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part of The Facing Project + the Louis E. Ingelhart Scholars program (Ball State University Department of Journalism) — debuted April 2015 — contact Dr. Adam J. Kuban (@AdamJKuban)
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Facing Depression in East Central Indiana
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table of contentsour supporters.......................................................................................................................................................4
about depression + quick facts..........................................................................................................................5-6
“tough talk”
Lauren Chapman’s story as told to Sophie Gordon...........................................................................................7
“my brother’s story”
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¹��� ���UQTM[�\W�IV�IV[_MZºEthan Johnson’s story as told to Nathan DeYoung.....................................................................................13
“not my mother”
an anonymous story as told to Kaitlin Lange..................................................................................................15
“carli’s story”
Carli Hendershot’s story as told to Alan Hovorka...........................................................................................17
“it’s on me”
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“liturgy”
an anoymous poem as told to Heather Williams..............................................................................................20
¹1�PI^M�LMXZM[[QWV��?Pa�LWM[�Q\�UI\\MZ'ºCassie Grosh’s story as told to Vicki Forcina...................................................................................................25
“it’s not my fault my brain is broken”
Kiah Beeman’s story as told to Chris Bavender..............................................................................................27
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“lending hope”
Amber Bloom’s story as told to Beth Messner.................................................................................................31
“soldiering on”
Becky McDonald’s story as told to Adam Kuban............................................................................................33
“three happy things”
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our supportersFacing Depression in East Central Indiana extends its gratitude to our supporters from both Ball State University as well as the surrounding community. These supporters have furnished storytellers, professional resources, writers, and more. Thank you for your support.
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what is depression?
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he conversation always seems to start out the same way.
Him: “I think I have a problem.”
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Me: “You know. It sounds like what you have is depression. This is
exactly the way my mom has described this before. And it’s okay. There’s
nothing wrong with it. But you need to get help. What you go through on
the everyday basis is not abnormal, but you need help. You can’t just do
this by yourself. You can’t just suck it up and deal with it. You can’t just
rub dirt on it. You have to confront it.”
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Nathan DeYoung is a freshman at Ball State University. His majors are
telecommunications-news and meteorology. He enjoys working with
the community during his spare time, and he looks forward to giving
even more back one day as a broadcast meteorologist.
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Ethan Johnson’s story
“I explicitly recall the moment when I asked my roommate to take me to the E.R. because the situation I was experiencing was beyond me, like a numbness. When I arrived, I was able to check in, but not able to receive care because I was not, at that point, contemplating suicide. I remember leaving the hospital and thinking, “What do I do now?”
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Alan Hovorka is a sophomore journalism major at Ball State University.
He covers University Administration and works on audience engagement
and social media for The Ball State Daily News. Alan is grateful to tell other
people’s stories, especially this one.
carli’s storyCarli Hendershot’s story
“I wasn’t conscious of what I doing in the moment. I just wanted it to be over.”
Carli Hendershot
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Chris Bavender has more than 20 years experience as a print and
broadcast journalist and is a freelance writer for several regional publica-
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and Ball State University alumna.
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