi yd xfy vw

xcdw cfrf! Rf cfmri ycfz dvìa‚y ydvhc ycjx mrfm! Rcmy ycfz mj`fi yd rfh.

dbajuf mx ycmy wddr wfdw`f f|fa jyc `jyy`f nmyfrjm` nfmax cm|f ma mova.

imahf d jnmbjamyjda mai ym`fayx! Dvr rfxjifay mryjxy Evma Wvfo`d m Nfsj.

hma xhv`wydr wmjayfr bvjymrjxy mai wdfy dvai vx daf imz cfa cf adyjhfi

dvr `jbcyx cj`f m`kjab ida ycf nmja irmb! Cf ad mhj`jymyfx ma mrrmz d

mryx mai nvxjh drkxcdwx mai `fmix hdnnvajyz nfnofrx ja wmjayjab m``x

mai nvrm`x my Yjm Hcvhcm‚x mai ja ycf hdnnvajyz! Ycf nma cd fnhffx

dvr dwfa njh jx m hdaxyrvhyjda drkfr drjbjam``z rdn Bvmyfnm`m! Dvr jaijbfadvx hdxnd`dbz h`mxxfx cm|f fard``fi nmaz Nfsjhma mai Hfayrm`

Mnfrjhma jaijbfadvx wfdw`f’jah`vijab ycdxf cdxf rxy `mabvmbf jx

Amcvmy` dr Nmzma!

Mai dvr oddkxydrf ycdvbc oddkxf``jab jx m rdvbc ovxjafxx dr mazdaf

cmx brda! Daf `dhm` nfhcmajh cd cmi rfmi m`ndxy ad oddkx vayj` f

dwfafi dvr iddrx ja daf zfmr rfmi ndrf ycma ycjryz oddkx! Njii`f xhcdd`

mai cjbc xhcdd` xyvifayx jah`vijab m brdvw ycmy hmnf yjhf rdn ycf Xma

Lrmahjxhd Omz mrfm nmkf fì yrjwx yd ycf xydrf!Rf‚|f m`xd ad fxymo`jxcfi wrdbrmnnjab mai f|fayx dr ycf xjbajhmay

avnofrx d Mrjhma Mnfrjhmax Mxjmax mai Fvrdwfma Mnfrjhmax cd `j|f

ja ycf Adrycfmxy \m``fz mai f`xfcfrf! Xjahf ?772 dvr odmri d ijrfhydrx

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cmx fswmaifi rdn m drkjab odmri d ycrff wfdw`f yd yfa nfnofrx!

Ofxjifx Hcjhmadx mai Hfayrm` Mnfrjhmax ycf odmri cmx jah`vifi m Lj`jwjam

yd Mrjhma Mnfrjhmax mai ycrff Fvrdwfma Mnfrjhmax!

Rf‚rf |frz mhyj|f ja hrfmyjab wd`jhz ycmy rflfhyx cmy f‚|f `fmrafimodvy hdnnvajyz mai ycf mryx! Ldr fsmnw`f J bdy ja|d`|fi jyc dryz dycfr

bmab jayfr|fayjda xwfhjm`jxyx wfmhf mi|dhmyfx mai rfxfmrhcfrx ja cf`wjab

rjyf m hdnwrfcfaxj|f hdnnvajyz.omxfi bmab jayfr|fayjda wd`jhz ycmy

jah`vifi ycf mryx! Ja Lforvmrz d ?773 ycf @!M! Hjyz Hdvahj` midwyfi ycjx

w`ma mx wmry d jyx bmab |jd`fahf mai zdvyc if|f`dwnfay wrdbrmnx! Ad J‚n

drkjab jyc mryx mi|dhmyfx mryjxyx hv`yvrm` xwmhfx mai wvo`jh mry `fmifrx ja

yrzjab yd fxymo`jxc m hdnwrfcfaxj|f afjbcodrcddi mryx wd`jhz ycmy hma wrd.

yfhy hv`yvrm` xwmhfx jaifwfaifay oddkxydrfx `jyfrmhz drbmajumyjdax wvo`jhmry wrdefhyx mai xjnj`mr brdvwx rdn ycf |mbmrjfx d ycf nmrkfyw`mhf rfay

cjkfx vroma rfnd|m`x mai mhk d vaix! Ja @dx Mabf`fx ycf xd.hm``fi Fayfr.

ymjanfay Hmwjym` d ycf Rdrì cfrf ndxy mryx ovhkx mrf ofjab hdahfa.

yrmyfi ja idayda Cd``zddi dr ycf Rfxyxjif dvr mjn cmx offa yd xfy

wd`jhz ycmy dvì cf`w xvxymja j|jab hdnnvajyz mryx ja m`` afjbcodrcddix’

jah`vijab w`mhfx xvhc mx Xdvyc Hfayrm` @!M! Fmxy @!M! mai ycf Adrycfmxy

\m``fz cfrf oddkxydrfx mai hv`yvrm` xwmhfx mrf m`ndxy adafsjxyfay!

Rjyc ycf fhdadnjh idayvra ycdvbc f cm|f xffa ycf mryx ofjab hvy

ja xhcdd`x hv`yvrm` xwmhfx mai jaifwfaifay oddkxydrfx ofjab wvxcfi dvy

mai nvrm`x ofjab m``dfi yd ifyfrjdrmyf Yjm Hcvhcm‚x jx wvyyjab dryc ycf

rf|d`vyjdamrz hdahfwy ycmy mryx.omxfi jajyjmyj|fx mrf ycf ndxy |jym` mzx d

rf|j|jab ycf fhdadnz bmycfrjab mai ovjìjab hdnnvajyz cf`wjab moma.

idafi mai xvwwrfxxfi zdvyc mai jnmbjajab ofyyfr mai ndrf f}vjymo`f mzx

d drbmajujab xvr|j|jab mai `j|jab! Mx wrdd d ycjx’m`` ycf dycfr vajyx ja

ycf o`dhk d rfaym` vajyx f‚rf my mrf ad `fmxfi yd `dhm` ovxjafxxfx! MaiLrfxc mai Fmxz m b`dom` ddi nmrkfy hcmja cmx ymkfa d|fr ycf drnfr`z

xcvyyfrfi ovjìjab mhrdxx ycf mz!

Xyj`` my ycf cfmry d cmy f id jx wdfyrz!

Mai oz mz d wdfyjh evxyjhf J nvxy mii ycmy nz xda _mnjrd ofhmvxf

d ‐bddi yjnf„ mai d|frhrdifi wrjxdax mx am``z rf`fmxfi rdn ycf J``j.

adjx Ifwmrynfay d Hdrrfhyjdax ja ycf xvnnfr d ?7=7 myfr ycjryffa.mai.

m.cm` zfmrx! Cf }vjy bmabx mai irvbx ja wrjxda! Mai f‚|f brda h`dxf’ad

nmyyfr ycf ijxymahf dr rmudr jrf J af|fr momaidafi cjn! Cf‚x ad wmry d ycf Yjm Hcvhcm mnj`z `ddkjab jayd hrfmyjab m xjnj`mr hfayfr ja ycf Nfsj.

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J ofhmnf m wdfy ja ycf ddixcfi dvyxjif d nvhc hdnnvajyz hfrymja`z

dvyxjif d m hdnnvajyz d Mrjhma Mnfrjhma wffrx! J hmnf d mbf mx m wdfy

my ma dii yjnf ja ycf hv`yvrf ja ycf mkf d ycf dnfa‚x nd|fnfay mx‐jifayjyz wd`jyjhx„ mx xymryjab yd of amnfi hf`formyfi mai ycfa xjy`z

ifrjifi! J‚i of`dabfi yd xdnf xnm`` dnfa‚x rjyjab brdvwx mai J mx

wmry d rjhc hdnnvajyjfx d o`mhk wfdw`f ja ycf cfmiz drk d mhmifnjm

ja ycf =:37x!

O`mhk wdfyx d nz bfafrmyjda frf idjab ycfjr drk ja ijmxwdrm! Ycdxf

dìfr ycma J mx’_jym Id|f Zvxf Kdnvazmkmm mai dycfrx’xffnfi yd

of drkjab da ycfjr da mai frf dyfa ycf da`z dafx ja ycfjr yfmhcjab

mai wdfyrz.rjyjab drìx! Nz da wmyc yd wdfyrz mx rxy `jy oz ma m|va.hv`mr wfa wm` ycf wdfy Njhcmf` Cmrwfr cdn J ofbma rjyjab myfr cfmr.

jab cjn rfmi cjx drk cfa J mx ja hd``fbf! Rcfa J dvì hcjyyfr.hcmyyfr

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xmay }vfxyjdax modvy cjx jaif`jo`f wdfnx! ‐J adyjhf ycmy zdvr `jaf –O`mhk

cvnma cjxydrz5 mww`f yrff‚ fhcdfx @mabxyda Cvbcfx‚x –ajbcy hdnjab yfa.

ifr`z o`mhk `jkf nf‚ ja rczycn mai rcznf! Iji zdv jayfai ycmy4„ mx dafxnmryz.wmayx }vfxyjda rjyyfa ofdrf J rfm`jufi ycmy mahfxyrm` fhcdfx ja

wdfyrz vxvm``z nmkf ycfjr mz ja d ycfjr da mhhdri! J dvì nfijymyf dr

cdvrx da ycf kdmax Cmrwfr dvì xfai nz mz! ‐Xdnfyjnfx zdv affi yd

bfy xjhk„ cf ydì nf dahf; ycdvbc J‚n xyj`` ady xvrf J ydym``z vaifrxymai m``

ycf wdxxjoj`jyjfx d ycmy vyyfrmahf J kaf J mx `vhkz ycmy Njhcmf` Cmrwfr

yddk nf dr m xfrjdvx zdvab wfrxda!

J da`z f|fr cmi daf wdfyrz yfmhcfr mai ycmy mx Ifrfk Rm`hdyy my Odx.

yda Vaj|frxjyz ja ycf nmxyfr‚x wrdbrmn ja hrfmyj|f rjyjab! Rm`hdyy mx xvx.

wjhjdvx d mazycjab ycmy njbcy of hm``fi ‐o`mhk jifayjyz„ mx f`` mx d

cfycfr xmji hdnnvajyz mx afhfxxmrz dr ycf avryvrmahf d wdfnx! Cf

ymvbcy nf ycmy m wdfy‚x rjyjab hdnnvajyz hdaxjxyx d nmxyfrx ifmi mai m

f `j|jab mai ycmy dvr xmhrfi do`jbmyjda mx yd ycf wdfnx daf oz daf! Cjx

da mndvx rjfaixcjwx jyc Edxfwc Ordixkz mai Xfmnvx Cfmafz frf da

ijxw`mz dr ycdxf d vx xyvizjab wdfyrz ja ycf Odxyda mrfm ja ycf ‚37x; Rm`.

hdyy mx bfafrdvx modvy ja|jyjab xyvifayx dvy yd hdff mai wvox mai fyyjab

vx of fm|fxirdwwfrx mai cmabfrx.da yd cjx xdv`v` rdovxy rjfaixcjw jycycfxf nfa! Ycfz frf m`` rjyjab dvy d ijxyjahy xfaxfx d w`mhf mai

mwwrdmhcfx yd ycf Fab`jxc `mabvmbf jyc Cmriz Zfmyx Lrdxy @df`` mai

Ojxcdw ja ycfjr xcmrfi ‐rmyy`f omb„ yd odrrd ycf amnf d Cfmafz‚x maycd`.

dbz ycmy hmnf dvy mrdvai ycmy yjnf! J ofcfì ycfjr rjfaixcjw mai f`y vhkz

yd of afmroz }vjfy`z }vjfy`z `jxyfajab! J m`xd `fmrafi rdn nz zfmr ja Rm`.

hdyy‚x drì ycmy zdv hma‚y kj`` wdfyx cjhc jx yd xmz f hdnf vw ofyffa

hrmhkx ja hfnfay ja jì mai vafswfhyfi hd`drx vayfaifi avryvrfi da

ydvbc xdj`! Xydrz myfr xydrz yfxyjfi yd xcffr yfamhjyz hdvw`fi jyc ycfxcffr bddi dryvaf d ofjab mo`f yd id ycf drk! Rf fsjxy ifxwjyf! Ad daf

hma xydw m wdfy cd yrv`z affix yd of m wdfy’dr m cj`f zfx ovy ady dr.

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Xdnfycjab xcjyfi dr nf ja ycf mkf d ycf ifmyc d ycf wmjayfr

_dnmrf Ofmrifa! Cjx drk cmi offa iffw`z nfmajabv` yd nf nz cd`f

`jf mai J cmi rjyyfa wdfnx ja rfxwdaxf yd ycmy drk cj`f xyvizjab jyc

Rm`hdyy! J nmif m wj`brjnmbf rdn Wcj`mif`wcjm yd ycf xfr|jhf my ycf Hmycf.irm` d Xy! Edca ycf Ij|jaf! M brmai xfr|jhf jy mx’J rfnfnofr ycf |jormay

Ofmrifa drkx `jajab ycf m``x d ycf hmycfirm` ycf M`|ja Mj`fz imahfr cd

dfrfi m xd`d ycf wjmajxy Emhkjf Nh@fma ycf fv`dbjfx oz _m`wc F``jxda mai

oz nz da of`d|fi yfmhcfr mai Ofmrifa‚x brfmy rjfai Ifrfk Rm`hdyy!

Myfrmri J fay dvy yd fmy jyc Ifrfk mai m `mrbf brdvw d o`mhk |jxvm`

mai `jyfrmrz mryjxyx! J mx ycf zdvabfxy my ycf ymo`f ycf wrd|frojm` evb jyc

ojb fmrx `jxyfajab yd ycf mov`dvx brda.vwx yf`` xydrjfx mai hmrrz da myhc.

jab ycfn irjak ycfjr `j}vdr mai wvy cdy xmvhf da ycfjr ddi!

F|frzdaf my ycf ymo`f mx orj``jmay mai o`mhk!

F|frzdaf my ycf ymo`f mx orj``jmay mai o`mhk mai cmi nmif m hdnnjy.

nfay yd m `jf ja ycf mryx! F|frzdaf vaifrxyddi ycf daf.ddy.ja.rday.d.

ycf.dycfr mxwfhyx d nmkjab hrfmyj|f drk ycf ijxhjw`jaf ycf edz ycf wrj|j.

`fbf ycf xyrvbb`f! Ycmy ymo`f d |jormay o`mhk wfdw`f yf``jab xydrjfx mai

fmyjab ddi mai xcmrjab wrfhjdvx ojyx d o`mhk hv`yvrm` cjxydrz ycmy dvì ofdycfrjxf `dxy mx m irfmn hdnf yrvf dr nf! J cmi af|fr offa ja xvhc

hdnwmaz jyc mx h`fmr m ymxyf d nz da `jf yd hdnf m `jf J mx hdnnjy.

yfi yd mai dvì ovjì! J mayfi ycmy drì yd of nz cdnf; J kaf J nvxy

ovjì mai hv`yj|myf ycmy cdnf! Mai J kaf ycmy my ycf hfayfr d ycmy |jxjda

frf yd wj``mrx5 vafaijab ijxhjw`jaf mai ycf fryj`f xdj` d o`mhk cjxydrz mai

hrfmyj|jyz mx xdvrhf mai xvxyfamahf! J m`xd vaifrxyddi ycmy J iji ady affi

rcfydrjh dr ifh`mrmyjda d mazycjab modvy ‐o`mhkafxx„ mx xvhc rdn Ifrfk

ofhmvxf cf nmif mx nvhc xfaxf my ycmy ymo`f mx cf iji my ycf ymo`fx d Lrdxymai Cfmafz mai @df`` mai Ordixkz!

J ofhmnf m wdfy ofdrf Jayfrafy hdnnvajyjfx xyj`` idjab jy mx Xz`|jm

W`myc hdnwf``jab`z hcrdajh`fi ycf wrdhfxx d ofhdnjab m drkjab wdfy ja

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nd|f ydmri mai ycrdvbc jxxvfx ycmy dycfrjxf ij|jif vx! Da ycf

Hm|f Hmafn @jxyxfr| ifomyfx ij|frbfahf mai f|fa irmnm dhhvr

f|frz imz ja miijyjda yd cmy cmwwfax ja mai dvy d drkxcdw!

Ycfrf cm|f offa yjnfx cfa f cm|f affifi yd rfnjai dafmadycfr d dvr hj|j` do`jbmyjdax yd daf madycfr ovy f cm|f offa

hdvrmbfdvx J ycjak modvy cm|jab cmri hda|frxmyjdax mai rfxwfhy.

jab dvr ijfrfahfx!

8! Xymz dhvxfi! Hm|f Hmafn xvwwdryx o`mhk wdfyx! Wfrjdi! Xvhhfxx

vxvm``z nmkfx wfdw`f may yd id ndrf! Ovy Hm|f Hmafn jx ady

ormahcjab dvy yd jah`vif hyjda rjyfrx dr wdfyx d dycfr omhk.

brdvaix ycdvbc jnwdrymay`z ycfrf cm|f offa m`` kjaix d rjhc

wmryafrxcjwx d |mrjdvx kjaix mai Hm|f Hmafn cmx jaxwjrfi mai

xvwwdryfi |jym` brdvwx xvhc mx Kvaijnma! Ovy cmy Hm|f Hmafn

idfx jx w`mja mai h`fmr; vaifr ycmy xjnw`f rvorjh mrf nv`yjyvifx!

9! @fy ycf omoz brd vw! Ycjx jx ycf `fxxda dr ycf afsy ifhmif5 ycf

drbmajumyjda cmx hdnf d mbf mai jyx nfnofrx avnofr ja ycf cva.

irfix drkjab m`` mrdvai ycf b`dof! Ycf bfajf jx dvy d ycf odyy`f;

ycf nmbjh jx dvy d ycf ods! Ycfrf jx ad hdayrd``jab ycfxf wfdw`f

adr ycf drk ycmy ycfz id! Ycfz j`` id ycfjr da drk mai ifaf

‐hdnnvajyz„ mai ‐o`mhk wdfyrz„ ja nmaz ijfrfay mzx! Ycfz j``

mrbvf jyc daf madycfr! ‚Yjx jxf yd `fy ycmy f|d`vyjda mai rvo

cmwwfa’ycfa ycf hcjìrfa j`` hdnf cdnf dr Ycmakxbj|jab!6! Ljam``z wdfnx hdnf rxy mai wdfnx mrf cmy `mxy! Ldr m ffk ja

ycf drkxcdw ycfrf jx ad wvrwdxf dycfr ycma nmkjab ycfn!

Ycf fswfrjfahf d drkjab dvyxjif d hdnnvajyz xcmrwfax ycf vyj`jyz

d hdnnvajyz! Ycdvbc Hm|f Hmafn mx ady m wmry d nz drnmyj|f zfmrx

mx m wdfy jy jx m xvxymjajab drhf ja nz `jf mx m wdfy xdnfcfrf ja njixyrjif!

Ldr yfmhcfrx mai wdfyx m`rfmiz wvo`jxcfi jy jx yrv`z fafrbjujab yd kad ycmy

ycfrf jx m hdnnvajyz ycmy f of`dab yd mai ycmy jx wmzjab myyfayjda yd dvr drk mai fsmnw`f! Orj``jmahf orj``jmahf ja ycf dhfma d o`mhk wdfyrz-

H H ohk ! w!



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Ja h`mxxrddnx m`` d|fr ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx my 9.C mai Bjr` Xhdvy nffyjabx

zdvyc ifyfayjda hfayfrx amyvrm` cjxydrz nvxfvnx mai ja xdnf Fab`jxc

`mabvmbf h`mxxrddnx d|frxfmx hcjìrfa ja ycf `myf m`` mai fmr`z xwrjab

rjyf wdfnx mai nmkf drkx d mry modvy ycf amyvrm` drì mai ycf w`mhfx

cfrf ycfz `j|f! M ycjryffa.zfmr.dì rdn Omyda _dvbf njbcy nmkf m

wmjayjab d m rfi m``jbmydr mai jyc m ydvhc d jy fayjy`f jy J Bdy ycf

O`vfx!=

Dr m xjs.zfmr.dì rdn Adrycfra Hm`jdrajm njbcy of rjyjab m wdfn

d jaafr mai dvyfr fmycfrx mai hm`` jy ‐Xmi Xva!„?

Dc xva! Dc xva!

Dc xva! Cd idfx

jy ff`x yd of

o`dhkfi oz ycf

imrk imrk h`dvix4

Dc hcjì

jy idfxa‚y rfm``z ff` omi my m``

ady my m`` ady my

m`` ady my m``!



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M xjsyffa.zfmr.dì rdn my My`maym njbcy of ycjakjab modvy m wdfn ja

cjhc xcf ifxhrjofx ycf mrhcjyfhyvrf d xc yd m zdvab mrhcjyfhy! Xcf njbcy

hm`` jy ‐@fyyfr yd ma Mrhcjyfhy!„8 Jy dvì mrrj|f ja ycf dhf d _j|fr d

Rdrix yzwfi afmy`z’daf d ycdvxmaix d wdfnx ycmy hdnf jayd ycf dhf

f|frz xwrjab! Mai daf d ycf wdfyx cd mrf xhrffajab ycf wdfnx njbcy

jayfrrvwy ycf dycfrx yd rfmi ycf ofbjaajab d ycjx wdfn dvy `dvi ofhmvxf d

jyx zdvab mvycdr‚x orfmycymkjab wdjxf!

Ady f|fa zdv hdvì kffw nf rdn

nfayjdajab ycf jxc ycfjr ofmvyz d

J Bdy ycf O`vfx oz Bfrmì M``fa mbf =8!



Modvy _j|fr dl Rdrix p 2:

xhm`fi orf|jyz ycfjr h`jwwfi.xjxcjab

ymj` vaaf`jab ja f|frzycjab majnm`!

Rjayfryjnf cfa J xm ycfn ycfjr

wvrxfi dì `mijfx‚ ndvycx bmwjab vaifr wdd`fi h`mrjyz yd xcmrf xdnf bv``fi.vw bdxxjw!

Ycfjr odafx wvrf f}vj`myfrm` wdkfi xyrjwfx

my omxf mai cfjbcy ofrfy d mrhcjyfhyx‚ frrdrx

dr cvnma hdnwfaxmyjda! J rfnfnofrfi ycfa

zdvr `mxy `fyyfr; zdv rdyf zdv hdvìa‚y

hvy madycfr njyrf xdìfr madycfr edjay wff`

madycfr ojy d b`vf rdn ofyffa zdvr jabfryjwx!

J‚n bdjab yd hrmhk xdda zdv xmji!

Ycfrf nvxy of xdnf mz yd wfrfhyjda

ja ycjx brmxwjab dr hfayjnfyfrx ! ! !

Dr ofhmvxf ycjx daf9 rdn m ycjryffa.zfmr.dì Mnfrjhma odz myyfaijab

ma jayframyjdam` xhcdd` jx xd m`fry ycf drk d m zdvab nma fnfrbjab rdn

hcjìcddi mai ymkjab cjx ofmrjabx ja ycf drì!

L`ddiw`mja

Omab`mifxc

Ydym``z `my

Fshfwy dr ycf Hcjyymbdab Cj``x

Ifdrfxymyjda ovy `dyx d brmxx

Cj`` myfr cj`` jyc ycf Bmabfx _j|fr xjnnjab oz

@jkf ycf xyrfmn d o`ddi ja zdvr odiz!

Afmr ycf xw`jy if`ymXdax bd fyhc myfr ja ovhkfyx

Ycf if`ym ja ycf xdvyc

Ycf `jf drhf dr |j``mbfrx!

Mai xd bdfx ycf Bmabfx _j|fr!

Dr ycjx daf6 cjhc affix ad vamnj`jmr `maixhmwf yd `ddk my mai bm|f

vx m xfaxf d cd w`mzv` mai jaxdvhjmay mai m`rfmiz xdwcjxyjhmyfi xdnf d

ycfxf zdvab wfdw`f mrf5 m dvryffa.zfmr.dì bjr` rjyjab xf|fa cmjkv dabdìxc #cjhc xcf adyfx frf jaxwjrfi oz yd bdìxc’Xyma mai D`j.

|fr’oz Nmyjxxf mai oz Rm``mhf Xyf|fax*! Daf d ycfn rfmix



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Yf`` nf cmy id zdv

ycjak mnvxfx m jxc4 Ad

ad J‚|f yrjfi evbb`jab!

M`` d ycjx drk hdnfx rdn _j|fr d Rdrix #_DR* ma drbmajumyjda

if|dyfi yd fahdvrmbjab fa|jrdanfaym` mmrfafxx ycrdvbc ycf mryx mai ycf

mryx ycrdvbc fa|jrdanfaym` mmrfafxx ja xhcdd`x mai myfr.xhcdd` wrdbrmnx!

_DR wvo`jxcfx maavm` oddkx d hcjìrfa‚x wdfyrz mai mry ja jafswfaxj|f

wmwfromhk fijyjdax ifxjbafi dr ycf h`mxxrddn; jy cmx m`xd wvo`jxcfi `mrbfr

cmaixdnf oddkx rdn hdnnfrhjm` wvo`jxcfrx rfwrfxfayjab nmaz zfmrx‚

dryc d drk rdn hcjìrfa m`` d|fr ycf drì cd wmryjhjwmyf ja ycf

_DR wrdbrmn! Jy nmjaymjax m bm``frz ja Ofrkf`fz Hm`jdrajm mai jy xwda.xdrx drkxcdwx dr yfmhcfrx da cd yd vxf ycf mryx yd yfmhc doxfr|myjda mai

jnmbjamyjda mai cmaix.da dvyiddr fa|jrdanfaym` fivhmyjda! Yd ycmy fai

jy wvo`jxcfx m yfmhcfr‚x nmavm` mai m oddk`fy modvy cd xhcdd`x mai amyv.

rm` cjxydrz nvxfvnx hma drn wmryafrxcjwx jyc `jormrjfx adawrdyx myfr

ijxyrjhyx mai myfrxcfi fivhmyjda wrdbrmnx yd wrdndyf `dhm` fa|jrdanfa.

ym` `jyfrmhz! Ja ycf `mxy yd zfmrx _DR cmx offa if|f`dwjab m wrdbrmn dr

vroma fa|jrdanfaym` fivhmyjda Daf X}vmrf O`dhk ja cjhc hcjìrfa mrf

fahdvrmbfi yd nmw mai vaifrxymai ycf ld d `jf ycrdvbc daf wmryjhv`mr

wmyhc d vroma xwmhf myyfaijab yd jyx mrhcjyfhyvrf fafrbz ldx ldrm mai

mvam mai rmabf d cvnma idjabx! _DR mai jyx rfbjdam` hddrijamydrx

fahdvrmbf jayfrijxhjw`jamrz fivhmyjda oz hdnwj`jab rfbjdam` ojo`jdbrmwcjfx

dr yfmhcfrx mai xyvifayx d mbf.mwwrdwrjmyf `jyfrmrz mai xhjfayjh rjyjab

modvy ycf w`mhfx cfrf ycfz `j|f’rdn `jyfrmrz h`mxxjhx yd ycf ojdbrmwcjfx

d fsw`drfrx mai xhjfayjxyx yd fì bvjifx!

Ycf nfhcmajxn my ycf hfayfr d ycjx drk mai ycf daf ycmy cmx xwrfmijy ycrdvbc xhcdd`x mai zdvyc wrdbrmnx ja ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx mai mordmi jx m

hdayfxy! F|frz zfmr _DR nmkfx mmrix yd xhcdd`hcjìrfa rdn kjaifrbmr.

yfa ycrdvbc yf`yc brmif dr mry mai wdfyrz ycfz nmkf da ycf ycfnf d ycf

myfrxcfi ja cjhc ycfz `j|f! Ycf mmrix mrf bj|fa ja dvr hmyfbdrjfx5 K‘?

brmifx 8‘< brmifx 2‘: mai brmifx =7‘=? daf fmhc dr wdfyrz mai mry! Ycf

wdfyrz hdayfxy jx dr drk ja Fab`jxc Mnfrjhma Xjba @mabvmbf mai Xwma.

jxc mai oj`jabvm` fayrjfx da`z ycdvbc ycf Lrjfaix d ycf @djrf _j|fr ja

Lrmahf cmx jajyjmyfi jyx da _DR wrdbrmn L`fv|fx if Ndyx! Ycf drk d fmhc zfmr‚x jaafrx’fjbcy hcjìrfa rdn ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx mai daf hcjì

rdn mordmi ma maavm` jayframyjdam` jaafr ja fjycfr wdfyrz dr mry’jx



Modvy _j|fr dl Rdrix p 3=

wvo`jxcfi ja ma maavm` maycd`dbz m`dab jyc ycf wdfyrz mai mry d modvy

yz am`jxyx!

Ycf mmrix mrf maadvahfi fmhc xwrjab my m wvo`jh f|fay my ycf Xma

Lrmahjxhd Wvo`jh @jormrz mai fmhc jaafr rfhfj|fx m rff yrjw yd Rmxcjab.yda IH ydbfycfr jyc daf wmrfay dr m hfrfndaz my ycf @jormrz d Hda.

brfxx cfrf ycf hcjìrfa rfmi ycfjr wdfyrz mai ycfjr mry jx wvy da ijxw`mz!

Vxvm``z ycfrf mrf dycfr mhyj|jyjfx mx f``5 |jxjyx yd ycfjr hdabrfxxwfrxdax m

ydvr d ycf yrfmxvrfx d ycf @jormrz m |jxjy yd ycf Rcjyf Cdvxf dr ycf Xnjyc.

xdajma dr ycf Xwmhf mai Yfhcad`dbz Nvxfvn m odmy rjif da ycf Mamhdxyjm

_j|fr dr m h`fmavw m`dab ycf omakx d ycf rj|fr ydbfycfr jyc hcjìrfa rdn

ycf Rmxcjabyda IH xhcdd`x! My ycf Rmxcjabyda hfrfndaz hdxwdaxdrfi oz

ycf @jormrz d Hdabrfxx‚x `jyfrmhz mai rfmijab dvyrfmhc wrdbrmn ycf Hfa.yfr dr ycf Oddk ma mmri jx m`xd nmif yd m yfmhcfr d ycf zfmr daf yfmhcfr

cd cmx idaf fxwfhjm``z ffhyj|f jaxwjrjab mai jnmbjamyj|f drk ja hdn.

ojajab mryx mai fa|jrdanfaym` fivhmyjda ja ycf h`mxxrddn!

_DR hmnf jayd ofjab ja =::6 mai jy jx ndxy`z ycf hrfmyjda d jyx

ijrfhydr ycf Omz Mrfm rjyfr Wmnf`m Njhcmf` cd xcmwfi ycf hdayfxy fijyx

ycf hd``fhyjdax d ycf hcjìrfa‚x drk mai ycf yfmhcfr‚x bvjif mai rjyfx

ndxy d ycf dycfr fivhmyjdam` nmyfrjm`x _DR nmkfx m|mj`mo`f yd fivhmydrx!

Xcf rfhrvjyfi ycf odmri ycmy d|frxffx _DR ja jyx xymyvx mx ma fivhmyjdam`

adawrdy mai xcf rvax ycf dhf mai ycf mry bm``frz mai jyc ycf odmri

drkx my ycf m`mzx wrfhmrjdvx ymxk d vai.rmjxjab yd kffw ycf drbmajumyjda

mai jyx drk mldmy! Yd id ycjx drk xcf cmx m xym d yd daf wfrxda yd

nmambf ycf imj`z ld d drk ja ycf dhf mai daf yd drk my `jmjxda mai

dvyrfmhc jyc yfmhcfrx mai jyc ycf @jormrz d Hdabrfxx‚x rfbjdam` Hfayfrx

dr ycf Oddk cjhc xfr|f mx rfbjdam` hddrijamydrx d ycf _DR wrdbrmn

mx id dycfr drbmajumyjdax! Ja Bfdrbjm _DR jx m wrdbrmn d ycf xymyf‚xIfwmrynfay d Amyvrm` _fxdvrhfx cjhc fnw`dzx jyx da hddrijamydr$

fivhmydr cd ymkfx jy jayd ndxy h`mxxrddnx mai ndxy myfrxcfix ja ycf

xymyf! Ja Jdm jy jx m wrdbrmn nmif m|mj`mo`f oz ycf Ifwmrynfay d Rmyfr

_fxdvrhfx mai jy jx nmif m|mj`mo`f yd hdnnvajyjfx oz m ifwmrynfay xym

mxxjbafi ndxy`z yd ym`k yd hdnnvajyjfx modvy myfr.}vm`jyz jxxvfx!

Cvairfix d h`mxxrddnx wfrcmwx m ycdvxmai ja ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx wmr.

yjhjwmyf ja ycf maavm` _DR hdayfxy! Kffwjab vw hdaymhy jyc ycf cmri.

wrfxxfi yfmhcfrx cdxf drk ycf drbmajumyjda yrjfx yd fahdvrmbf mairfmri jx ma jnwdrymay wmry d ycf drk ja ycf nmja dhf! Ycf dhf jx ja

ycf jaivxyrjm` xfhyjda d Ofrkf`fz ja ma dì nmyyrfxx mhydrz ad hm``fi ycf

Xmyddyc Ovjìjab! Jy jx m mrrfa d mryjxyx‚ xyvijdx imahf mai fsfrhjxf xyv.





Modvy _j|fr dl Rdrix p 38

hfayvrz Mnfrjhma ‐rfamjxxmahf„ mai m`xd d ycf fxxmzx d Edca Nvjr mai

Nmrz Mvxyja mai Rm``mhf Xyfbafr mai Xyfbafr‚x oddk modvy Edca Rfx`fz

Wdf``‚x fsw`drmyjda d ycf Hd`drmid _j|fr #cjhc jx rfm``z modvy ycf hda.

hfwyjda d amyvrf mai ycf amyvrm` xhjfahfx ycmy fivhmyfi Fmxyfrafrx yddkjyc ycfn jayd ycf Rfxy cfa ycfz frf fsw`drjab jy*! J mx m`xd ycjakjab

d ycf wrdxf d Bmrz Xazifr mai Rfaif`` Ofrrz‚x fxxmzx da ycf hv`yvrf d

mbrjhv`yvrf! J ycdvbcy modvy _mhcf` Hmrxda‚x drk’ycf yrj`dbz d oddkx

ycmy wdwv`mrjufi nmrjaf xhjfahf ja ycf =:67x mai =:<7x mai Xj`fay Xwrjab

ycf oddk modvy wfxyjhjifx ycmy xjab`fcmaifi`z yvrafi ycf hdaxfr|myjda

nd|fnfay jayd ycf fa|jrdanfaym` nd|fnfay! Mai Mìd @fdwdì‚x Xmai

Hdvayz M`nmamh wrdomo`z ja ycf drì cfrf wfdw`f drk da hdaxfr|m.

yjda da ycf mz f vxf mai yrfmy `mai ja ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx ycf ndxy jalv.fayjm` wjfhf d jyfrmrz drk ja ycf xfhdai cm` d ycf yfayjfyc hfayvrz mai

daf ycmy jx cmri`z rfmi my m`` ja `jyfrmyvrf hdvrxfx ja Mnfrjhma cjbc xhcdd`x

mai vaj|frxjyjfx!

J m`xd ycdvbcy modvy F! D! Rj`xda‚x jayf``fhyvm` mvydojdbrmwcz Amyvrm`.

jxy mai cjx ndrf xwfhv`myj|f oddkx modvy fhd`dbz mai fa|jrdanfaym`jxn

Ojdwcj`jm mai Hdaxj`jfahf ! Mai d xdnf d ycf rjyfrx ja nz bfafrmyjda cd

frf drkjab ja mai mrdvai ycf amyvrm` cjxydrz yrmijyjda5 Yfrrz Rj``jmnx

mai Omrrz @dwfu mai _jhcmri Af`xda ycf M`mxkma maycrdwd`dbjxy cd cmi

offa wmji oz ycf V!X! Mjr Ldrhf yd xwfai m hdvw`f d xfmxdax cvayjab jyc

dì Fxkjndx cd frf ady rmjxfi vxjab Bdrf.Yfs mai cjbc.wdfrfi rjlfx

mai xadndoj`fx xd ycmy cf hdvì hv`` xvr|j|m` yfhcaj}vfx ja ycf cjbc Mrh.

yjh dr ycf Mjr Ldrhf‚x idafi wj`dyx! Cf rdyf yd oddkx dvy d ycmy fswf.

rjfahf5 Cvayfrx d ycf Adrycfra Ldrfxy mai Cvayfrx d ycf Adrycfra Jhf! Mai

ycfa m oddk modvy orjabjab ycmy fswfrjfahf jayd cjx da `jf5 Ycf Jx`mai

Rjycja! Ycfrf mx ycf drk d Wfyfr Nmyycjfxxfa ady da`z cjx fmr`z Rjì.`jf ja Mnfrjhm ovy m`xd Ycf Xad @fdwmri cjx m`rfmiz h`mxxjh oddk modvy rmrf

majnm`x mai ycf hdnjab fsyjahyjdax mai Nfa‚x @j|fx modvy ycf xcfrnfa d

ycf My`mayjh hdmxy mai cjx L`drjim ad|f`x! Ycfrf mx ycf ifxfry rjyjab d

Fimri Moofz mai J mx xvrf m cd`f yrmijyjda d rfbjdam` amyvrm` cjxydrz

rjyjab ycmy J mx da`z |mbvf`z mmrf d! J cmi brda vw da ndifrajxn

mai ycf Ofmy bfafrmyjda mai ycf Fvrdwfma fswfrjnfaym` rjyjab d ycf

wdxymr zfmrx! Ycfrf frf amnfx mxxdhjmyfi jyc wmxyf` oddk emhkfyx J cmi

ordxfi wmxy ja oddkxydrfx5 Rm`y Rcjynma‚x rjfai Edca Ovrrdvbcx; EdcaCmz cd rdyf modvy Hmwf Hdi; mai m Njifxyfra amyvrm`jxy amnfi

Fija Yfm`f cdxf oddkx J rfnfnofrfi xffjab da nz brmaiwmrfayx‚ oddk.



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xcf`|fx! J cmi mxxdhjmyfi ycfn jyc ycf wrd|jahjm` ozmzx d `jyfrmyvrf mai

cmi wmxxfi ycfn oz!

Xd nz da fivhmyjda ja ycfxf yrmijyjdax mx rmaidn xwdyyz! J kaf

ycmy xdnf wmry d nz wrdefhy mx xf`.fivhmyjda! J mx ady m`daf ja ycjx! Mcd`f bfafrmyjda d hdvrxfx ja Mnfrjhma fa|jrdanfaym` `jyfrmyvrf cmx

xwrvab vw ja ycf `mxy yfa zfmrx odra J mn xvrf rdn ycf xmnf wfrhfwyjda

mai ycf xmnf xfaxf d vrbfahz! Mai ycfrf jx f|fa m wrdfxxjdam` drbmajumyjda

d rjyfrx yfmhcfrx mai xhcd`mrx ycf Mxxdhjmyjda dr ycf Xyviz d @jyfrmyvrf

mai ycf Fa|jrdanfay #MX@F* cd bmycfr fmhc zfmr yd ym`k modvy ycjx af

drk! Ycfz frf ycjakjab mrf ycjakjab ycmy dvr mzx d ycjakjab modvy ycf

w`mafy mai jyx jf affi yd of wmry d drnm` fivhmyjda ja ycf cvnmajyjfx mai

ady evxy ja ycf xhjfahfx! Dvr ijxhjw`jafx’jyc ycf yrmijyjdam` hcmxnofyffa cvnmajyjfx mai ycf xhjfahfx ycmy H! W! Xad ifxhrjofi ja Yd Hv`.

yvrfx’ iji ady y ycf drì f cmi nmif mai frf hdardayfi oz mai jy

mx yjnf yd id xdnfycjab modvy jy!

Mrdvai ycjx yjnf mai ja ycjx xymyf d njai J hmnf yd ycf wfhv`jmr mai

yfnwdrmrz edo d wdfy `mvrfmyf d ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx! Ycf wdfy `mvrfmyf‚x

wdxjyjda jx ma maavm` mwwdjaynfay my ycf @jormrz d Hdabrfxx mai jy faymj`x

ycrff rfxwdaxjoj`jyjfx5 yd bj|f m wdfyrz rfmijab my ycf @jormrz yd bj|f m `fh.

yvrf mai yd hvrmyf mai cdxy ma f|fajab jyfrmrz xfrjfx ja ycf Nmijxda Ovjì.

jab da Hmwjyd` Cj`` ja ycf m`` jayfr mai xwrjab xfmxdax! Ja miijyjda yd

ycdxf rfxwdaxjoj`jyjfx ycfrf frf dwwdryvajyjfx! Daf d ycfn J ijxhd|frfi

mx yd cdxy xdnf kjai d xznwdxjvn da m `jyfrmrz xvoefhy! Ycfrf mx m xnm``

ovibfy vxvm``z m|mj`mo`f dr ycmy wvrwdxf #cjhc hmnf rdn ycf `mvrfmyf

faidnfay ady rdn ymswmzfr‚x ndafz m ijxyjahyjda J ijxhd|frfi mx

jnwdrymay yd nmaz ymswmzfrx cfa J dvai nzxf` ymkjab }vfxyjdax da

H.XWMA*! J ycdvbcy jnnfijmyf`z ofhmvxf J mx ycf rxy wfrxda fxy d ycfNjxxjxxjwwj yd cdì ycf `mvrfmyf wdxy ycmy J xcdvì id xdnfycjab yd rflfhy

ycf `jyfrmrz yrmijyjdax d ycf Rfxy mai J wrdwdxfi ycf wrdxwfhy d m xznwd.

xjvn d rjyfrx ja ycf amyvrm` cjxydrz mai fa|jrdanfaym` yrmijyjda! J

rfyvrafi ycf d``djab ffk yd ai ycmy ycfrf mx ad ovibfy m|mj`mo`f dr

m hdafrfahf ovy J cmi m`rfmiz bdyyfa yd `jkf ycf jifm mai mxkfi Wrdxxfr

Bjdri ycf @jormrz‚x ijrfhydr d hv`yvrm` wrdbrmnx mai J kaf ma m|ji

xmj`dr jyc ma jayfrfxy ja nmrjaf fhd`dbz j J hdvì bd mcfmi jyc jy j J

dvai ycf ndafz nzxf`!Ycjx dvì cm|f offa Xfwyfnofr =::6! Jy mx ma jayfrfxyjab yjnf ja

Rmxcjabyda IH! Ivrjab ycf njiyfrn f`fhyjdax ycf wrf|jdvx m`` ycf

_fwvo`jhma Wmryz cmi xfjufi hdayrd` d ycf V!X! Xfamyf dr ycf rxy yjnf ja





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xffn yd nf m |frz bddi yjnf yd cm|f m mrbf wmryz da Hmwjyd` Cj`` hf`formy.

jab ycf fa|jrdanfaym` yrmijyjda ja Mnfrjhma rjyjab!

Rcfa J rfyvrafi yd ycf @jormrz #J mx hdnnvyjab rdn Ofrkf`fz mai

bfafrmyjab m xfrjdvx hmroda ddywrjay ja drifr yd jayrdivhf ycf `jyfrmrzrfmijabx my ycf @jormrz f|frz dycfr ffk* J mx ydì ycmy J mx wfrfhy`z

f`hdnf yd if|f`dw m xznwdxjvn da ycf xvoefhy d nz hcdjhf j J hdvì

hdnf vw jyc ycf vaix! Ycjx jx ycf ndrf.ycma.zdv may.yd.kad wmry d

ycf xydrz! Ovy J‚|f offa mxkfi oz ycf Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda yd rjyf modvy cd

m wrmhyjhm` jayfr|fayjda da ofcm` d hv`yvrm` `jyfrmhz hmnf modvy mai ycjx

wmry jx ycf xydrz d cd ycmy cmwwfafi! J cmi xwfay nz miv`y `jf rmjxjab m

mnj`z yfmhcjab `jyfrmyvrf rjyjab wdfyrz mai ja nz xwmrf yjnf yrmax`myjab

wdfyrz dr xyvizjab `mabvmbfx yd yrmax`myf wdfyrz dr rjyjab modvy wdfyrz! Jijia‚y cm|f maz fswfrjfahf ja vai.rmjxjab mai J kaf J ijia‚y cm|f ma

mwwfyjyf dr jy! Mai J cmi ad bjy dr drbmajumyjda!

Nz rxy ycdvbcy mx ycmy j m xznwdxjvn d rjyfrx hdvì of nma.

mbfi’`fy‚x xmz fjbcy yd yfa rjyfrx d|fr m ycrff.imz ffkfai d rfmijabx

mai wmaf` ijxhvxxjdax’ycfz dvì cm|f yd of j``jab yd |d`vayffr ycfjr

yjnf j ycfjr yrm|f` fswfaxfx hdvì of wmji! Xd J hm``fi m f rjfaix yd mxk j

ycfz `jkfi ycf jifm f`` fadvbc yd |d`vayffr! J ycjak ycf rxy wfrxda J hm``fi

mx ycf wdfy Bmrz Xazifr cd iji `jkf ycf jifm mai f ym`kfi my `fabyc

modvy cmy njbcy of ycf xcmwf d jy! Bmrz hm``fi cjx rjfai Rfaif`` Ofrrz

cd m`xd `jkfi ycf jifm ycdvbc Rfaif`` jx m`xd m mrnfr mai idfxa‚y `jkf yd

yrm|f`! Mai xdnfdaf’Bmrz J ycjak’hm``fi Wfyfr Nmyycjfxxfa cd m`xd

ycdvbcy jy mx m bddi jifm! J hm``fi yd hmxvm` rjfaix cdxf drk J

minjrfi Omrrz @dwfu mai Yfrrz Yfnwfxy Rj``jmnx odyc d cdn cmi xdnf

fswfrjfahf jyc ycf mhyj|jxy fa|jrdanfaym` hdnnvajyz mai ycfz xmji ycfz

dvì xjba da j ycfz hdvì! Ycfz xvbbfxyfi J hdaymhy ycf fijydr d Drjda maf `jyfrmrz nmbmujaf ifijhmyfi yd rjyjab ja ycf amyvrm` cjxydrz yrmijyjda!

Ycf fijydr d ycf nmbmujaf mx m zdvab nma amnfi @mvrjf @maf.Uvhkfr!

Ycf nmbmujaf cf fsw`mjafi yd nf mx cdvxfi ja ma drbmajumyjda if|dyfi

yd fa|jrdanfaym` fivhmyjda ycrdvbc ycf mryx mai ycrdvbc cmaix.da `fmra.

jab! Jy mx cdvxfi ja ycf Drjda Jaxyjyvyf mai jyx dvaifr mx m Af Zdrk

ja|fxynfay omakfr amnfi Nmrjda Bj``jmn! Drjda nmbmujaf cmi evxy jaxyj.

yvyfi m wrdbrmn yd xfai hmirfx d fa|jrdanfaym` rjyfrx yd Mnfrjhma vaj.

|frxjyz hmnwvxfx! @mvrjf ycdvbcy ycfrf njbcy of m mz ja cjhc ycfz hdvìxfai m yrddw d rjyfrx yd Rmxcjabyda mai cf xvbbfxyfi ycmy J njbcy nffy

jyc cjx odxx!



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Wdfyx `mvrfmyf yrm|f` j ycfz hcddxf! Ja|jymyjdax hdnf ja! M nffyjab d

ycf rfbjdam` mryx hdvahj`x ja ycf xymyf d Aformxkm mx ofjab hda|fafi oz

ycf bd|fradr yd xvr|fz ycf hdaijyjda d mryx vaijab ja ycf af wd`jyjhm`

fa|jrdanfay dr wvo`jh rmijd xymyjdax mai nvxfvnx mai ycfmyfrx mai imahfhdnwmajfx mai drhcfxyrmx! #Xdnf d ycf rfxcnfa ja ycf af Hdabrfxx cmi

m`xd maadvahfi ycfjr jayfayjda d mod`jxcjab ycf Amyjdam` Faidnfay dr

ycf Mryx mai ycf Amyjdam` Faidnfay dr ycf Cvnmajyjfx!* Ycfz frf

`ddkjab dr m bvfxy xwfmkfr mai ma ja|jymyjda mrrj|fi my ycf wdfy `mvrfmyf‚x

dhf! J mx aijab ycmy nz edo mx yd of ma vadhjm` #dr xfnj.dhjm`*

xwdkfxwfrxda dr ycf Mnfrjhma mryx! #Myfr ycf ym`k J mx nmif ma minjrm`

ja ycf Brfmy Am|z d ycf Xymyf d Aformxkm!* Madycfr hdafrfahf da ycf

xmnf xvoefhy mx hda|fafi oz Bd|fradr Hcrjxyjaf Rcjynma ja Af Efr.xfz mai ycmy yddk nf afmr fadvbc yd Af Zdrk yd mrrmabf m nffyjab jyc

Nmrjda Bj``jmn! Ja ycf nfmayjnf J rfhfj|fi m wcdaf hm`` rdn Hcmr`fx

Cm`wfra cd jayrdivhfi cjnxf` mx ycf ijrfhydr d ycf Amycma Hvnnjabx

Ldvaimyjda! Ycf Amycma Hvnnjabx Ldvaimyjda J mx yd ijxhd|fr mx m

wcj`maycrdwz xfy vw oz ycf mnj`z ycmy nmrkfyfi Xmrm @ff hcffxfhmkfx mai

dycfr rdufa ifxxfryx; jy mx ifijhmyfi yd Efjxc hv`yvrf xdhjm` evxyjhf

cfm`yc jxxvfx mai fhd`dbjhm` jaad|myjda! Hcmr`fx Cm`wfra xmji ycmy cf‚i

cfmri ycmy J njbcy affi cf`w jyc m wrdefhy! Yd ycjx imz J ida‚y kad cd

hm``fi cjn ovy J kad ycmy m avnofr d wfdw`f cmi offa dvy wrdxwfhyjab!

J ifxhrjofi ycf wrdefhy yd cjn mai nfayjdafi’dr m ovibfy’cd nvhc

ndafz J cmi cdwfi yd bfy mai cmi ady bdyyfa rdn ycf @jormrz! Cf xmji cf

ycdvbcy ycf bmycfrjab mx m |frz bddi jifm mai ycmy ycf dvaimyjda hdvì

wrdomo`z id m `jyy`f ofyyfr ycma ycf mndvay J cmi nfayjdafi mai cf‚i bfy

omhk yd nf!

Xd cfa J nfy jyc Nmrjda Bj``jmn mai @mvrjf @maf.Uvhkfr dr yfmja m ofmvyjv``z vrajxcfi mwmrynfay da ycf Vwwfr Fmxy Xjif da ma fmr`z

Dhydofr myfradda ordaxydafx mai m``fa xzhmndrf `fm|fx mai ycf hrjxw

xnf`` d ycf `jyyfr d `fm|fx ja Hfayrm` Wmrk vaaf`jab ida ycf m|favfx ycf

hdafrfahf mx omxjhm``z wmji dr! Nmrjda mai @mvrjf `jxyfafi yd nz xydrz

mai ym`kfi modvy ycf mjnx d ycf Drjda Jaxyjyvyf mai ycf yrddw d omra.

xydrnjab fa|jrdanfaym` rjyfrx ycfz cmi drbmajufi mai xmji ycfz ycdvbcy

ycfz hdvì orjab ycfn yd Rmxcjabyda ycmy f hdvì mxxfno`f m `jxy d rjy.

frx yd ja|jyf ydbfycfr ycmy jy dvì of ifxjrmo`f yd cm|f ndafz yd bfy ycfdri dvy yd brmxxrddyx fa|jrdanfaym` fivhmydrx mrdvai ycf hdvayrz mai

ycmy ycfz hdvì wfrcmwx’ycfz dvì bfy omhk yd nf myfr ycfz ym`kfi yd



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ycfjr odmri’nmyhc ycf ndafz rdn Amycma Hvnnjabx! J `fy d hdvrxf

jyc ycf rmijhm``z njxymkfa adyjda ycmy ycjx ovxjafxx d vai.rmjxjab mx

mhyvm``z }vjyf fmxz! Mai ycdvbc J mx njxymkfa J mx bfyyjab nz rxy

b`jnwxf my xdnfycjab vaimnfaym` modvy Mnfrjhma xdhjfyz ycmy J cmi offandrf dr fxx fayjrf`z vammrf d! Ycfrf jx m wdfrv` wcj`maycrdwjh hdnnv.

ajyz ja ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx mai mx J mx yd xff d|fr ycf hdvrxf d ycf afsy yd

zfmrx cj`f |jxjyjab xhcdd`x dr cjbc xhcdd` irdwdvyx jyfrmhz wrdbrmnx dr

miv`yx fa|jrdanfaym` fivhmyjda jajyjmyj|fx ja xhcdd`x jaafr.hjyz mryx wrd.

brmnx Mwwm`mhcjma d`k mryx wrdbrmnx ycf nvxjh fivhmyjda wrdbrmnx d

rfbjdam` xznwcdaz drhcfxyrmx myfrxcfi wrdyfhyjda drbmajumyjdax ojdij.

|frxjyz jajyjmyj|fx #m xm`nda fxyj|m` ja ycf Adrycfxy ma F|frb`mifx rfxydrm.

yjda hdafrfahf ja L`drjim* mai xydrzyf``jab drkxcdwx my omyyfrfi dnfa‚xhfayfrx ja Af Efrxfz ma fadrndvx mndvay d ycf hdvayrz‚x drk ja ycf

fìx d xdhjm` evxyjhf jyfrmhz fa|jrdanfaym` xvxymjamoj`jyz mai ycf mryx mx

vaifrymkfa oz xnm`` adawrdy drbmajumyjdax vaifi ja cd`f dr ja wmry oz

wcj`maycrdwz!

Omhk ja Ofrkf`fz nz rjfai Edzhf Efakjax ycf fijydr d Wdfyrz L`mxc ma

ja|m`vmo`f `dhm` ndayc`z ycmy xfr|fi mx m hdnnvajyz `jyfrmrz hm`faimr mairf|jf d wdfyrz f|fayx mai af oddkx dr ycf Omz Mrfm hm``fi yd xvbbfxy

ycmy J bfy ydbfycfr jyc cfr rjfai ycf mhyj|jxy Maajhf Emhdoz mai jyc

xdnf d`kx rdn madycfr adawrdy ma fa|jrdanfaym` daf ycmy mx xnm``

adydrjdvx`z ffhyj|f mai omxfi ja Ofrkf`fz! Jayframyjdam` _j|frx mx

dvaifi ja ycf `myf =:37x oz ma Fab`jxc czird`dbjxy mai fabjaffr Wcj`jw

Rj``jmnx! Cf cmi mx m zdvab nma drkfi dr jayframyjdam` fabjaffrjab

mai hdaxyrvhyjda rnx da xf|frm` `mrbf imn wrdefhyx mai cf cmi xffa ycf

mhhf`frmyjab ifbrmimyjda d ycf drì‚x rj|fr xzxyfnx ycmy ycf imnx frforjabjab modvy ycf `f|f`x d brmy dyfa ja|d`|fi ja ycfjr hdaxyrvhyjda ycf

}vjyf varfm` amahjm` mai czird`dbjhm` mam`zxfx d ycf wrdefhyx ycmy fay yd

ycf Rdrì Omak ja drifr yd doymja amahjab mai ycf nj``jdax d wfdw`f

Ma fadrndvx mndvay dl ycf hdvayrz‚x drk ja ycf fìxl h eh, h, o,

mai ycf mryx mx vaifrymkfa oz xnm`` adawrdy drbmajum.

l o !



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#ycjak ycf Amrnmim Imn ja Jaijm Ycrff Bdrbfx ja Hcjam* ijxw`mhfi rdn

ycfjr jaijbfadvx hv`yvrm` mai fhdadnjh `j|fx oz ycf lddimyfrx! Ja rfxwdaxf

cf cmi hrfmyfi Jayframyjdam` _j|frx m xnm`` hrf d mhyj|jxyx czird`dbjxyx

mai amahjm` mam`zxyx yd wrd|jif rfm`.drì xvwwdry yd `dhm` wfdw`fx cdxf`j|fx frf ycrfmyfafi oz ojb imn wrdefhyx! Jayframyjdam` _j|frx J hmnf yd

xff cfa J rfmi modvy jy cmi xjyvmyfi jyxf` my fsmhy`z ycf w`mhf ja ycf drì

cfrf jxxvfx d xdhjm` evxyjhf mai fa|jrdanfaym` cfm`yc frf ndxy iffw`z

jayfryjafi!

Ycf vaj|frxjyz cmi bj|fa nf m xnm`` brmay d m hdvw`f d ycdvxmai id`.

`mrx’mx m rfmri J xvwwdxf dr ycf cdadr mhhrvfi yd ycfn oz nz mwwdjay.

nfay mx wdfy `mvrfmyf! #Nz hcjìrfa m ndayc jayd ycf edo cmi ofbva yd hm``

nf ycf wdfy `mvairdnmy*! J vxfi jy yd cjrf m brmivmyf xyvifay my ycf vaj|fr.xjyz yd cf`w nf jyc ycf hdrrfxwdaifahf ycmy mx wj`jab vw mai yd kffw

yrmhk d nz xhcfiv`f! Amym`jf Bfrofr mx rdn Af Efrxfz af yd Hm`jdr.

ajm; ofdrf hdnjab yd brmivmyf xhcdd` xcf cmi drkfi dr ycf Bfrmìjaf _!

Idibf Ldvaimyjda cf`wjab yd drbmajuf ycfjr cvbf ojmaavm` wdfyrz fxyj|m`x

ja Rmyfr`dd Af Efrxfz f|fayx ycmy irf ycdvxmaix d wfdw`f mai ycrdvbc

ycf ja|fayj|f WOX `nx ycmy cmi offa nmif my ycf fxyj|m`x mai ordmihmxy

amyjdam``z m yf`f|jxjda mvijfahf ja ycf nj``jdax! J ijia‚y kad ycjx modvy

Amym`jf my ycf yjnf dr J cmi ady ymkfa jy ja! J cmi nmja`z adyjhfi ycmy xcf

mx hcffrv` mai jayf``jbfay! J mxkfi cfr yd hdnf jyc nf yd ycf nffyjab

jyc Wdfyrz L`mxc mai Jayframyjdam` _j|frx!

Ycf drjbjam` doefhy d ycf nffyjab cmi offa yd bfy cf`w jyc vai.

rmjxjab ovy jyc ycf vaix ja w`mhf ycfrf frf dycfr hdahfrax! Daf mx

cd j ycf ycjab mx mhyvm``z bdjab yd cmwwfa yd bfy ycf fa|jrdanfaym`

hdnnvajyz ja|d`|fi! Mai ycf dycfr’ndrf yrdvo`jab’mx ycmy myfr m

hdvw`f d ndaycx ja Rmxcjabyda hfrymja ycjabx cmi ofhdnf do|jdvx yd nf!Daf mx ycmy ycf nmja jaivxyrz ycfrf mx `doozjab! Madycfr mx ycmy mx m

rfxv`y ycf `dhm` nfijm ja mhy ycf `dhm` hv`yvrf mx wrddvai`z hzajhm`! J

mx rjijab ffk`z rdn Xma Lrmahjxhd yd Rmxcjabyda IH ja ycf fhdadnz

xfhyjdax d mjrw`mafx ``fi jyc bvzx’ndxy`z bvzx’irfxxfi ja imrk o`vf

xvjyx o`mhk xcdfx #b`fmnjab* cjyf xcjryx mai rfi wdfr yjfx cmjr x`jhkfi

omhk mai `mwydwx da ycfjr yrmz ymo`fx wdvaijab mmz my mrbvnfayx dr cz

ycf rfrjbfrmyjda jaivxyrz xcdvì xyj`` of m``dfi yd fnjy ycf hc`drdlvdrd.

hmrodax ycmy frf fmyjab m cd`f ja ycf dudaf cz ycf wrdyfhyjda d fy.`maix mai |fram` wdd` wrdyfhyjda frf doxyrvhyjdax yd m hdaxyrvhyjda jaivx.

yrz d fs}vjxjyf fa|jrdanfaym` xfaxjyj|jyz mai cz vaafhfxxmrz drrjfx

modvy nmrjyjnf fa|jrdanfayx cmi offa xd`|fi oz wrmhyjhm``z mj`.xmf iffw.





Modvy _j|fr dl Rdrix p :=

Xd oz ycf yjnf d ycf nffyjab my Jayframyjdam` _j|frx |f ndaycx

ofdrf J cmi m`rfmiz ofbva yd ycjak modvy cd yd nmkf xdnfycjab m `jyy`f

ndrf ivrmo`f dvy d ycf jifmx ycmy ndyj|myfi Rmyfrxcfi! Ycf dhf

hrmnnfi jyc nmwx xhjfayjh edvram`x ycf rfwdryx d jayframyjdam` hdn.njxxjdax czirdwdfr yrmif edvram`x jnmbfx d ycf orfmycymkjab xffw d

ycf cvbf imnx mai d ycf jnwrd|jxfi xcmayz |j``mbfx d imn.ijxw`mhfi wfd.

w`fx mai wdxyfrx jyc jnwvifay mai fahdvrmbjab x`dbmax mx xjyvmyfi

mod|f m Ormuj`jma wjuufrjm mai mhrdxx ycf xyrffy rdn ma mvyd wmryx xydrf! J

mx jayrdivhfi yd Dfa @mnnfrx ycf ijrfhydr d Jayframyjdam` _j|frx

#J_* mai yd Wmnf`m Njhcmf` cd mx drkjab mx m hdaxv`ymay da if|f`dw.

nfay! Ycfz frf j``jab yd cf`w jyc Rmyfrxcfi ofhmvxf ycfz ycdvbcy jy

mx m bddi jifm mai ofhmvxf Wmn cmi cmi ycf jifm yd cdì ma fa|jrdanfa.ym` wdfyrz hdayfxy dr hcjìrfa mx m mz d wrdndyjab J_‚x yfayc maaj|frxmrz!

M`ycdvbc J_ drkfi da`z da wrdefhyx d|frxfmx xymfrx kaf wfdw`f ja ycf

hdnnvajyz drkjab da myfr jxxvfx mai jy mx ycfz’jyc Amym`jf Bfrofr

mai @mvrjf @maf.Uvhkfr’cd yvrafi dvy ycf m`ndxy daf ycdvxmai myfr.

xcfi mhyj|jxyx ja Rmxcjabyda! Rcfa J xwdkf modvy nz hdahfra ycmy ycf

bmycfrjab f|fa j f ordvbcy jy d dvì ijxmwwfmr ja ycf wdai jyc

cmri`z m rjww`f Wmnf`m Njhcmf` nfayjdafi cfr jifm dr ycf wdfyrz hdayfxy

mai J xvbbfxyfi ycmy wfrcmwx jy hdvì dhvx da hcjìrfa `fmrajab modvy mai

rjyjab modvy ycfjr myfrxcfix! Mai ycmy mx cd _j|fr d Rdrix hmnf

jayd ofjab!

Ycjx mx madycfr ndnfay ja nz fivhmyjda! Rf hmnf |frz }vjhk`z yd

ycf jifm d m wdfyrz hdayfxy da ycf ycfnf d myfrxcfix mai ycfa yd ma mry

mai wdfyrz hdayfxy! Wfrcmwx f frf ycjakjab xdnf d ycf hdafrfahf

xwfmkfrx mai rfmifrx hdvì of hdaafhyfi yd h`mxxrddnx oz yf`f|jxjda dr

rmijd; wfrcmwx ycfrf dvbcy yd of m Rmyfrxcfi foxjyf! #Ycmy nmz cm|f offaycf rxy yjnf J cfmri ycf dri foxjyf dr rfbjxyfrfi jy cfa J cfmri jy!* Ovy

cd yd bfy yd ycf hcjìrfa dr ycf yfmhcfrx dr ycf xhcdd`x ja |f ndaycx

dvr mai m cm`4 Ycf f|fay cmi yd cmwwfa mrdvai Fmryc Imz ja Mwrj`! Edzhf

Efakjax mx ycfrf cfr hd``modrmydr Nmrk Omìrjibf Wmn‚x mai Edzhf‚x

nvyvm` rjfai Maajhf Emhdoz Amym`jf Dfa @mnnfrx xf|frm` nfnofrx d

ycf Jayframyjdam` _j|frx xym mai Mnz Ycdnmx cd dafi ycrff `dhm`

oddkxydrfx ycmy xdì cmy mx ycfa ma fhhfayrjh njs d af mai vxfi

oddkx nmbmujafx mai vxfi rfhdrix mai ymwfx mai HIx! Mnz xvbbfxyfi ycmyf wvy m wdxyfr ifxhrjojab Rmyfrxcfi #mai cmy m myfrxcfi jx* mai

maadvahjab ycf hdafrfahf ja ycf hcjìrfa‚x xfhyjdax d oddkxydrfx! Cd

hdvì ycmy of idaf4 J mxkfi! Ycf xhfaf f`y yd nf `jkf xdnfycjab dvy d m



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wrf‘Rdrì Rmr JJ nd|jf modvy ovxc wj`dyx wfrcmwx jyc Edca Rmzaf! Cd

mrf f bdaam bfy ycmy omoz mhrdxx ycf Xyrmjy d Nm`mhhm ja ycjx fmycfr4

Rjyc ivhy ymwf mai om`jab jrf j f cm|f yd ycf ojb `vnofrjab wj`dy

dvì xmz!Mnz Ycdnmx xmji xcf dvì hm`` ycf wrfxjifay d ycf Mnfrjhma Oddk.

xf``frx Mxxdhjmyjda yd xff cmy cf hdvì id! My ycf afsy nffyjab m ffk

`myfr xcf rfwdryfi ycmy cf cmi mbrffi yd mrrmabf yd cm|f m wdxyfr xfay yd

f|frz jaifwfaifay oddkxydrf ja ycf hdvayrz! #Ja ycf m`` d =::6 ycmy xyj``

jah`vifi ndxy Mnfrjhma oddkxydrfx w`vx ycf xf|frm` Odrifrx xydrfx ycmy xyj``

hdvayfi ycfnxf`|fx mx jaifwfaifayx!* Cf cmi xvbbfxyfi hm``jab ycf wrfxj.

ifay d Omaymn Oddkx yd xff j Omaymn njbcy mx m wvo`jh rf`myjdax bfxyvrf

wmz dr ycf wrjayjab mai ycf nmj`jabx’yd oddkxydrfx mai yd `jormrjfx mai ydnvxfvnx d amyvrm` cjxydrz fxwfhjm``z evajdr nvxfvnx mai ycf fivhmyjda

wrdbrmnx d xymyf wmrkx! Mai xd Mnz cmi hm``fi Omaymn Oddkx mai ycfz

cmi mbrffi! Ycjx mx m`` mxydajxcjab yd nf! Jy mx mx j J frf `ddkjab my

xdnf h`mxxjhm` xhv`wyvrf ma Mwcrdijyf dr ycf Rjabfi \jhydrz mai ycdvbcy

yd nzxf` ycmy jy dvì `ddk m `jyy`f ofyyfr j ycf mrn frf rmjxfi m `jyy`f mai

mx J cmi ycf ycdvbcy ycf mrn nd|fi! Nfmacj`f Wmnf`m Njhcmf` cmi offa

ydì ycmy Jayframyjdam` _j|frx dvì bj|f cfr yjnf yd drbmajuf ycf hdayfxy

mai ycmy ycfz dvì xfr|f mx hdxwdaxdrx jyc ycf wdfy `mvrfmyf‚x dhf mai

vaifrymkf ycf hdxy d jy! Mai xcf xmji dvìa‚y jy of bddi yd cm|f my `fmxy

dvr mbf hmyfbdrjfx mai bj|f wrjufx dr mry mai wdfyrz ja fmhc hmyfbdrz! Mai

j f hdvì orjab ycf jaafrx yd Rmxcjabyda jyc ycfjr wmrfayx mai yfmhc.

frx dr ycf Rmyfrxcfi imzx yd cm|f ycf hcjìrfa rfmi ycfjr wdfyrz mai ijx.

w`mz ycfjr mry my ycf `jormrz4

Xd ycmy mx cd _DR yddk jyx xcmwf’mx m `jyfrmyvrf mai mry hdayfxyifxjbafi yd ymkf ycf Rmyfrxcfi jyfrmrz bmycfrjab jayd h`mxxrddnx! Ycf ndrf

Wmnf`m mai J mai Dfa @mnnfrx ym`kfi modvy jy ycf ndrf ojrix jy xffnfi

yd of xm|jab jyc daf xydaf! Ja =::6 ycfrf mx xdnf xhjfahf ofjab ymvbcy

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Modvy _j|fr dl Rdrix p :8

ja Mnfrjhma xhcdd`x mai J mx yd `fmra xdnf |frz bjyfi yfmhcfrx ovy ycf

yfmhcjab d amyvrm` cjxydrz’`dhm` w`mhf.omxfi yfmhcjab modvy ycf fafrbz

hzh`fx d ycf w`mhfx cfrf ycf hcjìrfa `j|fi cfycfr ja vroma Af Zdrk

dr Xy! @dvjx dr xvovroma Hm`jdrajm dr rvrm` Jdm dr Aformxkm’mx adyxyj`` jx ady ma mvydnmyjh wmry d ycf hvrrjhv`vn! Ycf wdxyfr ycmy Wmn hrfmyfi

jyc Omaymn Oddkx ofbma jyc ycf }vfxyjda ‐Rcmy Jx Zdvr Fhd`dbjhm`

Miirfxx4„ mai m `mrbf jnmbf d m o`vf rmjairdw! Jy ifafi m myfrxcfi’ycf

wmyc ymkfa oz myfr cfa jy ldx ycrdvbc ycf w`mhf cfrf zdv `j|f’mai

bm|f ycf ifymj`x d ycf hdayfxy ja `j|f`z `mabvmbf! Mx xdda mx f xm ycf

wdxyfr f rfm`jufi ycmy f ijia‚y may ycf hdayfxy yd of m daf.d ycmy mry

wdfyrz `dhm` amyvrf `jyfrmhz mai m omxjh vaifrxymaijab d ycf hdahfwy d m

myfrxcfi hdvì of ja Mnfrjhma h`mxxrddnx mx m rfbv`mr wmry d ycf rczycnd ycdxf h`mxxrddnx f|frz zfmr! Jayframyjdam` _j|frx cmi ma miijyjdam` jayfr.

fxy! M`` jyx drk dhhvrrfi d|frxfmx! Jyx hmnwmjbax frf ady dhvxfi da Adryc

Mnfrjhma rj|frx xd ycjx xffnfi yd Dfa mai yd J_‚x dvaifr Wcj` Rj`.

`jmnx m mz yd of idjab xdnfycjab modvy fa|jrdanfaym` fivhmyjda ja ycjx

hdvayrz ycmy mx xjnw`f mai ijrfhy! Dfa mai Wcj` fay yd ycf Jayfram.

yjdam` _j|frx odmri jyc m wrdwdxm` yd nmkf _j|fr d Rdrix m wfrnmafay

wrdefhy ja ycf J_ dhf!

Mrdvai ycmy yjnf J ijxhd|frfi ycf @jormrz d Hdabrfxx‚x Hfayfr dr ycf

Oddk! Jy jx ma dhf hrfmyfi oz Imajf` Oddrxyja ycf fnjafay cjxydrjma cd

mx ycf jormrjma d Hdabrfxx rdn =:26 yd =:32! Oddrxyja mx jayfrfxyfi ja

ycf cjxydrz d ycf oddk ycf cjxydrz d `jyfrmhz mai ycf wrdndyjda d `jyfr.

mhz mai rfmijab! Cf mx m xyvifay d Ycdnmx Effrxda mai rdyf f`d.

}vfay`z modvy ycf hdaafhyjda ofyffa `jyfrmhz mai m ifndhrmyjh xdhjfyz!

Lrdn ycf imz jy dwfafi jyx iddr ja =:22 ycf ijrfhydr d ycf Hfayfr mx

Edca Hd`f ma Mnfrjhma cjxydrjma cd cmi m`xd idaf brmivmyf drk ja`jormrz xhjfahf mai cd cmx rjyyfa fsyfaxj|f`z modvy ycf cjxydrz d ycf

@jormrz d Hdabrfxx! J fay yd ycf Hfayfr ja ycf rxy w`mhf `ddkjab dr

xyvijfx d `jyfrmhz! J mx yrzjab yd vaifrxymai cd rfmix ja Mnfrjhm cd

vxfi yd rfmi cd hdvì rfmi mai cd nmaz d ycf wfdw`f cd hma rfmi

rfmi `jyfrmyvrf rfmi ycf wdfyrz mai hyjda J mx xvwwdxfi yd of m xwdkfx.

wfrxda dr! Daf d ycf ycjabx J cmi hdnf yd rfm`juf mx ycmy ycfrf mrf nmaz

dwjajdax modvy ycf hvrrfay xymyf d `jyfrmrz rfmijab mai ycmy m bddi ifm` d

ycfn cmi yd id jyc m wfrhfwyjda ycmy ycfrf vxfi yd of nmaz ndrf maiofyyfr rfmifrx d `jyfrmyvrf ja xdnf wrf|jdvx frm’ycf bdìfa mbf d ycf

wmwfromhk oddk ja ycf =:67x dr ycf cfzimz d ndifrajxn ja ycf =:?7x

cfa Cfnjabmz mai Ljyubfrmì mai Hmycfr mai Lrdxy rdyf ofxyxf``frx; dr



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ycf nji.\jhydrjma frm cfa @dabf``d wvo`jxcfi ‐Cjmmycm„; dr fmr`jfr

ja _fbfahz Fab`mai cfa Rdrixdryc mai Hd`frjibf rdyf @zrjhm` Om``mix

mai @dri Ozrda mx ycf mxcjda m`` d|fr Fvrdwf #ycdvbc my ycf yjnf modvy

= wfrhfay d Fab`jxc nm`fx cmi maz cjbcfr fivhmyjda mai da`z modvy 97wfrhfay d nm`fx mai ?7 wfrhfay d fnm`fx hdvì rfmi my m``*! Irx! Hd`f mai

Oddrxyja cmi cfì m avnofr d xhcd`mr`z xznwdxjm da ycf cjxydrz d Mnfr.

jhma `jyfrmhz mai J fay yd ycf Hfayfr yd odrrd ycf xyvijfx ycmy frf wvo.

`jxcfi myfrmri!

Rcmy J xm cfa J bdy ja ycf iddr d ycjx orjbcy xfy d rddnx ja ycf mo.

zrjayc d ycf Nmijxda Ovjìjab‚x xjsyc lddr mx m hcffrv` xwmhf v`` d

oddkhmxfx #hdaymjajab ycf oddkx J mx `ddkjab dr wvo`jxcfi oz ycf @jormrz‚x

wvo`jxcjab mrn* mai xdnf ifxkx mai `dyx d wdxyfrx’rfxc wdxyfrx ycmy frfmi|fryjxfnfayx dr ycf Hfayfr‚x |mrjdvx Zdvab _fmifrx wrdbrmnx mai wdxyfrx

d ycf kjai J rfnfnofrfi rdn nz hcjìrfa‚x h`mxxrddnx5 xymyf nmwx jyc ycf

cdnfx dr ojrycw`mhfx d Mnfrjhma rjyfrx cjbc`jbcyfi da ycfn! Cfrf mx

Aformxkm jyc jyx iffw xadx mai iffw brffa fìx mai xvnnfrx v`` d

rfljfx mai jbcyajab xydrnx hdnjab xdvyc mhrdxx ycf w`mjax rdn ycf Imkd.

ymx! Mai cfrf mx ycf cdnf yfrrjydrz d Rj``m Hmycfr afmr _fi H`dvi

cfrf ycf mnj`z xfyy`fi ja =332 cfrf Nz Maydajm mai Ycf Odcfnjma Bjr`

mai Ycf Xdab d ycf @mrk cmi offa jnmbjafi! Mai cfrf afmr Rmzaf mx

cfrf Edca Afjcmriy brf vw mai cfrf mx Omahrdy cfrf mx m zdvab

nma cf hmnf yd kad ycf Dnmcm rfxfr|myjda mai jyx wfdw`f cjhc `fi yd

cjx hd``modrmyjda jyc O`mhk F`k da O`mhk F`k Xwfmkx! Mai cfrf my Njrmbf

L`myx Nmrj Xmaidu mx odra ja =3:<! J cmi rfmi cfr Brfmy W`mjax oddkx mx m

hcjì rdn nz wmrfayx‚ oddkxcf`|fx’ycfz frf Oddk d ycf Ndayc H`vo

xvoxhrjofrx ja ycf =:67x’mai Dì Ev`fx cfr mhhdvay d cfr mycfr‚x zfmrx

cdnfxyfmijab da ycf wrmjrjf #yd cjhc J `myfr miifi Rm``mhf Xyfbafr‚x Rd`.j``d modvy cdnfxyfmijab ja Xmxkmyhcfma dr nz vaifrxymaijab d ycmy

mz d `jf mai ycdxf zfmrx*! Mai ycfrf mx Rrjbcy Ndrrjx odra ja Hfayrm`

Hjyz ja =:=:! Ndrrjx cmi ofhdnf m Xma Lrmahjxhd rjyfr m rjyfr‚x rjyfr

ja ycmy hjyz ovy ycf oddk d cjx J cmi ndxy minjrfi mx M Hfrfndaz my @daf

Yrff mai ycmy mx ycf oddk xjyyjab ja nz jnmbjamyjda ofxjif Nz Maydajm

mai Dì Ev`fx ycf rxy yjnf J ird|f mhrdxx Aformxkm ja m brffa xyfmnz

Mvbvxy!

Ycf wdxyfr’mai ycfrf frf dycfrx’mx fsmhy`z cmy J cmi ja njaicfa J ofbma ycjakjab modvy fa|jrdanfaym` xyfmrixcjw mai `dhm` `jyfrmhz!

Mai jy mx fsmhy`z ycf kjai d mryjmhy ycmy J dvì cm|f ycdvbcy dì.mxc.

jdafi mai hdraz m f zfmrx ofdrf! J mx jayfrfxyfi ja ycf m|may.bmrif



Modvy _j|fr dl Rdrix p :6

rjyfrx da odyc hdmxyx ja ycf af drk hdnjab rdn Fvrdwf mai @myja

Mnfrjhm mai Mxjm! Ycjx xyv #fshfwy Hmycfr d hdvrxf cd jx brfmy* mx ycf

xyv da ycf @dhm` Mvycdrx xcf` ja ycf vxfi oddkxydrfx J ordxfi modvy

cjhc J mx xvwrfnf`z vajayfrfxyfi! Ad `ddkjab my jy J ycdvbcy ycmy j jymiifi @drfa Fjxf`fz mai m f xhjfayjxyx mai amyvrm`jxyx cd cmi rjyyfa

modvy ycf ldrm mai mvam d ycf W`mjax jy mx evxy cmy J cmi ja njai! Fjxf.

`fz mx odra ja @jahdà ja =:7<! Jy mx cjx xyviz d ycf dxxj` hd``fhyjda my m

vaj|frxjyz nvxfvn ycmy xfy cjn da ycf wmyc ycmy fi yd Ycf Jnnfaxf Edvrafz

ycmy h`mxxjh oddk modvy ycf daifr d `jf mai jyx f|d`vyjda! Ycf oddkx d m

w`mhf J mx ycjakjab frf m `fbmhz ma jacfrjymahf! Zdvab wfdw`f j ycfz

frf bdjab yd ofhdnf xyfmrix d ycf w`mhfx cfrf ycfz `j|f mai cm|f ycf

jaxwjrmyjda d ycf rjyfrx cd cm|f nmif xfaxf d `jf ja ycdxf w`mhfxaffifi yd kad ycdxf oddkx! Ady da`z ycdxf oddkx d hdvrxf! Rf `j|f ja m

`mrbf drì jahrfmxjab`z hdaafhyfi mai ycf amyvrf d ycmy hdaafhyjda bfyx

rf|fm`fi ja ycf drnm` ja|fayjdax ja rjyjabx ycmy hdnf rdn f|frzcfrf!

Ycf ym`fayfi zdvab jyc ycfjr rmimr affifi yd kad ycmy ydd! Mai ycfz

affifi yd of bj|fa ycf `jyfrmyvrf d ycfjr w`mhf!

Edca Hd`f cmx if|jxfi m avnofr d wrdbrmnx dr ycf Hfayfr5 @fyyfrx

Modvy @jyfrmyvrf m hdayfxy ycmy ja|jyfx hcjìrfa yd rjyf xcdry fxxmzx modvy

oddkx ycmy nmyyfr yd ycfn mai yd ja brmayx dr ycfjr xhcdd` dr hdnnvajyz

`jormrjfx; m af Zdvab _fmifrx Hfayfr dr Rmxcjabyda IH hcjìrfa mai

dr ycf ycdvxmaix d |jxjyjab hcjìrfa cd yrddw ycrdvbc ycf `jormrz; m hd`.

`modrmyjda jyc ma drbmajumyjda hm``fi _fmi Jy @dvi- #dvaifi oz Rm``z

Mndx d Lmndvx Mndx Hddkjfx m wmxxjdamyf mai ja|fayj|f `jyfrmhz mi|d.

hmyf* cjhc fahdvrmbfx wmrfayx yd rfmi m`dvi yd ycfjr hcjìrfa; ja hd``mod.

rmyjda jyc ycf Rcjyf Cdvxf ycf Amyjdam` Oddk Lfxyj|m` cjhc cmx m

xyrdab hcjìrfa‚x jyfrmyvrf hdnwdafay! Rcfa J xwdkf yd Edca modvy dvr xyj`àmxhfay _j|fr d Rdrix wrdefhy cf mx jayfrfxyfi! Jy dvì nmkf xfaxf cf

ycdvbcy j ycf wrdbrmn ordvbcy hcjìrfa yd Rmxcjabyda mai ycf @jormrz dr

ycf Rmyfrxcfi hdafrfahf dr ycf Hfayfr dr ycf Oddk yd cdxy ycf hcjìrfa

mai ycfjr wmrfayx mai yfmhcfrx! Ima Oddrxyja cmi offa m ma mai m xhcd`mr

d Ycdnmx Effrxda‚x Adyfx da ycf Xymyf d \jrbjajm daf d ycf rxy rfbjdam`

h`mxxjhx d dvr `jyfrmyvrf mai Edca ycdvbcy Ir! Oddrxyja dvì `jkf ycf jifm!

Ja ycf f|fay Wrdxxfr Bjdri ycf ijrfhydr d xwfhjm` wrdbrmnx mai Emnfx

Oj``jabyda ycf fnjafay _vxxjma cjxydrjma mai hvrrfay `jormrjma m`xd f`.hdnfi vx!

Evxy ofdrf ycjx hda|frxmyjda J cmi offa my ycf Idibf Wdfyrz Lfxyj|m` ja

Af Efrxfz! Jy mx hrfmyfi mai wrdivhfi oz Emnfx Cmom m wdfy mai wrdfx.



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xdr jyc vavxvm` dhvx jnmbjamyjda mai fayrfwrfafvrjm` lmjr dr ycf Bfr.

mìjaf _! Idibf Ldvaimyjda! J cmi ifxhrjofi dvr wrdefhy yd Ejn daf imz’

cj`f hrdix d xyvifayx ja ycf cvairfix maifrfi ycf brdvaix d ycf

Rmyfr`dd xjyf fmyjab hdyyda hmaiz mai xjwwjab `fndamif mx j ycfz frf mym hdvayz mjr cj`f ycfz }vfvfi dr m rfmijab oz M``fa Bjaxofrb dr Xyma`fz

Kvajyu dr mjyfi ja `jaf yd ymkf ycfjr yvra da m xymbf cfrf cjbc xhcdd`

xyvifayx frf idjab m nmrmycda rfmijab d ycf wdfnx d @mabxyda

Cvbcfx’mai cf xvbbfxyfi ycmy J ym`k yd ycf ijrfhydr d ycf dvaimyjda

Xhdyy Nh\mz m nmrjaf ojd`dbjxy oz yrmjajab cd cmi m wmxxjda dr fa|jrda.

nfaym` fivhmyjda! Xhdyy cmi m`rfmiz vaifrymkfa m avnofr d jajyjmyj|fx yd

mhj`jymyf fa|jrdanfaym` fivhmyjda ja ycf Af Efrxfz xhcdd`x jah`vijab

xnm`` brmayx dr ‐brffa yfmnx„ d yfmhcfrx my wvo`jh xhcdd`x cd hdvì nffyyd ym`k modvy ja|d`|jab ycf xyvifayx ja kffwjab ycf xhcdd` h`fma fahdvrmb.

jab fhjfay fafrbz vxf mai m`jbajab hvrrjhv`m mhrdxx ycf ijxhjw`jafx yd rfja.

drhf `fmrajab ja amyvrm` cjxydrz mai ycf mryx mai xdhjm` xhjfahfx! Rcfa J

ifxhrjofi ycf wrdwdxfi Rmyfrxcfi f|fay yd cjn mai ycf hcjìrfa‚x mry mai

wdfyrz wmry d jy _j|fr d Rdrix mx cmy jayfrfxyfi cjn mai cf xvbbfxyfi

ycmy f mww`z yd ycf dvaimyjda dr m brmay! J nfayjdafi ycjx yd Wmnf`m

Njhcmf` my Jayframyjdam` _j|frx mai cfa xcf mai Dfa @mnnfrx mai J

ym`kfi modvy jy f ifhjifi yd mww`z dr m brmay dr Jayframyjdam` _j|frx yd

`mvahc ycf wrdbrmn mai brd jy! Ycf wrdwdxm` bdy rjyyfa mai oz Emavmrz

cfa ycf w`maajab dr Rmyfrxcfi mx ja jyx ndxy cfhyjh wcmxf’mjrmrfx mai

`dibjabx mai ycf ydwjhx d wmaf`x mai wvo`jhjyz mai mwwrdwrjmyf rddnx ja

ycf @jormrz mai mrdvai Hmwjyd` Cj`` dr ycf |mrjdvx f|fayx’f rfhfj|fi

afx ycmy f cmi rfhfj|fi m brmay dr )26777 mai ma jaijhmyjda ycmy vr.

ycfr vaijab dvì of m wdxxjoj`jyz! Jnw`jhjy ja ycjx xvbbfxyjda wfdw`f cd

cmi cmi fswfrjfahf cmxyfafi yd fsw`mja yd nf mx ycf jifm ycmy f njbcyfswfhy Idibf yd vai vx dr vw yd |f zfmrx cj`f f if|f`dwfi ycf wrd.

brmn! Ldvaimyjdax fahdvrmbfi wrdnjxjab jajyjmyj|fx; ycfz iji ady vai

ycfn dr `jf!

Wmnf`m Njhcmf` cd cmi bdaf rdn m hmrffr ja wvo`jh rmijd yd daf ja

if|f`dwnfay cmi offa bvrjab dvy cd yd bfy ycf dri dvy modvy ycf fx.

yj|m` mai ycf hdayfxy! J dvì irdw ja yd ycf Ofrkf`fz dhf dhhmxjdam``z ja

ofyffa yfmhcjab nz yjhf.ndayc`z hdnnvyf yd Rmxcjabyda dr ycf

@jormrz `jyfrmrz xfrjfx mai |mrjdvx xwfmkjab fabmbfnfayx! Ycf dhf mxm`mzx cvnnjab mai cmi ma mjr d mamrhcjh hcffrvàfxx ycdvbc J hmnf yd

vaifrxymai ycmy jy mx rfnmrkmo`z fhjfay’dr my `fmxy mx m`mzx bfyyjab

drk idaf! @drj Wdyyjabfr ycf fijydr d Rdrì _j|frx _f|jf mx rjyjab m





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Bfdrbf ma fa|jrdanfaym` edvram`jxy’cmi rdn `myf Dhydofr vayj` ycf

hdayfxy ifmi`jaf fxymo`jxcfi dr ycf njii`f d Lforvmrz yd wvo`jhjuf ycf

hdayfxy if|jxf jy hm`` mjr`jafx yd xff j daf d ycfn njbcy hdayrjovyf mjr`jaf

yjhkfyx dr ycf hcjìrfa mai ycfjr mnj`jfx #mai hdaxjifr wrjayjab ycf hcj`.irfa‚x wdfyrz mai mry ja ycfjr nmbmujafx* ai cdyf`x w`ma ma jyjafrmrz dr

ycf jaafrx mai mrrmabf yrmaxwdrymyjda m`` ycf cj`f kffwjab cfr fzf da

ycf nmja bdm`x’yd yrfmy wdfyrz mai ycf |jxvm` mryx mx amyvrm` mai wdfrv`

nfmax d fswrfxxjda ycmy xcdvì of hf`formyfi mai ycmy hcjìrfa xcdvì of

`fmrajab ja xhcdd` yd fahdvrmbf jayfrijxhjw`jamrz fa|jrdanfaym` fivhmyjda

mai ycf yfmhcfrx ja dvr xhcdd`x cd mrf yrzjab yd id jy mai yd `fy m`` hcj`.

irfa kad ycfz `j|f jaxjif myfrxcfix! Oz ycf yjnf ycf hdayfxy ifmi`jaf

hmnf Wmn cmi bfafrmyfi ndrf ycma yd ycdvxmai fayrjfx rdn hcjìrfa jandrf ycma ycjryz xymyfx!

Ja Rmxcjabyda my m nffyjab xdnfdaf cmi mrrmabfi jyc `dhm` fa|jrda.

nfaym`jxyx J nfy _dofry Oddaf! _dofry cd jx m ifxhfaimay d Imajf`

Oddaf drkfi jaxjif ycf fifrm` ovrfmvhrmhz mai kfwy xmaf oz ymkjab vw

hmadfjab da ycf Mamhdxyjm _j|fr! Ycf wrfxjifayjm` zmhcy jx ofrycfi da ycf

Wdydnmh! Ycf Mamhdxyjm jx ycf dycfr rj|fr ja Rmxcjabyda mai jy ldx

ycrdvbc ycf wddrfxy afjbcodrcddix ja ycf hjyz! M |jhyjn `jkf ndxy Mnfrj.

hma rj|frx ja ycf =:67x d Mrnz Hdrwx d Fabjaffrx wd`jhjfx ijrfhyfi

ydmri nmkjab rj|frx ijxmwwfmr dr ofcm|f `jkf rmyjdam` hmam`x jy cmi offa

rfhfay`z ycf xhfaf d ma fsyrfnf`z fahdvrmbjab wrdefhy ja rj|fr rfxydrmyjda!

Orvhf Omoojyy mx Oj`` H`jayda‚x xfhrfymrz d ycf Jayfrjdr my ycf yjnf mai

ycdvbc H`jayda mai cjx fa|jrdanfaym`jxy |jhf wrfxjifay M` Bdrf frf

rfnmrkmo`z }vjfy da ycf xvoefhy d ycf fa|jrdanfay ycrdvbcdvy ycfjr

minjajxyrmyjda Omoojyy mx |dhm` mai cmi bdaf xd mr mx yd xmz ycmy imn

ifhdnnjxxjdajab mai rj|fr rfxydrmyjda frf bdjab yd of ycf hj|j` rjbcyxnd|fnfay d ycf yfayz.rxy hfayvrz! @jkf ndxy Mnfrjhma rj|frx ycf Mam.

hdxyjm cmi m hdaedjay xffr‘xydrn irmja xzxyfn ovj`y dr m nvhc xnm``fr

wdwv`myjda ycma ycf hjyz‚x jarmxyrvhyvrf cmi ad yd xvwwdry! Ycjx nfmay

ycmy cfaf|fr ycfrf mx m xvoxymayjm` xwrjab dr xvnnfr rmjaxydrn rm

xfmbf rdn ycf hjyz‚x xffr xzxyfn wdvrfi jayd ycf Mamhdxyjm mai’ja m

Ijhkfaxjma ydvhc’ldfi ycrdvbc ycf wddrfxy ndxy`z Mrjhma Mnfrjhma

afjbcodrcddix ja ycf hjyz! Mai rmja dr xcjaf ycf omakx d ycf rj|fr frf

`jkf ycf omakx d ndxy Mnfrjhma rj|frx `jyyfrfi jyc ifyrjyvx ndxy`z w`mx.yjhx mai ycf rj|fromakx ja ycf njii`f d ycf hjyz f|fa ja jyx wmrkx cmi

ofhdnf vadhjm` ivnwx5 ycfrf frf yjrfx cm`.xvonfrbfi ja ycf xcm``dx

ycf rfnamayx d momaidafi xdmx m`` ycf dr`dra ijxefhym d dvr hdaxvnfr



Modvy _j|fr dl Rdrix p ::

hv`yvrf fayfrjab ycf ifhdnwdxjyjda wcmxf d ycf hmroda hzh`f! Ovy ycf rj|fr

mx ofmvyjv` ja brfmy xyrfyhcfx ifxwjyf ycf ifmhfnfayx mai ycf Mrnz

Hdrwx rfxydrmyjda wrdefhy’ycjhk jyc afxyjab myfr ojrix cfa f wmi.

i`fi jayd jy ja ycf fmr`z xwrjab ycf rj|fr xvrmhf lvji mai xcjaz jyc ycfrflfhyjda d yrffx evxy `fmab dvy’xcdfi cmy jy hdvì of mbmja!

_dofry Oddaf cmi hrfmyfi ycf Mamhdxyjm Rmyfrxcfi Xdhjfyz yd hrfmyf m

hdaxyjyvfahz dr af xydrn irmjax #m hdabrfxxjdam` hdnnjyyff d|frxffx ycf

hjyz‚x jarmxyrvhyvrf* ycf rfxydrmyjda d ycf rj|fr mai jyx ldrm mai mvam mai

jnwrd|fi mhhfxx yd ycf rj|fr dr rfhrfmyjdam` vxf! Wmnf`m Njhcmf` mx mas.

jdvx yd xff’mai xd mx J’ycmy ycf hcjìrfa d Rmxcjabyda wmryjhjwmyfi ja

ycf hdayfxy mai ycmy xdnf d ycfn frf ja|jyfi yd ycf hfrfndaz! Daf

rjfai fay yd drk nmkjab hdaymhyx jyc ycf wrj|myf xhcdd`x cfrf ycfhcjìrfa d ycf Rmxcjabyda f`jyf frf fivhmyfi mai madycfr mrrmabfi dr

nf yd nffy jyc Kfaafyc Hmrrd`` ycf `dhm` ijrfhydr d RrjyfrxHdrwx

cjhc mx yfmhcjab wdfyrz ja ycf hjyz‚x wvo`jh xhcdd`x! _dofry Oddaf

mrrmabfi dr ycf Mamhdxyjm Rmyfrxcfi Xdhjfyz #MRX* yd bj|f ma maavm`

wrjuf yd m IH hcjì dr ycf ofxy wdfn dr wmjayjab rdn ycf hjyz modvy ycf

hjyz‚x myfrxcfi mai cf mrrmabfi jyc Wmnf`m Njhcmf` yd ymkf ycf hcjìrfa

ycfjr wmrfayx mai xdnf d ycf |jxjyjab rjyfrx hmadfjab da ycf Mamhdxyjm

cj`f ycfz frf ja Rmxcjabyda mai yd xwfai daf ndrajab ivrjab ycf

ffkfai wjhkjab vw bmrombf da ycf rj|fromak! Da ycf ndrajab d ycf

mhyvm` h`fmavw m hdd` xvaaz xwrjab ndrajab ycf |jxjyjab rjyfrx’Yfrrz

Yfnwfxy Rj``jmnx mai Omrrz @dwfu mndab ycfn’ja oddyx mai b`d|fx ycf

hcjìrfa ja oddyx mai b`d|fx J kaf ycmy jy mxa‚y ma fayjrf`z xznod`jh

mhyjda! Ycf MRX mx bdjab yd hdayjavf yd rfhrvjy wfdw`f yd kffw ycf rj|fr.

omakx h`fmr d evak ovy ycf ndrajab iji ff` jkf m xfr|jhfmo`f nfymwcdr yd

nf! Jy hdaafhyfi _dofry Oddaf‚x jifm ycmy f|frz rj|fr ja Mnfrjhm dvbcy ydof xjnnmo`f mai xcmo`f ojd`dbjhm``z mx f`` mx hcfnjhm``z mai wczxjhm``z

m`j|f mai ycmy wfdw`f xcdvì cm|f mhhfxx yd ycfxf rj|frx yd nz ljhkfrjab

adyjda ycmy m cfm`ycz hv`yvrf dvì of yfmhcjab jyx hcjìrfa yd rfxwfhy ycf

w`mhfx cfrf ycfz `j|f! Jy dvì avryvrf ycf hrfmyj|jyz ja ycfjr cjxydrz’

ycfjr `jyfrmrz mai mryjxyjh mai xhjfayjh yrmijyjdax’mai ja ycf kjix cd mrf

ycfjr vyvrf!

J iji cm|f rfxfr|myjdax modvy _j|fr d Rdrix my ycf dvyxfy! J mxa‚y hrmuz

modvy ycf jifm d m hdayfxy ovy J ijia‚y xff cd f`xf maz ndrf ycma J id jaycf miv`y hv`yvrf yd bfy wfdw`f yd wmz myyfayjda! Ovy nz iffwfr rfxfr|myjda

cmi yd id jyc ijhymyjab m xvoefhy yd wdfyx f|fa zdvab wdfyx wmryjhv`mr`z

ycjx xvoefhy! Nvhc jaxyrvhyjda ja ycf mryx cmx cmi yd id jyc bj|jab ofbja.



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afrx xfy ydwjhx yd bfy bdjab ovy wrdwdxjab ycf xvoefhy d amyvrf yd hcjìrfa

xffnfi m `jyy`f hdnw`jhmyfi yd nf! Ndifra wdfyrz’ja daf mz d hdvay.

jab’ofbma my ycf fai d ycf fjbcyffayc hfayvrz ja Fab`mai jyc _dnma.

yjhjxn; ycmy jx jyc wdfyx ijxmfhyfi jyc ycf mryjhjm`jyz mai jaevxyjhf d ycfdrì cd `mji h`mjn yd amyvrf oz mz d m rfxc xymry! Oz ycf fai d ycf

ajafyffayc hfayvrz ycf mxxdhjmyjda d wdfyrz jyc amyvrf wdfyrz cmi ofhdnf

m h`jhcê! Ndifrajxn’ycf wdfyrz ycmy xymryfi jyc Hcmr`fx Omvif`mjrf‚x

wdfnx modvy Wmrjx mai Rm`y Rcjynma‚x wdfnx modvy Af Zdrk’mx ja

nmaz mzx m rfof``jda mbmjaxy ycmy jifm d wdfyrz! Ady ycmy J ijia‚y ycjak f

affi m wdfyrz d ycf amyvrm` drì mai dvr rf`myjda yd jy! Jy xffnx yd nf f|j.

ifay ycmy f id mai cmy wfrcmwx xfwmrmyfx vx rdn ycf wdfyx d ycf fmr`z

wmry d ycf hfayvrz jx ycmy ycf amyvrm` drì ycmy xjyx ja ycf omhkbrdvai d ycfjr wdfyrz mx ma jifm d ivrmoj`jyz mai wfrnmafahf idfxa‚y xffn xd ivrm.

o`f dr wfrnmafay yd vx! Ovy J mx hdahfrafi ycmy ma ja|jymyjda yd rjyf

modvy ycfjr amyvrm` xvrrdvaijabx dvì xmz yd kjix #=* ycmy mx cmy wdfyrz

mx xvwwdxfi yd of modvy mai #?* ycmy ycfz frf ofjab ja|jyfi yd cm|f da`z

wdxjyj|f ofajba mai fa|jrdanfaym``z xdvai jifmx modvy amyvrf! Wdfyrz jx ycf

dwwdxjyf d wrdwmbmaim! Yd yfmhc hcjìrfa yd nmkf mry mai wdfyrz ycfz affi

yd of ymvbcy yd xvrwrjxf ycfnxf`|fx ady yd w`fmxf ycf brda.vwx!

Daf d ycf rxy wdfnx ycmy hmnf jayd ycf dhf dr ycf rxy hdayfxy

mx oz m hcjì my ma f`fnfaymrz xhcdd` ja ycf Mamhdxyjm ijxyrjhy d Rmxcjab.

yda! Jy nvxy cm|f hdnf dvy d m RrjyfrxHdrwx h`mxx mai ycf h`mxx nvxy cm|f

offa wrfmhfi jyc ycf jifm ycmy m myfrxcfi mx ycf rfbjda nmif dvy d

ycf wmycx ycrdvbc cjhc rmjairdwx ld ja m bj|fa w`mhf! Ycf wdfn fay

`jkf ycjx5<

J J frf m rmjairdw J dvì ady `jkf yd m`` da ycf omhkD m `mrbf o`mhk idb

Ofhmvxf cf hdvì yvra cjx cfmi mrdvai

Mai fmy zdv jyc cjx rfi ydabvf!

Mai J dvì ady `jkf yd m`` da ycf ydw d m fahf

Ofhmvxf zdv hdvì m`` d ycf `fy xjif mai orfmk zdvr mrn

Dr m`` d ycf rjbcy xjif mai orfmk zdvr `fb!

J dvì `jkf yd xw`mxc xyrmjbcy jayd ycf bvyyfr

Mai `d cdnf!



Modvy _j|fr dl Rdrix p =7=

Ycjx wdfn xyj``fi nz drrz ycmy f frf bdjab yd f`jhjy da`z wrdwm.

bmaim rdn ycf kjix mai rfnjaifi nf ycmy ycfz frf bdjab yd yf`` vx cmy

‐ycf fa|jrdanfay„ jx mai ycmy dr ycjx hcjì mx dr ycf rfxy d vx ycf rxy

ycjab jy jx modvy jx xmfyz!

Ycf dycfr ycjab ycmy ijxxd`|fi nz cfxjymyjda ycmy rxy zfmr ofxjifx ycf

hcjìrfa‚x drk mx ycf hcjìrfa ycfnxf`|fx! Ycfz frf }vjyf |mrjdvx ja

ycfjr mbfx mai hv`yvrfx mai fycajhjyjfx mai ycfz frf ndxy`z rfnmrkmo`zwdjxfi |j|ji m`j|f ofjabx j m `jyy`f xcz! Jy xffnfi yd nf m |frz bddi ycjab

ycmy ycfz |jxjy ycf @jormrz’cjhc mx Effrxda‚x jifm’cf ycdvbcy m vah.

yjdajab ifndhrmhz affifi mhhfxx yd oddkx’mai maifr mndab ycf nvxf.

vnx mai ndavnfayx d ycf hmwjym`! Ycf `mxy ycjab J dvì cm|f offa ycjak.

jab modvy cfa f ofbma yrzjab yd ja|jyf rjyfrx mai xhjfayjxyx yd

Rmxcjabyda mx ycmy ofhmvxf cf mx bddi my irmjab m hcjì rdn L`drjim

cd mx odra ja m V!A! hmnw ja Ycmj`mai dr Hmnodijma rfvbffx dvì

of m`kjab vw ycf }vjyf jnwdxjab xyfwx d ycf Effrxda @jormrz evxy mhrdxxycf xyrffy rdn ycf Hmwjyd` jyc jyx hcfhkfrfi cjxydrz mai rfxw`faifay

idnf yd xff cjx wmjayjab2 ijxw`mzfi jaxjif!

Nz Wrfhjdvx Rmyfr J Kjxx Zdv oz Wmrkwddn Wddnwmam mbf =6!



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J affi yd yf`` ycf rfxy d ycf xydrz ndrf orjflz! _j|fr d Rdrix fsjxyfi dr

jyx rxy |f zfmrx mx m wrdbrmn d Jayframyjdam` _j|frx vaifi oz J_ mai ozmaavm` brmayx rdn ycf Bfrmìjaf _! Idibf Ldvaimyjda! If|f`dwnfay

drk mai brmay rjyjab frf idaf oz Wmnf`m Njhcmf` jyc cf`w rdn ycf

if|f`dwnfay dhf my J_ mai ycf odmri ycmy d|frxm ycf wrdbrmn mx J_‚x

odmri! Ja ycdxf rf`myj|f`z lvxc zfmrx ja ycf Mnfrjhma fhdadnz dycfr ndafz

hmnf ja dr ycf wrdbrmn5 dr xf|frm` zfmrx ycf dvaimyjda d ycf mhydr

_doja Rj``jmnx mai cjx jf Nmrxcm wmji ycf hcjìrfa‚x fswfaxfx ja Rmxc.

jabyda; mai ja xdnf zfmrx mjr`jafx’Mnfrjhma mai Xdvycfxy’wjhkfi vw

ycfjr mrfx! Ycf wrdbrmn jyxf` brf rmwji`z! Ycf Hfayfr dr ycf Oddk cmxxymyf Hfayfrx dr ycf Oddk mai ycdxf xymyf hfayfrx ofhmnf ycf hddrijamydrx

ja nmaz xymyfx dr ycf `dhm` _DR wrdbrmn! Ycf _cdif Jx`mai Jaxyjyvyf

cjhc rfhfj|fi vaix rdn amahjm` wfam`yjfx jnwdxfi da wd``vyfrx xwda.

xdrfi ycf wrdbrmn ja _cdif Jx`mai mai hdaafhyfi jy yd ycf maavm` _j|fr

Lfxyj|m` ja Wrd|jifahf cjhc hf`formyfx ycf rfxydrmyjda idayda d ycf

Wrd|jifahf _j|fr! Ja Bfdrbjm _DR ofhmnf ycf fivhmyjda wrdbrmn d ycf

xymyf‚x Ifwmrynfay d Amyvrm` _fxdvrhfx mai m daifrv` dnma amnfi

Wfyfz _dbfrx xwrfmi ycf wrdbrmn ycrdvbc ycf h`mxxrddnx d Bfdrbjm oz

irfxxjab vw `jkf m `mrbf rdvai rmjairdw mai nmkjab vw xdabx modvy h`fmr

rj|frx mai cfm`ycz hdmxyx mai ycf myfr hzh`f! Ja mhy _DR brf nvhc

mxyfr ycma mazdaf cmi mayjhjwmyfi! Mai ycf wdfnx mai wmjayjabx hmnf ja

fmhc xwrjab oz ycf ycdvxmaix! Wmnf`m Njhcmf` rdyf mai fijyfi m hvrrjhv.

`vn bvjif dr ycf wrdbrmn mai m oddk`fy da cd yfmhcfrx mai xhcdd`x

hdvì wmryafr jyc hdnnvajyz fa|jrdanfaym` wrdbrmnx! Fmhc zfmr xcf

fijyfi m oddk d ycf hcjìrfa‚x mry mai wdfyrz mai nmif jy m|mj`mo`f yd h`mxx.rddnx! Yfmhcfrx frf xfaijab ja fsmnw`fx d ycfjr fa|jrdanfaym` mai mryx

hvrrjhv`m dr vx yd xcmrf jyc dycfr yfmhcfrx mai ycf _j|fr d Rdrix hvr.

rjhv`vn ofhmnf daf d ycf fmr`z jaxymahfx d cmy mx yd ofhdnf m nd|f.

nfay ydmri w`mhf.omxfi fivhmyjda!

Mx m rfxv`y _DR ofhmnf m rffxymaijab adawrdy! Jy cmi `jyfrm``z

dvybrda jyx xnm`` xwmhf ja ycf Jayframyjdam` _j|frx dhf’mai jy mx

hdnw`jhmyfi yd wdxjyjda ma fivhmyjdam` wrdbrmn jaxjif ma mhyj|jxy drbmaj.

umyjda! Nvhc d cmy mx wmxxjab dr fa|jrdanfaym` fivhmyjda ja ycfxhcdd`x J ijxhd|frfi mx cmy ycf fa|jrdanfaym` hdnnvajyz hm``fi ‐brf.

famxcjab„ fswfaxj|f wvo`jh rf`myjdax nmyfrjm`x rdn dj` hdnwmajfx wfx.



Modvy _j|fr dl Rdrix p =78

yjhjif nmavmhyvrfrx mai hcfnjhm` hdnwmajfx ifxjbafi yd yfmhc ycf hcj`.

irfa cmy m daifrv` mai rfxwdaxjo`f edo ycfxf hdnwmajfx frf idjab

dr ycf rvjyfi w`mja ycf wvrw`f ndvaymjax‚ nmefxyz mai dr hcmrjxnmyjh

mvam xvhc mx cm`fx mai wd`mr ofmrx! _DR iji ady may yd xffn yd ofycf fa|jrdanfaym` nd|fnfay‚x f}vj|m`fay mai Jayframyjdam` _j|frx mx m

ad.cdìx.omrrfi mi|dhmhz drbmajumyjda! Jy cmi offa fadrndvx`z bfafr.

dvx’mai mrxffjab’ja xvwwdryjab ycf wrdbrmn ovy _DR affifi yd

xymai da jyx da! Rf mww`jfi dr dvr da adawrdy xymyvx mai xwva d

jayd ma vahfrymja vyvrf! Dahf f ofhmnf m xfwmrmyf fayjyz J mx yd `fmra

f affifi m odmri! Wmnf`m Njhcmf` ofhmnf ijrfhydr d _j|fr d Rdrix! J

ofhmnf m odmri nfnofr mai xf|frm` Jayframyjdam` _j|frx odmri nfnofrx

edjafi nf ydbfycfr jyc nfnofrx d ycf hdnnjyyff ycmy cmi cf`wfi wvyycf wrdbrmn ydbfycfr mndab ycfn Mnz Ycdnmx mai Nm`hd`n Nmrbd`ja!

J cmi ivrjab ycfxf zfmrx `fy ycf wdfy `mvrfmyf‚x dhf mai edjafi ycf

odmri d Jayframyjdam` _j|frx xd J cmi xdnf adyjda d cmy m odmri iji

mai nz fivhmyjda ja ycf mz ycmy ycjx wmry d ycf drì jx wvy ydbfycfr’oz

ycf |d`vayffr drk d hjyjufax hdnnjyyfi yd xdhjm` mai hv`yvrm` hcmabf’

hdayjavfi! My ycf mbf d yz.xjs J `fmrafi cd yd rfmi m amahjm` xymyf.

nfay! Jy mxa‚y m xkj`` J ordvbcy yd ycf odmri ovy J affifi yd of mo`f yd d`.

`d ycf hda|frxmyjda! Ycf yjnjab d ycjx xfyyjab dvy mxa‚y wmryjhv`mr`z

dryvjydvx! Ycf Idibf Ldvaimyjda brmayx cmi hdnf yd ma fai! Rf cmi `dxyycf d|frcfmi’rfay hdnwvyfrx dhf vrajyvrf yf`fwcdafx cfm`yc jaxvr.

mahf mhhdvayjab mai mvijyjab vahyjdax’wrd|jifi oz J_ mai my ycmy

ndnfay ycf idy!hdn ovoo`f ovrxy mai ycf Hm`jdrajm mai amyjdam` fhdad.

njfx xwva jayd rfhfxxjda! Ovy ycmy rxy odmri nffyjab’d rjfaix mai

mh}vmjaymahfx cd frf xmhrjhjab ycfjr yjnf yd xjba dayd ycjx drk’mx

|frz nd|jab yd nf! Nm`hd`n Nmrbd`ja mx ycf ijrfhydr d m wrfxx! Mnz

Ycdnmx m ovxjafxxwfrxda dafi mai nmambfi ycrff |frz wdwv`mr Ofrkf.

`fz oddkxydrfx! Daf d dvr odmri nfnofrx mx m cdnfnmkfr rmjxjab ycrffhcjìrfa madycfr mx ma myydrafz madycfr mx ycf ijrfhydr d ma fa|jrda.

nfaym` vai! Ycfz frf ycfrf cm|jab xfy kjix yd cdnfdrk ofhmvxf ycfz

My ycf mbf dl lyz.xjs, J `fmrafi cd yd rfmi

m amahjm` xymyfnfay!



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`jkfi ycf jifm d brdjab ycf `jyfrmrz mai mryjxyjh bjyx d hcjìrfa dr d bfy.

yjab m `d|f dr ycf amyvrm` drì mai m adyjda d fa|jrdanfaym` xyfmrixcjw

jayd h`mxxrddnx!

Ycf ijfrfahf ofyffa adawrdy drbmajumyjdax mai dr.wrdy ovxj.

afxxfx jy imafi da nf |frz xdda mx ycmy ovxjafxxfx id ycfjr drk ydnmkf ndafz mai adawrdyx cm|f yd nmkf ndafz ja drifr yd id ycfjr

drk! M odmri affix yd of rfxwdaxjo`f dr d|frxffjab amahfx’bfyyjab ycf

ndafz yd id ycf drk mai xffjab ycmy ycf ndafz bfyx xwfay rfxwdaxjo`z’

cf`wjab yd xcmwf ycf njxxjda mai xyrmyfbjh bdm`x d ycf drbmajumyjda ofjab m

xdvaijab odmri dr nmambfnfay mai xym jnw`fnfayjab ycf bdm`x d ycf

drbmajumyjda mai rf|jfjab ycf drk d ycf xym! J dvai nzxf` ycjakjab

ycmy hjyjufa |d`vayffrx mrf idjab ycjx drk m`` ycf yjnf m`` d|fr ycf Vajyfi

Xymyfx! J ycjak ycjx hdvayrz jx ady vaj}vf ja brdjab adawrdy drbmajum.

yjdax ovy jy nmz of vaj}vf ja ycf xcffr avnofr d ycfn mai ja ycf |jym`jyz

d ycf rd`f ycfz w`mz ja dvr hv`yvrf’brdvwx ycmy drk da idnfxyjh |jd.

`fahf nvxjh fivhmyjda fy`mai rfxydrmyjda `fbm` cf`w mbmjaxy edo dr bfaifr

ijxhrjnjamyjda ycf hv`yj|myjda d xwjrjyvm`jyz dr m ymxyf dr mxyrdadnz ycf

wrdyfhyjda d cmojymy dr ivhkx dr iffr dr cm`fx mnjaf rf`jf hcjìrfa‚x

cfm`yc dnfa‚x rjbcyx jnnjbrmyjda rfdrn nfijhm` rfxfmrhc af jifmx ja

yfhcad`dbz mai fivhmyjda! Adawrdyx mrf ycf fayrfwrfafvrjm` xfhydr d ycmywmry d ycf hv`yvrf ycmy jx yrzjab yd nmkf ycf drì ja xdnf nfmxvrmo`f mz

ofyyfr ja mzx dycfr ycma oz `mvahcjab m af ovxjafxx dr m af wrdivhy!

Xymry.vw hdnwmajfx bd yd ja|fxynfay omakx dr hmwjym`! Ycf xdvrhfx d hmw.

jym` dr adawrdyx mrf dvr5 jaij|jivm` idadrx hdrwdrmyjdax bd|franfay

mai `mrbfr dvaimyjdax ycmy mrf ycfnxf`|fx adawrdyx! Ycf `mrbf adawrd.

jyx’ycf _dhkff``fr Ordycfrx Lvai dr ycf Ldri Ldvaimyjda dr dr ycmy

nmyyfr ycf Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda’hmnf jayd ofjab mx mnj`z dryvafx `ddkjab

dr mzx yd nmkf m ijfrfahf! Ycf xnm`` adawrdyx mrf jifmx dr nmkjab mijfrfahf `ddkjab dr hmwjym`! Xdnf jaij|jivm`x jyc ycf nfmax vaifrymkf

wcj`maycrdwz mx m xdhjm` do`jbmyjda mai ja nmaz hmxfx mx ma jayfrfxy mai m

|dhmyjda! @dyx d dycfr wfdw`f yjycf ycfnxf`|fx mai rjyf xnm`` hcfhkx

Adawrdyx mrf ycf fayrfwrfafvrjm` xfhydr

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f|frz zfmr yd drbmajumyjdax ycmy drk da ycf hmvxfx ycfz hmrf modvy! Xdnf

hdrwdrmyjdax xwfai xdnf ndafz yd fxymo`jxc hdnnvajyz bddij``! Mai

xdnf bd|franfay mbfahjfx cf`w yd brd ycf adawrdy xfhydr ofhmvxf jy jx

`jkf af ovxjafxxfx m xffiofi d xdhjm` fswfrjnfay!M`` d ycjx mx ad idvoy do|jdvx yd ndxy d ycf nfnofrx d dvr odmri

mndab cdn frf `dab.yfrn xdhjm` mhyj|jxyx ovy jy mx }vjyf af yd nf

mai J mx rfmijab ycf nfmajab d cmy f frf idjab ycf mz J‚i dahf

yrjfi yd yfmhc nzxf` Hcjafxf hcmrmhyfrx oz `ddkjab my ycfn m `dab yjnf

mai wmrxjab ycfjr wmryx! _DR affifi yd rfw`mhf ycf |f.zfmr xvxymjajab

brmay f‚i rfhfj|fi rdn ycf Bfrmìjaf _! Idibf Ldvaimyjda mai f

dvai jy ja madycfr Ofrkf`fz adawrdy ycf Hfayfr dr Fhd`jyfrmhz ofbva

oz m Omz Mrfm ovxjafxxnma mai fa|jrdanfaym` mhyj|jxy Wfyfr Ovhk`fz! Ycmybm|f vx orfmycjab xwmhf yd rjyf dycfr brmayx! Nfmacj`f ycf wrdbrmn mx

ldvrjxcjab! Rf frf hdnjab yd kad ndrf yfmhcfrx Wmnf`m Njhcmf` mx

drkjab jyc dycfr yfmhcfrx da wrdivhjab yfmhcjab nmyfrjm`x f frf mo`f

yd wvy ydbfycfr m rxy nmrkfymo`f hdff ymo`f‘yzwf oddk d ycf hcjìrfa‚x

imuu`jab mry mai wdfyrz’f cmi offa wvo`jxcjab jafswfaxj|f`z drnmyyfi

maavm` hd``fhyjdax d ycf kjix‚ drk mai ijxyrjovyjab ycfn rff yd h`mxx.

rddnx rdn ycf ofbjaajab’mai f frf f|fa ofbjaajab yd xff wdfnx mai

wmjayjabx jalvfahfi oz dr rfxwdaijab yd ycf wdfnx mai wmjayjabx f cmi

wvo`jxcfi m f zfmrx fmr`jfr! Ycf hfrfndaz my ycf @jormrz ja Rmxcjabyda

fmhc xwrjab cmi ofhdnf m }vjyf xffy f|fay mai mx `dab mx f frf mo`f yd

rmjxf fadvbc ndafz f|frz zfmr m`mzx m wrfhmrjdvx nmyyfr f xffnfi yd

of mhhdnw`jxcjab dvr bdm`x! Rdrk mx hdnjab ja rdn hcjìrfa m`` d|fr ycf

drì! Xcfm|fx d wmjayjabx mai irmjabx mwwfmrfi rdn m rfvbff hmnw ja

Mbcmajxyma ofhmvxf ma mry yfmhcfr mai m yfa.zfmr.dì Cmumrm odz ycfrf cmi

xffa m nfayjda d _DR ja ycf hcjìrfa‚x nmbmujaf _mabfr _jhk! Ycf FWMcmi ymkfa yd vxjab ycf hcjìrfa‚x mry yd j``vxyrmyf xdnf d ycf rfwdryx jy xfaix

ojmaavm``z yd Hdabrfxx! J cmi bdaf dvy yd Xcmabcmj mai Wmnf`m Njhcmf`

mai Yfrrz Yfnwfxy Rj``jmnx yd Omabkdk yd ym`k yd fivhmydrx ja d|frxfmx

Fab`jxc.`mabvmbf xhcdd`x modvy ycf mryx mai ycf |jym` rd`f ycfz hma w`mz ja

fa|jrdanfaym` mmrfafxx mai f cmi ofbva yd bfy fayrjfx rdn Mnfrjhma

xhcdd`x m`` d|fr ycf drì!

Rf m`xd bdy yd kad hcjìrfa m`` d|fr ycf hdvayrz! Ycjx hcjì cd cmi

rjyyfa ma fsyrmdrijamrz wdfn my ycf mbf d f`f|fa cmi evxy bdyyfa jaydCmr|mri yd xyviz Fab`jxc mai ycmy zdvab nma cd xffnfi ifxyjafi dr

ma mryjxy‚x hmrffr mx ofbjaajab wrf.ifaym` xhcdd` my ycf Vaj|frxjyz d

L`drjim! Rf bdy yd xff ja ycf ld d maavm` xvonjxxjdax ycf f|jifahf d



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ycf drk d |frz rfnmrkmo`f yfmhcfrx cd hdaxjxyfay`z zfmr myfr zfmr xfay

vx jaxwjrfi drk rdn ycfjr h`mxxfx! Ja |frz xcdry drifr Wmnf`m Njhcmf`

rfm`jufi ycmy f rfm``z affifi yd nmkf ma maavm` mmri dr fshfwyjdam`

yfmhcfrx cjhc f iji! Ycf yfmhcfrx dyfa xwdkf my ycf maavm` hfrf.ndaz’vwxymjrx ja ycf Nmijxda Ovjìjab ycf Hmwjyd` idnf b`fmnjab

mhrdxx ycf xyrffy ja ycf xwrjab mjr’mai f frf m`xd mo`f yd wvy ycf yfmhc.

frx‚ mhhdvayx d ycfjr hdahfwyjdax d yfmhcjab da ycf foxjyf yd xcmrf jyc

dycfr yfmhcfrx m`` d|fr ycf hdvayrz! Ycfrf cmx offa dycfr drk’m wmry.

afrxcjw jyc ycf Hm`jdrajm Hdmxym` Hdnnjxxjda yd fxymo`jxc m xwfhjm`

_DR mmri dr nmrjaf fhdxzxyfnx #amnfi dr Fimri _jhkfyyx Hm`jdr.

ajm‚x wjdaffrjab nmrjaf ojd`dbjxy mai ycf ndif` dr Idh ja Xyfjaofhk‚x

Hmaafrz _d * mai m rfhfay jajyjmyj|f yd drk da hvrrjhv`m dr vroma fa|j.rdanfaym` fivhmyjda m wrdbrmn hm``fi Daf X}vmrf O`dhk cjhc mxkx

hcjìrfa yd nmw xjab`f o`dhkx ja ycfjr afjbcodrcddix mai fmra ycfjr jarm.

xyrvhyvrfx xdhjm` cjxydrz mrhcjyfhyvrf imj`z `jf! Rf cm|f my ycf ndnfay m

xym d ycrff yd id ycjx drk! Wmnf`m Njhcmf` xfr|fx mx odyc fsfhvyj|f

ijrfhydr mai ijrfhydr d if|f`dwnfay ady yd nfayjda dvaijab xwjrjy mai

rjyfr fijydr mai jifm wfrxda! @dvjxm Njhcmf`x nmambfx ycf dhf hdn.

w`jhmyfi ofhmvxf ycfrf jx m |frz mrbf xhm`f mry mai wdfyrz hdayfxy yd minja.

jxyfr f|frz zfmr oddkkffwjab yd of myyfaifi yd hdayrmhyx yrmaxwdrymyjda

yd hfrfndajfx ja Xma Lrmahjxhd mai Rmxcjabyda yfmhcfr yrmjajab mai jifm.

xcmrjab xfxxjdax yd of xhcfiv`fi mai ma mry bm``frz d ycf hcjìrfa‚x irm.

jabx’jy‚x hm``fi Zdvab my Mry’yd of nmambfi! Xvxma Xmrrmyy cmai`fx ycf

hdayfxy imymomxf ycf foxjyf mai ycf hdaymhyx jyc ycf xymyf hddrijamydrx

ycf yfmhcfrx mai ycf xyvifayx! M wrfhmrjdvx nmhcjaf _DR cmx offa’

mai mx J rjyf ja ycjx imnmbfi fhdadnz evxy omrf`z xvr|j|jab ycdvbc jyx

wrdbrmnx mrf ycrj|jab mai idjab ndrf kjaix d vxfv` drk ycma maz d vxcmi mayjhjwmyfi!

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Rmyhcjab _DR if|f`dw jy ofhmnf h`fmr yd nf d|fr yjnf cmy J ycdvbcy

ycf drk mx modvy’mwmry rdn fahdvrmbjab mai hf`formyjab ycf mhcjf|f.

nfayx d wmryjhv`mr xyvifayx mai yfmhcfrx f|frz zfmr mai ja ycmy mz njrrdr.

jab ycfxf mhcjf|fnfayx omhk yd ycfjr hdnnvajyjfx! Rcfa J mx mxkfi ydmryjhv`myf jy m hdvw`f d zfmrx mbd J dvai jy hmnf ida yd m f ycdvbcyx!




Ycf rxy cmi yd id jyc hcjìrfa mai mry ycf xfhdai jyc hcjìrfa mai

xyfmrixcjw mai ycf ycjri jyc ycf jifm d myfrxcfi! Cfrf‚x cmy J rdyf5

=! HCJ@I_FA MAI M_Y

Ja cfr daifrv` oddkHcjìrfa‚x Mry Njrjmn @jaixyrdn doxfr|fx ycmy |frz

zdvab hcjìrfa cfa ycfz mrf nmkjab wmjayjabx dyfa ida‚y rfnfnofr

myfrmrix cjhc d ycf wmjayjabx jx ycfjrx! ‐Ycf wjhyvrf„ xcf rjyfx ‐xffnx

yd of da`z m ozwrdivhy d ycf nmja jayfrfxy ycf mhy d wmjayjab!

Fswrfxxjab ycfjr ff`jab.ycdvbcy modvy xdnf cmwwfajab `j|fi dr

jnmbjafi jx daf d ycf nmja vxfx d mry drk yd hcjìrfa d dvr dr |f ovy ycjx wrdhfivrf d ‐mhyjab.dvy„ m irmnmyjh f|fay jx xyj``

ofzdai nmaz d ycf yd. mai ycrff.zfmr.dì dafx! Ldr ycfn ff`.

jab mai ycjakjab xffn yd of ijrfhy`z rf`myfi yd ycf wczxjhm` mhyj|jyz

bdjab da rmycfr ycma yd nfaym` mhyj|jyz hdahfrafi jyc hdahfwyx yd

of fswrfxxfi! Ycfjr jahjifaym` hcmyyfr yd ycfnxf`|fx mai fmhc dycfr

jx ady xd jnwdrymay mx ycfjr da wfrdrnmahf d ma mhy d xkj``!

Ycfz faedz ycf ‐wdfr d ofjab ycf hmvxf!„3

J cm|f `d|fi ycmy `mxy xfayfahf f|fr xjahf J rxy rfmi jy! Mai J ycjak ycmy

cmy jy xmzx jx mx yrvf d miv`y mryjxyx mx jy jx d yd. mai ycrff.zfmr dìx! M

amyjdam` xvr|fz xdnf zfmrx mbd mxkfi Mnfrjhma xhcdd`hcjìrfa j ycfz frf

‐nmja`z cmwwz dr nmja`z drrjfi!„ J mx jayfrfxyfi mai ijxnmzfi yd rfmi

ycmy ndrf d ycfn dvryc brmifrx J ycjak rfwdryfi ycmy ycfz frf drrjfi

rmycfr ycma cmwwz! Ycjx njbcy of m if|f`dwnfaym` mhy ycmy ycfjr rfxwdaxfx

hmnf rdn ycf daxfy d m xfaxf d rfxwdaxjoj`jyz ycmy jx m`xd m xfaxf d xf`mai ja ycmy mz ady m omi xjba! Af|frycf`fxx cfa ycf xvr|fz mxkfi ycfn

cmy ycfz frf drrjfi modvy ycf wrjahjwm` maxfrx frf MJIX mai wd``v.

yjda xvoefhyx modvy cjhc ycfz hdvì ady cm|f kada |frz nvhc ycmy

ycfjr m`fry zdvab mayfaamf nvxy cm|f wjhkfi vw rdn ycf hv`yvrf my `mrbf!

Ycfrf mrf wrmhyjhm` xyfwx d hdvrxf ycmy hcjìrfa mai miv`yx hma ymkf yd ff`

`fxx wdfr`fxx modvy ycf hdaijyjda d ycf drì ovy ja ycjx mz fxwfhjm``z

jyc ycf zdvab J ycjak mry jx m njbcyz wdfr mai jy jx jnwdrymay ycmy ycfz

`fmra jy mai mrf fahdvrmbfi yd `fmra jy fmr`z! Ycf drix d m wdfy mbmja ycjxyjnf Bfrmri Nma`fz Cdwkjax5



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Fmhc ndrym` ycjab idfx daf ycjab mai ycf xmnf5

Ifm`x dvy ycmy ofjab jaiddrx fmhc daf if``x;

Xf`|fx’bdfx jyxf`; nzxf` jy xwfmkx mai xwf``x

Hrzjab cmy J id jx nf; dr ycmy J hmnf!

?! HCJ@I_FA MAI XYFRM_IXCJW

‐Ad jnwdrymay hcmabf ja fycjhx mx f|fr mhhdnw`jxcfi jycdvy ma jayfram`

hcmabf ja dvr jayf``fhyvm` fnwcmxjx `dzm`yjfx mfhyjdax mai hda|jhyjdax!

Ycf wrdd ycmy hdaxfr|myjda cmx ady zfy ydvhcfi ycf dvaimyjdax d hda.

ivhy `jfx ja ycf mhy ycmy wcj`dxdwcz mai rf`jbjda cm|f ady zfy cfmri d jy„

Mìd @fdwdì rjyfx ja Xmai Hdvayz M`nmamh ! M `jyy`f `myfr ja ycf oddk cfhdnfx dvy ja m x`jbcy`z ijfrfay mz! ‐Jy jx jahdahfj|mo`f yd nf ycmy ma fyc.

jhm` rf`myjda yd `mai hma fsjxy jycdvy `d|f rfxwfhy mai minjrmyjda dr `mai

mai m cjbc rfbmri dr jyx |m`vf!„ Mai oz ‐`mai„ cf xmzx cf nfmax ady evxy xdj`

ovy ‐m dvaymja d fafrbz ldjab ycrdvbc ycf hjrhvjy d xdj`x w`mayx mai

majnm`x!„:

Daf d dvr omxjh jifmx jfx cfrf! Rf mrf ady mwy yd of |frz ffhyj|f hmrf.

ymkfrx d mazycjab ycmy f ida‚y hdnf yd kad mai vaifrxymai mai f mrf

ady mwy yd hdnf yd kad mai vaifrxymai mazycjab ycmy cmxa‚y mmkfafi dvr

hvrjdxjyz dr mxhjamyjda! Jy‚x h`fmr fadvbc my ycf ofbjaajab d ycf yfayz.

rxy hfayvrz ycmy ycf myfx d m`ndxy m`` ycf xwfhjfx d w`mayx mai majnm`x ycf

ojdym d ycf fmryc drfxyx mai brmxx`maix yvairm mai b`mhjm` omzx nmabrd|f

xmnwx mai ifxfryx cm|f hdnf jayd ycf cmaix d cvnma ofjabx! Mai xd ma

fivhmyjda ja fhd`dbjhm` hjyjufaxcjw cmx ofhdnf ma jayframyjdam` afhfxxjyz

fxwfhjm``z ja ycf if|f`dwfi hdvayrjfx ycmy vxf xd nmaz d ycf drì‚x

rfxdvrhfx! Mai jy‚x wrfyyz h`fmr dr jy dvbcy yd of ycmy ycf ofbjaajabx d ycmyfivhmyjda jf ja ycf amyvrm` fafrbz hvrjdxjyz mai m`fryafxx d hcjìrfa mai ja

ycf wmxxjda yd wmxx da m drì ycmy hdnnjyx wfdw`f yd ycf |dhmyjda d

yfmhcjab!

J ycjak cvnma ofjabx da`z brmivm``z f|d`|fi dr rfmxdax d fhjfahz

dvr wrfxfay yfaifahz yd xdry dvy xdab.nmkjab mai jnmbf.nmkjab rdn ycf

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Modvy _j|fr dl Rdrix p ===

maymxz„ Zfmyx rdyf’mai J ycjak cf cmi ycf rcfydrjh d Jrjxc amyjdam`jxn

ja njai’‐Ycf cfmry‚x brda orvym` rdn ycf mrf! ! ! !„ Xd J dyfa dvai ycmy

cj`f J dvai jy fmxz yd ym`k modvy `jyfrmhz fivhmyjda ycf wdfr d Mnfrj.

hma `jyfrmyvrf ycf wdfr mai rfmhc d `jyfrmyvrf ja ycf drì mai modvy ycffa|jrdanfay mai fa|jrdanfaym` `jyfrmyvrf ycf xvoefhy d wdfyrz `fy nf

nvyf! Wdfnx frf madycfr nmyyfr! Jy mx m`mzx m w`fmxvrf mai ma jayfrfxy yd

ym`k modvy wdfnx ja wmryjhv`mr’ycf mnmufnfay d ycjx rczycn dr ycf `fmw

d njai ja ycmy nfymwcdr! Ldr xf|frm` zfmrx ivrjab ycmy yjnf J dvai nzxf`

ja ycf wdxjyjda d cm|jab yd rjyf m xcdry fxxmz modvy m wdfn f|frz ffk

mai J `jkfi idjab jy! Ovy cfa J mx mxkfi mx wdfyx `mvrfmyf mrf jahfxxmay`z

mxkfi modvy ycf bddi d wdfyrz dr ycf xdhjm` rd`f d wdfyrz dr’ifwfaijab

da cmy hjyz daf mx ja’ycf wdwv`mrjyz dr vawdwv`mrjyz d wdfyrz nznjai xffnfi yd bd da xyrjkf!

Zfy m jaf d Lrdxy‚x mx dyfa ja nz cfmi! ‐Ycf `mai mx dvrx ofdrf f

frf ycf `mai‚x!„ J‚|f m`mzx rfmi ycmy jyc nz fswfrjfahf d ycf xyvaajab

xnm`` mhhvrmhjfx d cmjkv mai d ycf yrmijyjdax d `jyfrmyj wmjayjab ja njai!

Rcfa Omxcd mx rjyjab cjx wdfnx ja ycf fmr`z xf|fayffayc hfayvrz

wfdw`f cmi offa `j|jab da ycf Emwmafxf nmja`mai dr my `fmxy yfa ycdvxmai

zfmrx mai cmi cmi m yrmijyjda d rjyyfa wdfyrz ja Emwmafxf xjahf ycf fmr`z

fjbcyc hfayvrz xd Omxcd mx rjyjab cjx wdfnx ja rf`myjda yd my `fmxy ajaf

cvairfi zfmrx d m `jyfrmrz yrmijyjda d h`dxf doxfr|myjda d ycf `mai!

Ycdvbc cf `j|fi ja Af Fab`mai ja ycf rdayjfr yda d Lmrnjabyda

dr my fmxy dryz zfmrx Fimri Ymz`dr cd ijfi ja ycf fmr`z fjbcyffayc hfa.

yvrz mai nmz of ycf ofxy d dvr fmr`z Mnfrjhma wdfyx rdyf wdfnx ja

cjhc ycf rmrf ojri dr w`may cf amnfx jx Fab`jxc ady Adryc Mnfrjhma! Xd

f|fa ja Af Fab`mai ycf nmrrjmbf d amyvrm` w`mhf mai ycf Fab`jxc `ma.

bvmbf mai ycf wdfrx d jnmbjamyjda mai doxfr|myjda mrf ad ndrf ycmaycrff cvairfi zfmrx dì! Ja nz wmry d ycf drì jy jx zdvabfr ycma ycmy oz

m`ndxy daf cvairfi mai yz zfmrx! Mx Rcjynma xm mai mx Ijhkjaxda

ymvbcy vx jyc cfr mimwymyjdax d ycf czna drn ycf drk rf}vjrfi mx

ady evxy m nmyyfr d wvyyjab ycf jacfrjyfi drnx d Fab`jxc wdfyrz yd drk

da ycf Mnfrjhma `maixhmwf’ycfz affifi yd of mhh`jnmyfi yd daf madycfr!

Ycmy drk xffnx yd cm|f offa ofbva ja Af Fab`mai ja ycf fmr`z zfmrx d

ycf ajafyffayc hfayvrz rdvbc`z hdayfnwdrmafdvx jyc ycf drk Mvivoda

mai dvr `maixhmwf wmjayfrx mai dvr odymajhm` mai bfd`dbjhm` fsw`drfrx frfidjab! Ycfz frf `fmrajab yd xff ycf `mai mai yd ai m `mabvmbf dr cmy

ycfz frf xffjab! Ycfrf jx f|frz rfmxda’ja ycf drì f cm|f nmif ja ycf



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jayfaxj|f`z drkfi mai yrmaxdrnfi `maixhmwfx d f|frz rfbjda d dvr

hdvayrz mai jyx rfnamay mrnxhmwfx mai wrfxfr|fi jìfrafxxfx’yd xfy dvr

hcjìrfa yd ycf ymxk d xyvizjab ycmy yrmijyjda mai wvyyjab ycfjr cmaix yd jy!

Ycf wdfnx d ycf hcjìrfa mx ycfz hdnf jayd ycf dhfx d _j|fr d Rdrix mrf maavm` f|jifahf d ycf iffw rfxcafxx mai xvrwrjxf ycmy ycfz mrf

hmwmo`f d! Mx J ym`kfi yd hjyjufa‚x brdvwx modvy `jyfrmhz xyvizjab ycf mzx ja

cjhc ycf `mhk d jy mai d m rmnovahyjdvx ifndhrmhz d xwdkfa `mabvmbf

ja dvr xyrffyx xyvayfi wfdw`f‚x `j|fx’ady evxy ycfjr edo dwwdryvajyjfx ovy

ycfjr `j|fx’jy ofhmnf f|jifay yd nf ycmy m ymxyf dr wdfyrz ma jayfrfxy ja

ycf `j|f`jafxx mai f`d}vfahf mai jnwvifahf mai xdnfyjnfx ycf xdrrdjab

dr daifrjab ifwycx d ycf njai mx jy fnfrbfx ja ycf rczycnx d dvr `ma.

bvmbf nvxy of my ycf hdrf d maz fdry yd bj|f dvr hdvayrz mai dvr hcj`.irfa ycf bjy mai ymxk d `jyfrmhz! Jy xffnfi h`fmr ycmy mx zdv hdvì yf`` ycmy

m fy`mai ycjhkfy mx cfm`ycz j ycf `jyy`f mro`fr hm``fi m zf``dycrdmy

xcdfi vw f|frz xwrjab dr yf`` m cfm`ycz yfnwfrmyf rmja drfxy oz ycf `d

hm``x d xwdyyfi d`x zdv hdvì bmvbf ycf cfm`yc d m hv`yvrf oz cfycfr dr

ady jy hv`yj|myfi m ymxyf dr wdfyrz! _DR cmx offa daf jajyjmyj|f mndab

nmaz yd wvy ycf mi|fayvrf d rjyjab rfmijab mai rfhjyjab wdfyrz omhk my

ycf hfayfr d dvr hdnnda hv`yvrf! J ycjak jy cmx xfr|fi wdfyrz mai dvr

hdnnda `jf ja ycjx w`mhf cfrf jyx hdayfsy cmx ady offa wvrf`z `jyfrmrz

ycmy jy hma yfmhc dvr hcjìrfa ycmy nvhc d dvr `jyfrmyvrf cmx offa modvy

xffjab mai ofjab ja ycjx w`mhf!

ADYFX

=! J Bdy ycf O`vfx! Bfrmì M``fa mbf =8 ?77? _j|fr d Rdrix am`jxy! Ordminddr

Njii`f Nmbafy Xhcdd` Omyda _dvbf @dvjxjmam! Yfmhcfr5 M`ma Ndryda!?! ‐Xmi Xva!„ Ajhcd`mx Xmau.Bdvì mbf < =::< _j|fr d Rdrix Brmai Wrjuf!

Mrbdaaf F`fnfaymrz Xhcdd` Xma Lrmahjxhd Hm`jdrajm! Yfmhcfr5 Xvxma Xjoofy!

8! ‐@fyyfr yd ma Mrhcjyfhy!„ _fofhhm Bj|fax =::3 _j|fr d Rdrix Brmai Wrjuf!

Hcmno`ff Cjbc Xhcdd` My`maym Bfdrbjm! Yfmhcfr5 Ijmaf @zaa Lmrnfr!

9! ‐Rmyfrxcfi @jf!„ Ef Cmab mbf =8 =::3 _j|fr d Rdrix Jayframyjdam`

Wrjuf! Mnfrjhma Jayframyjdam` Xhcdd` Icmkm Omab`mifxc! Yfmhcfr5 Mnz

Xcm|fr!

6! ‐Xf|fa Cmjkv da Bdìxc mai Rcz!„ Nmiiz Edcaxda mbf =9 ?77< _j|fr d

Rdrix Brmai Wrjuf! Xvonjyyfi jaifwfaifay`z!

<! Ja ycf hrvxc d ycmy rxy zfmr d _j|fr d Rdrix ycf drjbjam` d ycjx wdfn mai

ycf amnf d ycf zdvab mvycdr ijxmwwfmrfi! Ycjx jx ycf wdfn mx J rfnfnofr jy



Modvy _j|fr dl Rdrix p ==8

mai Wmnf`m Njhcmf` ijrfhydr d _DR cmx xmji xdnfcmy rfmxxvrjab`z ycmy

ycjx jx m`xd cd xcf rfnfnofrx jy!

2! Nz Wrfhjdvx Rmyfr J Kjxx Zdv! Wmrkwddn Wddnwmam mbf =6 =::< _j|fr d

Rdrix Brmai Wrjuf! Ldry Nzfrx Cjbc Xhcdd` Ldry Nzfrx L`drjim! Yfmhcfr5Jrfaf @jaa!

3! Njrjmn @jaixyrdn Hcjìrfa‚x Mry5 M Xyviz d Adrnm` If|f`dwnfay ja Hcjìrfa‚x

Ndifx d \jxvm`jumyjda #Ofrkf`fz5 Vaj|frxjyz d Hm`jdrajm Wrfxx =:62* 3!

:! Mìd @fdwdì M Xmai Hdvayz M`nmamh mai Xkfyhcfx Cfrf mai Ycfrf #Af

Zdrk5 Dsdri Vaj|frxjyz Wrfxx =:9:* ?=9‘=6!

=7! Bmrz Xazifr M W`mhf ja Xwmhf5 Fycjhx Mfxycfyjhx mai Rmyfrxcfix #Rmxcjabyda

IH5 Hdvayfrwdjay =::6* ??:‘87!

OJO@JDB_MWCz

F`jumofyc @zaaf mai Xvumaaf Zdvab fix! Rdrkx d Cfmry5 Ovjìjab \j``mbf Ycrdvbc

ycf Mryx! Dmk`mai HM5 Af \j``mbf Wrfxx ?776!

Njhcmf` Wmnf`m fi! _j|fr d Rdrix5 Jnmbfx mai Wdfnx ja Wrmjxf d Rmyfr! Jayrdivh.

yjda oz _dofry Cmxx! Ofrkf`fz HM5 Cfzimz Wrfxx ?778!

Njhcmf` Wmnf`m fi! _j|fr d Rdrix5 Zdvab Wdfyx mai Mryjxyx da ycf Amyvrf d Ycjabx!

Jayrdivhyjda oz _dofry Cmxx! Njaafmwd`jx NA5 Nj`kffi Fijyjdax ?773!

Xydaf Njhcmf` K! mai Ufadojm Omr`d fix! Fhd`dbjhm` @jyfrmhz5 Fivhmyjab Dvr Hcj`.

irfa dr m Xvxymjamo`f Rdrì ! Xma Lrmahjxhd5 Xjfrrm H`vo Oddkx ?776!



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ycf wdfn jx m Orjibf

WdfyrzGYfhc

y `s

J ida‚y kad cd wvy ycf G xznod` jaxyfmi d ycf dri my ofyffa Wd.

fyrz mai Yfhc ovy J bvfxx jy‚x mwwrdwrjmyf bj|fa ycf mbf f `j|f ja mai

bj|fa ycmy Yfhc jx ycf Bfdrbjm Jaxyjyvyf d Yfhcad`dbz m |frz f``.kada

vaj|frxjyz ady f`` kada dr wdfyrz!

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Jy ofbma jkf ycjx! Ja ycf myf =::7x Cfarz mai Nmrbmrfy Odvraf ifhjifi yd

faid m hcmjr ja wdfyrz my Bfdrbjm Yfhc ‐yd faxvrf„ mx Ir! Orda xmji

‐ycmy Bfdrbjm Yfhc xyvifayx j`` m`mzx cm|f ma dwwdryvajyz dr rxy.rmyf

jaxyrvhyjda ja ycf brfmy wdfyrz d ycf drì!„ Cf hdaxjifrx jy ‐fxwfhjm``z

jnwdrymay ycmy ja ycf cjbc`z xwfhjm`jufi mai yfhcajhm` mrfmx d fabjaffrjab

xhjfahf mai nmambfnfay xyvifayx‚ mwyjyvifx mrf avryvrfi mai xvwwdryfi mxm dvaimyjda dr `jf`dab `fmrajab!„ Ir! Odvraf mx ma f`fhyrjhm` fabjaffr.

jab wrdfxxdr my Bfdrbjm Yfhc dr nmaz zfmrx mx ycf wrd|dxy dr m cj`f



Ycf Wdfn Jx m Orjibf p ==6

mai xfr|fi mx ma jayfrjn wrfxjifay ja ycf myf =:<7x! M Zf``d Emhkfy ycrdvbc

mai ycrdvbc! Mai cf `d|fx wdfyrz!

My modvy ycf xmnf yjnf vaofkadaxy yd ycf Odvrafx madycfr nma

Orvhf NhF|fr m`xd ifhjifi yd faid m hcmjr ja wdfyrz my Yfhc! Cf jx mBfdrbjm Yfhc m`vn Am|z _DYH m odra mai orfi My`mayma HFD d Ofrk.

xcjrf Hmwjym` mai m wdfy cd cmx wvo`jxcfi m v``.`fabyc hd``fhyjda mai m

f hcmwoddkx mai cdxf drk cmx offa wrjayfi ja xf|frm` `jyfrmrz nmbm.

ujafx! Cjx rfmxdax frf fxxfayjm``z ycf xmnf mx Cfarz mai Nmrbmrfy Odvraf‚x5

Bfdrbjm Yfhc jx m brfmy vaj|frxjyz J may yd bj|f xdnfycjab omhk yd jy mai

wdfyrz’odyc ycf rfmijab mai rjyjab d jy’xcdvì of wmry d ycf hvrrjh.

v`vn ma dwyjda dr xyvifayx my maz brfmy vaj|frxjyz! J kad Orvhf NhF|fr!

Cf yddk m wdfyrz rjyjab h`mxx d njaf my ycf :?ai Xyrffy Z ja Af ZdrkHjyz ja ycf fmr`z =::7x! Yd faidfi hcmjrx ja wdfyrz5 ycjx mx af yd

Bfdrbjm Yfhc! Ycf vaj|frxjyz ijia‚y }vjyf kad cmy yd id jyc ycfn!

Xdnfyjnf ja ycf xwrjab d ?777 J mx ja|jyfi dr daf xfnfxyfr da`z yd

jamvbvrmyf cmy hmnf yd of hm``fi ycf NhF|fr \jxjyjab Hcmjr ja Rrjyjab

mai cf`w bfy xdnfycjab xymryfi! \frz cmwwj`z yfmhcjab dr ?6 w`vx zfmrx my

Xmrmc @mrfahf Hd``fbf mai ijrfhyjab ycf NLM wrdbrmn ja wdfyrz ycfrf

dr nmaz d ycdxf zfmrx J‚i ymkfa |jxjyjab edox ofdrf cfa ycfz hmnf vw’

Cdvxyda Njhcjbma Jdm VH Jr|jaf’ovy J‚i af|fr j|fi ja ycf Xdvyc’xd

cz ady4

Ycf afsy ycjab ycmy cmwwfafi’mai ycf ndxy jnwdrymay ycjab ycmy f|fr

cmwwfafi dr WdfyrzGYfhc jycdvy cdn WdfyrzGYfhc dvì ady

fsjxy’cmwwfafi ja m h`mxxrddn my ycf Hrmaorddk Xhcdd` afmr Ifyrdjy my m

ad ifvahy rjyfrx hdafrfahf ja ycf xvnnfr d ?777! J mx da ycf mh.

v`yz! Rf frf bdjab mrdvai ycf rddn jayrdivhjab dvrxf`|fx my ycf ofbja.

ajab d dvr rxy wdfyrz drkxcdw mai cfa cfr yvra hmnf m dnmaamnfi Bjabfr Nvrhcjxda xmji xcf `j|fi ja My`maym! J xmji ‐J hdvì vxf zdvr

cf`w ja Emavmrz!„ Xcf xmji ‐Xvrf!„

Wmry d ycf ifm` mx ycjx5 Bfdrbjm Yfhc wmji dr nz cdvxjab #J xyj`` cmi

yd wmz rfay ja Af Zdrk* mai ycfrf mx xdnf ndafz xfy mxjif dr wdfyrz

rfmijabx! Mx wmry d ycf mwwdjaynfay J mxkfi yd yfmhc m drkxcdw rff mai

dwfa yd mazodiz ja ycf hdnnvajyz mx f`` mx yfmhc my Yfhc!

Mx xdda mx Bjabfr Nvrhcjxda bdy omhk yd My`maym #xcf mxa‚y wmji m

ijnf my ycjx wdjay* xcf fay yd drk5 xhdvyjab |favfx ym`kjab yd wfdw`f myYfhc mai yd wdfyx ja ycf `dhm` wdfyrz hdnnvajyz cdn xcf kaf! Xcf

f|fa wrf|fayfi m wrdhydr‚x rddn ja m idrnjydrz rdn ofjab nz cdvxjab-



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Omhk ja Af Zdrk J rdyf m njxxjda xymyfnfay’modvy ycrff xjab`f.

xwmhfi wmbfx! @myfr xdnfdaf ydì nf njxxjda xymyfnfayx mrf xvwwdxfi yd ofdaf dr yd xfayfahfx! Cfrf‚x wmry d m wmrmbrmwc5

‐J xff adycjab mayjycfyjhm` yd m nmedr vaj|frxjyz kada ycf drì

d|fr dr jyx fabjaffrjab$hdnwvymyjdam` xhjfahf$ovxjafxx mai dycfr

rf`myfi xvoefhyx d xyviz m`xd nmkjab m|mj`mo`f yd jyx xyvifayx rjy.

jab `jyfrmyvrf mai ycf mryx ja bfafrm`! Ycf nmkjab d mry #`fy‚x vxf

wdfyrz mx ma fsmnw`f-* jx m ymxk ycmy rf}vjrfx m kjai d fabjaffrjab

m kjai d mrhcjyfhyvrf mai |frz rfm` mai hdnw`fs yfhcajhm` xkj``x!Bddi wdfnx cjxydrjhm``z mrf nmif ; ycfz ida‚y evxy ld ida ycf

mrn d ycf irfmnz wdfy yd ycf wmbf! Bddi wdfnx mrf ycf rfxv`y d

w`maajab rjbdr myyfayjda jayvjyjda yrjm` mai frrdr ijxhjw`jaf mai

ycf `vhk ycmy xdnfyjnfx hdnfx cfa m`` d ycf wrf|jdvx mrf mw.

w`jfi! M lm`fxx mrhcjyfhyvrm` ifxjba ma f`fbmay hcfnjhm` f}vmyjda

m bddi wdfn jx xvwwdxfi yd xffn xjnw`f xwdaymafdvx lvji! Yd

mhcjf|f cjx dr cfr bdm`x ycmy wrfhjxjda ycmy yrvyc ycf fabjaffr ycf

hcfnjxy ycf wdfy vxvm``z nvxy drk ij`jbfay`z nvxy xfmy o`ddi!„

Rcfa rfwrfxfayjab Bfdrbjm Yfhc my m vahyjda da dr d hmnwvx J ndxy

dyfa hdnwmrf ycf nmkjab d m wdfn yd ycf nmkjab d m orjibf cjhc m``x

vaifr ycf hmyfbdrz d hj|j` fabjaffrjab! M orjibf mai m wdfn! Ycfz odyc

nmkf jnwdrymay hdaafhyjdax ycfz cm|f m`` xdryx d ycjabx bdjab da jaxjif

ycfn ycmy nmkf ycfn xymai ycfz m``d vx yd xwma ycf iffwfxy d hcmxnx

mai ycf ofxy d ycfn mrf f|fa ofmvyjv`-

Rcfa J mhyvm``z bdy yd My`maym |frz fmr`z ja Emavmrz ?77= #J xymryfiyfmhcjab ycf imz myfr J mrrj|fi* Bjabfr mx m`rfmiz mrrmabjab ycf hdnnv.

ajyz h`mxx mai |mrjdvx |favfx dr rfmijabx! Rf mayfi yd cm|f ycfn m`` d

hmnwvx mai f odyc kaf nmaz d ycf wfdw`f f mayfi yd ja|jyf yd rfmi!

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dycfr ycma cdadrjab Bfdrbjm wdfyx dvì hdayrmijhy ycf xwjrjy d NhF|fr‚x

brfmy bjy mai ad mz mx J bdaam hdnf d yd ycf wdfyx ja My`maym mai

Bfdrbjm mx m bdyyimna Zmakff hmrwfyombbfr- J‚n ady xvrf cmy ycf Zmakff

dri.f}vj|m`fay yd m hmrwfyombbfr jx! Nmzof cvxy`fr dwfrmydr daf vafa.hvnofrfi oz m hdaxhjfahf4 Xd f cmi ycf rfmijabx my ijfrfay |favfx

mrdvai My`maym5 ycf =9yc Xyrffy W`mzcdvxf J‚|f nfayjdafi! Jy mx rmrf yd xff

wdfy‚x amnfx da m nmr}vff! M`xd ycf mdrfnfayjdafi Mhydr‚x Fswrfxx ycf

Nmrbmrfy Njyhcf`` Cdvxf #cfrf J m`xd ymvbcy nz hdnnvajyz h`mxx* mai

ycf Mhmifnz d Nfijhjaf m cjxydrjh My`maym ovjìjab! Wfdw`f hmnf5 877

977 867 877!

My daf rfmijab Bfdrbjm Yfhc‚x wrfxjifay my ycf yjnf Ir! Rmzaf H`dvbc

mai cjx jf Maaf myyfaifi! Jy mx my ycf Nmrbmrfy Njyhcf`` cdvxf! Afmr`z867 wfdw`f myyfaifi mai jy mx }vjyf m oj``5 @fda Xydkfxovrz m amyjdam``z

kada wdfy ja ycf Xdvycfra amrrmyj|f yrmijyjda; Evixda Njyhcf`` m jif`z

kada wdfy mai ad|f`jxy rdn ycf Nmhda mrfm; Kf|ja Zdvab ycfa ma

fnfrbjab zdvab wdfy ad m wdfrcdvxf d cjx bfafrmyjda; mai m ivd ycmy

nmif ycf oj`` wmryjhv`mr`z vavxvm` Xyf|f mai _daadb Xfmofrb #vadryv.

amyf`z mai m brfmy `dxx yd ycf My`maym mryx hdnnvajyz _daadb wmxxfi ja

?772*! Yd ifxhrjof cmy ycfz iji jx ijhv`y ovy J xcm`` yrz! Ljrxy wjhyvrf m

hdvw`f ja ycfjr nji.xf|fayjfx fmrjab nv`yjhd`drfi mhrdomyjh yjbcyx! Xyf|f

nmkfx cjx mz daxymbf |frz `modrjdvx`z vxjab m m`kfr! Cf bfyx jy am``z yd

hfayfr xymbf mai wrdhffix yd vxf jy yd id m v`` cmaixymai- Ycjx jx cfa zdv

rxy adyjhf cf jx rjwwfi cjx vwwfr odiz modvy mx h`dxf yd m zdvab bznamxy‚x

odiz mx m xf|fayz.dvr.zfmr.dì nma‚x hma of! Cf `dfrx cjnxf` x`d`z ja

m nd|fnfay ycmy `ddkx mx ycdvbc jy ymkfx ycf xyrfabyc mai hdayrd` d ma jrda

hrdxx! Ycf hrdi jx bdjab avyx! Ycfa _daadb xjnj`mr`z myyjrfi m`kx

daxymbf h`jnox dayd Xyf|f‚x xcdvìfrx mai ofbjax yd rfhjyf cfr wdfnx!Ycfz‚rf odyc mhrdomyx; xcf‚x ycf wdfy! Xcf h`jnox m`` d|fr cjn mai rfhjyfx

ijfrfay wdfnx ja ijfrfay wdxjyjdax xdnf d cjhc nmkf mi|mahfi zdbm

`ddk xjnw`f! Jy‚x cmri yd yf`` cfycfr ycf wdfnx cm|f mazycjab yd id jyc

ycf xhv`wyvrfx ycfz nmkf d ycfjr odijfx ovy adodiz hmrfx!

J mai m f dycfr nfnofrx d ycf mvijfahf cd kaf Xyf|f mai _da.

adb’`dabyjnf wfrdrnfrx jayframyjdam``z da ycf m`yframyj|f mry xhfaf’

frf hdahfrafi ycfz njbcy ymkf ycfjr hdxyvnfx d mai wfrdrn ja ycf

avif cjhc ycfz dyfa iji! Rf hdafrrfi jyc ycfn ofdrfcmai maimxxvrfi ycfn f dvìa‚y hfaxdr ycfn ja maz mz ovy ycmy jy njbcy of m

bddi jifm j ycfz `fy ycfjr h`dycfx da ycjx yjnf! Ycfz iji!



Ycf Wdfn Jx m Orjibf p ==:

J of`jf|f jy mx Ir! H`dvbc cjnxf` cd xdnfyjnf `myfr ydì nf cf cmi

faedzfi ycf rfmijab mai cmi offa wmryjhv`mr`z w`fmxfi mai xvrwrjxfi ycmy xd

nmaz wfdw`f cmi hdnf yd m wdfyrz f|fay xwdaxdrfi oz Bfdrbjm Yfhc!

Dvr am` rfmijab ycmy xwrjab cfì my ycf Mhmifnz d Nfijhjaf mx ozIm|ji Odyydnx ycfa xyj`` mai xcdvì of drf|fr mx mr mx J‚n hdahfrafi

ycf wdfy `mvrfmyf d Bfdrbjm; Wfmr` H`fmbf m wdfy mai ofxy.xf``jab ad|f`jxy;

mai Ofyyf Xf``frx m drnfr wdfy `mvrfmyf d Bfdrbjm! Jy mx m yfrrjh rfmi.

jab my m ofmvyjv` |favf! #Adyf5 Bfdrbjm Yfhc rfhfay`z odvbcy ycjx wrdw.

fryz’jy‚x rjbcy da ycf fmxyfra fibf d ycf Yfhc hmnwvx da Rfxy Wfmhcyrff

mai f‚rf bdjab yd cm|f m`` dvr rfmijabx ycfrf rdn ad da myfr xdnf rfx.

ydrmyjda drk ycjx xwrjab!*

J da‚y ifxhrjof f|frz rfmijab f‚|f idaf #ycdvbc J‚`` `jxy my ycf fai d ycjx cdf|fr cmx rfmi dr WdfyrzGYfhc mx f`` m`` ycf wrf|jdvx NhF|fr

\jxjyjab Hcmjr cdìfrx yd imyf*! Ycf wdjay d ifxhrjojab ycf rxy xf|frm` jx

ycjx5 `fy‚x yrz ijfrfay ycjabx w`mhfx xff j f hma bfy dvr da xyvifayx mai

wfdw`f rdn ycf hjyz yd hdnf! Yd `fy wfdw`f kad cd nmaz rxy.rmyf

wdfyx `j|f mai drk ja ycf My`maym mrfm ja Bfdrbjm ja bfafrm`! Yd nmkfx

rfmijabx mhhfxxjo`f’cf`` f|fa va-

@myfr ycmy xwrjab dvr ifma my ycf yjnf Xvf _dxxfr mxkfi nf j J‚i

mhhfwy ycf wfrnmafay wdxjyjda d ycf Odvraf Hcmjr! #Ycf NhF|fr \jxjyjab

Hcmjr mx ifxjbamyfi m daf xfnfxyfr m zfmr rdymyjab wdxjyjda!* Ycfz frf

rfmiz yd bfy ycmy bdjab ydd! Jy cmi af|fr dhhvrrfi yd nf yd `fm|f Xmrmc

@mrfahf cjhc J `d|f mai rdn cjhc nz imvbcyfr rfhfay`z brmivmyfi!

F|fayvm``z f drkfi dvy m mz J hdvì xyj`` yfmhc ja m njadr mz ja ycf

Xmrmc @mrfahf NLM wrdbrmn mai m`xd mhhfwy ycf wdxjyjda my Bfdrbjm

Yfhc! J fay omhk yd Xmrmc @mrfahf #cj`f J mx bdaf Xyfwcmajf Xyrjhk.

`mai cfì ycf NhF|fr Hcmjr* dr m zfmr yd v``` m hdayrmhyvm` mai fycjhm`do`jbmyjda! Ldr ycf fayjrf ?77= yd ?77? mhmifnjh zfmr Bjabfr Nvrhcjxda

#xyj`` ady nmkjab m ijnf mai jycdvy ma dhf dr mhhfxx yd m wcdaf hdn.

wvyfr fyh! my Yfhc* drkfi yd wrfwmrf ycjabx dr ycf af ofbjaajab d

WdfyrzGYfhc ja ycf m`` d ?77?!

Rf ifhjifi yd xymry jyc m omab! Faidnfay vaix cmi offa bmycfrjab

jayfrfxy ja ycf omak dr m f zfmrx mai rmak`z ycfa f frf wrfyyz lvxc!

Dvr rxy rfmijab dvì of @vhj``f H`jyda Oj``z Hd``jax Xyfwcfa Idozax

mai _jym Id|f! Mairf Zdvab m drnfr nmzdr d My`maym mai drnfr V!X!mnomxxmidr yd ycf Vajyfi Amyjdax mbrffi yd id ycf jayrdivhyjdax! Da

Dhydofr ?3 ?77? yf`|f cvairfi wfdw`f ``fi ycf Lfrxy Hfayfr dr ycf



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Mryx ycf `mrbfxy mnwcjycfmyfr da ycf Yfhc hmnwvx! M f cvairfi ndrf

wfdw`f f `fmrafi `myfr cmi offa yvrafi mrdvai oz frhf ycvaifrxydrnx

ja ycf mrfm! Rf‚|f af|fr cmi m rfmijab jyc ycmy nmaz wfdw`f xjahf’ycdvbc

Oj``z Hd``jax m`daf irf afmr`z daf ycdvxmai ja Mwrj` ?779!Rmzaf mai Maa H`dvbc ofhmnf jnwdrymay xvwwdryfrx d WdfyrzG

Yfhc cfa f xymryfi vw mbmja ja ?77?! Ja ?778 myfr m rfmijab oz Nmrz

Kmrr mai Bfrmì Xyfra J cfmri yd wfdw`f ofcjai nf xjabjab ycf Bfdrbjm

Yfhc bcy xdab5 ‐J‚n m rmno`jab rfhk rdn Bfdrbjm Yfhc! ! ! !„ J yvrafi

mrdvai yd xff Bfrrz Xyfra mai Rmzaf H`dvbc mrnx mrdvai fmhc dycfr‚x

xcdvìfrx xjabjab ‐mai m cf`` d ma fabjaffr! ! ! !„ Ycf H`dvbcx hmnf yd

rfmijabx cfaf|fr ycfz hdvì! Ycfz mai J mrf omxfom`` avyx mai f xdnf.

yjnfx rma jayd fmhc dycfr my Yfhc omxfom`` bmnfx! Daf yjnf ja wmryjhv`mr mx evxy myfr ycf yfrr jo`f yrmbfiz my \jrbjajm Yfhc #cfrf Ir! H`dvbc cmi

offa m wrdfxxdr mai m ifma; cf mx m`xd m rjfai d \jrbjajm‚x Yfhc‚x wrfxj.

ifay*! Mndab dycfr ycjabx daf d vx xmji ycfrf ovy dr dryvaf! F|frz hd`.

`fbf mai vaj|frxjyz minjajxyrmydr J ofy mx xmzjab dr ycjakjab ycf xmnf

ycjab’dr xcdvì cm|f offa! Madycfr yjnf my m Bfdrbjm Yfhc vahyjda Nrx!

H`dvbc mx d``djab m Yfhc omxfom`` bmnf da m O`mhkOfrrz dr xdnfycjab

#jy mx m ojb bmnf-* mai xjbam`jab ycf xhdrf yd nf mhrdxx m f ymo`fx cj`f

xdnfdaf }vjyf wdxxjo`z cfr cvxomai mx xwfmkjab my ycf wdijvn! Dahf

Ir! H`dvbc cdxyfi m bmycfrjab d Bfdrbjm hd``fbf mai vaj|frxjyz wrfxj.

ifayx wrd|dxyx fyh! Ldr m xwfmkfr cf ijia‚y may ma fivhmydr dr m xhjfayjxy

dr ma fabjaffr! Cf mayfi m wdfy5 Oj``z Hd``jax! Oj``z bm|f m orj``jmay rfmi.

jab! Da madycfr ajbcy Ir! mai Nrx! H`dvbc mai Oj``z mai J fay dvy yd

ijaafr! Ir! H`dvbc brmoofi ycf hcfhk! J rffrrfi yd cjn mx ycf ‐Wrfxjifay

Rcd @d|fi Wdfyrz!„

Rcz iji cf `d|f wdfyrz4 Nmzof ofhmvxf d ycf mz jy hma yrmaxdrn`j|fx! Jy iji yrmaxdrn `j|fx my Bfdrbjm Yfhc’ycf `j|fx d dvr mvijfahf

nfnofrx mai d dvr xyvifayx! J drkfi jyc daf ma vaifrbrmivmyf mfrd.

amvyjhm` fabjaffrjab xyvifay dhjm``z ja h`mxx mai cfa cf mx ad `dabfr

ja h`mxx! Ndxy Yfhc wfdw`f #jyc ycf fshfwyjda d ycf wczxjhx wfdw`f* j``

xmz ycmy mfrdamvyjhm` fabjaffrjab jx ycf cmrifxy nmedr! Rcfa cf mx ymkjab

am` fsmnx cjx xfajdr zfmr cf drf ma dì.mxcjdafi m`mrn h`dhk mrdvai

cjx afhk mai xfy jy yd bd d f|frz yffa njavyfx xd cf dvìa‚y m`` mx`ffw!

Ycjx wmryjhv`mr kji cmi m 8!:: BWM mai xf|frm` edo dfrx rjbcy dvy d Yfhcjah`vijab daf rdn AMXM! Cf hdvì cm|f m`kfi jayd m edo nmkjab modvy

m cvairfi brmai m zfmr! Rcmy iji cf may yd id4 Rrjyf wdfyrz! Cf xwdkf yd

cjx mycfr! Cjx mycfr xmji xdnfycjab `jkf ‐Zdv kad cmy xda4 J‚|f offa



Ycf Wdfn Jx m Orjibf p =?=

idjab xdnfycjab dr ycf wmxy yfayz.|f zfmrx ycmy J ida‚y rfm``z `jkf ycmy

nvhc xd bd dr ycf wdfyrz ycjab-„ Ycf kji ajxcfi cjx NLM my VAH

Brffaxodrd! Ordkf mx m zdvab wdfy xcdvì of cf‚x xyj`` ja Brffaxodrd rjy.

jab wdfnx mai drkjab dr cjx `mai`dri yd hd|fr cjx rfay!Madycfr vaifrbrmivmyf xyvifay m zdvab Jaijma dnma m ojd`dbz

nmedr mai orj``jmay jyc madycfr brfmy BWM ifhjifi yd bj|f vw cfr wmrfayx‚

irfmn mai cfr da ycmy xcf ofhdnf m idhydr! Zdv bvfxxfi jy; xcf cmi

ifhjifi yd of m wdfy! J ida‚y ycjak cfr wmrfayx frf fhxymyjh modvy ycjx ifhj.

xjda! J mn ady f|fa hfrymja jy‚x cmy Bfdrbjm Yfhc cmx ja njai dr jyx xyv.

ifayx! Ovy xcf bdy ma NLM ja wdfyrz my Xmrmc @mrfahf Hd``fbf mai jx ad

omhk ja Bfdrbjm rjyjab mai yfmhcjab rjyjab mai `jyfrmyvrf ja ycf vaj|fr.

xjyz xzxyfn! Xcf jx cmwwz idjab cmy xcf mayx yd id!

Daf d ycf `mxy yjnfx J xm Ir! H`dvbc mx myfr m rfmijab m f zfmrx

mbd! Cf hmnf vw yd nf mai xmji ‐Zdv bvzx bdy nf nz af edo!„ Cf cmi

rfhfay`z offa mwwdjayfi xfhrfymrz d ycf Xnjycxdajma Jaxyjyvyjda! Oz ‐zdv

bvzx„ cf nfmay WdfyrzGYfhc! Cf xmji ‐Ycfz mxkfi nf cmy J kaf modvy

ycf cvnmajyjfx mai J xmji –Rf`` J xymryfi ycjx wdfyrz wrdbrmn my Bfdrbjm

Yfhc‚ mai ycfz cjrfi nf-„ Cf mx ofjab kjai d hdvrxf! Ycfz cjrfi cjnofhmvxf ycfz kaf cf hdvì bfy ycf Xnjycxdajma ycf ndxy jnwdrymay

rfwdxjydrz d Mnfrjhma hv`yvrf mai cjxydrz omhk da yrmhk! Wfdw`f my Yfhc

kaf cf mx `fm|jab! Cf‚i offa m brfmy wrfxjifay my Yfhc dr ycjryffa zfmrx!

Cf mx rfmiz dr madycfr hcm``fabf! J bfy yd xmz jy rjbcy cfrf ja wrjay

cfycfr zdv f|fr rfmi jy dr ady5 Rmzaf mai Maaf H`dvbc f njxx zdv

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rfbmrijab Ir! mai Nrx! H`dvbc J mxxvnf jx do|jdvx5 j ycf wdfyrz wrdefhy

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m w`mhf cfrf m vaj|frxjyz.omxfi wdfyrz wrdbrmn jyc ma dvyrfmhc f`f.

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brmn mx Bfrmì Xyfra mai Nmrz Kmrr* w`mzjab m cmainmif #oz Kvryjx* kdrm

m Rfxy Mrjhma xyrjabfi jaxyrvnfay mai rfhjyjab cjx wdfnx!

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dvr rfmijabx da ZdvYvof #dr Yvof Lmhf dr xdnfycjab `jkf ycmy*! Xdnf rfmi.

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frf ifyfrnjafi yd cdadr ycfjr bfafrdxjyz oz xcmrjab jy jyc Yfhc xyvifayx

mai maz nfnofrx d ycf `mrbfr My`maym hdnnvajyz cd mayfi yd ymkf wmry!

M`` kjaix d wdfyx mai wdfyrz rddn dr m`` kjaix d wdfyx mai wdfyrz!

Oz ad ‐f„ jah`vifx hrvhjm``z Kfa Kadfxwf` m xfajdr nfnofr d dvr

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hd``fbf! Ycf xwfhjh ifwmrynfay jx hm``fi @HH5 `jyfrmyvrf hdnnvajhmyjda

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ifbrff mai jy jx ycf mxyfi brdjab nmedr my Yfhc!

X`jbcy`z wmrmwcrmxjab Ycfdidrf _dfyckf mai mx J jnw`jfi fmr`jfr ‐Rf

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my Yfhc bj|fx m rfmijab yfmhcfx m hdnnvajyz h`mxx bdfx yd m njii`f xhcdd`

dr cjbc xhcdd` yd |jxjy h`mxxfx mai rfmi!

Jy hrfmyfx m hdvrxf `jkf ad dycfr ja maz dycfr vaj|frxjyz J kad d5 m

hdvrxf ymvbcy oz ycrff dr dvr wdfyx’drkjab jif`z wvo`jxcfi zdvabfr

dìfr ycf cd`f rmabf d jah`vxjda! Rf ymkf m |jxjyjab wrdfxxdr yd ycf h`mxx.rddn mai jayrdivhf cjn dr cfr! Ycf wdfy idfx mx xcf dr cf j`` jyc ycf

h`mxx dr ycf m``dyyfi rfxjifahz! Jy‚x daf d ycf cdyyfxy hdvrxfx da hmnwvx! J

yfmhc yd hdvrxfx m yfrn my Yfhc5 m `mrbfr wdfyrz rfmijab h`mxx mai m xnm``

wdfyrz rjyjab h`mxx! J m`xd yfmhc m hdnnvajyz h`mxx mai |jxjy xhcdd`x _dymrz

h`vox wdfyrz xdhjfyjfx fyh! mrdvai My`maym! J m brdvw bj|fx nf xvwwfr J xjab

modvy WdfyrzGYfhc!

Dvr hrjxjx4 Modvy ycrff mai m cm` zfmrx mbd Bjabfr Nvrhcjxda xyfwwfi

ida mx mxxdhjmyf ijrfhydr d WdfyrzGYfhc mai xjahf cmx bdyyfa cfr NLM

ifbrff ja wdfyrz rdn ycf Rmrrfa Rj`xda Hd``fbf NLM Wrdbrmn dr Rrjy.

frx! Xcf‚x offa wvo`jxcjab ja nmbmujafx bj|jab rfmijabx yfmhcjab h`mxxfx

#jah`vijab ycjx yfrn ma fjbcy.ffk hdnnvajyz h`mxx dr WdfyrzGYfhc*

mai xyj`` cf`wjab dvy my ycf dhf! Xcf wvo`jxcfi cfr rxy hcmwoddk! Xcf

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nmbmujaf! #Adyf5 Rf m`xd cm|f ma dabdjab h`mxx ycjx zfmr ofjab ymvbcy my ma

My`maym rfyjrfnfay cdnf oz m rfhfay Yfhc brmivmyf mai bjyfi zdvab wdfyXcma If`bmid!*

_fnfnofr5 jy dvìa‚y cm|f cmwwfafi cmri`z maz d jy jycdvy Bja.

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`jkf dvrx maz `jyfrmrz nmbmujaf xnm`` wrfxx rfmijab xfrjfx affix my `fmxy daf

wfrxda xnmry fadvbc mai ifijhmyfi fadvbc cd d|fx wdfyrz xd nvhc ycmy

cf dr xcf j`` id cmyf|fr jx wdxxjo`f yd xfr|f ycf mry drn! Bjabfr Nvrhcj.

xda mx ycmy wfrxda dr WdfyrzGYfhc! #Jy‚x m hcmrmhyfr lm d njaf5 J

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ycfrfd dr hfrymja ycjabx! #J hma ycjak rfm` cmri modvy ycjabx J may yd

ycjak cmri modvy!* J ycdvbcy ycmy jycdvy Bjabfr Nvrhcjxda WdfyrzG

Yfhc dvì of xhrffi!

Ad mz hdvì Bjabfr of rfw`mhfi! Ovy WdfyrzGYfhc bdy `vhkz mbmja!

Rf cjrfi Yrm|jx Ifayda cdn J‚i bdyyfa yd kad ja My`maym! Cf‚x m ym`fayfi

zdvab wdfy cd evxy wvo jxcfi cjx rxy oddk `d|fx wdfyrz iffw`z mai jx

xvwfr hdnwfyfay! Cf‚x ad ycf mxxdhjmyf ijrfhydr d WdfyrzGYfhc mai dr

ycf wmxy f zfmrx cmx xfr|fi m xyjay mx daf d ycf NhF|fr Hcmjr cdìfrx! Bja.

bfr j`` cdì ycf Hcmjr ja ?7==! Ycfz‚|f odyc idaf m xw`faiji edo!

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odyc Bjabfr mai Yrm|jx mrf orj``jmay my nmkjab ifm`x da ycjabx xvhc mx hmyfr.

jab wrjayjab wcdydx |jifdx cdyf`x yrm|f` fyh! Ja ycfxf yjnfx d yjbcy ovi.

bfyx xm|jab m cvairfi ycfrf yz cfrf nfmax m `jyy`f ndrf jbb`f rddn da

cd nmaz wdfyx f hma orjab yd rfmi mai$dr yfmhc mai cd nvhc f hma

wmz ycfn! Rjyc ycf hvrrfay rfhfxxjda dvr faidnfay ndajfx `jkf f|frz.

daf‚x yddk m xfrjdvx kjhk ja ycf mxx! @jkf ndxy cd xvr|j|fi f mrf bdjab

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d ycf Odvraf mai NhF|fr wrdhffix bd ydmri orjabjab wdfyx yd rfmi mai

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dri oz ycf mz* ycmy ird|f ycf wrdefhy mai cz ycf wrdefhy mx affifi ja

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jifmx jadrnmyjda mry mai dycfr mxwfhyx d hv`yvrf mndab amyjdax mai

ycfjr wfdw`f ja drifr yd dxyfr nvyvm` vaifrxymaijab!„ Hv`yvrm` ijw`d.nmhz m``x vaifr ycf rvorjh d wvo`jh ijw`dnmhz cjhc jx xdnfyjnfx if.

xhrjofi mx ycf mry d jaajab cfmryx mai njaix! Xjahf :$== ycfxf drnx

d cmy ycf wd`jyjhm` ycfdrjxy Edxfwc Azf hm``x ‐xdy wdfr„ #ja hdayrmxy

yd ycf fsfrhjxf d cmri’nj`jymrz mai fhdadnjh’wdfr* cm|f bfafrmyfi

hdaxjifrmo`f ifomyf ja drfjba wd`jhz hjrh`fx! Ycf Vaj|frxjyz d Jdm‚x

Jayframyjdam` Rrjyjab Wrdbrmn #JRW* cmx w`mzfi m rd`f ja ycfxf ifomyfx

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jyc mr.rfmhcjab hv`yvrm` wd`jyjhm` mai xwjrjyvm` jnw`jhmyjdax!

Ijm`dbvf ifwfaix vwda `jxyfajab mai `jxyfajab jx fxxfayjm` ady da`z yd

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rfxwdaifahfx ycmy nmz rfxdamyf ady da`z dr ycf wdfy ovy dr ycf rfmifr mx

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drbmajujab wrjahjw`f d ycf JRW cfrf f hdaafhy rjyfrx yd dycfr rjy.

frx xyvifayx mai xhcd`mrx yrmax`mydrx mai fijydrx! Ivrjab ycf Hdì Rmr ycf

JRW mx m nffyjab w`mhf dr rjyfrx rdn ycf Xd|jfy O`dh! Hcjafxf rjyfrxxymryfi hdnjab xdda myfr ycf Hv`yvrm` _f|d`vyjda faifi mai myfr :$==

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m amrrmyj|f avrxfrz!

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f cdì ja hdnnda evxyjhf cdnf mai ycf hjyz mai drbmajufi ydvrx d

Mnfrjhma rjyfrx yd Xzrjm Edrima Jxrmf` mai ycf Rfxy Omak Yvrkfz Hzwrvx

Dnma Xmvij Mrmojm Yvajxjm mai Kfazm! Ja ycf `mxy f |jxjyfi m Xdnm`j rf.

vbff hmnw cfrf ycf jnwdrymahf d hdaafhyjab d hv`yj|myjab ofyyfr rf`m.

yjdax ofyffa daf wfdw`f mai madycfr hmaady of vaifrfxyjnmyfi!

Ad daf f|fr ijfx ja Imimmo cvnmajymrjmax xmz my fmxy ady ja ycf Xdnm`jrfvbff hmnw cjhc jx ycf `mrbfxy ja ycf drì! Cfrf m ddi rmyjda hmri jx m

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mnj`z d ycf ifmi rfwrfxfayjab dr xdnf ycf ijfrfahf ofyffa `jf mai

ifmyc! Ycf rfvbffx xvoxjxy da mji wrd|jifi oz ycf jayframyjdam` hdnnvajyz

cjhc yrmax`myfx jayd ?=77 hm`drjfx m imz w`vx hddkjab dj` mai xdmw!

Cfrf jx madycfr yrvyc5 m`ndxy ad daf f|fr `fm|fx Imimmo!

Ycf hmnw cjhc jx mhyvm``z ycrff hmnwx #Imbmcm`fz Cmbmifrm mai Jd*

hdaxyrvhyfi ja adrycfra Kfazm afmr ycf odrifr jyc Xdnm`jm mx ifxjbafiyd yfnwdrmrj`z cdvxf ajafyz ycdvxmai nfa dnfa mai hcjìrfa lffjab

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yrm|f`fi dr ffkx oz ovx mai hmr da ddy mai hmnfòmhk ja xfmrjab cfmy

mai ycf rfi ivxy ycmy hd|frx f|frzycjab ja ycf omi`maix adryc d Imimmo!

Ycf odrifr cmx offa h`dxfi xjahf fmr`z ?772 ovy ja ycf rxy cm` d ?77:ndrf ycma |f ycdvxmai af rfvbffx mrrj|fi f|frz ndayc yd `j|f ja yfayx

mai faivrf hcrdajh xcdrymbfx d rvaajab myfr f`fhyrjhjyz mai ydj`fyx! Fmhc

ndayc xf|fa cvairfi omojfx mrf odra ja ycf hmnw mai ycdvxmaix d yffa.

mbfrx cm|f xwfay ycfjr j|fx ja cmy daf mji drkfr hm``fi m fahf`fxx wrjxda!

Ycf Kfazma bd|franfay idfx ady m``d rfvbffx yd nd|f modvy ycf hdva.

yrz! Ycvx ycfrf jx adcfrf yd bd mai adycjab yd id; jyc vafnw`dznfay

rvaajab my 37 wfrhfay wmrfayx fmr ycfjr hcjìrfa j`` rfyvra yd m cdnf`mai

ycfz cm|f af|fr xffa yd bcy m mr ycmy bdfx da mai da!Jy jx ycf drbdyyfa mr! Ad idvoy ycf `mxyjab jnmbf d Xdnm`jm dr nmaz

Mnfrjhmax hdnfx rdn ycf =::8 Omyy`f d Ndbmijxcv m mj`fi dwfrmyjda yd

rddy dvy m wdfrv` mr`dri ycmy hdxy ycf `j|fx d cvairfix d Xdnm`j nj`j.

yjmnfa mai hj|j`jmax mai fjbcyffa Mnfrjhma xdìjfrx! Jy mx m nj`jymrz mai

wd`jyjhm` mxhd dr ycf H`jayda minjajxyrmyjda rfhdvayfi ja Nmrk Odifa‚x

ofxy.xf``jab O`mhk Cmk Ida mai `myfr ordvbcy yd ycf xhrffa oz _ji`fz

Xhdyy! Ycf hdaljhy wrdnwyfi ycf Rcjyf Cdvxf yd jycirm yrddwx rdn

Xdnm`jm mai nmif jy rf`vhymay yd fnw`dz drhf yd xym|f d cvnmajymrjma

hmymxyrdwcfx ja Odxajm mai _maim! M ijxmxyfr.rf`jf xwfhjm`jxy ja|d`|fi ja

ycf w`maajab dr nj`jymrz mhyjda ja Odxajm mai Xdnm`jm ydì nf ycmy jy mx

wdxxjo`f yd nmkf m ijfrfahf ja Odxajm ady Xdnm`jm; myfr ycf Omyy`f d

Ndbmijxcv Mnfrjhmax `mrbf`z drbdy modvy Xdnm`jm!

Cdf|fr madycfr jnmbf d ycf mr.ydra hdvayrz cmi drnfi oz ycf

yjnf f mrrj|fi ja Evaf ?77:; Xdnm`j wjrmyfx frf xfjujab xcjwx ja ycf Bv`

d Mifa wrdnjafay`z ycf Nmfrxk M`momnm ma Mnfrjhma hdaymjafr xcjw hmr.rzjab |f ycdvxmai nfyrjh ydax d xvww`jfx dr rfvbff hmnwx ja Kfazm

Vbmaim mai ycf Ifndhrmyjh _fwvo`jh d ycf Hdabd! Ycf wjrmyfx cfì ycf

hmwymja cdxymbf ja m hd|frfi `jfodmy xfyyjab ycf xymbf dr m irmnm da ycf

cjbc xfmx! Imzx wmxxfi mx ma Mnfrjhma mrxcjw xmj`fi jayd ycf Bv` mai yf`f.

|jxjda hrfx hmnwfi dvyxjif ycf hmwymja‚x cdvxf ja \frnday! Rcfa Am|z

XFM@x xcdy ycrff d ycf wjrmyfx mai rffi ycf hmwymja ycfrf mx ycf xdry d

evoj`myjda ja Mnfrjhm ycmy ja fmr`jfr mbfx njbcy cm|f myyfaifi ycf ifmyc d

O`mhkofmri dr Hmwymja Kjii! Ja Imimmo cfrf rmyjdax cmi yd of rfivhfioz |f cvairfi hm`drjfx m imz m rf`jf drkfr wv``fi mxjif m `dhm` `fmifr!

‐Zdv kad zdvr ordycfrx mrf idjab ycjx yd zdv ida‚y zdv4„ cf xmji! Ycf

rfvbff xnj`fi xcrvbbfi cjx xcdvìfrx ``fi cjx hma|mx xmhk jyc brmja!



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Rcmy cmwwfax cfa mi cdh mrrmabfnfayx ymkf da ycf wmyjam d wfrnm.

afahf4 Ycjx jx m }vfxyjda ycmy nz hd``fmbvfx mai J hdardayfi ja Imimmo!

Ycf fxxmzjxy mai yrmax`mydr F`jdy Rfjaofrbfr ycf wdfy mai ad|f`jxy Yfrfxf

X|dodim mai ycf wdfy Ydn X`fjbc edjafi nf dr cmy m Xymyf Ifwmrynfaydhjm` cmi ifxhrjofi mx m x`jbcy`z maymxyjh #mai wfrcmwx imabfrdvx* hv`yvrm`

ijw`dnmhz njxxjda5 yd hdaivhy hrfmyj|f rjyjab drkxcdwx dr xfhdaimrz

xhcdd` xyvifayx ja ycf rfvbff hmnw! Xd daf xvnnfr ndrajab f nfy ma

Mnfrjhma ijw`dnmy my m xnm`` idnfxyjh mjrwdry ja Amjrdoj yd odmri m yvrod.

wrdw fmxfi yd ycf Vajyfi Amyjdax dr ycf cdvr.`dab ljbcy adryc! Ycf w`maf

`maifi da ma mjrxyrjw cfrf m wrfxx dhfr rdn ycf V!A! Cjbc Hdnnjx.

xjdafr dr _fvbffx #VACH_* brffyfi vx mai f h`jnofi jayd cjyf

XV\x dr ycf irj|f ycrdvbc ycf ijabz yda d Imimmo vw mai ida iffwijwx ja ycf xmaiz rdmi! Nfa xmy da yrvhk yjrfx cm`.ovrjfi ja ycf ijry dvyxjif

fmhc xcdw’hrfxhfayx ifnmrhmyjab ovxjafxxfx ycmy cmi xwrvab vw yd xfr|f

ycf Ada.Bd|franfaym` Drbmajumyjda #ABD* hdnnvajyz! Amj`fi yd m yja

xcmhk mx m xjba5 Ombcimi Fayfrwrjxfx! Ycfrf frf cmai.`fyyfrfi xjbax dr

cdyf`x cjhc dfrfi ddi ady cdvxjab! Mai f `fmrafi ycmy ycf VACH_

mx afbdyjmyjab jyc ycf `dhm` hdnnvajyz nmif vw `mrbf`z d bdmy mai

hmnf` cfrifrx yd `fmxf `mai dr m dvryc hmnw! Ycf ijxhvxxjdax frf ady

bdjab f`` ycdvbc; zfmrx d irdvbcy cjhc cmi cmxyfafi ycf Xdnm`j fsd.

ivx cmi orfi rfxfaynfay mndab Kfazmax cd fa|jfi ycf jayframyjdam`

`mrbfxxf ofxydfi vwda ycf rfvbffx! Ycfz mayfi rmyjda hmrix ydd!

Ycf xva mx o`mujab cfa f `fi jayd ycf nfxx cm`` my ycf VACH_

hdnwdvai dr dvr xfhvrjyz orjfab! Ma Jrjxcdnma af`z mrrj|fi rdn m

xyjay jyc ycf rf`jf mbfahz ja Mbcmajxyma xwf``fi dvy xdnf d ycf cmumrix

cfr xym mai |jxjydrx mhfi’ma mji drkfr cmi offa xcdy ady `dab ofdrf

mai ycfrf frf m`mzx rfi xwjyyjab hdormx mai xhdrwjdax yd drrz modvy!Xcf ycfa fsw`mjafi ycmy yfaxjdax frf rvaajab cjbc ja mayjhjwmyjda d ycf

jnwfaijab |frjhmyjda wrdhfxx m VACH_ hfaxvx ja cjhc =7 yd =6 wfr.

hfay d ycf rfvbffx dvì `jkf`z `dxf ycfjr jifayjyz hmrix hdxyjab nmaz

mnj`jfx ycfjr fsyrm rmyjda hmrix! Ldr rfhrfmyjda f hdvì vxf ycf bznam.

xjvn dr ycf yfaajx hdvry dr rva da ycf wmyc hjrh`jab ycf wfrjnfyfr d ycf

hdnwdvai! Ycf wrfxx dhfr mi|jxfi vx yd ymkf lmxc`jbcyx yd ycf omr va`fxx

f mayfi yd xyfw da m xamkf!

J daifrfi cd ja ycf drì f frf bdjab yd xcmrf dvr fswfrjfahfxd rjyjab mai ycf hrfmyj|f wrdhfxx’ycf `jf d ijxhd|frz mx ycf wdfy Orf.

xyfr Bcjxf`ja hm``fi jy ja cjx xznwdxjvn Ycf Hrfmyj|f Wrdhfxx cjhc cmx xdì

ndrf ycma cm` m nj``jda hdwjfx xjahf jyx wvo`jhmyjda ja =:6?! ‐Xjnw`z ycf



Ycf Ycrff Bdmy Xydrz p =88

xf`.jayfrfxy d nmakjai hm``x dr m ndrf bfafrm` fdry yd dxyfr ycf ja|fa.

yjda d `jf„ Bcjxf`ja mrbvfx ja ma jayrdivhyjda xzaycfxjujab jifmx rdn m

rmabf d ycjakfrx! ‐Mai ycmy fdry hma of bvjifi jayf``jbfay`z da`z oz

jaxjbcy jayd ycf amyvrf d ycf hrfmyj|f wrdhfxx!„Ycvx cf bmycfrfi ydbfycfr rjyjabx rdn wdfyx mai rjyfrx nmycfnm.

yjhjmax mai xhjfayjxyx hdnwdxfrx mai mryjxyx cjhc ja ycfjr ydym`jyz xvbbfxy

ycmy m hdnnda xfy d wrjahjw`fx mww`jfx yd f|frz ijxhjw`jaf5 ycf jnwdrymahf

d wrfwmrmyjda’ycmy jx nmxyfrjab xkj``x mai yfhcaj}vfx mh}vjrjab m odiz d

kad`fibf `fmrajab cd yd yrmax`myf fswfrjfahf jayd jxidn’mai ycf

afhfxxjyz d rfnmjajab dwfa yd ijfrfay mwwrdmhcfx mai mzx d vaifr.

xymaijab! Cd yd b`jnwxf cmy nmz `jf da ycf wfrjwcfrz d |jxjda cfrf

cfrfyddrf vajnmbjafi hdaafhyjdax nmz of nmif4 Ycmy jx ycf ymxk d mryjxymai xhjfayjxy m`jkf! ‐Ycfrf jx m rjbcy wczxjhm` xjuf dr f|frz jifm„ ycf xhv`w.

ydr Cfarz Nddrf rfwdryfi mai ycjx cdìx bvrmyj|f`z xwfmkjab dr f|frz

ijxhjw`jaf! J ycfrf jx maz yrvyc yd ycf jifm ycmy ycf hv`yj|myjda d hrfmyj|jyz

‐ycf ja|fayjda d `jf„ jx hrvhjm` yd dvr hd``fhyj|f vyvrf ycfrf mx ad ofy.

yfr w`mhf yd fsw`drf ycjx ycma ja dvr nffyjabx jyc xyvifayx yrmwwfi ja m

w`mhf `mhkjab evxy modvy f|frzycjab ycmy njbcy nmkf `jf ofmrmo`f! Rf myf

`vahc rfyvrafi yd dvr rddnx yd xfy vw ndx}vjyd yfayx mai ycfa ird|f d

yd dvr rxy drkxcdw!

Ycf jxxvf xmji ycf ijw`dnmy da ycf mz yd Cmbmifrm mx ycmy m`.Xcm.

ommo ma fsyrfnjxy Jx`mnjxy brdvw of`jf|fi yd of m`jmyfi jyc m`.]mfim

mx dfrjab zdvab nfa ja ycf hmnw |f id``mrx m imz mai m Km`mxcajkd| yd

edja ycfjr hdvayrznfa mai m xnm`` omai d drfjba yfrrdrjxyx #xdnf d cdn

cmi cdafi ycfjr bcyjab xkj``x da ycf omyy`ffìx d Jrm} mai Mbcmajxyma* ja

ma myyfnwy yd d|frycrd ycf bd|franfay ja Ndbmijxcv cjhc ycf jayfram.

yjdam` hdnnvajyz cmi bdaf yd brfmy wmjax yd fxymo`jxc ycf wrf|jdvx mvyvna!Xdnf Xdnm`j Mnfrjhmax cmi cffifi ycf hm`` yd ymkf vw mrnx mai daf cmi

evxy offa kj``fi afmr ycf hmwjym`! Ycf ijw`dnmy cmi xffa m brdvw d Xdnm`j

Mnfrjhmax orffuf ycrdvbc jnnjbrmyjda my ycf mjrwdry ja Amjrdoj! Cf fmrfi

ycmy ycfz frf cfmijab adryc!

Rf mrrj|fi my ycf hdnnvajyz `jormrz ma dhymbdam` ovjìjab jyc m yja

rdd mai yddk dvr w`mhfx my dì ddifa ymo`fx; ymwfi yd daf m`` mx m

VACH_ wdxyfr ycmy rfmi YDBFYCF_ mai afsy yd jy mx m Nmhnj``ma

nmw d ycf drì ycf ydw cm` d cjhc mx njxxjab! Ycfrf mx m xhmyyfrjabd oddkx da ycf xcf`|fx; cmy `jbcy ycfrf mx `yfrfi ycrdvbc ycf dwfa

jaidx! Ycf zdvab nfa ja o`vf xcjryx mai o`mhk dr cjyf yrdvxfrx xmy da

daf xjif ycf zdvab dnfa ja o`vf dr rfi cjemox da ycf dycfr mai M`j m



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Kfazma Xdnm`j yrmax`myfi dr vx dvr Fab`jxc mhhfayx ofjab nvyvm``z jahdn.

wrfcfaxjo`f! Ycf =::8 rjdyx ja Amjrdoj cmi hvrymj`fi M`j‚x xyvijfx imxcjab

cjx irfmn d ofhdnjab m edvram`jxy mai mx ycf xyvifayx jayrdivhfi ycfn.

xf`|fx J daifrfi cmy cf nmif d ycfjr brmai mnojyjdax! ‐J may yd ofwrjnf njajxyfr„ xmji daf bjr`! ‐J may yd of m wj`dy„ xmji madycfr! ‐J may yd

of m cfmry xvrbfda„ xmji m ycjri!

‐Yd of m rjyfr„ xmji Ydn ‐m`` zdv affi jx m wfahj` mai m wjfhf d wmwfr!„

Ycfa f cmaifi dvy wfahj`x adyfoddkx mai `d``jwdwx’Ydn xmji ycmy

cf `jkfi yd xvhk da xdnfycjab xffy cfa cf mx drkjab’mai ycf xyv.

ifayx ofbma yd rjyf!

Jy yvrafi dvy ycmy ycf fsfrhjxf f cmi mxxjbafi ycfn mx ydd hdnw`j.

hmyfi mai ja dvr fmbfrafxx yd nmkf jy drk f ycrf dvy daf jifm myfr

madycfr cjhc miifi yd ycf hdavxjda! Jy mx m daifr ycmy ycf xyvifayx

hmnf vw jyc mazycjab my m``! Ovy mx ycfz rfmi ycfjr xydrjfx m`dvi f frf

xyrvhk oz ycf xdwcjxyjhmyjda d ycfjr rjyjab m`` xvodrijamyf h`mvxfx mai

hdnwdvai xyrvhyvrfx mai ycfa oz ycf rf|f`myjda rdn daf xyvifay ycmy

fmhc hmnw cmi jyx da rjyjab h`vo ycf fayrmahf rf}vjrfnfayx dr cjhc

frf }vjyf xyrjabfay5 mww`jhmayx cmi yd yvra ja xydrjfx da m |mrjfyz d xvo.

efhyx’`dhm` mai jayframyjdam` afx xwdryx hv`yvrf’cjhc frf evibfi oz

cmy xdvaifi `jkf cjbc xymaimrix! Myfr ycf drkxcdw da dvr irj|f omhk ydycf VACH_ hdnwdvai ycfrf mx xdnf yfaxjda ja ycf XV\’f mayfi

yd xvhhffi f kaf f cmi ady’cjhc iji ady ofbja yd ijxxjwmyf vayj`

f yrjfi yd if|jxf m af fsfrhjxf dr ycf afsy drkxcdw!

‐@fy‚x cm|f ycfn rjyf m ycrff.bdmy xydrz„ xmji Yfrfxf!

‐Rcmy‚x ycmy4„ xmji Ydn!

‐Rf‚`` ai dvy cfa f bfy yd Imbmcm`fz„ xcf rfw`jfi!

Mai xd f iji! Cfr jaxyrvhyjdax yd ycf xyvifayx cd wmxxfi ycrdvbc

ycf omrofi jrf bmyf yd nffy vx ja m omrf hjaifr o`dhk ovjìjab frf da.ifrv``z xjnw`f5 wvy ycrff bdmyx jayd m wmbf d wrdxf dr |frxf! Ycf rfxv`yx

frf dyfa nd|jab! Cfrf jx cmy Moij Kmimr rdyf5

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Ycf Ycrff Bdmyx

Dahf vwda m yjnf ycfrf frf ycrff bdmyx! Ycf ycrff bdmyx frf

hm``fi O`mhkz Cdraz mai Xcdvyz! Ycfz `j|fi ja ycf drfxy cfrfnmaz wrfimydrx `jkf ycf czfam ycf `jda mai ycf `fdwmri fsjxyfi ja

m `mrbfr wdwv`myjda!

Ycf ycrff x`fwy ydbfycfr brmufi ydbfycfr mai cf`wfi fmhc

dycfr ja yfrnx d cmrixcjwx!

Jy mx ady `dab cfa daf d ycfjr fafnjfx Czfam ifhjifi yd

fmy ycf ycrff bdmyx! Ja mhy jy mx ijhv`y dr ycf czfam yd fmy ycf

ycrff bdmyx ofhmvxf ycfz frf m`mzx ydbfycfr! Czfam ycdvbcy dr

imz mai ajbcy ovy cf hdvì ady bfy m mz d fmyjab ycf bdmyx!Daf imz Czfam fay yd cjx rjfai Cmrf yd ijxhvxx ycf jxxvf

d fmyjab ycf bdmyx! Cmrf cd cmi m hcmrmhyfr yrmjy d yrjhkfrz mai

jxidn xvbbfxyfi yd cjx rjfai ycmy cf dvì orjab ydajbcy Xcdvyz

m`daf xd ycmy Czfam hma fmy cfr m`daf mai ycf afsy ajbcy O`mhkz xd

ycmy ycf orm|f Cdraz j`` rfnmja m`daf!

Cmrf fay yd ycf ycrff bdmyx mai nmif bddi rjfaix jyc ycfn!

Cf ydì Cdraz ycmy Czfam mx bdjab yd fmy cjn ydajbcy mai zdv

hma‚y cjif mmz rdn cjn va`fxx zdv hcmxf Xcdvyz mmz ofhmvxf

xcf j` ` xcdvy mai cf`w Czfam yd fmxj`z ijxhd|fr zdvr cjijab w`mhf!

Cdraz jycdvy ycjakjab xymryfi hcmxjab Xcdvyz! Xjahf xcf mx

mrmji d Cdraz xcf fay mmz! Oz ajbcym`` Czfam hmnf mai myf

Xcdvyz! Ycf afsy imz Cmrf fay yd O`mhkz mai ydì cfr ycmy `mxy

ajbcy Czfam myf ycfjr rjfai Xcdvyz mai ydajbcy cf jx bdjab yd fmy

Cdraz mai j cf aix zdv jyc cjn cf j`` m`xd fmy zdv! O`mhkz

ycdvbcy dr m cj`f mai ifhjifi yd `fm|f Cdraz m`daf!Mbmja Czfam hmnf mai myf O`mhkz myfr aijab cfr m`daf ja

ycf drfxy d``dfi oz Cdraz ycf afsy ajbcy!

Nz xydrz faix ycfrf!

‐Ad wmryz jx hdnw`fyf jycdvy m bdmy„ jx cmy ycf VACH_ Y.xcjry

xmzx xd daf ajbcy my ma Fycjdwjma rfxymvrmay rva oz m rfvbff f myf bdmy!

Ycf hda|frxmyjda yvrafi yd wjrmhz’m xyvifay cmi xfay Yfrfxf m wdfn wrmjx.

jab ycf wjrmyfx’mai jy dhhvrrfi yd nf ycmy J kaf afsy yd adycjab modvyycf xyvifayx fshfwy ycmy dr m`` jayfayx mai wvrwdxfx ycfz cmi ad wrdxwfhyx!

Ycf hcmahfx d rfxfyy`jab mordmi frf x`jn’da`z yffa cvairfi rfvbffx






ycrff dr dvr `mabvmbfx!* Rf xnj`fi f ydì edkfx #cjhc `dxy xdnfycjab ja

yrmax`myjda* f jxyfafi5 cdwf mbmjaxy cdwf! Rf frf fsw`drjab ydbfycfr ycf

hdaydvrx d ycf `jf d ijxhd|frz!

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Ycf `jaf dvyxjif ycf hmnwx‚ rfbjxyrmyjda yfay xyrfyhcfi mx mr mx ycf fzf

hdvì xff’jaij|jivm`x mai mnj`jfx mrrj|jab rdn ycfjr mr.ydra hdvayrz

cvabrz ycjrxyz fscmvxyfi xdnfyjnfx xjhk dyfa xhmrfi! Hcjìrfa xmy da

ycfjr ndycfr‚x `mwx mjyjab yd of |mhhjamyfi yd cm|f ycfjr fzfx xmoofi

jyc nfijhjaf! Mai ycfa madycfr `jaf jayd m ovjìjab cfrf ycfrf mx

wmwfrdrk yd of ``fi dvy mai }vfxyjdax yd maxfr! _f`jbjda! Amyjdam`jyz!@mabvmbfx! Rcmy mrf zdvr nmja affix4 Rcmy iji zdv fahdvayfr m`dab ycf

mz4 Rcmy nmif zdv lff zdvr hdvayrz4 W`fmxf yjhk mx mwwrdwrjmyf5

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Bfafrm` Jaxfhvrjyz

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Dycfr rfmxdax jah`vifi nfnofrxcjw ja m nj`jyjm! Ycfxf nfa frf jayfr.

|jffi xfwmrmyf`z rdn ycf rfxy d ycf wdwv`myjda! Xdnf cm|f m `dy d o`ddi

da ycfjr cmaix xmji m rf`jf drkfr’cjhc wvy jayd wfrxwfhyj|f ycf `dbjxyj.

hm` ijhv`yjfx ycmy f mhfi ja hdaivhyjab rjyjab drkxcdwx!Ljrxy f affifi wfrnjxxjda rdn ycf VACH_ yd drk ja ycf hmnwx

lz da jyx w`mafx xymz ja jyx hdnwdvai mai vxf jyx xfhvrjyz ifymj`! Ycfa f

cmi yd bmvbf ycf rjxk d drkjab ja m |d`myj`f fa|jrdanfay jyc jamif}vmyf

hdnnvajhmyjdax mai m `mhk d xvww`jfx’oddkx wmwfr wfahj`x’ycmy

of`dabfi yd ma d|frm`` wjhyvrf d ifmryc5 ycf hmnwx frf xcdry dryz ycdv.

xmai `myrjafx mai ycfrf frf ady fadvbc idhydrx nfijhm` mhj`jyjfx nfij.

hjaf xhcdd`x dr yfmhcfrx yd xmz adycjab d h`fma myfr! Ad daifr ycf

cvnmajymrjmax `ddkfi cmrr jfi my ycf fai d ycf imz!Ycmy ajbcy ja ycf omr my ycf hdnwdvai J f`` jayd hda|frxmyjda jyc ycf

wrfxx dhfr cd ydì nf xydrjfx modvy xamkfx5 cd m rfvbff drkjab ja

ycf kjyhcfa cmi kj``fi m rfi xwjyyjab hdorm mai cvab jy dvyxjif ycf nfxx cm``



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yd ifyfr dycfr xamkfx cd ma mji drkfr cmi af|frycf`fxx offa xwrmzfi ja

ycf mhf oz madycfr xwjyyjab hdorm cd ycfz cmi xm|fi cfr `jf oz `jbcyjab

ycf mjrxyrjw jyc cfmi`jbcyx rdn ycfjr |fcjh`fx xd ycmy m w`maf hdvì lz cfr

yd Amjrdoj! J rfm`jufi ycmy J cmi drbdyyfa nz lmxc`jbcy mai cfa J `fy ycfomr J maifrfi ida daf wmyc mai ycfa madycfr ja xfmrhc d nz rddn

wrmzjab ycmy ycfrf frf ad xamkfx dvy!

Ycf ijw`dnmy mai J fay dr m rva daf myfradda da ycf ijry wmyc xvr.

rdvaijab ycf wfrjnfyfr d ycf VACH_ hdnwdvai! M cfri d o`mhk.mhfi

bdmyx’jyc cjemox fay ycf `dhm` edkf’rddyfi ja ycf xhrvo vaifr m xj`|fr

myfr ydfr mai ycjryz dr ndrf nmrmodv xydrkx wfrhcfi ja ma mhmhjm yrff m

hdabrfbmyjda d cvbf hmrrjda.fmyjab ojrix ycmy ycrj|f da cvnma mhyj|jyz!

Ycfrf jx m xydrz ycmy cfa m ovyhcfr ja Kfazm `mji mxjif cjx o`ddiz kajf dr m ndnfay m nmrmodv xm``dfi jy cd`f! Rf hdvì xff ycf ojrix hjrh`jab

mod|f ycf hmnwx dr m`kjab afmr ycf cfmwx d bmrombf! Ma mji drkfr o`mnfi

ycf bmrombf da m kjai d hmnw.jaivhfi `fycmrbz ycf hcjf ofafhjmrjfx d

cjhc xffnfi yd of ycf nmrmodvx! J mxkfi ycf ijw`dnmy j cf ycdvbcy ycmy

cmy f frf idjab cmi maz nfrjy mai cf rfw`jfi ycmy bj|jab ?67 xyvifayx

ycf dwwdryvajyz yd `jxyfa yd Mnfrjhma rjyfrx xwfmk rdn ycf cfmry modvy

ycfjr drk mx adycjab yd xaffr my! Cf wjhkfi vw ycf wmhf! ‐Hma zdv rva

madycfr `mw4„ cf mxkfi! ‐Zfx„ J xmji wmayjab! Mai xd f iji!

Ndrajab mai myfradda f dvì irj|f rdn ycf VACH_ hdnwdvai

yd ycf wd`jhf xymyjda ja Imimmo mai mjy dr ycf Kfazma wd`jhf dhfrx yd

fxhdry vx yd ycf hmnwx! ‐Ycfz‚rf wrdomo`z irjakjab yfm„ ycf wrfxx dhfr

dvì xmz xcmkjab cjx cfmi! ‐Ycfz‚`` hdnf cfa ycfz ff` `jkf jy!„

Ycf wd`jhf dhfrx mhhdnwmajfi vx myfr ycf `mxy drkxcdw ja Jd yd

A.7 ycf affxy hmnw cfrf ycf `myrjafx w`mhfi ofyffa yd rdx d yfayx

frf vxfi oz dryz wfdw`f! Ycdra ormahcfx xfr|fi mx bmyfx yd fmhc yfayxdnf d cjhc cdvxfi mx nmaz mx yfayz wfdw`f! Ycrff xyvifayx edjafi vx

daf d cdn cmi dwfafi ycf }vfxyjda.mai.maxfr xfxxjda fmr`jfr ja ycf

ndrajab my ycf hdnnvajyz hfayfr oz xmzjab ycmy ofhmvxf cf mx bj|jab vw

cjx yjnf yd xyviz dr fsmnx cf mayfi yd kad cmy mx ja jy dr cjn! Rf

cmi wrmjxfi ycf w`fmxvrfx d mfxycfyjh fsw`drmyjda ovy J cmi ycf ff`jab ycmy

f cmi ady hda|jahfi cjn dr cjx rjfaix ycmy ycjx dvì of yjnf f`` xwfay!

Ovy cfrf ycfz frf ad yrmax`myjab dr m jufafi nma cd rfhjyfi m wdfn

modvy ovxjafxxnfa ja Xdnm`jm xfaijab ycfjr mnj`jfx dvy d ycf hdvayrz maiidjab adycjab dr rfvbffx ad cf`wjab vx mif ycrdvbc ycf hrdi ycmy

xmrnfi mrdvai vx! Ma dì nma cmrmxxfi nf dr mj`jab yd |jxjy xddafr mai

myfr cf xmji cjx wjfhf cf xcddk nz cmai ja ycf yrmijyjdam` mz mai `fi nf





=97 p H n

Ldr ycf ycjri yjnf ja yd ndaycx m vf` yrvhk cmi hrmxcfi mai mx wfdw`f

xjwcdafi vw ycf vf` xdnfycjab’m hjbmrfyyf m xwmrk’ydvhcfi d ma

fsw`dxjda kj``jab mai nmjnjab idufax d nfa dnfa mai hcjìrfa!

M |ma mx mjyjab yd ymkf vx yd dvr cdyf` mai da ycf irj|f ycrdvbcyda ycf ijw`dnmy hm``fi cjx dhf yd wjhk vw cjx nfxxmbfx! Cf mxkfi cjx

xfhrfymrz j xcf cmi cfmri mazycjab modvy ycf fsw`dxjda! Xcf cmi ady! Ycf

rdmi dvai vw m cj`` `jafi jyc avrxfrjfx mai my ycf ydw ady mr rdn ycf

Mnfrjhma fnomxxz ovj`y myfr ycf =::3 m`.]mfim odnojab ycmy cmi kj``fi

cvairfix d Kfazmax ycfrf mx ycf xnf`` d ovrajab hcmrhdm`! Nfa m`kfi

da ycf xjif d ycf rdmi wmxy effwx ja cjhc xmy Kfazma wd`jhf dhfrx! M

Xdnm`j cmi `myf`z offa mrrfxyfi cfrf da xvxwjhjda ycmy cf mx idjab rfhda.

amjxxmahf dr madycfr myymhk! Da f ird|f!





=9? p i b

maz xymaimri Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi hdaxyjyvyfx m cvbf xvhhfxx ja m wfrjdi

cfa hv`yvrm` xvhhfxx xydrjfx xffn rmrf!

Ja rfyrdxwfhy xvhhfxxv` |fayvrfx dyfa xffn jaf|jymo`f! Dvr xdhjfyz

wmryjhv`mr`z wrjifx jyxf` da jaad|myjda mai fayrfwrfafvrjm` fafrbz mai jy`d|fx xydrjfx modvy brfmy jifmx ycmy yrjvnwc d|fr f|frz doxymh`f! Xvhc xvh.

hfxxfx id cmwwfa’`ddk my Njhrdxdy Wjsmr dr jYvafx’ovy jy cmx offa nz

fswfrjfahf ycmy fshf``fay adyjdax dyfa mj` yd ymkf cdì mai wrdxwfr fxwf.

hjm``z ja ycf mryx! Ldr f|frz Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi ycfrf mrf cvairfix d drycz

faifm|drx ycmy af|fr xvr|j|f dr mhcjf|f da`z m `dhm` wrfxfahf! Ldr ycmy rfm.

xda jy nmz of cf`wv` yd wrd|jif m xcdry cjxydrz d ycf wrdbrmn fsw`drf jyx

rmyjdam`f mai ijxhvxx xdnf d ycf kfz ifhjxjdax ycmy `fi yd jyx dabdjab

xvhhfxx!Ldr h`mrjyz‚x xmkf cdf|fr `fy‚x ofbja oz ifxhrjojab ycf wrdbrmn jyxf`!

Drjbjam``z hm``fi ycf Amyjdam` Wdfyrz _fhjymyjda Hdayfxy ycf ad ndrf

f|dhmyj|f`z amnfi Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi jx m wmryafrxcjw ofyffa ycrff |frz

ijfrfay xfyx d drbmajumyjdax’ycf Amyjdam` Faidnfay dr ycf Mryx #m

fifrm` mbfahz* ycf Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda #m wrj|myf adawrdy* mai xymyf mryx

mbfahjfx #xymyf bd|franfay ovrfmvx*! Ycf AFM hrfmyfi ycf wrdbrmn‚x hvr.

rjhv`vn mai nmyfrjm`x ja hd``modrmyjda jyc ycf Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda mai jy

ijxyrjovyfx ycfn rff yd m`` wmryjhjwmyjab xhcdd`x! Xyvifayx hcddxf ycf wdfnx

ycfz jxc yd nfndrjuf fjycfr rdn ycf rff h`mxxrddn maycd`dbz dr ycf

Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda‚x xwfhjm` foxjyf cjhc ad dfrx xf|fa cvairfi

ij|frxf xf`fhyjdax! Ofbjaajab jyc h`mxxrddn hdnwfyjyjdax jaafrx mi|mahf

yd jaij|jivm` xhcdd` hdayfxyx mai ycfa yd hjyz rfbjdam` mai f|fayvm``z xymyf

am`x! Ycf xymyf jaafrx ycfa bd yd Rmxcjabyda IH dr ycf amyjdam` am`x!

Ycfrf mrf wrjufx mai hfryjhmyfx mmrifi yd jaafrx my fmhc `f|f` jyc ycf

`mrbfxy wrjufx ijxyrjovyfi my ycf am` hdnwfyjyjda! Ycf amyjdam` hcmnwjdarfhfj|fx m )?7777 xhcd`mrxcjw xfhdai w`mhf fmrax )=7777 mai ycjri w`mhf

)6777! Ycf xfnjam`jxyx #w`mhfx dvr ycrdvbc yf`|f* fmhc rfhfj|f )=777

jyc ma miijyjdam` )677 dr ycfjr xhcdd`x! Ycf amyjdam` hcmnwjda mai xf|.

frm` am`jxyx vxvm``z rfyvra yd Rmxcjabyda ycf afsy m`` yd wfrdrn ja ycf

AFM‚x `jyfrmyvrf wm|j`jda my ycf Amyjdam` Oddk Lfxyj|m`!

JJ!Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi ofbma my ycf Amyjdam` Faidnfay dr ycf Mryx mx m wfr.

xdam` wrdefhy! Mx ycf rxy wdfy f|fr yd hcmjr ycf mbfahz J mx hdahfrafi

modvy ycf ifh`jajab mvijfahf dr xfrjdvx jyfrmyvrf fxwfhjm` `z wdfyrz! Cm|.



Daf Cfmry my m Yjnf p =98

jab brda vw ja m drkjab.h`mxx cdnf ja cjhc wdfyrz mx faedzfi mai

rfhjyfi J cmi af|fr mhhfwyfi ycf adyjda ycmy wdfyrz mx ma f`jyjxy mry

cdxf w`fmxvrfx frf m|mj`mo`f da`z yd jayf``fhyvm`x mai mhmifnjhx! J cmi

`dab f`y ycmy wdfyrz‚x ijnjajxcfi wdwv`mrjyz mx my `fmxy wmryjm``z ivf ydycf mam`zyjhm` mzx ja cjhc jy mx bfafrm``z ymvbcy! Daf hma `fmra nmaz

jnwdrymay ycjabx modvy m wdfn ycrdvbc hrjyjhm` mam`zxjx mai yfrn wmwfrx

ovy xjnw`f faedznfay jx vxvm``z ady daf d ycfn!

Rcfa J `ddk omhk da cmy hrfmyfi nz da mwwfyjyf dr wdfyrz yd

fmr`z fswfrjfahfx xymai dvy! Ycf rxy mx nz ndycfr‚x cmojy d rfhjyjab dr

rfmijab wdfnx! Xcf mx m Nfsjhma Mnfrjhma rmjxfi ja orvym` wd|fryz cd

cmi af|fr bdaf ofzdai cjbc xhcdd`’fsmhy z ycf xdry d wfrxda ycf `jyfrmrz

fxymo`jxcnfay vxvm``z mxxvnfx cmx ad jayfrfxy ja ycf mry! Xcf kaf idufax d wdfnx oz cfmry’Wdf Ozrda Rcjyyjfr Yfaazxda Kjw`jab mai Xcmkfxwfmrf

mx f`` mx ad ndxy`z drbdyyfa wdwv`mr rjyfrx xvhc mx Emnfx Rcjyhdno

_j`fz F``m Rcff`fr Rj`hds _dofry Xfr|jhf mai Fvbfaf Ljfì! Xcf dvì

rfhjyf wdfnx jyc brfmy rf`jxc mai bfavjaf fndyjda! Jy yddk nf zfmrx yd

vaifrxymai cd iffw`z cfr m|drjyf drkx hdaafhyfi yd ycf wrj|myf edzx

mai xdrrdx d cfr `jf! Nz ndycfr ady da`z jaxyj``fi ja nf m `d|f d wdfyrz

xcf m`xd ymvbcy nf cd nzxyfrjdvx`z wdfyrz hdnnvajhmyfx ycjabx modvy

ycf rfhjyfr mx f`` mx ycf mvycdr!

Ycf xfhdai fswfrjfahf dhhvrrfi m f zfmrx `myfr ja fjbcyc brmif

vaifr ycf yvyf`mbf d Xjxyfr Nmrz Imnjfa m xnm`` ovy drnjimo`f ava d

jafscmvxyjo`f fafrbz! Daf imz fmr`z ja ycf xhcdd` zfmr xcf hdnw`mjafi ycmy

xcf hdvì cmri`z vaifrxymai m dri J xmji mai ydì nf yd xymz myfr xhcdd`!

Ycfrf J ijxhd|frfi ycmy J mx ady ycf da`z adydrjdvx nvyyfrfr! J dvai

nzxf` jyc ycrff dycfr odzx’m`` d vx Nfsjhma Mnfrjhmax rmjxfi ndxy`z

mndab adaamyj|f xwfmkfrx! Rf fswfhyfi yd of zf``fi my! Jaxyfmi ycf mxxjiv.dvx xjxyfr maadvahfi ycmy f affifi omxjh f`dhvyjda `fxxdax! Ycrff imzx m

ffk myfr xhcdd` xcf drkfi jyc vx yd jnwrd|f dvr xwffhc! Ycf `fxxdax

xdda yddk ycf drn d `jxyfajab yd rfhdrijabx d mhydrx rfhjyjab wdfnx mai

n l ,

hh

o h !



=99 p i b

ycfa nfndrjujab mai wfrdrnjab ycf wdfnx dvrxf`|fx! Xcf wvxcfi vx yd

mhcjf|f ycf xmnf h`mrjyz d xwffhc mai fndyjdam` fswrfxxj|jyz mx ycf mhydrx!

Ja ycmy wvrxvjy f mj`fi adymo`z ovy f iji jnwrd|f brfmy`z rdn dvr

nvno`z ofbjaajab! Ndrf jnwdrymay f `d|fi cmnnjab jy vw mai of`yjabdvy Yfaazxda mai Xcmkfxwfmrf! Rjycja m f ndaycx xcf f|fa cmi vx hdn.

wfyf ja m `dhm` xwffhc hdayfxy! Jy dvì of cmri yd fsmbbfrmyf cd nvhc

ycdxf `myf myfradda `fxxdax yrmaxdrnfi nz `jf! Vxjab ycf drix d ifmi

wdfyx Xjxyfr Nmrz Imnjfa bm|f nf ycf bjy d xf`.fswrfxxjda! Rjycdvy

kadjab jy xcf m`xd avibfi nf ydmri m `jf d wdfyrz!

Rcmy xyrjkfx nf modvy odyc ycfxf `jf.hcmabjab fahdvayfrx jyc

wdfyrz jx ycmy afjycfr hmnf rdn m oddk! Ycfz frf wrjnmrj`z drm` mvijydrz

mai wfrdrnmyj|f! Nz `d|f mmjr jyc wdfyrz ofbma ady da ycf wmbf ovy ja

ycf fmr mai da ycf ydabvf! J fswfrjfahfi jy wczxjhm``z ofdrf J hdnwrf.

cfaifi jy jayf``fhyvm``z! Wdfyrz mx m`xd m xdhjm` rmycfr ycma m xd`jymrz mhyj|.

jyz’xdnfycjab yd of xcmrfi jyc mnj`z mai rjfaix! Mai cmy f xcmrfi

mx wrjnmrj`z w`fmxvrf’m iffw.rddyfi edz my cfmrjab nmbajhfay mabvmbf

xwdkfa fswfry`z wfrcmwx f|fa ycrj``jab`z ja dvr wrfxfahf! #Jy mx ycf xmnf

xdry d edz f fswfrjfahfi myhcjab brfmy myc`fyfx dr af imahfrx!* Ycfrf

mx adycjab vaj}vf ja nz hmxf J ad rfm`juf! Ycjx mx ycf mz ndxy wfdw`fhmnf yd `d|f wdfyrz ja ycf wmxy ovy ja nz hcjìcddi xvhc ma jajyjmyjda mx

m`rfmiz ofhdnjab rf`myj|f`z rmrf!

JJJ!

Ycf bvjijab |jxjda d Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi mx yd hrfmyf ma mryx fivhmyjda

wrdbrmn ycmy jayrdivhfi xyvifayx yd wdfyrz fswfrjfayjm``z’rmycfr ycma

mam`zyjhm``z’vxjab nfndrjumyjda rfhjymyjda mai wfrdrnmahf! Wdfnxxwfmk yd vx ja nmaz mzx jah`vijab jayf``fhyvm``z ovy nvhc d wdfyrz‚x

wdfr jx wczxjhm` fndyjdam` xfaxvm` mai jayvjyj|f! Ycdxf ijnfaxjdax mrf

hdnnvajhmyfi ndrf ijrfhy`z ycrdvbc wfrdrnmahf ycma mam`zxjx! Wdfyrz

v l , x n i

l l l.s! k ,

l l !



Daf Cfmry my m Yjnf p =96

ad dyfa xffnx yd mwwfm` ndxy`z yd jayf``fhyvm` rfmifrx! J xvxwfhy ycmy xjy.

vmyjda cmx `fxx yd id jyc ycf amyvrf d wdfyrz ycma jyc ycf cjbc`z jayf`.

`fhyvm` mz ja cjhc jy jx ymvbcy! Jy jx ady hdjahjifaym` ja nz dwjajda ycmy

ycf ifh`jaf d wdfyrz‚x wdwv`mrjyz wmrm``f`fi ycf ijxnjxxm` d nfndrjumyjdamx m wfimbdbjh yfhcaj}vf mai ycf rjxf d h`dxf rfmijab mai hrjyjhm` mam`zxjx

mx ycf wrjnmrz yfhcaj}vfx dr xyvizjab wdfyrz! J of`jf|f ja h`dxf rfmijab

mai hrjyjhm` mam`zxjx’mai f|fa ja yfrn wmwfrx’ovy j ycdxf nfycdix hda.

xyjyvyf m zdvab wfrxda‚x wrjnmrz fahdvayfrx jyc wdfyrz jy jx ad daifr

xd f wfdw`f if|f`dw m `jf`dab `d|f d ycf mry! Ycdxf fivhmyjdam` nfyc.

dix drjbjam` `z rfxyfi da ma mxxvnwyjda ycmy xyvifayx ordvbcy fmr`jfr fswf.

rjfahf mai mnj`jmrjyz jyc wdfyrz yd ycf h`mxxrddn’rdn mnj`z rfmijab

f`fnfaymrz xhcdd` rfhjymyjda mai bfafrm` hv`yvrm` hvrrfahz! #Ljyz zfmrxmbd mndvx wdfnx frf xyj`` }vdyfi mai wmrdijfi ja hmryddax yf`f|jxjda

mai ja wdwv`mr nmbmujafx!* Ycdxf hdaijyjdax ad `dabfr mww`z dr ydimz‚x

yffambfrx! Ndxy zdvab wfdw`f ad rxy fahdvayfr wdfyrz my `fmxy ja maz

xfrjdvx xfaxf ja m h`mxxrddn!

J\!

Ldr ndxy xyvifayx ycf jnwmhy d wmryjhjwmyjab ja Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi jx

ady xd`f`z dr f|fa wrjnmrj`z `jyfrmrz! Ja yfrnx d ycf cvnma fafrbjfx

jy xvnndax mai if|f`dwx ycf wrdbrmn rfxfno`fx nvxjh dr xwdryx ndrf

ycma Fab`jxc h`mxx! Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi rf|j|fx ycf mahjfay mry d nfndrjum.

yjda cjhc vayj` rfhfay`z mx m`mzx m hfayrm` f`fnfay d fivhmyjda! Oz

xyvizjab mai rfhjyjab wdfyrz xyvifayx `fmra yd nmxyfr `mabvmbf mx f`` mx

if|f`dw xkj``x ja wvo`jh xwfmkjab! Ycjx wrmhyjhf m`xd cf`wx xyvifayx ovjì

xf`.hdaifahf mai fswmai ycfjr kad`fibf d `jyfrmyvrf! Xdhjm` mai ja.yf``fhyvm` brdyc dhhvrx xjnv`ymafdvx`z! Oz jayfram`jujab brfmy ndif`x

d `mabvmbf mai jnmbjamyjda xyvifayx jahrfmxf ycfjr mwwrfhjmyjda d ycf

wdfr d `mabvmbf odyc jayf``fhyvm``z mai fndyjdam``z yd hdnnvajhmyf

hdnw`fs yrvycx! Ycjx jaxjbcy cmx wrmhyjhm` mi|maymbfx dr zdvab wfdw`f

cfycfr ycfz hdayjavf ja ycf cvnmajyjfx dr ja dycfr fìx xvhc mx `m

ovxjafxx bd|franfay njajxyrz dr f|fa xm`fx! Ycfrf jx adycjab fxwfhjm``z

rmrjfi modvy ma fivhmyjda ycrdvbc wdfyrz! Jy if|f`dwx ycf cd`f cvnma

ofjab ady evxy ycf mam`zyjhm` njai!@fmrajab yd rfhjyf wdfyrz m`xd ja|jyfx wfrxdam` brdyc! Ycf |frz wrdhfxx

d rfmijab ycrdvbc nmaz wdfnx yd ai ycf rjbcy daf yd nfndrjuf hma

wrd|f m hmym`zyjh fswfrjfahf dr ndxy xyvifayx! Hcddxjab ycf rjbcy wdfn



=9< p i b

nmz f|fa cf`w xdnf xyvifayx miirfxx jaafr affix d cjhc ycfz mrf ady zfy

fayjrf`z hdaxhjdvx! M`ycdvbc xdnf xyvifayx mrf jajyjm``z afr|dvx modvy rfhjy.

jab ja rday d ycfjr wffrx ycf fswfrjfahf hma wrd|f |m`vmo`f’dr odyc

xhcdd` mai `jf! Nvhc d ycfjr vyvrf xvhhfxx nmz ifwfai da cd f`` ycfzwrfxfay ycfnxf`|fx ja wvo`jh! Rcfycfr ym`kjab yd daf wfrxda dr nmaz wvo.

`jh xwfmkjab jx m xkj`` wfdw`f vxf f|frz imz ja odyc ycf drkw`mhf mai ycf

hdnnvajyz!

Wdfyrz mx m hdnwfyjyj|f f|fay xvrwrjxfx xdnf wfdw`f admimzx! Ycf

adyjda d hdnwfyjyjda hfrymja`z xcdhkfi mai ijxnmzfi nmaz fivhmyjdam`

xwfhjm`jxyx cfa ycfz rxy fahdvayfrfi ycf wrdbrmn ovy wdfyjh hdnwfyj.

yjda jx mx dì mx ycf D`znwjh Bmnfx wrdomo`z dìfr! M`dab jyc rfxy`jab

`dab.ijxymahf rvaajab em|f`ja ydxxjab mai dycfr myc`fyjh f|fayx ycf mahjfayD`znwjhx jah`vifi hdayfxyx ja nvxjh mai wdfyrz! _cmwxdifx ycf mahjfay

wfrdrnfrx d wdfyrz yrmjafi dr zfmrx mai yrm|f`fi brfmy ijxymahfx yd myyfai

ycf bmnfx! Ycf jaafrx frf cdadrfi `jkf xwdryx hcmnwjdax mai ycfz ja

yvra hdnwdxfi wdfnx ja cdadr d ycf myc`fyjh jaafrx! Wdfyrz hdnwfyj.

yjdax frf ady `jnjyfi yd ycf D`znwjhx ovy bvrfi ja ndxy rf`jbjdvx fxyj.

|m`x jyc zdvab nfa dr dnfa dyfa wfrdrnjab hcdrm` difx ja hdnwfyj.

yjda! Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi mx hdaxhjdvx`z ifxjbafi yd rfhmwyvrf ycf xwfhjm`

fshjyfnfay’dr odyc wfrdrnfrx mai mvijfahfx’ycmy dhhvrx cfa wdfyrz

jx rfhjyfi hdnwfyjyj|f`z!

\!

Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi ofbma mx ma jifm dr m amyjdam` rfhjymyjda hdayfxy ovy jifmx

mrf rmbj`f ycjabx! Yd brd jayd xdnfycjab mrbf mai ffhyj|f ycfz nvxy of

if|f`dwfi hmrfv``z mai xvoefhyfi yd dabdjab hrjyjhm` f|m`vmyjda! Maz am.yjdam` wrdbrmn affix yd of yfxyfi `dhm``z ofdrf jy jx fswmaifi! Ad nmyyfr

cd f`` ma drbmajumyjda w`max m af wrdefhy ycfrf j`` of ycjabx jy njxxfx

dr njxevibfx! Ycf Amyjdam` Wdfyrz _fhjymyjda Hdayfxy mx ycf wrdbrmn mx

jajyjm``z hm``fi rxy rfmhcfi ycf wvo`jh ja fmr`z ?779 mx yd wj`dy wrdbrmnx

ja Rmxcjabyda IH mai Hcjhmbd! Da`z daf d ycf yfxyx xvhhffifi!

Ycf Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda yfxyfi ycf jifm ja Hcjhmbd oz vxjab m hdaxv`.

ymay cd iji ady drk ycf hdnwfyjyjda jayd h`mxxrddnx ovy fxymo`jxcfi jy ja

ma myfr.xhcdd` wrdbrmn! Rjycdvy ycf rfbv`mr xyrvhyvrf d ma Fab`jxc h`mxxmai ycf d|frxjbcy d yfmhcfrx yrmjafi ja `jyfrmyvrf ycf wrdbrmn `dxy dhvx!

Hdayfxy rv`fx frf ijhv`y yd fxymo`jxc ja ycf `ddxf`z xyrvhyvrfi fa|jrda.

nfay! #Ycjx wrdo`fn wrd|jifi jnwdrymay `fmrajab dr hrfmyjab m xvhhfxxv`





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mx mhhvxydnfi yd ycf wd`jyf ovy cmri`z rmwy myyfayjda daf bfafrm``z aix

my xvhc f|fayx! Ycf Ld`bfr mvijfahf mx |jxjo`z fabmbfi rdn xymry yd ajxc

xdnfycjab J cm|f adyjhfi hdaxjxyfay`z my m`` Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi hdnwfyjyjdax!

Ycfrf jx m xwfhjm` myyfayjda wfdw`f’odyc hdnwfyjydrx mai xwfhymydrx’ orjab yd hdnwfyjyj|f mhyj|jyjfx! Ycf mvijfahf ady da`z fswfrjfahfx ycf rfh.

jymyjda ovy jy wmzx xwfhjm` myyfayjda yd ycf |mrjdvx }vm`jyjfx ycmy bvjif ycf

ofxy wfrdrnmahfx mx jy doxfr|fx mai hdnwmrfx ycf hdayfxymayx! Ycf hjyjufax

d mahjfay Brffhf of`jf|fi ycmy hdnwfyjyjda fahdvrmbfi fshf``fahf’ady

da`z ja xwdryx ovy m`xd ja ycf mryx! Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi ifndaxyrmyfx ycf xdvai.

afxx d ycmy jifm!

Ycmy f|fajab J adyjhfi xdnfycjab f`xf ycmy cmx xyrvhk nf my f|frz xvo.

xf}vfay hdnwfyjyjda J cm|f myyfaifi’amnf`z cd ij|frxf ycf am`jxyxfrf! Ycfz hmnf rdn f|frz hv`yvrm` mai fycajh omhkbrdvai jyc m ijxwrd.

wdryjdamyf avnofr d rxy.bfafrmyjda Mnfrjhmax! Ycfz m`xd hdnwrjxfi

f|frz yzwf d cjbc xhcdd` kji’edhkx xhcd`mrx mhydrx ifomyfrx x`mhkfrx

h`mxx h`dax cjwxyfrx bmabomabfrx mai `dafrx! Ycfjr wmxxjda mai fshf``fahf

frf xjnv`ymafdvx`z jaxwjrjab mai hcmxyfajab! J rfm`jufi cd nvhc f

vaifrfxyjnmyf ycf wdyfayjm` d dvr yffambfrx cd `jyy`f f dyfa fswfhy

rdn ycfn cd bj|fa ycf hcdjhf ycfz hma mxydajxc vx! Ycfrf mx m rfmxda

ycmy wdfyrz fxwfhjm``z nfndrjumyjda mai rfhjymyjda cmi w`mzfi xvhc m `mrbf

wmry ja fivhmyjda mhrdxx ycf mbfx! Wdfyrz mmkfax mai if|f`dwx ycf wdyfayjm`

d zdvab cfmryx mai njaix!

\J!

Cm|jab fxhmwfi daf hmahf``myjda adyjhf ycf wrdbrmn xdda mhfi madycfr!

Ycf Mryx Faidnfay f`y ycmy ycf ofxy wmryafrx dr ycf hdnwfyjyjda dvìof xymyf mryx mbfahjfx ycf dhjm` xymyf jaxyjyvyjdax ifijhmyfi yd mryx mai

mryx fivhmyjda! Ycf xymyf mbfahz fsfhvyj|f ijrfhydrx `jxyfafi yd ycf jifm

wdxjyj|f`z’ady jyc brfmy faycvxjmxn ovy jyc jayfrfxy! J ycf AFM mai

Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda frf bdjab yd ja|fxy miijyjdam` ndafz ja xymyf mryx

ovibfyx ycf xymyf mbfahjfx dvì hdaxjifr bj|jab ycf Amyjdam` Wdfyrz

_fhjymyjda Hdayfxy m yrz! Xymyf mryx fivhmyjda xwfhjm`jxyx cdf|fr bfafr.

m``z ijx`jkfi ycf wrdbrmn! Ycfz jaxjxyfi ycmy xyvifayx dvì ady j``jab`z

nfndrjuf wdfnx ycmy yfmhcfrx dvì rfefhy nfndrjumyjda mx ma mayj.}vmyfi f|fa rfwrfxxj|f yfhcaj}vf mai ycmy hdnwfyjyjda mx mamycfnm yd

mryx fivhmyjda! Ycfz xvbbfxyfi ycmy ycf AFM xcdvì hrfmyf m wrdbrmn ja

cjhc xyvifayx dvì bmycfr yd rfmi ycfjr da drjbjam` wdfnx jycdvy



Daf Cfmry my m Yjnf p =9:

evibnfay’‐ad jaafrx dr `dxfrx„ daf xwfhjm`jxy xmji ‐ evxy xcmrjab!„ Oz

ycfa ycf wrdbrmn cmi offa rfamnfi Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi ovy daf xymyf mryx

dhjm` ida xdvyc rffrrfi yd jy da`z mx ‐Hrzja‚ Dvy @dvi!„

M mrbf wrdbrmn ady da`z rf}vjrfx nmaz wmryafrx jy m`xd rf}vjrfx m hda.xfaxvx’m xcmrfi adyjda ycmy f|frzdaf cmx xdnfycjab yd bmja oz jyx xvhhfxx!

Dvr ymxk ad mx yd d|frhdnf jifxwrfmi xkfwyjhjxn modvy ycjx af wrd.

brmn mai hrfmyf m nvyvm` ifhjxjda yd yrz jy! Ima Xydaf hdaivhyfi m xfrjfx

d hdafrfahf hm``x jyc f|frz xymyf vxjab cjx hdaxjifrmo`f hcmrn mai jayf`.

`jbfahf yd fsw`mja cz xyvifayx njbcy faedz nfndrjumyjda wfrdrnmahf

mai hdnwfyjyjda’ycf yrjw`f ymodd d mryx fivhmyjda! Cf ady da`z hjyfi ycf

fshf``fay wmryjhjwmyjda ja ycf IH xhcdd`x wj`dy wrdbrmn ovy m`xd wdjayfi

dvy ycf wdwv`mrjyz d cjw.cdw mai wdfyrz x`mnx mndab yffambfrx! Xydafm`xd lf yd Odjxf yd miirfxx m bmycfrjab d m`` ycf xymyf mbfahjfx yd w`fmi

dvr hmxf! Cf mhfi xdnf cdxyj`jyz ovy cf brmivm``z nmif hda|fryx! X`d`z

dvr ijw`dnmhz mai mi|dhmhz drkfi! Ycf xymyf mryx mbfahjfx mbrffi yd yrz

Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi’jyc da`z m f mryx fivhmyjda xwfhjm`jxyx xyj`` wrdwcfxz.

jab iddn mai ijxmxyfr!

Cm|jab ad ovj`y m amyjdam` jaxyjyvyjdam` wmryafrxcjw jyc ycf Mryx

Faidnfay ycf Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda mai ycf xymyf mryx mbfahjfx #cjhc

dvì xdda of edjafi oz ycf Nji My`mayjh Mryx Ldvaimyjda mx wrdbrmn

hddrijamydr* f ad mwwrdmhcfi xdnf ja|m`vmo`f jaij|jivm` wmryafrx’ycf

xymyf wdfyx `mvrfmyf! Ja Mwrj` ?778 J cmi miirfxxfi ycf rxy amyjdam` bmycfr.

jab d xymyf wdfyx `mvrfmyf! Ym`kjab jyc ycfn modvy ycfjr mhyj|jyjfx J `fmrafi

ycmy ndxy xymyfx cmi hrfmyfi ycf `mvrfmyf wdxjyjda ovy wrd|jifi ad vaijab

dr nfmajabv` wvo`jh wrdbrmnx! Ycfrf mx ycfrfdrf m amyjdajif afy.

drk d wrdnjafay wdfyx ja wvo`jh dhf cd affifi m |jxjo`f mai ffhyj|f

wrdbrmn! J rdyf m`` ycf `mvrfmyfx mxkjab ycfn yd `fmi Wdfyrz Dvy @dvihdnwfyjyjdax ja ycfjr xymyfx! Ycf AFM mai ycf Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda ycfa xfy

vw m amyjdam` hdafrfahf hm`` yd xd`jhjy ycfjr hdnnfayx mai xvwwdry! Ycf

`mvrfmyfx }vjhk`z mai vamajndvx`z edjafi ycf wrdbrmn! Jy jx cmri yd d|frfx.

yjnmyf ycf jnwdrymahf d ycfjr faycvxjmxn mai mi|dhmhz! Ycfjr ja|d`|fnfay

my ycf xymyf `f|f` ady da`z wrd|jifi ycf wrdbrmn jyc fswfryjxf mai hdn.

njynfay ovy m`xd cf`wfi bj|f Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi `dhm` hcmrmhyfr mai

`fmifrxcjw!

Dahf ycf amyjdam` wrdbrmn bdy vaifrmz ycf afbmyj|jyz m`ndxy jnnf.ijmyf`z |majxcfi! Xymyf mryx wfrxdaaf` xdda doxfr|fi ycmy odyc xyvifayx mai

yfmhcfrx `jkfi ycf wrdbrmn! Jajyjm` wmryjhjwmyjda mx fshf``fay jyc =77777

xyvifayx hdnwfyjab ja ycf rxy zfmr! Yfmhcfrx mai xyvifayx `d|fi mai vxfi



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ycf rff h`mxxrddn nmyfrjm`x! Wrfxx hd|frmbf mx xvrwrjxjab`z xyrdab fxwf.

hjm``z my ycf `dhm` mai xymyf `f|f`x! _fmhyjab yd ycf hdnwfyjyj|f amyvrf d ycf

wrdbrmn ycf nfijm bm|f Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi ycf `f|f` d myyfayjda jy vxvm``z

ofxydx da xhcdd` xwdryx! @dhm` jaafrx dvai ycfnxf`|fx fmyvrfi ja ycfwrfxx `jkf |mrxjyz myc`fyfx’m ofafy ady `dxy da xhcdd` dr xymyf dhjm`x!

Nmaz xymyf mryx dhjm`x cdxf bddi drkx cmi ndxy`z bdaf `jyy`f adyjhfi

dr zfmrx fshjyfi`z rfwdryfi ycmy nmzdrx xymyf rfwrfxfaymyj|fx mai f|fa

bd|fradrx cmi ofhdnf faycvxjmxyjhm``z ja|d`|fi ja ycf hdnwfyjyjda!

\JJ!

Daf kfz yd ycf wrdbrmn‚x xvhhfxx mx ycf xyrdab wvo`jhjyz! Lrdn ycf of.bjaajab f yddk wvo`jh rf`myjdax xfrjdvx`z mx m afhfxxmrz nfmax d ovjì.

jab mmrfafxx mai mwwrfhjmyjda d ycf wrdbrmn! Hv`yvrm` drbmajumyjdax mrf

dyfa mnoj|m`fay f|fa x}vfmnjxc modvy hdvryjab ycf nfijm! M`ycdvbc

ycfz hrm|f wvo`jhjyz ycfz drrz ycfrf jx xdnfycjab vaijbajfi f|fa va.

xm|drz modvy xffkjab jy! Xdnfyjnfx ycfrf jx f|fa m xfaxf d jrrjymyjda jyc

ycf wrfxx mai ycf wvo`jh’ycf drbmajumyjda jx idjab xvhc |m`vmo`f drk

ycmy ycf wvo`jh xcdvì m`rfmiz kad modvy jy- Ycf wrdo`fn jx ycmy ja m

xdhjfyz xvwfrxmyvrmyfi oz jadrnmyjda mai fayfrymjanfay odyc ycf nfijm

mai ycf wvo`jh affi yd of xwfhjm``z fabmbfi mai fivhmyfi! Lf adawrdy

`jyfrmrz drbmajumyjdax cm|f ndafz dr mi|fryjxjab xd maz ordmi fdry yd

jadrn ycf wvo`jh hma da`z dhhvr ycrdvbc nfijm hd|frmbf! Ycf omi afx

jx ycmy xvhhfxxv` wvo`jhjyz rf}vjrfx ijxhjw`jaf mai cmri drk! Ycf bddi

afx jx ycmy wrfxx hd|frmbf jx rff!

Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi mx ma fayjrf`z af wrdbrmn! J ycf wvo`jh fxwfhjm``z

yfmhcfrx mai xyvifayx frf yd `fmra modvy jy ycfz affifi ady da`z yd ofjadrnfi ovy nmif jayfrfxyfi! Ycf xymyf mryx mbfahjfx xfay dvy f.nmj`x ovy

`d.jnwmhy hdnnvajhmyjda jx jaxvhjfay yd `mvahc mai xvxymja m ordmi

amyjdam` wrdbrmn! Rf affifi yd xd`|f m wrdo`fn ycmy m`` wdfyrz drbmajum.

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Daf Cfmry my m Yjnf p =6=

yjdax mhf’cd hdvì f fabmbf ycf jayfrfxy d ycf bfafrm` nfijm `dhm`

mai amyjdam` cjhc m`ndxy vaj|frxm``z of`jf|fi ycmy wdfyrz ad `dabfr nfr.

jyfi ycfjr myyfayjda4

Dvr rxy hcm``fabf mx cd yd wdxjyjda Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi h`fmr`z maihdahjxf`z yd m bfafrm` mvijfahf! Ycf ofxy mz yd fsw`mja xdnfycjab af

dyfa jx yd xyrjkf m hcdri d mnj`jmrjyz jyc xdnfycjab m`rfmiz fxymo`jxcfi

mai ycfa fsw`mja ycf ijfrfahfx! Rf jajyjm``z wdxjyjdafi Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi

mx m `jyfrmrz f}vj|m`fay d ycf Amyjdam` Xwf``jab Off’m nv`yjyjfrfi hdn.

wfyjyj|f wrdbrmn ycmy if|f`dwfi jaij|jivm` jayf``fhyvm` fshf``fahf ja ma

mrrfxyjab mz! Ycf nfijm jnnfijmyf`z vaifrxyddi dvr hdahfwy mai kaf

cd yd hd|fr jy! #Nmaz edvram`jxyx cm|f m brfmy daiafxx dr wdfyrz ycmy ycfz

cm|f `jyy`f dwwdryvajyz yd fscjojy!* Ycf fsyfaxj|f hd|frmbf ady da`zjahrfmxfi wmryjhjwmyjda jy m`xd rfhdbajufi mai rfmrifi wmryjhjwmayx’yd

ycf xwfhjm` if`jbcy d ycfjr wmrfayx mai yfmhcfrx! Jy m`xd xyrfabycfafi ycf

xvwwdry d xhcdd` minjajxyrmydrx xymyf mryx wfrxdaaf` mai wd`jyjhjmax! #Ycf

fsyfay d ycf dhm` mai amyjdam` hd|frmbf ofhmnf ndrf f|jifay cfa Wdfyrz

Imj`z edjafi ycf wrdbrmn ja ?773 oz wdxyjab ycf ofxy mryjh`fx da ycfjr wdw.

v`mr foxjyf!* Ljam``z nmaz afxwmwfrx }vdyfi rdn dr rfwrjayfi jaajab

rfhjymyjda wjfhfx ycfrfoz hrfmyjab m af mai vafswfhyfi w`mhf dr wdfyrz ja

wvo`jhmyjdax ycmy rmrf`z dr af|fr dycfrjxf wrfxfayfi ycf mry!

Nfijm myyfayjda jx m wdfrv` mz d ndyj|myjab mai rfmrijab xyv.

ifayx cd wmryjhjwmyf ja ycf wrdbrmn! Ycfrf mrf f mzx ycmy mryjxyjh fshf`.

`fahf jx rfhdbajufi mai hf`formyfi ja cjbc xhcdd`! Xymyf dhjm`x m`ndxy

jnnfijmyf`z vaifrxyddi ycf jaxwjrmyjdam` }vm`jyz d ycf wrdbrmn’ady evxy

dr xyvifayx ovy m`xd dr yfmhcfrx wmrfayx minjajxyrmydrx mai wd`jyjhjmax!

Xymyf jaafrx rf}vfay`z rfhjyfi ycf jaajab wdfnx my `mrbf wvo`jh vah.

yjdax’yrm|f`jab mrdvai `jkf ycf `jyfrmrz f}vj|m`fayx d xymyf ofmvyz }vffax!Xviifa`z wdfyrz rfhjymyjdax ofhmnf m wmry d wvo`jh vahyjdax m rf|j|m` d

ma Mnfrjhma yrmijyjda Rcjynma Fnfrxda mai @dabf``d dvì cm|f

vaifrxyddi! Ycf wvo`jh cjhc jx xd dyfa hcmrmhyfrjufi mx ijx`jkjab wdfyrz

yvrafi dvy yd faedz ycf rfhjymyjdax! My ycf Amyjdam` Oddk Lfxyj|m` dr

jaxymahf ycf Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi jaafrx wrd|fi xfhdai ja wdwv`mrjyz da`z yd

ycf Wdfy @mvrfmyf‚x rfmijab! @jkfjxf cfa ycf xymyf am`jxyx hdnf yd Rmxc.

jabyda mai |jxjy ycfjr rfwrfxfaymyj|fx ja ycf Xfamyf mai Cdvxf ycfz mrf

dyfa mxkfi oz nfnofrx d Hdabrfxx yd rfhjyf ycfjr wdfnx!Wrdbrmn nmyfrjm`x frf m`xd jnwdrymay! Nvhc fivhmyjdam` nmyfrjm` jx

`mhk`vxyfr mai wfrvahydrz! Rf mayfi dvrx yd of odyc mryjxyjhm``z xvoxyma.

yjm` mai fabmbjab! M hdaxwjhvdvx mi|maymbf d m amyjdam` wrdbrmn jx ycmy jy



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hma hdxy.ffhyj|f`z if|f`dw nmyfrjm`x ycmy ad `dhm` wrdbrmn hma mdri! Ldr

Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi ycf Mryx Faidnfay mai ycf Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda hrfmyfi

ofmvyjv``z ifxjbafi mai wrdivhfi wdxyfrx yfmhcfr‚x bvjifx mvijd HIx mai

f|fayvm``z I\Ix! Mnfrjhma hv`yvrf jx hf`forjyz irj|fa! Hf`forjyjfx bj|fwrdbrmnx dr wrdivhyx |jxjoj`jyz mai hrfijoj`jyz fxwfhjm``z mndab yffambfrx

cd cm|f brda vw ja m nfijm.xmyvrmyfi xdhjfyz! Yd ifndaxyrmyf ycf ordmi

mwwfm` d wdfyrz ycf AFM mwwrdmhcfi f``.kada mhydrx jyc m wmxxjda

dr ycf mry’Maycdaz Cdwkjax Emnfx Fmr` Edafx M`zxxm Nj`mad M`rfi

Nd`jam! Rf nmyhcfi ycfn jyc f``.kada rjyfrx jah`vijab _jhcmri

_dirjbvfu A! Xhdyy Ndnmimz _jym Id|f Kmz _zma Im|ji Nmxda mai

Im|ji Cfarz Cmab! Rf ycfa rfhdrifi odyc brdvwx rfhjyjab m|drjyf

wdfnx! Ycf wvrwdxf d ycf ‐mvijd bvjif„ mx odyc yd hdnnvajhmyf ycfw`fmxvrfx d ycf mry mai yd wrd|jif ij|frxf ndif`x dr ffhyj|f wfrdrnmahf!

Mx ycf wrdbrmn if|f`dwfi f m`xd `nfi xdnf d ycf amyjdam` am`jxyx yd

j``vxyrmyf ycf jif |mrjfyz d xvhhfxxv` mwwrdmhcfx yd wdfyjh rfhjymyjda!

Nfmacj`f my ycf Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda Xyfwcfa Zdvab `fi ycf if|f`dw.

nfay d m h`mxxrddn maycd`dbz dr ycf hdnwfyjyjda! Ycf oddk cjhc cf

mai Ima Xydaf fijyfi jah`vifi ==9 wdfnx hmrfv``z xf`fhyfi yd wrfxfay m

ij|frxf rmabf d ycfnfx xyz`fx cjxydrjhm` wfrjdix mai hv`yvrm` yrmijyjdax!

Ycf Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda xvww`fnfayfi ycf wrjayfi maycd`dbz jyc m fo.

xjyf hdaymjajab mwwrdsjnmyf`z dvr cvairfi xf`fhyjdax! Brmivm``z ycjx da`jaf

maycd`dbz cmx brda yd xf|fa cvairfi wdfnx wrd|jijab hdayfxymayx mai

jaxyrvhydrx jyc ma fayjhjab rmabf d wdxxjoj`jyjfx dr f|frz `f|f` d ycf

hdnwfyjyjda!

Ja hrfmyjab ma faivrjab wvo`jh fayfrwrjxf |m`jimyjda dxyfrx |m`jimyjda!

Maz af |fayvrf nvxy xvhhfxxv``z ijxw`mz ycf xymaimrix oz cjhc jy mayx

yd of evibfi! Ja if|f`dwjab ycf amyjdam` am`x f hmrfv``z hrmyfi m xfrjfxd wvo`jh f|fayx ycmy dvì xvwwdry ycf wrdbrmn‚x |jxjoj`jyz mai jnwdrymahf!

Ycfz cmi yd cdì ycfjr da ja Rmxcjabyda m hjyz hrdifi jyc fshffi.

jab`z f``.fsfhvyfi wvo`jh wrdbrmnx! Ycf am` f|fayx m`xd affifi yd mwwfm`

yd nv`yjw`f hdaxyjyvfahjfx’xyvifayx wdfyx yfmhcfrx wd`jyjhjmax mai ycf

wrfxx! Wdfyrz cmx ofhdnf xvhc m xwfhjm`jufi mhyj|jyz ja dvr xdhjfyz ycmy xdnf

`jyfrmyj njbcy idvoy ycmy ma jah`vxj|f mai fshjyjab wvo`jh f|fay hma of hrf.

myfi jycdvy ivnojab f|frzycjab ida! Ycf Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi am`x cm|f

ifndaxyrmyfi ycmy m hdnwf``jab mai mryjxyjhm``z rjhc f|fay hma of hrfmyfi dr m bfafrm` mvijfahf! Xwfhjm` hmrf fmhc zfmr cmx bdaf jayd xf`fhyjab m ij|frxf

ijxyjabvjxcfi wmaf` d evibfx cjhc cmx jah`vifi Bmrrjxda Kfj``dr Mumr

Amxj Yzaf Im`z Hmrd`jaf Kfaafiz Xhc`dxxofrb mai Amymxcm Yrfycffz!





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Dvy @dvi |jryvm``z m`` d ycf Mry Faidnfay‚x xvwwdry dr wdfyrz dhvxfi

da mxxjxyjab jyx hrfmyjda’jaij|jivm` f``dxcjwx dr wdfyx mai yrmax`mydrx

xvoxjijfx dr wrfxxfx mai nmbmujafx xvo|fayjdax dr mryjxyx‚ hd`dajfx wdfyrz

drbmajumyjdax mai rjyfrx‚ hfayfrx! Rcj`f ycf AFM cf`wfi xvwwdry wdfyjhhrfmyj|jyz ycf mvijfahf dr wdfyrz ifh`jafi xvoxymayjm``z! Ofyffa =::6 mai

?77? dr fsmnw`f ycf wfrhfaymbf d V!X! miv`yx cd rfmi maz wdfyrz f`` oz

ma m`mrnjab 87 wfrhfay rdn ?7!6 yd =9!8’m`ndxy daf.ycjri d ycf mvij.

fahf |majxcfi ja `fxx ycma m ifhmif- Jy mx yjnf yd yrz m af xyrmyfbz! Wfr.

cmwx daf mz d cf`wjab wdfyx mai wdfyrz mx yd rfovjì ycfjr mvijfahf! Mry

idfx ady fmxj`z ycrj|f ja jxd`myjda! Mx Rm`y Rcjynma doxfr|fi ‐Yd cm|f

brfmy wdfyx ycfrf nvxy of brfmy mvijfahfx ydd!„ Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi dhvxfi

da if|f`dwjab m `mrbf af mvijfahf mndab Mnfrjhma yffambfrx’maiycrdvbc ycfn mndab wmrfayx yfmhcfrx mai ycf bfafrm` wvo`jh!

Ycjri Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi cmx fswmaifi ycf mvijfahf dr wdfyrz! Ycf

wrdbrmn cmx jaxwjrfi cvairfix d ycdvxmaix d Mnfrjhma yffambfrx yd

nfndrjuf wdfnx! Orjabjab ycfxf xyvifayx jayd m iffw mai wfrxdam` rf`m.

yjdaxcjw jyc wdfyrz my m wdjay ja ycfjr `j|fx cfa ycfz mrf fsw`drjab ycfjr

miv`y jifayjyjfx j`` xvrf`z hrfmyf nmaz af `jf`dab rfmifrx! Ycf ?7=7 xyv.

ifay wmryjhjwmyjda d 8?6777 wrdomo`z hdaxyjyvyfx m hdcdry m`ndxy mx `mrbf

mx ycf hdrf miv`y rfmifrxcjw d Mnfrjhma wdfyrz! Mx ycf wrdbrmn hdayjavfx

mhrdxx ycf afsy ifhmif jyx m`vnaj j`` avnofr ja ycf nj``jdax!

Ldvryc ycf wrdbrmn‚x wdwv`mrjyz cmx cf`wfi rfrfxc mai fswmai ycf

mz wdfyrz jx ymvbcy ja cjbc xhcdd`! Nfndrjumyjda mai wfrdrnmahf mrf

rjbcy`z rfbmjajab ycfjr w`mhf ofxjif hrjyjhm` mam`zxjx’nmkjab ycf mry ndrf

mhhfxxjo`f yd nmaz xyvifayx cd njbcy dycfrjxf ai jy d|fr`z hfrform` mai

jayjnjimyjab! Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi m`xd jah`vifx ma f`fnfay f wfdw`f nfa.

yjda’`jxyfajab! Xyvifayx ady da`z nfndrjuf wdfnx ovy m`xd cfmr ycfnrfhjyfi oz h`mxxnmyfx mai hdnwfyjydrx! Ivrjab ycf ffkx d ycf hdnwfyj.

yjda ycfz mrf jnnfrxfi ja m hv`yvrf d wdfyrz mx jayfaxf mx maz hd``fbf

hdvrxf! Ycjx fswfrjfahf ordmifax ycfjr mnj`jmrjyz jyc mai iffwfax ycfjr

hdaafhyjdax yd ycf mry!

Ljam``z ycf mhyj|jyjfx dxyfrfi oz Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi cm|f cf`wfi orjab

wdfyrz omhk jayd wvo`jh hv`yvrf’ja afxwmwfrx da rmijd mai yf`f|jxjda my

hj|jh f|fayx mai xhcdd` mxxfno`jfx! Ycf nfijm hd|frmbf jx ady da`z fadr.

ndvx mai brdjab; jy jx m`xd xvrwrjxjab`z xnmry! Ycf nfijm `d|f maavm`f|fayx mai ycfz yfai yd jnwrd|f xvhc hd|frmbf fmhc zfmr! Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi

cmx m`xd bj|fa ycdvxmaix d edvram`jxyx hdnnfaymydrx wrdbrmnnfrx mai

fijydrx m hcmahf yd mjr ycfjr `d|f dr wdfyrz! Ofhmvxf d jyx xjuf fshf``fahf





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Ycf Vaj|frxjyz dl Mrjudam Wdfyrz Hfayfr

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Rf df cmy f mrf yd ycf hdnnvajyjfx ycmy cm|f drnfi vx!

’Cmojyx d ycf Cfmry

Ycjryz zfmrx mbd J nmif m hrdxx.hdvayrz rdmi yrjw rdn adrycfra \fr.

nday cfrf J cmi `j|fi dr m ifhmif d xf`.fsj`f ja ycf h`mrjzjab Adrycird|f yd Af Zdrk Hjyz yd wjhk vw nz ycfa.`d|fr cd mx xyvizjab mry

my ycf Hddwfr Vajda mai rd``fi dvy jayd ycf Mnfrjhma Rfxy! Ycjx mx

nz rxy yrjw fxy d ycf Njxxjxxjwwj! Nz imvbcyfr mx ja odmrijab xhcdd`

m xhcd`mrxcjw.jaivhfi rfwrjf|f dr nf rdn ycf ovrifax d xjab`f wmrfay.

jab! Nz hdnwmajda mai J frf ordkf ja `d|f mai cmwwz dr ycf rdmi!

Rf wjyhcfi dvr yfay ja m hd wmxyvrf ja Wfaaxz`|majm mkjab yd m hjrh`f

d hvrjdvx Cd`xyfjax myhcjab dvr x`ffw! Rf kfwy rd``jab da dvy jayd ycf

dwfa wdxxjoj`jyz d ycf Brfmy W`mjax! J‚i offa rjyjab wdfnx dr zfmrx mairfmijab cvabrj`z yd yrz yd bvrf cmy ycjx mry mx ycmy irf nf rxy

xfr|jab mx m ndifrajxy mhd`zyf ja `d|f jyc F`jdy mai Zfmyx; ycfa m``jab

dr ycf fndyjdam` fsyrfnjxn d @df`` W`myc mai Xfsyda; ycfa `maijab



Wfdw`f Cmojymy Wdfyrz p =62

ja ycf omhkzmri d wdfyx mxxdhjmyfi jyc ycf Xma Lrmahjxhd _famjxxmahf

mai O`mhk Ndvaymja Hd``fbf! J cmi ofhdnf xadoojxc modvy nz wdfyjh

mfhyjdax cjhc xyrjkfx nf ad mx ma dfaxj|f amrrdafxx ma mfxycfyjh

wmrdhcjm`jxn ycmy nmif nf jifayjz nzxf` jyc daf brdvw oz dwwdxjabdycfrx! J mx `ddkjab dr xdnfycjab `mrbfr ja nzxf` xdnf |jxym ndrf

fswmaxj|f ycma ycf dra.dvy Af Fab`mai cj` `x mai m wdfyjhx yrvf yd nz

da hcmrmhyfr mai fswfrjfahf! J iji ady may yd of m hmrjhmyvrf d wdfyx

cd cmi hdnf ofdrf nf!

Rf hmnwfi da m ijry rdmi ja Yfsmx myfr m rfmk jhf xydrn wjyhcjab ycf

yfay ja x`ffy ycmy hdmyfi ycf brdvai ffix fahf jrfx yfay xyrvyx mai

az`da jyc xcffajab jhf! Rf frf fscmvxyfi yd ycf odaf rdn ycf jhf.rdmi

yfrrdr! Ja ycf brmz ndrajab f dkf yd m nf`yjab drì mai dvai ycmyf‚i wjyhcfi dvr yfay ofxjif ycf hdrwxf d m idb m yrm|f`fr `fxx dryvamyf da

ycmy wfrj`dvx rdmi! Oz ycf yjnf f bdy yd Yvhxda f frf rfmiz yd of

cdvxfi dahf mbmja mai yddk vw ycf ja|jymyjda yd xymz jyc nz `d|fr‚x

ordycfr m brmivmyf xyvifay ja mrji `maix! Rcfa cf cfmri J mx m wdfy cf

ydì nf ycmy ycf Vaj|frxjyz d Mrjudam cmi m Wdfyrz Hfayfr! Cf cmi ycmy

`ddk da cjx mhf ycmy xmji cf kaf J‚i of xvrwrjxfi yd ai xvhc m ycjab dvy

ja ycf ifxfry! Cf odmxyfi ycmy ycf Hfayfr cmi ma mrhcj|f d wdfyrz rfhdri.

jabx! J mx xadoojxc`z xkfwyjhm` hfrymja ycf w`mhf dvì cm|f adaf d ycf

wdfyx cd nmyyfrfi yd nf!

J mx my ycf yjnf fshjyfi oz Kmyc`ffa Lrmxfr cdxf oddk Af Xcdfx

cmi evxy hdnf dvy! J `d|fi ycf Nmbrjyyf wdfnx mai ycf mz dycfrx rmabfi

mhrdxx ycf wmbf m``djab mjr mai vahfrymjayz jayd ycf wdfnx! Xcf rdyf d

‐ff`jab wv``fi m`dab oz drhfx ady }vjyf f|fa ja daf‚x hdayrd`„ mai J

vaifrxyddi nzxf` yd of ma mwwrfayjhf yd ycmy ff`jab ycf ifxjrf yd of xf`.

wdxxfxxfi mai rfhk`fxx`z dwfa m`` my dahf! J nmif nz mz yd ycf ffizovabm`d da ycf fibf d hmnwvx ordxfi ycf rjhkfyz xcf`|fx `jafi jyc

wdfyrz oddkx mai dvai ycf xnm`` w`mxyjh `f ods cdìjab yfayz zfmrx‚

dryc d hmxxfyyf ymwfx jah`vijab m rfhdrijab d Kmyc`ffa Lrmxfr rfmijab

cfrf da Xfwyfnofr ?: =:22! Mx J rjyf ycjx J wv`` ycf oddk d nz wfr.

xdam` `jormrz xcf`|fx mai ai ycmy Af Xcdfx xwdryx Eda Maifrxda‚x

faidrxfnfay’‐Ycfxf mrf xyvaajab wdfnx ! ! ! [cjhc^ drn m kjai d `my.

yjhfdrk dr fsyfrjdr afr|dvx xzxyfn ! ! ! m brfmy bv`w d wvrf dszbfa„’mai

hd|fr mry oz Yvhxda‚x Bmj` Nmrhvx Dr`fa! Ycf Wdfyrz Hfayfr rdn nz |frzrxy |jxjy hcmabfi nz xfaxf d ycf amyjdam` `jyfrmrz nmw mai nmif nf

rfm`juf ycmy cmy J mx xffkjab mx ady evxy m xf`.mhyvm`jujab |djhf ovy `jy.

frmrz hdnnvajyz!





Wfdw`f Cmojymy Wdfyrz p =6:

cd jy fahdvrmbfi cfr zdvab xda yd rfmi wdfyrz ‐jycdvy jayfrnfijmrjfx!„

Xcf m`xd xm ycmy ycf vaj|frxjyz mx if|dyjab ndrf mai ndrf d jyx rfxdvrhfx

yd xhjfahf mai yfhcad`dbz mai xcf mayfi yd wrdyfhy m hv`yvrm` xwmhf dr

wdfyrz!

Xyfwcma mx ady ycf kjai d idadr cd rjyfx m hcfhk mai ijxmwwfmrx!

Ja miijyjda yd cfr drjbjam` idamyjda d wrdwfryz ofyffa =:<7 mai =:2?

xcf nmif bjyx d wdfyrz oddkx `jxyx d oddkx yd wvrhcmxf m xfhrfymrz m

cdvxfkffwfr hvrymjax vrajyvrf Xdvycfxyfra mry mai mryjmhyx ndafz mai

Rm`brffa xydhkx #xcf mx ycf imvbcyfr d Hcmr`fx Rm`brffa Hcjhmbd irvb

xydrf fsfhvyj|f* mai xcf xfhvrfi m of}vfxy d Rm`brffa xydhkx rdn cfr

ndycfr! Xcf wvrhcmxfi |f miijyjdam` `dyx mai idamyfi ycfn yd ycf Hfayfr

fa|jxjdajab hdaxyrvhyjda d jyx wfrnmafay cdnf! Xcf rdyf ma j``vnjamyjab

fxxmz da hd``fhyjda if|f`dwnfay ja cjhc xcf fnwcmxjufi ycf ofmvyz mai

wczxjhm`jyz d ycf oddk mai ycf jnwdrymahf d wdfyrz‚x rddyx ja jaijbfadvx

xdab mai jyx ldfrjab ja drì `jyfrmyvrfx! ‐Ycf avh`fvx d ycf hd``fhyjda„

xcf rdyf ‐xcdvì of ycf mhkad`fibfi brfmy wdfyx d m`` hdvayrjfx ja ycf

drì ydbfycfr jyc ycf drfndxy `j|jab wdfyx ja dvr hdvayrz! Ycjx jx fxxfa.

yjm` ja Mnfrjhm cdxf wdwv`myjda jx nv`yj.mahfxyrm`!„Xyfwcma `j|fi oz ycf yfafyx d cfr |jxjda mai rfnmjafi m frhf xyfmri

d jyx |m`vfx! Lrdn =:92 yd =:9: xcf mai cfr cvxomai wmjayfr Edca Xyfwcma

hdfijyfi ycf m|may.bmrif edvram` d mry mai rjyjab Ycf Yjbfr‚x Fzf cjhc

mx hf`formyfi ja m ?77? fscjojy my ycf Zm`f Vaj|frxjyz Bm``frz mai cjhc

Im|ji Mamn hm``fi ‐m xfjxndbrmwc yd ycf hdnw`fs hv`yvrm` ndnfay d ycf

`myf =:97x ja Mnfrjhm!„ Xyfwcma yrm|f`fi yd Wfrv yd hd``fhy ]vfhcvm xdabx

mai ym`fx wvo`jxcfi mx Ycf Xjabjab Ndvaymjaffrx ja =:62 oz ycf Vaj|frxjyz d

Yfsmx Wrfxx! Xcf wvo`jxcfi yd cjxydrjhm` ad|f`x! Xcf yrm|f`fi yd Emwma jaxfmrhc d m }vjfy w`mhf yd rjyf mai dvai cfrxf` m xyvifay d Ufa Ovi.

icjxn wvo`jxcjab ycf fxxmz ‐Ycf Ufa Wrjfxyx mai Ycfjr Xjs Wfrxjnndax„ ja

Cmrwfr‚x ja =:<? mai nmkjab ycf idhvnfaymrz `n Ufa ja _z¤ dk¤ d.ja! Ifhmifx

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ofdrf ycf ovuudrix d nv`yjhv`yvrm`jxn mai ij|frxjyz ofhmnf voj}vjydvx

Xyfwcma mryjhv`myfi m |jxjda mai wrmhyjhf ycmy fnodijfi ycfn!

Ycf wrdhfxx d ovjìjab hdnnvajyz dwfafi vw mai hcmabfi d|fr yjnf

mx jy j`` id! Xyfwcma mx ady ja m|dr d cdxyjab rfmijabx fmrjab ycmy ycfz‚iyvra jayd miijxc hf`formyjdax d m|drjyjxn! Ovy jy mx ycf rfmijab xfrjfx

`mvahcfi ja =:<= jyc |jxjyx oz Xyma`fz Kvajyu mai Kfaafyc _fsrdyc ycmy

ordvbcy ycf hdnnvajyz ydbfycfr’d``djab ycf mvxwjhjdvx ifijhmyjda

hfrfndaz my cjhc _dofry Lrdxy mai ycfa.V!X! _fwrfxfaymyj|f Xyfmry

Vim`` wrfxjifi! Edca Kfaafiz cmi evxy offa f`fhyfi wrfxjifay mai my ycf

Yvhxda bmycfrjab Lrdxy mai Vim`` hddkfi vw ycf jifm d cm|jab m wdfy rfmi

my ycf vwhdnjab wrfxjifayjm` jamvbvrmyjda! Lrdn jyx rxy wvo`jh hfrfndaz

ycfa ycf Wdfyrz Hfayfr mx `jakfi yd ycf amyjdam` ycfmyfr d wd`jyjhx! Jy ijiady cvry ycf ordmifr hmvxf ycmy ycf rxy ijrfhydr d ycf Hfayfr xfay m `fyyfr

yd ndrf ycma daf cvairfi wdfyx drìjif ja|jyjab ycfn yd xwfai yjnf ja

ycf Hfayfr‚x bvfxy hdyymbf! Da ycf `dhm` xhfaf mvijfahf if|f`dwnfay

ycrdvbc ycf =:<7x mai =:27x mx m cdnfnmif mmjr d nmkjab wcdaf hm``x

yd wrdfxxdrx mai rjyfrx rvaajab wdxyfrx mrdvai yda mai cmabjab ycfn

ja hdnnfrhjm` |favfx jah`vijab jyc _vyc Xyfwcma‚x cf`w Rm`brffa‚x irvb

xydrfx! Mvijfahfx dr `jyfrmyvrf frf xyrdab rdn ycf xymry5 m hdvw`f cvairfi

dr Kvajyu mai _fsrdyc dvr cvairfi dr _dofry Ivahma ja =:<8 m xyva.

ajab yfayz.xjs cvairfi dr Mrhcjomì Nh@fjxc ja =:<6! Yvhxdamax `jkf yd

edkf ycmy ycfrf mx adycjab f`xf yd id ja yda ja ycdxf imzx! Ovy ycmy‚x ady

ycf cd`f xydrz!

Ycf idnjamay xydrz d ycf Mnfrjhma Rfxy hmrrjfx ycf lmb d Nmajfxy

Ifxyjaz’ycmy xfaxf d ‐ij|jaf„ wvrwdxf ycmy `fi ycf fmxyfra Mab`d hv`yvrf

yd fswmai jyx wd`jyjhm` mai fhdadnjh jalvfahf ‐rdn xfm yd xcjajab xfm!„ Jy

mx ma fycdx ofmrjab o`mifx mai ov``fyx jrda rmj`x mai xyff` j``x! Jy vxvrwfi`mai jacmojyfi oz Nfsjhmax mai Mnfrjhma Jaijmax ymkjab mai vxjab cmy.

f|fr jy mayfi njajab mai brmujab yd ycf avo ycfa nd|jab da! M mnj`jmr

xydrz oz ad ycjx fycdx cmx `dab offa ifndyfi oz ycf mabvjxc mai ijnja.

jxcnfay ycmy hmnf jyc jyx xfaxf d wrdbrfxx! Ovy ycjx mx af|fr ycf da`z

xydrz d ycf Rfxy! Xnm`` xydrjfx cm|f fnfrbfi jycja ycjx `mrbf daf xydrjfx

ja cjhc ijxyjahyj|f hv`yvrfx mai `maixhmwfx irf mryjxyx rjyfrx maycrd.

wd`dbjxyx mai xhjfayjxyx’ycf Ymdx d Nmof` Idibf I! C! @mrfahf Nmrx.

ifa Cmry`fz Bfdrbjm D‚Kfff’wfdw`f cd ordvbcy `fmrajab mai hv`yvrfrdn ycfjr cdnf w`mhfx ovy frf m`xd cvabrz yd `fmra rdn ycf `mai mai

ycf wfdw`f cd kaf ycf w`mhf jayjnmyf`z ycrdvbc bfafrmyjdax d `j|jab

oz jyx yfrnx!



Wfdw`f Cmojymy Wdfyrz p =<=

Ja Yvhxda daf xvhc jalvfahf mx fycadodymajxy Bmrz Wmv` Amocma

rfnjaix nf mx ycf Hmrafbjf Ldvaimyjda‚x `mvahc d ycf Ifxfry @modrm.

ydrz da Yvnmndh Cj`` ja =:78 ycf rxy rfxfmrhc xjyf if|dyfi yd ycf xyviz

d mrji `maix! My ycf yjnf Yvhxda‚x wdwv`myjda mx xf|fayz.|f cvairfimai ycf jalvs d xhjfayjxyx dhvxjab da ycjx w`mhf cf`wfi farjhc ycf yda mx

jy ofbma yd brd! J ycjak jy jx mjr yd xmz ycmy _vyc Xyfwcma‚x hdayrjovyjdax

yd Yvhxda mrf wmry d ycjx hv`yvrm` ld afhdnfrx fswfhyjab m `f|f` d hv`.

yvrf ycfz cmi kada ja `mrbfr hjyjfx xvhc mx Af Zdrk mai Hcjhmbd ovy

cd m`xd nmif ma fdry yd hf`formyf ycf dìfr hv`yvrfx ycmy frf ja w`mhf!

Xcf |m`vfi ycf hdnnvam` jifayjyz fswfrjfahfi ja mry ycmy hrdxxfx bfafrm.

yjdax mai hdayjafayx! Xcf iji ady drfxff cd xjbajhmay ycf hdnnvajyz‚x

rd`f dvì of ja ycf `jf d ycf Wdfyrz Hfayfr!

J‚|f fnwcmxjufi Xyfwcma‚x rd`f ofhmvxf J of`jf|f cfr wmxxjda cmx offa

yrmax`myfi mai hmrrjfi da oz nmaz wfdw`f cd xcmrfi ja ycf Hfayfr‚x xyf.

mrixcjw d|fr ycf wmxy yz zfmrx! @djx Xcf`yda nfrjyx xwfhjm` nfayjda mx xcf

xfr|fi mx ycf Wdfyrz Hfayfr‚x ijrfhydr rdn =:27 vayj` =::7! Rcj`f ofjab m

|jbj`may d|frxffr d ycf Hfayfr‚x faidnfay xcf dfrfi mrn cdxwjym`jyz

yd rjyfrx; xcf mai cfr cvxomai wdfy _jhcmri Xcf`yda yddk wdfyx da dvy.

jabx jayd ycf ifxfry yd ycf Mrjudam.Xdadrm Ifxfry Nvxfvn dr yd ycf Xma

Sm|jfr Njxxjda! Ycfz af|fr `dxy xjbcy d cd rfnmrkmo`f ycf ifxfry jx yd

afhdnfrx! Ycf hd``fhyjda d wdfnx rjyyfa oz |jxjyjab rjyfrx #NmzXfaxda @vhj``f H`jyda Hmrd`za Kjufr M` Zdvab fyh!* ja ycf Xcf`ydax‚

cdadr’mai ja ycmy d ycf Xdadrma Ifxfry’yfxyjfx yd ycf }vm`jyz d fswf.

rjfahf ycfjr cdxwjym`jyz dfrfi! Ja ?77? Bmj` Ordaf ofhmnf ijrfhydr

dfrjab wrfhjxf`z ycf xfy d `fmifrxcjw xkj``x ja drbmajumyjda mai if|f`dw.

nfay mai ycf orj``jmay`z xyfmiz yfnwfrmnfay ycmy nmif ycf f`fbmay mai

ja|jyjab af mhj`jyz m rfm`jyz!

Rcfa J nd|fi yd Yvhxda ja =::7 yd ofhdnf ijrfhydr d ycf Hfayfr m

yfayc.bfafrmyjda Af Fab`maifr cd cmi j|fi dr dryz.dvr d cfr dryz.|f zfmrx ja Af Fab`mai J kaf J cmi m `dy yd `fmra! J cmi offa drkjab

mx hddrijamydr d ycf rjyjab f``dxcjw wrdbrmn my ycf Ljaf Mryx Rdrk

Hfayfr ja Wrd|jahfyda cfrf J cmi offa m wdfyrz f``d ycf `mxy xyjay d

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m ifhmif.`dab yrmaxjyjda rdn m cmri hcmwyfr d `jf ycmy ofbma cfa J mx

m wrfbamay hd``fbf irdwdvy mai faifi myfr yd ifhmifx d drk ja mnj`z

w`maajab mai wvo`jh cfm`yc wrdbrmnx ja adrycfra Af Fab`mai! J f`` jayd

ycjx drk ivrjab @zaida Edcaxda‚x Rmr da Wd|fryz rxy mx m wmrmwrdfx.xjdam` dvyrfmhc drkfr dr W`maafi Wmrfaycddi d \frnday mai `mxy mx m

rfxfmrhcfr mai rjyfr dr ycf Bd|fradr‚x Ymxk Ldrhf da Yffa Wrfbamahz ja

Nmjaf! Rcmy J cmi fswfrjfahfi mx m yffa ndycfr’wd|fryz xyrvbb`f evib.

nfay mai iffw wfrxdam` rfmri’mx ady rfwrfxfayfi ja ycf wrdfxxjdam`

mhf J drf ja ycdxf wdxjyjdax cjhc frf m`` modvy cf`wjab dycfrx m``

modvy ofjab d xfr|jhf yd ycdxf cd `mhkfi cfm`yc hmrf jadrnmyjda mai

xfr|jhfx! J cmi xyrvbb`fi ycrdvbc m iddnfi yffa nmrrjmbf rmjxjab nz

imvbcyfr ndxy`z da nz da ja m `jf ycmy ad xffnx yd cm|f offa ofj`.ifrjab`z ijhv`y! My ycf yjnf jy xffnfi rjbcy yd nmkf wczxjhm` hcm``fabf

ycf xymryjab wdjay d xf`.ja|fayjda!

Bfy vw ofdrf ima ovjì ddi rfx yd cfmy ycf wfrnfmo`f dì mrn.

cdvxf mkf imvbcyfr ja hdì cjkf yd omra yd nj`k bdmy bmycfr fbbx myfr

mai brmja ycf cdrxf xhmrf mmz ycf ds xhdvyjab ycf cfacdvxf orfmkmxy

ycf imvbcyfr wmhk vw cfr `vahc ymkf cfr yd xhcdd` irj|f ma cdvr ja ycf

xad yd bfy yd drk! _fwfmy hcdrfx ja ycf f|fajab! _fmi xydrjfx mai ndrf

xydrjfx yd imvbcyfr cd cmyfi ofiyjnf! Ljai xyj`` mai }vjfy cdvrx ja ycf

ajbcy yd rjyf! Omak ycf rf! Xymhk ddi dr ndrajab! X`ffw ja ycf hdì!

Ldr m idufa zfmrx J vaifrxyddi ycf ifxjrf yd of m rjyfr mx ycf cvabfr dr

cmy \jrbjajm Rdd` ymvbcy m dnma xcf affifi5 m rddn d cfr da!

Ycrdvbc ycfxf zfmrx J rdyf mai rfmi wdfyrz5 Rfaif`` Ofrrz‚x ‐Nmi

Lmrnfr„ wdfnx Efrdnf _dycfaofrb‚x Yfhcajhjmax d ycf Xmhrfi W`myc mai

Xfsyda mai @df`` Kjaaf`` mai Nfrja mai @f|fryd| Ivahma mai Hrff.

`fz mai Idra Xyfja mai Mwd``jamjrf mai Afrvim! J vaifrxyddi ycmy `ma.bvmbf mx ycf yfycfr ycmy cfì wdfyx yd `jf mai yd ycf cvnma mnj`z ja m``

jyx mabvjxc mai hdayrmijhyjda! J rfmi mazycjab nz rjfaix’f``d vroma

rfvbffx’cmaifi nf mai J rdyf oz cmai da m ifxk nmif d dì fmyc.

frfi omra odmrix ddixyd|f ormhjab nf mbmjaxy ycf ajbcy! J rdyf `jxy

wdfnx modvy ycf evak J cmi h`fmafi dvy d nz ddixcfi ja ycmy rmn.

xcmhk`f cdnf’cdrxf cmrafxxfx mai hmaajab emrx ycf rday wmbf d m afx.

wmwfr rdn ycf imz ycf Cjaifaovrb hrmxcfi ja lmnfx mai emrx v`` d x}vmrf.

hvy cdnfnmif amj`x! J rdyf wdfnx modvy ycf hdì mrnjab xymrx nvxkrmyxmai `daf`jafxx! J jnjymyfi f|frzycjab J rfmi! J f`` ja `d|f jyc ycf xj`fahf my

ycf fai d nz wfa ycf xfaxf ycmy hdvì xwj`` rdn ycmy xj`fahf mai ycf



Wfdw`f Cmojymy Wdfyrz p =<8

nvxjh ycmy hdvì irj|f `mabvmbf dvy d jyx imrk cmojymy ja ycf afvrm` drfxy

d nz njai mai dayd ycf dwfa fì d ycf wmbf!

J rdyf ycmy mz dr zfmrx xcdjab drk yd ad daf ovy m f dycfr

h`dxfyfi wdfyx cd xcmrfi nz faycvxjmxnx dr ycf ofmvyz d drix maiycfjr yfaifahz yd m`` jayd drn! J iji ady vaifrxymai ycmy `mabvmbf mx m

hdnnvam` wdxxfxxjda ycmy yd rjyf mx yd edja ja m hd``fhyj|f fayfrwrjxf

ycmy rfmhcfi m`` ycf mz omhk yd h`mz ymo`fyx mai wmwzrvx yd ycf iffw`z dì

cvnma ifxjrf dr xcmrjab xydrz mai xdab!

J kad ycjx jx m dab ijbrfxxjda jayd yfrrmja mwwmrfay`z m`jfa yd ycf nmy.

yfr my cmai cjhc jx yd fsw`drf ycf |m`vfx ycmy xcmwfi ycf `jf d ycf Vaj.

|frxjyz d Mrjudam Wdfyrz Hfayfr! Ovy jy jx m afhfxxmrz ijbrfxxjda ofhmvxf

ycdvbc ycf ifymj`x |mrz xydrjfx d mryjxyjh mwwrfayjhfxcjw dyfa `fm|f dvy ycf

jnwdrymahf d aijab hdnnvajyz! Daf hma xjy ja m rddn d daf‚x da

vayj` ycf m``wmwfr wff`x rdn ycf m``x af|fr kadjab j daf‚x drix cm|f

ycf hmwmhjyz yd orjibf ycf ijxymahf ofyffa dafxf` mai dycfrx! Rjycdvy ycf

hdnnvam` xfaxf d mry‚x drhf daf hma fmkfa jayd mjyc`fxxafxx cfa mh.

jab ycf o`mak wmbf! Jy yddk nf m `dab yjnf yd rfm`juf ycmy afmr`z f|frz

mi|mahf J nmif mx m rjyfr hmnf ja hdahfry jyc xdnfdaf‚x wmxxjab m`dab

ycf drk d m of`d|fi mvycdr d nz myyfaijab m wdfyrz rfmijab dr `vhkjabjayd m rjyjab hdnnvajyz’rxy mai drfndxy ycf daifrv` |dryfs d

mamrhcjxyjh fafrbz ycmy mx Wdfy‚x Njnfd Hddwfrmyj|f ja Ovr`jabyda \fr.

nday ivrjab ycf =:27x mai `myfr da dycfr brdvwx #\frnday Hd``fbf NLM

ycf Ljaf Mryx Rdrk Hfayfr ja Wrd|jahfyda mai Xymadri‚x Xyfbafr Lf`.

`dxcjw wrdbrmnx*’ycmy `fi nf yd ff` ycf wdfr d m hd``fhyj|f fswfrj.

fahf d mry!

Wdfy‚x Njnfd mx dvaifi oz wdfyx Yjakfr Brffaf mai Ovi @mrfahf!

Ycfz ijia‚y rfm``z cm|f ma mfxycfyjh ms yd brjai fshfwy yd orjab xwjrjy maiw`mz jayd ycf `jf d mry! Wvo`jhmyjdax #rva d da ycf irvn d ma dì njn.

fdbrmwc nmhcjaf ja fijyjdax d `fxx ycma m cvairfi* frf ma myfrycdvbcy

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yd xcmrjab m hfrymja fafrbz modvy ycf mry! Ycf wdfyx cdxyfi rfmijabx my bm`.

`frjfx hdffcdvxfx mai m rfcdvxf ycmy cmi ofhdnf m hdnnvajyz hfayfr!

Yjakfr `fi h`mxxfx cjhc dyfa mx ady nfy ja xdnfdaf‚x `j|jab rddn dhvx.

jab da Bfryrvif Xyfja Fi Idra Bvj``mvnf Mwd``jamjrf _dofry IvahmaLrmak D‚Cmrm Mairf Orfyda hvy.vw mai hdahrfyf wdfnx! Ldr m ?77= mryj.

h`f da ycjx njhrd nd|fnfay #cyyw5$$!2i|y!hdn$?77=$yjnf.wmxxmbfx*

Ovi @mrfahf xmji ‐Jy mx m |frz zfmxyz yjnf m xdry d xfyy`jab ida dvy d

ycf jìafxx d ycf ‚<7x jycdvy bfyyjab rji d ydd nvhc d ycf jìafxx ja

yfrnx d mry mai `jyfrmyvrf!„ Hdnjab dvy d m wfrjdi d xf`.fsj`f J ofhmnf

hdnnjyyfi yd ycf xdhjm` vahyjda mai w`fmxvrf d mry!

J yddk ycfxf |m`vfx’fswfrjfahfx ycmy cmi ofbva yd xd`jijz jayd |m`.

vfx’jyc nf yd Yvhxda! J cmi hdnf rdn ycf Ljaf Mryx Rdrk Hfayfr

#LMRH* ja Wrd|jahfyda cfrf J offa m wdfyrz f``d mai ycfa rjyjab

wrdbrmn hddrijamydr ja ycf =:37x! LMRH jx m adymo`f mryx jaxyjyvyjda

dvaifi oz rjyfrx mai mryjxyx mndab ycfn Xyma`fz Kvajyu cdxf xwjrjy

cd|frx d|fr xf|frm` d ycf wrdefhyx ifxhrjofi ja ycjx hd``fhyjda! Ycf jifm yd

dfr `dab.yfrn #xf|fa.ndayc* rfxjifahjfx yd yfayz rjyfrx mai mryjxyx

fmr`z ja ycfjr hmrffrx mx xwvrrfi oz ycf dvaifrx‚ of`jf ycmy cmy mryjxyjh|dhmyjda rf}vjrfi ndxy d m`` mx ycf rffidn yd drk mndab `jkf.njaifi

dycfrx! Ovy ycf LMRH dvaifrx frf m`xd hdnnjyyfi yd ja|fxyjab ja Wrd|.

jahfyda mx ycf amyjda‚x ndxy faivrjab mryx hd`daz! Mx hdnnfrhjm`jxn mx

ij`vyjab ycmy `fbmhz ycfz f`y ycmy ycf jalvs d ycf f``dx mai |jxjyjab mry.

jxyx dvì cf`w xffi m vyvrf ja cjhc ycmy `fbmhz dvì ady of `dxy yd

xcdwx mai hdaidx! J bmjafi rdn ycmy fswfrjfahf m brfmyfr hda|jhyjda ycmy

mryjxyx ja m nmaafr ycmy njbcy f`` of jnwdxxjo`f yd }vmayjz hma cf`w xcmwf

cmy m hdnnvajyz nfmax yd jyxf` mai yd dycfrx!Ycf Vaj|frxjyz d Mrjudam Wdfyrz Hfayfr cmi m ijxyjabvjxcfi ycjryz.

zfmr cjxydrz oz ycf yjnf J mrrj|fi ja Yvhxda! Jyx hd``fhyjda cmi hdayjavfi yd

brd ycmakx yd ycf Xyfwcma faidnfay ycf rfmijab xfrjfx cmi ldvrjxcfi

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vaijab cmi offa ij|frxjfi mndab wvo`jh mai wrj|myf xvwwdryfrx ycf

bvfxycdvxf m``x odrf ycf of`d|fi brmyj d |jxjyjab rjyfrx cd cmi x`fwy

ycfrf!

Zf|bfaz Zf|yvxcfakd ja =:2: rdyf ‐J o`fxx f|frzodiz vao`fxxfi oz Bdi

Ycdxf ja xcdfx mai ycdxf vaxcdi!„

Fimri Mòff ja =:37 rdyf

‐Ycf `fmxy ijxcdadrmo`f iffmy

jx ycf da`z cdadrmo`f bdm`!„

Rj``jmn Nmyycfx ja =:3= rdyf

‐Jxa‚y jy brfmy

Ady ofjab ifmi zfy-„

Mai Ifajxf @f|fryd| ja =:39 rdyf

‐Ycf wdfy.wdajfx xaj ycf orffuf;

Ycfz xhfay m rjfai`z xymo`f ! ! !

Ad ojy dr orji`f ycfrf yd yfmxf

Mai dmyx vwda ycf ymo`f!„

_jhcmri Xcf`yda mx rvaajab cjx wrjxda rjyjab drkxcdwx ycf NLM

wrdbrmn mx fxymo`jxcfi ja =:29 rjyfrx ja ycf rfmijab xfrjfx rdvyjaf`z

nmif |jxjyx yd `dhm` cjbc xhcdd`x yd rfmi mai bj|f drkxcdwx ycf Rm`brffa

faidnfay brf yd ndrf ycma daf nj``jda id``mrx ifijhmyfi yd `jormrz

mh}vjxjyjdax xyvifay mmrix mai rfmijabx cf`wfi ovjì mvijfahf dr af

rjyfrx hdnnvajyz mai xyvifay rjyfrx cvab dvy mai `dmfi my ycfjr fmxfda ycf Hfayfr‚x hdvhcfx mai |jxjyjab rjyfrx }vjyf `jyfrm``z `fy nmrkx d

brmyjyvif da ycf bvfxycdvxf m``x! Ycf hdaxyf``myjda d wrdbrmnx mai

rfxdvrhfx ycf Hfayfr dfrfi mx va`jkf maz dycfr wdfyrz mhj`jyz ja ycf

hdvayrz! J f`y jnnfijmyf`z odyc ycf ijbajyz d jyx cjxydrz mai ycf wdyfayjm`

dr jyx vyvrf!

Cdf|fr ycf myfx d vroma if|f`dwnfay mai vaj|frxjyz fswmaxjda xfy

vw m f ifydvrx! Ycjx `fi yd daf d ycf Hfayfr‚x ndxy hcm``fabjab ifhmifx!

Ja =:3: ycf Wdfyrz Hfayfr‚x drjbjam` yd ovjìjabx frf ifnd`jxcfi dr mhjyz wrdefhy yd jifa Xwffimz Odv`f|mri `dab jamndvx dr jyx =:27x @jf

nmbmujaf ifxjbamyjda mx ‐ycf vb`jfxy rdmi ja Mnfrjhm!„Xjh yrmaxjy b`drjm nvaij !

Ycf hd``fhyjda mai bvfxycdvxf frf nd|fi yd yfnwdrmrz }vmryfrx’ycfa






)<!3 nj``jda id``mr ovjìjab jyc vaj|frxjyz xvwwdry hd|frjab da`z )=!:

nj``jda! Ycf xvhhfxx d ycf hmnwmjba cjhc xyrfyhcfi d|fr m ifhmif cmi

f|frzycjab yd id jyc hdnnvajyz odmri nfnofrx cd hdayrjovyfi yjnf

ndafz mai jalvfahf mx affifi! Ja miijyjda ycf Hfayfr wmryafrfi jyc ycfCvnmajyjfx Xfnjamrx Wrdbrmn cjhc dfrfi adahrfijy hdvrxfx ‐dr hdn.

nvajyz nfnofrx ja xfrjdvx wvrxvjy d jayf``fhyvm` xyjnv`myjda mai farjhc.

nfay„ mai `mhkfi m wfrnmafay cdnf da hmnwvx! Jyx hdaxyjyvfahz edjafi

dvrx ja hdnnda wvrwdxf mai rmjxfi vaix dr ma f`fbmay wrfxfaymyjda xwmhf

my ycf af Hfayfr!

Nz hdaifahf ja hdnnvajyz xvwwdry brf d|fr ycf zfmrx J xfr|fi mx

ijrfhydr #=::7‘?77?*! Jy xffnx dryc omhkyrmhkjab ad yd hdaxjifr m

ndnfay ja ycf Wdfyrz Hfayfr‚x cjxydrz cfa J ofbma yd mwwrfhjmyf ycf

rdovxy jayfrfxy ja wdfyrz mai ycf vaj}vf xyrfabycx d dvr hdnnvajyz! Ja

=::? @mrrz F|frx mai Df`jm Ufwfim `mvahcfi m xfnfxyfr.`dab hdvrxf mai

rfmijab xfrjfx dvy d ycf Mnfrjhma Jaijma Xyvijfx Wrdbrmn hdxwdaxdrfi oz

ycf Wdfyrz Hfayfr mai ycf Ifwmrynfay d Fab`jxc! ‐Wdfyjhx mai Wd`jyjhx„

ordvbcy ycjryffa d ycf ndxy mhhdnw`jxcfi Mnfrjhma Jaijma rjyfrx

#jah`vijab Xjnda Dryju Edz Cmred A! Xhdyy Ndnmimz @fx`jf Nmrnda

Xj`kd* yd hmnwvx dr rfmijabx! Ycf xfrjfx ofbma jyc xymaijab rddn da`z jaycf hvxydnmrz `fhyvrf cm`` cjhc xfmyfi m f cvairfi wfdw`f! Fmhc ffk

ycf rfmijab mx nd|fi yd m mrbfr cm`` mx mvijfahfx xf``fi! Rf daifrfi j

f‚i fai vw ja ycf omxkfyom`` xymijvn! Jy iji ady }vjyf hdnf yd ycmy ovy ycf

wdjay mx nmif dvy `dvi ycmy ycfrf mx m nvhc ndrf hdnnjyyfi mvijfahf

dr wdfyrz ja Yvhxda ycma f|fa f wmryjxmax cmi xvxwfhyfi! Ofzdai ycmy J

ofhmnf ndrf hda|jahfi ycmy xwfhjm` jayfrfxyx ja ycf mvijfahf dr wdfyrz mrf

m bddi ycjab mai affi ady of m xdvrhf dr hdayfayjda! Ycfrf mrf jaiffi

nv`yjw`f mvijfahfx dr wdfyrz!M rfmijab oz ma m|may.bmrif wdfy irf m ijfrfay mvijfahf ycma iji m

wdwv`jxy wdfy dr m @myjad wdfy dr m af drnm`jxy wdfy dr m ojdmhdvxyjhm`

hdnwdxfr dr m hf`formyjda oz cjbc xhcdd` xyvifayx d ycf yrmijyjdam` hdrrjid

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Wfdw`f Cmojymy Wdfyrz p =<:

myyfaijab ycf ovrbfdajab Cvnmajyjfx Xfnjamrx Wrdbrmn cd edja ja Xcdw

Ym`kx da wdfyrz mai wrdxf!

Fmr`z ja ycf ifxjba wrdhfxx ycf Wdfyrz Hfayfr cfì m xm`da jyc xym

hdnnvajyz |d`vayffrx mai mrhcjyfhyx yd ormjaxydrn modvy ycf rf`myjdaxcjwofyffa wdfyrz mai mrhcjyfhyvrf! Bmxyda Omhcf`mri‚x Wdfyjhx d Xwmhf hmnf

jayd ycf hda|frxmyjda! Wdfyrz jx m drn d ‐wrdyfhyfi jayjnmhz„ cf rdyf!

‐Ycf cdvxf m``dx daf yd irfmn ja wfmhf!„ Ycf wrj|myf `jf d ycf njai jx

ycf wrd|jahf d ycf wdfy mai ycf hdrf wrjahjw`f bd|frajab ycjx wrd|jahf jx

ycf mjyc ycmy oz myyfaijab yd jaafr jnwfrmyj|fx rmnjab ycfn jycja ycf

hdaxyrmjayx d mryjxyjh$`jabvjxyjh drn ycf wdfy rfmhcfx dvy yd rf|fm` dvr

xcmrfi cvnmajyz dvy d cjhc ycf xwjrjy d hdnnvajyz rjxfx!

Omhcf`mri yf``x ycf xydrz d ycf Lrfahc wdfy Xmjay.Wd`._dvs cd

odvbcy m xcjab hdyymbf wfrhcfi da m ivaf d ycf Orfyda hdmxy! Ycf wdfy

ifxjbafi mai ovj`y mrdvai ycjx cvno`f cvy m nmaz.ydfrfi nmadr cfrf

cf mai cjx mnj`z `j|fi! ‐Mai xdda odvai vw ja nz fbdyjxn„ Xmjay.Wd`.

_dvs rdyf ‐J drbfy vwxymry wfmxmay ycmy J mn ycmy ycf drjbjam` rfmxda dr

ycf nmadr cdvxf mx ycrdvbc mayjycfxjx yd famo`f nf yd rfm``z xff ycf hdy.

ymbf!„ J ycjak dyfa d ycmy rf`myjdaxcjw ofyffa cvy mai nmadr cfa nmr.

|f`jab my dvr xwfhymhv`mr af ovjìjab mai m`` ycf rfxwdaxjoj`jyjfx jy w`mhfx

da vx cd mrf dr ycf ndnfay hvxydijmax d jyx vyvrf! Dvr drjbja mx ma

jaxyjyvyjda rdxf }vjyf `jyfrm``z dvy d m hdvw`f d rvaida hdyymbfx! Mai

wdfyrz jx m cvno`f hjyjufa d ycf mry drì ady bj|fa yd hdnndijhmyjdadr xymridn! Cd ycf xnm`` mry$`mabvmbf$hv`yvrf jx yd xvr|j|f jyc jayfbrjyz

jycja ycf `mrbf jx m }vfxyjda dr dvr yjnf ycmy cmx nmaz rfxdamahfx! J ymkf

ycf nfymwcdr yd cfmry mai hf`formyf daf wmryjhv`mr rfxdamahf5 wdfyrz jx ycf

cvy; hdnnvajyz jx ycf nmadr!

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Ovjìjab Ndif`x ldr Wdfyrz Wrdbrmnnjab ja Hdnnvajyjfx’

Wdfyx Cdvxf

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Rcfa xhcdd`hcjìrfa |jxjy ycf Wdfyx Cdvxf `jormrz J xdnfyjnfx ff` J mn wrfxfay

my ycf ojryc d wdfyrz! M wm`wmo`f fafrbz nmajfxyx jyxf` ivrjab m h`mxx yrjw mx ycf

xyvifayx vaifrxymai ycmy wdfyrz jx m`j|f mai of`dabx yd ycfn- Dr cfa m wrdbrmn

mvijfahf jxyfax yd xdnfycjab xvrwrjxjab ja mabvmbf mai ycf bmycfrfi myyfayjda hrfmyfxma ja|jymyjda yd `jxyfa ndrf iffw`z! Ady yd xmz ycmy w`mhf jx afhfxxmrz yd ycjx kjai d

ijxhd|frz ovy jy hfrymja`z hma’mai idfx’mhj`jymyf m nfmax d fayrz mai xfaxf d

hdnnvajyz!

Rcfa Wdfyx Cdvxf dwfafi jyx af cdnf nz hd``fmbvfx mai J frf xvrwrjxfi

mx ycf hrdix d wfdw`f ydvrjab ycf xwmhf xymryfi rfmijab ja fshjyfi }vjfy m`ndxy

jnnfijmyf`z’f|fa ivrjab ycf brmai dwfajab hf`formyjdax’mx j ycfz cmi offa

cvabrz dr m `dab yjnf! Ycf hdnw`jhmyjdax d dvr hmwjym` wrdefhy cmi nmif jy afhfx.

xmrz dr dvr hd``fhyjda yd bd jayd xydrmbf dr yd v`` zfmrx ivrjab hdaxyrvhyjda! Xd jy mx edzdvx yd xff ycf oddkx ‐ja hda|frxmyjda„ jyc rfmifrx mbmja! Ycf yffambfr jyc

m adxf rjab rfmijab Bjmhdnd @fdwmrij! Lmnj`jfx jyc zdvab hcjìrfa faedzjab ycf

ymhyj`f w`fmxvrf d xjyyjab h`dxf ydbfycfr mai rfmijab dvy dvi! _fmijab jx rf`myjdaxcjw!



M W`mhf ldr Wdfyrz p =2=

Mai zdv af|fr kad cfrf ycf hdaafhyjdax j`` of nmif! Ycjx jx ma fxxfayjm` w`fm.

xvrf d mryx minjajxyrmydrx fivhmydrx mai `jormrjmax’yd hrfmyf fayrêf mai jyafxx

ycf brdjab fabmbfnfay ycmy d``dx!

Ldr nf ycjx drk cmx nmaz mayfhfifayx! Ja nz yfayjfx J cmi m edo my m ‐rfxj.ifayjm` mhj`jyz„ dr yrdvo`fi hcjìrfa! J j`` af|fr drbfy m brdvw d bjr`x cd hdvì

omrf`z kffw ycfjr cfmix d ycf h`mxxrddn ifxkx’rdn odrfidn mai ma fswfhymyjda d

odrfidn! Rcfa f rfmi @vhj``f H`jyda ydbfycfr ycfz ijxhd|frfi cmy rfmijab mx

modvy dr ycf rxy yjnf! Ycf `jaf ‐ycfxf cjwx mrf ojb cjwx„ rdn ‐cdnmbf yd nz cjwx„

nmif ycfn }vmkf jyc `mvbcyfr! Ycfz rfwfmyfi ycf `jaf m`` xvnnfr `dab mai hmrrjfi

ycf wdfn jyc ycfn! Xviifa`z xdnfdaf mx xwfmkjab ijrfhy`z yd ycfn! Ycf mz J

`ddk my jy dahf H`jyda rfmhcfi ycfn ycfz mayfi yd of ndrf rfmhcmo`f! Mai J mx

cddkfi ydd! Ycjx jx ycf edz ycmy jx rfwfmyfi imj`z ja nz drk my Wdfyx Cdvxf!

JAY_DIVHYJDA

Cd wdfyrz nmyyfrx jx m }vfxyjda dryc mxkjab ady evxy dr wrmhyjyjdafrx

mai adawrdy xfr|jhf drkfrx cd xffk yd ja|jyf jifr mvijfahfx jayd jyx

w`fmxvrfx ovy m`xd dr hcjì wxzhcd`dbjxyx `jabvjxyx mai maycrdwd`dbjxyx!

Ycjx nmz m`rfmiz xdvai `jkf m xymyfnfay odrifrjab da mjyc! J cdwf xd

ofhmvxf jy‚x m vxfv` jayrdivhyjda yd ycf xwjrjy d ycf wrdbrmnx J j`` ym`k

modvy mai yd Wdfyx Cdvxf cjhc cmx evxy xfyy`fi jayd jyx af ‐brffa„

cdnf da ycf omak d ycf Cvixda _j|fr cdvxjab daf d ycf hdvayrz‚x

brfmy wdfyrz hd``fhyjdax’67777 |d`vnfx’mai f`hdnjab m hdaxymay

ld d |jxjydrx d m`` mbfx hda|frxmyjdax mai wrdbrmnx!

J cm|f offa ycf `dabyjnf fsfhvyj|f ijrfhydr d Wdfyx Cdvxf! Ycdvbc

ycf drbmajumyjda cmx ofafyfi rdn ycf hdnojafi fafrbjfx d nmaz jyx

drjbjam` ja|faydrx m`mzx hdahfj|fi d jy mx m wczxjhm` w`mhf dr wdfyrz rdncjhc wrdbrmnx dvì rmijmyf! Ja =:3< cfa Wdfyx Cdvxf rxy dwfafi jyx

iddrx’ofdrf ycf v`` jnwmhyx d ycf Jayfrafy mai hdnwvyfr yfhcad`dbjfx

frf f`y’jyx dvaifrx drnfr V!X! wdfy `mvrfmyf Xyma`fz Kvajyu #=:76‘

?77<* mai |jxjdamrz mryx minjajxyrmydr F`jumofyc Krmz #=:=<‘=:32* xdvbcy

yd nmkf m wczxjhm` xwmhf ycmy dvì avryvrf wdfyx mai fa`mrbf ycf rd`f d

wdfyrz ja ycf hv`yvrf!

@jkf dycfr adawrdyx rfwrfxfayfi ja O`vfwrjayx Wdfyx Cdvxf wrd|jifx

xdnfycjab ycmy dvì ady dycfrjxf fsjxy ja ycf nmrkfyw`mhf! Xyma`fz Ofyyzmai m cdxy d wdfyx cd nfy ivrjab ycf fmr`z =:37x f`y ycmy wdfyx frf

`daf`z ja dvr hv`yvrf mai affifi m xwjrjyvm` cdnf ycmy dvì fnormhf m

jif rmabf d wrmhyjhf! Ycfjr o`vfwrjay om`mahfi ifndhrmhz mai dwfaafxx



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yrmijyjda mai hdayfnwdrmrz wrmhyjhf! Ycf drbmajumyjda rxy wrd|jifi xfr.

|jhfx ja jyx da `dhm` hdayfsy! Ycfa `myfr f hdnnvajhmyfi cmy f cmi

`fmrafi oz if|f`dwjab ndif`x dr ycf hrfmyjda d w`mhfx dr wdfyrz jycja

dycfr jaxyjyvyjdax5 `jormrjfx hdnnvajyz hfayfrx mai jì`jf hdaxfr|myjdadrbmajumyjdax!

Ja ycjx fxxmz J xcmrf doxfr|myjdax rdn m xjbamyvrf Wdfyx Cdvxf jajyjm.

yj|f5 Wdfyrz ja Ycf Ormahcfx dvr ndif` dr wdfyrz xfr|jhfx ja wvo`jh `jormrz

xzxyfnx! Nz cdwf jx ycmy yfmhcfrx wdfyrz rfmijab xfrjfx hddrijamydrx `jormr.

jmax mai hdnnvajyz drkfrx d m`` kjaix j`` ai jifmx cfrf yd cf`w ycfn

hrfmyf w`mhfx dr wdfyrz ja ycfjr da xfyyjabx dr yd rfjadrhf cmy ycfz mrf

m`rfmiz idjab! @myfr ja ycjx wjfhf ycfrf jx m ifxhrjwyjda d cd Wdfyrz ja

Ycf Ormahcfx mx odra mai ycf wrfhdaijyjdax ycmy nmif vx rfmiz yd ymkf jy

da m hcfhk`jxy d ycf hdaxyjyvfay f`fnfayx d ycf drjbjam` ndif` mai jifmx

modvy cd yd fsyrmwd`myf rdn ycf drjbjam` rfhjwf yd hrfmyf m nv`yj`mzfrfi

mwwrdmhc yd wdfyrz ja zdvr hdnnvajyz cfrf|fr zdv mrf!

Oz mz d jayrdivhyjda J may yd mhkad`fibf ycmy do|jdvx`z nmkjab

m wrdbrmn xfrjfx dr ma drbmajumyjda jx ady ycf xmnf mx nmkjab wdfnx dr

rfmijab wdfnx cjhc mrf ycf mhyx d jnmbjamyjda f xfr|f! Ycjx fxxmz jxm`ndxy fsh`vxj|f`z modvy drbmajumyjda nmkjab! Adafycf`fxx m hrmy jx

rf}vjrfi mai J of`jf|f ycmy hrmy jx jnwdrymay ja jyx da mz ofhmvxf `jyfr.

mrz adawrdyx cm|f ymkfa da ycf rfxwdaxjoj`jyz dr hrfmyjab hv`yvrm` mhhfxx

yd wdfyrz cjhc mx dahf hmrrjfi dvy oz xhcdd`x!

M wrjufi oddk rdn ycf Wdfyx Cdvxf mrhcj|f jx m =:?3 wrjnfr dr ycf

xfhdai brmif _f}vjrfi Wdfyrz dr Af Zdrk Hjyz Wvo`jh Xhcdd`x fijyfi oz

Emnfx E! _fzadìx ycfa ijxyrjhy xvwfrjayfaifay d Af Zdrk Hjyz xhcdd`x!

Ycf xcdry jayrdivhyjda wrfxvnmo`z rjyyfa oz Nr! _fzadìx h`mrjfx ycffswfhymyjda5 fmhc hcjì ja ycf xhcdd` xzxyfn j`` wjhk ycrff wdfnx yd nfn.

drjuf mai rfhjyf mai j`` of mo`f yd rfhdbajuf mai ijxhvxx dycfr wdfnx rdn

ycf hd``fhyjda cfa ycfz mrf rfmi m`dvi oz ycf yfmhcfr!

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Ycjx `jyy`f oddk hcmryx m ijxymahf yrm|frxfi! Jy hdaymjax modvy dryz

wdfnx ja yd ycfnfi xfhyjdax d``dfi oz ma miifaivn hdrrm``jab cvndr.

dvx dfrjabx jyc m `fyyfr.oz.`fyyfr nfijymyjda da ycf m`wcmofy! Ycjx jx ady

Mrycvr _jnomvi; ycrdvbcdvy ycfrf jx m yfaifahz ydmri ycf cmwwz brmxx.cdwwfr mai ycf jaivxyrjdvx rdoja! M`` wdfnx mrf rcznfi! Ycfrf mrf drkx

oz Hcrjxyjam _dxxfyyj _dofry @dvjx Xyf|faxda \mhcf` @jaixfz mai Fimri

@fmr mai m Edca Kfmyx wdfn jyc m hdnw`fs rcfydrjhm` xyrvhyvrf ja cjhc

ycf wrdymbdajxy yjfx m xj`kfa ycrfmi yd m id|f‚x ddy! Ycf wrjnfr jx `mhfi jyc

xvhc nmsjnx mx ‐M `jmr jx ady of`jf|fi f|fa cfa cf xwfmkx ycf yrvyc!„ Ycf

jnwv`xf yd ndrm`juf’dr yd hj|j`juf4’jx da f|frz wmbf!

Rf hma da`z hdaefhyvrf cd wdfyrz nmz cm|f nmyyfrfi! Ovy J ycjak jy

`jkf`z ycmy ycjx `jyy`f wdfyrz wrjnfr jkf fyj}vfyyf cmaioddkx rdn ycf xmnfwfrjdi dfrfi ma mhhfwymo`f nmw yd ycf rv`fx d ycjakjab mai xwfmkjab ycmy

hdvì of m nfmax d fayfrjab ndrf iffw`z jayd Mnfrjhma `jf! Hfrymja`z

wdfyrz nmyyfrfi fadvbc yd of ma mxxvnfi wrfxfahf mai ma mhyj|f rf}vjrf.

nfay d njai! Mai hfrymja`z ycf wfimbdbjhm` fswfhymyjda jx rfnmrkmo`f5

cmy xhcdd` xzxyfn ydimz dvì jaxjxy ycmy ycf drnmyj|f fswfrjfahfx d

rfmijab of xd rfjadrhfi oz `fmrajab hdnw`fyf drkx oz cfmry mai ycfa

xwfmkjab ycfn4 Ja ycf xfhdai brmif4

Rf kad ycmy ycfrf jx ad xfhdai brmif xymaimri f}vj|m`fay yd _f}vjrfi

Wdfyrz dr rfmijab mai nfndrjujab ydimz! Ovy cd id f vaifrxymai ycmy

f mrf m`xd ja ycf njixy d ycf ndxy mhyj|f ndnfay d wdfyrz wrdivhyjda ja

ycf cjxydrz d ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx’jyc ndrf ycma ??77 oddkx rdn 677

wvo`jxcfrx rfwrfxfayfi ja ycf maavm` Wdfyx Cdvxf Xcdhmxf d af wdfyrz

oddkx `mxy zfmr!

Da ycf daf cmai f mrf ydì ycmy ycf avnofr d rfmifrx d `jyfrmyvrf jx

ja ifh`jaf! Ovy f m`xd cfmr ycmy ycf xymyf d wdfyrz jx rdovxy jyc ndrf

wfdw`f cm|jab mhhfxx yd wdfnx odyc mx yfsy mai mx mvrm` mhyx |jm ycf fo!Lrdn xdnf hdrafrx d ycf jyfrmrz drì f cfmr ycmy ycfrf mrf nmaz oddkx

d wdfyrz wrdivhfi ovy ady fadvbc d ycfn mrf ‐bddi!„

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Nfmacj`f Wdfyx Cdvxf mvijfahfx cm|f fswdafayjm``z jahrfmxfi d|fr

ycf `mxy yfayz zfmrx rdn cmaiv`x yd ycf nj``jdax bj|fa dvr da`jaf wrfx.

fahf mai ycf hrfmyjda d rdovxy rfhjwrdhm` wrdbrmn ndif`x! J mn ady m`mzx

xvrf nzxf` cd yd om`mahf xffnjab`z dwwdxjab wjfhfx d jadrnmyjda modvyycf xymyf d hdayfnwdrmrz wdfyrz! Ovy J id of`jf|f ycmy `jyfrmrz adawrdy

drbmajumyjdax mrf ja xdnf xfaxf hv`yvrm``z rfnfijm` mjnjab ycrdvbc ycfjr

njxxjdax yd id cmy dvr xdhjfyz mai dvr xhcdd`x id ady id! Mx J fsw`drf ycf

avyx mai od`yx d |mrjdvx Wdfyx Cdvxf wrdbrmnx ja hdnnvajyjfx ycf ody.

ydn `jaf jx ycmy f avryvrf cmy f `d|f ja m wmryjhv`mr yjnf mai w`mhf!

WDFYX CDVXF OMXJHX

Cdnf jx ycf w`mhf cfrf cfa zdv cm|f yd bd ycfrf

ycfz cm|f yd ymkf zdv ja!

’_dofry Lrdxy

Wdfyx Cdvxf mx hrfmyfi yd of m cdnf ja cjhc |jxjydrx hdvì jyfrm``z xyfw

jayd ycf `j|jab mry! J may yd `jabfr m ndnfay cfrf ja drifr yd nmkf ycf

ijxhvxxjda ndrf nfmajabv` oz wrd|jijab xdnf hdayfsy’ofhmvxf `jkf

m`` adawrdyx Wdfyx Cdvxf fswrfxxfx odyc amyvrf mai avryvrf! Ycmy jx

ycf bfafyjh hdnwdxjyjda d jyx njxxjda fswrfxxfx jyxf` ja m wmryjhv`mr fa|j.

rdanfay! Wdfyx Cdvxf hvrrfay`z xfr|fx modvy yd nj``jda wfdw`f m zfmr

da`jaf mai ja wfrxda mai ycrdvbc rfbjdam` mai amyjdam` dvyrfmhc!

Wdfyx Cdvxf jx my ycf ofbjaajab d af wcmxf d mimwymyjda mai xfr|jhf!

Cm|jab brda rxy ja m xwmrf cdnf fhdadnjhx rddn ja m cjbc xhcdd` ycfa

ja m `dy ja Xdcd dvr af ==777.x}vmrf.ddy mhj`jyz wrd|jifx ndrf rddnxdr hd``fhyj|f wvrwdxf mai jayfrjdr }vjfy! Rjyc m`ndxy yfayz.|f zfmrx d

wrdbrmnnjab fswfrjfahf ycf drbmajumyjda‚x wfrnmafay }vmryfrx ja Omyyfrz

Wmrk Hjyz dwfafi yd ycf wvo`jh da Xfwyfnofr ?6 ?77: myfr nmaz zfmrx d

w`maajab vai.rmjxjab mai am``z hdaxyrvhyjda!

Wdfyx Cdvxf jx ycf `dab.yfrn yfamay da ycf brdvai mai xfhdai lddrx

d _j|frcdvxf m @FFI Bdì.hfryjfi ovjìjab xvrrdvaifi oz ofmvyjv`

wmrk`mai! Ja m hjyz cfrf rfm` fxymyf ifm`jabx mrf mbbrfxxj|f mai fswfaxj|f

ycjx nd|f hrfmyfx m f|f` d xfhvrjyz ycmy jx afhfxxmrz dr m xwmhf.omxfi drbm.ajumyjda! Mai jyc m xjsyz.zfmr rfay.rff `fmxf f cm|f ma fsyrmdrijamrz

dwwdryvajyz yd xcjy rfxdvrhfx rdn rfay yd wrdbrmnnjab yd ja|jyf ndrf

wfdw`f ja mai yd xfhvrf ycf hd``fhyjdax dr vyvrf bfafrmyjdax!




Ycf af xwmhf fmyvrfx m`ndxy m v`` hjyz o`dhk d jaidx mhjab ycf

Cvixda _j|fr mai ycf Xymyvf d @jofryz myyrmhyjab ndrf wfdw`f ycma f|fr

yd ycf `jormrz mai wrdbrmnx! Rf``.kada wdfyx drk da ycfjr `mwydwx xjif.

oz.xjif jyc wdfyx ja ycf fmr`z xymbfx d ycfjr hmrffrx cjbc xhcdd`x xyvifayxwdrf ycrdvbc wj`fx d oddkx zdvabxyfrx xjab wdfnx ja m rddn ovj`y evxy dr

ycfn dycfrx `jxyfa yd wdfnx rdn dvr nv`yjnfijm hd``fhyjda d yd ycdv.

xmai ijxyjahy jyfnx! Ydimz ycf drbmajumyjda cdxyx ndrf ycma yd cvairfi

wrdbrmnx m zfmr’rfmijabx drvnx da wdfyjhx nffyjabx jyc jayframyjdam`

wdfyx’ycmy hrfmyf m wm`wmo`f fafrbz d fshcmabf!

Ycf |jbdr d ijfrfay kjaix d wfdw`f wmryjhjwmyjab jyc ijxyjahy wdjayx

d fayrz’hcjìrfa‚x rddn wrdbrmn mvijydrjvn `jormrz nv`yjnfijm mrfm

}vjfy rfmijab rddn’wczxjhm`jufx ycf adyjda ycmy ycfrf mrf nmaz mzx ydmwwrfcfai ycjx mry drn! Ycjx zdv j`` xff jx ycf mwwrdmhc f cm|f ndi.

f`fi fsyfaxj|f`z dr dycfr kjaix d hdnnvajyjfx! Dvr wrdbrmnnjab m`xd

wrfxfayx ijfrfay wdjayx d fayrz rdn f|fayx ifxjbafi dr ycf jifxy wdxxj.

o`f mvijfahfx yd mi|mahfi drvnx ycmy mrf mndab ycf ndxy hcm``fabjab

xfnjamrx da wdfyjhx dvyxjif ycf vaj|frxjyz!

Wdfyrz ja Ycf Ormahcfx brf drbmajhm``z rdn m xwfhjm` `jormrz oddk.

hd``fhyjab wrdbrmn cjhc cf`wfi vx yd mryjhv`myf m affi jycja dvr fì!

Xjahf =::? Wdfyx Cdvxf cmx xzxyfnmyjhm``z bmycfrfi wdfyrz oddkx wvo.

`jxcfi ja ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx ycrdvbc ycf Wdfyx Cdvxf Xcdhmxf ovjìjab

daf d ycf brfmy `jormrjfx d hdayfnwdrmrz Mnfrjhma wdfyrz! Ycf Wdfyx

Cdvxf Xcdhmxf jx ycf da`z hdnwrfcfaxj|f maavm` ijxw`mz d m`` oddkx d

wdfyrz wvo`jxcfi ja ycf hdvayrz’m hdnw`fyf maavm` xamwxcdy d ycf mry ja

wrjay’xvwwdryfi oz m hmym`db d ycf oddkx wrfxxfx mai wdfyx!

Ivrjab ycf fmr`z zfmrx d ycf Xcdhmxf f rfm`jufi ycmy ycfrf mx ma

fsw`dxjda d wdfyrz wvo`jxcjab mhyj|jyz mx af yfhcad`dbjfx ifhfayrm`jufiycf nfmax d wrdivhyjda! Rf doxfr|fi cmy cmx ad ofhdnf hdnnda

kad`fibf ycrdvbcdvy ycf fì5 ycf |fryjbjadvx jahrfmxf ja oddk wrdivh.

yjda ycf `mrbfr rd`f d jaifwfaifay wrfxxfx ja hrfmyjab wdfyjh ij|frxjyz m

ndrf |mrjfi rmabf d |djhfx ja wrjay mai ycf ifhfayrm`jumyjda d wvo`jxcfrx

ycrdvbcdvy ycf hdvayrz! Rf m`xd xm ycf nmrkfi ijxhrfwmahz ofyffa wrd.

ivhyjda mai if`j|frz! Ycf oddkx frf ady rf|jffi mai cmi `jyy`f dr ad

xcf` `jf my oddkxydrfx #rfnfnofr oddkxydrfx4* mai ijxyrjovyjda mx wrd.

dvai`z rmbj`f!Jadrnfi oz jayfaxj|f ijm`dbvf jyc hd``fmbvfx ja ycf `jyfrmrz wvo`jxc.

jab mai `jormrz drìx f ofbma yd yvra yd `dhm` `jormrjfx mx dvr ofxy amyv.

rm` wmryafrx yd yfxy mzx d hv`yj|myjab m jifr mvijfahf dr wdfyrz mai m







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yjda d wdfyrjfx! Ycf bdm` mx yd cf`w mvijfahfx fswfrjfahf wdfyrz ycrdvbc

ycf faycvxjmxn d wdfyx mai yd nmkf m orjibf omhk yd ycfjr da hd``fhyjdax

d oddkx mx f cmi offa idjab xvhhfxxv``z my Wdfyx Cdvxf dr zfmrx!

Wdfyx Cdvxf mww`jfi dr mai rfhfj|fi vaijab rdn ycf @j`m Rm``mhf‘ _fmifr‚x Ijbfxy Lvai mai mhyfi mx ycf drbmajufr dr ycf wrdefhy! Ja ycf |fr.

amhv`mr f ofhmnf ycf ‐wdfyrz ndnnz!„

YCF W@MA

Mx J cm|f rjyyfa ja dycfr w`mhfx dvr fmr`z nmayrm mx ‐Zdv hma‚y hrfmyf

`d|f! Ovy zdv hma hrfmyf ycf hdaijyjdax dr `d|f!„ Xd ydd dr wdfyrz! Mai

ycf rxy hdaijyjda jx m`mzx fswdxvrf! Ycjx jx cmy ycf WJYO wrdbrmnwrd|jifi yd fmhc wmryjhjwmyjab ormahc fmhc zfmr dr ycrff zfmrx5

  my `fmxy ycrff wvo`jh wrdbrmnx dr miv`y wmyrdax

  yd myfr.xhcdd` wdfyrz rjyjab drkxcdwx dr zdvab miv`yx #nv`.

yjw`f xfxxjdax*

  xvwwdry dr nmrkfyjab xfr|jhfx mai wvo`jhjyz

  m ‐xwfhjm` affix„ ovibfy dr fmhc xjyf

  mxxjxymahf ja hd``fhyjda if|f`dwnfay mai ijxw`mz

  wrdfxxjdam` if|f`dwnfay dwwdryvajyjfx dr xym

  xzxyfn.jif yrmjajab

  mxxjivdvx f|m`vmyjda!

Fmhc xjyf mx rf}vjrfi yd wvrhcmxf my fmxy )=777 dryc d wdfyrz yjy`fx

ivrjab ycf hdvrxf d m wrdefhy zfmr! Fmhc ormahc mx m`xd rf}vjrfi yd mbbrfx.

xj|f`z ijxw`mz wdfyrz oddkx rdn ycf hd``fhyjda ycrdvbcdvy ycf zfmr mai ydjayfbrmyf my `fmxy daf oddk d wdfyrz jayd f|frz ijxw`mz wrfxfayfi ja ycf

`jormrz! Wdfyx Cdvxf bmycfrfi m daf.yjnf ‐xffi hd``fhyjda„ d dryz xf`fhyfi

yjy`fx my ycf ofbjaajab d ycf wrdbrmn xd fmhc ormahc hdvì hrfmyf ma jnnf.

ijmyf wdfyrz wrfxfahf da xcf`|fx mai ja ijxw`mzx!

Ja miijyjda Wdfyx Cdvxf iji ycf d``djab5

  hrfmyfi m amnf.hmwyvrf nfhcmajxn ovjìjab m wdfyrz nmj`jab `jxy

dr fmhc xjyf ycmy brf jyc fmhc wrdbrmn  if|f`dwfi xvwwdry rfxdvrhf nmyfrjm`x yjw xcffyx wrdefhy rfwdryx

mai f|m`vmyjda nmyfrjm`x

  wrd|jifi fsyfaxj|f w`maajab mxxjxymahf yd ormahc xjyfx



M W`mhf ldr Wdfyrz p =2:

  cdxyfi yfmn nffyjabx

  mhj`jymyfi xzxyfn.jif yrmjajab dr `jormrjmax my cjhc wmryjhjwmy.

jab `jormrjmax rfwdryfi da ycfjr drk yd ycfjr hdnnvajyz d wffrx

  nmwwfi dvy ma maavm` yjnf`jaf xd ycmy f|frzdaf cmi m h`fmr xfaxfd ycf wmhjab mai fswfhymyjdax!

Yd adyfx modvy ycf jaij|jivm` f`fnfayx d ycf wrdbrmn! Ljrxy ‐xwfhjm`

affix„ brmayx! Ycfxf frf njaj ijxhrfyjdamrz brmayx bj|jab `jormrjmax ycf

mvycdrjyz yd bd ofzdai ycf ndif` mai mii f`fnfayx xwfhjh yd ycfjr xjyfx!

Xdnf xjyfx odvbcy f`fhyrdajh nfxxmbf odmrix yd ‐wvo`jxc„ wdfyrz rjyyfa oz

yffax ja drkxcdwx dycfrx odvbcy ijxw`mz cmrimrf dr hrfmyfi wdfyrz hdr.

afrx mai xyj`` dycfrx hrfmyfi wdfyrz oddknmrkx ycmy frf x`jwwfi jayd fmhcwmyrda‚x oddkx my hcfhkdvy! Rcmyf|fr ycf `jormrjmax hmnf vw jyc mx ijx.

hvxxfi my yfmn nffyjabx ja ycf xwjrjy d ma fshcmabfmo`f ‐jifm omak!„ Ycf

fnwcmxjx mx m`mzx da ma jayfbrmyfi rfjadrhjab mai |jxjo`f wrfxfahf dr

ycf mry drn’mai ycf hrfmyjda d m brdvw hv`yvrf d fswfrjnfay mai

fshcmabf!

Xfhdai xzxyfn.jif yrmjajab! Ycfxf wrdbrmnx wrd|jifi jaij|jivm`x

wmryjhjwmyjab ja ycf wrdefhy jyc ma dwwdryvajyz dr rfhdbajyjda ja ycfjr

da ormahc xzxyfnx ycrdvbc wrfxfaymyjdax yd m`` ycfjr `dhm` hd``fmbvfx!

Ycdxf cd fshf``fi frf bj|fa ma dwwdryvajyz yd wmryjhjwmyf ja wrfxfaym.

yjdax my amyjdam` hdafrfahfx! Ycjx f`fnfay d ycf wrdbrmn fahdvrmbfi wmr.

yjhjwmayx yd fabmbf ja m `f|f` d mam`zxjx mai mryjhv`myjda mai fahdvrmbfi

ycfn yd xcmrf cmy ycfz dvai nfmajabv`! Ycf xffix d ycf vyvrf `jf d

ycf wrdbrmn frf w`mayfi my ycf |frz ofbjaajab!

W_DB_MNX

Do|jdvx`z f yrfmxvrf ycf oddk! Ovy daf d ycf jrdajfx d dvr frm jx

ycmy af yfhcad`dbjfx cm|f rf|d`vyjdajufi mhhfxx yd wdfyrz mx ma mvrm`

mry drn! Wfaa Xdvai ycf Mhmifnz d Mnfrjhma Wdfyx mai ycf Wdfyrz

Ldvaimyjda mrf vxfi oz nj``jdax yd ai wdfnx mx yfsy mai mx xwdkfa mhyx!

My ycf xmnf yjnf wdfyrz x`mnx rmw mai xwdkfa dri mrf nmajfxymyjdax

d m iffw yrmijyjda ofhmvxf ycf drm`jyz d `mabvmbf jx wfrnmafay= mai

xdvai jx daf d ycf fxxfayjm` f`fnfayx d dvr hrmy! Nv`yjw`f ndifx d fayrzyd mai ijxxfnjamyjda d wdfyrz mrf ycf rv`f’j ycfrf jx m rv`f! Ja `myfr

jyfrmyjdax d ycf wrdbrmn `jormrjmax frf vrbfi yd hrfmyf m wrfxfahf dr

fo.omxfi rfxdvrhfx evxy mx ycfz frf hrfmyjab m wrfxfahf dr af oddkx





M W`mhf ldr Wdfyrz p =3=

xfajdr hjyjufax mai jaafr.hjyz my.rjxk yffambfrx mx ma dabdjab wdfyrz wrd.

brmn!? Rf dyfa xvbbfxyfi wmjrjab m rfmijab jyc m fmyvrf ycmy dvì orjab

yd ijfrfay brdvwx ydbfycfr’rfjadrhjab hdnnvajyz hdaafhyj|jyz cjhc

edzdvx`z dii`z jayfrmhyj|f`z hrfmyfi m rfnmrkmo`f mfxycfyjh rmabf! Ja mij|frxf hdnnvajyz xfyyjab jy jx jnwfrmyj|f yd fabmbf jyc ycf adyjda ycmy

xymaimrix mrf w`vrm`!

AFYRD_KJAB

Ljrxy ycfrf mx ycf @jxyxfr| ycfa ycf wrdefhy jkj! Affr jyfrmyjdax d dvr

wrdefhy ndif`x rf`z da yfhcad`dbz ndrf fxwfhjm``z cfa drkjab `dab.

ijxymahf jyc ijxwmrmyf hjyjfx! Ovy rfbmri`fxx d ycf wdfr d yfhcad`dbzja.wfrxda nffyjabx hrfmyf ma dwwdryvajyz yd iffwfa yfmn ovjìjab mai

cm|f ma jnwdrymay w`mhf ja hrfmyjab xcmrfi bdm`x!

Mbmja ja dvr drjbjam` WJYO wrdbrmn ycf `fmi xym my fmhc ormahc’ma

miv`y wrdbrmnx xwfhjm`jxy mai m zdvab miv`y xwfhjm`jxy’ofhmnf yrmjafrx dr

hd``fmbvfx my ycfjr ormahcfx mai ycrdvbcdvy ycf xzxyfn! Ycjx nmif jy wdxxj.

o`f dr ycf jaij|jivm`x cd frf j``jab yd id ycf fsyrm drk yd bfy wrdfx.

xjdam` rfhdbajyjda mai myfrm`juf fmrajab ycrdvbcdvy ycf afydrk d fjbcyz.

yd ormahc `jormrjfx!

Wmryjhjwmyjab WJYO jormrjmax ofhdnf fswfry nfaydrx dr ycfjr fsyfaifi

hdnnvajyjfx mai ycf wdfyjh fm`yc mai `fmrajab xwrfmix ycrdvbcdvy fmhc

wmryjhjwmyjab `jormrz xzxyfn! Cvairfix d `jormrjmax ofafy rdn ycjx yrmja.

jab maavm``z mai d|fr nmaz zfmrx ycf xzxyfn mx m cd`f cmx ofhdnf ndrf

hdaifay modvy wdfyrz‚x w`mhf!

F\M@VMYJDA

Ycrdvbc ijxhjw`jafi rfbv`mr f|m`vmyjda ycf `jormrjmax ofhmnf ycfjr da

ofxy yfmhcfrx mai `fmrafi yd ymj`dr wrdbrmn f`fnfayx yd ycf xwfhjh affix

d ycfjr xjyfx! Wmryafrx rdn fmr`z ormahc xjyfx xvonjyyfi wrdbrfxx rfwdryx

hdnwj`fi }vmryfr`z hjrhv`myjda xymyjxyjhx mai f|m`vmyfi fmhc wdfyrz f|fay

wrfxfayfi my ycfjr ormahcfx!

Wdfyrz oddk hjrhv`myjda yrjw`fi my fmhc ormahc ivrjab ycf rxy zfmr! Rf

wmryjhv`mr`z adyjhfi ycmy hjrhv`myjda xwjkfi myfr wrdbrmnx frf wrfxfayfidr cfa af oddkx frf miifi yd ycf hd``fhyjda mai ijxw`mzfi! Ofhmvxf

xyrdab f|m`vmyjda ydd`x frf ja w`mhf Wdfyrz ja Ycf Ormahcfx mx mo`f yd



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idhvnfay m irmnmyjh rf`myjdaxcjw ofyffa wdfyrz wrdbrmn if`j|frz mai

rfmifrxcjw ’mai f frf ofyyfr mo`f yd yf`` ycf xydrz! Mx m rfxv`y ovz.ja

ycrdvbcdvy ycf xzxyfn brf!

IDHVNFAYMYJDA MAI IJXY_JOVYJDA

Ycrdvbcdvy ycf jf d m wrdefhy da`jaf mai ja.wrjay idhvnfaymyjda cf`wx

yd xcmrf ycf xydrz mai hrfmyf hdnnvajyz fabmbfnfay! Ovy xvnnmyj|f

idhvnfaymyjda d m wrdefhy hzh`f cf`wx yd hmwyvrf mai xcmrf ycf `fmrajab!

Mx f bmjafi ndrf fswfrjfahf Wdfyx Cdvxf‚x Wdfyrz ja Ycf Ormahcfx

Xdvrhf Oddk ofhmnf ma jnwdrymay mz d idhvnfayjab ofxy wrmhyjhfx!

_f|jxfi f|frz zfmr jy xfr|fx mx ycf hvrrjhv`vn dr dvr Wdfyrz ja YcfOrmahcfx #WJYO* Amyjdam` Jaxyjyvyf m v`` ffkfai xfnjamr dr `jormrjmax

rdn m`` d|fr ycf hdvayrz yd `fmra cd yd orjab ycf hdnw`fyf ndif` yd

ycfjr cdnf xjyfx!

Ycf Xdvrhf Oddk hdaymjax yfayz.|f avyx.mai.od`yx yjw xcffyx!8 Jy

miirfxxfx xdnf d ycf omxjhx d wrdbrmn w`maajab mai wrdbrmn wrdivhyjda

rdn xfyyjab vw ma dwfa njh dr m ‐nfndrz hjrh`f„ yd hrfmyjab ma jayrdivh.

yjda dr m `j|f f|fay! Ycdvbc f|m`vmyjda `fmix yd rfmxxfxxnfay d ycf wfrdr.

nmahf d ycf ndif` xvnnmyj|f idhvnfaymyjda hma `fmi yd af wrdbrmn

hzh`fx!

Mx J cm|f xmji ofdrf m xjbajhmay ovjìjab o`dhk d ycf WJYO ndif`

mx m `f|f` d vaijab ycmy m``dfi vx yd drk h`dxf`z jyc dvr wmryafrx mai

xwfai mif}vmyf yjnf ja hrfmyjab m rdovxy w`ma! Ycf drjbjam` vaijab `mxyfi

dr xjs zfmrx! My ycmy yjnf ycf wrdbrmn mx ldvrjxcjab ycrdvbcdvy Af

Zdrk Hjyz mai f frf mo`f yd fswmai xfr|jhfx oz fabmbjab dvr wmryafrx ja

mhyj|f amahjm` xvwwdry d ycf wrdefhy dr madycfr yd zfmrx! Ycmy wvy vx dam wmyc ydmri nmrkfyjab ycf ndif` mx m ff.dr.xfr|jhf wrdbrmn xd ycmy mx

`jormrjfx ycrdvbcdvy ycf yrj.xymyf mrfm ofhmnf jayfrfxyfi ycfz hdvì orjab jy

yd ycfjr hdnnvajyjfx!

My ycf xmnf yjnf f ofbma if|f`dwjab xzxyfn.jif yrmjajabx mai wrf.

hdafrfahf wrfxfaymyjdax my ycf Mnfrjhma @jormrz Mxxdhjmyjda‚x amyjdam`

hda|fayjdax! Ja mhy daf xyrmai d ycf dabdjab `jf d ycf WJYO ndif` jx

dvr Wdfyrz ja Ycf Ormahcfx Amyjdam` Jaxyjyvyf dr `jormrjmax rdn m`` d|fr

ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx cjhc hdayjavfx yd ycjx imz my dvr da xjyf! Brmivmyfx d ycf Jaxyjyvyf mrf ad idjab jnwdrymay drk m`` d|fr ycf hdvayrz’`fmijab

wdfyrz fxyj|m`x mai rfmijab xfrjfx fswmaijab hd``fhyjdax mai hcmabjab `j|fx

ja hdnnvajyjfx!




Madycfr xyrmai ja ycf if|f`dwnfay d ycf WJYO ndif` jx jyx hdayjavfi

rfja|fayjda yd nffy af vaijab dwwdryvajyjfx mai af dwwdryvajyjfx dr

xfr|jhf! Ldr nf daf d ycf ofmvyjfx d adawrdy hdnnvajyz ovjìjab jx

bdjab omhk yd mryjhv`myfi wvrwdxf mai hrfmyjab af rf`f|mahjfx mx ycf drì

hcmabfx! Ycf xjnv`ymafdvx yrjhk m`ndxy m`mzx rf}vjrfx ovjìjab fabmbf.nfay mai ycf amahjm` wmryjhjwmyjda d nmaz jaij|jivm`x yd xvwwdry ycf

drk! Ycf bdm` jx yd cm|f m njxxjda xfr|jhfx mai ycf moj`jyz yd xvwwdry ycfn

m`` m`jbafi!

FsY_MWD@MYJAB L_DN YCF WJYO NDIF@

J zdv may yd wj`dy rjyjab drkxcdwx dr xfajdrx dr j zdv mrf ma minja.

jxyrmydr my m amyvrm` cjxydrz nvxfvn’mai j zdv mrf rfmijab ycjx’zdv

m`rfmiz cm|f ma jayvjyjda ycmy wdfyrz hma cf`w zdvr hdaxyjyvfahz fayfr

jayd m ijfrfay kjai d hda|frxmyjda! Wdfyx Cdvxf cmx famhyfi ycjx kjai

d hdaafhyj|jyz ja nmaz mzx! Omxfom`` wdfyrz hdayfxyx mai rfmijabx my

njadr.`fmbvf xymijvnx! Xwfhjm` hcjìrfa‚x wrdbrmnx da fhdwdfyjhx ja wmrk

xfyyjabx! Wdfyrz ja uddx! Ycf `jxy hdvì bd da mai da! Jy jx zdvrx yd mii yd

mai mhyj|myf!

Cmwwj`z xcmrjab brfmy wdfnx idfx ady cm|f ycf myyfaimay fswfaxf d ndvayjab m wrdivhyjda d Nmimnf Ovyyfrlz! Ovy jy jx m`xd yrvf ycmy cmyf|fr

f hddk vw j`` cm|f xdnf hdxy! Cdafxyz modvy ycf hdxyx j`` cf`w f|frz.

daf cm|f m ofyyfr fswfrjfahf! \d`vayffrjab yd hrfmyf m wdfyrz hdrafr my zdvr

hdnwmaz dvì ady of fswfaxj|f! Ovy xvwwdryjab jy oz if|f`dwjab ma

maavm` ja.xfr|jhf dr wdfyx yd drk jyc ycf fayjrf xym dvì wrdomo`z

rf}vjrf ijxhrfyjdamrz vaijab! #Wdfyx xcdvì of wmji dr ycfjr drk-*

My ycf cfmry d ycf WJYO hdahfwy jx j``jabafxx yd fswfrjnfay jyc

jayfr`dhkjab wrdbrmn f`fnfayx yd hrfmyf m ndrf avmahfi fswdxvrf ydwdfyrz! J zdv mrf evxy bfyyjab xymryfi dvy`jaf zdvr d|frm`` wrdbrmn bdm`x!

Rcd mrf ycf wmryafrx4 Rcmy kjaix d wrdbrmnx dvì zdv jkf yd xff mai ja

cmy xf}vfahf4 Cd hma zdv rfjadrhf ycfn jyc m ndrf |jxjo`f imj`z

Ldr nf, daf dl ycf ofmvyjfx dl adawrdy hdnnvajyz

o ohk h h h h!



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wrfxfahf dr ycf mry4 Cd j`` zdv bfy ycf dri dvy4 Fxxfayjm``z jy hdnfx

ida yd ycjx5 Rcmy jx ycf drk4 Rcd j`` id jy4 Rcmy j`` jy hdxy4 Ldr fmhc

hdaxyjyvfay wjfhf d ycf w`ma mxk zdvrxf` cmy zdvr rxy ycrff mhyjdax affi

yd of! W`dy ycfxf da m yjnf`jaf mai zdv j`` cm|f ycf ofbjaajab d m w`ma!Oz nmkjab m w`mhf dr wdfyrz yd of xcmrfi ja hdnnvajyz wfdw`f nmkf

m cdnf ydbfycfr ja `mabvmbf mai ycfz ai af xdvrhfx d m`jmyjda hrf.

myj|jyz mai kad`fibf! Ycf d``djab hcfhk`jxy hma wrd|jif m evnwjab.d

wdjay dr hdnjab vw jyc zdvr da wdfyrz rfhjwf dr zdvr hdnnvajyz!

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Fshfrwyfi rdn Ycf Wdfyrz ja Ycf Ormahcfx Xdvrhf Oddk!

HCFHK@JXY

Wdfyr ja Ycf Ormahcfx5 Ycf Drjbjam` Ndif`

Ycjx jx ma dvy`jaf dl ycf ndif` ycmy Wdfyx Cdvxf ordvbcy yd Af zdrk Hjy‚x

wvo`jh `jormrjfx ofbjaajab ja =::6! Ycf omxjh ldrnv`m dl wdfyr wrdbrmnnjab ldr

yffax mai miv`yx, mh}vjxjyjdax mai ijxw`m, mai dabdjab xymll yrmjajab jx xyj`` bdjab

xyrdab ja nma dl ycf drjbjam` `dhmyjdax! Mx dv hdaxjifr cd yd ivw`jhmyf dr

mimwy ycf ndif` yd dvr da hjrhvnxymahfx, rfnfnofr yd mivxy ycf mh}vjxj.

yjdax mai xwfhjm`.affix ovibfyx yd rffhy ydimz‚x hdxyx!

Wrdbrmnx

Ja drkjab jyc `jormrjfx, Wdfyx Cdvxf cmx vxfi wrdbrmnnjab mx ma mvijfahf

if|f`dwnfay ydd`, wrd|jijab my `fmxy ycrff wrdbrmnx ldr ma miv`y mvijfahf my fmhcxjyf maavm``! Jl dv mrf odrrdjab lrdn ycf ndif` yd hrfmyf dvr da jajyjmyj|f,

dv j`` affi yd ifhjif cd nma wrdbrmnx dv hma xvxymja! #Rf cm|f ldvai

ycrff yd of ycf omrf njajnvn ja hrfmyjab |jxjoj`jy ldr ycf mry!* Ycfa, ldr fmhc

wrdbrmn’rfmijab, dwfa njh, dr xwfhjm` oddk ijxhvxxjda, wdfyr ‐nfndr

hjrh`f„’dv j`` affi yd fabmbf ja ycf ld``djab ofcjai.ycf.xhfafx mhyj|jyjfx5

  jifayjl wdfyx

  hddrijamyf ja|jymyjdax, yrm|f`, dibjab, mai lffx

  hdarn zdvr mrrmabfnfayx ja rjyjab

  hddrijamyf wvo`jhjyz mai zfrx; jxy fmhc f|fay da ycf xzxyfn.jif xfm.

xda hm`faimr




  hddrijamyf mi|fryjxjab #jl mww`jhmo`f*; wrd|jif wrjayfi wrdbrmnx #jl

mww`jhmo`f*

  if|f`dw amnf.hmwyvrf yfhcaj}vfx

  xfai f.nmj`x dr ijrfhy nmj` wjfhfx yd zdvr xjyf.xwfhjh nmj`jab `jxyx  wrd|jif hd|frmbf mai xfyvw

  hrfmyf m wrfxfahf ldr ycf f|fay my zdvr xjyf ycrdvbc odyc zfrx mai

oddk ijxw`mx

  f|m`vmyf ycf wrdbrmn, mai xfy bdm`x ldr ycf afy!

zdvab Miv`y Wdfyr Rdrkxcdw$Ijxhvxxjda Brdvwx

Wdfyx Cdvxf wrd|jifx yd drkxcdwx$ijxhvxxjdax ldr dvab miv`yx #dl my

`fmxy ycrff xfxxjdax, ycdvbc |f jx nvhc ofyyfr* my fmhc WJYO xjyf maavm``z! Zdv

j`` affi yd fabmbf ja ycf ld``djab ofcjai.ycf.xhfafx mhyj|jyjfx5

  jifayjl drkxcdw fmifrx

  hddrijamyf ja|jymyjdax mai lffx; xhcfiv`f ycf imyfx

  wvo`jhjf ycrdvbc m hfayrm`jfi wrfxx `jxy, jl mww`jhmo`f

  hdaymhy `dhm` xhcdd`x ijrfhy` yd wvo`jhjf mai afydrk

  hddrijamyf m xjba.vw xcffy dr rfxfr|myjdax `jxy

  wvo`jxc #wcdydhdw* m xnm`` oddk`fy dl wdfnx rjyyfa ivrjab ycf

drkxcdw

  ijxw`m ycf wvo`jhmyjda ja dvr ormahc, `fyyjab hdwjfx hjrhv`myf

  cdxy m wvo`jhmyjda wmry mai rfmijab my cjhc ycf xyvifayx rfmi ycfjr

drk

  f|m`vmyf ycf drkxcdw fwfrjfahf, ady ycf xyvifayx‚ drk!

Mh}vjxjyjdax mai Ijxw`m

Wdfyr ja Ycf Ormahcfx jahrfmxfx m wrfxfahf ldr wdfyr my fmhc wmryjhjwmyjab

xjyf! Wdfyr oddk mh}vjxjyjdax mrf my ycf cfmry dl ycf wrdbrmn! Wdfyr ijxw`mx

cf`w yd hrfmyf m xafrbjxyjh rf`myjdaxcjw ofyffa da.xjyf wrdbrmnnjab mai ycf

hd``fhyjda! zdv j`` affi yd id ycf ld``djab5

  f|m`vmyf zdvr hd``fhyjda; mxxfxx zdvr affix

  jifayjlz ma mh}vjxjyjda ovibfy ycmy hma of ifijhmyfi yd wdfyrz; WJYO

xjyfx xwfai m njajnvn dl )=,777 wfr fmr da wdfyr mh}vjxjyjdax

  mryjhv`myf m bdm` rfbmrijab ycf avnofr dl wdfyr oddkx dv j`` ov

fmhc fmr

  mh}vjrf omxjh rflfrfahf nmyfrjm`x ldr ycf hd``fhyjda



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  lmnj`jmrjf dvrxf`l jyc maadymyfi ojo`jdbrmwcjfx, xvhc mx Wdfyx

Cdvxf‚x Ijrfhydr dl Mnfrjhma Wdfyr Oddkx #!wdfyxcdvxf!drb*

dr Xnm`` Wrfxx Ijxyrjovyjda #!xwioddkx!drb* hmym`dbx

  wrdhvrf miijyjdam` xjbambf  ijxw`m my `fmxy daf wdfyr oddk ja f|fr ydwjhm` ijxw`m!

_f}vfxyx ldr Xwfhjm` _fxdvrhf M` dmahf

Ja ycf drjbjam` Wdfyx Cdvxf wrdbrmn, fmhc wmryjhjwmyjab ormahc cmi mhhfxx yd

ma maavm` m``dmahf lrdn Wdfyx Cdvxf dl vw yd )=,677 ldr xwfhjm` affix ivrjab

ycf rxy yd zfmrx! Ycjx xyjwfai mx vxfi yd xvwwdry ycf Wdfyrz ja Ycf Ormahcfx

wrdefhy ja hrfmyj|f mzx ymj`drfi yd ycf xwfhjh hdnnvajyz! Fmhc xjyf cmi yd rjyf

m orjfl w`ma ifymj`jab cd jy dvì vxf ycf lvaix! F|fa jl lvaijab jx ady jnnfij.

myf` m|mj`mo`f ja dvr hdnnvajy, irfmn modvy cmy dv njbcy affi mai mryjhv.

`myf jy! Zdv nmz ai m hdayrjovydr dr m `dhm` |faidr j``jab yd cf`w `myfr da! Cfrf

mrf xdnf wdxxjoj`jyjfx5

  xjbambf, wdxyfrx, omaafrx

  wdfyr rflfrfahf nmyfrjm`x

  oddk.ijxw`m cmrimrf

  rfhfwyjdax ja xvwwdry dl wrdbrmnx

  xymll xvwwdry, j!f!, yrm|f` yd nffyjabx dr ndif` wdfyr wrdbrmnx

  xjyf.xwfhjh wdfyrz ordhcvrfx

  miijyjdam` wrfxx nmj`jabx

  nmj`jab jxy wvrhcmxf

  f`fhyrdajh nfxxmbf odmrix!

F|m`vmyjda

F|m`vmyjda jx m hrjyjhm` hdnwdafay dl if|f`dwjab ma af wrdbrmn! Ovy ja ycf

hmxf dl Wdfyr ja Ycf Ormahcfx, ycf jaldrnmyjda bmycfrfi mx vxflv` yd dycfr

`jormrjmax ja hrfmyjab m amyjdam` ijm`dbvf modvy wdfyr ja ij|frxf xfyyjabx! F|fa jl

dv mrf drkjab da dvr da, rjyyfa f|m`vmyjda jx wmry dl bj|jab dvrxf`l hrfijy

mai `fmrajab cd yd jnwrd|f dvr drk! Cfrf mrf ycf omxjh nfhcmajxnx ldr f|m`.

vmyjda ycmy f vxfi ja ycf drjbjam` wrdbrmn5

  rfbv`mr wrdbrfxx rfwdryx, jah`vijab mvijfahf avnofrx

  wrdbrmn.xwfhjh f|m`vmyjdax lrdn mvijfahf nfnofrx

  wdfyr drkxcdw mai ijxhvxxjda brdvw f|m`vmyjdax

  hjrhv`myjda xymyjxyjhx!




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OVJ@IJAB L_DN M NDIF@

\mrjdvx wrdbrmn ndif`x j`` of dryc rfmievxyjab xd ycfz hma of yfxyfi

ja af drnmyx dr da af brdvai! WJYO wrd|fi yd vx ycmy cfa wdfyrz

jx nmif |jxjo`f wfdw`f mrf ndrf `jkf`z yd nmkf m cdnf dr jy ja ycfjr da

`j|fx! Xjahf ?77= jy cmx offa czorjijufi nmaz yjnfx5 mx m ffkfai.`dab

yrmjajab jaxyjyvyf mx m yrm|f`jab ja.xfr|jhf dr xymyf `jormrz hdafrfahfx

mai mx |mrjdvx amyjdam` jajyjmyj|fx ycmy nmyhcfi wrdbrmnx yd m wdfyrz wrfx.

fahf ja wmryafr `jormrz xzxyfnx mhrdxx ycf hdvayrz!9

Ja ycjx frm d xyrfyhcfi rfxdvrhfx mai fhdadnjh idayvra jy jx mxxvnfi

ycmy hdxwdaxdrxcjwx d m`` kjaix j`` hrfmyf dwwdryvajyjfx yd fsw`drf af

hdayfay mrfmx mai hrdxx.fryj`juf mvijfahfx! Hdxwdaxdrxcjw hrfmyfx mxxdhjmyf

ycjakjab mai m`jmyjda mai jx bddi ovxjafxx wrmhyjhf! Ovy f m`xd kad ycmy

hdxwdaxdrxcjwx hma rmabf rdn jayfaxf hdnmrkfyjab yd x`mwwjab m `dbd da m

wjfhf d wmwfr! Wdfyrz ja Ycf Ormahcfx rf}vjrfi hddwfrmyjda d m ijfrfay

drifr mai ycf wmryjhjwmyjab drbmajumyjdax mai `fmifrx affifi yd of rfmiz

dr jy! Jaxyjyvyjdam` wmryafrxcjw ifnmaix edjay w`maajab mai bddi hdnnv.

ajhmyjda d|fr zfmrx’ jy orjabx ycf cd`f jaxyjyvyjda yd ycf wrdefhy ! Jy jx jnwdxxjo`f

yd nmkf m nv`yjzfmr hdnnjynfay dr wmryafrxcjw jycdvy ofjab dwfa yd

hcmabf!

Ycdvbc nmaz d ycf f`fnfayx ja ycf WJYO ndif` nmz of vxfi ja ma ç

`m hmryf mxcjda ycf ydym`jyz d ycf drjbjam` ndif` rf}vjrfi hdaxymay jayfrdr.

bmajumyjdam` ifhjxjda nmkjab! Ldr fsmnw`f ja dvr jajyjm` wmryafrxcjwx jyc

ycf Af Zdrk Wvo`jh @jormrz mai dycfr `mrbf `jormrz xzxyfnx f cmi ydmievxy yd ndrf hdnw`jhmyfi ifhjxjda yrmj`x mai ovrfmvhrmhjfx! Hdaxf}vfay`z

f rf|jxfi dvr yjnf`jafx yd mhhdnndimyf ycfjr ndrf `mzfrfi wrdydhd`x! Jy jx

fmxz yd vaifrfxyjnmyf ycf yrvf hdxyx mai |mrjmo`fx d wmryafrxcjw ivrjab ycf xymry.vw

wcmxf!

Ovy J ida‚y may yd vaifr.mryjhv`myf ycf wdyfayjm` rfxv`yx fjycfr! @dab.

yfrn wmryafrxcjwx mrf bfafrmyj|f ovjìjab ma jarmxyrvhyvrf dr wdfyrz ycmy

famo`fx `mrbfr mvijfahfx yd hdayjavf yd mhhfxx wdfyrz f|fa myfr ycfrf mrf

hcmabfx ja xymab dr ja vaijab! Ja dvr fmr`z WJYO drk m `fbmhz d oddkx mx `fy my ycf ormahcfx mai ycf jayfbrmyjda d wdfyrz jayd xzxyfn.

jif mh}vjxjyjda wrjdrjyjfx mx nvhc jnwrd|fi! Wmryafrxcjw hrfmyfx m iffwfr



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jarmxyrvhyvrf dr wdfyrz mai hcmabfx ycf wmryjhjwmyjab wmryafrx‚ mzx d idjab

ovxjafxx!

Ofhmvxf xd nmaz d ycf `jormrjmax cmi jaxwjrmyjdam` wrdfxxjdam` fswfrj.

fahfx jyc WJYO ycfz hmrrjfi af ydd`x jyc ycfn ycrdvbcdvy ycfjr xvo.xf}vfay hmrffrx `fmijab yd ma fnwcmxjx da wdfyrz #rfmijab xfrjfx wdfyrz

h`vox mh}vjxjyjdax* my ij|frxf jaxyjyvyjdax mr ofzdai Af Zdrk Hjyz! Daf

`jormrjma ymkjab yd cfmry dvr nfxxmbf ycmy wdfyrz hdvì of jayfbrmyfi jayd

f|frzycjab rdvyjaf`z rfmi wdfyrz yd cfr kajyyjab h`vo! Madycfr xymryfi wdfyrz.

rfmijab brdvwx my Mnfrjhma xhcdd`x m`` d|fr Fvrdwf! Madycfr ordvbcy cfr

fswfryjxf yd m `jormrz ja ycf Xdvycfxy cfrf xcf xymryfi wrdbrmnx dr yffax!

Madycfr xymryfi m wrfxyjbjdvx rfmijab xfrjfx ja m cjbc xhcdd`! Madycfr mx

da ycf Wdfyx Cdvxf xym dr xjs zfmrx myfr cfr rfyjrfnfay rdn ycf AZW@!6 Ycf yrvf jnwmhyx mrf fswdafayjm``z nmbajfi d|fr zfmrx!

Cd wdfyrz nmyyfrfi yd ycf ycdvxmaix ja WJYO mvijfahfx jx ma dwfa

}vfxyjda! Ycf f|m`vmyjdax rdn ycdxf mvijfahfx xmz ycmy faedznfay dvì

`fmi ycfn yd rfmi ndrf wdfyrz mai ycf hjrhv`myjda xymyjxyjhx wrd|fi jy! @fy‚x

bfy ycf hdbajyj|f wxzhcd`dbjxyx hcjìcddi if|f`dwnfay xwfhjm`jxyx mai

xdhjm` xhjfayjxyx yd xyviz ycf hmxf! Ovy jyc m yfmhcfr‚x cmwwjafxx J rfhm`` ycf

zdvab nma cd cfmri Fnj`z Ijhkjaxda rfhjyfi mai xmji fr|fay`z ‐Wfdw`faffi yd kad modvy cfr-„

AFR NDIF@X

Ycf xfhrfy!

mai ycf xfhrfy iffw ja ycmy!

’Bmrz Xazifr

Ycf |frxmyj`jyz d m af wrdefhy j`` cf`w nf nmkf xdnf am` wdjayx! Ycf

@mabvmbf d Hdaxfr|myjda fmyvrfx ycf jaxym``myjda ja |f uddx d ja|fa.

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M W`mhf ldr Wdfyrz p =3:

yj|f wdfyrz xjbambf nmyhcfi jyc amyvrf mai hdaxfr|myjda rfxdvrhfx mai

rf`myfi wdfyrz f|fayx my jormrjfx mai m wdfy ja rfxjifahf my fmhc xjyf!< Ycf

jaxym``myjdax frf jamvbvrmyfi ja ?7=7 mai f mayjhjwmyf ycmy nj``jdax d

wfdw`f j`` fswfrjfahf wdfyrz ja ycf uddx d Af Dr`fmax Nj`mvkff@jyy`f _dhk Emhkxda|j``f mai Orddkfì J``jadjx evxy dvyxjif d Hcjhmbd!

Ycjx ycfnfi vroma xzafrbz mndab jaxyjyvyjdax vxfx wdfyrz mx ycf hmym.

`zxy’mai ycf `mabvmbf d wdfyx yd mryjhv`myf ycf ndxy fxxfayjm` nfxxmbf d

jì`jf ojd`dbjxyx yd ycf wvo`jh!

Mry hma hrfmyf af kjaix d m`jmyjda mai vaifrxymaijab ja dvr hdn.

nvajyjfx! Ycf @mabvmbf d Hdaxfr|myjda jaxym``myjdax j`` vahyjda mx lfsj.

o`f maycd`dbjfx ycrdvbcdvy ycf uddx mai rfjadrhf m omxjh mxxvnwyjda ycmy

wdfyrz hma cf`w wfdw`f mwwrfcfai maz xvoefhy jyc brfmyfr w`fmxvrf maivaifrxymaijab! Ycf mryx cmyf|fr f`xf ycfz nmz of mrf modvy cd f `j|f

ja ycf drì! Ja nz |jf ycjx kjai d bfafrmyj|f mxxdhjmyj|f drk j``

ofhdnf ndrf afhfxxmrz mx f xffk yd hrfmyf af ndifx d fabmbfnfay

vaifrxymaijab mai |m`vf ja dvr hjyjfx mai ja dvr ydax!2

Ycjx af ndif` hdnfx dvy d m xvhhfxxv` wrdefhy my ycf Hfayrm` Wmrk

Udd ja ycf `myf =::7x cfa wdfnx frf w`mhfi ycrdvbcdvy ycf udd da

ofahcfx rmyfrx mai xymjrx3 hrfmyjab madycfr xfy d hdaafhyjdax ycrdvbc

cjhc |jxjydrx hdvì fayfr jayd rf`myjdaxcjw jyc ycf `j|jab hrfmyvrfx ycfz

frf mwwrfcfaijab! Ljam``z jy jx ofhmvxf wdfyrz jx ma jayf``fhyvm` mai fnd.

yjdam` hdnw`fs ja ma jaxymay d yjnf ycmy ycf mry drn cmx offa xd mxxdhjm.

yj|f`z rjhc!

My ycf Hfayrm` Wmrk Udd wrdfxxjdam` f|m`vmydrx iji jayfr|jfx jyc

udd |jxjydrx ofdrf mai myfr ycf wdfyrz xjbambf mx jaxym``fi! Rcfa |jxjydrx

frf mxkfi cmy ycfz yddk mmz modvy hdaxfr|myjda myfr ycf wdfyrz jaxym`.

`myjda ndxy rf}vfay`z ycfz dvì rfhjyf m f `jafx rdn m wdfn dr mwwrdsjnmyf m wdfn rmbnfay! Rcfa mxkfi ijrfhy`z j ycfz `jkfi ycf wdfyrz

xdnf d ycdxf xmnf wfdw`f iji ady kad ycmy cmy ycfz frf xmzjab mx

wdfyrz! Adafycf`fxx rfxfmrhcfrx dvai ycmy myfr ycf wdfyrz mx jaxym``fi

|jxjydrx cmi m xjbajhmay`z jahrfmxfi mmrfafxx d cvnma jnwmhyx da fhdxzx.

yfnx mai ndrf jnwdrymay m iffwfafi xfaxf d ycfnxf`|fx mx wmryjhjwmayx ja

m `mrbfr drì!

Xhjfayjxyx mai udd drkfrx cd cmi offa xvxwjhjdvx d wdfyrz my ycf

ofbjaajab d ycf wrdefhy ofbma yd ycjak d jy mx m ‐hdaxfr|myjda ydd`!„Ofhmvxf jy drkx! #Wfrxdam``z J ida‚y hmrf j xhjfayjxyx hm`` m Bmrz Xazifr

wdfn m ydd`’j ycfz `d|f jy mai bd omhk yd jy mai nmkf jy ycfjr da!* Oz



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ycf mz ycjx idfx ady xjbam` ma fai yd xhjfayjh xjbambf modvy wd`mr ofmr

bfxymyjda my uddx! Ovy jy idfx jaijhmyf ycmy xhjfahf mai wdfyrz hma of yd

xyrmaix ja m hda|frxmyjda mai ycmy oz fabmbjab jyc odyc ycf hda|frxmyjda

jx iffwfafi!

HDIM

Ofhmvxf maycd`dbjfx jkf _f}vjrfi Wdfyrz dr Af Zdrk Hjyz Wvo`jh Xhcdd`x mrf

ad `dabfr mryjhv`myjab ma fivhmyjdam` fswfhymyjda fayrêf yd wdfyrz jx fa.

hdvrmbfi oz wmxxjdamyf `jormrjmax yfmhcfrx hdnnvajyz drkfrx wrfxxfx

adawrdy `jyfrmrz drbmajumyjdax’mai ijrfhydrx d uddx mai odymajhm` bmr.

ifax mai dycfrx’ycmy hrfmyf m |jxjo`f wrfxfahf dr ycf mry! Rf avryvrfcmy f `d|f ja m hfrymja yjnf mai w`mhf!

Rrjyjab jnnfmxvrmo`z fswmaifi ycf wdyfayjm` d `mabvmbf mai ycfrf.

drf ycdvbcy! Ycf wrjayjab wrfxx jnnfmxvrmo`z fswmaifi ycf rfmhc d rjy.

jab! Rf mrf ja m ndnfay `jkf ycmy ad mx af yfhcad`dbjfx hcmabf cvnma

jayfrmhyjdax mai jaxyjyvyjdax b`dom``z! Rcmy j`` ycjx nfma dr wdfyrz4

Cd hma f kad4 Lrdn ycf yjnfx cfa dvr mahfxydrx nmif jnwrjayx

d ycfjr cmaix da ycf m``x d hm|fx ycfz wrdomo`z hcmayfi drix! Rmx jy

wdfyrz4 Iji ycfz hm`` jy wdfyrz4 J hmaady cf`w ovy ycjak ycmy wdfyrz `jkf

cvnma imahf mai xdab cmx xd nmaz |mrjmyjdax ycmy jy nmz of fswrfxxfi mai

mwwrfcfaifi ja nmaz mzx! Ycf ndifx d wdfyjh wrdivhyjda nmz hcmabf

ovy ycf rddyx mrf iffw ja cvnma jifayjyz mai ycf mvijfahf hdayjavfx yd of

wdyfayjm``z va`jnjyfi!

ADYFX

=! Rm`yfr Dab Drm`jyz mai @jyfrmhz5 Ycf Yfhcad`dbjujab d ycf Rdri #@daida5 _dvy.

`fibf =:3?* 2!

?! Ycf Wdfyrz ja Ycf Ormahcfx Xdvrhf Oddk5 M Bvjif yd Hrfmyjab m Hdnw`fyf Wdfyrz

Fa|jrdanfay ja Ij|frxf @jormrz Xfyyjabx rf|! fi! #Af Zdrk5 Wdfyx Cdvxf ?77:*

=3!

8! Ycf Wdfyrz ja Ycf Ormahcfx Xdvrhf Oddk jx m|mj`mo`f ycrdvbc Wdfyx Cdvxf !

wdfyxcdvxf!drb dr oz hm``jab ?=?.98=.2:?7!

9! M wmryafrxcjw jyc ycf Wdfyrz Xdhjfyz d Mnfrjhm rfjadrhfi cvnmajyjfx wrd.

brmnx ja `jormrjfx jyc Wdfyrz ja Ndyjda w`mhmrix d xvoefhy wdfnx ycrdvbc.

dvy ycf hjyz‚x yrmaxjy xzxyfn! M xwfmkfr‚x ovrfmv d hdayfnwdrmrz wdfyx if`j|.

frfi ym`kx #Kmz _zma da Fnj`z Ijhkjaxda _dofry Wjaxkz da _dofry Lrdxy



M W`mhf ldr Wdfyrz p =:=

mai Rj``jmn Hmr`dx Rj``jmnx Nmryîa Fxwmim da Wmo`d Afrvim yd amnf m

f* jyc rfmifr‚x bvjifx m|mj`mo`f ycrdvbc ycf fo! Yd ijxyjahy hzh`fx frf

vaifi dr yd zfmrx fmhc oz ycf Amyjdam` Faidnfay dr ycf Cvnmajyjfx!

6! Nmrxcm Cdmri mx ycf Wdfyx Cdvxf Wdfyrz ja Ycf Ormahcfx hddrijamydr rdn ?779 vayj` cfr rfhfay rfyjrfnfay! Xcf mx ycf `jormrjma my cdxf xjyf f

iji ycf drjbjam` WJYO wj`dy f|fay ja =::6 cfa xcf mx drkjab dr ycf

Af Zdrk Wvo`jh @jormrz mai cmx offa m ‐xmjay„ d ycf wrdbrmn!

<! Ycf wdfyx ja rfxjifahf mrf Nmrk Idyz ja Af Dr`fmax Edxfwc Orvhcmh ja

@jyy`f _dhk M`jxda Cmycdraf Ifnjab ja Emhkxda|j``f Wmyyjmaa _dbfrx ja

Nj`mvkff mai wrdefhy `fmifr Xmairm M`hdxxfr ja Orddkfì J``jadjx! Ycf

Hcjhmbd.omxfi Mnfrjhma @jormrz Mxxdhjmyjda jx hd``modrmyjab jyc Wdfyx

Cdvxf yd xcmrf ycf dvyhdnf d ycf wrdefhy’cjhc mx ifxjbafi yd of rfw`j.

hmyfi’jyc `jormrjfx ycrdvbcdvy ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx mai ofzdai!

2! J ofbma nz hmrffr ja yda mai vroma w`maajab mai of`jf|f ycmy xdnf d ycf

ndxy mxhjamyjab rfmijab modvy mryx mai hdnnvajyz ovjìjab jx hdnjab dvy d

ma jayfbrmyfi hjyz w`maajab mwwrdmhc rdn Hcmr`fx @mairz! J cm|f dvai cjx

rfhfay oddk Ycf Hrfmyj|f Hjyz yd of wmryjhv`mr`z jaxwjrjab!

3! Xwfhjm` ycmakx yd wdfy Xmairm M`hdxxfr ycf wdfy ja rfxjifahf my ycf Hfayrm`

Wmrk Udd ja ?77? mai yd ycf |jxjdamrz Ima Rcmryda cd mx ycfa ijrfhydr

d ycf udd! Ycfz mrf ad yfmn `fmifrx dr uddx mai wdfyx ja ycf amyjdam` @ma.

bvmbf d Hdaxfr|myjda wrdbrmn!





x f h y j d a   l d v r

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Wmry =

ma jifm, m wfaHj`,

mai wmwfr

Ydd`x ldr Wrmhyjhm` Irfmnjab

Rcfa zdv may yd ovjì m cdvxf dr f|fa rfndif` m omycrddn zdv ofbja

jyc ma jayvjyjda ycmy cdf|fr nvhc zdv `jkf zdvr `jf ad m af kjai

d xwmhf hdvì nmkf jy f|fa ofyyfr! Zdv xwfai m `dy d yjnf ycjakjab modvycd zdv may yd `j|f mai cmy kjai d xwmhf j`` nmkf ycjx wdxxjo`f!

Rcfa ycf jifmx ofbja yd hdnf ydbfycfr jayd xdnfycjab `jkf m wm`wmo`f

jnmbf hcmahfx mrf zdv j`` xjy ida mai ofbja yd nmkf jxyx mai irmjabx

yd hmwyvrf mai rfaf ycfjr xcmwf! Ycf rxy wmry d ycjx Ydd`kjy dfrx zdv

xdnf ydd`x dr idjab m xjnj`mr ycjab jyc zdvr jifmx dr orjabjab wdfyrz

jayd zdvr hdnnvajyz cfycfr zdv mrf m wdfy zdvrxf` m hdnnvajyz mh.

yj|jxy ma mryx minjajxyrmydr dr xjnw`z xdnfdaf cd cmx m cvabfr dr ndrf

wdfyrz ja zdvr `jf!



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JIFAYJLz WMXXJDAX, IFLJAF \M@VFX, H_FMYF BDM@X

Zdv nmz of yfnwyfi yd xkjw ycjx xymbf! Hcmahfx mrf zdv mrf `ddkjab yd

xymry m wdfyrz wrdbrmn ofhmvxf zdv mrf wmxxjdamyf modvy ycf mry dr ofhmvxf

zdv cm|f ofhdnf hda|jahfi jy j`` cf`w zdv orjab zdvr hdnnvajyz yd.bfycfr ja jnwdrymay mzx! Ycjx jx do|jdvx yd zdv! Zdv‚|f m`rfmiz ifhjifi

zdv may yd id ycf drk mai zdv‚rf rfmiz yd imxc mcfmi!

M`` ycf fxxmzx ja ycjx oddk nmkf h`fmr ycmy wmxxjda mai |m`vfx mrf ycf

vf` dr ycf fabjaf d maz wdfyrz wrdbrmn! Ycfz kffw zdv hdaafhyfi jyc

cz zdv may yd id ycf drk ja ycf rxy w`mhf mai ycfz cf`w zdv id jy

f``! Zdv hma cf`w zdvrxf` ad mx zdv‚rf bfyyjab xymryfi mai m`xd ida ycf

`jaf j zdv ymkf m `jyy`f yjnf yd mryjhv`myf cz ycjx drk nmyyfrx yd zdv cz

zdv |m`vf jy mai rdn ycfrf cz jy njbcy nmyyfr yd dycfrx! Cm|jab idaf xdj`` m`xd cf`w zdv cfa ycf yjnf hdnfx yd wfrxvmif dycfrx yd hdnf da

odmri dr bj|f zdv ndafz! Ljam``z jy j`` bj|f zdv m ydvhcxydaf yd rfyvra yd

ja ndnfayx d brdyc dr hrjxjx cjhc j`` jaf|jymo`z mrjxf!

F|fa ndrf ycma ycjx fsmnjajab zdvr da ndyj|myjdax’ycf cz d

cmy zdv mrf idjab’hma cf`w zdv ofbja yd ifaf ycf cmy mai ycf cd ja

m mz ycmy jahrfmxfx zdvr hcmahfx d xvhhfxx!

Ofbja oz mxkjab zdvrxf` xdnf omxjh }vfxyjdax’wrffrmo`z ja ycf hdn.

wmaz d dycfr `jkf.njaifi wfdw`f cd njbcy of jayfrfxyfi ja drkjab

jyc zdv dr my `fmxy ja xcmrjab ycfjr jifmx jyc zdv!

Idfx m wmxxjda ldr wdfyr jyxf`l nmkf dv may yd id ycjx drk4

J xd mxk zdvrxf` cmy rxy bdy zdv fabmbfi jyc wdfyrz ja m wmxxjda.

myf mz mai cmy ycmy fmr`z fswfrjfahf mx `jkf! Rcmy nmkfx wdfyrz ff`

fxxfayjm` mai jnwdrymay yd zdv4 Cd hma zdv ofxy hdnnvajhmyf mai xcmrf

ycmy fxxfahf mai jnwdrymahf jyc dycfrx4My ycf ofbjaajab d ‐Ycf L`zcff`„ Omx Kmknma xmzx ‐Jy mx ycf

xdvai d m wdfn ycmy nmif nf m`` ja `d|f jyc wdfyrz dahf mai dr m``„’

‐ycf xdvai d m wdfn„ cf xmzx f|fa ycdvbc jy mxa‚y f|fa ycf wdfy‚x da

|djhf mai `mabvmbf cf mx cfmrjab ovy rmycfr m yrmax`myjda rfmi oz m yrmax`m.

ydr! Xyj`` jy‚x ad mhhjifay ycmy Kmknma‚x fxxmz ofbjax ycfrf; mx m nvxjhjma cf

jx iffw`z xfaxjyj|f yd xdvai mai ja ycf rfxy d cjx fxxmz cf rjyfx f`d}vfay`z

modvy cd xjahf ycmy ndnfay cf cmx yrjfi yd orjab wfdw`f jayd wdfyrz

ycrdvbc ‐ycf xdvai d [wdfnx^!„ Ofhmvxf ycjx |m`vf jx xd jnwdrymay yd Kmk.nma cf drkx fxwfhjm``z cmri yd ai af mzx yd `fy mvijfahfx fswfrjfahf

wdfnx ja yrmax`myjda cj`f cfmrjab ycfn ja ycfjr drjbjam` |djhfx!



Ydd`x ldr Wrmhyjhm` Irfmnjab p =:2

M`jxda Cmycdraf Ifnjab da ycf dycfr cmai yf``x vx ycmy xcf mx

drjbjam``z irma yd minjajxyrmyj|f drk ycrdvbc cfr da wdfrv` xfaxf d

cd hdnnvajyz cmi offa jayfbrm` yd f|frz jnwdrymay ndnfay d cfr

brdyc mx m wdfy! M ifxjrf yd orjab ycmy xfaxf d hdnnvajyz yd dycfrx `ficfr yd drk rxy my ycf Ljaf Mryx Rdrk Hfayfr ja Wrd|jahfyda mai xfhdai

my ycf Wdfyrz Hfayfr my ycf Vaj|frxjyz d Mrjudam!

Imam Bjdjm hmnf yd Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi ycrdvbc ycf nfndrz d fmr`z

fswfrjfahfx jyc wdfyrz odyc my cdnf mai ja xhcdd` ycmy frf amyvrm` mai

fnodijfi ady jayf``fhyvm`jufi mai m ifxjrf yd rf.hrfmyf ycmy fswfrjfahf dr

zdvab wfdw`f!

Dr`maid Rcjyf m nfnofr d ycf Ydd`kjy brdvw rfnfnofrx cd wd.

frv``z ycf fswfrjfahf d drkjab jayfaxj|f`z jyc wdfyx cd |jxjyfi XmaymLf‚x Jaxyjyvyf d Mnfrjhma Jaijma Mryx dr ffk`dab rfxjifahjfx jalvfahfi

cjn mx m zdvab wdfy! My Ijaê Hd``fbf cf ad drkx yd hrfmyf ycf xmnf

kjai d fswfrjfahf dr cjx xyvifayx!

‐\m`vfx„ mhhdrijab yd Ycdnmx @vs jx ‐m bddi mai cdafxy dri!„ Adyjhf

ycmy ja fmhc d ycfxf hmxfx m xfaxf d |m`vfx d ycf jnwdrymahf d m hfrymja

kjai d fswfrjfahf `fi wfdw`f yd m wrdbrmnnjab hdnnjynfay mai |jxjda!

Xd mbmja cmy fswfrjfahf ordvbcy zdv jayd m wmxxjdamyf rf`myjdaxcjw jyc

wdfyrz4 Hma zdv jnmbjaf rfw`jhmyjab ycmy fswfrjfahf cfrf zdv mrf4

Da ycf dycfr cmai, m wmxxjda ldr dvr hdnnvajy mai m ifxjrf yd xyrfabycfa

ycmy hdnnvajy nm nmkf dv may yd hrfmyf wdfyr wrdbrmnnjab!

D hdvrxf ycjx ifxjrf jxa‚y afhfxxmrj`z xfwmrmyf rdn m wmxxjda dr

wdfyrz’ja mhy jy jnw`jfx m of`jf ycmy wdfyrz dfrx xdnfycjab xwfhjm` yd

ycdxf cd fahdvayfr jy! Xvxma Odxkd m nfnofr d ycf Ydd`kjy brdvw

ijrfhyx ycf Af|mim Mryx Hdvahj` mai cf`wx rvrm` hdnnvajyjfx jycjaAf|mim ovjì mryx wrdbrmnnjab! Xcf ff`x xyrdab`z modvy ycf wdfr d

wdfyrz ‐yd majnmyf ifndhrmhz hrfmyf ijm`dbvf mai ijxhdvrxf mai orjab

wfdw`f ydbfycfr ycrdvbc m``jab ja `d|f jyc ycf xdvai d wdfnx!„ Xcf

rfnfnofrx cfr fswfrjfahf d ‐m``jab ja `d|f„ cfa xcf `j|fi ja Vymc mai

mx rxy rfbv`mr`z fswdxfi yd wdfyrz rfmijabx mai ycf mz d xwfmkjab ycmy

jx vaj}vf yd wdfyrz my dahf wvo`jh mai m`xd wfrxdam` mai jayjnmyf! Nmrk

Xyrmai fswrfxxfi ycf xmnf jifm ja cjx =::= jayrdivhyjda yd Ofxy Mnfrjhma

Wdfyrz= cfa cf xmji modvy wdfyrz ycmy ‐[R^f xyj`` ifwfai da jy ja ndnfayxd hrjxjx mai ivrjab ycdxf yjnfx cfa jy jx jnwdrymay ycmy f kad ja xd

nmaz drix cmy f mrf bdjab ycrdvbc!„



=:3 p yk5 m j, wh, w

Ja cjx fxxmz @vjx _dirjbvfu rjyfx wdfrv``z modvy cd cf hmnf yd

wdfyrz myfr `fm|jab wrjxda mai cd ycjx fswfrjfahf `fi yd cjx nmkjab m

hdaafhyjda ofyffa wdfyrz mai rffidn! ‐Ycf rxy nd|f rdn hcmdx jxa‚y

drifr„ cf rjyfx ‐’jy‚x hrfmyj|jyz!„ Ycrdvbc cjx drk jyc Yjm Hcvhcm‚xHfayrd Hv`yvrm` , Oddkxydrf cf hdnfx yd vaifrxymai ycf yrmaxdrnmyj|f

wdfr d wdfyrz ja irmjab ydbfycfr ycf nfnofrx d ma vaifrxfr|fi hdn.

nvajyz mai ja hdaafhyjab ycmy hdnnvajyz jyc ycf |m`vfx d rffidn mai

hj|jh ijxhdvrxf! Cf yf``x d daf zdvab dnma ja cjx afjbcodrcddi cd

mx `jyfrm``z xm|fi rdn ymkjab cfr da `jf mai xd rfxydrfi yd cfrxf` mai

cfr hdnnvajyz ycrdvbc ma mhhjifaym` jayrdivhyjda yd ycf Hfayrd!

Wmyrjhjm Xnjyc ym`kx modvy cd ycf Hcjhmbd x`mn wrd|jifi cfr jyc m

wmxxjdamyf fswfrjfahf jyc wdfyrz mai hdaafhyfi cfr jyc m `mrbfr hdn.nvajyz! Ja wmryjhv`mr xcf rfhm``x cd Bfaid`za Orddkx cd xfr|fi mx m

xdry d wrfxjijab xwjrjy dr m nfndrmo`f Hcjhmbd f|fay cf`wfi cfr vaifr.

xymai cd xcf hdvì fswrfxx cfr fswfrjfahf mx m zdvab Mrjhma Mnfrjhma

dnma rdn Hcjhmbd‚x Rfxy Xjif’mai cd xcf hdvì id xd mx m nfnofr

d m `mrbfr wdfyrz hdnnvajyz!

Mai Xcfrja Ojyxvj rjyfx modvy wdfyrz mx ycf |fcjh`f vaj}vf`z mo`f yd

cf`w zdvab Am|med xyvifayx hdaafhy jyc xhcdd` oz fahdvrmbjab ycfn yd

orjab ycf rjhc `mabvmbf mai xydrjfx d ycfjr da hv`yvrf jayd ycf h`mxxrddn!

_dirjbvfu Xnjyc Ojyxvj mai Odxkd cm|f ycf fswfrjfahf d drkjab

jyc mai ja hdnnvajyjfx ja cjhc wfdw`f nmz ff` jxd`myfi mai m`jfamyfi

xdhjm``z dr bfdbrmwcjhm``z oz wd|fryz dr xfbrfbmyjda dr dycfr mhydrx! Ja

ycfxf hmxfx wdfyrz jyxf` jxa‚y ycf wdjay xd nvhc my `fmxy my ycf ofbjaajab; jy‚x

ndrf m nfmax yd ma fai! Ja m mz jxa‚y jy m`mzx4 F|fa ycdxf d vx cd mrf

majnmyfi oz m wmxxjda dr wdfyrz mrf xd majnmyfi ofhmvxf f‚|f cmi ycf

fswfrjfahf d wdfyrz‚x wdfr yd hcmabf dvr j|fx mai dvr rf`myjdaxcjwx jycdvr drì mai dvrxf`|fx! Ovy yd mhcjf|f maz d ycfxf faix f xyj`` cm|f yd

hrfmyf ycf hdaijyjdax dr ycf jayjnmyf fswfrjfahf ycmy jx wdfyrz! Rf xyj``

nvxy hdnf yd ycf }vfxyjda5 Cd idfx daf hrfmyf ycf hdaijyjdax dr ycf

‐m``jab ja `d|f„ dr ycf rfxydrmyjda yd xf` mai ycvx wfrcmwx yd hdnnvajyz

yd dhhvr4

_fhdbajf ycmy dvr wmxxjdax mai dvr |m`vfx mrf jayjnmyf` hdaafhyfi

Mryjhv`myjab cmy zdv mrf wmxxjdamyf modvy mai cz hma cf`w zdv jifa.yjz mai mryjhv`myf zdvr |m`vfx mai wfrcmwx maxfr ycf afsy }vfxyjda5 Rcz

nf4 Id zdv |m`vf mai may yd hrfmyf ycf hdaijyjdax dr jaij|jivm` yrmax.

drnmyj|f fswfrjfahfx jyc wdfyrz4 Id zdv |m`vf mai may yd hrfmyf m



Ydd`x ldr Wrmhyjhm` Irfmnjab p =::

hdnnvajyz bmycfrjab w`mhf mrdvai wdfyrz4 Ycfxf mrf mazycjab ovy nvyv.

m``z fsh`vxj|f’ycfrf‚x m bddi hcmahf ycmy j zdv id ycf daf zdv njbcy m`xd

mhhdnw`jxc ycf dycfr! Kadjab cmy mrdvxfi zdvr wmxxjdax j`` cf`w zdv

vaifrxymai cmy zdv |m`vf mai vaifrxymaijab cmy zdv |m`vf j`` cf`w zdv ifhjif cmy kjai d wrdbrmn yd hrfmyf cd yd bd modvy jy mai wfrcmwx

cfycfr mai cz zdv mrf ycf rjbcy wfrxda yd id ycjx drk!

Ydd`kjy brdvw nfnofr Yrff Xfaxda rfhm``x cfr fswfrjfahf my Hdwwfr

Hmazda Wrfxx mai ycf nmaz yjnfx xcf ifhjifi yd wfrxjxy ja cfr drk ja

xwjyf d xffnjab`z jaxvrndvaymo`f doxymh`fx! Xcf kfwy bdjab ofhmvxf d cfr

wmxxjda dr wdfyrz m wmxxjda xcf cmi ijxhd|frfi mx ma jxd`myfi yffambfr ja

Ndaymam mai cfr xfaxf ycmy j xcf ijia‚y id ycjx drk adodiz dvì mai

ycmy j adodiz iji ycf drk xdnfycjab jnwdrymay njbcy of `dxy yd ycfdrì! Cfrx mx |m`vfx.irj|fa drk!

Ydn @vs ofbma cjx drk dr WdfyrzGYfhc jyc ycjx |m`vf5 j xdnfdaf

bj|fx zdv m bjy zdv xcdvìa‚y mxyf jy’ja mhy zdv xcdvì xcmrf jy mx

jif`z mx zdv hma! Lrdn ycjx cf hmnf yd cjx bdm` d orjabjab mx nvhc

wdfyrz d ijfrfay kjaix yd mx `mrbf mai |mrjdvx ma mvijfahf mx wdxxjo`f!

Madycfr |m`vf d Ydn‚x jx ycmy wrdbrmnx xcdvì of nmif jyc ycf xmnf hmrf

mai myyfayjda yd ifymj` ycmy wdfnx mrf! Rf‚`` xmz ndrf modvy ycjx `myfr ovy

dr ad jy‚x vxfv` yd wdjay dvy ycmy ycjx jx m bddi |m`vf yd micfrf yd ja ycf

fmr`z xymbfx d maz wrdbrmn! Mx dr cz cf xcdvì id ycf drk cjnxf`’ja

cjx hmxf ycf maxfr jx xjnw`z ofhmvxf cf mx mxkfi mai ycf ja|jymyjda

`ddkfi yd cjn `jkf ma dwwdryvajyz yd ovjì xdnfycjab rfm`!

_dofry Cmxx ofbma ycf _j|fr d Rdrix wrdefhy jyc m |m`vf mai m hda.

|jhyjda5 f xcdvì id m`` f hma yd hdaafhy jyc dvr `dhm` amyvrm` fa|jrda.

nfayx ja ycjx hmxf xwfhjhm``z jyc myfrxcfix mai wdfyrz cmx ycf wdfr yd

cf`w vx id ycjx oz `jakjab cmy f doxfr|f mai kad jyc cmy f ff`ycrdvbc `mabvmbf! Lrdn ycjx cf mrrj|fi my ycf bdm` d orjabjab kjix ydbfycfr

jyc amyvrm`jxyx mai dycfr fswfryx cd hdvì cf`w ycfn fsw`drf mai vaifr.

xymai ycfjr myfrxcfix odyc ycrdvbc mhy.omxfi ja|fxyjbmyjda mai ycrdvbc

rjyjab wdfyrz! Rcz cjn4 Ja ycjx hmxf ja m mz ofhmvxf cf hdvì! Cf cmi m

wmxxjda dr ycf drk mai mx V!X! wdfy `mvrfmyf cf mx ja m wdxjyjda yd nmkf

xdnfycjab `mrbf mai faivrjab!

Dvy d wfrxdam` fswfrjfahf M`jxda Cmycdraf Ifnjab if|f`dwfi ycf

|m`vf ycmy hdnnvajyz jx jnwdrymay mai ycrdvbc odyc ycf Ljaf Mryx RdrkHfayfr mai ycf Wdfyrz Hfayfr my ycf Vaj|frxjyz d Mrjudam xcf if|f`dwfi

ycf hda|jhyjda ycmy hdnnvajyz jx yjfi yd w`mhf! Rcfa jy ofhmnf h`fmr ycmy

ycf Wdfyrz Hfayfr‚x wczxjhm` cdnf dvì of `dxy ycf Hfayfr mhfi m ifhj.



?77 p yk5 m j, wh, w

xjda5 dvì jy m``d jyxf` yd of xvoxvnfi jayd m `mrbfr hmnwvx fayjyz4 Ycjx

dvì cm|f offa ycf fmxjfxy fmxy fswfaxj|f hdvrxf mai ycf daf ndxy hfrymja

yd wrfxfr|f ycf Hfayfr ja xdnf drn! Ovy j jy `dxy jyx jaifwfaifahf dvì jy

`dxf ydvhc jyc jyx |m`vfx mai njxxjda4 Ja ycf fai ycf Hfayfr rmjxfi nj``jdaxd id``mrx xd jy hdvì rfnmja m cdnf if|dyfi xwfhjhm``z yd wdfyrz!

@vjx _dirjbvfu‚x ofbjaajab mx ijfrfay! Jaxyfmi d rjxjab yd ma

dwwdryvajyz cf hrfmyfi daf dvy d cjx da ifxjrf mai affi! F|frzycjab

ofbma jyc m wrfxx cf xymryfi ja drifr yd wvo`jxc cjx da drk! Xdda cf

rfm`jufi ycmy j cf affifi m wvo`jxcfr xd iji dycfr wdfyx cd `jkf cjn

of`dabfi yd hdnnvajyjfx mai brdvwx dyfa d|fr`ddkfi oz nmjaxyrfmn

wvo`jxcfrx! Cf ofbma wvo`jxcjab ycfn ydd! Yd id xd fswrfxxfi ycf |m`vf

ycmy ycfjr drix frf dryc cfmrjab f|fa j’nmzof fxwfhjm``z j’ycfzhmnf rdn ycf nmrbjax! Lrdn ycmy |m`vf f|frzycjab f`xf hmnf! Ndnfay oz

ndnfay `jkf Ydn _dofry mai M`jxda cf mx ycfrf5 wrfxfay wmxxjdamyf

mai j``jab!

Wfrcmwx ycmy xfayfahf ifxhrjofx zdv5 zdv ydd mrf wmxxjdamyf mai j``jab

cfycfr zdv mrf xyfwwjab jayd ma dwwdryvajyz ycmy wrfxfayx jyxf` dr hrfmy.

jab zdvr da dwwdryvajyz! J xd ycjx jx m bddi yjnf yd ofbja yd kffw m rjy.

yfa rfhdri! J zdv‚rf drkjab m`daf jifayjz mai rjyf ida zdvr wmxxjdax

ndyj|fx mai |m`vfx! Rcmy ffhy mrf zdv `ddkjab yd hrfmyf4 Rcz4 J zdv

cm|fa‚y m`rfmiz idaf xd ofbja yd `ddk mrdvai dr dycfrx cd xcmrf xdnf d

zdvr wmxxjdax mai |m`vfx mai cd njbcy of mo`f yd cf`w zdv ycjak modvy

ycfn! Ivrjab zdvr ijxhvxxjdax nmkf xvrf yd ymkf adyfx!

Nmkf dvr wmxxjdax mai |m`vfx hdahrfyf

Ycjx jx ady evxy ma moxyrmhy fsfrhjxf! Ycfxf hda|frxmyjdax mrf jayfrfxyjab

yd cm|f d|fr hdff dr m b`mxx d jaf ovy zdvr v`yjnmyf wvrwdxf jx yd nmkfxdnfycjab cmwwfa! Yd id ycjx zdv affi yd jifayjz wdxxjo`f m|favfx dr

fswrfxxjab zdvr wmxxjdax mai |m`vfx! Dahf zdv jifayjz ycdxf ycmy mrf ndxy

jnwdrymay yd zdv ijxhvxx cd ofxy yd rf.hrfmyf ycdxf wmxxjdax mai famhy

ycdxf |m`vfx ja m hdahrfyf xfyyjab!

Wfrcmwx zdv may yd yrz yd ivw`jhmyf zdvr da drjbjam` fswfrjfahf dr

yd jnwdry m wrdbrmn rdn f`xfcfrf jayd zdvr hdnnvajyz! Ycjx mwwrdmhc

cmx mi|maymbfx! Ldr daf ycjab zdv hma mxk ycdxf cd cm|f m`rfmiz idaf

cmy zdv may yd id dr mi|jhf mai jifmx; zdv hma m`xd ai dvy cmy njx.ymkfx zdv xcdvì yrz yd m|dji!

Ycfrf mrf wdyfayjm` wjym``x ja ycjx mwwrdmhc! Ijfrfay hdnnvajyjfx

cm|f ijfrfay nmkfvwx mai affix mai zdv j`` may yd nmkf xvrf zdv‚rf



Ydd`x ldr Wrmhyjhm` Irfmnjab p ?7=

mo`f yd mimwy maz wrdbrmn yd ycf rfxdvrhfx mai affix d zdvr hdnnvajyz! M

wrdbrmn ycmy orjabx |jxjyjab rjyfrx yd m |favf ja Orddk`za dr f|fa ja

Xmaym Lf j`` wrdomo`z cm|f yd of yfmkfi yd drk da ycf Am|med rfxfr|m.

yjda j da`z ofhmvxf ycf h`dxfxy mjrwdry nmz of ma fjbcy.cdvr irj|f rdnycf wrdbrmn |favf!

Ja cfr fxxmz @ff Orjhhfyyj ym`kx modvy Wdfyrz ja Ycf Ormahcfx m wrd.

brmn Wdfyx Cdvxf hrfmyfi drjbjam``z dr jormrjfx ja Af Zdrk mai f|fayv.

m``z fswmaifi yd `jormrjfx mhrdxx ycf hdvayrz! Ycf wrdbrmn dfrx xwfhjh

xfr|jhfx yd mai rf}vjrfx xwfhjh hdnnjynfayx rdn f|frz `jormrz! Ovy ycf

wrdbrmn m`xd m``dx `jormrjfx ycf `ffmz yd nmkf mievxynfayx omxfi da

hdnnvajyz affix! Mndab ycf fsmnw`fx @ff ym`kx modvy jx m wrdbrmn ycmy

orjabx zdvab mai dì wfdw`f ydbfycfr mai jahdrwdrmyfx wdfyrz ja Zjiijxc!Ycf rxy wjfhf d ycjx wrdbrmn nmz of mwwrdwrjmyf dr m`ndxy maz hdnnv.

ajyz ifwfaijab da jyx bdm`x; ycf xfhdai nmz ady of! Da ycf dycfr cmai m

hdnnvajyz jyc nmaz amyj|f Xwmajxc xwfmkfrx njbcy vxf ycf xfhdai ndif`

mx m yfnw`myf yd hrfmyf wrdbrmnnjab xwfhjhm``z dr ycfn!

J zdvr jifm jx yd hrfmyf m wrdbrmn ja zdvr `dhm` `jormrz @ff |frz bfafr.

dvx`z bj|fx zdv ma dvy`jaf yd d``d! Xcf m`xd nmkfx h`fmr ycmy Wdfyrz ja Ycf

Ormahcfx jx xdnfycjab Wdfyx Cdvxf m`rfmiz kadx cd yd id |frz f`` mai

ycmy ycf drbmajumyjda hma drk jyc zdv mai zdvr `jormrz yd ovjì m wrd.

brmn ycmy drkx ja zdvr `dhmyjda! J ycjx jx cmy zdv may yd dfr zdvr

hdnnvajyz zdv njbcy xm|f yjnf fafrbz mai f|fa ndafz oz drkjab

ijrfhy`z jyc Wdfyx Cdvxf!

Zdv wrdomo`z ida‚y cm|f ycf rfxdvrhfx Imam Bjdjm cmi mx ycf hcmjrnma

d ycf Amyjdam` Faidnfay dr ycf Mryx cfa cf hrfmyfi Wdfyrz Dvy

@dvi m amyjdajif wrdbrmn! #J zdv id’hdabrmyv`myjdax mai bddi `vhk-*

Ovy j zdv may yd id ycf wrdbrmn my ycf cjbc xhcdd` `f|f` zdv hma hdaymhy zdvr xymyf mryx mbfahz mai ai dvy cd yd orjab jy yd zdvr `dhm` xhcdd`x! J

zdv may yd mii xdnfycjab vaj}vf yd zdvr da hdnnvajyz zdv njbcy

ycjak modvy cd yd hrfmyf m mz yd ja|d`|f dycfrx wfrcmwx oz cdìjab m

hdnwfyjyjda da ycf `dhm` `f|f` dr miv`yx dr zdvabfr kjix ycmy rvax hdahvr.

rfay`z jyc ycf WD@ hdnwfyjyjda! Xdnfycjab `jkf ycjx hdvì of idaf jyc

`jyy`f dr ad ndafz ofhmvxf WD@ jx vaifi oz ycf AFM mai Wdfyrz Ldva.

imyjda mai ycf xymyfx mai m`` ycf nmyfrjm`x dr WD@ mrf m|mj`mo`f dr ida.

`dmi da`jaf!Ljam``z ndxy xymyfx cm|f mryx mbfahjfx xymfi jyc wfdw`f cd mrf fswf.

rjfahfi ja orjabjab wdfyrz jayd ijfrfay kjaix d hdnnvajyjfx! J zdv ida‚y

cm|f m |frz xwfhjh |jxjda d cmy zdv may yd id zdvr `dhm` mryx mbfahz



?7? p yk5 m j, wh, w

hma wrdomo`z cf`w zdv if|f`dw daf fxwfhjm``z j zdv cm|f f``.mryjhv`myfi

|m`vfx mai bdm`x! J zdv m`rfmiz kad cmy zdv may yd id cfycfr jy‚x

`jormrz wrdbrmnnjab rfhjymyjdax rfmijabx rfxjifahjfx drkxcdwx myfr.

xhcdd` wrdbrmnx dr xdnfycjab f`xf fayjrf`z xdnfdaf my zdvr `dhm` mryxmbfahz j`` wrdomo`z cm|f jifmx modvy cd yd bfy xymryfi! Ycmy wfrxda nmz

m`xd of mo`f yd cf`w zdv jyc xdnf wrmhyjhm` jxxvfx jah`vijab wrd|jijab

hdaymhyx bj|jab zdv jadrnmyjda modvy cd yd jahdrwdrmyf mai ofhdnf m

adawrdy drbmajumyjda mai cf`wjab zdv ycjak modvy vaijab! Mx fmr`z mx

wdxxjo`f ja zdvr w`maajab zdv xcdvì nmkf hdaymhy jyc ycfxf wfdw`f!

Zdv nmz ady of mo`f yd wrfhjxf`z rf.hrfmyf ycf wrdbrmn dr jifm ycmy

drjbjam``z ird|f zdv’dr ady my `fmxy rjbcy mmz! Jy nmz of ycmy zdvr fswf.

rjfahf hmnf dvy d xdnf `mrbf amyjdam` wrdbrmn dr ycf dwwdryvajyz ydxyviz mordmi dr ma fahdvayfr jyc m Adof` `mvrfmyf! Ovy rfnfnofr mx

Xvxma Odxkd wdjayx dvy ycmy ycf fswfrjfahf d wdfyrz f|fa cfa jy hdnfx

ja hdnwmaz jx jayjnmyf ycf fswfrjfahf d daf wfrxda xwfmkjab yd madycfr

hrfmyjab ma jayjnmyf xwmhf dr ycmy dycfr yd fayfr!

Hcfhk`jxy5 Jifayjlz Wmxxjdax, Ifaf \m`vfx, Hrfmyf Bdm`x

M! Rjyc wfa ja cmai mxk zdvrxf` ycfxf }vfxyjdax5

=! Rcmy fswfrjfahfx `fi nf yd ycjx evahyvrf4

?! J ycfz ja|d`|f nz if|f`dwjab m wmxxjda dr wdfyrz cd iji

ycfz id ycjx4

8! J ycfz ja|d`|f nz xfaxf d m affi ja ycf hdnnvajyz dr hdn.

nvajyz ovjìjab cd id J ifxhrjof ycjx affi4 Rcz mai cd

id J ycjak wdfyrz njbcy `` jy4

9! Rcmy id nz wmxxjdax yf`` nf modvy nz |m`vfx4

6! Rcz mn J idjab ycjx’cz nf4<! Rcmy id J cdwf yd mhcjf|f4

O! J zdv ofbma oz mxkjab ycfxf }vfxyjdax m`daf hdayjavf oz mxkjab

ycfn ja hdnwmaz mbmja ymkjab adyfx!

H! Ydbfycfr zdv mai zdvr brdvw nfnofrx xcdvì hdnwmrf fswfrj.

fahfx wmxxjdax |m`vfx mai bdm`x! Ljai cfrf ycfz d|fr`mw mai ifhjif

cjhc mrf ndxy jnwdrymay!

I! _f`zjab da zdvr wrf|jdvx fswfrjfahfx yd bvjif zdv jnmbjaf cmy

kjaix d wrdbrmnx njbcy mhcjf|f zdvr bdm`x! _fnfnofr ycmy m bj|fawrdbrmn njbcy v``` ndrf ycma daf bdm`! Ldr fsmnw`f ma myfradda

rfmijab xfrjfx njbcy bj|f zdvab wfdw`f m w`mhf yd bd myfr xhcdd` mai

m`xd fabmbf ycfn ja hj|jh ijxhdvrxf dr orjab ycfn ydbfycfr jyc






ady m`` `jyfrmrz zdv njbcy mxk zdvrxf` j ycfz mrf adafycf`fxx v```jab affix

zdv cm|f jifayjfi fxwfhjm``z j ycfxf affix cm|f yd id `fxx jyc wdfyrz

jyxf` ycma jyc ycf if|f`dwnfay d hdnnvajyz mai hj|jh ijxhdvrxf!

J zdv `j|f ja m `mrbf hdnnvajyz xdnfyjnfx zdv nmz ady of mo`f ydm|dji hdnwfyjab jyc dycfr `jyfrmrz f|fayx! Nmaz `mrbf hdnnvajyjfx hma

xvwwdry nv`yjw`f f|fayx ja m bj|fa ffk dr f|fa da m bj|fa ajbcy! M hjyz ycf

xjuf d Yvhxda njbcy affi da`z daf ojb wdfyrz hfayfr my `fmxy dr ad ovy

jy hma odyc ja xwjyf d mai ofhmvxf d cm|jab xvhc m hfayfr xvxymja xf|frm`

hdffcdvxf rfmijab xfrjfx brdvaifi ja ijfrfay afjbcodrcddix mai

ijrfhyfi my ijfrfay mvijfahfx! F|fa ja xnm``fr hdnnvajyjfx f|fayx d m

hfrymja kjai mjnfi my xfajdrx njbcy ady hdnwfyf jyc xjnj`mr f|fayx affifi

dr kjix!_fbmri`fxx jy‚x m bddi jifm yd bvrf dvy cd cmy zdv may yd dfr jx

ijfrfay ja kjai rdn cmy jx m`rfmiz dvy ycfrf’dr cd jy njbcy rfw`jhmyf

dycfr wrdbrmnx! Yd kad ycjx zdv cm|f yd id m ycdrdvbc xvr|fz d ycf

yfrrmja!

Vxf ycf _fxdvrhfx Mrdvai zdv

Ad nmyyfr ycf xjuf dr ifndbrmwcjhx d zdvr hdnnvajyz jy‚x m bddi

jifm yd bfy ja ydvhc jyc zdvr `dhm` mai xymyfjif mryx mbfahjfx! Ycfjr wrd.

brmnnfrx xcdvì kad nvhc d cmy jx bdjab da ja wdfyrz mai ycf dycfr

mryx ja zdvr mrfm! J zdv `j|f ja ma mrfm cfrf hv`yvrm` wrdbrmnnjab cmwwfax

ycrdvbc `dhm` dr hdvayz bd|franfayx dr ycrdvbc fsjxyjab wrj|myf brdvwx

bfy ja ydvhc jyc ycfn ydd! Ida‚y `fm|f dvy `jormrjfx mai xhcdd`x!

Zdv xcdvì m`xd wmz myyfayjda yd ycf hdnnvajyz hm`faimrx ja zdvr dhm`

mai afjbcodrcddi afxwmwfrx mai yd maadvahfnfayx da rmijd mai yf`f|j.

xjda #fxwfhjm``z `dhm` mai `dhm``z rva wvo`jh xymyjdax*! Ycfrf nmz m`xd of mamryx.drjfayfi foxjyf ja zdvr hdnnvajyz! Hcfhk m`` d ycfxf rfbv`mr`z!

Of Wrdmhyj|f’@fmra lrdn Rcmy zdv Xff

Ycfa’ycjx jx jnwdrymay-’bd yd f|fayx! J zdv mrf `ddkjab dr m brfmyfr

hdaafhyjda yd hdnnvajyz zdv hma ofbja yd xmyjxz ycjx affi oz wmryjhjwmy.

jab ndrf v``z ja cmy jx m`rfmiz dfrfi mai oz ycjakjab modvy zdvr da

drk mx of`dabjab ja ycjx `mrbfr hdayfsy! My ycf xmnf yjnf zdv j`` of mo`f

yd mam`zuf ycf ijfrfahf ofyffa ma f|fay ycmy jx rva f`` mai daf ycmyjxa‚y ma drbmajumyjda ycmy jx drkjab dvy d wmxxjda mai hdnnjynfay mai

daf ycmy jx da`z bdjab ycrdvbc ycf ndyjdax! Ofzdai ycjx zdv nmz ijxhd|fr

brdvwx idjab wjfhfx d cmy zdv‚|f hdaxjifrfi idjab zdvrxf` mai idjab



Ydd`x ldr Wrmhyjhm` Irfmnjab p ?76

ycfn f``! Zdv hma vxf ycfxf f|fayx yd nffy wfdw`f cd mrf fswfrjfahfi ja

nmkjab wrdbrmnx! Ycfz nmz ofhdnf jnwdrymay mi|jxdrx dr wmryafrx!

Vxf Mxxfxxnfay yd Jifayjl Wdyfayjm` Wmryafrx

Mx zdv cm|f m`rfmiz bmycfrfi cfycfr zdvr hdnnvajyz jx xnm`` dr

`mrbf zdvr xvr|fz j`` ady da`z `fy zdv kad cmy affix mrf ofjab v```fi

mai cmy njbcy irm mvijfahfx mmz rdn zdvr f|fayx ovy m`xd njbcy bj|f

zdv jifmx dr wmryafrxcjwx odyc ycdxf ycmy mrf do|jdvx mai ycdxf ycmy mrfa‚y!

Ad nmyyfr cmy xjuf zdvr hdnnvajyz jx jy wrdomo`z idfxa‚y nmkf xfaxf yd

xhcfiv`f m rfmijab my ycf xmnf yjnf mx m `mrbf nv`yjimz mryx fxyj|m` j zdvr

bdm`x mrf mryjxyjh dr mbmjaxy m |dyfr rfbjxyrmyjda f|fajab mai wd`jyjhm` ifomyf

j zdvr bdm`x ja|d`|f hdnnvajyz ovjìjab mai hj|jh ijxhdvrxf! Ovy jy njbcynmkf xfaxf yd hddrijamyf jyc ycf fxyj|m` dr ycf hdnnvajyz mai hj|jh

drbmajufrx yd hrfmyf m edjay`z xwdaxdrfi rfmijab dr f|fay!

Hhk5 m a

M! @ddk my ycf hdnnvajyz zdv nfma yd xfr|f! Of mx xwfhjh mx zdv hma

my ycjx wdjay; dr fsmnw`f ida‚y ofbja jyc ‐nz xymyf„ ovy jyc

‐yffax ja nz hjyz„ dr f|fa ‐yffax ja nz afjbcodrcddi cjbc xhcdd`!„

O! If|f`dw m w`ma dr aijab dvy cmy kjaix d wrdbrmnx mrf m|mj`mo`f

yd ycjx hdnnvajyz! Adyjhf cd nvhc fmxjfr ycjx jx dahf zdv‚|f jifa.

yjfi zdvr hdnnvajyz wrfhjxf`z! Ycfa mxxjba brdvw nfnofrx yd d`.

`d ycrdvbc da xwfhjh mhyjda jyfnx cjhc hdvì jah`vif ycf

d``djab5

=! Hdaivhy Bddb`f xfmrhcfx vxjab kfzdrix ycmy j`` orjab vw

rf`f|may wrdbrmnx ja zdvr mrfm!

?! Wcdaf zdvr `dhm` mryx mai hv`yvrm` mbfahjfx mai mxk wrdbrmn.nfrx modvy cmy jx cmwwfajab mai cmy adawrdyx ycfz‚rf

mmrf d ja zdvr mrfm!

8! Hdaymhy adawrdy mbfahjfx wdxxjo`z jah`vijab ady da`z ycdxf

xwfhjhm``z if|dyfi yd `jyfrmrz wrdbrmnnjab ovy m`xd ycdxf wrd.

|jijab xmz mryx fswfrjfahfx dr kjix dr xfajdrx myfr.xhcdd` wrd.

brmnx fyh!

9! Wcdaf dycfr rf`myfi drbmajumyjdax #ja ycf mod|f hmxf jormrjfx*

yd ai dvy cmy ycfz mrf idjab!6! Hcfhk jyc dycfr `dhm` bd|franfay mai hdnnvajyz mbfahjfx!

<! Hm`` ovxjafxxfx xvhc mx oddkxydrfx mai hdffcdvxfx ycmy njbcy

of ja|d`|fi ja `jyfrmrz wrdbrmnnjab!



?7< p yk5 m j, wh, w

2! Hcfhk hdnnvajyz ov``fyja odmrix mai hm`faimrx odyc wczxjhm`

mai |jryvm`!

3! Hcfhk `dhm` afxwmwfrx odyc imj`jfx mai ffk`jfx!

:! Mxk dycfr wfdw`f’yfmhcfrx rjfaix dhm` ovxjafxx dafrx hj|jhoddxyfrx fyh!’zdv ycjak njbcy of mmrf d wrdbrmnx ycmy

cm|fa‚y hmvbcy zdvr myyfayjda!

=7! Myyfai f|fayx jyc ma fzf yd `fmrajab odyc cmy jx ofjab idaf

mai cd!

H! Ycfa j wdxxjo`f jyc m brdvw xjy ida jyc wmwfr dr hdnwvyfr mai

id ma cdafxy f|m`vmyjda d cmy zdvr hdnnvajyz m`rfmiz cmx yd

dfr!

=! @jxy ycf wrdbrmnx zdv dvai!?! Jifayjz cmy ycfz dfr mai yd cdn!

8! Jifayjz mrfmx cfrf cmy jx ofjab dfrfi d|fr`mwx jyc cmy

zdv cm|f ja njai jyc ma fzf odyc ydmri rfajab zdvr bdm`x

mai ydmri if|f`dwjab wdyfayjm` wmryafrxcjwx!

9! Jifayjz cmy xyj`` rfnmjax yd of idaf!

6! J zdvr `jxy jah`vifx ndrf ycma daf jyfn wrjdrjyjuf!

MXXFXX _FXDV_HFX

Ovjìjab m wdfyrz wrdbrmn jx mazycjab ovy ma drifr`z `jafmr wrdhfxx!

Zdv‚|f m`rfmiz ofbva rfxdvrhf mxxfxxnfay j zdv d``dfi ycf xyfwx ja ycf

wrf|jdvx xfhyjda!

Yd ofbja jyc zdv affi yd kad cmy zdv cm|f! My ycf ndnfay jy

nmz of da`z zdvr da j``jabafxx mai zdvr da jifmx! Ycjx jx m bddi w`mhf

yd xymry ovy jy‚x ady fadvbc yd bfy xdnfycjab d ycf brdvai! Zdv affi ydif|f`dw mhhfxx yd hdahrfyf rfxdvrhfx mx f``!

Ljai Xwmhf

Ad nmyyfr cmy zdvr wrdbrmn jx zdv affi m w`mhf yd id jy! Ycjx jx fxwf.

hjm``z yrvf j zdv mrf w`maajab yd cdxy rfmijabx drkxcdwx hdafrfahfx dr

dycfr f|fayx! F|fa j zdv w`ma yd `mvahc m foxjyf zdv affi m w`mhf yd xjy

mai m w`mhf yd xfy vw zdvr hdnwvyfr!

My ycf ofbjaajab zdvr xwmhf affix nmz of `fxx f`modrmyf ycma zdvycjak! Hjyz Mry ja Xm`y @mkf Hjyz cdxyx odyc rfmijabx mai drkxcdwx! Ycdvbc

jy ad wmryafrx jyc ycf bdrbfdvx af idayda `jormrz ycf rxy rfmijab

xwmhf mx m omxfnfay rddn idamyfi oz m `dhm` @vycfrma hcvrhc! Jy mx



Ydd`x ldr Wrmhyjhm` Irfmnjab p ?72

Xwmryma ovy v``z mif}vmyf! Mai ja ycdxf fmr`z imzx Hjyz Mry dyfa cfì

drkxcdwx ja ycf cdnfx d odmri nfnofrx! @jyfrmrz nmbmujafx mai wrfxxfx

cm|f offa xymryfi ja xwmrf ofirddnx dr f|fa ja xwmrf hdrafrx d ofirddnx

ja vxf! Rf jnmbjaf zdv hdvì rva m foxjyf rdn cfrf|fr zdvr `mwydw jxcfycfr jy‚x da zdvr kjyhcfa ymo`f dr m ymo`f my ycf `dhm` jaifwfaifay hd.

ffcdvxf ovy f ida‚y afhfxxmr j`z rfhdnnfai ycmy zdv id ycjx drf|fr! Zdv

hma ycjak d xwmhf affix ja yd mzx5 cmy jx fxxfayjm` ad mai cmy zdvr

bdm`x mrf mx zdv nd|f drmri!

M wmryafr cmx m`mzx wrd|jifi xwmhf dr Hjyz Mry! Va`fxx mai vayj` zdvr

drbmajumyjda cmx jyx da xwmhf’cjhc nmz ady of afhfxxmrz dr f|fa ifxjr.

mo`f’wmryafrxcjw jx ma fshf``fay mz yd `f|frmbf cmy zdvr hdnnvajyz

m`rfmiz cmx yd dfr!

Ljai Wmryafrx

Ofhmvxf zdv cm|f m`rfmiz fabmbfi ja jifayjzjab zdvr rfxdvrhf affix

zdv ofbma nmkjab wmryafrxcjwx m`ndxy jnnfijmyf`z ja ycf wrdhfxx hda.

afhyjab mai ym`kjab jyc wfdw`f cdxf |m`vfx mai bdm`x m`jba jyc zdvrx

mai ycfa vxjab zdvr affix mxxfxxnfay mhyj|jyjfx yd xhdwf dvy wdyfayjm` wmry.

afr wrdbrmnx! Af|fr vaifrfxyjnmyf ycf |m`vf d bddi wmryafrxcjwx; ycfz mrf

fxxfayjm`! Zdv j`` affi yd if|f`dw xf|frm` kjaix d wmryafrxcjwx!

Ovjì Wmryafrxcjwx Rjyc Jaij|jivm`x

Jy‚x af|fr ydd xdda yd rfmhc dvy yd jaij|jivm`x cd cm|f wrjdrjyjfx mai

wmxxjdax xjnj`mr yd zdvrx mai cd njbcy of j``jab yd cf`w zdv! Ycjx

ofhdnfx |frz jnwdrymay cfa ycfrf jx mhyvm` drk yd of idaf ovy jy jx m`xd

jnwdrymay my ycf jifm xymbf d maz wrdefhy! @jkf.njaifi wfdw`f hma cf`w

zdv odyc mryjhv`myf m |jxjda mai wrjdrjyjfx mai jifayjz rfxdvrhfx! Ycfz hmacf`w rf`jf|f ycf ovrifa d ycf xvoxymayjm` `modr ja|d`|fi ja bfyyjab m wrd.

brmn vw mai rvaajab! Ja miijyjda ycfz nmz orjab affifi fswfryjxf yd ycf

wrdefhy! Ja rjyjab ycjx Ydd`kjy Kmycmrjaf Hd`fx ordvbcy da wmryafrx Xvxma

Odxkd Yrff Xfaxda Dr`maid Rcjyf mai F`jumofyc M``fa m`` d cdn

dfrfi xkj``x mai kad`fibf xcf ijia‚y cm|f! Ja xvhc m hmxf zdv hma ycjak

d zdvr yjnf jyc wmryafrx mx m kjai d njaj mwwrfayjhfxcjw! Rjyc ycjx ja

njai zdv nmz may yd xffk dvy jaij|jivm`x ja zdvr hdnnvajyz cdxf

drk zdv minjrf cd cm|f xwfhjh xkj``x dr hdaafhyjdax zdv hma vxf maicdxf |m`vfx njrrdr dr hdnw`fnfay zdvr da! _fnfnofr j zdv mrf

mwwrdmhcjab wfdw`f zdv ida‚y kad f`` yd mxk ycfn yd hd``modrmyf jyc

dr mi|jxf zdv jy‚x m bddi jifm yd cm|f m f``.if|f`dwfi mai mryjhv`myfi w`ma




ofdrf zdv mxk ycfn yd xwfai |m`vmo`f yjnf jyc zdv! Ycfz j`` may ycf

maxfrx yd m`` ycf }vfxyjdax f cm|f wdxfi5 Rcz ycjx4 Rcz cfrf4 Rcz ad4

Rcz dr cfm|fa‚x xmkf nf4 Rcmy rfxdvrhfx id J cm|f4

Ovjì Wmryafrxcjwx Rjyc Drbmajumyjdax

Drbmajumyjdax dyfa cm|f rfxdvrhfx jaij|jivm`x ida‚y mai j ycfz xcmrf

zdvr bdm`x mai |m`vfx ycfz nmz of j``jab yd xcmrf rfxdvrhfx! J zdv may yd

xymry m rfmijab xfrjfx ovy cm|f ad xwmhf zdv j`` may yd `ddk dr ma drbm.

ajumyjdam` wmryafr ycmy idfx cm|f ma mwwrdwrjmyf xwmhf mai jx dwfa yd f|fa

faycvxjmxyjh modvy zdvr jifm! Ycjx nmz of m ovxjafxx xvhc mx m hdffcdvxf

dr oddkxydrf! Jy nmz of ma drbmajumyjda xvhc mx m `jormrz m ycfmyfr dr ma mry

hfayfr m`rfmiz ja|fxyfi ja wrdndyjab hv`yvrf bfafrm``z dr `jyfrmyvrf ja wmr.yjhv`mr! Ovy zdv ida‚y cm|f yd xydw jyc ycf ndxy do|jdvx wmryafrx! Xvxma

Odxkd yf``x m xydrz modvy cd ycf Af|mim Mryx Hdvahj` dvai m xwmhf

wmryafr dr jyx Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi hdnwfyjyjda! Ycf AMH cmi xvhhffifi f``

ja m`jbajab jyx Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi hdnwfyjyjda jyc ycf amyjdam` am`x ja

Rmxcjabyda IH ovy fxx f`` my nmkjab jy myyrmhyj|f yd Af|mim cjbc xhcdd`

xyvifayx! Ycfa AMH mrrmabfi yd cdì ycf am`x my ycf _fad Kajyyjab Lmh.

ydrz m rmahcjxf d ycf Af Zdrk Hjyz‘omxfi hdahfry |favf! Xviifa`z

Af|mim yffax cmi ycf hcmahf yd hdnwfyf da ycf xmnf xymbf cfrf ycfjr

m|drjyf omaix wfrdrnfi!

Xfajdr hfayfrx cjbc xhcdd`x cdxwjym`x f|fa wrjxdax’m`` nmz of dwfa

yd ycf rjbcy kjaix d wmryafrxcjw wrdbrmnx fxwfhjm``z j zdv hma dfr ycfn

bddi wrdbrmnnjab ycmy j`` cf`w ycfn vrycfr ycfjr njxxjdax my `jyy`f hdxy

yd ycfn! Xdnf nmz f|fa of mo`f yd wrd|jif m wdryjda d m wdfy‚x cdadrmr.

jvn dr yrm|f` hdxyx! J zdvr wmryafr jx m adawrdy drbmajumyjda ycfrf njbcy

of ma dwwdryvajyz yd fxymo`jxc zdvr wrdbrmn vaifr ycf drbmajumyjda‚xvnorf``m mai mww`z dr brmayx f|fa j zdv cm|fa‚y zfy fxymo`jxcfi zdvr da

xymyvx mx m adawrdy! J zdv id ycjx of hmrfv` ady yd hdnwfyf jyc zdvr

wmryafr dr brmayx’nmkf xvrf zdv ymrbfy ijfrfay drbmajumyjdax mai wrd.

brmnx dr zdvr vaijab!

Ycf kfz yd nmkjab ycfxf wmryafrxcjwx jx yd mxk zdvrxf` cmy‚x ja jy dr

ycf wdyfayjm` wmryafrx mai of mo`f yd mryjhv`myf ycfxf ofafyx wfrxvmxj|f`z!

Nmkf xvrf ofdrf zdv mwwrdmhc ycmy zdv‚|f hdaxjifrfi ycjabx rdn ycfjr

wdjay d |jf ycmy zdv‚|f ycdvbcy modvy cd zdvr wrdbrmn yx jayd ycfjr njxxjdax mai affix!



Ydd`x ldr Wrmhyjhm` Irfmnjab p ?7:

Ovjì Wmryafrxcjwx Rjyc @dhm` mai Xymyf Mbfahjfx

Zdv bdy ja ydvhc jyc zdvr `dhm` mai xymyf mryx mbfahjfx ivrjab zdvr

affix mxxfxxnfay! Ycf bddi afx modvy mryx hdvahj`x jx ycmy ycfjr edo jx yd

orjab ycf mryx yd hdnnvajyjfx! J zdv‚|f idaf m ycdrdvbc mxxfxxnfay maimxxfno`fi m hda|jahjab hmxf ycmy ycfrf jx m affi dr zdvr wrdbrmn hcmahfx

mrf zdvr `dhm` mryx hdvahj` j`` of j``jab my `fmxy yd mi|jxf zdv da yfhcajhm`

nmyyfrx #xvhc mx cd yd doymja adawrdy xymyvx dr fsmnw`f* mai wdxxjo`z

yd `fai nmyfrjm` xvwwdry! Ycfz njbcy id ycf `myyfr ycrdvbc w`maajab mxxjx.

ymahf ycrdvbc hdaafhyjab zdv jyc dycfr wdyfayjm` wmryafrx dr f|fa

ycrdvbc vaijab!

Mryx mbfahjfx nmz cm|f |mrjdvx mzx d wrd|jijab amahjm` cf`w ifwfai.

jab odyc da mbfahz rv`fx mai da ycf xyrvhyvrf d zdvr wrdbrmn! Ycdvbcndxy mryx mbfahjfx rf}vjrf drnm` brmay wrdwdxm`x mai adawrdy xymyvx rdn

wrdbrmnx ycfz vai xdnf nmz of mo`f yd cf`w `fxx drnm``z wfrcmwx oz

cf`wjab mrrmabf mai wmz dr yrm|f` dr wrd|jijab cdadrmrjm ijrfhy`z yd ycf

wdfyx ja|d`|fi ja zdvr wrdbrmn! Nmkf ma mwwdjaynfay jyc ycf `jyfrmyvrf

wrdbrmnnfr my ycf mbfahz yd ym`k d|fr |mrjdvx wdxxjoj`jyjfx! Of wrfwmrfi yd

mryjhv`myf ycf affix zdvr wrdbrmn j`` miirfxx cd zdv w`ma yd v``` ycdxf

affix cmy rfxdvrhfx zdv cm|f mai cmy zdv affi! Of rfmiz yd ijxhvxx

cd zdvr wrdbrmn j`` y jayd mai cf`w vrycfr ycf d|frm`` njxxjda d ycf

mbfahz!

Ycf jxxvf d xymab’cd idfx ycf drk’nmz of yd xdnf ifbrff

miirfxxfi oz zdvr wmryafrxcjwx fxwfhjm``z cfa zdv mrf evxy bfyyjab xymryfi!

Ovy zdv hma‚y hdvay da zdvr wmryafrx yd id f|frzycjab dr zdv! Nmaz j ady

ndxy mryx drbmajumyjdax mai wrdbrmnx rva da xcdfxyrjab ovibfyx xd ycfz

ofbja jyc m``.|d`vayffr xymx! Ycvx ycf yrjhk my rxy jx aijab m mz yd

nmkf xvrf ycmy zdvr m``.|d`vayffr xym jxa‚y m`` zdv m`` ycf yjnf! Zdv ida‚ymay yd ovra dvy ofdrf zdv f|fa xymry!

Ja ycf ofbjaajab zdvr xym njbcy hdnwrjxf da`z zdv mai daf dr yd

rjfaix! M xnm`` wrdbrmn jyc dhhmxjdam` f|fayx hma rva vaifr xvhc hjr.

hvnxymahfx dr m `dab yjnf’mx `dab mx ycf wfdw`f ja|d`|fi rfnmja jayfr.

fxyfi mai m|mj`mo`f mai mx `dab mx ycf wrdbrmn idfxa‚y brd xjbajhmay`z!

Nd|jab rdn m |d`vayffr xym yd m wmji xym jx madycfr nmyyfr; ycjx

rf}vjrfx xjbajhmay mai xymo`f vaijab! Avyx Od`yx mai Rjibfyx5 Ydd`x dr

Yjakfrjab my ycf omhk d ycjx oddk wrd|jifx ma fsyfaxj|f `jxy d rfxdvrhfxycmy hma cf`w bvjif zdv ycrdvbc ycjx mai dycfr yrmaxjyjdax!



?=7 p yk5 m j, wh, w

Ljai Ja.Kjai _fxdvrhfx

J xdnfdaf dfrx zdv m |favf mai m xdvai xzxyfn dr ad ff ycmy jx

hdaxjifrfi m rfxdvrhf wrd|jifi ja kjai! Zdvr wmryafrx nmz cm|f dycfr xkj``x

mai rfxdvrhfx yd orjab yd ycf ymo`f mx f``! Ldr fsmnw`f wmryafrx cdxfdwfrmyjdax m`rfmiz jah`vif mi|fryjxjab mai wvo`jh rf`myjdax nmz of j``jab

yd wrd|jif ycdxf xfr|jhfx dr zdv! Ycf xmnf nmz of yrvf d rfhdrijab wcd.

ydbrmwcz mai maz avnofr d dycfr xfr|jhfx ycmy njbcy facmahf zdvr wrd.

brmn! M `dhm` cdyf` dr ndyf` njbcy wrd|jif rff rddnx; m rfxymvrmay njbcy

idamyf nfm`x dr |jxjydrx! Mx zdv hdaxjifr cmy zdv affi yd nmkf zdvr wrd.

brmn cmwwfa rfnfnofr ycmy mxkjab dr ja.kjai idamyjdax hma of ma fshf`.

`fay mz yd `fy wfdw`f cf`w zdv jycdvy rjyjab zdv m hcfhk! Ja.kjai idam.

yjdax hma of mx |m`vmo`f mx maz dycfrx j ady ndrf ofhmvxf ycfz xm|f ndafzmai odyc hrfmyf mai ifndaxyrmyf hdnnvajyz ja|d`|fnfay! Nmkf xvrf yd

bfy idhvnfaymyjda rdn ycf ja.kjai idadr ycmy ifxhrjofx ycf idamyjda mai

|frjfx jyx |m`vf!

Ljai Ndaf

Zdv j`` wrdomo`z affi yd mxk dr ndafz! Adyjhf ycdvbc ycmy f wvy

ndafz `mxy! Ycjx jx ofhmvxf jy‚x cmri yd ifyfrnjaf evxy cd nvhc zdv j``

affi ofdrf zdv kad cmy wmryafrxcjwx |d`vayffr xymab mai ja.kjai

rfxdvrhfx zdv m`rfmiz cm|f ja w`mhf! Cdf|fr f|fa j zdv cm|f rff xwmhf

rff mi|fryjxjab mai dycfr xfr|jhfx mai m |d`vayffr xym zdv j`` affi

ndafz! Mryjxyx nmkf m `j|jab rdn ycfjr drk mai odyc affi mai ifxfr|f

yd of wmji dr jy! #Ycjx jx daf |m`vf irj|jab ycf drk d f|frzdaf ja|d`|fi

ja ycjx oddk!* Zdv nmz ady of mo`f yd wmz nmrkfy rmyfx my ycf ofbjaajab

mai xdnf rjyfrx j ycfz of`jf|f ja zdvr wrdefhy dr of`jf|f ycfz cm|f

xdnfycjab ofzdai ndafz yd bmja oz wmryjhjwmyjab nmz mhhfwy rfivhfiffx! Ovy zdvr bdm` xcdvì of yd wmz m`` mryjxyx xdnfycjab mai yd wmz ycfn

mx afmr yd nmrkfy rmyfx mx zdv hma jyc m |frz f fshfwyjdax f‚`` bd

d|fr `myfr!

Ldryvamyf`z vaijab xdvrhfx mrf dvy ycfrf! Mx f xmji fmr`jfr `dhm` mryx

hdvahj`x mai dycfr drbmajumyjdax njbcy of mo`f yd hcjw ja dr cdadrmrjm da

ma mi.cdh omxjx! Ndxy mryx hdvahj`x mai cvnmajyjfx hdvahj`x m`xd bj|f drnm`

brmayx yd adawrdy drbmajumyjdax ja|d`|fi ja `jyfrmrz wrdbrmnnjab! #Adyf

ycmy ycfrf jx m wrdhfxx ja|d`|fi ja ofhdnjab m adawrdy drbmajumyjda dr ymsmai brmay wvrwdxfx cjhc f miirfxx ja wmry ? d ycjx Ydd`kjy! Zdv hma m`xd

ai vxfv` foxjyfx modvy cd yd vaifrymkf ycjx ja Avyx Od`yx mai Rji.

bfyx!* Ja miijyjda ndxy xymyfx mai nmaz hdnnvajyjfx mrf cdnfx yd wrj|myf



Ydd`x ldr Wrmhyjhm` Irfmnjab p ?==

adawrdy dvaimyjdax ycmy vai ycf mryx! Zdvr mryx hdvahj` j`` wrdomo`z

cm|f jadrnmyjda modvy cjhc dafx njbcy of mwwrdwrjmyf dr zdv! Ada.

wrdy `jxyjabx mrf m`xd m|mj`mo`f my zdvr `dhm` `jormrz mai da`jaf!

J zdv kad wfdw`f cd mrf fxwfhjm``z jayfrfxyfi ja ycf kjai d drk zdv mrf vaifrymkjab zdv njbcy mwwrdmhc xdnf d ycfn dr wrj|myf idam.

yjdax cfycfr `mrbf dr xnm``! Ja ycf dì imzx Hjyz Mry wmxxfi m `jyfrm` cmy my

rfmijabx; jy xyj`` kffwx m idamyjda ods da ycf rfrfxcnfay ymo`f! Zdv hdvì

cdì vai.rmjxfrx wfrcmwx wmryjhv`mr rfmijabx dr cjhc zdv hcmrbf minjx.

xjda; zdv hdvì m`xd hcmrbf m |frz xnm`` minjxxjda ff dr f|frz rfmijab m

wrmhyjhf ycmy jx rmrf ovy ofhdnjab ndrf hdnnda ja ycf af fhdadnz!

Hhk5 m rhM! Xwmhf5 mxk zdvrxf` cmy kjai d xwmhf zdv affi rjbcy ad evxy yd

bfy bdjab! Ycjx hdvì of m rfmijab xwmhf m drkxcdw xwmhf m xwmhf yd

cdvxf m hdnwvyfr dr m xwmhf yd cdvxf m hd``fhyjda! Ycfa mxk ycf

d``djab5

=! Id J m`rfmiz cm|f mhhfxx yd m xwmhf ycmy dvì drk dr cmy J

affi yd id rjbcy ad4 Of lfsjo`f’ady m`` rfmijabx affi yd

ymkf w`mhf ja mvijydrjm mai m hdnwvyfr mai m wcdaf ymkf vw

da`z ycf hdrafr d m ifxk!

?! J zdv ida‚y cm|f mhhfxx yd ma mwwrdwrjmyf xwmhf id zdv kad

modvy maz fsjxyjab xwmhfx dafi dr nmambfi oz wdyfayjm`

wmryafrx4

8! J xd mrf ycfxf xwmhfx dvy d vxf mai m|mj`mo`f ivrjab yjnfx zdv

hdvì cdì zdvr wrdbrmnx4

9! J zdv `dhmyf m xwmhf ycmy njbcy drk dr zdv nmkf ma

mwwdjaynfay yd ym`k yd ycf wfrxda rfxwdaxjo`f dr nmambjab jy!6! Ja wrfwmrmyjda dr zdvr nffyjab if|f`dw m wjyhc5

m! Rcmy id zdv may yd vxf ycf xwmhf dr4

o! Rcz jx ycjx xwmhf fxwfhjm``z mwwrdwrjmyf #h`dxf yd zdvr

hdnnvajyz `dhmyfi ja m ovjìjab m`rfmiz vxfi oz zdvr

ymrbfy mvijfahf wmryjhv`mr`z f`` xvjyfi yd zdvr wvrwdxf

ofhmvxf d xjuf xcmwf lfsjoj`jyz dr dycfr hcmrmhyfrjxyjhx*4

h! Rcmy w`max id zdv cm|f yd nmkf xvrf ycf xwmhf jx vxfi

rfxwfhyv``z mai `fy h`fma mai vaimnmbfi4i! Cd idfx zdvr wrdbrmn y jayd ycf xwmhf cdìfr‚x njx.

xjda; cd j`` ycf xwmhf cdìfr ofafy rdn cdxyjab zdvr

wrdbrmn4



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<! Of wrfwmrfi yd cfmr ‐ad„ rdn daf dr ndrf w`mhfx mai cm|f

omhkvw w`max!

2! Of wrfwmrfi yd of lfsjo`f dr yd afbdyjmyf #dr fsmnw`f dfr yd

hcmabfx imyfx dr yjnfx dr yd wmz m imnmbf ifwdxjy* yd bfy ycfxwmhf zdv may!

O! Wmryafrx

=! Ovjì wmryafrxcjwx jyc jaij|jivm`x!

m! J zdv cm|fa‚y m`rfmiz jifayjz wfdw`f mndab zdvr rjfaix

cd xcmrf zdvr |m`vfx cm|f bddi jifmx mai mrf rf`jmo`f

mai ja|jyf ycfn yd edja zdv!

o! Rdrkjab jyc ycfn jifayjz dycfrx ja ycf hdnnvajyz

wfrcmwx wfdw`f zdv kad `fxx f`` dr ndxy`z oz rfwvym.yjda cd cm|f xwfhjh xkj``x dr rfxdvrhfx yd dfr! Ida‚y

hv`yj|myf rf`myjdaxcjwx omxfi da`z da ndafz’f|fa j zdv

orjab wfdw`f mai drbmajumyjdax da odmri ycmy nmz f|fa.

yvm``z bj|f zdv ndafz rjbcy ad zdv‚rf `ddkjab dr

xcmrfi |m`vfx mai wmxxjda hdnojafi jyc xdnfycjab da`z

xwfhjh wfdw`f hma orjab yd zdvr wrdefhy!

h! Mrrmabf drnm` nffyjabx jyc ycfxf wfdw`f!

i! Wrfwmrf zdvr wjyhc5

j! Ifxhrjof zdvr wrdbrmn!

jj! Yf`` wfdw`f cz zdv mrf mwwrdmhcjab ycfn ja wmr.

yjhv`mr’ycfjr fswfryjxf xkj``x hdaafhyjdax jifmx!

jjj! Of xwfhjh modvy cmy zdv may rdn ycfn mai ycf

rd`fx ycfz njbcy w`mz!

j|! Yf`` ycfn cmy ycfz cm|f yd bmja rdn ycfjr

ja|d`|fnfay!|! Mxk ycfn cmy ycfz ycjak ycfz njbcy cm|f yd dfr

ycmy zdv cm|fa‚y ycdvbcy d!

|j! @fy zdvr wmxxjda fabmbf ycfjrx!

|jj! Mxk ycfn yd rfhdnnfai dycfr wfdw`f zdv xcdvì

ym`k yd!

f! Nmkf xvrf yd d``d vw rjbcy mmz jyc m adyf mai m

wcdaf hm``!

?! Ovjì wmryafrxcjwx jyc adabd|franfay mai bd|franfaydrbmajumyjdax!





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8! _fnfnofr ycmy zdvr wmryafrx da‚y id m`` ycf drk!

m! Mxxfxx ycf hdayrjovyjdax d zdvr wmryafrx!

o! Ifhjif cmy f`xf cmx yd of idaf!

h! Hdaxjifr cd yd ijxyrjovyf ycf rfnmjajab drk mndabycf xym #jah`vijab |d`vayffr xym* zdv cm|f m|mj`mo`f!

H! Ja.kjai rfxdvrhfx

=! Mxxfxx ycf rfmiz rfxdvrhfx d j``jab wmryafrx jah`vijab odyc

wczxjhm` rfxdvrhfx xvhc mx xwmhf mai xdvai f}vjwnfay mai `fxx

ymabjo`f rfxdvrhfx xvhc mx fswfryjxf!

?! Mwwrdmhc zdvr wmryafrx yd mxk cfycfr ycfz njbcy nmkf ycfxf

rfxdvrhfx m|mj`mo`f! Vaifrxymai ycmy ycfz nmz of fjycfr vamo`f

dr vaj``jab yd id xd!8! @ddk ofzdai zdvr wmryafrx yd `dhm` ovxjafxxfx dr rfxdvrhfx

xvhc mx cdyf` rddnx ddi fyh!

I! Ndafz

=! Ycjak modvy ndafz myfr zdv kad cmy dycfr rfxdvrhfx zdv

cm|f!

?! Hmrfv``z hdaxjifr cmy fswfaxfx zdv j`` cm|f dr bddix mai

xfr|jhfx ofzdai cmy jx m`rfmiz hd|frfi!

8! Nmkf m w`ma yd rmjxf ndafz yd hd|fr ycfxf #xff Wmry ?5 Cmn.

nfr Xm Amj`x5 Ydd`x dr Lrmnjab*!

ADYF

=! Nmrk Xyrmai mai Im|ji @fcnma fix! Ofxy Mnfrjhma Wdfyrz =::= #Af Zdrk5

Xhrjoafr =::=*!





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OVJ@IJAB MA D_BMAJuMYJDA =7=

Zdv m`rfmiz cm|f m |jxjda cjhc jx daf ycjab m`` xvhhfxxv` drbmajum.

yjdax mai ovxjafxxfx cm|f ja hdnnda! Zdv‚|f majnmyfi ycmy |jxjda mai

if|f`dwfi wrdefhyx dr wrdbrmnx ycmy cm|f offa jaxwjrjab ndyj|myjab maixvhhfxxv` ja ycfjr da rjbcy! My xdnf wdjay zdv j`` affi yd fabmbf ja xzx.

yfnmyjh w`maajab yd avryvrf ycf cfm`yc mai brdyc d zdvr drbmajumyjda!

J zdvr wrdefhy dr wrdbrmn jx xvhhfxxv` dabdjab mai brdjab zdv

xcdvì wrdomo`z hdaxjifr ofhdnjab m 67=#h*#8* adawrdy drbmajumyjda! J

zdv cm|f brdxx rfhfjwyx d `fxx ycma )6777 wfr zfmr zdv id ady affi yd

mww`z dr yms fsfnwyjda! Cdf|fr f|fa j zdvr drbmajumyjda xyj`` cmx m xnm``

ovibfy mx m adawrdy 67=#h*#8* yms.fsfnwy drbmajumyjda jy j`` of f`jbjo`f

yd rfhfj|f wrj|myf mai wvo`jh brmayx mai xd`jhjy yms.ifivhyjo`f idamyjdaxcjhc mrf hrjyjhm` yd zdvr vai.rmjxjab fdryx! Adawrdy jifayjyz m`xd rfmx.

xvrfx wdyfayjm` idadrx ycmy zdv mrf m `fbjyjnmyf drbmajumyjda mai jy nmkfx

zdv f`jbjo`f dr m ov`k.nmj`jab wfrnjy! Ja dycfr drix ycfrf mrf nmaz rfm.

xdax yd ymkf ycjx xyfw! Ycf rfmxda nmaz xnm`` drbmajumyjdax if`mz jx ycf

wmwfrdrk ja|d`|fi cjhc nmz xffn hdnw`jhmyfi mai ijhv`y!

Ida‚y ff` d|frcf`nfi oz ycjx xymbf d zdvr drbmajumyjdam` if|f`dw.

nfay! Ycfrf mrf nv`yjyvifx d daifrv` rfxdvrhfx m|mj`mo`f ja wrjay da`jaf

dr my `dhm` mryx mbfahjfx xymyf mryx hdvahj`x mai adawrdy xfr|jhf drbmajum.

yjdax yd mxxjxy zdv jyc jahdrwdrmyjab mx m adawrdy f|d`|jab mx ma drbmaj.

umyjda w`maajab if|f`dwjab wrdbrmnx mai wmryafrxcjwx vai.rmjxjab ymkjab

hmrf d mai ffijab |d`vayffrx mhhdvayjab mai rfhrvjyjab mai yrmjajab

odmri nfnofrx! Xdnf drbmajumyjdax wrd|jif drkxcdwx yrmjajab mai f|fa

vaijab yd mxxjxy jyc ycjx yzwf d wrdfxxjdam` if|f`dwnfay mai xkj``x

yrmjajab!

Ycf d``djab xfhyjda wrd|jifx ma jayrdivhyjda yd jahdrwdrmyjda mai majayrdivhyjda yd xcmwjab m adawrdy drbmajumyjda! _fnfnofr ycmy mx jyc

f|frzycjab f`xf zdv‚|f m`rfmiz idaf drbmajumyjdam` if|f`dwnfay jx yrv`z ma

drbmajh wrdhfxx! Mx zdv vaifrymkf jy nmaz ycjabx j`` cmwwfa my ycf xmnf

yjnf dr ja m xf}vfahf ycmy hma‚y of ijhymyfi ovy mrjxfx dvy d mai drkx ofxy

dr zdvr affix mai ycdxf d zdvr drbmajumyjda! Ycjx xcdvì ff` |frz mnj`jmr

yd zdv! Ycf ycjabx ycmy mrf ijfrfay cfrf cjhc nmz ff` `fxx drbmajh mai

`fxx irj|fa oz zdvr xwfhjh affix mrf ycf `fbm` rf}vjrfnfayx ycf yjnf`jafx

mai ycf wmwfrdrk ja|d`|fi jyc drnm``z hcmabjab zdvr xymyvx!Jy da‚y xvrwrjxf zdv yd cfmr ycmy nmaz mryx wfdw`f mrf ady kada dr

ymkjab w`fmxvrf ja ``jab dvy hdnw`jhmyfi bd|franfay drnx! Zdv nmz of

`vhkz fadvbc yd cm|f m wdfy dr wdfyrz `d|fr m`rfmiz da zdvr odmri cd



Ydd`x ldr Lrmnjab p ?=2

rf`jxcfx idjab ymsfx f|frz zfmr mai cmx ycf hdaifahf yd ymhk`f jahdrwdrmy.

jab mai `jab dr adawrdy fsfnwyjda xymyvx! M`yframyj|f`z j zdv kad m

`mzfr dr ma mhhdvaymay cd jx wmxxjdamyf modvy wdfyrz cf dr xcf nmz of

j``jab yd edja zdvr |d`vayffr omxf dr xjy da zdvr odmri jyc ycf wrjnmrzrfxwdaxjoj`jyz d xcfwcfrijab zdv ycrdvbc ycf wrdhfxx! J ady xdnf `mzfrx

j`` wrd|jif ycjx xfr|jhf my ad hdxy mx wmry d ycfjr wrdfxxjdam` wvo`jh xfr|jhf

hdnnjynfayx! J ycfrf jx m @mzfrx dr ycf Mryx brdvw ja zdvr mrfm jy nmz

of mo`f yd cf`w zdv ai daf! J zdv hma‚y ai xdnfdaf cd j`` cf`w zdv

dr rff zdv njbcy xyj`` hdaxjifr cjrjab m `mzfr yd cf`w! J zdv cm|f ycf

ndafz yd id ycjx jy nmz of ndrf fhjfay mai ffhyj|f dr zdvr drbmajum.

yjda ycma idjab jy zdvrxf`! M`ndxy hfrymja`z jy j`` xm|f zdv yjnf mai

mbbrm|myjda!

Jahdrwdrmyf

Yd of jahdrwdrmyfi nfmax ycmy zdvr xymyf rfhdbajufx zdvr drbmajum.

yjda‚x hdrwdrmyf oz`mx mai mryjh`fx d jahdrwdrmyjda! Jahdrwdrmyjda wrd.

yfhyx odmri nfnofrx mai dycfr jaij|jivm`x ja zdvr drbmajumyjda rdn ofjab

cfì wfrxdam``z `jmo`f ja hmxf d `mxvjyx dr dycfr `fbm` wrdo`fnx! Zdvr drbm.

ajumyjda nvxy of jahdrwdrmyfi ofdrf zdv hma `f dr yms.fsfnwy xymyvx

jyc ycf Jayfram` _f|favf Xfr|jhf!

Ycf d``djab mrf ycf omxjh xyfwx yd jahdrwdrmyjda5

  Xf`fhy m amnf dr zdvr drbmajumyjda ycmy jx `fbm``z m|mj`mo`f ja zdvr

xymyf! Xymz mmz rdn maz amnf ycmy xdvaix `jkf madycfr drbmajum.

yjda‚x odyc yd m|dji hdavxjda mai ofhmvxf ja ycf Jayfrafy mbf zdv

affi yd ycjak modvy idnmja amnf hdaxjifrmyjdax! F|fa j zdv

ida‚y cm|f m foxjyf zfy zdv nmz may yd rfxfr|f m idnmja amnfmx xdda mx zdv amnf zdvr drbmajumyjda! Adyf ycmy zdvr foxjyf

idnmja amnf njbcy of x`jbcy`z ijfrfay rdn zdvr dhjm` amnf!

MRW!drb dr fsmnw`f mx m`rfmiz ymkfa cfa ycf Mxxdhjmyfi

Rrjyjab Wrdbrmnx #ad ycf Mxxdhjmyjda d Rrjyfrx mai Rrjyjab

Wrdbrmnx* `ddkfi dr m idnmja amnf! Jy mx mr ydd `myf my ycmy

wdjay yd hcmabf ycf drbmajumyjda‚x amnf! Ycf idnmja amnf jx hvr.

rfay`z MRWRrjyfr!drb cjhc jx ma jnwfrfhy xd`vyjda dr m brdvw

kada jif`z mx MRW! Daf w`mhf yd xfmrhc dr idnmja amnfx javxf jx afydrkxd`vyjdax!hdn!

  Hrfmyf zdvr mryjh`fx d jahdrwdrmyjda #xff of`d* `f jyc zdvr

xfhrfymrz d xymyf‚x dhf mai wmz ycf `jab ff! My ycjx yjnf zdv hma





Ydd`x ldr Lrmnjab p ?=:

mx m 67=#h*#8* drbmajumyjda cjhc jx ycf ndxy hdnnda yzwf d adawrdy

drbmajumyjda!

Yd }vm`jz dr yms.fsfnwy xymyvx zdvr drbmajumyjda affix yd nffy ycrff

omxjh rf}vjrfnfayx! Zdvr drbmajumyjda nvxy of drbmajufi dr jahdrwdrmyfinvxy of drkjab ydmri jyx xymyfi bdm` mai njxxjda jycdvy ofafyjab wrj.

|myf jayfrfxyx mai nvxy cm|f daf dr ndrf fsfnwy wvrwdxfx mndab cjhc

`jyfrmrz mhyj|jyjfx mrf jah`vifi!

_fnfnofr ycmy ycf wrdhfxx ja|d`|fx ycf fifrm` ovrfmvhrmhz mai xd hma

ymkf yjnf f|fa myfr zdv `` dvy zdvr drnx mai xfai ycfn d! Rcfa jy

rfhfj|fx zdvr mww`jhmyjda ycf J_X j`` xfai zdv m `fyyfr d mhkad`fib.

nfay! Zdv nmz m`xd rfhfj|f daf dr ndrf rf}vfxyx dr ndrf jadrnmyjda

ofdrf ycf J_X mwwrd|fx dr ifajfx zdvr adawrdy xymyvx! J ycf `myyfr dhhvrxida‚y bj|f vw; hdaymhy m `mzfr cd xwfhjm`jufx ja adawrdyx mai yrz mbmja!

Ifwfaijab da cfrf zdv mai zdvr drbmajumyjda `j|f zdv nmz affi yd

mww`z yd zdvr xymyf dr yms.fsfnwy xymyvx mx f``! Zdvr xymyf nmz of xmyjxfi

jyc zdvr fifrm` yms.fsfnwy xymyvx ycdvbc zdv nmz affi yd xfai m hdwz

d zdvr J_X ifyfrnjamyjda `fyyfr yd zdvr xymyf yms hdnnjxxjda! Cdf|fr

zdvr xymyf nmz of mndab ycdxf ycmy j`` rf}vjrf zdv yd `f m xfwmrmyf mww`j.

hmyjda yd rfhfj|f m xymyf yms fsfnwyjda!

If|f`dw zdvr Drbmajmyjda

Hrfmyf Zdvr Njxxjda Xymyfnfay

F|frz drbmajumyjda cmx m njxxjda m wvrwdxf m rfmxda dr ofjab! Dyfa

wfaajab m njxxjda xymyfnfay jx daf d ycf ndxy ijhv`y ymxkx ofhmvxf jy

rf}vjrfx ycmy zdv ijxyj`` zdvr |jxjda mai fswrfxx jy h`fmr`z mai orjflz! Bdm`x

mai doefhyj|fx mrf xvoxfyx d m njxxjda! Zdv njbcy m`xd cfmr d drbmajumyjdax

ycmy fnw`dz xyrmyfbjfx mai mhyjda xyfwx! Rcmyf|fr |dhmov`mrz zdv vxf ydfswrfxx zdvr |jxjda d ycf vyvrf d zdvr drbmajumyjda ycjak d ycf rfxv`yjab

idhvnfay xjnw`z mx m rdmi nmw ycmy cf`wx zdv rfnfnofr mai bfy yd cfrf

zdv may yd bd!

Mxxfxx mai Xyrvhyvrf Zdvr Drbmajumyjda

Daf xjuf idfx ady y m`` adr jx daf xyrvhyvrf ofyyfr ycma madycfr! Drbm.

ajumyjdax adawrdy dr dr wrdy hdnf ja f|frz xjuf xcmwf mai hdabvrm.

yjda; ycfz hma brd drbmajhm``z dr oz ifxjba! Drbmajumyjdam` xyrvhyvrf hmaof yjbcy dr `ddxf ifwfaijab da ycf affix mai hv`yvrf d m bj|fa drbmajum.

yjda! _fbmri`fxx vaifrbdjab rfbv`mr mxxfxxnfayx d zdvr drbmajumyjda mai





Ydd`x ldr Lrmnjab p ??=

yjda* mai$dr ycf cd`f hdnnvajyz! Zdv hma hrfmyf m w`ma jayfram``z dr

orjab ja m xwfhjm`jxy yd mhj`jymyf ycf wrdhfxx! W`max hma dhvx da ovibfyx wrd.

brmnx dwfrmyjdax vai.rmjxjab; ycfz hma of xcdry.yfrn dr `dab.rmabf! Ja

Avyx Od`yx mai Rjibfyx zdv‚`` ai nmaz amnfx d foxjyfx wvo`jhmyjdaxmai drbmajumyjdax ycmy wrd|jif jadrnmyjda bvjimahf mai fsmnw`fx d

w`maajab wrdhfxxfx mai idhvnfayx!

_fhrvjy Odmri d Ijrfhydrx

Rcmy zdv affi ndxy cdf|fr jx m brfmy odmri d ijrfhydrx! Ycjx brdvw

d wfdw`f hma wrdndyf zdvr mhyj|jyjfx mai wrdbrmnx! Zdvr odmri nfnofrx

nmz dyfa mhy mx xym vayj` zdv mrf mo`f yd cjrf xym! Ycfz hdnf vw jyc

jifmx wrd|jif `fmifrxcjw rfwrfxfay ycf jayfrfxyx d ycf hdnnvajyz mai rmjxfndafz! Ja miijyjda yd orjabjab wmxxjda yd ycf ymo`f odmri nfnofrx xcdv`.

ifr d|frxjbcy rfxwdaxjoj`jyjfx odyc amahjm` mai wrdbrmnnmyjh! _fnfnofr

ycfjr amnfx mrf `jxyfi da zdvr mww`jhmyjdax dr jahdrwdrmyjda mai adawrdy

xymyvx da brmay mww`jhmyjdax mai da ycmak.zdv `fyyfrx yd zdvr xwdaxdrx!

Ndxy wfdw`f ida‚y kad cmy ofjab m odmri nfnofr nfmax! Yzwjhm``z

drbmajufrx mxk dr rfhrvjy rjfaix mai mnj`z fayjhjab ycfn oz wrdnjxjab ycmy

ycfjr ja|d`|fnfay da‚y rf}vjrf nvhc ja|fxynfay d yjnf dr ndafz mai

j`` of brfmy va! Ycf daf ycjab zdv ida‚y may yd id jx xhmrf mmz wdyfa.

yjm` odmri nfnofrx xd jy‚x m`mzx ofxy yd of mo`f yd omhk vw zdvr wrdnjxf

ycmy xfr|jhf da‚y of m `dy d drk oz wrd|jijab m xcdry edo ifxhrjwyjda dr

fmhc wdxjyjda da ycf odmri #ady evxy dr ycf wrfxjifay |jhf wrfxjifay mai

xfhrfymrz* mai m xjnw`f odmri cmaioddk! Ja ycf fai odmri nfnofrx j``

ff` ofyyfr mai drk ndrf ffhyj|f`z cfa ycfjr rfxwdaxjoj`jyjfx mrf h`fmr`z

mbrffi vwda my ycf ofbjaajab! Ycf edo ifxhrjwyjdax mai cmaioddk hma m`xd

adyf ycmy odmri nfnofrx‚ rd`fx nmz lvhyvmyf ycrdvbcdvy ycf zfmr ifwfai.jab da zdvr drbmajumyjda‚x wrdbrmnnjab xhcfiv`f mai affix! M odmri

nfnofr cdxf wrjnmrz rfxwdaxjoj`jyz jx vai.rmjxjab dr ma f|fay nmz id

nvhc d ycf drk f`` ja mi|mahf; odmri nfnofrx rfxwdaxjo`f dr mhyvm``z

ndvayjab ma f|fay nmz of ovxjfxy jnnfijmyf`z ofdrf ycf f|fay mai myfr jy

jx vaifrmz! Ad nmyyfr cmy m odmri nfnofr‚x xwfhjh rd`f jx myyfaimahf

my odmri nffyjabx jx fsyrfnf`z jnwdrymay mx odmri ijxhvxxjdax mai ifhjxjda

nmkjab rf}vjrf cd`fafxx hd``modrmyjda mai wmryjhjwmyjda! Ycf xvhhfxx d m

odmri jx ycf ijrfhy rfxv`y d ycf jaij|jivm` mai hd``fhyj|f wmryjhjwmyjda d jyxnfnofrx!

Mxkjab dr idamyjdax jx ma vahdndrymo`f ymxk dr xdnf wfdw`f f|fa

dr hmvxfx ycfz faycvxjmxyjhm``z xvwwdry! Ycf rfm`jyz jx ycmy m`` odmrix nvxy



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rmjxf ndafz my daf yjnf dr madycfr cfycfr oz rjyjab wfrxdam` hcfhkx dr

oz dwfajab ycf iddr yd dycfrx cd hdayrjovyf! Ycjx jx evxy daf d nmaz rfm.

xdax odmri yrmjajab jx xd jnwdrymay! Xkj``x rf}vjrfi d odmri nfnofrx mrf

ady bfafyjhm``z jacfrjyfi ofcm|jdrx; ycfz mrf `fmrafi! Avnfrdvx hdnnv.ajyz mai adawrdy drbmajumyjdax wrd|jif cmaix.da yrmjajab dr odmri nfn.

ofrx dr xwfhjm`jxyx yd drk jyc odmrix! Mai d hdvrxf rfxdvrhfx modvai

da`jaf ja oddkxydrfx mai da `jormrz xcf`|fx! Vxf Avyx Od`yx mai Rjibfyx

mx m rfxdvrhf bvjif!

_fhrvjy Xym

Ja bfafrm` ycf rd`f d ycf wrdfxxjdam` xym wmji dr |d`vayffr jx yd

if|f`dw jnw`fnfay mai f|m`vmyf wrdbrmnx mai xfr|jhfx ycmy mhcjf|f zdvr drbmajumyjdam` njxxjda bdm`x mai doefhyj|fx! Dycfr ymxkx jah`vif xvwwdryjab

ycf drk d hdnnjyyffx xvobrdvwx d ycf odmri dr jaij|jivm` odmri nfn.

ofrx! Xym ivyjfx mx odmri rfxwdaxjoj`jyjfx mrf xcdvì of h`fmr`z `mji dvy ja

edo ifxhrjwyjdax mai maavm` w`max! Jy jx jnwdrymay ycmy odmri nfnofrx

vaifrxymai ycmy xym nfnofrx mrf rfxwdaxjo`f ijrfhy`z dr jaijrfhy`z ycrdvbc

ycfjr xvwfr|jxdrx yd ycf ijrfhydr cd jx ja yvra rfxwdaxjo`f yd ycf odmri!

Ycjx xyrvhyvrf nmz xffn cjfrmrhcjhm` mai ovrfmvhrmyjh ovy jycdvy m `jaf d

mvycdrjyz ycmy m``dx dr xvwfr|jxjda mai wrdyfhyjda d zdvr xym hdnnv.

ajhmyjdax mai hd``modrmyjdax jycja zdvr drbmajumyjda nmz ofhdnf rmvbcy

jyc mnojbvjyz mai njxyrvxy! F|fa jyc m |d`vayffr xym edo ifxhrjwyjdax

xcdvì jifayjz bfafrm` }vm`jhmyjdax dr wmryjhjwmyjda mai xwfhjh }vm`j.

hmyjdax dr wmryjhv`mr ivyjfx! Ycfxf nmz jah`vif }vm`jyjfx xvhc mx hdnnjy.

nfay yd yfmn ovjìjab mai wmryafrxcjw mhyj|jyjfx; moj`jyz yd mimwy yd lfsjo`f

mai xdnfyjnfx fsyfaifi drkjab cdvrx; moj`jyz yd fswrfxx dafxf` h`fmr`z

odyc drm``z mai ja rjyjab; m ym`fay dr ijw`dnmhz ymhy mai bddi evibnfay;mai fswfrjfahf ja rmjxjab ndafz!

Of ma Mi|dhmyf

Ymkjab da ycf ijrfhyjda mai bd|framahf d m adawrdy drbmajumyjda jx

m mz d fayfrjab ycf `mrbfr hdnnvajyz oz rfwrfxfayjab zdvr |m`vfx mai

jayfrfxyx ja hdahrfyf mzx! Oz vaifrymkjab ycjx drk zdv ofhdnf m wvo`jh

wfrxda cdxf |djhf nmyyfrx mai cdxf dwjajda nmz of jahrfmxjab`z

rfxwfhyfi! Mx ma mryjxy m wmyrda m odmri nfnofr dr ycf |djhf d m adawrdydrbmajumyjda zdv j`` of mxkfi my xdnf yjnf yd xwfmk da ofcm` d zdvr

hdnnvajyz‚x mryx xfhydr wvo`jh vaijab dr ycf mryx mai$dr mryx fivhmyjda!





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8! If|f`dw m ovibfy mai amahjm` w`ma!

9! _fxfmrhc xyrmyfbjh w`max mai ofbja yd if|f`dw daf dr zdvr

drbmajumyjda kffwjab jy mx xjnw`f mx wdxxjo`f!

6! _fhrvjy m odmri d ijrfhydrx!<! _fhrvjy xym!

2! _ffr yd Avyx Od`yx mai Rjibfyx dr rfxfmrhc xdvrhfx!

_mjxf Ndaf

Lvai.rmjxjab rdn brmay rjyjab yd mxkjab jaij|jivm`x dr ndafz jx daf

d ycf cmrifxy wmryx d mryx wrdbrmnnjab wfrcmwx fxwfhjm``z dr mryjxyx cd

nmz of xcz cfa jy hdnfx yd ym`kjab modvy ndafz! Cdf|fr j zdv may yd

id mazycjab |frz xjbajhmay zdv j`` f|fayvm``z cm|f yd rmjxf vaix! Ycfbddi afx jx ycmy ycfrf mrf mbfahjfx jaij|jivm`x mai wrj|myf dvaimyjdax

mai hdrwdrmyjdax mhyvm``z ddkjab yd bj|f ndafz yd adawrdy drbmajumyjdax

fabmbfi ja drycz faifm|drx! Ycf omi afx jx ycmy f|fa ma jaij|jivm` dr

drbmajumyjda cdxf njxxjda jy jx yd bj|f ndafz yd brdvwx `jkf zdvrx j``

affi yd of wfrxvmifi mai ycvx j`` my ycf `fmxy rf}vjrf xdnf xdry d rf}vfxy

dr mww`jhmyjda rdn zdv! Ja dycfr drix vai.rmjxjab hma of drk d ycf

kjai `fmxy w`fmxmay dr mryjxyx! Wdyfayjm` vaifrx ycmy ida‚y afhfxxmrj`z hda.

xjifr zdvr xvwwdry yd of ycfjr cjbcfxy hm``jab ovy njbcy of mnfamo`f yd bj|.

jab zdv xdnfycjab j zdv hma bj|f ycfn rfmxdax yd id xd j`` rf}vjrf ndrf

wfrxvmxjda xyj``!

Xdnf rv`fx mww`z yd m`` mrfmx d vai.rmjxjab cfycfr zdv mrf mww`zjab

dr brmayx rdn wvo`jh mbfahjfx rjyjab mww`jhmyjda `fyyfrx yd hdrwdrmyjdax

dr wrj|myf dvaimyjdax dr mwwfm`jab yd jaij|jivm`x! Daf ja|d`|fx madycfr

wjfhf d bddi afx5 mx m d|fr d wdfyrz zdv cm|f m xfhrfy fmwda! Zdv `d|f

drix mai zdv wrdomo`z kad cd yd vxf ycfn! Rcfa zdv rjyf zdvr wrdwdxm` dr rf}vfxy vxf ycjx bjy! Zdvr brmay mww`jhmyjdax mai mwwfm` `fyyfrx

xcdvì of ady da`z brmnnmyjhm``z wfrfhy ovy m`xd ycdvbcyv` hdbajumay d

ycf |m`vfx mai bdm`x d zdvr wdyfayjm` idadrx mai brmaydrx wfrxvmxj|f

`j|f`z mai m``.mrdvai jayfrfxyjab yd rfmi! J zdv hma nmkf zdvr rfmifr

njxyz.fzfi m`` ycf ofyyfr ovy rfnfnofr yd rfnmja wrdfxxjdam` cj`f zdv

id jy! Af|fr f|fr ydxx ycfxf ycjabx d }vjhk`z mai xfai ycfn dvy jycdvy

wrddab!

Ycjx xmnf rv`f mww`jfx yd am` rfwdryx mai ycmak.zdv adyfx! Ycfzxcdvì of jayfrfxyjab mai f`` rjyyfa ycfz xcdvì d``d maz bvjif`jafx yd

ycf `fyyfr mai ycfz xcdvì h`fmr`z fsw`mja cd zdvr wrdbrmn xvhhfxxv``z

vrycfrfi ycf bdm`x d ycf brmaydr dr idadr!



Ydd`x ldr Lrmnjab p ??6

Mhhfxx Xymyf mai @dhm` Brmayx

Fmr`z ja zdvr w`maajab xymbfx ofdrf zdv frf f|fa ycjakjab modvy

f|fayx zdv xwdkf jyc xymfrx my zdvr xymyf mai `dhm` mryx mbfahjfx! Xvhc

mbfahjfx dyfa drk da `dab xhcfiv`fx’dr fsmnw`f Vymc Mryx Hdvahj`brmay mww`jhmyjdax dr wrdbrmnx ofbjaajab myfr Ev`z = mrf mhyvm``z ivf ycf

wrf|jdvx m`` xd Vymc drbmajumyjdax cm|f yd xvonjy brmayx ja Xfwyfnofr dr

Dhydofr dr wrdbrmnx ycmy ofbja ja Xfwyfnofr dr Dhydofr d ycf d``djab

zfmr! Ycvx j zdv w`ma yd wmz zdvr wdfyx dr cm|f maz dycfr xjbajhmay

fswfaxfx xvhc mx rfaym`x yrm|f` dr xym xm`mrjfx zdv affi yd ofbja w`maajab

zdvr brmay wrdwdxm`x my `fmxy m zfmr mai nmzof mx `dab mx dvryffa ndaycx

dvy rdn zdvr rxy f|fay!

Ofbja oz adyjab ycf yzwjhm` ifmi`jafx d m`` zdvr brmayjab drbmajumyjdaxmai nmkf m hm`faimr jah`vijab ifmi`jafx mai m brmay.rjyjab xhcfiv`f dr

fmhc brmay zdv w`ma yd mww`z dr xd ifmi`jafx ida‚y x`jw oz zdv! Adyf ycmy m

f mbfahjfx cm|f yd ifmi`jafx5 ma fmr`z daf dr m irmy wrdwdxm` mai m am`

ifmi`jaf m f ffkx `myfr! Ycf fmr`z ifmi`jaf jx mx xfrjdvx mx ycf `myfr daf

ofhmvxf bdjab ycrdvbc ycf irmy wrdhfxx jx vxvm``z m rf}vjrfnfay dr xvo.

njyyjab ycf am` brmay! Lffiomhk rdn ycf mbfahz bj|fx zdv ma dwwdryvajyz

yd xyrfabycfa zdvr wrdwdxm` xd vxf ycf fmr`z ifmi`jaf mx ma dwwdryvajyz!

Ja miijyjda j zdvr wrdbrmn `j|fx jycja ma jaxyjyvyjda `jkf m hd``fbf

vaj|frxjyz dr nvxfvn zdv nmz affi yd bfy wfrnjxxjda mai xjbamyvrfx rdn

daf dr ndrf jayfram` dhfx fmhc jyc jyx da rf}vjrfnfayx! Ljai dvy

cjhc dhfx nvxy xjba d ja cmy drifr cmy miijyjdam` drnx ycfz

rf}vjrf zdv yd `` dvy mai cmy `fmi yjnf fmhc rf}vjrfx yd rf|jf mai xjba

ycf brmay wrdwdxm` ofdrf jy hma bd yd ycf afsy dhf! Rcfa zdv mii vw m``

ycf imzx mai hdvay omhk rdn ycf dhjm` ifmi`jaf zdv cm|f zdvr da

‐rfm`„ ifmi`jaf’ycf imz ycf brmay mai ycf drnx ycmy mhhdnwmaz jy nvxymhyvm``z of hdnw`fyfi! Ycjx hdvì of m ndayc ofdrf ma mbfahz‚x dhjm`

ifmi`jaf xd of wrfwmrfi! Ycfa yvra zdvr hm`faimr omhk yd my `fmxy m ndayc

ofdrf ycmy ‐rfm`„ ifmi`jaf mai nmkf m adyf yd xymry zdvr wrdwdxm` da ycmy

imz! Xymryjab fmr`z j`` bj|f zdv m hcmahf yd hcfhk jyc zdvr wmryafrx modvy

ycfjr wmryjhjwmyjda mai bfy ffiomhk da zdvr wrdwdxm` odyc rdn fswfrj.

fahfi rjfaix mai wdxxjo`z rdn brmay dhfrx my mbfahjfx ycmy ida‚y ovjì

rf|jf jayd ycfjr wrdhfxxfx! Jy j`` m`xd bj|f zdv yjnf yd mxk }vfxyjdax j

zdv‚rf hdavxfi oz ycf ijrfhyjdax cjhc hma of wfrw`fsjab f|fa yd fswfrj.fahfi brmay rjyfrx!

Ofdrf xymryjab fmhc brmay mww`jhmyjda rfrfmi ycf mww`jhmyjda bvjif`jafx

mai ycf njxxjda xymyfnfay d ycf drbmajumyjda ja }vfxyjda! Ja miijyjda hcfhk



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ycf drbmajumyjda‚x foxjyf yd xff cmy jy cmx vaifi ofdrf mai cjhc wrd.

brmnx jy cjbc`jbcyx mx ofjab wmryjhv`mr`z rfwrfxfaymyj|f d jyx drk mai |m`vfx!

Ycjx j`` cf`w zdv ai ycf rjbcy wjyhc yd nmkf! Ldr fsmnw`f mryx drbmajum.

yjdax bfafrm``z vai wdfyrz nmkjab mai wrfxfaymyjda ijrfhy`z mai cvnmajyjfxdrbmajumyjdax yfai yd vai da`z ijxhvxxjda dr ijxhdvrxf modvy mai mrdvai

wdfyrz! Dycfr drbmajumyjdax njbcy of ndxy jayfrfxyfi ja wrdbrmnx ycmy mrf

hdaafhyfi yd fivhmyjda dr fsw`jhjy`z drk yd xyrfabycfa ycfjr hdnnvajyjfx!

Id ady fswfhy ma drbmajumyjda ycmy xvwwdryx fivhmyjda yd bj|f zdv ndafz

j zdv cm|fa‚y xcda ycmy zdvr njxxjda cmx m xyrdab fivhmyjdam` hdnwdafay!

Ja dycfr drixid ymj`dr zdvr mww`jhmyjda yd ycf drbmajumyjda‚x njxxjda! Ycmy

xmjiid ady njxrfwrfxfay cmy zdv mrf w`maajab ja drifr yd y jayd ma mbfa.

hz‚x mbfaim! _mycfr ycjak xyrmyfbjhm``z modvy cd yd cjbc`jbcy ycf ycjabx zdv w`ma yd id ycmy ndxy y ja jyc ycf mbfahz‚x njxxjda! Ja miijyjda ycdvbc

zdv af|fr may yd mii m wrdbrmnnjab f`fnfay evxy yd bfy m brmay xvhc

rfxfmrhc njbcy bj|f zdv jifmx modvy wrdbrmnnjab f`fnfayx ycmy y jyc

zdvr njxxjda mai |m`vfx ycmy zdv may yd id mai ycmy zdv njbcy of mo`f yd

bfy vaijab cf`w dr fjycfr ad dr ida ycf `jaf!

Brmayjab mbfahjfx bfafrm``z rf}vjrf zdv yd xcd da ycfjr mww`jhmyjdax

cd zdv mrf bdjab yd nmyhc maz vaix zdv rfhfj|f jyc xvwwdry rdn dycfr

xdvrhfx! Fxwfhjm``z my ycf fayrz `f|f` mbfahjfx dyfa m``d drbmajumyjdax yd

vxf ja.kjai idamyjdax xvhc mx idamyfi xwmhf xym yjnf fyh! yd nmyhc hmxc

brmayx ovy ycjx jxa‚y vaj|frxm``z m``dfi dr nmz of m``dfi dr da`z m wdr.

yjda d ycf nmyhc! Dyfa zdv hma vxf m `dhm` brmay mx m nmyhc dr m xymyf

brmay ovy zdv wrdomo`z da‚y of m``dfi yd nmyhc vaix rdn daf xymyf

mbfahz #xvhc mx ycf mryx hdvahj`* jyc ycdxf rdn madycfr xymyf mbfahz #xvhc

mx ycf `fbjx`myvrf dr bd|fradr‚x dhf* dr vaix rdn daf dhf jycja ycf

mryx hdvahj` jyc ycdxf rdn madycfr! Nmkf xvrf ofdrf zdv ofbja yd rjyf zdvr ovibfy ycmy zdv kad cmy ycf `jnjymyjdax mai rf}vjrfnfayx d fmhc

brmayjab mbfahz mrf!

Ljam``z of mx nfyjhv`dvx mx zdv hma ja zdvr ovibfy xfhyjda! J zdv hdvay

m xwmhf idamyjda mx ja.kjai vaijab nmkf xvrf zdv kad cmy zdvr wmry.

afr mhyvm``z hcmrbfx cfa jy rfayx ycf xwmhf mai bfy m rjyyfa xymyfnfay

rdn ycf wmryafr xmzjab xd! Of hmrfv` ja fxyjnmyjab ycf hdxyx d cdadrmrjm

w`maf yjhkfyx mai xjnj`mr fswfaxfx! Zdv hma fmxj`z ai ycf bdjab rmyfx dr m``

d ycfxf ycjabx da`jaf! Ndxy drbmajumyjdax kad ycmy w`max hcmabf mai ovi.bfyx hma xcjy dr m`` kjaix d rfmxdax ovy zdv may zdvr ovibfy yd of odyc

mx mhhvrmyf mx wdxxjo`f bj|fa ycf jadrnmyjda m|mj`mo`f yd zdv mai hdaxjxyfay

jyc cmy zdv w`ma yd id! Ycdvbc nvhc d ycjx jx bvfxxdrk mai xdnf d



Ydd`x ldr Lrmnjab p ??2

zdvr avnofrx j`` of omxfi da wfaijab rf}vfxyx mai mww`jhmyjdax rfnfn.

ofr ycmy ycf avnofr da zdvr jahdnf jaf affix yd of fsmhy`z ycf xmnf mx

ycf avnofr da zdvr fswfaijyvrfx `jaf! Ja dycfr drix ja ycf W`mydajh

drì zdvr wrdwdxm` rfwrfxfayx zdvr ovibfy affix yd om`mahf!Cm|jab m hcfhk ja cmai idfx ady nfma zdv‚rf ajxcfi jyc m brmay!

Vxvm``z mbfahjfx jyccdì xdnf wdryjda d ycf mndvay brmayfi’dyfa

modvy =7 yd ?7 wfrhfay’vayj` ycfz rfhfj|f zdvr am` rfwdry! Ycf rfwdry jx

nfmay odyc yd cdì zdv mhhdvaymo`f dr ycf brmayfi ndafz mai yd cf`w ycf

mbfahz cdì jyxf` mhhdvaymo`f yd jyx odmri mai vaifrx! Ycvx jyx bvjif`jafx

j`` mxk zdv yd xcd cfycfr zdv iji cmy zdv xmji zdv dvì mai cd

xvhhfxxv` zdv frf ja idjab xd! Jy j`` m`xd mxk zdv yd xcd fsmhy`z cd

zdv xwfay ycf ndafz zdv rfhfj|fi mai ycmy zdv om`mahfi zdvr ovibfy! Wrf.wmrf ycjx rfwdry mx hmrfv``z mx ycf wrdwdxm` jyxf`’mai vxf jyx ddnjab wrdx.

wfhy yd rfnjai zdvrxf` mx zdv mrf ndvayjab zdvr wrdbrmn yd kffw yrmhk d

zdvr xwfaijab nfyjhv`dvx`z nmjaymjajab rfhfjwyx hmahf`fi hcfhkx fyh! mai

yd xymz jycja zdvr ovibfy! M mj`vrf yd yvra ja bddi rfwdryx nmz rfxv`y ja

ycf mbfahz‚x rfivhjab dr f|fa ifazjab vyvrf brmayx!

Zdv mrfa‚y ajxcfi jyc ycf brmay wrdhfxx vayj` zdv ifhjif cd zdv

j`` wvo`jh`z mhkad`fibf zdvr vaifr#x* mai d``d ycrdvbc da zdvr

mhkad`fibnfay! J m vaifr cmx xwfhjh rf}vfxyx xvhc mx jah`vijab jyx `dbd

mai$dr amnf da wvo`jh rf`myjdax nmyfrjm`x nmkf xvrf zdv d``d ycrdvbc! J

jy cmx xwfhjh rf}vjrfnfayx modvy cd jy jxcfx yd of `jxyfi #mx m ‐xwdaxdr„

dr ‐xvwwdryfr„ dr fsmnw`f* nmkf xvrf yd d``d ycfn yd ycf `fyyfr! Mai j

jy mayx zdv yd d``d hfrymja f|m`vmyjda wrdhfivrfx id ycmy ydd! _fbmri.

`fxx zdv xcdvì m`mzx mhkad`fibf nmedr xvwwdry odyc ja m`` wrdndyjdam`

nmyfrjm`x mai drm``z my zdvr f|fayx; xnm``fr bjyx xcdvì of mhkad`fibfi ja

rjyjab da zdvr wrdbrmnx mai foxjyf!

If|f`dw Dycfr Lvaijab Xdvrhfx

Bj|fa nmyhcjab rf}vjrfnfayx dr brmayx zdv nmz affi yd rmjxf ndafz

ady da`z ofhmvxf zdv affi jy dr fswfaijyvrfx ovy m`xd ofhmvxf zdv affi jy

yd bfy dycfr ndafz! Ycjx jx m bddi yjnf yd ycjak modvy ijfrfay mzx yd

rmjxf ndafz dr zdvr drbmajumyjda! Ycf nfycdix zdv hcddxf j`` ifwfai

odyc da ycf mndvay d ndafz zdv affi mai ycf ydaf zdv may yd xfy dr

zdvr wrdbrmnx! _fnfnofr ycmy Hjyz Mry ja Xm`y @mkf Hjyz bdy oz dr zfmrxda `dhm` mai xymyf brmayx mai m wmxxfi cmy! J m cmy idfxa‚y }vjyf y ycf ydaf

d zdvr wrdbrmn zdv hdvì xvoxyjyvyf h`mxxz `jyy`f fa|f`dwfx my ycf oddk

ymo`f! Dr zdv hdvì xf`` Y.xcjryx cdì ofafy rfmijabx ycrd ofafy wmryjfx



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dr om``x jyc `jyfrmrz ycfnfx mai kjxx.ma.vb`z.wdfy oddycx dr hrfmyf nfn.

ofrxcjw wmhkmbfx ycmy dfr idadrx wrj|j`fbfx mxxdhjmyfi jyc zdvr f|fayx!

Mx zdv ycjak modvy rmjxjab ndafz hdaxjifr ycf jayfrfxyx |m`vfx mai

affix ycmy jayfrxfhy ja zdvr wrdbrmn mai ymrbfy zdvr fdryx mhhdrijab`z!Ldr fsmnw`f j zdv may yd rmjxf ndafz evxy yd kffw ycf hdff ldjab my

zdvr rfmijabx m emr da ycf hdff ymo`f njbcy id ycf yrjhk! J zdv affi

ndafz xd zdv hma nd|f rdn rff rfmijabx yd wmji rfmijabx mai$dr nmyhc

zdvr brmayx m nfnofrxcjw wrdbrmn dr zdvr fsjxyjab mvijfahf njbcy drk!

Ovy dr nmedr fswmaxjdax `ddk dvyxjif zdvr fsjxyjab hjrh`f! Ldr fsmnw`f j

zdv may yd rmjxf ndafz yd mii m wrdbrmn dr yffax ymrbfy ady da`z wfdw`f

dr ovxjafxxfx jayfrfxyfi ja wdfyrz ovy m`xd ycdxf jyc cjxydrjfx d xvwwdry.

jab fivhmyjda dr cf`wjab my.rjxk kjix! Ldr ndrf mai wfrcmwx ofyyfr jifmxycma ycfxf rffr yd ycf xdvrhfx ja Avyx Od`yx mai Rjibfyx!

Mx zdv hdaxjifr ycf ijfrfay dwyjdax dwfa yd zdv hdaxv`y jyc zdvr

wmryafrx! Daf dr ndrf nmz of j``jab yd cf`w zdv ja zdvr fdryx cfycfr

oz wrd|jijab xwmhf dr ddi xfaijab mwwfm`x dr ja|jymyjdax yd ycfjr rfbv`mr dr

f`fhyrdajh nmj`jab `jxyx rjyjab xdnf dr m`` d ma mwwfm` dr mhyvm``z cf`wjab

vaifrrjyf zdvr fdryx jyc hmxc! Wmryafrx nmz cm|f fswfrjfahf jyc ij.

frfay kjaix d vai.rmjxjab xyrmyfbjfx mai of mo`f yd yf`` zdv cmy cmx offa

ndrf mai `fxx xvhhfxxv` ja zdvr da hdnnvajyz’cfycfr dr fsmnw`f

zdv‚rf ofyyfr d cm|jab m xj`fay mvhyjda d xjbafi oddkx dr m xymyjda cfrf

wfdw`f hma hdnnjxxjda hdnwdxfi.ja.ycf.ndnfay wdfnx da ycfnfx d

ycfjr hcddxjab dr yfayz.|f id``mrx m wdw!

_fnfnofr5 jy vxvm``z ymkfx ndafz yd nmkf ndafz mai vai.rmjxjab

dvy`mzx jacfrfay`z ja|d`|f m hfrymja mndvay d rjxk! Fswfaxj|f vai.rmjxfrx

nmz orjab ja `fxx ndafz ycma ycfz hdxy! Id m rfm`jxyjh mam`zxjx d cmy zdv

j`` cm|f yd orjab ja yd orfmk f|fa hdaxjifrjab fswfaxfx xvhc mx yrm|f` maicdadrmrjm j zdv‚rf ycrdjab m ofafy rfmijab nmj`jab fswfaxfx dr ijrfhy

nmj` xwmhf rfaym`x wrjayjab hdxyx dr nmzof evxy ycf wrjhf d m rfm``z ajyz

cmy! J zdvr ovibfy jx ja wddr xcmwf m`rfmiz zdv wrdomo`z may yd njajnjuf

rjxk oz xymryjab jyc xdnfycjab |frz jafswfaxj|f yd ofbja jyc!

Da ycf dycfr cmai rfnfnofr ycmy vai.rmjxjab jx m`mzx m `dab.yfrn

wrdefhy! Jy hma of ifndrm`jujab yd wvy ja m `dy d drk dr `jyy`f jnnfijmyf

rfyvra mai zdv id may yd jifayjz vai.rmjxjab ivix mai m|dji ycfn ovy

fmr`z fdryx ycmy njbcy ady orjab ja m `dy d fsyrm ndafz my ycf yjnf hmaxyj`` `mz ycf brdvaidrk dr ndafz yd hdnf ja `myfr! @dab.yfrn xvhhfxx ja

vai.rmjxjab ja|d`|fx ovjìjab rf`myjdaxcjwx mai yrvxy jyc wdyfayjm` idadrx

mai bfyyjab ycfn rxy vxfi yd ycf jifm d mai ycfa jayd ycf cmojy d xvw.



Ydd`x ldr Lrmnjab p ??:

wdryjab zdv! Idadrx may yd kad ycmy zdv j`` of ycfrf mai idjab bddi

drk ycfz |m`vf dr ycf `dab yfrn! Jy hma ymkf xdnf yjnf mai m hfrymja

mndvay d ovz.ja ofdrf wfdw`f ff` hdndrymo`f rjyjab f|fa ycf rxy

xnm`` hcfhk nvhc `fxx dfrjab m xvoxymayjm` idamyjda! J zdv id ad ndrfycma orfmk f|fa zdvr rxy yjnf dvy hdaxjifr ycf fdry m ja mai xymry

mww`zjab maz `fxxdax zdv `fmrafi rdn jy yd zdvr afsy vai.rmjxfr!

_mjxjab ndafz rdn jaij|jivm`x rf}vjrfx mhhdvaymoj`jyz f|fa j zdv

ida‚y cm|f yd wrd|jif ycfn jyc am` rfwdryx! J zdv‚rf wmxxjab m cmy dr wvy.

yjab m emr dvy dr id``mr oj``x nmkf xvrf yd ycmak f|frzdaf drm``z my ycf f|fay

dr idamyjab’jy idfxa‚y cvry yd myymhc m xjba xmzjab Ycmakx- ja mx nmaz ma.

bvmbfx mx wdxxjo`f yd ycf cmy dr emr! Ofzdai ycjx mazdaf cd rjyfx zdv m

hcfhk xcdvì bfy m adyf d ycmakx mai m orjf fsw`mamyjda d cd zdv j``vxf idamyfi ndafz! Mx zdvr drbmajumyjda brdx hdaxjifr ndvayjab m fo

wmbf dr hrfmyjab ma maavm` `fyyfr rfwdryjab da zdvr mhyj|jyjfx mai wvo`jh`z

amnjab mai ycmakjab zdvr xvwwdryfrx! Xmzjab ycmak zdv jx ady da`z bddi

fyj}vfyyf mai bddi ovxjafxx ovy m`xd cf`wx zdv kffw ja ydvhc jyc zdvr

idadrx mai hv`yj|myf rf`myjdaxcjwx jyc ycfn!

J zdv cm|f ycf bddi dryvaf yd ai ma jaij|jivm` idadr j``jab yd

nmkf m nmedr hdayrjovyjda rfmhc dvy yd ycjx wfrxda ja mwwrdwrjmyf mzx! D

hdvrxf zdv ida‚y may yd bj|f d|fr zdvr wrdbrmn yd m idadr ovy j jy‚x wdx.

xjo`f yd jah`vif m idadr ja m rfhfwyjda dr m ijaafr jyc m wdfy dr yd ja|jyf

ycf idadr yd doxfr|f m wdfy‚x |jxjy yd m xhcdd` h`mxxrddn dr fsmnw`f id xd!

Ymw Ldvaimyjdax mai Hdrwdrmyjdax

Ja Avyx Od`yx mai Rjibfyx zdv j`` ai jadrnmyjda modvy cd yd

`dhmyf wrj|myf dvaimyjdax mai hdnwmajfx ycmy bj|f brmayx yd mryx mai ada.

wrdy drbmajumyjdax! Ycfrf mrf nmaz bddi rfxdvrhfx da`jaf mai wrdomo`zm`xd m|mj`mo`f my zdvr `dhm` `jormrz!

Rcj`f zdv mrf xyj`` rf`myj|f`z xnm`` mai `dhm` dhvx ndxy`z da ycf dva.

imyjdax mai ovxjafxxfx xwfhjhm``z if|dyfi yd vaijab wrdbrmnx ja zdvr

mrfm! Ycf ojb amyjdam` dvaimyjdax mai hdrwdrmyjdax yfai yd vai ojb

amyjdam` wrdbrmnx! J zdvr wrdbrmn njbcy mwwfm` yd dvaimyjdax ycmy vai

wrdbrmnx ja fivhmyjda dr xdnf dycfr fìx ja miijyjda yd dr ofzdai wdfyrz

hcfhk ycdxf dvy mx f``!

Mx jyc ycf vaijab mbfahjfx ijxhvxxfi mod|f `ddk dr wdxxjo`f vaifrxcdxf njxxjdax mai |m`vfx m`jba jyc zdvr da xd zdv hma fnwcmxjuf ycf

d|fr`mwx ja zdvr mww`jhmyjda! _fnfnofr dvaimyjdax mai hdrwdrmyjdax

`ddk dr drycz wrdefhyx yd vaifrrjyf ovy ycfz m`rfmiz kad cmy ycfjr



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vaijab bdm`x mrf! Ovxjafxxfx j`` `jkf`z m`xd cm|f mbfaimx rf`myfi yd ycfjr

hdrwdrmyf njxxjdax jah`vijab ovy ady `jnjyfi yd rmjxjab ycfjr wrd`fx ja ycf

hdnnvajyz mai jnwrd|jab wrdo`fnmyjh hdrwdrmyf rfwvymyjdax! Xdnf wfdw`f

cm|f ad wrdo`fn jyc ycf jifm ycmy ovxjafxxfx ovz bddij`` ycfz nmz cm|f`dxy ycrdvbc jnwfrfhy hdrwdrmyf hjyjufaxcjw! Dycfrx mrf ady xd cmwwz modvy

jy! J zdv id hcddxf yd mhhfwy vaijab rdn hdrwdrmyjdax jyc fxx ycma xyf`.

`mr rfwvymyjdax’ycmy j`` of vw yd zdv mai zdvr odmri’of mmrf d ycf

wdxxjo`f idaxjif d idjab xd! Zdv nmz m`jfamyf zdvr hdaxyjyvfayx oz

mhhfwyjab ndafz rdn ycf rdab hdrwdrmyf wmryafr! Ldr ycjx rfmxda ycjak

cmri modvy cjhc hdrwdrmyjdax zdv may yd mxxdhjmyf jyc! Jnmbjaf ycf

hdrwdrmyjda‚x amnf mai `dbd da xjbax mai omaafrx m`dabxjif zdvr wrdbrmn‚x

amnf! Mrf zdv hdndrymo`f4Ijfrfay wrj|myf dvaimyjdax mai hdrwdrmyjdax bfafrm``z cm|f ijfrfay

rf}vjrfnfayx dr ycfjr brmay mww`jhmyjdax mai rfwdryx! Daf njbcy mxk dr m

`fyyfr da`z! Madycfr njbcy may yd xff m omrf.odafx ovibfy mai madycfr

njbcy may fsyfaxj|f ovibfy jadrnmyjda! Xdnf j`` ja|jyf zdv yd xvonjy

`fyyfrx d xvwwdry rdn wfdw`f cd cm|f ofafyfi rdn zdvr wrdbrmn! Mx

jyc zdvr wrdwdxm`x yd mbfahjfx xvww`z m`` ycf wrjnmrz jadrnmyjda mai

idhvnfaymyjda rf}vjrfi mx f`` mx maz xvww`fnfaym` nmyfrjm`x zdv‚rf

fahdvrmbfi yd wrd|jif! Nmkf xvrf yd d``d maz ijrfhyjdax fsw`jhjy`z!

Xdnf dvaimyjdax mai hdrwdrmyjdax j`` rf}vjrf m rfwdry my ycf fai d

m wrdbrmn mai dycfrx da‚y! _fbmri`fxx xfai dvy ycmak.zdv adyfx yd m``

wrj|myf vaifrx mx xdda mx zdv rfhfj|f afx d maz bjyx! J m am` rfwdry dr

`fyyfr jx rf}vjrfi d``d m`` ycf ijrfhyjdax mai dvr wrf|jdvx mi|jhf da cd

yd hdnwdxf jy! F|fa j m rfwdry jxa‚y rf}vfxyfi id xfai m xfhdai orjf `fyyfr

d ycmakx fsw`mjajab cd zdv vxfi ycf bjy yd vrycfr zdvr wrdbrmn! Mx

jyc xvwwdryjab mbfahjfx nmkf xvrf yd d``d ycrdvbc da rf}vfxyx ydjah`vif ycf idadr‚x amnf mai$dr `dbd da zdvr nmyfrjm`x mai wrd|jif hdw.

jfx d ycfxf nmyfrjm`x yd ycf idadr! Ljam``z j zdv cm|f m afx`fyyfr dr fo

wmbf ja cjhc zdv ycmak idadrx wvo`jh`z nmkf xvrf yd jah`vif ycfxf idadrx

ycfrf mx f`` mx da wdxyfrx mai dycfr nfijm mai ja jayrdivhyjdax!

Hhk5 r n

M! Xymyf mai `dhm` brmayx

=! \frz fmr`z da bfy ja ydvhc jyc ycf brmay dhfrx my zdvr xymyfmai `dhm` mryx mbfahjfx mai j zdv cdxy `fhyvrfx mai ijxhvxxjdax

modvy wdfyrz my cvnmajyjfx drbmajumyjdax mx f``!



Ydd`x ldr Lrmnjab p ?8=

?! Ljai dvy cfycfr zdv mrf f`jbjo`f dr brmayx mai vaifr cmy

wrdbrmnx #dr fsmnw`f xdnf mbfahjfx cm|f xwfhjm` wrdbrmnx yd

cf`w af drbmajumyjdax bfy bdjab cjhc hdvì ofafy zdv*!

8! Ljai mai nmkf m adyf d m`` ifmi`jafx jah`vijab maz wrf.wrdwdxm` ifmi`jafx!

9! J zdvr drbmajumyjda `j|fx jycja ma jaxyjyvyjda ycmy rf}vjrfx

mwwrd|m` dr brmayx ai dvy cjhc dhfx nvxy xjba d mai ja

cmy drifr mai cmy `fmi yjnf fmhc dhf rf}vjrfx dr jyx

xjbamyvrf!

6! Hdvay omhk yd ai zdvr ‐rfm`„ ifmi`jaf!

<! _frfmi ycf brmay bvjif`jafx mai ycf njxxjda xymyfnfay d ycf

drbmajumyjda ja }vfxyjda mai hcfhk ycf drbmajumyjda‚x foxjyfdr jadrnmyjda modvy cmy jy cmx wrf|jdvx`z vaifi xd zdv hma

ymj`dr zdvr amrrmyj|f mhhdrijab`z!

2! Nmkf xvrf zdvr ovibfy jx mx mhhvrmyf mx zdv hma nmkf jy mai

ycmy jy om`mahfx!

3! Nmkf adyf d maz rf}vfxyx dr mhkad`fibnfay mai d``d

ycrdvbc da ycfn!

:! Ofzdai ycfxf rf}vjrfnfayx nmkf m w`ma dr wvo`jh mhkad`.

fibnfay da wvo`jhjyz nmyfrjm`x mai ja jayrdivhyjdax!

=7! Nmkf m w`ma dr mhhdvayjab dr ycf ndafz mai xyjhk yd jy!

==! Lj`f m`` rf}vjrfi rfwdryx mhhvrmyf`z mai da yjnf!

O! Jaij|jivm`x

=! Xjy ida jyc zdvr odmri mai xym mai xfy bdm`x dr zdvr jaij.

|jivm` vai.rmjxjab!

?! Xd`jhjy jifmx dr ijfrfay kjaix d vai.rmjxjab mhyj|jyjfx zdv

njbcy fabmbf ja rmabjab rdn mwwfm`x yd jaij|jivm`x yd nfn.ofrxcjw wrdbrmnx yd ofafy rfmijabx dr f|fayx!

8! Hcfhk ja jyc zdvr wmryafrx mai mi|jxdrx ja ycf hdnnvajyz yd

bfy ycfjr jifmx mai ai dvy modvy wjym``x!

9! Id m rfm`jxyjh hdxy mam`zxjx!

6! Jifayjz cfrf affix jayfrfxyx mai |m`vfx jayfrxfhy ja zdvr

wrdbrmn!

<! Ymrbfy jaij|jivm`x cd njbcy of jayfrfxyfi xwfhjhm``z ja maz

dr m`` f`fnfayx d cmy zdv‚rf idjab mai nmkf xvrf ycfzrfhfj|f ja|jymyjdax mai rfnjaifrx yd cf`w zdv!

2! Ld``d vw jyc wdyfayjm` nmedr idadrx wfrxdam``z!



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3! J ycfz mbrff yd idamyf ja|jyf ycfn yd of ja|d`|fi jyc zdvr

mhyvm` wrdbrmnx ja mwwrdwrjmyf mzx mai d``d ycrdvbc j ycfz

fswrfxx jayfrfxy!

:! Ljai mx nmaz mwwrdwrjmyf mzx mx wdxxjo`f yd ycmak idadrx maiyd rfwdry yd ycfn da zdvr drk mai id xd fmr`z mai dyfa!

=7! Ldr ndrf xwfhjhx hcfhk ycf rfxdvrhfx ja Avyx Od`yx mai

Rjibfyx!

H! Ldvaimyjdax mai hdrwdrmyjdax

=! Vxf ycf Avyx Od`yx mai Rjibfyx rfxdvrhfx yd jifayjz dvaim.

yjdax mai hdrwdrmyjdax ycmy vai mryx drbmajumyjdax mai dycfr

adawrdyx ja zdvr hdnnvajyz!

?! @ddk my fmhc wdxxjo`f ymrbfy dvaimyjda dr hdrwdrmyjda hmrf.v``z dr d|fr`mw ofyffa jyx njxxjda mai zdvrx!

8! Fsmnjaf bvjif`jafx yd xff cjhc dwwdryvajyjfx zdv }vm`jz dr!

9! Nmkf adyf d m`` ifmi`jafx mai d drbmajumyjdax ycmy rf|jf

mww`jhmyjdax ycrdvbcdvy ycf zfmr!

6! Ljai dvy cfycfr zdv affi `fyyfrx d xvwwdry mai bmycfr ycfn

j zdv id; bj|f `fyyfr rjyfrx w`fayz d `fmi yjnf mai rfnjai

ycfn bfay`z d ifmi`jafx mx ycfz mwwrdmhc!

<! Of hmrfv` ja fmhc wrdwdxm` yd jifayjz mai cjbc`jbcy ycdxf mrfmx

ja cjhc zdvr njxxjda mai ycf brmayjab drbmajumyjdax‚ njxxjdax

m`jba!

2! Ld``d bvjif`jafx mai ijrfhyjdax yd ycf `fyyfr ja hrfmyjab wrd.

wdxm`x mai mhhdnwmazjab ovibfyx!

3! Ld``d maz afx d m idamyjda jyc ma jnnfijmyf ycmak.zdv

adyf!

:! Micfrf yd maz rf}vfxyx modvy mhkad`fibfnfay!=7! Ofzdai xvhc rf}vfxyx ai mzx yd mhkad`fibf xvwwdry wvo.

`jh`z mai d``d ycrdvbc!

==! J wdxxjo`f mai mwwrdwrjmyf ja|jyf dvaimyjda dhfrx mai rfw.

rfxfaymyj|fx yd rfhfwyjdax mai dycfr f|fayx!

=?! Lv``` maz rf}vfxyx dr rfwdryx nfyjhv`dvx`z!

=8! _fbmri`fxx d cfycfr m rfwdry jx rf}vjrfi ajxc zdvr wrdbrmn

dr xfmxda oz xfaijab ycmak.zdv adyfx ycmy hdnnvajhmyf cmy

ycf bjyx famo`fi zdv yd id!



Ydd`x ldr Lrmnjab p ?88

ADYF

=! Xdnf d ycf jadrnmyjda ja ycjx xfhyjda jx xzaycfxjufi rdn mai hma of dvai

ja brfmyfr ifymj` my xf|frm` foxjyfx cjhc f rfhdnnfai yd rfmifrx5 Modvy!

hdn; dvaimyjdahfayfr!drb; mai ycf Yfsmx Hdnnjxxjda da ycf Mryx Ydd`.Kjy!mryx!xymyf!ys!vx$ydd`kjy! Dycfr vxfv` xjyfx hma of dvai ja ycf rffrfahf

xfhyjda!





Ljajxcjab Ydd`x ldr ycf F|fay Jyxf`l p ?86

NMKF BDDI LJ_XY JNW_FXXJDAX

Zdvr fmr`z f|fayx mai ycf rva.vwx yd ycfn xfy ycf ydaf dr zdvr fayjrf

drbmajumyjda mai ofhdnf ycf dvaimyjda dr zdvr drbmajumyjda‚x rfwvym.

yjda! Ycf w`max mai nmambfnfay zdv wvy jayd ycfxf rxy f|fayx `fy odyc zdvr mvijfahf mai ycf wdfyx zdv ja|jyf kad ycmy zdv rfxwfhy ycfn mai

mrf hdnnjyyfi yd hrfmyjab bddi fswfrjfahfx dr ycfn cfycfr ycdxf fs.

wfrjfahfx mrf xyrjhy`z ovyydafi mai xymrhcfi dr rf`msfi mai rffcff`jab!

Zdvr wmryafrx j`` ycmak zdv dr bddi w`maajab hdnnvajhmyjda mai

d``d.ycrdvbc da zdvr hdnnjynfayx cfycfr zdv bfy dvy m wrfxx rf`fmxf

da yjnf wrd|jif rfrfxcnfayx dr wjhk vw w`myfx mai wvy mmz hcmjrx my ycf

fai d ma f|fay! Ycfz j`` m`xd of brmyfv` j zdv mhkad`fibf ycfjr hdayrj.

ovyjdax fmr`z mai dyfa! J zdv fxymo`jxc bddi cmojyx jyc ycfn rdn ycfofbjaajab ycfz j`` yrvxy zdv mai of j``jab yd ovjì da zdvr fmr`z

wmryafrxcjwx!

Zdvr mvijfahf nfnofrx j`` ycmak zdv dr mhhvrmyf mi|mahf jadrnm.

yjda ycmy m``dx ycfn yd jahdrwdrmyf zdv jayd ycfjr xhcfiv`fx mx f`` mx dr

xvhc xnm`` hdvryfxjfx mx bddi wrdbrmn ifxhrjwyjdax da.yjnf xymryx mai a.

jxcfx mai hmrfv``z hrmyfi jayrdivhyjdax! J zdv‚rf kada dr rfxwfhyjab

ycfn mai ycfjr yjnf zdvr mvijfahf nfnofrx j`` rfmij`z drbj|f zdv da

ycf rmrf dhhmxjda cfa xdnfycjab ofzdai zdvr hdayrd` bdfx rdab!

Ycf wdfyx zdv ja|jyf yd wmryjhjwmyf ja zdvr f|fayx j`` ycmak zdv dr

vaifrxymaijab mai mayjhjwmyjab ycfjr affix rdn wrd|jijab ycfn jyc h`fmr

mbrffnfayx mai bddi xhcfiv`fx yd nmkjab xvrf ycmy ycfz cm|f w`fayz d

ddi mai myfr mai ycmy ycfz bfy yd ycf mjrwdry da yjnf! J zdv yrfmy ycfn

f`` mai ycfz cm|f bddi fswfrjfahfx ycfz j`` of ndrf `jkf`z yd hdnf

mbmja j ja|jyfi mai yd xwrfmi ycf dri yd dycfrx!

H_FMYF M XHCFIV@F

Zdv‚|f m`rfmiz bdaf m `dab mz ydmri jnmbjajab ycf kjaix d f|fayx dr

wrdbrmnx zdv may yd hrfmyf mai cz mx f`` mx dr cdn zdv may yd

hrfmyf ycfn! Zdv njbcy w`ma rfmijabx wdfyrz oddk brdvwx drkxcdwx

myfr.xhcdd` f|fayx x`mn dr rfhjymyjda hdnwfyjyjdax f``dxcjwx rfxjifa.

hjfx wvo`jhmyjdax dr f|fayvm``z ndrf ycma daf d ycf mod|f! My ycjx

wdjay jy‚x vxfv` yd rfnjai zdvrxf` ycmy zdv ida‚y cm|f yd xymry jyc ycfndxy ijhv`y dr hdnw`jhmyfi ycjab zdv‚|f ycdvbcy d mai zdv ida‚y cm|f

yd `mvahc f|frzycjab zdv‚|f jnmbjafi idjab m`` my dahf! Cdf|fr zdv

id may yd jnmbjaf cmy zdv xymry jycja ycf `mrbfr hdayfsy d zdvr w`max



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dr ycf vyvrf xd zdv hma fmxj`z ovjì da cmy zdv hrfmyf ad! Ldr ndrf

da w`maajab w`fmxf rffr yd ycf xfhdai wmry d ycf Ydd`kjy Cmnnfr Xm

mai Amj`x5 Ydd`x dr Lrmnjab mai yd ycf rfxdvrhf xfhyjda Avyx Od`yx

mai Rjibfyx!Va`fxx zdv mrf w`maajab m daf.yjnf fxyj|m` dr xznwdxjvn dr wvo`jhm.

yjda ycjak d zdvr rxy f|fay mx evxy ycmy ycf rxy ja m xfrjfx’wfrcmwx ycf

rxy ja m xfrjfx ycmy j`` f|fayvm``z of daf ja m xvjyf ovy rjbcy ad wrdomo`z

ycf rxy ja m xfrjfx ycmy jx `jnjyfi mai nmambfmo`f! Ycjx kjai d jnmbjamyjda

j`` m``d zdv yd hdaxjifr cmy kjai d ydaf zdv may yd xfy ady evxy dr

zdvr rxy f|fay ovy m`xd dr zdvr drbmajumyjda! #Mrf zdv cjbc `jyfrmrz dr

wvak dr vak dr Bdyc dr m|may.bmrif4 Hmxvm` rffcff`jab mai xwdaymaf.

dvx dr drnm` mai rjbdrdvx4* Jy j`` m`xd cf`w zdv w`ma ja m mz ycmy j``hrfmyf hdayjavjyz dr zdv ycf mryjxyx zdv drk jyc mai zdvr mvijfahf! Ycjx

xfaxf d hdayjavjyz j`` nmkf jy fmxjfr dr f|frzdaf yd yrvxy zdvr drbmajum.

yjda mai yd ovjì w`max ycmy jah`vif jy!

Ycfrfdrf jaxyfmi d ifhjijab yd xhcfiv`f mai maadvahf daf dwfa.njh

rfmijab dr x`mn dr drkxcdw dr wvo`jhmyjda my m yjnf hdaxjifr xhcfiv`jab

mai maadvahjab xf|frm` f|fayx my dahf’f|fa yd hma of fadvbc j zdv

may yd xymry oz cdìjab ma f|fay ja ycf m`` mai daf ja ycf xwrjab dr m

hdvw`f ivrjab daf xfmxda! Ldr m ffk`z dr ndayc`z xfrjfx jy‚x m bddi jifm

yd w`ma mx mr dvy mx zdv rfmxdamo`z hma! J jy‚x ady wrmhyjhm` dr zdv yd w`ma m

cd`f zfmr dvy m }vmryfr`z xhcfiv`f jx m bddi mz yd xymry; xdnf drbmajum.

yjdax ycmy ida‚y wrdbrmn ja ycf xvnnfr drk jyc m m`` mai m xwrjab hm`fa.

imr rvaajab Xfwyfnofr yd Ifhfnofr mai Emavmrz yd Nmz rfxwfhyj|f`z!

F|fa j zdv w`ma daf ojb maavm` f|fay dr wrdivhyjda’m ifxyjamyjda

hdafrfahf drkxcdw fxyj|m` dr xznwdxjvn dr fsmnw`f dr ma maavm`

oddk wrjuf’jnmbjaf mai wjyhc jy mx daf ja m xfrjfx! Ofbja jyc m ‐rxymaavm`„ xcdjab ycmy zdv fswfhy yd rfwfmy ycf d``djab zfmr mai bj|jab

ycf mvijfahf hdaifahf yd ja|fxy yjnf mai fndyjdam` fafrbz ja zdv! Ycfa

`fy zdvr mvijfahf kad cd zdv w`ma yd kffw ja ydvhc! M`` ycf mod|f kjaix

d wrdbrmnx mrf `mrbf mai hdnw`fs fadvbc yd ja|d`|f mhyj|jyjfx mai

maadvahfnfayx ycmy hma of vxfi yd fabmbf zdvr mvijfahf mai wmryjhjwmayx

ycrdvbcdvy ycf zfmr! Ldr m hdafrfahf zdv j`` may yd maadvahf my ycf

hvrrfay zfmr‚x f|fay ycf imyf d ycf afsy mai wfrcmwx ycf imyfx cfa zdv

fswfhy yd va|fj` zdvr mhv`yz `mvahc zdvr f``dxcjw hdnwfyjyjda j zdvcm|f daf mai dwfa rfbjxyrmyjda! Ldr ma maavm` oddk mmri zdv j`` s

imyfx dr cfa zdv j`` maadvahf ycf evibf cfa ycf ifmi`jaf j`` of




cfa zdv j`` adyjz mai maadvahf ycf jaafr mai cfa ycf wvo`jhmyjda

jyxf` j`` mwwfmr!

J zdvr drbmajumyjda brdx mai ofbjax yd wrd|jif ndrf ycma daf kjai

d wrdbrmnnjab wfrcmwx mjnfi my ijfrfay mvijfahfx zdv nmz f|fayvm``zai ycmy zdv affi xf|frm` ijfrfay ovy d|fr`mwwjab xhcfiv`fx’xmz daf dr

drkxcdwx daf dr rfmijabx mai daf dr hdayfxyx! Ycjx jx wrdomo`z m orjibf

zdv ida‚y affi yd ovjì evxy zfy ovy jy‚x ady m omi jifm yd kffw ja njai ycmy

miijab m af kjai dr `f|f` d wrdbrmnnjab xcdvìa‚y cm|f yd nfma zdv

nvxy hdnw`fyf`z hcmabf cd zdv hdahfj|f d nmambf mai wvo`jhjuf ycf

dì my `fmxy ady j zdv w`ma f`` ad! Ofhmvxf nmkjab ojb hcmabfx ja xvh.

hfxxv` wrdbrmnx hma of wrdo`fnmyjh’m nmedr hcmabf ja xhcfiv`jab m`ndxy

m`mzx `fmix yd m ijw ja wmryjhjwmyjda my `fmxy yfnwdrmrj`z’jy hma‚y cvry ydycjak ja mi|mahf modvy cd af wrdbrmnx j`` ovjì rdn mai hda|frxf

jyc ycf dì! Nmzof ycf wdfyrz hdayfxy zdv‚rf cdìjab ad j`` f|fayvm``z

ofhdnf ycf f``dxcjw hdnwfyjyjda dr m xvnnfr wdfyrz hdafrfahf cjhc

j`` f|fayvm` z ofhdnf ycf lmbxcjw f|fay dr ma drbmajumyjda ycmy m`xd cdìx

njaj drkxcdwx mai rfmijabx ycrdvbcdvy ycf zfmr! J zdv‚rf jnmbjajab xvhc

m wrdbrfxxjda m`rfmiz zdv nmz may dr fsmnw`f yd bj|f zdvr hdayfxy m

njijayfr ifmi`jaf rdn ycf |frz ofbjaajab xd zdv hma y jy jayd ycf hda.

frfahf xhcfiv`f `myfr jycdvy hdavxjab zdvr rfbv`mr fayrmayx!

Fxymo`jxc _fbv`mrjy

Ycf ndrf zdv hma id yd cf`w zdvr mvijfahfx ovjì zdvr f|fayx jayd

ycfjr hm`faimrx ycf ndrf xvhhfxx zdv j`` cm|f! Daf mz zdv hma id ycjx jx

oz ovjìjab ja rfbv`mrjyz! Ldr fsmnw`f `fy‚x xmz zdv may yd cdì fjbcy dr

ajaf f|fayx ofyffa Xfwyfnofr mai Nmz! Zdv hma ovjì ja rfbv`mrjyz oz

ifhjijab ycmy zdvr f|fayx j`` m`mzx of cfì da xmz Rfiafximz ajbcyx dr Xmyvrimz ndrajabx; zdv hma ovjì ja f|fa ndrf rfbv`mrjyz j zdv m`mzx

cdì ycfn da ycf rxy Rfiafximz dr ycf ycjri Xmyvrimz d ycf ndayc!

Ycf idaxjif d ovjìjab ja xvhc rfbv`mrjyz jx ycmy zdv `dxf lfsjoj`jyz!

J zdv drk jyc `dyx d wdfyx cd cm|f yd hdnf ja rdn dvy d yda zdv

njbcy ijxhd|fr ycmy zdv hma vxvm``z ai m Rfiafximz ycmy j`` drk dr

odyc zdvr drbmajumyjda mai ycf wdfy ovy ycmy `jnjyjab zdvrxf` yd rxy

Rfiafximzx jx evxy ydd hdaxyrmjajab! J da ycf dycfr cmai zdv ifm` ndxy`z

jyc `dhm` wdfyx hcmahfx mrf zdv‚`` of mo`f yd nmambf jyc ndrf `jnjymyjdaxofhmvxf zdv cm|f w`fayz d rxy Rfiafximzx yd hcddxf rdn jycdvy cm|jab

yd drrz modvy yrm|f` cdyf`x njxxfi yfmhcjab fyh!



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F|fa j zdv cm|f m rfbv`mr xhcfiv`f ycfrf nmz of yjnfx cfa zdv affi

yd id xdnfycjab m `jyy`f ijfrfay`z wfrcmwx ofhmvxf zdv‚rf wmjrjab zdvr

rfmijab xfrjfx cjhc vxvm``z cdìx f|fayx ivrjab ycf ffk jyc m ffkfai

fxyj|m` dr ofhmvxf zdv may yd orjab ja m nmedr wdfy cdxf yfmhcjabxhcfiv`f wrfh`vifx m |jxjy da zdvr vxvm` imz! Zdv xcdvì yrz yd m|dji xvhc

m`yfrmyjdax ovy ja hmxfx xvhc mx ycfxf hcmabfx njbcy of dryc ycf jahda|f.

ajfahf! _fnfnofr ycmy xvhc hcmabfx j`` w`mhf ma miijyjdam` ovrifa da

zdvr mvijfahfx mai da zdv! Zdv‚`` affi yd maadvahf ycf ‐xwfhjm` f|fay„

fmr`z mai dyfa!

Njai zdvr Nmaafrx

Zdvr hdnnvajyz njbcy m`rfmiz cm|f ma drbmajumyjda ndvayjab rfbv.`mr wdfyrz wrdbrmnx ycmy dhhvr da m hfrymja imz d ycf ffk! J xd zdv

njbcy of yfnwyfi ofhmvxf mvijfahfx mrf m`rfmiz mhhvxydnfi yd ycjakjab

d ycmy imz mx of`dabjab yd wdfyrz yd vxf ycf xmnf imz zdvrxf`! Ycjx jx vxv.

m``z m omi jifm f|fa j zdv mrf rfmiz yd wrdnjxf af|fr mbmja yd xhcfiv`f

ijrfhy`z mbmjaxy ycf dycfr drbmajumyjda‚x wrdbrmnx! Xvhc wrdnjxfx cdf|fr

f`` jayfayjdafi hma of if|j`jxc`z cmri yd kffw cfa zdv‚rf yrzjab yd evb.

b`f ovxz wdfyx mai ovxz |favfx! Ja mhy f|fa j zdv hcddxf m ijfrfay imz

m`ydbfycfr zdv nmz ai zdvrxf` da m rmrf dhhmxjda cm|jab yd xhcfiv`f

mbmjaxy ycf dycfr wrdbrmn #dr zdv nmz ai ycf dycfr wrdbrmn cm|jab yd

xhcfiv`f mbmjaxy zdv*! Bddi ff`jabx mrf mr ndrf `jkf`z yd of wrfxfr|fi ja

xvhc hmxfx j ycfz mrf rmrf mai ycf dycfr wrdbrmnnfrx ida‚y ff` zdv‚|f

m`rfmiz wdmhcfi da ycfjr xhcfiv`jab yvr! Ycf yrvyc jx j zdvr hdnnvajyz

jx `mrbf fadvbc yd xvwwdry xf|frm` wdfyrz wrdbrmnx jy jx `mrbf fadvbc yd

xvwwdry wrdbrmnx da |mrjdvx imzx d ycf ffk! Wdfyrz `d|frx cd cm|f

dycfr hdnnjynfayx da ycf imz ja }vfxyjda j`` of |frz cmwwz yd cm|f ycfjr dwyjdax fswmaifi!

Fxymo`jxc m Xwmhf

Evxy mx jy‚x m bddi jifm yd of mx hdaxjxyfay mx wdxxjo`f ja zdvr imzx mai

yjnfx jy‚x m`xd m bddi jifm yd of mx hdaxjxyfay mx wdxxjo`f ja zdvr |favf! Da

rmrf dhhmxjdax zdv nmz affi yd vxf m |favf ijfrfay rdn zdvr vxvm` daf!

Wfrcmwx zdv mrf orjabjab ja m wdfy cd hma hdnf da`z da m imz cfa zdvr

vxvm` |favf jx m`rfmiz hdnnjyyfi! Wfrcmwx zdv fswfhy ycmy ycf wdfy zdvja|jyfi j`` irm m nvhc `mrbfr mvijfahf ycma zdvr vxvm` xwmhf hma mhhdn.

ndimyf! Wfrcmwx zdv‚rf idjab m daf.yjnf wmryafrxcjw jyc ma f|fay cfì



Ljajxcjab Ydd`x ldr ycf F|fay Jyxf`l p ?8:

f`xfcfrf! Zdv‚|f drkfi cmri yd bfy zdvr mvijfahf mhhvxydnfi yd m wmr.

yjhv`mr xwmhf mai yjnf mai ad zdv j`` cm|f yd id `dyx d fsyrm drk yd

bfy dri d ycf hcmabf dvy mx jif`z mx wdxxjo`f!

Yd kffw xvhc hcmabfx rmrf zdv may yd hcddxf m |favf ycmy jx ycf ofxywdxxjo`f y dr ycf kjai d wrdbrmnnjab zdv vxvm``z id mai ycf mvijfahfx

zdv vxvm``z irm! Ofhmvxf m cvbf fnwyz xwmhf jx mx vahdndrymo`f dr mvij.

fahfx mai wrfxfayfrx mx ma d|frhrdifi daf of mx rfm`jxyjh mx wdxxjo`f modvy

ycf `jkf`z xjuf d zdvr vxvm` mvijfahf! Myyfaijab dycfr f|fayx j`` cf`w jyc

ycjx mx j`` ym`kjab yd ycf d`kx rvaajab zdvr |favf modvy cmy kjaix d

mvijfahfx ycfz irm dr ycfjr dycfr wrdbrmnx mai ymkjab jayd hdaxjifrmyjda

xvhc mhydrx mx cfycfr yfmhcfrx nmz fahdvrmbf dr rf}vjrf xyvifayx yd

myyfai zdvr wrdbrmn!Dahf zdv‚|f xf`fhyfi zdvr |favf xymz ja h`dxf ydvhc jyc ycf wfdw`f

ycfrf mx zdv nmkf zdvr w`max! Fmr`z da ofdrf zdv nmkf maz xwfhjh xhcfi.

v`jab ifhjxjdax hcfhk jyc ycfn yd ai dvy cfa ycf xwmhf jx m|mj`mo`f mai

cfycfr zdvr jifmx modvy xhcfiv`jab nfxc! J zdv ifhjif zdv may yd cdì

f|fayx dr kjix da Xmyvrimz ndrajabx ovy ycf |favf m`rfmiz cdìx m rfbv`mr

hcjìrfa‚x hrmy h`mxx dr xydrz xfxxjda da Xmyvrimzx zdv j`` affi yd rfycjak

zdvr xhcfiv`f dr hddrijamyf dr hd``modrmyf jyc ycf dycfr wrdbrmn! J zdv

hma‚y drk dvy m bddi xd`vyjda ycjak modvy aijab ma f|fa ofyyfr.yyjab

|favf’m`mzx hdaxjifrjab cfycfr jy‚x ja zdvr ofxy jayfrfxyx yd hdnwfyf

jyc ma fxymo`jxcfi wrdbrmn mai m wdyfayjm` wmryafr! Myfr zdv mbrff da m

bfafrm` rmnfdrk dr zdvr wrdbrmn mxk cjhc xwfhjh imyfx jycja ycmy

rmnfdrk mrf jifm` ady jifm` ovy drkmo`f mai ady drkmo`f!

Ofdrf zdv mhyvm``z hdaymhy wdfyx hcfhk zdvr wrffrrfi imyfx dr hda.

ljhyx d ycf kjai ycmy njbcy hdnf omhk yd ojyf zdv xvhc mx Xmoomycx fxyj.

|m`x mai cd`jimzx doxfr|fi oz maz rf`jbjdvx brdvw jyc m `mrbf wrfxfahf ja zdvr hdnnvajyz! Ldr fsmnw`f ja Kmycmrjaf Hd`fx‚x ifwmrynfay my ycf Vaj.

|frxjyz d Vymc m avnofr d mhv`yz nfnofrx doxfr|f ycf Efjxc Xmoomyc

mai cd`jimzx mai ma jahrfmxjab avnofr doxfr|f Oviicjxy fxyj|m`x mai cd`j.

imzx xd ycf ifwmrynfay yrjfx yd m|dji imyfx jnwdrymay yd ycdxf brdvwx mx

f`` mx Xvaimzx! Ycjx j`` of ijfrfay ja f|frz hdnnvajyz; maz ojb `jyfrmrz

hv`yvrm` dr dycfr kjai d f|fay hdvì wrfxfay nmedr hdaljhyx! Vaifrxymai

ycmy zdv j`` ady of mo`f yd mayjhjwmyf dr m|dji f|frz wdxxjo`f hdaljhy ovy j

zdv hma my `fmxy mhhdvay dr cmy zdv hma mayjhjwmyf zdvr f|fayx j`` bdndrf xnddyc`z dr zdv mai zdvr wmryafrx mai mvijfahf nfnofrx j`` of

nvhc cmwwjfr jyc zdv!



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Hhk5 H xh

M! Ifhjif omxfi da m`` ycf drk zdv‚|f idaf xd mr cmy zdvr rxy

f|fay dr xfrjfx d f|fayx j`` of!

=! Nmkf xvrf zdv xymry jyc xdnfycjab zdv ycjak zdv hma maixcdvì id omxfi da zdvr fmr`jfr mxxfxxnfayx d affi rfxdvrhfx

fyh!

?! Nmkf xvrf jy jx hdaxjxyfay jyc zdvr mryjhv`myfi |m`vfx! Jx ycjx

xdnfycjab zdv rfm``z may yd id mai j`` d``d ycrdvbc da4

Id zdv may ycf f|fay yd xfy ycf ydaf dr zdvr drbmajumyjda

rdn ycf dvyxfy4

O! Mrrmabf dr m xwmhf!

=! Bj|fa ycf kjai d f|fay#x* zdv j`` of ndvayjab hmrfv``zhdaxjifr zdvr xwmhf affix! Ldr rfmijabx zdv affi da`z m rfmi.

jab xwmhf d ycf mwwrdwrjmyf xjuf; dr m ffkfai drkxcdw dr

xznwdxjvn zdv j`` affi m rfmijab xwmhf mai mwwrdwrjmyf

h`mxxrddn mai$dr bmycfrjab xwmhfx m`` ja h`dxf wrdsjnjyz!

?! Rjyc zdvr odmri hdaxjifr xwmhfx zdv kad d ycmy njbcy of

mwwrdwrjmyf!

8! Mwwrdmhc ycdxf cd da dr nmambf xwmhfx jyc m w`ma! Ldr

ndrf jadrnmyjda xff ycf Wmryafrxcjwx xfhyjda ja wmry = d ycf

Ydd`kjy Ma Jifm m Wfahj` mai m Wjfhf d Irmyjab Wmwfr5 Ydd`x

dr Wrmhyjhm` Irfmnjab!

9! Dahf zdv cm|f jifayjfi m bddi xwmhf mai wmryafr drk

h`dxf`z mai hd``fbjm``z jyc ycdxf cd da mai xym ycf xwmhf!

H! Ifhjif cd mr mcfmi zdv may yd w`ma rfnfnofrjab ycmy jy‚x vxv.

m``z ofyyfr yd bfy m rczycn bdjab rmycfr ycma xjnw`z wrfxfay daf.d

f|fayx!=! Hdaxjifr cd nmaz f|fayx zdv hma rfm`jxyjhm``z ndvay jycja

m bj|fa yjnf wfrjdi jyc ycf `modr mai ovibfy zdv cm|f!

?! Hdaxjifr ycf hdnnjynfay mai rf`jmoj`jyz d zdvr xym jah`vi.

jab zdvrxf`! Of rfm`jxyjh jyc zdvrxf`|fx mai daf madycfr! J

zdv xhcfiv`f xjs ndaycx ja mi|mahf mrf zdv xvrf ycf xym j``

of ycfrf yd d``d ycrdvbc4 J ady hdaxjifr hvyyjab omhk yd

ycrff ndaycx!

8! Hdaxjifr ycf affix mai xhcfiv`fx d ycf kjaix d wdfyx zdvmay yd ja|jyf dr zdvr f|fayx! Nmedr wdfyx jyc |frz ovxz

xhcfiv`fx dyfa oddk m zfmr ja mi|mahf dr f|fa `dabfr; fnfrb.

jab wdfyx njbcy cm|f ndrf lfsjoj`jyz! Zdvabfr wfdw`f yfai yd



Ljajxcjab Ydd`x ldr ycf F|fay Jyxf`l p ?9=

of ndrf ndoj`f ycdvbc! M zdvab `dhm` wdfy zdv mwwrdmhc ja

Nmrhc yd rfmi ja Xfwyfnofr nmz ad `dabfr of `dhm` oz ycf

yjnf m`` rd``x mrdvai xd j zdv ycjak rf`dhmyjda njbcy of ma

jxxvf mxk modvy w`max!9! Hdaxjifr ycf affix d zdvr mvijfahf nfnofrx!

m! Rcmy kjai d yjnf hdnnjynfay j`` ycfjr wmryjhjwmyjda

rf}vjrf4 Ycf brfmyfr ycf hdnnjynfay ycf ndrf `fmi yjnf

jx afhfxxmrz! Ja ycf hmxf d m ffk`dab hdafrfahf dr

fsmnw`f zdv j`` may yd bj|f wfdw`f m zfmr‚x adyjhf; dr

m ffkfai.`dab f|fay m f ndaycx j`` id; dr ma f|f.

ajab f|fay m f ffkx!

o! Cd j`` zdv rfmhc zdvr mvijfahf nfnofrx4 J zdvr ymr.bfy mvijfahf jx nmif vw d xyvifayx my m wmryjhv`mr xhcdd`

dr vaj|frxjyz zdv hma ffhyj|f`z vxf wdxyfrx lzfrx f.nmj`

mai yfmhcfr maadvahfnfayx yd bfy ycf dri dvy ja xcdry

drifr cjhc nfmax zdv hma xhcfiv`f dvyrfmhc h`dxfr yd

f|fay imyfx! J zdvr mvijfahf jx xwrfmi ycrdvbcdvy ycf

hdnnvajyz zdv j`` affi fadvbc `fmi yjnf yd vxf ycf

nfijm ffhyj|f`z mai wmxx dvy lzfrx my fmr`jfr f|fayx!

6! Hdaxjifr cfycfr xymkjab dvy m wmryjhv`mr imz d ycf ffk dr

ndayc jx fmxjo`f!

m! Hdaxv`y ycf xhcfiv`f d zdvr |favf hdaxjifrjab m`` jyx

wrdbrmnx mai ycf ifnmaix da jyx xym mx f`` mx xym

wrffrfahfx!

o! Hdaxv`y zdvr odmri mai xym’j m kfz wfrxda cmx rfbv`mr

hdnnjynfayx da m bj|fa imz xf`fhy madycfr imz!

h! Hdaxjifr yd ycf brfmyfxy fsyfay wdxxjo`f ycf rfbv`mr hdn.njynfayx d zdvr ymrbfy mvijfahf jah`vijab dycfr wdfyrz

mai mryx f|fayx mx f`` mx cd`jimzx mai imzx d drxcjw!

i! Hdaxjifr ycf `jkf`z `jnjymyjdax da ycf xhcfiv`fx d wdfyx

rfnfnofrjab ycmy nmaz mrf mhmifnjhx mai cm|f hdvrxfx

yd yfmhc!

<! Rdrkjab jyc zdvr mhj`jyz zdvr xym zdvr wmryafrx mai zdvr

odmri jifayjz dwfa imyfx! Idvo`f.hcfhk hm`faimrx dr nmedr

hdnwfyjab f|fayx mai cd`jimzx!2! Rdrkjab jyc zdvr xym mai wmryafrx jifayjz cjhc wdfyx zdv

dvì `jkf yd ja|jyf yd wmryjhjwmyf!



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m! Wrjdrjyjuf ycjx `jxy xd ycmy zdvr rxy mwwrdmhcfx mrf yd ycf

wdfyx zdv mrf ndxy masjdvx yd jah`vif!

o! Vaifrxymai ycmy zdv da‚y bfy f|frzdaf zdv may mai

cm|f omhkvw amnfx!h! Ofbjaajab jyc ycdxf zdv cm|f jifayjfi mx ndxy jnwdr.

ymay yd zdvr wrdefhy hdaymhy zdvr wdyfayjm` wmryjhjwmayx!

Xfy imyfx dr zdvr kfz wmryjhjwmayx ofdrf nd|jab da yd

ycf dycfrx!

i! J zdv hma‚y xhcfiv`f m cjbc.wrjdrjyz wdfy ja ycf wfrjdi

zdv‚rf drkjab jyc mxk j cf dr xcf jx j``jab yd of hda.

ymhyfi cfa zdv mrf xhcfiv`jab ycf afsy xfy d f|fayx ja

ycf xfrjfx! Nmkf m adyf xd zdv hma d``d ycrdvbc my ycfwrdwfr yjnf!

ODDK YCF YM@FAY

D hdvrxf ycf rxy ycjab zdv affi yd id jx ai zdvr wdfyx! Zdv nmz

m`rfmiz cm|f m rn jifm d ycf kjaix d wdfyx dr f|fa ycf xwfhjh wdfyx

zdv‚i `jkf yd ja|jyf yd wmryjhjwmyf ja zdvr f|fayx dr wvo`jhmyjdax! J ady dr

j zdv mrf ddkjab yd fswmai zdvr jxy yd hrfmyf ndrf ij|frxjyz d maz kjai

ycfrf mrf w`fayz d wfdw`f mrdvai cd hma cf`w zdv! Ndxy hd``fbfx mai

vaj|frxjyjfx cm|f wdfyx ja ycfjr Fab`jxc ifwmrynfayx mai hrfmyj|f rjyjab

wrdbrmnx; nmaz d ycfn dvì of cmwwz yd hdaxv`y jyc zdv! Zdv hma

m`xd hcfhk jyc zdvr `dhm` mai xymyf mryx hdvahj`x cjhc dyfa cm|f wdfyx

da ycfjr mryjxy rdxyfrx dr `jxyx d mryjxyx ja rfxjifahf! Ida‚y drbfy yd ifhjif

jyc zdvr odmri cd j`` cm|f ycf am` dri da cjhc wdfyx yd jah`vif!

Rj`` ycf ifhjxjda rfxy jyc daf wfrxda ycf odmri dr m hdnnjyyff d ycfodmri dr ycf fayjrf hdnnvajyz4 Of h`fmr modvy ycf hrjyfrjm zdv j`` vxf

dr xf`fhyjda! Mrf zdv `ddkjab da`z dr wdfyx jyc oddkx dr zdvab wdfyx

cd mrf evxy xymryjab dvy dr dr xdnf om`mahf d ycf yd4 Cd j`` zdv

hdaxjifr rmhjm` mai fycajh ij|frxjyz bfaifr ij|frxjyz mfxycfyjh ij|frxjyz

ij|frxjyz d xvoefhy nmyyfr dr maz dycfr kjai d ij|frxjyz zdv hma ycjak

d4 Rj`` ycf wrdhfxx ja|d`|f m hdnwfyjyjda dr ma mww`jhmyjda4 Xvhc ifhj.

xjdax mrf bfafrm``z rddyfi ja cjhc mvijfahfx mai hdnnvajyjfx zdv may

zdvr wrdbrmn yd xfr|f! Jy jx bddi yd mryjhv`myf m wrdhfxx ofhmvxf brmayjabmbfahjfx j` ` may yd kad m`` ycfxf ycjabx cfa ycfz ifhjif cfycfr yd

vai zdv!




Af|fr maadvahf m wdfy‚x wmryjhjwmyjda ja ma f|fay dr m wrdbrmn vayj` zdv

mrf moxd`vyf`z xvrf ycf yfrnx mrf h`fmr ofyffa zdv mai ycf wdfy! Fmr`z da ja

zdvr hda|frxmyjdax modvy imyfx zdv j`` affi yd afbdyjmyf jyc zdvr wdfy ycf

yfrnx d fabmbfnfay! Ja mhy jnnfijmyf`z myfr mxxfxxjab m wdfy‚x jajyjm` j``.jabafxx yd ym`k jyc zdv ycf rxy ycjab zdv xcdvì id jx `mz dvy mx h`fmr`z mx

wdxxjo`f cmy zdv may #m rfmijab m drkxcdw ma dvyrfmhc f|fay m rfhfw.

yjda m oddk xjbajab ijaafr jyc odmri dr hdnnvajyz nfnofrx hdayfxy

evibjab xdnf hdnojamyjda d ycfxf* mai cmy zdv j ` bj|f ja rfyvra!

Jy jx ofxy yd cm|f m xjbafi rjyyfa mbrffnfay xd ycmy zdv mai ycf wdfy

hma rffr yd jy j maz }vfxyjdax xcdvì mrjxf #xvhc mx ycf wdfy‚x mkjab vw ja

ycf njii`f d ycf ajbcy ycjakjab ‐Dc nz bddiafxx J wrdnjxfi yd bd yd

Ivov}vf! Ad cfa mx ycmy rfmijab4„*! Ycf mbrffnfay idfx ady affi ydof f`modrmyf ovy jy xcdvì rfhdbajuf ycmy mndab ycf ndxy |m`vmo`f hvrrfa.

hjfx mrf jadrnmyjda yjnf mai ndafz! Lrdn ycf ofbjaajab d zdvr hdaymhy

m wdfy j`` may h`fmr jadrnmyjda modvy cmy jx fswfhyfi mai modvy cmy

zdv ja yvra j`` wrd|jif mai da cmy yjnf`jaf! H`mrjyz jx af|fr ndrf

jnwdrymay ycma cfa ndafz mai yjnf mrf ja }vfxyjda!

HDNWFAXMYF YCF YM@FAY

Zdv m`rfmiz kad f of`jf|f wdfyx xcdvì of wmji mx nvhc mx wdxxjo`f

cfaf|fr wdxxjo`f! Xdnf vaijab mbfahjfx j`` drk da`z jyc drbmaj.

umyjdax ycmy wmz mryjxyx f|fa ycdxf cd mrf evxy xymryjab dvy; dryvamyf`z

ycfxf brdvwx mrf |frz dyfa j``jab yd cf`w oz wrd|jijab brmayx dr nmyhc.

jab vaix! Cdf|fr va`fxx zdvr drbmajumyjda jx vavxvm``z `vhkz zdv

j`` m`ndxy m`mzx of vamo`f yd wrd|jif cdadrmrjm ycmy mrf mx `mrbf mx zdv

dvì `jkf; j zdv mrf |frz af zdv nmz ady of mo`f yd wrd|jif cdad.rmrjm my m``!

_fbmri`fxx d cfycfr dr cmy zdv hma wmz zdvr wmryjhjwmayx of h`fmr

jyc ycfn rdn ycf dvyxfy5 fmr`z ja zdvr lrxy hda|frxmyjda! Nmkf ad

njxymkf5 ycjx jx m cmri hda|frxmyjda yd cm|f’dr xdnf wfdw`f ycf cmrifxy

kjai mai ycfrfdrf ndrf fmxj`z wdxywdafi dr m|djifi! Ycdxf d vx cd mrf

wdfyx mrf vxfi yd mai f|fa wrdvi d `j|jab ja cmy @fjx Czif hm``x m bjy

fhdadnz mai f dyfa ai jy ijhv`y yd w`mhf m ndafymrz |m`vf da cmy

f id fxwfhjm``z m`dvi! Adafycf`fxx f m`` m`xd `j|f ja m rfm` fhdadnz jacjhc wdfyx xyrvbb`f yd wmz oj``x evxy mx drbmajumyjdax xyrvbb`f yd rmjxf

ndafz yd wmz wdfyx!



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Ycf bddi afx jx ycmy f|frzdaf jx mmrf d ycjx yfaxjda’wdfyx kad

ycf brdvwx ycmy cjrf ycfn mrf adawrdyx ja m wrdy.irj|fa drì mai zdv

kad ycmy ndxy wdfyx may mx dyfa mx wdxxjo`f yd rfhfj|f xdnf hdnwfa.

xmyjda dr ycfjr drk! Zdv cdadr ycmy ifxjrf mai rfhdbajuf ycmy j fxymo.`jxcfi wdfyx ycf dafx zdv ycjak njbcy of mo`f dhhmxjdam``z yd mdri yd

drk dr adycjab hdaxjxyfay`z id xd adaf d ycf vw.mai.hdnfrx j`` f|fr

bfy wmji dr cmy ycfz id’mai afjycfr j`` ycf fxymo`jxcfi wdfyx! Adodiz

mayx ycjx!

_fnfnofr, jy jx moxd`vyf`z zdvr edo yd rmjxf ycf }vfxyjda d

ndafz, cfycfr dr ady zdv cm|f maz yd dfr! Zdv xcdvì ady `fm|f

ycjx yd ycf mryjxy cd nmz of mx vahdndrymo`f jyc ycf ydwjh mx zdv mrf!

Dvr ndxy jnwdrymay mi|jhf dr ycf hda|frxmyjda5 evxy bfy jy d|fr jyc! Ydddyfa jafswfrjfahfi wrdbrmnnfrx fnomrrmxxfi my cd `jyy`f ycfz cm|f yd

dfr `fm|f ycf ndafz hda|frxmyjda vayj` `myfr dr f|fa m|dji jy m`ydbfycfr

mai ycfa njxymkfa`z mxxvnf ycf wdfy cmx ymhjy`z mbrffi yd drk dr rff!

M|djijab ycf wrdo`fn d ndafz j`` ady nmkf jy bd mmz mai j`` m`ndxy

jaf|jymo`z hrfmyf njxvaifrxymaijabx mai cmri ff`jabx ida ycf `jaf! H`mr.

jyz cmx nmaz mi|maymbfx ady ycf `fmxy d cjhc jx ycmy jy hma wrf|fay fnomr.

rmxxjab xjyvmyjdax! Jy cmx ad idaxjifx my m``!

Ycf yrjhk ja afbdyjmyjdax ycfa jx yd rfmhc ycf xffy xwdy’ma mrrmabf.

nfay odyc zdv mai ycf wdfy hma mdri! J zdv mrf ady mo`f yd wrd|jif ma

cdadrmrjvn xmz xd rjbcy mmz mai fswrfxx zdvr cdwf ycmy ycf wdfy j`` xyj``

of mo`f yd wmryjhjwmyf! Of brmhjdvx j xcf dr cf ifh`jafx! J zdv cm|f xdnf.

ycjab dycfr ycma ndafz yd dfr dr j zdv ycjak zdvr f|fay j`` mwwfm` ja

dycfr mzx ycma amahjm` `fy ycf wdfy kad! Wfdw`f dyfa yfai yd ff` mx

brvooz modvy dfrjab adaamahjm` jahfayj|fx mx amahjm` dafx fxwfhjm``z j

ycfz ida‚y ijrfhy`z ja|d`|f hcmrjyz ovy j zdv‚rf dfr jab xdnfycjab ycf wdfyrfm``z mayx dr njbcy f|fa xwfai ndafz da dycfrjxf xvhc ma jahfayj|f

nmz mhyvm``z of wfrxvmxj|f! Cfrf mrf m f jahfayj|fx ycmy njbcy wfrxvmif m

wdfy yd drk dr rff m`dab jyc xfayfahfx zdv njbcy dwfa m hda|frxmyjda

jyc mxxvnjab ja fmhc hmxf ycmy zdv mimwy ycf xfayfahf yd nmkf jy yrvf dr

zdvr xjyvmyjda!

  yc | x ol vx bu c w x ov!

Rf mrf w`maajab m rfmijab yd ofafly Ijaê Hd``fbf #dr cmyf|fr ycf hmvxf nmz

of*! Rf kad zdv j`` of m ojb irm ja dvr hdnnvajyz mai ycmy wfdw`f j`` wmz

yd cfmr zdv! Rf m`xd kad ycmy zdv‚rf m ojb of`jf|fr ja ycf drk ycf hd``fbf idfx!

Rf cdwf zdv njbcy of j``jab mai mo`f yd idamyf m rfmijab yd ycf hmvxf! Rf j``,




d hdvrxf, mhkad`fibf zdvr bfafrdxjyz da m`` dvr nmyfrjm`x! Ja miijyjda, f wrdn.

jxf yd bj|f zdv m bddi ijaafr myfrmri!

  yc | `` c`w c w c vi xc x ov, cc

ovx x nnox vix|i ovx x nnox c`wc w xn z!

Vadryvamyf`z, f cm|f m |frz xnm`` ovibfy dr ycf f|fay mai hma‚y wrd|jif ma

cdadrmrjvn #dr mrf dfrjab ma cdadrmrjvn f kad jx fnomrrmxxjab`z of`d

zdvr vxvm` ff*! Cdf|fr, f mrf mmrf d zdvr wrf|jdvx wrjxda drk; ycfxf jahmr.

hfrmyfi kjix cm|f rfxwdaifi rfm``z f`` yd ycf wrf|jdvx wdfyx f‚|f ordvbcy ja,

mai f ycjak zdvr drk jx wfrfhy`z ymj`drfi yd ycf wrdbrmn!

  yc | wxx wwvz c w b ii swxv

#cx nx lbvx c w x x`` xx``z vk c ||`|x vvxv``z wxbvx |v, bu, vi*

n xn c nbc xc n!

Rf jxc f hdvì wmz zdv, ovy f evxy ida‚y cm|f ycf ovibfy rjbcy ad! Cdf|fr,

f hma wrdnjxf m bddi mvijfahf’f vxvm``z bfy h`dxf yd m cvairfi wfdw`f’

mai zdv‚`` of rfmijab jyc Nx! Ndrf Lmndvx Wdfy, cdxf af oddk evxy hmnf dvy!

D hdvrxf, f‚`` cm|f m oddkxf``fr ycfrf, mai myfrmri f‚`` bj|f zdv m bddi ija.

afr’jy evxy cmwwfax ycmy ycf ijrfhydr d ycf NmhMrycvr Ldvaimyjda j`` of edja.

jab vx!

  Zv w|i sw c nbc ww` c w!

Vadryvamyf`z, f hma‚y zfy wmz cdadrmrjm, ycdvbc f cdwf yd of mo`f yd id xd

xdda! Cdf|fr, f cfmri ycmy zdv‚|f m`mzx mayfi yd yrz wmrmxmj`jab, mai ycf

rfxdry cfrf f‚rf cdìjab ycf f|fay dfrfi m rff `fxxda mai f}vjwnfay dr ycf

imz myfr ycf f|fay! #Ida‚y xfai dvr wdfyx wmrmxmj`jab, xkij|jab, xkjjab, dr

ndvaymja h`jnojab ofldrf f|fayx’mjy vayj` mlyfrmri!*

F|fa j ycfrf mrf ad h`fmr bmjax dr ycf wdfy #m`rfmiz cmx mhhfxx yd ycjxmvijfahf ad hmvxf yd fnormhf evxy offa amnfi m NmhMrycvr f``d cmx ad

jayfrfxy ja odaf.jnwfrj`jab rfhrfmyjdam` mhyj|jyjfx fyh!* zdv nmz xyj`` mxk cfr

dr cjn yd rfmi dr adycjab dr dr `fxx ycma ycf vxvm` ff! Of h`fmr mai cda.

fxy ycmy cmy zdv mrf mxkjab dr jx m kjai d hcmrjymo`f idamyjda f|fa

ycdvbc jy jx vadryvamyf`z ady yms.ifivhyjo`f mai nmkf xvrf yd cdadr ycf

wdfy odyc wvo`jh`z mai ja nmkjab zdvr rf}vfxy dr xvhc bfafrdxjyz yd zdvr

drbmajumyjda! Mai wrd|jif ycmy ijaafr m bddi daf!

Wdfyx hma of rfnmrkmo`z bfafrdvx jyc ycfjr yjnf! Rcfa Nmrk Xyrmai`j|fi ja Xm`y @mkf Hjyz Ydd`kjy nfnofr #mai cjx drnfr xyvifay* Kmycmrjaf

Hd`fx mx drkjab mx ma mxxjxymay ja ycf Vymc Mryx Hdvahj` @jyfrmyvrf Wrd.

brmn dhf! Xyrmai cmi rfhfay`z offa amnfi V!X! wdfy `mvrfmyf mai cf



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hdnnmaifi ja ycf ycdvxmaix dr m rfmijab! Xdnf xyvifayx rdn m `dhm`

hdnnvajyz hd``fbf wcdafi Kmycmrjaf mai mxkfi j ycfrf frf maz hcmahf

Nr! Xyrmai dvì |jxjy ycfjr hmnwvx! My ycmy wdjay ycf bdjab VMH rmyf dr

ma ja.yda rfmijab oz m `dhm` wdfy mx daf cvairfi id``mrx ycf xmnf dr f|frzdaf mai dycfrx my ycf VMH ycdvbcy ycf hm`` mxa‚y dryc nmkjab! Ovy

Kmycmrjaf wcdafi cjn mai `mji cfr hmrix da ycf ymo`f5 m rf`myj|f`z vaifr.

xfr|fi `dhm` hdnnvajyz m rf}vfxy rdn hdnnvajyz hd``fbf xyvifayx m daf

cvairfi id``mr ff #w`vx d hdvrxf ijaafr*! Cf jnnfijmyf`z mbrffi mai

bm|f m mrn bfafrdvx rfmijab jah`vijab ],M!

Cdf|fr zdv xcdvìa‚y ymkf xvhc mbrffnfay dr brmayfi f|fr! Xjnw`z

bj|f ycf wdfy ycf jadrnmyjda mai `fy cjn dr cfr fjbc ycf ijfrfay hdxyx

mai ofafyx! J ycf ifhjxjda hdnfx ida da zdvr xjif of ma fshf``fay maibrmyfv` cdxy mai ida‚y drbfy modvy ijaafr! J ady of hdvryfdvx mai vaifr.

xymaijab! Myfr m`` ycjabx njbcy of ijfrfay afsy yjnf!

Xfy Cdadrmrjm

Ijfrfay drbmajumyjdax cmai`f cdadrmrjm ja ijfrfay mzx! Ycf Vymc

Mryx Hdvahj` xjnw`z dfrfi xfy ffx cfa Kmycmrjaf Hd`fx drkfi ycfrf5

daf dr Vymc wdfyx rfmijab ja ycfjr da ydax daf dr Vymc wdfyx yrm|f`.

jab jycja Vymc yd bj|f rfmijabx mai daf dr wdfyx hdnjab rdn dvyxjif

ycf xymyf yd rfmi! Xvhc m xyrvhyvrf xjnw`jfx nmaz ycjabx jah`vijab afbdyj.

myjdax! J zdv hma xmz zdv wmz m xymaimri rmyf! F|fa j zdv cm|f yjfrx dr ij.

frfay kjaix d drk dr xmz avnofrx d oddkx ycf wdfy hma xjnw`z id m

hdxy.ofafy mam`zxjx mai ifhjif cfycfr yd wmryjhjwmyf! Xdnf wdfyx mrf

brmyfv` cfa ycfz ida‚y cm|f yd bvrf dvy cmy m rfmxdamo`f ff jx! Ycf

idaxjif jx ycmy ycfrf j`` jaf|jymo`z of wdfyx cd rdvyjaf`z rfhfj|f nvhc

cjbcfr ffx ycmy ycf daf zdv dfr mai cd j`` of wrjhfi dvy d zdvr xyrvh.yvrf! Daf xd`vyjda dr ycjx jx wmryafrxcjwx’zdv njbcy of mo`f yd bfy daf dr

ndrf dycfr drbmajumyjdax yd hcjw ja yd jahrfmxf ycf cdadrmrjvn mndvay dr

m xjab`f edjay`z xwdaxdrfi rfmijab! Ldr fsmnw`f zdvr hd``fbf‚x Njii`f Fmxy.

fra xyvijfx vajy njbcy cm|f vaix yd hcjw ja dr ma Mrmo Mnfrjhma wdfy! Zdv

njbcy of mo`f yd mii f|fayx mai xffyfa ycf wdy ycmy mz #m cjbc xhcdd`

njbcy cm|f m `jyy`f ndafz dr m h`mxxrddn |jxjy dr ma mxxfno`z rfmijab dr

zdvr `dhm` cvnmajyjfx hdvahj` njbcy xfai ycf wdfy yd m xfajdr hfayfr*! J

zdv wj`f vw f|fayx ycf wdfy j`` cm|f yd drk m `jyy`f cmrifr ovy zdv njbcyof mo`f yd nmkf m yrjw `ddk dryccj`f!

J zdv ida‚y wmz m xfy rmyf zdv j`` affi yd drk jyc ycf wdfy yd hdnf




yd ma mbrffnfay! Jy cf`wx j zdv kad cfycfr m wdfy cmx m xymaimri ff mai

cmy jy jx! Ycjx jx vxvm``z afbdyjmo`f #zdv xcdvì mxk ofdrf ofbjaajab yd

omryfr* ovy my `fmxy jy bj|fx zdv m ymrbfy! J ycf mndvay zdv hma dfr jx nvhc

`dfr ycma ycjx wmryafrxcjw jx xyj`` m bddi dwyjda!F|fa j zdv hma‚y hdnf h`dxf yd ycf rfbv`mr ff jy xyj`` idfxa‚y cvry yd yrz

#rfnfnofr Nmrk Xyrmai*! Mhkad`fibf ycmy ycf ff jx `d mwd`dbjuf dr jy

mai of brmhjdvx j ycf wdfy yvrax zdv ida!

Rdrk Rjyc Mbfayx

Nmaz f``.kada wdfyx ad cm|f oddkjab mbfayx! Zdv njbcy yrz yd

ozwmxx ma mbfay j zdv dr xdnfdaf ja zdvr drbmajumyjda kadx ycf wdfy

mai$dr ycf wdfy cmx fswrfxxfi jayfrfxy ja hdnjab ovy id ycjx jyc hmrf maixfaxjyj|jyz! Wdfyx jyc mbfayx nmz of vaifr hdayrmhy mai `fbm``z do`jbmyfi

ady yd ozwmxx ycfjr mbfahjfx! Ofzdai ycmy ycfz bfafrm``z cm|f mbfayx wrf.

hjxf`z ofhmvxf ycfz mrf ady hdndrymo`f afbdyjmyjab ijrfhy`z mai may yd

cm|f xdnfdaf f`xf id jy dr ycfn! Wdfyx j`` ady ycmak zdv dr nmkjab

ycfn ff` `jkf ndafz nfmajfx cfa ycfz mrf wmzjab dycfrx yd `` ycmy rd`f

dr dr bfyyjab ycfn yd mbrff yd xdnfycjab ycfz rfm``z ida‚y may yd id

ofhmvxf ycfz mrf ydd ajhf yd xmz ad! J zdv id mwwrdmhc m wdfy ijrfhy`z of

wrfwmrfi yd of rffrrfi yd ma mbfay! J zdv mrf ida‚y mrbvf!

J m wdfy cmx ma mbfay ycfrf bfafrm``z jx m xfy ff mai jy j`` of cjbc ovy

ycjx ydd nmz of afbdyjmo`f! J jy‚x dvy d rfmhc dr zdv dr rfwrfxfayx m ijxwrd.

wdryjdamyf wfrhfaymbf d zdvr ovibfy ida‚y of mrmji yd mxk ycf mbfay j ycf

wdfy njbcy hdaxjifr fjycfr ma dfr ycmy nffyx dr afmr`z nffyx ycf ff ovy

ovai`fx xf|frm` mwwfmrmahfx dr ma dfr ycmy jx dfr ovy ady rjijhv`dvx`z xd!

Ycjx j`` bj|f ycf mbfay m hcmahf yd jaijhmyf cd nvhc jbb`f rddn ycfrf

njbcy of! Ldr ycjx hda|frxmyjda zdv xcdvì of wrfwmrfi yd ldmy |mrjdvx xhf.amrjdx! _fnfnofr jy‚x ycf mbfay‚x edo odyc yd bfy ycf wdfy drk mai m`xd yd

bfy mx nvhc ndafz dr mx `jyy`f drk mai mx `jyy`f yjnf da ycf brdvai mx

wdxxjo`f xd ida‚y drrz modvy ijxhdvrmbjab adjxfx mx `dab mx ycf mbfay

idfxa‚y xmz lmy dvy ycmy ycf dfr jx ydd `d yd odycfr ycf wdfy jyc! J zdv

ai dvy ivrjab jajyjm` }vfrjfx ycmy zdv mrfa‚y ja dr f|fa afmr ma mhhfwymo`f

rmabf of`jf|f jy mai nd|f da! J ycf mbfay bj|fx zdv m `jyy`f rddn mai ycjx

f|fay nmyyfrx yd zdv bd mcfmi mai yrz’ovy drk cmri yd wvy ydbfycfr

zdvr ofxy wdxxjo`f wmhkmbf! J zdv drk mx cmri mx zdv cdadrmo`z hma ydhdnf vw jyc xdnfycjab bddi ycf drxy ycmy hma cmwwfa jx ycmy ycf mbfay

xcdx ycf dfr yd ycf wdfy mai ycf wdfy xmzx ad! Ycjx jx ijxmwwdjayjab ovy



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ady ndryjzjab! Ndryjzjab jx h`mjnjab zdv‚|f nmif zdvr ofxy dfr mai

ycfa hdnjab omhk xcdry`z myfr ofjab ifh`jafi jyc m ofyyfr daf zdv hdvì

cm|f nmif ja ycf rxy w`mhf!

Ovjì Wmhkmbf Ifm`x

J zdv affi yd hdoo`f ydbfycfr m hdm`jyjda d wmryafrx ida‚y `jnjy

zdvr ycjakjab modvy wmryafrxcjwx da`z yd `jyfrmrz brdvwx! Ycjak d f|frz

brdvw ycmy njbcy cm|f rfmxda yd of jayfrfxyfi ja ycjx xwfhjh wdfy! J dr

fsmnw`f zdvr wdfy rjyfx modvy ojd`dbz mai ycf fa|jrdanfay ja m mz

ycmy jx hrfijo`f yd xhjfayjxyx zdvr vaj|frxjyz‚x ojd`dbz ifwmrynfay dr m

`dhm` fa|jrdanfaym` brdvw njbcy of jayfrfxyfi ja xdnf xdry d wmryafr.

xcjw! J ycf wdfy ndda`jbcyx ja mry hrjyjhjxn m nvxfvn njbcy may ydxwdaxdr m ym`k! J ycf wdfy cmx hdaxv`yfi da m `n dr f|fa offa jyx xvoefhy

zdvr `dhm` jaifwfaifay `n ycfmyfr dr drbmajumyjda njbcy ndvay m

xhrffajab! J ycf `n jx modvy hdnwvyfr.bfafrmyfi wdfyrz dr Af Zdrk

wmjayfrx ivrjab ycf =:67x’f`` zdv bfy ycf jifm! Zdvr `dhm` `jormrz njbcy

of jayfrfxyfi ja m wmryafrxcjw j ycf wdfy jx f`` kada fadvbc yd irm m

`mrbf mvijfahf!

Xdnf wdfyx mrf fxwfhjm``z jayfrfxyfi ja orjabjab ycfjr wdfyrz yd xwfhjh

kjaix d brdvwx’hcvrhcfx xhcdd`x wrjxdax dr cdxwjym`x dr fsmnw`f! Xvhc

brdvwx njbcy of mo`f yd hcjw ja da`z m f cvairfi id``mrx ovy ycf hdnoj.

amyjda d m `jyy`f fsyrm ndafz mai ycf hcmahf yd rfmhc dvy yd m wmryjhv`mr

hdnnvajyz njbcy of wfrxvmxj|f! Mx m xjif adyf wmryafrxcjwx mai dvyrfmhc

wrdbrmnx fxwfhjm``z jyc mai dr drbmajumyjdax drkjab jyc vaifrxfr|fi

brdvwx xvhc mx xfajdrx my.rjxk yffax wfdw`f jyc ijxmoj`jyjfx mai$dr fycajh

mai rf`jbjdvx njadrjyjfx mrf dyfa wfrxvmxj|f yd brmayjab drbmajumyjdax!

Xdnf wdfyx cm|f m`rfmiz wrfwmrfi xwfhjh drkxcdwx dr dycfr kjaix d f|fayx ycmy mrf r jwf dr wmryafrxcjwx! Af|mim wdfy Xcmva Brja dr fsmn.

w`f rf}vfay`z drkx jyc cdxwjym` wmyjfayx mai cmx nmyfrjm`x m`rfmiz wrf.

wmrfi dr ycmy drk! Mxk zdvr wdfyx j ycfz cm|f xwfhjh dvyrfmhc dr dycfr

kjaix d nmyfrjm`x m`rfmiz if|f`dwfi mai rfmiz yd bd!

Rcfaf|fr zdv bfy xdnfycjab rdn m wmryafr zdv j`` affi yd wrd|jif

xdnfycjab d |m`vf ja rfyvra! Ycf ofxy mrrmabfnfayx ofafy m`` wmryafrx

odyc ja xwfhjh jaxymahfx mai ja m `mrbfr xfaxf! Jy‚x fshf``fay dr zdvr wrd.

brmn j zdv hma ordmifa jyx rfmhc; zdv nmz ai zdvr mvijfahf fswmaijabofzdai ycf vxvm` wdfyrz xvxwfhyx! Wdfyx ydd j`` of cmwwz yd rfmhc mx

ij|frxf m brdvw mx wdxxjo`f ja mx nmaz mzx mx wdxxjo`f ivrjab ycf yjnf ycfz

xwfai ja zdvr hdnnvajyz! Ja ycf `vhkjfxy hjrhvnxymahfx zdvr wmryafrx j``




ycjak ycmy ycf hcmahf yd cm|f ycfjr amnfx da zdvr f|fay jx xvhjfay rfyvra

dr ycfjr ja|fxynfayx! J ycjx jx ycf hmxf fmyvrf ycfjr amnfx wrdnjafay`z da

zdvr nmrkfyjab nmyfrjm`x mai ida‚y f|fr wmxx vw m hcmahf yd ycmak ycfn

wvo`jh`z!Ida‚y of xyjabz! Ycf ofyyfr wmryafrx‚ fswfrjfahfx jyc zdv mrf ycf ndrf

`jkf`z ycfz j`` of yd drk jyc zdv mbmja’mai f|fa yd of lfsjo`f ja cmy

kjaix d wdfyx mai f|fayx ycfz j`` hdaxjifr dr wdyfayjm` wmryafrxcjwx! J

zdv hma dfr wmryafrx ycf hcmahf yd xwfai fxx drnm` yjnf jyc zdvr wdfyx

ja miijyjda yd wvyyjab ycfjr amnfx da zdvr f|fayx dr cdìjab ycfjr da!

Nmkf xwmhf dr ycfn my ijaafrx mai rfhfwyjdax!

Odyc if|f`dwjab mai wrfxfayjab wrdwdxm`x jyc nmaz wmryafrx hma of m

if`jhmyf ovxjafxx! M wdfy nmz jxc yd afbdyjmyf m wmhkmbf ycmy cmx nmazwmryx m`` d cjhc mrf fxxfayjm` yd ycf cd`f! Of wrfwmrfi yd fsw`mja cjhc

f|fayx mrf hdaafhyfi yd xjbajhmay wfrhfaymbfx d ycf ff zdv dfr! J ycf

wmhkmbf moxd`vyf`z ifwfaix da m`` jyx f`fnfayx rfnmjajab jaymhy nmkf xvrf

ycf wdfy kadx ycmy!

Vayj` ycf ifm` jx hdnw`fyf nmkf xvrf zdvr wmryafrx kad ycmy jy jx m

drk ja wrdbrfxx mai nmz of xvoefhy yd vrycfr yfmkx mai rf|jxjdax f|fa

yd ycf fsyfay d `fm|jab fayjrf f|fayx mai ycfrfdrf wmryafrx dvy! Ovy xyjhk

mx nvhc mx zdv hma yd ycdxf wjfhfx d ycf wmhkmbf ycmy mrf ndxy mwwfm`jab

yd ycf wmryafrx mai ida‚y nmkf hcmabfx hmwrjhjdvx`z! @fy wmryafrx kad

zdv‚`` mi|dhmyf mx cmri mx zdv hma dr ycfjr f|fayx mai wmryjhjwmyjda; ycfa

d``d ycrdvbc da ycf wrdnjxf drkjab yd kffw ycf ycjabx ycfz hmrf ndxy

modvy ja maz am` wmhkmbf!

Rf‚|f m`rfmiz xvbbfxyfi zdv xfy ycf imyfx dr zdvr kfzadyf dr hdrafr.

xydaf wdfyx rxy! Madycfr bddi rfmxda yd id ycjx jx jy j`` cf`w zdv kffw yd

zdvr ovibfy! Dahf zdv kad cmy zdvr ojb amnfx j`` hdxy ja cdadrmrjmmai yrm|f` zdv hma nmkf mievxynfayx ja ycf rfxy d zdvr xhcfiv`f ja drifr

yd nffy zdvr ovibfy! Zdv nmz xdnfyjnfx ai zdv hma mii m rfmijab; ndrf

`jkf`z zdv‚`` cm|f yd hvy omhk xdnfcfrf!

Hhk5 Ok y

M! Ifhjif cjhc wdfyx zdv may yd ja|jyf!

=! @dhmyf wdfyx!

m! Hdaxv`y jyc fswfryx my zdvr `dhm` hd``fbfx mai vaj|frxj.yjfx mx f`` mx zdvr xymyf mai `dhm` mryx mbfahjfx j zdv

mrfa‚y xvrf cd yd ai wdfyx!



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o! Mxk rjfaix mai wdyfayjm` mvijfahf nfnofrx cd mrf

jayfrfxyfi ja wdfyrz cdn ycfz dvì `jkf yd cfmr!

h! \jxjy da`jaf xjyfx xvhc mx !zdvyvof!hdn !wdfyx!

drb mai !wdfyrzdvaimyjda!drb yd xff mai cfmr wdfyxrfmijab ycfjr da wdfnx!

?! If|f`dw mai mryjhv`myf m wrdhfxx dr ifhjijab cjhc wdfyx yd

ja|jyf!

m! If|f`dw omxf`jaf hrjyfrjm dr jah`vxjda!

o! Hdaxjifr cd zdv j`` rfxwdai yd mvijfahf mai hdnnv.

ajyz affix faxvrf odmri mai hdnnvajyz ovz.ja mai

facmahf mfxycfyjh rmhjm` mai fycajh bfaifr mai dycfr

kjaix d ij|frxjyz!8! Yf`` ycf wdfy cmy zdv cm|f ja njai #m rfmijab m hdafrfahf m

xymyfjif ydvr* mai mxk j cf dr xcf wmryjhjwmyfx ja xvhc f|fayx!

O! J ycf wdfy jxa‚y jayfrfxyfi ycmak cfr dr cfr yjnf mai `fy cfr bd!

H! J ycf wdfy jx jayfrfxyfi afbdyjmyf!

=! J cf rffrx zdv yd ma mbfay bd yd I!

?! J ady mai j zdv cm|f ad ndafz yd dfr ycjx jx ycf yjnf yd xmz

xd mai dfr maz dycfr wfrxvmxj|f jadrnmyjda dr jahfayj|fx!

8! J zdv cm|f m xfy ff dr ma mndvay ovibfyfi xmz cmy jy jx!

9! Yf`` ycf wdfy cmy j`` of ja|d`|fi! Of mx xwfhjh mx zdv hma5

dr fsmnw`f m rfmijab ],M jyc xyvifayx mai hdnnvajyz

nfnofrx mai ijaafr; ndrajab drkxcdwx dr ycrff imzx m

rfmijab mai fjbcy nmavxhrjwy hdaxv`ymyjdax; rfmijabx my |f

|favfx ja dvr ydax d|fr ycrff imzx irj|jab mhrdxx ofmvyjv`

ovy fnwyz mai dr`dra `maixhmwfx!

6! J ycf wdfy xmzx ad mai zdv cm|f xdnf jbb`f rddn fjycfr jaycf mndvay zdv‚rf dfrjab dr ja ycf mndvay d drk$yjnf da

ycf brdvai zdv‚rf mxkjab dr `fy cfr kad ycmy mai ai dvy j

xcf mayx yd hdayjavf yd afbdyjmyf!

<! J ady fswrfxx zdvr ijxmwwdjaynfay ja wdxjyj|f yfrnx #zdv may

ycf wdfy yd kad xcf‚x rfm``z minjrfi ja zdvr yda zdv cdwf

zdv hma id xdnfycjab madycfr yjnf* mai brmhjdvx`z cmab vw!

I! J ycf wdfy rffrx zdv yd ma mbfay bj|f vw da maz jifm ycmy cf njbcy

hdnf dr adycjab dr |frz `jyy`f! J zdv xyj`` may yd nd|f drmri bfyycf mbfay‚x wcdaf avnofr mai d``d vw jnnfijmyf`z cj`f zdv

cm|f ndnfayvn!

=! @fy ycf mbfay kad cjhc wdfy jayfrfxyx zdv!




?! Mxk cmy ycf xfy ff jx!

8! Mxk j ycfrf jx maz jbb`f rddn ja ycf ff dr ja ycf xyrvhyvrf d

ycf f|fay jah`vijab ycf avnofr d do`jbmyjdax!

9! Ja hmxf ycfrf‚x rddn dr afbdyjmyjda of wrfwmrfi yd ldmy |mrj.dvx xhfamrjdx! Jx jy dryc zdvr yjnf yd nmkf m xdnfcmy `dfr

dfr dr m |frz `jnjyfi lz.ja lz.dvy f|fay4 J zdv hma hdnf

vw jyc ycf ndafz oz drkjab jyc wmryafrx dvì jy of

dryc wvyyjab ydbfycfr m wrdwdxm` dr m |jxjy ycmy dvì `mxy

xf|frm` imzx mai jah`vif xf|frm` mwwfmrmahfx4

6! J fjycfr d ycfxf jx ycf hmxf bd omhk mai wvy ydbfycfr ycf ofxy

dfr zdv hma wdxxjo`z nmambf! Zdv njbcy f|fa rfyvra yd ycf

mbfay jyc yd wdxxjoj`jyjfx’cmy zdv hma wmz dr m xjab`fmwwfmrmahf wdxxjo`z jyc m ],M mai ijaafr myfrmri mai

cmy zdv hma nmambf dr m v``fr |jxjy!

<! Ycfrf jx m bddi hcmahf zdv j`` affi yd bd omhk mai dryc

jyc ycf mbfay m f yjnfx ofdrf zdv cm|f m ifm` ycf mbfay hma

wrfxfay yd ycf wdfy! _fnfnofr ycf wdfy xyj`` nmz ady mhhfwy jy!

F! Wvy ydbfycfr m wmhkmbf cfycfr yd wrfxfay ijrfhy`z dr ycrdvbc ma

mbfay5

=! Ljai dvy j ycf wdfy m`rfmiz cmx xwfhjh dvyrfmhc wrdbrmnx dr

f|fayx wrfwmrfi!

?! Ormjaxydrn wdxxjo`f wmryafrx wmzjab xwfhjm` myyfayjda yd ycdxf

cdxf njxxjdax jayfrxfhy ja xdnf mz jyc ycf wdfy‚x drk!

8! Id m jyy`f rfxfmrhc da ycf wdyfayjm` wmryafrx zdv hdnf vw jyc

yd nmkf xvrf zdv kad cmy ycfjr njxxjdax mrf mai cd zdvr

wrdbrmn njbcy y jyc ycfjrx!

9! Mwwrdmhc zdvr wdyfayjm` wmryafrx! Fsw`mja h`fmr`z mai faycvxj.mxyjhm``z cd ycf wdfy jx mai cz xwfhjhm``z zdv ycjak ma

drbmajumyjda njbcy of jayfrfxyfi!

6! Of h`fmr modvy cmy zdv cdwf m wmryafr hma hdayrjovyf! Of

cdafxy modvy ycf ydym` ff zdv affi yd rmjxf mai cd ycf wmry.

afr‚x hdayrjovyjda dvì y ja!

<! Of h`fmr modvy cmy zdv mrf rfmiz yd bj|f ycf wmryafr ja rfyvra

dr ycf hdayrjovyjda zdv affi mai bj|f mx nvhc mx zdv hma!

2! J zdv m`rfmiz cm|f m amrrd rmabf d imyfx yd hcddxf rdnnmkf xvrf ycf wmryafr kadx ycmy!

3! Of wrfwmrfi yd mjy! Ycf wfrxda zdv xwfmk jyc wrdomo`z j``

affi yd hcfhk jyc dycfrx ja ycf drbmajumyjda mai `ddk my ycf



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ovibfy! H`fmr`z hdnnvajhmyf cfa zdv affi yd kad mai `fy

zdvr hdaymhy wfrxda kad cfa zdv j`` d``d vw!

:! Xjy ida mai wvy ydbfycfr zdvr wrdwdxm`! _fnfnofr yd hcfhk

ja jyc fmhc wmryafr mx zdv irmy hdarnjab ycf imyfx yjnfxmai amyvrfx d wmryjhjwmyjda mai cmy ycf amahjm` hdayrjov.

yjdax j`` of!

=7! Ljai dvy cmy xdryx d idhvnfayx zdvr wmryafrx j`` affi!

Xdnf j`` cm|f yd jxxvf ycfjr da hdayrmhyx cfycfr jyc ycf

wdfy dr jyc zdv!

==! Ofdrf wrfxfayjab ycf wrdwdxm` hjrhv`myf m rjyyfa |frxjda yd m``

wmryafrx mai mxk ycfn yd xjba d!

=?! Wrfxfay ycf wrdwdxm` vaifrxymaijab ycmy ycf wdfy nmz may ydafbdyjmyf vrycfr!

=8! J ycf wdfy dr mbfay jxcfx yd afbdyjmyf vrycfr of fxwfhjm``z

hmrfv` yd faxvrf ycf wdfy kadx cjhc f|fayx mrf hdaafhyfi

yd `mrbf wfrhfaymbfx d ycf ff!

=9! Mx xdda mx zdv cm|f ma drm` mbrffnfay d``d vw oz f.nmj`

jyc ycf wdfy dr mbfay mxkjab dr hdarnmyjda ycmy ycf yfrnx

ja ycf f.nmj` mrf cmy f|frzdaf mbrffi yd!

=6! Dahf zdv cm|f m hdarnmyjda jnnfijmyf`z d``d vw ja rjy.

jab wrffrmo`z jyc m hdayrmhy!

=<! Id ady mxxvnf ycf wdfy jx oddkfi vayj` ycf xjbafi hda.

yrmhy mrrj|fx!

RJAI VW

Xd zdvr imyfx mrf xfy wmryafrx mrf da odmri mai ffx mrf mbrffi vwda!Vadryvamyf`z zdv ida‚y bfy yd kjhk omhk ofyffa ad mai ycf ffk

ofdrf zdvr f|fay dr f|fayx!

Ja ycf jayfr|m` hdnnvajhmyf jyc zdvr wdfy dr wdfyx rfbv`mr`z mai

h`fmr`z ycdvbc jycdvy nmkjab m wfxy d zdvrxf` d|fr xnm`` ifymj`x! Vxf

zdvr wrfwmrmyjdax mx m mz d kffwjab ja ydvhc xwmhjab dvy ycf hdayrmhy

mai afhfxxmrz rf}vfxyx dr |jymf dr ojdx mai cfmi xcdyx fyh! F|fa j zdvr

drbmajumyjda jx mx jadrnm` mx ycfz hdnf ida‚y `fy nmaz ndaycx bd oz

ofyffa hdnnvajhmyjdax! J zdv ida‚y cm|f m hdayrmhy m wdfy nmz ifhjif zdv frfa‚y xfrjdvx dr ycmy zdv cm|f drbdyyfa modvy cfr dr cjn mai nmkf

dycfr w`max!




Zdv m`xd may yd kffw ja ydvhc jyc ycf wfdw`f my zdvr |favf yd

faxvrf ycmy f|frzycjab rdn vai.rmjxjab yd nmrkfyjab jx cmwwfajab mx

xhcfiv`fi mai w`maafi!

Lvai.rmjxjab mai m`` ycf ycjabx zdv cm|f yd id yd bfy rfmiz dr vai.rmjxjab mrf xvhc jnwdrymay ydwjhx ycmy f bm|f ycfn ycfjr da xfhyjda ja

wmry ? d ycjx Ydd`kjy! _fnfnofr ycdvbc ycmy ycjx jx m oddyxyrmw wrdhfxx! J

zdv xff vai.rmjxjab ja zdvr vyvrf f|fa ja zdvr ijxymay vyvrf w`fmxf

rf|jf ycmy xfhyjda ad! Jy ymkfx yjnf yd wvy ycf xyrvhyvrfx ja w`mhf ycmy j``

cf`w zdv rmjxf ndafz!

W_F.F\FAY W@MAAJABDahf zdv‚|f bdy ycf xwmhf ycf wdfy#x* mai ycf wrdbrmn ycf rfm` drk

ofbjax! Rf drbmajufi ycf d``djab mhyj|jyjfx jayd ycrff wmryx5 cmy affix

yd of idaf yd wrfwmrf dr ycf f|fay cmy affix yd of idaf ivrjab ycf

f|fay mai cmy affix yd of idaf myfr ycf f|fay! Ycf f|fay jyxf` jx

odvaifi mai ijxhrfyf xd ndxy d ycf drk j`` of idaf mrdvai jy ady

jycja jy! Of hmrfv` modvy mxxvnjab ycmy ofhmvxf ycf f|fay jx xyj`` m `dab

mz d zdv ida‚y affi yd ycjak modvy jy zfy dr ycmy ofhmvxf ycf mww`mvxf

cmx ijfi mmz zdv‚rf idaf! Mx jyc brmay rjyjab ycjx kjai d ycjak.

jab hma `fmi yd njxxfi dwwdryvajyjfx mai yd cmwcmumri xfmy.d.ycf.wmayx

drbmajumyjda!

Da ycf dycfr cmai jy‚x vxfv` yd rfnfnofr ycmy drk hma mai j``

fswmai yd y ycf yjnf m|mj`mo`f! Ycfrf mrf m`` kjaix d ycjabx ycmy ja zdvr

wfrfhy drì zdv njbcy may yd id ja wrfwmrmyjda dr dr ja ycf myfrnmyc

d zdvr f|fay! Ovy ida‚y nmkf zdvrxf` hrmuz! Zdv affi yd xfy wrjdrjyjfx mai

nmkf hcdjhfx fxwfhjm``z j zdv‚rf idjab ycjx mai m`xd cm|jab m `jf jah`vijabdrk mnj`z fyh! Rf‚|f yrjfi yd `jnjy dvr rfhdnnfaifi mhyjdax yd ycdxf

ycmy mrf `jkf`z yd hrfmyf m rfyvra da ycf ja|fxynfay d zdvr |m`vmo`f yjnf!

Wdfy Rrmab`jab

Rf wvy ycjx xfhyjda rxy ofhmvxf ycf mz zdv jayfrmhy jyc mai ymkf

hmrf d zdvr wdfyx jx daf d ycf ndxy jnwdrymay f`fnfayx d ovjìjab m bddi

wrdbrmn! Zdv may wdfyx yd of cmwwz ofdrf ivrjab mai myfr zdvr f|fayx!

M wdfy‚x fswfrjfahf mai nddi mfhyx f|frzycjab f`xf jah`vijab mai fxwf.hjm``z ycf fswfrjfahf d zdvr mvijfahf! Zdv cdwf ycf wdfyx zdv cjrf j`` of

lfsjo`f mai hcffrv` my m`` yjnfx mai xdnf wdfyx mrf ovy jy‚x fmxjfr dr ycfn



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yd of lfsjo`f mai hcffrv` cfa ycfz mrf hdndrymo`f mai yrfmyfi f`` mai

cfa ycfz kad cmy yd fswfhy!

Ycf d``djab mi|jhf mww`jfx yd zdvr ifm`jabx jyc m`` wdfyx cfycfr

ycfz mrf `dhm` dr yrm|f`jab yd zdvr f|fay! Mi|jhf dr ifm`jab jyc jxxvfx xwf.hjh yd wdfyx hdnjab ja rdn dvy d yda mwwfmrx my ycf fai d ycjx

xfhyjda!

Ndafz

J ma cdadrmrjvn jx ja|d`|fi w`ma yd wrfxfay jy ad `myfr ycma ycf yjnf

ycf wdfy mhyvm``z rfaifrx xfr|jhf cfycfr ycf wdfy jx `dhm` dr rdn mmz! Yd

nmkf xvrf ycjx cmwwfax jah`vif hvyyjab ycf hcfhk mx wmry d zdvr wrf.f|fay

w`maajab! J zdvr wrdbrmn jx xnm`` mai ycf hcfhk rf}vjrfx da`z zdvr xjbam.yvrf nmkf m adyf yd rjyf ycf hcfhk mai hmrrz jy jyc zdv da ycf imyf d

ycf f|fay! J zdv affi m xfhdai xjbamyvrf nmkf xvrf zdv bfy jy ja mi|mahf!

J zdv `j|f ja m `mrbfr ovrfmvhrmhz bfy ycf cd`f wrdhfxx xymryfi fmr`z! Ljai

dvy f`` ja mi|mahf cd `dab jy ymkfx m hcfhk yd nd|f ycdvbc zdvr xzxyfn

#jy hdvì ymkf vw yd xjs ffkx* mai mii m hdvw`f d ffkx yd ycmy yjnf evxy

ja hmxf ycjabx mrf rvaajab fxwfhjm``z x`d`z!

Xhcfiv`f

Zdv afbdyjmyfi ycf omxjh dvy`jafx d ycf xhcfiv`f #ycf avnofr d f|fayx

jah`vijab nfm`x oddk xjbajabx mai xdhjm` bmycfrjabx* my ycf yjnf d oddk.

jab! Myfr ycjx zdv xcdvìa‚y mii maz rfxwdaxjoj`jyjfx dr ycf wdfy ovy zdv

nmz xyj`` affi yd ii`f jyc yjnjab! J zdv cm|f xdnf lfsjoj`jyz hdaxv`y

jyc ycf wdfy modvy cfa cf mayx nfm`x dr idayjnf dr cfycfr cf wrf.

frx yd id nmavxhrjwy hdaxv`ymyjdax ja ycf ndrajab dr ja ycf myfradda!

Dahf zdv‚|f xfyy`fi ycf yjnjab d f|fayx wrfxfay ycf wdfy jyc m drnm`rjyyfa xhcfiv`f! Ycjx hma of f.nmj`fi ja mi|mahf ovy zdv xcdvì m`xd

wrfxfay #dr cm|f zdvr rfwrfxfaymyj|f wrfxfay* m cmri hdwz my zdvr drbmajum.

yjda‚x rxy ja.wfrxda hdaymhy jyc ycf wdfy! Ycf xhcfiv`f xcdvì jah`vif

ycf imyf mai yjnf d fmhc f|fay m xcdry ifxhrjwyjda j zdv mrf mxkjab dr

xdnfycjab xwfhjh mai j zdv‚rf wrd|jijab yrmaxwdrymyjda ycf amnf mai

hf`` wcdaf avnofr d fmhc irj|fr! Nmkf xvrf yd fmyvrf ycf amnf mai hf``

wcdaf avnofr d ycf wfrxda d|frxffjab mrrmabfnfayx wrdnjafay`z my ycf

ydw d ycf xhcfiv`f! F|fa j zdv ida‚y ycjak zdvr wrdbrmn jx hdnw`fsfadvbc yd rf}vjrf m xhcfiv`f #xmz m xjab`f rfmijab oz m `dhm` wdfy* xfai ma

f.nmj` m f imzx ja mi|mahf jyc ycdrdvbc jadrnmyjda modvy ycf f|fay‚x

yjnf mai w`mhf mai nmkf xvrf zdv fshcmabf hf`` wcdaf avnofrx jyc ycf




wdfy ja hmxf d fnfrbfahz! J zdvr wdfy cmx m lmy yjrf dr xdnf dycfr njxcmw

da ycf mz yd ycf rfmijab zdv may yd of rfmhcmo`f!

Nfm`x mai Xdhjm` F|fayxM`` xhcfiv`fi nfm`x mai xdhjm` f|fayx xcdvì of da ycf drnm` xhcfiv`f!

J zdvr wrdbrmn jah`vifx f|fayx ja|d`|jab ddi cfycfr rfhfwyjdax oma.

}vfyx dr ndrf jayjnmyf nfm`x jyc m f wfdw`f hcfhk jyc ycf wdfy ja

mi|mahf modvy ijfymrz rfxyrjhyjdax mai wrffrrfi nfm`yjnfx! Rcmyf|fr zdvr

f|fay mai cmyf|fr ycf wdfy‚x ijfymrz rfxyrjhyjdax nmkf xvrf ycfrf‚x my `fmxy

daf rfmxdamo`f nmja hdvrxf’wrffrmo`z ndrf ycma daf j zdv‚rf ijajab my

m rfxymvrmay’mai m xf`fhyjda d xjif ijxcfx yd hcddxf rdn! #Rf mrf

rfnjaifi d daf kfzadyf xwfmkfr f kad m |fbfymrjma cd mx wrf.xfayfi jyc yd mrbf dajdax wmry`z hddkfi my ycf ijaafr ja cjx cdadr! Ycjx

mx ja Xfifa ovy xyj``!* Zdv njbcy ycjak m wdfy jx ofjab ajhkz mai varfm.

xdamo`f ja cfr `jnjymyjdax’mai wfrcmwx xcf jx’ovy ycf bdm` jx yd kffw cfr

cmwwz mai cfm`ycz vaifr zdvr hmrf!

Idayjnf

M`xd jnwdrymay yd m xvhhfxxv` wrdbrmn fxwfhjm``z daf jyc nv`yjw`f

f|fayx jx idayjnf dr ycf wdfy! Wdfyx xwfai xvoxymayjm` yjnf m`daf hv`yj.

|myjab ycfjr jaafr `j|fx! Ycdvbc xdnf mrf brfbmrjdvx mai fabmbfi cfa

ycfz‚rf dvy dycfrx j ycfz xwfai ydd nvhc yjnf ja hdnwmaz jycdvy orfmkx

hma bd m `jyy`f hrmuz! F|fa ycf brfbmrjdvx dafx nmz `jkf yd hcddxf cd mai

cfa yd of brfbmrjdvx my `fmxy xdnf d ycf yjnf ycfz‚rf jyc zdv! Ycfrfdrf

ycdvbc zdv nmz of yfnwyfi yd xhcfiv`f f|frz njavyf d ycf yjnf zdv cm|f

jyc m wdfy jy‚x mhyvm``z ja zdvr ofxy jayfrfxyx ady yd! @jkf bddi ddi ida.

yjnf j`` jahrfmxf ycf hcmahfx ycmy zdvr wdfy jx rfxyfi wrfwmrfi hcffrv`mai fabmbfi! Bddi yjnfx dr xhcfiv`fi orfmkx mrf rxy ycjab ja ycf ndra.

jab evxy ofdrf dr myfr `vahc mai ja ycf `myf myfradda ofdrf ijaafr! J

zdv cm|f lfsjoj`jyz ja xhcfiv`jab m wdfy‚x idayjnf hcfhk jyc cjn!

O`dhkx d yd cdvrx dr ndrf j`` m``d cjn yd fsfrhjxf dr amw ja miijyjda

yd rfxcfajab vw! Nmkf xvrf ycmy zdvr am` wrjayfi xhcfiv`f o`dhkx ycjx

yjnf dvy h`fmr`z mai cf`w zdvr wdfy wrfxfr|f jy! J ycf wdfy mayx yd ymkf m

m`k dr rva cf njbcy mxk zdv dr xdnfdaf f`xf yd hdnf m`dab mx m bvjif

mai hdnwmajda! J zdv‚rf ady y ida‚y mhhfwy ycf ja|jymyjda f|fa j zdvmay yd! J zdv‚rf vw yd ycf ymxk ycdvbc ycjx hma of m brfmy yjnf yd iffwfa

zdvr rf`myjdaxcjw jyc cjn! Xyj`` jy‚x wrdomo`z ofxy ady yd dfr ycjx xfr|jhf

ja maz ndrf ycma ycf ndxy bfafrm` mz va`fxx zdv‚rf mxkfi `fxy ycf wdfy



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xcdvì fswfrjfahf zdvr dfr mx m kjai d wrfxxvrf! Id dfr nmwx rdvyf

mi|jhf dr jaxjif kad`fibf j zdv cm|f jy! J zdv ida‚y xdnfdaf f`xf j``!

WmhkfyxWmhkfyx hdaymjajab ifymj`fi jadrnmyjda modvy ycf f|fay xhcfiv`f `dhm.

yjdax mai hdaymhy jadrnmyjda rf`jf|f zdvr wdfyx d ycf affi yd daifr

mai drrz modvy cfrf ycfz cm|f yd of afsy mai rff ycfn yd myyfai yd

cmy zdv‚|f mxkfi ycfn yd id! Ycf hdayfayx d ycf wmhkfyx j`` |mrz

ifwfaijab da zdvr f|fay; xff ycf hcfhk`jxy dr ndrf ifymj`x! Wdfyx xcdvì

rfhfj|f f|fay wmhkfyx my rxy hdaymhy #my ycf mjrwdry cdyf` dr rfbjxyrmyjda

ifxk mx ycf hmxf nmz of*; f.nmj`jab m xhcfiv`f ja mi|mahf jx m`xd m bddi

jifm! J yd dr ndrf wdfyx mrf wrfxfayjab ydbfycfr mai cm|f oddkx bj|jabycfn hdwjfx d daf madycfr‚x oddkx jx m |frz ajhf hdvryfxz j zdv cm|f ycf

ndafz! Dycfrjxf hdwjfx d jaij|jivm` wdfnx j`` id! Jy‚x m`xd m ajhf ydvhc

yd jah`vif hdwjfx d ycf xfrjfx dr f|fay wdxyfr dr ycf wdfyx yd ymkf cdnf!

Nmaz d vx rfnfnofr ycf dì imzx d MRW cfa ycf hdafrfahf mx xyj``

xd xnm`` ycmy ycf amnfx d m`` ycf wrfxfayfrx hdvì y da m Y.xcjry! Fmhc wrf.

xfayfr rfhfj|fi m xcjry ja ycf rfbjxyrmyjda wmhkfyx; nmaz d vx xyj`` yrfmxvrf

ycfxf mx omyyfrfi mx ycfz nmz of oz ad! Ljam``z j wdfyx affi yd rfyvra

rfhfjwyx dr mazycjab jah`vif m xymnwfi fa|f`dwf miirfxxfi yd ycf wfrxda

rfxwdaxjo`f dr rfjnovrxfnfay! Ycf hdnndaxfaxf rv`f dr wmhkfyx mai

xhcfiv`fx jx yd bj|f mx nvhc jadrnmyjda mx zdv hma ja mx h`fmr m drnmy mx

zdv hma modvy cmy |jxjydrx rfm``z affi da m njavyf.oz.njavyf omxjx

#wcdaf avnofrx rfxfr|myjda avnofrx yjnfx w`mhfx* ydbfycfr my ycf ydw d

ycf xhcfiv`f!

YrmaxwdrymyjdaJ zdv‚rf yrmaxwdryjab m wdfy yd ma f|fay cfycfr rdn cdnf m cdyf`

dr m wrf.f|fay rfhfwyjda mrrj|f m f njavyfx #wfrcmwx |f* ofdrf ycf

xhcfiv`fi wjhkvw yjnf! Ja ycf `myyfr hmxf fy ycf wdfy kad |f dr yfa nja.

vyfx ofdrf zdv affi yd ifwmry! Ofhmvxf ady m`` wdfyx mrf wrfhjxf`z wvahyvm`

m``d w`fayz d yjnf yd bfy rdn ycf wjhkvw xjyf yd ycf f|fay! Rcfa ycf

wdfy jx rfmiz yd bd mxk j xcf cmx oddkx rfmijab hdwjfx fsfrhjxfx xwffhc’

cmyf|fr j`` of affifi my ycf f|fay! F|fa jyc h`fmr xhcfiv`fx wfdw`f

cd mrf afr|dvx wfrcmwx mr rdn cdnf mai ja m rvxc hma of hdavxfi dr drbfyv`! Da ycf mz yd ycf f|fay bd d|fr cmy ycf wdfy hma fswfhy! Rj``

ycfrf of m ],M4 Rj`` xcf of fswfhyfi yd xjba oddkx myfr ycf f|fay4 Rcfa

j`` ycfrf of ddi4




Hdrrfxwdaifahf

D hdvrxf zdv j`` kffw m`` amahjm` rfhdrix rfhfjwyx mai hdwjfx d m``

mbrffnfayx mai hdayrmhyx da `f! Ovy ycfrf jx m bddi rfmxda dr kffwjab m``

zdvr hdrrfxwdaifahf jyc wdfyx5 jy hma wrd|jif m bddi wmry d cmy j``f|fayvm``z ofhdnf ycf rjhc mai `j|f`z cjxydrz d zdvr drbmajumyjda! Wdfyx

cd mrf ady f`` kada ad nmz ofhdnf mndvx ja ycf vyvrf! Rcfa

zdvr drbmajumyjda hf`formyfx jyx yfayc maaj|frxmrz dr yfayjfyc dr cva.

irfiyc ycdxf cd hdnf myfr zdv j`` mwwrfhjmyf ycmy zdv wrfxfr|fi xvhc

idhvnfayx!

W`maajab mai _fjnovrxfnfay dr Yrm|f`jab Wdfyx

W`fmxf rfnfnofr ycmy wdfyx mx m rv`f fmra |frz `jyy`f! Zdvab wdfyx jawmryjhv`mr nmz ady cm|f fsyrm hmxc da cmai yd wmz dr ycfjr yrm|f` ovy cfm|z

dvy.d.wdhkfy fswfaxfx hma of m wrdo`fn dr m wdfy my maz hmrffr xymbf! J

zdv mrf hd|frjab fswfaxfx of wrfwmrfi yd oddk mai wmz dr w`maf yjhkfyx

mai cdyf` rddnx vw rday! J zdv hma fxyjnmyf mai wmz dr dycfr fswfaxfx

vw rday mx f``! Daf d dvr Ydd`kjy nfnofrx Dr`maid Rcjyf ja|jyfx wdfyx

yd rfndyf mrfmx da ycf Am|med rfxfr|myjda! Dyfa wdfyx nvxy irj|f ycfjr

da hmrx yd bfy ycfrf dr rfay hmrx mai irj|f ja rdn ycf afmrfxy mjrwdry! Cf

cmx mrrmabfi jyc cjx jaxyjyvyjda yd bvrf nj`fmbf dr rfaym` ffx mai xfai

hcfhkx ja mi|mahf d rfmijabx xd wdfyx cm|f yrm|f` ndafz cfa ycfz mrf da

ycf rdmi mai affi jy!

Yrm|f` Mrrmabfnfayx

J wdfyx wrffr yd nmkf ycfjr da mrrmabfnfayx mai of rfjnovrxfi dr

fswfaxfx myfr ycfz mrf jahvrrfi nmkf xvrf yd `fy ycfn kad maz `jnjym.

yjdax #ad rxy.h`mxx dr vwbrmimo`f mrfx dr fsmnw`f*! Ja miijyjda jy‚x af ydmxk wdfyx yd hcfhk jyc zdv ofdrf am`jujab yjhkfyx fyh! yd m|dji fswfa.

xj|f xvrwrjxfx! Xyj`` of mx lfsjo`f mx zdv hma ja mhhdnndimyjab wdfyx‚ ifxjrfx!

Ida‚y nmkf ycfn xvfr nv`yjw`f ljbcyx mai `dab `mzd|frx yd xm|f da`z m f

id``mrx! J zdvr ovrfmvhrmhz rf}vjrfx fswfaxfx yd of jahvrrfi ofdrf rfjn.

ovrxfnfay hcfhkx hma of jxxvfi hvy mai xfai hcfhkx jnnfijmyf`z vwda

rfhfj|jab rfhfjwyx! Nmkf xvrf yd kad xd zdv hma `fy wdfyx kad cd `dab

jy vxvm``z ymkfx zdvr xzxyfn yd hvy mai xfai hcfhkx! Ld``d vw yd nmkf xvrf

ycmy hcfhkx rfmhc ycf wdfyx!Rcfycfr zdv mrf nmkjab mrrmabfnfayx dr m wdfy jx mhy da ycfn dr

rfnjai ycf wdfy yd id xd f`` ja mi|mahf! Ycjx j`` jahrfmxf zdvr hcmahfx d

cm|jab m hcdjhf d rfmxdamo`z wrjhfi ljbcyx rddnx rfaym` hmrx mai cmy.



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f|fr f`xf zdv affi! Rcfa ycf Vaj|frxjyz d Vymc Bvfxy Rrjyfrx Xfrjfx

#BRX* xhcfiv`fx m rfmijab ivrjab ycf Xvaimahf Lj`n Lfxyj|m` jy `jafx vw

rddnx ndaycx mcfmi d yjnf’m zfmr ja mi|mahf j wdxxjo`f’ofhmvxf ycf

BRX kadx ycmy nmaz rfbv`mr fxyj|m` myyfaiffx oddk rddnx dr ycf d`.`djab zfmr jnnfijmyf`z myfr ycf hvrrfay zfmr‚x fxyj|m`! Mjr`jaf xfmyx m`xd ``

vw mxy ivrjab fxyj|m` ffkx mai ycfz nmz hdxy m `jyy`f ndrf ycma my dycfr

yjnfx! Ycf xmnf jx yrvf dr maz ojb f|fay! J zdvr xnm`` yda cdìx m h`mxxjh

hmr xcd f|frz zfmr mai irmx `dyx d dvy.d.ydafrx zdv‚`` may yd of

mmrf mai mhy mhhdrijab`z!

F|fa vaifr drijamrz hjrhvnxymahfx nmrk zdvr hm`faimr my `fmxy yd

ndaycx dvy rdn f|frz rfmijab mai xymry da mrrmabfnfayx ycfa! Ycjx m``dx

zdv yd myhc mjr`jaf wrjhfx dr m f ffkx j ycfz xffn cjbc! Mbmja j zdvr wdfy jx oddkjab cfr da yjhkfy bfay`z avibf cfr mx ycf imyf mwwrdmhcfx

jyc mxxvrmahfx ycmy zdv‚`` cm|f zdvr rfjnovrxfnfay drnx ``fi dvy mai

rfmiz yd wvy ycrdvbc ycf njavyf xcf f.nmj`x zdv cfr rfhfjwyx!

Hdnnvajhmyf dyfa jyc zdvr wdfyx mx zdvr f|fay mwwrdmhcfx hda.

yjavjab yd of mx h`fmr mx wdxxjo`f modvy cmy ycfz hma fswfhy! Ycjx jah`vifx

wrd|jijab mi|mahf jadrnmyjda ady da`z modvy f|fayx mai yrmaxwdrymyjda

ovy m`xd modvy cdvxjab mai nfm`x! J zdv may yd cdvxf wdfyx ja wrj|myf

cdnfx rmycfr ycma ja cdyf`x dr ndyf`x nmkf xvrf ycf wdfyx mrf mmrf mai

mbrffmo`f! J zdv fswfhy wdfyx yd xcmrf xwmhf #cfycfr m rddn m omycrddn

m hdaid dr m cdvxf* w`fmxf `fy ycfn kad ja mi|mahf!

Mjrwdry yd Cdyf`

Xhcfiv`f m wdfy‚x jahdnjab ljbcy yrmja dr ovx ja xvhc m mz ycmy xcf j

m`` bdfx f`` hma bd yd ycf cdyf` hcfhk ja mai hcmabf h`dycfx ofdrf ycf

f|fay! Jy jx m `d|f`z hdvryfxz yd xfai mhyvm` wfdw`f’xym odmri nfnofrx dr |d`vayffrx’yd yrmaxwdry wdfyx rdn ycf mjrwdry dr ifwdy yd ycf cdyf`

jaxyfmi d ijrfhyjab ycfn yd ymkf ymsjx dr xcvyy`fx! J zdv ida‚y m`rfmiz kad

m wdfy mai mrfa‚y xvrf xcf j`` rfhdbajuf zdv m ajhf ydvhc jx yd mjy my ycf

xfhvrjyz fsjy dr ombbmbf h`mjn #m w`mhf h`fmr`z ifxjbamyfi da ycf xhcfiv`f*

cdìjab m hdwz d cfr `myfxy hd``fhyjda fjycfr ja miijyjda yd dr jaxyfmi d m

xjba! J zdv moxd`vyf`z hma‚y wrd|jif wfrxdam` yrmaxwdrymyjda dr ycf wdfy

bj|f h`fmr jaxyrvhyjdax modvy ymsjx mai xcvyy`fx!

Rcfa zdv mrrj|f my ycf cdyf` dr ifxyjamyjda ida‚y evxy irdw ycf wdfyd; bd jaxjif mai nmkf xvrf f|frzycjab jx mx fswfhyfi! Ofdrf zdv ifwmry

cmai ycf wdfy cjx wmhkfy jah`vijab m rfxc hdwz d ycf xhcfiv`f mai `fy cjn

kad cfa ycf afsy wjhkvw jx mai oz cdn! Ldr m yrm|f`jab wdfy xymzjab




ja m cdyf` ycf wmhkfy xcdvì jah`vif ycf cdyf` wcdaf miirfxx mai rfxfr|m.

yjda avnofr; m nmw d ycf cdyf` mrfm; mai m `jxy d afmroz myyrmhyjdax rfxymv.

rmayx oddkxydrfx fyh!

Hhk5 w

M! M`` wdfyx

=! Ndafz

m! Kad zdvr xzxyfn dr bfyyjab hcfhkx hvy jah`vijab cd

`dab jy ymkfx cd affix yd xjba fyh!

o! Wvy m rfnjaifr da zdvr hm`faimr ycmy `fm|fx w`fayz d

yjnf dr ycjabx yd bd rdab!

h! Ld``d vw ja wfrxda j afhfxxmrz!i! Cmai ycf cdadrmrjvn hcfhk yd ycf wdfy ofdrf dr my ycf

f|fay!

?! Xhcfiv`f

m! Rrjyf ida f|frzycjab ycf wdfy mbrffi yd id jah`vijab

drnm` mai jadrnm` wrfxfaymyjdax hdaxv`ymyjdax mai

xdhjm` f|fayx!

o! Ofbja jyc ycdxf ycjabx ycmy mrf rn ja ycf xhcfiv`f’

rfmijabx drkxcdwx rfhfwyjdax fyh! O`dhk ycdxf ja!

h! Hrfmyf m xfwmrmyf `jxy dr ndrf lfsjo`f mhyj|jyjfx5 ida.

yjnf jaij|jivm` nmavxhrjwy hdaxv`ymyjdax `vahc jyc ycf

cfmi d zdvr drbmajumyjda cmy cm|f zdv! J zdv hma

hdaxv`y jyc ycf wdfy modvy wrffrrfi yjnf rmnfx dr

ycfxf mhyj|jyjfx!

i! @fm|f mx nvhc w`mz ja ycf xhcfiv`f mx zdv hma!

f! Ldr fmhc fayrz jah`vif ycf imyf mai yjnf d ycf f|fay mxcdry ifxhrjwyjda amnfx d hrvhjm` wfdw`f #jayrdivhfr

fyh!* amnf mai hf`` wcdaf avnofr d ycf wdfy‚x fxhdry dr

rjif mai maz dycfr hrvhjm` jadrnmyjda!

! My ycf ydw d ycf xhcfiv`f jah`vif zdvr da wcdaf

avnofrx mai ycf avnofrx dr ycf wfrxda ja hcmrbf d

cdxyjab ycjx wdfy‚x |jxjy!

b! _va m irmy d ycf xhcfiv`f oz ycf wdfy ofdrf xfyyjab jy

ja xydaf!8! Wmhkfyx

m! Wrd|jif m hd|fr xcffy jyc hdaymhy jadrnmyjda cdyf` rfx.

fr|myjda avnofr fyh!



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o! Jah`vif ycf am` xhcfiv`f jah`vijab wjhkvw yjnfx mai

amnfx mai wcdaf avnofrx d wfdw`f wrd|jijab

yrmaxwdrymyjda!

h! Xvww`z m nmw d ycf mrfm cfrf ycf f|fay jx ymkjab w`mhfmai$dr ycf mrfm mrdvai ycf wdfy‚x cdyf`!

i! J wdxxjo`f wrd|jif oddkx oz dycfr wdfyx ja|d`|fi dr hdw.

jfx d jaij|jivm` wdfnx!

f! Jah`vif m hdwz d ycf xfrjfx dr f|fay wdxyfr dr ycf wdfy!

! Xvww`z m xymnwfi fa|f`dwf miirfxxfi yd ycf wfrxda

rfxwdaxjo`f dr rfjnovrxfnfay!

9! Yrmaxwdrymyjda

m! Mxxjba yrmaxwdrymyjda dr f|frz wdfy yd f|frz f|fay!o! Nmkf xvrf ycmy irj|frx mai fxhdryx kad f|fay yjnfx

MAI ycf fswfhyfi wjhkvw yjnfx cjhc xcdvì cm|f `ff.

mz ovj`y ja!

h! Nmkf xvrf irj|frx mai fxhdryx kad cmy ycfjr f|fayx mrf

cd f`xf jx ja|d`|fi mai dycfr omxjhx ja hmxf ycf wdfyx

cm|f }vfxyjdax!

i! Hjrhv`myf ycf `jxy jyc wcdaf avnofrx yd f|frzdaf

ja|d`|fi ja yrmaxwdrymyjda! Kffw m nmxyfr `jxy dr zdvrxf`

mai dycfr drbmajufrx!

f! Idvo`f.hcfhk yd nmkf xvrf f|frz wdfy cmx yrmaxwdrymyjda

yd f|frz f|fay!

6! Hdrrfxwdaifahf

m! If|f`dw m w`ma dr xydrjab hdrrfxwdaifahf jah`vijab maz

xjbajhmay f.nmj`x!

o! Nmkf xvrf xdnfdaf f`xf ja ycf drbmajumyjda kadx cfrfjy jx xydrfi!

O! Yrm|f`jab wdfyx

=! _fjnovrxfnfay

m! J wdxxjo`f fxyjnmyf mai wmz yrm|f` hdxyx vw rday!

o! J ady wmz dr mx nvhc mx zdv hma #w`maf yjhkfyx cdyf`

rddnx fyh!* zdvrxf` rmycfr ycma mxkjab ycf wdfy yd id jy

mai bfy rfjnovrxfi!

h! J ycf wdfy jx nmkjab mrrmabfnfayx mxk cfr yd hcfhk jyc zdv ofdrf am`jujab yjhkfyx!

i! Ida‚y nmkf m wdfy xvfr nv`yjw`f ljbcyx mai `dab `mz.

d|frx yd xm|f da`z m f id``mrx!



Ljajxcjab Ydd`x ldr ycf F|fay Jyxf`l p ?<=

f! Hvy mai xfai hcfhkx jnnfijmyf`z vwda rfhfj|jab rfhfjwyx!

! @fy ycf wdfy kad cd `dab jy vxvm``z ymkfx hcfhkx yd

mrrj|f!

b! Hcfhk jyc ycf wdfy yd nmkf xvrf ycf hcfhk mrrj|fi!?! Mrrmabfnfayx

m! Hcfhk yd xff j nmedr f|fayx mrf dhhvrrjab mrdvai ycf

yjnf d zdvr f|fay mai oddk mcfmi mhhdrijab`z!

o! Dycfrjxf xymry da mrrmabfnfayx yd ndaycx ja mi|mahf!

h! Hdnnvajhmyf jyc zdvr wdfyx dyfa modvy f|fayx yrmax.

wdrymyjda cdvxjab mai nfm`x!

i! Xhcfiv`f ycf jahdnjab ljbcy yrmja dr ovx xd ycf wdfy cmx

yjnf da ycf brdvai ofdrf ycf f|fay!f! J wdxxjo`f cm|f m wfrxda wjhk ycf wdfy vw jaxyfmi d

ijrfhyjab cjn yd ymkf m ymsj dr xcvyy`f!

! Ifxjbamyf m nffyjab w`mhf mai m mz dr ycf wdfy yd rfh.

dbajuf zdv!

b! J zdv hma‚y wrd|jif wfrxdam` yrmaxwdrymyjda bj|f h`fmr

jaxyrvhyjdax modvy ymsjx mai xcvyy`fx!

c! My zdvr ifxyjamyjda ymkf ycf wdfy jaxjif mai nmkf xvrf

f|frzycjab jx mx fswfhyfi!

j! Cmai ycf wdfy cfr wmhkfy!

e! @fy ycf wdfy kad cfa ycf afsy wjhkvw jx mai oz

cdn!

Rrmab`jab F|frycjab mai F|frdaf F`xf

Mx zdvr f|fay mwwrdmhcfx xymz ja h`dxf ydvhc ady da`z jyc zdvr wdfyx

ovy m`xd jyc zdvr odmri mai xym nfnofrx mai jyc ycf wfdw`f my zdvr |favfx! _fnfnofr ycf ‐nmaz cmaix„ rv`f mai `fmra yd drbmajuf mai

if`fbmyf!

J zdv may wfdw`f fxwfhjm``z |d`vayffrx yd xjba vw dr ymxkx zdv affi

yd cf`w ycfn ofhdnf ja|fxyfi ja ycf wrdbrmn! Ycmy nfmax ja|d`|jab ycfn

ja ycf w`maajab mai bj|jab ycfn xdnf hcdjhf mx yd ycfjr rd`fx! Nmkf ifhj.

xjdax omxfi da wrffrfahf mai kad.cd #ida‚y xm|f m`` ycf w`vnnz

mxxjbanfayx dr zdvrxf`* mai yrz ady yd bj|f mxxjbanfayx yd wfdw`f cd mrf

vaimnfaym``z j`` xvjyfi dr ycfn! Ldr fsmnw`f ida‚y wvy zdvr xczfxy odmrinfnofr ja hcmrbf d w`maajab mai cdxyjab xdhjm` f|fayx dr jayrdivhjab ycf

Adof` `mvrfmyf! My zdvr w`maajab nffyjab nmkf m `jxy d ycf |mrjdvx mhyj|j.

yjfx ycmy ydbfycfr nmkf vw zdvr d|frm`` f|fay5 dr fsmnw`f ma f|fajab rfmi.



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jab d``dfi jnnfijmyf`z oz m rfhfwyjda mai ycf afsy imz oz m orda.omb

`vahcyjnf ],M! Afsy orfmk ycfxf mhyj|jyjfx ida jayd ycf xyfwx zdv affi

yd mhhdnw`jxc yd nmkf fmhc daf cmwwfa! Ycjx `jxy j`` |mrz ifwfaijab da

ycf yzwf xjuf mai ivrmyjda d ycf wrdbrmn zdv‚rf ndvayjab ovy jy j`` bfa.frm``z jah`vif hfrymja omxjh f`fnfayx5

=! mrrmabf dr xwmhf mai kffw ja ydvhc jyc ycf wfdw`f cd rva

zdvr |favf#x*

?! mrrmabf mai d``d vw da mi|fryjxjab mai wvo`jhjyz dr m`` wvo`jh

f`fnfayx d ycf f|fay

8! hdaxjifr dycfr mvijfahf.ovjìjab nfmxvrfx xvhc mx drkjab jyc

yfmhcfrx yd wrd|jif hrfijy dr myyfaimahf dr drkjab jyc ycfmwwrdwrjmyf ifwmrynfayx my zdvr `dhm` xhcdd`x mai hd``fbfx dr

wdfyx cd rjyf dvy d ijxhjw`jafx xvhc mx xhjfahf |jxvm` mry fyh!

9! mrrmabf ja|jymyjdax yd xnm``fr mhyj|jyjfx xvhc mx wrj|myf rfhfwyjdax

mai ijaafrx

6! nmkf rfxfr|myjdax dr ijaafrx mai mrrmabf dr rfhfwyjda ddi mai

irjak

<! kffw ycf foxjyf vw.yd.imyf

2! mrrmabf dr oddk xm`fx mai xjbajabx

3! xff yd ifymj`x xvhc mx rddn xfyvw mvijd fyh!

:! wrfwmrf jayrdivhyjdax

=7! w`ma dr mai d``d ycrdvbc da f|m`vmyjda!

Ifwfaijab da ycf kjai d f|fay zdv‚rf ndvayjab zdv nmz m`xd cm|f yd

id xdnf d ycf d``djab5

=! oddk yrm|f` mai cdvxjab dr wdfyx

?! rva rfbjxyrmyjda$wrfrfbjxyrmyjda

8! mrrmabf mai jadrn rfbjxyrmayx modvy wrmhyjhm` nmyyfrx jah`vijab

xymry yjnfx wmrkjab cdvxjab wrdbrmn xhcfiv`fx fyh!

9! w`ma dr ycf yrmaxwdrymyjda mai fayfrymjanfay d wdfyx

6! wvy dvy hdayfxy maadvahfnfayx mai rv`fx; cjrf evibfx mai xhrffa.

frx; rfhfj|f mai hdif nmavxhrjwyx; jadrn fayrmayx jah`vijab odyc

jaafrx mai adajaafrx d ycf rfxv`yx; maadvahf ycf jaafrxwvo`jh`z

<! ifxjba mai drifr Y.xcjryx ydyf ombx mai dycfr bfmr



Ljajxcjab Ydd`x ldr ycf F|fay Jyxf`l p ?<8

2! ifxjba wrdbrmnx mai mrrmabf dr ycfjr wrdivhyjda

3! jifayjz mai cjrf miijyjdam` wfdw`f #wdfyx fijydrx fyh!* mx affifi

ofzdai zdvr fmyvrfi wdfyx yd xjy da wmaf`x hdaxv`y da nmav.

xhrjwyx bj|f hrmy ym`kx fyh!:! mrrmabf brdvw dvyjabx xvhc mx cjkfx nvxfvn |jxjyx fyh!

Dahf zdv cm|f zdvr `jxyx ydbfycfr hdaxv`y jyc zdvr odmri mai xym

modvy ij|jijab mai xcmrjab ycf rfxwdaxjoj`jyjfx! J zdv cm|f fadvbc wfdw`f

mai m hdnw`fs xfy d ymxkx drn hdnnjyyffx yd of rfxwdaxjo`f dr hmyfbd.

rjfx d rf`myfi ivyjfx xvhc mx hdnnvajhmyjab jyc mai ymkjab hmrf d wdfyx

da ycf daf cmai dr cmai`jab wvo`jhjyz nfijm wrjay nmyfrjm`x mai foxjyfx

da ycf dycfr! Yrz yd cm|f wfdw`f drk my `fmxy ja wmjrx xd xdnfodiz j`` ofmmrf j xdnfycjab jx x`jwwjab ycrdvbc ycf hrmhkx! Jifayjz cjhc rfxwdaxj.

oj`jyjfx zdvr wmryafrx njbcy of j``jab dr fswfhyjab yd ymkf da mai hcfhk

jyc ycfn yd nmkf xvrf zdv‚rf m`` da ycf xmnf wmbf! Wrfxvnmo`z j daf d

zdvr wmryafrx jx m oddkxydrf ycf xydrf j`` mrrmabf dr oddk xm`fx my ycf

f|fay! Ycf brdvw ycmy rvax zdvr xwmhf nmz ymkf rfxwdaxjoj`jyz dr xfyvw mai

h`fmavw myfr dr wrfxfayfrx xdvai fyh! J xd cf`w kffw yrmhk d m`` ycf

xnm`` ifymj`x xvhc mx wvyyjab ycf oddkxydrf wfdw`f ja ydvhc jyc ycf xwmhf

wfdw`f yd nmkf xvrf ycf affifi oddk ymo`fx mrf wmry d ycf xfyvw!

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M! Cf`w odmri mai xym ofhdnf mai rfnmja ja|fxyfi ja ycf f|fay!

=! Ja|d`|f ycfn ja ycf w`maajab mai cdì rfbv`mr nffyjabx mx ycf

f|fay mwwrdmhcfx!

m! Nmkf `jxyx d m`` ycf |mrjdvx mhyj|jyjfx nmkjab vw zdvr

d|frm`` f|fay!o! Orfmk ycfxf mhyj|jyjfx ida jayd ycf xyfwx zdv affi yd

mhhdnw`jxc yd nmkf fmhc daf cmwwfa!

?! Bj|f wfdw`f xdnf hcdjhf modvy ycfjr rd`fx!

m! Nmkf ifhjxjdax omxfi da wrffrfahf xvjymoj`jyz mai

kad.cd!

o! Nmkf ifxjrmo`f mxxjbanfayx m|mj`mo`f yd f|frzdaf!

8! J zdv cm|f fadvbc wfdw`f drn mwwrdwrjmyf hdnnjyyffx;

my `fmxy yrz yd cm|f wfdw`f drk ja wmjrx!9! Hcfhk jyc zdvr wmryafrx modvy cjhc rfxwdaxjoj`jyjfx ycfz

j`` ymkf da!



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6! Hcfhk ja rfbv`mr`z jyc m`` d ycf mod|f yd xymz mmrf d cmy

jx cmwwfajab mai cmy xyj`` affix yd of idaf!

Nfijm mai Wvo`jh _f`myjdax

@jkf ycf hmrf mai yrfmynfay d wdfyx ycjx jx ma mrfm f xjab`f dvy ofhmvxf

jy ifxfr|fx xwfhjm` hdaxjifrmyjda! Bfyyjab myyfayjda dr f|fayx hma of ij.

hv`y fxwfhjm``z my rxy mai fxwfhjm``z j zdv mrf ady cfmi`jajab mndvx

wdfyx’j zdv mrf cfmi`jajab mndvx wdfyx zdv may yd nmkf xvrf ycfz bfy

ycf wrfxx mai ycf mvijfahfx ycfz ifxfr|f! Wvo`jhjujab m xfrjfx d f|fayx hma

cf`w zdv; zdvr ymrbfyfi nfijm cm|f imyfx ja mi|mahf mai hma xff ycmy zdv

cm|f xwfhjh f|fayx hdnjab vw ycmy mrf fxwfhjm``z fshjyjab!

Ycfxf imzx jy‚x jnwdxxjo`f yd d|frfxyjnmyf ycf jnwdrymahf d m bddifoxjyf! Odyc mvijfahf nfnofrx mai nfnofrx d ycf nfijm nmz may yd

Bddb`f zdvr wrdbrmn dr ndrf jadrnmyjda! J wfdw`f hma bfy jadrnmyjda

da`jaf ycfz da‚y cm|f yd yrmhk ida m wfrxda’zdv’yd maxfr yrj|jm`

}vfxyjdax! M|dji my m`` hdxyx yvrajab ycf ifxjba mai nmjayfamahf d zdvr

xjyf d|fr yd m f``.nfmajab ovy jafswfrjfahfi |d`vayffr; zdv xcdvì

nmkf ycf jajyjm` ja|fxynfay yd cjrf m wrdfxxjdam` dr yrz yd fa`jxy m wrdfx.

xjdam` yd idamyf fo drk! Ycf `ddk d ycf xjyf nmyyfrx; am|jbmoj`jyz nmy.

yfrx f|fa ndrf! M wrdfxxjdam` j`` kad cd yd hrfmyf ma fmxz wdxjyj|f

da`jaf fswfrjfahf mai j`` kad cfa zdv affi wfrnjxxjda yd vxf ycf

ifxjbax wcdydx drix mai nmyfrjm`x d dycfrx mai cd yd bfy ycdxf wfr.

njxxjdax! J daf d zdvr wrjnmrz wmryafrxcjw brdvwx cmx m f``.if|f`dwfi

foxjyf ycf wfdw`f ycfrf njbcy of j``jab yd mii mai nmjaymja m wmbf dr

zdv! J ycfz mrf bfafrdvx fadvbc yd id ycjx nmkf xvrf zdv mrf nfyjhv`dvx

modvy xfaijab ycfn vwimyfi jadrnmyjda rfbv`mr`z mx zdvr wrdbrmn if|f`.

dwx’mai nmkf xvrf yd ycmak ycfn dyfa-F|fa j zdv xfai dvy m xhcfiv`f mai wdxy daf da`jaf cdf|fr ida‚y

hdvay da rfwdryfrx yd kffw yrmhk d zdv dr f|fa yd d``d vw! Ofhmvxf ycfz

mrf ovxz mai rfhfj|f `dyx d wrfxx rf`fmxfx modvy `dyx d ijfrfay f|fayx nmkf

m w`ma yd wvy mai kffw zdvr f|fayx da ycfjr rmimr! Myfr zdv xfai dvy ma jaj.

yjm` rf`fmxf maadvahjab zdvr xfrjfx mai zdvr rxy f|fay xhcfiv`f m rf`fmxf

dr fmhc xvoxf}vfay f|fay mx f``! Ycf jajyjm` rf`fmxf xcdvì bd dvy f`` ja

mi|mahf’vw yd m ndayc’xd ma jayfrfxyfi rfwdryfr j`` cm|f yjnf yd w`ma

m fmyvrf xydrz jaxyfmi d evxy m xjnw`f maadvahfnfay! Ld``d.vw maadvahf.nfayx xcdvì bd dvy my `fmxy yd dr ycrff ffkx ja mi|mahf!

Ymrbfy zdvr rf`fmxfx ordmi`z ovy m`xd mx ycdvbcyv``z mx wdxxjo`f! Ofhmvxf

zdv‚rf m nfnofr d zdvr da mvijfahf mai xd rfwrfxfay wmry d zdvr ymrbfy




ifndbrmwcjh xymry jyc w`mhfx cfrf zdv bfy zdvr afx mai jadrnmyjda!

Wmz wmryjhv`mr myyfayjda yd ycfn ja ycf ndaycx wrfhfijab zdvr f|fay yd

ai dvy cjhc rfwdryfrx mrf da ycf mryx mai `jyfrmrz ofmyx xd zdv hma ymrbfy

ycfn oz amnf! Ovy ida‚y xydw jyc zdvr da mnj`jmr afx dvy`fyx va`fxx zdv‚rf yrzjab yd rfmhc da`z m |frz amrrd mvijfahf d wfdw`f evxy `jkf zdv!

Rcfycfr zdv rfmi ycf dhm` afxwmwfr mai jxyfa yd AW_ dr bfy zdvr afx

rdn foxjyfx `dhm` fayfrymjanfay dr m`yframyj|f ffk`jfx dr m`yframyj|f

rmijd xymyjdax hd|fr dvy`fyx vxfi oz `jyfrmrz yzwfx d |mrjdvx mbfx mai xfaxj.

oj`jyjfx! Ida‚y xhdra Y\ fjycfr’xdnf WOX m`jmyfx mai f|fa `dhm` hdn.

nfrhjm` xymyjdax id xfbnfayx fmyvrjab f|fayx ja ycf hdnnvajyz! @ddk my

cmy jx dfrfi my rff afxxymaix ja `dhm` hdff xcdwx mai nvxjh |favfx’

cj`f zdv‚rf my jy wvy vw wdxyfrx da ycfjr ov``fyja odmrix mai w`mhf lzfrx daycfjr hdvayfrx j ycfz‚`` `fy zdv! Ida‚y drbfy Lmhfoddk mai Yjyyfr’ndrf

mai ndrf mryx drbmajumyjdax mrf vxjab ycfn yd bfy dvy ycfjr afx!

Rcfa zdvr rf`fmxfx cm|f bdaf dvy ida‚y xjy omhk mai mjy dr nfijm

rfxwdaxfx yd wdvr ja! Ld``d vw da zdvr rf`fmxfx m f imzx myfr ycfz bd

dvy wmzjab wmryjhv`mr myyfayjda yd ycdxf dvy`fyx mai edvram`jxyx zdv ycjak

rfmhc zdvr mvijfahf! J zdvr f|fay rfm``z jx afxdrycz mai m``x jycja ycf

ofmy d ycf rfwdryfr ja }vfxyjda cf dr xcf j`` wrdomo`z of brmyfv` ycmy zdv

d``dfi vw’dr my `fmxy ady of ydd jrrjymyfi! Ycf d``d.vw hm`` m`xd bj|fx

zdv m xfhdai dwwdryvajyz yd nmkf m wjyhc mai hda|jahf ycf rfwdryfr ycmy

ycjx rfm``z jx afxdrycz! J mx jx `jkf`z ycf rfwdryfr cmxa‚y xffa #dr cmx dr.

bdyyfa modvy* ycf rf`fmxf dfr yd xfai jy mbmja! F|fa j zdv ycjak ycf

rfwdryfr cmx jbadrfi zdv of wd`jyf!

Dahf zdv cm|f m rf`myjdaxcjw jyc m wmryjhv`mr rfwdryfr zdv hma xfai

dvy ndrf hmxvm` cfmix.vwx vrycfr ja mi|mahf’dr fsmnw`f ma f.nmj` mx

xdda mx zdv‚|f xd`jijfi ycf xhcfiv`f jyc ma dfr yd cf`w xfy vw jayfr.|jfx! Nmkf xvrf ycf rfwdryfr xyj`` bfyx m`` ycf rfbv`mr rf`fmxfx cfa ycfz bd

dvy jyc d``d.vw hm``x dr f.nmj`x rdn zdv!

Jy‚x m`mzx bddi afx cfa m rfwdryfr mayx yd jayfr|jf zdv modvy

zdvr f|fayx! Rcfycfr ycf jayfr|jf jx jyc m wrjay rfwdryfr dr m `dhm` rmijd

cdxy dr dr m Y\ wrdbrmn of f`` wrfwmrfi! Ivrjab ycf jayfr|jf nmkf

xvrf zdv cm|f m v`` xhcfiv`f ja rday d zdv mx f`` mx m wrdbrmn ifxhrjw.

yjda |frz orjf ojdx d ycf wdfyx ja|d`|fi mai `jxyx d ycfjr wvo`jhmyjdax xd

zdv j`` cm|f xdnfycjab yd xmz f|fa j zdvr nfndrz bdfx o`mak! J zdv mrfofjab jayfr|jffi dr rmijd dr yf`f|jxjda’cfycfr ycf jayfr|jf jx ymwfi

dr `j|f’ymkf m f wdfnx yd rfmi j zdv‚rf mxkfi mai nmzof f|fa m f

}vdyfx rdn hrjyjhx modvy ycf drk d ycf wdfyx zdv‚rf fmyvrjab! J zdv‚rf



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afr|dvx modvy zdvr moj`jyz yd ycjak da zdvr ffy’mai cd jxa‚y fxwfhjm``z

my rxy’edy ida xdnf adyfx ycmy j`` cf`w zdv rfhm`` zdvr da ycdvbcyx

modvy ycf wdfyx mai modvy ycf wrdbrmn! J zdv mrf wrfwmrfi mai jayfrfxyjab

ycf jayfr|jffr j`` of ndrf `jkf`z yd ja|jyf zdv omhk ja ycf vyvrf!_mijd jayfr|jfx rf}vjrf da`z ycmy zdv irfxx afmy`z mai rfmxdamo`z

wrdfxxjdam``z yd cf`w ycf jayfr|jffr ymkf zdv xfrjdvx`z’va`fxx zdv‚rf

idjab ycf jayfr|jf oz wcdaf ja cjhc hmxf adodiz hma xff ycmy zdv‚rf

xyj`` ja zdvr wmemnmx! #Mhhdrijab yd daf xhcdd` d ycdvbcy zdv‚`` m`mzx of

ydd `mhkmimjxjhm` ivrjab m wcdaf jayfr|jf j zdv‚rf ja zdvr wmemnmx ovy f

ycjak ycjx jx |frz wfrxda ifwfaifay! Xdnf mrf `mhkmimjxjhm` ad nmyyfr cmy

ycfz cm|f da; dycfrx mrf fafrbfyjh f|fa ja ycfjr emnnjfx!*

J zdv‚rf mxkfi yd id ma jayfr|jf dr yf`f|jxjda hdaxjifr hmrfv``z cmyyd fmr! Xdnf mryx `d|frx ycjak ycjx xdry d hdahfra jx ofafmyc ycfn ovy ycf

myyfayjda d ycf jayfr|jffr mai ycf |jffr xcdvì of da zdvr wrdbrmn dr

f|fay ady da zdvr h`dycfx! Zdvr dvyy xcdvì of ofhdnjab mhhdrijab yd

zdvr da `jbcyx mai jy moxd`vyf`z xcdvì rflfhy cd zdv mrf! Zdv ida‚y

affi yd fmr m xvjy j zdv dvìa‚y ja ‐rfm` `jf„ ovy zdvr h`dycjab xcdvì

rflfhy ycf ofxy ndxy wvo`jh |frxjda d cd zdv mrf mx j dr fsmnw`f zdv

frf jayfr|jfjab dr zdvr irfmn edo wrfxvnmo`z jyc `jkf.njaifi wfdw`f

zdv may yd jnwrfxx!

Ydd nvhc xkja cfycfr zdv mrf m dnma dr m nma jx ijxyrmhyjab mx jx

vaifrfmr ycmy xcdx f|fa j ja m cjw mai yrfaiz mz! J zdv‚rf ady xvrf

zdv hma m`k hdaifay`z wfrcmwx f|fa vw mai ida m f ljbcyx d xymjrx

ja cmyf|fr xcdfx mai xkjry dr wmayx zdv w`ma yd fmr yfxy irj|f ycfn ja

mi|mahf! J zdv w`ma yd fmr m xkjry wvy jy da ofdrfcmai mai xjy ida da

hcmjrx d xf|frm` cfjbcyx ja rday d m njrrdr `ddkjab my |jfx rdn ycf xjif

mai ycf rday yd nmkf xvrf zdv da‚y rf|fm` ndrf ycma zdv nfma yd j ycfrf‚x ad ymo`f ofyffa zdv mai ycf hmnfrm! Ycf xmnf bdfx dr `d.hvy

xcjryx mai wmayx ycmy rjif `d! Zdv ida‚y may yd xwfai ycf cd`f jayfr|jf

yvbbjab my zdvr h`dycjab’dr drxf xff ycf xfbnfay `myfr mai ijxhd|fr zdv

frf d|frfswdxfi! J zdv fmr nmkfvw m `jbcy ydvhc jx ofxy!

Ljam``z wrmhyjhf ym`kjab ja rday d m f rjfaix cd hma yf`` zdv modvy

maz wczxjhm` mai |from` yjhx ycmy njbcy of maadzjab da hmnfrm’x`dvhcjab

xcrvbbjab xhrmyhcjab ojyjab zdvr amj`x dr hcfjab zdvr cmjr xmzjab ‐zdv

kad„ m dy cmyf|fr! Zdv may yd of mai `ddk m`fry hdnwdxfi mai jayfr.fxyfi ja cmy jx cmwwfajab! Mxk da`z wfdw`f zdv yrvxy yd of cdafxy mai

kjai’mai j zdv id mxk dr mi|jhf jxyfa yd cmy zdvr mi|jxdrx xmz f|fa #dr

fxwfhjm``z* j ycfz‚rf zdvr rjfaix! Ida‚y bfy iffaxj|f dr vwxfy!




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M! Wvo`jxc m nv`yj.f|fay xhcfiv`f mx mr ja mi|mahf mx wdxxjo`f!

O! Doymja ojdx cfmi xcdyx mai wfrcmwx xcdry wdfnx dr }vdyfx rdn

zdvr wdfyx nmkjab xvrf yd bfy hrfijy jadrnmyjda dr ycf cfmi xcdyxmai wfrnjxxjda yd vxf odyc ycf wcdydbrmwcx mai ycf drix!

H! Bfy zdvr foxjyf vw mai rvaajab jyc ycf cf`w d m wrdfxxjdam`!

=! Yrz yd ai m wrdfxxjdam` ifxjbafr dr foxjyf hdnwmaz yd

idamyf yjnf dr yd edja zdvr odmri jyc ycf wrjnmrz ymxk d

ovjìjab m foxjyf!

?! J ycjx idfxa‚y wma dvy xff cfycfr daf d zdvr wrjnmrz wmry.

afrxcjw brdvwx jx j``jab yd mii mai nmjaymja m wmbf dr zdv!

8! Of nfyjhv`dvx modvy vwimyjab jadrnmyjda!I! Hrfmyf m xhcfiv`f dr wrfxx rf`fmxfx!

=! Ymrbfy zdvr rf`fmxfx ordmi`z ovy ycdvbcyv``z yd ycf d``djab5

m! Kfz rfwdryfrx my dvy`fyx cfrf zdv bfy afx mai

jadrnmyjda

o! @dhm` imj`z wmwfrx

h! @dhm` afx mryx mai m`yframyj|f ffk`jfx mai ndayc`jfx

i! @dhm` AW_ mai WOX m`jmyfx

f! M`yframyj|f rmijd mai Y\ xymyjdax!

?! Xfai dvy m rf`fmxf dr wmhkfy cfa ycf xfrjfx jx maadvahfi #m

ndayc dr xd ofdrf ycf rxy f|fay*! Ycjx xcdvì jah`vif ycf

d``djab5

m! Ycf xhcfiv`f

o! M wrdbrmn ifxhrjwyjda

h! \frz orjf ojdx d wmryjhjwmyjab wdfyx!

8! Myfr m ffk dr yfa imzx d``d vw oz wcdaf jyc rfwdryfrx zdv ycjak j`` of ndxy jayfrfxyfi! Of wrfwmrfi yd wjyhc zdvr

wrdbrmn5 cz idfx jy ifxfr|f myyfayjda4 Ida‚y mxxvnf ycf

rfwdryfr kadx cd ycf wdfyx mrf; jaijhmyf cjhc d ycfn zdv

ycjak njbcy of d ndxy jayfrfxy jah`vijab ycdxf cd cm|f

rfhfj|fi wrjufx ycf rfwdryfr nmz cm|f cfmri d! J ycfrf jx m

`dhm` `jak yd m wdfy `fy ycf rfwdryfr kad!

9! Hdayjavf jyc m rf`fmxf dr fmhc jaij|jivm` f|fay yd ffkx

ja mi|mahf!6! Ld``d vw jyc xf`fhyfi rfwdryfrx m f imzx myfr ycf rf`fmxf

bdfx dvy!

<! J wdxxjo`f if|f`dw rf`myjdaxcjwx jyc xf`fhyfi rfwdryfrx!



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F! Bd cjbc yfhc’vxf Lmhfoddk mai Yjyyfr!

L! Bd `d yfhc’vxf ov``fyja odmrix mai lzfr hvoojfx my `dhm` hdff

xcdwx mai nvxjh xydrfx brdhfrz xydrfx mai hd``fbfx mai vaj|frxjyjfx!

B! Vxf zdvr afydrkx d hd``fbf mai cjbc xhcdd` yfmhcfrx!C! Bj|f jayfr|jfx cfa mxkfi!

=! Of f`` wrfwmrfi!

?! Ymkf m xhcfiv`f m wrdbrmn ifxhrjwyjda ojdx d ycf wdfyx mai

`jxyx d ycfjr wvo`jhmyjdax hdwjfx d m f wdfnx mai adyfx mai

of wrfwmrfi yd `fm|f ycfxf jyc ycf rfwdryfr dr jayfr|jffr!

8! Ldr ja.wfrxda jayfr|jfx irfxx afmy`z!

9! Ldr yf`f|jxjda jayfr|jfx irfxx hmrfv``z mx zdvrxf` jyc ycfxf

wrd|jxdx5m! M|dji xcdjab ydd nvhc xkja!

o! Nmkf xvrf zdv hma m`k xymai mai xjy hdndrymo`z jyc.

dvy rf|fm`jab ndrf ycma zdv nfma yd!

h! Vxf m `jbcy ydvhc jyc nmkfvw!

i! _fnfnofr ycf dhvx jx ycf wrdbrmn ady zdv!

6! J zdv‚rf jafswfrjfahfi bfy rjfaix yd id wrmhyjhf jayfr|jfx

jyc zdv! Yrvxy ycfn!

YCF YCJAB JYXF@L

Ad ycmy afbdyjmyjdax mai xhcfiv`jab mrf dvy d ycf mz zdv j`` ofbja

w`maajab ycf mhyvm` dbjxyjhx d ycf f|fay! Ydd`kjy nfnofr F`jumofyc M``fa

rjbcy`z wdjayx dvy ycmy oz ycjx yjnf j zdv‚|f idaf zdvr w`maajab f`` m` `

zdv affi yd id jx xcd vw mai dwfa ycf iddr!

Xcf‚x kjiijab d hdvrxf! Zdv m`xd may yd of m hdnwfyfay rjfai`z maihcmrnjab cdxy! Mai zdv j`` affi yd yrdvo`fxcddy hdaxymay`z!

Mrrj|m`

Rcfa zdv mrrj|f my ycf |favf hcfhk ja jyc zdvr cdxyx xd ycfz kad

zdv‚rf ycfrf mai rfmiz yd cf`w j affifi! J ycf wdfy mrrj|fx jyc zdv’dr

cfaf|fr cf idfx mrrj|f’jayrdivhf cjn yd kfz wfdw`f #madycfr bddi rfm.

xda yd `fm|f m `jyy`f x`mhk ja ycf xhcfiv`f*! Ycfxf dvì jah`vif zdvr bfafr.

dvx cdxyx cdf|fr jx jayrdivhjab ycf wdfy j ycjx wfrxda jxa‚y zdv kfzwfdw`f rdn zdvr drbmajumyjda zdvr oddkxf``fr mazdaf rdn hdxwdaxdrjab

dr xvwwdryjab drbmajumyjdax mai j ycfrf‚x xyj`` yjnf mai zdv‚rf ijajab myfr

ycf f|fay ycf wfdw`f jyc cdn ycf wdfy j`` of fmyjab! Nmkf xvrf ycfrf



Ljajxcjab Ydd`x ldr ycf F|fay Jyxf`l p ?<:

jx myfr my ycf wdijvn dr ymo`f ycmy ycfrf mrf fadvbc hcmjrx mai ycmy ycf

xdvai xzxyfn j zdv cm|f daf drkx!

Jayrdivhyjdax

Jayrdivhyjdax mrf jnwdrymay ja xfyyjab ycf nddi dr ycf f|fajab mai ja

cf`wjab wdfyx ff` f`hdnf mai mwwrfhjmyfi! Ofbja oz jayrdivhjab zdvr.

xf`’amnf mai m`jmyjda da`z! Ycmak zdvr xwdaxdrx mai xvwwdryfrx ycf

wfdw`f cd rva zdvr |favf mai mazdaf f`xf cd hdayrjovyfi xjbajhmay`z

yd ycf f|fay! @fy f|frzdaf kad cfa mai cfrf ycf afsy f|fay j`` of!

_fnjai mvijfahf nfnofrx yd yvra d ycfjr hf`` wcdafx! J ycfrf j`` of m

xjbajab myfr ycf wrfxfaymyjda maadvahf jy! Ljam``z jayrdivhf zdvr wdfy dr

wdfyx!Jifm``z ycf jayrdivhyjda d m wdfy xcdvì jah`vif nfayjda d cfr nmedr

mmrix mai rfhfay oddkx mai hdnnvajhmyf xdnfycjab jayfrfxyjab modvy cfr

drk! Ycjx `mxy ojy xcdvì of xnmry mod|f m`` mai rfxwfhyv` ovy ady majab!

Zdv hma of jyyz ovy ady my ycf wdfy‚x fswfaxf #ofjab jyyz my zdvr da

fswfaxf jx af mx `dab mx zdv ida‚y d|frid jy’ycf jayrdivhyjda xcdvì of

modvy ycf wdfy ady modvy zdv*! Rcdf|fr jayrdivhfx ycf wdfy nvxy rfmi

cfr drk ofdrf xcf mrrj|fx’mx nvhc d jy mx wdxxjo`f! J ycmy wfrxda jx zdv

ycfrf mrf mi|maymbfx ofzdai cf`wjab zdv nmkf m bddi jayrdivhyjda; dr daf

ycjab jy bj|fx zdv xdnfycjab yd ym`k jyc ycf wdfy modvy d|fr ijaafr dr

ivrjab hmr yrjwx! Jy m`xd mx f xmji cf`wx ycf wdfy ff` f`hdnf mai mwwrf.

hjmyfi! Mx f m`rfmiz kad ma mwwrfhjmyfi wdfy jx `jkf`z yd of m cmwwz

w`fmxmay wdfy!

Ma jayrdivhyjda affix yd id m `dy d ycjabx ja m xcdry yjnf! Ofhmvxf

zdvr mvijfahf jx ycfrf yd cfmr ycf wdfy dr wdfyx ady ycf jayrdivhfr ad

jayrdivhyjda xcdvì f|fr bd `dabfr ycma |f njavyfx #ycrff jx ofyyfr* dr myycf |frz ndxy =7 wfrhfay d ycf m``dyyfi wrfxfaymyjda yjnf cjhc jx vxvm``z

dryz.|f yd yz njavyfx dr m xjab`f wrfxfayfr! J zdv mrf jayrdivhjab nv`.

yjw`f wdfyx mievxy mhhdrijab`z; dr m `mrbf wmaf` jy nmz of ofxy xjnw`z yd xmz

ycf wdfyx‚ amnfx mai rffr ycf mvijfahf yd ycf wrdbrmn dr ojd xcffy! Myfr

zdv hdnwdxf zdvr rfnmrkx rfmi ycfn m`dvi ofdrf ycf f|fay yd nmkf xvrf

ycfz hdnf ja vaifr yjnf!

Rcfa zdv ymkf zdvr xfmy zdvr edo ivrjab m rfmijab ym`k wmaf` h`mxx dr

dycfr kjai d wrfxfaymyjda jx yd of ycf ofxy jxyfafr ja ycf cdvxf! Zdv nmz ofovxz mai wrfdhhvwjfi jyc `dbjxyjhx ovy ymkf ycjx yjnf yd bj|f zdvrxf` d|fr

yd ycf w`fmxvrfx d wdfyrz mai ycf jayf``fhyvm` `jf zdv cf`wfi hrfmyf! Ycjx jx



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cmy zdv cm|f offa drkjab dr m`` ycfxf ffkx dr ndaycx! Ida‚y hcfhk

zdvr f.nmj dr nmkf `jxyx! Evxy wmryjhjwmyf!

Ycf Oddk Xjbajab

Ivrjab ycf xjbajab zdv cm|f ycrff wmryjfx yd drrz modvy5 ycf wdfy ycf

oddk ovzfrx mai ycf oddkxf``fr! Zdv nmif m`` zdvr mrrmabfnfayx mai mbrff.

nfayx jyc ycf oddkxf``fr ofdrf ycf rfmijab mai zdv mhhdvayfi dr ycf

xjbajab ja ycf wdfy‚x xhcfiv`f xd ycf yjnf`jaf xcdvìa‚y of ma jxxvf my ycjx

wdjay! Ovy mhyvm``z hdaajab ycf xjbajab yd jyx m``dyyfi yjnf hma of ijhv`y

fxwfhjm``z j ycf f|fay jyxf` mx m brfmy xvhhfxx! J ycf wdfy jx fxwfhjm``z

mndvx dr wdwv`mr jy njbcy of ijhv`y yd bfy cjn dvy d ycf ovjìjab my m

rfmxdamo`f yjnf! Ida‚y hdvay da ycf wdfy yd cvrrz ycjabx m`dab’jy‚x cjx edoyd of mx hcmrnjab mx wdxxjo`f yd ycf oddk ovzfrx! J zdv affi yd fai ycf

xjbajab oz m hfrymja yjnf fxwfhjm``z j ycf wdfy cmx xdnfcfrf yd of myfr

ycf xjbajab’madycfr f|fay m `myf ijaafr’xymai oz’dr cm|f zdvr ndxy

hdvryfdvx odmri nfnofr xymai oz’mai cf`w kffw ycjabx nd|jab! J m ma

ymkfx vw ndrf ycma m rfmxdamo`f mndvay d yjnf cf`w dvy oz bfay`z xmzjab

ycmy ycf wdfy cmxa‚y fmyfa zfy dr ycmy jy‚x bfyyjab `myf mai m `dy d wfdw`f mrf

mjyjab! J zdv mrf kjai mai hdvryfdvx ndxy max j`` vaifrxymai!

Mlyfr ycf Ldrnm` F|fayx

J zdv‚rf ijajab `myf dr cm|jab m `myf rfhfwyjda myfr ma f|fay w`fmxf

hdaxjifr ycmy zdvr wdfy jx `jkf`z yd of yjrfi! Ida‚y rvxc m wdfy cd jx cm|.

jab m bddi yjnf ovy ida‚y jaiv`bf zdvr da jnwv`xf yd `jabfr fxwfhjm``z j

xcf jx rf`zjab da zdv dr yrmaxwdrymyjda jycdvy dfrjab cfr m mz dvy

#rfmi5 ma jnnfijmyf rjif yd cfrf|fr xcf affix yd bd* rfbv`mr`z ycrdvbc ycf

f|fajab! Rcmyf|fr zdvr wdxy.f|fay w`max mrf of xvrf yd ffi mai myfr zdvr wdfy!

Hhk5 n y jl

M! Mrrj|m`

=! Hcfhk ja jyc zdvr cdxyx!

?! Jayrdivhf ycf wdfy yd cdxyx ycf jayrdivhfr j jy‚x ady zdv kfz

wfdw`f rdn zdvr drbmajumyjda zdvr oddkxf``fr wfdw`f rdn

hdxwdaxdrjab dr xvwwdryjab drbmajumyjdax mai ycf wfdw`f jyccdn ycf wdfy j`` of fmyjab!

8! Hcfhk myfr hcmjrx mai xdvai xzxyfn!




O! Jayrdivhyjdax

=! Jayrdivhf zdvrxf`’amnf mai m`jmyjda da`z!

?! Ycmak xwdaxdrx mai xvwwdryfrx wfdw`f cd rva zdvr |favf

mai mazdaf f`xf cd hdayrjovyfi xjbajhmay`z yd ycf f|fay!8! Maadvahf ycf yjnf mai w`mhf d ycf afsy f|fay!

9! _fnjai mvijfahf nfnofrx yd yvra d ycfjr hf`` wcdafx!

6! J ycfrf j`` of m xjbajab myfr ycf wrfxfaymyjda maadvahf jy!

<! Jayrdivhf zdvr wdfy dr wdfyx!

m! Nfayjda nmedr mmrix mai rfhfay oddkx!

o! Xmz xdnfycjab jayfrfxyjab modvy ycf wdfy‚x drk!

h! Xymz vaifr =7 wfrhfay d ycf m``dyyfi wrfxfaymyjda yjnf

wfr wrfxfayfr!H! Oddk xjbajab

=! Kffw ma fzf da ycf m``dyyfi yjnf mai wd`jyf`z kffw ycf `jaf

nd|jab!

?! Dfr yd cf`w ycf oddkxf``fr j afhfxxmrz!

I! Myfr ycf Ldrnm` F|fayx

=! J ycfrf jx m rfhfwyjda dr ijaafr nmkf xvrf ycf wdfy bfyx ddi

mai irjak! J ad rfhfwyjda dr ijaafr mx w`maafi nmkf xvrf

ycf wdfy bfyx ddi mai irjak!

?! Nmkf xvrf ycf wdfy cmx ycf dwyjda yd `fm|f myfr m rfmxdamo`f

yjnf!

LJAJXCJAB YDVHCFX

Lmrff``x

Nmkf xvrf zdvr wdfy jx ymkfa hmrf d yd ycf ofxy d zdvr moj`jyz ady evxy

rdn ycf ofbjaajab d ycf f|fay vayj` jyx fai ovy j cf‚x hdnf ja rdn

f`xfcfrf m`xd rdn ycf ofbjaajab yd ycf fai d ycf fayjrf |jxjy! ‐Ycf

|jxjy„ dr m`` jayfayx mai wvrwdxfx nmz fai cfa ycf wdfy jx if`j|frfi omhk

yd ycf cdyf` myfr ycf f|fay faix fxwfhjm``z j cf jx xymzjab da ja yda yd

|jxjy rjfaix dr |mhmyjda! Ja xvhc m hmxf zdv xcdvì wrd|jif m wcdaf avn.

ofr ja hmxf cf affix zdvr cf`w mai ycfa od dvy!

Dycfrjxf nmkf bddi mrrmabfnfayx dr ycf wdfy yd bfy yd ycf mjrwdrydr yrmja xymyjda f|fa j ycf ljbcy dr yrmja jx ycf imz myfr ycf f|fay ajxcfx

mai zdv‚rf masjdvx yd yvra zdvr myyfayjda f`xfcfrf! Ycfrf jx ad xjab`f jifm`



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mz yd id ycjx! Ycdvbc jy jx bfafrdvx mai bddi yd dfr m rjif yd ycf mjrwdry

#mai yd d``d ycrdvbc j ycf dfr jx mhhfwyfi* ycf wdfy nmz of dra dvy

mai `ddkjab dr xdnf madazndvx yjnf yd cfrxf`! Ja ycjx hmxf xcf njbcy

mhyvm``z wrffr yd ymkf m xcvyy`f dr ymsj xd zdv xcdvì m`xd dfr ycmy mx madwyjda! @jkfjxf j zdv‚rf yrmaxwdryjab ycf wdfy mai ycf ljbcy jx ja ycf `myf

ndrajab dr fmr`z myfradda jy jx ajhf yd dfr yd ymkf ycf wdfy yd orfmkmxy

dr vahc! Mhhdnwmaz maz xvhc dfr jyc ma fmxz mz dvy xmzjab dr fsmn.

w`f ‐J kad zdv‚rf wrdomo`z yjrfi mai dvì evxy mx xdda bfy rddn xfr|jhf

ovy j zdv‚i rmycfr cm|f hdnwmaz dr orfmkmxy„’zdv bfy ycf jifm!

Ycfxf imzx jy‚x yfnwyjab yd id m`` ycf d``d vw oz f.nmj` mai zdv

xcdvì xfai dvy ma f.nmj` ycmakjab wdfyx jnnfijmyf`z myfr m`` f|fayx! Cd.

f|fr jy‚x f|fa ajhfr yd d``d f.nmj`x jyc dì.mxcjdafi adyfx da wmwfr!J ycfrf jx dvyxymaijab ovxjafxx’m wdfy affix yd xfai zdv rfhfjwyx dr

rfjnovrxfnfay dr cdrrdr d cdrrdrx ycf cdadrmrjvn hcfhk mxa‚y rfmiz

d``d vw modvy ycfxf nmyyfrx jnnfijmyf`z! Zdvr ycmak.zdv f.nmj` xcdvì

jah`vif ycf amnf mai miirfxx d ycf wfrxda yd cdn rfhfjwyx xcdvì of

xfay #f|fa j m xymnwfi miirfxxfi fa|f`dwf mx jah`vifi ja ycf nmyfrjm`x

ycf wdfy rfhfj|fi da mrrj|m`* mai m imyf oz cjhc ycf wdfy xcdvì fswfhy

maz hcfhkx yd mrrj|f!

Da ycmy imyf xfai ma f.nmj` yd nmkf xvrf ycf wdfy rfhfj|fi ycf hcfhkx!

J ady jnnfijmyf`z yrmhf m`` wmznfayx yd ai dvy cfrf ycfz mrf ja zdvr

xzxyfn!

Ljam` _fwdryx

Zdvr `mxy ymxk jx yd rjyf ycmak.zdv adyfx yd mai am` rfwdryx dr wmry.

afrx mai vaifrx! F|frzdaf cd cf`wfi zdv xcdvì bfy my `fmxy ma f.nmj`

mai wrffrmo`z m adyf! J m wmryafr mx fxwfhjm``z cf`wv` yrfmyjab cjn dr cfr yd `vahc dr m rfrfxcjab of|frmbf dvìa‚y of dvy d `jaf!

M`` zdvr nmedr vaifrx cfycfr ycfz rf}vjrf am` rfwdryx dr ady

xcdvì bfy `fyyfrx yf``jab ycfn cmy zdv iji jyc ycfjr ndafz mai ycmak.

jab ycfn dr ycfjr xvwwdry!

Brmayjab drbmajumyjdax bfafrm``z rf}vjrf zdv yd `` dvy drnx! Ycfxf

drnx yfai yd d``d ycf xyrvhyvrfx d ycf brmay wrdwdxm`x mxkjab zdv yd

hdnwmrf cmy zdv xmji zdv dvì id yd cmy zdv mhyvm``z iji! Mx m rv`f

adodiz fswfhyx wrdwdxm`x mai am` rfwdryx yd nmyhc fsmhy`z ovy j zdv ijixdnfycjab nvhc ijfrfay rdn cmy zdv wrdnjxfi zdv xcdvì ym`k modvy

cz zdvr w`max hcmabfi mai cd zdv hdnwfaxmyfi dr mazycjab zdv xmji

zdv dvì id mai ijia‚y! Ycjx yjnf zdvr ovibfy j`` rflfhy ady cmy zdv




cdwfi dr w`maafi yd id ovy cmy zdv mhyvm``z iji! Ycvx jy nvxy of omxfi

da mhyvm` fswfaijyvrfx mai rfhfjwyx!Ycjx jx jnwdrymay! Brmayjab mbfa.

hjfx cm|f yd rfwdry yd mvijydrx, mai ycfz nmz mxk yd mvijy zdv! J

ycfz id mxk dr ma mvijy zdv j`` affi yd xcd ycmy zdv kfwy bddi maimhhvrmyf rfhdrix mai rfwdryfi zdvr fswfaijyvrfx cdafxy`z! Mbmja ycf

jahdnf jaf mai ycf fswfaijyvrfx jaf xcdvì of ycf xmnf’ja dycfr drix

zdvr ovibfy xcdvì om`mahf! J zdv hmnf ja vaifr ovibfy ycfrf nmz of m

w`mhf yd rfwdry hmxc da cmai!

Hhk5 nk L L r

M! Nmkf xvrf zdvr wdfy cmx yrmaxwdrymyjda yd ycf mjrwdry dr yrmja xym.

yjda cfycfr cf jx `fm|jab rjbcy myfr ycf f|fay dr xf|frm` imzx `myfr!O! Xfai ma f.nmj` ycmakjab zdvr wdfy jnnfijmyf`z myfr ycf f|fay!

=! Jah`vif m rffrfahf mai yjnf`jaf dr mazycjab zdv affi yd bfy

yd ycf wdfy #cdadrmrjvn fyh!*!

?! J ycfrf mrf rfhfjwyx dvyxymaijab jah`vif m rfnjaifr!

8! Jah`vif ycf amnf mai miirfxx d ycf wfrxda yd cdn ycf

rfhfjwyx xcdvì bd!

H! Ld``d ycf f.nmj` jyc ma dì.mxcjdafi adyf da wmwfr!

I! Ld``d vw jyc ma f.nmj` yd nmkf xvrf m`` hcfhkx mrrj|fi; yrmhf maz.

ycjab ycmy jx dvyxymaijab!

F! Rrjyf ycmak.zdv adyfx yd jaij|jivm` idadrx mai dvaimyjdax ady

rf}vjrjab drnm` rfwdryx!

L! Hdnw`fyf am` rfwdryx dr vaifrx cd rf}vjrf ycfn! Of nfyjhv`dvx!

B! Mrrmabf ycmak.zdv f|fayx #xvhc mx `vahcfx mai irjakx dr f|fa m ojb

omrofhvf* dr ycf |frz cf`wv`!



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Wmry 9

Ofay amj`x

mai xcdry Odmrix

Rcfa Xdnfycjab Bdfx Rrdab’Mai Jy Rj``

D hdvrxf zdv may f|frzycjab yd bd xnddyc`z mai f``! Ovy ycjabx id

bd rdab! Odyc ycf jnwdrymay afx mai ycf bddi afx jx ycmy ma mryx dr.

bmajumyjda jx ady m cdxwjym`! Ldr vx m hrjxjx ja|d`|jab jaevrz dr maz kjai d `jf.ycrfmyfajab f|fay jx rmrf ycdvbc d hdvrxf xvhc ma f|fay hma cmwwfa

my m wdfyrz rfmijab mx fmxj`z mx jy hma mazcfrf!

Yd cmai`f m hrjxjx my maz `f|f` d jnwdrymahf zdv affi ycf moj`jyz yd

nmkf bddi evibnfay hm``x cjhc rf}vjrfx m `f|f` cfmi! Rcfa zdv‚rf evxy

`fmrajab modvy m wrdo`fn dr m`rfmiz ja ycf njii`f d daf zdvr mirfam`ja jx

cjbc! Nmkf ycf yjnf yd wmvxf dr m ndnfay ymkf m iffw orfmyc mai hm`n

zdvrxf`! J zdv kad zdv mrfa‚y ycf hm`n wfrxda ja zdvr drbmajumyjda

jnnfijmyf`z hm`` ycf wfrxda cd jx! Jy idfxa‚y cvry yd ifxjbamyf ma drbmaj.umyjdam` fnfrbfahz wdjay wfrxda ja mi|mahf!

Hdaxjifr rxy cmy hmyfbdrz zdvr fnfrbfahz m``x jayd5 nmedr dr njadr!

Idfx jy rf}vjrf jaxymay mhyjda dr id zdv cm|f m ojy d yjnf dr hdaxjifr.



Rcfa Xdnfycjab Bdfx Rrdab’Mai Jy Rj`` p ?26

myjda! Nmedr wrdo`fnx ycmy rf}vjrf jaxymay mhyjda jah`vif rf f|fa m xnm``

daf; fmrajab ycmy daf d zdvr |jxjyjab ‐xymrx„ cmx m xym`kfr mai ycf xym`kfr cmx

evxy mrrj|fi my ycf |favf; dr ma jaevrz dr dycfr nfijhm` wrdo`fn ycmy njbcy

rf}vjrf nfijhm` hmrf! Ja xvhc hmxfx bfy ycf fswfryx ja|d`|fi jnnfijmyf`z!Va`fxx zdv mrf yrmjafi mai hfryjfi dr fnfrbfahjfx ycfrf jx adycjab f`xf

dr zdv yd id! Rcdf|fr jx affifi’rf ifwmrynfay wd`jhf FNYx’nmkf

ycf hm`` mx xdda mx zdv kad ycfrf‚x m wrdo`fn!

Dycfr kjaix d hrjxfx ja|d`|f jxxvfx ycmy mrf jnwdrymay yd zdv ovy ady

jnnfijmyf`z ycrfmyfajab yd `jf `jno dr ycf drbmajumyjda! Ja xvhc m hmxf zdv

m`ndxy hfrymja`z cm|f ycf yjnf mai ycf xwmhf yd yrfmy zdvr hrjxjx ja m `f|f`.

cfmifi mai nfmxvrfi mz j da`z zdv hma xymai omhk mai bfy wfrxwfhyj|f!

Xd ycf hcfhkx mrfa‚y rfmiz da yjnf! Ycf afxwmwfr wrjayx ycf rdabimz dr yjnf dr ma f|fay #drxf jy‚x zdvr mv`y*! M wdfy hmahf`x my ycf `mxy

njavyf zdvr |favf jx lddifi m odmri nfnofr wmxxfx mmz vafswfhyfi`z

#ycdvbc ady ycmak bddiafxx my zdvr f|fay* dr maz avnofr d `jkf ycjabx

bd mrz!

Xnm`` ycjabx’f|fa m lddifi |favf’hma vxvm``z of ifm`y jyc ja ycf

ndnfay! Hcmahfx mrf madycfr |favf hma of dvai! Zfx jy‚x wrdomo`z m `fxxfr

daf mai ycfa zdv cm|f yd bfy ycf dri dvy mx mr mx wdxxjo`f mai wvy m lzfr

da ycf iddr mai wrdomo`z `fm|f m wfrxda ycfrf ydd ja ycf imnw mai hdì yd

yf`` wfdw`f cfrf yd bd! Zdv cm|f yd xymry `myf yd bj|f wfdw`f m hcmahf yd bfy

ycfrf zdvr mvijfahf jx mfhyfi mai wdxxjo`z f|fa ijxbrvay`fi mai f|frzdaf

j`` rfnfnofr ycjx wmryjhv`mr f|fay mai jyx nmzcfn! Ycjx nmz of m bddi

ycjab! Rcfa wfdw`f mrrj|f xmf`z mai xff ycmy zdv mjyfi dr ycfn mai ycf

wdfy vf`fi oz ndrf mirfam`ja ycma vxvm` bj|fx m omab.vw rfmijab ja xwjyf

d `fxx.ycma.wfrfhy hdaijyjdax ycf mvijfahf nfnofrx cd yddk ycf yrdv.

o`f yd hdnf j`` of b`mi ycfz frf jayrfwji! Ycfz j`` odai jyc dycfr jayrfwji xdv`x mai nmz f|fa of hdnnjyyfi yd zdvr f|fayx ja m af mz!

J zdvr wdfy hm``x yd yf`` zdv cf cmx m lmy yjrf mai ad xwmrf zdv hma xfai

xdnfdaf dvy yd fyhc cjn’mai kffw zdvr mvijfahf mwwrjxfi d ycf wrdb.

rfxx d cjx mwwrdmhc mai$dr rfwmjrx! Wfdw`f j`` rfnfnofr mai j zdv cma.

i`fi ycjabx f`` ycfjr nfndrjfx j`` of dai! Ida‚y drbfy yd cf`w ycf wdfy

bfy cdnf myfrmri!

Hrjxfx `jkf ycfxf mrf ndrf masjfyz.wrd|dkjab ycma aijab ycmy ycf

xdvai xzxyfn idfxa‚y drk #ycf wdfy m`mx j`` wrdomo`z cm|f yd of``d* dr ycfrf‚x ad odyy`fi myfr mai ad hvw #xdnfdaf njbcy cm|f xdnfycjab ja ycf

hmr* dr ycf oddkxf``fr ijia‚y xcd vw #nmkf wcdaf hm``x mai f|fa dfr yd

xfai m odmri nfnofr dvy dr ycf oddkx j xdnfdaf hma va`dhk ycf xcdw*!



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_fnfnofr zdv xcdvì yrz yd s f|fa xnm`` cfmimhcz kjaix d wrdo`fnx

jaxyfmi d `fyyjab ycfn x`jif fxwfhjm``z j ycfz mfhy ycf wdfy mai cfr fswf.

rjfahf ijrfhy`z! Xcf xcdvì my `fmxy ff` zdv iji zdvr ofxy! Rcfycfr zdv xvh.

hffi dr ady ycf rxy rv`f jx yd kffw odyc zdvr cfmi mai zdvr xfaxf d cvndr! _fnfnofr j xdnfycjab bdfx rdab mai zdv cmai`f jy f`` wfdw`f

j`` rfnfnofr ycmy f|fay ja wmryjhv`mr jyc daiafxx mai f|fa w`fmxvrf!

NMeD_ W_DO@FNX

Of`d mrf evxy |f fsmnw`fx d ycf kjaix d ndrf xfrjdvx wrdo`fnx zdv

hma fswfhy yd mhf my daf yjnf dr madycfr!

@dxx dl \favf

Rf‚|f m`rfmiz ifm`y jyc ycf daf.yjnf mxy.njavyf hmymxyrdwcf! Ovy jy‚x

drxf cfa zdv `dxf zdvr |favf ja m ojbbfr mz’xmz dr ndxy dr m`` d

zdvr xfmxda mai$dr wfrnmafay`z!

Ja ycf ofxy.hmxf xhfamrjd zdv j`` cm|f w`fayz d adyjhf mai w`fayz d

yjnf yd ai m af w`mhf! Jy cf`wx j zdv hma `ddk my ycjx mx ma dwwdryvajyz

mx f`` mx m wrdo`fn #cjhc fy‚x mhf jy maz ojb jahda|fajfahf m`mzx xffnx

yd of my ycf yjnf*! Ycf yrvyc jx brdvwx dvybrd |favfx dr cm|jab xfyy`fi

jayd ycfn ida‚y m`mzx rfm`juf ycmy af mai f|fa ofyyfr w`mhfx nmz cm|f

hdnf m`dab! Rf ida‚y ycjak Hjyz Mry rfbrfyx cm|jab nd|fi rdn ycf omxf.

nfay d ycf @vycfrma hcvrhc cdf|fr adxym`bjhm``z f m`` `ddk omhk my jy

yd mahz ndifra af ijbx my ycf `jormrz f|fa ycdvbc ycf jhdajh cmy ijia‚y

y ja mai cmi yd rfyjrf! Rrjyfrx my Rdrk dvai m af kjai d nddi mai

xwjrjy cfa jy mx drhfi oz xkzrdhkfyjab rfxdry hdxyx #ycf D`znwjh Bmnfx

frf hdnjab* yd nd|f jyc nvhc yrfwjimyjda rdn Wmrk Hjyz Vymc yd mddifi hd``fbf hmnwvx ja Xm`y @mkf Hjyz! Ycdvbc jy `dxy ma f`fnfay d cjw

jy bmjafi m af hdaxyjyvfahz cjhc d``dfi jy cfa jy nd|fi omhk jayd

ycf ndvaymjax m f zfmrx `myfr! Da ycf dycfr cmai Wdfyx Cdvxf ja Af

Zdrk Hjyz mai ycf Vaj|frxjyz d Mrjudam Wdfyrz Hfayfr odyc cmi ycf

fshjyfnfay mai |frz cmri drk d ifxjbajab ycfjr da xwmhfx mai ja ycf

wrdhfxx d rfmrnjab mai rfjnmbjajab cd ycfz frf! Ja m`` xvhc hmxfx

odmri mai xym nfnofrx cm|f yd drk |frz cmri ady da`z yd rformai ycf

drbmajumyjda ovy m`xd yd hdnnvajhmyf h`fmr`z mai edzdvx`z cmy ycf nd|fjx mai cmy jy nfmax!

Jy‚x cmrifr cfa zdv cm|f ycf rvb wv``fi dvy rdn vaifr zdv my ycf `mxy

njavyf fxwfhjm``z j zdv bfy ycf afx ycmy zdv‚rf `dxjab zdvr |favf `myf mai




f|fa ndrf fxwfhjm``z j jy hdnfx myfr wvo`jhjyz nmyfrjm`x amnjab ycf dì

|favf m`rfmiz cm|f offa jif`z ijxyrjovyfi! Ja xvhc m hmxf zdv j`` of

xffkjab m af |favf da xcdry adyjhf cjhc jx wrdo`fnmyjh ofhmvxf zdv

nmz fai vw ja m w`mhf ycmy jxa‚y m wfrfhy y mai ycfa cm|f yd nd|f mbmjaycf afsy zfmr #zdv xcdvì m|dji ycjx’drk mx cmri mx zdv hma yd bfy m bddi

|favf rdn ycf ofbjaajab*! Zdv m`xd j`` of yrzjab yd bfy dri dvy yd zdvr

hdaxyjyvfayx ycmy ycjabx mrf ijfrfay ad mai ycfz mrf ijfrfay ycma zdv

xmji ycfz dvì of!

Zdv hma #mai nvxy* mxk m`` zdvr vxvm` nfijm dvy`fyx yd wrjay dr rfmi

maadvahfnfayx mx wrdnjafay`z mx wdxxjo`f ovy ycfxf xjnw`z j`` ady rfmhc

f|frzdaf! F|fa j zdv nmambf yd ymkf ida mai rfw`mhf f|frz xjab`f wdxyfr

zdv cvab ja wvo jh cjhc jx wrdomo`z jnwdxxjo`f ycfrf xyj`` j`` of wdxyfrxmai lzfrx cmabjab rdn nmbafyx da jaavnfrmo`f rfrjbfrmydrx! Mai f|fa j

ycf hcmabf j`` ymkf ffhy myfr zdvr rxy f|fay dr yd mai zdv kad

fadvbc ja mi|mahf yd maadvahf ycf hcmabf my ycfxf fmr`z f|fayx f`` mhf

jy xdnf mvijfahf nfnofrx myyfai da`z m f rfmijabx ja m xfrjfx mai ycfz

nmz af|fr cfmr ycfxf maadvahfnfayx; dycfrx ida‚y `jxyfa dr xjnw`z drbfy!

Wfdw`f’dr ycf rxy f rfmijabx nmzof `dyx d wfdw`f mai wrdomo`z xdnf

dr f|frz f|fay d ycf xfmxda’mrf xjnw`z bdjab yd bd yd ycf rdab w`mhf!

Mai zdv cm|f yd bvrf dvy cmy yd id modvy jy-

Ja xvhc m hmxf dr f|frz rfmijab d ycf xfmxda xdnfdaf rdn zdvr

odmri dr xym nvxy jyc ycf wfrnjxxjda d ycf cdxyx my zdvr dì |favf wdxy

m adyjhf da ycf iddr! Ldr my `fmxy ycf rxy f rfmijabx zdv j`` wrdomo`z

m`xd affi yd wdxy m wfrxda my ycf dì |favf yd ijrfhy mvijfahf nfnofrx

rfmxxvrf ycfn ycmy ycf rfmijab j`` xymry m f njavyfx `myf yd bj|f wfdw`f

yjnf yd bfy ycfrf mai vrbf ycfn yd ymkf ycf fsyrm yrjw! J ycf wrdo`fn jx ycmy

ycf |favf jx mhyvm``z ad `dabfr ycfrf’jy mx ydra ida nmzof cjhcnfmax ycfrf‚x ad `dabfr m iddr yd cmab m adyjhf rdn’zdv‚`` cm|f yd wdxy

m j|jab wfrxda dr f|frz f|fay dr ycf rfxy d ycf xfmxda! Ycjx jx m cvbf wmja

ja ycf afhk ovy ycfrf‚x ady nvhc zdv hma id modvy jy!

Hmahf``myjda

Ljrxy rfnfnofr ycmy m`ndxy f|frz drbmajumyjda cmx cmi yd rfw`mhf m

wdfy my daf yjnf dr madycfr! @jf jx hdnw`jhmyfi mai ycjabx hdnf vw! Xfh.

dai rfnfnofr ycmy ndxy wdfyx id ady hmahf` f|fayx hmwrjhjdvx`z dr ofhmvxfxdnf ofyyfr dfr cmx hdnf m`dab dr f|fa ofhmvxf ycfz xviifa`z if|f`dw m

fmr d lzjab! J m wdfy hmahf`x hcmahfx mrf xcf cmx m bddi rfmxda! Ja ycf

ndnfay of mx brmhjdvx mx zdv cdwf xcf dvì of j zdv `dxy zdvr vaijab



?23 p yk5 O a x O

mai cmi yd omhk dvy d m hdnnjynfay! Fswrfxx zdvr ijxmwwdjaynfay d

hdvrxf ovy ja m mz ycmy jx xznwmycfyjh yd mai dhvxfi da ycf wdfy mai

cmyf|fr hrjxjx xcf mhfx of jy j`àfxx mnj`z jxxvfx dr xdnfycjab f`xf #f|fa

ycf fmr.d.lzjab ycjab cjhc jx dr ycdxf cd cm|f jy m |frz xfrjdvx nmy.yfr*! Rcmyf|fr jx kffwjab cfr mmz hcmahfx mrf jy‚x ady modvy zdv! J ycf

f|fay jx xyj`` m f ffkx dr ndrf mmz mxk cfycfr xcf jx j``jab yd rfxhcfi.

v`f mxxvnjab zdv cm|f madycfr imyf m|mj`mo`f!

J rfxhcfiv`jab jxa‚y wrmhyjhm` zdv affi yd ifhjif cfycfr zdv may yd

hmahf` ycf f|fay m`ydbfycfr dr ai m xvoxyjyvyf dr ycf wdfy omxjab zdvr

ifhjxjda da ycf affix d zdvr drbmajumyjda mai jyx mvijfahf! D hdvrxf

aijab ma mhhfwymo`f xvoxyjyvyf j`` ymkf yjnf mai fdry mai nmz of jnwdx.

xjo`f dr fjycfr m xd`d mwwfmrmahf dr m brdvw wrfxfaymyjda j ycf wdfy cdaffix yd of rfw`mhfi jx |frz f`` kada mai jx ycf dhvx d ycf f|fay! J zdv

hma‚y ai xdnfdaf cd my `fmxy mwwrdmhcfx ycf drjbjam` wdfy‚x rfwvymyjda’

dr m`yframyj|f`z xdnfdaf cd jx of`d|fi ja zdvr hdnnvajyz’hmahf`jab

njbcy of ycf mz yd bd!

J ycf wdfy jx ndrf dr `fxx f}vm` mndab xf|frm` wrfxfayfrx dr mhv`yz zdv

j`` affi yd ifhjif cfycfr ycf rfnmjajab wrfxfayfrx hma `` ja; cfycfr

zdv cm|f yjnf yd rfw`mhf ycf wdfy jyc xdnfdaf f}vm``z f`` rfbmrifi dr

afmr`z xd; dr cfycfr yd hmahf` ycf wmry d ycf f|fay ja|d`|jab ycmy wdfy!

J zdv ai dvy `myfr ycmy ycf wdfy‚x hmahf``myjda mx hmwrjhjdvx ycfrf‚x

ad affi yd cm|f m hdardaymyjda! Zdv‚|f `fmrafi zdvr `fxxda! Ida‚y ja|jyf

cjn mbmja!

@dxx dl Lvaijab

Wfrcmwx ycf ojbbfxy jxxvf hma of m hmymxyrdwcjh irdw ja vaijab rdn

daf dr ndrf ycma daf xdvrhf! Ycjx jx xdnfycjab nmaz drbmajumyjdax’f|fa|fafrmo`f mai rfxwfhyfi dafx’cm|f fswfrjfahfi ivrjab rfhfay fhdadnjh

idayvrax! J ycjx cmwwfax yd zdv rxy `ddk cmri my zdvr ovibfy mai xff

cfrf zdv hma yrjn! J zdv‚rf wmzjab dr rfhfwyjdax dr fsmnw`f hmahf`

ycfn jaxyjyvyf m orda.omb wd`jhz dr xff j zdv hma ai `dhm` fmyfrjfx yd

idamyf ddi! J zdv‚rf xwfaijab m `dy da ijaafrx dvy bfy odmri nfnofrx yd

cdxy wdy`vhk f|fayx my ycfjr cdnfx! Ja ycf drxy hmxf’mai d hdvrxf ycjx

j`` of m `mxy rfxdry’zdv nmz cm|f yd hvy xm`mrjfx dr xym wfrcmwx f|fa

rfyvra yd ma m``.|d`vayffr fdry vayj` zdv fmycfr ycf hrjxjx! Ycjak cmrimodvy cmy zdv mrf `dxjab mai cfycfr zdv cm|f ycf |d`vayffr hdnnjy.

nfay yd wv`` ycf drk d ofdrf zdv ymkf ycjx rdvyf! Hdaxv`y jyc zdvr xym



Rcfa Xdnfycjab Bdfx Rrdab’Mai Jy Rj`` p ?2:

nfnofrx ofdrf nmkjab m ifhjxjda ofhmvxf ycfz nmz cm|f jifmx modvy cd

yd fmycfr ycf xydrn!

Zdv nmz ady of mo`f yd hd|fr m`` zdvr `dxxfx f|fa oz wv``jab zdvr of`y

ja yjbcy`z xd zdv xcdvì xjnv`ymafdvx`z ofmy ycf ovxcfx dr af xdvrhfx d vaijab’odyc fnfrbfahz brmayx mai miijyjdam` rfbv`mr vaijab `jafx! Ycf

`jkf`jfxy xdvrhfx dr fnfrbfahz brmayx mrf jaij|jivm x cd mrf m`rfmiz hdn.

njyyfi yd zdvr drbmajumyjda; jaij|jivm`x hma of ajno`f mai rfxwdaxj|f ja m

mz ycmy brmayjab drbmajumyjdax mrfa‚y! J zdv cm|f m `jyy`f `fmi yjnf zdv

nmz ai dvaimyjdax ycmy bj|f daf.yjnf njaj brmayx ja ndnfayx d dwwdr.

yvajyz dr hrjxjx! Nfmacj`f hmxy zdvr afy dvyxjif zdvr vxvm` `jxy d dvaim.

yjdax mai brdvwx dr wmryafrxcjwx! Mrf ycfrf af brdvwx hdnjab m`dab

cdxf njxxjdax mai |m`vfx mrf xjnj`mr yd zdvrx4D hdvrxf j zdv `dxf m nmedr xdvrhf d vaijab mai zdv xjnw`z hma‚y

rfw`mhf jy ofdrf zdvr f|fay dr xfrjfx zdv nmz affi yd hvy omhk da ycf

avnofr d wdfyx’dr ycf avnofr d cjbc.wrjhfi wdfyx’zdv mrf orjabjab

ja! J zdv cm|f m`rfmiz nmif mbrffnfayx ycjx jx m ydvhcz ovxjafxx fxwfhjm``z

j mbfayx mrf ja|d`|fi! J zdv cm|f vaw`fmxmay afx yd if`j|fr id jy jnnfij.

myf`z mai jyc ivf mwd`dbjfx mai hdayrjyjda! Ldryvamyf`z zdvr hdayrmhy

wrdomo`z jah`vifx ma fxhmwf h`mvxf; jy njbcy m`xd jah`vif m kj`` ff cjhc jx

xdnf wfrhfaymbf d ycf wdfy‚x ff zdv cm|f mbrffi yd wmz j zdv cm|f yd

hmahf` cfr mwwfmrmahf! M bfafrdvx mai kjai`z wdfy nmz mj|f ycf kj`` ff j

zdvr drbmajumyjda jx ja yrdvo`f ovy xcf jx ady do`jbmyfi yd id xd! J xcf

idfxa‚y wmz jy j zdv hma!

Ycf drxy.hmxf xhfamrjd jx ycmy zdvr drbmajumyjda jx ja m amahjm` hrjxjx

ofhmvxf d amahjm` njxnmambfnfay dr drxf #ovy dryvamyf`z m`xd rmrfr*

xdnf xdry d hrjnjam` mhyj|jyz! Jy‚x dryc nfayjdajab cfrf ycmy nfnofrx d

adawrdy odmrix mrf rfxwdaxjo`f dr ycf amahjm` f``.ofjab d ycfjr drbm.ajumyjdax f|fa j ycfjr drbmajumyjdax m`xd cm|f ijrfhydrx mai$dr HLDx!

Cdf|fr j ad mhyvm` nm`fmxmahf jx ja|d`|fi ycjx rfxwdaxjoj`jyz jx njyjbmyfi

j ycf drbmajumyjda mx wrdwfr`z jahdrwdrmyfi! Yd m|dji nm`fmxmahf odmri

nfnofrx affi yd kad cmy kjai d ndafz ycfjr drbmajumyjda jx ymkjab ja

mai cd nvhc jy‚x xwfaijab mai da cmy! J zdv mrf m odmri nfnofr zdv

xcdvì xff m amahjm` rfwdry f|frz }vmryfr mai m hdnw`fyf rfwdry maavm``z!

J jy `ddkx yd zdv mx j ycf amahfx mrf bfyyjab mmz rdn ycf ijrfhydr dr

HLD jy jx zdvr edo yd jayfrfrf’ida‚y rfrmja dvy d njxw`mhfi hdvryfxz! J zdv mrf ycf ijrfhydr dr HLD mai ycf drbmajumyjda jx bfyyjab jayd yrdvo`f

hdnnvajhmyf jyc mai rm``z zdvr odmri xddafr rmycfr ycma `myfr! J zdv xvx.



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wfhy ycmy xdnfdaf cmx m cmai ja ycf yj`` zdv affi yd nmkf zdvr xvxwjhjdax

kada yd xym mai odmri nfnofrx mai v`yjnmyf`z j zdv ida‚y rfhfj|f m

xmyjxmhydrz mhhdvayjab yd ycf mvycdrjyjfx!

J ycjabx cm|f ofhdnf |frz omi amahjm``z zdvr drbmajumyjda nmz cm|fyd rfdrbmajuf ja m nmedr mz cjhc hdvì nfma hmahf`jab ma f|fay dr m xfy

d f|fayx cj`f zdv rmjxf ndafz mai dycfrjxf rfbrdvw! Ivrjab jyx da

rfhfay rfdrbmajumyjda Rrjyfrx my Rdrk hmahf`fi jyx maavm` xvnnfr hdafr.

fahf ovy xyj`` cfì m hdnwfyjyjda mai ndvayfi njaj drkxcdwx ja ycf m``

mai xwrjab! Ycfxf ordvbcy ja ndafz mai kfwy rfbv`mr xvwwdryfrx mai wmryjh.

jwmayx ja|d`|fi! J zdv cm|f yd rfbrdvw ida‚y |majxc rdn zdvr xvwwdryfrx‚

rmimr xhrffax! Hcmahfx mrf ycfz j`` of `ddkjab dr mzx yd cf`w zdv dvy!

Zdv njbcy of xvrwrjxfi yd ai `jyy`f hcfhkx hdnjab ja mai ajhf yvradvyxdr zdvr vai.rmjxjab f|fayx!

Xfrjdvx Javr dr Ifmyc

Ljrxy f mrf xdrrz! Ycjx jx cmy f m`` ndxy fmr! Ldryvamyf`z ycjx kjai d

hmymxyrdwcf jx yrv`z rmrf my wdfyrz f|fayx cjhc wfrcmwx xyrmabf`z yfai yd

of rf`myj|f`z xmf w`mhfx yd of ja ycjx imz mai mbf! Adafycf`fxx mx mryjxyx mai

mry `d|frx kad ofyyfr ycma ndxy ndrym`jyz hmyhcfx vw jyc vx m``!

Ja ycjx hmxf ycfrf mrf yd wdxxjoj`jyjfx5 ycf rxy cjhc f ifm`y jyc

mod|f jx ycmy m xfrjdvx jaevrz dr f|fa m ifmyc dhhvrx my zdvr f|fay! Zdv mx

jaxyrvhyfi jnnfijmyf`z hm`` ycf wrdwfr mvycdrjyjfx! J ycfrf jx ma jaevrz dr

xdnf xdry d rfnd|m` nvxy dhhvr xdnfdaf hdaafhyfi h`dxf`z yd ycf drbm.

ajumyjda’wrdomo`z ady ycf fmifr ovy xdnfdaf cjbc ja fmifrxcjw’xcdvì

fjycfr yrm|f` jyc ycf jaevrfi wfrxda mai$dr mnj`z nfnofrx cd mrf wrfx.

fay dr bd yd ycf cdxwjym` dr dycfr ifxyjamyjda! Madycfr odmri dr xym nfn.

ofr xcdvì of ja hcmrbf d aijab mai adyjzjab mnj`z nfnofrx j adafmrf wrfxfay!

Ycjx jx do|jdvx`z m xdnfcmy ndrf cmrrdjab hmxf ycma j ycf yrmbjh

f|fay dhhvrx dxymbf! Cdf|fr dahf ycf mnov`mahf wd`jhf dhfrx mai

ifxjbamyfi odmri nfnofr mrf bdaf ycf `fmifrxcjw nfnofrx rfnmjajab

ofcjai mhf ycf xmnf }vfxyjda zdv j`` mhf j m odmri nfnofr ma drbmajum.

yjdam` `fmifr m wmryjhjwmyjab wdfy dr xdnfdaf f`xf fxwfhjm``z h`dxf yd zdvr

hdnnvajyz cmx m hrjxjx dr ijfx }vjyf h`dxf yd zdvr f|fay5 id zdv hdayjavf4 J

zdv id cd id zdv id xd xfaxjyj|f`z mai ja m mz ycmy cdadrx ycf `dxx4Ycf yrvyc jx va`fxx ycf yrmbfiz jx vavxvm``z cdrrjh dr cmx ofm``fa

xdnfdaf xd hfayrm` yd zdvr f|fay ycmy jy moxd`vyf`z hma‚y hdayjavf zdv j``



Rcfa Xdnfycjab Bdfx Rrdab’Mai Jy Rj`` p ?3=

wrdomo`z ifhjif yd bd da! Ldr daf ycjab j ycf wfrxda jx dr mx rfm``z h`dxf

yd ycf drbmajumyjda cf dr xcf dvì wrdomo`z may ycjx! #Ida‚y xmz ycjx

ycdvbc j zdv ida‚y ycjak jy‚x yrvf!* Ldr madycfr ycjab wfdw`f dyfa may yd

of ja hdnwmaz myfr m hmymxyrdwcjh f|fay mai wdfyrz jx vaj}vf`z xvjyfi ydcf`wjab wfdw`f wrdhfxx xyrdab cvnma fndyjda! Xdnfycjab `jkf m wdfyrz rfmi.

jab njbcy of wrfhjxf`z cmy zdvr hdnnvajyz rf}vjrfx!

Cdf|fr zdv ida‚y may yd nmkf ycjx ifhjxjda cmxyj`z dr mvydnmyjhm``z;

ymkf jayd mhhdvay ycf ff`jabx d f|frzdaf ja|d`|fi jah`vijab wdfyx wmryjh.

jwmayx hdaxyjyvfayx mvijfahf nfnofrx mai zdvr odmri mai xym! Rcfa ycf

jnnfijmyf irmnm jx d|fr hcfhk jyc zdvr wdfy dr wdfyx; j ycfz mrf bmnf yd

id xdnfycjab hjrhv`myf }vjfy`z mndab ycf mvijfahf mai wmryjhjwmayx! J

wfdw`f mrf xjnw`z ja ycf nddi yd `fm|f ycfz j`` ofbja yd id xd’mai ycfrfjx zdvr maxfr! Ovy j ycfz xffn yd may yd xymz ofcjai mai of ydbfycfr zdv

hma wrdhffi jyc zdvr f|fay ycdvbc bfay`z mai wrdomo`z ijfrfay`z ja m

mz ycmy mhkad`fibfx mai f|fa jahdrwdrmyfx cmy cmx cmwwfafi! J zdvr

f|fay jx m rfmijab zdvr wdfy j`` wrdomo`z bj|f m ijfrfay rfmijab ycma xcf

cmi drjbjam``z w`maafi! J jy‚x m drkxcdw xcf nmz xjyhc `fxxda w`max wfr.

cmwx drkjab fsw`jhjy`z jyc f`fbz dr hmymxyrdwcf!

J ycfrf‚x m `jyy`f yjnf ofyffa zdvr hdnnvajyz‚x yrmbfiz mai zdvr

f|fay zdv njbcy jahdrwdrmyf m rfmijab dr dycfr kjai d orjf hf`formyjda

jayd ycf f|fay ja cdadr d ycf wfrxda! J cf jx dr mx m wdfy cdxf drk

rfhfj|fi m dy d hrjyjhm` myyfayjda jy njbcy f|fa of mwwrdwrjmyf yd jahdrwd.

rmyf xdnf xdry d wmaf` modvy ycf drk! Ovy ida‚y of d|fr`z xf`.jaiv`bfay

mx ma drbmajumyjda! Of `d|jab ovy ijbajfi mai rfxyrmjafi!

Ljrf, Bmx @fmk, dr Xjnj`mr Wrdo`fn Ivrjab ycf F|fay

Ycjx jx xjnw`f ovy ady fmxz! J zdv fswfrjfahf m rf xnf`` bmx dr hcfn.jhm`x dr cm|f maz xjnj`mr kjai d wrdo`fn f|mhvmyf jnnfijmyf`z! Mbmja jy‚x

wrdomo`z m bddi jifm yd ifxjbamyf ja mi|mahf zdvr hm`nfxy odmri dr xym

nfnofr yd of ja hcmrbf d ycjx cj`f zdvr afsy hm`nfxy wfrxda hm``x ycf rf

ifwmrynfay dr fnfrbfahz xfr|jhfx! Ycf wdjay wfrxda xcdvì |frz hm`n`z

nmkf m bfafrm` maadvahfnfay modvy ycf wrdo`fn mai bj|f jaxyrvhyjdax

modvy cd yd wrdhffi! Zdvr xym mai odmri nfnofrx xcdvì ycfa hjrhv`myf

mndab zdvr wmryjhjwmayx nmkjab xvrf ycmy f|frzdaf jx cfmijab xyfmij`z mai

hm`n`z yd ycf fsjyx! Zdv mrf rfxwdaxjo`f dr nmkjab xvrf f|frzdaf bfyx dvymai dr hcfhkjab ycf rfxyrddnx mai dycfr mayfrddnx ofdrf zdv `fm|f

zdvrxf`!



?3? p yk5 O a x O

J ycf rf ifwmrynfay hdnfx ymkfx hmrf d ycf wrdo`fn mai h`fmrx ycf

|favf dr vxf zdv nmz wrdhffi jyc ycf f|fay j zdvr wdfy#x* mai wmryjhj.

wmayx mrf xyj`` j``jab!

_fxwdaxjoj`jy

Jy jx jnwdrymay yd rfnfnofr ycmy zdv mrf ja hcmrbf mai ycfrfdrf

rfxwdaxjo`f j xdnfycjab idfx bd mrz! Daf ycjab yd hdaxjifr5 j zdvr drbm.

ajumyjda cmx brda yd ycf wdjay ycmy jy cmx m nmedr ovibfy mai$dr j jy dfrx

nv`yjimz f|fayx fxwfhjm``z j ycfrf jx maz wrdbrmnnjab my m`` dr kjix vaifr

fjbcyffa zdvr odmri njbcy hdaxjifr bfyyjab ijrfhydr‚x jaxvrmahf! D hdvrxf

ycjx idfxa‚y do|jmyf ycf affi dr zdv yd ofcm|f jyc hmrf ovy jy nmz wrdyfhy

zdv mx jaij|jivm`x j xdnfycjab vadrfxffa bdfx rdab mai ycf drbmajum.yjda jx xvfi mx m rfxv`y!

F|frz hrjxjx wrd|jifx zdv jyc ma dwwdryvajyz yd rfnjai zdvrxf` d

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F`jumofyc M`fsmaif jx m wdfy fxxmzjxy w`mzrjbcy yfmhcfr mai hvr.

rfay hcmjr d ycf Mrjhma Mnfrjhma Xyvijfx Ifwmrynfay my Zm`f Vaj|frxjyz!

Xcf cmx xfr|fi da ycf mhv`yz mai mx m odmri nfnofr mai jx ad cdadrmrz

ijrfhydr d Hm|f Hmafn ma drbmajumyjda ifijhmyfi yd ycf if|f`dwnfay

mai faivrmahf d Mrjhma Mnfrjhma wdfyjh |djhfx! Cfr wdfyrz hd``fhyjda

Mnfrjhma Xvo`jnf mx m am`jxy dr ycf Wv`jyufr Wrjuf mai cfr xjsyc oddk

d wdfnx jx Hrm|f _mijmahf5 Af mai Xf`fhyfi Wdfnx =::7 ‘ ?7=7 ! M`fsmaifr

mx xf`fhyfi yd hdnwdxf mai rfmi m wdfn my ycf wrfxjifayjm` jamvbvrmyjda

d Omrmhk Domnm ja ?77:!

Xcfrja Ojyxvj jx ycf mvycdr d yd wdfyrz oddkx Xcmwfxcjy mai L`ddi

Xdab ! Cjx cdadrx jah`vif m Rcjyjab Rrjyfrx Mmri m ?7=7 WFA Dwfa

Oddk Mmri mai ma Mnfrjhma Oddk Mmri! Ojyxvj jx drjbjam``z rdn

Omm‚ddbffiî #Rcjyf Hdaf Mrjudam* da ycf Am|med Amyjda! Hvrrfay`z cf

`j|fx ja Yvhxda! Cf jx Ijaê d ycf Ydijhc‚îj‚ajj #Ojyyfr Rmyfr H`ma* odra

dr ycf Yŏ‚îuîŏíaî #Nmaz Bdmyx H`ma*!

@ff Ojhhfyyj jx m wdfy mai ycf fsfhvyj|f ijrfhydr d Wdfyx Cdvxf m

amyjdam` wdfyrz `jormrz mai `jyfrmrz hfayfr dr wdfyx mai ycf wvo`jh cjhc

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`jh ijm`dbvf da jxxvfx d wdfyrz ja hv`yvrf! Ycf mvycdr d Imz Nmrk xcf

cmx rfhfj|fi m Af Zdrk Ldvaimyjda dr ycf Mryx Mmri dr Wdfyrz mai

cmx offa m wdfyrz f``d my ycf Ljaf Mryx Rdrk Hfayfr ja Wrd|jahfyda!

M`jxda Cmrycdaf Ifnjab jx m wdfy fxxmzjxy mai wrdfxxdr ja hrf.

myj|f rjyjab my ycf Vaj|frxjyz d Mrjudam! Lrdn =::7 vayj` ?777 xcf

xfr|fi mx ijrfhydr d ycf Vaj|frxjyz d Mrjudam Wdfyrz Hfayfr ma jayfram.

yjdam``z rfadafi wdfyrz `jormrz cfrf xcf hdayjavfx yd xfr|f mx m nfn.

ofr d ycf If|f`dwnfay Odmri! Ja miijyjda yd cfr drkx d adahyjda mai

fxxmzx xcf jx ycf mvycdr d dvr hd``fhyjdax d wdfyrz jah`vijab Xhjfahf mai

Dycfr Wdfnx mai ndxy rfhfay`z _dwf!

Imam Bjdjm jx m wdfy hrjyjh mai hvrrfay ijrfhydr d ycf Mxwfa Jaxyj.

yvyf‚x Cmrnma.Fjxafr Wrdbrmn ja ycf Mryx! Vaifr cjx drnfr `fmifrxcjw

mx hcmjrnma ycf Amyjdam` Faidnfay dr ycf Mryx rfmhcfi nj``jdax d

Mnfrjhmax ycrdvbc brmayx mai mryx wrdbrmnx xvhc mx Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi m

wdfyrz rfhjymyjda hdayfxy dfrfi ja wmryafrxcjw jyc ycf Wdfyrz Ldvaim.

yjda ycmy cmx ja ycf wmxy |f zfmrx ja|d`|fi d|fr ycrff.}vmryfrx d m nj`.

`jda cjbc xhcdd` xyvifayx! Cjx ndxy rfhfay oddk d wdfnx Jayfrrdbmyjdax my

Adda da ycf Mnfrjhma Oddk Mmri! Cjx hrjyjhm` hd``fhyjda Hma Wdfyrz

Nmyyfr4 mx m am`jxy dr ycf Amyjdam` Oddk Hrjyjhx Hjrh`f mmri!

_dofy Cmxx xfr|fi mx wdfy `mvrfmyf d ycf Vajyfi Xymyfx rdn =::6 yd

=::2 mai mx mmrifi ycf ?772 Amyjdam` Oddk Mmri mai ycf ?773 Wv.

`jyufr Wrjuf dr Yjnf mai Nmyfrjm`x5 Wdfnx =::2 ‘ ?776 ! Ja miijyjda yd ofjab

m wrdfxxdr d Fab`jxc my ycf Vaj|frxjyz d Hm`jdrajm Ofrkf`fz cf jx ycf

hddvaifr d _j|fr d Rdrix ma drbmajumyjda ycmy hcmnwjdax fa|jrda.nfaym` mai mryx fivhmyjda cfrf cf hdayjavfx yd xfr|f mx m evibf mi|jxdr

mai hd.hcmjrnma d ycf odmri! Cjx ndxy rfhfay oddk jx Ycf Mww`f Yrffx my

D`fnm5 Af mai Xf`fhyfi Wdfnx!

Omx Krmknma jx ycf nmambjab ijrfhydr d Wdfyrz Jayframyjdam` _dy.

yfrimn #ycf Afycfr`maix* m `jyfrmrz drbmajumyjda drkjab yd wrdndyf

jayframyjdam` fshcmabf mndab wdfyx wdfyrz yrmax`mydrx wdfyrz hdaadjx.

xfvrx mai wdfyrz `d|frx! Wdfyrz Jayframyjdam`‚x wrdefhyx jah`vif jyx da`jafwdfyrz nmbmujaf !wdfyrzjayframyjdam`!drb cjhc cmx d|fr yfayz

jayframyjdam` wmryafrx mai ycf maavm` _dyyfrimn Wdfyrz Jayframyjdam`

Lfxyj|m`! Wrjdr yd edjajab Wdfyrz Jayframyjdam` Kmknma mx m dvaifr

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mai ma fijydr d Ydryvhm m nmbmujaf dr mry mai `jyfrmyvrf mai drkfi mx

ma jaifwfaifay |jxvm` mryjxy mai m wdfy!

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Yfhc wrdbrmn daf d ycf wrfnjfr xcdhmxfx d wdfyrz ja ycf Xdvycfmxy

mai xfr|fx mx ijrfhydr d ycf NhF|fr \jxjyjab Rrjyfrx wrdbrmn! Ycf mvycdr

d f`f|fa wdfyrz hd``fhyjdax ndxy rfhfay`z Bdi Wmryjh`fx mai m rfhjwjfay d

ycf Kjabx`fz Yvyx Wdfyrz Mmri cf jx m`xd da ycf NLM mhv`yjfx d Xmrmc

@mrfahf Hd``fbf mai Rmrrfa Rj`xda Hd``fbf!

Hcjxydwcf Nfj`` cmx wvo`jxcfi dvr hd``fhyjdax d wdfyrz jah`vi.jab Rmyhc Ljrf dr cjhc cf rfhfj|fi ycf Wfyfr J! O! @m|ma Zdvabfr Wdfyx

Mmri rdn ycf Mhmifnz d Mnfrjhma Wdfyx; yrmax`myjdax d M`fŭ Ifof`.

emk‚x Masjdvx Ndnfayx mai Ycf Hjyz mai ycf Hcjì ; xf|frm` fijyfi |d`vnfx;

mai dvr oddkx d adahyjda! Cjx drk cmx offa yrmax`myfi jayd yfayz.

|f `mabvmbfx cjx edvram`jxn mwwfmrx jif`z mai dr yfa zfmrx cf mx

ycf oddk hrjyjh dr ycf imj`z rmijd afx wrdbrmn Ycf Rdrì ! Cf cmx cfì

ycf Rj``jmn C! Efakx Hcmjr ja Hdayfnwdrmrz @fyyfrx my ycf Hd``fbf d

ycf Cd`z Hrdxx mai ad ijrfhyx ycf Jayframyjdam` Rrjyjab Wrdbrmn my ycf

Vaj|frxjyz d Jdm!

@vjx _dijbvfu jx m wdfy edvram`jxy hyjda rjyfr hcjìrfa‚x oddk mv.

ycdr hrjyjh mai mvycdr d ycf nfndjr M`mzx _vaajab5 @m \jim @dhm Bmab

Imzx ja @!M! Cf cmx dvaifi dr hddvaifi avnfrdvx hdnnvajyz drbm.

ajumyjdax jah`vijab Hcjhmbd‚x Bvjì Hdnw`fs Zdvyc Xyrvbb`jab dr Xvr.

|j|m` Yjm Hcvhcm Wrfxx mai Yjm Hcvhcm‚x Hfayrd Hv`yvrm` , Oddkxydrfcjhc wrd|jifx m oddkxydrf wfrdrnmahf xwmhf mai drkxcdw hfayfr dr

jyx jaafr hjyz afjbcodrcddi mai xwdaxdrx Hf`formyjab Rdrix5 Rrjyyfa

Wfrdrnfi , Xvab m `jyfrmhz mai wfrdrnjab mryx fxyj|m`!

Maam Ifm|ff Xnjyc jx ma mhyrfxx w`mzrjbcy mvycdr mai wrdfxxdr

my Af Zdrk Vaj|frxjyz! Cfr drk fsw`drjab Mnfrjhma hcmrmhyfr mai

amyjdam` jifayjyz cmx fmrafi cfr nmaz mmrix jah`vijab m NmhMrycvr

Lf``dxcjw yd Dojf Mmrix mai yd Ydaz adnjamyjdax! Cfr w`mz Ljrfxja ycf Njrrdr mx m am`jxy dr ycf Wv`jyufr Wrjuf! Xcf jx dvaijab ijrfhydr

d Maam Ifm|frf Xnjyc Rdrkx Jah! m hfayfr ycmy hda|fafx mryjxyx cdxf

drk miirfxxfx ycf drì‚x ndxy wrfxxjab wrdo`fnx!

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Wmyjhjm Xnjyc jx ma mvycdr wfrdrnfr w`mzrjbcy yfmhcfr mai dvr.

yjnf Amyjdam` Wdfyrz X`mn hcmnwjda ycf ndxy xvhhfxxv` hdnwfyjydr ja

x`mn cjxydrz! Cfr yc oddk d wdfyrz O`ddi Imuu`fr mx m am`jxy dr ycf

?773 Amyjdam` Oddk Mmri! Ja miijyjda yd ofjab wvo`jxcfi ja avnfrdvx edvram`x mai maycd`dbjfx cfr drk hma of dvai ja xymbf wrdivhyjdax da

HI ja ma mmri.jaajab xcdry `n mai ja COD‚x If Wdfyrz Emn! Xcf jx

m wrdfxxdr d hrfmyj|f rjyjab my ycf Hjyz Vaj|frxjyz d Af Zdrk$Hd`.

`fbf d Xymyfa Jx`mai mai m mhv`yz nfnofr my odyc Hm|f Hmafn mai ycf

Xydafhdmxy NLM Wrdbrmn my ycf Vaj|frxjyz d Xdvycfra Nmjaf!

YDD@KJY HD@@MOD_MYD_XXvxma Odxkdll jx fsfhvyj|f ijrfhydr d ycf Af|mim Mryx Hdvahj` m ij|j.

xjda d ycf Ifwmrynfay d Hv`yvrm` Mmjrx! Ja wmryafrxcjw jyc mryx drbm.

ajumyjdax xhcdd`x mai hdnnvajyjfx ycf Mryx Hdvahj` mhyj|f`z drkx yd

orjab mryjxyx m ij|frxjyz d mry drnx mai mvijfahfx ydbfycfr ja Af|mim‚x

nfyrdwd`jyma hfayfrx mai jxd`myfi rvrm` ydax! Jyx wvo`jh wrdbrmnx jah`vif

ycf Af|mim Hjrhvjy _jifrx Af|mim Ld`k`jf Mrhcj|fx mai ycf Af|mim

Ydvrjab Jajyjmyj|f cjhc jah`vifx ycf Yvno`fdrix @jyfrmrz Wrdbrmn!

Ycf Hdvahj` m`xd wmryafrx jyc ycf Amyjdam` Faidnfay dr ycf Mryx

mai ycf Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda da ycf maavm` Wdfyrz Dvy @dvi rfhjymyjda

hdnwfyjyjda!

Kmycmjaf Hd`fx jx ycf jamvbvrm` ijrfhydr d ycf Cmrrjfy Ndardf Wd.

fyrz Jaxyjyvyf my ycf Wdfyrz Ldvaimyjda! Cfr ndxy rfhfay hd``fhyjda d

wdfnx Lmv`y hmnf dvy ja ?773; xcf cmx m`xd wvo`jxcfi ad|f`x mai fxxmzx

mai cmx hd``modrmyfi jyc |mrjdvx |jxvm` mryjxyx da wrdefhyx rfxv`yjab jaodyc yfnwdrmrz mai wfrnmafay jaxym``myjdax! Xcf jx m wrdfxxdr my ycf Vaj.

|frxjyz d Vymc cfrf xcf dvaifi mai hd.ijrfhyx ycf Vymc Xznwdxjvn

ja Xhjfahf mai @jyfrmyvrf! Ja ?77< xcf mx amnfi yd m |f.zfmr yfrn mx

wdfy `mvrfmyf d Vymc!

Yff Xrfaxda jx ycf fsfhvyj|f ijrfhydr d ycf Mhmifnz d Mnfrjhma

Wdfyx m adawrdy drbmajumyjda ifijhmyfi yd xvwwdryjab Mnfrjhma wdfyx

mai dxyfrjab mwwrfhjmyjda d hdayfnwdrmrz wdfyrz ycrdvbc wrdbrmnxxvhc mx Wdfyx!drb Amyjdam` Wdfyrz Ndayc ycf Wdfyrz Mvijd Mrhcj|f mai

ycf `jyfrmrz edvram` Mnfrjhma Wdfy mx f`` mx ycrdvbc jyx avnfrdvx mmrix

mai wrjufx dr wdfyx! Wrjdr yd edjajab ycf Mhmifnz Xfaxda xfr|fi mx



Ho p ?::

ijrfhydr d wrdbrmnx dr ycf Nmxxmhcvxfyyx Hv`yvrm` Hdvahj` mai mx ycf

hddvaifr wvo`jxcfr mai fsfhvyj|f ijrfhydr d Hdwwfr Hmazda Wrfxx!

D`maid Rcjyf jx rdn Yø`jkma Mrjudam! Cf jx Ijaê d ycf Amm.affxcy‚êucj Yíommcî mai odra dr ycf Ammkmj Ijaê‚f! Cf cdìx m OLM rdn

ycf Jaxyjyvyf d Mnfrjhma Jaijma Mryx mai ma NLM rdn Orda Vaj|fr.

xjyz! Rcjyf jx ycf mvycdr d Odaf @jbcy mai cf yfmhcfx my Ijaê Hd``fbf mai

`j|fx ja Yxmj`f Mrjudam!

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Blueprints: Bringing Poetry Into Communities