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Baby Buddhas
You don't have to believe for it to work.
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I arrived in China in August, 2008, with $43 and a maxed-out Visa
card. I near! ost that at a securit! chec" #oint in os Angees. %ood thing I needed
a &eer. I went into a &ar near m! gate with one other #erson in it. A good-oo"ing
&onde, a&out m! son's age, named (cott. I had &een tod another new teacher woud
&e on m! )ight, and as"ed him i) he was going to China* +e was. e oo"ed at ourtic"ets "arma had #ut us in the same row on the 4-hour )ight to /eiing.
I ordered a &eer and reached in m! #oc"et I had e)t m! waet at
securit!.
Shit.
I as"ed (cott to watch m! carr!-on &ag, and dashed &ac" to the securit!
area. 1he! saw me coming. I s#ied m! &eat u# #oc"et-waet on to# o) the x-ra!
machine, right next to m! one ounce trave /uddha, "e#t in m! other #oc"et when I
)!. American 1(A securit! o))icers o)ten comment on it &ecause it gides &! their
screens. I awa!s made sure it was in an u#right #osition going through, the &rone in
its &od! setting o)) aarms that were scrutinied, and ignored when the sha#e is
examined.
h, a itte /uddha.5
Isam )or&ids idoatr!, so whatever I am on a securit! eve, I am not a
terrorist. 1errorists don't )! with /uddhas in their #oc"ets.
I have since accidenta! e)t that itte /uddha at )riend's house in
Amsterdam. I had #ut it on her +indu-st!e ater )or sa)e "ee#ing, and )orgot it in the
rush to catch m! #ane. 6arma sa!s it was su##osed to sta! at her house, that's wh! I
)orgot it there. (houd ever I need it, it wi )ind its wa! &ac" to me.
Buddha statues come and go, like flowers in the spring. I can only enjoythem for a very short while.
I am )orever osing and )inding them again. I've whitted m! i)e down
to two suit cases, a ma"e-u# &ag, a com#uter and a )ew /uddhas, and I can get m!se)
an!where, and I mean an!where. 1he! are m! #rotection, something o) great vaue on
the road, trust me.
7aised in an Irish Cathoic &rood, I must ma"e a con)ession here. I
con)ess I am not a ver! good /uddhist. In )act, I'm a rather /ad /uddhist, &ut I tr!
which is a /uddhism as"s o) us. It is the most reasona&e5 o) a the reigions I've
examined and #ractice in one )orm or another. /uddhism as"s us to awa!s continue a
uest )or higher earning, and to #ass that earning on in some )orm. It is interesting,
as writers, coective! we examine5 others' )aith, and write a&out it, !et &eieve5 in
our own &ecause we "now it &etter, we've "nown ours onger, and ongevit! #us
strings. hat !ou &eieve de#ends on the uestions !ou as" !ourse). (ome &eie)
s!stems are &etter at answering uestions than others.
hie &oth m! #arents were Irish, m! mother was 9rotestant, m! )ather
Cathoic. 1hat mix #roduces /uddhists or anarchists. I strive )or the )ormer, &ut "ee#
the atter in reserve.
I &ought that itte trave /uddha at the /aita (i, the hite 9agoda
1em#e, m! )irst ast da! in /eiing, in cto&er o) 2004. :! then new )riend,6atheen, had ta"en me as I coud not eave without seeing it. :! )ew months there
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were a )urr! o) Chinese disorganiation, and I saw near! nothing outside /eiing.
;ven in /eiing, I had on! &een to the (ummer 9aace, and the ama 1em#e. I never
saw the %reat a on m! )irst tri#.
I read a&out the /aita (i, oo"ing at #hotos o) the strange white stu#a and
"new I had to go there, even i) it meant ri##ing the #age out o) the guide &oo" toshow the taxi driver. I coud not s#ea" &e!ond three words in Chinese. 7i##ing the
#age out woud have wor"ed, &ut was not necessar!, as 6atheen agreed to &e m!
guide. 1his is necessar! &ecause there are two white stu#as in /eiing. I wanted the
/aita (i, not the other hite 9agoda 1em#e in /ai +ai 9ar".
I had aread! &een to the one in /ai +ai 9ar" the month &e)ore with
students on a schoo outing. /ut that isn't the s#ecia one. /aita (i is, )or man!
reasons. It &eing the odest standing &uiding in /eiing is ust one. I have awa!s )et
drawn to the #ace, i"e )oowing a string I coud )ee &ut not see.
vera, it had not &een a success)u tri#, and I was eaving China the
next da! in tears, )eeing an a&soute #enniess )aiure. I had $00 when I e)t China
then. I cried the entire wa! home with m! one and on! tissue, sitting &etween two
un)ortunate &usinessmen who, at the end o) that ong ourne!, one #atted m! hand and
said, 1here, there.5
(uare one, ste# one.
In the gi)t sho# I had seen the sma itte 0 rm& /uddhas, and hed u#
)our )ingers, indicating I wanted to &u! )our. 1he woman &ehind the counter thought
I was tr!ing to &argain. 6atheen, )uent in :andarin, aughed and said, (he thin"s
!ou on! want to #a! 4 rm&.5 9utting 40 rm& on the counter, the woman set )our
identica itte /uddhas in )ront o) me, and I immediate! gave 6at one, sa!ing>8, having
studied at the /eiing anguage and Cuture =niversit! ?/C=@ com#eting a one-
!ear anguage course, )oowed &! a !ear at the /eiing /roadcasting =niversit!. +er
degree is )rom /egium in (inoog! ?Chinese (tudies@. (he tod me she earnedChinese &! )oregoing her Chinese cass in )avor o) sitting next to an od woman, a
true /eiinger, who sod )owers outside the gate o) /C=. 1he od woman taught
her as much a&out Chinese cuture as she did voca&uar!. 6atheen is )uent in utch,
Brench, ;ngish and :andarin. +er Chinese is o)ten commented on as #er)ect5 &!
ocas es#ecia! taxi drivers who ove her ong, cur! hair, and tr!, unsuccess)u!, to
)irt with her.
:! schoo gave a new teachers a oan when we arrive, as Chinese
andords insist on rent #aid uarter!, #us a one month de#osit. I remain grate)u )or
that sma courtes!. 1he! too" it out o) m! saar! in instaments over )our months. I
had a &eauti)u, &ut sma, &rand new a#artment, and 6at came over with a wecome
&ox o) "itchen things and 2000 rm& in an enveo#e. (he "new I was &ro"e and
woudn't &e #aid )or a&out )our wee"s. (he too" me to China :o&ie where she
#ic"ed out a 300 rm& ?$0@ Do"ia ce #hone, #utting 0 rm& in credit on
it. henever I ran into anguage #ro&ems, I coud ca 6at on the #hone and hand
the #hone over to whoever I was tr!ing to communicate with, a taxi driver, the
&an. (he then too" me across the street to the /an" o) /eiing that has a machine
where !ou can oad mone! onto #re#aid gas and eectric cards. (he #ut 0 rm& on m!
gas card so I had hot water.
I woud not &e a&e to re#a! her unti the )oowing )rigid Be&ruar!,during Chinese Dew Eear, when #a!ing o)) de&ts is a custom &e)ore entering the Dew
Eear, the! ear o) the x. I #ut 24 red 00 rm& notes into a traditiona red enveo#e,
and too" it over to her warm a#artment on the 2>th)oor with a doen red roses. (he
i"ed the roses &est.
ver numerous unches, dinners, grocer! sho#s and other outings, I came
to "now how much m! )riend wanted to &e a mother &ut a)ter tr!ing )or severa
!ears, and numerous medica interventions, her greatest desire euded her. (he
vounteered )or man! !ears with :orning 1ears,5 a /egium-&ased charit! that
&uids or#hanages in the south o) China )or chidren whose #arents have &een
executed. 1hese chidren are outcasts, seen as unuc"!5 in Chinese cuture. hat
can a )riend do* I, who had ust &ecome a grandmother, coud on! isten with a
warm o#en heart.
An American )riend, Am!, emaied that she needed a hite 1ara5 statue.
1he %reen and hite 1aras are considered the mothers o) a /uddhas,5 and were
consorts o) Chenresing5 the great /uddha o) com#assion, &orn )rom his tears over
the su))ering o) humans. ;ven toda!, the! are revered in China, 1i&et, De#a and
:ongoia. 1he hite 1ara stands )or #eace and com#assion, and the %reen 1ara
stands )or action and ethica iving. Eou can te them a#art &ecause the hite 1ara
has her egs crossed, and the %reen 1ara has one )oot out-stretched on a otus )ower,read! )or action.
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hite 1ara
Am! had &ecome disa&ed )rom a series o) medica #ro&ems, and coud
no onger teach I ha##i! set out to )ind her one. ) course 6at had to come with me,
we ove going to the ama 1em#e, and went one warm (unda! in cto&er. e were
in and out o) severa souvenir sho#s around the tem#e &e)ore we )ound one who
"new the di))erence &etween a hite 1ara and a the others in the #antheon o)
&odhisattvas ?saints@. Birst o) a, the %reen and hite 1aras are )emae &odhisattvas,
so the statute must have &reasts, and I roed m! e!es at more than one sho# "ee#er
tr!ing to se me a &o! /uddha. I aso &ought three sets o) 1i&etan #ra!er )ags. Am!
was aso oo"ing at )orecosure on her house, and I thought the )ags might he#, too.
6at negotiated the #rice, and I got &oth hite and %reen 1aras )or 200
rm& ?$30@. 1his was in m! )irst )ew months, and I was sti #rett! &ro"e. hen I
too" the hite 1ara to the #ost o))ice I )ound out it was going to cost me 30 rm&
?$0@ to air mai it ?it weighed a&out 8 ounces@, and it was too sma to &e shi##ed
sur)ace. I was warned it woud get ost in a hoe in the shi#.5 I coudn't a))ord $0,
or consigning it to a )ate in the &ottom o) a Chinese cargo shi#, so I sent the #ra!er
)ags with a #romise to deiver the hite 1ara on m! next tri# home. /ecause I coudnot mai it, and woud not &e going home )or severa months, the hite and %reen
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1ara on! ived at m! house )or months &e)ore I decided to give them &oth to 6at, to
#ut on the nightstands on &oth sides o) her &ed. As the mother o) a /uddhas, it was
m! ho#e the! woud he# her get #regnant. I tod her