Dear Adventure Ocean family,

I had planned to offer a version of these remarks to you at dinner tonight, but unexpected circumstances have intervened. I am so disappointed that I cannot express myself to you in person and look you all in the eye as I say this.

I sincerely apologize for any stress, heartache, or pain I have caused you while I have been a member of this team. I never meant anyone any ill will, and I would have done anything in my power to help out members of this team if they needed it – even the ones who probably thought we were on the outs. I don't harbor any resentment. I have only positive wishes for you all – each and every one of you.

It is true that I have often felt very hurt and abused by the way some people have acted towards me. In my hurt, I have expressed myself inappropriately and caused more hurt in return, and for that I am deeply sorry. I wish I had been able to resolve this pain in a more loving manner. I think perhaps we became stuck in a vicious cycle and nothing I could do or say anymore would make things better. Negative feelings and actions seem to only bring about more negative feelings and more negative actions.

I am sorry I will not be around to have the chance to break that cycle.

Please remember, you are a family. Take care of one another. Treat each other with love. Be patient with each other. And make sacrifices for each other. No one else is in a better position to make the person next to you feel loved and appreciated than you. Even if that person has never done anything to deserve you to make sacrifices for them. Even if that person has wronged or offended you, please repay evil and insult with kindness. And positive actions will bring about positive feelings and positive actions and you will all be better off for it. Be a blessing to one another and you will be blessed.

Obviously, I have failed to be a blessing to you. And I am so very sorry. Please forgive me.

Z